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Unpopular opinion, I know, but perhaps if you know you won't be able to continue the series because the amount of choices is simply impossible to keep... Maybe you should just end it? đ¤ˇ
#dav critical#dragon Age Veilguard#dav spoilers#maybe you shouldnt end the prev game like its a prologue to the next one?#but seriously i think we need to go back to just allowing things to end#sure it hurts its sad#but at least you get the feeling of complition?#and not just watching a good series slowly die in agony#another unpopular opinion but i actually like ME3 ending#it was definitely an end and it was letting you do the final grand choice that changes the world forever#10/10#maybe instead of trying to reheat old series create something new?#it's not easy but may be worth it?#we've had fantasy middle ages and scfi space#give us modern things cyber punk victorian era idk freaking ancient times
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IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder
â°â⤠âAt times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if youâre living with this illness and functioning at all, itâs something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher
#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies#(more thoughts at the end of the tags)#shameless#shamelessnet#shamelessedit#ian gallagher#cameron monaghan#*macygifs#bipolar disorder#hello pals how are we doin#i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags#and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes)#i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation#that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day#world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder#which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life#while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life#and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines#over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful#i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended#hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles#world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder#and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized)#it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all#it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen#so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can.#we are worth it#i promise#anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder#go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives
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If youâre in crisis or having suicidal thoughts, giving a call or text to 988 can be life changing. If you just need to talk, theyâre a great resource as well. Your life is worth living, it will get better. Our minds can be cruel, but just know you are loved and you are appreciated.
We may have lost someone in our little community. Worst case, I hope they rest easy. But I do hope they survived.
If anyone was affected by this, if you need to speak to someone or take a step back, take care of yourself and do whatâs best for you.
#idk if anyone else was affected by what was posted in the tag a couple days ago#but I want to say life will eventually get better. it may not be now it may not be next week but it will#when youâre going through it itâs impossible to see the forest through the trees but there is something better on the other side#if you are suffering I wish you the best and promise you will survive this#it can be painful to endure and the pain my be overwhelming again but life is worth living#I hope the person in our community survived#I hope they get to live to see something better#but I also know that pain and exhaustion and that unbearable dread to continue#if theyâre gone they will be missed#I loved seeing your posts and shooting the shit with you in tag#I hope you rest easy if youâve passed on#bb26
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Iâm ngl, tumblr is such a fun place once you tune out the noise and stop overthinking what youâre posting and just have fun in your space freely
#I am simply just vibing again#stfugi#bc people will have their judgements and itâs not worth it to tear yourself up over it#so itâs better to put the past behind you and keep moving forward#that doesnât of course erase the shit you did#but I am allowed forgiveness no matter what people may say or think about me#it doesnât make me a fake person or attention seeker#and when you realize that you literally donât owe anyone anything itâs so easy to detach your emotions from this place
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can russia and north korea just nuke us already this is hopeless
#sorry to be so fatalistic on main i just have zero faith in the american public atp#i just rly wanted to believe that more americans couldve used this opportunity to prove to the rest of the world that we arent all a bunch#of sensationalist/conspiracy-driven/aggressively braindead/violent/bigoted alt-right lunatics#& i never had much faith in kamala & walz to begin with obviously im incredibly cynical towards these status quo gatekeepers and the#downright impotence of the neoliberal democratic party#but this wouldve been an easy swerve away from dozens MORE of horrible awful inhumane policies that will ultimately vanquish#the quality of life for the entire american working class like myself and our already pisspoor education system and our lousy#climate change policies and impossible living standards#but no unfortunately there is no way in hell for americans to prove even a modicum of intelligence or worth we're all basically suicidal#and despite my own immense yank bashing tendencies and complete disdain for our government i really wanted this country & my ppl to defy#our own reputation of being so fucking stupid and backwards i really did. in the tiniest little place of my heart was legitimate hope#& a tiny bit of patriotism thats now been squashed completely & this was just another large-scale international humiliation that we legit#voted that guy BACK IN after everything that has happened the last four even eight years. its unbelievable.