#it's LITERALLY me talking to myself for like 15 paragraphs

[mini-golden]

I've been mulling over the Labyrinth arc specifically the questers decision to allow Boris to come, with it being brought up again with Felix trying to adopt Boris. Little disclaimer I have not reread the Labyrinth arc so I will probably miss out on a couple details here.

A question that I really been trying to wrack my brain around is "what could they have done for Boris". I remember when the labyrinth arc was happening I was so mad at the questers for the way that they were treating Boris. Especially as a teenager myself (14-15 at the time so literally the same age as Boris). But now that I think about it I really do want to know what the questers could have done because I feel like no matter that choice Boris would have gone anyway.

At this point Boris had recently run away when he was told that he could not be apart of saving his brother, right. So he has already demonstrated that he can and will put himself and others in danger to be with Bendy. I know some people said that he should have stayed back with the circus crew and I believe the circus crew would have definitely tried their best but ultimately we have to remember that he's a street kid, he knows how to get around adults, I don't think that they could have truly stopped him from going if he wanted to. Again he has already demonstrated that he will pick bendy over everyone else no matter how close you are to him. To Boris it's truly always been him and Bendy against the world, he's already burnt bridges with the relationships he built up. He now has a rocky relationship with the adult figures that he trusted, he thinks they should despise him.

Now I want to make clear that I am absolutely not excusing the clear adultification that a lot of the characters do to Boris specifically in this arc. It still really pisses me off, he is an emotional 14 year old boy of course he did the terrible things that he did, his frontal lobe isn't developed he can't think his actions through as well as the adults around him can. Specifically looking at you Michael Bradley I know your traumatised but wtf that is a child. Kinda excluding Cuphead though, he was a real one with how he acted with this.

Coming back to Felix here. I think Felix should have really honed in on the decision that they made by bringing Boris along. Felix should have sat Boris down and really had a talk to him with how dangerous it was going to be. Obviously we know that the questers did not expect how truly dangerous it would be but Felix has already done extremely dangerous stuff before so I think he definitely could have better prepared Boris for what they were going into. With what I mentioned in the paragraph above though I think I can really see why Felix made the decision he did. He already told Boris no and it ended with him being severely hurt emotionally and being cursed physically. And we can see in Felix' POV how deeply that scared Felix. Although I really do wish that he sat Boris down and truly told him how he felt about Boris running away and how he only wants to protect Boris. Really try to make him see how much he cares for him and try and build up that trust again.

Honestly so much of this stuff that happens really they could have been resolved if these idiots would just talk to each other, the miscommunication in this series istg :').

Ultimately I don't think that there was a "right" or "correct" choice that would have ended in Boris being safe from the record. There were definitely things that characters could have handled a lot better but truly none of them could have been prepared for how messed up the Labyrinth really turned out to be. Also could the questers have even gotten the record without Boris? I feel like Boris was needed for the record I truly don't know how they would have gotten the record otherwise with how hard it was for Boris to get it.

I really wish I wrote down my opinions and feelings at the time to how I feel about the arc now that I'm an adult, because of how close in age to Boris I was so I could truly relate to some of the feelings he was feeling with the adults around them. And now as an adult I can see more why the adults around him made the decisions they made.

[opossum-by-night]

Things that I did today, in chronological order:

• Had therapy in which I did the thing where I start getting into something deep in the last 15 minutes of session, which left me kinda ~thrown off~ emotionally, and feeling bad about the general state of myself

• Had my weird overly-friendly old lady neighbor come into our back driveway/patio thing ALL THE WAY UP TO OUR WINDOW AND GLASS BACK DOOR to blow leaves, while I was sitting petrified on the couch in plain sight trying not to move so she wouldn't look in and notice me there

• Had a full-blown panic attack because immediately after the neighbor left, my dad sent me like 3 paragraphs of text yelling at me for not doing a thing that I've been constantly stressing out about doing since we moved here (while I was already fucked up from the above two happenings, and already feeling like shit about how much I struggle to do anything at all)

• Started generally feeling a bit better after the Raccoon got home, and we played some games and ate dinner

• Tried to put up some Christmas lights on the inside of the window at like 1am, and had a cat show up outside and start meowing at me through the window, and when I went outside to see if she had a collar (she did not), she started rubbing up against me and purring and letting me hold her and being an all-around Baby

• Put the cat in the half bathroom and woke up the Raccoon, in spite of him having to work in the morning and it being 1am, because I knew he would kill me if I didn't show him the cat

• Went with the Raccoon at 1:30am to the 24-hour vet up the street to check her for a microchip because we thought she might belong to someone in the neighborhood (no microchip, and also we suspect she's unspayed and pregnant)

• Sat with the Raccoon for like an hour talking about what to do with her, absolutely terrified that if we try to keep her it will end up like the last two times we tried to have a pet in the house - with me in a constant state of incapacitating meltdown and him trying to pretend he's not miserable with allergies - and traumatize both of us again by having to give her up to prevent me having a heart attack and/or total psychotic break

• Had the cat cuddle up happily in both of our laps while I cried about the above, purring and headbutting and generally making it infinitely harder to say a hard no to keeping her

• Put the cat back in the half bath with a plan to talk about it more tomorrow and decide what to do

And now it's almost 5:30am and I don't know what the fuck to do with myself. Self-pitying rambling below the cut.

The Raccoon was so wonderfully understanding and sweet and kind, and reassured me that he would love me and support me even if the worst did happen again. But that almost made it harder?? Because I feel so incredibly fucking guilty about my disability depriving him of things he wants (and me of things I want), especially pets. But I can't put us through rehoming again, even if he says it's okay. I still think about it regularly and hate myself for it even though I know I shouldn't. So I can't decide if I'd hate myself more for doing that again, or for being too scared to ever try again and just resigning both of us to being petless for the foreseeable future. Or, maybe even worse - if we did keep her and it ended up being *more* bearable, too much so for me to be able to justify the trauma of rehoming her, but still moderately miserable and overwhelming enough that I can no longer feel at ease in my own home for the next ~15 years.

