#it's true! so bad! it's not romantic!
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Alicent & Helaena



𝐒𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐝
I can't blame Alicent for what she did to Helaena, because she didn't know any other life.
Like mother, like daughter 💔
I know a lot of people think Otto is smiling because Helaena made a toast in public, but f*cking seriously? She literally screams for help, and he smiles and says "good"
Helaena has a scared face and panic in her eyes when asked about Aegon.
Alicent forcibly smiles through pain.
#it's true! so bad! it's not romantic!#cry for help! a smile of pain on their faces!#helaena has a scared face!#helaena targaryen#phia saban#alicent hightower#olivia cooke#hotd greens#team green#pro helaena targaryen#pro alicent hightower#viserys targaryen#anti viserys targaryen#helaegon#anti helaegon#anti helaegon stans#helaegonedit#helaena x aegon#hotd s2#hotd#hotd s1#house targaryen#house of the dragon#asoiaf#hbo#dance of the dragons#fire&blood#otto hightower#aegon ii targaryen#anti aegon ii stans
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listen i love snufmin as much as the next fella but most people i've encountered who ship it are like "ooh! aah! snufkin is so cool and mysterious, he must be dangerous (but in like a sexy way) and knows all the ways to woo someone-"
listen. listen. if snorkmaiden is anything to go by, then moomin would canonically be the more experienced with relationships. i bet snufkin doesn't even know how to hold hands /hj
#moomin#moomins#snufkin#moomins headcanon#snufmin#in seriousness i hc moomin as being better at social interaction than snufkin#which means that in addition to being more sociable#moomin is also observant in terms of others behaviour#so he has more experience with romance#and more knowledge to know when someone is bad news#meanwhile snufkin#for all his ability to read the land#has next to zero knowledge on how people work#so he tends to be blindsighted when it comes to things like romance#and would be more willing to put his trust in someone who poses no immediate harm#regardless of that person's true intentions#this is just a long way of saying that#despite being the cuter one#moomin would be the ''dangerous'' and romantically inclined one#while snufkin would be the blushing maiden#(all of this is my headcanon btw)#(i'm just rambling mindlessly please don't take this post seriously)
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Death Mark II thoughts
I'm like 8 months late, but I finally finished it-- and by finish, I mean I watched a playthrough.
It's been a year, but just in case: Spoilers Below
I think it's pretty significant that in order to get the true ending, Yashiki has to make it extremely clear to Sakamoto that his relationship with Michiho and Himeko is completely platonic. In fact, it seems that this is the only difference between the Good and True Ending.
In the Good Ending, he doesn't get that message through and that leads to Sakamoto pushing The Departed even harder to distance themselves from Yashiki, ultimately leading to her demise. I think this outcome happens because Sakamoto's insistence that the two girls keep their distance still expresses to The Departed that there is still a real possibility that they can get together with Yashiki. And as much as they want love and marriage, I don't think that was their ultimate desire-- and I don't think Departed!Douryou was lying when she said she disapproved of student-teacher relationships.
So then, Yashiki making Sakamoto understand that his rapport with the girls comes from concern for their safety and taking their worries seriously rather than anything else is what turns the tide. That Sakamoto allows Michiho to continue to investigate with Yashiki implicitly tells The Departed that Yashiki isn't interested-- and as such, he won't take advantage of their love (for him).
When The Departed died, their excitement for marriage and (most likely undeveloped) love for their chosen grooms were exploited by the adults they trusted. At that age, even if they later turned to feel indifferent or even hate their husbands in time, it was a time they should've been allowed to cherish those emotions. Kind of like that one reading of Romeo and Juliet, where the tragedy lies in the fact that children were not allowed to experiment with love due to the adults and the situation around them. I think this is also shown with how Departed!Douryou just wanted Yashiki to acknowledge Departed!Michiho loves him even if he can't accept it. Just because he knows that it is a love that will fade or immature, it is a real emotion to the girls experiencing it and it would be cruel to disregard it; unlike the priests who took advantage of these feelings to arrange the marriage only to ignore them once they started the ritual, if that makes sense.
