#it's okay i guess i don't fight for friendships lol! i guess that's my fault

[hnwcloset]

it would be nice if genuine ppl could show up in my life for once.

[altraviolet]

How do you find a character's 'voice'? I have no problem writing OCs, but when it comes to existing characters I get so anxious that I'm mischaracterizing them!

This is a great question! This is definitely something I struggle with sometimes. Here are some of the things I've done to try to keep characterization consistent:

watched a bunch of videos about characterization and the craft of writing

gone back to the canon and reread parts that featured the character you're trying to write

reduced the character to like, ONE descriptor, ONE "essence," if you will. JRO did a great job making very identifiable characters for us. although many of the initial characterizations are modified by the end of the comic, you can still use that "essence". I'll give an ex in a minute but after you identify that "essence," keep it in mind for your character when you write them

when writing from their POV, or from a close third narration (or heck second person talking to them), remember what the character knows. how did they get to the place they are now? what kinds of details in a room would they notice?

This is not all I've done but it would take me SO LONG to put together more points so we'll move on~!

Okay so for more details on the above:

The Essence Thing

I think Ultra Magnus is a really good example of this. We're introduced to him having a very specific outlook on life (we literally see through his eyes in one early panel, it's great). We understand him to be a VERY strict mech who adheres to the Autobot Law to the letter (semi-colon, actually, lol). We see him meticulously arrange and rearrange objects, we see him point out screws that are misaligned by 0.001% (paraphrase, I don't remember the exact wordage). All in all, it's really easy to understand in just a couple of words who he is. Meticulous to a fault. Rodimus distracts him by using bad grammar on purpose.

By the end of the comics, he's loosened up a little. And (SPOILERS for the end of the comics), Megatron telling him to abandon his armor and be true to himself is something he's receptive to. Whereas in the beginning he wore it as somewhat literal armor. And refused to smile.

So what have I done with my fic? Well, it's important to keep in mind that UM isn't going to change all his ways. He won't be as much of a stickler as before, because he's learned to have friends in some capacity, and that's loosened him up a little tiny bit. But he's going to retain that core trait of being really into keeping things neat and tidy. And, the UM that Megatron told to abandon his armor isn't the one that made the jump. So I assumed they had that convo later in their friendship. The TEG UM still has those organized traits (cuz it's funny), but he's not as bad as he used to be.

So hopefully that makes sense. Boil your character down to a trait or two and keep it in mind for everything.

Oh boy the asks are piling up so I'm gonna try to go a bit faster now.

What The Character Knows

Let's do a little thought experiment. Tailgate and Drift walk into a random Autobot bar. What does each mech notice?

If I said one of them quickly identifies friendly mechs and the other one identifies unfriendly mechs, can you tell which did which? Who notices the energon specials and who takes note of the weapons behind the bar? Which one will remember a time he went with his conjunx to a bar and didn't get in a fight? haha

Okay so you can probably guess the answers that I intended for the above! Drift had a hard past, then became a violent Decepticon. Tailgate was asleep for 6 million years and then woke up and befriended a ton of people and had Movie Nights and also some trauma but he never had to fight for his life like Drift did.

So, as you can see, what the character knows (which is informed by their past, their education, their belief systems, the friends they have, the enemies they have, etc) really impacts how they see the world. And you can use that to your advantage by trying to look through their eyes keeping in mind what they know.

Sorry I'm gonna have to end this here, but this is a great topic. I'll try to write more about character voice and POV in the future. If you want to poke me later about it here or on twitter, please do. I will get my thoughts together and also find the links to the videos I've watched :)

[thesociallyawkwardprincess]

Allow me to go off into a tangent, as a birthday treat. I'm writing this as I wait for your recommended burger to arrive.

I still struggle with the grieving process, because I don't think I'm doing it "properly." And somehow, this only racks up guilt from me.

But I know everyone grieves in different ways. And that's okay. I guess what really bothers me is whether the quantity and quality of my grief is commensurate enough to reflect the depth (or shallowness?) of our friendship. Is there a direct correlation between those two things? I think the common notion is yes, but I would rather believe otherwise. Because I can also grieve for a total stranger, and you were definitely not a stranger to me. Also because I don't think grief is measurable. This grief, especially. I cannot put a pin on it. It is bothersome.

Ever since you have left this plane of existence, your memory sometimes would pop up at random intervals. I would be driving, then I remember you. I would be eating, and I would remember you. I would be at work, and I would remember you. I would at home, and I would remember you. Don't worry, this happens occasionally. I'm just bothered because I feel like I have spent more time with this memory version of you than your physical version in the last 5 years. Maybe this is the measurable version of my grief idk. Or guilt. Idk.

Another thing - sometimes this grief transforms into anger. Don't worry, I'm not angry at you. Well, slightly. It's not your fault. I don't think I'm angry with myself. Sometimes, I am, slightly. But I don't think I have any fault either. It's just the circumstances. You'd understand. Your memory version understands, at least. I just wish that from your end, you could've waited a day, and from my end, I could've done...something, anything. But lol thanks for the letter. These negative feelings do stave them off, even though you also said in the letter you have no idea why you were writing anyway.

-

Speaking of, as per your letter, yeah it sucks how undignified and uncomfortable death (or the process of dying?) can de. I understand why and how you wanted to skip all that, because like you (as you pointed out), I have also witnessed this. I don't have any rebuttal to this concept at all. You can also say the same for living, if you think about it.

I just personally think there's so much more this universe has had to offer, but you were not interested in that anymore, maybe because you were already satisfied with what you had and you could not give any more fucks to explore anything else outside with what you currently know. That was the conclusion you came up for yourself. I don't think it's your fault for thinking this way.