And I know there are literally millions of other cats and someday we could have our pick if we wanted to try adopting or fostering again, but the shitty mystical horse girl part of me feels like the cat distribution system has dropped her literally on our doorstep, and passing on her is somehow a mistake?? Like I've been presented with this opportunity to be whimsical and carefree and spontaneous and take in this cat that's as sweet as she could possibly be, and if I don't take it I will inevitably regret throwing it away??? And that's super irrational reasoning obviously, but I'm so fucking emotionally exhausted that I don't even know what to think at this point. And I doubt I'll feel clear-headed and certain in the morning either. Idk man. It's been a fucking day.

[roleplay-roulette-blog]

RP-Partner Wanted!

Hi there, my name is Hurricane, and I have about 15 years of writing experience under my belt. I'm currently craving fandom RPs but I'm also very open to create new OC's (MxM) and Worlds together! I roleplay on Discord on a private server.

Fandoms of Interest:

Arcane: Jayce x Viktor, Vander x Silco, Loris x Steb (I'd prefer to write the highlighted characters)

Banana Fish: Ash x Eiji

Dreamworks: Jack x Hiccup, Pitch x Jack, Bunnymund x Jack

Percy Jackson/Heroes of Olympus/Trials of Apollo: Percy x Nico, Will x Nico

Persona 3: Protagonist x Akihko, Protagonist x Shinjiro

Persona 5: Protagonist x Akechi, Protagonist x Yusuke, Protagonist x Ryuji

You can find more on my blog.

Is this you?

You are 21+, but preferably 25+ years old

You have at least some roleplaying experience and are interested in long-term RPs

You are LGBTQIA*-friendly or maybe even part of the community

I only write MxM relationships

You are willing to talk OOC about the RP when plotting is necessary -> This is not a must, but I love making friends with my RP-Partner! We can fangirl about our characters, our plot or just get to know each other!

You are willing to rp in a private Discord server or Google Docs. If you have a better option, we can always talk about them and figure out what's working best for us! My blog is only meant to find new partners or share writing-related interests. 

I usually write more paragraphs and consider myself literate. We don’t have to match in length, but I prefer quality over quantity. No One Liners, I need something to work with. 

If you lose interest in a plot, it’s fine, but please tell me so I won’t be waiting in vain for an answer. Maybe we find something else to write about; if not, that’s fine too. But please don’t ghost me. 

I enjoy writing darker themes from time to time and I’m fine with NSFW, but let’s talk about preferences and triggers. We both need to be comfortable in these situations!

Roleplaying/Writing is my passion, but I work full-time during the week. I usually manage to reply several times a week, sometimes even per day. I’d like my partner to have similar availability. If you’re up for it, we can always meet up for a ‘writing date’ and RP for a specified time.

If we’re roleplaying OCs, I’d like for us both to create new characters. I don’t like to recycle my characters and I usually don’t like to work with pre-set OCs that you use in other RPs. 

I'd love to hear from you! If you're interested, send me a DM!

[erisenyo]

Hello! You're like, the only author on ao3 who writes their stories in advance and who I follow, so excuse my whining here, please. Does it ever happen to you that you have a (conversation about the Thing here) in the first draft, and you just can't get around it? Because I'm feeling it very much myself and this is the first time I'm not doing chapter by chapter chaos and... well, I am missing the comments and losing the spirit. This convo is the base of all the other missing stuff, even if I try to move on, I'm still practically writing that one and. It shuts me down. Any ideas? Sorry for bothering you!

Hello anon!

So if I'm understanding your question right (and definitely let me know if I'm not!), you're asking how to plow through a stuck scene without the motivation and inspiration from the comments of posting as you go.

Which is a real struggle that I very much sympathize with! And I potentially have two answers, depending on if it's the stuckness that's getting you, or more the feedback side of things.

And in typical me-style, this answer is long, so I am putting it below a cut lol

On being stuck on a scene--if I truly can't get past it, it seems bogged down and boring and I'm just not excited for it anymore, I have a few strategies:

My tried and true is to go back 10ish lines or a few paragraphs before, even to the start of the scene, because a lot of times what I'm getting stuck on is that the scene needs a different narrative framing or lead-in (usually, for me, just starting more in the middle of things instead of giving all the exhaustive lead-in)

Sometimes a scene/convo flows better for me if I set it in a different location, between a different mix of people, or if I put some sort of action around it (a conversation between Sokka and Zuko about something purely plot-based can layer in lots of fun characterization if suddenly it's occurring while Zuko is trying to do work and Sokka is trying to get him to eat lunch at the same time)

A POV switch! Sometimes my current narrator is just the wrong one for this scene, because they know too much or not enough (I usually prefer the narrator who knows the least, so they can be learning along with the reader)

Sometimes I realize I don't actually need the scene, I just need to have the characters to reference or react to it after, and as long as I know that ABC happened I don't actually have to write it all out. (This can help make the pacing feel faster, too, and sometimes it feels easier and more interesting to fold the references and reactions into later scenes than to actually write it all out)

Specifically for exposition or something that's feeling infodumpy, finding ways to weave the information into other scenes can be really helpful. When I wrote To Open Every Door I worked a LOT at this, and I essentially ended up sketching out a chapter, having a list of like 10 or 15 or however many things I needed to convey by the end of the chapter (to establish worldbuilding, the status of interpersonal relationships, background, whatever), and then going through my rough draft and finding ways to drop those pieces into a character's reactions and thoughts, to fold them into dialogue, to have OCs saying things, basically weaving the exposition across the chapter instead of delivering it all at once

Talking it out! Literally just articulating what feels off or weird about a scene to someone (or like, your cat, or yourself) often helps me narrow in on what needs fixing, or start to form an idea on how to make it flow better (Thanks Ash lol, your support is invaluable even when you insist you did nothing)

This one is kind of silly, but...try working in a different format! I write in Word, but I plan out my outlines in a table, and brainstorm with bullets, and when I'm stuck I often break out Excel. Seeing the information laid out differently on the page helps me quite literally see it differently in a way that can help me think about it differently, too

And if at the end of all that I'm still stick...do I really need the scene? If so, why? What work is the scene doing (emotional, plot, characterization, worldbuilding, etc.)? A lot of times, understanding the purpose of the scene helps me figure out how best to convey the info, whether its another scene, a different version of the scene I'm stick on, or by refocusing the scene around some other element that's more exciting (like switching the plot into the background behind some characterization or interpersonal moment, or vice versa)

That was a lot! But if what's really got you losing momentum is the lack of feedback--that's totally understandable too! Writing can be a lonely endeavor, so some things I do...

