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hinamie · 2 months ago

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to moving forward

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #jjk art #yuji itadori #gojo satoru #fushiguro megumi #nobara kugisaki #itadori yuuji #megumi fushiguro #jjk spoilers #satoru gojo #jjk manga spoilers #hina.comic #before any1 says anything i KNOw his birthday is in december ik ik ik this is just 2 show some post-battle bonding after the trauma #its winter in canon n megumi's birthday has passed and he spent it being piloted like a mech so they need to celebrate Now!!#also this was technically a request lmao anon wanted megumi birthday angst hehehehhe i hope u like it <3 bc it KILLED ME DEAD #im going to collapse remember when i said this wasnt harder than the hydrangeas im having second thoughts #page 8 made me want to bash my head in #could have stuck with one flashback image could have left them monochrome could have done literally anything 2 ease the workload #but noooo the chronic overachiever in me would not allow it #rule of threes i had to include all of them and they Had to be in colour it wouldn't have hit the same if i had kept it monochrome #i needed it to look how childhood memories look i needed it to look oversaturated and hazy and fond but unmistakably Gone #it may have killed me but im so proud of this rn like from an art style perspective these megumis and yuujis r top tier by my standards #personal favourites r the first and last panel of crying megumi like not 2 pat myself on th back but expression?????? hello??????#enjoy your cake megumi you've earned it <333 sorry fr hurting ur feelings it will happen again #oh my god i can sleep tonight bless <333 and i met my 3 day deadline NICE im so good at what i do

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angiiiiexx · 6 months ago

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I have this headcanon that the master robe Lloyd is wearing in the sets was supposed to be a birthday gift. Wu got it sometime before the merge, but never got the chance to give it to Lloyd cuz yk. He even had a birthday card prepared and all.

And then sometime in season 2, they go through Wu's stuff to look for something, and they find it. It's really emotional and all

#ninjago #lloyd garmadon #master wu #ninjago lloyd #ninjago wu #sensei wu #dragons rising #ninjago dragons rising #also i included the bday card cuz after crystallized Garmadon complained to Wu that Lloyd wants birthday cards (he finds it unreasonable)#so Wu just includes one #Lloyd would deffo cry #honestly me too cuz my eyes got a lil wet after thinking about this #I'm guessing that he'll get the robe after the tournament and it's not from wu #but you can dream

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bunnihearted · 12 days ago

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#oooof... it's officially my birthday #and i always have bad anxiety the entire day #just seeing the date on my phone or ipad makes me wanna vomit :///#i just hate it so much....#i know it is dramatic but yeah.. :(( i just dont feel good at all and i never do #it's such a deep feeling of that i am so very unimportant #and all i am is a worthless burden on everyone and i should've never been born #i fantasize abt being important and revered and like...#i feel embarrassed even saying it lmaoooo but i fantasize abt my birthday being inportant #even if i know that as an adult and the older u are the less big of a deal birthdays are #it's just that i missed out on sm of it... so i still wish for it #but i feel silly for even feeling that way bc im asking for too much to be important at all #i feel demanding and unfair and expectant and #it is so much easier to just hate myself and wanna die lmao #rather than ...... disappointment and sadness... even after all of these years i still feel so saf #SAD******#and i see my old friends having birthday parties and dinners with a lot of guests on their birthdays #and they still post on eo's walls and like #i wanna cry..... bc i cant even imagine more than one person doing that for me and barely even that tbh #and ppl.. allowijg ME to be important and centered for one day...? thats batshit insane never would happen #allowing******#i know its oversensitive and dramatic and every year im like god shut the fuck up crybaby #u havent been important for years and years and years get over it%#!!!!!* and i try to do that but still every year i get so unbelieavably depressed #excuse me for still having this childish need to want to be important #the way see all of them be.... 🙄 ugh anyway #i wanna die so i can stop being a bother and a burden and suffer everyday bc im not allowed to exist 🙏#im really trying to be brave and shut up abt it but my entire chest burns and my heart aches i feel so so so bad i just wanna cry but i cant

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nicolibbyquotes · 7 months ago

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“Other lives, other existences, it didn't matter. They were polarities, and wherever they went, his half would always find hers.”

