#it's so weird??? it's so isolating too??
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sometimes I wish you could post an opinion on a fandom blog without inviting a whole witch hunt or being accused of causing drama but alas
#I've not done anything and i won't do anything#it's just something that's annoying?? that you can't say anything without someone doing a bad faith interpretation of it#or projecting it on themselves or getting offended on behalf of a fictional character#the few times i saw someone actually say something slightly controversial all hell broke loose every time#like great that you're passionate but not everything is about you#not everything needs your opinion - especially if you can only give it like a lecture#not everything has malicious intentions#people disagreeing with you have a right to their opinions as well - as long as you respect theirs they should respect yours#the thing is - i don't think I've ever been in a fandom that didn't have to deal with like ship wars or someone doing hate campaigns#of a character or ship - i guess that's just the way it is??#but here it feels especially tiring because people don't usually disagree on ships#people are literally fighting and hating each other mainly over the same two characters!!! and their different interpretations of them#people disagree over what the right and moral way is to portray and ship those characters#and it creates so much tension because you can't associate with those people because they're doing it wrong#and are acting fucking awful about it#but those people are very exclusionary and if you don't agree with all of their points they don't want to talk to you either#you just float along hoping that you'll find some people who have a similar interpretation and will actually talk to you#it's so weird??? it's so isolating too??#and it feels like you entered a political landscape in your online fandom space#i will probably delete this and I'm not even sure my thoughts make sense#my thoughts spiralled a bit from thinking how some fan interpretations annoy me into disliking a character hahaha
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In which Ford struggles so badly to relate to other people that he wonders if heās really human at all. The more isolated he becomes, the harder it is to reconcile with his own humanity.
#my art#gravity falls#Stanford pines#ford pines#bill cipher#comic#eye strain#TIME TO DUMP EVERY ONE OF THE 27483949 THOUGHTS IVE HAD INTO THE TAGS BABY#OK!! SO!!!!#I feel like Ford would wonder why he and Stan (being identical twins) arenāt. yk. identical. shouldnāt Stan have polydactyly too?#as a kid he would dream about secretly being nonhuman and being whisked away to a fantastical world full of people like him#finally free of new jerseyā finally somewhere he belongs#a lot of this disconnect from humanity came from utterly failing at social interactions while others (including stan) navigated them easily#the feeling waned after Stan was kicked out and he didn't have that direct comparison but it never left#then out in the wilderness of gravity fallsā his isolation and immersion in Weirdness dragged it back up to the forefront#he deserves to have a breakdown over questioning his own nature. as a treat <3#color symbolism time bc I have a problem and use it at every available moment!!! blue and yellow get more vivid#the further from humanity the subject is#bill is entirely made w pure rgb blue and yellow (+ approximately 2674835 textures/layers/blending modes. I reached 150+ layers. help)#I like the idea that he would appear to ford like pure math considering hes a geometrical motherfucker and how the rest of the mindscape wa#I tried to mostly use trigonometry and related stuff for the Math Greebling. as well as fractals i love you forever fractals#MORE SYMBOLISM:#the grid-ish diamond pattern in all of the mindscape bgs (and elsewhere) is a penrose diagram of spacetime#which shows other universes on the other sides of black holes#SOMEONE ASK ME ABOUT MY EUCLYDIA HEADCANON LATER. IVE DUMPED ENOUGH DUMB HCS IN THESE TAGS ALREADY#BUT I THINK ITS VERY FUN#anyways. fuckt up guys n their egos influencing how they view humanity. bill tells ford hes as human as they come bc he was so easily foole#ford cant reconcile with his humanity bc of a failure to perform in one area#and then the immense guilt and shame over what hes done <3#I have So many ford characterization thoughts. no man nor god can stop me
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#I also think american exceptionalism and their bizarre cultural one-way street isolation plays a role#i think it's different if you actually see other countries as equals and see that they have female leaders and realise that it's#not going downhill it's not solving everything it's business as usual and it's just another boring fucking politician#and this makes the gender of the candidate LESS (not saying no) issue people obsess about or feel a need to discuss#(e.g. people laying into the appearance of female politicians? certainly misogyny. making jokes about cooking and shoes? definitely too#but I feel like that was more a 'gotta insult these fucking politicians' and gender being one of the targets when people want to do that)#but if you're the US and giant parts of the populace think they're the specialmost extra complicatedest country in this our planetworld#the fact that it works for so many other countries takes a much lower priority#because 'yeah sure a woman can govern a....'checks notes' Fineland and United Kingdom of England or Germanland'#but the US of freedom? we got a red button and what if she's on her period!!?! We are a REAL country!!'#not to mention how deeply entrenched the idea of the US as being CONSTANTLY under attack is and the president as the PROTECTOR#and that protector needs to be daddy of course#i also think the different attitude to leaders plays a role#because a part of misogyny is how much people love to HATE women - to sink their teeth into them and demonise them for every flaw#so any country that has some kind of weird worship of their leaders or sees them as some heroes or extra-class of person*#in my opinion might have a harder time to elect a woman because the moment a woman becomes a candidate#you just have to find the right flaw to go on and on about to make the population absolutely hate her or question her competency#meanwhile the general slack we cut men means they can do whatever but somehow still be compatible with that concept of leadership#(*not just the US ....though a lot of other countries with similar attitudes to their leaders are not standing out as democracies tbh)
