#its a canonization 😔✊

[ikuhara]

you're making me contemplate if I should get into Monogatari cause I like the art how dare you

PLEASEEEEE!!!!! YESSSS!!!!! THIS IS WHAT I WANT FOR EVERYONE ON EARTH!!!!

but actually this is like my DREAM of people (especially blogs im a big fan of!) trying out Monogatari because my posts 😭🙏 I'm biased so of course I'm going to say it's worth it! But even if just for the anime's art direction I think it really is special. Though it's For sure a series where I think the cast and character writing really shines as well.

[spoopy-moose]

Greg girls have suffered more than jesus

[14dayswithyou]

Olivia fell asleep in one of the aisles again...

Hello im here to push my REDACTED x River agenda✊

No seriously the brainrot is REAL i need more of them together...that dynamic is immaculate (Rivren winning against Rengel canon?!?!?)

The good ending of 14dwy should be ren getting in an unhinged yandere relationship with river fr😔

P.S i loooove the game and the way you write and your art and characters nnnnggg im just so invested i cant wait to see more!! Honestly its amazing that you're working on it by yourself you're so talented!! Im salivating at the mouth for the next update frfr (no pressure tho take all the time you need to rest!!! Greatness takes time🫡)

⌞♥⌝ JKSDJGKDS Canonically, it'd be the Doomed Toxic Yaoi™ trope because Ren would gladly kill River in a heartbeat just to be with Angel T_T But in my head and in my heart, rivren could totally canon!!

River "stand in the middle of the road for me real quick" Acosta and Ren "fine, but why are you getting in my car" 14DWY my beloveds <3 Mr. "why aren't you visiting me in hospital... are you with someone else?" and Mx. "why aren't you eating the tablets I give you... don't you trust me?" my loves <3 Pastel Pink "you love me more than everyone else, right?" and Baby Blue "you won't leave me for anyone else, right?" my behateds <3

Your honour, I love these horrible blorbos

[lovermyme]

Headcanosn i have that i act as its canon:

Spider was born the day Jake land on pandora

Paz was killed by neytiri, because she killing both spider parents is fun (she doesn't know she killed paz)

Spider is a rainbow baby and also a miracle. Paz have lost a daughter and also had some miscarriage through her life span, and she was already in her mids 40, the chances of she getting pregnant and birth a alive baby are lowlow ☠️ but it happend because ✨ Eywa✨

Spider and Kiri are soulmates, platonic or romantic i dont care, they are 💓😔✊

Grace is having her lesbian goddess romance with Eywa

Jake is a mysterious dad, he dont say a shit about his human life on earth. Even neytiri knows very little.

[crookedkryptonitebeliever]

I'M SORRY but Yves isn't doing it for me😭, the mommy yan is not for me in general but I was curious about him at first but after learning his outlook on sex and children I lost interest

Blanche is cute but I prefer a bold yan(I only get excited about him when his sadistic side shows), I don't know everything about Montgomery yet But he seems like he's kind of a messy and a bit dense, him and Blanche are in the same Category for me: cute but mah

Cyprus was my favorite but now I don't know how to feel about him- I'll just keep being delusional that I can fix him. I would die on that hill.

Honestly, I'm just in the leveret waiting room😔✊

Hell yea manz my ocs r basically silly words on soem silly blogs, like altho i prefer not to have my Readers cherry pick what traits an oc may or may not have, its basically part of the fun yk

Like im putting my blorbos out there and what you guys do to them in your head or google docs is none of my business 💯 be as delulu as u want because at the end of the day, its night

And my ocs are created as copium (and maybe to get summ attention and thoughts from other yearning readers) and like fr you can literally disregRd the real nasty stuff about Cyprus as non canon if it makes you feel betterx

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

yippie!!

ok so one day i was hangin out and thinking about how jinx and murie are both my favourite little sad wet guys in my two fave medias of all ever *And* at the same time SO far apart on the spectrum personalitywise

and it took me listening to this to flip the switch on the Autism Blender and want to just fucking mash them together like a coked up toddler making Slime out of fish guts and hayao miyazakis mothers ashes because thats what i do thats my job💅👌so theeeen it comes out pretty reminiscent of my first muriel au that also sprung up from a song i like, just- a bit to the left? like, moving along on the scale from The OG not liking violence and being involved in it whatsoever, to AU 1 where i pictured him going "yeah ok fuck it this is what i do i guess" and revengy motives to his whole thing that i now connected with him more thru the song lmao it just made me realize the vision of like. jinxies "murderingmurderinmurdering 💕fun✨" aspect + his potential desire to still do good things despite being doomed to be a machine made for destruction (ignore the fact of that desire being nonexistent in his canon form because of how he perceives himself as a thing unable to achieve performing any good ever under any circumstance) (but still refusing to actively cause harm as he isolates himself to prevent any situations arising that would lead him to do so) (ignore all that) (were yassifying him a little were allowed its fine ive already lost the plot here anyway were wildin) so a vigilanty type beat and also ~my axe is my buddy🥰 we both cry with the trees😔✊ /me & my axe will bring the devil to his knees (✿◕‿◕ )~ goes hard as phUCK

so then all that led to This new V.3 mutation where hed be actually having fun with it........ so I kinda start turning him over in my brain some more, forgetting about jink by now and at first I go Huh this is kinda. him but lucioey a lil bit. and THEN i go hm. Well this ground is awful soft n ready to dig

so with all that out of the way i can now present!: Brand New Vague Shadow of a Concept of an Idea that ill Never Do Anything with

and I really don’t know how to verbalize this very well at all mmjfdh but like. Ok bulletpoints activate

Muriel:

From a badass warrior tribe

Didn’t get booted out cuz theyre fine this time oopsie no genocide

Hes in there way chillin way awesome way good at fighting everybody loves him

Hes like. Way himboey in this one. SO jock. Smiles a lot <3 <3 <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

