#it's strange to think. i was very much thinking of joining that server since i first saw hexed and june co-owned one

[shock-micro]

oh so that's why my allergies are flaring up, it seems my dashboard is going up in flames!

very glad i'm not a part of that drama, and i hope my mutuals that are are doing well in the face of it.

[bwabys-scenarios]

CAN YOU PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DO PERV ILLUMI i do not think there is enough perv illumi content on this app

He’s a perv

Perv!Illumi x Fem!Reader

A/N: sorry this is short and may resemble my other perv writings… but I hope y’all like it! Join my server

warnings: pervy Illumi, yandere behavior, masturbation, panty stealing, he’s kind of yucky, breeding, pregnancy

NSFW: @lightshowerrr @jungtoast @nenggie @pannacottababy @aliceattheart @atransmuter

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Illumi had never experienced sexual attraction before. Had he gotten some morning wood once or twice? Yes, but he rarely felt the urge to jack off.

That was… until he met you.

He wasn’t quite sure what made you so appealing. You looked ordinary, at least… you should have. Illumi had been surrounded by the worlds most beautiful women since he was but a boy… yet here he was, getting hard over a girl he had barely met.

Maybe it was your soft curves, or the ways your hips swayed when you walked… it could have even been your sweet voice, and those pretty, glossy lips that made him want to pull you in and taste the shiny lipgloss you were wearing…

Whatever it was, ever since he first laid eyes on you, Illumi’s body had been acting strangely. Even a whiff of your perfume could have his cock twitching, standing at attention and ready for you… it was quite embarrassing, or it would have been if Illumi had any shame.

No, the only reason Illumi his his overwhelming desire for you was because he wanted these feelings to go away as quickly as possible. He couldn’t fall for some nobody Hunter with nen weaker than all the other applicants that had passed with you. No, Illumi was supposed to marry the best of the best, a woman whose womb could bear a strong heir.

But… that didn’t stop him from acting on some of his urges…

Unfortunately, Illumi couldn’t seem to let you out of his sight. It was annoying, following you around as you did your little daily chores in town. He could hardly get any work done when you looked so cute. You didn’t even realize your panties were showing when you bent over to pick up a coin…

When he couldn’t be constantly watching over you, Illumi would steal little trinkets from your home to… keep him satiated. Used panties, your lipgloss, and clothing items that smelled like your perfume.

He’d wrap your panties around his cock as he jerked off, your cardigan pressed against his face. If he really focused, he could imagine your pussy tightening around him, your plump thighs pressing against him as he bounced you on his cock…

He’d cum buckets into your panties, then break into your apartment and drop them off on your floor, like a cat leaving a dead mouse as a gift.

After a while, his urges grew and grew, until your panties just weren’t enough for him anymore.

Wooing you wasn’t too hard, and getting into your pants was easier than he would have though. The fact you were a virgin was very surprising… but welcomed. After all, he was a virgin as well.

The second his cock sunk into you, he immediately knew that he could never let you go. To hell with a strong heir, he wanted you, and only you. You were the only one that could make him feel this way… soft, vulnerable, and so goddamn horny.

Poor, poor you, having Illumi fuck into you for hours on end, unable to pull out of your pretty, warm cunt. He fucked so much cum into you that you felt so swollen and full…

Even after he was done, he didn’t pull out. Instead, he held you close, kissing the top of your head. “You’re all mine, darling. I’ll have wedding preparations ready within a week.”

You were much too exhausted to argue… and you weren’t sure you could say no to Illumi Zoldyck… so you just slept, accepting your fate. You’d be taken care of, and would never have to worry about anything ever again.

Shortly, Illumi would have his now pregnant wife in his home, where she would be safe, and where he could ravish her whenever he felt like it.

[yandere-writer-momo]

I recently joined a discord server full of a lot of different people and one of them has really taken a like to me. So they have inspired me to make this piece 🥰

Yandere Imagines: We’re Soulmates

GN Yandere Online Friend x GN Reader

Yandere Online Friend who was so happy to become friends with you. The two of you have so much in common! It’s like your meeting was destined!

Yandere Online Friend who always replies to every message you send. They no longer converse with anyone else in the group since you’re their favorite! Won’t you keep them company? They promise to never be strange!

Yandere Online Friend who sends you voice messages and always texts you happy birthday. They want to know more about your life. More about you! What’s your favorite color? What’s your favorite animal? What keeps you up at night? They simply cannot get enough!

Yandere Online Friend who shares tattoo ideas with you and casually mentions how they’d tattoo your face on them. Don’t be alarmed! They just think a beautiful face like yours deserves to be immortalized on their body until they’re old and gray. It’s not too crazy to tattoo an attractive person on one’s body, right?

Yandere Online Friend who is mind blown you have the same music taste! You enjoy that band too! They thought they were one of the only listeners since they’re not very well known… you have to be their soulmate! There’s no other logical explanation on how you share so much in common with them.

Yandere Online Friend who wants to video chat whenever you’re free. They want to know what you’re up to and they want to see your face. How can you be so attractive?! Gosh… would you want to date? The two of you could really hit it off! They were positive of it.

Yandere Online Friend who makes subtle passes at you and begins to rain down compliments on you. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to them! Please return their feelings… they’ve never felt such an intensity before. They loved you and you must feel an inkling of feelings back, right? Why else would you talk to them so much? Because you had a crush! Duh!

Yandere Online Friend who doesn’t take your gentle rejections to heart. You didn’t want a long distance relationship? That was understandable! They were perfectly find uprooting their life to be with you! They wondered if you’d like to come to them… if not, they could certainly move close to you. They didn’t have much going for them in their city anyways.

Yandere Online Friend who begins to save money so they can meet you in real life. They want to know you! They have to know you… you’re amazing! You’re perfect and they will stop at nothing until you’re finally in their arms.

