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#I am… not in a good mental state#it’s uh very alienating#no one like understands the fucking pain and shit that I’ve dealt with for the majority of my life that comes with these problems#no one understands how the focus is primarily on fertility and how you have to really fight for symptoms treatment#it feels like all your worth is in your ability to have kids and like#if you have these sort of problems and don’t want kids it’s kind of one big fuck you#and like no one in my life really gets it; I try to not get mad cause like how could they if they’ve never gone through it#but that doesn’t make it any easier and it’s so hard still and it’s so alienating#gonna go take the hottest shower I fucking can and just like cry it out cause no one is really helping#moms being controlling telling me I can’t go to work tomorrow like this and yelling at me about it#I don’t do well on phone calls and asked if she would sit with me when I called the doctor and that was a mistake#I can’t hear someone talking next to me and someone talking to me on the phone at the same time#and everything she didn’t like she tried to tell me I did wrong and now she’s mad at me#my husband has been complaining about how uncomfortable the chairs in the er were and about being up for 24 hours cause we were there from#2-am to 8am and just idk. I feel bad I guess#but then I get kind of mad about it cause I was also up for 24 hours and like#complaining about hospital chairs vs 10/10 pain + vaginal ultrasound while at 10/10 pain#my dad just flat out doesn’t care and doesn’t think it’s a big deal#I literally went downstairs to get my cats breakfast and got asked if I was better yet#like yeah dad in the span of a day my ovary has returned to normal size and I’m in zero pain. sure. that’s def how that works.#and like I have been having so many issues with my both my parents lately#it’s all so hard it’s too hard and I can’t fucking handle it#my health has just been in a constant nose dive since September#and I feel like everyone thinks because I already have a lot of health issues that I’m used to it and can handle it#no one gives a shit- which has also been great for my mental health#I can’t handle any of this shit and I feel like everyone around me just thinks I’m weak and annoying and a failure#I’ve been overwhelmed and burned out for years and like it just doesn’t stop#I’m just sad and tired and in a lot of pain and very done with everything#I feel like no one cares and I’m just a burden#I wish I could hibernate
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Sasha using the title "Lord" in RiAAU after taking over Toad Tower and presumably killing Grime and stealing Barrel's Warhammer from him, and other political and military leaders assuming she's a man because, well, Sasha is a gender neutral name, so they hear Lord Sasha and assume they're talking about an adult male toad warrior. The second most powerful person in the known world and only real threat to the Leviathan reign!
Cue princess Marcy fleeing Newtopia and her father seeking refuge with his worst enemy hoping to offer information and political levarage in exchange for protection, perhaps even offering herself in marriage to transfer eventual inheritances and whatnot, and she finds out that Lord Sasha is not, indeed, a dark and domineering toad warlord, but a beautiful, terrifying girl her age that looks like her and oh god her poor little lesbian heart can barely take it.
#amphibia#sasharcy#marcy wu#sasha waybright#my posts#raised in amphibia au#sasha and marcy are over here living in game of thrones while#anne is playing stardew valley with a mod that gives you ptds#Sasha being mistaken(? as a man being a common misunderstanding due to poor communication to the point potential allies don't believe her#unless she's carrying the hammer around herself#lord sasha with her two wives... nnhnhnn... one representing her alliance with the frogs of frog valley and possibly beyond depending on ho#she and her grandfather (current mayor of wartwood) play their cards#and the other in her sansa stark era (horrible violations of bodily autonomy involved) (not by sasha btw) trying to maintain alliances#with noble newt houses after betraying her father and eloping with the enemy#after learning The Truth^TM (which she's conveniently hiding from everyone else except maybe olivia and that's a big maybe)#cue some nice toad civil wars (the eastern and northern tower may support sasha but despite their less than friendly relationship#beatrix will NOT recognize this magical alien's victory over her dead brother. and my friend beatrix is not to be messed with)#anne having lots of self worth issues after her very morally questionable grandfather married her off to sasha for political reasons#marcy having. uh. green blood. and a weird metalic port in the back of her neck. her brain feels tingly when she touches it#and king andrias desperately fighting to crush this little frog valley rebellion and punish those to blame for the abduction of his daughte#edit: i meant ptsd. anne has ptsd from that time she may or may not have accidentally indirectly caused the death of sprig and polly's#parents at age 8 (they were her parents for 4 years. the only parents she remembers. she hasn't forgiven herself and deep down#neither has hop pop but we don't talk about it)
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im not sure how to parse this exactly (probably since the thought hasn't marianted fully yet) but i wonder if the tone of veilguard's writing is less about appealing to a younger audience and more of a response to falling media literacy rates
kind of thinking out loud here but like.