(It might also be why Sakamoto later apologizing and allowing Departed!Michiho to continue investigating with Yashiki plays into her survival and the True Ending achievement: before while she was worried about keeping the girls safe from a potential predator, Yashiki has already made it clear to her before this point that he's not interested in them, but her main issue laid in how the situation could be misconstrued from an outside perspective regardless of intentions; even if she did accept that Yashiki wasn't going to go after the girls, she was largely worried about the girls' reputation and future-- as well as the school's. It's only when Yashiki makes it clear to her that his concern involves the general student population with all the "disappearances" as well as actually listening to his (temporary) students that Sakamoto relents. The priests had been preoccupied with tradition and the appearance of the brides, even the standards of choosing the grooms and brides were based on social reputation, somewhat reminiscent of Sakamoto (even if she genuinely cared for the students, it was in a way that overlooked their actual thoughts and feelings [i.e. the rising fear of The Departed or in the girls' case, wanting to be listened to]). So Yashiki's stubborn compassion and perseverance created change in the girls' environment that gave audience to their voice in a way.)
Which is all to say: The Departed truly let go of their grudge and "changed" for the better/"chose their humanity" because Yashiki had been a safe person to love-- not because he would love them back, but because he never would. The "marriage" in the True Ending then is a way for The Departed to safely live out a romantic daydream without the fear that they'll be hurt by it, as they had been when they were sacrificed. And I think it's Yashiki's adamancy on maintaining that boundary as well as making it clear to the adults around him and pushing for them to change their focus to treasure the girls' opinions that pushed The Departed to hold hopes and dreams once again, which they entrusted to the real Michiho and Himeko.
#could also be why that the bad ending is yashiki guessing the departed's identity wrong#because he was blinded by his affection for the girls and unwilling to doubt them#even if it isn't romantic affection. it is still yashiki overstepping a bit over the student-teacher/child-adult boundary#and him being unable to properly view the relationship from an outsider/more mature perspective#death mark#anyways. i thought that part of the game was nice. how they kept repeating that yashiki didn't at all see the girls like that#and how that is the key to obtaining the true ending where yashiki actually saves some students#instead of having all of them die/go 'missing'#though. i still find it so uncomfortable that they just continue having the girls crush on him#and he just fucking. lets them have coffee inside his house#like. come one... yashiki. set a stronger physical boundary...#also found it just weird how he immediately caves to leaning on high school girls for emotional support#even if he didn't know they were the departed. actually /ESPECIALLY/ since he didn't know they were the departed
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The Hazbin Graduate’s Guide to Homicide (3)
HAZBIN'S MIDSEMESTER STUDENT REPORT Student: Vox Vanhal Supervising Staff: Professor Enoch Leviathan Sponsor: Not Applicable To the Board: Vox Vanhal may be one of the most brilliant students this school has seen in decades. In all my years of teaching at Hazbin, I have never met a student more insanely ready to learn and apply their skills- due in part, of course, to said student's own possible insanity. I mean this in a jovial way, of course, but I will admit that when young Vanhal's true identity was revealed to me that my first thought was along the lines of 'is this student insane?' Whether or not my student's reason should be called into question is something myself and my fellow professor Asmodeus have discussed in length, but there is one thing that we can definitively agree on: If there is any one student in this school who I would choose to place my bets on, it would be Vox Vanhal. There is nothing more to say at this time of report evaluation. Sincerely, Professor Leviathan.
May God's blessings be with you now and at the hour of our deaths, Amen.
[ 1 ] / [ 2 ] (<- read these first for context and more murder academy radiostatic content!)
Though Alastor may have thought that Vox was much more knowledgable in how Hazbin's Institution for Homicide worked, the truth was, Vox was still fully flying on the seat of his own coattails.
He had no damn clue what he was doing still, and although it'd been two weeks since he'd arrived, part of him still felt like how he did when he'd first arrived: hesitant, scared, not knowing where to go or what to do besides the want to make his boss suffer as he killed him.
That level of animosity might sound strange to anyone not a Hazbin student or alumnus, but it was perfectly normal for any student enrolled in the academy to have such feelings. After all, there was quite a rigorous process involved in the application, and for Vox, this application process (and what led to it) was perhaps more intense than most.
