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going through some old logs, and I need you to understand just how truly unhinged early 2010s RP omegle was.
genuinely you could stay on there for hours with just one person, hashing out complex traumatic backstories, drawn-out love confessions, detailed action scenes...collaboratively describing graphic violence, past abuse, comfort, hurt/comfort, hurt/no comfort, any number of sex acts...and then one of you would be like, "oh haha it's 2AM! I have to sleep :(" and the other person would say, "omg saaaame. :( gnight!!!" and then you'd exit the chat and never speak to each other again, and this was. fine.
you could just spend an entire evening shoving your wretched, bleeding soul into a chat log with someone you'd never meet or learn the name of, achieve some form of emotional catharsis, and then go about your day or night like this was an average way to spend your time.
I'm really normal about this, actually
#sbs rambles#omegle#it wasn't always serious ofc. there was a lot of lighthearded silliness#but I usually went in for the darker sadder stuff that built up to a happy ending#there's really a special form of intimacy when you and an internet stranger are each controlling a fictional character#and describing them doing things like bandaging each other's wounds#checking each other for bruises. asking them to talk about what they've been through. great stuff!#I hope there are still places where people do stuff like this. like I know there are forums and servers for this but that's not the same.#and I mean. I keep thinking ''there must be other places like this!'' but then I remember the goodbye message when omegle shut down#and...I dunno. the internet is different now#we don't live in that world anymore#anyway if you ever RP'd sherlock stuff on omegle you might have talked to me. :) we might have written something together#and despite it being superwholock-era fandom âcringeâ#I'm proud of that#that was a really important part of my life#it was fun :) though I definitely had issues I wasn't willing to confront yet lmao#and I wish I had saved more of the logs :/#oh! I also liked the moments where you'd have to take a break#like you could be right in the middle of something intense and then the other person would be like#(brb I have to finish making dinner for my husband) and you'd say (sure!)#and then 20mins later you'd start up again where you left off
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I do not know why Americans have the sense that European food is somehow intrinsically healthier than their own food. EU food regulations are basically indistinguishable from American ones, and include many substances that are in fact banned in the US. EU regulations are tougher on GMOs specifically, but thatâs bad, because GMOs are safe, and panic about GMOs is based on unscientific nonsense. And there is loads of stuff like partially hydrogenated oils that is banned in American food and fine in European food. There are more food dyes approved for use in Europe than there are in the US.
But I am so, so tired of Americans imagining Europe is some kind of food-regulatory utopia where somehow gluten works differently (!!!) and everyone is way healthier. They come to Europe on vacation and then they go home talking about how much better they felt and how they lost weight or w/e despite all the pastry they ate and itâs bc. Well. They were on vacation! They were more active than usual, and having fun! Of course they felt better! This gets compounded with, like, Mediterranean diet woo and progressive American cultural cringe and itâs really weird. I have spent a lot of time in Europe and in the US. Here in Germany people are marginally healthier but itâs mostly because middle aged Germans have a masochistic fetish for exercise. And even then it varies a lot by location and social group.
Also I f you are talking about literal nebulous evil forces rather than being able to name one (1) food additive you think has health risks you are engaged in wildly irresponsible scaremongering. Thatâs sort of reflexive conspiracism isnât it? You have no ability to name specific harms you think might exist, just a vague sense someone is out to Get You. Even the anti-vaxxers can point to a (fictitious) causal chain like âvaccines â> autism.â
This is about to trigger a whole other rant about how social media-driven doomerism and conspiracy is shredding the social fabric and driving the rise of the far right, about how being cynical about everything makes you an easy mark for grifters, and about how nobody can tell the difference anymore between âthing that is complicated that I donât understand (like US federal regulations) and a conspiracy,â but thatâs kind of off topic, so I will spare you. But the tldr is that you folks really need to chill out.
people who for very silly reasons want to market prepared food products without preservatives in them who then discover why we started putting preservatives in prepared food products in the first place (because without a preservation method food quickly grows stale, and frequently also moldy or downright toxic) is a consistently good bit. like people really seem to think we put Evil Chemicals in food on purpose for no reason.
#government bureaucrats and experts do in fact care about their jobs#and are pretty good at them!#if anything the problem with the FDA is that it is too slow to approve new drugs#bc the incentives around that stuff makes them too cautious#but also#US federal regulatory procedures tend to be pretty transparent!#people donât pay attention to them bc theyâre boring#but ânobody pays attention to thisâ and âthis happens in secret and is subject to shadowy forcesâ#are not the same thing
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Your explanation for why Tahraim operates the way he does makes so much sense. And, fun fact, Tahraim actually helped me a lot with dealing with intrusive thoughts and guilt.
I've done a lot of things and thought a lot of things over the years that I regretted and felt a lot of guilt over. And for the longest time, all I knew how to do was ignore the guilt and try to improve as a person, but that guilt was still inside eating at me little by little. It wasn't until I read Tahraim telling Dainix "This time we're going to let the fire do what it does best, we're going to let it change you" and "now you're not the person who'd do that anymore. Well done." that it really clicked for me how to cope with those feelings.
I ended up being able to take it a step further too and apply it to coping with not having been able to protect people who weren't my responsibility because I was just a kid (ngl the panel in Erin's dream of him desperately shouting "I was a child!" helped a lot on this journey too). I tried to apply using guilt to change me into somebody who wouldn't let that happen again. But then I realized that I'd done everything in my power. I didn't want to change into somebody who didn't try, and I couldn't change myself into somebody who successfully fixes everything for everyone. So instead, I let the fire inside me change me into somebody willing to forgive my past self and let go of the pain and self-blame.
Sooo uhhhh, I kinda lost the plot on the point I was making, but suffice to say that Tahraim makes a lot of sense and you very successfully ended up guiding me via him into a lot better coping mechanisms than I'd had previously.
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My favorite manifestations
Having a little fairy friend her names (Minami) shes like my little genie and also listens to me whenever i feel like yapping
All animals in the sea love my presence
Having a little necklace that warns me of certain events, (just like my dreams)
Having every passport
Being extremely photogenic no matter what the angle is
immune to ever gaining unnecessary weight (im like 39KG)
having extreme lucky girl syndrome
being able to manipulate water (i showed my friend this once and she was a bit spooked but then she thought it was cool)
my homework doing itself and every answer being correct with the work to explain it
removing my period.. (yall dw i can still get pregnant i just simply removed it so i donât have it anymore)
food in the house automatically restocks itself incase it gets empty
literally every last thing in my pinterest
being a very skilled dancer without looking weird plus having the stamina for it
knowing how to sing like really REALLY well
basically having my desired movie scenes to happen to me irl
racism not even existing anymore (idk if i mentioned this before)
THE EARTH HEALING
christmas always feeling like christmas (yk that childhood feeling?)
theres always something new and fun happening so i absolutely am immune to being bored
visiting people in their dreams if i felt like it
being related to jhene aiko yall shes such a cool and calming person to be around (i met herđ)
being able to talk to ghosts + ghosts loving me and love being friendly
having healing powers (if you ask me for a hug all your problems will be erased)
calories never existing (i never had a problem with them but this was just mostly to help my friend)
made my best friend my biological sister (INSEPARABLE)
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tattoo artist!vi who takes notice of just how beautiful you are the moment you step foot in her shop. itâd be the most difficult task in the world to not notice just how insanely breathtaking you are. itâs clear by the smirk on your glossy lips. you know just how good you look. caitlyn, being the woman she is, tries to jump in first. youâre just her type. violet would know, caitâs dated the anti-thesis of her since the moment you broke up. caitlyn kiramman loves pretty girls. anything she can do to be underneath them, sheâll find a way. you fit her bill. violet tried not to take offense of the ways your eyes light up taking to her ex-girlfriend. maybe youâre just nice. thatâs it, right? two minutes, someone who is almost as gorgeous as you walks in and then violet forgets about you as her next client walks in. she tries to at least.
tattoo artist!vi who doesnât stop thinking about you. itâs new york. thereâs plenty of pretty girls she can drown herself in. well, if she could figure out how to ask someone out without her crippling anxiety suffocating her. she knows sheâs somewhat attractive but her lack of knowing how to efficiently communicate it without sound like the weirdest fuck who has ever lived gets lost in translation. she doesnât like how sure cait is of herself when she talks about you though. violet doesnât even know you but seeing the glint in those aquatic-blue eyes make her want to punch something. itâs hard to even tell if it due to her budding crush or that itâs her ex. probably both but she ignores it.
tattoo artist!vi who likes to frequent bars on her days off. itâs when she doesnât feel alone. itâs fun to bug her sister, powder. sheâs always been more of a free spirit out of the two of them. an artist, a wanderer, someone who choses to bartend a couple nights out of the week just because she liked meeting new people, learning their story, what makes them tick. are they a mean drunk, happy, or will they burst into tears when you ask them how theyâre doing? vi isnât either really. sheâs quiet, calm even, but tonight part of her wants to cry. she feels lonely, lost, and even a little bit upset caitlyn is your first choice. she only knows your name because of the clientele list and that just feels pathetic. violetâs never been the smoothest of talkers, she knows that more than she feels the blood coursing through her veins. she isnât the girl and sheâs perfectly fine with it. perfectly. fine.
tattoo artist!vi who doesnât even enjoy work anymore. three months in and youâve been caitâs girlfriend and the feeling only gets worse. itâs clichĂŠ. a little fucked, but being in love with her exâs girlfriend? it doesnât get any lower than this. she let it slip days ago, only to powder, thank fucking god. if violet knew one thing, she didnât wanna deal with caitlynâs wrath. according to maddie, sheâd been a dog with a bone when it came to you. so protective it nearly turned into possession. she wanted everyone to know that you were hers and not anyone elseâs. it wasnât new to violet, cait didnât like being runner up to anyone. itâs why their relationship ended in the first place, especially when the girlfriend feels inferior to the sister. when powder comes around to the shop, cait canât help but wear her disgust all over her face like a poorly concealed mask. vi thinks itâs silly. the both of them are nearly the same itâs almost sickening. if only the other took the time to know the object of their disdain, they would see two peas sitting in a pod.
tattoo artist!vi who hates a messy shop. when personal items are left behind or someoneâs station isnât properly sanitized and clean. itâs why sheâs here, alone on the sunday, the only day the shop is closed. itâs been too long since she did a deep clean, just a week or too, but thatâs long enough for her. sheâs always been proud of what sheâs been able to accomplish her. even if she didnât have much, a girlfriend to love on, or if her father was on the other side of the country, she had this. violet ink. it was her name out on the sign over seeing the street, the luminous violet led lights kissing the downtown street. she made it this far and she couldnât let anyone run her off from something she fought so hard to build from the ground up. itâs why she was surprised when she saw you. your face free of makeup, your hair in itâs natural state, and you appeared more laid back than you ever were â in her shop. it feels like a fever dream she never wishes to wake up from. cait must have given you a spare key to the shop which she would have a discussion with her about that later because what the fuck? but itâs hard for her to stay mad when youâre standing there looking like a million bucks in the most casual pair of sweats sheâs ever seen. it feels different to who you usually are. shredded of the image you maintain, stripped back, thereâs just a softer version of yourself and vi canât help but contemplate if this is the side youâre so reluctant to show.
tattoo artist!vi who stutter how some stupid joke, trying to break the ice and it should have made things more awkward than they already were but your laugh full of symphonies just makes violet smile. in her best efforts, she craves to conceal it from you but itâs impossible when youâre looking at her. she canât help but smile â so she does. desperately, violet tries not to act nervous when youâre looking at her designs on the wall, not saying a word, just inspecting. thereâs a chill in her bones she feels, a need for her work to be loved because if it isnât? it eats her up from the inside out. maybe itâs embarrassing but she needs her work to be loved. whatâs the point if it isnât? itâs always been an extension of her soul, her life, and if someone doesnât like it? all they say is they donât like her. it may be the silliest thing in the world, but she needs to be adored. from a complete stranger, from the people who sheâs permanently tattooing, and especially from the beautiful women violet canât stop daydreaming about.