i'm recalling the girl on booktok who proudly annouced that she only reads the spoken dialogue in her books, not the narration & the people in her comments laughing and agreeing (no wonder they can 'read' so many books per year, they're only reading 25% of the words). or 'starting to think some of you don't like media or characters, just fanfiction tropes.' you can hand someone like that a complex narrative, but what are they going to do with it aside from completely & happily misunderstand things that are very obvious context clues & themes? we can joke about the fandom mischaracterizing our blorbos & trying to be cool about just scrolling past but idk, personally i feel like i've seen an uptick in completely off-base takes in the last few years (probably some fandom bias there but this isn't my first time playing dragon age or narrative driven games in general so i don't think i'm entirely wrong)
it doesn't help that this group also loves to be loud online & the bioware devs (to their ongoing detriment) seem to be unable to distance themselves from fandom. we saw larian's response to this type of outcry, i wonder if bioware is just trying to get ahead of the curve. they make some questionable decisions, but they aren't stupid & i don't think people like that are especially hard to market to from their standpoint.
i don't think that older titles like dao are perfect or anything but i sincerely doubt that large swaths of current audiences would 'get' it. like, there IS a lot of narrative hand-holding in this game & i'm not talking about things like the map markers or accessibility features. 'do the companion quests!' you get told multiple times, more or less outright, & i'm still seeing people confused about getting 'bad' endings despite ignoring this incredibly obvious series of hints. there's a fair amount of information to be found in the codexes, but are people going to read them? we don't know, so we're going to repeat the relevant item name several times over on the off chance you might end up remembering it. like yes this is some people's first foray into rpgs, but you would think that progressing the story would be intuitive (especially given the structure & the journal itself).
the 'the curtains were blue!!!' crowd is unfortunately a very large audience these days, ea is a corporation who wants to make money & they do need that if they intend to keep making games. it might not even be intentional, it truly could just be the result of following market trends.
don't take this as me making excuses for bioware or anything, but there's definitely some sort of reason we ended up the way we did. i see the scaffolding of something interesting here with a lot of potential to be better than what the final product was, a lot of hooks we could have spent more time chasing & that leads to me wondering just what the hell happened.
#some of the writing was always going to be a bit goofy & cheesy thats just the nature of dragon age lmao#its the glimpses that make me the most curious though#& while i had fun and ultimately enjoyed the game more than not i think that examining outside factors is weirdly more rewarding to me rn#than the game itself fdghjkk#good writing DOES still exist there are very much projects that arent concerned with the 'how are you say we piss on the poor' consumer#but at the end of the day money talks and i dont think alienating that customer base via expecting more than a 9th grade level of#critical thought is the approach the average AAA company wants to take#i think that the writers honestly did on at least SOME level care abt this project but we'll never get to see the drafts and the cut parts#someone break their nda im going insane over here#anyway im just assuming things fgfhj pondering#oh uh i should probably tag#veilguard spoilers#to be polite yk#i know the blue curtains werent malicious at the time & op was probably just frustrated in their hs english class but i really wish that#it didnt catch on Like That. because man. Man.