[watobu]

i think ken followed wifies into unstable to watch her, to make sure hes surrounded by the right people. robotic or biological clone, the strange differences and inhuman features are still somewhat visible, his eyes shouldn't glow, his movements shouldn't mimic people as much as they should, no human has wires and small creases in the skin similar to a robot's build. it's noticeable if you look closer. her eyes could be heterochromatic white and black, wifies's eyes should be brown. they always were brown. why aren't they brown? parrot should notice, anyone should.

so ken follows her, and watches the way parrot treats him, the way everyone treats him. ken listens for any insults, anything said that could make wifies feel less human. they don't want him to feel that way. think overprotective bf except those 2 aren't dating but they both deeeefinitely have some sort of thing for eachother, they just both don't realize it. ken wants nothing but the best for wifies in unstable, so he joined to watch her and everyone around her.

"a very special someone" okay dude just say u and wifies kissed when she got out of the chunkban.

im yapcity right now i woke up like 15-20 minutes ago but my god i love the idea of ken following wifies through unstable and thats why he shows up so randomly. same goes for wato honestly. i think those 3 are all in kahoots with one another.

this is making me realize i make ken sound like she has some huge fixation on wifies, in soooo many different ways. he wants to do anything for him, he wants to watch him, know everything about him, in all of the ways possible. ken could be like borderline obsessed with wanting to know where wifies is at all times, and knowing he's getting the best treatment possible since he's not there to give it usually due to unstable's people. it isn't safe, ken knows the server isn't safe, he wants to make wifies safe though. ( despite the fact wifies is literally just a constant damsel in distress )

hey guys my yapathon! it probably makes zero sense!

[cherrynwinesk]

Not really a fic but any headcanons with this idea? Reader is a big streamer so quackity asked them to join the qsmp server, they kinda talked earlier so they know about each others existence but it's not like they were ever friends. How would quackity act after he started to develop a crush on reader??

🍒:It's very long, sorry

Quackity Headcanon's

Added to QSMP

Story g: sfw

Language: English/Inglés

⚠️: None

CC's: Quackity

Reader g: Neutral reader

📝: All the content is fictitious and an attempt is made to adapt the PUBLIC personality of the cc's, that is, the personality that is shown in front of cameras, I do not know the true personality and any resemblance to reality is mere coincidence.

🍒: Hello, writing requests are always open, if you want something in particular, ask without fear. I clarify that English is not my main language, I apologize for any error and accept corrections to improve the quality of the content

Master List

•The invitation to be part of the QSMP would arrive in your business email

•You would be so busy streaming, editing some videos for YouTube that you hadn't even noticed that email

•Your manager would notify you of this

•You had heard about the server, even watched some clips on tiktok, but you didn't know what the main function was or what it was about, you only knew that Quackity was the owner

•You came to feel confused, you had never had contact with Quackity, you had never spoken, you had never met at any event, so why would he invite a stranger to his precious project?

•You had friends in common, but fate had never brought you together

•You thought about the invitation, since you had many things to do, including creating your plan for the entire week's content on stream and organizing your schedules to be able to edit

•So stay at the highest level where you have always been among the biggest creators in the world

•But you didn't have many ideas currently, so you considered the invitation

•Quackity himself would immediately contact you

•You would like to plan everything directly with the server members so that there are no misunderstandings

•Both would schedule a call on Discord, trying to coincide with your free time

•There was not much communication between you until the day you agreed

•Nothing out of the ordinary, he would explain to you about the project, the creators who are already on the server, he would talk a little about the lore that some members already have

•It sounded very interesting by the way.

•You both got along very well, you were able to communicate easily and there were no problems in your first time interacting

•Agreed on a date on which you will join the server

•The day you would be announced as a member of QSMP Quackity would do his routine stream in Spanish playing a little time with Roier, Ironmouse, Forever or someone

•Then he would raid his main channel and in it he would talk about how he was excited for this new member, since you are a global content creator, and that it meant a lot to have you on his server (being humble)

•Immediately you were announced as part of QSMP, Twitter exploded

•Your name and Quackity being a trend, and it was all because no one expected this good news

•The next day you entered the server for the first time and started with the basics by playing Minecraft, wood, sticks, pickaxe, killing cows

•You immediately made a good relationship with the other members, it was such a relaxed atmosphere

•You have never laughed so much in your life

•Even outside the server that friendship continued

•But you were closer with Quackity

•You two had a humor that complemented each other

•There was no fear of saying something wrong, you could be yourself

•You might not think anything strange, for you it would just be a good friendship like with any other member

•But actually for Quackity it was a little different

•At first Quackity was a little excited that you would agree to be on his server

•First of all cause you are a big cc

•Quackity saw your content a few times, and knew that your personality would fit perfectly into QSMP

•From the beginning he liked the way you stayed active in your streams, never stopping talking, interacting with your chat even though your community was so big

•He even wanted to learn a little about you, because he knew that everything you were and had you got fairly

•You deserved everything you had and he even admired you too much

•He was so nervous about talking to you, doing something wrong or that something in the project wouldn't interest you, since he hadn't even hoped that you would accept the invitation

•Now that you were closer, Quackity started to feel different around you.

•He started to like you, but he still doesn't accept it

•At first he would think that he just likes you too much.

•But the day his sister asked him "Do you like y/n?"

•He'd notice and he'd be like "No, why do you ask that? He/she's my friend."

•Most likely, his sister had to hear about what happened inside QSMP, but you being the one he always mentions, that's why she would come to such a conclusion.

•Besides, Quackity would act very excited when it comes to you.

•"Your eyes shine when you talk about y/n" and his cheeks would be red.

•And Quackity would feel so comfortable with you

•He would really like your personality and that would be what made him fall in love.

•Also the way you bring out his true personality without fear

•Once he realized that if he actually liked you he would start to feel nervous around you.

•He would also go watch your streams while he is busy

•Over time he would also like you physically and too much

•Inside him maybe he would have this obsessive crush on you, but he doesn't want to show it.

•He would worry that you had a partner or that he wasn't your type

•More people around him would realize that he is in love and would convince him to tell you what he feels.

