#it's disgusting and honestly some of you need to read up on the issue instead of playing the same cards you accused westerners of when

[ohfuckohfucknoplease]

So let's talk about Ukraine vs Palestine. While generally I hate when people bring it up, cuz I lost people in the Ukraine war and I lost my home, I STILL GET IT. Fuck, I really do. The glaring and blatant racism that exists even in the humanitarian sector is CRAZY. I work in humanitarian aid, and in case you didn't know, the humanitarian sector has 4 humanitarian principles that everyone in the sector has to adhere to, one of them being NEUTRALITY.

Well, wouldn't you know, one of humanitarian organizations I had the displeasure of working with has signed an open letter that dismissed the notion of being neutral in the Ukrainian war. They signed a letter that urged people to stop being neutral on the issue. And when this was brought up to higher ups (not some no name local organization, but an INTERNATIONAL COMPANY), they said IT'S FINE. It's their choice to not be neutral and we have to respect that.

Which is fucking crazy, because imagine if something like this was discussed in literally any other context? Like right now, Palestinian speakers are getting invited on TV only for the interviewer to jump on the person that was grieving just a moment ago about their lost family, asking if they condone Hamas. Holy shit, isn't it fucking crazy?

Ukrainians had a big platform to advocate for their cause, they had loud voices tell it as it was instead of what the propaganda said. That's just true. A lot of Ukrainians are proud of that. It's only possible because, YES UKRAINIANS (mostly) ARE WHITE. Geopolitically there's more to that but that's not the point of the post at all. The blue eyed blonde Ukrainian stereotype isn't true in reality but it's true in minds of westerners. And that's really all that matters to them.

Are Palestinians asked the same questions Ukrainians were? Why not? What is the difference? Ask yourself that question, and know that the right answer is that Ukrainians are (mostly) white and more palpable for the western audiences.

Anyway, I urge all Ukrainians to actually read about this issue from Palestinians, stop falling for stupid propaganda, stop trying to whitewash Israel as well. Same goes to every Ukraine sympathiser. And before anyone comes here and tells me I don't know anything about Ukrainian situation and war... I work in a humanitarian field in crisis analytics and data analysis, I am Ukrainian, I am from Donbas, I lost relatives and friends in the war and my home, so maybe I even know more than some of y'all.

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Annoyances

Bookish - Prev chapter: Bittersweet - pt 1 here

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As Dani slid into her seat at the breakfast table with a yawn, Roman set a plate in front of her with a knowing smile. Her toast was nicely cut diagonally into triangles, buttered and spread with strawberry jam.

She was no longer allowed access to any of the kitchen utensils. Hell, she’d lost her privilege to even look at a knife, except for when it was teased over her throat. Nor was she allowed to make anything and the cutlery drawer was barren except for some spoons so she could grab cereal or yoghurt by herself. Clearly, this man has never watched Robin Hood Prince of Thieves...

It was stupid, really. She was at the point where she had trouble opening a glass bottle of orange juice by herself let alone fight him off to drive a fork into him. She winced as she tried to twist the cap, the strength leaving her fingers as the cuts around her wrist flared up.

“Are you going to do any grocery runs soon?” she asked, still wrangling the bottle.

“You planning another escape or do you actually need something?” Roman glanced at her to gauge her response, caught her wince instead, and pulled the bottle from her hands. Without a word, he opened it for her and gave it back.

She held it in her hands for a bit, a very light look of disgust on her face as if he’d spat in it instead of helped out. Then she blinked, poured herself a cup, and said: “I’m going to need pads. Or tampons. And fast.”

“What?” Confusion furrowed his brow. “Why?” And he set his cup of coffee back on the table, staring at her.

Dani took a deep breath. “You went to med school, right? Do I honestly need to exp—”

“No, no, not that,” he said, impatiently, and waved her accusation away. “What I mean is…” He took a bite of toast. “The female body shuts down the menstruation cycle when it’s under heavy stress. So I thought… we wouldn’t be needing that.”

“Well, I don’t know what to tell you.”

Roman chewed slowly, somewhat in thought. “I guess I need to up my game in the next month…”

“I’m also going to need painkillers--”

Roman guffawed into his coffee cup. “Yeah,” he said, taking a sip, “You will.”

“For these upcoming days,” she corrected his fantasizing through gritted teeth.

“Oh. Yeah. Well, maybe.”

But after breakfast he immediately pulled on his coat and pulled her back upstairs to lock her in her room. She went along, knowing it was for a good cause this time and she found herself a little surprised that he would do this for her. She’d almost expected him to go all, “ohh I don’t mind some extra blood hurhur” and dismiss her.

“Which ones?” he even asked before he closed the door.

“The green box.”

Also, there was the added bonus that every time he went out into public there was a chance someone would recognise him and he’d get arrested.

Unfortunately, he was back rather quickly. With pads. The right ones. Well, one of these days, surely…

The rest of the day he left her mostly in peace, but apparently the issue was still on his mind. As they both sat in – blissful – silence in the library he suddenly asked: “So I once read that menstruation alters the pain perception. Some women are more sensitive to pain before or during their cycle and later it’s repressed by high oestrogen levels, but for others it’s different. Which category do you fall in?”

Irritation blazed through her and out through a gritted exhale. She glared up over the book but it didn’t deter him; he kept looking at her, chin resting on a fist, sly dumb smile, waiting for an answer. “I don’t know,” she said – lied – tone curt. “I never noticed.”

His eyes narrowed in glee, probably recognising the little lie. “Maybe a little something to take note of during these days.”

“There’s also a little something that causes some women to have a very short fuse during these days.”

“Serotonin,” he nodded, pretending her comment went over his head. But he didn’t let her change the subject and kept looking at her, silently pressing her to tell him more.

She had no intention of sharing that she felt incredibly sluggish at the moment and that that fatigue would probably peak tomorrow. At first, she blamed the stress and the literal stress on her body earlier that week, but then a familiar pain had kicked in and she was somewhat relieved that at least it wasn’t Roman who was the cause of her state.

“Fine, I’ll look it up.” Roman sat straight and pulled his laptop closer, tapping on the keyboard, his gaze dancing over the screen. He kept humming as he read. “Oestrogen is also linked to mood disruptions.” He aimed a devious side glance at her that affected her mood more than any hormone could.

Reading up on the enemy, or rather studying the enemy’s reading materials, made her recognise the terms he mumbled about and she didn’t like it. “Downregulation of substance P… Anti-nociceptive actions…” All related to pain perception, because of course that was all he was interested in. “That pretty much confirms the role of oestrogen,” he said, mostly to himself, “But would menstruation produce enough to make a difference in, say, the event of a stabbing…”

He sat back in his seat, contemplating, eyes still on his screen. “Not much on menstrual changes, from what I can quickly gather.” He glanced at her, as if she was at fault for the lack of knowledge on this topic, then turned his seat to let his gaze roam over his bookshelves.

“I’m not surprised.”

“Wouldn’t it be nice if there was more research on that?”

“Yes. But not by you.”

He gave a little side-nod, acknowledging her issues with him analysing her, then swivelled his chair back and traded his laptop again for his files to work on. “Next month there’s nothing to experiment on anyway,” he mumbled as an afterthought. Though he did sound a little disappointed.

And she hated the fact that it implied she would still be here next month and in an even worse state than she was now.

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“Oh, there you are.”

Dani didn’t look up. It was the next morning and after breakfast she’d immediately retreated back to her room, back to bed, barely sitting up propped against the pillow, the blanket pulled up over her chin and a book resting against her drawn up legs. Her back was killing her and she couldn’t handle Roman or any of his plans right now.

Roman leaned against the doorframe, keeping his distance, maybe sensing the tense vibes radiating from her. “The sun’s shining, even on the porch. Why don’t you go sit outside?”

“Why don’t you go die in a corner.”

