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Late to the party but I wanted to share my
Top 5 GLs of 2024! (only counting shows that I watched in 2024 and that finished airing in 2024)
Affair The Series
Nobody is doing obsession like Wan and Pleng! Itās about the drama, the chemistry, the possessiveness. This show gave me everything Iāve been craving for a GL to deliver on and then some. Itās wild to me that this is the first series Lookmhee and Sonya have done together because theyāre both phenomenal. These two have had me in a chokehold ever since and I am desperately begging for a new LMSY show as soon as possible!
2. The Loyal Pin
I could go on and on about how much I adored this show. It was a sleeper hit for me and Iām glad I ended up continuing it. The beginning is a bit slow but once things pick up, itās a great story. Freen and Becky are fantastic together, they really play off of each other well. Becky had some standout moments (that fabric monologue was !!!!). The costuming and detailed set design choices really bring this show to life and Iām not even a huge fan of period dramas. Despite a few questionable story choices, I think TLP delivered on what was promised. Also shoutout to @hallowpen for their write-ups each episode. I definitely learned a lot about Thai culture and customs thanks to them which helped enhance my viewing experience.
3. The Secret Of Us
Iād be remiss if I didnāt mention TSOU. This was the first GL series I watched and I havenāt looked back since. Itās cute and a bit melodramatic but in the best way. I wrote two whole fics for this show while it was airing which is proof enough of how invested I was lol. Nothing will ever be quite as unhinged as Earn eating a banana to trigger an allergic reaction just so she can get admitted to the hospital her ex-girlfriend works at. Girl was DEDICATED and I love her for that lol.
4. Blank The Series
Nobody let me know that there was an age gap GL floating around (and that the age gap was the least wild part about the dynamics in this show lol) but better late than never! Iām shocked by how fast I powered through this show but I was hooked. This is another series that fully delivered on the drama with a healthy dose of heat which I appreciated. A fun and wild ride from start to finish!
5. Reverse 4 You
I will always be a sucker for time shenanigans so I was very excited for this one. I do wish it couldāve gotten a few extra episodes to really flesh out the plot towards the end but I appreciate the show for what it is. I enjoyed the relationship between Jattawa and her little sister and that it was equally as, if not more, important than the romance. A few scenes did genuinely shock me in a good way (this was before I discovered that the āsomeone gets hit by a carā trope was a staple of GLs lol). We have yet to get an actual butch character in a GL but Iām happy we at least got a bit of futch action going with Four (everyone say thank you Christine Gulasatree lol)
#cryptidās thoughts#gl drama#gl series#2024 best of#affair the series#the secret of us#reverse 4 you#blank the series#the loyal pin
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Dreamy delusions is such an interesting au to me especially because itās really its clearly its own separate world/story right? But a lot of what we know happened was still the ccs and still /dream/ in some way even if a different one. Like cc!dream is very sweet and soft but he also does get aggressive and angry and all of those things and he very clearly knows how to push peopleās buttons. So I can only imagine situations where that overlap might come through. Even despite any real lack of fighting ability or skill, if someone tried to hurt someone I loved Iād probably at least attempt to physically protect them even if I got stabbed or something lol and cc!George and cc!sapnap and /especially/ cc!dream would probably do the same.
Obviously they arenāt going to win or really be able to fight back and they donāt know how their lives work there so itād have to be a pretty perilous situation (not sure how angsty your going for haha) but I can just imagine a situation where cc!dream actually snaps like how we know he definitely can (and knows how to do fictionally based on the roleplaying) and just like absolutely ptsds everyone because they think heās gone full c!dream or something. Like cc!dream is super empathetic and probably really understands how and why c!snf and the other ended out that way but he also probably wouldnāt be above using that against them if he thought his actual real life family was in danger. (Also then thereās room for cc!snf angst like would that traumatize them?? Probably honestly)
Anyways sorry itās superrr late here so Iām just spinning this around in my brain because Iām bored haha
Don't be sorry this was a very fun ask!
My thought process in this au is guided by my specific understanding of cc!Dteam, which is probably different from yours or anyone else's.
I know that cc!Dream is a very strategic man, his thought process usually veers into analysis and game theory. I imagine in this au that he quickly realizes the best move for them to survive on the SMP is to befriend or be acquaintances to whoever they meet. He knows that the server are full of casually violent people, and that he and his boys are categorically fucked in the self-defense department. The idea is to disincentivize anyone as much as possible from thinking to hurt them. So for him, friendliness and sociability is a survival tactic and not just his personality.
It's the same logic for why he's so outgoing in the Syndicate; he's incentivizing them to protect him and Sapnap and George.
As for snapping, I think he'd literally only think to do that to be a brief distraction. He knows that his anger will not work to get what he wants because he doesn't have the power to back it, at most it can hold attention. If he's pushed to his brink he'd probably get upset instead.
I think c!Techno would be the only one cc!Dream would be okay with seeing him get angry (as like, venting). He would never be able to intimate c!Techno after all.
Additionally, I believe, as empathetic as cc!Dream is, he'd prioritize his and friends safety above all else. If he needs to use words to hurt somebody he will do it.
I'm just characterizing him to make the smartest decisions using the limited tools that he got on hand.
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Ooh!
Last Song: All the Answers from the Fallout soundtrack, by Ramin Djawadi.
Favorite Color: Shades of green and red.
Last Book/Fic: I'm Too Good at Raising Hell by p3pp3r_m1nt. (Daredevil).
Last Movie: Deadpool & Wolverine. Saw it in theaters, haven't really watching anything since. Which is weird, because it's been almost six months.
Last Show: The Rookie. Season seven premiered this week!
Sweet/Spicy/Savory: My spice tolerance also sucks. And I could never choose between sweet and savory. I just love food (that doesn't have peanuts in it).
Relationship: Happily single. Who has time for relationships anyway, right? Too busy working and torturing characters.
Last Thing I Googled: "who knows daredevil is blind". I was curious what other heroes/vigilantes/etc. that don't know his identity knew. Results came up empty because I wasn't referring to the comics lol.
Current Obsession: Been thinking about Daredevil a lot (been reading the previously mentioned fic the past few evenings, just got caught up). Fun fact: I've only seen two episodes of the show. I hope to restart again soon lol.
I Look Forward to Telling You: I love you all and am happy to see so many familiar names on my dash going into this year. Together, we'll get through it.
NPTs: Literally anyone. But also @inquisitorius-sin-bin @stardustbee @sinisterexaggerator @thebigteagues
10 people Iād like to get to know better
10 people Iād like to get to know better
Since I had two separate tags in this, @spaceyjessa and @laughhardrunfastbekindsblog I decided I would make a separate post.