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rewatched barbie my thoughts can be summarised with a) ken is a more interesting character than barbie b) the daughterās outfits get girlier the more feminist she gets and c) weird barbieās first line is her being heterosexual. so like i think. a) you failed at a crucial element of feminist story creation b) you failed at the lesson You wrote that people are more than just the archetype forced upon them and c) you commodified lesbianism without even letting it exist
#this is reductive but itās the gist of it for me#makes me feel sad and weird and gay!#and then obviously itās all over the fucking place with its metaphors and parallels#itās good i think if you donāt think about it too much. but also you really need to be thinking about it too much#there were lines and partial sentiments i actually heard and enjoyed this time#but like. āfirst comes sparkle then comes female agencyā is only a good critique if you donāt put the daughter in a fucking sparkly dress#so yeah still not a fan! but also importantly itās only so bad because it claimed to be so good#it wouldnāt be this horrible if no one saw it but its sole purpose was to get every person alive to see it#oh yeah also just. allan#maybe only truly good bit of it#and when i say good i mean why would you like heās he doesnāt heās not happy and you use him but donāt accommodate him why even like wh#why do that to himā¦ā¦.. my allanā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦#cried every time he came on screen. the scream. the tears. him always existing in his own shot?? truly isolated???#feels so homophobic yet also understanding? yet also homophobic and i enjoy it so much#+
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kids when they hear that their dad is back in town VS. kids when theyre hanging out with a conman that accidentally stole their wallet once
im not even joking btw
bonus heres me being crazy about them in dms ^^^
#mob psycho 100#mp100#shou suzuki#sho suzuki#reigen arataka#i know sho doesnt actually BELIEVE his dad is back but even just that split second reaction is a weird one to have over your dad coming bac#he was like 'say sike rn... wait that aint right.'#shou watching them on the bottom floor while being isolated up in the corner at the end of the third stage play. and saying#'it's nice that they're so easygoing.' all wistfully???? im killing somebody#reigen calling him a poor thing and worrying about him DESPITE knowing his mischievous ways. ugh#gonna quote my reaction to clip rq#'bro [shou] heard him [reigen] talking about guardianship over children and making sure theyre safe over anything else and was like-#'this is getting too real for me i gotta make fun of him immediately.''#idc WHAT yall think to ME that was such a thick layer of defense mechanism that even though reigen's guardianship speech wasnt directed#at Sho he still felt the intrinsic urge to shoot back because of what hes experienced with people who are SUPPOSED to be protecting him.#would yall believe me if i told you i am totally insane#there are SO MANY THINGS. woven into their interactions that really enhance it#its totally silly! yes! but also! it is a legitimate ARC of GROWTH within their relationship! we watch as Sho starts off#with no trust in the man at all (although for a pretty good reason)#and over time he realizes hes NOT total shitbag#of course this doesnt mean hes completely vulnerable with him. its easy to infer that his distrust in certain people is formed from#a lifetime of being let down and incapability of dependency on certain trusted adults. his defense must be so heavily built up#even after gaining some sort of trust from Shou Reigen will NOT be exempt from his impish defense mechanisms.#sho will not make himself emotionally available as he would then be open to being hurt by someone else he thought could trust#his 'carefree and prankish' behavior is the wall between himself and such an intense feeling of disappointment and hurt and loneliness#but i like to think hes also just silly. hehe#man that stage play huh. shoots every fatal drug directly into my bloodstream#shou's trust and father issues VS stupid conman who has the common sense to not let children be beat up by grown ass adults. who will win.#i mightve forgotten something but. i think this is pretty packed full already so i am pleased. thank you for reading <3#meowmeow art
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Headcanon that most demon royalty goes to some fancy private/finishing school. But that Stolas was homeschooled with a private tutor. It was one of the very very few requests his dad granted him and for years it was a tressure memory, one of the few times he /got to choose/ one of the few times his dad /listened/ to him. Only to realize when he enters society that it was another isolation tactic. That everybody had already spent years forming social alliances and building their reputations and social credit. And that there was no room for him to break into those circles, that he /did not know/ the proper unspoken social rules. That his wife has spent years building her clout and that he is once again. Alone.