tattoo artist!vi who blushes when you tell her how much you love her designs. thereâs a soft touch to her shoulder, your thumb lightly tracing circles in her sturdy bicep. it feel innocent enough but vi doesnât give herself much time to think about it. painfully, she takes note in how your eyes soar when they make contact with her designs. even if it makes her cocky, violet knows sheâs good at her job. clients flying in from all over the country, just to get tattooed by her. with your undeniable charm, youâve convinced her to do a custom design for you but you wanna discuss it on sundayâs, alone. if anything, she should know this isnât a good idea. youâre charming, gorgeous and the prettiest thing sheâs ever seen. she should be afraid of caitlynâs wrath, of what would happen if she found out, but itâs innocentâŚright? sheâs a professional. no matter how much sheâs attracted to a client, itâs never been an issues and she certainly wonât make it one now. vi nods and the second she does, youâre leaping in her arms, into her space. you smell of lavender and lilies, like spring in the beginning of march. a sun-kissed marvel aching for the shine of summer, for one breath of fresh air. itâs really all she wants, a moment to be in the sunshine with you, if only for a moment at least she could tell the moon about it. her best kept secret and she would cherish every bit of it.Â
tattoo artist!vi who tries to keep her head down low as the weeks carry on. even when you try to make more of an effort to speak with her, the last thing she needs is caitlyn to take one final look at her and realize just how much she likes the attention. maddie already made one comment, even if it was light-hearted â itâs enough to keep her on edge. with the design being complete, all she needs is to tattoo but violetâs been avoiding you and whatâs worse? you knew it too. in her true avoidant style, violet failed to go to the shop the last two weeks on sunday. the tidiness and damn right organization of her shop was suffering but she still had plans of avoiding it. rather avoiding you, but in her forest fire of a mind, it comes all the same. all of this is so trivial, so stupid, so tragic. itâs kirammanâs day off and violet and sevika are the only artists on hand today which means sheâs overworked. the both of them are tired and violet just completed her last session of the day. she sneaks to the back enjoying the cigarette sheâd been itching to have. violetâs on her second one when you corner her into the brick wall sheâs leaning on. youâre too close. dangerously close, almost as if the fire youâve created in violetâs lungs might cause her to burn from the inside out. itâs chilling how silent you are until you arenât. youâre loud about the way you caress her exposed biceps, tracing the lines of her intricate tattoo as it crawls up shoulders and so do your hands. with a sharp graze, you scrap your nails across her skin as if you want to leave a reminder that she was in fact here. should she even even be here? letting you touch her in the way you are? but itâs not like vi has much of a choice when you push the hem of her tank top up to her ribcage, showcasing the flexing abs on her abdomen. it may be faint but thereâs a happy trail, one violet wants to see your lips on but sheâs scared to say anything, to move, to breathe. âcaitlyn said you were ripped underneath. i wanted to see for myself.â then your touch is gone and you are with it.Â
tattoo artist!vi who doesnât show up on sundayâŚfor the first couple of hours. violet thinks of that night, the way you touched her, like you knew exactly what to do before she even could think of what she wanted next. how on earth did you manage to paralyze her with a mere flick of your wrist? when your nails clawed at her toned abdomen, violet felt the stickiness in her boxers and youâd done all of nothing. she had to put an end to things, the private session, violet couldnât do it. she didnât want to be caught in some weird and perversed love triangle with her ex. in the back of her throat, violet feels the lump she constantly has to swallow. the only reasonable explanation is that this, you, is all some weird fantasy of caitlyn to get the last laugh. to fully degrade her in a way she couldnât, not when youâre the person who gets broken up with. itâs not a secret caitlynâs ego had taken a hit. to anyone, not being the first choice stings but to cait? it might as well be a death sentence and certainly it wouldnât stand.Â
tattoo artist!vi who isnât one for confrontation but in the need to savor some of her salvation in her dignity, she walks in the shop. youâre still waiting for her. two hours later, youâd hoped sheâd show. âviolet, you came.â itâs endearing but violet also sees herself the night before tangled in her black sheets, vibrator on its highest setting as she applies pressure to her clit, fingers nestled so deep inside her cunt as she hears your voice, thinks about your irresistible lips. violet wonders what you sound like when you come and suddenly the thought sends her hurling towards the edge. the smile you offer is almost like you can see right through her, like you know vi came to the idea of you just the night before.Â
with a slender smile, you make your way over to her and suddenly the internal dialogue she created to put an end to this arrangement died on your tongue when she shrugs viâs leather jacket off. sheâs only wearing her wrap to cover her chest, not intending on staying for a long time. definitely not enough to finish the beautiful design she created for you. sheâd get cait to do it. their styles were similar to it. your girlfriend has to do this. but youâre touching her bare skin. vi is losing focus as she feels the control slip into your greedy fingers.Â
âi know what youâre gonna say.âÂ
âand whatâs that?âÂ
âyou wanna stop this, meeting me here, you feel like youâre betraying someone you love and you have too much integrity to keep seeing someone you so obviously want to fuck.âÂ
âi canâtââ but the words die on violetâs tongue.Â
âsense wonât get to you, thatâs something caitlyn didnât understand. you think with your heart of gold. when it drips for someone, youâd let it bleed out if it meant you were saving someone.â you take a pause, slipping off your shirt as your pierced nipples are exposed. violet nearly begins to drool, her eyes unable to look away from your perfect nipples, the swell of your breast how perfectly they fall on your chest, sheâs nearly salivating to be offered a taste. âmy girlfriend doesnât understand youâve found someone else to be loyal to.âÂ
âthis is not, um, i didnâtââÂ
sweetly, you kiss her cheek. âitâs such a bitch isnât it? your heart wants whatever the fuck it yearns for, no damn mercy on who it hurts.â Â
violet can only think of how much she wants to be suffocated by your tits, forever trapped in this venus fly trap youâve caused her to succumb to. with her best foot forward, she wants to tell you to go to hell, that youâre wrong about her â she would never do something like this â until she does. itâs all tongue and teeth, vitriol and lust spills into her mouth as violet pushes you on the bench, ripping your skirt to shreds with her bare hands. only to find nothing underneath.Â
bent over the table, ass up in the air, violet wastes not a single moment and stuffs her face in your fat ass. with a gratifying need, she splits your folds on her tongue as she slaps your ass making you whimper and cry out for her name. itâs beautiful, violet thinks. someone needing her to bring them to the edge, and god, you arenât shy about it either. never has she heard anyone be so loud and proud about sex. so goddamn confident in each moan you let fall from pornogrpahic lips, itâs damn invigorating. the first one comes easily, you spill over viâs tongue as she moans back into your weeping pussy, liquid gushing over her face violet never wants it to end. the second time violet fucks you with her fingers, stuffing and fucking until there isnât any part of you that isnât undeniably shaking. the third time, youâre on top of her, the two of you finding comfortablity on the cot in the break room as violet lets you fuck her.Â
exactly what she expects it to be; hot, rough, fast. slippery pussy rubbing against hers until you collapse on top of her, breast pressed against her binded ones. you have a feeling they are there for a reason and you donât push, for once in your life, you let yourself succumb to sleep as you fall asleep in her arms.Â
tattoo artist!vi who doesnât see you for three months after she had the best sex of her life. even if it does sting, vi knows itâs for the best. six months in and youâre still with caitlyn despite your best efforts. surprising everyone, but violet for different reasons, you admit your slip up to cait but she forgives you. maddie and sevika make a game of it, trying to guess who make you cheat and when violetâs name comes up jokingly, caitlynâs words leave an unsettling pit in her stomach.Â
câmon, what is violet going to do? look at her. sheâs as loyal as a trained dog and i have you trained. donât i, cupcake?Â
tattoo artist!vi who focuses on her work, like a trained dog, she falls back into her routine. sundayâs arenât as pleasurable as they were with you, or one sunday she should say, but she dismisses the thought altogether. pushing it to the deepest parts of her mind becomes the only viable option. she uses other forms of entertainment to get her mind off of you. powder thinks itâs a good idea to be here but she refuses to step foot in here with her. this is where my path ends, sis. iâll be just up the hill when youâre ready. a not so subtle wink has her cringing and flipping her off blue-haired braided sister off in the process. this is such a good stupid idea but violet doesnât manage to convince herself out of this situation sheâs conducted for herself. anyways, itâs one night? no one ever has to know. from the moment she steps into the strip club, she knows she never should have been here. she keeps to the bar as she changes songs from the jukebox a few times. this has never been her scene nor will it ever. as she finishes off her class of neat whiskey, the familiar voice whispers into her ear, never thought youâd be here but i guess weâre both full of surprises.
#need to make a vi masterlist atp#the brainrot has severly taken over#oops?#yeah i'm posting this raw can't be bothered to reread it hehe#vi arcane#vi#violet x reader#vi arcane x reader#vi smut#vi x reader#vi x you#vi x y/n#league of legends
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"Oh, right, three. I'm sorry." Peter had trouble keeping where most of the androids came from straight, but he tried his best as he didn't want to accidentally offend them. But that still didn't stop him from making mistakes on occasion that he felt he'd have to make up for, even if most of the androids understood that he was only human and an odd one at that.
"They're easier to care for as they need far less work. I can't say for sure if they deviate, but I'd have to say probably. It's just less noticeable as they still act like the animal they're based on. BeeBee is harmless though, sure she was aggressive to begin with, but that was just because Zlatko mutilated her and kept her locked up. She calmed down after I got her fixed back up, think she just needed proof I wasn't going to hurt her before she'd let her guard down." He didn't blame the URS12 for her initial aggression, she'd been through a very traumatic experience and was just acting accordingly as she didn't know he wasn't there to hurt her.
Peter brought his hand to his mouth, sticking two fingers in his mouth and let out a sharp, short whistle. He knew G and BeeBee should be inside as Dan had likely taken Strasky for a walk around the property to calm him down, meaning Dan would take over watching for anything suspicious and G would take BeeBee inside for a break.
He lowered his hand as he heard the sound of claws rapidly clicking on the floor that were heading for the basement. He turned as BeeBee came to a halt in front of the room and sat down, chuffing and shaking her head. Peter motioned for her to enter the room as he knew she was waiting for permission. She quickly got up and jogged over to him, getting up on her hind legs as Daniel moved out of the way. She rubbed her nose against his as she made a purring sound, using her front legs to nudge him onto the ground, allowing her easier access to rub against him.
"They are furry, and BeeBee is just as fluffy as a polar bear should be. She usually is with G as he patrols the property, pretty good deterrent for anyone looking to cause trouble." Peter explained as he ruffled her neck. "She's not gonna hurt anyone unless given the command to do so, other then that she's a sweet heart." He gently coaxed her down so he could stand up again as Brent left the room to fetch more finished parts.
"Yeah, but don't point it out to them, they don't like that and I found that out the hard way." Not that it bothered him as he didn't get in trouble for the fight, the group had attacked him first and he had merely defended himself. He was just warned not to call out anymore protestors or acknowledge them if they tried to talk to him.
"Oh, nothing else. The computers should be it as we haven't come across any issues that can't be easily fixed." Sure they were still working on the space, but so far he couldn't name anything else that was obviously wrong that needed to be replaced.
"I don't, but I'm fine with it." He didn't understand why it was so important to the android, but he knew he needed to address Dan's overbearing protectiveness before it worsened.
"Maybe, but I wouldn't blame her if she still wanted nothing to do with me. I did threaten to kill her and jump off the roof with her, even held her out when the RK800 showed up to talk me down." Daniel wouldn't hold it against Emma if she never wanted to see him again after what he'd done to her. "And I find it interesting to deal with someone who's neurodivergent verses one that was perfectly normal." He didn't mind the change, in fact he found it to be a fun learning experience.
"He also really didn't want to be there as his goal was finding me, and being stuck on a rusty ship wasn't helping him accomplish that. And then to be dragged along occasionally or just hearing them planning something just added to his hatred of being there." Peter knew Dan understood it was best he hide as a deviant, but that didn't stop him from being upset about it.
"And finally reuniting with me and finding I lost an eye didn't do him any favors mentally. He deviated because he thought I was dead and had to find out if I was okay, so finding out I actually could've died well he was in the same city as me... Messed him up. I'm gonna see if we can fix that, he's getting very over protective because of that."
"There's three." the android corrected, "Three of us remain on the property."
"What's the point of android animals?" Rook asked, "Do they deviate too? Are they fuzzy at least? Can I pet BeeBee?"
"Rook."
"I want to pet a bear, Willow!"
Willow rolled her eyes, "Yes, the belief that the evil machines are stealing jobs is a myth that only serves the corporations. Unfortunately, most humans are too dense to understand they're considered on par with any other piece of equipment, thus are just as easily replaced by whatever is more cost effective."
So, trying to get the computers out of storage through semi legitimate means was most likely a lost cause. Willow resorted to sending a text instead. "Would you like to have everything delivered to this room?"
"I'm glad you understand now." It still didn't explain why Bishop specifically wanted his counterpart to fail, but that wasn't relevant to the android's argument as to why he felt the need to prevail.
It was a reasonable question, as far as he was concerned.
"Sometimes kids don't know better. Maybe she'll come around when she grows up and starts thinking with her brain." Rook told Daniel, "It's good that you found yourself new people to hang out with, even if one of them speaks in riddlesâ You've got something to add, Willow?"
"Oh, I was just thinking that Dan was right about most of Jericho's plans."
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Predator (Jungkook x Reader) Part II - Prey
Pairing: Vampire Jungkook x Reader
Word Count: 5.2k
Series: Predator Universe
Warnings: 18+, Yandere, Vampire Jungkook, Obsession, Manipulation, Forced Relationships, Blood (So much of it), Fear (Copious amounts), Panic/Anxiety Attacks, Mind Games, Tormenting the MCs, Discussions about dead bodies, Jungkook and his unblinking stare, Self Injury (Non Mental Health Related), Forced Feeding, Isolation
I do not condone the acts displayed in this story nor do I believe any members of BTS would actually engage in this type of behavior. This is simply written for entertainment purposes and should not be taken as a reflection of my own values, opinions, or morals.
Preview: The worst part was that you never tried to run. Jungkook never tied you down to anything or bound your wrists or feet. He simply knew that you would never try. It would be idiotic for you to try and run, you knew he was a talented tracker - he would be able to find you within minutes of your escape. There was nowhere to run and nowhere to hide from him, he would always be able to find you.
A/N: I am alive! This was entirely inspired by an ask that was sent to me so the entire reason this exists is because of the wonderful anons who have asked be about what has happened since the end of Predator and who have asked to see what a more lucid Jungkook would look like. I haven't had this much fun writing in such a long time. I'm sorry it's so short, I hope you can forgive me đ
READ PART I - PREDATOR
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It was dark and quiet, the only sound being the steady, slow, drip of water hitting the dusty floorboards and the harsh chatter of your teeth as they clashed together.Â
You were freezing, your body trembling despite your best attempts to collect yourself. It was no use, no matter what you did you were never able to warm up anymore. You knew it wasnât all that cold outside, but that didnât really matter. Despite the chills that wracked your body there was a fine sheen of sweat that coated your skin.