Last song:Ā Ā with lyrics: Beautiful Boy by The Last Dinner Party (I found out about this band like two weeks ago and now Iām going through a phase Iām obsessed)
Without lyrics: I am ready by Kevin Kiner & Sean Kiner: from the bad batch season three soundtrack. Been listening to it a lot lately, as it feels pretty prevalent to the time of my life that Iām at
Favourite color:Ā light pinks and baby blues
Last book/fic:Ā the last book I finished was defy the storm, by Tessa Gratton (Iām getting closer and closer to being caught up on THR)
Fic: Mace Windu fixes the timeline (You should read it, itās wonderful)Ā
Last movie:Ā the rise of Skywalker (yes, I love the sequel trilogy and what about itĀ š
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Last show:Ā the bad batch... Iām re-watching, again... how predictableĀ š
Sweet/spicy/savory:Ā I have a big sweet tooth, especially when it comes to chocolate
Relationship:Ā single real life, but in love with countless fictional characters inside my headš¤©
Last thing I googled:Ā what does the quest cookies and cream protein bar taste like? (look, I have arfid. I canāt just buy new things to try without knowing exactly what Iām getting into first)
Current obsession:Ā Star Wars, duh! Specifically clones and TBB, the Mandalorian and the high republic
I look forward to telling you:Ā that if youāre reading this youāre wonderful
No pressure tags (and Iām sorry if youāre being tagged again)Ā Ā @clonethirstingisreal @eobe @dystopicjumpsuit @sunshinesdaydream and anyone else who would like to.
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was talking w ree about lelouch's casual outfit and was like hold up but the cropped red jacket paired with a black tank is reminding me of something. and so,
#spoiler: its a hyeop outfit because of course it is#code geass#lelouch lamperouge#i love drawing things that will appeal to exactly 0 people#i mean that seriously though it's good to draw silly stuff just for fun#anyway i've only drawn lelouch twice (first time was a trad drawing that i don't think i posted anywhere and also can't because i mailed it#to ree and don't have it anymore) but i still need to figure out how i actually want to draw him#i'll draw him properly sometime and not just an absolute nonsense kpop crossover LOL.......#warning that if you do click through on the link the camera work is so bad so if you're likely to get nauseous maybe just don't lol
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Go play pretend on your own (Patreon)
#Doodles#Helix#Dexter Favin#Coraline#The Beldam#The other side of this coin <3 Call him out but this time make it unfriendly hehe#I talked last time about the daring rescue!! I do love the daring rescue in Coraline AUs ah same thing with the Camp Camp Coraline AU haha#Burst in through the door! Those poor hinges!#It is a bit funny imagining him crawling through the tunnel in a hurry and kicking the doors open all winded haha <3#It's all very serious of course Max needs help! Stuck behind the mirror from disobeying perhaps?#I was pretty hard on him last time that he'd just Immediately give up his soul for cheap tricks but like - would he?#Yes he's reckless and foolish but he's also stubborn and prideful and hates being told what to do so there's that lol#Which does he want more! The high or his freedom to refuse? I could see it going either way#And for Dex's sake I would hope he'd refuse! As if he hasn't suffered enough eye trauma (eventually)#Ough the thought of him starting to say yes and getting one button eye in and then rescinding his yes ouch#Doomed to have one eye no matter where he goes ah š#Anyway - Dex!!! Watch I'll make another one with the ideas mentioned here and then talk about more ideas in those tags pft#Since agreeing with him didn't work how about shaming? ''Go away you're no better''#She really is going hard on him like ''What's your angle? You get him back and then what? Will that actually fix anything?''#Very much pulling from Dexter's meetings with Max at the Institute there hhhhhh as if I needed more feelings about it#Eco_Mono did such a beautiful job playing Dex - so much to consider hehe - but there was one question that I can't stop thinking about#''Why would you want him back?'' and Dexter didn't really have much of an answer - he was barely more than a concept at the time!#Having had the opportunity to see his character grow into himself has given me Such brainworms about that question ā„āŖā«#Very want to explore it <3#In the meanwhile it's fun to pit these two against each other haha what an odd matchup āŖ#I've only barely drawn the Beldam before now that I think of it! And I think only in her final metal-spidery form never in her mid form here#She's fun :D And so tall! Dexter finally feeling small for a change haha#Her having to fight adult selfishness would be quite interesting I think - something tinged with but not quite the same as loyalty#She can relate to the possessiveness at least hehe I'm sure he'd appreciate the comparison
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RAHHH DO I HAVE THOUGHTS
#idk im a huge overthinker so i have those moments of idk if these count as romantic feelings or not#and i have a tendency to take things really seriously when im into it#in the same way of wanting to do things right and whatnot#i wish i had someone to tell me to think a little less and take it easy when i was really going through it#because i thought about it so hard and worried about it so hard that falling in love was no longer fun for me#it was so stressful to me that it was causing me physical harm lol which is so fucked up that relationship trauma can do that to you#but ig part of it was being an inexperienced queer#the queer experience felt so hard to come by in the first place that i really really wanted to do it right and for it to work out#ig in a sense we're luckier to be in an environment where it's not as bad as like. idk.#like ig it's not to the point of i would date someone just bc it's so rare to run into someone else with the same identity#uh#wait#actually.#huh#hm#well. ok maybe like the majority of. the people i got into a relationship with. was bc they shared the same identity.#and i felt like i wouldn't. be able to be understood by someone who didn't share that identity.#anyway though. anyway.#we're working on not. doing that.#but yeah i forgot my point teehee#yuri rambling#kk rambles#i just yk. keep on having to remind myself that falling in love should be fun and not scary#having a silly little crush should bring me joy and not fear#i should enjoy the feeling of being present and enjoying life and even if im doing it my way and being intense i should have fun with it
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Timelapse of those last two Blade peices. I actually remembered to turn the capture on for once cause I was so enthusiastic i thought this one would go smoothly but if you've ever wanted to see an artist ABSOLUTELY FIGHT a piece: here you go!!!
#timelapse#speed paint#cw flashing#flashing lights#kamen rider#kamen rider blade#kenzaki kazuma#fan art#the reason i did two pieces was cause i was SO unsatisfied with what is actually a decent piece imo#but it wasn't hitting the right feeling it just wasn't the right mood!!!#kenzaki leaping is legit probably the hardest pose i've ever drawn#i fully knew going in that i wanted to draw him leaping OVEr the camera but that angle and pose combine a lot of my weaknesses lol!#and i really really needed to get the right energy down too so it had to be good wahhhh#these are the things i go through lmao! this is why art is fun though and why i love it so much i got excited wahaha!#there are really no good reference images for this kind of pose either so i had to do a lot of thinking#i feel like i learned some good stuff!#fully wanna reuse this pose in something in the future lol i worked THAT hard on it i wanna CAPITALIZE#probably won't shake out though lmao!