It's just that I still believe that just as the universe expands into an infinite nothing, it also expands to an infinite number of ways to present itself into something more meaningful and satisfying than what your current self can suggest. Does that make sense? And like you said in the letter, "there are many things in this world (or the world from our POV) that I can/will bend to the force of my perception." And the statement above is what I will the universe to be. There's always something better and something to look forward to that's enough to keep me company until death arrives. I have plenty of time to be dead anyway someday. I will continue to nurture the things I love and will proceed to look for more. It just upsets me that I think I am on the other side of your conclusion (that I have to actively fight against, maybe).

However, this does not really solve the problem of (the process of?) death being ridiculously ugly and paralyzing and uncomfortable and undignified. I also believe that death should feel like a graduation of sorts. Because of this, I have also decided to approach this problem in a manner different from yours. And given that I am currently in a privileged position of being a doctor, I think I have an idea how I can navigate through this problem. It's still in the works, but I think I will turn this into a life's mission of sorts. Don't worry, this is not your fault also.

Anyway, I just needed to air all of this out. I don't know who to tell all these thoughts to, and I'm not interested yet in sharing these to people I personally know hahaha but here it is in blog form so I don't forget. Thanks for visiting(?) me in a dream one time, where we both laughed at your tombstone, maybe because we both know it doesn't exist. Also, thanks for calling me your most low-maintenance friend. Also, I'm sorry if I still find you annoying, even at a different plane of existence hahaha. See you whenever!

[diesoonandsuffer]

sp ock

genuinely the guy of all time. i purposefully saved this for last so i could think about it more and i still don't think i'm ready so here i go.

favorite thing about them

to quote kirk "of all the souls i've met in my travels, his was the most human." i love how proud he is of his vulcan heritage and how he tries to honor them but i also love the way he just cannot fight off his humanity. and the way he eventually learns to accept that part of himself as well, become not two split halves but rather one whole complete and complex person. he can have a moral code governed by logic and see the world through a lens of science while also having passion for the arts, having capacity for empathy, knowing when to take a different approach. like THE guy of all time genuinely

least favorite thing about them

that he doesn't jump on kirk's bones sooner!!!!

no i'm kidding mostly uhh i mean we could go into all of the ways this little guy is messed up like he is repressed he is contradictory he is too mean he is loyal to the rules to a fault. but also most of these things eventually change or shift? so by the end of his arc those things don't really stick. i guess i wish he would open up to more people other than just kirk and occasionally bones, i do wish i could see his other friendships thriving

favorite line

god he has so many good lines.....like both spirk related ones that make me insane but also regular lines from the show he has so many bangers. okay i'm going with this one:

"after a time, you may find that having is not so pleasing a thing after all as wanting. it is not logical, but it is often true." like okay go off king of gay yearning. he walked so tumblr could run

honorable mentions: "JIM!!!" and "they are not the hell your whales."

brOTP

him and uhura <3 any time i see fanart of them hanging out im like YEAH!!!!!

OTP

you are my superior officer. you are also my friend. i have been and always shall be yours.

nOTP

him and uhura </3 KELVIN TIMELINE I AM LOOKING DIRECTLY AT YOU

random headcanon

i have a hc that kirk was like involved in theater in starfleet academy somehow. i don't know if they met at the academy but if they did i think spock would go to his shows

unpopular opinion

i don't think we should be making more spocks like i'm sure these new shows are good but this man already has so much lore and has been made and remade so many times like he has 15 versions of himself WITHIN himself and none of them really feel the same or capture the original. like just leave him be lol

song i associate with them

the first song i thought of was cold, cold man by saint motel. it's basically about someone who does not show many grand or outward gestures of affection but is assuring their lover that they are the only thing that matters.

favorite picture of them

this one

[image ID: spock slunched over on a table, head on his hands, near tears.]

send me a tos or tng character!

[nctworststuff]

— 𖡼 ָ࣪ ﹆ׂׂ ⦂ Us? | Bestfriend!Jeno | Fluf, Angst, heartbreak warning

•°•°•°

It's been 4 years, 4 years you friend with Jeno, the best of best friend you ever have.

He always told you that he promised he will stay beside you no matter if you were in an up or down situation. And he isn't lying about that. Sometimes you feel the "more than friends" vibe

"Don't worry, you don't need to hide anything from me. I would gladly hear about it"

If the sky turns grey, he will fade it away and colours it with his sincere heart and that's what he does towards you. You love the fact that he always waiting for you everytime

When your shift is done, he doesn't forget to wait for you in front of your work place. Although it's raining, he still waiting for you. It's rare for him to not wait for you. Hey, don't forget to have a night walk with him, where the temperature feel so cold, and the vibe at this time is very safe and classic when you are with him

"Oh, I thought, you want to walk home alone?"

"I was just kidding idiot. I never leave you alone"

When you sleep beside him, he will carry you to your bed and whisper something to you. He will caress your head and you find him asleep beside you the next morning.

"Sweet dream. Remember that tomorrow is going better than today"

When you are on your period, you will have a mood swings and you don't need to tell him cuz he can guess it. He will spoil you alooottt.

You want to go to watch movies in the cinema? He is totally fine with it. You forgot to bring your money? Don't worry you don't need to care about it cuz he is with you. You want some snacks? Why he have to buy it if he already preparing to surprise you with it? You want a new phone? Umm maybe he will think twice again.

"What y/n want y/n gets''

"You have money to take her to the Maldive trip? I never know"

"Shut up Chenle"

When you crying or feel down, he will ask you about it, and he tries to calm you down and cuddle with you alllll day. Or maybe when he is rich af at that time, he will take you on a luxury vacation and not forget to go shopping. Cuz he promised you that he will be with you forever.

"Here is your coffee. Wanna tell about it?"

"Sure. Are you okay if I tell you?"

