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Brothers
9650 Words; Between AU, pre-canon
TW for death
AO3 ver
Gristle Junior was seven months and eleven days old on the day of his first Trollstice.
Or rather, he was seven months and eleven days old on what would have been his first Trollstice, were it not for the lack of trolls. And the day had started so well, too, anticipation electric in his veins as he bounced around his fatherâs room. He had been so ready to taste true happiness!
But the Trolls were gone, fleeing underground despite the best efforts of Chefâs underlings. Not a single Troll had been recovered, Gristle had been told, and from what little he had been able to see of the commotionâfrom the swinging shovels and pickaxes he had glimpsed in the plaza as he was being shuffled away from the actionâsupported that notion. Surely, if Trolls were being found, then surely there would be much less frustration.
But the day passed without a single Troll eaten. Gristleâs father, for who he had been named, had taken him aside to calmly explain that with no Trolls, Gristle would never be happy. Not ever. Nothing else could possibly work.
To a Bergen less than a year old, such words were absolute. And why should Gristle doubt his father? The King had lived for decades, an extent of time which felt like an eternity to Gristle Junior. Surely, if there was anyone who could know everything, it would be the King.
Gristle was seven months and eleven days old on the last chance he would ever have to know true happiness. The date clung to his mind, the damnation of eternal misery heavy in his chest. To a Bergen so young and inexperienced with the world, there could be nothing worse.
Chef was disgraced. Not a single Troll recovered, in all of that mess? Her exile was quick and loudâGristle watched from the castle door with his father as Chef was bodily thrown through the gates, shouting curses he strained to hear. With a sigh, Gristle moved to turn away from the door, prepared to ready himself for bed.
âYour Majesty!â Two Bergens hailed down his father, bowing the moment the Kingâs eyes were on them. âWe foundâŚâ The Bergen on the left had his hands cupped together oddly, perfectly concealing whatever would be inside. With a nudge from his partner, he bowed again, holding out whatever it was to the King. âWe found this at the treeâs edge.â
Gristle Junior turned back towards the door, pressing against his fatherâs legs to peer at what was so urgent it couldnât wait for daylight. The air was thick with anticipation as the Bergenâs fingers slowly parted, revealing what was delicately clasped in his hands.
It was a Troll.
Gristleâs eyes widened. His father inhaled sharply, peering down at the tiny shape curled in the palm.
The Troll stared up at them with wide eyes, curled in on itself and shaking. It was so small. How did creatures that small even exist?
The King hummed, leaning in further. Gristle Junior was quick to imitate, peering at the tiny Troll even more intently. This brought to light a detail that had been previously overlookedâa detail that seven month and eleven day old Gristle had no filter against pointing out.
âItâs gray.â Gristle said, peering down at the thing. Tiny, too. Could something so little really bring him happiness? âIs it sick?â He poked at the Troll, and it flinched back with a hiss, tail clutched in its paws.
âInedible.â Gristle Senior growled out. He turned bared teeth to the pair before them. âYour effort is appreciated.â He said, âBut thereâs no use for a Troll thatâs gone bad.â The King sighed, moving to reenter the castle. âDo as you wish with it.â He dismissed. âMy son and IâŚâ
Gristle Junior reached for the Troll. âItâs so small.â He whispered, staring down at it. Small and gray and baring blunted teeth in an approximation of a snarl⌠He looked up at the pair, eyes wide. âCan I have it?â
The Bergen holding the Troll hesitated, before tilting his hands towards Gristle. The Troll squeaked as Gristle scooped it up, voice tiny. Gristle squealed, clutching the Troll and running back inside, the rest of the world forgotten.
The Troll turned bewildered eyes up to Gristle. It trembled, shouting as Gristle turned a corner, but Gristle paid no heed to anything but the sheer novelty of his idea. His very own Troll! There was hardly much of a plan in the toddlerâs head, but a simple idea was all Gristle really needed at his age.
Gristle bounced into his bedroom, Troll in hand. He moved to set the Troll down on the deskâ
âSon!â Gristle Seniorâs voice was seldom so loudâbut when it was, it commanded attention from everyone in the area. And indeed, Gristle Junior turned his attention to his father, the Troll still squirming in his hand. âWhat are you doing?â Gristle had never heard his father at such a loss.
âKeeping it.â Gristle Junior said.
Gristle Senior walked across the room and peered down at the Troll on the desk, trapped between Gristle Juniorâs hands. âA pet is a lot of responsibility, son.â He pointed out.
âYou say the same about being Prince.â Gristle Junior responded.
Gristle Senior jolted slightly, taken aback. âThat⌠is true.â He conceded. âBut itâs a Troll.â He poked the Troll in question, sending it stumbling backwards onto the ground. âIt will just get eaten.â
âBut you said gray Trolls are inebidable!â Gristle Junior lifted the Trollâhis Troll, up with cradled hands, pressing it against his chest. âThat theyâve got no use, which means that eating them canât do anything!â
âInedible.â Gristle Senior corrected gently. He lowered down, to be closer to his sonâs eye level. âSon, be realistic. The kingdom just lost all of its Trolls. Trollstice has been a tradition for more than a century. The shock of no more Trollstices will make the people desperate.â
The Troll stared up from Gristle Juniorâs hands with wide eyes. Tiny claws too small to do any damage dug into Gristle Juniorâs hand.
Gristle Junior huffed. âBut they gotta listen to you, Daddy. Youâre the King.â The people had listened when the King declared Chef exiled; Gristle had witnessed just that less than an hour ago. âIf you say that my Troll is inedidible then nobody will eat it!â
The King sighed, tired and heavy. âYouâll need something to keep it in.â He advised. As his son cheered, he turned to the door, and made his way across the room. Once Gristle Senior reached the doorframe, he turned back to his son one more time.
âIf I wake up tomorrow and find that thing is running around the castle, I will feed it to Barnabus.â He threatened. His face immediately lightened, and he left the room with a single, cheery, âGoodnight, son!â
Gristle Junior nodded at the closed door with the utmost seriousness. He turned back to his Troll, who he set on the desk gently. âHear that?â He asked. âYou stay in here, or else.â With that, Gristle propped his face up in his hands, leaning forwards. âMy nameâs Gristle. Yours?â
The Troll crossed tiny Troll arms and glared up at him. âIâm not telling.â It said, in a voice that reminded Gristle of the mice Barnabus ate.
âThen Iâll just give you one!â Gristle chirped. âHow about⌠Trolly!â
âNo.â
Gristle frowned. âYouâre getting a name, no matter what.â He huffed, poking his Troll in the side. The Troll stumbled a bit, but remained standing. âYouâre so grumpy.â Gristle noticed. âJust like⌠a BergenâŚâ He trailed off, something approaching realization creeping up his throat.
The Troll snarled. âNot a Bergen!â It insisted, tail smacking the desk.
Gristle stared. âYouâŚâ His eyes lit up. âYou and I are gonna be best friends.â Gristle decided, poking his Troll again.
The Trollâs response was simple. Gristle yelped, yanking his hand back. The Troll fell over, rubbing at its mouth with tiny paws, and Gristle stared at the tiny teeth marks on his finger.
The Troll glared mutinously, as if daring Gristle to come within biting range again.
Gristle nodded. âYep! Best friends!â
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Gristle Junior was nine months and two days old when he learned the Trollâs name. He had been poring through a pet care magazine, oo-ing and ah-ing over the different kinds of pets that Bergens kept. From alligator-dogs like Barnabus to even frog-crows!
He had hit the section for small pets, though none of the kinds commonly kept by Bergens were as small as a Troll. He looked over at the custom cage his father had had commissioned for his Troll, from the pod taken from the abandoned Troll Tree to the sandy substrate in the basin. As usual, his Troll was down on the substrate, pressed into the corner while it worked its way through safflower seeds.
âLook!â Gristle held the magazine right up against the cage bars, pointing at the circled bird perch. âHow does a swing sound? I bet youâd have a lot of fun with it, Trolly.â He didnât expect a responseâthe Troll rarely ever spoke back, content with glaring and darting away when Gristle reached into the cage.
Which meant it surprised him all the more when the tiny creature spoke. âBranch.â
Gristle opened his mouth to continue speakingâstopped. âWhat?â
âBranch.â The Troll repeated. âMy name is Branch.â Its eyes were locked resolutely on the sandy substrate, shoulders hunched and tail thwap-thwap-thwapping against the corner.
Gristle gasped. âOh!â Heâd never thoughtâheâBranchâ
âThatâs a weird name.â Gristle finally decided, leaning in. âAre all Trolls named like that?â He couldnât quite read well enough to digest all the books heâd found about Trolls (or that had Trolls on the covers), so his only real source of information was what former Troll-handlers Chad and Todd (or was it Todd and Chad?) could tell him, when he saw them. Which wasnât often.
Branch gave Gristle a deer in headlights look, a helpless sort of âhow-would-I-knowâ conveyed through body language alone. Paws clenched and unclenched against the seed held between them.
Gristle shrugged, and went back to the magazine. âSo,â He said, âYou never said if you wanted a swing.â
âDonât bother.â Branch huffed. âI wonât use it.â
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Gristle Junior was five years old when his father led him into his study for the first time. The younger marveled at the book-filled shelves and neatly organized desk, at the candle holders set into the wall and the banners hanging downâthis room was his future.
âMy son,â Gristle Senior began. âWhat you will be starting today is a time-honored tradition of Bergen Royalty.â His voice had a practiced lilt, a deep timbre made of years of self-assurance. âFor no Monarch rules Bergentown aloneâit is the duty of Princes and Princesses to run the kingdom in concert with the reigning monarch.â
âWhoaaaâŚâ Gristle Junior hopped up and down to see atop the desk. âIâm a Prince!â He realized, whirling around to face his father. âSo I have to help you run!â
Gristle Senior chuffed. When he spoke, there was pride in his voice. âAnd that is exactly what you will start learning today.â He lifted his son with one arm, sitting down behind the desk and settling Gristle Junior in his lap. âNow,â He pushed a stack of books from the edge of the desk to the center. âHere are the best volumes to start withâŚâ
The lesson continued on throughout the rest of the morning. After lunch with his father, Gristle Junior returned to his room with the stack of books he had been given, ready and willing to learn. He pushed open the door, and made his way over to the desk right next to his bed.
âThereâs so many books I need to read!â Gristle lamented. âHow am I ever going to learn it all?â Heâd have to, though, to be a proper Prince of Bergentown. And he would! Bergens were tough, and royal Bergens were said to be the toughest of all! So Gristle would be the best Prince! No book could defeat someone as tough as him!
He was starting with history. But there was so much! He held out the book to Branchâs cage, showing off just how thick it wasâand it was all pre-Trollstice, too!
Branch squinted at the tome, then returned to his digging. Heâd been doing a lot of that lately. Which was weird, because Trolls were supposed to live in treesâevery book Gristle had read on them said so. But the pod in Branchâs cageâtaken directly from the Troll Tree, no lessâremained just as empty as it always had. There was even dust building up along the top!