You were unsure as to how much time had really passed since you had found yourself here. All of the days had begun to blend together like some horrible fever dream you simply couldnât wake up from. The only constant in your life has become him.Â
If you didnât know any better, you would think he was trying to kill you.Â
What was truly likely, was that this was a side effect of his treatment of you. It was very likely that he just didnât know how to take care of a human. And despite your incessant pleading, he had told you that he would not kill you. So really, it was his own ineptitude that had you knocking on deathâs door.
Your skin felt grimey, not entirely from lack of hygiene, but from the film of blood that coated your skin. It was all over you but it mostly dominated your cheeks, lips, throat, chest, and fingers. He was not violent when he claimed his feeds, but he was not necessarily gentle either. You hadnât looked in a mirror for quite some time, but you were certain no amount of vampire blood would be able to seal your wounds with how often they were readily reopened.
This wasnât a life, it was a slow and painful trek to the afterlife.
Your trembling increased as the front porch creaked, he was already back. Your head lolled backwards and hit the wall behind you in defeat. You couldnât do this again, you couldnât give him another part of yourself - this time you were certain that it would kill you.Â
Every time he fed from you, there was a horrible, delightful, exhilarating rush that followed. Whatever it was that he was doing to you, it was forcing you to enjoy the very thing that was killing you. It was perverse. It was disgusting. It was addicting.
It was hard to hate him in the throes of ecstasy, there was this horrible thrill that came the second before his fangs pierced his limb of choice as you knew you would be rewarded with bliss in the moments that followed. It was easier to hate him when he wasnât there, his lack of presence giving your mind the briefest of reprieves to remind yourself of the horrible situation you were truly in.Â
The distance, however, didnât seem to allow him the same clarity. If anything, it made him grow more needy, more irritated, and more clingy.
The door creaked open, and your time to yourself disappeared. Your body shook tenfold as his presence filled the room. He still looked the same as he did the first time you had come face to face with him. His clothes were worse for wear, even more blood stained and shredded than they had been before. There was a permanent coppery scent that surrounded him, the dried blood being the prime suspect.Â
You were certain that you didnât smell that much better. Although, to a vampire, you probably would smell all that more enticing.
His gaze was immediately drawn to you, your eyes locking with one another, bridging the fifteen foot gap between you. His eyes often fluctuated in vibrancy depending on how hungry he was. The days where they were near black were the most difficult for you, but today they were a bright crimson red. He had fed on someone, someone who luckily wasnât you.
âHello little mouse,â He greeted, his voice low and surprisingly soft, devoid of the almost manic tone you had been familiar with for the longest time.Â
He began to close the distance between the two of you, his gait smooth as he approached you. The way he moved was unnaturally perfect, the silent power of a predator imbued in every muscle of his body.
He wordlessly dropped a bag in your lap as he sank down to the ground beside you, his wide, red, unblinking eyes staring at you, waiting for you to make a move. No matter how much time you have spent with him, his stare was still unnerving.
It took you longer than it should have to open it, your fingers trembling beyond your control. But Jungkook was patient, he has all of the time in the world to wait.
The scent of food hit your nose, your mouth watering and your stomach growling eagerly in response. From the color of his eyes and what he had brought you, you assumed he had decided to have his fill of a hiker instead of you.Â
Jungkook didnât know how to take care of a human, that much was obvious. He had, however, been keenly aware of how much blood he was draining from your body on a daily basis. You had become so weak, anything but sitting felt like a herculean task nowadays. And the lack of consistent meals was weighing heavy on your body.
You didnât care that he was watching you eat, your mannerisms ravenous and most likely off putting. But you no longer complained when he took his fill of you, and for some reason he remained silent and returned that courtesy.Â
You had noticed a shift in his behavior when that other vampire had found the two of you not that long ago. He knew Jungkook, from the way they spoke it appeared he knew him very well. This other vampire, despite how he appeared more human than Jungkook, frightened you just as much. You could tell from the curl of his smile to his confident gait that he was just as bad, if not worse, as Jungkook.
You had nearly fainted on the spot when he suggested the two of them share you, you were already tapped out as it was, Jungkook had fed on you that morning. The two of them, together, would kill you for sure.
To your surprise, Jungkook had not responded enthusiastically. He responded like an animal defending its territory - baring his fangs and growling in just barely contained rage. And that reaction had set off the other vampire and before you knew it they were a blur of limbs.
They moved so fast your human eyes could barely keep up with them. You were only able to focus when one of them threw the other giving you just enough time to watch them separate before they came back together again. The sound their bodies made when they clashed together was like thunder from what you could only assume was the pure force and strength they possessed. And, much like animals, they ripped and tore into one another with their teeth and nails.
By the time the two of them had finally separated for good, it was because of how much they had injured one another. The both of them were covered in wounds oozing black blood, some of which was their own, and some belonging to the other.
The other vampire, whom you had briefly heard Jungkook address as Hoseok, was tired but still enraged.
âAre you fucking serious? All of this for what, a pathetic little human?!â He yelled, his nostrils flaring in anger. âItâs food, Jungkook! Iâm your brother!â
Your body flinched out of habit at the snarl that left Jungkook.
âWith the rate that youâre going youâll kill her anyways! Why does it even matter?!â
âSheâs my human,â Jungkook replied, his voice low with warning.
âThis isnât even supposed to be about her! Sheâs nothing! Namjoon sent me to come and find you but you know what, I think Iâll let you deal with the consequences of your actions. Itâs only a matter of time before he comes for you and when that happens, you're on your own!â
He disappeared quickly after that, it was like he was there one moment and then vanished the next. Once he was gone, Jungkookâs once sturdy stance softened, his shoulders bending forward from the strain of his own weight. He was hurt, badly.
He slowly turned to look at you, the red of his eyes and his dark mop of hair just visible over the curve of his shoulder. You knew that look, it usually didnât end well for you.Â
âNo, no, no, Jungkook, please!â You whimpered, scrambling backwards.
But it was no use, he never listened to you anyways. He always took what he wanted, even when you had nothing left to give.Â
He stumbled when he moved but he quickly regained his footing, his black blood stained hands grabbing you by the shins and pulling your retreating form towards him. You fought as hard as you could but you were already weak to begin with.
âStop it, please!â You begged, but he didnât listen. He wrapped his arms around you, his grip too tight and utterly uncomfortable.Â
âJungkook-â
âShut up,â He grunted before yanking your head roughly to the side and sinking his teeth back into the scarred skin of your neck. The shriek that left you was borderline inhuman, the building scar tissue made the intrusion all the more painful and Jungkook was not gentle.
And he had already taken so much blood the day before. It wasnât long before your eyes rolled to the back of your head and you went limp in his iron hold.
That was the first time that Jungkook had given you vampire blood. You had almost died that day, you had gotten so close to finally being free of him and still he wouldnât let you go. Even death wasnât a great enough adversary for him.Â
When you had woken up after that attack, shocked that you managed to survive, you were met with those big, red, frightening eyes. The look on his face was the most serious you had ever seen it before, an odd clarity in his eyes that you were seeing for the first time.
He had been dreadfully quiet since then, speaking even less and shorter sentences than he normally did. You wouldnât say he felt bad for what he did, but he had become increasingly aware of the inherent fragility that came with being human. He never apologized, but he had fed from you a lot less after that.
You froze mid bite as you felt his icy fingers graze your flesh, the coolness biting your skin and seeping into your veins. His touch was feather light, just barely there, but you went still beneath it anyways. You were incredibly aware of the strength that was concealed in that touch. He appeared unbothered by your response, his thumb smoothing over the curve of your jaw as he leaned in unbearably close.
You flinched at the feeling of cold metal being draped around your throat, his fingers clasping the material at the nape of your neck. It was a necklace. Your chest felt tighter, the food in your stomach quickly souring.Â
He was doing it again.Â
You were well aware of Jungkookâs strange and disturbing habit of taking mementos from his victims. His ears, wrists, neck, and practically every inch of his body were adorned with items he had stolen. You noticed he had an affinity for jewelry, but his jacket and boots had been taken from someoneâs corpse as well. And, recently, he started bringing them back for you as well.Â
Your bloody fingers were littered with several rings, a bracelet on your right wrist, and your ears decorated in earrings - some of which he had pierced himself. And now, the necklace.
It left your stomach in knots when he did this, you couldnât help but think about the bodies abandoned in the woods that he had slaughtered every time the metal glinted back at you. Each piece felt like another shackle keeping you at his side.Â
The worst part was that you never tried to run. Jungkook never tied you down to anything or bound your wrists or feet. He simply knew that you would never try. It would be idiotic for you to try and run, you knew he was a talented tracker - he would be able to find you within minutes of your escape. There was nowhere to run and nowhere to hide from him, he would always be able to find you.
And so, you had become his plaything. His dinner and now his doll, a weak body that he could play with and decorate to his greatest desires whether that be with a corpse's jewelry, or a litany of scars.
âPretty,â He said, his voice deceptively soft as he grazed the skin of your neck, his fingers moving from the clasp of the necklace to trace over the scarred imprints of his fangs and teeth.
You were thankful that he wasnât hungry.
The odd, calm atmosphere between the two of you was quickly dissipating. Jungkook shifted away, agitation clear on his face as an annoyed growl parted his lips. You flinched back against the wall, scooting away to stay out of his path.Â
This wasnât unusual - he had been having rapid mood swings lately.
The few moments of peace the two of you would share were often interrupted by the sudden pained twist of his features - his eyebrows drawing together and his nose scrunching in a snarl. It almost looked like he was in physical pain despite there being no signs of any injury.
And then, the pacing would start. It was like watching a caged lion sweep the perimeter of their enclosure. Back and forth, slow and menacing steps. It was like he was looking for something, or trying to guard the two of you from someone else. You hadnât dared to ask what he was doing, to be entirely honest you tried your best to avoid initiating any interaction or conversation with him at all. The few times you did speak to him, it was usually to beg for him to leave you alone, pleas that often fell on deaf ears.Â
You didnât know what to do with this. When you first âmetâ him, he had been sadistic, like a zealous child with more power than they knew what to do with. He had wanted to play his sick and twisted games with you and the plan had always been to gorge himself on your blood and leave your mangled corpse deep in the forest to wither and return to the earth. That was what was familiar to you, that was what you were expecting.Â
You were never supposed to live, that had been an unfortunate circumstance, a split decision he made to prolong your torture and pain. You didnât know what you were supposed to do with this suddenly quiet, confused, and barely human creature in front of you. One that would rip open your flesh to feed just as soon as he would leave bruising kisses on your lips and throat, painting the flesh a rich red that was left to rust.
You were waiting for him to snap, waiting for it to all finally be over. But that would be luck, luck that you didnât have. He had promised you, so long ago, that you would never be alone again, that he would keep you. And you have suffered the consequences ever since.
When he said your name you felt your blood freeze over. He had never said your name before, you didnât even know that he knew it. He had always called you that horrific pet name, his little mouse.
You wrapped your arms around your legs, pulling them into your chest in an attempt to feel some sense of security as he continued to speak.Â
âWeâre leaving soon.â He said, the words simple but the expression on his face ever so complex. Reluctance, frustration, pain, anxiety. Â
You swallowed, but did not move. The silence was deafening. But, by the look on his face, you knew that he was waiting for your response. You would have to break the stalemate.Â
âAre youâŚtaking me home?â You dared to ask, your heart thundering in your chest as that predatory gleam returned to those red eyes.Â
âNo,â He growled, his jaw clenched as his fangs ground against his lower set of teeth, âYouâre not going back there, ever.â
Your heart shattered.Â
âIâm being called back to my home.â
His home? This was the first that you were hearing of it, you never stopped to ask yourself if he had a home. You couldnât picture it even if you tried, it was a puzzle piece that simply didnât fit. You had always assumed he was simply a nomadic creature that moved as he hunted. And, due to his supernatural nature, it seemed that he never needed the typical human necessities and comforts such as four walls and a roof.Â
You knew he had some sort of family at the very least. You had, after all, had the displeasure of meeting Hoseok who had referred to himself as his brother. And he had mentioned the name Namjoon, the phrasing suggesting a hierarchical structure. But even the notion that he had a family felt just as mismatched. And how ironic it was that he was returning home to a family he didnât even want, and he wouldnât let you go home to the family that you missed so much.Â
âAnd thatâs bad?â You hesitantly asked, flinching as he growled in frustration.Â
âItâs worse than bad!â He yelled, his hands sliding through his hair in stress, âIt was difficult enough fending Hoseok off, but all six of them? Youâre as good as dead.â
Hope.
âThenâŚdonât go?â You said, although it sounded more like a question. By the way he was acting, it was like returning was not a choice.Â
âIf only it were that easy,â He laughed, the sound bordering on being unhinged. âI canât ignore it, if Iâm called I have to answer. If I donât it becomes more and more persistent. It feels like a cord that grows tighter and tighter until it pulls and my body moves on its own and takes me back.â
That explained the pacing, the restlessness his body had been experiencing. He had been trying to redirect it by walking the perimeter of the decrepit cottage but it had been a temporary fix to the problem. You could only assume that he was getting to the point now where his body was ready to return against his will.Â
How horrible it was, to be someoneâs unwilling puppet. You knew that feeling all too well.Â
You didnât know what you were supposed to tell him. There were no choices to be made by the two of you. He would have to return, and he wouldnât leave you here on your own as he knew you would be given the greatest opportunity you have ever had to leave him. So, he would have to take you with him right into the lionâs den where you would undoubtedly be consumed.
