#it’s really nice to get back to one of your core hyperfixations

[grison-in-space]

You know, I've been reading things written by people on the internet for my whole life, or at least my whole life after I was about ten. I'm thirty three now. That means there are people whose words I read on the internet twenty years ago who are presumably still around and occupying the internet—sometimes using names I can recognize from back then, too. (hat tip to my fellow "changing usernames is unnatural actually" brethren; I've only changed one myself twice in the whole world since I was about fourteen or fifteen.)

Sometimes I think about a person I see around occasionally on the internet. That person wrote a story about a character in a rather silly fandom we shared, and I read it as a child just beginning to conceptualize being someone whose opinions might matter. And I remember reading that story at some point, because at that age I had a hyperfixation on that character in that fandom at that time and I read pretty much everything in the genre. I never really got to talk to anyone but the inside of my head about it. My friends didn't read fanfiction, and my parents viewed my reading fanfiction as some kind of depraved, shameful secret. Anyway, I read that story and I remember having some kind of deep realization about how adult humans work while I was reading it.

I learned something about the world from that story. (It was one of those insights that are now so molten alongside my core that it's difficult for me to disentangle them from myself, like "people outside you have their own perspective on your behaviors, but that doesn't mean they have to be right.") And I remember that they know it, because they taught it to me, without meaning to. One of the anonymous impacts on readers that writers never see unless they're extraordinarily lucky.

And I smile, because it's lovely to see them again, and they showed me a skill I still use today. We don't have a relationship of any kind—it would be very difficult to recognize me, I think—but they did me a favor a long time ago. And I remember. Now I get to be reminded that this person still exists, and is still a pretty cool human to be around today, at least for the specific circumstance of internet neighbor. Well, and our modern level of concern about once beloved elders from the distant past going terrifyingly cult-addled and bigoted on short notice.

That has not happened in the slightest. They're just still a pretty nice fandom person who is a bit older than me, who is recognizably the same person they have always been, but more intensely and thoughtfully—like a distilled brandy, not a sour vinegar left out on a countertop too long.

Weirdly, that's a thing I find comforting: this tiny, one way, invisible affection. Every so often I feel this intense affection for a person I've never spoken to or about, because I see them and I love them intensely for a moment and then we both go about our days.

Think about how many interactions you have with people as you go about your day. Wouldn't it be nice to imagine that other people feel like that about you?

I think I'm going to imagine that there's one person that read something I said and thinks that about me. I don't need to ever actually know if it's true: I can just imagine someone who happened to be at a formative moment when they learned something against the background of my words. We'll never know each other as our screennames are lost along the years and we move in and out of touch with parts of ourselves, but we still have that little fond impact on one another, those fingerprints in one another's clay.

It's a nicer world to imagine than the one where no one is paying attention to me, or the only people paying attention to me are mean. And there's really no way to ever know for sure, so why not inhabit the pleasant end of the imaginatory pool if you can?

[dani-ya-dig]

OKAY I FINALLY HAVE TIME SO ITS TIME FOR DANI TO FINALLY RANT ABOUT THE SAM AUDIO!!!

Written as I’m listening to the audio again so I don’t forgor.

I think it’s been out long enough to avoid spoiler but I’m gonna put the cut just because this post is probably gonna be really long.

The beginning of this audio scares the shit out of me not matter how many times I listen to, like he is fucking ZOOMING. At least this time he has a reason to be zipping all over the place. Unlike in his “talking about the future” audio where that motherfucker used vamp speed up the stairs for no goddamn reason

Also I appreciate the fact that Darlin ran into Sam, fully shifted. They hit him first and only then were like “oh yeah I’m a giant wolf rn”.

CHRIST DARLIN! THE MAN JUST SHOWED UP LET HIM BREATHE BEFORE YOU JUMP HIM

Ugh love me a Sam reverse comfort audio. This is DELICIOUS

Circling back to Sam’s tendency to bury his emotions in the moment, and only allowing himself to feel them when he is in a safe space (cough cough Darlin)

“I guess that says a lot about what family is to me” STOPPPPPPP

“Apparently I’ve got a knack for landing myself in shit. And then sticking around long enough to get convinced it’s all I deserve” IM ACTUALLY FUCKING CRYING I HATE IT HERE. HE IS ME FR.

“I. Am not. A Solaire” DAMN RIGHT SAMMY! GET HIS ASS!

Sam kind danced around this part but I noticed it immediately. The way he kind of paused when he talked about William putting giving him a house as a form of trying to make himself more favorable to Sam. Sam worded it as him favoring stability and needing that. But also like… one thing that Sam talks about repeatedly in his playlist is how important the idea of home is to him. And William gives him a house… an attempt at giving him a home, so that the “home” is inherently tied to him in Sam’s mind.

I know it was well intentioned on William’s part but god it feels fucking grimy nonetheless

Sam might not think that William is and evil mustache twirling villain, but I do /j

Real footage of William Solaire rn

“I’m a healer. Not was. Am.” YES THE FUCK YOU ARE SAM!

No because actually Sam is so right. He IS still good. He CAN still help. I’m not 100% on the lord of vampire or how difficult it would be for a vampire of Sam’s age to externalize magic. But it’s pretty damn impressive that he can do what he can do even after his core was entirely replaced. He must have been a STRONG like super strong freelancer for that much of his powers to remain after his turning. But it’s also not just healing magic he can still manage even though that definitely would have been his specialty and the type of magic he studied the most. The other types of magic we have heard of him doing are also cleaning magic and earth elemental magic (WHICH YO???). Like that’s impressive imo.

Also we have all talked about Sam joining Shaw Security on night shift at this point. BUT!!! After Sam talked about how he wanted to be a healer still but only wasn’t because that wasn’t what the house needed from him. I hope that he gets hired on as Shaw Security’s professional healer <33

I don’t know how viable that would be. But I think it could work. I don’t imagine he would be patching up multiple huge injuries everyday so it could 100% work!! GUYS I SWEAR PLEA–

(Erik if you’re spying through your secret tumblr account give me what I want)

Sam will never have to go to another summit again 🤞

NO ONE WILL PUT THAT MAN IN A SUIT AGAIN!! HE IS FREE!

Sam and Darlin are so in love with each other. They deserve to be happy, just for a little bit. I need a moving audio with them. Them just packing up their shit <33

Okay did I love this video. Yes! It was Sam, so like that’s bound to happen with me lmao. But also like it was just nice. I enjoyed it. I hope Sam gets to find more of who he is outside of the house.

But also because my hyperfixated menace ass can’t keep my nose out of spoiler I KNOW THAT SAM BITES DARLIN IN THE BA AND I JUST COSSBDKDBX

Look I get why it happened logistically. It’s been a long time coming, and now that Sam’s out of the house of Solaire, they aren’t going to be facilitating his need for blood bags anymore. So he is gonna need to feed on something. It makes sense.

But I wish that decision like that regarding trauma Sam has around his turning would stop being made in the aftermath of very emotional moments. Like when he decided he was ready to go further with Darlin, I wish it would have come from a place of “Ive worked through everything that happened to me, and I love you, so I really want to take this next step” instead of “I’ve seen so many people die, and I have been reminded how fragile life is, and I am terrified of the thought of not getting to do this”.

Idk maybe it’s just me, but things like that don’t feel like decisions that should be made when you feel like life is crumbling down around you??

Also it brings up the logistical issue of, Erik didn’t explain that to the non-patreon listeners. So like… if it gets brought up in future audios a lot of people are probably gonna be a little confused, since I only know because I snoop through Sam spoilers.

Eh. But all in all, live laugh love Sam Collins and stay livin la vida loca I guess

[hyperfixated-gvf]

Keeping Secrets

On the fifth day of Tropemas, hyperfixated-gvf gave to me:

A smutty Josh short about naughty Secret Santa shenanigans!

Christmas Song Pairing: “Secret Santa" by salem ilese

Trope: Secret Santa

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Pairing: Josh Kiszka x Reader

Warnings: Language, smut, oral sex (f. receiving), masturbation

Words: 630

18+ / MINORS DNI

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“I thought it was supposed to be Secret Santa,” you gasped, throwing your head back so that it could thunk against the wall as your face screwed up in pleasure.

Josh chuckled from his place on his knees, arms wrapped around your thighs as he ate you out with a fervor that rivaled the way he hit his notes onstage against a wall in the hallway of your apartment. He looked up at you with bright eyes and a wet mouth. “We could find a way to spin it if we really wanted to,” he said, even his breath making you twitch with the proximity. “No one else knows that I revealed myself to you three days early, so that’s a secret.”

You played along, humming when he went back to flicking your clit with the tip of his tongue, but groaned and felt your cunt clench around him when added a finger inside you as well. “They don’t know that you got down and got me off with your mouth for your final gift – that’s a secret," you offered.

Again, Josh smiled against you, and you thought that it might be in your best interest if you stopped talking so that he would stop interrupting himself. Each time he attached those perfect lips to you, you were wound up like a Christmas toy, only to be held back when he pulled away again to answer. “I’m glad that you have such faith in my skills,” he joked.