#helluva boss#stolas goetia#stella goetia#Other demon royality#Listen I dont know anything about the world building in helluva boss or if they have any type of schools at all#I am basing this off of other dramas involving rich kids there's always a private school social credit is everything#And stolas has such perfect weird home school kid who does not know how to act around people because they've just never socialized ever#And I love the angst of dtolas's life being a compounding series of isolation and misreading situations only to realize#What was wrong way too late but still clinging to the good memory because that's all he has#And it pairs well with Stella being an excellent socialite#And the angst of stolas being like okay yay! Time to attend events i can do this i might even make friends!#Only to realize he /cant/ and forget friends or allies this means he has no one he can lean on to help with the abuse Stella deals out#Owl in a cage is a very telling song#Vassago once again in the corner vibrating because he'd love to be friends! He volunteers pleaseeee#Stolas gaining a reputation for being really fucking weird but really good at his job and for thinking he's too good to talk to anyone here#Because he never fucking talks to anyone#I imagine the first few years stolas was out in society were filled with just. So many painfully awkward conversations until he just#Stopped trying because what was the point
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fun fact: Them
#willos nation I have an important announcement to make#eyagh *disintegrates into powder and scatters into the wind forever*#that's all thank you for coming to my ted talk.#barbie mariposa#barbie mariposa and her butterfly fairy friends#barbie mariposa and the fairy princess#Had to attach a link to the last image because tumblr fucked the quality so bad#barbie#barbie movies#On a different note. They go on chore runs together. In my mind#I should've drawn that but you're going to hear it from me here instead#She invites him out on a laundry run to cut down on the being bored out of her mind and notices he's actually enthusiastic about it#Because like. Having grown up mostly sheltered and relatively(self-imposed or otherwise) isolated he#hadn't really had the experience of just Hanging Out very much#like hell yeah an excuse to leave the palace without having to deal with socializing with strangers. too much.#because she can deal with that. And i mean. he likes hanging out with her.#So she just keeps inviting him over for other menial chores. He's actually kindof competent at it and she really doesnt mind the extra help#cakeart#Also. also. She does poses for him. to draw. paint. whatever#Not in a weird way. in a figure drawing way. understand my vision. look me in the eye.#Artist/muse scenario in general. consider. consider. i'm correct#This post has been in my drafts since november it's not going to show up in the tags if I keep talking
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today i realised i have a body and a name and people can see me
#met a friend from school today she was there to collect her degree and she recognised me#and my first instinct is to say i'm not saumya you got the wrong name but it was so#weird i couldn't pretend#and she was suchhhh a good friend#in middle school i guess#so i thought maybe i could reach out to other people too? i haven't talked to them in 4 years because i isolated after school bc i was dep#ressed and then too guilty to reconnect further#but maybe... also she told me i should talk to people i haven't committed a crime to feel guilty about and she's... right šššš#i'm sooooo trapped in my own mind to see that people actually like me god this is terrible#my school best friend even came home to check on me but i pushed her away too I AMTHE WORST FRIEND#it won't be the same but it could be something i guess but how do i even face them i created so much distance
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Iāve been thinking of like what would happen if the CN and JG ppl somehow met each other, like
Childe would probably die of embarrassment from realising that Ajax and Morax were like lovers in CN while Hu Tao would laugh the shit at him while Zhongli just stood there confused
Then Hu Tao would coo at how cute little Xiao looked (and he DOES look cute who could blame her)
Zhongli would try to play it cool like āHaha wow who couldāve guess this alternate version of me was a god hahaā while Xiao gives him the most stinkiest side eye ever.