Like okay if i was actually serious about writing this I think id need a fucking lucio consultant because I really know zilch about that bitch but like okay you know how lucios kinda all scary n cunty and cunning and fancy and seems like hes got shit figured out. Until he *starts talking*? Muriel here is like that but hes just really fucking scary until he starts talking BUT not like normally where hes adorable just has resting bitch face, its just like. that part of him that came thru in the reversed ending at the very end, yknow. but make it less depressing ihjhsrfbjs hes like full letterman jacket highschool bully core total kurt & ram vibe, like ok youd see him on a battlefield ABsolutely WRECKIng some fools into a pulp with his bare bear hands and immediately after that he turns around like WOOOOOOO THAT’S what im TALKIN ABOUT LETS GO GUYS WHO WANTS A BEER *cut to him chugging an entire keg over his head with da boys around losing their minds* like think college frat but they raid villages for fun and profit. Pretty orc coded. Kinda thor coded. Actually exactly thorcoded wow that really is what I was going for. I was wondering why I couldn’t help imagining him with a australian accent, I guess that’s a mystery solved. anyway

Maybe his parents got killed in some other battle im not sure how to weave around that in detail yet BUT- ok so check this I thought ill have to give him some motive to wanna reach the devil somehow for,,.,,… something right. to make him fill an antagonist role So this might be stupid a lil I just thought of this and it needs to cook for sure but what if he just rolled up into vesuvia as the magic capital or something whtver, to figure out how to get to talk to the devil, cuz he just like, really wants his parents back cuz they got valhallad in some glorious combat, and they were cool and he misses them and they could fight some more cool fights together and pillage n chill jhbsfvjgzdc beCAUsE hear me out im rolling with the swap inversions opposites motive here right, so the thing that popped up in my head was- Lucio had the “I wanna kill my parents bcause I hate them and so I can rule and get what I want” thing goin at the start right, like that is basically what started it off he got his dad he didnt get morgha SO what IF I gave murie a “i wanna conquer this place and use it to get my parents back. cuz I missem :(” like fully turned it around idk IDK IT SEEMS MESSY IDK IS IT CUTE IS IT DUMB IT MAKES ME FEEL DUMB BUT IN THAT WAY THAT MIGHT MEAN THAT ITS ACTUALLY WORKING BUT I DONT KNOW *screaming with no air*

But overall yeah hes khal drogo but more noticeably himboey but not in a likeable way cuz were switching them so I cant make him likeable for myself hnjdgfgb leaning into popular dumb jock trope

UnLESSSS i DID combo it with murdermuriel au 1.0 some more and made their tribe like. Not murdery somehow like what would be the opposite of the og scourge roaming around ruining shit. well that was the og kokhuri but now I gotta do some fucking triple axels here to make it make sense so how the fuck do I make this version of kokhuri more warriory in culture than the original but still nice like robinhoody style jhbfsvhjbs this is falling tf apart might need to scrap it bc on lucios end itd be even harder wouldn’t it. Spartan cunts but they don’t kill people that’s a nono lmao

now im thinking some more about the aspect of lucio being, you know. a pretty shitty leader right, and how to incorporate that here, because i have no idea if im following an actual set rule here regarding whats swapped and how even, theres barely a theme im straight up just

but yeah so now i figure it could be murie tryna get his folks back because they were the actual defacto leaders of their tribe, he was just kinda still following along and doin his chores in being the uhh the face, the charisma, the one to kinda like. get the people on board easier with whatever decision they made for them and hyping it up as the best possible choice anyone could ever make and maybe even actually believing it too cuz theyre actually that tightknit and he trusts them with anything aw. is this too onedimensional or can i give my boy some good nice facking family relations at least in an alternate life ghhkjkfdh hes their pride n joy and can do no wrong but yeah the point is he himself hasnt actually made any decisions without them before, isnt very good at actually leading and strategizing and planning and knowing how everything complicated works and he knows it, so he sees his only solution in bringing them back to not let everything fall apart

SEE I BROUGHT IT AROUND I CLEANED UP NICE WITH OG LUCIO SETTING OFF FROM THE POINT OF FEELING LIKE HES THE BEST AT EVERYTHING AND SHOULD B RECOGNIZED AS SUCH AND TRYING TO GET RID OF HIS PARENTS TO GET IT AND MY BOY HERE ENDING UP EXACTLY OPPOSITE. GO SHAWTY GO SHAWTY IM SO SMART am i fucking up lulus backstory i feel like i am cuz im like wait what the fuck did he kill his dad for again. demonheart. deal. thing. whatd he wish. like he wasnt already running for count n shit yet he did want to climb up the ladder in his own tribe right i have no idea yell at me in comments thank you

I also don’t know if the first (last) scourge battle wouldve happened or nah

Lucio/Montag

Oh my fucking god what if I figured out an alternative L moniker for murie so theyd get to switch letters in their namesssssssss like lucio is a made up name he made it up so like UAGHASHG L.,,,...,, Lion ofthe,... south NO he HAS to be bEAR CODED AAFYFFHG BUT LUCIO HAD LEOPARD IMAGERY N SHIT RAAHAHHGH IM FITIN FOR MY LIFE HERE

Anyway he lives in a forest somewhere cuz his tribe threw him out fully voluntarily bc he sucks ass (or at least for their standards cuz I guess he would be way younger than 18 here for this) (Like a spartan type deal ur too weak we don’t want you *drops you off a cliff*  *but theres 4 feet of snow under it so he survives*  *that’s so fucking goofy hjbsfbj kinda suits him*) so uhhhhhh i don’t know where hed be currently chilling for an mc to meet him ever but yeah hes kinda Floki Vikings™ type of vibe at least visually that’s what came to mind first to picture him lol

look at this little blond rat bastard. adorable. becoming increasingly obsessed. picturing lucio with this exact hairline. moving on

and his thing is hes still insecure as fuck but worse at ignoring it and hiding it and hes a lil nervous bundle of sticks and always talking bc of it, kinda Bruno Madrigalesque type vibe julian but a pitch more pathetic who knew it could be done yknow? opposite of The OG The Mountain The Stone Cold Silent The Muriel The Scourge The Kokhuri The Third and also me when writing and not stopped in time

oh oh what if he was totes in denial that his tribe kicked him out and in his view hes on some super intense convoluted secret mission (lasting from. age 7 to now apparently) and as soon as hes done they’ll totally come back for him kdfsgjffd I thought it could either be his own copium or he took it from some last interaction with someone who took pity on him as a kid and wanted to give him some comfort, or something he misunderstood entirely

hm. They both have canid familiars idk what to do with that. muriel with two wolves tho. thats hot shit righ there if i do say so myself

oh now im toying with the idea of taking away muriels SUPPOSED YET UNCONFIRMED AS MY VERY CONTROLLED ACADEMIC STUDY HAS SHOWN COUGHCOUGHJHBSRGJBHF talking to animals buff, i dont wanna just take it and give it to lucio tho, but like. what the fuck else do i give him. astral projecting to tie into his ghost era? sounds dope actually alright lets do that lmao

ok its 1 30 am i hope this is comprehensible to anybody anywhere im zonking out now khbsfhbfk love u

@tetsuooooooooooo I've missed your essays, this was such a treat to log in to!!!