In a purposeful series, you rolled your eyes and then your hips, guiding him to bury his face into your core once more. “Well, it’s not like I agreed to move in with you for nothing,” you sighed, moaning softly as he motioned you to come to him with his fingers while upping the pressure of suction on your clit. “I get– ah…mmm– endless head whenever I want it.” Josh widened his lips and sighed in agreement, shifting on the floor as you suspected his hips twitched, looking for friction. “And that cock of yours, baby,” you gasped, unable to keep your hips from rutting into Josh’s ministrations as your peak approached, “I’ll get to ride it morning, noon, and night.”

While you had a healthy sex life, you were exaggerating for the sake of gratification; you would both appreciate having the other right there instead of having to drive across the city to see each other, mostly. And talk about saving a lot of time and gas money - that would be nice, too.

But yeah, it would be nice having the option of sex morning, noon, and night, at least.

You cried out as Josh brought you over the edge, pinpointing that little bundle of nerves with a rhythmic, powerful suction (he’d been taking lessons from your toy, you thought) and giving you something to clench around with his fingers. “Shit, Josh– oh god, baby, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes” you gasped. The spasms of your hips made you whimper as they jerked you right into Josh’s face. 

Slumped against the wall, you felt Josh fish his cock out of his pants, and he chuckled as he slowly pumped himself, forehead resting against your belly. “Besides, just because you know I drew your name, it doesn't mean you know what the final gift is.”

His words interrupted the soft scratch of your fingers against his scalp, massaging and tugging lightly as he was apparently too impatient to wait for you to recover and got himself off at your feet. You could roll with the punches, though. “There’s more?”

His tone got real smug, real fast. “Sure is. But I can’t tell you what, Y/N,” he said, as steady as he could when you finally pulled him up and took over the friction on his dick. “It is Secret Santa, after all.”

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[arsenicflame]

✨, 🎥, 💕, and 🏳️‍🌈 for OFMD and Madoka?

ahhh Iz! so many, thank you so muchhhhh

✨ what draws you towards your hyperfixation? what is interesting about it?

for OFMD: i love the characters!!!!!! all of themmmm. their dynamics are probably the most interesting thing for me. i also love the setting & playing around with more serious sailing stuff, and also into the areas that make this group special. i think fundamentally, the show is such a good sandbox to play around with, what could happen, why, etc etc. i love adding little pockets of lore (i think this is why im so drawn to Sam Bellamy stuff, its adding more to the universe & to izzy and layers of depth that werent there before, even if hes completely part of the past). especially after s1 and kraken era speculation, it was all the what ifs and maybes that drew me in.

for PMMM: this is a hard one! i first watched madoka back when it came out in 2011 so its really hard for me to imagine a life where its not important to me. i think the thing for me about madoka magica, is that its about hope. it so often gets sold as a dark magical girl anime, but at its core, madoka is about looking despair in the face, and choosing hope anyway. its about finding a way through even when it seems impossible. ive always been drawn to that. and the interpersonal dynamics- im big into the different story manga, which adds so much depth to kyoko & mamis characters & their relationships.

🎥 do you have any favorite scenes from your hyperfixation?

for OFMD: ive already mentioned one, so again, that, but a second one: the new unicorn scene. its both the complete opposite to the other, and its twin, and it means so much to me. its really first time we see izzy released from his duties, as first mate, to ed, this is just izzy. and its the first time we properly see him accepted by the crew. i dont really know how to put into words what this scene means to me, but i think you understand anyway. i cried. thats my fucking boy!!!!!!!!!!

for PMMM: i think most of my favourite scenes are from the manga (again, TDS fan) but out of the anime, i think its probably the fight against Elsa Maria- its stylised in a gorgeous way, the animation and movement is artistic and gorgeous. and, its the first moment where you really start to feel dread. the first moment you realise that something awful is coming. its beautiful artistically and narratively

💕 tell us about one of your favorite characters and why you like them!

for OFMD: skipping right over the obvious, because ive dedicated my life to the fuckin guy, archie!!!!!!! my sweet love!!!! urgh shes ao delightful, one of the best things to come out of season 2 forreal. i dont think theres a single scene with archie i dont like, i love her stupid little quips and her pragmatism about everything. thats just the way things go, we fight to the death. pointing out that the guys on top do get away with it. idk, theres just not a single thing i dont love. its also so nice to introduce someone not of the revenge mindset, but also not as messed up over things as fang & izzy. she just fills her role perfectly. so fun to see a "normal" pirate. i love her i would do anything for her

for PMMM: i am, in my heart of hearts, a kyoko girly. my first love, the original. i think loving kyoko set me on the path to love izzy too. shes the underdog, she comes in as the villain of the story, till you start to dig into her character and understand why she feels the way she does about things. even if you disagree, its a different perspective on her. shes teeth and claws and knows nothing but fighting to survive. i love her backstory and her attitude to the truth of their life, and i love her stupid little quips. yes girl it is reasonable to break a guys legs to get him to date

🏳‍🌈 do you have any headcanons (lgbt, race, neuro, etc) that are important to you?

for OFMD: as i said earlier, im pretty flexible on most headcanons, usually working whichever fits in to the particular idea im thinking about, but trans izzy is pretty consistently up there. its one of those things that i think adds a lot of flavour to his actions in canon, and also adds backstory to him and why he might be who we meet in canon in the first place. also making characters trans fucks and should always be done 👍

for PMMM: everyone is gay. including hitomi. thank you for coming to my ted talk.

media hyperfixation ask game!

[agentplutonium]

EA talk!! I just got back from watching it and I need to speak about it. Thoughts/Theories under the cut <33 (also, this one is a long one guys)

OKAY FIRST OF ALL I AM GOING INSANE. LITERALLY INSANE OVER HERE. okay. now. onto things that stuck out to me (gonna bold the ones I'll focus on later in this post):

"... Abomination. I am authorized to end you." "You're chorus... is giving up on me already...?"

Articulate, answers to the chorus

Hush has telepathic abilities

"Do you have any idea what that freak is capable of?"

"He doesn't know I'm in your head" "We only have one shot" really the difference in tone between this and when Doc wakes up

THE SOUNDS OF HIS MAGIC. THERES WATER SOUNDS IN THAT BITCH. LIKE A GREAT RUSH OF IT.

"I don't know what I want to do with you, I haven't decided yet"

"path of least resistance"

"My name? ... Hmm. That would be rather odd if I didn't have one, wouldn't it? Let's go with... Hush. It's got a nice ring to it."

"I'm afraid I'm a little... new, here."

mentions a lot of people who want him gone

"I didn't want to hurt you. I still Don't think I want to."

"I needed it to act as a focal point. A Conduit. A bottleneck. I used your core to focus the spell song on a single point. Like channelling the entire force of a river through a pinhole and then using that pressure of all that magic to eviscerate Reticuli [...] I don't have a core. i needed yours. I could have silenced his connection to the spell song, but I didn't want his powers to be muted, I wanted him dead." (SCREAMING)

6'6" demon,,, (not hush, but like-)

"did it never occur to you that that demon might have been right? You have no idea about the man you saved. What I'm capable of. What I'm going to do" followed by "and foolish"

"I still don't know what I'm going to do with you. but I like talking with you, so that's something."

"What am I? [...] You're gonna have to be more specific. What kind of magic user am I? It's a simpler question, I'll give you that. As a matter of fact, I'm starting to think there's a lot of things I'd like to give you. If I get the chance" (SIR-)

Not a demon, not a human, not a robot "I'm more, and less."

that bitch disoriented us on purpose with the "complicated answer" Also, there's a voice in there, and it obviously did not feel good for human empowered Doc

"Maybe for now we just stick with that simple answer. maybe someday, knowing me won't have to hurt. Only one way to find out"

"I was put on elegy to do something very important, and there are a lot of people who are in the way of that."

"I don't think I want you to hurt. I don't think I'll like that."

"I'm not gonna wipe your memories. I think I want you to remember me. One day you might look back and think that, saving me was the worst mistake of your life. but here's only one way to find out, right?"

that bitch blew us a fucking kiss I'm dying

OKAY OKAY OKAY now time for me to go into hyperfixation mode.

First and foremost, I'm putting my stance out there: This guy is a sovereign. specifically, the one from Brachium's little journey into the river. The one who said "Death is already here" THAT GUY IS HUSH. I have no proof other than a hunch (that Max helped with), but I'm telling you guys. now as for which one, I have a feeling that (out of the named Soverigns) it's A'Xerahn (Desire, the one who created vamps, for the line "there's a lot of things I'd like to show you, given the chance." (still screaming)) or N'Dellex (Dreams, created Dreamwalkers, Hush, get it?). If it isn't a named sovereign then I still believe he's a sovereign from below the river. listen ARGUE WITH THE WALL I AM RIGHT ABOUT THIS.

Moving on. I want to point out the language that Reticuli used when talking about Hush. Abomination, Freak, "I'm authorized to end you." Whoever Hush is, he has the council worried. He's not like them. They're probably scared. This also hints that Hush has done things in the past to get attention put on himself. He's talking about how dangerous he is, and what he's capable of. it's clear that the chorus knows what Hush is. But unfortunately, that lil conversation doesn't give us much. However, Hush seems to be pretty willing to give information, for the most part.