#again obviously i dont like kamala but it still wouldve been a grand opportunity to stall against what the gop is already destroying#and with push and shove we could have made slight progress forward as a country and try to protect our social programs#be it as flawed as they are and with enough support we could have strengthened them a little. make drugs less expensive. continue forward#with clean energy decreasing our use of fossil fuels even more.#protect our education system so the up and coming generations could receive higher standards of learning than what the rest of us had#NO ABSOLUTELY NOT. im too poor to continue living here and im too poor to fucking leave !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#SORRY THIS WAS EXTREMELY EXTREMELY EXTREMELY LONG THANK U FOR READING IF U DID MY BRAIN FEELS LIKE MUSH RIGHT NOW SO I DONT KNOW HOW#INTELLIGIBLE THIS MAY OR MAY NOT BE#and if this makes anyone mad @ all then ill just delete it cuz by god i dont need more grief and self hatred !#txt
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"Biden is the best choice and he's actually really empathetic and reasonable but also you can't wait for a candidate that won't do genocide and war crimes because to become a presidential candidate you have to be willing to do that" see what you fundamentally don't understand is I'm not waiting for a candidate that won't do war crimes, because I know that. I cannot morally stomach this system, it's a joke to claim its democratic, and AMERICA DELENDA EST. this country is a plague on this Earth
#cipher talk#It's baffling because okay so you know how fucked up this is but you're behaving in a way that clearly indicates you want that this shambli#Disgusting empire to cling to life until after you're dead because it'd make /you/ uncomfortable and inconvenienced#To live through its destruction (the wealthier classes and more privileged experience lesser material changes in state collapse so long as#They aren't too highly ranked/involved in politics. A Sri Lankan wrote an article specifically addressing Americans about this)#It's so dehumanizing! People's blood is so cheap to you! You've just accepted its inevitable that genocide will happen!#Because of how the US operates! You can see no other future! It hardly matters to you!#You say this like the death of Palestinians of Yemenis of Syrians is someone else's dropped ice cream cone#You understand why people hate this country and you understand we deserve it but it just. Hardly matters to you#It feels like madness to watch this. It's disgusting#I keep thinking- it'd be so easy for you to justify my people being killed if violence broke out and it was in your favor#It's unlikely because. Well. America loves 'the church of the martyrs'#But you'd do it if that was favorable. You wouldn't think twice. You might feel a twinge in your heart but that's all#Because we aren't people to you!#We aren't all that important! Not important enough for you do anything more than 'well let's vote a blue in and do some protests'#What's a protest worth if you perpetuate the system and can't see a way out and don't try for a way out?#That's killing a man then putting flowers on his casket. It's /perverse/.#You get used to the idea that Africans die that West Asians die and that's just the way of the world. My g-d do you understand anything??#I watch necrosis take hold my parts of my culture and I watch every good person I know be ground to dust under a military regime#I talk to my friend who got drafted and is trans and may never come out because if they do they can get arrested as a 'prostitute'#I watch the wild hope for the future I was introduced to over radio at 9 years old wither#I watch people risk it anyway because just past the fence they can see they know there are people there#I watch my neighbor to the south crumble and weep because our hands are bloody and it's in part because we bloodied them for the west#And you just think that's how things are.#Fascist white death cult mindset
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if you are 1) currently in a university where your student healthcare covers hormone therapy, and 2) in a good financial, emotional, and social position to start hormone therapy, i would recommend pursuing it. because in my experience, it's a huge pain in the ass to get an endocrinologist once you're on your own