Find a buddy to share it with, whether a hype man or a listening ear! Even if it's just on anon, feeding off of someone else's reactions and excitement can help me get excited and enthusiastic too

Did your commenters speculate and get excited for what was next in a way you found inspiring? Is there a way to replicate that by talking at a higher level about what you're writing so that people can get hyped for the scenario or talk about how it could go, or just add tags to a post that generate energy?

You can post updates along the way, like lines you're excited about or little scene snippets, or just talking about the fic in the tags where it fits. It can be a way to get little bits of feedback and engagement along the way (Meesh always with the eagle eye for my tags whenever I'm rambling about fics haha)

Share the things you're excited about! Whether it's a particular scene, a character dynamic, a trope, a bit of worldbuilding--it's a great way to find people who will get excited along with you, and it also helps me to focus on what got me wanting to write the fic in the first place. Sometimes I'm not the most enthused about writing another post-canon get-together requiring a bunch of setup exposition, but then I think about how fun the Zuko-Mai bestie dynamic will be, or the ridiculous angst of the boys pining for that one night stand they had at that masquerade that they don't realize is each other, and I get enthused all over again haha

And relatedly--hone in on what excites you about the story! Even if you don't share it, is there a scene you can't wait for? A particular interpersonal dynamic you can't get enough of? A twist or reveal you can't wait to share? Focusing on those exciting bits can help me keep my enthusiasm going

Mix up where you write--I rotate between writing on my commute, in my house in various locations, and in a coffee shop basically depending on how social I am feeling on a given day. If you're feeling a bit alone in the writing, maybe it would help to write in a library or cafe or park, or if you're feeling distracted maybe you need a quieter place, or pure just change of setting in general!

Maybe you post it! For me I need to write everything out beforehand, because the serialized posting format makes me hate writing in all ways, and also I get a lot of ideas as I go, where my first drafts very truly are working drafts and it's not uncommon for me to pause in the middle of like, Ch 12 to go back to Ch 2 to lay the groundwork for a scene, and then to Ch 5 to add the setup for a joke I'll land in Ch 14. (Or for me to realize as I edit that I included scenes with absolutely no follow-up that I can now add haha). But that approach isn't for everyone, and maybe you write a few chapters at a time and post them week to week, or maybe you post what you have now to get through this scene and then go back to writing all the rest out. Just cause you started thinking you'll write it all first doesn't mean you have to stick with it if it's not working and something about posting would shake you out of it!

That was...probably way more ideas than you wanted or needed, but let me know if any of them help! I'm crossing my fingers for you!

[hahafosh]

Book Review - いのちの車窓から

Was a bit hesitant on posting this but its my blog and I can post whatever i want!!! Anyways I just felt like I wanted to review a book I just finished reading so why not, lmao.

Title: いのちの車窓から

Author: 星野源 (Hoshino Gen)

Language: Japanese

Genre: エッセイ

Title literally translates to "From the Windshield of Life" which sounds kinda silly, so I'd probably go with "Peering from inside the window of life" or something, haha.

The book consist of 30 short essays, each about 4 to 5 pages long. A single piece took me about 10 to 15 minutes to read depending on the topic, which was perfect for my commute time to and from school.

Topics vary from talking about a specific person, to how the author feels about a certain event, subject, or even daily activities, which is an interesting peek into the life of a big name in the entertainment industry (in Japan at least). Just like all of us, Hoshino Gen is a regular person with likes and dislikes. And like us, he eats, sleeps, plays games and day dreams a lot. What really stood out to me though, was his sincere attitude towards just...being alive. There was a period of time where he had undergone surgery and took a long hiatus from his work as an artist, and perhaps it was that experience that shaped his view towards life.

Through the essays about his personal experiences, one could really feel his earnest desire to just be himself, to live a positive life and be a positive influence to others. The road towards that was certainly not full of sunshines and rainbows, but it warmed my heart to read about how he felt on his journey towards positivity. In a way, I felt encouraged as well to be more positive and true to myself.

Aside from the more personal anectodes, topics on certain people or subjects, for example a shiba inu, were fun to read. 11/10 could relate to very much. Shiba inus are cute, shiba inus are justice. Praise the squishy doggo!

Writing wise, it was an easy read. Had to use the dictionary sometimes to look up the meaning of certain words, or their pronunciation as furigana is scarce. Aside from that, the way each paragraph flows seamlessly into the next truly made the experience a good one. The tone is casual, like how one would write a diary, but written with enough clarity that reader could picture his state of mind at that point of time. I did notice however a tendency to use a specific connective word a lot, but I chalked it up to an author's specialty, as well as being a tool to express his spontaneous personality. I would say though that to fully appreciate the book, one would need a bit of knowledge and understanding of Japanese culture, on top of knowledge about well-known figures in the entertainment industry. I was not familiar with some of the people mentioned in certain essays (especially the comedians from an earlier era), so those did not resonate with me as much as other topics, but it was still a fun read nevertheless. The essay on Aragaki Yui, who would go on to become his wife a few years after the publication of this book, was really sweet in particular. From the bottom of my heart, I felt really glad that got together!

I'm really bad at book reviews so maybe I'll just stop writing here lol. I think book reviews are supposed to be objective?? but mine probably turned out to be too subjective LOL. Whatever I just think it's a good book! I highly recommend it to anyone who wants to start reading Japanese books! It's perfectly bite sized!!