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So I was thinking about this line.
At first, I was like, 'heartless'? How does Shadow know that? I'll grant 'aggressive,' and even 'voraciously carnivorous' - these are true and can be easily observed without moral judgment. That's just animal behavior; 'heartless' is a comment you make on a personality. It implies the behavior is not driven by instinct... but cruelty. And this alien doesn't speak, so...
But then I remembered that he literally shares a hivemind with this thing.
So, my headcanon now is that he was standing there staring (and silently freaking out) because this little jerk was just spamming their involuntary group chat with heinous monster thoughts.
It's probably seeing Shadow standing there next to Abe, and it's vaguely but persistently like:
HEY.
HEY.
YOU SHOULD TOTALLY EAT THAT KID.
LMAO.
HE'S LIKE RIGHT THERE.
I WANNA EAT HIM SO BAD.
YOU GOTTA DO IT MAN.
DO IT WHILE HE'S STILL ALIVE.
IT WOULD BE SO FUNNY.
And then projecting confusion and frustration when Shadow...doesn't. I just think that the vibes of that would be pretty rancid.
#sth#shadow the hedgehog#at the very least he can absolutely feel what it feels and mmmmmmmm. uh oh.#dark beginnings#sonic x shadow generations#I was also wondering what in the world made Abe run away from him like that#maybe he somehow realized that Alien Group Chat was occurring and got spooked#must be annoying to be a wee larval alien stuck in a jar and the only other member of your species nearby is leaving you on read#and won't even eat that guy
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my lil goobies :) Betty and sidd !!! !! theyre aliens and also news reporters who spread misinformation and conspiracy theories betty's a reporter, sidd's the camera man goin for a pinky and the brain take over the world type beat but theyre both idiots </3
#my ocs <3#i love them so dearly#rare king candy break ?!!? insanity#aliens#? uh#oc tag#fartdd#uhhhh#artists on tumblr#hey thats me !! im an artist!! on tumblr!!#side note idk if im being paranoid but umm#is it okay to give them a speech quirk? is that insensitive? /gen#i dont wanna be like. stupid and ignoratn dont let me do that#i want them to be funny little guys genuinely i dont wanna sound bad or have weird undertones#they sound funny cuz theyre bugs#thats all#i think im being paranoid#the fear(tm)#i do hope yall like the designs tho im very proud :)
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now I'm curious, as someone who has little to no opinion on the matter, what you consider your Beastlife Character's positive traits to be
OTHER BEASTS DO NOT PROCEED !!! CHARACTER METAGAME SPOILERS AHEAD !!! i will CURSE YOU with the DEVILS PLAGUE!!!
this website’s hate mail game is insane
I will answer this if i ever come up with something. I am literally looking up lists of positive traits on the internet. Tom said “unique” and like man i fucking???? guess???????
tbf breature’s self esteem is kind of in the negatives as of s4, so of course ooc im going to have a hard time pinpointing anything, as ooc perceptions do greatly influence a character’s perceptions of themselves.
There is, at the very least, a charisma. People will follow me around and hear me out to their own detriment. I often end up leading groups on accident, likely because I’m always going from one clear-cut goal to the next and other people will naturally want to tag along… I guess “driven” is a trait? I don’t think I’ve used this for one good thing so far though LMAO
tbh i think ME, irl bree, highly values a handful of traits and breature has sort of become an opponent of all of them.
