#it's just SOOOOOOO good i absolutely loved it and i can't wait to hear other ppls thoughts on it!

[stinkrascal]

i said this last night too but if you havent seen beau is afraid in theaters, PLEASE go watch it. it was so good, definitely very unconventional compared to aster's other films, but really abstract and interesting nevertheless. the whole movie felt like the heightened personification of an anxiety attack. seriously it's been 13+ hours since i saw that movie and i've been thinking about it ever since! it was just really good i really loved it a lot! might actually be my new aster favorite tbh

[squarebracketsmileyface]

if i may, here’s a brim headcanon by me; brian and tim were dorm mates in college. tim’s always made ‘sex’ sounds in his sleep (grunts, groans, etc), and brian would wake up hearing them. even before they got together, brian’d jerk off in his bed to the sound of them 😈 idk something about tim just dead asleep and brian practically curled in a ball facing the wall next to his bed, pleasuring himself under the covers with his other hand on his mouth to keep from being too loud is just ✨chef’s kiss✨ to me

Ohohoh I love stuff like this honestly. Especially if Brian's there feeling sooooooo so guilty about it, he's like "I shouldn't do this I shouldn't I shouldn't" but he can't not when Tim sounds like that. He's not doing anything to Tim so at least it's better than that, he's not doing anything that bad, but he still feels a bit grossed out by himself. He can't stop doing it, though, Tim sounds so enticing and Brian's got a hard-on that he really won't be able to sleep until it goes away, and it won't go away unless he jerks off or Tim shuts up. And he HAS tried just waiting it out. It didn't work. So this is what he has to do, it's not his fault any more than it's Tim's.

I think the first time Brian hears Tim making those noises, he's already lying on his front and he doesn't even notice himself grinding against the mattress until it's too late.

The next night it happens again and he makes sure to lie on his back and stay completely still.

Same the next night.

The night after that he goes to bed before Tim in the hopes he'll fall asleep before Tim does (he doesn't)

And then eventually he starts letting himself do what he did that first night again, just slowly grinding against his mattress as quietly as he possibly can, because that feels less like he's doing something wrong than wrapping his hand around his dick would... But then he realises that unless he goes infuriatingly slowly, his bed squeaks, and that's a risk for waking Tim up. And he thinks he'd rather die than wake Tim up, because Tim would be disgusted, Tim would feel violated, Tim would move dorms and never speak to him again, and they're such good friends already that Brian can't stand the idea of losing him.

So really it's not his fault when he starts jerking off to Tim while he sleeps. He's able to be quieter this way, he can still shove his face into his pillow like this, or put his pillow over his face I guess, or clamp his hand over his mouth to remind himself to stay quiet. This is a better way to do things, this is kinder to Tim than doing something he knows will probably end up waking Tim up eventually.

So he keeps going like that, just shamefully, silently getting off in his bed opposite Tim's, and it's fine. He's awful, he's a terrible person for doing it and he knows that. But ultimately it's fine. Tim doesn't know, and since Brian isn't doing anything to Tim, what he doesn't know can't hurt him.

I always love a lil "getting caught" moment tho, sooooo

One night, Tim wakes up, he's not really sure what woke him, the rooms silent, there's no light or anything, so it's not like Brian sneaking out to go hook up with someone is what woke him. Or... Maybe the room's not as silent as Tim first thought it was, there was a definite sound now that he thinks about it, slow, rhythmical, a little wet sounding? Maybe? He's confused about it for a moment before he clocks that Brian's breathing heavier than usual, even though it sounds muffled, and he realised that "oh my god Brian's getting off, oh no oh no oh no I can't listen to this if he catches me he'll hate me and never talk to be again" etc etc etc. so Tim tries to go back to sleep. He really, really tries, but he can't do he lies awake until Brian finishes.

Thing is, is that Brian realised Tim was awake just before he came, was absolutely mortified when he realised that Tim had fallen silent, and came unexpectedly because of that realisation, because of that feeling like he'd been caught.

Maybe Tim hadn't noticed... But... What if he had, what if he had and he still hadn't gotten angry about it or upset or anything? Brian waits all the next day for Tim to confront him, but he never does so Brian starts sloooowly slowly getting bolder. And Tim starts waking up more and more, lies there listening to Brian getting himself off, gets horny over it and very slowly starts seeing what he can get away with when it comes to touching himself.

Thankfully, Brian's always curled up on his side facing the wall next to his bed, so Tim doesn't have to worry about his own movements being seen, but he does have to worry about the sounds his cunt makes when he pushes his fingers into himself.