Roman blinked. Raised a brow. A somewhat shocked and awkward silence followed. Then realisation hit. His lips pursed, trembled and he pressed them flat, desperately trying to hide a grin. He was about to say something but thought against it. “Guess I’ll go sit outside,” he said instead, and left the room. She just about heard him mutter something about “Wonder if one could administer more serotonin…”

Unfortunately, he was back within a minute. He slowly approached, like trying to approach a wild animal that could lash out at any moment – and she would if he tried something or if he had a fucking syringe in his hand – his arm outstretched and he carefully put two blue pills on her side table. Then he flashed a smile, slowly retreated and backed out.

She swallowed both pills dry and snuggled up again. The pain would soon fade. The murderous intent? Hopefully not.

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[keepingmyoptionsfluid]

I don't know who needs to read this, but people who are pro Buck and Tommy having a healthy relationship with good representation on screen, whether it goes the distance or not, are not automatically against Eddie having a coming out arc.

Like guys chill the fuck out.

I would argue that 7x05 had too many storylines and felt rushed. I'd honestly rather have fewer stories an Episode and each is given proper time (so they don't skip over shit like Buck and Eddie talking post basket ball, or Chim and Buck talking post punch, or Bobby and Athena talking post ship disaster etc). They actually showed the Karen and Hen talks after the Eva storylines and that's so important and good.

Tommy isn't getting screen time without a main with him so stop pretending he is. He's a background character who is currently there to prop up other people's storylines. It's unlikely he will ever be a main as they already have 7 of them. Can you think if you've ever seen a Karen or a Ravi or a Lucy or a Taylor storyline that wasn't there to really be about one of the mains? No.

I am literally seeing BuckTommy enjoyers having to fucking preface their posts with the fact they obviously ship buddie too just so they don't get abused. It's genuinely disgusting that people are more fixated on their specific (and I would defo class it as fetishistic at this point with the obsession some people have with buddie) ship that they would actively damage other people's enjoyment of the show.

This accusation that people don't care bout buddie anymore because Tommy has kissed Buck and Tommy is white is fucking insane. This fandom regularly accuses anyone who says good things about Buck or Bobby of being racist. Maybe, and hear me out, people are happy that they are getting some bi representation? People who have been pro buddie since 2x01 are getting sent hate because they are happy that a character has come out, despite never turning against buddie.

It's literally normal to be watching a show and be like "yes, I want characters X & Y to end up together but currently they aren't and that's not an issue for me". It's a fictional show.

I want Eddie to get a coming out story line and I would not be upset if it didn't revolve around Buck because 1. Eddie is his own person, and 2. I KNOW that if it did revolve around Buck, you guys would immidiately say it's worthless because it's not an Eddie story but actually a story about the "white boy". Like you literally cannot have it both ways.

You can't beg for coming out story lines and then say "wait that's the wrong person they're kissing." It's a coming out story line. It's literally a gateway to a whole new world of stories in the show.

Chill out, go outside, maybe try to enjoy the show you claim to love instead of shitting on it, the actors and the other fans

[throatgoat4u]

PLEASE READ!!!!!

okay yall. i lowkey thought over the whole matt situation (only because it’s the only thing seeing on tumblr and tt) but i’ve lowkey come to a realization that matt did not overreact (kinda). first and foremost i want to say that i never, even before my opinion changed, thought that matt is a domestic abuser. personally, from what ive seen, matt seems like one of the sweetest people ever, and i don’t think he’d ever put his hands on a woman. also, i want to take into consideration on how sweet and caring both his parents are. i feel like they’d raise him to never ever touch a woman in such a manner as that. i’ve only seen people on tik tok say it, not really tumblr, but that’s disgusting how people are accusing him of that with zero proof other than the fact he hit his own BROTHER. HIS FUCKING BROTHER!!!! now, i want to address where my opinion has changed. let’s establish some of the things i said. i said i think it was an overreaction, and it never needed to happen, and they could’ve sorted it out with words. i also said he has some anger issues, and how i have them too but i would never hit my sibling over something like this. now as i thought over it, i realized, yes, i wouldn’t hit my sister because she’s NINE. BUT, i have two cousins who i grew up with and lived with for TWELVE years of my life. they moved out a few years ago due to all of us being older now and in need of our own rooms and spaces, but we’re still neighbors, and see each other everyday. so to sum it up, i consider them to be my sisters. one is a few months older and the other is a year older so they are in my age range. i realized maybe i wouldn’t hit my sister, but id hit my cousins if this ever did happen to me. i would honestly do a lot worse to them if that ever happened to me, even if it was a mistake. now i still think it could’ve most definitely been solved by talking it out, but lets be so fucking for real with ourselves right now. who the fuck is gonna talk this shit out?!?! most siblings would probably go for hitting back and then insulting their sibling afterwards instead of having a civil conversation. unless you were raised by the fucking king or queen, i don’t think any sibling are really gonna talk shit like this out at all. i’m not dick riding matt and being one of his little defenders, i’m just saying that maybe it actually was a perfectly normal reaction to this situation. a lot of people are saying we should stop using the excuse that they are siblings, but i’ve literally chased my oldest cousin around our house (mind you i was seven) with a knife because she stole my ipad. before that there was also a lot of tacking, hitting, and hair pulling. so that excise is honestly valid. so i’ve definitely changed my opinion on this situation because it’s the only thing i’m seeing everywhere. that’s all. anywho!

toodles sluts :)

[weirdo09]

hobie brown

i’d just like to say, i hope y’all never meet a black boy nor man because y’all’s behavior over one black teenager is honestly disturbing.

like the racist headcanons, the not taking accountability for your disturbing fics about him because “HIS AGE ISNT MENTIONED!!” like don’t act dumb, you know them people said that he’s a slight older boy than miles which would be like 1-2 years, making him 16-17. it’s also just the “i want his dick inside of me” “i want to have his kids” and the sex hcs where it’s like “he’ll fuck you hard and not give you aftercare, just leaves you to take care of yourself.”

i’m not really bothered by the smut fics and hcs cause he is attractive and i will read them every once in awhile but y’all be taking it to the extremes, calling him toxic, making him out like some abusive boyfriend, he’s only sweet when he wants you to have sex with him, he only wants you for sex, he’s a full person but only cool because he’s in a band and has sex with you, he lets his band mates fuck you without your consent, he rapes you for whatever reason (y’all’s writings not mine), he doesn’t care about stopping to see if you’re okay or if you need a break.

basically what i’m seeing is that he’s only good for sex and some of the good fics about him only portray certain parts of him. like i’m all for writing about your favorite characters n what not but if you’re basically gonna treat his character like you’re personal boytoy and not see him as anything else, it’s really harmful. especially with y’all not tagging your fics correctly and the smut fics i previously mention get seen by a minor who would want to read smut of him but not that bullcrap.

y’all literally write him being abusive to his partner, not just physically but call it “teasing”. i’m sorry but if my partner said something about breaking up with me or that i’m not good enough, would i think that that’s just “teasing”? like honestly, if you treat all your ‘blorbos’ like this then i feel sorry for you because hobie’s an amazing character that isn’t just there for you to dream about fucking and getting pregnant by him.

he’s there to show you how corruption and fascism impacting your way of life can lead to you wanting to rebel and become an anarchist to that society. he’s there to teach you that you can make your rules, that you’re more than what one person tells you, you tell yourself what you wanna be. he’s a symbol for black people who don’t wanna follow the rules of a white supremacist, fascist society, for the people who’ve ever just been like “fuck the government, i’m my own person.”

i really feel like y’all take him for granted and he is a character for a children’s type of media so the “well minors shouldn’t be looking for his smut!!” doesn’t work here. honestly, do y’all ever care about characters that aren’t perceived as “fuckable” or “attractive” by your standards? it just really pisses me off because y’all act like that’s all he’s there for, your yearning for BBC has really dimmed your perception of this character. HES A IMPORTANT CHARACTER FOR YALL TO ROLE MODEL CAUSE ITS OBVIOUS YALL DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT THE MOVIE’S CHILD AUDIENCE BUT YOU GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HIM SO

if you care about hobie, please remember that there’s more to him than you wanting him to fuck you and he would hate the things that you’ve done to him because you have bigger issues in the world than “he would fuck you with his big cock.” LIKE WAKE THE FUCK UP WE COULD BE MAKING ANALYSIS OF HIS CHARACTER BUT INSTEAD YOU THINK THAT HES JUST THERE TO BE EYE CANDY LIKE OMGGGG

just please for the sack of everyone, learn more about his character and stop tryna be antiblack and sex crazed over him. if you love hobie, just stop being the way that you are because it’s honestly disgusting to have to see grown adults wanting a canon minor to fuck them. you ain’t slick, the fact that i even have to write this is disgusting. do better, fandom is more than saying that you would fuck a character, care more about the teenagers on this site that are in the fandom with you as well. stop being selfish and start caring about the other people in the fandom.