And WOW, thorcoded Muriel is not something I ever would have thought of on my own but oddly enough I feel like the AU you're coming up with could really work, goodness me. And the way you've inverted Lucio's character too!! I'd love to see how their interaction dynamics invert as well!

Always good to hear from you friend, hope you're doing well!

[angel-eyes05]

bite the hand (chapter 8)

PREVIOUS CHAPTER

pairing: spider-woman!oc x miguel o’hara 

summary: lorena's whole world was taken away from her in the blink of an eye, after she accidentally broke a canon event. lucky for her though, she was able to find a portal watch in her dimension and used it to get out before she glitched out of existence. unfortunately though, running from dimension to dimension, she's been named as an anomaly by the spider society. now, she's constantly on the run from them, their leader in particular. when she eventually gets caught though, she's recruited onto a mission to catch another anomaly who might be from her past. to her dismay though, her partner on this mission is her very captor. will she be able to stop arguing with him for long enough to get the job done?

info: enemies to lovers, maybe a slow burn depending on chapter count, oc is 24 and miguel is 27, both oc and miguel are super sad lmao, they're also both super violent so, they also hate each other what a slay, in regards to my oc you can read her character sheet right here

warnings: there might be spoilers for atsv in this so watch the movie before reading this, i made up some weird rules for miguel's suit and idk if theyre entirely accurate to canon so just go with it, tension lol, cursing, drinking

word count: 3.4k

notes: i gotta start repeating the banners at the top cause i ran out LMAO. also, expect less frequent uploads cause 1) i kinda have low motivation rn and 2) im pretty busy rn (going out, vacations, and doing job applications). writing also gets a little draining for me after a while and i gotta put me first😔✊ ill keep uploading though dw i just gotta do it at my own speed to make sure i dont drop the series cause if i try to push stuff out too fast, im gonna end up dropping it so just bear with me lol. also i didn't proofread this before posting cause its 3:30 when im dropping this, and im so tired lmao

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It was the sun that slithered into the room through the cracks in the blinds that woke her up. Lorena preferred that to the normal wakeup call from a nightmare, or the sounds of honking cars next to her on the street. The way the bed had molded itself to her shape made it impossible for her to move. Almost like it was trapping her in its comfort. Even if the mattress was old, the fact that this had been her first time sleeping in an actual bed, and not a bench, sidewalk, or cot, in months was enough to provide her ease. 

She turned to face the other side of the bed, surprised when no one was in sight. Miguel was probably in the bathroom or something. She was more focused on a different fact: this had been the first sleep in weeks without a nightmare.

Huh. Weird.

She sat up in bed, noticing she was still in her robe from the bathroom. She rubbed the drowsiness off her face as the click of the door lock called her attention. Letting in a stream of early sunlight with him, Miguel walked through the door, pitch black sunglasses covering his eyes, a box in one hand, and a cup tray in the other. “Figured you’d be hungry when you woke up,” he said once he noticed she was awake. He softly kicked the door closed behind him, setting the tray on the desk near the door and the box on the bed. 

Pulled by curiosity, she moved her hands towards the box and opened it to see what was inside. Her mouth immediately started watering when she opened it to see assorted treats such as conchas, bigotes, and mantecadas. “I was in the mood,” Miguel said, pulling the drinks out of the tray. “I didn’t know how much cream or sugar you liked so I just got you black cause that's what I get,” he said, handing the hot cup of coffee to her. 

The smell of the pastries mixed with the coffee was enough to make her want to cry. It reminded of the smells of her aunt’s kitchen in the morning. The bitterness of the coffee stung at her throat, but it was overshadowed by the comfort it brought her. She picked up one of the bigotes, and had to hold back her tears of joy when she took a bite. “Gracias por todo,” she said, mouth full of food and covered in sugar. Miguel smiled at the sight of her. “De nada, cariño,” he said sweetly, taking one of the conchas for himself. 

As he walked away with his food, towards the bathroom, Lorena noticed something about him. “Where’d you get the clothes?” she asked, mouth still filled with food. He was now wearing a pair of gray sweatpants and a plain white t-shirt. “It’s part of my suit,” he responded, fixing his hair in the bathroom mirror. “¿Cómo?” He sighed. “Remember what I said about the whole nanotech thing last night?” “Yeah, what about it?” Suddenly, the shirt and sweatpants shifted into his blue and red suit just before her eyes. “Woah…” she exclaimed in awe. “I can change its appearance as long as the outfit is downloaded to my suit’s database.” “Oh,” Lorena expressed, even if she still didn’t fully understand what he was talking about. 

“Why’d you get to be born in the crazy, futuristic dimension with all the fancy tech,” she complained to herself, just loud enough for Miguel to hear. “Why, do you want one?” he asked, in between a small chuckle. “I mean it would be nice to wear something other than a tight spandex suit for once,” Lorena joked, getting an actual laugh out of Miguel for once. Lorena blushed and smiled at his reaction. “Well lucky for you, you’re gonna need one for tonight,” he responded. “What do you mean?” she asked, after taking a sip from her coffee. 

He tossed her a small, golden chain. “The outfit should form around that chain. I had Lyla upload different outfits for the day, since she probably knows better than I do. When you’re ready, put it on.” Lorena admired the golden material. She was lucky she wasn’t a silver jewelry girl. “So what’s on the to-do list for today,” she said, still looking at the chain. “Stay undercover for the majority of the day, then head over to the Moonlit River club at night. Lyla should have that outfit uploaded by now,” he responded, brushing his teeth with the provided amenities in the motel. 