This brings me to my next point, the things that Hush has said. Hush, for whatever reason, seems very comfortable telling Doc that he wanted Reticuli dead. Not only this, but he tells Doc that there is not an insignificant line of people who want him gone. This man is being hunted, and he knows it. He then goes and warns Doc that maybe Reticuli was right and asked if they considered that. He says that they can't know what he's capable of, or what he's going to do.

Before we continue, I do kinda want to talk about the hints that we get for just what Hush is. He says he isn't human or demon. With that, for a being of power, that is, there's really only two options left, and that is Sovereign or Shade. However, he can't be a SHade, cause even when becoming tangible Shades just simply look a certain way that empowered's are aware of. "Oh but pluto, Sovereign is so out there-" not really, not if you think about it. We are getting an Avior narrative push around the same time that we got a new character. What was Avior's whole plot? El'aetum and Min'ara wanted Starlight to be the middle ground cause something was going down with the Meridian. In Inversion, Brachium met someone who tore a hole in the meridian and let the shades loose (or so I'm thinking). Who got out right as the Inversion was happening? Avior and Starlight. The fact that he doesn't give us his real name, and the endless fucking river references when he's being all mysterious- like it's obvious. Not to mention his "I am More. And Less." line. He is more than a regular empowered because he is a Sovereign, but he's also less cause in his "true form" I'll say, he is not exactly tangible or anything, he is power as a concept.

Okay, continuing on. Hush is a Sovereign. He's powerful. He can do things that others cannot. He got sent to Elegy to do something important, something that others don't want him to do. He's ruthless. And he's cutthroat. And he will do what he has to do to survive... but he's curious about Doc. He didn't know whether to let them go or not in the beginning, only to decide so at the end. He has a soft spot for them. He doesn't want to hurt them, but he will do things that might cause them to hurt. One of the last things he says to Doc was "I'm not gonna wipe your memories. I think I want you to remember me. One day you might look back and think that, saving me was the worst mistake of your life. But there's only one way to find out, right?" and guys. GUYS. I think we have a proper antagonist on our hands. I think we have a real villain. One that's gonna affect more than Docs/possibly Avior's storyline.

I think that's all imma write for tonight, but this new boy has effectively gotten me back into the redacted fandom in full swing. I literally don't know what to do with myself.

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Raven, helloooo i’m doing a runaround tumblr to showcase my admiration for my favorite writers on tumblr, and you get one~!

Can I just start off by saying you're incredibly insightful and intelligent?? Your ability to grasp onto character qualities and understand each of them is incredible! Your characterization is always on point. I'd think you are a script writer from the original! I love coming across any of your theories on a character, analysis which always seem canon, or your writings! Romantic or just daily shenanigans between characters all of it is so amazing!! I love each of them! Your writing style is so smooth and fun to read! Its both detailed and telling, but also shown and displayed with the characters actions. You give them life and I love that!

You're also so incredibly patient with your audience! Your willingness to learn is also endearing and I think in general you're a really good person I enjoy seeing come up! Your content is very re-readable in my opinion and I think your blog is wonderful aesthetic wise too! It gives a sense of curiosity and liveliness. Also I adore your oc too~ I love seeing the content of her!

To conclude, I really enjoy seeing any and all of your content and keep up the wonderful work <3 be sure to take breaks as well!

For some context, I recieved this ask towards the tail end of TWST’s third anniversary (around March 18th). Back then, I was very stressed between writing Sebek’s birthday one-shot, alt!dorm headcanons, and general irl business… so the timing of this ask was coincidentally perfect 🥺 It was a nice little pick-me-up to help me through that mentally demanding period, so I’m really thankful that it came when it did!! (If I seem a little more emotional than usual, that’s why 😅)

The next thing I want to say is thank you very much for the highly detailed feedback!! 🙏 I appreciate it when my readers let me know what they think of my work—and while I’ll always like seeing a “good job” or a “you write well”, it’s the very explicit feedback that I enjoy the most. “You did a good job with X! You wrote this well!” It lets me know what specifically my strengths are, and gives me ideas on how to improve in the future or where I may be lacking or not as strong.

I’m glad that you like my works (creative writing, theories, analyses) so much!! TWST has become my hyperfixation these last few years, so I’m grateful that I have a space where I can just shout about it and overanalyze it to heck and back. It feels so therapeutic to be able to share this passion with others!

dhscuwxnks It’s an honor to be told that my stuff seems canon or that it makes you think I’m actually a writer on the dev team 😭 I feel like it’s usually hard for fans to see how much time and effort content creators put into their craft; they just see the end product, consume it, and then wait for the next product to come out only to repeat the cycle. It’s really nice to know that people notice all the work I put in to tru and capture the essence of the TWST characters and their canon. I basically try to wiggle into their mind spaces 😳

We hold TWST near and dear to our hearts, and I want to have others experience that same fondness when they read my works. The smiles and the sobs we’ve had with the NRC boys are universal experiences; I’m glad that I’m able to share such a thing with my readers. I think people sometimes underestimate just how much forms of art can touch us at our very cores; they can be so memorable that someone reading your fic or looking at your art can remember exactly where they were when they first consumed your work. Creations can leave an impact on the world and the people who look upon it!

Sometimes I’ve been told I’m too patient 😂 but I’m relieved that it seems like my patience is seen as a virtue?? I’m used to giving advice and being the voice of reason to others, so I guess that extended into my fandom life. If people find that useful, then I’m happy to be of help and that I didn’t step on any toes! I want my words to guide others into making determinations that feel are right to them, not tell them how they “should” feel or think.

I like to learn because I realize there’s a lot I don’t know. Just as I give knowledge and advice, I’d also like to receive it 🎵 If I think about it… the patience makes me one part Trey, and the curiosity and willingness to learn makes me one part Lilia?

Not gonna lie, I’m still struggling to find that “perfect” blog theme for me… but I’m happy that you also like the little technical things like how the blog is laid out and looks. (I’m very invested in my blog’s theming and Alice in Wonderland motifs!! 💪)

I’m also working on getting more comfortable with sharing content of my OC 🥲 I’ve mentioned this before, but I feel guilty when I mention Miss Raven because some part of me realizes that most people are here for general TWST stuff, not her. Even though this is my blog and I can do whatever I want with it, this still makes me feel like I’m somehow being selfish… which I know is a ridiculous way of thinking, so I’m trying to combat it!!

Once again, thank you for this valuable feedback, I hope you didn’t mind me rambling 🥺 I’ll definitely be looking back on this to reflect!! And I’ll try to take breaks, but no promises in case I can’t keep it—

[firstherrscher]

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for the honkers game!! i don’t go here but i still want to indulge you 🩷

i love you so much mollies thank you for indulgence :}

7. who was your first 5*?

it was yanqing from the beginner banner i did not like/appreciate him much because i wanted bronya and also seele because it was 1.0 but since i didn't get seele or bronya i coped by trying to enjoy him and i do but he's since gotten obsolete . i love him as a character though i think he's one of the boys ever not just in honkai but in all of media. serious. on a lim banner i lost the seele 50/50 to geppie but i'm actually grateful because he helped me out a lot in early - mid game

8. who was your most recent 5*?

this made me think but it's ruan mei i ended up caving to get her with my guarantee since they nerfed jiaoqiu to hell and back that i no longer care to get his lc or e1 and because i do care about meta a bit she helps a lot for daily farming and also sim/divuni

13. what are your teams?

these are the main 4 sometimes it's a bit different. usually gallagher or geppie replaces aventurine in acheron core since he's usually on the other team for moc/pf/as and clara in caretaking can be a debuffer either gui or pela if ratio as solo dps is enough (then it becomes fua not caretaking) then i have a random support team for my farmings which can be any funky comps and i use ruan mei a lot now in just about anything

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50. something you like generally

i like that hsr dailies take literally 10 minutes because even though it is my hyperfix i get tired often and don't really want to put effort playing but it's just so quick to do what i need to do and that's nice

52. something you want in the game

i'm quite happay with everything for now i think hsr just has a lot better features and qol than her brother so i cannot complain a lot ... i just want more good story and content for ever

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Fic Tag Game

Thanks @fandomscraziness22 for the tag!! 🩵

How many works do you have on AO3? 10! My page says 7 but I have some I've published anonymously.

What's your AO3 word count? 122,718

What fandoms do you write for? It's been a while since I've posted anything but when I do find the motivation to write it's usually Julie and the Phantoms, Outer Banks, or The Summer I Turned Pretty! I've written some for other fandoms too but that was a looong time ago haha.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos? (Not including the ones I'd like to remain anonymous 😉) - Fire Red and Ocean Blue (TSITP) - I Hate the Way I Don't Hate You (JatP) - Been Counting My Blessings Thinking This Through (OBX) - Something Like That (JatP) - I'm Standing in Your Line (I Do Hope You Have the Time) (JatP)

Do you respond to comments? I really try to respond to every comment, even if it takes me a while to respond! I genuinely appreciate people who take the time to not only read my writing but also share with me their thoughts, so the least I can do is respond back 😊

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Oof in general I usually stick to happy endings so there hasn't been a ton of angsty endings! But I once wrote a fic exploring a character navigating the aftermath of the sudden death of his wife. It ends with him bonding with a woman in a bar who had also lost her husband, and they dance together and while it's nice to have some sort of companionship again, there's an unspoken agreement that nothing and no one would ever compare to their late spouses. (Based off the song Ghost of You by 5SOS, specifically the last line!) I don't usually write major character deaths, and I actually ended up taking that one down because it was too sad for me haha.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? The rest of my fics pretty much all have HEAs because at my core that's what I enjoy most haha. But my favorite and probably fluffiest ending is Fire Red and Ocean Blue.