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It's always interesting to hear about people's weird/unexpected "alternate life paths". Like, something that you could have done with your life, a job you almost took, a school you almost went to, etc - that was still actually realistic enough that it could have happened, but NOW it seems to not suit your current personality.
Like for example, I currently hate advertising (how manipulative it is, brands trying to be 'relatable', social media amplifying it to an obnoxious extreme, etc.) so much that even seeing a little ad before a youtube video is grating to even witness, but there was a point in time where I was genuinely seriously considering going into marketing/making commercials as a career lol. Or like, I have a relative who was very inclined to be a pastor when they were younger, even though today they're a super strong atheist, etc. etc.
#BECAUSE I knew I really liked filming and editing things and doing set design and costume design (from having done little bits of that#here and there in media classes and my own stuff - i used to be a lot more into making videos than I am now). BUT I was always thinking#that a movie is WAAY to big and long. even a short film. So I was trying to think of ways I could still like#have the fun of scouting locations to film and dressing up actors and etc. etc. without it having to be a Huge Million Dollar Production#on tv show or movie level. SO then I was thinking about like... just doing commercials. Or music videos. Like shorter things where I still#get the fun of the filming and everything but it's less of an intensive long term project.#So there is an alternate version of me (I suppose if i somehow did not end up having physical and mental health issues#as badly somehow.. or like.. randomly came into wealth and was able to pay my way through a nice college despite missing#days constantly being out because I'm sick or something lol) that works in some corporate advertising office coming up with commercials#and directing or filming them or doing the sets for them or something in that general vicinity.#I also was considering being a corporate psychologist. or whatever its called.. oh from google:#''Industrial and organizational (I/O) psychologists study and assess individual group and organization dynamics in the workplace''#I don't think I even knew what the job entailed. I was at the time just thinking like.. the type of person that comes into a business offic#and gives everyone personality assessments or does MBTI or big-5 testing crap for whatever reason that some businesses get that#done for people. Really i just wanted to be in a Corporate Big Office setting yet still do psychology. Because I used to be really fixated#on living in a big city. Like the ideas of everything being walkable. picking up a coffee in the morning. walking to my job in a Big#Skyscraper Building. people watching in a huge hotel lobby for lunch. flying frequently (I love airplanes and airports aesthetically).#living in an apartment with a giant window overlooking the city. etc. etc. BUT that was before i had really BEEN to a city. Then I actually#hung around a city a few times and went places and I was like... AUGh... The Sensory Overwhelm.. cars people lights loudness noise scary#everything happening all at once. etc. etc. (though even when I wanted to live in a city i NEVER strove for the Night Life. when i say I#enjoy city imagery I mean like... in the day time. Many people who like cities talk about The Night Life and post pictures of cities all#lit up at night and clubs and dancing and restaurants. none of that EVER appealed to me. perhaps a sign I am not a real city person. Like#I am NOT standing in a crowded bar full of loud people in the middle of the night lol.. get AWAY from me!!) but I do adore the#architecture of like bright white clean sterile modern spaces like huge airport lobbies or malls or etc. I think thats what reminded me of#city and what I liked about the idea of that life. Like I always LOVED the layout of schools and hospitals and trainstations and public#transport in general. Though even then I knew enough that I would not be a good architect/city planner. so I guess my adoration for those#spaces was merely to be channeled into LIVING there. but then I realized I didn't even really want to do that that much. I mean I still#definitely aim to live NEAR a city. like the little areas outside of it. I would never live in a rural place 4 hours from anything. I liter#ally just COULDNT since I need close access to hospitals sometimes lol. But I used to want to live in the CENTER of citites like high rise#condo. and now I'm like.... eh....... perhaps a smaller quieter walkable space nearby lol.. ANYWAY.. alternate me in my Business Suit eheh
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#last night was really so so so fun and it was super hard to get myself to go out? like#in the sense of I really wanted to because I knew it would be fun but I also knew my anxiety was eating me alive#and it would be an obstacle getting through that without alcohol and I need to be ā¦ careful#but I got fun drunk and didnāt have too bad of a hangover and didnāt feel super anxious once we got out :#and a different friend wants to make plans for tonight but I am really bad at making plans in advance because sometimes I physically canāt#do things after work bc tired bc neuro disorder and itās frustrating to my friend with severe control issues#bc she needs to make specific plans like a week out and Iām like erm babe I canāt like#do that? and then if I donāt feel well day of and need to be home she gets (rightfully) frustrated because Iām bailing but itās#challenging. and you donāt understand unless you live with it.#and itās frustrating for us both. I donāt want her to think I donāt value her because I do and I force myself out often enough bc I#genuinely feel bad. but itās so fucking hard sometimes . she also lives sort of far so going from work and having#to drive an hour to her place to then go somewhere and be out like#Iām spent before I even get there#friend I saw last night and I donāt talk consistently but when we do itās always the same vibe and so fun and we just catch up about life#I feel like when I see my other friends they have things to always talk about because theyāre in a discord call almost every night#I donāt have the energy!!!!!!!!!! like Iām so sorry thatās so much for me#idk she isnāt answering me now but if she wants to do something I need to know in the next hr bc if not Iām literally going to bed#I love her but thereās a disconnect between us rn and I donāt know how to mend that gap#but I do love her friendship so Iām just like. sigh#idk it would be different if she was closer and I know that#I hope getting back on medication helps get me being more social again. Iām just so tired this week that speaking is hard lol
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do you have any thoughts about the core four whose gender(s) are basically just a trans fruit cocktail that you would like to talk about? because I would love to listen
oh boy DO I !!!
I have So Many thoughts about them Anon, so thank you for giving me an excuse to try and put it into words beyond āDamn, these bitches trans! Good for them.ā
Honestly, there are so many different ways to explore these characters genders based on how you choose to interpret their life experiences, and their aesthetic changes, and their relationships with each other. I am of the belief that any of them could be trans in any direction
But, that said, I Do have particular gender headcanons for YJ that i am very fond of, so thats what Iāll be talking about today.
(Small disclaimer. I have not finished all of the comics referenced in this. I am using the information i have to inform these, but you know, i might come back to this post at some point in the future and look at it like āwow, i donāt agree with any of this anymore.ā And i think thats okay.
Iām just here to have fun, and i thoroughly enjoy these little guys, and think abt them alot, so enjoy
(also if you dont want to read 4.1k words of blorbo gender analysis, or would like to avoid spoilers for Superboy (1993), Young Justice (1998) & (2019), and Red Robin (2009) in varying degrees of detail, or you just want to see what lables i assigned them, scroll down to the bottom <3))
lets get started.