There had once been a time where Vox had dreamed of becoming a Hollywood starlet, one who lit up the silver screen and was blessed by hundreds of thousands of cheering, dedicated fans who would fawn over his every move and action. He'd wanted to follow in his mother's footsteps, at one point. But after taking on his first roles in Carmine Studios, the glamour of Hollywood had shattered like fine glass.
"Miss Vesper! Would you please look over here for a second?"
"Miss Vesper, when is your next movie coming out?!"
"Miss Vesper, is it true that you and your co-star on Anna Karenina, Valentino Vega had an affair-?"
"Fuck! Fuck, fuck, fuck! That- fucking bastard!" Vox rushed into the privacy of his and Val's shared apartment, slamming the door behind him as he collapsed into the couch, head cradled in his hands. He couldn't even begin to start detailing the number of ways he'd wanted to fucking butcher and rip apart his boss.
Andrealphus Goetia was no stranger to the spotlight, naturally. One of Hollywood's top directors, the man had been an influential cornerstone in the history of movie-making, a real legend to light the days. But behind that picturesque platinum reputation laid a monstrous piece of shit.
It had been a complete accident that Andrealphus had found out about Vox's identity.
Vox himself hadn't even really planned out what to do about himself at that point, only that he'd known that the dresses he wore on screen were far more suited to his best friend than they were for him. Knew that the copious amounts of makeup flattened on him everyday made him feel more like a clown than a princess, that it was the most uncomfortable feeling to have to sit and play the pretty face for the audience's sake.
But he persisted, telling himself, one more year, one more year til my savings account has enough to supply Val and I with a comfortable life and we can leave.
But of course- of course Andrealphus had to ruin it for him.
The man had found out and immediately proceeded to blackmailing Vox with the information, holding things such as promotions, media gossip and rumors over his head. And now... now... Vox stared down at the script he held clutched in his hand, his knuckles turning white as he grasped it with an iron grip.
"Dieser verdammte bastard," Vox muttered under his breath.
Though he'd never loved the spotlight that came with his first taste of fame, he had loved acting. Had loved being adored for his skill, applauded for the emotions that he could evoke in crowds of people and the way he could twist people's hearts. He had wanted to be one of the best, a household name.
And now, he stared down at the script for a movie that Andrealphus knew would tank his reputation. It was absolute bullshit. The plot was held together by thin strings and a bit of glue, despite being an adaptation of one of the past decade's best selling books. Not only that, but the moment he left the safety of the apartment once more, he would also have to contend with the rumors that were steadily piling against him and dragging his loved ones and friends into it too.
All this, because Vox had refused to sleep with his shitty boss.
He could still hear the fucker's voice- come on, don't you wanna say that you got a piece of me? I'll even leave out the part about you being a transvestite, darling, just the fact that I got a piece of you is enough.
God. If only.... if only he could see that bastard's face when he crushed his fucking skull in between his hands. He wanted to see Andrealphus' stupid face contort in revulsion and terror when Vox finally did the deed, wanted to bathe in the the fotze's inbred blood. He'd do anything for the chance to just kill that piece of shit-
"Amorcito?"
Val's voice makes Vox jump on the spot, quickly shifting to hide the script from view. His friend comes around the corner, eyebrows furrowed with concern, and it's this that makes Vox break his composure, a single tear falling down his face as Val frowns, taking a seat next to him on the couch. "Voxxy, amor... tell me what's wrong."
And because he can never keep his mouth shut when it comes to his best friend, Vox tells him everything. Val nods along, pauses at the right moments, all of that stuff that friends do when they're trying to let you know that they'd rip apart your shitty boss if not for the law.
But- and perhaps this is something that Vox knew deep down to be true anyway- Val was a bit different in that aspect. He'd met the man under... less than legal circumstances, after all, and he knew that Val was the heir to quite the illustrous cartel career.
So when Valentino stops him with a firm hand on the shoulder and hands him an application paper for Hazbin, telling him to think it through, Vox barely takes even a second glance at it before filling it out.