âI mean, how in the world am I ever going to remember all this?â Gristle slammed the book down on his desk, prying it open. He was glad for Branchâthe Troll was a good listener, in the five year oldâs eyes.
The Troll in question poked his head back up, ears twitching. âAre you going to read it, or are you just gonna complain?â He asked, before going back to the hole.
âRight.â Gristle turned his attention back to the book. Slowly, he began, sounding out the words as best he could.
âThe first re-cor-did history of Bergenkind dates back to⌠three⌠fow-sand years ago.â He began. âWhen Fow-ler the First wrote the⌠the first ever Law.â He continued reading, stumbling over words while Branch continued digging. Gristle let the history wash over him, entranced in the task set before him. Hours passed, and Gristle found himself being called down to dinner before he even registered that so much time had passed.
Three days later, Gristle found himself staring at a worksheet in frustration. He was supposed to fill it out without looking at his books, and he was struggling.
âUGH!â Gristle threw his head back, clutching at his hair as he seethed. âHow can I remember the name of the first Bergen to write a law but not when?!â He smacked his head against the desk, groaning in frustration. The urge to go to his shelf and pull out the relevant book itched down his spineâbut he had to hold strong! A good Prince knew how to look things up, but a great Prince could recall whatever detail was needed when it was needed.
Oh, how was Gristle ever supposed to be a great Prince?
âThe first recorded history of Bergenkind dates back to three thousand years ago.â Branch said, casually breaking the frustrated silence. âThatâs what your book said.â
Gristle looked at Branchâs cage, where the Troll was busy jotting stuff down on a scrap of paper. Gristle then looked over to the book on his shelf. Slowly, he pushed out his chair and went over to the shelf, opening the book to the first page.
âThatâsâŚâ He turned back to Branch. âYouâve got a good memory.â He said, returning the book to the shelf.
Branch muttered something that Gristle didnât quite catch. Gristle shrugged, and went back to his worksheet. Heâd have to read aloud to Branch more often, if Branch could remember stuff so well.
With a hum, Gristle continued on with the worksheet. It probably wasnât in the spirit of the challenge to have a friend who could remember a lot of words, but Gristle wasnât concerned at all with that notion.
He continued to talk to Branch as he worked, something light in his chest with the knowledge that Branch really was listening.
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Gristle Junior was six years old, and he and Branch were having a real good row. The kind of row that, had they been proper siblings, would have only been able to be settled by some proper Bergen roughhousing, with weapons and property destruction. A real riot-causing dispute.
It was hardly their first disagreementâGristle had the faint bite scars all over his fingers to prove it. But it was certainly frustrating, born from weeks of buildup over a simple fact.
âItâs not healthy! Trolls are supposed to sing!â Gristle gestured to the book in his hand, which was way more useful than all the cookbooks heâd found. It actually went a bit into Troll health and growth, detailing all the ways and times that Trolls could become inedible. As Branch was, and had always been grayâor at least, as long as Gristle had known himâthe book in question proved very useful.
âWell I donât!â And that was the crux of the situation, the simple fact from which all of this had spawned. âAnd I never will!â Branchâs stand was resolute, unshakeable, even in the face of all of Gristleâs Princely Rage.
âBut you have to!â Gristle insisted, gesturing again to the page he had the book opened to. âTrolls that donât singâthis book isnât very nice about them!â He was fumbling, he knew, but he didnât know how else to say it. The book said that gray Trolls were to be removed from the Troll Tree and disposed of immediately. It didnât say why, and Gristle was still a childâhe didnât question the words presented as fact. As far as he could tell, a Troll that had gone gray was just⌠it wasnât right!
âYouâre supposed to be happy.â Gristle pushed. âYouâre supposed to sing, like a regular Troll.â
âNever gonna happen.â Branch insisted. âIâll stay unhappy, just you watch!â He crossed his arms with a huff, tail twitching angrily.
âThatâs not good!â Gristle responded. âYou have to get your color back eventually!â The book said nothing about whether Trolls could regain their color after losing it. But it wasnât right, for a creature so intertwined with music to never make a single note. And if the book said to get rid of gray TrollsâŚ
Gristle cared about Branch, more than he could feasibly admit. The castle staff were fine, and his father was his father, but BranchâBranch was a friend. Someone Gristle could talk to who would actually listen, no matter what it was.
The book said it wasnât healthy for a Troll to go gray. Gristle was going to be King someday, in the far distant future, and heâd be responsible for all of Bergentown. Even sooner, he would be a fully fledged Prince, responsible for helping his father with Bergentown. If Gristle couldnât even take care of one tiny troll, then what were his chances of ever being good at what he was literally meant to do?
âAnd then what?â Branch gripped the bars of his cage, rage in every inch of his body. âYouâll eat me?â
âOf course not!â Gristle could never! Branch was⌠Branch was his friend! Inedible by Royal Decree! Gristle would sooner eat Barnabus!
âYouâre lying!â Branch yelled back. âThe moment I become edible you or some other Bergen will be serving me up on a silver platter!â His tail lashed about wildly, tears bubbling up at the corners of his eyes. âBecause thatâs all Trolls are to you!â
Gristle flinched back. He⌠he refused to admit it, but Branch had a point. Trolls were the only way that Bergens could ever be happy, and they had spent generations with a holiday dedicated to that very thing. ButâŚ
âYouâre different.â Gristle insisted. Branch was his friend. âYouâre not⌠you never sing and youâre always unhappy.â He huffed. âItâs like youâre barely a Troll at all!â
This time it was Branchâs turn to flinch, tail falling flat against the ground. âMaybe youâre right.â He said quietly, turning away from the bars.
âBranch, Iââ Gristle reached out, only for his hand to fall back down when Branch glared at him.
âFine, then.â Gristle grumbled. âWeâll just be unhappy together.â Between the two of them, Branch was the only one who had even a chance to ever be happyâGristle would never get to eat a Troll with all of them gone, but Branch⌠Branch was a Troll. If anyone would ever get to be happy, it would be the creature who was quite literally made of the stuff.
âFine!â Branch sat down hard on the substrate, arms crossed and turned away from Gristle. âUnhappy together!â
It felt like a promise, like a finality.
It felt like Gristle was failing hard at this whole âtaking care of othersâ thing.
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Gristle Junior was seven years old with a form in his hand. He stood before Branchâs cage, expanded over the years to include deeper substrate and a small climbing tree. The⌠well, it felt weird to call him a Troll, when he was nothing like Gristleâs books, but what else could he be called?
A Bergen. At least, that was what heâd be if Gristleâs idea went through.
âIâve been learning about law.â Gristle began, with no real preamble. Branch looked up from his orange slice, ears twitching, but made no comment. âAnd I found out something interesting.â He took a deep breath, and glanced at the memo in his hand. âAdoption Laws, Section Two. In the case of a non-Bergen being adopted by a Bergen or other being of Bergen citizenryâŚâ Gristle hurriedly looked at the memo again, âThey are considered, in all aspects of the law, a Bergen, with all of the rights and restrictions that such a designation entails.â He let the memo flutter down to the floor and looked down at Branch, who was staring up at him with wide eyes.
Branch clenched and unclenched his paws against the half-eaten orange slice in his lap, tail flicking behind him. â...what.â
âListen.â Gristle leaned in close, holding up the form in his other hand. âIf I adopt you, then you wouldnât be in any more danger of being eaten!â
Branch squinted. âArenât you a little young to be a parent?â He asked, orange slice seemingly forgotten in his lap. âAnd Iâm older than you.â He pointed out, somewhat bitterly.
âEw! No! Not as a son!â Gristle waved his arms wildly, then pressed the form against the bars again. âAs a brother.â He clarified. âBecause⌠youâre more of a friend than a pet,â Gristle explained, âAnd itâs not fair to keep treating you like one. A pet.â He carefully gaged Branchâs expressions, watching as his face flickered through a series of emotions. âAll youâd need to do is sign on this lineâŚâ
âIt canât be that easy.â Branch groused, tail flicking faster. âBergens donât do âeasyâ.â
âWell,â Gristle rubbed at the back of his neck, âWe would have to get approval from Dad for it to go through.â He rallied, clenching his free hand in a fist. âBut thatâs easy! I mean, he let me keep you!â
âAs a pet.â Branch stressed. He set the orange slice aside, brushing off his paws as he stood. âThatâs totally different.â
âAnd thatâs why I want to do this!â Gristle unlatched the cage door, not bothering to reach inâhe had long since learned that Branch hated being picked up unexpectedly. Better to let Branch come out of the cage on his own terms. âBecause what kind of Prince treats his friend like a pet?â
Branchâs expression fell, his shoulders hunching. His paws clenched and unclenched in the rhythmic way they often did, his tail flicking. Carefully, slowly, Branch clambered out of the cage, climbing down the flipped out door to settle on the smooth wood of the shelf. Gristle held out his hand, palm up, and Branch hopped onto it, letting himself be lifted over to the desk.
Gristle laid out the form. Heâd double-checked every word to make sure it was exactly what he needed, and all that was left was to sign it and have it approved. Gristle had already signed it, his name penned in only slightly messy ink. Penmanship win!
Branch pulled a tiny quill from his hair, hopping up to gently dab it in the inkwell on the desk. As Gristle watched, Branch kneeled down in front of his line, and carefully signed his name.
âThink thatâll be enough?â Gristle asked.
Branch hummed. âMaybeâŚâ He tucked the quill away and went back to the inkwell, hopping up and leaning so far in that for a moment Gristle feared heâd fall in. Branch kicked the side and lifted himself back and out, clambering over to the form and slapping right next to his name with his paws.
Two inky paw prints, right next to his name. âThat should do it.â Branch decided, satisfied.
Gristle nodded, offering his hand again. As Branch hopped onto his palm and clambered up Gristleâs arm to his shoulder, Gristle grabbed the form carefully, blowing a bit to make the ink dry faster.
âLetâs get this done!â Gristle declared, running off to go find his father. It wasnât the first time Branch had left Gristleâs room, nor the first time that Branch had ridden on Gristleâs shoulder. But it was the first time since the belled harness had been made that Branch had left the room without the jingle of bells signaling his every movement. Gristle realized it was weird, actually, to feel the weight on his shoulder and not hear the sound of bells heâd come to associate with that weight. But the harness was from when Branch was still a pet in everyoneâs eyesâit wouldnât do to make Branch wear it now.
And really, Branch was like a Bergen, in a lot of ways. He never sang or danced, he was disagreeableâeven the gray of his short fur was similar to the average Bergenâs dull tones. Whenever he had something to work on, be it the den heâd dug or even old worksheets Gristle tried to downsize for him, he took to working on it just like a Bergen: with a grumble and the focused spirit that allowed Bergens to create sturdy walls and buildings. And he had interesting insights, tooâBergens disliked great heights, so even the castle couldnât get very tall, but it was Branch who gave Gristle the idea to suggest subterranean expansion when the King presented the age-old issue of expansion logistics. Which was just funny, because Trolls lived in treesâyet Branch never once touched the dusty pod hanging in his cage.