- “The Atlas Complex” by Olivie Blake

#HIS HALF WOULD ALWAYS FIND HERS #SOULMATES AND TOGETHER IN EVERY LIFE #no doubt if he didn’t die they would have been together in this one too #THEY ARE INSANE #like insane insane #nicolibby really won in TAC #like every lifetime endgame???#who else can say that???#love my soulmates #one of their many bangers from this book #and seeing as it’s my birthday I needed to post one #hope all the antis were crying reading about how much they love each other #and how Nico defines love by his connection with Libby and how Libby loves Nico more than any of the other 6 could love each other #sorry the amount of shit I went through in this toxic fandom made me not even want to be part of it anymore #and I don’t even post anything about a different ship or characters I don’t like on any platform #yet people can’t just leave me alone for liking nicolibby so I’m being petty #nicolibby #libbynico #nicolibby quotes #libbynico quotes #nico x libby #libby x nico #libby rhodes #nico de varona #olivie blake #the atlas series #the atlas complex #tac #the atlas complex spoilers #tac spoilers

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loulovingho · 3 months ago

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My mom and I went out for my birthday dinner tonight because my family will be here for my actual bday tomorrow but the she basically talked about my dad’s death the whole time and that gives me so much anxiety like his last two weeks are the most traumatic of my entire life and it made it so I could hardly eat. I couldn’t say anything though because she gets defensive super fast and would’ve said “I’ll just never mention him again” or something similarly childish so I had to just listen… and stress. I’m tired.

#I love my mom but it’s really hard to tell her when you don’t want to talk about something #she takes is so personally #personal #cancer #death #I wanna cry it’s my first birthday without him and now all I can think about is how he died

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starmocha · 2 months ago

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my tablet alarm woke me, and when i attempted to unlock it, it kept refusing my password to the point of “permanently locking” so i was forced to do a factory reset

now basically everything in my tablet and the sd card were wiped clean

i haven’t backed anything in the last 3 months, so 3 months worth of stuff are gone

#x — personal ⋆★#legit i want to cry #can i just call out of work today #i'm too emotionally distressed #it's 6 am #tell me i'm just dreaming #i know this is trivial and not the worst thing to have happened #but #that's like 3 months of memories gone #(i suspect my tablet did a system update while i was asleep and it messed with my password recognition)#(i am also lowkey sad because this means i lost all of zayne's birthday caps i took last night)#(i can't believe i couldn't even salvage anything from the sd card)#(i'll try to see if i can get anything back this evening but i probably permanently lost half of my stuff in my tablet)#(i will be bummed and anxious for the rest of the day - great! 👍)

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calamitys-child · 3 months ago

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I'm being so serious rn if I ever talk about doing another fringe festival run in the next like 3 years at least send me to fucking therapy. It is a cry for help. This is bad for me.

#im over halfway at least. but fucking christ.#ive barely seen anyone i care about for weeks. im hardly sleeping. im in knee braces and im still in pain.#13 hours a day of people yelling at me. the busiest ive ever seen public transport. eating the most random sporadic shit.#no hobbies. very few friends or family. crying twice a day. i still havent been paid. binding!! binding 7am til midnight!!!! daily!!!!!#my whole body hurts im physically mentally emotionally exhausted im desperately lonely im not doing the things that make me feel fulfilled #when my loved ones are free im either working or passed out in pain and exhaustion #the boss is enabling all sorts of bullshit yet again #im not able to be a person anyone i care about deserves to know #and that makes me not want to know me either #that is at least when i have enough fractions of a spoon left to feel anything at all except upset or numb #i NEED this all to be over #my next free day is my sisters 21st birthday next month my fucking baby sister is turning 21 and i dont know what to get her #i dont have a brain im not being!! a person worth knowing!!!!#my gran fucking fell the other day she's hurt ive not visited her in ages bc of work and finance i want to see my wee gran i want #to buy her ice cream and tell her i love her #i had to clean up an old guy who smashed his face on the pavement today and im just putting That trauma off til at least mid September #my BEST FRIEND gets MARRIED next week #and i can barely think about it because im on empty #im on below empty #they deserve so much better from me #im out. im not doing this again. not like this.