Now, two months later and sitting in the auditorium of Hazbin's famed Music Hall, Vox doesn't find himself regretting the decision. Sure, it's a bit lonely without Val's supporting presence by his side, but the students he's met so far have proved to be some of the friendliest people he's had the pleasure of knowing: ironic, considering the kind of school they're studying at. And he's even managed to make a friend! Not that bad a start, altogether.
Vox absentmindedly doodles on the edge of his notes as Professor Leviathan's soothing voice lectures them on the importance of a proper alibi. "If it walks like a duck, quacks like a duck, looks like a duck, but it has an airtight alibi, it is...?"
"Not a duck," the auditorium echoes back to the professor, who nods, looking satisfied with the class's response. "So, then! The first step to alibi making is...? Miss Velvette, perhaps you'd like to answer this one for us?"
The girl sitting beside Vox shoots up in her seat, looking as if she'd just fallen asleep and was awoken by the professor's question. "Uh... the..."
After a moment of silence and stuttering, Vox takes pity on the girl, sliding Velvette over a slide of paper that she squints at before reading. "Make sure you're in a different place from the crime?"
"And how would I do that?"
"I... uh. Use an accomplice...?" Velvette stutters.
Professor Leviathan shakes his head, looking disappointed. "Not quite. One thing you will have to learn at Hazbin's is that you should never rely on any other person to carry your deed out for you. No hiring accomplices- after all, paid personnel's loyalty is shaky and they have no honor code preventing them from taking you to the police- and absolutely no committing crimes as lovers, unless you can guarantee that neither of you will be snitching. Would anyone else like to take a try?"
Vox raises his hand hesitantly. "Move the crime scene or otherwise obscure the culprit?"
Professor Leviathan snaps his fingers, "Yes! Absolutely. One of the best ways to make yourself an iron clad alibi is, if the pope is shot in the church at midnight, make sure that you are seen halfway across town in the bar at midnight; so drunk that you cannot even leave until your wife comes to pick you up at two- and no one will suspect you, even if he was actually killed right outside the pub and moved to the church instead. By moving the crime scene, you can make yourself an ironclad alibi. Obscuring the identity of the perpetrator and making it someone who couldn't possibly be you also works splendidly. After all, if the police believe the murderer to be a six foot tall adult man, then the actual perpetrator, a four foot tall young woman, would be able to pass by completely unnoticed. Thank you for that input, Vox. Now, onto the actual creation of such an alibi..."
When class ends, Vox is the first to leave his seat and head for the door, intending on leaving and getting to Track with Professor Satan as quick as possible when someone stops him in his tracks with a firm grip on his shoulder.
"Hey. Vox Vanhal, right?"
"That would be me, yes," Vox turns to face the person he's talking to, only to be met with the young woman that Professor Leviathan had called out in class earlier. "You were... Velvette?"
"Yep, that's me," the chipper young woman responds. "Listen, I know you don't know me at all, but I really need to get through this school year. Like- look, okay, I'm in a little bit over my head right now. I still want to go here and do what everyone here does, of course, I'd love to just go and plunge a damn butcher's knife into my cunt of an ex-friend's neck, but... well, you saw how I did back in class- look, what I'm trying to get at is I need someone to help me. And you're like, Leviathan's star student. So- I don't care what I have to do, I'll-"
Vox holds up a hand to stop her.
"I don't need you to do anything for me, unless you've got any tips on how to kill my boss and make him suffer during it. But I'll help you with whatever you need to study during your courses. Just..." He pauses, taking a moment to think out what he's about to ask. "Could you teach me how you did your makeup on your own?"
Velvette blinks, clearly not expecting that response. She laughs, a shrill, sharp bark and grabs his hand to shake it firmly. "Yeah, 'course I can. So, do we have a deal?"
"We do," Vox smiles. "Pleased to make your acquaintance."