Branch settled down on Gristle Juniorâs shoulder, tucked just below Gristleâs ear. Gristle found a sudden bounce in his step, a mix of anticipation and excitement in his veins. Yeah, this whole adoption thing was a great idea! Maybe even the best Gristle had ever had!
Finding the King was easyâit was just before lunch, so King Gristle Senior would be just finishing up with the final petitioners in the biweekly levee. Normally, Gristle Junior would be sitting in his own princely throne beside his father, to listen and watch and get a general idea of how a levee workedâbut he had⌠kinda skipped it, what with how eager he was to try out the adoption idea. Not that that was a major issueâGristle Junior wasnât meant to fully step into his duties as Prince until he was ten.
StillâŚ
âAh, there you are.â King Gristle Senior groused, shifting slightly in his throne. âCare to explain why you missed todayâs levee?â
Gristle Junior stopped short, nodding his head in a bow. âMy apologies, Father.â He kept his tone careful, regal, like heâd been taught. âI found something that needed attending to.â He explained, head still down.
Gristle Senior snorted. âWell, out with it, then.â He waved his hand encouragingly as his son looked up. âWhat grand idea did you come up with this time?â
Gristle Juniorâs mouth pulled back in an odd way, and he fought the strange expression off of his face. With a simple flourish, he drew out the form, holding it out towards his father. âThis.â
Gristle Senior took the form, glancing it over. His expression remained neutrâhis eyes widened, as the contents of the form properly registered. The Kingâs expression scrunched, turning thunderous, before going down to mere annoyance. He turned that annoyance upon his son, and all but sputtered out, âWhat in the name of Berg is the meaning of this?!â
âItâs an adoption form.â Gristle Junior explained, pressing his hands together. He felt Branch shift slightly on his shoulder, and he held out a palm. Branch took the offer, sliding down Gristleâs arm to stand upon his hand, small and gray and steady.
âI can⌠see that.â Gristle Senior hissed through ground teeth. âButâŚâ His expression became just as lost as the night that Gristle Junior had first met Branch. With a deep sigh, Gristle Senior looked down at his son and the Troll.
âLetting you keep a Troll as a pet is one thing,â The King began, âBut adoption? Of a Troll? Are you insane?â
Gristle Junior felt oddly gobsmacked. âIt makes sense.â He tried, unable to keep childish uncertainty from his voice. âBranch is the most unTroll Troll ever, heâs just like a Bergen and I think itâd be best if he was called as such, because then nobody would even think to eat him!â
Gristle Senior sighed, heavy and tired. âThatâs not a good enough reason.â He started. âSon, do you have any idea what would happen if that⌠thing were to become your brother?â
âItâd be a serious crime to eat him.â Gristle Junior responded easily.
Gristle Senior brought up his hand to pinch the bridge of his nose, grumbling too low for Gristle Junior to make out the words. â...of all theââ With a rumbling groan, Gristle Senior regarded his son with a firmâbut not wholly uncaringâexpression. âYouâre a Prince, my son. You canât just go adopting every creature you see fit.â
âItâs just Branch.â Gristle Junior pushed back, âHeâs already close enough to a Bergen, whatâs adding the legal distinction going to do?â He shook his head. âThis will all work out, Dad, I know it. I just need you to trust me.â
âSon, be realistic.â The King groused. âIf that thing becomes your brother, then that makes it a Prince. Thereâs no way a Troll could be a Bergen Prince! Trolls are all about loud parties and sugar and silly gamesâtheyâre simply unsuited to laws and regulations and the hard work required to run a kingdom!â
Gristle Juniorâs mouth openedâto say what, he wasnât sure, but air was being forced up from his lungs and defiance was roaring in his heart, ready to burst out what would surely be a useful and clever retortâ
âI can do it.â
As one, Gristle Junior and Senior turned to look at Branch. Branch took the combined attention with hunched shoulders, his tail clasped in his paws. âYou want me to learn how to help run a kingdom? Fine. Iâll do it. Iâll learn.â He dropped his tail and crossed his arms, expression firm.
âI donât want you doing anything of the sort.â Gristle Senior growled, but Gristle Junior was already rallying.
âHe can! Branch is smart, Dad, heâs where I got the idea for underground expansions from! He remembers all the stuff I read, and he listens, and heâd make a good Prince!â All of his reasons were true and provenâwhich meant a lot, for seven year old Gristle Junior.
âPreposterous!â Gristle Senior beganâ
âIf you think itâs so preposterous,â Branchâs voice cut through the room like alligator-dog teeth through mice. âThen why not bet on it?â
Those three words echoed in the sudden silence of the room, bouncing off the vaulted ceiling and tangling up in the eaves. If there was one thing Gristle Junior knew his father could not resist, it was a wager.
Indeed, Gristle Seniorâs face had turned contemplative, his hands steepled before him. âA bet, you say?â Something like satisfaction slithered its way onto his face. âHmm, I think I see what you mean. A trial period, of sorts, is that it? To find out if you could even come close to being a Prince?â
Branch nodded.
âYeah!â Gristle Junior agreed. âIf Branch can prove himself then you have to let the adoption go through!â
Gristle Senior snorted. âSure, fine.â He waved his hand dismissively, before turning his attention to Branch. âBut when that little creature fails to keep up the pace, Iâm burning that form and youâre going to put any wild ideas of adopting Trolls out of your head for good.â He glared down at the pair, lips curled in a derisive snarl.
âYou have three weeks.â Gristle Senior declared. âBetter get started.â
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Gristle Junior was seven years old when he became a brother.
The wager had been⌠not as hard as Gristle expected. Branch had thrown himself into the challenge with a fervor that was only seen with master artisans undergoing hefty commissions. It had taken a lot of work, in those three weeks, but at the end of it allâ
The cage had to be redone, renovated into a proper bedroom. The castle staff found itself expanded by twoâBernice and Groth, who had been hired to aid in the fiddly and sometimes frustrating art of turning tiny, Troll-sized writings into something that could be read by the average Bergen. Branch needed new clothes, and a proper bed, and a shelf for all of the Troll-sized copies heâd made and was making of the various books on Law and history and regulations, and had to attend meals and levees and lessons with Gristle, andâ
It was so much. Gristle had known, when he had drafted that first attempt at an adoption form in the castle library, that things would changeâbut he had never quite imagined the sheer scope of it all. Suddenly, his brother was accompanying him everywhere, riding on Gristleâs shoulder or flinging himself through the halls with his hair. Gristle had heard some of the staff discussing pathways for Branch, where heâd be safe from being stepped onâ
There was so much.
ButâŚ
Gristle had never had a brother. He had had a friend, in Branch, but it had taken so long for them to really get there. And now, despite how it had felt like the world was ending on that fateful failed Trollstice, all those years agoâ
Gristle couldnât imagine that day going any other way. He didnât want to imagine a world in which he never met Branch, who was surely a Bergen in Troll skin. Branch was his friendâno, his brother.
âHey, Branch?â Gristle rolled over and looked at the shelf that Branchâs things currently resided on, at the cage hurriedly covered with a sheet in an approximation of a proper room with real privacy. Late at night, in his unlit room, it barely looked like a cage at all. âDo you ever think about the day we met?â
Branchâs voice filtered down from the shelf. âNot really.â He admitted. âWhy should I?â There was something oddly bitter in his voice. âItâs the day I was left behind. Again.â
Gristle Junior wasnât sure how to unpack that. Or if he ever should. âI wonât leave you behind.â He promised, ââCause brothers stick together.â It felt like such a simple truth, to the seven year old Bergen.
There was silence from the shelf. It stretched on, almost uncomfortably so, feeding into the static of the darkness filling the room.
Gristle huffed. âYou really are just like a Bergen.â He commented, âAlways miserable.â He chuffed, something light in his chest that he didnât fully register. âAnd thatâs why you know weâll always stick together.â He said, staring up at the darkness clinging to the ceiling.
âUnhappy together, then.â There was something soft in Branchâs voiceâhe must have been tired after such a long day.
Gristle sighed. Unhappy together. It sounded like a promise, like a finality.
It sounded like he was finally getting the hang of this whole âtaking care of peopleâ thing.
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Gristle Junior was ten years old when he was properly crowned Prince.
The day had been rife with tradition, from a breakfast banquet stocked with imported delicacies to the event itself out in the plaza. The old Troll Tree, withered from its abandonment, stood tall in the center of the space, dominating the whole scene no matter how Gristle Junior tried to look at it.
He fiddled with the clasp on his capeâhis Princely cape, paired with his new crown to signify the change in status. The festivities werenât exactly celebratoryâthe whole ceremony amounted to more of a town meeting, but with the best catering the royal kitchens could provide. Bergens of all kinds wandered about the plaza, taking advantage of the free food while Gristle JuniorâPrince Gristle Junior watched on from his fatherâs side.
Branchâno, it was Prince Branch, nowâstood to Gristleâs side, on a small platform made entirely for the occasion. His own blue cape and silver crown had to be custom-made, instead of passed down, but neither of the brothers were bothered by that fact.
âI still donât understand how Glixry managed such tiny details.â Gristle commented, focusing in on the silver metal of Branchâs crown. âIt even has tiny metal leaves!â
Branch reached up, touching the edges delicately. âIt feels so weird.â He decided. âBut⌠not bad.â
âOf course not! Youâre a Prince now!â Gristle assured him. âStand tall and proud, like a proper Bergen.â Gristle commanded, repeating the words he had heard so many times.
âYeahâŚâ Branch let his paws fall back to his sides, almost hidden under the edges of his capeâbut Gristle didnât miss the way they clenched and unclenched repeatedly.
Branch was older than Gristle, true. But the fact remained that he had started learning later, so it had been decided to crown them both when Gristle came of age, and not a moment sooner. So here they were, brothers crowned together, all of Bergentown around them.
There would be so many more responsibilities, nowâPrinces helped the reigning monarch run the kingdom, after all. Theyâd still have to learn as they went, butâ
Gristle breathed in deeply. The Bergensâhis peopleâthey were all miserable. But they were hardworking and honest, and Gristle would do his best to be the Prince they deserved.
Gristle turned to look back at his brother, who was fiddling with his own cape clasp. Glixry had repurposed one of the bells from Branchâs old harness for the clasp, and even now it still faintly rung as Branch slowly paced around his little platform.
There was an odd expression on Branchâs face, satisfaction and an oddly melancholy contemplation firming his brow. Gristle huffed, snapping his little-big brother from whatever thoughts he was lost in. Gristle offered his hand, and Branch rolled his eyes before hopping onto Gristleâs palm.
As Gristle lifted his brother high above his head, something proud surged in his chest, light and electric in his veins. His face twitched in that odd way it sometimes did, but Gristle ignored the feeling in favor of looking out over his people once more.
He was going to be the best Prince Bergentown had ever seen! He and his brother both!
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Gristle Junior was eleven years old when Branch finally pupated.
His book on Troll growth said that Trolls pupated when they were twelve or thirteen. It also went on about how Trolls were utterly inedible in this state, wrapped in their cocoons as their bodies changed and matured.