He was mumbling to himself now, his pacing becoming more frantic and much faster, your human eyes struggling to keep track of him. You were sure that he was moving so fast he would wear down the old floorboards beneath him and the soles of his beat up boots.
You could only assume that meant the call was becoming even stronger. Before - it was asking, now it was commanding.
You had never seen him so frantic before, those wide blood red eyes unblinking and shifting back and forth faster and faster as his thoughts raced. It was borderline demonic, like something you would see during a paranormal movie or an exorcism. It was terrifying.Â
You began to scoot back as far away as you could until your spine was flush with the wall behind you. You felt better with some part of you concealed from the open, but that did little to calm your racing heart and the creature that raged in front of you.
What was he so afraid of, so panicked by? You couldnât imagine anything scaring him, not with how terrifying he was on his own. What could be so bad, so scary, that it frightened a monster? You weren't sure you wanted to find out, even if it meant you could finally feel the sweet embrace of death and escape him once and for all.Â
Jungkook finally came to a stop, his body still but his eyes continued to move erratically. And then they too settled, and a look of deadly calm settled over them. He had decided something, and you were certain that whatever his decision was it wouldnât be good for you.Â
âThey wouldnât,â You heard him mutter to himself, âNot if I put a fail safe if place.â
A fail safe?
Before you could even blink he had moved across the room, faster than your eyes could track. Your body had been ripped away from the wall and set in between his legs, your spine pressed against his chest, the both of you seated on the ground.
An uncontrollable wail shook your body, the sound emanating a feeling of pure hopelessness. You had been surprised it came out of you, but you knew why. You were terrified he was going to feed from you again.Â
His one arm was wrapped around your ribs, his legs tensed and forcing your own to squeeze together. He had immobilized you, there was nowhere else you could go and no way to escape him.Â
Your entire body shook and heaved with hysterical breaths as you writhed in his grip. âPlease, please donât do it again I canât take anymore of this!â
He hushed you, his free hand brushing over your hair in a surprisingly gentle manner. It was more like someone who was trying to calm a startled stray animal than anything else. His touch moved to your chin, lightly taking hold of the point where your neck and jaw bone met.
He didnât say anything, instead he forced you to look at him, turning your face so that he could look directly into your eyes. And then, to your shock and horror, he plunged his fangs into his own wrist and ripped the flesh wide open. A torrent of thick, viscous, black blood rolled down the pale flesh of his forearm. And before you could do or say anything he grabbed you by your hair and jerked your head back before pressing his open wound to your mouth.Â
You gagged at the smell and taste, tears blurring your vision as you tried to move your head away but he did not budge. His arm around your ribs finally moved but only to help him pry your jaw open and force the blood flow down your throat. He continued to hush you as he forced you to drink, gently rocking your body in stark contrast to the harsh and violent hold he had you in.Â
âJust relax,â He whispered against the shell of your ear, âThe more you struggle, the longer Iâll keep you here. We need to get as much of my blood as possible into your system.â
You were crying even harder now, the salt of your tears slipping between his wrist and your lips and mingling with his blood in your mouth. What had you ever done to deserve this? What horrible thing had you done in some past life to deserve this kind of punishment?
You just wanted to go home. You wanted your mom and dad, your grandparents, and the gentle comfort of your bed in your childhood room. You wanted that life back, and you were never going to have it again.Â
His harsh grip on your jaw loosened as you went limp in his arms, resigning yourself to your inescapable fate. His hand returned to those soothing strokes against your hair, a low hum in his chest vibrating against your back as he watched you feed from him with a curious gaze. You were such a weak little thing, you needed him more than you would ever understand.Â
You hiccupped pathetically when he finally removed his wrist from your mouth after what felt like hours. Your lips and chin were stained black from the blood he spilled when you had struggled. He stared at you again, curiosity evident in his gaze, as he leaned forward and licked the flesh of your lips, tasting his own blood.
You shivered as he made a soft hum, cocking his head to the side before doing it once more, stroking over the bitten and chapped skin with his tongue as he transitioned into kissing your battered lips in a grotesque act of intimacy. He laughed against your mouth as you weakly pushed against his chest, he was amused by your pathetic attempts to push him away. It only encouraged him to kiss you harder and deeper, sampling the taste of his own blood straight from your mouth.Â
Once he was satisfied he finally allowed you to breathe, a devious gleam in his eyes that you had not seen in a long time.Â
âThey wonât be able to kill you for a while now, not unless they want another vampire to worry about.â He said. He was gloating, reveling in the win his family had no idea he had already achieved.
Your blood ran cold, your body freezing at his revelation. The very thing you craved, your own death and by association freedom from him, would be the very thing that would trap you with him for the rest of eternity. If you were killed with his blood in your system, you would become one of them. He truly had taken everything from you, even the dignity of your own death. Your life was his and his alone.
He really was a monster.
His features suddenly twisted in pain, his head jerking to the side as he released a low and threatening growl. The call was becoming even stronger, the most intense it had ever been. There was no more delaying it. They had to go, and they had to right now.Â
He quickly lifted you into his arms as his body began to move on its own, forcing him to begin to move in the direction of his home. There was nothing more that you could do, all you could do was remain limp in his arms. It was over, there was point in fighting anymore.
He had finally broken you.Â
When he stepped outside you were shocked by the fresh air and the cold weather. Then again, you always feel cold now. The clouds were thick today, the sun hidden behind their cover. It had been so long since you were outside, and even longer since you had been in the sun - that wouldnât change in the near future. But what truly shocked you, was that the world went on without you. The seasons continued to change, the flora continued to flourish and then decay. The cycles continued while you were stored away. How cruel the world was to keep going on as you withered away.Â
You leaned your head against his shoulder, shielding your face from the harsh wind as he began to move faster, running at his impossibly fast pace that no human could ever wish to match. How had so much changed? When did you go from human being to a play thing for a monster like him. You had a life, but now it had become inconsequential, toyed with and thrown away like it never even mattered.
What were you supposed to do now? At the end of the day, it didnât really matter. He had won, he had played his sadistic stupid games with you, and he had won. He had broken you. You tucked your chin into your chest and like the pathetic creature that you were you whimpered.
You cared about what was going to happen next. If Jungkook had been wrong, then the two of you walking into the proverbial lion's den would end with you turning into one of them, a fate worse than any other that you could imagine. To be tied to him for all of eternity would be your personal hell on earth.Â
What would they do to you when you got there? Would your death before your next life be slow and torturous, or quick and merciful? Would it be planned and intentional, or accidental?Â
Jungkook began to slow, his fast pace relaxing into a natural walk. The tension that previously rested in his body had begun to dissipate. You could only speculate this was the relief of obeying the command to return home. His control over his own body was slowly but surely coming back to him the closer the two of you came to his home.
He stopped for a moment, placing you down on your own two feet before he took hold of your wrist and forced you to follow after him. Your knees wobbled beneath your weight, unaccustomed to you standing after being curled up in a ball in that abandoned shack for the longest time. You looked more like a baby fawn learning to walk than you did that meek little mouse Jungkook always thought you were. He, however, paid little attention to you at that moment. He was tense, his body in a state of alert as subtly surveyed the area as you continued on.Â
He could sense something that your dull human senses werenât entirely picking up on. However, the hair on the back of your neck prickled and your gut twisted as you felt phantom eyes digging into your body.Â
Someone, somewhere, was watching you.Â
A building began to break through the cluster of trees. A modern, contemporary house in the middle of the forest was coming into view. This was the last place you thought of when Jungkook had mentioned his home. In all honesty, you would have been less surprised by a crypt and a row of coffins.
In front of the house, stood a man. His arms were crossed in front of his chest, his eyes that familiar shade of deep burgundy, the same shade the monsterâs eyes were when he was hungry. This sent chills throughout your body, your entire being sensing the danger in the vampire that stood across from you.Â
Those burgundy eyes swept towards you, a look of shock and confusion discoloring their once calm gaze that you speculated was rarely rattled. His features twisted as he took in the state of you, the dried human and vampire blood that coated your body in thick layers, the dirt that was caked into your clothing, your hair that needed to be washed, and the smattering of scars that decorated your body and glistened in the cloudy daylight.Â
You were barely human anymore, you were a walking corpse.
âYou called me home, Namjoon.â Jungkook simply said, his body moving to shield you from the other vampire's gaze.
âJungkook,â Namjoon said, utter disbelief tinging his words, âWhat are you doing to her?âÂ
In every possible scenario you had conjured in your mind, this had not been one of them.
Sympathy.
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Thinking about Self Aware!Simon and Christmas
Simon wasn't a fan of Christmas after the passing of his family. The joyous holiday turned into a somber one, reminding him of the horrific events that took place later that night
With him being in a video game, it didn't really matter much anymore as he didn't have to worry about it. Not many Christmas events happened unless you were playing COD mobile
You played on Call of Duty most of the day, trying to distract yourself from the longing of wanting to experience Christmas as a child again
The tree, the dinner, the presents, the ornaments, and the lights
Being an adult sucked
Celebrating Christmas by yourself in your own house wasn't fun at all, of course you could always go out but you weren't in the mood. And Simon knew that feeling all too well, and who would he be if he didn't find the best possible way to make it better?
In fact, you screamed when you saw him in your home.
Waking up to seeing a giant man who was in his gear and a smashed TV was not the highlight of your morning as your first thought was, 'What crazy cosplayer just broke into my home?'
But luckily his gift came with a long 1 hour explanation of how he wasn't stalking you and he is actually your Simon Riley
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(Arcane Meta) Anomaly Future Jayce Might Have Surrendered to Viktor
It's really fun to speculate on what might have gone differently in the Anomaly Future vs. the Canon Events of the final battle between Jayce and Viktor, such that Wizard Viktor needed to give Jayce some warning when he got sent back to prevent those events.
Obviously, Anomaly Universe Jayce, or AU!Jayce as we'll call him for shorthand, failed. But when did he fail is a really intriguing question!
And I saw a really intriguing theory on Twitter that the flash of memory Jayce has where he thinks back to just before he shot Viktor and instead of Viktor being afraid of him, he's smiling, wasn't because Jayce was sentimentally imagining a Viktor who was happy to see him, but it might have actually been a received vision from AU Jayce about the moment he lost, and it was the moment he came to the commune and Viktor smiled at him (that goddamn simp).
The thing is, I think we can tell from Jayce's resolve and the fact he's fighting so hard with himself through Act 2 and 3 whenever Viktor is around, that it would be really, really easy for him to give in to Viktor. If anything, Jayce would be 1,000x happier if he could just give in and be with his partner for the last 3 months before the damn world ends, that Jayce is a much happier Jayce, but he can't, not just because the world ends, but because it will leave Viktor in a fate worse than death as the only thing alive in a dead world.
But this also implies that in most other universes, Jayce willingly gave in so what does that look like?
Well, I think it looks a bit like this:
Notice that the circular "swirl" around AU!Jayce is behind him, as if the point of entry is in front of him.
Also notice we don't have the top of his head anymore, so we don't know what the marks on his forehead looked like.
Canon!Jayce's forehead marks are from the top of his head, facing down, because Viktor ambushes him from behind to put his hand there.
In theory though, AU!Jayce could have them facing up just like Viktor's other followers, because he accepted those marks while face-to-face and then, the force of his conversion creates that the swirl behind him, the branches of corruption sprouting from his back look as if something is blasting him from the front, pushing the effects backwards.
Which means, that AU!Jayce didn't flee from Viktor and then pause to pick up his hammer as Canon!Jayce did.
AU!Jayce is kneeling in front of Viktor, in what could be an act of surrender, or even an act of worship genuflecting to Viktor as a superior, or as they fulfill the final stage of their shared plan, only for it to tragically end in AU!Jayce's utter destruction as an individual and essentially his death.
Anyway, I've been very intrigued by that swirl pattern around AU!Jayce and this is my speculation about what it is, besides fucking cool looking and a gorgeous artistic flare. Lemme know what you think!
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Thereâs probably a discussion to be had on how much Madame Morrible, respected as she may be, can effectively groom two young adults, but regardless, I am delighted by how the movie highlighted how manipulative she is from the moment Elphaba steps into Shiz.
I keep thinking back on that brief moment during What Is This Feeling when Glinda stops and Elphie is jumping from excitement (an openness of emotion she can scarcely express in front of other people) before Madame Morrible reaches out and holds her.
She actually trusted that woman, someone who saw her potential and believed in her from the get-go, who (at least outwardly) barely even took notice of her green skin. And all that newfound validation gave a boost to Elphabaâs confidence that was probably crucial for her sanity as a social pariah in Shiz. Madame Morrible did that for her!
Really, the only flaw in Morribleâs and the the Wizardâs evil scheme was that Elphabaâs principles and desire for justice were stronger than her need for anyoneâs approval.
And that is so crazy to me, because if thereâs a person who by all accounts should be subjectable to doing things in exchange for validation, it would be Elphaba. Thereâs so very few people in the world who have her back. Really, thereâs only Glinda, Fiyero, Dulcibear, and Dr. Dillamond, who has been arrested and canât help anyway. Itâs amazing (read: depressing) how small her support system is.
And still, AND STILL, she managed to walk away from an opportunity of belonging somewhere, doing something she is good at (magic), with people who could grant her everything she ever wanted!