[ilikepjo24]

I just like- sure sure proshippers are people but proshipping and the ships it perpetuates still affects the real world. I don’t count ships that are toxic with proshippers but I do count incest ships and that affects people. Either degenerates who get off to it or people who have been affected by incest and the category of people who have those desires and are using this as a way to justify their disgusting actions

But like- obviously harrassing someone isn’t good but explaining that this isn’t good and yeah it might be fiction but it still affects the world

I mean, just ask why Stephen King’s ‘Rage’ was pulled from publication. Because y’know mentally ill kids read it, already had intentions to shoot up their school, and took this as what convinced them to do it

Of course there’s a lot of controversy and stuff with the book rage and dubious if it did do that

But still

Your media that you put out and consume has real world consequences

That’s just what I’m trying to say lol

Oh. It's you again. Yay. 🙂

I'd like to start by saying I've interacted with tones of proshippers and exactly 0% of them ever decided to use the fiction they consume as justification for doing it irl bc none of them actually do it irl. Non-proshippers have created this idea that proshippers are crazy, horny weirdos and degenerates when really most of them are pretty chill. Until you accuse them of being crazy, horny weirdos and degenerates, that is. Then they get pretty upset. And they have every right to.

I've never met a proshipper that thought what they liked in fiction was okay in reality as well. I have, however, had the displeasure of meeting tones of anti-proship people that seem as if they have a rape and abuse kink more than actual proshippers do, because they go around spreading rumours that "proshipper-x was abused as a child and that's why they like incest ships" and "proshipper-y was raped by their male friend as a teenager and that's why they like non-con". Honestly, how are you gonna come at someone for being a proshipper of fictional characters when you have more rape/abuse fantasies about real people than they do about their fictional ships?

And another thing, notice how you felt the need to mention that the people that were affected in such ways by the book "Rage" where mentally ill people? And notice how school shootings still happen even now that this book is no longer being published? The patern I see here has nothing to do with the book itself, since it's not a necessary factor for a shooting to occur, but the untreated mental illness. And if that's the case, which it is, then the form of media people consume won't solve or worsen their issues.

Fact is, if somebody has the mindset of "shooting up a school is okay", they'll shoot up a school, regardless of whether or not they read "Rage". The fact that a bunch of other people that didn't have some type of untreated mental illness read the same book without initiating a school shooting after only proves that point.

So instead of using types of fictional media as a scapegoat, let's put our big boy pants on and accept that the real problem is the way mental health is being perceived by society to this day. Of course people are going to have untreated mental illness because of course they're not going to reach out for help if they think something wrong with them because of course society will treat them like an outcast and a monster instead of helping treat their mental illness. And the result of this is that no matter how much we police what goes on online, people are still going to do disturbing things. So the awareness you think you're spreading and the proper explanations you think you are giving in my askbox will not lower the count of ppl that practice incest irl.

Instead of turning the web into a space where we have to walk on eggshells, we should focus on solving the true problem, which is the demonization of mental illness. And if that problem is solved, then our world will be filled by sane people that can seperate fiction from reality and therefore won't apply fictional standards to real situations. Because of you don't solve a problem under the rug and use a scapegoat to distract from the root of the issue, then the problem will eventually demand enough attention to be solved.

With all that being said, I'm flattered by how influential you think I am, but my humble 300 follower blog on a dying website won't normalize incest irl any time soon. Or ever, to be exact.

Finally, if you're somebody I know, and I'm holding your hands as I say this with as much affection as I can master up for you, grow a pair and DM me so we can talk properly instead of taking up space in my very public, very influential, very famous Tumblr blog. I promise, if we talk one on one without the anon feature, I won't be as rude as I am now, that I think of you to be nothing but an annoying anon.

Or, preferably, actually pay attention to the things I said earlier, because I made done pretty valid points over there, which leads me to believe there's no reason for this conversation to drag on any longer.

[kelin-is-writing]

ok - thought

i think most people agree that dabi doesn't like the concept of marriage for obvious reasons and he never thought that he of all people would ever get married or even feel the need to

but then you show up and poor baby is hooked

he can't even imagine spending a single second without you and he tries to convince himself that marriage can work - that he can make it work

but he's terrified regardless because what if he turns out like his dad? what if he ends up hurting you somehow? he wouldn't want you to feel trapped with him but something about being able to call you truly his makes him think it might be worth the risk

so - question

do you think dabi would ever get married or even find the courage to propose? and in case he decides against it what would happen if you propose instead?

- 🥛

i’m sorry for the late answer milk, it’s just that since i got this ask i’ve been thinking about it nonstop. i took breaks from time to time to do things, but hell this ask kept haunting me because damn... this is such a good question honestly.

NOW, onto the answer.

i think that for a proposal to happen there’s gotta be an effort from both sides.

to be able to accept the idea of marriage, dabi first needs to realize his worth after that sorry ass father that he had crushed every single amount of self-love that was inside of little touya, this is something only you can help him with.

how? be genuine with him, never hold an ulterior motive when speaking to someone who has trust issues, because that way you’ll only make them close-up into themselves even more than they already were. if you’re genuine, sincere and warm with him someone like dabi who has never had something of that sort will slowly and naturally start lean into you feeling more at easy, without the need for him to always be on guard and ready to get hurt. because if it happened once, it can very well a second time and by not letting you into his heart (that he thought would be unbothered as of now, he was wrong) dabi is already putting up a defensive mechanism to prevent anything and anyone from getting close to him.

he’s actually someone who’s very sensitive and emotional for me who feels things a lot more than some other peoples, yes even as dabi (i mean, if he didn’t then how do you explain his flames bursting at sekoto peak?), he has also spent lot of time watching others over the years he spent alone and reading someone for him is basically a piece of cake as of now, so his wary attitude towards others intentions makes him very observant on their actions and if he sees something off about you, what you say or do, dabi is gonna distance himself right away; he’s done being hurt.

but (there’s always gotta be a “but...”) the moment he's at the start of opening up to you and letting his guard lower a tad bit, he’s panicking right away of you because what if he disappoints you or lets you down? what if you start ignoring him? what if you end up hating him?

shit he’s in fucking trouble now, because he’s already starting to think that a future with you might actually be not so bad but also... possible?

this is when dabi realizes that he has been lowering his guard as you two kept spending time together, it’s just that... your genuineness and sincerity were so blinding, so welcoming, so comforting, so reassuring, that he mindlessly had gave into them.

he truly thinks that he doesn’t deserve you, you’re too good. a gem, a rare and precious one.

it was seriously a tragedy for him, because now that he realized how he did want a future with you, along with it has also come more and more the fear of becoming like his father.

only the thought of such a thing makes dabi gag in disgust.

this is essentially why he has never dared bring up marriage, things were fine as they were right now for the moment.

if it were for dabi, he would marry you on the spot but as of now he’s too much of a coward to even just mention it, at least not until he has settled what he has to set and grow out of his father’s shadow that was forced upon him from the scumbag himself since a young age.

he knows what are the thing his father did wrong so he can very well avoid them since he’s smart, but he’s also greedy and ambitious... so what if he unintentionally repeats that man’s mistakes? he would hate that and himself.

but you know the say that goes, the more time you spend with someone the more you become like them? you’re such a good damn influence to him and his life, even the league has noticed it by the way he has started to behave with them and this has started to make him more confident that: yes, he can in fact make you happy the way you deserve.

you gave him that confidence.

in a case like this i think he wouldn’t hold back from proposing to you, actually he would bring it up pretty casually and have you dumbfounded by how out of nowhere it came.

but if he still is unsure about himself, still doesn’t have that confidence and you proposed instead— dabi would be shocked, to say the least, before asking you why would you want to marry him and starting to tell you that he might become someone as despicable as his father in future, that you might get hurt if you decide to stay by his side and that he’s bound to disappoint you.

this poor boy only needs to be reassured, he’s seriously too hard on himself by every meaning. so if you want him to say yes that badly at your proposal, you gotta first open his eyes on what a good boyfriend he has been until now (because i’m 100% sure he is) and that he’s gonna be even better in future because you two will go through it together.

if you give him the reassurance and confidence he needs for such an important step in your lives, i don’t think dabi is gonna turn you down and even if he doesn’t look like it he’s actually ecstatic.

a life by the side of his precious sunshine is everything he needs.

that being said everyone—

ALWAYS STAY CLOSE TO PEOPLES THAT FEELS LIKE SUNSHINE!!!!!!