i think, before the s3 alien conspiracy bullshit, there was a lot there. That was a well rounded individual. She had flaws but she wasn’t all flaws. But, at her lowest, she became the worst version of herself, and thennnn bc of the isolationist nature of the second season, almost all of her first impressions on other people happened when she was her worst version. So now it’s like she’s defined by this two dimensional parody. Everyone sees her as her worst version + she only knows how to interact with people as that worst version + most of her time alive in these games was as her worst version so she identifies with it = i am somewhat locked in to being horrible forevwr. despite being past what caused that spiral in the first place
like she has got to be one of the most hated ppl on beastlife I’ll be real LMAOOOOO in the two full seasons ive played ive been mourned Once. and it was by the guy i purposefully ruined the life of bc she has an unhealthy attachment towards me that i took advantage of at least three times. If that gives you any idea just how much I piss people off (and this is a server where most deaths are commemorated in one way or another, like it’s fairly culturally important)
sorry for the rant I’d say “i just love my fucking animal” but i really dont. bro is hated by her creator can you believe it… i do love doodling her badly in mspaint though ☝️
#asks#beastlife#This is rlly funny if a beast sent this ask in btw…. Here’s my answer! No you cant read it#but uh. hm. before the oku alien bullshit i was at the very least loving. So there’s that!
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Sepang 2006: After an exhausting race, Valentino Rossi brings a chair to the podium and sits down. Loris Capirossi joins him to sit on his lap.
#brr brr#//#lc65#going through my notes for that vale race rec post and I was gonna include some of these screenshots#but actually there's screenshots I want to include from parc fermé too because I think they're cute so. this gets its separate post#if you're wondering how that rec list is going btw I've currently got over eighty races listed I don't want to talk about it#this race deserves a lot more love tbh. one of the 2006 races nobody would ever shut up about if he'd won the title#but they don't suddenly stop being good races just because they ended up being in vain!! he was amazing to watch in 2006#two bits of context that really make this:#1) vale/loris were engaged in battle the whole race and vale overtook on the final lap before engaging in some?? uh. robust defence#which I feel like at least a few riders would at the very least have been mildly miffed at but!! not capirossi not with valentino#2) dani had like?? a deep cut in his knee and it was surprising he'd been able to ride let alone get a podium#you'll note he's the only guy standing while these two are doing their thing. another big win for empathy#one commentator is saying literally right after they stand up again that dani had gained the respect of his fellow riders that day#and you kind of feel like if they took his suffering THAT seriously they maybe wouldn't do all that but well!! anyway#alien tag
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Books of 2024: THE SCOURGE BETWEEN STARS by Ness Brown.
Devoured this in one intense sitting last night! It gets right into the "fucked up shit happens in space" (as I was promised it would!), and I liked that you could see the author's astrophysics background peeking through without derailing the tension.
(And, for real: Don't Open The FUCKING Door, holy shit.)
#books of 2024#book photography#my photography#the scourge between stars#ness brown#i also appreciated the casual queerness#i was not prepared for somebody taking advantage of the android >:( but i thought it was handled well!#always here for fucked up shit happening in space#it was very uh. ALIEN-esque to me#(red of THE GIRL IN RED and jack of SCOURGE same hat lmao)#(young women suffering through post apocalypses together 5ever)#tbh it didn't feel like a super original concept/execution but. i couldn't set it down and go to bed. so it was done Well.#anyway another shortie bites the dust!!#i did appreciate how jack problem solved around her issues lol#the bit with the core and the observation deck were both very nice#GO JACK GO SOLVE YOUR PROBLEMS WITH YOUR ENVIRONMENT I LOVE THAT FOR YOU!!!!#i will however be killing otto again thanks#and the captain actually
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Live Fast & Prosper