•He would refuse for a long time with the excuse that he is married to his job

•His friends would do him the favor (without Quackity asking) of asking you personal things

•Like if you have a partner, what kind of people do you like for a relationship, being very obvious (maybe Roier who doesn't care about anything or Baghera but she would be more subtle with the questions)

•Quackity would travel to meet you irl

•Once you were together he would try to show interest with subtle compliments

•Like saying you're smart

•Or talk about your hair color and mention that he like people with that color

•You would definitely understand and ask him if he is flirting with you

•He would get very nervous but he knows you got him

•"It's very obvious?"

•"Don't worry Quackity, Roier and Cellbit already told me everything"

[ts-witchy-archive]

Hello! I've seen a bit of wiccan (?) things for a while, if I were to start I wouldn't even know how to start though. (my autistic ass does not leave the house and my mom would probably think it's weird to make strange concoctions of things) I also don't really know how deities work and how do you find out which one your communicating with? Tbh I've always felt like someone is around but whatever god it is seriously fucking hates me /hj Been better since I started medication but like the luck I have is 50/50 good bad and that is probably not normal. If you answer this it'd be very helpful.

Hi! Thanks for the ask!

I just want to start by defining a few terms for you :)

Wicca/Wiccan: A pagan religion that focuses on nature, magic and witchcraft. It was founded in the mid 20th century and Wiccans primarily worship 2 Gods which are personifications of nature.

Witch: Just a person who practices witchcraft. It's a non-gendered term and a non-religious term/practice. Not all witches are Wiccan but all Wiccans are witches. Witches can be absolutely anyone

Personally, I'm not Wiccan so I can't really tell you much about that but if there is one thing I know, it's witchcraft! There are many different places to start but I'm going to condense it down as much as humanly possible. It'll probably feel like a bit of information overload so just try to take it slow and relax. Enjoy the learning.

My favourite book for beginner witchcraft is 'Witchery: Embrace the Witch Within' by Juliet Diaz. She is a fantastic author and wonderful human. Everything about the basics of witchcraft you could need is in that book (imo). You should be able to find a pdf online if you can't get a physical copy.

As for youtube channels with solid content:

Harmony Nice: She covers everything Wicca. She has a playlist with all her Wiccan/witchy content witch is linked here

The Witch of Wonderlust: Olivia has been a favourite witchy youtuber of mine for a while. I wouldn't recommend jumping into her videos without any prior knowledge but once you have a grasp on the bare bones it should be okay. Here is a playlist she made with everything you could possibly need when beginning witchcraft. SOrt through the videos and see what peeks your interest.

The Hearth Witch: Another wonderful account if I remember correctly. Her videos used to be on the longer end (30-60mins) so if you have a short attention span then maybe not but she has a wealth of information.

I also recommend joining a few discord servers, following a few pages on tumblr just to get acquainted with the community and terminology.

Okay, on to the deity work situation. Deity work is generally considered more intermediate in the witchcraft community. key words being 'Deity WORK'. Worship is completely fair game. Setting up an altar, praying, leaving offerings, doing activities in devotion to the deity is absolutely something you can do relatively quickly.

As for IDing a deity, most people do it through 'divination' which is things like tarot, a pendulum, dice, bone throwing, and other ways. Most people also ask for signs that a specific deity is 'reaching out' to them or wants them to pay attention. You can also politely ask someone who is volunteering their time on tumblr or a discord server to find out for you via divination. If they don't say their doing free readings, obviously, don't ask.

Finally. luck is luck. It makes no sense for a literal God to hate a human. We all have periods of shitty luck and awesome luck! I wouldn't blame that on anything. Sometimes bad things just happen unfortunately. But sometimes amazing things also happen, even if it's just as small is finding 5 cents on the footpath.

That was so long. Congrats if you made it to the end because I nearly didn't when writing this. I hope this helped a bit. Feel free to reach out if you need a hand with anything. Thanks :)

[aithnesroses]

One year ago today I joined discord! 🥳 Since then I’ve met amazing people, joined more communities, and even started writing fanfiction which I never thought I would do. It might sound strange, but I don’t think I would be the person I am today without meeting the people I have on discord, all starting from joining the dinbo server. And for that, thank you! ❤️

I’ve been extremely lucky that I’ve had so much support from friends and readers since I’ve started posting fanfic 💖 A couple of of my favourite fanfics I’ve written are linked here. Very happy with these in particular!

Happy Monday! 🩷

[calmthefuckdownalright]

Hello!! Could I possibly request some Phantombur x reader interactions?

Im answering these as quick as I can I promise-

Pairing: Phantombur x Reader

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Prompt: First Date

Wilbur pulled the chair out for you and scooted it under you, allowing you to adjust it as you wished. He took his seat across from you and presented a bottle filled with an odd liquid the color of black cherries.

"I conjured up a strength potion for us, I've got a whole evening planned." He smirked and pulled another identical potion before handing one to you and uncorking them both.

"Starting right from sunset i assume?" You asked sarcastically.

"Well of course, how else are you supposed to see my handsome face?" He smiled widely, showcasing his deadly canines and offered a cheers with his potion. You obliged and downed it with him.

Wilbur shook out his head and rolled his shoulders at the strong taste of the potion.

"Now then, I've set up promptly a whole feast basically for us but before we start I would like you to join me in a game of tag to get our appetites up." Wilbur clicked his tongue.

"So you sat me down like a gentleman for nothing?" You cocked an eyebrow at him.

"Basically yes."

Very much a gentleman and likely does stupid things on purpose to make you smile to make you remember how much fun you had so you'd go on a second date with him

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Prompt: Rocky Start

New to the server and the only other Elytrian in the Pub's interface you were bound to...make...some new friends. Phil had semi introduced you to everyone but the one called Wilbur, or more commonly Phantombur or oddly Ghostbur at times, did not seem very keen to be as friendly as the rest.

"Just give him time. He doesn't like new people. You should've seen it when I got here." Shelby was quick to befriend you and you often hung around at her cottage which was oddly close to the other Phantom's.

"Is he odd?" You asked.

