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#dragon age#dragon age 2#da2#merrill#literally how could i forget the cure to artblock was her#its always been her......
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at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"
like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.
"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."
... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.
and i'd still keep writing.
i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.
i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley
"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"
and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.
it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.
you create because you're greedy.
#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME#there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing#and the writing is what i need to be doing#writeblr#this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to#edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol#i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!!#my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means#i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her)#hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong#i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet.#i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse#i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!!#i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO#i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness#and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it#im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us#i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer#and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art.#i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work#even if it means being miserable#but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.
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learned something about myself lately
#i dont think its even the fact almost all my characters are somewhat beasts in one way or another. i just#really like tails and wish i had one myself#and then my oc designs are a little tame theyre mostly human shaped with animal features. but they always have tails#my eyes have recently been opened to the appeal of long whiplike unicorn tails.. so flowy and curly#something about the tuft at the end being long and swirly just does something for me..#maybe it would make sense to change auggies tail shape so it looks like a meteor. her design is mainly pink with hot pink accent#so it would be cool to use that and orange to make it look like a fire meteor.. maybe itll help complement the blue/green in her design#head full of ocs today so expect a ramble later#if i had a tail i think it would be long with a kink. so it kind of folds over once but not in a curl#when it wags its kind of a swaying motion. i have thought about this a normal amount#yapping
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What does Tom think of Emilie after meeting her?
the only Agreste he's not massively disappointed with is Adrien himself. It's a good thing that's the only one he plans on sparing.
#my art#long post#dad villain au#emelie agreste#tom dupain cheng#gabriel agreste#nathalie sancoeur#gabriel has memories of being in an almost relationship with nath from the last timeline so he's still weirdly possessive of her#and emelie knows nathalie has a crush on her and has been using that to string her along so she always has an emotional crutch nearby#she does a similar thing to adrien but only because she's built him for it#its different with nath tho. they have history and she likes the rush of superiority she gets#also nath doesn't know that tom is viceroy. she just knows that tom can interpret the butterflies on 'viceroy's' behalf
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sorry for making them so miserable lately.... here i can still be nice to them see!!??!!!
big fan of the seamstress ragatha headcanon so here's some buttonblossom with it <3
#i love the hc that pomni has no clue how to dress so its like comfy solid color tshirts and hoodies#and ragatha let her pick but if she had her way pomni would've been dolled up like crazy... oh well... there's always next time#(very unsubtly setting myself up for a pomni in cute clothes post)#buttonblossom#the amazing digital circus#tadc#pomni x ragatha#ragapom#pomni#ragatha#my art
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on the run!! (ID in alt)
#trigun#trigun maximum#vash the stampede#meryl stryfe#milly thompson#nicholas d wolfwood#love & peace crew my beloved. its been awhile since i last finished a piece for all 4 of them which is Blasphemy on my part#anyway i just wanted to make an action ish illustration for them ... but my end goal was to be able to piece them off in duos#i like seeing them next to each other in those ways!! though vash's expression is a bit funny bc he's always going to be like >:O#i hope something can be gleamed from the way theyre all positioned though. i mean some things are blatant like how milly is all :D#certainly in tune to the danger and not Oblivious but still headstrong and capable of pushing thru alongside her friends!!#and mermilly are both looking forward.. onward to the future.... vw are both looking back... ww's in the back and trying to deflect#bullets with his punisher#“paws is it really this serious” No... IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE but i like to think about it#ruporas art
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havent drawn all of them in a WHILE ✸
