#italic-doing-random-shit

[anti-terf-posts]

reminder for trans people in the US that getting a formal diagnosis of gender dysphoria can get top and bottom surgery covered by insurance! (depending on the company and state of course)

honestly so unfair that that's how that works, but still good and important to know!!

[howlsofbloodhounds]

Aishite aishite aishite by ado feels like a killer song

him begging to be loved and noticed in such a savage and violent manner feels like him to me

Hm, perhaps. Im usually iffy with these types of songs with killer mostly because it tends to lean more into that “yandere killer” “lovesick killer” area in the fandom I don’t really like, mostly because the fandom seems to have a hard time differentiating between a character’s internal experiences and what they actually allow themselves to show, and how they express it.

Especially if they put killer in stage 1 in the context of these violent savage songs. Tendency to make Killer too intentionally and aware of violence and savagery when in Stage 1 (these moments would like horrify and scare him, because they do not feel like they’re him actively deciding to do it, it feels like something outside his control, as if a part of his mind just isn’t his anymore, ), and too openly emotional in Stage 2 too easily.

When in, Stage 2 would try his damnedest to keep all that tightly hidden away and beneath a mask of indifference while he subtly tries to manipulate and control, I feel. Too open, too vulnerable and needy and weak—and he wants the full of extent of it all safely hidden away inside where no one can see it and use it.

It’d probably show up in small easily missed or excused away actions and behaviors and words, and perhaps he’d even try to rationalize his desires and wants as somehow actually being for the object of his affection’s benefit (taught to belief in existing to serve, taught to belief in not having emotions), if he views said person as stronger or someone who fills that role—such as Color.

Such his want to be loved being rationalized as Color needs to be loved, and that he needs that from killer—needs it feel and be real, like he does. And he’ll do it the only way that feels familiar—pain, violence. Either inflicted on the other or on himself by them. Made even worse when he feels so disconnected from the relationship, remembers what it was like in Stage 1 but can’t feel it, can’t trust if any of it was real. If he actually loved this person, or if he just thinks he does.

It’s an attempt to connect, deep down. Even if he can’t fully recognize it himself—prevented by through the lens of what he was taught. And to many onlookers it’s probably be hard to tell if he’s being genuine or just playing yet another game—or worse, if he actually wants this or just thinks this what the other wants from him— in the case of the other being stronger.

(The difference between this is shown between Nightmare vs Color, btw. Both people Killer views as having power over him, and would instinctively feel the need to ensure he serves them.

Difference is he’s not hurt when Nightmare rolls his eye, and he’s not upset when Nightmare praises someone else instead of him, and he’s not instinctively afraid that he’s going to stop existing in Nightmare’s mind if Nightmare happens to have his attention drawn to someone else.

He’s not upset if Nightmare looks through him or talks at him than to him, it’s just accepted as what it is. Yet in the case of someone like Color, all of this could feel like a rejection, or an abandonment, or like he’s not worthy.

All this from both could make Killer feel like he’s not real, difference is he wants to be real to Color. Wants him to see him. Killer may not frame it as love, as least not for a time, but he does crave Color’s acknowledgement and attention—his validation. He wants Color to treat him—see him—as real, in contrast to everyone else who didn’t.

All is too say I want him to be doing his usual shtick, trying to get colors attention in a way that makes everyone question him (cue delta saying “you want to prove yourself? Start by not making Color question you.”), but color just looks at him with that look, and places a soft hand on killers cheek, and killer falters like ‘don’t look at me like that, why does he care. that isn’t real’ and yet he’s still subconsciously leaning into colors touch before he immediately straightens himself back up.)

[somegrumpynerd]

nuetral card!!

earth!!

(/silly/silly)

I am the same but a process has occurred (I am now super effective against electric)

[swiftmitsu]

proceeds to vibe so hard you get distracted

no please i need to finish this by the end of the week pleas💥

[vanglaggle]

Geno x Classic?

doesn't make sense , doesn't compel me

i see them more as brothers . especially with how Geno's canon goes

[sunnymainecoon]

steals shattereds noodles !!!

I uh. Think you killed him

[toffeebrews]

bites you like the little bat I am/silly

IM GETTING ATTACKED HELPP

[mellybabbles]

Steals your art style

AW HECK NOOO I NEED THAT THOUGH </3

[iamunabletothinkofablogname]

D

DAMN

WHAT

OMG I CAN FINALLY ANSWER THIS ASK IT RESET

EHEHEHEHE

[anti-terf-posts]

I think it’s pretty transphobic that my tits randomly hurt

like excuse you I don’t even want you why do you do this to me

/silly

LITERALLYYYY

[howlsofbloodhounds]

Canon nightmare feels like 'The haunting' but set it off and Canon killer feels like 'punching bag' by set it off but I Do Not have the words to explain my thought process so I will simply throw my thoughts at you

Read the lyrics, I can see it.

[somegrumpynerd]

dropping my fursona off with yours for a play date/silly

Do you wanna put a podcast or a lets play on for background noise while we sit nearby and do crafts in silence?? :D

[denieatsart]

steals your noodles!!

My rotini :(

[iamunabletothinkofablogname]

you can use my medicare card- [which totally works outside of australia]

Want to join a cult? @iamunabletothinkofablogname cult to be exact

what are the health benefits

[sunnymainecoon]

steals your noodles!

MY NOODLES!!😭😭

[toffeebrews]

it’s a great song

so much so

I’ve been listening to it for the past nine hours-

God you are me earlier, I listened to it for about four hours straight while working on the comic.

I did draw the chorus but I really enjoy the verses because what it reveals about the victim and the character singing themself. "Pleasing everyone isn't like you" and "You've played all the rules. It takes the truth to fool me" are bangers.