"Depends on the day really. He's super nice once you know him though." Shelby had insisted so you spent the next few days trying to at least get the mischievous potion master to speak to you.

"alright look-" you entered Wilbur's shop with a handful of diamonds and a few gold bars as well. The shop owner looked up in startled surprise before a bored look replaced it. "If I buy out your supplies will you at least tell me why you think i'm scum of the earth?"

"What are you talking about?" Wilbur closed the book he had in his hand and removed the cigarette that hung loosely from his mouth.

"You've done nothing but scowl at me since I got here." You clarified and laid out the gems of payment. Then Wilbur laughed. Loudly and mockingly. He smirked and gazed at your differently, in a way like nothing else mattered.

"Darling I've been flirting with you this entire time waiting for this moment."

Seriously had no idea for this, got a random prompt generator so I really hope you were looking for some romance

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Prompt: Dying wish

"I only wish to see you again, in the next life perhaps."

The words were catastrophic and you had yet to see your husband after your death. For now you roamed a new plane, one of hybrids and monstrous species. You among them with powers unique.

Then something new happened. Someone arrived. A ghost. A phantom of a man with a charming smile and bright green eyes. Rumor had it he was cunning and handsome as they came. A similarity you couldn't bear to connect.

Then you saw him. Wilbur. Your Wilbur. Dead but here with you again.

"I guess we made it to the next life my love." He said when he saw you and nothing could stop you from running into his arms any longer. Years apart were torn down with a single embrace and loving kiss.

Wilbur built a business with you and constructed an strange and complicated shield of protection for you over the next years. You became untouchable lest the rest of the server face the wrath of the Potions Master Phantombur and his ever loyal wife.

"I guess they took till death do we part seriously." Charlie had joked once and earned a sound from Wilbur you longed for. His laugh, intoxicating and joyous.

Kinda sad but overall rather fun

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Prompt: Stolen heart

From what you knew, Phantombur was clever. If he wanted something he would find a way to get it and that was that. For weeks you had heard of supplies going missing and vaults penetrated but no signs of entry found. The work of a true thief.

And yet..you remained untouched and a regular at Wilbur's potion shop just for safe measure.

"You hear about Jack getting robbed?" You smiled as you entered the shop and picked out your usual order. A few regen and a strength potion.

"Weird innit?" Wilbur smiled at you and gave a convincing smirk.

"Totally weird. Heard he saw some real pretty green eyes close by earlier before it happened." You narrowed your eyes knowingly at him. "Similar to yours I do believe."

"Aw you think my eyes are pretty." Wilbur feigned flattery and chuckled.

"Can I ask you somethin Wilbur?" You leaned on his counter and the Phantom man mimicked your stance, his face inches from yours and smiling like a cat as always.

"Well of course darling." He responded slyly.

"Why haven't you stolen from me yet?" You questioned with a hushed voice and narrowed eyes.

"It's simple my dear," Wilbur rasied a hand and brushed a loose strand of hair behind your ear. "Your heart isn't just sitting in a storage room somewhere ripe for my taking."

PICK. UP. LINE. is all i could think of with this randomly generated prompt and I'm not gonna lie if you used this on me I just might perish

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[anton-exe]

ok so i just saw a bit of pointless fearmongering get spread on discord i just wanna write up

a quick guide to avoid being a spreader of fearmongering

first of all if it is already too late and you spread some fearmongering do not feel too bad for yourself. in my opinion, spreaders are the biggest victims here since they can get a lot of unjustified hate. we all make mistakes, it's okay

what do i mean by "pointless fearmongering"?

i mean some sort of "warning" that is encouraged to be spread to as many people as possible. here is an example of the one i mentioned at the beginning

There is a chance there could be a cyber attack happening on Discord today, where people will send you disturbing images or IP grabbers. I HIGHLY recommend not accepting friend requests from anyone you do not know. If you are offline it’s less likely to happen to you. Please take this seriously, don’t take any chances

let's analyze the problems here

most definitely the biggest of all, we are not given a source. this is a huge giveaway in many other contexts too. do not feel afraid to ask for a source or proof because you'll seem like a nerd

the author has somehow gained knowledge of the attack. if we think about this for a moment, how could they have feasibly predicted it could happen? it doesn't take too much to set up a few spam bots, so if anyone was planning an attack, we'd have no way to know in advance

the terminology used is extremely vague or inaccurate. let's look at some of the words used here. "cyber attack" seems like a very strange word choice for what seems to just be a spam bot wave. and why on earth would the same attack randomly use both ip grabbers and the shock value of "disturbing images" (which in itself is a bit vague)?

removal of personal blame by adding ambiguity.by saying "there is a chance" the author has removed all blame from themself when they're called out, since they never said it will definitely happen

poor fake authenticity

sometimes the author may forsake point 4 by creating a follow up to try make it seme stuff is actually happening, which in this case was:

The cyber attack did happen, so please do not accept any friend requests from anyone you do not know, and do not join any server sent to you through DMs. Stay safe!

we are still not given any proof anything actually happened here, which keeps this follow up as shady as the original

why though?

my best guess is ego. some server owner probably just felt like proving to themself they have some power and watched as people said they shared the announcement

if there's anything you take away from this, it should be that you should be skeptical, and ask for a source

[andromedaexists]

Now that the month is winding down, I will finally have time to update the Queer Book Directory! I have found a lot of amazing books to add thanks to a new server I have joined, but I specifically want to yell at you guys about @marsadler's book First Creation that is coming out this week!

First Creation is a love letter to fallen angels, rediscovering religion in a way that works for you, queer rage, and hunger of all kinds.

SUMMARY

Amitiel, an angel of God, and Stolas, a fallen angel-turned-spy, should be enemies. However, after they uncover a shocking secret that drives them to desert, they go on the run together in modern-day America. Both are injured, and it’s only by chance that they stumble upon a long-abandoned church. Ensconced in the alluring, stifling church with a forgotten cemetery and too many peach trees, they finally have time to heal. They also have time to think and plan, which is as much a blessing as it is a curse. Amitiel must come to terms with his strange hunger and forbidden desires, while Stolas plans their next move. They both grapple with the knowledge of where their food rations came from, and that something is very wrong in the heart of Heaven itself. God has vanished, and if he isn't giving the orders, who is condoning the atrocities the angels commit in the name of winning?