[elskamo]

More Shitty Life Updates

TLDR for those who wanna know but don't wanna read the whole thing: Mum forced me to reveal trauma that I wasn't ready to share, followed by getting Sciatica then being made redundant the next day. In pain, need money, you know where this is going.

The whole thing: I've been struggling a bit (okay, a lot) more than usual over the past week or so, yet again I've had quite a few negative life events one after the other. I am in the process of getting help for everything happening right now, I'm doing all I can to take care of both my mental and physical health.

Last Monday Mum realised my mental health has been getting worse again and refused to leave me alone until I told her what was going on. She kept badgering me for information and making up random accusations about what could have happened. She also kept sneaking into my old bedroom and looking through my belongings to try and find... fuck knows what honestly.

I've recently started delving into a past trauma with my counsellor that I'm not ready to share yet with anyone, let alone my mum, I will not be elaborating on it any further than this. Eventually it got to the point where I was forced to tell her, she cycled between being disgusted, accusing me of making things up, getting mad at me, and attempting to be supportive for a couple days. Frankly I feel violated as hell and it made my mental health nosedive even further.

By Wednesday morning I suddenly started getting shooting pains from my lower back going all the way down my right leg. It got to the point where I collapsed from the pain and had to be sent home from the office early. It took hours getting bounced back and forth between 111, the GP surgery, and out of hours care. Eventually they diagnosed me with Sciatica and managed to arrange for me to pick up some prescription painkillers the next day. The pain is nowhere near as bad as it was last week but I'm struggling to walk because of it and I haven't been outside in days.

The nail in the coffin came on Thursday morning when one of my bosses called to check up on me. He let me know that at the start of the week three of the staff had a meeting where they agreed that when my probation period finished at the end of October they were gonna let me go because they've decided my position at the company isn't what they need right now. Since I had to go off sick from the Sciatica they said they'd instead just make me redundant now.

It really came out of the blue, especially as I've been uncovering a lot of marketing, commerce, and general technical issues since I've been employed there and there's definitely no shortage of work for me to do. My mum is convinced they're lying and don't want me because of my health issues but there's no way of proving that. It does mean that I'm unemployed again and need to go through a few meetings with Universal Credit who will want me to get a new job ASAP regardless of my health.

So yeah, right now I feel like garbage. I've got help from one of my friends to sort out the UC stuff, particularly with proving my health issues. I'm still waiting to find out what I'm getting paid for work this month, since the phone call last Thursday no one has reached out to me to discuss pay or handing over tasks or logins. When the Sciatica isn't affecting my mobility anymore I'll be able to start reaching out to my contacts again and get help with job hunting and networking.

As usual all this means I'll probably be cycling between being ghostly silent or desperately looking for comfort content. Hopefully it's not gonna take another half a year to find a new job but if anyone is able to please donate on Ko-Fi or buy something off Redbubble or Ebay (the latter is UK only right now). Etsy is still pretty barren as things got kinda manic while I was setting it up but it should be properly up and running soon now I have a lot of time to spare again. I feel crappy to have to keep doing this but please do help if you're able to!

[eleanorfenyxwrites]

SOLDER POET KING 👀 if you want to talk about it. Idk if you want specific questions or anything. How's it going.

But also. If you want multiple. My eyebrows went up so fast they tried to escape my face when I read "Nielan Brokeback Mountain AU"

Hi Woob!

I would LOVE to talk about Soldier, Poet, King and the Brokeback Mountain AU!!

SPK first:

It's going surprisingly well considering how long it's been since I posted 😂! I've been working verrrry slowly on the next chapter - for most of that time I've had a very vague, general idea of how I want the story to go from here but fairly early on I hit a stumbling block with the specifics of actually getting it to go there. But I've very recently figured it out!! Shower thoughts to the rescue!! So now that I have the concrete idea I just need to write it, which as we all know is also at least half the battle. That being said, there's just shy of 5k words of the next chapter written already, and I'll probably end up doing at least another few thousand before the chapter's done and ready to post. And also, while I'm not going to actually commit to a chapter count because I still don't actually know for sure exactly how much story we have left before the end, I would like to get it done in under 20, which would mean at most 6 more chapters (or 5 that are currently not written at all)? And honestly it'll probably be fewer than that considering how much I try to cram in each chapter and how close we actually are to the climax of everything I wanted to do with this story.

And now the Brokeback Mountain AU, my beloved! Ugh I (mentally) fucking roll around in this fic like a pig in mud so often it's a little embarrassing, but actually sitting down to plot/write it? I keep ending up writing the OPCU instead for the Cowboy Vibes since they're much less depressing (which is why the OPCU exists in the first place) 😅

In case you've missed the few bits I've shared for it before, I've tentatively titled it 'I Wish I Could Quit You', which I've realized since doing is a quote I've slightly misremembered, so I might end up changing it to the actual quote - or I might just leave it! I like the way it flows as it is.

I haven't posted anything new for the AU in a while so I hope you'll accept this very short little bit of brainstorming I had in my notes app a while back about who Nie Mingjue (he's Ennis Del Mar in this AU) would marry and why:

"Nie Mingjue is already engaged to Wen Qing when he meets Xichen. They met as children thanks to their parents and they've kept in contact, bonding a little over the shared experience of being orphans raising their brothers. They're both too practical and busy to wonder if their mutual respect is affection or not so they've gotten themselves engaged recently, and by the time they marry that autumn he comes down off the mountain, they have (separately) talked themselves into thinking it's romantic love."

And as a thank you gift for asking, some brand new thoughts (well I've thought them before but haven't written them until now) about how I think their arc will continue!

I think Wen Qing sees Nie Mingjue's loneliness and anger, knows exactly where a lot of it comes from (though of course not all of it), but she still doesn't really know how to help. She's good at fixing him up when he comes home with the occasional injury from working such hard jobs, she's good at rubbing the tension out of his aching muscles at the ends of long, gruelling days, but something in her doesn't know how to be emotionally vulnerable enough to let him be vulnerable in return. They don't talk about his feelings, or hers. They have two daughters, and it doesn't do anything to fix either of their issues, it only makes them worse. By the time Xichen comes to visit and she sees her husband kissing this old 'buddy' of his with a desperate passion he's never once had for her, she's almost relieved, under all the hurt and disgust and anger. She stays with him because she doesn't know what else to do, but she knows him now and it taints everything, it makes her feel stupid and foolish and useless and her pride just won't allow this to go on for much longer. They fight more and more and more, and she finally leaves him when she can force herself to face the fact that it'll just have to be her and their girls against the world, and maybe that'll be better than being trapped in a tiny apartment with this enormous man who loves in a way she can't understand. Whatever this is, she can't fix it - she never could. As much as it hurts, and as furious as his issue makes her every time he lies to her to keep fucking his 'friend', she accepts the inevitable and files for divorce without telling him what she knows. Nie Mingjue never misses a single child support payment or his turn to take one or both of the girls, even when she knows he's broke or busy with his seasonal work.