Do you get hate on fics? I don't remember ever getting any hate! *knock on wood*

Do you write smut? What kind? I do not, but I always enjoy reading a good smut fic!

Do you write crossovers? No, but I love AUs or fics based off of other books/shows/movies!

Have you ever had a fic translated? Also no haha.

Have you ever cowritten a fic before? I've attempted to, a loooong time ago when I was first getting into fanfic. Nothing ever came of it though, we were both, like, 12 so it fizzled haha. I have no idea where that person is today but I hope they're doing well!!

What WIP would you like to finish, but doubt you ever will? Back when s1 of Outer Banks came out I started working on a Jiara one night stand fic and got about halfway done. I still think about it often, but too much has happened in s2 and 3 it just wouldn't make sense anymore and I'd basically have to start from scratch.

What's your all-time favorite ship? This is a tough one! My oldest and most beloved ships will always be Romione and Percabeth. But no ship has ever, and may never again, have me in a chokehold quite like Juke did during the height of my JatP hyperfixation. So one of those three! 😂

What are your writing strengths? Ooo I love a good theme or motif or analogy and bringing everything back around full circle. It makes my little perfectionist virgo brain very happy haha.

What are your writing weaknesses? Sometimes I'll rush through the little details just to get to the main plot points. I constantly have to remind myself to slow down, a sort of "stop and smell the roses" if you will, and set the scene or create unique little character details to make my fics more descriptive.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in a another language for a fic? If it's needed it's needed! I usually will copy/paste and look up the translation if I need to.

First fandom you wrote for? Glee haha. I used to be OBSESSED.

Favorite fic you've ever written? I feel like this answer changes depending on my mood haha. Right now I think it'd have to be Been Counting My Blessings Thinking This Through, but that could totally be recency bias haha. I am very proud of it though!

What fic would you want to rewrite someday? I wrote this PJO (Tratie) fic called Rivers about 10 years ago and to this day the idea behind it is probably one of my favorite ideas I've ever had for a fic. When I reread it now, I can't help but see the writing of a 15 year old girl who had no idea what she was talking about and was unable to execute it in the way I wanted to in my mind haha. I always tell myself I'm going to rewrite it, and maybe with the show coming out soon, it'll inspire me to!

This was so fun!! Tagging @story-courty @bex2313 and @writerownstory and anyone else who wants to participate!

[imjustabeanie]

uhh i may have to organize this or else im gonna ramble lol-

can i have a matchup for hazbin hotel and helluva boss pls :>

pronouns: she/her

sexuality: demisexual/demiromantic

Star sign (if that helps-): Leo

Personality type: INFP

Ambivert

I use emoticons a lot as you'll see :>

Favorite colors: Purple and black especially since they work so well together

Very much a night owl :)

Personality: I'm a kind of a fun and laid back person but I do like do cause chaos every now and then. I tend to hyperfixate a lot on random things that i tend to find. At first im very quiet but can get more chaotic as time goes on. I can tend to get hot headed at times or be somewhat irrational every now and then and it takes time for me to calm down. Other times im very hyper. Also i have a slight caffeine addiction so that might be why :D

Moral alignment: true nuetral

Aesthetic: Dark academia-ish along with some glitch core because i just really like the look of both

Hobbies: I play the violin, read, write, draw, and i love listening to music a lot. Probably one of my favorite things to do honestly. I also love chilling and watching tv and binge watching stuff. I also have a habit of just analyzing shit for the fun of it because why not. I also really like learning about greek mythology and i like a few musicals. I also watch horror quite a bit and mysteries because I just think that they're fun. I'm also learning spanish as of currently-

Pet peeves: people who cant take a hint... like at all, or they take the hint and just dont care. it annoys the shit out of me. also really stuck up people who think theyre better than everyone else, like we get it youre a child who never grew up. move on. mouth noises are also just the most annoying thing ever.

Appearance: tan skin with dark brown eyes and hair. i wear glasses sometimes but dont usually because theyre not fit properly and i keep trying to get them fir but it never works so ive just given up-. honestly i mostly wear softer clothing such as sweatpants, leggings, or sweaters/sweatshirts. but sometimes i wear jeans and actually style myself although i usually just keep it casual.

Hi! Thank you for your patience I am sorry for being so slow to answer to this trade. I was very sick last week.

Without further wait...your Helluva match is...Stolas!

Stolas was a pretty obvious choice for you to be honest. Your interests and aesthetics click and just like you he’s chill but then pulls out the most chaotic actions out of nowhere.

You two met at night at one of those libraries you only see on pinterest. He honestly just came in cuz he was bored and wished to seek a recent human astronomy book. He found you peacefully reading a mythology book in the corner and was gonna leave you alone till he couldn’t help himself but comment on it. You were so laidback and easy going that you two had a nice conversation where he taught you a few things about mythology (given his age and position he does have an interest in those subjects). It was nice and you two decided to do it every month, then every two weeks and you see where it is going. Stolas just likes coming to you to cool off with no repercussions. It’s what made him fall for you. He confessed after inviting you to watch the stars or a movie he thinks you’d like (high chance you already watched it before but shhh). He confess and also tell you real quick about his marriage situation in case you want out.

Stolas is a caring and passionate lover. His love language is mostly affection and quality time but I believe he’ll wait till you’re ready if you catch my drift. He LOVES spoiling you with numerous gifts and dates. He’d be pretty upset (pouty) if he’s not your go to contact when you need help. He wants to be someone you can rely on, a safe space for you just like you are for him. His gifts range from cinema/concert tickets and your favorite snacks (he doesn’t consider any food as a gift) to actual mythological pieces and priceless violons. Sometimes they even come from his personal collection.

Stolas lives for your chaotic moments! He highly encourages them which results in weekly trouble for both of you (you’re always safe dw but he did get you two banned from a few places). When your hot headed side comes out he’s here to calm you down or get angrier on your behalf. There is no in between cuz your couple is pretty much in sinc. It means you either calm the other down or join them.

Despite his extraverted self, Stolas enjoys some home time. Especially with you. He actually purchases a house in the human world and spends most of his time there now. He wants (begs) you to move in with him. This house has a huge library, two studies, a music room and a very much needed coffee corner. Yeah with those machines you see on tiktok with all the material. Stolas isn’t a morning person at all so he needs his daily coffee and only accepts premium quality. He invested in a home cinema and loves binge watching with you. Those are all things he didn’t get to do often so discovering them with you is a priceless experience in his eyes. Horror doesn’t bother him at all and he can show you much better horror tbh. Stolas also likes analyzing things with you (he listens and chimes in) and actually keeps up with your fixations really well. His favorite thing to do at home is to stay glued to your side.

Stolas often drags you to dance with him in the music room. He is attentive to your tastes and shows you his favorite pieces too! In general he is an attentive lover who adapts to your needs without being overbearing. If you accept his flaws your relation will be…stellar.

Your hazbin match is...Husk!

I did hesitate between a few characters (mainly Vaggie) but in the end Husk won. He’s chill but knows how to have fun. And he’s loyal.

You were at the hotel when you got to know Husk. He was being his usual snarky self but after a few nights (and talks) he slowly became friendlier. He even cracked jokes with you! Music definitely got the two of you to bond. You became someone he felt at ease with. The moment Husk considered sharing some of his problems with you he knew he fell, and fell hard. He started being more attentive to your needs and lost in your voice during your conversations. Everyone knew he was in love so one night they somehow managed to leave the two alone for the night. That’s when he confessed, knowing he couldn’t hold it in any longer.

As mentioned beforehand, Husk is a very attentive boyfriend. His love language is mostly acts of service and some quality time. He makes you your favorite drinks and will even learn the ways of a coffee barista for you. He’s proud of the way he makes you smile and feel loved as well as being your shoulder to vent to. Husk knows he has a way with words and people to make them feel at ease, he’d say it’s a positive trait of his that’s why he wants you to be included in it. Plus he gives good advices for someone with so many bad decisions. Husk likes going on weekly dates with you (besides dinner together every night that he cooks) to watch new movies. He’s mostly a domestic guy so going out in public is something he’d only do for you.

Husk calm demeanor is really helpful when you start getting irrational. He always help you keep a head on your shoulders and is the rational voice. Doesn’t mean he won’t encourage you to go ape shit when someone deserves it. While he prefers the calm, Husk still enjoys your occasional chaotic moments. He knows you try to lessen them for him but isn’t fully opposed to them as long as you’re safe. Low chance he’ll join you but some nagging will work. People are surprised that he’s with someone way more energetic than him but he just shoots some lovey dovey comment and they shut it. Angel is probably your biggest cheerleader in the relationship, he gives a lot of (sometimes helpful) advices to Husk.