TWs (taken straight from mars' site)

death, murder, blood and graphic gore, graphic cannibalism, war, food rationing and mentions of starvation, manipulation, blood drinking (in a sexual situation), explicit sexual content

WHERE TO OBTAIN

Amazon (Kindle Edition)

There will be more, they mentioned uploading it to itchio at one point as well as potentially having paperbacks! So I'll update with those links when they are available

MARS ADLER

mars is an amazing friend and lovely part of the writing community, they have been incredibly supportive of me on discord, twitter, and instagram. it's actually why I'm making this post, their twitter was suspended just a few days before the release of this novella. That's kinda fucked and they deserve to have love showered on their work.

I will be reading this and reviewing it as soon as I can after it is released. Right now, I am reading The Sun & The Star and Junker 7, both of which I need to review and add to the QBD. I also need to move the QBD off of tumblr since there have been rumors of staff removing custom themes (boooo i hate). It will still be the same link and the same way to find it (through my page or at this link), but it will be hosted off site that way we don't loose it.

ANYWAYS, check out this book! I have very high hopes for it, everyone who has beta read it is screaming about how amazing it is. I can't wait to get my hands on it!

[lligkv]

In the midst of writing my last post, I learned Bret Easton Ellis actually has a new novel, The Shards, coming out this month. And mere days after I published the post, as the publicity campaign for The Shards rolled on in literature's very particular corner of the internet, some people on a Discord server I'm on weighed in. The discussion was acid; the general consensus was that Ellis was a shitty writer and that anyone who thought him worthy of redemption has suspect judgment and taste. I might argue with the first part—I think it comes from rating just Ellis's subject matter and public persona and disregarding the capacities he does have for style and craft, or from weighing Less Than Zero, which is definitely juvenilia, more heavily than his later works. But I don't think the latter is unfair, thinking about the public persona and how, on a publicity tour, that's ultimately what's being redeemed... And it did make me flush a bit to think of any of the folks on that server—who are lovely people, fun to talk to, with fine taste of which I often reap the fruits; I have several books they've recommended on order as we speak—reading my defense of Glamorama, or American Psycho. (Which, I do want to be clear, has some gruesome, gratuitously violent chapters like "Tries to Cook and Eat Girl" that I would say go beyond serving the function that book’s violence is meant to serve. My endorsement of it isn’t as a perfect novel.) I’m nervous to think of them knowing of my sense that Ellis might have a moral consciousness to counterbalance his apparent compulsion to be an enfant terrible, or to align himself with the morally bankrupt, even if it's the latter he often chooses to indulge. They'd probably think I'm a clown, or depraved.

But such are the hazards of making your opinions known. You do have to stand by them and accept how suspect they might make you look.

Still, I'll also admit that Lunar Park hasn't exactly helped me put another notch in the “transcendent” column for Ellis. And it doesn't leave me with much optimism for the artistic potential that The Shards, being another of the autofictional novels, might have.

Lunar Park stars a middle-aged writer named Bret Easton Ellis, a figure who shares some details of Ellis's life—having published all the same novels up through Glamorama; come to fame in the '80s as part of a circle of writers that included Jay McInerney; had a difficult relationship with his father, who is now deceased, and with substances, which are still around; and been working in Hollywood and teaching since—and doesn't share others, being married to an actress with a son, Robby. This character, Bret, begins receiving strange emails, ones that contain videos of his father, including in the hours before his death. He's also visited by strange presences—like a student named Clayton (!) with a suspicious air and an unexplained connection to another student, Aimee Light, who's writing a thesis on Bret's work (and having an affair with him), as well as what seems to be his father's malicious ghost—all in the midst of an epidemic of strange disappearances of sons in the wealthy neighborhood in which he lives—disappearances that haunt him not least because he comes to suspect that Robby and his friends are somehow involved in them—and news of a rash of murders he's made to understand are copycats of the deaths Patrick Bateman causes in American Psycho. In fact, they may be the result of Bateman himself somehow coming to life.

As you could probably guess from that paragraph, there are just a few too many plots going on at once, with too-large gaps between them. Interesting elements do emerge, like the revelation that Bret is being haunted because he's actually created tortured entities in the course of his writing—and that these demons haunt Bret because he has antagonized them by his very creation of them. And the moment when Robby finally joins the boys who vanish, leaving only the words DISAPPEAR HERE, a leitmotif in Ellis's novels since Less Than Zero, scrawled on the wall of his bedroom. As well as the way Bret responds, ultimately writing himself into the end of Lunar Park for his vanished son, perhaps, to find—and perhaps, in the process, following both the father he tried to kill and the son he lost into whatever realm demons come from. Or else stuck firmly on earth, calling out to Robby in vain.

But the book is also pretty sloppy, compared to, say, the measured and careful pace at which Glamorama moves. Again, you have to wait a long time for the threads of Bret's father's resurrection, Patrick Bateman's apparent coming to life, and whatever's happening to Robby to come together and for the fact that Bret's being haunted to become clear. This novel doesn't have what American Psycho does, either, excitements and provocations to compensate for an uneven construction. Ellis also adopts a reliance on paragraph breaks—to slow time in the moments the plot takes a twist or to amplify the horror of certain events or realizations—that quickly becomes wearying. And far too much of the novel's action hinges on Bret's being menaced by a toy belonging to his stepdaughter, a Furby clone with a name, "Terby," that's at one point wrought into a terrible acronym ("Y, BRET?") that lands with a thud.