#critical role#bells hells#critrole#ashton greymoore#orym of the air ashari#imogen temult#chetney pock o'pea#fearne calloway#laudna#fresh cut grass#bell's hells#art#my art#almost gave up on this so many times#but that chet wolf and side profile ashton were just too good to give up on#and as always fearne looks so good#really proud of the imogen here too i think she looks so cute#i had to redraw her so many times im so bad at drawing her :[#ANYWAY HI I FINALLY MAKE ART AND POST IT#been having the worst art block ever :(#its made me so depressed and then i got even more depressed cuz i wasnt being productive but i couldnt do anything cuz i was depressed#:((( why does my hobby make me sad and want to quit#um anyways did you guys watch that new dungmeshi episode#the tonal whiplash was fucking crazy i loved it
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when u point out Dany having the power of god x3 to destroy any city she doesn't like might be a bad thing and probably won't be rewarded by the narrative
targies: noooo it will be fine because Dany would NEVER do that she's just too fundamentally GOOD to ever be corrupted by unlimited power 🙃 source: trust me bro
apparently the theme of asoiaf is absolute power is good, actually, we just need to make sure the *right* people have it 😇
#if y'all don't think its sus that every enemy Dany has faced has been so cartoonishly evil that we as the audience have 0 objections#to her using any means necessary to defeat them#meanwhile Westeros barely survived one Dance and the narrative is woven with tales of how destructive and dangerous dragons are#and some fans are still in denial thinking grrm just... won't do anything with the 3 nuke sized Checkov's guns#I've always thought the only way Dany is escaping the villain destiny is by willingly giving up her dragons... which she would NEVER do#anti daenerys#anti targ stans#asoiaf
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CHAPPELL ROAN THE LATE SHOW [2.15.24]
#chappell roan#chappell roan edit#chappell roan gifs#red wine supernova#the rise and fall of a midwest princess#the late show#the late show with stephen colbert#sam edits#LOOK AT HER GOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!#she always brings her all to everything like. GOD. this really is how she sounds live!!! she's just THAT good!!!!!!!#my mind has been reeling since winning tickets & seeing her in october literally life changing#its so cool getting to see her do stuff like this now :') my pink pony girl has come so faaaaar
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to the holes in my butterfly wings
#im a coward bc i couldnt see it unfold in real time :) once i saw the press release 40 mins before it went live i logged out of everything#its really hard to articulate how any of this feels because 15 year old kate lives in 22 year old kate's body#and shes been attached to that lovely fucking idiot for all her formative years#its like a part of my childhood just faded away overnight; just out of reach#its like when Roger Federer left they just dont tell you how devastating sports can be#the anger will come and it will be of the biblical variety#but for now im scared 22 yr old Kate and 15 yr old Kate cant console eachother#anyway i made this on the roadtrip back home. he means so much to me. always always. always.#f1#daniel ricciardo
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#ive been in agony from my period all day today so my chosen projection victim this time gets to be zuko instead of jin for once#jin is my usual victim.#also i think its good that zuko was banished when azula was too young to get hers and that he didnt stay long in the fn before joining aang#because i personally think that if they synced up they wouldve actually killed each other#none of the zuko and kataras i draw are shippy because im a diehard kataang but feel free to see this as however u want cus irdgaf#katara#zuko#trans zuko#or genderbent zuko even. because you guys know my girl zuko is butch so id just draw her the same as i always draw zuko hahahaha#atla#avatar the last airbender
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Vedic astrology
D9 is so accurate, like I said before, I do paid readings in real life (Tumblr is also real life, but you know what I mean right?) and I was reading this woman's chart and she had a lot placements in her d9 that indicated that her husband would be a huge gossiper and she got married a week ago and today I met her husband and this man knows EVERYTHING about EVERYONE, he's also really sweet, it's so nice to see.
I wanna make Vedic astrology content, but I have noticed that it does not get as much attention as Western and Its kinda sad. if you want to see the level of compatibility between 2 people,then Synastry and composite is the most accurate. but if you wanna know how your spouse is gonna be like then d9 for the win. I had a lot of faith in juno and groom persona charts but....I just don't find it accurate. I'm sorry. I know A LOT of people and it has never managed to correctly predict their spouse's nature or appearance, for 2-3 people it was kind of accurate but I think it's just a coincidence. And I tried using Jupiter persona chart as well, but that too didn't work.
If you are into astrology and want to know more about your future spouse, I would highly recommend you to take a look at your d9. According to ME, it has never been wrong, like not even once.
I was actually just looking at Beyonce's d9 and everything fits like a puzzle. she has venus in 1st, born to be a star, gaining success through marriage, sun in 2nd, getting a lot of money through spouse, mercury in 8th, joint accounts with the spouse, marriage of conveniencence (let's not act like beyonce and jay-z actually love each other), saturn in 10th, VERY VERY AMBITIOUS, Jupiter in 11th, a lot of social influence through marriage....