“Why, are you finally deciding to take me out dancing to pay me for my troubles,” she joked, taking a sip of coffee after. Miguel spit out his toothpaste and sighed. “Brock meets up there on Thursday nights to trade weapons.”

Silence filled the space between them.

She knew this day had to come. She just wasn’t expecting it to be so soon. 

“I see,” was all she could manage to say, before taking another sip of her coffee.

Miguel could feel the turmoil radiating off of her from the bathroom. He washed out his mouth, and splashed a bit of water on his face before walking over to her. He pushed the box of pastries to the side, and took a seat in front of her on the sheets.

“Mirarme,” he softly spoke, using his pointer finger to guide her eyes to his. She looked up at him, trying her best not to get lost in the crimson shade of his eyes. “I-” He cut himself off before he could continue. He melded her hand into his before speaking again. “I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again. I want you to know that if this becomes too much for you…you can back out.” His inflection was weird. As if he didn’t want her to, but still wanted to keep her comfortable. A wrestling match between what he wanted and what was best for her. 

“And I’ve said it before too. I’m not running away from this,” Lorena said back, voice strong. “Ok. Just know if things get bad for you in there, I’ve got your back,” he said, concern in his voice. He had also found his eyes roaming her face, not realizing they had both subconsciously moved closer to each other. “And I’ve got yours too,” she said back. Once he had realized Lorena’s robe was loose enough to see inside to her chest, Miguel cleared his throat and got up from the bed quickly. 

“I’m gonna go into town, see if I can pick up any information on the street. You can do whatever you want until its time, but make sure to-” “Yeah, yeah, lay low. Relax big guy, I’ve got this,” she cut him off, reassuringly. He exited the room quickly, like he was in a rush to get away from her. He was gone for almost the rest of the day. 

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About 8pm that night. 

Miguel was outside in the main room of the motel while Lorena was getting herself ready in the bathroom. Miguel had gone out earlier and bought her some cheap makeup and perfume from a local drugstore, a sweet gesture. 

Once she finished with her makeup and straightening up her hair, she tapped on the middle part of her gold chain, causing a menu to pop up. She scrolled through the options until she came across the last one, labeled by Lyla as “night time😉”. She clicked on the option, as she watched in awe as her casual t-shirt and sweatpants shifted into her outfit for the night. A tight black dress, cut asymmetrically to show one of her thighs, and a turtle neck part detached from the rest of the dress, with glove-like sleeves. This feature allowed for the perfect peephole towards her chest. Lorena had a feeling Lyla would try to do some matchmaking with her outfit.

With a quick spritz of perfume, a double check of her face in the mirror, and quickly putting on a black headband for her hair, Lorena quickly exited the bathroom. Miguel was standing there, waiting by the door and checking his portal watch. He was sporting a black, silk, button up shirt, tucked into black dress pants. The fact that the shirt was way too tight for him was accentuated by his muscles sculpted by the fabric and the fact that the first two buttons were open. His eye was caught by Lorena when she stepped out of the bathroom, his mouth slightly agape in awe and his eyes almost stuck to her.

“It’s flashy, I know. But it’s better that I fit in,” she said, trying to divide the tension in the room as she walked closer to him. “I-...um,” he stammered. “At a loss for words for once O’Hara?” she teased. Noticing a stray hair on the top of his head, she reached up to him to push it back. “Quédate quieto,” she commanded softly, while she stuck the piece back into the gel, trying to ignore how he was admiring her. 

“There you go. Ahora te ves guapo,” she teased, patting his chest with her hand. Miguel still had that stupid smile on his face. “Y te ves hermosa,” he said softly, and with utter sincerity. 

She couldn’t tell if she was caught more off guard with his words of affirmation, or the fact that the blush quickly forming on her cheeks was confirming her secret love of it. 

Clearing her throat, she unlocked the door, opened it, and gestured her hand to outside. “Lead the way big guy.” He smirked at her as he walked outside. He even got the courage to offer her his hand. This confidence was quickly deflated when she smacked away his hand, giggling to herself as she took the lead down the stairs. 

The night life of the city was bustling on the streets. Couples together, arm in arm, surely walking to a fancy restaurant for a night out. Lines forming outside of nightclubs, patrons with an urgency to get in. Everyone walking down the street with their own story to tell, just like Lorena. 

After walking for a couple of miles, the bright, neon blue sign shone in front of the entrance. The door was a mahogany red, with three stairs leading down to the entrance. But opposite to Miguel’s eagerness to get inside by opening the door, Lorena slightly froze, eyes blank. 

This was it. It was going to happen. Whether she was ready or not.

“Hey.” Miguel’s calm voice pulled her back to reality. “Stay with me. Okay?” He held out his large hand for her. This time, she decided to take it. “And remember to try and fit in,” he added. Her smile quickly turned sour and annoyed.

The atmosphere was loud, a mixture of people talking and the bass of the music filling the room. The fact that the lights were out didn’t seem to matter much with the amount of strobe and neon lights flashing within the bar. Lorena noticed Miguel quickly putting on a pair of sunglasses hidden in his jacket pocket. “I thought you said we needed to fit in,” Lorena stated as the two walked towards a high top near the bar. “I did. And?” “You really think you’re blending in with a pair of sunglasses on indoors? At night? In a club?” Lorena joked. “The lights hurt my eyes,” Miguel said, puppy dog hurt. Lorena had to fight to contain the laughter rising in her chest.

Once they sat down, and the reality of events settled down on Lorena, she began to look around the club. People sprayed out on couches, drunkenly conversing or making out. People out on the dance floor. Men walking into booths in the back, shielded by curtains. Eddie was probably in one of those. “I’m heading to the bar. You want anything?” Miguel asked, snapping her out of her daze. “Uhhhh, just get me something strong,” she brushed off, still not entirely paying attention. He shrugged and walked off to the bar. 

Lorena continued to inspect the area, her thoughts bouncing all over the place. What did this Eddie look like? Did he have black hair instead? Was his voice higher? Her Eddie always had a particularly deep tone. Smooth like silk as well. She would spend days on end focusing on the way he would say a single sentence back when she was first crushing on him. Would he act like her Eddie? She realized quickly she probably wouldn’t get the opportunity to find out. She didn’t necessarily want to find out anyways.