Personally, I came to REALLY appreciate his songs after reading this book. I started listening to his songs out of curiousity, and found the lyrics to his songs to be really beautiful, which in turn made me want to try giving his essays a read. No regrets. Now I fully understand why his songs have this charm that hooks you in and lifts your spirits after listening to them. YELLOW DANCER is my favourite album, and reading about his inspiration behind the creation of it enhances my enjoyment of the album even more UvU)b

Can't wait for いのちの車窓から 2, which is slated to be released on 30th September!

P/S: The character on the cover art of this book subtly forms the number "1". Removing the cover jacket reveals a different character on the cover, which also forms the number "1". I thought that was really clever! I also did not notice this myself lol my mom pointed it out during a video call lol.

[findyourrp]

How To Train Your Dragon (OCxOC Doubles Encouraged)

How To Train Your Dragon (OCxOC Doubles Encouraged)

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I’m 18+ and All Participants must be 18+ and all characters must be 18+

Please allow me to introduce myself! My name is Kim and my timezone is CST. I rp in third person and am semi literate. I will write 2-4 paragraphs each character and just ask you write no one liners.

Now onto the rp. Let’s do this again! Anyways I’ve always loved How to Train your Dragon growing up and ive seen all the movies. My favorite character is Hiccup!!! Like next in line chief!!!! Of course this would be aged up so maybe after everything maybe him and Astrid break up? Like honestly i love him. And i just want someone who can play him. Like obviously being the son of Stoick working on dragon racing and such he’s gotta be muscular by now! And his personality? OH GOD! 10x more than what he was when he was 15!! Like I need him to dominate my oc but at the same time be the type that you touch her your dead. Like seriously I NEED IT!!! Heheh also I would like the rp to have 60/50 mature scenes and stuff. I can play anyone for you!! I do also want to talk about ocs and be friends and just get all cute with our Ocs hahaha and their respective partners.

Now Rules:

1. Be of Age because this is will have content not suitable for minors.

2. Next is reply length.. NO ONE LINERS

3. I'm a very enthusiastic person when it comes to rp, so please if you just want to write don't reach out. That may seem harsh but when writing I want someone who I can discuss head canons with, create playlists with and share thousand image Pinterest boards with...

4. Another is please please let me know if can’t rp or busy! And also please do the characters justice as I will also do the same for you!

I do work Monday- Friday from 7:30 to 4:00 and try to reply during the day but sometimes it can’t happen but I will let you know when I can reply however I am not available on some Monday evenings or Saturday Mornings but any thing other than that I’m free and I will let you know if I am not. I run on CST time. I also only rp on Discord

Thank you for reading! If you're interested please do let me know you want httyd rp not just I saw your ad. I have ton of them.

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[darkrpfinders]

Percy Jackson and HoO Fandom (OcxCC Only! Doubles Welcomed) Desperate!!!

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I’m 18+ and All Participants must be 18+ and all characters must be 18+

Please allow me to introduce myself! My name is Kim and my timezone is CST. I rp in third person and am semi literate. I will write 2-4 paragraphs each character and just ask you write no one liners.

OKAY WHERE ARE THE PEOPLE WHO DO CANON CHARACTERS WITH ORIGINAL CHARACTERS? Like don’t get me wrong I love OcxOc but I’d choose OcxCC any day over OcxOc.

Anyways I’ve always loved Percy Jackson growing up and I’ve read all the books. My favorite character is LEO FREAKING VALDEZ. Like BAD BOT SUPREME! Of course this would be aged up so maybe after everything maybe him and Calypso break up? Like honestly i love him. And i just want someone who can play him.

Like obviously being the son of Hephaestus working in the forge he’s gotta he muscular by now! And his personality? OH GOD! 10x more than what he was when he was 15!! Like I need him to dominate my oc but at the same time be the type that you touch her your dead. Like seriously I NEED IT!!! Btw my oc Is actually the daughter of Demeter! Heheh also I would like the rp to have 60/50 mature scenes and stuff. I can play anyone for you! I have to just say that I will not under any circumstances get play Octavian!! Like no! I do also want to talk about ocs and be friends and just get all cute with our Ocs hahaha and their respective partners.

Now Rules:

1. Be of Age because this is will have content not suitable for minors.

2. Next is reply length.. NO ONE LINERS

3. I'm a very enthusiastic person when it comes to rp, so please if you just want to write don't reach out. That may seem harsh but when writing I want someone who I can discuss head canons with, create playlists with and share thousand image Pinterest boards with...

4. Another is please please let me know if can’t rp or busy! And also please do the characters justice as I will also do the same for you!

PS. I have not read Trials of Apollo but have begun. I also only rp on Discord! Thank you for reading! If you're interested please do let me know you want PJO rp not just I saw your ad. I have ton of them.

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[elleseekswritingpartners]

searching for Jujutsu Kaisen writing partners (updated, never expires)

MDNI. Elle. 20+. GMT. discord/tumblr/docs. I'm a long-term roleplayer and I will literally send you memes and HCs and create Pinterest boards and google docs one hour after we start talking because I'm both stupid and unhinged.

i'm show-based and not too stressed about keeping things canon. i honestly don't even understand half of the lore, so if you want to get technical / heavily explore worldbuilding and lore i'm not your girl lmfao i just love the concept of jjk and characters and i don't feel inclined to dive deeper than that - but i do want plots in the jjk word, not aus.

what i want to write:

satoru gojo* x utahime lori satoru gojo* x f!oc megumi fushiguro* x f!oc or nobara kento nanami x f!oc* kento nanami x shoko leiri shoko leiri x m!oc hiromi higuruma x f!oc hiromi higuruma x shoko leiri (idk how but i think it'd be interesting) toji fushiguro x f!oc

im also open to: suguru geto x shoko leiri suguru geto x f!oc

suguru geto x satoru gojo but only if you're a chill person. i love the dynamic and would like to give it a go, but i'm not comfortable writing popular ships and i don't want to stress myself.