[cwarscars]

Hey bro i heard you like 🔥 so c'maaan gimmie your salt maaaan

Send me a “ 🔥 “ for an unpopular opinion.

(( gonna preface this by saying - if any of my moot moots are one side or the other, or consider themselves such - i got no beef with you. you're my homies, my real ones, my ride or dies; im open-minded to hearing your opinions. jus' dont send me any anon nastiness, ill cry REAL tears ))

honestly? i can't stand the black and white thinking in the rpc & fanfic communities as a whole. the whole pro-shipper/anti-shipper debate is extremely tiresome to apparently anyone who believes in nuance & grey situations.

like, on one side - you have people who will and do persecute people for the fucked up ships that they write. on the other, you have people who preach fiction is fiction and will willingly ignore the genuinly problematic people who take advantage of the notion of 'pro-shipping' in order to write their extreme fetishes ( ala, pedophilia / beastiality ).

i have always been anti-censorship. i always will be. i watch extreme cinema and read extreme manga / comics. nothing phases me. there are films that disturb me ( salo will /always/ make my uncomfy ) and obviously things i wont touch with a ten foot barge pole ( anything with kids / animals ) but for the most part, i'm very chill when it comes to what people want to write. i believe people should be honest about their kinks, preferences and things they wish to write.

if your partner is willing, it's consensual and tagged or under a read more. i have zero issues with it. but -

i have gotten sent hate before from 'pro-shippers' for stating my stance on anybody who wants to write smut with kids. literal hate for stating i'm against pedophilia. ( and im not talking about a 17 yr old being sexually active, im talking, like - literal children being sexualised ) like, what? i've been called purity police and all kinds of shit. like, me? purity police???? the bitch whose favourite comic is crossed and favourite manga, ichi the killer. LOL

my whole issue with the debate and the censorship / arguments in the rpc is that, it feels as though you HAVE to be one side or the other. you can't have a nuanced opinion, you can't understand that sometimes - there is a place for certain content, despite how extreme it is.

everybody is allowed a preference. you're allowed to be upset, offended, afraid, disgusted by or whatever else from x subject. every single individual is different and it's what makes us all beautiful. and i feel people need to really understand this. you can write extreme content but don't expect people to like it. on the other hand, if you don't like x content - don't attack someone for writing that content.

i just feel that there's wrong on both sides and i wish people would actually talk about the subject instead of throwing around attacks at each other. ultimately, whether anybody likes it or not - what you're writing is a footnote in the grand scheme of literature. you're writing on tumblr with your buddies and you're here to have fun.

if you wanna write an extreme sex scene with your consenting friends, go for it. if you don't want to write smut or you can't stand a certain ship, that is totally fine, too.

it's okay! both sides can be right without being aggressive or nasty.

like said, i would never label myself 'pro-ship' or any of that shit because i don't agree with that stance. i believe that there is a place for all content in all media in some, way, shape or form. i believe that rp is a slippery slope because it's a hobby that involves partners and is sociable. you have to please those around you and must understand that you can't wave around fetishes without a potential backlash. i agree people should write what they want, but i don't agree that there is a place for ( for example ) smut involving kids or animals. especially in the rpc. i've seen people 'joke' before about writing a pedo purely for exploration & to get a reaction. i can't imagine a more unenjoyable, questionable, horrific kind of thing to write in rp ( hell, even in media...that sort of character burns out and leaves creators depressed a/f).

i just wish people would talk, understand, and be open-minded. and - think about the bigger picture, too.

is this thing going to ride with you when you're offline?

probably not. so be respectful, have fun and just chill~

[angeltreasure]

Hey I’m coming here and saying this because I’m desperate and I no longer care that I probably sound disgusting, embarrassing and like I do not know what the heck I’m doing because I really don’t. I’m just in desperate need of prayer and support rn

I have such a bad rep of making terrible decisions and I recently (not something I’m proud of) have come away from the church quite a bit and not really been trusting God. I’ve been quite depressed if I’m being honest and had multiple people in my life really making things quite difficult for me, so I’ve just found myself not talking to anyone about how things have really been.

Now that that’s out. I had a relationship break down around Christmas time and it was a really unhealthy one so I’m glad it did. I think the way I have and still am processing it is not good though as a guy I used to like and still am very attracted to (but literally pretty much JUST attraction) told me he liked me. We had this on/ off thing and nothing went too far and he basically left me in the city alone last week whilst he got drunk and probably high with his friends. I still didn’t care though which shows my lack of self respect right now… and then his friend told me he has trust issues and doesn’t want something serious. Because this is purely lust for me, I think I’ve been desperate to just be around him and last night his mate invited me out to this club tonight cause’ he’s gonna be there and basically said I can give him a bday treat but basically that he just wants sex. I am actually that unhinged right now that I want to go and my own friend who has never been a believer wants to go so it’s almost an excuse for me now but I have enough sanity left to tell myself I wouldn’t actually sleep with this dude but I also do not even trust myself and UGH I know I just typed out so so much and most of it is just disgusting and just honestly a truthful piece of what’s been happening in my life lately. Please offer some sane advice or prayer idk what to do anymore

I think when we get overwhelmed it’s important to first step back. Grab a piece a paper and pen. Then, write down in bullet points what you told me like

- I haven’t been trusting in God

- I’m away from the church

- family and some friends are making it difficult for me

- I just got out of a bad relationship not too long ago

- I’m so desperate to feel anything I’m consider the birthday gift to a guy who doesn’t even like me for who I am but just wants me in lust

Now we can go through those things together. You just got out of a bad relationship. I’m so glad you did because you wouldn’t have been safe if you stayed in that one, probably. I know breaking up hurts and we want to feel loved again, because I know that feeling.

Now look at the rest, family and some friends are making it difficult. You have to ask the why’s to that, and also remember to have any relationship build you need two way communication not one sided. You build trust slowly but communication is key. Falling for some guy just for his looks a quick pleasure isn’t going to satisfy you. That’s not love at all. To love, as St. Thomas Aquinas says, is to will the good of the other. Peace starts in our world when we bring peace at our own home. Instead of wandering, come back to your family and good friends. Tell them all you’re going through. You have to spiral out alone. If they are good family and good friends they will help you.

I know it hurts in your chest, all that pain you have gone through. I know you feel a disconnect with God. The only thing that can fill the void you feel in your heart right now is God. Don’t go to that party. Come to to Mass. come sit in the back pew. You don’t have to talk with anyone, you don’t need to know all the prayers or understanding the readings to their full. God knows exactly what you need right now and He is love and mercy itself. Please come to Mass. God loves and I love you. I’ll keep you in my prayers.

Have you read the story of the Prodigal Son? I think you can connect to it so much. Read it. Take a moment to be alone to read it.

[thekaratcake-blog]

No he didn't lmao? You can't just make shit up when people can literally just read back and know that you're lying. And he literally has a severe mental illness along with, you know, the brain damage. Which you'd know if you knew enough about him to claim that he's done any of the things you say. You're just so sheltered that the worst thing that you can think of is saying "physically disabled" instead of "disabled" and you'll grasp at any straws and make anything up to make it look even an ounce less petty and immature than it is.

Honestly starting to doubt that you're the most physically disabled little bean ever like you're claiming, if everything else you say can be proven to be bullshit. Mighty weird that the first mention of physical disability on your blog at all is AFTER you were called out for being ableist against physically disabled people, hm? Weird...

I was also there observing the discourse when you were calling people slurs lmao. Another lie. Starting to feel like a theme with you.