But as she herself said in Defying Gravity, she âcanât want it anymoreâ. So itâs not even a case of her not wanting that validation and acceptance anymore, it is her deliberately choosing to let that go in favour of something greater. And I know this addition was mainly about Morrible, but truth is, Iâm not sure if she would be able to have the strength to refuse her and the Wizardâs offer if it wasnât for Glinda.
Glinda, who could not have made a less favorable first impression on Elphaba. Glinda, who had the social power to make the whole student body accept Elphaba, but chose not to due to her own desire to be seen as a martyr for tolerating Elphabaâs presence (even if she seeks her out during times she really doesnât need to for some reason). Glinda, who desperately wanted Morribleâs attention, the one thing Elphaba had that she did not.
But once their friendship blossomed, Glinda really became Elphieâs biggest defender.
She didnât change a single thing about her appearance during Popular; when Elphabaâs invitation to go to Emerald City came, she was there right at her heels, supporting her, being proud of her, not really trying to shift the crowdâs attention to herself at all.
When the train comes, even though she is happy for her, thereâs a part of her thatâs morose about the prospect of being away from her best friend (âHow will I manage without you?â), even if for such a short time.
While theyâre going through the Wizardâs palace, Elphaba is anxious the whole time, and so is Glinda, but she is the one who pushes her forward with motivational words (âYou can do anything.â).
And finally, during Defying Gravity, Glinda takes the first step back in their relationship since Ozdust, refusing to go with her. But even then, she doesnât belittle Elphabaâs decision.
She initially resents the fact that Elphabaâs reaction âhurt her cause foreverâ, but once she sees what the other girlâs planning to do and that thereâs no convincing her to give up, Glindaâs still supportive.
She gives Elphie a cloak so she wonât feel cold during her flight, she smiles at her even though itâs obvious sheâs doing everything in her power to not fall over in a sobbing mess. Even her simple âI hope youâre happyâ shows how sheâll always stand for Elphaba herself, even if she canât stand with her cause.
And for as much as we like to make fun of how Madame Morrible clearly couldnât stand Glinda from the very beginning and was always throwing really unnecessary jabs at her, I think deep down she saw the danger that could come from a friendship between the girls, how more difficult it would be to get Elphaba to be so reliant on her validation if she could get it from another source.
Thatâs why she seemed specially dissatisfied seeing that Glinda had gone with her to Emerald City, thatâs why the Wizard himself felt the need to extend his offer of a permanent stay to Glinda too: because they both could see the influence she has on Elphaba.
And contrary to them, thereâs no ulterior motive there. Glinda believes in Elphaba for who she is, and regardless of how strained their relationship becomes in the future, that never once stops being true.
you noticed how Glinda doesn't really let go of Elphaba basically from the Ozdust scene on and she's basically always holding Elphaba's hand or hanging onto her arm, even when its physically awkward to be doing so. and even during Defying Gravity after its clear that Glinda isn't going with Elphaba, they're still holding hands right up until the point where Glinda is grabbed by a guard and forcible pulled away from Elphaba
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first time with college grant curly.
nsfw â lowercase intended ^_^
fem readerâ
requests are open and heavily encouraged, i write for every mw character ^.^
notes; college curly back in my head again.. sorry if this is short. i did like half a few days ago and just needed to finish it up now. i accidentally deleted the ask to this i am so so sorry anon out there..
nsfw under the cut! minors do not read
â he would wait for you to suggest it. he doesnât want you to feel pressured to do so. maybe heâd bring the topic up as a way for you to sort of.. tell him how you feel on it? your comfort comes first.
â when the time comes though, heâs all romantic about it. he wants to give a good impression, wants you to want it as much as he does. maybe you guys are out on a little weekend trip, or jimmy decides to go for a few days. whatever it is, he wants you two to be alone.
â heâd tease you just a little on the undergarments you decide to wear.. like, âoh, picked this all out for me, yeah? thatâs cute.â .. would laugh as you push his face away in embarrassment. he just canât help but wanna poke fun at you, just a little! iâd ease any tension, for sure.
â would kiss you in just the right areas.. would ask over and over if you want this- if itâs too much, too little. it might seem overbearing but youâll just have to push through it.
â heâd eat you out before fucking you. i think. itâs just really intimate for him. please grab at his hair, shove him further, push your thighs together, it encourages him.
â his foreplay is really good, exceptionally so. he likes the sight of you all soaked before he even puts his dick in, really, it gets him so hard.
â heâll ask constantly if this is what you want, if heâs going too fast and such. he tries to be gentle but to be honest with himself, heâs a bit pent up.. heâs the kind of guy that once he starts even talking to a girl he likes, heâll avoid stuff like hookups and one night stands..
â whispers sweet nothings, obviously. tells you how pretty you look, especially like that. that youâre doing so well, that heâs lucky to be able to do this with you.
â errrr read my nsfw alphabet, i think his dick is on the larger end. heâs aware of this and will let you decide if itâs something you can take well or not. heâll be very gentle, promise!
â heâd stop being so lovey after the first round. i mean, heâs not going to be mean but he has been waiting for this. waiting to take you as his. and he hopes youâd be okay with that.
â âfuck, you can take it like this, right?â heâd ask.. as heâs literally splitting you open.
â heâd jerk off infront of you if you couldnât take anymore.. his sex drive would probably be on the much higher end at this age. thereâs something so erotic about it. heâd like to watch you play with yourself too!
â afterwards heâd make sure to reassure you that thereâs no pressure to add sex as a regular thing in your relationship.. that heâs okay with it being a once in a while thing, despite how he acted.
â great aftercare! prepares a nice bath for you both. makes sure to have a conversation again with where you both stand. he doesnât wanna mess things up.
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Whumpee had barricaded the door.
They huddled fearfully on the opposite side of the room. Tears threatened to fall as they held up a knife.
They managed to steal it off of one of the guards.
Whumpee jumped when a pounding knock came to the door.
"Whumpee, I have all of the guards surrounding this room. I really don't want to break this door down. It's really expensive to replace. Can we just talk this through? We can maybe come to an agreement. Do you need something special to help cope with the recent experiments", Whumper leaned against the door, "come on, I know you can hear me. Open the door, you won't get hurt."
"You're going to yell at me. Then I'm going to get a tranquilizer nap", Whumpee yelled. They tried to control their shaking, but it was getting worse by the second.
"I won't yell at you... I promise", Whumper gently jiggled the doorknob so not to alert Whumpee.
"Its unlocked, they probably have something in front of the door", Whumper whispered to the lead guards, "I'm going to try again. I would like them to come out willingly. Don't sedate them unless necessary."
Once everyone agreed, Whumper tried again.
"Whumpee, I really need you to open the door. The guards are in position. You can stop everything by just opening the door. The guards can even help push it open if you need", Whumper talked gently, "we can talk this out."
"I have a knife", Whumpee shook, "I'll kill myself if you come in here."
"Alright alright. We definitely don't want you to do that", Whumper sighed.
"You'd lose", Whumpee frowned, "you don't like to lose."
"You're right, I really don't like losing, and I don't want to find another test subject. You're just so good at it", Whumper still remained calm, "just think though... do you really want to be the cause of someone else getting captured and brought here?"
"I'll be dead...", Whumpee yelled hysterically.
"There is a gun on them", one of the lead guards whispered, "they got in through the vents. Say the word, and Whumpee will be sedated."
"Do they have a knife?", Whumper sighed, "how did they even get a knife? Honestly, how did any of this become a possibility?"
The lead nodded after a few seconds.
"They have a knife, it's currently raised at the door", the lead looked around, "it's your call."
"I don't want them to hurt themself or worse, but if we tranquilize them, they may fall on it and get hurt", Whumper frowned, "I've been bested by a labrat."
Whumper frowned, "let's get me into the room. Tell the guard to continue being aimed at Whumpee. Don't shoot unless I can't talk them down. I don't think Whumpee would actually kill themself, but I think their judgment is clouded by fear. If they make any moves, sedate them. I'll stitch and bandage whatever gets cut."
Whumpee jumped when the door started to get pushed in.
Their barricade wasn't exactly the strongest.
They raised the knife to their throat when Whumper finally squeezed in. The door shut behind Whumper.
Whumper climbed over a shelf, "It's just me. I just want to talk. You can lower the knife... I'm unarmed. I don't even know how to use the tranquilizer gun. Just you and me", Whumper started to walk toward Whumpee.
Whumpee held the knife even closer. It somewhat dug into their skin now.
"Don't", Whumpee warned.
"Alright, alright", Whumper paused, "I'll take a few steps back even. Just lower that down."
Whumpee blinked away their tears as they lowered the knife slightly.
"There see. Everything is alright", Whumper smirked.
"No, it's not", Whumpee glared, "none of this is alright."
"What can we do to make it better? Hmm, what can I do to help you?", Whumper looked at them curiously, "I know it's not fun being locked up and not listened to. I'm listening right now. You have my full attention."
Whumpee's lip quivered, "I don't want to be experimented on anymore. I-it hurts."
"Okay, noted", Whumper nodded, "I can see if I can work out something so it won't hurt as much."
"I don't want it at all. Don't you get that?", Whumpee yelled. They waved the knife angrily, "yes its not fun being locked up. No one cares about me. Just put in my cage until I'm needed what kind of life is that?"
Whumper nodded, "I get it. I do. I'm sure you're lonely. If I find you a friend... maybe that might help."
"I don't want anyone else to be here", Whumpee frowned, "I don't want to be the cause of someone else's torture."
"You won't be. I won't blame you at all", Whumper nodded, "I'll just bring them here with nothing else said."
"No", Whumpee whispered. "Please."
"There is nothing to be afraid of. We can fix all of these issues today", Whumper nodded, "just set the knife down."
Whumpee shook their head no, "please don't come any closer. I'm afraid you'll hurt me."
"I'm not going to hurt you. You got a little stressed and this is were that led. You needed to be heard and needed something like this to get my attention", Whumper sighed, "and right now, we are talking civily. I see that you are lonely and I'll will gladly fix that. I'm not unreasonable."
Whumpee couldn't help but nod... they were very lonely.
"Just one thing to do beforehand", Whumper chuckled lightly.
Whumpee looked up nervously. They hadn't paid attention, but Whumper had slowly crept closer and closer to them.
Whumper hurried and grabbed at Whumpee. They gripped tightly around their wrist and forced the knife to fall.
"That's better", Whumper hissed.
Whumpee sobbed as they fell to their knees.
Whumper still gripped their wrist.
The guards broke into the room and arrested Whumpee.
"Take them to their cage", Whumper wiped their hands on their coat.
"I-I'm sorry.... please don't be mad at me", Whumpee cried as they were pushed out of the room.
Whumper turned and looked down at the knife.
"Leader, figure out who this belonged to, and how it ended up in Whumpee's possession, and how long it has been missing", Whumper spoke to the lead guard.
Whumper sauntered into the room where Whumpee's cage was.
Whumpee huddled into the back of the cage.
Whumper peered in at them.
Whumpee looked up with a messy face, full of snot and tears.
"You look pitiful", Whumper cooed as they opened the door.
Whumpee cowereded away, "please I'll be good. I'm sorry, I just... just uhm."
"Like I said. You're not in trouble darling. We all have breakdowns. You needed to have a moment to express your needs. The guards and I were not paying enough attention to you", Whumper sighed, "here step out here. Let's clean you up a little. Labrats have needs and wants, too."
Whumpee watched as Whumper stepped back from the cage. They slowly unfolded their legs and slid out.
Whumper walked to the sink and grabbed a towel. They let some cold water run on it before carrying it back.
Whumpee stood shyly while Whumper sat in front of them and started to wipe their face off.
Whumpee's lip quivered as they fidgetted with their shirt.
"How about this... you can ask for three things", Whumper sighed, "you have had a rough time lately, so I'll let you have some rewards. The guards are also going to find you a friend to keep you company."
"No please", Whumpee pleaded.
"You didn't care earlier", Whumper smirked.
"Because I would have been dead. I don't want to cause someone else's imprisonment", Whumpee begged.
"You won't be the cause, I am. At least when they get here, they automatically get a friend. You've been here by yourself for a while", Whumper started to inspect Whumpee, "I'm glad you didn't cut yourself. Anyway, it has already been decided that you are getting a buddy. You don't get a say in the matter. Now, what are your three wishes?"
"C-can I have my big room back?", Whumpee was quick with the first request, "you said it would only be a couple days in the cage.... it's been a month since I've been in my room."
"I kind of forgotten about that. It's been easier not having to wrangle you down every time I need you", Whumper laughed, "but yes, we can make the sacrifice. We will get your room cleaned and move you in tomorrow. That will be good as well since you'll be getting a friend."
Whumpee looked at the cage sadly, "I don't know what else to ask for."
"Well, I guess I put you on the spot. Also, you're probably tired from all of the excitement you caused. Go ahead and think it over", Whumper stood, "dinner will be brought in here soon. Do you want to walk around in here while I work? I'll give you the rest of the day off. I don't need you to do anything for me."
Whumpee nodded quickly.
Whumper watched them for a few minutes before they sat down at their desk to work.
A guard came in after an hour. They looked at Whumpee disapprovingly then went to Whumper.
Whumpee looked down timidly.
It was the guard they had gotten the knife off of.
They watched Whumper and the guard talk out of the corner of their eye. They pretended to play with a toy ball Whumper had given them.
"So how on earth did Whumpee manage to get that knife?", Whumper whispered harshly.