[more abt me + rules under the cut, for accessibility reasons]

about me + rules:

i'm 25+ years old. i only want to interact with people who are 20+. this is non negotiable. i enjoy the occasional nsfw hc and drabble but i don't expect to write a lot of smut, i just don't want to write with people who are underaged.

i have 15 years of writing experience, however, it's ok to me if you're new to roleplaying - we all start somewhere.

i don’t have trigger warnings and enjoy writing potentially triggering topics like manipulation and memory loss etc, but lets always be respectful.

i love to plot and brainstorm. if you tell me "whatever works for you" "i can do whatever you want" and give me nothing to work with, i'll stop replying.

i usually write 3 or 4 solid paragraphs but i don't care about the length of your replies as long as you give me stuff to work with. i think writing extremely lengthy replies can actually be a disservice to certain scenes because you end up with a ton of paragraphs each focusing on its own thing and it gets confusing. i don't know why people equate length with quality. keeping things short is good sometimes.

for me, ships are the priority, brotps are the VERY welcome bonus.

i'm NOT interested in only having one plot/ship with my writing partner.

i actually enjoy writing both men and women and i expect my partners to as well. it's blatant when someone is forcing themselves to write a character they don't want to write. pls don't put me through this lol, if you do i'll stop replying.

my philosophy is to look at the world that is provided to us and turning it into our playground, changing things however we see fit. if you care intensely about keeping things canon and getting every detail about events and character’s personalities right, we won’t be compatible.

it’s important to me to approach plots and characters with realism (if you’re someone who doesn’t look forward to the possible character growth/development coming from the disagreements in a ship, i’m not your girl), but i WILL conjugate that realism with more gringy elements (like love triangles, pinning, and accidental pregnancies) because i believe life is too short to completely deprive ourselves from it.

i’ve a very devoted roleplay partner. i know life gets busy but i’m someone who loves to share hcs and brainstorm and make pinterest boards. i don’t expect fast replies but unless my partner lets me know they’re going to be inactive, if i don’t have any sort of interaction with them for over a week (this can be something as simple as pinning something to our pinterest boards), i do feel a bit like shit.

ty for reading!! don't forget to say hi if you're interested. ✨

[astrobei]

Been binge-reading your stuff for about a week. Absolutely wonderful. Heartwarming. Love it. Can’t wait for the final chapter of a body in motion.

As a fellow writer, kind of, in other mediums, sometimes: are you more of a pantser or more of an outliner? What does your process look like, if you feel like sharing? Have a great day!

hi omg i’m sooo so so glad you’ve been enjoying my writing recently !! and that is such an excellent question let me try to answer this in a somewhat coherent way LOL

i don’t really have much of a Process in a more structured sense of the term because honestly. up until i started chapter 2 of abim i had never outlined anything before and my fics would kind of just be a stream of consciousness where i figured out what the next scene was going to be as i wrote. with abim chapter 2, i did make the most barebones outline (like 10 bullet points w 10-15 words each) just listing the scenes because it’s a bit of a heavier fic and i wanted to keep things as cohesive as possible !! (it was also the first fic where i’ve ever jumped around and written scenes out of order which is normally very hard for me to do so this helped me keep track of that) i know some writers live and die by their outlines and honestly i’m starting to get the appeal, at least for fics i know are going to be more plot heavy or chaptered, just for continuity, but for plotless fluff-centric fics, i haven’t ever and don’t really see myself making them !!

one thing that is a common denominator between all my fics though, outline or otherwise, is that they’re all built upon one or two ideas for a scene that i kind of work backwards from. for example, in a body in motion, the last scene in chapter 2 was like. the first one that came to mind when i thought of the fic idea and i really did just work backwards from there !! sometimes it’ll be the kiss scene but more often than not it won’t be and i’ll put off the kiss until i physically cannot any longer LMAO but there’s usually one scene that the whole entire fic is based around and i feel like this is a pretty common thing as well but that’s where i get most of my ideas from!!

other than that uhhh usually my process is: start fic, write way way way way wayyy too much dialogue/banter, realize im not even halfway but i’m already at the word count i thought the whole fic would be, say fuck it and add more dialogue, finally write The Scene, fumble my way through a kiss, then say thank god i’m done and then edit and hit post before i can think about it too much. yeah.

thanks for asking !! i’m sure u did not intend to get a multi paragraph breakdown of Literally nothing of substance at all but. i love talking about writing and the process so thank u for indulging me !!! :^)

[dreaming-marchling]

Candle rollerskate juicebox dice mushroom planet candy tooth icecream tomato bug flower

on a scale from 1 to 10, how much do you enjoy editing? why is that?

I think I'd have to go 5. Dead center because I really love the first like 15 times I read something lol. I re-read my writing a LOT in preparation for posting. So that initial edit when it's all really fresh and then later when I'm making it all cohesive to make sure it matches with the way the story flows is great. Then it gets really miserable and tedious. The final read through before I post is like dragging myself through mud.

describe your latest wip with five emojis

🌿🐻🐍🔒🌧️

share some personal lore you never posted about before

I don't talk about books much but I'm a huge reader outside of fics too. Like I own hundreds of books.

what stops you from writing more in your free time?

I have a hard time focusing. Fighting the "I feel emotionally blah, I'm just going to mindlessly scroll" thing is a battle some days.

share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings

I've not written it (yet) but I have kind of endless daydreams about Magnus using Pandemonium as an informal court for the warlocks (or just Downworlders in general but technically it's meant for the warlocks he leads) to bring him issues/requests. And then on nights when Alec is with him, this powerful Shadowhunter just drapes himself on Magnus, sits in his lap, sitting on the floor at his feet and laying his head on Magnus' leg... just not having to put on his Leader face and letting himself be Magnus' instead. Maybe only on Downworld night? And the Downworlders are unsure of how to take this but Magnus is very "he's surprisingly cuddly *shrug*" about it

name three good things going on in your life right now

I have two wonderful cats who make my home happier, I finally bought a new mattress (it's glorious) and though I'm dealing with some crap at work I do have a job that is not bad and allows me financial stability

post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character

I think this was the popular opinion and then the tide has since turned but I continue to loathe Nesta from the Court of Thorns and Roses series. The main justification after all those pages was like "you can't hate her, she hates herself" but like no, I can totally continue to hate her.