Bart:
Bart's gender is the most complex, but his thought process about it is also the most simple. I think his view of gender would be very much influenced by the fact that he grew up in VR in the future likeā¦
A body is just an avatar, do what ever the fuck you want with it.
That said, the lil guy has always given me transmasc vibes. These vibes, however, are by no means binary.
He understands that in the 21st century a lot of people do not have his sort of āthrow things at the wall and see what sticksā approach to gender, so heās okay with being put in the box of Boyā¢. But his gender is a lot more * hand waves vaguely *
Clothes donāt have gender in his eyes, theyāre fabric you put on your body. Wear what ever you want forever!
Bart in skirts is something i have seen many people draw/talk about before, and its something i agree with wholeheartedly. He likes hair clips, and like, those loud (actually loud and visually loud) beaded bracelet type things that ravers wear. He like nail polish. He doesnāt grow facial hair, but he wouldnāt care if he did. Heās not on hormones, but he definitely considered it for the bit. āGotta drink my boy juiceā Kind of vibes.
For him gender has Nothing to do with performance, its all about comfort. About wearing what feels right, regardless of whether or not heās adhering to expectations of masculinity.
Yes, he Will wear that god awful outfit out of the house, haters can die mad
Cassie:
Anon, I need you to understand how much i love early yj98 cass. She is everything to me ā her process of coming to terms with herself, and being able to watch her start to feel at home in her own skin. It makes me absolutely feral.
lets see if i can explain whyā¦ succinctly
When we first meet her in yj98, her identity as āWonder Girlā is this sort of amalgamation of What it Means To Be A Hero in her eyes. She has her party city blunt bob wig (Because Diana is who she looks up to), the gloves, leather jacket, goggles combo (that so clearly take inspiration from Kon).
At this point in her life Wonder Girl is not really her. Its very clearly a mask sheās putting on. which is what makes it the perfect avenue for her to explore gender expression without it having to actually be about her gender.
I think the part that specifically makes me feral though is herā¦ weāll call it admiration of Kon.
The girl is a self proclaimed Superboy stan + theres all the weird not-drama between Cassie and Cissie over wanting attention from Kon. (And i say Not Drama bc its likeā¦ Kon flirting with cissie (which likeā¦ have you met 90ās Kon?? he flirts with everything that moves) and Cassie being upset that heās Not flirting with her. and cissie is just along for the ride. Sheās not quite as much of a flirt as kon is, but she has her moments)
All of this to say i feel like its impossible to have a conversation about Cassieās gender without also talking about her experiences with comphet and lesbianism.
At the beginning, Cassie sees Kon ā this cocksure, conventionally attractive boy with powers that (at first glance) seem very similar to hers, and felt something about it. And, in the way of teen girls who have been told since grade school that theyāre supposed to like boys, Cassie comes to the conclusion that what she feels for Kon must be romantic in nature, right?.
All of this, the jealousy over Kon and Cissie flirting, basing her costume off Superboyās (intentionally or otherwise), the fact that she wont let her team see her without the wig and goggles at all for so much of yj98. To me it all reads as the tangled mix of undiscovered lesbianism and gender dysphoria that the poor girl simply doesnāt have the words to define yet.
So, then what IS cassieās deal with gender???
i am so very glad you asked.
She, too, is a transmasc of the nonbinary variety.
I think her relationship to femininity is complex, and ever changing. She doesnāt feel comfortable performing femininity the way the world expects her to, but she is also part Amazon. And i think having a relationship with both Diana and Donna would greatly influence how she felt about femininity as a whole.
The Amazons are strong, their femininity isnāt about beauty, or being soft spoken ā it isnāt about Men at all. On Themyscira, to be a Woman is about bravery, honor, skill, and in some ways, divinity. Getting closer with her Amazonian sisters would change her relationship to womanhood immensely.
But it still wouldnāt feel Right. She would be able to see that womanhood can be defined differently, but that wouldnāt change the connotations that womanhood had as she was growing up. Sheād never be able to lean into it the way Diana or Donna do ā they both grew up only having woman defined as strong and brave and confident. Their experiences are not analogous.
The baggage of growing up a girl under the patriarchy wouldnāt justā¦ vanish because she sees that it Doesnāt have to be that way. In some ways, the knowledge that it didnāt have to be that way could make her dysphoria all that stronger (especially if she hasnāt quite deciphered that dysphoria is what sheās feeling).
but i think there would be a point where two things sharpen into focus for her.
fiirstly she has a big fat crush on cissie king-jones.
and second (which would only come AFTER realizing her feelings for cissie) is that what she feels for Kon is Not the same as what she feels for Ciss.
She didnāt want to be with Kon romantically, she just wanted his gender.
I could see her experimenting with wearing a binder, liking that she can get rid of her boobs if she isnāt feeling them that day.
She already has her short hair, and her leather jacket and jeans, and shes big and buff and strong (because she deserves to be butch!!! okay???).
I still think she would use she/her pronouns, but she wouldnāt be picky ab it (if she gets called sir while at the pizza place, sheās not going to correct them.)
But hereās the kicker ā I think leaning hard into her masculinity would be EXACTLY what she needs in order to actually ENJOY expressing femininity again.
When putting on the mask that is āwomanhoodā becomes something that she can Choose to do, rather than something that is being forced on her, it can be pleasant. Like playing dress up.
She has a new appreciation for it, especially since her friends respect her gender, and she knows at the end of the day, when she takes the makeup, the clothes, and the wig off, underneath it all sheās just her.
(Small addendum re: TTā03 Cassieās fem phase. I have Many thoughts about this as well, and while they end up in roughly the same place, i exploring her experience with comphet and her decision to dress in a more traditionally feminine in that run is something id like to explore in another post (once iāve actually read the run too.)
Cissie (bonus):
This one should be shorter than Cassies, mainly because my reasoning for it is much simpler.
YJ'98 (#11)
She lists all these names, all of them feminine except for Fucking Ralph. āOne weird phaseā she calls it.
To me, Cissie is a transgirl through and through. She has this huge list of femme names she tried on while she tried to find the one that fit best. She mentions ralph in this off handed way, as if its not important, and i think thats just her way of dismissing her deadname as something of little consequence.
(that said, i think thereās lots of fun to be had with transmasc cissie, or tried transing-her-gender and realized it wasnāt for her Cissie. But as a transfemme, tgirl cissie is So important to me <3)
Kon:
other people on here have made posts about Konās gender that are much more coherent than this will be, but iām putting the words down anyway. bear with me.
Konās experience with identity (especially in his earlier years) is almost entirely about the external rather than the internal.
Kon has his whole life planned out for him from the moment he opens his eyes. Itās simple really ā become Superman.