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the-sparkling-diamond-satine · 2 months ago

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New Christian/Satine Moulin Rouge! fic alert!

if you saw the scars and heard all the ugly parts, would you still want me? (how it haunts me)

The Duke destroys something very important to Satine, something she thought she’d be able to keep safe forever. It takes Satine’s friends and Christian to help her pick up the pieces and put herself back together again.

Read it now on AO3!

HAPPY (now late) BIRTHDAY, @ashleyslorens !!!!!!!!!! I wrote you a longer thing in the fic dedication but I hope you had a great day and you enjoy your gift fic!!! Thank you for the idea (hopefully you have as much fun reading it as I am writing it) and there are more chapters to come :)

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biblicalhorror · 5 months ago

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My relationship with my mom has come such a long way in the past few years only to come crashing down the second I try to do something nice for my dad and/or acknowledge that she is not the main character of the universe ://

#i tried to ask her if she wanted to get sushi with us for fathers day (48 hours away) and she said 'yeah unless something happens'#and i was like 'okay well the website says they wont seat us unless we're a full party' and she was like 'maybe ill make it maybe i wont'#then hung up on me #THEN texted me like 'just put me down for a no.. i cant decide this on less than a moments notice and you clearly dont want me there anyway #and 'thats the answer you wanted right? 😘'#fucking GOD FORBID i try to do something nice for my dad on FATHERS DAY after not being able to see him for several months #bc hes been flying to and from IL every couple of weeks to care for his dying father #and the saddest part is that for mothers day or her birthday or anything like that my dad is always the person bringing it up first #to my sister and me to make sure we can all plan something that will make her feel special and appreciated #and meanwhile my mom acts like a fucking toddler the second the attention is not on her for 2 seconds #'im tired and so busy and you gave me no time to decide' i literally would have given you a few hours to think about it if youd communicate #instead you passive aggressively imply i hate you because im doing something nice for someone else #ALSO you are not the only person on the goddamned planet that is busy and overwhelmed right now like are you KIDDING #i want to cry #personal

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godblooded · 3 months ago

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sometimes it’s just… ‘oh had so much fun on vacation!’ ‘went to a cool concert!’ ‘had a fun day out with my friends!’ cool??? don’t remember what the fuck that’s like since i’m constantly the one forced to be in charge of everything ever.

#ooc. o kaptain.#[i have a car? of COURSE I must be the ride if anybody wants to do anything. that’s my fucking JOB. birthday? figure out my own plans. can’t #exactly make them because Mia’s sick. have a devastatingly depressing birthday in my house trying not to cry all day. vacation??? lmfao I #haven’t gone anywhere in three fucking years what’s that like??? I am absolutely bitter and exhausted and fucking angry. I have no family #left because they all died. and the last person I DO have is so sick the only enrichment I can receive is taking care of her. until #hopefully she gets better. but when is THAT guaranteed in my shithole fucking life??? I love spiraling with no way to remedy the issue #because I literally live with the fucking issue and she’s the last thing I have. basically: fuck life and fuck this. I don’t even know what #it’s like. I don’t even know how to fucking enjoy anything anymore because I CANT. THERE IS NO OPPORTUNITY TO. I DO NOT HAVE ONE. In fact I #have to do MODULES FOR WORK. THAT. THAT is the most FUCKING stimulation I can get. whatever. I fucking hate everything. I fucking hate #everything everything everything. and this is purposeless because it ain’t gonna stop! anytime soon! ever!]#medical /#negativity /#negative /

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bywandandsword · 2 months ago

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My mom and brother drove me back up to Maine on Friday and had to leave today. I'm not going to see any of my family again until next summer

I'm being very brave about it

#(I'm not actually I'm a wreck but shhhhh)#mom left little encouraging notes all over the house while I was at school today #and I found them after they left and I mean I was already crying but that really did it #feel all hollow now and I'm mostly just waiting until it gets to be late enough that I can go to sleep #and mentally reset #cause I feel fragile as spun glass right now #but I have work tomorrow and things to do I need to get my feet under me again #so I'm going to sit here and mope and hopefully get it out of my system #so I can get a fresh start to the semester and restart my self-care/self-love campaign #cause admittedly that fell to the wayside some while I was back home #and it's my birthday here in a couple weeks #no one wants to be all sad and depressed on their birthday #sword speaks

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iwakuraz · 4 months ago

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