#it'll all be worth it if it does

[chimaerasketch]

Aha

So I'm in a position where I both desperately need money (for a soft sculpture show I'm putting together for November, which I should have some stuff I'm working on to post from soon) and also to get rid of art I have in storage.

Art I will be willing to let go for much much cheaper than I would ordinarily because I want it very gone.

I'm currently still working at clearing up a nice space to take pictures of said art I want gone, but in the meantime I'm scanning some of it and putting it on my Society6.

I'll queue up my most recent uploads to Society6, and then when I start posting pictures of said art, I'll link the S6 page for each piece if it has one.

[huldrabitch]

Why is he so excited😭😭 WHY IS HE SMIRKING

[dyrewrites]

122 books.

Whether sold or downloaded as part of a giveaway, 122 copies of my stories went out into someone's hands or was downloaded onto their device over the year 2024.

That may not seem like a lot for a whole year, but considering no one knows who the hell I am and I've only been doing this for two years, with the itch releases beginning around May of last...I think it's amazing.

I sold twenty more books through Amazon than when I released most of them in 2023. Thirty-three total for 2024.

Now look at that number up top again.

If I sold 33 through Amazon, what's left?

89.

89 downloads of my short stories and novellas through itch.io.

I also made more money there. I can't say I made $20 for the year anymore, because the reports say otherwise. It's still not much for an income, but almost $200 is significant to me.

And it's all the creatures here I have to thank for making anything at all. For anyone caring about my silly words enough to throw money at me.

So, you know...I love all of you. You're awesome and I hope you continue to enjoy the weird shit I write because I don't think I can stop now.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

I’m actually impressed by how well you started getting into the comics after watching the movies

well OBVIOUSSLYYYY what am i gonna do NOT hunt down every piece of media featuring my favorite guys

[grave-gift]

I'm having top surgery on friday. i'm so incredibly anxious it's unreal. i know logically it is what i want (have wanted it unconditionally for a decade) but my concerns about recovery and aesthetics and 1000 other things is really overshadowing that right now

doesn't help that my fiance had to go back to school already (different country) so my parents are taking care of me and i don't want that for about 100 reasons (that are all minor, my parents are good folks). i'm just sad he (fiance) can't be here to comfort me and do the very intimate care tasks that will be required.

anyways. any encouragement or reassurance would be appreciated.

[donnyclaws]

I was gonan make a post apologizing for lack of regular art but I feel like jts already clear im sporadic and in and out of it bc chronic pain and circumstances. So for now I'm gonna hibernate, get my health steady again, deal with money issues, and art will happen when it happens.

[depresseddepot]

yeah okay. maybe it is actually all worth it

[why-worry-do-it-later]

its p difficult making/maintaining friendships while fighting through different levels of self hatred

[orcelito]

Honestly sooooooo fucked up that I thought my overwhelming daily fatigue and debilitating body pain was a product of the awful working conditions I was under for years and years... and yet, despite being out of work for half a year now, I'm still so fatigued and in pain all the time??? Like come on man that's not fair

Oh well maybe I have liver disease and they'll treat it and then I am magically so much more energized like I was as a kid. We can only hope !!!!

[curseshared]

thinking soooo much about this storyboard lilith

[therevengeoffrankenstein]

it's the implication of ending a song about past drug addiction that almost killed you with the sound of your baby kid's little wolf howls for me. tbh.

[privatelife]

i wish i could go to more concerts tbh but i feel like i must have a reason ie they must be a significant band in my life or else it's a waste of money. but i dont know, it'd be fun going just to go right. even bands i just like casually like truly why tf not... i regret not seeing steely dan last year but nobody would go with me or even just drive me there :< and i cannot brag about seeing. blood on the dance floor when i was 14

[morethanwonderful]

The thing nobody tells you about running tumblr polls is that if you're obsessive enough, (I'm obsessive enough), gathering the little images to go with each poll is by far the most time-consuming part of the whole process

[kingspuppet]

Something that’s always bothered me is the fact that the general public completely forgets about Goro after his death. That aside from a couple of minor mentions it’s like he didn’t exist at all. And I know that some could argue on the theory that Mementos was encroaching on reality not long after and it’s a reflection on the idea of society constantly changing their interests for their entertainments’ sake (since that is a theme that the game points out). Another could point out that Goro is not the center focus of the game, and like a lot of character deaths in media constantly lingering on it doesn’t necessarily drive the plot forward unless it’s being used as a narrative device. All of that being said, the reason it really bothers me is that it completely invalidates so much of what Goro was trying to create for himself. He wanted to be loved, needed, and useful. He doesn’t give a damn about the public as a whole, but he cares far too much about what they think of him. And sure, once he returns he never really says much, if anything, about his former popularity. At least there’s nothing that states he cares one way or the other, but I think that could be a combination of circumstances and refusing to show any more vulnerability than he already has. There’s no reason to use it to gain sympathy anymore after his main goal is no longer possible, they’ve entered an unsettling alteration of reality, and inserting his own personal feelings into the matter does nothing but weigh him down. But those feelings and desires revolving around wanting to be special don’t just end because people give you a few heartfelt words and you sacrifice yourself for a supposed “just” cause. It can be a start for that kind of a journey, but this is something that’s been rooted in his mind since his mother passed. Quite possibly even before then. So I can see Goro acting as if he doesn’t give a shit, but deep down it eats at him. All that validation and acknowledgement he worked so hard for was gone within the blink of an eye. The one thing he’s been craving his entire life, despite how hard he worked to get it, meant nothing in the end. I don’t think death necessarily scares Goro. But what I do think is that one of Goro’s biggest fears is that, after he’s gone, he’ll be forgotten. And the fact that it actually happens breaks my heart the most.

[lynxalon]

eeaao it hits sooooo fucking hard, the way that joy would search for her mom in every universe and how there's so much hurt there and it feels worse because there's so much love and it feels like betrayal but she keeps trying because who else could ever know what she knows who else could connect to all of her pain and anger and fear and she keeps reaching out only finally stopping when her mom learns how to reach back

joy wants her mom's permission to go, to be let go and no longer connected to her mother so that she loses that hurt but her mother knows how terrible it feels to lose the hurt because the love wilts as well, when your parent lets you go when what you really needed and wanted was their support and she reaches out and she says wait and she says this simple life with you is enough for me, it is a joyous life to me, i want you here just.. eeaao bro

[thegempage]

12 minutes down out of 19 let's gggooooo