"Just tell me. Or else I do it by myself to found your problems"

Sometimes you have a love-hate friendship with him. Misunderstanding is the normal thing between you two. He sometimes feels jealous or sad when you spend all your time with another friend although of the same gender. Fighting? Oh yeah, the small things sometimes can be a big thing okay. For example, food. If you open a refrigerator and "accidentally" found chocolate or maybe something else that is his food, of course, you will eat it. Once Jeno found about it, you are in danger lol. Like, he not talking with you all day or maybe just ignore you?

"Hey talk to me. It's just a fucking cheesecake"

"Not until you buy back the cheesecake you eat yesterday"

You smile at the memory that is flashing in your mind

And now?

Now?

Now...

He is totally different from before you can tell?

He found someone. Yes, someone. Someone that people say "no one can replace her" and whatsoever. Jeno meets his girlfriend in the cafe shop and that's how she confess her feeling to Jeno and Jeno accept it. You are sad and disappointed about it. You just don't have an idea if it is called jealousy or maybe something else.

You almost crying when you found out about it. That's why he acts strangely all these days, cuz he found someone new. You found that you were mad at yourself and it's hurt you more when he keeps his distance from you. It's not like you can do the things with him like before

"Why do you keep your distance and acts like a stranger? Can't we just act normal like before?"

"Sorry y/n, my girlfriend told me to do that, she... She said that she was uncomfortable about it and jealous although if we just talking normal thing...sorry"

"Ohh...good"

Those feeling before you have, now you thought it's all fake. Fake. You feel betrayed. You know it's not his girl's fault but still, you can feel the scar.

When you make eye contact with him without purpose, you quickly avoid it. You now try to avoid meeting him.

When you meet him, you can feel the guilt in his eyes. Sometimes you realised his action that he wants to fix it again. You just ignore him. You try to ignore him but you cant. All you can do now is just to be a stranger. Yes. Stranger.

You feel regret and angry when you found out that you are actually in love with him. You just know all those feeling are called love. Tsk, how stupid are you? You are late. And he is late too.

Sad, disappointed, angry, betrayed, all in one

Now, you have to let him go because sometimes love to mean that we have to leave them and let them go to be happier. Whatever you go through, life is still going on.

Sometimes you meet him, but not talking too long, because you know your line especially when he with his girlfriend

You just have to wait. Wait to deserve someone else who can accept you. Accept your feelings

I'm sorry y/n. I try to find my feelings for you and try to confess them. But I'm too late and ended up with someone else. I'm not sure about the feelings and not sure if I regret my decision. I can feel your disappointment in your eyes when I meet yours. I'm sorry...

°•©nctworststuff

[purplerose244]

My thoughts on Seabound!!! ����🌊🌊 (3/4)

SPOILERS ALERT!!!

Yep yep yep, I'm liking this season a lot! 😍 Although I hope we'll get into a more frantic situation now, like with more battles and more bonding moments (Nya and Maya hopefully, but with Bentho too 🦈🦈🦈)! We got half a season to go, I'M READY!! 😎😎

Alright, here we go!

GENERAL THOUGHTS

I do like the season a lot, maybe MoM was a little more cohesive? Idk but it's not a big complain, I still love it so far 😍

Also maybe I would've liked more interactions between Nya and Maya about how they've been apart for so long, they had a chit chat but I would've loved even more. Maybe with Nya saying that it was fine and she grew up only to realize she is still hurt by that, even though it wasn't Maya's fault. I still like how they did it, I wished there was more that's it 🤷‍♀️

While I do make sense to Maya's behavior, that while it seems a little different from Hands of Time it had its logic in my opinion, maybe Ray feels a little weird? He seems less courageous than before, and it was established that he is a hothead like his son so that came off as unusual 🤔🤔

But I do love the fact that he's here and he's bonding with his son, for real, I've been waiting for this for so long so I'm happy nonetheless 🤩

Maybe I'm just easy to please and I take all I can get idk 😅

THE STORM AMULET

Oh, are we gonna address the wind element? It feels like we haven't really seen a Morro reference since Hands of Time, that would be cool! 😍 I mean, why even mentioning the wind then 😅😅

Well what do you know, they tracked them, who saw that coming?... me, I saw that coming... we all did probably 🤷‍♀️

Jay took upon himself making a quick recap on how Ninjago will be destroyed this time, thanks Bluebell 👌

Yep nyeheh electricity makes Nya go crazy for sure ❤💙 ... wait it wasn't a Jaya pun?

Jay wear your seatbelt please, you risk you life enough 😅😅 Pff lol "are we there yet" and they are actually there, biggest plot twist I've ever heard of 😂

LEGO HUG 💜💜💜

And with someone who might as well join the League of Jay apparently 💙

I liked The Island yet it was not as exciting as I hoped for, but now understand the meaning of it. The ninja helped the keepers and they are all allies. Without The Island the moment where Mammatus gives Nya the amulet wouldn't be as meaningful

Is it just me or Nya looked even more gorgeous during that moment?... just me huh? Okay then 😂💕

Wait that's a fake? Wait... UNCLE POWERS?!? OMG THAT I ACTUALLY DIDN'T SEE COMING 🤯

Here I thought he was just messing around, he always makes things harder 😅 Or maybe better? I mean, they kinda missed a bullet on this one...

BENTHO IS SO SWEET AND COOL OMG HE IS ALREADY OUR FRIEND 💙🦈💙🦈

Jay somehow had his own TV show in the past and yet he's got that horrible acting skills wth 😂😂😂

Kalmaar is a very cool villain, like, deeply evil. Not only he's calculated and merciless, he stops at nothing to get what he wants. And the people that get in the way? He wants them to suffer because they had dared to confront him 😳

And yes the voice does help a lot, I'm sorry I'll keep saying it until the season is over 😂 (or even beyond? Please cast Giles again LEGO 🥺🥺🥺)

Awww Nya no my poor girl 😢 Jay wanted to hug her to comfort her he is so sweet my SHIP ❤💙❤💙

MOM PEP TALK MOM PEP TALK!!! 🤩🤩🤩 How cool was it?