#unless you live near a planned parenthood or another equivalent to that#but in general you might as well take advantage of the mandatory student health insurance while you have it#it's also cheaper than you might expect. my vials cost $40 CAD for 4 months and then the injection materials are like a couple dollars each#for me i got a therapist with the university and asked them to recommend me to one of the uni's doctors#so i got to skip some of the waitlisting process yay#and then even after getting access to hormones i went to the clinic maybe 5 or 6 times because i needed a nurse to help me with injections#all of which was 'free' because it was with the university#now that i'm graduated though i need to find a new endocrinologist and it turns out the process is WAY more complicated on your own đ¤Ą#of course your mileage may vary depending on how based your school is but it's definitely worth checking imo đ¤ˇ#beepbeep.txt#wanted to say this because i basically didn't use the uni health services until my last year and i was like 'wow#'i'm actually getting so much shit for free right now'#like i was seeing a therapist and a dietician and the endocrinologist and a nurse simultaneously at one point#and i might've missed out on all that if i didn't have someone tell me how easy it was to get help if you ask the right questions#so there's my word of wisdom for anyone who might benefit from it.......#also going to post tips about injections later because i think that would also help people out đ
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[man who is so normal about his ocs voice] fuck this post happy birthday Alex and Rhys
#allen and I made these two & the world theyre from one year ago today!#these two are very dear to me and them + this project are very important to me in a way thats hard to articulate#but alex ended up being all my biggest fears insecurities and wish fulfillment all put into one character#and he helped me realized that Im not stuck being beholden to some fate that was decided for me by someone else#and that the happiness I want in life isnt an easy road but going through hell and back to get it is worth every second#usually around this time of year in general I reflect a lot about where I was this time last year and I wasnt the same person I am now#but these two have made me do that a lot. i wasnt in a good spot when I made alex. and things arent perfect now#but in a way he slowly helped me see all the things I needed to do to start getting better#so yes. i will be silly and get a little cake to celebrate my oc anniversary because in a way this is me celebrating my own healing#i can also get really mushy about how amazing its been to create a story with the love of my life who is equally as passionate about it#and hes so talented and how much I love hearing his thoughts and inputs on things#but Im getting too long winded already and Ill spare the dramatic rambling lmao.#anyway. happy birthday to the most toxic couple of 1994 and may they have many more#cal.txt#cal.png#oc: alex#alex and rhys#sanctified
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i would like to make it abundantly clear that in the current state of the world that we live in, food is, sadly, unable to be treated as "just food" without any space for nuance.
yes, it is and should be treated as "just food" in the sense that it is a basic human right and a physiological need for all humans. it is something that all need and all should have.
however, in this day and age, food is used as a tool of control and power. millions and millions of people have no access to it, as much of it as we have. entire families are being starved out, mothers are dying in order for their children to eat, there is violence and atrocities being committed so someone can have something to eat for the week, people are being denied food because of who they are.
how hard is it to see the luck and privilege of being able to go out and have a burger? how hard is it to stop thinking about yourself for one second and use the money you have lying around, whatever insignificant change you have, and do something to help someone else eat? a few cents in dollars or euros or pounds is gold in other countries.
if you think you cant help, than you are so wrong. kindness begets kindness begets kindness, and so on. dont loose faith in humanity so fast. dont loose hope. remember that the food you put in your mouth is the same food that others eat, and, if you can afford it, buy a bit extra, give it to your local shelters, or donate that bit extra to whatever charity you can reach. if you have some to spare, donate your time and energy to helping out where you can; charities, schools, libraries, shelters, wherever.
im going to quote, roughly and translated, the founder of a local non-profit that made one of the most beautiful speeches i have ever heard: we help, with the kindness and the love of a five year old child.
when food stops being just food, when trivial things start being a privilege, thats when you make the biggest difference. dont belittle your own existence, dont think low of your own power.
#.txt#i saw something in a discord server that made me fume so i just said words and hope they stuck#anyways ive been thinking a lot about this since model un#how many places in the world are dying and we don't know it?#and i know i know i know what people say. i cant afford it i dont have the time i dont have the energy#to that i say: do what you can for who you can. if you cant look at too many palestine or congo updates go volunteer in your town#go spend some time with kids and puppies and books. and it may not be easy - trust me ive done enough to know that#but its so worth it. so so so worth it.#only take steps as large as your legs. if you have tiny legs it okay. you're still walking. if you need help walking in whatever way#- what matters is that you're going forward#when the horrific violence gets too much when it makes you unable to help - take a breather. smell some flowers. then get back to work.#its our world
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Rare for me, but I finished a project!
Iâve been working on this sweater for about a month and Iâm finally done!