What’s more, while this may be a strange thing to settle on, Ellis's handling of computers and the internet is appallingly clumsy. For one, the compulsion to name brands and products—an Ellis signature that's a reliable and even entertaining marker of yuppie-era shallowness in novels previous—feels much different when the product in question is WordPerfect. I don't know if it's the result of technology evolving at a pace that the lifestyle signifiers of the late 20th century (watches, suits, glasses, restaurants) just didn't, or if this reflects the scrutiny a reader can bring to references that are contemporaneous to them rather than anachronistic—I did live through the early internet in a way I didn't 1980s or '90s New York—but they took me out of the novel practically every time I encountered them. Ellis also wrings a significant chunk of drama out of the fact that for months Bret remains unaware that the mysterious emails he's been receiving have attachments. Maybe you're meant to chalk that up to Bret's obliviousness or his staggering substance use—but I find it extremely hard to believe anyone who's emailing anyone, no matter how much they struggle to do it, wouldn't notice attachments on mysterious and otherwise empty emails long before that.

Again—and I realize I say some variation of this in practically every post, but—I do think Ellis is grappling with substantive matters in all this... The child's struggle with the primal father, and the prospect of the writer transfiguring this father into literature. The way such an attempt to control narratives through writing or to exorcise through writing may birth new demons, as people read the products of your tortured creation and become tortured themselves or swear revenge. The cruelty of sons to their cruel and inadequate fathers, as they seek to individuate; the cycle by which the cruel sons become inadequate fathers in their time; the question of when this cycle ends, if it ever does. I can see these themes. But were they done justice? The universe Ellis creates in this novel is rather cardboard compared to the vividness of the world as depicted in the entirely fictionalized works. And if your interrogation of the hazards of transmuting pain into art, trying to control narratives that can’t ever be perfectly controlled, and aestheticizing violence is also a somewhat incoherent novel with a serial-killer plot—one in which the costs of aestheticized violence are borne not by you so much as by your fictional son, who disappears while you live... if ultimately, the only cost of all this is how bad it makes you feel, to which you attest in language that only occasionally reaches true feeling or beauty... I don't know. It rids these themes of their potency.

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It’s also disappointing to realize I was wrong about Paul Denton, who is referenced, at least, in Lunar Park. I'd hoped the omission was deliberate.

[toasty-owoasty]

Trick or treat! gimme all drawings

all as in 5 drawings? you got it boss!!! with all the IDs and explanations though this is prolly gonna get a little long, so past the first one I think I'm gonna put the rest under a read more. you got a REALLY good spread tho

art 218!

[id: a simple pencil drawing of a girl. her hair is split down the middle, with the left side in a floating ponytail and the right side down, showing it as unkempt. she wears a black face mask with teeth printed on it, as well as a cropped tank top under a leather jacket with spiked shoulders /end]

this is art from late 2020 of an old oc of mine, shūki! she was originally a my hero academia oc I'm not gonna lie, but she (and the rest of the ones my friends and I made) have grown and changed since then. I still think about her sometimes

art 389!

[id: a waist-up traditional sketch of a different girl. her skin has the appearance of a ball of yarn. her irises look like buttons, and she's looking up and left. she has chunkier yarn for hair, which forms heart shaped bangs as well as a high, side ponytail that falls to about her mid-chest. she's wearing an undetailed turtleneck sweater with a heart shaped cutout on the chest. /end]

this one says it's from 2022 but I don't trust it. anyways, here's another mha oc, ito button! she is made of yarn!!! (also her and shūki are girlfriends hehehe) I love ito I think about her all the time

art 418

[id: a drawing made in tabletop simulator using the pen tool. the drawing starts with an image of the moon, that we turned into a goofy cat girl. she has big circular glasses, a somewhat concerned/ditzy expression, and strange markings on her cheeks. she wears a tank top, shorts, and knee high socks, as well as a gold chain /end id]

this one is actually not all me! I only did the stuff in blue (y'know. most of it). I suppose I got bored during a game of betrayal at the house on the hill and started turning the moon into a catgirl, then the people I was playing with started joining in, lol. she's super cute though, I can admit that much.

art 200

[id: a very quick, simple, messy doodle of a Homestuck fantroll. he has fangs, short hair, and asymmetrical horns. the one on his right goes straight up, then splits into a Y shape. the one on his left goes up, then turns to go down diagonally /end]

ah yes, right smack dab in the middle of all these quick sketches I did, you will find restaurantstuck characters. restaurantstuck is a Homestuck au focused around trollified versions of restaurants, made by me and a few friends from an old discord server. shown here is subway yurway, predictably the troll version of the sandwich place subway. this doodle really does him no justice though.

and finally, art 414

[id: a pencil drawing done on the back of a laptop case. it shows the shoulders-up of an individual drawn exclusively with straight lines. they have short, shaggy hair, and sticker-like marks on their face in different polygonal shapes. their expression is somewhat intense, with angry eyebrows and a mouth opened in a toothy smirk. their eyes are formed of concentric shapes, starting in the middle where the pupil would be with triangles, and adding one side as they progress towards the edges of the eye /end]

so the reason this one is on a computer case is because I did this after finishing a standardized test where I wouldn't've been able to take any paper drawings I had done with me. I wanted to challenge myself to make a character using only straight lines, and this guy is what I ended up with! I think he's pretty neat. anyways I hope you enjoy your candy!