#VERY funny that the imposter Janeway is sort of doing her accent - did Neelix mention that to her too~??#'Also she talks like a thespian?? Which I guess is how everyone talks in Indiana.'#She also pulled the whole 'we're a workplace but I like to think of us...as a family :)' so you know she's not to be trusted#Also I fuckinglove how into it the guy playing fake Tuvok is...he's like INTO the role. Yet another criminal man obsessed with you#commander...what's your DEAL <3#I'm such a soft touch dude I felt so bad for the aliens being tricked heheheh#SNRKEHAHAHA ok...Tom & Neelix being pals is actually so funny. They're like 'how could this have happened...we're the toughest most street#smart guys in the book' OK. SURE. HEHEHEH#WHEN DID Y'ALL HAVE EDGE~?? /ESPECIALLY/ YOU TOM#Neelix was doing some shady shit (even though we all know he's a sofite) what'd you do besides get thrown in the clink Tom?#People who say there's no like...uhh character-only moments on Voyager just havent watched the show straight up#Neelix & Tom trying to swindle the EMH with a cup game <3 yeah...that's what this is all about#Janeway: (doing a great job being intimidating) / Tuvok: v_v mhm. / Janeway: Tell her all about it Tuvok.#Tuvok: O_O.....um......it's uh...whew it's bad over there....#Janeway: What about the prisons? / Tuvok: Oh yes the-the prisons....they don't give you lotion. You'll be deficient in at least THREE#vitamins before you're even brought to trial / Janeway: That's Enough of...that. <- trying not to laugh#Tuvok: (is an undercover agent) also Tuvok: I'm not good at small talk or improvisation.#Neelix how much did you talk about Tuvok bc this guy's really into it#Neelix: balablabla tuvok blablabla tuvok tuvok bla bla / Dala: ....(god this bitch is gay...good for me good for him)
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Pittsburgh Cincinnati Goes North
#yaaay holiday doodles#that little canada sticker is a temporary tattoo i wanted to see if it would apply to paper (it did)! got it free as a prize on canada day#those alien i believe notes were in a very specific room of a museum. if you know it then uh. hi?#doodlebyte#Pittsburgh Cincinnati#oc art#clean furry#original character#sfw furry#scene revival#traditional drawing#traditional art#i have no idea how to tag art of Pittsburgh lol. like what even is she#i guess shes a rabbit. or a bug. maybe
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sometimes in trek: spock, data, julian, odo, seven or t'pol will say something and like, other characters will react in certain ways (annoyance or amusement) and the moments will be presented by the show as like "oh lookit this social blunder haha" and i'll be like
"i see what the show wants me to feel but literally what are they doing wrong here"
#note that im perfectly capable of recognising when these characters are being Bitches#(except for data who is pure and kind and never mean)#autism doesn't shut off the bitch function thank you very much#but im not talking about those moments. im talking about when they're presented as doing an Social Uh Oh#and im like. no actually its everybody else who is making this weird actually#autism is stored in the me. and star trek#i got an example of an especially weird one#pike offers spock coffee. spock says no. spock says he prefers tea#pike gives an amused ''haha what a weirdo'' look. hello???#literally WHAT is weird about that#also enterprise treating vegetarianism as some alien trait jhkfsajh
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me when the group conversation is triggering a bunch of instrusive thoughts and he notices that i'm uncomfortable so he keeps trying to redirect the topic without drawing everyone's attention to me 💪🥳😭🥀💌🌬️☄️🪐⛈️👾🐛🙏💌
#boink#two ocd kings one mildly disturbing acappella group <3#it was just very considerate#mildly embarrassing for me but i figure as a fellow ocd haver he probably gets it#he's such a fascinating man#like i don't know#bc that is honestly one of the kindest most understanding things that anyone has ever done for me#like not really knowing or needing the context to understand first#but just being able to intuit that i needed an out and like. trying to give me that#i just appreciate that understanding#as opposed to having to justify and explain and evade like i kind of feel like i have to do with my family#it's the same thing as when my friend noticed i was having a tic attack last year#not something i would ever expect from anybody#and not something i would ever fault someone for not doing if that makes sense#just appreciating the leeway and the understanding and the grace of it you know#like when i realized yesterday that i was out of my meds at auds#like a kindness that doesn't feel put on#i feel as if most people are kind. but sometimes kindness and sympathy can feel alienating despite best efforts#despite all his brusqueness and hilarity i genuinely could tell that he cared if i was going to be ok#my friend too when even though i havent seen her since the semester began offered to walk home and to get food with me#anyway i have to write two pages abt the bible before i go to sleep tonight and its already 12:30 so i should probably#uh#do that