That Branchâs pupation had come late according to the books was worrying. That it had come at all was a stark reminder of the fact that, for all of his Bergen-like traits, Branch was in some small way still a Troll.
Gristle peered at the dark gray hair cocoon for the umpteenth time. None of his books said anything about whether Trolls could still hear in there, or even what really happened to them outside of âmaturationââall the book really cared to go over was how to identify a pupation cocoon, and that they couldnât be eaten.
âEven if you canât hear me,â Gristle began, settling back down with an interesting book heâd foundâsome kind of romance novel where none of the characters actually got together in the end. Heâd heard the librarian going on about how it was a contemplative piece about the nature of connections, so heâd picked it up to go through. âBut if you canât then Iâll just read this book to you all over again when youâre out.â
The cocoon gave no discernible response. Gristle decided that that was fine, and began to read. He made it through a chapter and a half before being summoned for dinner with his father, and he gave the cocoon one final glance as he left the room.
âI see your⌠brother isnât joining us again tonight.â Gristle Senior commented, as the first course was brought out.
âI told you, Dad, heâs pupating.â Gristle Junior huffed, licking sticky roe off of his fingers.
âYes,â Gristle Senior nodded. âTrolls do do that, Iâve heard.â He went silent as the second course arrived, digging in with royal fervor. A few moments later, and he spoke again. âHopefully this whole thing doesnât set him too far back.â He commented airily, dabbing at his face with a napkin.
Gristle Junior scowled over his plate as a servant exchanged it for the bowl of soup acting as the third course. âBranch always keeps up.â He asserted. âAnd we won that bet fair and square, so you canât go back on your end no matter what.â He sipped from his spoon with a pointedly royal slurp.
âAnd I have no intentions of backing out.â Gristle Senior slurped just a little harder. âIâm just curious.â And with that, the conversation was over.
Gristle stared down at his soup. Branch would keep up. He would. He always did.
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Gristle was eleven years old, and he was getting concerned.
Nineteen days. The books said that Trolls only pupated for a week, tops. But it had been nineteen days since Branch had disappeared into the spun cocoon, eyes glassy and unfocused. Nineteen days of a silent cocoon.
Gristle had long since finished that first romance novel, and the book on fence safety regulations, and was almost halfway into a book on the history of anchovy farming. And the cocoon still remained!
The worry was starting to affect his Princely duties, too. Maybe it was because he was used to working alongside Branch, and the absence was getting to him, but there was no denying it: Gristle was concerned. But what if trying to crack the cocoon open early ruined everything? What if he was supposed to crack it open, and heâd missed the deadline? What if being gray really was bad, and BranchâŚ
Gristle didnât want to think about it. He really, really didnât.
The sun had long gone down when Gristle finally put his books away and retired to his bed. He glanced at the cocoon one last time before extinguishing the lights, worry like a rock in his gut.
The night passed. The sun rose again, creeping into Gristleâs bedroom through the window until it smacked against his eyes. With a groan, the eleven year old sat up, shading his eyes with a hand. He glared at the offending celestial body. âEvery day.â He muttered. âEvery day, you do this.â He was about to continueâ
âAre you yelling at the sun again? Really?â
Gristle yelped, jolting hard enough to fall off of his bed entirely. He flailed wildly, scrambling to clamber back to his feet, frenetic energy in every inch of his suddenly-impossibly-awkward limbs.
âBranch!â Gristle leaned up against the shelf, examining the shredded remains of the cocoon through the door of his brotherâs room. His little-big brother stood beside it, already having pulled on some pants. âYouâre okay! You were in there for really long!â
Branch shrugged, walking over to his wardrobe. âWell, Iâm here, so you can quit your whining.â There was a fondness in his voice that had Gristle rolling his eyes.
âYour tailâs still gone.â Gristle noticed. A lump settled in his gut, hard and heavy. âBranchâŚâ
Branch turned around, twisting to look and confirm Gristleâs words. âEh.â He shrugged, and turned his attention back to his wardrobe. ââS not like it matters.â He decided, picking out a shirt to wear under his cape. âBergens arenât supposed to have tails anyway.â
Gristle winced. It was true, Bergens were taillessâbut if they had tails, they certainly wouldnâtâ
Gristle shook his head. He didnât want to think about that. âSooo,â He started, as Branch was securing the belled clasp of his cape. âHow do you feel?â
Branch carefully placed his crown back upon his head, then walked in a small circle. âI donât know, stronger?â He tried, holding his paws out in front of himself and examining them. âI think my balance is better, actually.â He noted. As if to illustrate the point, he did a twirl, his cape flaring slightly with the motion. âMy face feels kinda⌠hm.â Branch pressed at his jaw with his paws, before shrugging it off. âWhatever. Are you gonna get ready, or am I doing all your work for you today?â
âOh!â Gristle whipped back around, running for his own wardrobe. âRight!â As he shrugged on his own cape, clicking the clasp into place, he turned back to glance at the shelf holding his brotherâs room.
Gristle sighed, all of his worries abated. Why would he ever worry? His family was just fine, and would be for a long, long time.
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Gristle Junior was thirteen years old when he finally had to admit it.
Heâd always hoped heâd get his fatherâs height, that heâd be able to stand as tall as the average Bergen in his adult years. But it had become clear that he would always be half average height, always doomed to needing steps to get onto the taller chairs.
It wasnât the end of the world; Bergens could come in a range of shapes and sizes. That Gristle was so short wasnât that big of an issue.
But Berg, did it feel like it! Gristle had spent his whole life looking up to his fatherâmetaphorically and literally! And he was probably going to be stuck looking up forever!
âWhat are you moping about now?â And there was Gristleâs little-big brother, padding along one of the many paths set into the castle walls. The masons and carpenters had done good work with those pathsâwhen Branch wasnât running along them, they looked like simple wall decoration. It was real classy.
âIâm never gonna be tall.â Gristle grumbled, allowing himself a moment to lean against the wall in despair. Then he remembered who he was talking to, and hurriedly pulled away, flailing his hands as he tried to recover. âI meanânot that being short is a bad thingââ
âOkay, Iâm gonna stop you right there.â Branch groused, holding out a paw. âBecause from where Iâm standing, you are not short.â He leaned against the wall, crossing his arms in front of him.
âI am, though.â Gristle lamented. âMost Bergens are twice my size. I mean, just look at Dad!â
Branch rolled his eyes. âAt least youâre not Troll-sized.â He hopped down from the path along the wall to land atop Gristleâs head, just next to the crown. âGotta count your blessings there.â
âI dunno,â Gristle started, swiping at his brother as the tiny Bergen pattered about on his head and ruffled his hair, âMaybe being Troll-sized would be nice. I could ride Barnabus around the halls with you.â He didnât fully mean itâbeing the size of a Troll in a castle made for Bergens constantly forced Branch to find workarounds to even the simplest of things. But if anyone could manage it, itâd be Branch.
And Gristle had to admit: the idea of being able to ride on an alligator-dog, even one as old as Barnabus, was really cool. But Gristle was too big for that, and too big for his old trikesâall while being too small in so many other ways. It was like he was caught between, stuck at a size that would annoy him forever.
Branch dodged away from Gristleâs hand easily, chuffing when Gristle accidentally sent his own crown flying down the hall. Gristle growled, running after it, shaking his head in an attempt to throw Branch off. But his brother held on easily, always infuriatingly good at roughhousing despite his size.
It just wasnât fair.
But, as Gristle replaced his crown on his head, and as Branch slid down to settle on Gristleâs shoulder, Gristle brushed away the annoyance.
It wasnât the end of the world. Not by a long shot.
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Gristle Junior was fifteen years old when the unthinkable happened.
His father, King Gristle Senior, who had always been an unshakeable force, strong and proud in a kingdom full of strong and proud Bergensâ
Gristle Junior couldnât believe it. It couldnât be true. It justâit wasnât supposed to happen like this!
But there was nothing that could be done. His father had fallen ill three months ago, and, despite every effort from every doctor in Bergentown, despite all of the Kingâs strengthâ
Gristle Junior was fifteen years old when his father passed from illness, gone overnight like a snuffed candle flame. Gristle Junior was fifteen years old when the title of King passed onto him, far too soonâhe should have remained a Prince until he was a proper adult, until he was married with children who would become the Princes and Princesses that would help him run the kingdomâ
Gristle Junior was fifteen years old when his world shattered for the second time. The funeral was held out in the plaza, barely a week after his fatherâs passing. The same plaza as Gristleâs first and final Trollstice, as his and Branchâs official crowning as Princes. It felt as though every major life-changing event in Gristleâs life happened here, the caged tree looming over it all like a shadow.
It still⌠it just couldnât be possible. His father couldnât just be⌠gone.
Gristle returned to the castle in a daze. Some distant part of him knew that he would have no choice but to take up his fatherâs crown, and soon, butâ
The rest of him was sinking slowly, the grief thick in his throat and veins and head. The fog was all-consuming, pulling Gristle into depths of unhappiness heâd never thought possible.
Gristle had believed his first and last Trollstice, the day where he lost any chance to ever be happy, would be the worst day of his life. Oh, how wrong he was.
Gristle didnât know how long he laid like that, staring up at the ceiling of his room without seeing anything at all. It was as though the world around him had well and truly shattered, and now the pieces had all fallen away out of his reach. Gristle floated on the nothing for what felt like an eternity and now time at all, the mire in his head growing thicker with every passing second.
âHey.â
Gristle rolled over on his bed, pressing his face into the comforter to block out the rest of the world.
âHey.â
What was the point? Gristle was never supposed to be King at fifteen. Heâd probably mess it up, bungle the whole thing, and then all of Bergentown would be just as dead as his father.
âHey!â
Gristle groaned, shoving his face into the comforter. He didnât have the time or patience for this, his whole world was falling apart, why couldnât he have a good cry about it in peaceâ
Something small landed inches away from Gristleâs head. He didnât even need to look to know who it wasâonly his little-big brother could land so lightly.
âHey, idiot.â Branch pushed at Gristleâs chin, lifting the Bergenâs head off the bed by a few inches. âChin up.â He demanded, baring his teeth.
Gristle forced his head back down onto the comforter. âLeave me alone.â He growled.
âMm, nope.â Branch declared, moving around to pull at Gristleâs ear. âYouâve been in here long enough,â he sniffed, âAnd you need a shower. Câmon.â He pulled, and Gristle had to put effort into staying in place.
âNo.â Gristle grumbled. âJust let me rot.â Every inch of his body ached with the grief clinging to his bones, and the very thought of getting up and doing anything made him want to vomit. The whole world made him want to vomit.
âCanât let you,â Branch said, his voice edging into genuine worry. âCâmon, at least eat something?â He tugged at Gristleâs ear again, darting away as Gristle irritably swiped at him.
âI said,â Gristle pushed himself up ever so slightly, just so he could look Branch in the eye, âleave me alone!â
Branch shook his head, paws clenching and unclenching. âYouâve been alone.â He said. âI canât leave you. Brothers stick together.â There was something heavy in his words, some deeper meaning than a childhood promise.