"I have no idea. The stupid rat needs to be punished", the guard looked over at Whumpee again, "they can't be allowed to shut down your entire lab with a tatrum over a little bloodwork."
Whumpee shuddered as they looked up toward Whumper.
"Punish them for your mistake? You guards are supposed to be elite... top class. A labrat managed to sneak a weapon off of you and use it. They almost injured themself because of this. Do you know how screwed up my experiments would be without them", Whumper talked louder, "go to your In-charge and see what your new job will be. You will no longer be allowed to deal with Whumpee. If you ever harm Whumpee... you will be taking their place. I have an experiment that I'm just itching to do. The problem is that it will kill the test subject. Maybe then you can see what a little bloodwork feels like. Clear?"
"Yes Whumper", the guard grumbled, "I understand."
"Good, now get out", Whumper pointed to the door.
The guard left and Whumpee's dinner was carried in at the same time.
"Here, you little scamp", the person handed them the tray with a smirk.
"How is the hunt going Leader?", Whumper looked up.
Whumpee happily looked over the tray; all of their favorites had been made. Often that would be the apology.
"Uh, going well. They are tracking down the person of interest right now. We should have them by morning", the lead sighed.
Whumper eyed Whumpee while they talked with the guard.
"I think they will be surprised", Whumper whispered, "both of them."
Whumpee was being led back to their room. Guards held on tightly to either side of them... fearing they'd run again.
Whumpee looked ahead and saw that another set of guards were leading someone else past them.
"That must be my.... Caretaker?", Whumpee screamed and started to pull against the guard's firm grip.
"Whumpee?", Caretaker looked up worriedly and started to pull.
"Don't let them touch", Whumper's voice came from behind, "the new one needs to be cleaned, disinfected, and examined before I let them near my test subject."
"Test subject?", Caretaker paused and looked at Whumpee, "is this where you've been for... so .... long?"
"That it is.... they've been a very good labrat for me. You should be proud. You'll be able to talk later", Whumper looked at the guards, "carry on."
Whumpee nervously stood by the cage door of their room. They glanced up and down the hall as far as they could both ways.
"How could they take Caretaker. Out of everyone out there.... I would think Caretaker would be the hardest to get. Also, the most influential. This is my fault", Whumpee leaned their head on the bars to think.
Whumpee was eating their lunch when Caretaker was brought in.
They were naked.... only wrapped in a light blanket.
"Your clothes will be brought soon", the guards uncuffed Caretaker, "wait patiently until then."
Whumpee stared at Caretaker with wide, terrified eyes. Tears stung to be allowed to fall.
"My Whumpee", Caretaker finally knelt down, "it's okay, I'm so sorry."
"No I'm sorry", Whumpee whimpered, "you were brought here because of me.... I-I didn't know", their lip quivered, "I would have behaved had I known they would do this."
"Whumpee, what do you mean", Caretaker cupped Whumpee's cheek and wiped a stray tear.
Whumpee explained everything that had transpired the day before.
Caretaker only smiled.
"Why are you smiling... aren't you mad?", Whumpee whispered.
"A little upset at the situation, but not at you. It seems you grew a bit braver while being here", Caretaker patted Whumpee's head, "at least now I know where you've been."
Whumpee thought for a second before nodding, "I had to... you have no idea what they've done to me."
"I'm here now. Don't worry", Caretaker sighed, "hopefully I'll get some clothes soon. We can start planning our escape."
"I don't know about that."
Whumpee jumped at the familiar voice.
The door to the room opened, and Whumper stepped inside.
Caretaker was handed a stack of clothes.
"Those are for you", Whumper walked past and knelt next to Whumpee, "sorry about the cleaning process, I can't have you contaminating my rat."
Caretaker looked at the stack of sanitary scrubs judgmentally, "cozy", they grumbled.
"See an escape is not possible. I need my darling labrat to stay put. You were brought here as an incentive for them being good lately. At least for the most part. This reward can just as easily be taken away. I am actually a very nice person when everyone follows the rules. Don't make me be mean. Whumpee will agree that I am nice right?", Whumper cupped Whumpee's chin roughly.
Whumpee quickly nodded. They looked at Caretaker nervously.
"What have you been doing to them?", Caretaker frowned, "why have you brought them here?"
"That's only for me to know", Whumper stood, "don't make this hard. I truly don't want to be mean, but now I have leverage. You'll be good because you don't want Whumpee to be punished. My dearest rat will continue being good and helping with my experiments, or Caretaker gets it. Am I clear?"
"No please", Whumpee pleaded, "this is a punishment from yesterday. Please, I-I..."
"This is not from yesterday. I kept my word that you wouldn't be punished. This is just a precaution to keep you in line. Next time you act out you will receive a punishment", Whumper warned.
Whumpee shook as Whumper stood and looked down at them.
Caretaker watched as Whumpee hugged against the wall.
"Have I made myself clear to both of you?", Whumper walked toward the door, "any questions?"
"Nope", Caretaker looked at the clothes again.
Whumpee continued to huddle against the wall.
"I see they now understand the terms and conditions as well", Whumper chuckled, "very good, let's see if my lab has anymore outburst."
Caretaker sat down next to Whumpee once Whumper had left.
They sat quietly and just listened to Whumpee's breathing.
"I knew they would get back at me for yesterday. They went around the bush, but they did it", Whumpee wiped their eyes, "now you've been dragged here because of me. I'm so sorry."
"Whumpee, I'm not worried about that. I'm just happy to have found you. When you went missing... I couldn't sleep at all", Caretaker reached over and pulled Whumpee close, "I don't know what you've been through, and I am happy to listen to everything. We will work together to make sure nothing happens, at least until we hopefully get rescued", Caretaker talked lowly, "I need you to teach me what the rules are so we don't get into trouble. I don't want them to go as far separating us or worse. Can we try to survive until we get our escape."
Whumpee rested their head against Caretaker. The first ounce of comfort they had received since coming here.
"Whumpee, did you hear me?", Caretaker cuddled them even closer.
"Yes I heard you. I'd do anything not to lose you again. I'm sorry you were brought here, but I'm happy you are here with me now", Whumpee whispered, "I missed you."
"I missed you too", Caretaker smiled, "I'm sorry you've been alone for so long."
Caretaker sat quietly for a while until they could hear Whumpee's snoring.
They carefully moved Whumpee until they were comfortably rested next to them.
Whumper came to the door and opened it.
Caretaker quietly got up and walked toward the opened door.
Whumper led them down to a different hall... far from Whumpee.
"You have your Whumpee back, and you have my undivided attention. Now you need to hold up you part of the bargain", Whumper warned.
"I requested Whumpee to be kept safe. I think I need to know a little more about what you've done to them before I hold my deal", Caretaker frowned.
"That's not the deal", Whumper got a little louder.
"I wouldn't. You have no idea who of the guards here are on your side and who are mine", Caretaker watched a few guards walk past, "I can bring down your entire lab with one command, is that what you want?"
"You gave me Whumpee to use for my experiments. I had to do what I had to do. You knew that would come with risk", Whumper paced back and forth, "I'm almost tempted to tell Whumpee about everything. How much you really care about them. Sent them to an illegal lab and have them experimented on by the evil scientist because your lab is too good for illegal purposes. You just wanted to see if this would work, and it does. I just need your research now. We are so close to this being done."
"I care about my Whumpee. Even if you did that, I would just wipe their memory again", Caretaker frowned, "just do your job so I can get them out of here. They like my lab better anyways. They are a helper there. Not a lab rat. The password to the document is *******, use that, and you will get everything you need."
Whumper frowned, "once I get what I need, I should have everything finalized in a week or so. I will stage it so you will be able to get out of here with them safely."
Caretaker nodded and turned, "I suppose you'll have to take me back for this to look realistic."
"So you really have people hiding out in my lab?", Whumper questioned, "wouldn't Whumpee know them?"
"Yes, I sent ten guards to sneak in here. They were to make sure Whumpee was kept safe and that you held your part of our bargain", Caretaker nodded, "your guards all wear face coverings. Whumpee wouldn't know any different."
"I wonder if Whumpee purposely got the knife from one of your guys then", Whumper started to walk.
"I doubt it, Whumpee isn't allowed to have weapons. They would never give them one purposely", Caretaker frowned, "I still can't believe they managed to do that."
Whumper nodded.
Caretaker quietly sat next to Whumpee again and ruffled their hair lovingly.
"I'm sorry for everything you've gone through. Just know it was for the greater good."
Whumpee reached for Caretaker's arm and cuddled it close.
"My dear lab rat", Caretaker whispered, "sleep well. You deserve it after what you've been through. I'm sorry I caused this. It was for the betterment of mankind... I promise."
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OMG HIHIHI now I can pciture like, a dark!jj starting to feel his obsession be born in the very moment he lay his eyes on her from affar. And he watches her all the time, to how long she takes to take sip after sip of her drink until random things like who she talks to people around her and walks. And it scares even himself (at least at the begining), this new.. dark and delicious feeling he can't name it, he just knows it increases every time he sees her. Maybe it's the contrast of their nature, it's what he tries to tell himself. Maybe it's how his is so full of anger and complications and hers is so... pure. Full of light. All he knows is that the feeling inside him is growing and turning into a sentence in the back of his head that gets louder and louder: he needs her. He has to have her. One way or another.
Geez sorry the delulu in me got the hots and just went with the flow I guess
THATS EXACTLY WHAT I THOUGHT!!
He doesn't know why he's so intrigued with you, why he's interested in a kook of all people, but you're different, not all bitchy and spoiled or thinking you're something better than the pogues.
You're sweet, almost too pure, and he just can't help himself but keep his eyes on you the second he catches a glimpse of you at a keg party on the beach.
He studies how you don't really drink from your cup, only taking small sips as if you're scared to get caught, clenching his jaw when he sees Rafe draping an arm over your shoulder as you giggle at something he said.
That psychotic drug addict should be the last person you stand close to, but it's not surprising, you're a sight for sore eyes but JJ knows that the kook prince only looks for a little fun, not for the interesting person you actually are.
JJ thought it was just the alcohol that night that made him so obsessive over someone who he never really talked to, but somehow he finds himself coincidentally seeing you around Kildare more often...
It gets so bad that he even starts to sneak onto your family's property, hiding behind some bushes as he gets a clear view of your room from your open window, watching you get ready for bed.
You turn off the light of your vanity mirror, getting up and stifling a yawn as you walk towards your bed, carefully slipping under the soft covers and making sure that none of your plushies fall on the ground.
JJ is about to leave when you suddenly reach under your pillow and pull out a small Lovie, but what really gets his attention is when you push the attached pacifier past your lips, getting more comfortable on your bed.
Now that's even more interesting.
A few more weeks of watching you and doing his own research on his phone he thinks that he knows what this is that you're doing, that state you seem to revert to for whatever reason he hasn't figured out yet.
Normally he would just ask Pope, but he doesn't want any of his friends knowing or thinking about him being some creep that's been watching you for about a month now.
His obsession only grows the more he finds out about you, not being able to control himself anymore as he quietly climbs in through your window one night, that small voice in his head being more prominent every time he sees you and getting the better of him.
He feels completely out of place, the clean and neatly organized room mocking his appearance, but it's oddly calming with the fairy lights that adorn the headboard on your bed and the faint scent of the lavender candle that's lit up on your nightstand.
Finally his gaze lands on your sleeping figure, all snuggled in your sheets and a bunny plushie tucked under your chin as the pacifier slowly bobs in your mouth.
He knows this is sick, that he shouldn't even be here, but a part of him doesn't even care, only thinking about satisfying his need to be close to you to make that voice finally shut up for a while.
Standing beside your bed he tilts his head to the side, almost cooing at how adorable you look and completely unaware of him right next to your bed, cautiously reaching out to caress your cheek.
"I'll take care of you soon...just gotta prepare everything." He whispers more to himself. "I just need some more time but don't worry, I'll keep an eye on you until then."
You will be his, no matter what it takes, you'll understand one day and thank him for saving you.
But who's saving you from him?
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I've been editing this write-up for literal weeks now and I still feel like I can't get in everything that I want to convey, but I'll try.
It's officially been one year since I stayed up ALL night (like, til 10-11 AM) editing this, my very first full-length music video. All in one sitting. To most, it's probably just a regular character edit or fan-made music video. To me, it's something else. It's catharsis, love and and an explosive expression of myself. To this day, I still can't quite explain what I went through when I was making this. I had just heard this song for the very first time about 24 hours prior and I immediately knew I had to make this music video. I listened to the song, and immediately thought of Charlie. I knew I had to make this. When it was done, I broke down crying and didn't stop for about 2 hours. I came to a lot of conclusions about myself and my life and I had never felt simultaneously more vulnerable and more accepting of myself.
I was crying, partially, because I realized that I was feeling real, genuine love for this fictional character who had been living quietly inside of me and influencing me for years and years. Which is an insane and crazy thing to say. And at first, I felt shame, because I knew it was crazy, and also because it made me realize I had never romantically loved another human being before, and certainly not to this extent. This revelation first made me feel scared, isolated and embarrassed. I thought it was really sad that I was only able to feel this way, feel this level of understanding and love for someone who would never exist and who could never hurt me. I thought I had matured past that way of thinking. It was embarrassing to know that I could spend hours upon hours crying and expelling all my emotional energy just trying to craft a love letter to someone who could never reciprocate because they quite literally have never existed.