Like, this isn't even Maya asking Nya to believe in herself, this is her saying that she KNOWS her daughter can do anything when she puts her mind into it. FINALLY SHE SEES HOW AMAZING WATER GODDESS IS 💜💜💜

MORE LEGO TEARS OMG THIS SEASON IS FILLED WITH TEARS 😱 Which... kinda makes sense considering it's a water based season 😂

Nice one, and now? NOW WE GO BACK TO KAI COLE AND RAY YAS!!! ❤🖤❤🖤

RIDDLE OF THE SPHINX

That is... surprisingly Egypt theme like? It feels like a title coming from the Fire Chapter of season 11... well we got two fire elementals so 😍😍

SPARRING KAI AND RAY

I REPEAT SPARRING KAI AND RAY!!! SPARRING KAI AND RAY!!! ❤❤❤ Lol Ray got old, but how can someone blame him? He did touch death while aging in Hands of Time, I'm just happy he is alive 😂

Yep, master prankster Wu, that's what I love 👌👌 I always thought Wu had become a father figure for Kai at the beginning, so seeing Ray and Wu in the same picture feels very wholesome to me 😚

Ah, uncle Powers, I both love you and hate you so freaking much 😌😌 But you make cool slides nonetheless 😂

ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME WITH BEAUTIFUL SMITH INTERACTIONS??

BECAUSE I LIKE IT KEEP GOING 🤩

Oh no you guys are stranded on an island whatever are you going to do?? It's not like you had already before and managed to survive (Skybound) or you got stranded on a rock in a sea of sand filled with giant monsters (Fire Chapter) or you were on a freaking COMET in SPACE (Rebooted). Yeee, this is the worst yet 🙂

I'm starting to think these ninja are just a bunch of drama queens so no matter what happens, it's always hopeless 😂😂 I feel like I'm kinda right on this one honestly 😛

Whoa whoa WHOA WHO IS NYAD THIS SOUNDS VERY COOL???

Aww I like that, while Ray told his kids stories about dragons and how they traveled through the Underworld, Maya told them about Nya the first water master that could summon whales 💙❤💙❤

Pff imagine if it turned out Nya was the master of fire, carrying a very water based name? Lol

Maya: I would know if it was possible!

Nya: Yeah, like she knows that I can control a bit of ice because it's frozen water

Maya:...

Maya: YOU WHAT

I find both interesting and very annoying that this explorers club thinks so highly of themselves, to the point the deny to aid even the FREAKING SAVIORS OF THEIR FREAKING LAND 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Misako got good reflexes after all, Kai was probably ready to melt this guy's face 😅

Oh, so a trial by Sphinx is a challenge? A mental one? A cultural one? A physical one? Idk but Misako is actually taking charge and that is cool I guess 🤷‍♀️

Okay this is kind of weird, how is Ray so afraid? Is it because there's fire?... did he... did he grow afraid of fire for some reason? Because it feels a bit off for now, but if there is a deeper meaning that could be interesting 🤔

Wait is that the riddle from Decoded? That's fire right?

IT IS FIRE 🔥🔥🔥

Lol at least in this one Kai wasn't completely ignored 😂 I know my flame babe isn't the most rational person, but I do like that it was an answer connected to his element where he used his head!

Ah Clutch, you really got no backbone 😅 And apparently you're the only explorer who doesn't, dang look at the others go! I'm having a bit more respect for them now 😚

LOOK AT SENSEI GO FINALLY!!! 😍😍 FIGHTING SCENES HECK YES!!!

Kalmaar: I'm your conquerer

Wu: so after skeletons, the serpentine, nindroids, the Stone Army, Chen's army, ghosts, oni, more snakes but on fire and people from a game, that makes you the tenth. Have a free cookie

Kalmaar:...

Wu: you're not special

Is this a little throwback to Possession too? Nya seems to always control better water when she doesn't actually think about it. When her feelings are free, so are her powers 🌊🌊🌊

Also this opens up more possibilities! Creatures connected with other elements might get summoned too! I would love something like that 😍😍

This was NEAT, or maybe I just missed Kai that much ❤ What's next??

PAPERGIRL

ANTONIAAAAAAAA!!!! MY GIRL IS BACK!!! All my girls are back in this season, I'm so happy 😍😍😍 And if she is here, sweet little Nelson has to be around and I cannot wait! Bring in the purple ninja! 💜

Owww Antonia's last day as a papergirl? Nooo why??

She's got a job at the... DAIRY DRAGON??? OMG OMG OMG IT'S THE ICE CREAM PLACE BRAGI TOLD US ABOUT ON TWITTER!!! 🤩🤩🤩 I remember the post, he was asking about names for the place and ice cream flavors. Now I can't wait to see what did he choose 🍦🍦🍦

UNAGAMI BABY HI HONEY!!! 🙋‍♀️ I hope he's doing great 😘😘

This is so cool honestly, Antonia got her own character arc going on! Living in a chaotic city like Ninjago City must be pretty dang exhausting 😅

Was... was that Dareth in the garbage can? Am I wrong? Poor brown ninja 😅🤎😅

SPINJITZU SWIRL, BANANAKHAN, ORANGE SERPENTINE, I'M DYING 😂😂😂

Their friendship is so wholesome, I'm so happy they are still together no matter what happens 💕

I thought Kalmaar wasn't much of a fighter but DANG he's got skills! Also the fact that he uses tentacles makes the fight very cool to watch! 😚😚

RAY RUNNING IN AFTER KAI GOT HURT HECK YES ❤❤❤

Well at least you tried Ray 😅

Ah, little cameo of the original Weekend Whip, always nice to hear it again... AND DO THE WEEKEND WHIP!!! 🌪🌪🌪

EVEN NELSON GOT CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT I'M SO PROUD 💜