While your hobbies differ greatly, I can see Husk appreciating them a lot. Especially your artistic side that he fully encouraged. He’s always there when you practice, even when you get frustrated or have an art block. Husk will become your hype man and do his best to motivate you. He probably got the binge watching habit from you much to Alastor dismay and he actually gets into soap operas….it’s funny to watch. Husk likes listening to you analyze or talk about greek mythology. He’s not great at that but tries to participate (he likes listening to your voice).

Husk will lessen his drinking habits with you. He wants to be the best version of himself for you just like you are for him. He’s really trying and it’s commendable. His gambling is another issue and he needs another fixation for him to stop. I guess with you it could become watching tv as it takes up a lot of his time (not saying that in a negative way but you see what I mean). Aesthetically talking, you two also fit together if we judge by clothing type and your personal aesthetic. Overall he might not be the best guy but he’s willing to change for his love.

[pikawarrior]

Welcome back to reaper talks bitches, i just finished my first playthrough of Shadows Over Loathing and have already started on my second and

Oh.

My.

Gods.

I fucking love this game. I mean its made by the people who made of my favorite games ever, West of Loathing so yeah im gonna enjoy it.

But this, this is new, this limits me in sooo many different ways but also opens up the game in ways i couldnt have imagined

[Alot of spoiler filled ramblings of a mad man slightly broken by a weird time/dimension loop that are only vaguely understandable under the cut]

Okay first off, not picking you class right at the very very start is great weirdly enough, atleast for me.

It gave me time to see the world through the basic unfiltered lens of someone who has an idea whats to come cuz of me playing the previous game but also no clue as the game hasnt given me any story yet.

Literally, it starts off with you having a copy of LOOK magazine on your face. You also get to really choose your look or well hair situation mainly, you're a stick person hair and accessories are all you got and its early game soooo

But anygays, it doesnt give you story till thr bus ride and even then you dont know your class or if there will even be classes!

I choose pigskinner or whatever my head is running at a million miles per hour rn cuz this hyperfixation is really new and free so double the speed of thoughts

And yeah i could have tried something new especially since 2 out of my 3 wol saves were that game's pigskinner class (cow puncher(?)) But come on, i like my familiar class also i suck as magic/effect heavy builds outside of my spamming of stuff like bleed or on fire

But anygays, the uncursing stuff is super fun tho pretty confusing. Thankfully you cant mess them up to my knowledge, they really test you puzzle skilss and you remembering that most things in this game are interactable (very very important)

Also omg i love any chance to piss a narrator and there are some great ones, the main ones that i can remember rn is the one about you working at all these different places and even being employee of the month despite you either being super young or not born at that time. And the one about you digging wet globs of hair out of sinks, mainly at frat houses. Gross i know, but i fucking dug through every single spittoon in wol, nothing can stop me anymore

The narrator def regrets following this dumbass (me) around but they cant leave so HA

But back to the uncursing, the sickle curse was actually super scary. Like that scarecrow was after ME, not the person i was currently in the body of, no he was after ME, my character also nick come on buddy you dont take loans/favors from The Shadows, thats like rule #265, your ass deserved a lawnmowing.

Also wtf i got sent the lawnmower i made with a note that said "see you in 66 years" or something like that. Like HELLO???? WHICH BITCH GOT MY ADDRESS AND WHO WANTS A PIECE OF ME AND MY LAWNMOWER

Seriously the sickle curse was hands down the scariest part of a game ive played in years and ive somewhat play resident evil 7

Also gods i love the to do list, don't get me wrong i loved asking my companions for reminders but this is super convenient and go for when my companion cant you know, accompany me somewhere

Plus being able see everything together and whats a main quest vs a side quest helps. And making my own notes in game helps since i still havent gotta a notebook for my gaming notes yet

Also the whole thing with the mob was great, 10/10 i love being chaotic and getting paid the big bucks for it. Seriously its worth it and theres even some more pacifist options in those quest lines to. Im very much a nice person to my core despite my nature darkness and chaos, so being able to handle things nicely or well with limited blood shed is nice. Also helps with you, like me, tend to avoid battles you dont gotta fight. Its also a nice puzzle sometimes cuz i cant just shove like 9 different thing down my throat and kick ass. Its one potion and one food at a time.

The combat is definitely different but more in a "its harder to be able to wipe everyone out in seconds" then a "heres a whole new system to learn good luck"

In wol its stupidly easy atleast for me to become a lesser god and wipe out half the map basically even during early game. Tho thats mainly cuz of my past experience and cuz i was raised really good and weirdly so my skills work with this-

But in sol the fights are actually pretty tough, i found myself really rationing my items out even in late game but also heavily relying on them and effects

Which btw go fucking on items and stuff that cause effects like bleed and on fire, trust me its actually kinda necessary

Also the last(?) fight (and the optional golem fight) are like stupidly hard even with all tbr help (finale(?)) While the golem is apparently a push over yet also god number two idk im working on it, apparently they didnt play test it and honestly it kinda shows (neutral)

ALSP WTF IS THAT BITCH AT THE FUNAL LIKE HOKY HELL DO NOT BE AFIARD MY ASS THAT A BIBLICALLY ACCURATE ANGEL WITHOUT WINGS RIGHT THERE AND ITS ABOUT TO SEND ME TO HELL PERSONALLY

Also i fucking lost, i can go back but i decided to learn from my mistakes by starting fresh instead of fixing them after they've already been made

AND im gonna help more people, im gonna save those two kids from that monster that haunts their family, im gonna help rufus find my past/other self from the first game, IM GONNA HELP EVERYONE I CAN ESPECIALLY THE ONES I FAILED BEFORE

Reaps now signing off to work on MEP parts see yall in like another 6 months

[nowoyas]

It's fun seeing you talk about hyperfixations, so what are your favorite non-HM / RF farm sims? :3c

*breaks fingers* you've activated my trap card

okay SO! I'm actually still developing a favorite because there's so many in the genre to pick from and they're all so unique! so I'm just going to ramble about non-bokumono and bokumono-adjacent farm sims that I think are good and worth bringing up!

Stardew Valley is the obvious one everyone jumps to. It's a solid harvest moon clone--not in a derogatory way, I mean it was literally created to be a clone of an earlier harvest moon game, and it does that job extremely well and then proceeds to build on the formula in a way that clearly resonated with a lot of people. It is not, however, my favorite. Don't look at my play time on steam. I am slightly burned on it due to how many people slap the label "stardew valley but [core aesthetic]" on every fucking farm sim because they're Guy Who's Only Played Stardew Valley, Playing His Second Farm Sim. BUT it IS really just a great farm sim with solid mechanics.

Graveyard Keeper gets a mention here because, while it doesn't quite match up tonally with the rest of the genre and is only sort of even IN the genre, if you like farm sims as a whole, chances are great that you'll like Graveyard Keeper, as it scratches the same gameplay loop itch that you'll get from any good farm sim. This is a game that was recommended to me by no less than seven people when I was looking for a new farm sim to play, and for good reason! Loosely, you get Issekai'd into another world to be that world's graveyard keeper, and spend the game trying to get back home. Not a farm sim in the truest sense, still worth mentioning here.

Coral Island. Ohhhh my god Coral Island. It's still in the creation stages and being polished, but holy SHIT the vibes are immaculate. Nature and environmentalism-focused farm sim with one of the most diverse casts I've gotten the pleasure of seeing in a farm sim. The characters are beautiful, the concept is gorgeous, and the focus is not just on farming and community, but on cleaning up the environment and taking care of the world we live in. Kind of like another farm sim, I think, but I'm blanking on which one I'm thinking of right now?

PUMPKIN DAYS is absolutely worth mentioning here. It's a super super charming proper farm sim. I wouldn't recommend it to people new to the genre, but rather to genre vets who are already sure they like the core gameplay of farm sims. Much like Coral Island, Pumpkin Days has a MASSIVELY diverse cast. There's three towns you can live in on the island the game is set on, each with their own characters. While it's hard to definitively point to any one character as a specific breed of queer, it's actually the only farm sim I can name where you can be truly poly! Also extremely nice, there's a town on the island called Spoonie Island that's a lovely little community of variously disabled and neurodivergent characters. The reason I wouldn't recommend this as a starter farm sim is one thing: tank controls. This game has tank controls. This is the most interesting decision I've ever seen in a farm sim. Once you settle in with them, it works and I hardly noticed the difference anymore after about 20 hours of gameplay, but if you're a newcomer to the genre? You'll want to start with a game that controls like 74% of other games in the genre. (This is also why I don't recommend Island of Happiness or Sunshine Islands to newcomers to the genre. Touch screen movement is another you get used to but should not start with.)

Another not-technically-a-true-farm-sim game I absolutely fucking NEED to bring up here is Sakuna: Of Rice And Ruin. It's developed by XSEED games, which you'll note is an American subsidiary of Marvelous, the company that makes the bokumono games. They're really fucking good at farm sims. Sakuna is not technically a farm sim--there's a set plotline, the game is much more combat-oriented, and there's no dating system, but this game is still very much about community, and one of the main mechanics is farming rice to grow your strength as a harvest goddess. This game is SO fucking technical with the farming aspect, in the best fucking way. In learning more about how to properly grow the rice, I actually ended up looking into actual fucking real life rice disorders and being able to translate that into in-game mechanics to be able to treat them. I still get advertisements for farming equipment and fertilizers from how much research I've done. I only got 100 hours out of this game, but I chalk that more up to the plot and progression having a more definite end than, say, Rune Factory 4 and its endless dungeons in the endgame. If there were more plot to work through and more progression to gain, I would easily get another 300 out of it.