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(Vague post)
Popular analog horror has gone down the antisemetism rabbit hole so I no longer feel bad about using a vaguely similar idea. I think we need a Jewish analog horror ARG in fact
#Nah they’re not just supporting Palestine if they talk about Israel spreading propaganda and ‘getting what they deserve’#And ‘facing consequences by powers less cowardly ‘#Oh yeah I’m sure you’re not antisemetic when you’re threatening that more powerful countries will nuke Israel off the planet uh huh mhm#Anyways if anyone wants to join me in creating a completely jewish analog horror arg hit me up it’s our time#mango rambles#personal fruits#jumblr#ישראבלר#Not naming names but the fact is you can probably think of like. Five examples#Cool cool this doesn’t make me scared about content in the future at all.#I sound joking and all but I’m actually legit terrified#No space is safe for me#Not the magical girl fandom. Not the animation fandom. Not music or art. And now not even online horror#I legit have no place left. The only ones accepting me are either run by Jews or VERY small communities that don’t care about politics#When we say we are alienated now- think of what I just said#Every group has run me out of it. I can’t talk about anything I like without fearing for my online safety.#And people think this is an appropriate price for me to pay despite being a disabled queer mentally ill person. Someone who they’re suppose#To protect. WHO they still claim to protect. But when you add Jew#Or heaven forbid Israeli#To the mix. Suddenly you don’t get inclusivity anymore#WHO CARES if your hopes for the future rest on you creating art because you’re never gonna be able to support your family or get a real job#Should’ve thought about that before you parents were born in Israel if you wanted to be treated as a human being#Fuck everyone. My hopes for the future are legitimately so gone I’m always looking forward to dying so these people can be happy.#All I want is for everyone to be happy even at my expense. Sure my family will grieve#But millions of people will cheer for my death. That outweighs it. It’ll bring so much more happiness if I die.#This is my state now#I hope all you fucking Americans are happy. The country is going through a mental health crisis caused by you and you’re laughing#And tearing down posters of our cousins and siblings and friends. Laughing about it#And then go on to pretend to punch fictional nazis when in fact you are supporting real ones right now#I’m so done with everyone. Sorry about how series these tags are
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Eddie slots himself neatly beside Steve, who in turn has wedged himself awkwardly, deliberately so, against the wall so that the bed is sprawling in comparison to his body.
"Heard I'm not a house fire, Harrington," Eddie says easily. "Heard I'm just a boy."
Steve holds his breath, knowing Eddie can tell.
"That lighter - Wayne thinks he lost it, y'know? Big, chunky old thing. Doesn't know that I have, well, light fingers when I want to. He trusts me. I break that trust. I think he pretends I don't. Hurts less that way. Or just different. Different kind of hurt." Eddie huffs out a laugh.
"Why are you telling me this?" Steve asks, not wanting to blame Robin for telling, but desperately wanting to blame someone, somehow.
"What do you think the first thing a kid with a lighter does?" Eddie asks, and runs a finger over the shell of Steve's ear, making him shiver for all the wrong reasons. Steve wants to ask. Can already smell the smoke. "Yeah, you got it."
"Firebug," Steve says, remembering for the first time the unexplained fires from a few years back. Back when he didn't have to care. "They never caught you."
"I freaked myself out, got too close to the flame," Eddie says, and presses a finger right against Steve's cheek, making it to hollow. "Look what I did again."
"I'm not a flame," Steve says as Eddie pulls his finger away and traces Steve's jawline.
"Sure would like to watch you burn though," Eddie says.
"Did Robin make you do this?" Steve asks and Eddie shakes his head.
"Would that be easier? You could turn me away with my virtue intact? Instead, here I am, the worst version of myself still loving the worst version of yourself, and what are you supposed to do with that."