âAnd how are you supposed to help?â Gristle asked, sitting up fully. âWhat could you possibly do to make this better?â
âNot let you smell like a rotting carcass, for one.â Branch snarked. His expression immediately softened. âYou need to take better care of yourself.â He urged. âLetting yourself rot only makes it hurt worse. Please.â
âAnd what would you know?â Gristle accused. âYou and Dad barely even liked each other!â
âYou think I donât know what grief feels like?â Branch spread his arms wide, tears beginning to bubble up in his eyes. âMy Grandmother was eaten on Trollstice before you were even born! DONâT YOU DARE TELL ME I DONâT KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO GRIEVE!â
Gristle flinched back. All of his vitriol drained as Branch panted. âYouâŚâ Branch never talked about that, about those four years heâd spent in the Troll Tree. Gristleâs throat tightened as a wave of emotion hit him anew, his eyes beginning to sting.
âIt hurts.â He sobbed, for lack of anything better to say.
Branchâs anger melted away. âI know.â He said, sitting down. âIt hurts, and you want so badly to just curl into a ball and wish the world awayââ
âBut you have to pick yourself back up.â Gristle finished. âBecause people are counting on you.â
âBecause nobody else will.â Branch added softly.
Gristle sobbed, breathy and uneven. âI miss him so much, Branch.â
Branch nodded. âI know.â
âIâm not ready to be King!â Gristleâs face was wet, now, hot and sticky with snot and tears.
Branch nodded again. âI know.â
Gristle sobbed again, his whole body shaking with the motion. He opened his mouth, but no words came.
âItâs not okay,â Branch offered into the silence, scooting forwards, âAnd thatâs okay.â
âIt hurts.â Gristle whispered.
Branch nodded. No more words came, and Gristle continued to cry. All of his misery poured out, raw and real and painful, and Branch remained right in front of him the entire time. When Gristle finally ran out of tears to cry, he flopped back down onto the bed, and two paws pressed against his cheek.
The silence stretched.
Slowly, Gristle breathed. In, and out. His chest was still strung taut and raw, his face was cold and sticky, and his throat stung from the effort of crying so much. He had never felt so low. He knew the grief was far from over.
As Gristle breathed, Branch clambered up onto his chest. He kneeled down, and held out a paw.
âUnhappy together.â Branch offered. âShit sucks, but it sucks less when we work together.â
Gristle inhaled, his breath choppy and uneven. âUnhappy together.â He agreed, offering his finger for Branch to shake. He sobbed again, and Branch wrapped his arms around as much of Gristleâs hand as he could manage.
Gristle Junior was fifteen years old when his father died. And it sucked, and hurt, and Gristle wasnât sure heâd ever really stop grieving.
But, at the very least, he wasnât alone. It wasnât much, but that simple fact helped.
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Gristle Junior was twenty years old when Chef returned.
The day started as any other, really. Wake up, get cleaned and dressed, find his brother already awake and poring over details from the latest construction updates in the new quarter. Have breakfast, Branch darting about to steal off of his plate as he stole from Branchâs, like proper brothers would do. Go through the castle halls greeting everyone, Branch walking along the various small walkways lining the walls and arching up across hallways like tiny bridges. Prepare for the biweekly levee in the throne room.
It was as the final petitioner was leaving that it happened. A Bergen that Gristle only vaguely recognized emerged from behind a potted plant, swishing her cloak ominously as she all but marched towards the throne.
And then Gristle recognized her. The chefâs hat, the lavender tint, the wicked gleam in her eyes. He glanced to the throne beside his, and anxiety germinated in his chest at the sight of Branch still as a statue, eyes wide and locked onto Chef.
âWere you behind that plant the whole time?â Gristle asked, for lack of anything else to say. He realized immediately how stupid that soundedâbut Branch made no comment on it, which was so unlike him that Gristleâs uncertainty ratcheted up another notch.
Chef grinned as she reached for the zipper on her fannypack. Slowly, she opened it, and a sweet harmony emerged from within.
Gristle gasped, the rest of the world forgotten. If Branch had any reaction, Gristle didnât notice it, too entranced with the sight before him.
For in Chefâs fannypack was a handful of Trolls, bright and colorful and singing.
This⌠this could change everything.
Noâthis would change everything. For all of Bergentown! Finally, Gristle Junior could live up to his title, could be the King that brought happiness back to his people!
If he had bothered to look back at the thrones, he would have seen Chef glaring daggers into his back.
More importantly, he would have seen the look of utter uncertainty on Branchâs face.
#dreamworks trolls#gristle junior#branch trolls#king gristle jr#zaz writes#between au#death#themes of dehumanization (depersonization?)#WHY. WHY IS THIS SO L O N G#9K WORDS?????#N I N E T H O U S A N D W O R D S ??????????#anyway. here's the between au for anyone who was wondering#i wish this was smaller and easier to digest#but i jsut. kept adding scenes#EVEN AS I REMOVED THE TAIL SCENE AND SKIMPED OVER THE ADOPTION AND DIDN'T WRITE ANY SCENES BETWEEN GRISTLE SR'S DEATH AND CHEF SHOWING UP#anyway. branch is four years older than gristle (jr) in my mind#and also trolls are like bugs to me. hence the pupation#i have fish in a birdcage playing on loop rn and i think my brain is melting#it's a good song for this au tho ngl
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Just a few doodles of the day, some of it stems from conversations in the Eclipse nation. Clippie is no longer a silly little Nickname yall.
Have a bonus happy DM Clippie ready to cause mayhem
#foserdoodles#sonic the hedgehog#eclipse the darkling#shadow the hedgehog#sonic the hedgehog au#hush the brothers are fighting#victpry over truth is such a good song tho ngl#very eclipse and shadow#they both want the same thing but their communication skills are down the drain#gunna go think about these two some more#Spotify
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Ok fine...
Watched the open mic episode
And loved it
đŽâđ¨ a pitch I couldn't resist I'm sorry
#đ they said fischoeder obviously i watched it#what would the people say if i didnt...#...........................................................................................................................................#yeah ok đ did i fully 100% looove the episode...no#idk yes i loved fischoeder and o saw his face so its a good day...#hated his song#couldnt stand it#âšď¸âď¸ it was bad miss ma'am#ngl most of the songs werent...my favorite#i liked teddy's....and andy and ollies....#id have to re-hear marshmallow's...#her outfit ate tho#bob's burgers#bobs burgers#NOW TO WATCH...THE REST OF THE SEASON!!!#IM SORRY ALRIGHT I GOT BUSY WRITTING GRAVITY FALLS FANFICTION AND DIDNT WATCH IT#...no joke ive speant these weeks writting 3 gf stories#one being a gravity falls au for me and my friend's oc#...the rest being billford#im a faggot what can i say
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/Warriors equipment sketch (not final)
<image_id: sketches and doodles on a cursive practice notebook (the type of notebook with way too many squares). details below>
Warriors holding a left-handed bass. Note reads: He puts the capo where it SHOULD be. (the guitar nut. like right before the frets but after the headstock)
Strap. Note reads: 55 inches or 140 cm long. Strap is very long. Imagine it looks like his scarf (and theres a doodle next to it with me struggling to draw the emblem, like How do I draw this??)
Bass. Note reads:
Uses:
- Fret wrap
- Capo
- NO PICKS (all caps)
Bass color should be some sort of deep blue. The design is based on a Fender Precision Bass (model non-descript)
#9 verses#a song linked from 9 verses#linked universe#a song linked from nine verses#modern au#linkeduniverse#rambles and brainstorms#band au#math rock#lu warriors#/i actually have never research to any other brand lol#/just take the fenders design#/i bet warriors names his bass#/he's just That extra#/Wonder what he calls it tho...#/...proxi#/that's a good name ngl
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hello love:)
i absolutely love your social media au stories! <33 i was wondering if you could please do a lando norris one with the song âbad ideaâ by olivia
BAD IDEA, RIGHT?
PAIRINGS: lando norris x ex fem!reader
TYPE: social media au
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yourusername: i know i should stop, but i canât đ¤ˇđťââď¸
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user: stop what, queen?!???
âł yourusername: posting pics, babe
âł user: nOOO!! I LIVE FOR yOUr POsTS
user: đđ
oscarpiastri: i donât like that caption đ¤
âł yourusername: meaning??
âł oscarpiastri: noo comment âŚ
user: SLAYYYYY đđđ
carlossainz55: that caption is insinuating something, isnât it?
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user: her outfits are always đ
user: did anyone else see carlos comment?!??
âł user: wHAT COMMENT?!?? WHERE?!!?
âł user: he deleted it đđ but it said, âthat caption is insinuating something, isnât it?â
âł user: wtf does that even mean?!!??!?
âł user: lando, maybe?!?? idk đđđ it might not even mean anything, iâm just delusional lmao
âł user: if it didnât mean anything, why delete it tho?!??
user: idk about yaâll but carlos deleting his comment seems sus??? like what does he know?!??
user: mother is slayinâ đ
user: i wish i had her style
user: everyoneâs freaking out overs carlos deleted comment but what about oscarâs comment?!?? what did he mean by âi donât like the captionâ and the âno commentâ comment?!???
âł user: iâm tELLING YAâlL, thEreâs something they know thaT WE DONâT!! đŠ
user: yn and lando are definitely fucking around, i just know it! thatâs the whole reason for carlos and oscarâs comment, thereâs no other explanation
âł user: yaâll are so delusional đđđ LMAOO
user: she literally responded to a comment saying, âposting pics, babeâ when asked about the caption, hello??? yaâll just love to insinuate things
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user: mY CARLANDO HEART!! â¤ď¸đ§Ą
oscarpiastri: đđź
mclaren: YESSSSSSSSSIRRRRRRRRRRR
user: THE LAST POST?!! I REPEAT, THE LAST POST?!!? WHO IS THAT?!!? IS IT YN?!!?!
user: donât let carlando distract you from that last post
carlossainz55: â¤ď¸
user: smoooooooth operatorrrrrr
maxfewtrell: đ¤Šđ¤Šđ¤Š
user: is that yn?!?? someone please confirm đđđ
âł user: i donât think so, they donât even follow each other
user: youâre telling me my man is seeing someone?!? and it might not be yn?!!?
user: itâs literally carlos in a wig, yaâll
âł user: i thought it mightâve been oscar tbh
user: patiently waiting for the *liked by yourusername*
âł user: im waiting for her to comment
user: CARLANDO?!! AND YNLANDO?!!? SIGN ME TF UP
âł user: itâs not even yn
user: p1 & p2 baby!!! â¤ď¸đ§Ąâ¤ď¸đ§Ąâ¤ď¸đ§Ą #carlando
user: that ainât yn, yaâll! we gotta accept that they broke up and move on, as much as it hurts đ
âł user: nah, thatâs definitely yn!
user: i donât think itâs yn tbh
âł user: then who could it be?!?
team_quadrant: đž SMOOTH
user: lANDO WE NEED ANSWERS!!! WHO IS THAT?!??