So you have this freshly hatched teenage boy, saving the world as Superman (not the Only one, but definitely the coolest one (Kon would argue)). All eyes on him, all the time. In some ways, performance is inseparable from who he is. From the very beginning, everything he does is on display.
He starts his life with a Name (Superman), a life path (ā¦again, Superman), and all the confidence of a sixteen year old jock with nothing but wins under his belt. then it all gets taken away.
Turns out Clark ISNT dead, and the world doesnāt need its pint sized superman anymore now that its got the real thing.
enter Superboy
Konās entire identity, his whole purpose for being alive, was to step into the shoes of a dead man who is no longer dead. So where does that leave our genetically engineered test tube baby?
lost, and extremely confused.
But heās good at using his charisma as a shield, and even better at keeping himself busy. His problems arenāt there if he doesnāt have the time to think about them, right?
and i think thatās true about his gender as well.
Similar to Cassie, his discovery and exploration of his gender feels incredibly tied to his sexuality (to me). If youāve read sb93, you know Konās deal with women. He is cute & conventionally attractive & he's like superman with a fashion sense, so of course there are people fawning over him.
And he loves the attention. He likes that people want him, or that they are looking at him. The issue is he doesnāt have the life experience to realize that their reasons for paying attention to him are often very shallow, manipulative, or selfish.
He isnāt treated as a person very often. Heās a brand, a product, a tool, a weapon. Heās arm candy, heās a photo op, heās a headline, heās a paycheck. And it takes him a long time to be able to tell the difference between someone Liking Him & someone Using Him.
For the longest Time, Superboy is all he is. He doesnāt have a name outside of that identity (except for the various pet names the women in his life give him (kid & pup, mainly)).
And even when Clark does give him his real name, Kon-El, its still Attatched to his identity as Superboy.
I dont think that he would really even be able to start dissecting how HE feels about his identity until heās much older.
Part of this would come from the space to be someone else that gaining a civilian identity would give him. As Superboy, the goal has always been to stand out, to be seen, to shine like the sun.
As Conner Kent, he has to blend in. He doesnt want to draw attention to himself, or the Kents, or Clark. He has to fit in, which was never something he had to do as Kon. And i think it would kind of chafe at him ā but he wouldnāt really know why.
I think heād chalk it up to how different of an experience it is. Not being loud, having to be normalā¢. And so i think heād justā¦ continue to play the part. For a while anyway.
And like, part of being Normalest Boy Conner Kent would also involve actively un-queer coding himself for the sake of fitting into the ecosystem of Smallville High. and its likeā¦
Young Justice, as a friend group, is SOOO queerplatonic. The lines between romantic and platonic intimacy are so blurred, and Prior to Konās YJ days he he was also likeā¦ living with these woman who he had complicated relationships with that also blurred the lines between platonic, romantic, and sexual (ā¦looking at you, Knockout).
So learning where the line is when it comes to how he can acceptably interact with his civilian friends (particularly the boys) would Really open his eyes to just how close he is with Bart and Tim, and how similar his feelings for them are to his feelings forā¦ lets say, Simon Valentine.
But i dont think That is what would actually tip the scale. I think realizing that these feelings for his friends arenāt considered ānormalā would make him shove them down deeper. As āConnerā anyway.
from here it could go two ways, right?
Either we get Teen Titans ā03 t-shirt Kon, who sheds his GNC 90s swag in exchange for adhering closer to traditional (read; boring) masculine gender roles.
or we get a Kon who leans Harder into his punk roots, but its a conscious choice now.
(this isnāt even digging into how he would feel once Jon comes into the picture, because while Kon cares for that boy Deeply, his feelings abt the new kiddo in the family could also be very complicated. But thatās a post for another time.)
Personally i prefer the second one.
Kon has always been a curious kid, i love the way he makes pop culture references, and how he bases his behavior off of 90ās teen tropes that he Most Definitely learned from TV. In his early days this wasnāt done in a research way necessarily, but he Did want to learn what it was like to Be a Teenā¢, and TV was the easiest way to figure that out.
(and, playing in the space of Kon adaptations, his love of media/pop culture, and just over all thirst for knowledge, are present both in the Reign of the Supermen Movie, and in his iteration during the n52 (which is one of the few things i personally have internalized from reading n52 Superboy/Teen Titans)).
But post gay awakening, i feel liked heād be interested not just in behaviors, but also the context of them. Digging into punk as a subculture rather than as an aesthetic. Learning about its connections to queerness, and community, and self expression. And i think this would be extremely freeing for him. (especially if this were around the time of Jon becoming Superboy v.3, but again, not the point of this post.)
this all culminates in Kon being like yk? gender justā¦ isnt for me. Like, it takes im a long time to get to this point, but realizing that the path that was set out for him is just one of the potential paths he can take, and while he might not know where this new path will take him, its his, that that matters.
And also like, Because his friends are who they are, heās seen different versions of queerness, and transness, but i think it would take him a bit to see himself as someone who Isnāt Cis bc likeā¦ he doesnt have dysphoria in the traditional sense.
Heās still the beefcake heās always been, but i think heād start playing with makeup when he realizes it makes him feel good (he shows up the the cave one day with smudgy eye liner and Cissie is immediately like a) you look so good and b) can i Please do your makeup? (and then she does it, and he looks so pretty, and he gets these weird giddy feelings that he doesnāt realize is gender euphoria until his friends start talking abt gender euphoria)
His uniform starts to get more personalized too, like the designs where he has knee patches, and all his little belts, and stuff. maybe he starts experimenting with showing skin. bc he deserves it
(āits for maximum sun exposure!!!ā is the what he tells clarkā¦ heās not sure if clark bought it or not)
And hey, exploring gender presentation more as Superboy might help him do the same as Conner. Cassie will take him thrifting, heāll try of a flowy skirt or a sun dress or something and then its Over. Gender euphoria part two, electric boogagloo.
In the end, its about realizing that adhering gender roles (and truthfully, any socially imposed āruleā about self expression) is something he can simply Choose not to do. And i think this freedom would be something that benefits him in his civilian life as well.
His gender is: literally what ever, man.
Tim:
Ok, hereās the thing about Tim and gender, right? I think heās kind of just comfortable as he is. Heās good at playing the roles he needs to in what ever situation hes thrown into. āRobinā and āTim Drakeā (and even āTim Drake-Wayneā if you want to split hairs) might be masks he wears, but that doesnāt mean theyāre any less him. if that makes sense. likeā¦
Lets look at the differences between Bruce (or Brucie) and Batman for a second. They really are different people. Batman is who bruce is at his core, ābruceā is this sort of liminal space between the cowl and his public persona, and then theres Brucieā¢, and well, you know how he is. These are personas that Bruce puts on.