~Made with Lion Brand Mandala yarn in colors âSasquatchâ and 4.5, 5, and 6 mm hooks~
~pattern âgranny hexagon cardiganâby Passioknit Kelsie on YouTube~
#easiest thing Iâve made in awhile#not getting Sasquatch vibes from it but I love the name regardless#this also may be the first wip Iâve completed in months#I need one in every color now#also the pattern was so easy to follow and the instructions given were so clear#I donât normally do patterns on YouTube (purely because I will lose my spot) but this one was worth it!#this thing has so much cat hair in it *sigh*#crochet#fiber arts
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Welcome back to the Chill Valicer Save, where we have just hit Fall Thursday, aka Harvestfest! How did that go for our intrepid trio and their new robot housemate? Well â
-->Picked up where I left off at the end of the last update, with Victor just having upgraded the sink in the blue-and-white second-floor bathroom; Alice reading a werewolf book; Smiler playing chess; and Marm recharging outside by the tree in the back. I had Alice, Marm, and Smiler continue doing what they were doing (which, in Aliceâs case, included petting Shadow before getting back to her book...standing up for some reason) and had Victor use the toilet before making it self-cleaning. Surprise the cat wandered in while he was doing that, so I had him say hi, give her some pets, and play with her with a laser pointer to help get their friendship up. I then went back to see how Alice was doing â
Only to catch her about to just eat some prepped seafood straight out of the container. At one of the fancy place settings on the table no less. *facepalm* I went âgirl, put that back in your inventory and use it to make REAL FOODâ and thus had her make a fried fish plate instead. Because thatâs exactly the kind of thing you want to make at like 2 AM in your underwear. XD On the other hand, the dish came out looking AMAZING (and I say this as someone who openly Does Not Like fish), so perhaps it IS the kind of thing you want to make at 2 AM! Probably not in your underwear, though. Flying grease and all.
-->While that was going on, a thunderstorm rocked up outside â I was promptly like, âShit, Marm!â and directed him to get inside before his durability went down too much. Fortunately he made it into the house before there was any major trouble â and I was able to confirm that yes, itâs the scared emotion that causes that weird blank face plate on him. Guessing the eyes for that emotion were never rendered correctly on a Servoâs model (even though it appears on his portraitâŚ). Anyway, I had him go play chess with Smiler, as he wanted to get Logic 3 for his Renaissance Sim aspiration, then checked in on Victor. He was done with the cats, so I had him come downstairs to give the washing machine the âWhisper Quietâ upgrade before directing Alice to get into her âSim Sessionsâ outfit with the Delicate mood-improving bracelet â
Just in time to be like âare you trying to shower in the rain AGAIN?! No!â Fortunately she only got as far as just outside the back door before the action canceled out and she changed clothes like I asked. Even better, her stopping there made me see that a trash plant had somehow sprouted on the back porch! O.o Like, what the hell? I didnât even realize any trash had been left out there â certainly not for that long! I had Alice uproot the darn thing and throw it away, then â after looking at her wants and seeing she wanted to finish reading a book â bought a couple more werewolf books for her to peruse, telling her to try out âFanged Friends Forever.â She did so â
And for some reason took it out onto the front porch to read. O.o Like, okay, Marm had just gone into the living room to watch sports after losing his chess match to Smiler, but surely she could have found a better place to read a werewolf story than on the porch in a thunderstorm?? Then again, she is Erratic, and they have no fear of storms, so⌠*shrug* She successfully finished the book, so thatâs all I care about! Now I just have to have her reread it so she can finally unlock that âsecret werewolf writingsâ abilityâŚ
-->Anyway â with Alice thus occupied, I had chess champion Smiler go and give the fridge in the kitchen the âFreshmakerâ upgrade while Victor finished up the washing machine upgrades and petted Shock, then had them move onto giving the oven a âSelf Cleaningâ upgrade while Victor grabbed some leftover chili for breakfast (he was GOING to have ice cream, but I was like âcome on, have a proper meal for breakfast for onceâ). Once Victor was full, I had him get dressed and head out to the greenhouse to see what plants needed tending, while I checked on the animals to see if any of them desperately needed anything. Fortunately, they did not, so I didnât have to send anybody out in the storm! I instead had Marm resume his chess playing; sent Alice to her and Victorâs bedroom to start a new Playful book (called âNicer Stories of Wonderland,â because she does have a few); and sent Smiler down to the basement to make another bottle of potato nectar. I then went to check back in on Victor â
And saw, to my surprise, that no plants needed tending! O.O Well, thatâs rare. I decided to have Victor fertilize the lettuce and pumpkin in his oversized crops with some vitality fertilizer, then evolved a bunch of plants that were ready to advance to the next level of quality. I then had him bond with his enraged bees to calm them down, and grab a swarm to help pollinate the orchard trees at the back of the greenhouse. Which, uh, took a moment because I kept getting distracted checking in on everyone else. XD But he did do it eventually, and got the entire barn super-sold for a tidy profit. :) We love to see it!