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yourusername: bad idea, right? ohh well đ¤ˇđťââď¸
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user: nahhh đ this has to be a joke or sum
user: yn, babe, this is definitely a bad idea đ
user: OMG OMG!! PARENTS ARE BACK TOGETHER!!! đ¤Š
user: scReaming, wtfnalalslfsma
user: not lando reclaiming my wife đ
oscarpiastri: âwe wonât catch feelingsâ
âł yourusername: oops? hehehe đŤ˘
user: i kNEW IT!! i CALLEd IT
user: THE WOrLD HAS HEALED!!
maxfewtrell: đ
landonorris: hey, you đđđ
landonorris: see you tonight? đ
âł yourusername: you got it;)
user: nahhh đđđđ yn youâre better than this
âł yourusername: sorry, bestie đ¤ˇđťââď¸ i couldnât help it
carlossainz55: dios mĂo
translation: my god
alex_albon: oh my god, no way đłďż˝ďż˝ďż˝ who would have thought???!??
âł yourusername: we get it, you know things đ
georgerussell63: guess i owe you @maxverstappen1
âł maxverstappen1: pay up, mate
user: this was so NOT on my 2023 bingo card, wth
user: does that mean my fav wag is back?!?? đ¤Šđ¤Š
francisca.cgomes: oohhh?? đ
user: youâre so đđđđ and then thereâs him đŹđŹ
user: not my wife getting back with him đ
user: count your days, l*and*
âł user: please đđ
user: this makes me so happy, idc
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landonorris: good idea, right? (swipe for a surprise) đ
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user: thE CAPTION, HELLO?!??!?
user: theyâre back together, thatâs all that matters đđ
yourusername: hey, you copied my caption âŚ
yourusername: youâre cute or whatevaa đ
âł landonorris: right back at you đ
user: I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS STILL
user: idk if i should be happy or cry
user: nOt him making her smile đŠ that should be me
user: i wouldâve gotten back with her too, i get it, lando
oscarpiastri: okay, this is cute ⌠i guess
âł landonorris: you guess?
georgerussell63: đ
user: they really hard launched their relationship just like that
carlossainz55: whereâs the surprise?
âł yourusername: đ this is why iâm taking lando back from u
âł landonorris: technically, youâve always had me đ
maxverstappen1: from friends, to lovers, to exes, to fuck buddies, to lovers again ⌠cute
âł user: does this confirms these fuckers never stopped seeing each other?!?? đđ
âł user: nOt max exposing them đ
âł user: max, youâre telling me that these two have been hooking up even after they broke up?!?? đ¤
âł maxverstappen1: đđź
user: that last post is cute tho đŠ
user: i NEEDED this!
user: ynlando nation rise!! our favs are back together đ
maxfewtrell: get it đ
user: i still cannot believe this is real
user: i guess this technically confirms they ended on good terms when they broke up the first time
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I'm not that well known that this'll be really seen but I've been thinking about this for like A WHILE-
since I'm a musician and I'm doing a music related course in uni and since the SaSi hyper fixation has me in a chokehold it got me thinking...
THE SIDES IF THEY WERE IN A BAND (or were musical artists idk)
use these for Ur band Aus or something idk
also I'm thinking of making a part 2 of like side duos and what types of songs they'd make if they collab'd so lemme know if U want that
Roman
bro would definitely would be on the vocals Ong
he'd probably know many classical instruments like violin or a flute (this is more cus of aesthetic purposes)
he'd be a PAIN to work with in the studio ngl
his way or no way, and if it's not his way he has a tanty
during sound checks or tuning other instruments he'd just riff obnoxiously (everyone would tell him to shut the fuck up)
as a solo artist he'd probably make theater like songs or just some girly pop songs
Sabrina Carpenter is his inspo (used to be Beyonce but uh..... I think we know why that isn't the case anymore)
would probably be a good person to ask for lyrics
would practice his thank you speech for Grammys even if he's not even nominated
Logan
ngl he'd be the one behind the mixing desk
if not he'd probably know piano/keys or bass since he's not the type of to be over the top (no one pays attention to the bass which SUCKS CMON GUYS-)
more fascinated on the production side of music
he's the one setting up the equipment since everyone else is "too stupid" to help (maybe besides virgil but we'll get to him soon)
by the end of a sesh he has a headache cus he has to get Roman and Remus to STOP FUCKING SCREAMING OMFG-
soloing he'd probably make lo-fi chill music to study to or something like Pink Floyd or maybe even some Radiohead songs or Billie Eilish songs
he'd research certain topics for lyrics.
WORD ASSOCIATION GAME AH RAPPING (think One Week by Barenaked Ladies)
Virgil
(ok I'm really excited to do this one since virgil and I r really similar)
bro SLAYYYYYYS the electric guitar and bass but is too nervous to really admit it or really play in front of others
has probably had many panic attacks after messing up alot (which tbh same)
helps Logan with setting up equipment (he's the only one that Logan actually trusts with it)
also knows drums??? (I'm also a drummer and he's literally me let me live my life)
DISTORTION PEDALSSSSS
virgil: "I dunno if I can do this guys like really I'm not that good I should just lea-"
patton probably: "Awh, c'mon Virgil! you got this! it's gonna be ok!
Virgil: "well i-if you say so..."
*proceeds to absolutely shred TF out of the guitar*
knows how to do vocal fry screams (metal screams) and does it alot
Remus and virgil Collab ALOT since they're kinda similar in taste
by himself he'd make emo music or any type of like emo rockish song which honestly I think is a surprise to no one
dream collaborator is Gerard way
many many stickers on his guitar
Patton
honestly doesn't really care what instrument he gets he just wants to have fun
vocals and rhythm guitar most of the time whilst virgil has lead (he's gotta let his bestie have his spotlight)
always brings snacks to the studio even tho Logan always tells him not to (he wants the studio to be nice and neat)
wants to Collab with EVERYONE (besides the obvious bad ones ofc)
if the songs they're making as a band are slow and melancholy in the slightest, the water works will start FLOWINNNG ONG
soloing he'd make kids songs or just songs that r just obnoxiously happy or marketable (or something that sounds like the Beatles)
would also write sad songs when he needs to express his feelings, thanks to virgil for giving him advice
always asking the other sides to Collab and make acoustic covers of songs (especially with Janus, virgil and Roman)
Remus
(again, excited for this one cus he my fav and also were similar)
oh god no.
hed be on drums (twinning:3) but would also know guitar
GOD HELP U IF UR EVER IN A ROOM WITH REMUS AND THERES ANY INSTRUMENT IN SAID ROOM
he is trying to make everyone annoyed by just making the LOUDEST amount of noises (He's slamming his arms on the piano rabidly, he's putting the guitar amps on full and playing all strings as hard as he can, etc)
bro hits the drums H A R D
has probably broken a kick drum a few times(it's a wheel spin on who he has pay for it between Logan, Janus and Patton)
BANNED from using the production equipment for obvious reasons.
messes with the equipment anyways
the BEST at metal vocals (taught Virgil how to do it)
sings songs but replaces the lyrics with inappropriate words
twinning with Roman, when the others r trying to sound check or tune their instruments, he's SCREAMING IN THE MICS LIKE A LUNATIC
soloing, he's either making the type of metal where the vocals r just screaming vocals where no one knows what he's saying (maybe like death metal???), the most cuntiest sex songs like Aisha erotica or just songs that sound like "I staple tapeworms on my penis" (I kid U not this is a real song, here it is for referenceâ)
virgil and Remus Collab alot (I said this before but i can't help but think they're besties)
Janus
bro would be the KING of jazz in the mindscape
he'd probably do vocals, saxophone, violin, cello and keys/piano
always comes to the session late. its all about him so everyone else doesn't matter.
if one of the other sides can't make it for some reason, Janus would take their place (tho realistically all of the sides CAN mimic eachother, I feel like Janus does it better than the others since he practices ALOT more)
also messes with the equipment but doesn't go as elaborate as Remus, he just does the simple and subtle things
fights with Roman ALOT about the stupidest of things
kinda an asshole to work with depending on who U r
Logan: "hey, Janus can you just move the mic further away from you please?"
Janus: "of course.." *proceeds to purposely move the mic closer to himself just to fuck with Logan*
soloing, he'd make songs like frank Sinatra or Peggy Lee or something, just very jazzy bluesy type things.
likes to Collab with Patton but won't ever admit it (as you can tell I loved the into the unknown vid)
will ALWAYS supply the wine mostly for him and Logan cus they fucking need it-
and C!Thomas is just the manager if Logan isn't it already
and that's it idk
#sanders sides#thomas sanders#sasi#patton sanders#logan sanders#roman sanders#virgil sanders#remus sanders#janus sanders#Spotify
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also, second one (cause i couldnt resist)
if u seek amy! i think thatll be fun
my hobby is reading and playing the guitar!
i think i read like fifty books last year..
my fav books are pjo tlt (its nostalgic ok!!) and the hunger games series
i like to play mostly taylor swift and gracie abrams songs on the guitar!
i basically steal my sisters guitar whenever i want to play cause i dont have my own lol (im better than her)
my favorite taylor swift song is youre on your own kid
my favorite gracie abrams song is feels like
my favorite color is yellow (pretty obvious i think) it reminds me of sunshine and just overall happy things yk?
my favorite season is spring! the flowers start blooming and theyre so pretty (downside are the bugs)
i have a lot of favorite shows: stranger things, brooklyn 99, the good place, modern family
my favorite subject is chemistry! i love learning about the world around me and its properties etcetc
some random stuff about my personality: i get distracted so easily its a nightmare to study, i am an emotional wreck i cry easily, definitely a night owl, hufflepuff, daughter of poseidon
i dont mind if u pick someone from a book i dont recognise, that will just give me incentive to read it!!!
oh forgot to mention im a straight girl
love uuuu and congrats again!!!
⚠࣪ ďšđďšđďšâš ࣪ Ë
CORASONâ.á
⢠âI love you, okay, darling!â
a/n: okay but the way the ship name is corason? which sounds so close to corazon? which means like âmy dearâ in italian, I think?? MADE FOR EACH OTHER MUCH đ¤đ
I think youâd best match with jason grace!