#astrology#vedic astrology#astroblr#I really wanna analyze sridevi's d9 next#Apparently her husband killed her (everyone knows its true) boney kapoor has always been an asshole#astrology content#astrology community
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when your main characters start dating after years of writing so they finally get to be like this
#rare WIP preview from me#this is in like. 10 episodes. lmfao#its been really hard working this far ahead#my editor isnt giving me any feedback and my friends are very busy so it's felt quite lonely#which is fine! for my friends I mean. but its my editors job to give me feedback...#but the webtoon editors are extremely extremely extremely overworked and my series is set to end so I understand its low priority#its not her fault its webtoons fault. however. its still demotivating...#oh well l m a o#I should be much further ahead ngl LMFAO I want like 12 done but I come back in 2 weeks.#we'll see#when I get really stressed out I go full gamer mode#and usually I'll sink like 60 hours (like 5 days) into a game and then I'm good and move on#but this recent game that grabbed me is. its too much actually#bit uncontrollable ngl I think its an ADHD thing I mostly have just quit playing videogames at all#cause its like yeah being stressed cause theres too much work to do is not going to be helped by losing a week and a half to a game...#and yet.#anyways the game is satisfactory#my friend bought it for me and we've been playing together#and our shared file has. 100 hours on it. and we still havent beaten the game#we're close to beating it and it's not like we're rushing or anything#cause its fun to fuck around and zap eachother or whatever#but it's got me doing math. the exact kind of math I love to do. optimization#and its reminding me yeah in another life id have been an engineer#I'm glad I'm an artist but its always weird like yeah this is easily a path I could have gone down#'artists hate math' speak for yourself doing math calms me down! I love math!#I love math and I love business. I'm almost the perfect artist but I hate advertising so. we can't have it all#anyways theyre so fucking cute its sickening. I love them so much. I could cry#WIP#lineart#time and time again
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An Well Made Excuse To Post My Specific Headcanons I've Had Since The Show Came Out
#bro fought his way thru those two only to burn the house down#anyway kdsjfsdf#that doodle and that comic werent actually made for eachother#i just wanted an excuse to post my oddly specific sleep headcanon lol#I like to think Uzi is so restless because shes always thinkin abt smth (whether that be stressful or not)#N sleeps like a rock and usually doesn't move; if its just him and Uzi he'll usually curl around her so she can't fall off the bed#V's had the habit since she was a worker#Tessa would always make excuses to have sleepovers w/ her fave drones#and it was usually J's problem of being cuddled to death by a sleeping V#nowadays the only way V gets peaceful sleep is the reassurance that Uzi or N are still there#hence the N dog plush in the comic dsklfjsldkfj#I have more headcanons of this variety (like for J) but i'll stop here#thanks for reading again! you guys really like to point out my tags and it makes me giggle everytime#anyway BYE :]#murder drones#serial designation n#serial designation v#uzi doorman#envuzi#enzi#violentbiscuitbites#< i seriously love that shipname btw. I love MD ship names#i love having been here so long I could tell you who made the og names everyone built off of. I think fandom is good sometimes (sometimes)
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[Outtake from iterator Prosperity of Populace final speach to her citizen before its disassembly.]
#pov im throwing my fridged woman into the shark pit hoping shel float#rain world#rain world oc#augh tagging#anyhow im testing the water with posting ocs (very scary) with the second half of my itetor duo that live in my brain#so yeah this is pop she is sooooooo wordy and also getting dead and has been for awhile but its just a silly little guy you knwo#the fun thin about fandom ocs is that you get to play with comepelty different parts of the game world fro fun and profit :thumbsup:#ahem uh as always feel free to ask about my stuff there is only a 40% chance i will be so scared to post asks that it will die in limbo for#ever. but maybe youl get lucky!!!!#hmmmm maybe il post the version without the chat bubbles if im feeling brave also...... i probably wont tho huh#anyhow!#we are listning to crack baby by mitksi it is stuck in my head#my art#also maaaannn you wont belive how many versions of her text i went tough till i settled on this augh rainworld why you so wordy
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"Lala, are you crying?" (D.Gray-Man chapter 13 redraw)
#d gray man#dgm#fanart#art#digital art#illustration#lala#still one of my favorite arcs in dgm it always makes me break down and cryyyyyyyyyyyyyy#been wanting to draw more minor characters that are often forgotten and lala felt like the best first choice#her and guzols story is simple but so so tragic and heartbreaking </3 so genuine and a true act of love#storywise its the arc that becomes the first true foundation to everything dgm is today#DO NOT PLAY LALAS LULLABY I WILLLL CRYYYY
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