Yes he did, you should absolutely read back and check, also if he has a severe mental illness, shouldn't be here, this is extremely bad for his mental health and it's also not an excuse for this shitty behaviour, it's not grasping at straws, you just need to learn how language works, nothing else I can say can be proven to be bullshit, great job as seemingly a not physically disabled person telling a physically disabled person how disabled they are, that makes you and your lil buddies look greaaaat, that's not true either, I've been talking about my disabilities for a while

And of course, I never called anyone a slur, if you want to just on that train of lies be my guest, but it's just blatantly untrue

Now is that all? You, somehow who clearly must have some issues of your own looking at the shit you somehow believe, I mean one of your first posts right now is you falling for what could not more clearly be bullshit

Go learn how language words, go read, go learn to not lie about people in the internet, and actually read your friend's words because they're absolutely disgusting

[xanaduecii]

#ReflectionEssay

𝗪𝗵𝗼 𝗔𝗿𝗲 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗜𝗻𝘀𝗶𝗱𝗲 𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝗢𝘂𝘁?

by Justin Kurt Dela Vega

Does anyone wonder what's going on inside their head? This senior year of high school made me feel like I was part of the most anticipated cartoon movie, Inside Out. We felt different emotions that helped us understand more about the essence of life. I am 17 years old, still a kid, and still growing. We reflect on different experiences and adapt our own learning. I am thankful that this stage is part of the game to move forward and take advantage of to improve.

 

I felt the joy. Ever since I was a kid, I have been an achiever. It felt different for me because, as we grow older, the harder the challenges are. which means you need to strive harder in order to maintain the momentum where you are. There is a lot of pressure to achieve more; hence, I succeeded. I am happy because I accomplish a lot. There are a lot of opportunities that open the doors for me to know more about myself. I achieve those because, regardless of how hard it is, I tried and took the risk to be better, and learning some skills in different specific tasks will help you a lot.

 

I felt the sadness. There are numerous factors that contribute to my sadness. Especially when you are experiencing pressure and personal problems, it will add up. For example, my best friend died last month. It was my demonstration day as a student teacher when I found out that my friend had died. I was shocked and out of momentum. I tried my best to act professionally or in character. Hence, I felt that I was very distracted by my emotions at that time. I do manage that because I prioritize my purpose that day, and keeping up with others as to who you should be that day is a must. It's definitely the worst part of the year for me, but that experience helped me to be resilient and pessimistic in terms of the darkness I am experiencing.

 

I felt the fear. I am scared that someone will throw off some eyes that perceive disappointment. During these senior high school days, I am trying my best academically and in different forms for them to be proud of me. Hence, I am still making mistakes. Regardless of how I try, I misunderstand different concepts. My ego is the one who is operating my whole body, which makes everybody feel disappointed in me. What they feel about me is valid, especially being disappointed in me. Even though I have a fear of disappointment, I do accept their viewpoint on me because it is my fault that I made them feel like that. Not everyone will like you, and that's okay. What matters is that you be yourself and improve day by day.

 

I felt the disgust. I saw many students who were cheaters in their examinations. As a student who is struggling to do his best and continuously trying everything for me to achieve something with sole hard work, it is truly disgusting for me. Hence, I'll never let that emotion cover me up, but I'll use that as inspiration to do more than my best to excel and fight for what's right.

 

I felt the anger. Maybe for some, because it's normal to feel that way, but I am angry the most with myself. One of my personalities is candor. I love frankness because I am able to convey what I want to say with the emotions that I have. One of the examples is in the recent issue I had, where I became frank with a teacher privately. When I say something, I just want to say it honestly. I say that the teacher is only reading instead of teaching based on my observation and observation of many—especially some of the students in other sections who notice that too. The fact that I said that criticism behind his back is wrong, and I admit that. I am angry because my candor can make someone feel negative. Thus, this anger keeps telling me that backstabbing is wrong, and if you have concerns about someone, say them directly to them.

 

I felt a lot of emotions. I conclude that this senior high school life is such a roller coaster ride. We learned in different aspects, whether it's good or bad. As long as you're willing to digest and reflect on every inch of emotions, actions, and thoughts you have, you can show the brighter hue inside out.

[winns-stuff]

LO RANT:

So everyone won’t take Minthe’s backstory and will continue to try and rip her a new one and insult her but you all will be up in arms to defend and victimize Hades’ disgusting behavior because of his backstory right? Okay. See this is what really annoys me about THAT part of the fandom, I’m not saying Minthe is a good person or anything like that I’ve literally talked about the way I feel about her in a earlier rant and I’m not saying “yes, yes excuse her behavior because she has a sad backstory!!” because as I always say for Hades the backstory is only ever going to be an explanation not an excuse or pass for her behavior, but at the same time it’s real hypocritical for so many people to use that exact statement when trying to defend Hades. Let me explain.

One thing I absolutely despise about this whole thing is how so many people continue to say that Hades has trauma and he has issues, “everyone’s been sooo mean to Hades no one respects him or treats him right!!” (which is understandable because look at how this motherfucker acts ON THE DAILY, we all read the exact same chapter he yells, manipulates, gaslights, and talks shit about all of his employees but they’re supposed to bend over backwards for him and forgive him even though he won’t fucking stop?? he doesn’t deserve respect, respect is earned not given and he has done absolutely nothing to correct his attitude nor has he compensated for his actions to literally everyone who deals with him in the Underworld, I don’t want to fucking hear that shit) but they’ll bash Minthe so fucking hard for having the exact same fucking issues. You guys act like Hades is just this perfect man who can do no wrong when Hades is literally a man-child. When Minthe and Him started their relationship he basically used her, he made it so that she got fired from her old job just so she can be his assistant that he can just take out all of his stress out on whenever he wants to. That’s why he gave her the job, so she can be completely reliant on him and not go anywhere. He knew that buying her that apartment and clothes, basically everything she had would make her financially helpless and what did he do instead of giving this woman a better job or at least a damn paycheck to get her on her feet? He went and found another woman in the exact same situation as her, scared and financially unstable. Needing someone to rely on, maybe not for sexual or financial things but it’s definitely emotional. The whole thing was started by him and no I am not blaming him for Minthe’s behavior but I am blaming him for using her and creating this mess in the first place.

Honestly, I’m proud of Minthe’s arc. I am excited to see her development and to see her grow as a person, wanna know why? Cause we still don’t see development from fucking Hades yet everyone wants to comment on how amazing he is, HES FUCKING BORING. He’s not a male wife either stop slandering male wives like that, he does not deserve the title of male wife, all he is is a predatory loser who obviously can’t handle mentally and even physically mature women because he knows that they won’t take his bullshit. So many people are eye rolling about hearing Minthe’s backstory but hers is probably one of the most interesting ones we’ve seen this whole fucking comic. You all accepted Hades’ backstory with open arms even though they’re doing the same shit! Stop insulting and berating Minthe and not doing the exact same to Hades.

Not only that, but at least Minthe is getting some actual developmental changes. Hades pulled out a man’s eye in season one and he has not shown an ounce of remorse or care, we never see Hades doing anything except being a whiny fucking dickhead that can’t fathom the fact that he’s the fucking problem. Minthe at least showed some damn self awareness and self reflection, she’s in the damn process of maturing and becoming better! Hades is still on the same shit he was on the 1st season and ITS SEASON FUCKING 3!! I’m so tired of everyone praising such disgusting characters and getting upset at people pointing out just how uncomfortable they get. Your fave is an asshole, he’s a manipulator, he’s a hothead, he’s a cold piece of fucking work that does the bare minimum. That doesn’t mean you have to stop liking him, I’d just be so relieved if people would stop pretending like he’s fucking Bob Ross! Like honestly, I wouldn’t even have a problem with people liking Hades or favoring him if only they’d stop shaming and gaslighting and being so hostile with this weird delusion that he’s a good person, not only that but I cannot stand the hypocrisy that comes out of this how are you mad at one person saying that they favor Minthe but you favor and defend Hades with your whole life no questions asked. You’ll shame that person for liking Minthe because she’s a bad person who’s made terrible decisions that’s affected everyone around her but you cross the line to Hades that’s also a bad person who’s made terrible decisions that’s affected everyone around him. Make it make sense please, it’s getting super annoying.