But then I realized that it felt right. I had spent my life with all this pent-up energy and love and emotion and I kept putting it in all the wrong places. Nothing seemed to work for years and I felt disconnected from most of society. I realized that night that it was my own doing. I had been hurt and beat down so many times that I detached myself entirely. I repressed my passions that others dismissed as frivolous, I refused to acknowledge or show my feelings or admit to others how I felt about them and I lived a life that I was absolutely miserable in due to fear of being embarrassed, made fun of, or alienated.
In my fear of becoming alienated, I had alienated myself.
And for the first time in years, things made sense. Through rewatching this movie, through seeing this character again, my eyes were opened. I don't know why or how, but through loving Charlie I started the long and arduous process of loving myself. I saw parts of myself in him and his journey, parts that I had been repressing for years and years. And I saw parts of myself that I wanted to be in this character. I was seeing clearly for the first time.
And somehow, through this movie, this character, through crafting this love letter set to lyrics that I wish I could tell him to his face, I found myself. I realized I didn't need to pretend to be someone else anymore. I realized that by trying to be what everyone else wanted to be, I was making myself miserable and further isolating myself. I realized that I finally wanted to be myself, whoever that is, for the first time in years. It seems like an extremely obvious conclusion to make, but for some reason it took me seeing Charlie for the first time in ten years to really, truly realize it. It also made me realize that through the process of connecting with myself instead of running from it, it would become easier for me to connect with others around me too. I've become much more emotionally open and even braver when it comes to other people. I've done things I would have never done just a few years ago. I make connections with all sorts of new people constantly, and not online.
I still can't explain how sitting down and manically crafting a music video helped me come to all these conclusions that had been banging around in my head for a couple of months, but sometimes personal epiphanies come to us in unexpected ways I guess.
As ridiculous as it sounds, through Charlie Dalton, through loving him, I found and learned to love myself. And it doesn't matter that he isn't real, because the impact that he's had on me is very real, and personally I've stopped believing that it's cringe and now I think it's kind of beautiful. For years, I had convinced myself that I was incapable of love--giving and receiving. Through making this, I realized that I had plenty of love to give, I just didn't know where to put it. I poured all of it into this video. How beautiful to love something so much and have it change you.
Charlie Dalton - VIENNA
#anyway past me would have been so embarrassed to share this and bc of him i'm not embarrassed anymore. sorry#where's my fucking like. medium article. this should be published somewhere#also i'm adding all the OG tags. bc idgaf#dead poets society#charlie dalton#nuwanda#music video#fancam#billy joel#vienna#character edit#my edit#dps#dps edit#nuwanda edit#charlie dalton edit#gale hansen
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Kate Bishop Being Protective Over You Would Include
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Kate Bishop Being Protective Over You Would Include
Kate is one jealous mf
If anyone messes with you, it's game over
Has almost gotten into fights with people over you
Holding your hand in public all the time
Leading you through crowded streets or areas
Offers her coat to you at the slightest sign of you being cold
"Kate, really, I'm fine!"
"No, no, look at you! You're shivering!"
"Fine," you say with a sigh, but as soon as she wraps her coat around you, you love the way it surrounds you with her familiar smell, and yes, it does sufficiently warm you up
She even places a kiss on the tip of your nose for good measure
"See, your nose is cold."
You and Kate will attend parties on and off campus
I think Kate likes going to a frat party here and there and of course, she wants to bring you with her
The only downside to going to these parties is Kate hates it when drunk frat guys hit on you
She'll put her arm around your waist and draw you near
She has flat-out made out with you before at one of these parties when one of the dudes would not get the hint
Of course, you two have also made out at these parties for the hell of it too
Does NOT let you take drinks from anyone
She'll go get your drinks for you
If you get a vibe or don't want to be there anymore, she'll leave as soon as you tell her you want to go, no matter how much fun she's having, because she always wants you to feel safe and comfortable
#admin cam#kate#hc#would include#kate bishop#kate bishop x reader#kate imagine#kate hc#kate bishop hc#kate bishop would include#kate bishop x y/n#kate bishop imagine#marvel#marvel imagine#hawkeye#hawkeye series#hawkeye the series#hailee steinfeld#mcu#imagine#kate would include
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Die with a Smile
Nobodyâs promised tomorrow
So imma love you every night like itâs the last night
Cause i wanna hold you just for a while, and die with a smile
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Words: 5,2k
Genre: angst, fluff, comfort(�), christmas
Hyunjin x fem. Reader
Warnings: Cancer!!!! So sickness, food, crying, sickingly sweet fluff, fears, , all i want for christmas by mariah carey (yes that needs a warning),death,non-sexual nudity (they r just bathing), cinnamon (sorry but- warning needed),
A/n: hi! I had so much fun writing this, and itâs also for the StayblrHolidayEvent . I hope yall enjoy this also since itâs my first christmas fic. Also as u can see itâs a bit inspired from die with a smile (bruno mars & lady gaga). Basically Itâs just those lines i wrote over there kinda inspired me how to write the emotions and thoughts and stuff. So now, take ur hot chocolate, a fuzzy blanket and read! Merry christmas and happy holidays to yallđđâ¨
You were laying down next to hyunjin, watching the other guys in front of you, while he was sketching most probably them or the decorated livingroom, or just the whole scene in front of him. Felix, Chan and Minho had come over, and now they were laughing as they decorated your tree, the rest of the livingroom, and singing christmas songs. The christmas joy had definitely taken over them, also if you couldnât really feel anything of it.âDonât you wanna get up and help them?â Hyunjin mumbled quietly to you, not looking up from his sketch. He did that so often lately. He sketched simple scenes or things he saw, shutting almost everything else out. As if he wanted to remember everything to the smallest detail. âNo, iâm good here with you.â You responded, laying your head on his shoulder. He sighed quietly, and kept drawing in silence for a while, the only noise was the guys bantering and christmas songs playing in the background. Then he spoke up again, quietly. âY/nnie, you donât have to always sit around me and baby me alright? Donât think i donât know why you are doing this, and donât think i didnât hear you crying in the bathroom. Iâm well aware of the situation, but why canât we just make the best out of it? I feel like all this is getting to you more than to me, when itâs literally me who is going to die.â You froze at his words.
Last christmas, hyunjin had been diagnosed with cancer, and the worst was it was a type that could never be healed. They had told you that he had about one more year to live. That time you broke down entirely, and already there it was you who seemed to be more affected than him. But over a bit time you started acting normal again, not constantly being around him and doing everything for him. But now the year was coming to an end, and christmas was standing on the frontdoor. With that everything came back. You suddenly were all over him, not once leaving his side, and everytime he wanted to get up or something you pressed him down and did whatever he wanted to do for him.
The worst was you could feel it. Somewhere inside you had always hoped that the doctors were just wrong and hyunjin wouldnât die in the next sixty years. But you saw that they were right. The way he slowly began to always eat a bit less than before, the way the circles under his eyes got darker, and his cheekbones more visible. You hated it. You didnât hate him of course, you could never, but you hated this stupid cancer and what it was doing to your hyunjin. It was taking him painfully slow out of this world. With him getting worse you were too. You wanted to be strong for him, and for him to have the happiest last christmas ever but you couldnât help it, the weight of the fact that soon he wouldnât be there anymore was dragging you down too much, when you knew that it only hurt him more to see you like this, altough you always tried to hide it.
So there you were now. You stiffened and took your head off his shoulder, to look him in the eye. âDonât say it like that hyun-â
âNo, i will in fact say it like that, cause iâm not gonna lie to any of us for longer.I know that iâm going to die, and you know it too okay? So why canât we enjoy the time left, and just do everything like we used to, instead of you constantly acting like iâm some kind of fragile doll that could break at any moment? You acting like a overprotective mom isnât gonna change a single thing, as much as it hurts to hear that. Think about it y/n. Because i donât want to sit on this couch or in my bed the rest of my life. Iâm not doing this y/n.â His voice was thick with emotion, and he had kicked his sketchbook away. He stood up, in fact needing a bit time to get up, and to lean onto the wall, but he went into your room, shutting the door. You stared at the closed door, with an empty hollow gaze. The other guys now excused themself and left. But before he left, chan said to you with a guilty smile: âNot everything he said is true, but you should think about some parts. Bye y/nnie.â
Now you were left alone in the silence. Hyunjinâs sketchbook was laying open on the floor, and the pages were a bit scaped now. He was going to be mad at himself for that later. You picked it up, wanting to close it, but then you saw his sketch from today. It wasnât the scene in front of him, it was you, looking a bit sad. Under the drawing he wrote
My sad girl, 2024
When is she gonna be my happy girl again?
A tear ran down your cheek. He was always very empathetic and he hated when you felt down. Why hadnât you thought of the fact that you being like this only weighed him more down?
You cuddled up under the blanket that was still warm from hyunjin, tears slowly falling down. You knew he was right. Of course he wanted to enjoy his life, as long as he was still able to. Because no matter what you were going to do, it wasnât gonna change anything anyways, so why not enjoy instead of being sad and regretful when he was still with you, still breathing, still being able to smile at you?
After a while you could finally get yourself to go to him again. You braced yourself and got up, knocking on the door of your shared room. He just faintly sniffled. You opened the door slowly, seeing him huddled up under a blanket. He was crying, and it broke your heart. Hyunjin was a sensitive guy, and he hated arguing with loved ones more than anything, so you should have known that this would get to him, also if he was acting careless and tough. You kept being quiet, just sitting down on your side of the bed. You started stroking his hair, at wich he only started crying more. After a while of being like this in silence, the only sounds his quiet crying and the air cnditioner in the background, he lowered the blanket and looked at you with red eyes. âI donât want to die either y/n. I just⌠iâm trying to be strong cause you are hurting so much,and iâm so sorry for leaving you alone my love-â His voice broke, and more tears spilled over onto his red cheeks. You opened your arms for him, and he didnât hesitate. He immediately moved a bit so his head was laying on your chest now. Quickly you wrapped your arms around him, kissing his head, while a few tears trailed down your cheeks too. Of course you knew. âI know, i know hyunnie. But you donât need to be strong all the time. I canât cure the cancer, but we are in this together. You can tell me how you feel, and i will give you space when you need it, but be by your side whenever you want it too. And i also promise to not act like a overprotective mom anymore.â He chuckled a bit through his tears at that, wich made you do so too. âSee, everythingâs okay. You are not alone, and as long as we can spend time together, iâll be with you, trying to make your time left the best you ever had. How about tomorrow we make a christmas day? Like we go to the christmas market, bake gingerbread in the afternoon and sing christmas songs, all while we have ugly christmas sweaters on?â you both started laughing, the tears finally stopping. He nodded,his face squished against your hoodie now, and his breathing was evening out. Maybe you really shouldnât take everything that serious. Because now it wasnât that point where you would have to say goodbye. You had no idea how much, but you had some time left to spend together, and you would try to make the best out of it. You would love him till the very end, and even after that, youâd still do so. And as long as he was next to you would also tell him that, and make sure that when he had to go, he would do so in peace. So you closed your eyes, and in this little moment, everything that mattered was hyunjin, entirely squished against you, and you, holding him, as long as you could. The stars could have looked down at you two that night, and altough hyunjin was sick, and paths of the tears that you both cried earlier still lingered on your cheeks, they would have seen you two shine brighter than ever, the light not leaving, as long as you were together.
Prove reading done* until there ^
The next morning you woke up, a white comforter draped over you, and you almost had a heart attack when hyunjin was nowhere near. But then you saw him, walking in with a big grin, and one of the matching ugly christmas sweaters you had bought together sometime on.You started laughing, still half asleep and in a groggy voice. âYou lookâŚ. Interesting.â hyunjin laughed and threw something at you. It was your christmas sweater. You sighed, and you did your best to put a serious face on. His smile dropped. âOh no- no- donât say you changed your mind.â You broke out in a laugh and jumped up, putting the sweater over your pajama shirt. âGod you are going to make me die even sooner with the heart attacks you give me.â Hyunjin dramatically exhaled, gripping his chest. You just rolled your eyes at that. You were glad he was his usual dramatic self, the weight in the room that you both somehow created the past weeks, seemingly gone, replaced by a lighthearted joyful mood.
So you dressed the rest of yourself, grabbed your things and left the apartment with hyunjin. He had insisted to eat waffles at his favorite coz cafe around the corner, and not have one of your healthy breakfasts at home. You had given in, so now you were walking there, both wrapped up in coats, and fuzzy scarfs. It was cold outside, and the wind blew. There were faint smells of gingerbread and cinnamon in the air, telling you it was really getting christmas now. Well christmas was already tomorrow so how could it be different? You went into the cafe and hyunjin picked a spot at the window. On the pastell green walls there were everywhere pretty pictures, and the chairs were all different, each one looking vintage and really comfy. You ordered two waffles and two hot chocolates. As you sat there in the cozy fluffy chair, you looked at him. He looked the same as yesterday, and the days before but something was different. It wasnât the pink shade on his nose from the cold, or neither the Christmas sweater. No, it was that his eyes sparkled. They sparkled like they didnât in a long time. Maybe he was right? Maybe this was what he needed, not your experimental healthy food (that didnât even taste good, eugh) and constant sitting around at home. Hyunjin shook you out of your thoughts. âWhy are you staring?â
You shook your head with a little smile. âYouâre pretty today.â
He just laughed, assuming you were joking because of the sweater.