#it would probably have made more sense for val to be the mean boss but i couldnt make myself go there#valvox friendship is still so dear and true to my heart im sorry villain val enthusiasts i couldnt do it#sorry andrealphus im sure youre not as bad a guy as im making you (i still have not watched hb)#there's not really much radiostatic in this installment sorgy#but on the brightside: i get to write vox and hes batshit insane and only keeping it together by the flys of his pants soo#Oh right. final thing to address voxs inner dialogue is VERY different from how he speaks proper bc hes used to covering up his feelings on#screen already so its really just like playing the role with everyone around him. but yeah he curses a lot and speaks german quite a bit#vals the only one (So Far) who he actually lets the mask down around and the relationship they have is soooorta weird cause vals gay but in#the way where he doesnt see vox as a 'real man' even tho he accepts and affirms his gender. so yeahhh thats complicated but it is the 50s#they do love each other but its not romantic. its like a qpr except one of them (val) sees it more as a lavender marriage#radiostatic#hazbin hotel#chai writes#ran rambles#EDIT FUCK I FORGOT TO TAG IT#the hazbin institution for homicide practitioners
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There is just something confusing me a lot but like. Why the narrative just suddenly pretended everything was abt them??? Like??? I know Ochako was important, obv, but. Doesn't it kinda feel like all that needed a little more build up???? Not just the very end?????
I'm with you on that! That's why I'll wait to see the whole chapter when all the pages are shown and the translation is there.
Something is just telling me, I don't know how to explain it but something just feels off.
I'll wait for the full course, I'm not accepting the crumbs.
#thinking about how people were going the final chapter is bad it's bad it's horrible#yeah bet it doesn't so bad right now does it?#seriously we don't know what any of these characters said!!#'hori used the ghost of toga to ---' make ochako realize she doesn't have to suppress her feelings and that doesn't mean romantic ones#toga herself was someone who wanted to be her true self and be happy#that's what she would have wanted for ochako#not 'go and have izuku's babies'#if hori really wanted those two to be canon he would have made that handholding a little more romantic#he drawn them holding hands before that looked more romantic#heck i have a feeling hori isn't the only one who worked on the epilogue#he does have editors you know#he ain't the best writer but i just have a gut feeling#kiya answers#bnha#mha#boku no hero academia#my hero academia#bnha manga spoilers#bnha spoilers#bnha epilogue
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Before we call anon rude because let’s see it from their perspective, imagine getting an entire feast to eat. That can be pretty hard to start with so much that’s going on, but if they start with one thing they know they’ll like (aka one character they like) that can be the start for them leaping to other characters to finish the story and the bigger story. I struggle the same way to start book series if I don’t have at least one character that drives me to read it, it’s all about what can be the hook to push them through. Sounds like the anon is neurodivergent (just a guess) so they might genuinely not see it as rude and see it as a solution to even play the game to start with.
Btw absolutely adore the game, the complex and rich characters making them all so unique is amazing. The art is so pleasing to the eyes I love it!! I’m waiting for it all to get out at once so I don’t get too impatient. Shae however interests me the most, which routes will have the most lore for them? Will there be routes that give more lore in general based on decisions you make or do they all share the same amount? (I mean general lore not just Shae lore)
Apologies; we are not trying to accuse any asker of being rude! We are simply explaining our perspective as the developers / are trying to broadly encourage folks to dip their toes into other areas of the story outside of the main route(s) they're interested in, especially considering some routes will be made available sooner than others, and these other routes will likely contain additional scenes/lore of everyone's fave(s) regardless! We want to give each main cast member an equal amount of love (and lore) regardless of their overall popularity, so our goal is not to tut-tut anyone for having strong preferences for one character over the others, but rather to explain that you may be surprised by how much *more* you learn about your preferred characters in the other routes. That's all!