With Tim its like he just highlights different aspects of himself when a situation requires it. (oh no, the autistic!Tim head canons are being loud today.) But like, heās Always been masking. And i think this is something he would look at as likeā¦ getting a good grade in adapting. or something. Heās comfortable, all the roles he plays are ones heās familiar with, and he doesnāt really question who he is outside of who he needs to be.
That is, until Caroline Hill makes an appearance.
I feel that the decision to go undercover as a woman was a wholly practical decision in the moment. Itās what the mission required, and therefore tim stepped up. Its just another mask, right? Surely this wont awaken anything in himā¦right?
But this is an entirely new mask. And i think it might likeā¦ shift the way he looks at/thinks about the other masks he puts on. He was able to step into a role that was very foreign to him, and it Worked. (and he felt pretty, which likeā¦ woah, thats a new feeling. and he kinda liked it? file that under āthoughts he doesnāt have the bandwidth to process right now.ā Bruce needs him back at the cave! its time to debreif! and he has a biology test tmrw! no time for gender scaries!!!).
I think it would take a while for him to be able to admit it to himself though. Because likeā¦ hes Not uncomfortable with his body, but he also keeps thinking about how good he felt dressed up femininely, and how he felt powerful, in a way. That putting on that mask felt just as good as putting on his domino.
Personally, i think itd be funny if instead of coming out right away, Tim doing undercover missions essentially in drag becomes a recurring thing. And i imagine some people give him a hard time. (not in a transphobic way or anything, i just mean like, teasing him fondly or what ever.) (Also, i like to imagine that when cissie Did kons makeup, bart and Tim jumped in there too bc like hey why not, and hoooooo boy, if Tims egg hadnāt cracked before then, it sure would have cracked after.)
The thing about him is, iām not sure if heād come to the realization himself. You know, that he would like to present femme sometimes, in a situation that has Nothing to do with a mission.
I could see Tim convincing himself that its a pointless or frivolous desire, which is Why he relegates his time presenting femme to when he can prove that itās useful.
but i have this image in my mind, right? Of him, taking his makeup and wig off, and hes chatting with whoever is in the room with him (literally anyone else mentioned aboveā¦ or Dick). And Timās just talking about how he wishes he could present this way in situations other than missions.
and the other person in the room is just likeā¦ i mean, you literally can.
and hes just likeā¦. shit youāre right. i Can :0
I could probably go further into depth abt this, but i think this just frees him to start playing with gender more as Tim. and start to recognize when heās feeling more masculine, more feminine, or somewhere in between.
His gender isnāt consistent, its this thing heās constantly listening to, and trying to understand. but in the mean time, he can paint his face, and wear pretty clothes, or dress like just Some Guy, or be a hedgehog dressed in traffic light colors, or what ever his heart desires.
As far as likeā¦ how He describes his gender, i think heād say something corny like bi^2 (bi of both the sexual and the gendered varieties). Or shrug, handwave, generally give a non-helpful vague description. Or tell who evers asking to buzz off.
(small addendum wrt Kon and Cassie in TTā03. I havenāt read this run yet, so i didnāt really include it in this post. But i Do have thoughts about what might cause the two of them (my gnc besties from my comics books) to lean sooooo hard into traditional gender roles after being So Queercoded in their other appearences. Before i talk abt that though, i want to read the comic. So, that will have to be a post for another time)
ANYWAY, heres that TL;DR i promised.
Bart: NB Transmasc Cassie: NB Lesbian (of the transmasc variety) Kon: Agender Tim: Fluid (bi-gender) + Cissie: Transgirl
Thank you soooooo much for giving me the opporrtunity to ramble abt the silles and how Not Cis i think they are. Love you forever.
#š#š | šØ#anon#disclaimer: this all for fun! i love these kiddos & am working on reading more of their comics#And my thoughts here are based on things that i have extrapolated from what they have gone through in canon & how that might influence#their relationships to their own genders#Core Four#Young Just Us#Bart Allen#Cassie Sandsmark#Cissie King Jones#Kon-El#Tim Drake#LOL will Tumblr let me post this now?#(i spent like... 15 minutes futzing with the formatting just for it to go 'srry cant post this hehe'
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King's Quest Fan Remakes
After talking about them a bit recently, I felt compelled to play through the old KQ fan remakes (1-3 from AGDI and 3 from IA), and I wanted to share my more in depth thoughts for anyone interested in these love letters to the original games.
King's Quest I: Quest for the Crown Remake from AGD Interactive
A lovely update to the original! While clearly the least polished of AGDI's offerings, it's nice to be able to play KQ1 with KQ5-style graphics and voice acting (the original voice of Graham, Josh Mandel, voices him in all four of the games in this post, ftr). There is an option to turn off any chance of softlocking yourself before you even start the game, which is a welcome feature. Puzzle-wise, this one stays the most faithful to the original out of the three from AGDI with a few updates here and there (like that stupid name puzzle! lol). The vocal performances and sound effects can be a bit fuzzy, but I found them enjoyable nonetheless.
Overall a solid fan remake with limited extra bells and whistles!
King's Quest II: Romancing the Stones from AGDI
Easily the most ambitious of the three from AGDI. Pretty much all of the core elements from KQ1 are further polished here - artwork, acting, music, and sound effects. The story and puzzles, however, have been changed enough that the end product is sizably different from the original. In some cases, this is fun and interesting (more lore and character interactions! new and unique puzzles!), but not everyone will enjoy all the changes. I, for example, find the underwater section kind of fun, but the new content around the count... not so much (for reasons I'll avoid due to spoilers, but know they're more mechanical than anything). There's less freedom in when you can do things, the added story making the game far more linear than it originally was. But then I'm sure many would agree that if any KQ game could do with extra content, it'd be 2, so I can't fault them swinging for the fences, even if not every hit was a home run.
All in all, this version of KQ2 doesn't really work if you're simply looking to experience the original game with updated graphics, but it's a fun playthrough nonetheless, and newcomers might enjoy the added lore/story bits. Just be aware that I could probably sum up the original game's story in about two sentences while this one would take far longer. XD
King's Quest III: To Heir is Human Redux from AGDI
If KQ1 wasn't fully polished and KQ2 was a little overworked, then KQ3 is juuuuuust right! (For anyone who knows the game, yes, this is a purposeful pun. XD) The graphics, sounds, music, vocal performances - all are the best yet (though still with some minor hiccups as any fan game is wont to have - the music was sadly cutting out during the climactic sequence for me). It even has a neat little feature where the timer changes color depending on how close you are to being zapped into oblivion that is not only useful but adds a sense of urgency in it's own way (especially if you forgot the item that makes travel a lot easier for like 2 meals I mean what lol). While it does carry over some of the story threads from AGDI's second entry, this game still works well enough on it's own, with the majority of the new content being added in naturally rather than supplanting whole sections of the original. In fact, personally speaking, I think the added content only enhances the game, your encounters with Medusa and the yeti especially getting a nice boost. And the extra lore only helps you feel for the protagonists plight all the more. The ending is a bit drawn out, perhaps, and I may not agree with the order you're supposed to choose the four items in to get the treasure (insert rant here XD), but those are minor nitpicks at best.