-->As for everybody else â Alice kept plugging away on her book; Marm got Logic 2 from all his chess-playing, which was nice; and Smiler finished up their nectar without incident! Though while they were getting that sorted, I decided to check on the status of their canning machine, since I was curious to see if having to update the mod for the latest patches had wiped the inventory from it. It had not, fortunately â
But Iâm glad I checked anyway, because the damn thing had a ton of milk in it, most of which was spoiled, and a decent amount about ready to go off. I quickly cleared out all the spoiled milks (by which I mean sold âem for $15 a pop because the game let me do that when I dragged them into Smilerâs inventory), then had Smiler make a box of cheese with most of what remained. They stuck the cheese in their inventory (which â shit, I donât remember if I put it in the fridge or not), then flew over to the study to fix up Marm, whose durability was looking a little iffy, poor guy. Happily Smiler quickly got him fixed up, and he settled in to recharge his flagging battery â
#sims 4#the lazy save#victor van dort#alice liddell#smiler always#marm l iser#not quite Halloween in the real world and yet we're already to Thanksgiving here XD#but that is the Sims 4 calendar for you#at least if you're doing one week seasons#anyway a reasonably typical morning of having to wrangle my Sims#particularly Alice who will do the Weird Shit if left alone too long#because you know Erratic and all#I like the 'talk to yourself' bit of that trait but I'm questioning whether all the constant rain showering is worth it#things to remember for future save files#and yeah not sure why Marm's face plate is completely blank when he's scared#he has a proper Servo expression on his little Sim portrait in the corner#then again we all know what this game is like when it comes to stability#at least everyone had a good morning#Victor had an easy day in the greenhouse#Alice got another book sorted and one step closer to unlocking another werewolf power#Smiler made some nectar and some cheese meaning they're ready for any future wine-and-cheese parties they may throw XD#and Marm got a little more logical#win!#queued
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What kind of love are you?
Love as a Choice
You choose to love. Love does not come to you easily, but every day you wake up and choose it. It would be so easy, wouldn't it, to grow cold and callous and grim. But you rise to greet the world, making the conscious effort to find something, anything to love. When you fall for someone, you do not kid yourself of their flaws. Instead, you resolve to see them for who they are, mistakes and all and you love them all the same. Your love is work, and it does not come easy. Your love sweats and toils. It is calloused and sunburned; it bears scars and comes with stories. Your love is worn, but it is no less valuable for it. Being loved by you is like being loved by a gardener, a mother, a teacher. Your love may not always be the simplest, but it is worth the effort.
Love as a Threshold
Your love does not ask for much. Your love does not take. Your love is free, and unquestioned, and here for wherever needs it. When you fall in love, it is as gentle as a breath in the night. It is quiet, and it is effortless. It is tender. If your love was a house, it would readily welcome all who come through. If your love was a hearth, it would warm the hands of whoever stopped by, whether for a day, a month, a year, or forever. When you fall for someone, it is without strings, without conditions, without need. You love for the sake of loving, for the sake of caring for those who need it. You love with a giverâs heart and a giverâs hands and are made so much stronger for it. Being loved by you is to always feel at home. Your love may not always be well-received by those unprepared to linger, but it is unforgettable all the same.
tagged by: @un1awful thank you very much hehe <3 tagging: whoever sees this and hasn't done it!!
#AHHHHH!!!!!#both of these are accurate and i'm just :' ))))#i haven't had to write this very much BUT loving with chiyo /is/ work -- it's seeing her partner's flaws and choosing to love them anyway#it's calling them out when they're in the wrong and apologizing when she's the one in the wrong#and the way chiyo really does have a cynic's view but a romantic's heart like!! she expects the worse but hopes for the best#and 'your love may not be the simplest but it's worth the effort' i'm WEEPING!!#i got a lot of feelings on that front and nari baby gorl that result has me :' ))))#i got a lot of thoughts about this too bc really and truly nari loves freely#loving is easy and warm and simple -- she loves you and that's that. there's no earning it or proving yourself#nari just loves you and will continue to love you even when you're gone even if you hated her#both of these results just!!! got me clutching my heart!!!#headcanons | chiyoko#headcanons | nari#btw the puppy settled down........ perhaps i can write....