I mean, daughter of poseidon x son of jupiter? hello?? PERFECTION!!
jason would learn to play the piano while you play the guitar, so you guys could play music together
he LOVES laying on your stomach while you read on your bed and run your fingers through his hair
^ sometimes, he even falls asleep like that, and you both slowly shift into cuddling
he definitely hypes you up to finish your goodreads reading goal, if not exceed it (what can I say? heâs jason grace)
he definitely went to the ballad of songbirds and snakes movie with you (supportive bfs even when they have no idea what you read/watch >>)
he once asked you why you love yoyok by taylor, and straight up bawled while you explained to him what the song meant
heâs a very sunshine-y person, just like you, so when you guys are together, leo pretends to faint and says âtoo much sun! iâm getting sunstroke! help!!â and he thinks heâs really funny (iâd laugh, ngl <3)
come springtime, he lets you put all the flowers you collect over the summer into his hair
^ he also does the rapunzel braid on your hair and puts in matching flowers in it
(he drives away the bugs for you, dw!)
in an au, heâd never have heard of any tv shows, but after hearing you yap to him about them, he watches them ALL and makes notes about them too (about what? only he knows.)
okay, here weâre going off the rails so badly, but itâs a very ooc and personal hc of mine: jason sucks ASS at geography and chemistry. he will literally breakdown at the very thought of them.
he gets you to help him out with the chemistry part, and he teaches you math (if youâre not good at it already)!
he makes sure you donât let yourself get burnt out while studying, and also makes sure you donât get distracted and procrastinate
he comforts you at any time of the day: you say it, heâll be over asap to give you free cuddles with your favourite chocolates & drinks
sometimes, he doesnât even need you to tell him. heâll just. know. when youâre feeling off. and his jacie senses tingle, and he calls you up and goes, âis it cuddletime?â and then drives over
while youâre a night owl, heâs an early bird (he must teach me his way, tho, because h o w)
^ you stay up till 2-3 am reading/studying and wake up by 9 or 10 am, while he sleeps by 10 pm and wakes up by 5 am to the dot
so you guys leave each other sticky notes before going to bed for the other one to see when they wake up
you guys 100% go on bookstore dates (he buys you everything you can carry on your own), library/study dates (especially while grinding during finals szn), museum dates (to mock the statues), beach dates (so he can get mesmerised while watching you do silly little tricks with the water and talk to the fishies), etc.
his love language is 101% physical touch & acts of service <3
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Hiii - wanted to say first thing first I love your art style, it's so dynamic and fun and those color palettes? Stunning ^^
And second thing second, just some food for thought if you ever want to get angsty about Jerry and Dean, coffee by Chappell Roan sounds like it was written about their break up specifically and I can't stop thinking abt it dndnden
*Cue me losing my mind*
Hiii- they say flattery gets you everywhere and turns out with me, it gets you animatics- jkjk but I do appreciate the kind comments ^^
Iâll put up the animatic separately and take the opportunity to leave the preamble here to keep the video post neat bc until someone tells me to shut up and just post art- Iâm gonna ramble⌠So hereâs the commentary you didnât ask for along with my favourite panels:
First off- You turned me into a big time Chappell Roan listener which is great bc I need music recs to fix my listening habits before Spotify wrapped drops. My roundup last year was shameful⌠Red Wine Supernova is my new dish washing song.
Even tho itâs not the songâs vibe I kept the content as silly as I could for my own sanity. I donât love getting too deep into the serious/sad side of M+L for a few reasons but I do find it all very interesting. Point being this song was too good to pass up doing something a bit bigger for.
Ngl tho- this did have me pulling out hair at multiple points. I never colour animatics, rarely even tone them- but you mentioned colour palettes and I was determined to deliver so pardon the messy colouring but (that was the tradeoff) I did not have it in me to stay in the lines. Iâm choosing to be kind to myself and opt to call it an artistic choice and not midway burnout. And nothing was gonna get me to open after effects/premiere not even the janky ass golf ball OML this only makes sense if u watch the video.
There are parts of this Iâm SO happy with and others I hate. I think itâs really obvious which sections I started losing steam on but overall I lowkey like the end product. Nothing I make will ever be good/perfect- this was one hell of a practice in accepting that lmao- but I can still be ok with the work problems and all yknow? I very nearly shelved this completely bc I got so worked up about the maybe 5 panels I dislike out of 106 total. Counting them was eye opening to ask myself: youâre gonna let that small a ratio stop you from sharing this after putting in days and days of effort? The insecurity goes deep and TBH getting asks has been a nice way of working through it since I post the art I make for answers no matter what only bc I KNOW someone out there wants to see it. It might not sound it but itâs actually quite positive.
Also, although I feel Iâve done my fair share of reading, Iâm no expert. So if anything is really off point- sorry my bad (I wonât fix it tho bc I cannot physically stand to look at this another second lol)
I tried to stick to real things found in articles/books/photos/interviews etc bc outside of obviously fictional AUs Iâm not super into making stuff up about them (and who needs to I mean the legit stuff is already insane enough) Sure I framed the events in specific ways to suit the song and some aspects are fictionalized (mainly bc the referenced written accounts lacked detail to draw 100% faithfully from anyhow) but otherwise I got my sources cited.
ANYWAYS⌠sorry for hijacking this answer I need to learn to chill out. Irl Iâm a pretty reserved talker so you can tell Iâm in a comfy place when I let loose and blather on endlessly lmao brevity is not a skill I possess.
You were probably expecting illustrations or smth but I hope what I came up with is still somewhat alright AND please donât let my complaining fool you, I genuinely loved making this.
One FINAL Relevant Note: the line ânowhere else is safe every place leads back to your placeâ is gut wrenching. Youâre so right about this song perfectly describing the break up. They always came back to each other and thereâs something so devastating about that kind of haunting human connection.
OkAY Iâm done promise- I thought Iâd implode if I didnât get all that out
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For your most recent ask game:
Can you go through CarcarĂĄ? I love that fic so so much and itâs one of the only Strabo centric fics on ao3
hiii grace, tysm for the ask!! and ofc!! also, tysm, I'm so glad you like that fic <33 but alright:
my favorite scene: the scene where strabo is taking care of the twins, the collector knocks on the door and he scared him out! sometimes I catch myself rereading it because of how much I enjoyed it (plus, how I think it shows how young strabo is; he's just a teenager, but has to act as someone much older to keep things under control and safe in their house). also, honorable mention for the scenes of strabo and vesta in that car!
my favorite chapter: that's a tough one, but I would say the second one. I enjoyed a lot developing the relationship between sejanus and strabo, how hard strabo is trying but it doesn't matter because he keeps hurting sejanus again and again, how much he wants to be a good father but it's simply not enough. he has a lot of love for sejanus, and you can see it so clearly, but that love does nothing but hurt his son.
hardest scene to write: the scene of strabo and sejanus having the talk in sejanus' room after the arena incident, but, specially, this bit of dialogue:
"At your age, Sejanus, I had dropped out of school. I sold weapons I made until the calluses on my fingers bled because I needed to support my family." "And where is your family? I never met any of them. Not even when we lived in District 2. Did you do to them what you do to me? Hurt them and then play the victim? That's all you know how to do." Sejanus talked too much. Strabo clenched his fists. "So that's it?" his voice came out bitter, even hurt. "You think it's worth saying these things to your own father all because of a boy from the Districts? All this because of a boy from the Districts?" "He wasn't just a boy from the Districts," Sejanus's voice was choked when he spoke. "You barely knew that boy, Sejanus. You went to school together for some time, and that was it." "But I could have known him. I could have. He could have been everything. If you hadn't ruined my life."
favorite character to write in the fic: STRABO. before carcarĂĄ, I've only written strabo in a more direct way in some bits of dialogues in my pa said shoot, and for the carrie au (tho I don't really count the carrie au because it's not how I envision him 100% in canon, as this was a very different situation etc etc). carcarĂĄ was my first time writing him in a more direct way, and I discovered how much FUN is writing that man. he's rageful, he's paranoid, he's a loser, he has anger issues, he has issues, he's a dumbass. he's rlly the funniest character I've written in a while.
favorite dynamic to write in the fic: strabo and the twins!! I rlly wanted to write more of them, ngl! I liked too much the idea of strabo being a parentified sibling, and the twins loved him so much, they adore him with all their hearts
why I chose the title: the title comes from a brazilian song called carcarĂĄ! it's a really old song, and it's about a bird that's famous in the northeast brasil area! that area, in specific, has a harsh climate and living conditions, and the song is about the bird being willing to do anything it needs to survive. tho the song is about the bird, it serves as a metaphor for the northeastern immigrants in southeastern brasil, and everything they were willing to do to survive. on top of that, the vibes of the song remind me of vaquero culture, and for some reason I think it fit the imagery I had in my head!
a fun fact about the fic: I ended up doing a playlist for strabo based on it đ
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ngl.. imagine an twiddlefinger cover with this silly au that I remembered making about:
Lovesick Bread! Swaysway -
Emmy -
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â˘
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The song would be called like L0VES!CK or something like that- not good with tiles.
Canât think of lyrics tho- probably something like this:
after all..
of the wasted episodes
need to get a taste of your heart
need a little taste of your blood
then we can finally be together
youâre everything that I ever wanted
just a single kiss and iâm through
thereâs no need to beg or bargain
because all I need is you
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The Lore:
Swaysway decided to eat the love loaf when no one was looking in the garage, after eating a bite of it.. Emmy suddenly walked into the garage b/c she was looking for Sway and she sees Sway on Lovesick Mode. Making Sway falling in love with her and them suddenly had to rap battle and Sway singing lyrics while Emmy looked terrified.
Swaysway with long hair was inspired by my friend who drew Swaysway with long hair
Emmy belongs to me
Swaysway belongs to Breadwinners
Uh, I guess thatâs all I can tell- enjoy the designs, AU and the lore. Not sure if this should become an fnf song- I would love it to become one b/c that would make me happy ngl. I miss this AU.
Btw, forgot to mention that thereâs like.. 2 endings lel
#breadwinnersart#breadwinnersfanart#breadwinners#fnf#oc#oc x canon#oc x cc#ducks- am I right?#AU#artists on tumblr#digital art#fnf stuff I guess?
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j3 BEGGING j4 to leave the j2j3 hookup out of the memoir is so good. like itâs bad enough but maybe understandable and forgivable that he slept with their manager. all of them were sleeping with porter, they were all being played by him and trying to seek his favor as a way to crawl out of the burning embers of their band by the end of it. but j2? bluejay? their little songbird?? what purpose could that serve except to get back at j4 for being cold to him. i think in this verse the j2j3 hookup occured while j4 was on some mountain retreat trying to find herself/rediscover her passion for music after an exhausting tour that had her and j3 at each othersâ throats.
Fkdksksklakds YEAH NGL J2j3 hookup happening while j4 was discovering herself TOTALLY tracks. And itâs like. J4 making the choice to try and disentangle herself and reconstitute herself as her own person (bc sheâs always gonna keep wanting to do that) meanwhile itâs like J3âs caving to I want everything impulses. I want to understand the thing you did that hurt me so why not. Let me decimate my own life and yours.
And the thing I love abt J2âs involvement in this is when he gets to be a little bit messy bc itâs like. This is not a version of their life where theyâre trapped in Jaceâs stupid basement under threat of dispellment and j4 or j3 running straight into Bluejayâs arms for some fucking. Meager semblance of pleasure and understanding to cope. didnât HAVE to be the strategy of choice and they both did it anyway. And Bluejay partook anyway. And even tho I just said theyâre not trapped in the torment nexus but also to some degree maybe the torment nexus never goes away bc itâs like. Heâs so suckered into jaceporter hell that SURE! Maybe he sees LJ3 and itâs like oh so another perfect duo who make me feel confident and secure and complete. Maybe I can catch a glimmer of THAT if I canât have Jaceporter.