"You know how to get away with it," Steve says, really realising. "You - love me."
"Both true," Eddie says. "Whatever that means to you, I'll take it."
"You deserve better," Steve says.
"That's for me to decide, isn't it?" Eddie asks. "You fascinate me, Harrington. In the way of rare things. Or deadly things, perhaps."
Steve moves then, so he can line their mouths up.
"The way you talk about me - like you actually see me - "
"I'm just a boy," Eddie says.
"No, I don't think so," Steve says, breathing in the air Eddie's breathing out. "No, not at all."
And then Eddie kisses him, and it's like suffocating, but the best kind, and Steve doesn't fight to inhale, getting lost in it instead, and maybe Eddie is a deadly thing too, because Steve is light headed and gasping when they part.
"Okay, he says. Okay.
Eddie is not just a boy. He's a bolt of lightning that shoots into a tree and burns it from the inside in a beautiful display of nature's forces. He's a house-fire. He's the sun.
Steve is the tree. He is the house. He is the flower turning toward the sun to stay alive. He's the boy who forgot how to breathe air that doesn't smell of gasoline or smoke.
But it's okay. It's okay.
#when i die and people ask what's wrong with me it's all in this ficlet actually#steddie#steddie fic#arsonist steve#arsonist eddie#i was not prepared for part 2 of arsonist steve but damn!!#you almost set your apartment building on fire ONCE and your signs writes arson fic about it :/ :D#something in the way you write them fucked up is really doing something to me idk idk this means everything but uh#why is it that every time you write something (for me) it either rips something out or puts something there and either way leaves me#feeling very alien to myself huh? or maybe you rip me out of one dissociation and into the next and i'm just here like oh
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About to say something controversial but I think some of the Blue Lock fandom is getting way too comfortable with being homophobic
#Too exhausted to actually type my full thoughts out but#Blue Lock as a series ABSOLUTELY can be read with a gay lens and this does not just apply to shipping the characters#Like obviously the characters and their dynamics can be read with that in mind. Obviously#But a major themes of Blue Lock is following your dreams and passions and to a lesser extent that includes being true to yourself#ESPECIALLY with being true to who you really are and being confident in your identity#Which when combined with some character arcs you can 100% read that in a more overall queer lighting#And if you take Ego and Blue Lock itself into account as like. An extremely toxic masculine environment that is actively worsening the cast#There’s. Very interesting points to be made but again. I am not going into all that tonight#POINT IS. Blue Lock in general has a lot of gay reads you can make#And ESPECIALLY with a lot of ReoNagi news coming out with the oneshots and with the Episode Nagi movie#I see people uh…… Getting a little too comfortable being homophobic#I shan’t lie it is incredibly fucking alienating to keep running into#I don’t gaf about fandom stuff or what fans say and I partake in some jokes myself but like#Some of them… Coming from people who aren’t gay… Like come on#Come on guys what are we doing here#This is stream of consciousness rambly bullshit I’ve just had it on my mind awhile#🌱💚
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enough to drive a man insane if I'm being honest with you guys
#i dont know you guys idk#idk if i can be one of those cool tumblr girlies who wathces old gory horror slashers or whatever theyre called idk#this was me dipping my toe in#very unpleasant experience#i dont wanna be a little poo poo head baby or anything but i think im more squeamish than i thought#i thought i was pretty good with gore and maybe i used to be like as a teen#but weirdly i think im getting worse with it as time goes on#im glad i watched gonna have to sit on it for a couple days though#ruminate...on the experience...#think about if i could ever watch it again...#that being said hello#what the fuck#jeffrey combs wrapping a guy curled up on the floor in a blanket like UHMMMM. UH#jeffrey??#ive seen that man as exclusively as an alien freak and we joke about weyoun and brunt but uhhhh. well.#when its unironic i mean uhm#well look at him#re-animator#jeffrey combs#horror#blood#sir i protest i am not a merry man
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