This is easily the best of the three, AGDI having perfected their KQ formula at this point. It works as a remake of the original while still adding in a bit of new content that doesn't feel unwelcome. I would highly recommend it to anyone interested in giving the King's Quest series a try.
King's Quest III: To Heir is Human Remake from Infamous Adventures
Look. I know that it's not as impressive as AGDI's version. The time limit is laughably long, the spells are impossible to mess up, and some of the clickable areas can be a bit wonky. But I really like this version, ok?? I like the design and voice of Gwydion, I like the storybook quality that the cutscene art has, I like that it feels lonely when it should. And as much as some of the changes in AGDI's version were really nice, I like that it's basically just the original game without extra stuff added in.
This is like AGDI's KQ1 - a really solid remake of a game that gives you the feel of the original but with an updated interface and graphics. It's not as impressive as the one above, but it doesn't have to be. The original KQ3 is an awesome game, so an update of just that can't be bad. It can easily be played as a standalone game, and I will continue recommending this version 'til I die, lol.
#king's quest#kings quest#kq#kq1#kq2#kq3#agd interactive#infamous adventures#gosh i had a lot of fun playing through these the last week lol#i admit that 2 had me a bit frustrated at times because i kept wanting to do things the original way lol#even though i knew it was different#but some of the original puzzles are just not super intuitive or require backtracking#like i KNEW there was a different solution to the wolves but nothing else on me worked#so i looked it up and was like 'why on earth would i go THERE for the solution when it told me to go HERE'#both versions of three though#GOSH i love 3 XD#that feeling of finally finishing that cookie and watching the result... so good man#both times i was giddy XD#and it's hardly my first time playing lol#i just like it ok#i mean i did choose the name gwydion for a reason all those years ago XD#anyway on to the new point and click version of 4 i've never played before!#so excited!
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Sometimes I just look at Isabeau and just know that if isat came out and I got into it when I was like 16 he would be my favorite character and I would've gone absolutely buck wild over this man and feel like he was laser targeting me. But alas Odile has a grip of steel on me rn due to her virtue of being a middle aged woman
#rat rambles#stars posting#I feel like the biggest change in my taste in characters as the years have gone by is Im now far more biased towards old ppl lol#although tbf I was also the one person in 2016 who actually liked asgore so maybe Ive always liked parhetic old ppl#but yeah the reason isa is past me bait is because hes an exploration and subversion of the sort of tropes I Hated as a kid#and I still dont like them so isa still appeals to me its just not as much as he would have to a younger me#I do genuinely love all the party very dearly tho theyre all soooo good#I think my favorite part of isabeau is how like. of everyone we get to see the least facets of him but like in a very good way#this is a man who hides and bottles shit hes so fun to rotate#his self image is so carefully controlled compared to everyone else which makes him an incredibly interesting character to analyze#and I love that despite him seeming like the most emotionally stable person here on the surface he still clearly has like. hashtag issues.#like he's in that beautiful zone where its so so fun imagining what it would look like to truly break him#<- normal things that normal ppl say. like me.#I may have my very light beef with alt looping aus as a concept but hes probably the most interesting alternate looper to me#also my light beef exclusively relates to king quest stuff which is why Im a big fan of duo looper aus with sif#but honestly. isa might be the only one that I genuinely think works better as a solo looper even with taking king quest into account#although bonnie comes close. I <3 looper bonnie I <3 seeing fictional children go through the horrors#I think theres a lot of fun to be had with any alt looper au tho I just am a huge king quest fan so I like it when my favorite elements of#it dont have to be handwaved#but yeah the real question is how would younger me feel about mirabelle#because on the one hand: acearo character#but on the other hand: I have always been a little hater abt romance so idk if younger me would rly be able to follow her character well#I wasnt exactly good at character analysis back then lol#except for the instances in which I was but I dont have that sort of faith in my younger self#yknow Im thinking abt my history of favorite characters now and I think me being one of few 2016 alphys enjoyers might have been a prophecy#she was my quote unquote third favorite but in reality she was second#I think she chara and peridot su teamed up to define my taste in fictional characters for the next several years#and somehow that lead to olivia becoming one of my favorite fictional characters of all time#I say somehow as if that isnt a very natural conclusion
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the day when i can draw persona 3 stickers / sticker sheets it is OVER for all of you
#lizzy speaks#OHHHH how i loooove stickers#so so so fun-shaped and i feel like my way of thinking lines up well with it#i do want to make this a reality! just going through a training arc (artfight so that i know that i can draw other characters LOL)#but when august starts im going to get back on that grind o7#i do have a few arts that work as stickers as is but i want More. for me. others is a bonus#the only intentional stickers i've made so far was the p3 protag persona stickers... LOL#BUT SOON!!!! im so so excited oh oh oh i love you stickers it is fun to think of art as tangible things#im just excited about art in general :D (blows up blows up blows up)#there might be non-p3 stickers but im not telling y'all what those are bc i dont want to promise more than i can chew LOL
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so in juniper's campaign we've just found ourselves in a high-stakes situation that I as a player do frankly find stressful and am anxious about, but hey hi also the DM was like 'okay here are the exact mechanics of how this is going to work because I don't want to surprise you with serious repercussions, also here are all the options you will have to try to do something about the situation-- [affected player] what do you think? honest feedback, I don't want it to feel unfair, I want to be clear that I am not just trying to kill your character, and if it ends up being badly balanced we can revisit it down the road' and oh my god I could COLLAPSE and WEEP with gratitude