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I need to STOP BEING GUILTY THAT COMMISSION MONEY BUYS MY BOOZE!!!!!!âźď¸ like listen I can moralize all I want but I earned that money through labor! I earned it through labor. And so!!!!!!âźď¸ itâs righteously and truly my money to spend on whatever I want including drugs. Including drugs. And maybe people donât like that. Maybe people throw a fit about how ohhhhhh weâre enabling Luke he has to go cold turkey during one of the roughest moments of his 20s WELL FUCK THAT! Iâm doing my best itâs just my best is not very good! Bitch! So sorry I will get drunk on the hard nights if I can in any way afford it. Sorry đ¤ˇââď¸
#luke.txt#drunkposting#I DUNNO I FEEL SO GUILTY ABOUT DRINKING when like. I dhoukdnt#shouldnât I mean#shits hard. Iâm doing a good job considering shits hard#like honestly the restraint in me not kmsing? intense. it would be so easy yet Iâm choosing to stay alive#and thatâs gotta be worth something right? itâs gotta be worth something#suicide mention#addictionposting#not cosmere#sorry folks I wanna be drunk enough to not be In my Feelingz but that may not exist
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I think if you are a motorsport fan, globally, racing is connected.
NASCAR's Garage 56 Le Mans entry is driven by Jordan Taylor around the Roval at Charlotte Motor Speedway.
#and at any rate...the well. we really have come full circle this year haven't we?#jb being so outspokenly in love with her...yes. it's not always an easy choice to stay in the circle but it's worth it eh#jay yells#nascar#garage 56#charlotte roval 2023#jordan taylor#i think there may have been a chance that jimmy was meant to do this but jordan pinch hitter. mmm i'm likin that#carfucker tag
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man why do i feel like shit today?
*drinks water*
oh yeah
#my post#it really is that easy#also accidentally cooked myself on the lake yesterday you think i'd know better by now#i think the current tally is 6 trips 5 different lakes/creeks so far#we may die attempting lake michigan but it will be worth it
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finally tackled the absolute mountain of laundry in various states of cleanliness around my room. now all of it is sorted and put into its respective zones of "away".
#98% of my room being clean with visible floorspace is just finally handling the laundry#i am ashamed and embarrassed that i always have so much dirty laundry#eventually i'll get back to the point i was at when i was the coach of laundry where i'll have like a week's worth of shit to get done#and not a backlog of several months#eventually#and i will be working on not feeling so much shame about the state of my laundry#i don't *like* that i do it but there's nothing inherently immoral about it like the voice of my mother that shouts in my brain thinks#the put away laundry plus the effort i've been making to Make My Bed before sitting in it has helped me feel more settled in the space#so that's good#when i am not as concerned about blocking the various registers in my room i will be in business#(mattress on the floor only fits in one specific corner right by the intake)#(output register is awkwardly directly in the middle of the opposite side of the room which makes arranging the furniture where i'd like it#an interesting endeavor that i'm not super excited in attempting to orchestrate in the future)#i know where i'd *like* things to go#whether or not that'll actually be feasible is another story#also i think i'm going to have to just go through my clothes with the mindset of actually getting rid of things#i threw out a couple pairs of socks because they were worn so thin i'm not sure mending would have fixed the holes#like that that point i'm making a whole new sock and you know what i could do instead? not do that#i also have a lot of Baggage Items i haven't quite gotten around to divesting myself of#(as in the items of clothing have a lot of emotional baggage tied to them that i may or may not be using to negative effect on myself)#lots of old shit lots of things that don't fit lots of things i don't even like actually#but it was free or nearly so and i've just held onto it because free#only a few things are kept because i like wearing them and the texture is nice#so we'll just. go through some stuff and eventually i'll get to the point that even if *all* of my clothes are dirty and on the floor#it doesn't take up my WHOLE goddamn room#that said this has in fact been a problem my whole life and so i don't imagine it's going to be quick or easy to fix lol
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