…

Would she have to kill him again? Would Miguel make her?

The smack of the glass on the table brought her back to reality. “You weren’t really specific, so I just got you a negroni,” Miguel said, open bottle of beer in his hand. Without a second thought, Lorena downed half the glass just then, proven to be a mistake with how strong the drink actually was. Her mouth curled inwards as her eyes shut closed, letting out a few coughs quickly after. 

Miguel laughed slightly, and slammed his hand against her back to help her cough. “What the fuck was that?” “Hey, you told me to get you something strong!” Miguel defended. “I thought you were gonna get me a margarita or something,” Lorena said, rubbing her chest with her hand. “Haven’t had alcohol in more than a year and you hit me with that straight away,” she said to herself. Subconsciously, he handed her his bottle. “Take a sip of that then.” She smiled to herself as she put her lips to the bottle and took a good sip of the beer. “Better?” he asked, like she was a child. “Yes, thank you for your charity sir, you’re so kind,” she responded sarcastically. 

“Find anything interesting yet?” Miguel asked, taking back the bottle. Lorena’s eyes went back to the curtains. “Those booths back there look promising. Are we sure he’s here yet though?” Lorena asked. “I have a hunch.” Lorena looked up at Miguel, annoyance on her face. “We’re going…off of a hunch?” “Just trust me on this okay.” Lorena sighed and took another sip of her own drink, wincing again when she put it back down. 

Her eyes were drawn away from the drapes and over to the lit up dance floor. She had always been the first one to bring her friends to dance with her when she was younger. Seeing it again brought feelings flooding back to her heart. Spontaneously, she jumped up from her chair and held out her hand to Miguel. “...What are you doing?” he asked, incredibly confused. 

“You said we had to blend in, right? We’ll do that better if we’re out there dancing,” she said. “Oh, no way. I don’t dance, chiquita,” he said, almost embarrassed. “Oh come on, for someone with your build? You’ve definitely danced before. Don’t be a debby downer Miggy,” she encouraged, both of them caught slightly off guard by the nickname slip. He rolled his head back, wiped his hands over his face, and let out a deep, annoyed groan. Once he stood up though and took her hand, it was impossible for Lorena to lose the smile growing on her face. “You’re taking the lead though, Loré,” he said, having come up with a nickname for her as well. She hoped the sunglasses he had on would keep him from seeing the blush on her face.

…

They didn’t.

Hand in hand, Lorena led Miguel over to the brightly lit floor, music blasting in the speakers next to them. Miguel stook out like a sore thumb, his huge build making him extremely identifiable among the other strangers on the floor. Lorena fit right in though, immediately beginning to dance to the blasting music. Miguel tried his best to copy her moves, but ended up looking like a fool. “You were right, you really aren’t that good at this,” Lorena teased. “Ha ha, very funny,” Miguel said monotonically. As the music changed slowly to a slower pace, they noticed the people around them grouping to dance into a pairs. She looked up to Miguel. He raised his eyebrow at her, asking her without words. Her smile was confirmation, as they inched towards each other. 

Almost as if they were pre-programmed to do so, Lorena wrapped her arms around Miguel’s neck, and his wrapped around her hips. They swayed together slowly to the music, melting into each others touch. He rested his head on her shoulder, his hot breath leaving goosebumps on her skin.

“This isn’t my wheelhouse,” he quietly whispered into her ear, sending shivers down her spine. “Why, better when other music is playing?” she whispered back sarcastically. “Everyone here’s lucky they aren’t playing salsa right now, or I’d be stealing the show.” Lorena let out a laugh. “Is that so?” He nodded, a huge smirk on his face. “I’m more of mambo person myself,” she responded. He smiled at her remark. “You’ll have to teach me some day.”

She struggled to keep the smile on her face as those words entered her head. You’ll have to teach me some day. She hadn’t even begun to think about it. What she would do after this mission was over. The whole point of doing this was so she could be granted her freedom. She wanted it so badly a couple of days ago. But now. She hadn’t even thought of staying as a possibility. Because to her, it wasn’t. She couldn’t invade Miguel’s life like that. She wasn’t even 100% sure how she felt about him, much less on how he felt about her. Besides, no matter how much she just wanted to settle down with someone. To live an actual life. She didn’t deserve it. 

Pulling away from him was like separating herself from her source of life, but she did it anyways. “You okay?” Miguel asked concerned. “Yeah, I just gotta freshen up for a second,” she said, wiping her nose. She turned around quickly to get away. Too quickly though, bumping into someone’s back on her way to the bathroom. 

Knocked off her balance, and her headband knocked out of her hair, she fell to the floor on her ass. “Sorry about that,” she said, slightly dissociated, reaching out for her headband. The stranger also reached down to help with her headband. “It’s okay, don’t worry about it gorgeous.”

Her heart dropped to her stomach.

That voice.

“Don’t lose your heart.”

She desperately wanted to keep her eyes glued to the floor. She didn’t want to look at him. But she had to keep her cover up. So she did, as slowly as she could though. And it was the worst possibly outcome.

He looked just like him. Strawberry blonde hair. Deep blue eyes. Small scar just above right eyebrow. His bottom two teeth fighting for room on the bottom row of his mouth. There was only one difference though. One of her favorite parts about him. This Eddie was missing his freckles. His beautiful light brown freckles.

She gave the stranger with her dead boyfriend’s face a strained smile while she grabbed her headband and rushed behind to the door. Her own brain pounding in her head was too loud for her to hear Miguel as she nearly ran passed him. She slammed the door to the outside open as she took in the air like it was her first breath ever. Even if she was outside now, she kept running. She sprinted down the streets, not taking any of her surroundings into account. She saw him in everyone’s face. His ghost had always been haunting her, but she wasn’t ready for him to move from behind her back to in front of her face. She ran so far and so fast until her legs ached, and even after that. She didn’t even know where she was going. She didn’t care. She just needed to get away from him as quickly as possible. Even if that meant leaving Miguel behind too. 