For Shae... Well, they were a foot soldier for one of the worst periods of the War. Lore wise, any other story that touches on the War will likely have content relevant to them and their experiences. ^^
#ask#clotho answers#edit/final note: we got a *few* asks on this subject and will not likely answer all of them for the sake of our followers' dashboards#but we also want to note that part of our encouragements here come from the fact that Flan/Keagan are our most popular characters by a lot#and we want to do what we can to gently nudge folks who may not want to romance the fem / nb characters into checking out their stories#despite not being into them romantically. this is half of why we have platonic routes to begin with#we recognize veterans to the dating sim world may feel less inclined to romance characters that don't align with their irl orientations#this isn't a bad thing. some people steer clear of dating sims altogether because they're aro or just not interested in romance stories etc#but the unintentional side effect of this is it has a chilling effect on developers even in the indie sphere to make less diverse stories#if Flan and Keagan are our most popular characters then they will be our most *profitable* characters in the long run#and as much as we would love to not care about money and just produce the story we want to tell#we live in a society (tm) and need to eat#if at the end of ndm's development we see that 90% of our engagement went toward the boys it is hard to ignore the financial incentive#to redirect our energy toward leaning into the 'tried and true' formula that assures we can buy groceries and make rent#basically what i am candidly saying here is capitalism is pretty bad for creative liberty unless you're already rich / able to self finance#which we are not. and currently none of the core devs make *anything* from ndm#it would be nice if it does turn a profit but that isn't a guarantee - which the team has accepted as a normal risk in game development#anyway this is getting rambly but the Point is that this goes beyond us wanting to make sure all sides of our story are equally appreciated#it is *partly* that - we do want players to experience the entirety of our artwork#but it's not just for our egos - it's so we can keep making art like this#i considered including this in the body of the post but money talk suuucks man#and i don't want anyone to think we're glaring at them in a holier than thou 'ah-ha! you don't want to play maeve's route because she's a#woman!' sort of way because i think that's a reductive way to look at things#people like what they like and there's nothing intrinsically wrong with that#but if you like that we're making a diverse story#with masc routes fem routes and nb routes#even if you don't personally want to romance x or y#it would help us if y'all play the platonic routes#we are trying our very very best to make the fem/nb routes interesting for Everyone so those stories don't get sidelined#and if you don't like them for their own sake - fair enough! can't win em all and we'll deeply appreciate that you tried anyway!
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Theres been ~talk in town~ for at least a couple of years that me and my best friend are actually yknow wink wink and for the most part it stays a rumour about us being yknow wink wink
But every now and then someone says the quiet part out loud and its immensely funny to me - she's looking at renting a house rn and the owner asked unprompted whether I'd be moving in too
#i mean its funny and i feel bad for her#someone at one point said to her DAD we were together and her dad had to come back to her like uuuh. so i heard this thing#(she told him she liked men and that i quote 'likes nobody' which makes me either ace or a hater and both are true)#but man. imagine in the minds of people. being hitched to me#fate worse than death lmao#i'll give them this: i came back in 2019 to take on the shop and she came about a year later - in their view she probably moved back for me#which is the most profoundly sweet and romantic thing to have ever not happened to me
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I’m enjoying FF7 Rebirth more than Remake so far (I was so sick of being in that uglyass city), but as someone who is not familiar with the og FF7 the sudden party member affection system absolutely blindsided me
#me a completionist that wants to be besties w everyone: yeah of course I’ll climb the clock tower w you aerith!!#aerith later when we meet up w the rest of the party: we were on a DATE 🥰 teehee#me: 🤠 what#bg3 sucker-punched me like this too. cant i just hang out with my friends??? 😭#what about this was even romantic?? 😭 we just walked up some stairs#i wish rebirth was default platonic with the option of romantic routes if you choose a romantic dialogue option or something#i should be able to max affection without threat of romance#like aerith’s quest in costa del sol is killing me. i want to complete it so bad but i can’t unless i go on a date with her#and i can’t do it like that’s zack’s girl lmao even if he’s dead i can’t help feeling like it’s the zack inside of cloud drawing#cloud and aerith together like that (in a romantic sense)#it’s like the same reason i can’t get behind repliku w namine or sora w namine#the true source of those feelings come from someone else/someone else’s memories and feelings#and/or those feelings are for someone else#so it feels like a lie to me. it’s not the truth. idk#I’m a big fan of the friendship between cloud and aerith. they were my faves in remake#but new context makes romance between them feel kinda :/#you know what i mean? idk#anyway. please just let me be best friends with everyone
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I had a dream about my childhood friend last night. You ever just have a hole in your life thats a cold heavy question. Like, are we too different now to ever be that close again? Could we understand each other? Will we meet again? It’s like having a rope tied on a bollard with other end stretching too far to see. And you could pull at it and see if its taught or it if it comes back, frayed and severed.