I don't even know what is cooler, the kids being mad lads on their bikes, Kalmaar driving a TRUCK or Kai going full parkour on the buildings to follow them 🤯

I'm sorry... am I the only one that during the Kai and Kalmaar talk kinda thought of Jestro and Clay? I miss my boys from NK, they're even more at odds now 😭😭

KAI YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO DIE OR EVEN TRY TO DIE GET BACK HERE AT ONCE 😱😱

Kalmaar just loves to make everyone feel inferior, gotta be his hobby 😶

Oh good Kai is back

OH NOT GOOD KAI IS NOT BREATHING?!? FLAME BABE I TOLD YOU YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO DIE 😱😱😱

Antonia, Nelson, you guys are now my heroes. You saved my fave, I'll be forever in dept with you ❤❤❤ Am I being overdramatic? Most likely, but Kai is one of the few that didn't almost die or did die in a dramatic situation and he is also my absolute favorite character so that... kinda keeps my sanity in check in this show 🥴

I wonder... does he still not know how to swim? He saved Lloyd in Possession but I wonder if he was only trying to float on the surface... THAT'S TERRIFYING

This episode was so adorable, I love Antonia and Nelson so much 💜💕💜💕 It's nice to see what the other people of Ninjago do while everything goes mad 🤣

Wait hang on my Ninjajan is a little rusty

"Ninjago City. City that never sleeps" well if that ain't the truth 😂

MASTER OF THE SEA

Like Master of the Mountain? Wait are we going back to Shintaro?? VANYA?? ANOTHER BEST GIRL RETURNS??? 💛

Hey hey hey, we got a full Nyad backstory! I really like when they do these little drawn shots, they feel more like legends! And... the ending sounds terrifying? Like, they wouldn't let Nya sacrifice herself and die... again... right? 😱

Bentho: and the world was in balance, until now because of my brother

Lloyd: and the Overlord before of course

Bentho: the what now?

Lloyd: the evil one my grandpa the first Spinjitzu Master fought?

Bentho: YOUR WHAT NOW

Why do I like this offscreen "hiiiyaaa" that sensei Wu does before actually going into the scene? 😂😂

No matter if they come from the underground or the sea, these are all snake-like creature with the same intellect 😅 Kalmaar and Garmadon would have a lot to talk about, sea king dealing with his minions does remind me of Lord Garmadon in season 2 a lot 😂😂

KAI AND RAY FIGHTING TOGETHER KAI AND RAY FIGHTING TOGETHER ❤🔥❤🔥❤🔥❤🔥❤

OMG Kalmaar is such a brat and petty villain I love him so much 😂😂😂 Yes I didn't even mention his amazing voice!... AH DANG IT 😳😳

*Misako kicks Kalmaar and is actually useful* 🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️🙆‍♀️

*Misako gets taken as hostage immediately after* 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

KAI LITERALLY JUST GOT SAVED FROM DROWNING WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO HIM!!!... and Ray and Cole and Wu of course, I care okay 😅

OMG that face 🤣🤣🤣

That some meme material right there

Whoa Vincent that voice just got super up when the Unsinkable showed up, it kinda sounded like Jay's lol

NO NOT BENTHO!!! 😢😢😢

Kai: Nya talks to whales now? (I snorted so hard at this 😂😂)

HECK YES NYA GOT THE AMULET!! 😍😍😍 ... we got, like, four more episodes to go so something needs to happen in between... do I need to be scared? I feel like I need to be scared 😅

Jay starting a fire then blaming Kai?... this is so in character I got chills 😂😂

SHARK BOY IS STAYING TO THE MONASTERY THIS IS SO PRECIOUS!!! 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 I want all the shenanigans and we need to write fanfictions about more shenanigans and AAAAHHHHH 🦈🦈🦈

Bless these two fire idiots

They own my heart ❤🔥❤🔥 Also Vincent, this is supposed to be a fun little gag moment, your amazing voice acting is kinda distracting me 😭😭😭

ANOTHER LEGO HUG

YOU GUYS ARE SPOILING ME OVER HERE HECK YES 💙🌊💙🌊

Maya learned that her daughter is capable of everything, I love that. Nya simply understood that she doesn't have to give up when something gets difficult. She is AMAZING and can do anything she puts her mind into. She simply has to hold on until the end 💪💪💪

Omg Benthomaar playing billiard with the guys I already love this 😍😍

YES IT IS SHINTARO!!! THE UPPLY ARE HERE OMG!!! HI VANYA YOU LOOK AMAZING GIRL MISS YOU I HOPE YOU'RE DOING OKAY!!! 💛💛💛 ... I just really like Master of the Mountain okay 😅

I love how Vanya doesn't even question it. It comes from Cole and he said it needs to be protected? Done and done 👌

Wait what, did something fall?

IS THAT THE FAKE?!?!? WHAT HOW WHEN??? UNCLE POWERS??? OR KALMAAR DID SOMETHING??? SOMEONE??? I'M LEGIT CONFUSED AND EXCITED??? 🤯🤯🤯

Well dang, I didn't see that coming, now what Seabound? What do you have for me?

[surrealsunday]

Okay, sorry for that, it is waaaaay longer than I expected. Guess I had a lot to say on the events of this chapter

- The scene between Lucas and Mika is so cute and so well written. I love that Lucas is fishing some information and I love that Mika is providing so willingly. I’d have loved to see this in the show to be honest. And I have to say, I’m so proud of Punzel ! Lucas for being this mature. I’m digging it !