Her sprint was interrupted when her foot was caught in a change in the elevation on the sidewalk. Her face slammed into the concrete sidewalk, scraping her cheek and her knees. She used the rest of her strength, all drained out from her bolting, to crawl into a nearby alley. She made her way to the back and slunk down into the corner, hoping to meld into the brick behind her. Especially if it meant she never had to see him again.

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a/n: THIS TOOK ME SO LONG OH MY GOD. sorry if i messed some stuff up with the drinks, i dont drink so i really have no idea (im just a stoner instead lmao). UGH BUT I THINK THIS WAS MY FAVORITE CHAPTER TO WRITE I LOVED IT AND I HOPE YOU GUYS DID TOO

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[hkpika07]

"Forever and Ever" will never be cannon my brother 😔✊

i will not accsept the fact they replaced our boys with two female characters that i legit don't give two shits about for the sake of "divercity" (i'm a girl FYI) like do they really think kids care what gender a damn train would be??

Forever and ever will never be canon to me too. Henry and Edward are still big parts of the show in my heart

Its not that I don't like Nia and Rebecca. I'm just sad they didn't do any more with their characters than beyond just the token characteristics of New Girl and She's from Africa. That's all their characters really are in the show. They had so much potential but they fucking wasted it. Especially Nia. They did my poor girl dirty.

Nia in the BWBA movie was so smart and crafty and BY THE BOOK/STRAIGHT LACED. She's a tank engine. A tank engine who's more serious and by the book is practically unheard of in the show. The only one I can think of who fits the bill is Duck. Most tank engines are all about mischief and causing problems so it's so refreshing to see Nia be this no nonsense serious character, contrasting with Thomas' cheekyness perfectly. But in the actual show they reduced her to basically every other plucky girl stereotype and her personality merges with Rebecca's. To the point where they're basically the same character just one is from Africa. Needless to say her character is different in ITAR.

They did better with Rebecca's character. Being such a sweet and kind engine but still being a somewhat clumsy and overeager rookie. She's so cheerful that even the trucks don't give her a hard time.

But the thing is they didn't need to replace Edward and Henry for these characters to exist. Ttte already had a bunch of female characters including ones that were in one episode and then shelved. (Looking at you Molly). They could have still had Nia and Rebecca but just had more episodes focused on them. Like they did for every new engine they introduced in previous seasons. They added tons of characters and it was never a problem before. Why write off two of the most beloved characters?

[beevean]

On the topic of netflivania's dislike to the belmonts, Julia's apparent unjustified murder of the poor sap Orlox turned against his will, which in turn sealed her own death might be the show establishing another theme as horribly as it does to the rest of them, like "church bad!" and "slavery sucked!" now the hot new topic in the next season is gonna be "something something the cycle of revenge." Richter is gonna have to uh, not kill Orlox, let his revenge go as a sign that he's "grown" and better than his ancestors who killed vamps for their own egos and then the vamps fight back and everyone can't let go of their silly little grudges that get each other killed for centuries. Trust me I'm 14 and this is the deepest most groundbreaking writing ever ✊😔

Yeah it's very blatant. Everyone has some sort of Trauma (mom died, sister died, bf died, friend died, slavery) because that's the only way we know how to give our characters Depth, and oh Richter is involved in a cycle of revenge that he has to break to show he has grown up and has moved on from his past or something. Bet Olrox will get his happy ending as well, because he's a hot villain and NFCV loves its hot villains.

mfw Lament and Curse did this shit better 20 years ago

mfw we had to renounce to Richter's canon interference with the cycle which was much more poignant

[turnthepagevn]

Its truly tragic that I want Mags over anyone else. Idc that she had a one-time thing with my man, I trust she had good intentions. 🙌 Josh was the one I was in a canonically monogamous relationship with, not her.

Come home shawty, we miss you 😔✊

Most people don't believe me, but Mags is genuinely a very sweet person, unlike a certain psychiatrist cousin of hers.

[fategoflatass]

You don't understand just how happy it makes me seeing that I'm not the only one struggling 😔✊

From what I understand, a slow burn romance usually takes like, thirty, forty, fifty chapters for the pairing to become canon or similar (ie accepting their feelings for each other, yet not becoming lovers per se). But two hundred? Plus?!

Don't get me wrong, seeing the relationship evolve exclusively from Jinshi's side is downright hilarious. He's doing all these things like helping in any way he can, taking her with him on missions or whatever only for them to hang out, gifting her all these weird ass things that have some sort of medicinal value that he knows she'll love—and then you have Maomao, just vibing. The only time you see her enjoying herself is when in the presence of herbs or poisons, so even if Jinshi is the one giving her those things he's not part of her happiness at that precise moment.

Is it frustrating? Yeah, but Jinshi has it worse and that's what makes it hilariously bearable. This man literally said fuck you to all these things he's been taught since little, and has allowed himself to get attached to someone for the first time in his life—only for that someone to not reciprocate his feelings at all.

My man's proposed to her three different times, each being worse (and by worse I mean intense) than the last one, and Maomao is like 👍 I hate it here, give me more of this please.

Overall, this whole thing feels like a challenge. You know, something that serves as a dare for those who think your usual slow burn is colder than the fucking poles. Maybe that's why we're going through a heatwave in my country right now—the seemingly eternal heat serving as a representation of just how tortuous this whole thing is. It may also be a metaphore of Jinshi's emotional state after being cockblocked so many times, but I by no means wish to think about the frog scene anymore than I should.

And speaking of volume thirteen—if it ends up being like volume five's last chapter and its correspondent aftermath in volume six's prologue, I'm going to cry. My man deserves some loving, for fuck's sake.

I used to be so against the slow burn trope. Not because I thought it was shit; it's just, I usually don't have the patience to wait whatever-amount-superior-to-three damn chapters for my dear ship to finally be able to look at each other without blushing and/or hold hands. Thus why you often times see me reading oneshots or fics with the "Established Relationship" tag on them.

So you can imagine just how surprised—or maybe not, maybe I just didn't think enough about it—I was when I realized my newest fixation's main pairing is—canonically—the embodiment of slow burn. Because holy shit they're taking their time.

Nothing against how Kusuriya develops its love story—quite the opposite, actually. The relationship between Jinshi and Maomao, two characters that are written as beautifully as their romance, is a rather realistic approach as to how the same or a similar dynamic would developed in real life. In such a complicated situation, with such complex feelings about emotions—both external and their own—and attachment, makes sense that it takes so long for the relationship to finally sail.