And like. It kinda hurts that when j3 does his romcom beat grovel to j4 that itâs clear j2 falls under the category in J3âs life of âflings that didnât mean anything where I fucked around just to feel somethingâ. But like. What are you gonna do. This was always gonna happen. I exist to be a stepping stone for other people. And like. It sucks that he has to be collateral in this bc they have each other meanwhile heâs still getting ghosted by j4 abt the whole thing. But he can do anything with a broken heart right.
Thereâs ONE song in their reunion album that is mainly a j2 special that the fans pick up have âis thisâŚ. About j3â vibes and everyone is like youâre crazy. That would never happen. Stans are gonna stan again.
Unrelated to Jace + the Jaces au but it is continually funny that everyone including LJ3 is like oh Bluejay is so perfect and adorable he canât even rebel in any way that matters meanwhile heâs in the middle of the torment nexus of two pivotal relationship dramas
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happy holidays :D
favorite fic you wrote this year
favorite writing song/artist/album of this year
Oh geez these are toughies
I think of this year my fic has to be the entire dadsy of two au!!authors!!!
...what do you mean that doesn't count? What do you mean I have to choose? WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS ALMOST BEEN A YEAR???????
Anyways uh-- I think my favorite as of right now is either Our Trio's Down to Two or The Monsters Gone, He's on the Run. Both I believe are excellent character studies of kid MK and kid Mei and provide such neat perspectives of such difficult situations for kids to handle. I really adore them so much oughhhh (also I loved writing Sandy he's so nice I miss him)
My favorite band to write to has been The Crane Wives for the longest time, but indie band Autoheart is slowly climbing up there ngl
Fav song probably ended up being A Sadness Runs Through Him tho bc it ended up being my #1 on my Spotify wrapped lmaoooo we love some good angst and character dives
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Fic Writer 20 Questions
thanks for the tag @babygirlbridger đ¤đ
1.) How many works do you have on ao3?
40 đśđťââď¸ I am supposed to have more but I archived some a while ago because they were so bad
2.) Whatâs your ao3 word count?
572,080
3.) What fandoms do you write for?
I've written for haikyuu but I'm not really in that fandom anymore so now I mainly write for star wars & red white and royal blue. occasionally marauders fandom too.
4.) What are your top five fics by kudos?
paper rings - jegulus
somethin' stupid (like, "I love you") - jegulus
english lover affair - firstprince
golden says of yore - jegulus
running through rose thorns - firstprince
6.) Whatâs the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
definitely until the sunrise hold me tight. sometimes I wonder what I was high on when I wrote that.
7.) Whatâs the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
paper rings <33
8.) Do you get hate on fics?
nope, never gotten it.
9.) Do you write smut? If so what kind?
I started a while ago and it's lowkey soo fun ngl đ¤ I usually used to avoid writing it but. not anymore.
10.) Do you write cross overs? Whatâs the craziest one youâve written?
oh boy. I used to. my very first famous fanfic was called fragile world. used to post it on Instagram and wattpad. it included *clears throat* shadowhunters, glee, 13 reasons why, skam, eyewitness đ§đťââď¸ but in my defense I was, what, 12-13? I have CHANGED.
11.) Have you ever had a fic stolen?
yeaa it was kiss in the kitchen. someone reposted it on wattpad without my permission and gabby found it and told me. they did take it down after I told them to tho.
12.) Have you ever had a fic translated?
YEAH!! made me so happy.
13.) Have you ever cowritten a fic before?
well usually me and yana come up with the plot of my fics together sometimes. there's this one jegulus fic based on a couple of hamilton songs I wanna write and yana came up with more than half of the plot so yeah!! that counts!!
14.) Whatâs your all time favourite ship?
I think firstprince. they're just so. *muffled sobs*
15.) Whatâs a WIP youâd like to finish, but doubt you ever will?
in 2021 I started writing iwaoi attack on titan au. I had outline ready, I wrote 2 chapters out of 5 and all of that. then I never continued it. it still exists in my docs but I forgot half of the plot so I doubt I'll ever finish and post it but who knows. never say never.
16.) What are your writing strengths?
writing angst?? Idk I think I'm quite good at that for a girl who has never had her heart broken (in a romantic sense)
17.) What are your writing weaknesses?
DESCRIPTIONS. god I HATE describing things. I'd rather die than describe anything.
18.) Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?
I mean, I don't think I'll succeed (unless it's in georgian which is my native language) and considering that I mess up english sometimes, maybe it's for the best if I just stick to one language đđ
19.) First fandom you wrote for?
one direction. I was 9 y/o. write it in a notebook with a sparkly pen. it was called "love."
20.) Favourite fic youâve ever written?
I have a couple so here's the list idc
paper rings
english love affair
sacred touches & wasted days
the end is here
better than revenge ('cause he's like so whatever)
champagne problems
(I'm too lazy to attach links to all of them so here's my ao3)
again, I hate tagging people so pls do this if u wanna mwah<3
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HI LI â¤ď¸ i hope u good day have yes âźď¸
1) top3 songs to make u feel like u rule the world
2) favourite bp/zb1 quote ?
3) give me 1 cat name
4) whats a quote u go by ?
5) do u like mint choc ? (the answer is yes)
6) orange or apple juice (the answer is apple)
7) what inspires your work ?!?
⢠okay li ily, congrats on 400 followers âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸
i had a stroke reading that first sentence but HI FAITH đŤśđť
1) bad habits by cravity , prism by the boyz n ego by the boyz âźď¸
2) arhhegdh idk the only thing my brain can process rn is osuke doing his silly little totoro sound in his pr video
3) all the cat names i can think for r in my 1st language n not creative ,, if i ever had a cat i'd name it jotaro tho ngl (ik ik looser jjba fan back at it again) or mocha like the sanrio character
4) this very deep n interesting quote honestly (if u go google translate it n start wondering wtf is wrong with me thats on u)
5) i've never tried it !! unfortunately im a rlly picky eater (autistic) n very sensitive to strong flavors like mint (autistic) BUT if theres some kind of mint choco that tastes more like choco than mint TELL MEâźď¸i'll find it n try it so i can be part of the mint choco discourse
6) APPLE JUICE ALL THE WAYâźď¸âźď¸ i dont like orange juice it makes me want to barf
7) being delusional ! im not even joking , before branching out to reader insert fics n smaus i started out as a self insert writer , my google docs is basically only self insert fics n has been like that since i was 13 (i have a ~30k words ateez fic i started in 2019 n a 10k words the boyz maverick au those two r my pride n joy , only one is nothing in comparison) do i need therapy ? yes . is writing self insert fics a lot more fun than therapy ? also yes !
thank u faith ilyâźď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸
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*drops my url đĽşđđ*
url meme
Do I Follow Them?:Â ofc
Why Did I Follow Them?:Â i think we were oomf-in-laws so i followed bc i liked ur writing!
Do We Role Play?:Â yes
Do I Want To Role Play With Them:Â ofc, i enjoy how you portray each of your muses! it's wild how good u are at all of them
An AU Idea For Our Muses: i think it depends on muse but maybe if there's a verse where mai lives that would be interesting. i think the manga doesn't do a good job of exploring her trauma, but their experiences as women in conservative clans/upbringings would def be something to explore. ig nobara lives verses is more of a universal thing tho haha. would be interesting if she lived but lost her technique if her soul was touched đ¤
A Song For Our Muses:Â ngl i have no clue. im so bad at song qs
Do I Ship Our Muses?:Â we don't have anything going with our muses but i do enjoy ships that involve the characters we write! i can
What I Think About The Mun:Â i love your banners and headers!!! as good as ur writing fr... also i enjoy ur sense of humor that video (u know the one) was also on my fyp so đ
Overall Opinion:Â i recommend rubii's blog to others!! they are friendly and versatile with their writing.
Blog Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10
#getsusekaii#ooc; meme#ig the mai one doesnt have to be an au but yeah interesting content#not to slander gege but fuck gege
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donât be sorry for the late reply đ đŤľđź itâs fine !! yayyy I hope that youâre having a great time in AUS hihi
thank youuu ! itâs not even exam period Iâm just really tired and stressed because I feel like Iâm doing everything wrong (even tho Iâm not lol) but really thank youđŤśđź
aespa concert was so much fun !!!! I had a great seat and everything, the girls were so pretty the show was perfect. I fell in love with Giselle and fell harder with winter đŤ đŤ
YAY THE MCOUNTDOWN WAS AMAZIIIING, honestly I went there just knowing zerobaseone, Taemin, dream and psy songsđ Ateez was there, El7zup, treasure, k-tiger, dreamcatcher and shownu x hyungwon.
not gonna lie since the concert I canât stop listening to ateez music, they were so amazing (and I fell in love with Mingi đŤ )
but the concert was amaziiing too, I still canât believe I saw dream for the second time this year đ
-for the dress, there is no theme. since itâs a religious mariage and everything weâll just have a lil dinner but i really donât know how to dress đlike i donât want to be overdressed but not underdressed (?) either
GLOOM HANDS ARE LITERALLY MY NIGHTMARE !!???? they are so scary like i canât đ whenever i see them my heart start beating so fast lol
itâs always such a pleasure to me to talk with you uhuhu đĽ˛đ
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i was! it was a short but REALLY fun trip and i got to see the university i'll be headed to next year. NGL it really looks like hogwarts and that makes me SO happy like it's so different from anything i've experienced before!
i do understand that impostor syndrome can get the best of us but!! just remember that you're doing your best and that's all that matters! ofc academic performance is always important but don't let it be the thing that defines your life and your happiness as in the end there are definitely more important things than getting the best grades. as long as you're sure you're trying your hardest, you can't ever go wrong! that said, i'm sure you'll do excellently and i'm rooting for you! hopefully once the school year winds down (is that soon?) you'll be able to relax and give yourself a physical and mental reprieve.
i'm so glad you got to see so many talented groups! esp aespa and dream â it must have been SO surreal seeing them! do you have any more concerts lined up for yourself this year? :o i hope that even more people get to visit your area so you'll be able to go! i actually like a few ateez songs but don't listen to them regularly. what are your favorites?? recommend me some good music!
i completely understand the dress thing :( sometimes it's hard to find the right balance even if you have free reign. actually, i feel like having free reign makes it even harder for some reason because at least if there were like strict rules you'd have a clearer idea of what you could or couldn't do... but i'm sure you'll find the nicest dress for you; you're gonna look gorgeous!! (describe it to me once you find the perf one!)
SAME I HATE THAT THERE ARE EYES ON THE PALMS?? LIKE I PHYSICALLY GAG EVERY TIME I SEE THEM and i used to get so stressed out by their screeching to the point that i'd mute the game :(((( like you alr have tentacle hands and weird eyes WHERE IS THE SCREAMING COMING FROM? U DONT HAVE A MOUTH? it's so unholy.......... sometimes i just climb up someplace they can't reach and hope they get tired and disappear so i can collect the dark clumps LMAO
it's always so nice to hear from you and i like to save your messages for when i have the most time to reply to you so i can really focus on everything you say and share. it's such a pleasure to hear the great things going on in your life and i can only hope you keep sharing more successes and joys with me!!
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