Eventually it's almost nightly that they're both just silently getting off together, doing their damnedest to make sure the other doesn't hear. At some point Brian realises Tim's getting off too, and he's just like "wtf??? Is he getting off to me getting off?" It takes a couple more times before he decides to up the ante, once he's completely certain of what's happening, that it wasn't just some weird coincidence. So he starts whispering Tim's name.

And Tim, obviously, hears.

Tim's like "oh my fucking god he's getting off to me," and he's like... Hmmmmmmm. So he waits to see if it happens again the next night, and it does, so he decides that, you know what, why the fuck are they doing this when they could actually have each other?

Tim silently strips his pj bottoms and gets out of his bed. He creeps over to Brian's bed, and uses Brian's shoulder as leverage to push him onto his back so he can get on top of him. And for a moment Brian looks absolutely mortified, and a little like he thinks Tim's about to beat the shit out of him, but then he clocks that Tim's naked from the waist down.

Tim's just sitting there thinking Brian looks like the most pathetic fucking man in the world. He asks if this is okay with Brian, and Brian nods but he doesn't do anything, he doesn't put his hands on Tim's hips or thighs or waist, he just stares up at him, waiting, looking more and more like he's gonna cry the longer Tim makes him wait. And Tim loves that, he rides Brian hard and makes fun of him being pathetic, and Brian cums harder than he has in ages because holy shit Tim's hot when he's in control and making fun of him, y'know?

[lostinyourparadise98]

Can't help Falling in love*

A/N: pLEASE listen to Kina Grannis version of this song  while reading PLEASE it is so beautiful and it gave me sooooooo much inspiration. Hope you all enjoy!!

Shawn’s P.O.V

Before I met you, I always thought falling in love happened all at once. I always imagined one particular moment of me looking at someone and just completely knowing they were meant for me. I was so wrong, I was beyond wrong... Falling in love doesn't happen all at once, it isn't one moment  that determines everything, its a series of moments that build off each other that make  it all worth it. Puzzle pieces that make a beautiful picture, a picture of us. When I first saw you I had no idea the impact you would have on my heart. My heart, my love, my trust and respect is yours. The moments that showed me we belong together are simple and true, messy and perfectly imperfect. But its us, its our story and I wouldn't trade it for the world. 

The fist moment that tugged at my heart was the first time you came to one of  my shows, it was in Amsterdam. I saw you in the crowd singing every word, dancing like no one was watching. You looked at me, and I looked at you and for a moment I forgot that there was anybody else in the room. Your smile infatuated me, you were so far away yet just looking into your eyes made me weak in the knees. After the show you told me you wanted to go for a walk, which was odd to me. I had told you about a party we could have gone too, I listed off names of celebrities that would be there, you kindly declined grabbing my hand and saying “Walk with me, lets go get lost in the lights.” I agreed and you and I roamed the streets of Amsterdam completely lost in each other. You told me about your childhood, why you love the color yellow, the ridiculous amount of records you have, and how afraid you were to fall in love. I was afraid too.  

The second moment was when you met my family. You woke at up at 6:00Am to fix your hair and make sure your outfit was to your satisfaction. You looked absolutely beautiful. You were a nervous wreck when we reached my childhood home. You tugged at a strand of your hair, a habit of yours that you always do when you're nervous. I grabbed your hand and we made our way to the door. As soon as my mum looked at you I knew we were something special. Everything clicked so quickly, you were so kind to mum the conversation between you too was genuine and fun. You laughed at dads jokes, even the ones you knew weren't funny, and Aaliyah my god did Aaliyah love you. The bond you had with the most important people in my life completely blew me away. I know you love me by the way you love them. Thank you for that. 

The third moment was the first fight we ever had. This may sound confusing but this argument was one that tested our strength and we made it. It seems like we are constantly being pulled in a million different directions when it comes to our careers. When you wake up, I'm going to sleep. It is just something we were not able to avoid. So much anger and frustration came along with the pain of missing you. I am so sorry for taking it out on you, just like I know you're sorry for taking it out on me. It took me some time but I realized we weren't yelling at each other, we weren't pushing each other or trying to take the other person down. Love, we were fighting for each other and in some cases we still are. I will never stop fighting for you, for us. Look at us baby, we made it! You are mine and I am yours. Thats the way it should aways be.