- I don’t know what to think about Chris. I’m the anon who was kind of worried about him last week and boy, you’re a mystery for me. He clearly likes Lucas and gave up of the idea to make any sort of move on Lucas a long time ago (I LOVED the way he explained that to Lucas 1. Dude, I’m scared for my life, Eliott will definitely kill me if I do something 2. Boy, you’re so in love with Eliott, whatever might happen between us is a lost cause) So yeah, he likes Lucas, but he knows he can’t have him, but hey, let’s try this we never know. Recipe for disaster, man. So I don’t know if he’s trying to piss off Eliott, try to have a chance with Lucas or to give a little push to Lucas in the right direction (i.e. Eliott) or just something else we don’t know about (yes, clearly I’ve spent too much time thinking about it). As I said, mystery.

- Dear Quentin, you really seem to be a nice guy (dare to say too much of a nice guy ?) Run from this as fast as you can… you don’t want to be in the middle of this. Trust me.

- I LOVED the flashback scene. So much context, from Eliott and Lucille (as we kind of understand it was a rough time for Lucas and Eliott – we begin to understand a little more of that) to the coming out scene with Yann which was so soft and cute and comforting (and a nice change from the move Yann pulled off on the show)

- Yeah, so let’s talk about the sex scene. First of all : Lucas, dear boy welcome to a new world. From the looks of it, you seemed to enjoyed it ! Then, Eliott, baby stop trying NOT to be in love because everything you do, say or don’t say is a BIG GIANT SIGN. And yes Lucas, I guarantee you that morning after, when you’re going to wake up naked is the same bed, IS going to be a defining moment. Fight or flight kind of moment. I’m a big fan for the morning after scenes, so I will wait patiently for it next week !

Thanks for this chapter, it was perfect, everything I was hoping for and more ! The best day of the week is now Friday waiting your update ! Have a great week !

Don't apologize for long comments - I love!!!

Honestly I would have loved to see that Mika and Lucas kind of scene (obviously less explicit lol) in the show too. Mika was not my fave in the show (he grew on me but still...) so I sort of like living out how I would have liked their relationship to be and for scenes to play out in fic - while still trying to stay true to both of their characters (and Mika's overall ridiculousness). I'm so glad you liked it!

Your questions about Chris are fair enough. Chris and Eliott are the kind of friends who were friends by circumstance (i.e. you're in the same classes, kinda roll with the same crowd, so you become 'friends') who became more like frenemies because of Lucas (not as in Lucas is at fault, but because Lucas became a conflict between them). It won't ever get too deep because I wanted to sort of stay true to some of the more superficial and dumb 'dude bro' friendships. But I do think you'll have a pretty good feel for Chris by the end of the fic.

I grappled with that flashback a bit because Eliott's pov is sort of important in it but you don't have that at all. So I decided to commit to focusing on Lucas. It's about his moment anyways and I wanted that coming out scene to be poignant and to be with Yann. A little more context on how Eliott was feeling will come in the next chapter actually.

"Eliott, baby stop trying NOT to be in love because everything you do, say or don’t say is a BIG GIANT SIGN." LOLLLLL 😂 it's so true. RIP Eliott. The morning after scene will indeed be a significant one in many ways. Because as much as the sex changed things (or redefined things) between them, it's really how they react afterwards that decides where they go from here 😌.

Thank you so much for your comments! I'm so glad you enjoyed! ❤️❤️❤️

[asirensrage]

For each of your OC pairings, pick three songs that show the progression of their relationship or just three songs that fit their relationship. (I told you I’d think of a music ask. It just took me all day lol)

Okay, I see how it is... lol Despite you giving me three songs and not one, I think this is still going to be hard. But let's try!

Sam & Michelle (not in order. I think. and based only on Crossfire)

Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance I am not afraid to keep on living / I am not afraid to walk this world alone / Honey, if you stay, I'll be forgiven / Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Little Lion Man - Mumford and Sons But it was not your fault but mine / And it was your heart on the line I really fucked it up this time / Didn't I, my dear?

The One That Got Away - The Civil Wars I never meant to get us in this deep / I never meant for this to mean a thing / Oh, I wish you were the one / Wish you were the one that got away

(ahahah this seems super angsty. More than I meant for it to be. Whoops) The rest is under a tag because this got long

Dean & Kelly

Supalonely - BENEE I know I f- up, I'm just a loser / Shouldn't be with ya, guess I'm a quitter / While you're out there drinkin', I'm just here thinkin' / 'Bout where I should've been / I've been lonely, mm, ah, yeah

Slow Burn - Kasey Musgraves I'm alright with a slow burn / Takin' my time, let the world turn / I'm gonna do it my way, it'll be alright / If we burn it down and it takes all night / It's a slow burn, yeah

Beyond - Leon Bridges I'm scared to death that she might be it / That the love is real, that the shoe might fit / She might just be my everything and beyond (beyond)

Kate & Steve

Naked - Ella Mai Might be a bitch in the morning so catch me at night time / Some of my friends think I'm moody but I think I'm just fine / I could be pissed but I act like I'm not / I really remember when I say I forgot / No matter how hard I try / To run away from love at the end of the night

Can't Fight This Feeling - REO Speedwagon I can't fight this feeling any longer / And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow / What started out as friendship, has grown stronger / I only wish I had the strength to let it show / I tell myself that I can't hold out forever / I said there is no reason for my fear / Cause I feel so secure when we're together

Lost in Love - Air Supply You know you can't fool me / I've been loving you too long / It started so easy / You want to carry on / Lost in love and I don't know much / Was I thinking aloud and fell out of touch? / But I'm back on my feet and eager to be what you wanted

Amelia & Eric (AoS version)

Time is Running Out - Muse Our time is running out / You can't push it underground / You can't stop it screaming out / How did it come to this? / Oh / You will suck the life out of me / Bury it / I won't let you bury it / I won't let you smother it / I won't let you murder it

Addicted - Kelly Clarkson It's like I'm running from you all the time / And I know I let you have all the power / It's like the only company I seek is misery all around / It's like you're a leech / Sucking the life from me / It's like I can't breathe / Without you inside of me

What Have You Done feat. Keith Caputo - Within Temptation I've been waiting for someone like you / But now you are slipping away / What have you done now? / Why, why does fate make us suffer? / There's a curse between us, between me and you

(bonus: A Study in Intimacy version: Locked Out of Heaven by Bruno Mars)

Cassia & Varro

She's So Hard - The Jezebels I'm all out, for the war. / I guess love wasn't what I'm looking for. / I don't care when you cry. / I think self-pity is a state of mind. / I'm so hard. I'm so hard. I'm so hard. / She's so hard. She's so hard. She's so hard.