genuinely zhongli would be more intrigued by all the timeline shenanigans and not really confused at the ship situation. he'd probably just go: actually? yeah i can see that, sure
the real kicker would be hua guizhong and ping yan and their possible angst at the fact their counterparts aren't dating nor even remotely as close (remember cyanide was before the crackship was revealed so neither guizhong nor madame ping are characterized there as having anything going on between them)
honestly? fanan and the fox siblings would be such a wild difference that when folks like xiao stare at zhongli like "what do you mean you're a god there?" zhongli would be able to just shrug it off and say "if fanan is from a completely different country why wouldn't i, an already acomplished thaumaturge, be an Immortal? it IS an alterlate reality after all" and xiao would be inwardly still kinda sus but have no basis on which to really argue LMAO
#i feel like y'all remember cyanide way too much on the clueless zhongli department when like#it was far more a language/cultural situation than an actual morax is clueless about his feelings situation#i mean he was kinda clueless that much is true#but he was functionally like. 20. neurodivergent. isolated. first exposure to this sorta stuff. and also dealing with too much shit at once#so like i'd say the language and cultural barrier was like 70% at fault for his perceived cluelessness#outside of cyanide he's not clueless at all in itysg or babysitting#y'all just remember cyanide too much#tbf maybe i just didn't write that whole part well enough#oh well#death of the author and all#anyway weird tangent just to say he's not clueless in jadeite i just want y'all to be aware#he just has other priorities
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Finally got enough energy to talk about Furina's SQ and while I loved her and the troupe, MC and Paimon were .... Not Great. I talked about this with friends but in Paimon's case especially, the way they interact with Furina feels like people who just don't understand trauma and depression and then engage with someone suffering from both in all the wrong ways.
Talking about how much of a downgrade her house is from the opera house, making fun of how she can't cook, pushing her to act when she's set a very clear boundary and then guilt tripping her after she's stuck to her guns, shaming her for not being able to fight well (Paimon literally talks about how second hand embarrassment is overwhelming and I'm just like ?????), telling her she's "not acting like herself" when she attempts to open up and be vulnerable....it's just really rough. That and the MC asking "is something wrong" when Furina gets sad over Poission ..like bro people died and she couldn't save them and she's tearing herself apart over it. Those people are never coming back and you know it and you have the gall to ask her is something wrong??? Of COURSE there is!!
It just feels especially odd because we literally get to see all of Furina's suffering and Paimon in particular is. SO mean? Like she was more understanding with Wanderer and Ei and THEY'VE tried to kill us multiple times!! I don't get it, and honestly I'm very proud of Furina for refusing to waver. Let her rest!! She's tired and depressed and she needs time to heal; and honestly fuck Paimon for trying to make her feel bad. Furina's worked harder than she EVER will.
#as someone with depression and who's highly sensitive this story quest hurt a LOT because ive also encountered people who don't understand.#i've been told i need to get over my anxiety. i've been asked what am i so tired from since i just lay in bed.#so furina's character and how she was treated hit very very hard for me. she's isolating herself and not coping well but she is TRYING.#she's trying so hard and she equates her worth to her role. like she literally tells you that she serves no more use to anyone.#and i wanted to shake her so hard. because it's not about what she can do#she has worth simply because she exists. full stop. she is loved and she is appreciated just for being herself#her worth isn't decided by her power yk??#i hope she can rest and heal and find some good friends - after the way mc and paimon treated her i honestly don't think they should be#or if they are; they'd have to work to earn her trust cuz good LORD. they treated her so weird and so tone deaf!!#i've seen a lot of people complaining about it too so im glad im not alone.#anyway. there is something wrong with me i have cried actual tears over furina please god she needs a hug#and to be told she did a good job and she can rest now and things will get better#4.2 spoilers#genshin impact#furina
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once i get off my ass and start drawing that ffxiv au it's over
#random thoughts#my brain says no aus until after wl!!!! you have too much you wanna draw already!!!!!#my heart says rabbit scott who has lived in isolation for so long and jimmy was the first person#who treated him like an actual person so he gets unhealthily attached to jimmy and joins jimmy's party#which of course later breaks down as adventuring parties tend to and joel is there too so the tensions tense#and then mf scott gets teleported to the first where he meets WoL Pearl and has to get over his weirdness abt women#(stemmed from trauma in this case due to how viera society works)#i miss fantasy smp man i really do. maybe not the smp itself and#more like the stuff ppl were making inspired by it like damn dragon martyn is just GONE now