This post is starting to get long (it's like I'm talking about farm sims or something) so this'll be my final mentions here: My Time at Portia and My Time at Sandrock. Again, not true farm sims in that you're not technically a farmer. Absolutely a farm sim. In these games, you're a Builder who comes to a town (Portia or Sandrock, depending on the game [wow]) and works to build up the community. It took some adjusting to settle in to the art style, but once I did, holy shit these games are fun. These are also more combat-oriented and DEFINITELY less farming-oriented--while you can grow crops and have animals, it's absolutely an afterthought to gathering materials to build things for people. You can get married in these ones, unlike Sakuna or Graveyard Keeper, and it's definitely the closest to true farm sim out of the "kind of but not really but definitely in the genre but also not really" category. My Time at Sandrock sees a full release in September, and I am SOOOO excited. I haven't been playing it as much because I literally have So Much Of Everything to get done while working full time and obsessing over my boys, but any game I've talked about here is well worth it.

OH MY GOD I DIDN'T MENTION ATOMICROPS. Atomicrops counts. It has the farming sim tag on steam so it counts. Okay so like imagine the apocalypse. Now imagine running a farm after the nuclear apocalypse. Much much more combat oriented. This one's a roguelike. You can and should get married in this one. Hands down the best farm sim to recover from dental surgery to. I associate this game with the taste of mashed potatoes.

Okokok I'm pretty sure I'm having an allergic reaction so I'll stop digging through non-bokumono farm sims for now BUT THANK YOU SM FOR ASKING I LITERALLY LOVE TALKING ABOUT FARM SIMS WHEN I WAS A KID MY MOM ALMOST TOOK ME TO THERAPY BECAUSE I PLAYED HARVEST MOON FOR LIKE 18 HOURS STRAIGHT AND FORGOT TO SLEEP

[causenessus]

GOOD MORNING (im writing this at like 11:00 am so idk if this is considered morning)!! i hope you're having a good school dayyy! im gonna be in the same boat as u come wednesday 😞

long yap session incoming- i actually like using your inbox to talk bc it feels sm more fun 😋 like i love seeing u and your mango anon talk through your asks its super sweet to see it pop up on my feed n i always find myself giggling if i read through it SO IM COPYING THEM CAUSE THEYRE SUPER COOL‼️‼️‼️

YOU MENTIONED BEING GOOD AT WII GOLF AND I WAS LIKE "woah i haven't played on a wii since like 2017" its actually insane... i have sm memories of playing w my cousins on the wii BUT WE NEVER PLAYED THE SPORTS we were always playing likeee mariokart 8 and smash and we were so competitive... i distinctly remember my entire family collectively losing their minds when i had managed to beat my oldest cousin in smash one time IT WAS SO FUNNY PLS but like mentioning wii unlocked core memories omg

so like.. i had my first session of tryouts as of now and i think they went okay!! i fumbled a couple serves so idk im scared of the coaches they're a liiiiittle mean sometimes BUT BESIDES THAT I THINK ITS GOING WELL YAYAY

its super daunting knowing a bunch of the people there when you've literally just started playing cause it feels like they're like "ooo.. why would she only start playing now..?" but everyone who's trying out has been super nice so far :))

after we had first session i went w one of my friends to a ymca and we ended up messing up our knees from diving sm so i think we're cooked come next session HAHAHAH but honestly i think it's worth it because i had lots of fun doing that it may rival being in an actual game

ANYWAY I HOPE YOURE HAVING A GOOD DAY!! make sure u eat and drink water!! <3

GOOD MORNING ‼‼‼ (it's 3pm) BUT ANYWAY thank you!!! and aa good luck that's coming up soon </33 and that's okay LMAOO I LOVE THE LONG YAP SESSIONS EVERYTIME I OPEN MY INBOX AND SEE ONE FROM SOMEONE IT'S THE BEST THING EVER!!

and PLEASE wii sports was like a last minute thought i had right as i was answering that part of your ask last time and it brought back so many memories for me too!! most of the time i played tennis or like that sword fighting game and i would get SO amped up about it like some random npc named cream cheese would kill me and i'd be like throwing myself onto the bed (our wii was in the basement and it's also like our guest bedroom) and punch it and be like "YOU STUPID CREAM CHEESE FREAKING CREAM CHEESE I'M COMING FOR YOU CREAM CHEEESE" i have no idea why i was so aggressive 😭😭😭 but i remember that so vividly. i loved mario party!! and i had a giant just dance hyperfixation during quarantine like i worked all night once on that game just to get 5 stars on promiscuous LMAOO

AND I'M GLAD YOUR TRYOUTS WENT WELL!! and that everyone was super nice <3 coaches can't expect perfection from you!! and i remember at least at my high school they had like three or four teams so i feel like your chances should be great!! <3 i also wanted to start volleyball during i think 7th or 8th grade but then just never did 😭😭 like i bought knee pads to really seal myself in that i'd start it and then just completely fumbled but it's okay bc a lot of the volleyball girls at my old schools were MEAN one of my best friends used to play volleyball and she'd always tell me about how toxic it was and the coach was also someone's dad so that girl got on varsity or whatever and yeah...i think i'm good i would not survive that environment 😭

I HOPE YOU AND YOUR FRIEND HAD A GOOD TIME!! I'M GLAD IT WAS FUN <3 AND I HOPE YOUR KNEES ARE OKAY LMAOO THANK YOU SAV!! IT WAS GOOD TO HEAR FROM YOU AND HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY AS WELL DRINK LOTS OF WATER!! <3

[lucithornz]

Psionics: How do you get into the heads of your characters?

I'll answer this from a fic perspective then OC perspective.

In fic it's actually pretty easy for me because I am choosing to write fic based on characters that I strongly relate to or really like. I think it's usually a pretty organic process. I just hyperfixate on a character until I have absorbed them by osmosis(my proudest moment of this was in Brilliant Disguise I was writing stuff about Power's perspectives on Atreus, then I got to the part in the book where he canonically verbalizes the thoughts I'd been writing for him, I hadn't planned that, I was just in sync enough with the character that it lined up perfectly)

One nice thing about RPF is that if I am ever having trouble in this area I have hundreds of hours of VODs to watch to get a better feel for characterization again. Same goes for shows/books. When in doubt I return to my favorite canon events for the character to center myself back at the core of the character that I like/resonate with.

From an OC perspective I think this is a little easier. I think in many ways writing is a massive exercise in empathy. So just imagining how it would feel, what I would do if my personality were different etc is fun.

Thanks for playing <3

[melodiesofblueroses]

𝘙𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘦 𝘔𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴

→ 𝘓𝘦𝘷𝘪𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯 𝘹 𝘙𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳

𝘚𝘶𝘮𝘮𝘢𝘳𝘺: Levi has been messing up on the latest choreo a bit too much lately, and his manager is starting to get worried about him. 

𝘎𝘦𝘯𝘳𝘦: Fluff

𝘞𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘵: ~3.2k  

𝘏𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴 𝘶𝘱: f!reader , idol au

“alright, take five.” at the mention of those words, the seven demon brothers all collapsed onto the studio floor, thankful to finally have a small break. they had been practicing for weeks now on their new dance routine, and although they weren’t perfectly in sync yet, they were getting much better with each passing day. all seven of them couldn’t wait for their next comeback; they wanted everything to be perfect. not only were they given creative freedom for this album, but they even got to direct the mv! the whole group was stoked to say the least. 

“we’re so close!” mammon shouted as he lay sprawled across the hardwood floor. “just a little more practice and we’ll be ready.” the others couldn’t help but nod in agreement. the album release date was so close, they could practically taste it. although the date was scheduled for a few months time, they all knew that if they worked harder, there was a huge possibility that it’d be moved up. the entire album was all finished and ready by now, the only thing left to do was memorize the choreography and film the mv. it was all so exciting.“but levi! ya gotta stop messing up at every take.”

“h-hey, i’m not messing up!” the third eldest retorted in between his heavy breathes. though he tried his best to defend himself, levi saw how all the others nodded in agreement at mammon’s statement. the only thing that did was make him feel worse about himself, which wasn’t ideal for someone who already had a hard time believing in their worth. “sure i may be a little out of sync with the rest of you guys, but that’ll be fixed soon. i just need more practice.” 

“levi, it’s been weeks now, and the problem still hasn’t gone away,” satan added, recieving a glare and a punch from levi who sat right next to him. he couldn’t help but chuckle at levi’s angry face. satan may be younger than him, but it was still so fun to mess with levi. his flustered reaction was much too priceless. “we all want you to perform with us, but you keep dragging the entire team down.” 

“pfft, harsh much,” belphegor snickered as he took sips of water. 

“wait, what do you mean dragging the group down?!” needless to say, levi was quite red in the face right now due to both anger from his brothers’ hateful remarks and embarrassment from being called out. everything was welling up inside of him, and levi couldn’t help but explode at them. he’s had enough of their rude comments the past few weeks. “i’m a member of nageki as much as any of you are. without me, it wouldn’t even be nageki!”