Love Love Love - Of Monsters and Men And these fingertips / Will never run through your skin / Those bright blue eyes / Can't only meet mine across the room / Filled with people that are less important than you / 'Cause you love, love, love / When you know I can't love you

Everything - Lifehouse And how can I stand here with you / And not be moved by you? / Would you tell me / How could it be / Any better than this? / Cause you're all I want / You're all I need, / You're everything, everything.

Quest & Eric

I Threw Glass at My Friend's Eyes and Now I'm on Probation - Destroy Boys Like seriously, what do you think you're doing? / Your hands are so big and you're so tall, wow!

Say So - Doja Cat Day to night to morning, keep with me in the moment / I'd let you had I known it, why don't you say so? / Didn't even notice, no punches left to roll with / You got to keep me focused, you want it, say so

Genghis Kahn - Miike Snow I know there's no form / And no labels to put on / To this thing we keep / And dip into when we need / And I don't have the right / To ask where you go at night / But the waves hit my head / To think someone's in your bed / I get a little bit Genghis Khan / I don't want you to get it on / With nobody else but me

I don't have songs for Ava and Eliot rn. they're still new

[corinneabasta]

Someone's Lonely

Hi, I'm still awake. I know I said I was going to talk about my diagnosis but let me just forget about that because I want to talk about something else.

Also, what my therapist is trying to make me do is so hard : ( I need to get ready sleeping at 10pm and oh yeah I even forgot about the 4-4-5-5 breathing thing he told me to do before sleeping. Dang, it's not even 24 hours since the session and I'm already failing. Whatever, I'll just do the rest later in the day and continue the next coming days until the second session next week, Thursday.

• • •

Anyway, yes. I am lonely. I'm sad and lonely. Well, during the day, I get really hyper but when it's late at night, that's when I get super emotional and extremely lonely.

I don't know... My loneliness comes in many different reasons:

1. I'm an only child.

I think that explains why. Obviously, I have no sibling. You know what? Having a sibling you can talk to is different from having parents you can talk to. I don't know. That's just what I think. Maybe because if I were to have a sibling, I would make sure that we're very close and that we love each other. I think I'm a very loving person deep down. I just don't show it a lot.

Being an only child, in my own experience, is a mixture of fun and sad. It's fun because I get to get the things my parents buy all for myself. My parents will have no favorite child since I'm the only choice lol. Money won't be an issue because having more than one child means you multiply your expenses depending on how many your children are. (This one though is just what I thought. Money is still an issue for my family lol. But at least it's not because of another child but because of their money mismanagement.) But it's also sad because whenever my parents would fight, I'm all alone. It's just sad simply because I feel like I have no soul sibling and that I have no one but my parents. Don't get me wrong! I love having parents, of course, but could you blame me for longing for a big sibling or even a little sibling? One sibling could make me feel complete.

But that is okay. I'm a grown up now and I learned that sometimes parents only get 1 child ticket for life and there's nothing they can do about it. I think it's what's written and I've just come to accept it as I grew older. I love my parents still and I don't blame them for not giving me a sibling. It's not like it's their fault.

2. I'm insecure.

Now, how is that a reason for my loneliness, you ask?

See, I see myself as a very ugly and unlovable person. Especially, when I'm in my depressive phase. I feel like no one has ever liked me or even loved me aside from my family. I feel like if someone has ever confessed to me and said they liked me, it's just shallow. I don't like to believe them completely. I feel like when someone says they like me, it's a joke or something. I feel like it's forced.

Now, this insecurity leads me into thinking if someone is ever gonna love me. I'm afraid no one will. Yes, I am afraid. Right now, I'm not afraid to be single. What I'm afraid of is the future — will I stay single for the rest of my life? I don't mind being single today because I can't be in a relationship considering I'm mentally unstable and I'm fickle.

It's making me lonely because, even if I want to be single right now, I still want to feel like I'm worthy of being loved. I want to have hope that there's love waiting for me in the future.

It might sound insensitive because someone literally confessed how much they like me and even think they might be in love with me. But guess what I did? I wrote them a 4-page letter telling how they should stop liking me because I'm mentally unstable and yep, you read it, fickle. I didn't want to jeopardize our friendship just because the relationship didn't work due to my/our mental state.

I don't know. Now that I have mentioned that, I'm now as confused as you. Why do I keep wanting to be loved but the second somebody tries to show me how much they love and/or like me, I push them away?

I'm still lonely and scared about the future. It's like I'm lonely now but it's for the future. My overthinking in a nutshell.

3. I'm broke

Hell yeah, I'm broke yet I get to buy things online like I'm the richest person on earth.

I really am broke because I spend my money like there's no tomorrow. My mom always says, "You're a one day millionaire." And yes, she is very correct. When I have the the money available, I get giddy like a child and buy the toys I want at a drop of a hat.

How does being broke make me lonely?

Because I'm money hungry. I'm kidding! In a sense, yeah. But I won't say money makes my world spinning. Being broke makes me lonely because I don't get to buy the things I need, I don't get to buy my family what they want, and I don't get to spoil my friends. (Excluding the charities and good works just because.)

How is that even making a sense, you say? I don't know either but I'll further explain.

I'm going to be honest here, okay? Please force yourself not to judge me.