But anyways that’s the end of this rant, honestly I’m just really disappointed about how some of the fandom treats situations like these. I feel like this comic makes it it’s mission to have as many poorly written female characters as possible just for them to be hated on by the fandom. I’m probably overreacting though I am really upset at the response of some fans. Anyways, this was completely and entirely biased and it should not be used as fact since I literally just started writing this with little to no evidence, I’m basically running on thoughts and piling them together. These are just my plain raw emotions about the situation and how I chose to react, a little extreme and more aggressive I guess so I’ll fix that later. But if you agree or disagree is both fine I don’t mind either, disagreeing or agreeing with anyone is human nature and it would be really creepy if we just agreed on everything honestly.

[astra90x]

Flufftober Day 4 - Supporting Silly Quirks/Hobbies

@flufftober

Fandom: Stardew Valley

Pairing: Sebastian x Reader

Word Count: 719

Reader Pronouns: She/Her

This is one chapter of an entire linear story! It can be read separately but is better when read as a whole. Enjoy!

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Garbage… garbage… aha, banana peel. That’s something you could use. 

It’s 6:30 in the morning and you’re standing outside of George and Evenlyn’s house, lightly rummaging through their trash to try and find things you can use on your farm. Fertilizers are damn expensive, and you’re in no rush to support Pierre again after he took credit for your work. But the people in this town throw out so many things that you could use for your crops, and it really would be a shame to let it all go to waste, wouldn’t it?

You tuck the banana peel into the mesh bag you brought with you, then start picking through the trash again, looking for anything you can compost. Some mornings, you’ll come home with more stuff than you can carry, some mornings you’ll be empty-handed, but you seem to be doing pretty well now. 

You’re also thankful that it’s so early in the morning. People in Pelican Town usually don’t take too kindly to—

“Hey, uh, (Y/N)? What are you doing?” 

Your head darts up, only to be greeted by one of the last people you’d want to see right now: Sebastian. You two had been pretty friendly after he had helped you out at Pierre’s, but this was surely going to ruin whatever nice image of you he had in his head. 

“Oh, I, um…” You desperately wrack your mind for an excuse. Anything. But unfortunately, improv has never been one of your strengths, so instead, you just gape at Sebastian, opening and closing your mouth wordlessly. 

Sebastian’s eyes travel down to the bag hooked around your elbow, where inside, there’s a collection of fruit peels and bread crusts. He looks back at your face, where you manage to stammer out a one-word answer of, “Fertilizer.”

His eyebrows raise ever so slightly as his eyes return to your bag, then over to the trashcan you had been sifting through. It looks like gears are turning in his head, but eventually, he says, “Actually, this is pretty great. Might as well use all of this stuff instead of throwing it out, right?” 

“R-Right,” you reply, honestly shocked that he hasn’t turned up his nose at you and left yet. “My plants need it more than the trashcans do. I know it’s kind of disgusting, but since I’ve started doing it, I really have noticed a difference in the quality of my crops.”

Sebastian nods. “I can’t argue that it isn’t exactly… appealing. But I don’t see any issues with it either, especially since it helps your farm.”

You smile, grateful at least that Sebastian isn’t completely grossed out by you right now. Still, you don’t exactly feel in the mood to rifle through trash while he’s watching you, so you put the lid back over the trash can and accept that you’re finished for the day. 

“What are you doing up this early, anyway?” you ask. “Most of the town is still asleep around now, that’s why I try to get out at this time.”

“Oh, I didn’t actually go to bed last night,” Sebastian admits. “I had a project I needed to finish and I guess I just… lost track of time. But I figured I’d go for a walk before anybody is up so I can get the most out of the morning.” 

“Well, sorry to throw a wrench in your people-avoiding plan,” you say with a chuckle. “I am usually up this early, but I typically stay on the farm for the first few hours after I wake up, so I guess today is just your unlucky day, huh?”

“Nah, not at all. I’m actually glad that it was you I ran into,” he replies. “Your company is more tolerable than most other people’s.”

Coming from Sebastian, that was a glowing compliment. 

You check your watch for the time (6:45, now) and realize that if you want to get all of your farm chores done before the sun is too hot, you should probably get going now. You inform Sebastian and he answers with a nod. 

“Sure thing. I hope to see you around, (Y/N),” he says. With a short, one-motion wave, he turns and heads off toward the beach. You smile a little, adjust the mesh bag around your arm, and head in the opposite direction, back to the farm. 

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[gloryofluv]

Reaction to You hiding under a table... (All the boys)

Hiding under a table. Reactions and laughs abound! All the brothers and the dateables.

Lucifer-

He walked into the room and saw you ducking under the table with the cloth hiding most of you. He lifts the cloth to reveal that you’re not shivering with fear at the sight of him. Obviously, you’re not just hiding like Mammon has done. Nope, you had a book and were under a… table???

Cue questionable scowl. WTF is this human doing now?

It only is more confusing for him when you glance up to see him, wave, and smile before returning to your book.

Does he even want to know? Actually, he does. However, should he spend the time to ask?

He does. He’s a sucker for you. Your response is simple. You wanted to read in peace, and (almost) no one would see you here.

He inwardly groans and tells you to go hide in his room next time.

No, he wouldn’t mind seeing you reading in there when he gets home. In fact, go ahead, make that your primary space to hide. Coming home to you would be exactly what he dreamt about.

Bonus points if you laugh and agree. Melted firstborn, anyone?

“If you insist on hiding from my brothers for some peace, you may do so in my room. I won’t be perturbed as long as you don’t tell them.”

Mammon-

Walks into the dining room to try and find something to sell for some quick coin. Scowls at the sight of your shoes sticking out from under the table.

Most definitely will crouch and stick his face in your space. This boi is perplexed at you huddled under the table with your phone.

Huh? Is this a human thing?

You smile and ask if he wants to come to sit with you.

Mammon will snort and toss an insult or bravado of some sort but still be really confused at your new place to sit.

Hiding from Asmo because he wants to dye your hair? Well, that makes a little more sense. However, he still doesn’t get it. You have a bedroom.

You pat the ground again, and he grumbles but agrees. Sitting with him, you start playing the funny Deviltube videos of demons getting scared by human items. You and he are laughing at the idiots together.

He soon wraps his arm around you as you’re cozy in the dim light. Forgetting about his task, he asks if you want to come back to his room. Ya know, to watch videos there???

If you agree, he’ll drag you off. It wasn’t the first time he was hiding under a table, but it would be your last.

“Now, human, that happens again, and ya just come to my room. I’m supposed to be watchin’ ya.”

Levi-

He was walking up to the bathroom. Usually, his nose was stuck to his D.D.D, but he caught sight of you. You were napping under a table?! What?

He thought about leaving you there. Belphie usually falls asleep in the weirdest places. However, why??? Why were you under a table? In the hallway???

Bending down, he touches your shoulder, and you wake up. He asks what you’re doing sleeping under a table like a normie?

You tell him that you were waiting for the bathroom to take a bath, but Mammon was taking forever. You got caught up reading a manga and fell asleep under the table.

Cue heart eyes and blushes! He stammers about going to use the bathroom. When he comes out, you were still under there reading.

Immediately he was a jumbling mess. Asks you if you would read it in his room instead of under a table.

If you agree, expect blushy boi to timidly ask what it's about. If you explain the plot to him, he will definitely show you similar types from his own collection!

He will likely keep you captive all night because the thought of you under a table with a manga stole his otaku heart out of his chest.

“If you d-don’t mind spending time with a disgusting otaku. You could come read it with me. I have more if you like. P-please?”

Satan-

Inquisitive and actually perceptive about his surroundings, he wanders into the library to immediately see you under the table in there. You pulled a chair over to block the view of anyone who would be just glancing in the room.

He ignores you, for the time being, grabbing the book he had an interest in reviewing. Instead of leaving, he picks that chair to sit in.

Minutes go by as he enjoys the subtle sound of your breathing and the beautiful announcement of the pages being turned when he thumbs them.

Is he curious why you’re hiding under a table? Absolutely. Will he ask? Well, he was debating on how long he’d let you believe you’re actually hidden.

Instead of asking flat out, he turns and slams the book on the tabletop, causing you to jump and bump your head. He’ll ask you why you’ve been hiding under a table at that point.