The fourth moment was the fist time we made love. I have never known the feeling of truly connecting with another person on such an intimate level. We took our time tangling ourselves in each other, chest to chest, the beat of your heart matching mine. I felt you, every part of you slowly until I couldn't remember how to breathe. We showed each other how much we love one another that night. The way you said my name, the way you kiss my neck, the way you look up at me with those eyes drives me completely insane. Our bodies fit perfectly together, longing for one another. That love isn't meant for anyone but you. I showed you my heart and that will remain for your eyes only. The feeling of you wrapped in my arms under the sheets is something I will never get tired of.

The fifth moment was the first time you called my apartment home. This was something we had talked about for awhile but you insisted that moving in together was a bad idea. I still don't understand why, most of your things were at my place anyway. I just think you were afraid of the label even though you will never admit it. We had just gotten back from our trip to New York, you unlocked the door and waltzed right in. I watched you as you unpacked your things being too tired to do it as neatly as you normally would. You washed your face, brushed your teeth, threw on one of my t-shirts and  ran into bed. You were living with me and you refused to admit it. I got into bed and wrapped my arms around you. You cuddled into me, letting yourself fall into a deep sleep. Before you drifted you whispered into my ear. “Its good to be home.” You have no idea how much that meant to me. You are my home, it doesn't matter where we are in the world as long as I am with you I am home

The sixth moment was the first time I told you I wasn't going to use the blockers anymore. You understand anxiety better than anyone I know. There have been countless nights that you have stayed up with me, talking me through a panic attack. Your patience and kindness is something that never runs thin. I don't know how to thank you for walking with me through some of the darkest moments of my life. When I first told you I was going to perform without them you cried. You held me in your arms and kissed me harder than I have ever been kissed before. Your support means the world to me and you did everything you could to reassure me that getting off of them was the best decision I could have ever made. It was a battle and there was definitely moments that I wanted to quit. You were there every step of the way. I will never be able to repay you for that, I love you so much.

The finial moment was the first time you said I love you. It took you awhile to say it back to me but I wasn't afraid. I knew you would say it back when your heart told you, you were ready. We were at my cousins wedding, I was a groomsmen and I remember it was so hard to focus on anything but you. You wore a light blue dress that brought out your eyes perfectly. You sat with my family and as soon as the music began I couldn't keep my eyes off of you. I couldn't help but imagine what our wedding would be like, what you would look like walking down the isle to me. They chose can't help falling in love for the song my cousin walked down the isle too. You turned and our eyes met, the version of the song was beautiful, not as beautiful as you. It was our own secret moment no one else had a clue of what was going on between me and you. We stared into each others eyes for the entirety of the song. Your eyes began to water and suddenly everything slipped away. There was a moment the instruments went away and all I could hear were the lyrics, I know you felt that way too. You looked at me and mouthed the words ‘I love you’. I stood at the alter with the biggest smile on my face as I said it back as quickly as I could. I knew right then and there that my heart completely belonged to you. I want to hear you say those words over and over again. Please never stop saying those words to me my love.  I love you, I love you I love you.

I could go on for years about how much you mean to me. I could add this very moment where you are curled up in my chest as I type this on my phone, Your mouth is wide open as you sleep peacefully. You have no idea that in a few short days I am going to ask you to marry me. I can't wait to start our journey together, its only the beginning for us my love. Heres to our future, heres to our happiness, and heres to you. There is no one in this world like you. I love you forever- Shawn 

[idkyeol]

Chubby Girls can't Date Idols - Final (Minseok)

Minseok x Reader. Appearances by OT9 & Other SM Artists. TW: Fat Shaming. Word Count: 1.4k

After the party ends, you clean up. Once everything is ready you say goodbye to your parents. Your mom makes sure to whisper that she approves of Minseok. “He’s cute and very polite! Keep him.” You feel your face heat up and shush your mom.Once everyone is back to the hotel, you go to your room. Your head is still spinning when someone knocks on your door. It’s Junmyeon. You let him in and he starts laughing. “So that girl tried to tell her story to some website and they aren’t buying it. So she’s basically been shunned in the kpop community and everyone is saying how much they love you for getting them closer to us.” You smile. “Then I’m doing good at me job.” He smiles. “But….is there something between you and Minseok?” You frown. “I have no idea. He said he loved me but…” Suho stops you. “That’s all I needed to hear. Don’t worry, we approved of your relationship.” You’re even more confused now. He gets up to leave and looks back. “Do you love him?” You smile. “Yes, very much so.” Suho smiles and leaves the room and you go to change. You get 3 steps in and there’s another knock. You start talking before you get to the door. “Did you forget something, Junmyeon?” You swim the door open and see Minseok. He smiles. “Can I come in?”