Anyway you ever wonder where your kid friends are these days?
#i always felt so bad because we stopped seeing each other because i was realizing i was gay#and i felt like i couldnt share that#so i became closed off#and i dont know#what if she was like me? or didnt care?#what i would give to have a cup of coffee with her now#because she was the first person to choose to love me#and went out of her way to get time with me#and it feels like the first real proof that im desirable#not in any kind of romantic way#but like#as me#and yeah that was as kids but idk#if someone picked me for hundreds of weekends#that means a lot#and even so the whole time i doubted it#despite the fact that we didnt go to school together and she lived 15 miles away#somehow i thought it couldnt be true?#this is a reallly long way to say i miss her#its like#over 10 years since we’ve been friends#and yeah! it turns out you can still miss someone 10 years later
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Me: I wonder what my f/os would like about me... ...wait what is there even to LIKE about me in the first place?
F/os: *burst into the room* Alright that's it we're doing an intervention *brings out a PowerPoint about why I'm not that big of a piece of shit*
#very self indulgent ik lol#i asked on a server how do people know what their f/o likes about them and i felt kinda bad cuz i'm not good at this#but they were very nice and helped 💜#but tbh i struggle about this not only because i'm not confident into my way of writting a canon character#but also because i legit don't know what is likeable about me#i can give you so many reasons of why i'm an awful person#but positive stuff about me? i gen can't tell#especially romantically#idk what a lover could love in me since nobody has loved me that way#nobody's attracted to me and i must have like one pseudo relationship for a month or less so idk what the guy liked in me#i need someone to tell me “i am attracted to you and i love you because this and this#i just can't imagine it on my own#the only thing i can see my f/os loving about me is my love for them#but that makes “i love that you love me” dynamic instead or a true “i love you for who you are” and i don't like that
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Ppl are genuinely so weird lmao
Ah yes, I'm sure a man who calls himself Orpheus and commits crimes with the intention of improving Alice's condition has nothing but platonic feelings for his childhood bestie and is motivated JUST by guilt teehee
[I'm being sarcastic btw],
#identity v#Orpheus does not love Alice as a brother LOL#i dont think ppl rlly realize Orpheus is not his true name but a name he picked for himself...#where is that one meme were its like:#when two character have the most romantic coded relationship in the show#but people can't see it because they want to be spoonfed romance#this is what living in the EU/NA IDV community is like for people with media literacy#Im so sorry Orpheus... I'm so sorry people think you don't want to kiss Alice so bad it makes you do stupid and fucked up shit#see what i love abt IDV is that it's a chinese game... so its not like these trolls in EU/NA have any power to make them change anything#but god... i wish i was on lofter... theyre having a whole party over there
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people were talking about how perth and chimon really sell being high school students despite being in their 20s and it’s so true and i’ve come to realize it’s because they really act like high schoolers 😭😭 script wise and acting choices like these are just two very dramatic teenage boys not knowing how to go about the fact they like each other. every thing they do and the way they react to situations (especially kang) feels very high school i love it.
#they’re really selling it watching them act is my fav part of this series so far#even if the script was bad which i don’t think it is this was my fav ep so far actually i would stick around for the acting alone#i was watching a reaction and they were talking about how the audience can tell it’s romantic but to them they don’t realize that at all#and it’s so true#dangerous romance#b speaks
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This is a thought that really deserves like. 10 more paragraphs about the dimensions of trauma and the fawn response to abuse but I do think about how deeply Sadao and Hotaru’s other boyfriends affected him, as has his work.
That even in a romantic context where it is reciprocated, Hotaru is always waiting. He’s like.. at the edge. I don’t know how to describe it. Like whenever he needs to make a decision, he teeters over the edge and watches his partner to figure out what he should be doing.
This is the fawn trauma instinct and the host instinct. Hotaru, who waits to see what his partner wants, so he can give it to them and tell them what he thinks they want. The sort of person to give them his credit card and buy them whatever they want and it’s spoiling in a way but also defensive.