[rabidcriterion]

okay so not as rabid as usualll but im doing a little writeup of a situation i am in because i am not quite sure what is. Goaing Oan

soooo like ages ago i was added to this discord server, it belonged to a friend i met at a convention and their group of friends was in there. it was a while ago, im not sure how long but at this point it would've been over a year ago. last year was. a shitfight because i was so busy with work, and since then I've inly become more busy, so I didn't really go in there very often. i do remember maybe joining an active voice chat a few times, but i dont think i was in there for very long each time, the longest i was in there was probably under thirty minutes? not sure, this was a while ago

anyway, i think at some point i left the server (it was a minecraft server by name, and i don't play that much anymore). i have no idea if i personally made the decision to leave or what. i just don't know.

i was hanging out with a friend last night and they were scrolling through a discord server and i recognised some of my friends in there. i asked them about it and they told me it was the same server. in the moment, i felt like making more of an effort to talk to and befriend this group of people, as i am no longer as stressed as i was with work (but still very busy) and so i asked them if they could send me a link. they said something to the effect of it wasn't their server so they didn't want to hand out links, which is fair but the way they said it struck me as being a bit odd. so, i messaged the person who owned the server and asked if i could be let in (on my friends advice). they messaged me back saying that "a few of the admins and mods were uncomfortable with you in their space" and that they would "double check with them but it isnt looking too good right now"

which leads me to where i am now. i havent been in this server for at least a good six months, but probably much longer. i thought i left, but i was possibly removed? im really unsure about the circumstances to be plainly honest.

i know that if anyone is reading this, i probably sound like your average socially unaware loser who was clearly being an asshole in some way im not disclosing in my post but. because it was a while ago now and ive been so busy, im having trouble remembering my interactions in there - but in my interactions with others i do a lot to ensure that im being polite and friendly with others. i just have no clue what i could have done, either online or in person to make these people so uncomfortable.

this also reminds me of a very unfortunate situation a few years ago where i had a nasty argument with someone who was previously a close friend, and they told all of our mutual friends that i had told them to kill themselves (i hadnt, we'd just had an argument). i had worked very hard to build that connection with those friends, and because they were closer with the other person, they had believed them. i foind i was suddenly uninvited from the group chat, and when i went to go and say my usual hellos to them (because at the time i had no idea about the rumour) they all reacted very strangely and all seemed incredibly uncomfortable, so i left them alone after that. this incident caused me to socially isolate myself for years, rather than pushing everyone to tell me why i was making them uncomfortable. i still havent heard directly from those people today, which would be fine if they showed no interest in talking to me, but at a convention towards the end of last year, they came up to me and asked me where I'd gone, and have been friendly since, but the level of that seems to fluctuate back into them shunning me, for reasons I'm unsure of.

this situation did a lot of damage to me, but i dont want to flip out just because the situation im in now reminds me of the last one. unless they tell me what's wrong (which i dont think they will) I can't really learn anything specific from it, so i guess at this point i just have to try and be more careful in social interactions with others in the future and try not to let it bother me? i just have no clue other than that

[sanct1f1ed]

shout out to my third grade teacher telling me not to watch game grumps and inadvertently changing the course of my life forever

> be me, in the third grade

> don't know how to make my own email, use my school account to watch videos

> watch stampylonghead -> recommended & watch dantdm -> recommended & watch jacksepticeye (eventually)

> after school, teacher wants me to find something on youtube through my google account

> ohshit.jpg

> scared i'll get in trouble because jacksepticeye vids have swears in them and i was a goodytwoshoes

> act paranoid to the point of actively drawing suspicion

> teacher tells me, "it's okay, we don't care what's in your recommended. just don't watch this channel called ### #### #####"

> what did she say?

> repeats herself clearly with full diction, "The Game Grumps"

> go home and look them up because of course i do

> never the same

- cut to a few years later -

> be me, 12 years old

> let's check on the game grumps, i haven't watched them in a bit

> see they started a series for [REMOVED GAME], curious so i check out what's uploaded

> catch up to the current episode

> holy shit this game is incredible, i HAVE to know what happens next

> ask my mom to buy it on switch

> finish the game, the second one, the third one

> synapses are firing like crazy. all of the happy chemicals are in my brain

> baby's first hyperfixation

> remember old tumblr account made a year before that i never touched

> "maybe i can find other fans on there!"

> join a discord server to meet people who know the series

> "my parents said i should never use my real name on the internet... let's say my name is myles"

and here we are now.

i've come very far since then. it's been almost 5 years since that day in june, and a little after that it'll be 5 since i began transitioning. it's crazy how one little thing did so much.

i haven't kept contact with a single person from that server, or from its iterations afterwards. it was for the best. i needed to learn, to grow, and to improve myself as a human being, and even after all that growth i'm not sure talking to them would be the brightest idea. but this isn't about that, at least not right now.

any one variable could have changed EVERYTHING. my third grade teacher could have chosen not to say anything (which probably would have been wise). i could have heeded her warning and not looked them up.

what would have happened? would i be a cis girl? would i have realized i'm a system? because those two realizations ended up being related, funnily enough.

on that server, we met a system. no specifics- we don't keep contact. they didn't know they were a system at first, but they figured it out eventually. when they told us, part of it resonated with us, and we said as much. but another part of us was in denial. he believed we were making it all up. he was wrong, of course, but we held onto that guilt for a long time. we still do, in a way.

i don't think anyone still follows me from all the way back then, but if you have; you've seen a lot of this journey play out in real time. you are one of very few witnesses to what i believe to be a miracle. if it wasn't for that one sentence- that one channel- that one game- that one server- that one person. a series of coincidences, all lining up like planets in a row; like a magnifying glass, the sun, and an anthive. i've been burned on the way here, but i made it out okay. i think that's the real synthesis to all of this.

you will make it out okay. your realizations will make their way to you in funny ways. ways that seem irrelevant, or strange, or unhelpful. give them time. let them stew. the way forward will show itself when you walk down any path.

[findroleplay]

”𝓘 𝓪𝓶 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓮𝓸𝓾𝓼 𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓸𝓯 𝓖𝓸𝓭.”

… … …

The world shakes and erupts beneath a pair of cold feet. Tidal waves crash the shores of the rivers and streams. The world was corrupting by the approaching Far Lands with every second that passed. A blank, white stare lingers on the rocks and cliffs that have risen from the depths to destroy the land, before the strange being enters the obsidian portal, and is consumed by purple particles.

The being entered a world surrounded by spitting lava pools and engulfing flames. Its lungs quickly adjust to the harsh, hot air. Its eyes then land on the large fortress before it, entangled in the decaying branches and vines. The warped trees hung low overhead, the crowns creating a wedged, umbrella shape, much like a gigantic fungi, with vines of leaves hanging down.

