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guys please pray for me
#I don't know how to explain what's going on but I'm struggling and don't know how to get a handle on it#I think that there's two issues going on that are probably somewhat intertwined because I'm fixating on them as such#so maybe I need to separate out the one that is stupid and I shouldn't be fixating on it#and then just focus on the other thing as it is and not as a symptom of whatever else#idk but it's so weird and complicated that I just can't figure out how to explain it#and I've gone to my mom over stuff related to this enough lately so I won't again#idk I'm just. maybe I'm having a hard time because I'm so tired. I've been getting up early every day this week#and yet still can't fall asleep earlier so I'm not getting enough sleep I don't think.#I haven't had a break since friday#maybe that's part of it#bc I was fine for a while and then this week I'm fixating on what ifs and my own failures (that are somewhat out of my control#because I... don't know how to capture my thoughts while I'm literally mostly asleep? probably habit when I'm awake lol)#so i think there's a level of spiritual attack making me fixate and also just#tiredness#yeah.#anyway.#prayer request
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i'm bbAAAAAAAAAACK (hopefully) with a request for @dancio142!! thank you for this funny prompt :)
#v1 doesnt scream in fact but i believe that inner scream counts as smth#i proobaably shouldn't stay up late again drawing dark pictures#my eyes says this is very bad for me#oh brother my eyes scream for help rn#i probably should spend less time at the puter smh#anyway THANK YOU FOR THE REQUEST!!!!<3#ultrakill#v1 ultrakill#something wicked#something wicked this way comes#something wicked ultrakill#ultrakill fanart
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Dndadders is it too early to be placing bets on which season 3 PC will receive the in-character patreon EP/album treatment.... Guys...
#I'm personally team Kelsey or Francis... Kelsey bc an alphabet rap song would go hard and Francis just cuz... I think it would be funny...#And it could have a 50s sound influence because how cool would that be!!! Not super educated on 50s music specifically but still....#I hope they do it^^ It's a seasonal tradition at this point (even if they do it probably won't drop until late next year lol)#IDK WHY IM BRINGING IT UP THIS EARLY... I don't even have Patreon... Just Scary's song has been playing on repeat in my head I need more#plus curious to see what the masses think#dungeons and daddies#dndads#dndaddies#the peachyville horror#tpvh#dndads season 3#dungeons and daddies season 3#gosh. I really should make a tag for all my text posts shouldn't I
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I love the shape language for Machete and Vasco, how angular and pointy the former is VS how round and soft the other... It's so GOOD I adore that
Thank you! I like the contrast as well, it makes them very fun to draw together. I try to keep them visually distinct while still making sure that they look harmonious and complementary next to each other.
#some more design musings that I've noticed that don't really matter but I tend to think about when drawing them:#Machete's shapes have an upward direction the ears the neck fluff and even the tip of his snout has that upturned angle#while Vasco's vibe is more loose and relaxed his huge floppy ears almost make him look like he's melting#neither of them have strong markings but the positioning of the gradients they have is very similar it's just different colors#Vasco has dark almond eyes (with what I can only describe as disney eyelashes)#his irises appear nearly black but if you shone a strong light directly on them they'd reveal a honey/amber hue#Machete's eyes are big and prominent with disproportionally small pupils#lately I've been drawing him with just the faintest salmon colored irises#but if the color scheme of the piece calls for it they can be depicted more vividly red#Machete has longer untameable fur here and there while Vasco is uniformly smooth and velvety#Machete is supposed to be the serious and inhibited half of the two but his face has a lot more expressive potential than Vasco's#it's actually kind of a struggle that I can't make Vasco emote with his ears at all those are typically a huge advantage in furry art#Vasco's body language is open and casual he takes up space confidently#Machete is usually very closed and defensive he has a habit of crossing his arms and legs and keeping his hands together and close to body#in general Vasco shouldn't be wearing anything black or red and Machete can't be seen wearing blue or gold#white is neutral territory it's usually the color of sleepwear and undershirts and as a result has a more intimate tone to it#answered#ardate