I feel like (me) having money is sort of a turn-on thing for people... How do I word it... Sorry bilingual problems... I feel like if I have money, more people will see me. Do you understand where I'm coming from? Yes, see me. Having money will make me more visible to people and make them like me. I can't explain it. My English is staring to fade now. I apologize.

Money — Visible —> People — Chances of talking to me. Dammit!

This would literally just drag us to my issue of wanting to be admired and loved. I feel like this is my only key to be more visible since I'm literally ugly. It sounds like it's a desperate idea but it is but it's not as well.

Aaah! My brain is starting to malfunction. It's already 2.30am. While typing my thoughts, my brain was literally in a rush thinking of more to put in but I guess it got to it's extent and is now tired.

It was great being able to type on here with better words and memory. I like it. I might do this more often. I think it's my reading that made me go back to journaling long paragraphs because I'm back at reading books again, trying to find a hobby and this is the best I found so far. This might change again, as per usual, but we'll see!

I might go get some sleep now. I'll try to type more later today.

(I'm not as lonely as I was earlier anymore. Wow, writing paragraphs might actually be one of my favorite outlets! Fickle self, try not to make this uninsteresting for you in the future a.k.a. next coming days...)

Kk, good night!

— Corinne

[electricjudgements]

It's really bananas. Like, I don't know what I expected, but "shifting the blame to make your ship look better" was low on the list. I'm pretty sure anybody with any sense would be able to tell Song Lan's words were spoken in a moment of incredible pain and vulnerability, and like even if you think they weren't (only a moron would think this, mind), the fact he went out to find you and say sorry should be enough to show he changed his mind.

It fucking boggles me. It genuinely boggles my brain. Not just that, but that people would see how blatantly obviously in love you two were and STILL think x*ex*ao was the way to go. I don't know who I detest more, even, those who admit to simply thinking stuff like that is hot (you do you but I'm Xue Yang, I get a say) or those who try to find any way to justify their bullshit, i.e. Wah Wah Song Lan Abusive Waaahh!! His fault it all happened!!!

Like I said in my previous ask (by the way, sorry for sending another one instead of reblogging!), that 'argument' is just recycling what I said during that fight (feels weird saying I, but hey, I did), which was literally "hit him where it hurts to get the upper hand". Your argument is a jenga tower about to collapse if you think playing on someone's regret and manipulating them into feeling bad is equivalent to thought out, rational reasoning.

Makes me sick. For real. And don't even get me started on songx*ex*ao. I get the intent behind trying to fix things by having everyone be friends, but from where I'm standing it just feels awful. Like truly. Seeing as everything was genuinely all my fault, of course I wouldn't wanna see that.

God, I'm sorry for the ramble. But also hi!!! - your wordsy pal, 🍬👿

yes yes yes!! (and btw in advance i'm sorry for how long this will take me to respond, i wanted to wait until i had a good chance to give this the proper attention to responding so it's not just some "lol totally!" answer 😖)

i remember when that person told me (TO MY FACE!!) that zichen was just as bad, i'd said "i don't think so...? after all, he may have hurt xiao xingchen, but he'd just been traumatized and BLINDED, he may have been a monk but we all have a breaking point," and the person had just been like "well :) i still think he's just as bad really :)"

i honestly think those kinds of people just assume they've got to attack first, since ship wars rule the world! /s so if i say "x*ex*ao squicks me out" they assume i'm going to go off on a tirade about how terrible it is, et al. i'm not! i don't care! if you ship it, whatever... just be nice about it? keep it away from ppl who don't want to see it? i've my share of problematic things i enjoy, you just have to be decent about it. not everything is an attack on you personally, although once you start going "well. character is just as bad so get off your high horse" to someone who didn't even start a fight, then maybe i will attack you personally? depends on my mood LMAO

and eeuuugghh songx*ex*ao noooo don't even get me started 😣 my zichen is, how shall we put this, he hates x*ex*ao obviously, but s*ngx*e or god forbid all three of them together, it makes him so mad, like absolutely disgusted, LMAO (he says hi also!) and his emotions tend to bleed into mine, especially if we feel similar things, so it's.... a lot. it's a lot!

i hold a deep fondness for xue yang even now, and i can't lie and say he's the worst character i've ever liked (seriously. i have a refined taste that can be best described as "horrible enough that my therapist makes fun of me for it") but i don't like him because i particularly want to ship him w anyone. i'm just compelled by characters that have tragedy in their lives and choose to do the wrong things about it. characters like that are so interesting, and you don't have to excuse their actions or woobify them just so you can feel better about liking them!

like, long story short i guess LOL, but what's just as annoying as "song lan is just as bad!" is the "xue yang is a little baby though!" woobification, like i'm somehow his "prize" for all of his suffering and pain. i'm not anybody's prize! yes i had a close relationship with him and had i not been a near-celibate "mates once for life" kind of person i might have been able to have romantic feelings for him, when we were "friends"! but no, i was taken advantage of and betrayed, and i couldn't handle it. i really had cared for him, to the point where had he admitted who he was, i think... i wouldn't have forgiven him point-blank, but i would have shown him more mercy than i had in the past. it would hurt me, to know i cared for someone who did such horrible things, but it would have been okay. i wouldn't have lost myself to grief, at the very least. we might have had to end that friendship, but i wouldn't seek him out anymore. it would be a different kind of pain, especially if i found zichen again and he wanted revenge, but... ah, that's all in the past, and i suppose there's no use agonizing over it. but i did care for him, immensely so, which is why it tore me apart so horribly in the end.

if fans think i can be happy after that kind of incident, well! they're free to think that, i guess, although i would not like to see it, and also i am questioning how much they care for me as a character versus how much they care for xue yang. it always seems like our ship is about comforting him and not, you know, the person he drove to suicide. i wonder why! 🤔

(don't worry my friend, i also ramble a lot, like endlessly, and it's only exacerbated with my current shifts 😅)