“yeah, that’s true but that doesn’t necessarily mean that you have to be included in the mv you know.” satan smirked at his ‘gotcha’ comment, enjoying the fact that levi was taken aback by his remark. ah, it was so fun to make levi so flustered. “if you don’t get better soon, then we can always exclude you from this particular comeback.” 

“y-you can’t do that! can you…” although he mumbled out the last part, satan couldn’t help but overhear it due to their proximity. all satan did was grin in response, which made levi’s heart shatter. sure, levi wasn’t the best member on the team for either choreography or singing, but hearing his brothers want to drop him so quick did numbers on his self-esteem. he already didn’t think of himself too highly, but now that he knew that his brothers didn’t think of him as a valuable member of the group, well, levi felt like crying more or less. was he really that useless that even his brothers don’t want him in the group? choreography was the bit that he enjoyed the most too, so hearing them drag him for it made him lose faith in himself. he wasn’t even good at the part he most enjoyed. 

“satan, that’s enough,” nageki’s leader and the eldest brother, lucifer, demanded. his tone was sharp and cold, enough to make everyone in the room shut up and listen to him. it was quite difficult to imagine that he had so many fans pining after him, especially since he was so cruel and heartless (at least in the brothers’ eyes). “and levi, satan and mammon do have a point. your dance moves are getting lazy, and you can’t even seem to keep up the same pace as us. as much as we really don’t want to exclude you, if this keeps up, then we’ll have no choice.” the way he said that last part so nonchalantly angered levi the most. even though lucifer said that they would all be deeply saddened to drop levi, it surely did not show on his face. it almost felt as if he was mocking levi in a way. 

levi was way too depressed now to even say anything. the least he could do was just angrily stare at lucifer and hope that it was enough to burn holes in the back of his head. maybe creating this idol group with his brothers was a mistake. they surely didn’t seem to appreciate the effort he put into this group anyway. levi spent countless hours alone trying to perfect his singing for that one line or trying his best to improve his dancing; he poured his blood, sweat, and tears into the group, yet no one appreciated it. they all ignored his efforts and hyperfixated on the one time he made a mistake. 

“alright guys, quit it.” at the sound of their manager’s voice, the whole group turned around only to be met with y/n’s disappointed glare. it shook them to the core and frightened them more than any of lucifer’s gazes could. she was quite the menace after all, not to mention that she made most of the decisions for them. “i leave for two minutes to talk with the choreographer, and all of you are at each other’s throats and dogpiling on one another. you seven are a group, and above all, you’re all brothers, so act like it.” the anger in her voice was quite prevalent, and no one had the guts to respond and say a word to her. even lucifer dared not to say anything to her. “i think the stuffy atmosphere of this studio is getting to you,” she sighed, her tone much more soft this time around. “go out for lunch or something, but come back in an hour.”

“you’re such a saint, manager,” mammon cried out, getting up from the floor and stretching before grabbing his coat from the rack. “how about we all go down ta’ the closest burger joint? lucifer’s treat.” needless to say, he quickly retracted that last statement once he felt lucifer’s deathly glare on him. 

“that sounds great,” beel muttered, holding his stomach while seemingly daydreaming about all sorts of food. “i’m starving.” 

“go out and have some fresh air, except for levi, i need to talk to you.” at the mention of his name, levi whipped around and stared at his manager, becoming even more red at the embarrassment of being called out by her. all his brothers couldn’t help but ‘ooo’ at this statement, which only embarrassed him even further. 

“you’re in trouble~” asmo sang, though all that did was receive a glare from levi and a punch on his shoulder from lucifer who made it quite clear to quit teasing the third eldest. it wasn’t like levi was necessarily mad at asmo for that statement since he knew it was the truth. asmo just didn’t have to rub it in like that! 

one by one, all the other brothers existed the room, giving levi a few sympathetic looks since they knew he was in for it now. as much as they adored their manager, none of them truly wanted to get on her bad side. y/n was sweet and kind and caring as one can see by how she wants only the best for the group. she had no problem standing up to any haters or other companies that dared to sully nageki’s name and reputation, and at times, she couldn’t help but dote on the brothers. everyone in the group truly loved her, but when she got mad, oh, she got mad alright. it’s not like they didn’t understand, however. they knew that the idol industry was cutthroat, and y/n was simply looking out for them and wanted them to succeed in such a toxic and stressful industry. the brothers did need a few lessons here and there after all. they were all brothers, conflicts were sure to arise. 

levi was quite embarrassed at the entire situation and a bit tierrifed. for one, y/n was the manager, and she had the say in quite a few decisions. if she wanted levi out of this comeback, then she would have him removed promptly. and just the thought of that made levi shudder. he could take insults from his brothers no problem. sure, they may sting a bit and lower his already rock bottom self confidence, but they were just his brothers. he has lived with them for so long; levi was quite used to such comments by now. 

but y/n. 

y/n could make or break his entire career. i mean, he knew that she would never go that far since she practically had a heart of gold, but levi didn’t think that he’d be able to handle it if his crush told him that he was messing up the entire group. her words alone would either give him motivation to continue on or give up on becoming an idol entirely. levi felt as if she knew him better than he knew himself.

and that was another thing: levi had a crush on his manager. he knew that it was unprofessional; he knew that it was most likely never going to happen, but levi couldn’t help but fall for her. she always was there for him. whether he phoned her at two in the morning for her to come watch him dance or came to her with issues he was having with his brothers, y/n never failed to let him down. she always stuck by his side and helped him resolve each and every problem, no matter how small and inconsequential they were. y/n wanted the best for him and would do whatever it took to make him happy. and levi had never had someone like that before, someone to care for and cherish him as if he meant the world to them. it felt nice to say the least. so to be in the room, all alone, with his crush who could easily make him cry, well, levi was of course rather nervous. 

“alright levi, what gives?” she sighed, helping levi up from his spot on the floor. y/n quickly took note of the way he winced when he stood up with his left leg, though she brushed it aside for now. surely it was merely sore from the intense practice session they just had. “i know that you’re a great dancer and all, but you seem to be messing up this time around. is something bothering you? you know, you can tell me anything.” gah, the way she softly smiled at the end attacked his heart. she was too dangerous for his heart and wellbeing. 

“i-i’m fine,” levi stuttered, too nervous to be standing so close to his crush. “it’s just that this choreography is a bit more difficult, so um, yeah. it’ll take me a bit longer to get used to, but i promise i’ll get better!” he tried his best to defend himself, but levi couldn’t help but mentally curse himself for admitting that the choreo was difficult. what would she think of him now? that he was an incompetent fool not cut out for being an idol? he’d have to try his best to backtrack. 

“hm, really? i personally thought that the choreo for the last comeback was much harder…” 

“a-ah, yeah…” crap, levi had forgotten about that. last comeback was way harder than this current one, that was basically a fact. it took all seven of them weeks to perfect it, and even then, all of them thought that it wasn’t the best that they could do. it was sufficient, sure, but it wasn’t the best, and all of them couldn’t help but hate their last mv because of that. to them, it was a sign that they were becoming much more lazy and incompetent, so they all vowed to become much stronger dancers. well, that was coming along swell for levi. 

“levi,” y/n started, taking his hands in hers which surely made him short circuit. this surprise skin-to-skin contact made levi so flustered. why didn’t she give him a warning beforehand? was she trying to kill him? maybe this was her plan all along, to weaken him by her warm touch before informing him that he wouldn’t make this comeback. he wouldn’t succumb to such normie tactics! then again, her hands were so soft and warm. levi never wanted to let them go. they made him feel safe, and besides, it made him imagine what the two of them would be like as a couple. they’d be adorable together, no doubt about that. then he could hold hands with her everyday. oh, it would be such a dream come true. amidst his romantic daydreams, levi had forgotten about the fact that y/n was indeed talking with him right now. it didn’t register until he heard her voice again, to which he finally snapped out of his thoughts and focused on her. “please be honest with me, i promise i mean no harm. what’s going on? i would never take you out of this comeback, you know that. don’t listen to your brothers, ok?”

“...ok.” it was as if she read all of his thoughts. embarrassing. levi fidgeted with her hands, caressing them and memorizing every single aspect of her skin before he gave his answer. her touch comforted him, needless to say. she was right; levi knew that she would never take him out of the group, even for one mv. of course she was right, y/n was his manager after all. y/n was always by his side and solved every single problem that came his way, so why shouldn’t she solve this one? taking in a deep breath, levi attempted to calm himself before he said his answer. y/n would always take him seriously. “it’s that, well...i’m excited for zaramela’s concert tonight!!”

...

“...a-ah, i see…”

well, there was that awkward silence that levi had feared would happen. maybe if he continued to explain himself, then y/n would see his point of view. yeah, that should work! “you see, this is my first time going to one of her concerts, and i’m so pumped!! i’ve never seen her live before, so i can’t wait. i’m so excited that i can’t focus on anything else, not even on the latest tsl movie release!” as he went on his long passionate tangent about how awesome zaramela was and how he wished that one day he’d become a top idol like her, levi unknowingly tightened his grip on y/n, holding her hands close to his chest as he continued to fanboy. 

y/n, on the other hand, couldn’t help but giggle at how enthusiastic levi seemed to be. he really did admire her so much, huh. he was quite adorable, especially when he talked so passionately about things that he loved. “i can tell that you can’t wait any longer,” she commented. levi didn’t notice the soft look that she gave him as he was too busy going on and on about his love for zaramela. if he saw that look, he would’ve had a heart attack right then and there. “well, have fun, and make sure to hide your identity well. you did dye your hair for this comeback, so at least you got that part down.” 