Two other beings–one an enderian, and the other a witherian—emerge from the mouth of the fortress, and descend the flight of netherbrick stairs. The being with white eyes turns its head to look at one, and then the other, before a low, growling voice rumbles from the depths of its throat, and its face twists into a sneer.

“...Is it ready?”

The two beings hesitate, before simultaneously nodding towards the other. The enderian summons a plaque in his hands, and walks over towards the white-opticed being.

“Magnum foramen: InferisSMP. Gratum est, si invitare accipis. Dolus hoc ipsum tabula cum pharo lucis. Ibi videbimus.”

“Grand opening: InferisSMP. You’re welcome to join us, if you accept this invitation. Craft this very plaque with the beacon of light. We will see you there.”

It takes the plaque from his hands, giving a subtle nod. Another low, grumbling sound was heard.

“Perfect.”

… … …

HELLO!!

i am proud to announce that a big project i’ve been working on is finally ready to be shared to the public! it’s a killing game roleplay!!

yes, this is a danganronpa based rp! BUT!!! i finally decided to be cringe and free, and take up an idea i’ve had for a while now: a MCYT killing game roleplay!

“ew… like… dreamsmp? gross…..” I KNOW I KNOW. but this idea has been brewing in the back of my mind for SO LONG. i need to get it out there…

so basically this is a killing game rp–hosted on amino (i know. I KNOW. but it’s the best place where i can organize stuff without it being on discord… since i don’t use it anymore)—where all of the participants are characters of minecraft youtubers / streamers. NO, NOT THE ACTUAL PEOPLE. THE CHARACTERS THEY PORTRAY. there’s more detail on that below!

of course there will be some MCYTs who will not be allowed due to being problematic (cough… dream… cough…) but don’t worry! i cover those bases!!

also! if you have zero idea what danganronpa is, but want to join anyway, i can explain basically the premise!!! you don’t need to really know danganronpa to join the rp, you just need to know the general killing game mechanics.

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So.. Plot!!!

The Mastermind has corrupted the server with the Far Lands glitch, bringing back one of Herobrine’s sworn enemies, the Farman. Herobrine tries to stop them, but they had already coded for the removal of most of Herobrine’s powers. The Mastermind tells it that the only way they and the Farman will stop is if it brings a bunch of other people here and force them into a killing game.

Since the Far Lands weren't affecting the Nether, Herobrine chose to host the game there. It invites the players, making them think that they’re all invited to just a normal SMP, but are confused when they appear at the spawn and feel earthquakes. They see a Nether Portal, and enter it. The portal shatters and collapses behind the last of them who enters. Their questions are only being answered with even more questions…

What was happening in the overworld? How do they leave? How did the portal break? Where were they now?

That was when Herobrine appeared before them all, and the players had a sudden moment of realization…

It was bait, and they latched onto the hook.

… … …

CHARACTER BLACKLIST

- DREAM (Will cause way too much OOC drama. Other DeamSMP members are allowed though!)

- APHMAU (Shipped an adult with a minor, actively obsesses over gay ships, and ships her friends even when they have expressed their discomfort. Other Aphmau related characters [MyStreet, Diaries, etc] are allowed though!)

- CALLMECARSON (The whole harassing and speaking to a minor when he was older than them, and same thing as Dream, he’ll just cause OOC drama. Other SMPLive members are allowed though!)

- SKYDOESMINECRAFT (... Where do I even begin… /RH)

… … …

if you’re interested in joining and would like more info, like this post!! and i’ll dm you asap!!

… … …

”𝓐𝓷𝓭 𝓘’𝓶 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓓𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓰𝓸𝓽.”

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[consequencesofargentdawn]

Do you think the period before the PCU came into power was similar to the end of the Republic in the Star Wars Prequels? Then when the PCU came into power and strength in 2018 it was effectively like the Rise of the Empire, they enjoyed a stint of power before the general community rebelled against the project. I'm glad that the PCU was short-lived much like Sidious' Empire in Star Wars

I don't understand why guilds signed up to the PCU or why the group gained a lot of power and traction. I do remember the witch hunts and purges in the early days though, the PCU went after certain prominent eras in the community from the previous period and essentially drove them into exile on private servers, or forced them to start anew due to the ongoing harassment, or attempted and failed to drive them into obscurity. I've also wondered if it was Perroy who wanted to go after these players, or if it was PCU officers who brought old grudges with them and Perroy simply went along with it to garner their favour. From what I remember Thunderbraid, Grelind, Hamfist, Arthedun, Shonn and Siavash were targeted. I always found it strange why during the PCU resurgence they never went after Didonus, which always made me wonder if the two groups had any links or affiliations.

A friend of mine was in a guild who was absorbed into the PCU at the time. He said it was a strange time of uncertainty, where officers and members were purged and labelled as traitors and ERPers and then the GM announced that the guild would be joining the PCU.

Times are better now, but there is still work to be done. Thank you for all you've done CoAD.

Firstly, we thank you for your continued support. Sharing our work with the server is a good way to keep our player base informed, especially those who may not be entirely aware of how deep the PCU problem goes.

As for analogies and allegories we have had many given to us over the years. The PCU have made a point since its inception to target players or guilds who they believe are a threat to their narrative, their version of how things should be done as well as individual players who can galvanize others into opposition or to think critically about what is in front of them.

While there is no clear link from the DiCU and the PCU, it is very clear that Perroy was inspired by the methods Didonus, Hrothgarr, Ottaline, Luciase, Hylde and the others employed to sabotage, undermine and tarnish opposing groups. It is likely that why there was no direct attacks from either cult against one another was Perroy largely abandoned Stormwind based RP after the Bloody Verdict ended in shame. There was no overlapping boundaries between turf.

Your scenario about guilds being purged resemble what happened around the Argent Crusade RP scene in Hearthglen before Ardent Pursuit came into being and with Azure Dawn before they joined the PCU. In general, if the PCU says someone is bad, they are (with a few exceptions) doing something right and generally better than whatever the PCU is offering. Endorsement from PCU players generally means the player or guild in question is dubious at best and at worst a satellite of the PCU.