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seeing the way some people on the internet desperately try to find the character who was In The Right or the real victim™ in morally ambiguous stories is soooo wild to me lmao what do you mean you're trying to argue which of the main characters in challengers is most at fault???? they're literally all in the wrong and all in the right at different points in the movie. that's the point!!!!! that's why every scene between them is like a tennis match!!!!! because the person with the upperhand is constantly changing!!!! what do you mean you're watching interview with the vampire and trying to decide which of the lying, manipulative vampires who have done terrible things is the Worst Liar????? the point is they're all lying!!!! at different times and about different things!!!! is it manipulation???? is it misremembering???? who knows that's what makes it interesting!!!!! like i totally get that when you're watching sitcoms or teen dramas or whatever being annoyed at or even hating a character is usually an unintended consequence of sloppy writing or a half-assed storyline. but in stories that are supposed to make you have complicated feelings about a character i'm just like askjdfhashd how are you arguing about this instead of just watching in pure fascination as the characters interact??????????? are you not having the time of your Life watching the plot unfolds????? let the story seduce you, my love, it's okay there's no pop quiz at the end
#mine#sorry this is nothing to do with anything except i was venturing into the twitter search for a lot of shows/movies lately after watching#them and being sooooo confused by some people's reactions#(which like i shouldn't be bc it's twitter lol)#but like my only thought watching challengers was 'this is so *interesting*' for two hours straight#and then i came online and people were like 'uwu tashi was a bitch' 'uwu it was all art's fault' jasdkfh i fear you missed the point friend#and i saw it less with iwtv but now tweets come up on my for you page about it and again it's like arguing about who's the most at fault#and again it's like that's not the point!!!!!!!!! asdjfha#i've seen it with the bear too but in different ways like you know you're *supposed* to be annoyed with carmy in s3 right lmao#anyway this was in my drafts i forgot i wrote it but it's real
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something something.... in a similar vein of thought as to how crystal's mind eyes are supposed to represent her "being watched" (it was stated in an interview somewhere), what would the baby doll demon spider represent for edwin?
it took me a good while to figure out but i think it's Societal Pressure and Bullying. which is A Lot Lamer than it sounds but also,, think about it!! (a bit of a long read)
it makes laughing noises. Specifically children's laughter. It is made up of MULTIPLE doll heads and hands. It's like if an angry mob of children was a spider. And let's not forget about its nature -- If Edwin makes the slightest noise or the slightest utterance or makes a move, it chases him. It chases him relentlessly and is always there to eat him alive.
obviously the spider is terrifying in ways that also don't relate to bullying, but still kind of relate to the society around edwin. one of them being that it's made of dolls. they're fake. they're plastic. they're superficial. people tend to be so superficial to keep up appearances and ostracize anyone that doesn't.
it's also a spider. a doll spider. in a dollhouse. edwin is trapped in its web (the dollhouse). but also, he would be trapped in society's social obstacles and mazes for him if he were alive simply because he is Different from them. his true self is not one that society welcomes, accepts, nor tolerates. and they would hunt them down and hurt him any chance they get.
this also makes for some really poetic metaphors about him and his interactions in hell
i think one that's really sweet is when edwin says "I can't escape it... I can't." and charles replies "Yeah well, I'm here now." LIKE OH MY GODDDDDDD LIKE!! like think abt it. think of the implications and how it relates to the metaphor.
charles is there to FREE him from being quiet. he is free to run and to scream and to escape the web that he's in. that's so. they're everything to me.
as for simon,, i cant really say what it WOULD mean like metaphorically... except for the part where simon asks "Do you think it has to be torture? Being the way we are?" and edwin's like "No. It does not. I'm going to get out of here, you should come with me." like edwin KNOWS its not a sin and he's trying to escape the society that rejects them
other than that though, i cant really think what that interaction would mean...
maybe im just wrong about the metaphor, maybe it's Not societal pressure. maybe it's not anything at all! maybe the curtains were just blue, and a giant spider made of doll heads is just a giant spider made of doll heads. who knows?
either way it is 1am where i am right now so if anyone sees this post and has any ideas, feel free to rb/comment, id love to see your take :D
(though: in a similar vein,,, charles died due to hypothermia and internal bleeding. hypothermia or the cold is usually associated with loneliness in most fiction - the way warmth is associated with company - and internal bleeding represents,.. well you can probably guess. leads you to wonder the kind of life charles lived.)