The problem is, I didn't know I was signing with the Devil the moment I decided to pick up the light novel. Ten volumes and nothing has happened. Nothing.

And you can say that technically things have happened, because they have. I mean, Jinshi is just so desperate for Maomao to give him the time of day, you know what I mean? And even that isn't enough anymore and thus he has committed some of the craziest shit I've seen in any romance. Which okay, I don't usually read these type of romances but still.

What I mean by "nothing" is just, their relationship hasn't changed status. I could also say that it seems to go nowhere, but that'd be lying. Since, you know, it has changed quite a lot—just not in the way my impatient ass wanted it to. Because he can be as honest with his feelings as he pleases, and those around them might be heavely conscious of the tension and thus constantly tease those lovebirds (as they should), but babygirl's not helping, you know?

And I get it, Maomao's not the best at expressing and understanding herself, and she's also way too busy worrying about going as unnoticed as possible (she should give up on that one already, tbh) while keeping her head where it should be. But like, I can't help feeling frustrated over it like ‼‼

GIRL, FUCK THE RULES. TAKE THAT PATHETIC EXCUSE OF A MAN AND RUNAWAY SOMEWHERE NO ONE WILL BE ABLE TO IDENTIFY YOU. YOU THEN CARRY THAT BITCH BRIDESTYLE TO THE CLOSEST CHURCH AND MAKE HIM YOUR WIFE. PROCEED TO FROG AROUND, EXPERIMENT WITH YOUR UTERUS AS MUCH AS YOU'D LIKE, AND THEN TEACH THE PRODUCTS OF YOUR PRACTICES AS YOUR OWN GUINEA PIG THE WAYS OF HERBAL MEDICINE. AS EASY AS THAT.

But she won't. She'll take her sweet ass time being in denial about both Jinshi's and her own feelings, then maybe she'll proceed to analize herself and find out that maybe, just maybe, that affection that she'd been feeling for that loser became something else. Did said affection also become something more complicated? Absolutely. Does she know how to deal with it? Hell no, but fuck it. If I learned something from school is that you always leave the hardest parts for later.

Now you see why I was so against reading slow burn?

And you wanna know the worst part? I loved it—I loved every second of it, every word, every page. Every scene that seemed to help the relationship advance, only for Maomao to say nope and leave like she owns the place, which at this point she fucking might.

It feels like I, as the reader, am in the middle of a heatwave and some sadistic bastard won't stop teasing me with ice cream—they put it in front of my face, close enough that I can smell the cold. Then take a spoon and eat little by little while staring directly to my eyes. At times they seem to show mercy and feed me a spoon, only for it to be a rather small quantity of serving—serving that tastes so damn good at first, only for it to have such a bitter aftertaste. But if I gotta have something in common with Jinshi is that I'll never be able to beat the masochist allegations, so I'll wait patiently for the next spoon and its corresponding and seemingly enless teasing from that faceless being.

So yeah, I'm still against it, only that now I understand the appeal—even if I have yet to find out about the whereabouts of my sanity while still mananing with the little I've left.

[rolaplayor101]

SUPER ARO BROS!

[ID: Three images of Luigi from the Mario games in different outfits standing in front of a aromid flag /end ID]

[ID: Mario from Super Mario Maker using a wagon to cart building blocks. He's running in front of a lithromantic flag /END ID]

Its canon. Their outfits even work to match it! /lh --- aromantic and asexual are trending rn because this new movie is for the aspecs! I'm calling it 👍 not Luigi finding out he was aro after trying to date Bowser 😔✊ smh

DNI proshippers/antiantis/queerphobes/Nsfwblogs

[angelicyoongie]

OH MY GOD THE 7TH CHAPTER?? HELLO?? i have so many thoughts to say but oh my god I really thought Namjoon would be the writer of the orange envelope and Jin green but its actually vice versa ?!??!?! Its nice getting to see the roles flipped since we normally don't expect those behaviors from how we perceive the members but isn't the idea of protective daddy Joon and manipulative daddy Jin who'd try to gaslight you with his knowledge of flowers so delicious 🥴🥴 I want to be sandwiched between them omigod, just one chance please. Also?!?!? I love the descriptions of how muscular and huge the boys are in comparison to M/C?? Like Jungkook's so soft and fluffy but he's rocking biceps and an 8 pack under there?? Canonically the strongest amongst the 7 of them?? Love it.

Also with the 8th installment, I would just like to ask.. *taps coupons for Mcdonalds on the counter* will it include smut?? From all 7 of them???

Sdjkdjs thank you!! 💖 I really wanted to try something new with their portrayal, so I figured making Namjoon the more "parental" figure would be a fun change. You and me both, bestie 😔✊ I'm glad you do!! I really wanted to hammer it home that Y/n isn't just outnumbered, she's also quite a bit weaker than the boys. They've known for a while that they likely will have to kidnap her at some point, so they can't be physically weak if they want to pull it off 😬

There will be smut, but not in the next chapter! We are nowhere near that point currently. But, the coming chapters will include some timeskips, so y'all won't have to wait too long 😉

[what-yadoking-likes]

YADO GO EAT SOMETHING

hangover BAD and you need food, probably. Drink wotah reminder..

Anyway on a different topic, bro do you think that the og 4 + Bain would ever go out together after everything’s over? (If it’s not canon compliant ✊😔) or MAYBE there could be a post-canon thing they tell Bain “of course you’re part of the gang, you always have been” after he refers to himself as separate from his crew. awww angst/fluff potential. >:)

Okay SO I am sober now. In the end, I had a big meal AND dessert, and drank plenty of water so I could get through Hotline Miami with less of a handicap (you should've seen my sister and her boyfriend, though. My sister feigned a migraine today and didn't go to work because she was, in her words, 'still drunk'. Yikes).

ANYWAY BACK TO PAYDAY STUFF-

I think IF Bain doesn't die were going to hang out with any of the heisters post-game, it would have to be the OG4.