Lucifer.

Enough said. He offers a better solution to your issue. He invites you to his room, where you can seclude yourself from his fury until the firstborn is busy with other tasks.

If you agree, he’ll smirk and feel smug as hell. Lucifer will ask and ask where the human went, and he won’t say a word.

“Honestly, there are far better ways to disappear than under a table. Come to my room, and I’ll shield you from the chaos.”

Asmo-

Glorious clothes. Fabulous makeup! Asmo just returned from his shopping trip and was on a high. He walks into the sitting room to see you lying under the table.

What?

Flat out asks you what you’re doing under the table. Oh, you’re glancing at all the cute outfits in the latest Devildom fashion??? He would climb on the floor and join you if it wasn’t dirty.

Comments on the dirt.

You say that you’re waiting for Mammon, and he never looks lower than the sofa. You wanted to scare him for him stealing your hairbrush. True. Very true. A great place to jump out and scare him.

However, just not working for Asmo. Nope. Insists that you end your ploy to scare Mammon and help him go through his new things.

He promises to help you get back at Mammon with a better, less dirty plan.

If you agree, he will be skipping all the way up to his room. He’ll have you all to himself, and you both can do a fashion montage!!!

“Honey, he’s an idiot, but this is no way to treat your poor skin. Let’s go through all my new clothes and plan something far more deserving!”

Beel-

Baby boy just got done with his workout and was going to walk into the kitchen to make a snack. Walks by the dining room to see your knees under the table.

What?

He stops and scowls. This is a new behavior. Beel goes into the room and ducks down to see you huddled under the table… eating Simeon’s cookies?!

You give him a simper and offer the bag saying he can have one. Beel accepts and then asks why you’re under the table.

Hiding from the others because you didn’t want them to know Simeon made them just for you?

He's a little hurt that Simeon wouldn’t make him any, but happy that you shared. You ask him if he wants a few more because you only had a handful left.

He sits down and eats the offering with a smile. After you both have finished the cookies, he asks if you want to come with him to make a snack.

If you agree, this teddy bear is glowing. He’ll make everything you want, and you just need to sit on the counter and tell him about your day.

“If you want, since you shared, I could make your favorite snack. I love sharing my food with you too.”

Belphie-

Tired. Grumbly. Tired. He walks into the sitting room to see you stationed under the side table.

Um? What? He scowls and smacks his pillow at you reading a book before slumping on the sofa.

His version of asking you what’s wrong??? Well, it worked.

You tell him that Lucifer was looking for you to do a chore and figured you could plead ignorance if he didn’t find you sitting under a table.

Mammon never gets away with anything like that, and Belphie tells you so.

You curl smaller and laugh. See, he can’t find something this tiny, right?

Thump. Thump. Thump. Yes, his heart is just beating for how cute you could be. Tells you how ridiculously stupid that is instead.

You unbunch your legs and sigh. Well, he sucks at times… So, instead of apologizing, he offers to take you up to the attic and hide you in the blankets if Lucifer comes knocking.

If you agree, he walks with you all the way up, and when you snuggle on the bed together, he apologizes for being grumpy.

Turns into a melty soft boy when you run your hands through his hair and say you didn’t even notice with a smile.

“Well, if you want a plan that actually will work. You can come with me to the attic. I’ll hide you in the blankets, and we can nap.”

Solomon-

Walks into the library at RAD with one goal in mind. There was a book on energy manipulation he wanted to read. However, the goal is postponed.

Sees you under the table, and now, he’s completely intrigued. You had your book in hand. You even looked to be in perfect health. Hmm… odd.

Approaches you, and you glance up. No words. Not even a plea for help. Still odd.

He finally asks you why you’ve chosen this space to sit instead of a useful chair. You reply that there was a demon giving you dirty looks. So you ducked under a table, and the demon walked away in confusion.

He finds it fascinating that something this odd would work. Now is intrigued if that’s all demons or just you doing it.

Climbs under the table with you and asks what you’re reading. Makes no effort to remove you from under the table nor ask you to sit in the chair.

Both of you read under the table and watch as demons glance at you with pure befuddlement. Cue laughter and enjoyment. He would have never thought he’d walk into a rare social experiment with demons that day.

“You know, that poses an interesting question. Do demons insist on the same social norms as humans? Care to perform this experiment with me?”

Simeon-

Walks into the House of Lamentation to have tea with Lucifer. However, he is quite amused at the sight of seeing you trying to tuck as far under the side table near the hallway.

He walks over and ducks down, lifting the cloth, asking, what are you doing?

You rush out in a whisper that Levi is angry with you because you beat him at a game. You don’t want him to send Lotan on you!

He nods and hears footsteps on the staircase, so he stands in front of you. Levi comes storming down the staircase and asks if he’s seen you. Simeon spills a few lines from TSL. Levi is blushing and waves him off before stomping by.

He checks the hallway before bending down and whispering that you can come with him back to Purgatory Hall. He’ll explain what happened to Lucifer so he can calm Levi down.

If you agree, he doesn’t waste time to skirt you out the door and away from danger. What a freaking angel??? Well, maybe it’s a little selfish. He gets to keep you safe, after all.

“If you would like, you can come with me and have some tea to calm your nerves. You look shaken, and I do hate to see you out of sorts.”

Luke-

Skips into the sitting room at Purgatory Hall and immediately scowls. What are you doing under the table???

Walks over, and you press a finger over your mouth. You thought you saw a bat. A flappy bat in the sitting room! They see with sound.

What??? Is it a blood-sucking bat??? Does it eat humans? Are things like that really in the Devildom?

Climbs under the table with you and looks around with a hint of anxiety on his face. It doesn’t help that his clothing tickled your arm, and you jumped and screamed.

Insists that you both run into the kitchen to tell Simeon! He’ll know what to do!

If you agree, both of you are bolting into the kitchen to describe an exaggerated version of the event. Your fear was enough to scare this wee angel. You weren’t scared of demons, but were of a bat??? This had to be a very evil bat!

“If we run as fast as we can, it won’t find us right away! Simeon will be able to help!”

Barbatos-

He was well aware of lunacy thanks to his very creative prince. There were things he just expected to weave sideways from the norm. However, you under a table in the hallway of the Demon Lord’s Castle wasn’t one he foresaw.

Should he bother to ask? Yes, he best do so. Bends and questions your oddity.

You explain that one of the Little D’s was yelling at you for walking on their clean floors. It called you a stupid, ignorant human. You wiped your face, and he noted the blotchy color of your cheeks. Well, someone was going to have an unfortunate accident later…

He asks if you would like to come with him to the kitchen. You could have some tea while he prepares dinner.

If you agree (let’s face it, no one tells Barbatos no), he will assist you in climbing from under the table. He will pull out a handkerchief and wipe the tears from your cheek and escort you to the kitchen.

You may not have seen it, but it did bother him immensely that you were cowering under a table. He would fix that and have you smiling in no time.

“I’m apologetic that someone was rude to you. Let me make it up to you with some tea and cookies. We will cure this bad experience with a better one.”

Diavolo-

He was enjoying the party thus far but was in need of a moment, just a brief moment alone. Walking into the dark sitting room, he turns on the lights to see you under a table. Your formal attire was pooling around you.

He walks over and ducks down to see the shock on your face and D.D.D in your hand. Asking what you’re doing in here, he smiles.

You answer with taking a break from the party. Though it’s beautiful and jovial, you were tired of dancing with so many demons.

He agrees and asks if you don’t mind the company. Actually, while he’s asking, he found a way to duck his torso under the table with you. (Big boi could actually break furniture and you if he wasn’t careful)

You show him the cute animal videos off Deviltube, and both of you begin to laugh. One video leads to six leads to twelve. It didn’t matter. It was so nice to just spend time with you.

He asks you if you want to have another table date again. He actually would sit under any piece of furniture as long as you said yes.

“I’m so glad to see you! I was actually exhausted from all the dancing myself. Care if I join you in watching whatever was amusing you?”