#edwin payne#dead boy detectives#character study#character analysis#literature analysis#dead boy detectives analysis#dbda#dead boy detectives agency#edwin paine#edwin payne character study#edwin payne study#edwin payne character analysis#can you tell i really want ppl to see this and hear their thoughts from the tags#edwin paine study#edwin paine character study#ok thats it i give up tagging LOL#but its really nice that edwin gave charles a bit of warmth in his final moments#thats really really sweet of them#that stupid lantern i hate it its gonna make me cry#charles gave him warmth when he thought it impossible to escape that demon too#they're just. they're just everything to me.#lantern got left behind because now it's a certainty that they will never leave each other and they are each others' warmth#ITS 1AM IM OVERANALYZING THIS HELP#i literally have to take a 1-hour drive tomorrow at 6am for my moving up ceremony i shouldn't be up this late#anyway#remi rants#remi rambles
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I know it's fun trying to give your characters insecurities, self-worth issues and making them doubt themselves and it is great way to relate to them afterall.
That said I don't really think Gortash has any of those. I think he is really just bursting with self confidence and "I can do no wrong" and if he had doubts about himself Bane would never name him his Chosen or even look at his direction. And no, I don't really think that even deep down with all his trauma there are any hidden doubts, I don't think that he suffers from self hatred or desilusion.
It is so rare find a villain with no redeeming qualities. There is something so deeply wrong with him. And he fully decided to be like that, he's deliberate in all his actions and he knows that they are wrong. He has a big ego and he does not believe he could fail
You interpretation of Gortash is of course up to your preferences and there's plenty of interesting stories with so many different flavours. But at least in my opinion by trying to give him some internalised hatred for himself or something among those lines you're just making him much less interesting.
#Sorry for rambling but lately I've seen so many posts discussing Gortash and theorising about his reasons and what's going through his head#And I just couldn't agree less with them. It's rare to find this amount of evil and fucked up but also intriguing enough character#He shouldn't be relatable there's no reason trying to give him more redeeming qualities and such#I just really don't see much room to even make theses theories in the game#Though of course have fun in your interpretation...#enver gortash#bg3#baldur's gate 3#mEye post
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Testing out a Zebra Spitting Cobra Wesnake design and throwing in some (Safari Chrisbear) hand/paw practice
#stayed up late when i shouldn't have and it's made me too tired to do anything all day#should have put eye drops in during the day because my eyes are dry as hell rn#i may be stupid#wesnake#chrisbear#chrisker#animal au#my art
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ever just stay up questioning how tsubaki is gonna end up sounding? no? just me? okay...
#like hear me out okay#furin is an all boys school and as far as we really know#tsubaki is just a guy that likes to dress feminine#at least that's how it's shown in his backstory i think#so is his voice going to be more masculine like all the other furin students#or is it going to be feminine#or is it going to end up sounding like a guy trying to pitch up their voice???#i need answers or else i'm going insane sorry#i probably shouldn't think so hard about it but oh well#it's too late not to so now i'm sharing my stupid thoughts#tasuku tsubakino#wind breaker#i'm probs just overthinking#but i can't be the only one right???#☆— yapping
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All the Overture stories that are directly hosted on my website are finally updated to the new layout. The Sol story is still the only one that's got a retranslation, but the new layout is a lot more comfortable to read than the Archive.org PDF, imo. Toggleable light/dark theme!
#neocities#textpost#Soltober 06 is gonna be late today I did a bunch of translating and coding stuff and now I wanna not sit at my computer for a bit#I wanna code the footnotes on the Sol story to show the footnote text on hover so you don't have to jump up and down the page#Later... Shouldn't be hard to do but... later lol
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I was half awake last night and posted this to the wrong account!