Your waffles and hot chocolate were served and hyunjin got excited like a kid, and immediately started munching them. You giggled, and secretly took a picture with your phone. Then you started eating too. The waffles tasted like christmas and happiness. You had never eaten such good waffles before. Maybe it was also just the feeling to sit here and eat them with hyunjin, entirely lighthearted and happy for the first time in weeks. As you were highly concentrated on your food, hyunjin suddenly spoke up. âI love you, you know that? And i always will, even when you canât see me anymore. But donât worry, iâll look at you getting older, achieving your dreams, and doing everything you want to, because i know youâll do so well, even without me. And iâll protect you, from wherever i will be going. Youâll always be my muse y/n.â He sounded sincere, not sarcastic like when he was being dramatic, though he kept on eating his waffles, like he didnât just say something that almost made you cry and want to hold him for the rest of your life. You looked at him, tears building up a bit behind your eyes. âHyunnie⌠I love you too, and always will. I donât know if i ever can fully move on though,⌠because i will always think of you when i look at the moon shining bright on the dark night sky, or when i look at the town around christmastime, everything tinted in a soft glow and everything smelling like gingerbread.â You said, but you werenât as desperate and almost seeming like you would break down at any moment, like it was just a few days ago when he started talking about his death. No, you were calm, and a little, sad smile played on your lips. He was done with his waffles now, and leaned over the table to cup your cheek in his warm hand. âItâs okay y/nnie. Grieving i a natural and healthy part of when someone you love is dying. And itâs okay to cry, scream or vent to someone. But please donât do all that alone hm? I talked to the boys a few days ago, and they have all grown so close to you too over the years, they will support you, and you can grieve together. Know that you are not alone y/n, never. And iâll always be somewhere in there.â He pointed at where your heart was. âAnd you are the strongest, bravest woman i know, so i know that you will be able to somewhat move on someday. Oh but i have one little request. Please never forget me, no matter what you choose to do in the future. I like the idea of you being reminded of me when looking at the moon or while the christmas season. I hope you are being reminded of me in a good way though, and not like a haunting nightmare way.â He chuckled at the last part a bit. And you smiled too.
âI would never forget you love, and donât worry about it, youâll always be my dream, never my nightmare.â
âOh but one more thing. Donât be afraid of me dying, while iâm still here. Everything is gonna be okay.â He smiled. You both looked into each otherâs eyes for a moment there, and it felt like nothing else was existing right now. No other people, no sadness, and no cancer. Just hyunjinâs mesmerizing dark eyes looking into yours.
You two were walking out the cafe, hand in hand, now going to the little christmas market hyunjin adored since you took him there for the first time. Since then he didnât spend a singly christmas season without going there.
Your breaths were coming out in little white clouds, and you put your head on hyunjinâs shoulder. He took his hand out of yours,and instead lovingly wrapped his arm around your waist, pulling you close, and pressing a kiss to your head. You loved when he did that. If only you could stop time now, and walk in the joyful town forever with your boyfriend.
But soon you heard happy childrenâs laughter, and smelled cinammon. No doubt that there was the christmas market. Hyunjin started smiling like crazy. He loved the fact that he got to see this for the last time with you. No, he wouldnât be sad that it was the last time today, and regret things. No, he would just be so, so glad to spend this day here, forgetting the cancer that usually weighed him down, for a while. It seemed like a gift that he got this day, being with his favorite person in probably his favorite place.
Soon enough he saw a stand, with cute handmade christmas decorations. He immediately went over there, and made a adorable noise.
âLooooook y/n, itâs a ferret with a scarf, and it looks like my scarf! We need to adopt him and hang him on our tree. I feel our bond, so no arguing on this one.â He said dead serious. You laughed, looking at the ferret. You almost forgot how excited hyunjin always got at the christmas market, and how you had to convince him to not buy literally everything he saw. But you nodded on this one, the little deco really looking a bit like hyunjin right now, with his cute red nose and the adorable smile on his face. He went to the man who was selling it, and even gave him more money than the ferret costed. The guy happily wished him merry christmas and waved. Hyunjin just loved to make people happy, and why not do that especially now? He took your hand in his again, walking by the other stands, the shimmer of the fairylights hanging on all the stands mirroring the one in his eyes. As you were slowly walking, you, literally trying to convince hyunjin to not buy a gigantic wolf statue from the eighteenth century for chan(He was so silly, he had to gift everyone the most random things for christmas with the simple explanation: I saw that and thought of you), you suddenly felt something cold on your face. Hyunjin seemed to feel it too, because he looked up and immediately his whole face lit up even more if that was possible. âOmg Y/n itâs snowing! This is just a perfect day, even the weather with itâs beautiful snow is on our side.â He talked, not really paying attention to what he was saying, just mesmerized by the white crystals.
Sometimes you took a bit time, just to admire the way he got excited over little things, in a way you would usually see it only with kids. Those moments, when joy was literally radiating from him you felt so much love and admiration for him that you could combust. You just wanted to snap a hundred pictures with that adorable smile and the shine in his eyes, and keep them forever in your heart. You brushed his hair out of his face, and your hand lingered on his cheek for a bit longer. âYouâre right hyun, this is the perfect day.â You whispered. He just continued smiling, then lowered down to kiss you. You didnât feel the cold snow on your skin anymore, only your boyfriends soft lips, that tasted like cinammon and warmness, pressed to yours. As you pulled away, your foreheads were resting against each other, and you felt his warm breath on your face. âLetâs go home now, then we can bake gingerbread and show mini Jinnie his new home.â you giggled at his words, and nodded, your eyes not leaving his.
You walked through your apartment door, both of you giggling like lovesick fools. You took your shoes and coat off, but suddenly your feet got sweeped off the floor, and you were being carried by hyunjin. âYah, stop it!! The doctor said no heavy lifting!â You slapped his arm in an attempt to make him let you down but you couldnât even hold in your own laugh. He shook his head and dramatically said: âIf not now, then when should i carry you bridal style, my lady?â You playfully slapped his arm again and threw your head back in laughter. He just fondly smiled, lowering his head down to kiss you on the cheek, and then he carried you into the kitchen. The other guys seemed to also have decorated the kitchen because beautiful fairy lights were hung over the stoves, and some more decoration, including a mistletoe, was placed perfect. When hyunjin stopped under the mistletoe you started shaking your head. âNo jinnie donât. Please, thatâs so cheesy,donât do it.â You whined, knowing exactly he would in fact do it.He grinned and asked âMay i?â He didnât wait for an answer, he just softly laid his lips on yours, the kiss so tender like always. Both of you closed your eyes, and you wrapped your arms around his neck. After a while you slowly pulled away, and he murmured a soft âlove you my museâ. You hid your face in the crook of his neck, smiling. âLove you too hyunnieâ your words were muffled against his sweater, but he didnât mind. He wouldnât want to be anywhere else in the world right now.
You went into the kitchen, and hyunjin let you down. You started preparing everything for gingerbread, and soon christmas songs were filling the air. With the fairy lights on, everything was tinted in a soft, cozy glow.
As you were just done with the dough and had placed it to rest somewhere âall i want for christmasâ started playing. âOh my favorite christmas song.â He chimed, preparing a spoon as a microphone. You looked at him in shock. âSorry what?? Donât tell me we are together for literally six years, and i had no idea that your favorite christmas song is all i want for christmas. How can you have these muscles, and act all flirty but suddenly be like a lovesick teeny girl?â
A endearing pout played on his lips. âItâs a classical, donât judge me!â You sighed but started giggling. As the refrain of the song came, hyunjin threw his hair back (Nuh uh seriously, who was this diva?) and he began to loudly sing into the spoon. You laughed, but couldnât resist him. You grabbed a spoon toom, and put it up to your mouth, singing along with him. He then wrapped his one arm around your waist, and with the other one he held his âmicrophoneâ , singing âAll i want for christmasss is youuuuuâ And then pointing at you. You started dancing around together too. In a little clumsy pirouette move, where you would never think this man was a professional dancer, Hyunjin accidentally threw a bag of flour off the stove. In only a few seconds you both and the whole floor were coated in a thick layer of flour. For a moment you were both flabbergasted, but soon you bursted out laughing, and hyunjin just kept singing like it was nothing. This whole moment felt so heartwarming and silly, you just knew this was one of those moments you would still think of in twenty years. Hyunjin ended his little concert with one more time singing the refrain line and then he picked you up and swirled you around, the flour flying around in the air. You squealed, not expecting it, wich only made him chuckle. As he let you down again, he pulled you close again, pressing a kiss to your forehead, not caring that now flour was on his lips.âI love you so much.â
You giggled, wrapping your arms around him, so now you were both wrapped up tightly in each others embrace, not caring about the fact that you were just distributing the flour even more.
âYou said that so often today.â
âYes because i never ever want you to forget it, alright love?â he held you jut a bit tighter, and you felt his nose nuzzling against your neck.
âalright.â
âGood. Letâs just stay like this for a little while longer? You look cute in flour.â
âAs long as you want to.â you smiled softly and laid your head against his chest, feeling his heartbeat.
After a while the flour got a bit itchy though, you both had to admit. So you went into your room, getting some clothes for you and hyunjin, while he went into the bathroom to run a bath. You took your matching christmas pajamas, the fluffy one with gingerbread men on it. As you came into the bathroom, hyunjin was turning on the water, putting some of your favorite cinammon-bath salt in it. He had also lit some candles, and turned off the big light, so the whole bathroom was tinted in golden light. You both undressed, and you stepped into the tub first, sitting down at the end of it. Hyunjin waited and raised a brow. âDonât you want me to sit behind you like usual? You always like when i massage your scalp, or your tense shouldersâ You gently smiled up to him. âToday iâm gonna do all that for you. It was so wonderful to just forget everything today, and with the christmas market and the snow, everything was just perfect. But youâre still my sick baby. So sit down, today itâs me who is gonna massage your scalp.â Hyunjinâs eyes filled with tears, and a fond smile crept up to his lips. He got into the bathtub too, sitting down between your legs, like you usually did with him. You soon gently started to run your fingers through his hair, and he closed his eyes, cherishing the feeling. After a while you felt his muscles completely relax, and his breathing get slow and steady, almost like his body was melting into yours. You held him tight, one hand still in his hair, and from time to time you kissed his shoulder, like he always did to you.
After a while when you almost thought he had fallen asleep he murmured: âThe waterâs getting cold.â
You hummed. âLetâs get out, and get you to sleep jinnie.â
âBut the gingerbread.â He mumbled, but his eyes were already closed. You smiled and he whined as you got up and out of the tub. âWe can still make the little gingerbread men, and ferrets and whatever you want, tomorrow.â You took a fluffy towel, and wrapped it around yourself. Then you got another one, and tried dragging hyunjin out of the water.
âBut then itâs already christmas day. Thatâs against the rules my lady.â You chuckled at his sleepy confused mumbling. âWe are making our own rules.â You took the towel and slowy dried him off. Then you softly pushed him down to sit on the bathtub edge and put him on his pajamas. âYou are taking care of me so well love⌠Never gonna stop loving you, iâll protect my muse at all costs, even when iâm not physically with you anymore.â He mumbled, so incoherent and sleep drunken you almost didnât understand it. âI know jinnie, i know. Now letâs get you to bed, hm?â He whined, and after you quickly put on your own pajamas too, you helped him get up and you both went to bed. As he laid down, you pulled the comforter up to his chin, lovingly stroking his hair. Then you got into bed too, closing your eyes. When you were already at the edge of sleep you suddenly heard hyunjin speak up again. âY/n?â
âHmm?â âPlease say it backâ
âWhat are you talking bout.â
âThat you love me. Iâm so tired already, but somehow i feel like i wonât fall asleep if you donât say it.â
If you would have thought about that, maybe you could have somewhere already thought that it was coming. Hyunjinâs pure soul was bracing itself for something, as if he knew.
âI love you. Forever and ever.â
And then you both drifted off.
When you woke up, you didnât immediately open your eyes. But you knew. You felt it. You could never describe this feeling, or how you would know, but you had no doubt your hyunjin was somewhere else now. Somewhere far away. And when you finally did open your eyes you took a second to breathe in. You slowly sat up and braced yourself. Then you looked to your side. There he was, looking like he was sleeping peacefully. You didnât know if you were imagining that or if it was real but it seemed like even a small smile was laying on his lips. You were oddly calm, as you stood up, and walked around to hyunjinâs side.
You crouched down next to the bed, and with a slight tremble you took his hand in yours. It was still a bit warm. You pressed a kiss to it, as a silent tear rolled down your cheek. âHey hyunnie. I donât know if you can hear me, but i just want to tell you that i love you okay? Donât forget that. And i hope you werenât in pain when it happened. Just know that you can peacefully go wherever you are supposed to go now. Itâs okay for me. I will continue living, also if the pain of your absence will daily remind me of the fact that you arenât with me anymore. But thatâs okay. I thought that this pain is the worst, but it makes me remember you, and thatâs what i want to do for the rest of my life, so actually i will be okay with it. That day yesterday was really a perfect day, as you said. I guess somehow our souls knew that soon they would have to say goodbye to each other. It helped me realize that when you die i wonât have to act all strong, and feel like suffocating when iâm alone. Oh by the way, iâll call the guys soon, and tell them. Then iâll bake our gingerbreadmen okay? And iâll be taking good care of mini jinnie, so you donât have to worry about him and his little scarf.â You smiled through the tears running down your cheeks, that were silently landing on the bed next to hyunjin.
âSo hyunnie, i bet you are wating for me to finish my dramatic boring speech so you can finally go in peace, hm? I wish you merry christmas my one and only love.â You kissed his hand tenderly for the last time, a single little tear dripping down onto it.
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