share some personal wisdom or a life hack you swear on

Steam a cut up head of cauliflower, slowly roast 5 to however many garlic cloves as you want in a few tablespoons of butter (or oil), combine, season, thin with a little water (especially pasta water if going on pasta) and then blend in a food processor for like a decade. Literally walk away and start cleaning up your kitchen. Blend until you worry for the motor. It'll transform into the fluffiest creamiest garlicky "alfredo" sauce that won't break and get all greasy when you reheat later. Great for batch cooking that requires reheating.

name three good things about a character you hate

Jonathan in Shadowhunters: It wasn't his fault really, he loved Clary, his little move while he was activating Clary and Jace's runes was super smooth

give yourself some constructive criticism on your own writing

I need to understand and internalize the difference between lay and lie. I can't forever go off what sounds right in my head and defying spellcheck. I'm sure some reader is like BITCH YES PLEASE lol

add 50 words to your current wip and share the paragraph here

“I will.” She promised. He hated dumping so much on her. Lying to the police, having to take care of Brian in the aftermath of something so major without him, calling everyone and having to tell their family and the team what had gone down… This was a lot to ask anyone.

They had no choice. Dom trusted her. He trusted her so fucking much.

do you have any pets? if you do, post some pictures of them

Unfortunately I am a weirdo who likes to keep all photographic evidence of my life off the internet but I do have 2 awesome cats. A tortie girl and a black boy who are littermates. They're 3 now. She never shuts up and he squeaks. She demands I wiggle the string constantly, he's literally got an anxiety disorder that in the last year has really let up its grip on him and he's like blossoming. They're great little monsters.

Thank you for asking!

[carochinha]

19 Questions for Fic Writers!

I got tagged by @storybookprincess, thank you so so so much!!!

1. How many fics do you have on AO3?

Roughly... 16. That's not bad. Quite a respectable number!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

328,674

Damn. That a lotta word. Wild to think a third of those words are from a single fic huh

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Bit of a lot of things. Hunter x Hunter and Daiya no Ace are my big ones, but I've also written for Kingdom Hearts, Haikyuu, Black Clover, Project Sekai and....... Homestuck.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

"A Very Hisoka Wedding" stands head and shoulders above anything else at 1,143 kudos, which is legit insane. This fic isn't close to being my best. It isn't close to being my most innovative. It isn't even the longest! And yet it has more Hits, Kudos and Bookmarks than anything else I've ever written. Wild. Following that, we have "(Country Roads, Take Me)Home for the Holidays" at 365, my actual magnum opus so far, "Kiss Me Once, Kiss Me Twice" at 321, a short Black Clover ficlet that somehow keeps getting love, "Weekend at Leorio's" at 295 and "Pink Love" at 256.

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I used not to respond to comments, but in the past couple of years I've been trying to respond to every comment I get. I like getting responses to my comments when I post on other fics, so I also want people to get that happiness. Besides, it's only polite!

6. What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

...what is angst, signed, a permanently happy ending girlie.

Anyway it's probably "Quadratum Has Pocky", a KH drabble I wrote for Pocky Day which did not leave me with a lot of space for happy endings.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Literally all of them LMAO

But I guess "Red Eyes, Take Warning", my HxHBB fic this year gets special mention by giving Kurapika, the fandom's tragic boy, a happily-ever-after.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Sometimes. Home for the Holidays got a couple of comments once we got to the spicy part about how I should have tagged which character topped. That was wild. I'm talking like, HUGE paragraphs.

But not usually, no.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I did once! It was the vanillaest M/M ever written, but I sure did write it!

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I do really like inter-sports-anime crossovers. I once wrote a Haikyuu x Daiya no Ace ficlet that was quite fun!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Not since I was 15 doing it myself translating my terrible Digimon fics into English lmao.

13. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

Favourite is a complicated word. All-time, however, isn't.

I've been an Akuroku girlie since 2005 and by GOD I will persist.

(the ship I most wish would become canon, however, is also from KH, but it's Soriku, which I've never even written about.....yet)

14. What’s a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

My Hunter x Hunter Praxis AU.

Huge AU, spanning five years, each of which focusing on a different set of characters, with highly specific references to a highly specific university culture from my country that like two people reading would understand. It's also technically a Reincarnation AU.

Yeah I'm never getting that written.

15. What are your writing strengths?

Apparently, characterization and making my character actions and plots seem believable in the context of canon. Which is good, because I really do strive for character voice matching the original, so I'm happy with this assessment by my readers LMAO

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

DESCRIBING ACTION.

If I ever have to write an action scene, I just don't. There is no combat in my fics, not because I dislike it, but because I can't write it lol.

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

Have done it. Will continue doing it when I find it appropriate. Helps when the POV character also isn't supposed to understand the language, because then you're just on the same page :D

18. First fandom you wrote for?

Digimon Adventure my beloved <3

(the fics themselves are also beloved, because although they're bad, I can see where I came from and how that shaped me into the writer I am today. My bad fics are a part of me and my journey just as much as my 100k word epics are.)

19. Favorite fic you’ve written?

Pausing + looking off into the distance.

You do realize this is an impossible question?

All the fics for me are... connections, within myself and with the people around me. Writing each one was a battle of finding the right words within me, the joy of sharing little snippets with friends, asking for help and bouncing off ideas. Listening to music and building the plot in my head as I walk, thinking about it as I fall asleep. Pouring my longing, my affection, my grief, and my hopes into these words, trying to connect with whoever will read them.

So I guess I'll say it's "All The Things He Said". It's the first fic I wrote for Daiya no Ace, a fandom I knew no one in. And I needed a beta. Trying to find that beta actually led me to finding one of my best friends, so I'm very thankful to this fic.

Anyway, tagging people! I'll tag @wingsonghalo because she had to read my bad Digimon fic and @tomioneer because of all I said in the last question!

[running-in-the-dark]

I've got more to say on that post (tw I'm insane I don't know what to tag this as its just. mental illness man idk.)

I'm really, really glad that other people apparently really don't know what it's like to feel like that. like you're not allowed to think certain things or that thinking them makes you bad.

because fuck I wish that was me.