Thought I'd a quick Mermay piece last night, based on the very lazy koi in pond at work.
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im just gonna be honest gang obviously its gonna be easy for you to say youre in love with a character and theyre an angel when anytime they do something you don't like you brush it off as out of character
#bad writing is still canon unfortunately#the place where i absolutely draw the line is gallavich being verse don't fucking piss me off @shameless writers#unfortunately your fav characters did do and say those bad things..... and to ignore that is too fundamentally misunderstand their character#how can you love a person when you choose to be blind to who they are </3#this isn't directed toward anybody y'all are just being very dramatic lately and really i think we should remember that tv shows aren't real#i can recognize when someone is caused by bad writing but i still have to accept that it's a real thing that happened#like. do i find shameless entertaining? YES! is it well written? FUCK NO#it's actually fundamentally a bad show in many ways. but that's WHY i enjoy discussing it#it's why my hyperfixation hasn't died down. because theres just SO MUCH to pick apart and interpret and discuss!#it's actually so bad at times i blocked it out of my memory!#but if i believe something isn't canon or *shouldn't be canon* (HUGE difference between those 2 things)#then i should explain why i think that. and i also need to accept that others disagree#but if you say everything you don't like is just ooc bad writing and therefore not real to canon then#....lol what are you even doing here#like. we should be rallying against the writers for being actively racist homophobic transphobic fatphobic ableist etc#yet we're sitting here with our thumbs up our asses fighting about which character fanclub is the most oppressed#WHO CARESSSSS JOHN WELLS DOESN'T CARE ABOUT US IT TRULY ISN'T WORTH WASTING YOUR BREATH OVER#i just want to read about 2 toxic kinky boys kissing idk#let me say this tho! hardcore fiona stans you gotta be the most out of touch people on planet earth!#okay goodnight everypony#wall of text in the tags#a.txt
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planets
#tears of themis#luke pearce#tw// vent#im not sure why my art has been doing so badly lately#i know i shouldn't care much about numbers even more on twt since that place is#currently a dumpster fire#but i cant help but think its my fault and I'm doing something wrong#i feel like my art isnt good enough and I'm not as good as others#and that i dont do enough for the fandom#sorry#i kinda had to vent somewhere#i might regret this when i wake up#i always love and appreciate my moots who say the nicest and prettiest things to me so im trying to just focus on those#very beautiful people#again sorry for the selfishness#and thank you#anyways luke baby has a special place in my heart#i wanna draw more young luke and more raven#ill do my best
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Well.
#(I'm back)#It was. Uhm. A chapter#First of all: I'm ENDLESSLY GRATEFUL to the person who sent me the translation basically as soon as the chapter came out.#I even did like 90% of typesetting but didn't finish it because I had to go out#(aka with my friends were literally knocking out at my room and I couldn't make it any more late lol)#Mixed feelings about it? Mostly because there's so much exposition... I'll need to reread it another three times before it sinks in#The color page is AMAZING 10000000000000/10 I love my sskks so much they're so cute I love them so much they're so cute.#Easily the best part of the chapter.#The color page was? Very very pretty too? Like a lot more than usual if you ask me! I can't wait for the volume cover 🥺🥺#It should come out soon shouldn't it? Usually color spreads / pages open the volume...#Akutagawa fake dying again is funny. Like it isssss but also. Idk it's a little lame how we're changing the pov from ss/kk again :/#I can't even tell if I'm being biased or if it's an actual storytelling critique. I don't care right now I just want to see Akutagawa–#being cool rather than. You know. Dead on the ground.#That said! It's also very funny and touches my sense of humor precisely.#Like yeah Akutagawa being like the second strongest pm member and overall one of the most powerful ability user in the world–#that everyone fears (and I know he is! He is indeed for real!)#And yet he always ends up face to the ground 😂😂😂 Like if we don't count the ss/kk fights he literally only ever won against Hawthorne.#And even then he failed to kill him and Mitchell. It's so funny to me. I love him. He's so pathetic#“Wow! Akutagawa is so cool and invincible now!” *ends up biting the dust not even two chapters later*#It's okay because I love him. He's very very powerful and he's also very very pathetic I love that for him#That said :/ I don't really care about Fukuzawa :/ Idk :/ Like :/#Don't get me wrong I LOVE Fukuzawa (I don't. I'm mostly neutral towards him) but this is the ss/kk moment man :/ Whatchu doin#That's about it. Let's see what the next chapter brings!#Everything accounted for I'm glad there wasn't like. A ss/kk kiss or any other big big ss/kk moment#(although Atsushi admiring Akutagawa and thinking about his eyes has its fair share of neatness to it!!)#Because with everything going on this evening I really would have been let down to miss it#But I keep hope for the next chapters!! Please...#random rambles#Had tons of fun typesetting! Even though I don't think there's a point in posting it now. But would love to do it again in the future!#bsd spoilers
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Randomly getting into the game of Bad Parenting.