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probably the most constant thing of my life has been the social isolation and loneliness i experience
since i was a young child, iāve always struggled to make and find friends, and often was left alone
for a long time, nothing could defeat my spirits and will to make friends, and even the loneliness wasnāt enough to make me stop
nowadays, it gets to me, the loneliness, and i often wonder if iāll have all the friends iāve deserved all along
#audhdrhys#lonelyrhys#i had a lot of fake friends growing up#and i was gullible a lot so people act one way and then another and i fell for it each time they did it#often times my āfriendsā were just there to use me as playmates and not real friends who cared about my boundaries and interests#and some of them didnāt consider me their friend and forgot about me the minute i left their daily lives#some ran away from me cuz i was weird#but most of the time i just remember being alone#i remember not knowing how to make friends#i remember being too scared to and asking my sister to make friends for me#which she would and they would always favor her#i was just the tag along nobody really wanted there#and thatās how it usually went#and i was homeschooled growing up and i didnāt go to many groups or anything like that so i was already isolated from society just from tha#but the loneliness through that all has stuck with me#i still donāt know how to make friends very well#i still wonder if everyone finds me offputting#and i still wonder if theyāre faking being my friend and donāt actually care about me#even though i have some and am grateful for them#the loneliness stays#lonely#lonely childhood#childhood memories#childhood#friends#audhd experiences#audhd#audhd problems#audhd child
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searching up āanti silcoā to read analysis and coming across jilco is a real vibe killer
#houndshowlings#fuck u mean itās up to interpretation?#i get their relationship is strange & thereās no boundaries & silco enables jinx (likely out of fear of losing her just like he manipulates#her)#but i thought it was clear their relationship was father/daughter#even if jinx is adopted & never calls silco her father directly#like yes the writers purposely made it uncomfortable#but it was to subvert expectations.#many feared Silco was sexually grooming her bc their weird interactions#but it was to subvert tht fear#while still showing how he grooms her to be his weapon#and yet is far too permissive with her.#he doesnāt discipline her and allows her to get away without consequences when she fucks up.#he encourages her to be fearless and strong#yet at the same time isolates her and shields her from criticism & consequences#which encourages her codependency on him and her need for his approval#both r afraid of abandonment and betrayal#silco is trying to foster a āus vs themā mentality in jinx so she wonāt leave#which means not doing anything like a proper parent should bc snapping at her or punishing her too much could push her away from him#which he doesnāt want#so of course he allows her to do what she wants#and this has instilled in jinx a disregard for privacy and boundaries#pls the straddling & invasion of space was to show theyāre relationship is fucked#but not in that way
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I need to be weirder about the scavengers and cannibalism...
#its been a long day... but im feeling better now. (thanks for the well wishes and such btw <3-)#(-sending my well wishes in return by tenfold bcs. damn. it seems stuff is really going around rn)#but yeah... just. augh. theres just smth about how the scavs sorta translate into more like. thriller-esque genres pretty well?#like. i feel somehow those themes compliment their characteristics? or could compliment their characteristics in a more rounded out way#sure. theyre generally a light hearted romp of absurdity with occasional themes of a not good not bad handling of 'mental health matters'#but they just really shine a bit in horrific circumstances. esp with the sort of absurdity they bring to the table#theyre odd people. even in the context of their generally weird and alien universe. and that right there feels like a trove of potential#its like. ok. the lost light crew? also odd. but thats a huge ship. full of people and variety and a sense of purpose and normalcy post-war#(normalcy being. whatever all those background folks were getting up too while plot happened around them. cruise ship stuff ig)#but in contrast. with the w.a.p crew. its an ark class ship with like. a handful of people. and a whole lot of junk and free time#both just cruising through space endlessly for years. one with hundreds of people. and one with like 6 people.#so both are technically isolated when theyre not making pit-stops planet or station side. but again. 100s vs 6 dudes.#think. top of the line cruise ship from hell with a small town sized populace vs a big shitty boat and 6 starving guys#both have the capacity to become case studies in madness. both could do really well thriller wise. but the scavs being a smaller group?