I find it almost impossible to talk about this but I'm trying because I've found it's really the only thing that helps a little bit - and it feels like literal torture, like. I am having to actively fight every instinct in my head to be able to type any of it.

but. just. man I just can't. sometimes I can do it, but sometimes it's like now and I get so panicked about it that all the words just fucking disappear. literally can't talk about it.

okay, I'll try a different way. so. I get extremely obsessed with fictional characters (which you know if you've ever looked at this blog because duh). obviously that means I think about them. a lot. all the time really. and it's. it is really really hard, honestly. just like. imagine having to basically check every. little. thought. to see if there's anything there that could make you a bad person.

again, can't go into any more detail because My Brain (probably should stop saying that, I guess it's like, part of the ocd tendencies I have or whatever) won't fucking let me.

so, I'm trying to work on that, and for some reason I'm doing that by writing it down instead. because then I have like, the option to go back and look at it and be like actually this is probably fine. not horrible, not the worst thing anyone has ever thought, and even if it was - no one but me is ever going to see this, so why should it even matter?

but more than anything it's like. shown me how fucking insane that is. I literally can't even write so much as like. a hug. without feeling like I'm the most disgusting piece of shit ever (lots of complicated reasons but it boils down to basically. well you're thinking about his body. and that his body would feel nice. and that is absolutely not allowed in any way). when I've said that I'm writing some insane shit I don't mean like haha, this is sooo dirty hehe :3 no guys I mean it is literally insane and mostly me literally having to write paragraphs of dialogue in which the character assures me that it's okay and I'm not horrible for thinking that and. like I'm literally writing him as if he's my fucking therapist because that's the only way I can justify it in my own head.

like, I am not exaggerating when I say that I've made myself feel like I'm physically ill from overthinking this so much. I literally felt like I had a fever because I got so extremely stressed out about it. I think that was about like. holding hands or some shit. I'm 32 fucking years old. I'm literally married (won't even get into that but fuck dude just imagine being like this and. yeah).

and the funniest part about all of that is that I feel so unbelievably ashamed about all of it that I don't think I could even mention it to a therapist or whatever. like the thought alone is so absolutely horrifying that it makes me feel like I need to be punished for it. so I just convince myself that well it can't really be OCD anyway because I don't even have compulsions anymore (even though I did, and they affected my life so much for like, 15 years at least), and well even if it could still be that even without the compulsions well it's not that bad really. I mean I don't have the issues that people with actual OCD have, it doesn't really affect me, so what if I can't think about fucking that fictional guy, imagine how much a therapist would laugh at you for thinking you should get help with that, nope your brain is just fundamentally broken (it's always been that way after all, so it can't be something like that, no you're just broken and wrong and that's why all your thoughts are bad, you're just the worst person on Earth).

I can't explain how hard it is to even like. just talk about the most mundane shit. like let's say there's a picture of The Guy and I think he looks good. it's such a struggle to let myself say that. like literally, something as fucking basic as that. literally anything that is an admission of 'hi I've thought about his face and his body and I think they look kind of nice' makes me feel like I should literally die. that's why I've been trying to say that shit as much as I can lately, with the reasoning being well if I just keep doing it and nothing horrible happens it'll get easier right? (nope it doesn't, not really)

and like, there's so much more to it than social media, obviously. like it's probably 99% my upbringing (didn't even fucking realise until very recently that a lot of it is based on religious stuff because I didn't understand that my family was even that religious. yeah I don't get it either. but there's way more than the religion aspect, just pretty much everything about my childhood and my parents and. everything). but it does play a huge part in it for me and. I don't know what to do about that and I'll probably do nothing because doing anything is hard and I'm already completely overwhelmed by everything.

yeah idk all of that came from thinking about that video too much, idk, I'm shutting up now

[roleplay-roulette-blog]

RP-Partner Wanted!

Hi there, my name is Hurricane, and I have about 15 years of writing experience under my belt. I'm currently craving fandom RPs but I'm also very open to create new OC's (MxM) and Worlds together! I roleplay on Discord on a private server.

Fandoms of Interest: (The highglighted characters are my preference, but we can always discuss this!)

Arcane: Jayce x Viktor, Vander x Silco, Loris x Steb (I'd prefer to write the highlighted characters)

Banana Fish: Ash x Eiji

Dreamworks: Jack x Hiccup, Pitch x Jack, Bunnymund x Jack

Percy Jackson/Heroes of Olympus/Trials of Apollo: Percy x Nico, Will x Nico

Persona 3: Protagonist x Akihko, Protagonist x Shinjiro

Persona 5: Protagonist x Akechi, Protagonist x Yusuke, Protagonist x Ryuji

You can find more on my blog.

Is this you?

You are 21+, but preferably 25+ years old

You have at least some roleplaying experience and are interested in long-term RPs

You are LGBTQIA*-friendly or maybe even part of the community

I only write MxM relationships

You are willing to talk OOC about the RP when plotting is necessary -> This is not a must, but I love making friends with my RP-Partner! We can fangirl about our characters, our plot or just get to know each other!

You are willing to rp in a private Discord server or Google Docs. If you have better options, I’m always willing to learn something new.  My blog is only meant for finding new partners or sharing writing-related interests. 

I usually write more paragraphs and consider myself literate. We don’t have to match in length, but I prefer quality over quantity. No One Liners, I need something to work with. 

If you lose interest in a plot, it’s fine, but please tell me so I won’t be waiting in vain for an answer. Maybe we find something else to write about and if not, that’s fine, too. But please don’t ghost me. 

I enjoy writing darker themes from time to time and I’m fine with NSFW, but let’s talk about preferences and triggers. We both need to be comfortable in these situations!

Roleplaying/Writing is my passion, but I work full-time during the week. I usually manage to reply several times a week, sometimes even per day. I’d like my partner to have similar availability. If you’re up for it, we can always meet up for a ‘writing date’ and RP for a specified time.

If we’re roleplaying OCs, I’d like for us both to create new characters. I don’t like to recycle my characters and I usually don’t like to work with pre-set OCs that you use in other RPs. 

I'd love to hear from you! If you're interested, send me a DM!