Uh-oh. It's already speaking to me and my life. Fucking hell
#time diary(?)#audrey/kellie's time diary#bad parenting game#bad parenting mr redface#bad parenting 1: mr. red face#bad parenting 2002#bad parenting#should've known since i saw a few posts on here talking about how it deals with abuse and such. but oh !!!! man!!!!!#that bitch. <- towards the father. at first i didn't like how he looked but its just how funny he looked#but once the mom said “my shift ended late” and then he said “bullshit”. ?? oh. fuck that.#yeah no. it triggered me. but maybe its because only recently I've been opening up about .... my ✨lore✨#which. has me talking about my biological 'father'#. and uh. what a turn of events! the father character is also bald my biological 'father' is bald too. fuck. my mom's husband is also bald#eh. mom's husband is better then both of them. continuing tho#uh. ron.... my poor son. you are just like me. not really. i dont defend my biological father like you did. even though you shouldn't#since. he was mr. redface; a killer as far as i can. tell from posts i have read
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sitting in the parking lot thinking i might vom
#it's a chain place and ive been on the other side of places like this#(i wasnt an interviewer but i was friends with them)#and there at least people would show up late + in sweats for the interview and they'd get it!#they would show up with 'oh yeah interview today almost forgot' and they'd get it!#meanwhile im having a breakdown trying to do everything right and perfect#making sure i look nice but not too nice bc again its a chain fast food place and i cant try Too Hard#also these pants dont have belt loops and they tend to shift#AND my right hand is swollen from the wasp sting yesterday so im worried its gonna be 'wtf is wrong with you'#but also shouldn't it say something that im here anyway even though i could have rescheduled#but then its like... im not gonna kill myself for this place like i did at mcd and does it give that impression?#or should i have rescheduled bc they'll think it's bad decision making to come anyway with my hand swollen#also worried that i should have parked nearby and come over closer to the time bc am i the freak sitting in the parking lot#but at least im early! but am i too early? but im out here not rushing them. but should i be so they know I Am Interested#not to even mention wtf im gonna say to them to explain my employment gap#and im so paranoid that im gonna go in and say im there for an interview and they're gonna be like ???#bc it was through an automatic text/email thing when i applied#which was how my last job happened but idk. maybe im an idiot and it's all fake so they can point and laugh#and i KNOW thats ridiculous. but that's how it feels rn.#also im worried they'll ask if i want something to eat/drink and i dont know the right answer#like i feel like i should say yes bc what do you mean you wont eat here? but the wrong thing means im taking advantage#and how will i be if im actually working there?#and its all so dumb bc#AGAIN people roll out of bed confident and they're fine. meander their way through and theyre fine. theres no reason to think i wont be#but ANXIETY#its gonna be an out of body experience no matter what and later I'll wonder about all the things i dont remember#if i fucked up or not#and now i have to go in bc it's 7 minutes until my time and i want to be a little early but not too much#fuck#wish me luck#ks talks
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