#it only being the 6 of them emphasis the isolation perhaps. less variety. less change. same 6 people for 5(?) years#things could get weird fast. codependent mentalities. us vs them mindsets. an otherness about everyone else outside of their group#and then! then you add to the mix the fact that theyre eating/drinking from corpses?! *chefs kiss* awesome. love it.#non-stationary isolation + cannibalism. ough. perfect mix. a classic of maritime horror but in space! :D!#a big ship. small crew. living while knowing that as soon as you kick the bucket. your body is the meal. your body is the fuel.#no decorum about it. no faith. no belief. just perverse survival. bcs they might enjoy it. a bloody gluttony. with a bite. a sample. a taste#it takes seeing your buddy as a walking talking burger to another level. bcs every corpse you come across is also a burger. and a gas can#also fulcrum making candy out of corpses is so. particularly perfect when it comes to the horrifically absurd. just. smth about it. idk#but also also. the line. where was the line drawn for each of them? and when did they each cross it?#most of them dont seem like the type to jump head first into that. so how did they justify it to themselves? had they done it before?#and then. when did it become normal? a habit? smth enjoyable?#i might be running out of tags. but yeah. them being weirder. esp about each other and others.#nothing brings a group of people together like the overhanging knowledge that you sort of kinda wanna eat each other#(rlly wishing i could stomach realistic thrillers rn. but i just cant. gotta stick to written or artistic styles or risk panic attacks :/)#(ive tried a couple movies and shows now. and cant get through most of them. praise be synopses and peoples long rambles about them tho :D)#(nothing like reading someones passionate ramble about the meaning/symbolism of some gory nightmare without having to actually see it lol)
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We think over half our alters are introjects but still itās so scary to develop one because people are so extremely weird about that kind of stuff. Weāve had old mutuals go around saying they downright didnāt respect introjects as people. Often in fake claiming campaigns introjects are a common reason to attack a system. Like people think introject = high kinning nd therefore isnāt actually valid when itās like. An introject developing isnāt based around choice ! It just happens ! Nd they are in fact the most common alter type even among non online systems!! Itās common for older systems to have introjects of old tv characters, weāve known younger system with exclusively pokemon alters, itās common and understandable given mediaās effect on folks yet people think itās a valid reason to attack others!! Itās ridiculous, we often feel horrified being openly plural due to introjects because of all the implications people may assume of us. Weāve avoided fandom because saying āx character is in our headā feels like an instant okay for people to be weird to you and/or uncomfortable around you. Itās so mind boggling to us the audacity and cruelty of others for something so easily understood and explained.
#itās so simple . system develops from trauma -> system sees character which brings them comfort -> system develops alter of said character#to protect the system / help it#we think syscourse may be the spawn of the devil. whoever thought to turn a heavily personalized trauma disorder into a point of debate is#vile to us#the amount of self hate and self isolation weāve had all due to people being cruel is so#nd singlets can be so weird about it too -_-#weāve had people think that us being a character they like meant they had a pass to HIT ON US#itās like . grabs head . what are you people thinking !!!#people see blorbo from their shows in an alter list nd think okay so i can just openly thirst over this person right#what if we the world explode ?#sorry for the rant weāre glad to have let off steam actually#nothing recently has made us feel this upset#weāre moreso upset over how much guilt our new introject has nd we know exactly why#people online need to gain some compassion for the mentally ill#did tag#if you read all this heck yeah hugs you if thatās okay
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gfdkljflsd she sounds so exasperated
#i love her#and once again having feels tm about her (and emmrich)#laya plays dav#dav spoilers#my ocs#oc: ylva ingellvar#the vibe is not romantic at all btw but theyre sooo. here she was so anxious to Impress Him TM#but turns out that woagh. we relate to each other super well??#also love that he addressed both fear of death and homesickness because!! those ARE both things i've been thinking about w ylva#the fear of death in general but also v much tied to her experiences after the necropolis#and same with the homesickness#she started out nervous but also excited to see the world but at this point she kind of just. wants to go home#the necropolis is safe and familiar and not nearly as scary as any of this bullshit#and also even if it's a culture shock thing it did get somewhat isolating that everyone around her thought her views were#unnatural and weird#so it is SO refreshing and reassuring to have emmrich here now#and to be able to just. talk. and hang out. mannfred too! she is the normal amount of attached to him#people are confusing and complicated. spirits are so much easier#anyways. ylva angst tags on a silly post over LOL bottom line is I Care Her
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