#[tears in my fucking eyes] WHAT IF DND WAS GOOD!! WHAT IF A DM THAT'S GOOD!!!#LIKE I've said actually MOST of my DMs are good but because of the way this situation was presented specifically#where-- as NOT the affected player-- it does feel like the way it came up was a little unfair and I AM worried about the stakes--#I REALLY SPENT SO MUCH OF THAT ABOVE-TABLE TALK GOING OH WOW I FEEL LIKE OUR FRIEND ACTUALLY LOVES US AND WANTS THIS TO BE FUN!!#I DON'T KNOW THAT I AGREE WITH WHAT HE'S DOING HERE BUT I TRUST MY FRIEND AND IT'S SAFE FOR US TO TALK ABOUT THINGS LIKE THIS PLAYER TO DM!!#WOWIE THAT FEELS RELEVANT TO MY DND EXPERIENCE RIGHT NOW LMAO!!!#'I've looked at your stats and inventories to try to make this serious but balanced but if it doesn't work we can retool it'#'I want to be extremely clear that this situation could kill destal so I want to be extremely sure that you're comfortable with that--#-- and with how the mechanics are designed around it'#I am fucking. on my KNEES WEEPING. at the contrast with how punishing and DEEPLY unfun felix campaign has relentlessly been the whole time#and how little of a fuck it feels like THAT DM gives when he's like 'this random rolltable encounter was deadly :)'#'you guys didn't get hit last time and got all your spells back right?' uhhh wrong and wrong and we TALKED about that last time#are you gonna revisit the balance on your fifth in a row 'if you fail you'll TPK' scenario? no? yeah I figured lol#christ knows HE'S never invited feedback on his DMing. you KNOW I don't feel safe to say 'hey this doesn't feel fair or fun' with him#AND LIKE!! WITH A DM I TRUST I FEEL SAFE ENOUGH TO REALLY PLAY WITH SOMETHING TERRIBLE HAPPENING!! YAY YIPPEE STAKES AND PATHOS!!!#I don't just want nothing bad to happen ever! but I don't want it to feel careless or heartless or just... Not Fun#anyway. grasping william's hands so tightly. my beloved friend. my wonderful friend. what a relief to have a DM that's good#after the shit we've been through in our now most-frequently-run campaign#the thing I'm mad about is that destal has been making a mystery saving throw every night-- but this was imperceptible to the characters#so we weren't acting on it#and now that he's failed it three times the situation is 'okay NOW you will be maming a con save every night and accumulating exhaustion'#'which can't be removed by sleeping' [six levels of exhaustion Kill You]#so like!! well okay I wish we had had ANY way of knowing how urgent this was before we got to 'now there's a deadly countdown' BUT OKAY#but like I said. he clearly put a lot of thought into the math for the mechanics#he made sure that we DO actually have ANYTHING we can do to mitigate the condition and outlined several options specifically and clearly#he checked in with justin about whether that seemed fair and opened it for future retooling if necessary#so I'm just at 'that was kind of a rugpull dude :/' instead of DESPAIRING lmao#this is a level of Oh Shit that's juicy! this is a level of Oh Shit that might force dramatic character choices out of desperation!#THIS IS AN OH SHIT WHERE WE STILL GET TO PLAY DND ABOUT IT AND HAVE ANY AGENCY WHATSOEVER. WHAT A CONCEPT.#ANYWAY!!! GOOD DND SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!
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Guess who :3c (Patreon)
#My art#Webkinz#Diamond#Ukadevlog#Ghostkinz#Ta-dah! My November behind-the-scenes project was this! The poll was for this reason! Though I already knew I'd start with her haha#Have a little preview to start us off - I have Lots of thoughts to each part of development I ended up in but I want to roll them out slowly#Not everything all at once anyway haha - thoughts get all jumbled now that I'm on this side of things pft#I wasn't able to finish A Version I'd be willing to publish in just a month - even then I only worked on Ghostkinz about 3 days a week so#But for the time I spent I'm quite pleased with how its shaped up so far! :D I got to implement a lot!#Actually learning-then-implementing-then-learning-then-implementing - it's a loop I've been out of for such a long time now :0#Really interesting to fall back into after so long away haha#A lot of my other projects have been Pick Up One Thing and then do that forever and I was tired-tired of that!!#So going into this project knowing that I'd only have November to Get Guud at as much of it as possible and then that was it#I think it helped propel me - didn't end with me getting stuck on Perfecting Just This One Thing#I'd read a bit and then go utilize it and then come back and read some more of Zarla's template/walkthrough - compelling system!#I still couldn't manage to actually finish in a month but I got up to Phase 4!! Previous attempts at Ghost-making has gotten stalled at 1!!#Maaaybe 2 but never anything beyond that - and while I didn't actually Finish any Phase apart from 1 I still read through much much more!#On top of the learning aspect being fun āŖ getting to understand some of the more technical side ahh - it was also just fun to read haha#Like a course that can be silly hehe ā« Enjoyable even outside of getting to make a little guy for my screen haha#But also yes that too!! I'm really glad I finally settled on an idea that I feel confident in seeing through#The best part about reaching for the Webkinz style is that Webkinz uses vectors - I've gone on record multiple times as loving vectors#They're an exceptionally easy medium to manipulate and that was The Thing that had been holding me back from committing to Ghosts prior#Drawing every single thing when I already struggle to plug in my tablet...no...... But Vectors#You can see here that Diamond's expressions are just a matter of tilting her head and moving her tail - so so soooo simple with vectors#Being able to super-quickly put out a lot of different expressions and animations and piecemeal everything together...yes..........#And for what further I have in mind :3c It's really all I could ask for in an art style to seek ah āŖ Just right for my purposes!#I thought it'd be nice to show off Diamond-for-real as her plush next to her digital version as well :D She's still the only OG8 I have#I want more!! I'd love to have a code for her as well haha - secretly just started this so I can have a digital Diamond lol#Plush-Diamond actually wears a necklace these days but I opted to leave it off her for the photoshoot - maybe once I figure out clothes haha
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ā fin.
alrighty, i will be cuddling the shit out of a certain dragon after this but before that, a small bonus (read: silly doodles) because we all need therapy after all that (or at least i do) -
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"i had a nightmare."
"but i just went to buy milk-"
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we both have separation anxiety now so that's that šš»
#rin plays ebg#'ebg afterparty' event#ok for REAL this time things are going to return to normal lol#i hope the ebg event was enjoyable for you as it was for me hehe#i loved every second of it#altho i was in painā¢ļø at the same time hskfjskjdlsjdlsfj#thank you for sending all the asks and rbs and creating entire POSTS for this event#thank you for your patience and encouragements for my noob artš#thank you for going along with my silly whims#thank you thank you thank you thank you <3#i can't express how grateful i am to have such a supportive and amazing community and friends. it still feels so unreal to me#if you missed the event i'll post a little masterlist latr so you can go through all the post. i mean i doubt anyone would be interested bu#it's more for me myself to go back and reread the asks bc man. that was so much fun. the most fun i had in a while tbh#literally the whole time of this event i nearly neglected genshin (and work but we dont speak about that-) HAHAHAHAH#gimme a bit to do the theme changes and such!! <3#i did not expect to get soo invested. i just wanted to make a mini au thingy for the ebg and.... and somehow..... this happened.........#i'll be reblogging some stuff from other people which are related the ebg too for the next few hours lol-#feel free to tag me if you want me to see anything you made!!#should i...... post the 'alternate ending' sketch....... HMMMMM...... it's so roughly drawn tho shdlfjskljdfk#rin selfships#zhongrin
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