[darkdoverpseeker]

Hello! My name is Gin 🕊 🖤 I am 30. I require anyone who would like to role play with me to be at least 25+.

I prefer to world build along with whomever I am roleplaying with. I am only interested in writing M/M relationships. I am mostly interested in roleplaying “darker” themed stories. If the plot has a "victim" role, I prefer to play that role. 

Currently, I have been wanting to write a Royalty themed rp. This specific plot involves kidnapping/brainwashing. I wish to write the character who is kidnapped. (I will discuss more with you if you are interested.)

Please be willing to write literate / novella responses. 

Preferred rp medium: Discord

Notes:  I enjoy talking to my fellow roleplayer OOC. I believe it is important for us to know one another and brainstorm a story together, so please don’t feel afraid to talk to me, but also understand that I am looking for someone to rp with, so if you want to talk ooc, you can do so but please try to respond to the rp as well. 

-I will not roleplay only smut. I expect any roleplay to be 80-100% story and 0-20% smut. I don’t mind smut, in fact I do at times enjoy rping it especially if it has something to do with the story. However, it becomes extremely tedious, which is why I insist on a roleplay that is mostly story. 

-I have been writing for 15+  years now. That being said, I have learned that anyone can write well. That does not mean that everyone will. I insist, if you roleplay, with me that you at least attempt to write well. I expect detailed responses 1-3 paragraphs at least  (I understand that at times it is difficult to think of much to say at one time, so I am willing to forgive one or two short responses every so often), I expect proper grammar (use capitalizations, spell correctly, attempt to use proper sentence structure, ect), basically write like you care about what you are writing. I enjoy writing very much, I hope to find a roleplaying partner who feels the same way and will respect the rules of writing as such. 

- I expect at least 1 post a week, I understand that people have lives outside of the “online world” and I will be completely understanding if you warn me that you will be unable to respond. However, if you simply do not respond for an entire week, then I will no longer rp with you. I will note here that I do have a full-time job, so I am typically understanding when someone tells me that they need a few weeks to respond. I should be able to respond in a day or two myself at the most, although I typically enjoy fast-paced rps.

-I know I have quite a few rules, but I want to find roleplayers that have an interest in writing and will take what we do seriously. I have found quite a few great rpers in the past and hope to find more in the near future.

- Please like this post and I will contact you to see if we will be a good fit. 

like if interested !

[caffeiiine]

what are your favorite self indulgent hcs (that you're comfortable sharing) i like hearing people talk about their personal favorite hcs

majority of my hcs are self indulgent tbh, unless you’re referring to hcs where i project onto characters. i don’t have many of those since it feels a bit odd to put so much of myself in a character iykwim. otherwise favorite hcs i literally can’t choose bc there’s so many good ones!!!

i’ll include a few of each to hopefully get what what you asking for. they’re all mixed around.

+ sigma really likes weighted blankets, sleeps with 2 stacked each night and can’t sleep without them.

projection hcs:

+ akutagawa is aroace!!!!! [maybe agender too, triple negative] + akutagawa has a really difficult time with words and articulating what he wants/articulating affection in a genuine/soft way

+ nikolai having a slight stutter is my everything

i used to have others but i don’t like them anymore since i was in a really bad mindset/generally had shitty mental health when i made them. i am a lot better now for sure though and making fun hcs instead 👍

otherwise favorites:

+ dazai and gift giving has my whole heart forever

+ i saw a hc once that dazai found a snake when he went to meet chuuya for the first time in 15 and i’ve hung onto that since

+ also dazai and misnomers; little shit probably names the snake something like sheep. partially in reference to chuuya, and partially in reference to the fact it does not look like a sheep whatsoever nor has any characteristics of a sheep.

+ i saw another hc once, i think this one came from @/inamagicalhallucination that the ada got dazai ti text kenji whenever he did something productive

+ nikolai enjoys dark chocolate, sigma likes dark chocolate, fyodor also likes dark but is partial to milk chocolate. something about their ideal flavors contrasting with their characters makes me love it more

+ taking this from a fic i read once [Lets dance a waltz by odas_curry on ao3 very good fic despite barely any paragraph breaks] Nikolai knows how to dance pretty well and will take sigma to dance with him on occasion

+ nikolai sometimes pops into the casino to play with/style sigmas hair and then just leaves once he’s satisfied

[primewritessmut]

For the WIP ask: 9, 15, and 26. ♥︎

9. what are you struggling with the most in finishing your current wip(s)?

oh. ugh. just went right for the jugular with that one.

most of my wips are in fandoms that i've been a part of for a long time (at least in the grand scheme of things) and i'm tired (??) of the fandom. idk if tired is the right word, but it's just started to feel more like a chore than something that i enjoy which is why i'm technically "on hiatus" for at least one of them.

in my other wips, i'm stuck on a cliff staring across at the scene that i really want to write and realizing that i'm the one that has to build the bridge to get there. 🫠

15. what’s your least favorite thing about writing?

that my brain works faster than my hands. i'm a decent typist but i still can't keep up. (i have literally no idea how people write pen to paper, although, in hindsight, slowing down probably wouldn't be bad for me). sometimes, once i've typed my way through a current paragraph or sequence of dialogue, i'll have forgotten what i wanted to have happen next even thought I KNOW that it was fully written and in the back of my mind just waiting to get out three minutes ago. then i have to cue my "sit and stare at the screen willing it to come back" protocol and that thing has a terrible success rate.

26. is there a wip you’d like to see recreated in a new medium (ie. movie, audio drama podcast, web series, animation, musical)?

i've been told that Songs for the Zombie Apocalypse would translate really well to a graphic novelization bc it's these short, sharp slices of story all strung together. honestly, i would love to see it, but that would require finding an artist willing to draw some, shall we say, creative methods of zombie (and human) disposal.

there's also a wip that's been sitting in my folders for a while that i go and tap around in occasionally that would be an amazing audio drama podcast. although maybe i only think that because it was partially inspired by The Bright Sessions...

(i am physically holding myself back from monologuing about it because i really, really want to write it and finish it, and not talking about it will force me to do that. hopefully.)

WIP ask game