The next morning as everyone is getting to the airport, the boys are all smiles. Baekhyun runs up while you’re putting your stuff away. “Sooooooo. Minseok never came back to our room.” You frown. “Why is that my business?” He has a puzzled look on his face. “I thought….but he said…..” you laugh. “Go sit down Baek.” As everyone is pairing up for seats, Chanyeol runs over and grabs your arm. “I call dibs on noona! She scratches my head and…..” before he can finish his arm is yanked from yours. He looks at a very angry Minseok. “Is there a reason you’re touching my girlfriend?” Chanyeol gasps. “GIRLFRIEND?!” Suho starts yelling. “Shut up, Chanyeol!” Everyone sits down and you laugh. “Was that absolutely necessary?” He smiles. “Of course, you’re mine now.” You lean over and whisper. “I was always yours. You were just too scared to see it.” Once you’re back home, you talk to Junmyeon about yours and Minseoks relationship. “Nothing is gonna change. You’re safe here and at your house. Just be careful outdoors. SM cannot find out.” He says. “I know. Don’t worry. Nothing will change I promise.” You smile and he hugs you. “I knew you were going to be a great addition to our family.”

The following day is your first day back. Amber and Krystal rushes you and pull you into a room. “Soooooooo do you have something to tell us?!” They say in unison. “I have no idea what you’re talking about.” You say through gritted teeth pointing behind them. They both turn. “Oh god, what the fuck are you doing here Yoona? Didn’t they fire you?” She frowns. “Yes. I’m here for my stuff.” She pushes through and grabs her stuff. She stands right next to you and whispers “I am going to end you. I will expose you and Minseok if it’s the last thing I do, you fat bitch.” You push her and she stumbles back. “Bring it! You think Krystal slapping you was embarrassing? Fuck with me and I’ll show you how American girls deal with rats like you.” Krystal and Amber lose it. You push Yoona out the door. Just as you close it your phone goes off. “Sorry girls, I have some exo members to deal with.” You say with a wink. You walk to their practice room and hug them all. You go to hug Minseok again but see Yoona poking her head in. You walk over to her and Sehun follows. “I thought they got rid of you. Do I need to call security?” He spits out. “Awe Sehunnie, don’t be like that. We had fun, no?” He starts gagging and she frowns. “Seems like he would rather be around this fat bitch than trash like you.” You laugh out. She turns red and Minseok walks up. “Fat bitch? Did she call you that?” He says with a raised eyebrow. “Yeah. She threatened to expose our friendship. Like your fans don’t already know we’re all close and Sehun is my bff.” Everyone starts laughing just as security walks in. “Ma'am. You do not have clearance to be in this room. There is a police officer waiting for you downstairs for trespassing.” This causes everyone to laugh. “Bye girl!! See you never.” You yell after her.

Later that week, you’re still thinking about the things Sarah said. You tried not to let them get to you but it was hard. One evening after work, Sehun had walked home with you so that he could get to bottom of your sad attitude. You sit next to him on the couch. “I’m sorry if I’ve been grumpy. I’m just so confused.” He frowns. “Explain.” You sigh. “Well Sarah said a lot of fucked up stuff that day and it’s really hard for me to not let it get in my head.” He frowns again. “Minseok hyung wouldnt tell you he loved you unless he meant it.” You feel the tears bubbling up. “I know but this has happened to me before and I couldn’t….” you choke on a sob. “I couldn’t handle it if he was lying.” Sehun hugs you and let’s you cry. “Shh noona. He wouldn’t lie and neither would I. You’re legitimately my best friend and I wouldn’t let anyone hurt you, even my hyung.“After you fall asleep crying, Sehun covers you up and leaves. You wake up the next morning to the smell of pancakes. You venture to the kitchen and see Minseok cooking. You stand there watching him as he fusses over the pancakes. You clear your throat and he jumps. "Oh my god. You scared me jagi. Don’t do that.” You giggle as he pads over to you and kisses your lips. You smile and pull him back for another. “So Sehun told me about last night.” You tense up at his words as he continues. “I just want you to know that I mean what I said. I don’t know what you’ve been through before but I promise to never break your heart.” You don’t say anything back. Before he turns back to the stove he whispers that he loves you. You hadn’t said it back yet and as he turns you grab his wrist. He turns back and looks at you puzzled. You smile. “I love you too.”