They'd spend days arguing about where to go and what to do. Dallas wants them to spend time on his boat, sailing wherever they fancied and spending weeks at sea. Hoxton - who suffers from awful seasickness - vetoed this and offered them a stay in one of his mansions in the English countryside (the offer was swiftly retracted when Aldstone announced he was going to accompany Clover to continue teaching her how to exploit the rich and famous, because if there's one thing Hoxton can't do, its cook).

In the end, Bain gets impatient. "Look, I haven't even been into a goddamn bar in years, I'd be happy just going to the Tasteful."

And that's exactly what they do. Well, more than that, really - but it occurred to them that Bain really hadn't been able to enjoy many of life's simple pleasures, and they set about enjoying day-to-day activities with him.

One day they went to a high-end cinema and bought tickets for the best seats - the ones with massage function and concierge service. They had a BBQ and bonfire at the beach. They visited Duke once he got his museum up and running (provided they didn't take anything). And Bain's heart was full, swollen and fit to burst from how content he was doing mundane things with the four men he'd seen potential in eight (?) years ago.

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#5

anyone else have this exact experience at least 12 times a playthrough

[image description: a picture of two hands shaking each other. one arm is captioned 'subnautica', and the other is 'below zero'. the hands are captioned as 'where is the last fragment i know it spawns here why can't i find the las- what was that'. /end id.]

111 notes • Posted 2021-05-17 17:00:54 GMT

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125 notes • Posted 2021-02-21 02:29:46 GMT

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133 notes • Posted 2021-01-18 19:30:44 GMT

#2

underrated canon subnautica lore i think about all the time:

-marguerit fist-fought like 4 stalkers and ripped their teeth out of their mouths. she did this to build bart a cool window. i feel like this should be talked about more because she ONLY did this to build bart a cool window. she fought a group of stalkers for several hours. to build a glorified window for someone she consistently claimed she didn't care about.

-every iteration of bart thinks marguerit is super badass, and even literally says she's badass in one of his original logs

-alterra has knowledge on paul torgal's possible half-children?? and they put this uncomfirmed drama in a missing persons report???

-captain hollister's nickname was hot dog hollister

-relationships have contracts at alterra and people are treated like products that you can choose. or at the very least this is a somewhat popular ideology??

-kharra symptoms include typical flu symptoms, and also aggression! maybe a reason why the degasi never quite worked out their differences?

-kharra has also has a confirmed death count of 143 BILLION. thats ONLY confirmed deaths. the number is undoubtedly higher.

198 notes • Posted 2021-08-24 17:01:31 GMT

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#someone pLEASE edit its a hard knock life over the trailer

SAY NO MORE!!

874 notes • Posted 2021-04-20 17:01:12 GMT

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[wibblyparfait]

OC REBOOT LETS FUCKING GOOO

if anyone saw Jinjing's first wish portrait n stuff haha no you did not noo i would never keep something extremely outdated in my art tags hahaha ✨(/JJ i dont actually have a problem w/ keeping old art up, im here to drop improvements anyway >:D)

BUT HI YES I FINALLY REDID HER DESIGN TO SMTH MORE FITTING, AS WELL AS REWROTE HUGE STUFF ABT HER TO MAKE THINGS FIT BETTER so its another episode of me rambling for hours on end under the cut ✊

WABABAB HELLO AGAIN i changed my silly lil frogge A LOT since the last time i rambled abt them so >:)) disjointed word dump go BRRR 

Hydro Claymore!! (changed her from being a polearm) Im still working on her kit tbh but so far her Elemental Skill (unnamed) has a tap mode, that just does immediate Hydro DMG, and a hold mode, thatll do bigger Hydro DMG and stagger enemies. While her Elemental Burst (unnamed) is a whirlpool that pulls enemies in and keeps them there for the duration while dealing DoT Hydro DMG ✨ 

(im. Trying to design her like a Tanky DPS like Xinyan and Razor? but at the same time i gave her an ascension that makes her burst also do Just A Lil Bit Of Healing That Scales Off Max HP and i havent figured out cons for shit SO thats been fun AKFKDSJ) (also her passive increases Movement SPD in the overworld when it rains, same as Rosaria’s when its nighttime >:D) 

AIGHT WITH UNFINISHED GAMEPLAY RAMBLINGS DONE, [slaps Jinjing on the back] THIS PHROUGGE CAN FIT SO MUCH MISMANAGED GRIEF. 

[gestures] Jinjing, better known by her sacred name “Spring Defender” (though if you call her that she’ll just assume you’re asking for a fight /unserious subtext), is just an Adeptus tryna live her best life currently residing in Qingce Village and protecting the village ppl from the passing hilichurl and/or treasure hoarder group 🕺 

Wayy back when in Liyue’s history she was one of the Guili Assembly’s main protectors, to the point where just seeing her was said to be an omen of good fortune, and was otherwise vibing and being Guili’s unofficial adopted child SDKGHDFG 

Buut then the Guili Assembly went to shit, and she also signed the contract to fight alongside Rex Lapis during the Archon War and protect the Harbor, but as that went on she slowly started getting disillusioned like “damn. all these gods killing and tearing and maiming everything in their path just to get a seat in Celestia. disgustang 🙄 thank fuck Rex Lapis isn’t like that 🖐️”

but yknow how after the Archon War ended, Rex Lapis ended up getting one of the aforementioned seats in Celestia? yeahh she saw that as a HUGE betrayal and went “wow!! okay!! so basically all gods ARE power-hungry bitches huh!!!” and wholly disagrees with how much the other Adepti and the rest of Liyue worships their Archon as if he Isnt A Bitch Thats Playing Everyone Like Cheap Kazoos 😔

so she just. left for Qingce w/o a word. and thats where she’s stayed since and plotted deicide multiple times but never really went through it (totally not cuz a part of her still misses her pa noo whaat) and so in canon just eats hot chip and messes w/ ppl that drop by the northern village (except for Qiqi, who she looks after cuz Jinjing was Absolutely one of the main ppl that helped revive her dont @ me) and also regularly trash-talks the Archons w/ the Oceanid over tea and snacks every Tuesday AKGKFDD

HAHA THERE IS. A LOT OF ANGST STEWING IN HER. but since im a lil fluff kinnie i think i Will do nothing but think abt an AU where she talks things out w/ Zhongli and becomes the feral eldest sibling in the adeptus family ✨ DHKJFDG