Hotaru who doesn’t speak first, waits, then speaks. In a way, I’d argue it’s almost worst than his standoffishness initially because he pushes others away only to completely fold and lose the ability to self advocate when he finally has someone.
It makes me so. Romantic love makes him uneasy I’ve been thinking about that. Waiting to perform, waiting to do what he’s told, never expressing preference. Just so unimaginably hollow. Grips him. Squeezes.
I need to go out but I’ll probably be back with like a 1k word head canon about this because one thing about a Haju post is that she’ll use 100 words where 10 will do.
#ooc.#psyche.#I was reading a manga and like#the character and hotaru had such similarities it was like#the last dot I needed to connect it and realize that like#he’s so accommodating because he’s turned off his ability to state what he wants#he can do it in every context except a romantic one#and it’s not just Sadao#there are other unnamed boyfriends who also did a number on them#boyfriends who cheated or boyfriends who broke up with him over trivialities#I think he did earnestly try for a loving relationship after Sadao#but honestly in true hotaru bad luck fashion I think#the person was treating a relationship w another man as temporary#and hotaru got way too ahead of himself#and thought they’d be serious#only to come crashing down when it wasn’t the case
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i don’t think we’re ever getting out of the “we’re just friends” “oh yeah those characters are such good friends (sarcasm)” “they’re not friends they’re gay” etc etc hole. we’re never getting out of that hole
#yes it’s bad when people try to erase gay relationships to portray them as friends and nothing more#that is NOT what i mean. i’m talking about when people do the Opposite Thing and decide that when characters are romantic togethr#then suddenly they’re not friends anymore! or if they say they’re friends they’re lying!#like … i was watching nimona with my friend yesterday and like. if you’ve seen the movie you know how obviously gay and in love bal and#ambrosius are. and then there’s this one moment where ambrosius says ‘i have lost everything the man i love my best friend’ and at that#moment my friend was like It’s sad that they decided to censor their relationship even though this movie is still rly gay :( and i was like#WHAT are you saying ? these two men are clearly in love with one another BUT they’re also best friends. Like those are things that can#coexist!! and DO coexist!!! there are many cases where people consider their romantic partners their best friends . or even refer to them as#their best friends more than just partner!!!!!! LIKE WHAT ARE YOU SAYINGGGG . does anybody get it#does anybody understand#i’m so sick of amatonormativity i’ll start eating drywall#yes i love making ‘oh they seem like really good friends’ jokes because i know how most people interpret those jokes. but to me it’s like#well. they ARE really good friends. they’re just also romantic/gay about it. ghhehghh#maybe one day friendship will stop being seen as something lesser maybe one day people will realize that most romance is also friendship#and your partner can be and in most cases is your friend or your best friend even#and maybe one day we’ll stop acting like friendship & romance are two mutually exclusive things#and maybe sure that gay character is calling their love interest their Best Friend because of denial and repressed emotions and whatever#but have u considered that it’s just true and they really are best friends ?? like when crowley calls az his best friend sure that might be#gay denial but they also literally Are best friends i don’t know what to tell you. and they will always be best friends#DOES ANYBODY GET IT !!!!!!!! js any of this making sense i dont know. I love complaining#crammerposting
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I really, really need a girls hang-out day and gossip. I've just spent about an hour crying steadily over feeling heart-broken and adrift. I need a big group of girls sitting on sofas, drinking tea/prosecco, watching romcoms and just putting it in perspective.
#siiiigh#i am really in such a funk#but also spending most of my summer either intensively at a summer school or one on one with my mum is actually a bit draining#and my mum is very bored by and somewhat upset by my eternal romantic woesand#miseries#so I can't really talk to her about it#because she just gets upset and suggests I should get therapy#which is probably true but no therapist has actually helped on this matter yet#which makes me feel even worse#but i wish i could talk about it to someone#holly tells me i should just be very blunt and say how i feel#but i just simply cannot bear the rejection#i just can't#but my heart is already breaking continuously so maybe it should just break quickly in one go#idk idk idk i am so very bad at this#everything seems so dark and unmanageable
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