“yes manager!!” levi shouted a bit too loudly, ecstatic that she had allowed him to go out and see his favorite idol. if it all works out in the end, then maybe she might go with him to a concert next time! just the two of them, alone in a concert, under the moonlight and stars. ahh, it sounded just like a date. well, it would be a date! a date with y/n sounded just perfect to levi, and maybe, at the end of it all, they would share an intimate and passionate kis-

as levi was trapped in his daydreams yet again, he quickly snapped out of it when he felt something on top of his lips. wait wait, y/n was kissing him! he wasn’t prepared at all for this, what?! this wasn’t how levi had planned his first kiss with her to be at all. it was supposed to be on a romantic date under the stars as the moonlight illuminated her features, and levi went in for a kiss. it wasn’t supposed to be a spontaneous thing! well...this didn’t feel so bad either. unconsciously, levi began to kiss back after a few seconds, and he allowed himself to relax as he started to feel all warm and tingly on the inside. ahh, y/n’s touch was way better than he had imagined. this didn’t even begin to compare to all of his daydreams about her. this was much better, so much better. 

“make sure to go out and enjoy the rest of your lunch,” y/n commented once she pulled back, much to levi’s disappointment. if only it had went on for a few seconds longer. levi wanted to relish in her touch, but it was gone way too soon. “you have about thirty minutes left, so get yourself something tasty.” with those final words, y/n began to flip through her clipboard and get ready to go out, mentally adjusting the schedule for the team for the remainder of the week. there was just so much to be done this week. 

levi, on the other hand, remained frozen and speechless as he continued to process what had happened a few moments prior. his crush really had kissed him out of nowhere. this was his chance to ask her out. i mean, she had basically reciprocated his feelings right now, so what better time than to ask her on a date. his wildest dreams were sure to come true then. 

“hey, y/n.”

“hm?” she turned around, a cute confused look on her face that made levi’s heart do backflips. y/n was too cute for her own good. 

well, it was now or never. swallowing his nerves, levi averted his gaze from her and mumbled out his question. “would you maybe like to, you know, come with me to the concert?”

the moment y/n smiled, levi had his answer, and oh how he was so ecstatic. not only would he get to finally fulfill his dream of seeing his favorite idol live, but he got to spend it with his crush. this was way too good to be real life. “sure, i’d love that.”

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Amphibia Weekly Reviews: Bessie and Mircroangelo/The Third Temple “The Things We’ve Set into Motion Cannot Be Stopped”

Hello all you happy people. It’s been a long road, with an even longer road trip, but the season’s almost over: just two more weeks of Amphibia.. and with all the build up weighing down on our heroes two things are clear: this cannot end well for Anne or anyone involved, and this is going to hurt. It’s going to hurt a LOT. it’s going to be some...

... how have I not used more MST3K gifs. Questions for later. Point is with emotional pain immient, a revolution on the way this episode only ratchets up the tension.. while also sparing some time for makeover jokes and a breather episode about snail mentorships, fashion montages and giant crabs. I do love me some giant crabs. And i’ll tell you allllll about it under the cut. 

Bessie and MicroAngelo:

This episode finds our heroes preparing for the third and final temple, loading up the wagon and preparing weapons, maps, potions, all that good stuff. 

We end up getting two plots out of this. The first is the titular one: so Polly can help prepare, Hop Pop gives Bessie the task of watchin gher snail and certified cutie MicroAngelo, that tiny Snail who I assumed would disappear forever after his intitial apperance because that’s usually what cartoons does. But much like One Piece, Al Ewing and that owl what watches me while I sleeps, Amphibia never forgets. 

It’s some Looney Tunes style shenanigans.. not the bugs or daffy, more on him later today, kind more the “Bigger more responsible party protects the smaller more vunerable or reckless one” kind you’d see eveyr so often. Tom and Jerry also really loved this. And Amphibia wears it well, with some good gags and really cute bonding and some really excellent animation on Bessie, giving the old girl plenty of life and animation. The only part I genuinely do not like is Hop Pop  blaming Bessie for.. running after micro angelo afte rhe ran off. Aka doing the job you assigned her. 

Someone i’m looking at. Regardless otherwise it’s just some fun, adorable slapstick with a downright precious ending. And hop pop DOES apologize.. and wish he was a cute snail. I do not have time to unpack all the implications there nor ponder what Hop Pop would look like in a snail costume. This week’s given my brain enough nightmares. 

So anyway, our subplot has Marcy trying to give Anne a Makeover... and her past attempts with Sasha have been objectively horrifying so Anne is rightly scared, though the armorer who comes to help with it has a blue crab so tha’ts where all my attention. I fucking love crabs.. they just look so neat. Some see the fact a spider crab being out and about in animal crossing as horrifying. I see it as oh look at my cool terrifying crab friend. About the only crab I don’t like is this asshole. 

And even then he can be VERY funny. .he’s just also an exploitative douchebag and having worked in food service, let me tell you I.. I get why Squidward is the way he is. That said Krabbyland is a masterpiece entirely because he’s such a terrible person, so it ballances out when the show’s doing it’s best. 

Point is I like crabs and I like this subplot.. though mostly because it says a LOT about who Anne and Marcy are and where there at. Part of why Marcy is so gung ho about helping Anne is she figures this is her last shot to be whoever she wants to be. But really she’s just projecting: it’s been obvious since we properly met her that Marcy.. likes living HERE more than earth. On earth she’s an outcast: her hyperfixations, her tendency to babble about things she likes, her smartness... alll things that just make people turn away from her or pick on her on earth, with only two people relaly understanding and appricating her.. maybe more but we don’t know the situation with her parents yet. As someone who is a lot of those things, I get where she’s coming from. 

So ending up in a world straight out of an rpg... she florished. Everything that made her life difficult at home suddenly made her florish: her skill with RPG’s meant she could blend in easily with the courtly high class of Newtopia, gave her a love of taking on missions, and allowed her to put her hyperfixation, knowledge and enthusasim to real world use, creating massive improvments in an already ritzy city. Everything that made her an outcast in our world made her a hero there. It’s why I worry about what’s to come: to both Grime and Andrias.. she’s the perfectly made pawn: too desperate to have Sasha back to see the kinfe he wants her to plant in Marcy’s, and too happy to be accepted to see the rpg convention, the benevolent ruler turning out ot be a puppet for the big bad, starring her in the face. Amphibia’s given her her freedom.. but it’s also left her very vunerable and may leave her alone. 

As for Anne.. she realizes how far she’s come: from selfish and kind of distructive to selfless and self reliant.. and still kind of destructive but hey, you can’t cahnge eveyrthing about yourself. It’s why when given heavy armor.. all she needs is the core of it.. something simple to guard her but nothing too complex. She’s fine with who she is.. and it’s why she’s in the best place of the three girls. And why she’s left smack in the middle of the war to come. A war she can’t stop and that will leave her having to choose one... or do the right , hard thing and choose neither and try and free them from the bad influences they’ve embded themselves in. Either way this is going to hurt both her and the audience. 

Final Thoughts: Bessie and Mircoangelo is good classic cartoon fun with a suprisingly deep subplot. Simple, but a nice pallete clensar, especially since the next episode is pretty tense and given it’s ending and eveyrthing that’s been building this season, it’s likely only going to get worse from here, so it’s nice to have a quick and breezy break before hell comes to frogtown. 

The Third Temple:

Before we get to the final temple we get a flashback showing how Sasha met Anne and Marcy. The other two were playing on the swings when two big dillholes pushed them off and Sasha selflessly and fearlessly stood up to them. And promptly beat herself up more than the bullies who dodged her and eventually got so freaked out by whatever the hell this was they ran and a friendship was born. But noticably she’s a lot diffrent 7 years ago, aproximately, than she is at 13: she’s every bit as fearless and willfull.. but the compassion she once had got buried under a need for control. It’s easy to see now WHY Marcy and Anne loved her so much: she was their friend, their protector, she cared about them.. and while she never STOPPED somewhere along the way it became less about doing the right thing for the women she loves and more about getting her way. 

And now the two have had time to heal from what their friend girlfriend became.. it’s time to rip that wound wide open as finally, after almost a season of waiting, Sasha reunites with Marcy for the first time and Anne for the second. 

Naturally her return is in time for her gem to be charged, though our heroes unware of that didn’t seek her out before going in. This time Frobo’s riding claw though weirdly dosen’t come inside. Which is a problem with Frobo’s addition to the cast as the whole: they’ve kept him out of any episode since his induction into the family and only properly explained it once. It just dosen’t make a lot of sense to me; Yes he is massively powerful but his childlike thought process counters that. He’s easy enough to write in but is left out becasue the writers don’t want to deal with an extra character. And I had more than enough of that shit when watching Ducktales. I don’t need it when your main cast isn’t NEARLY as large or hard to juggle. It’s just galling to have spent an entire season showing he was following them, give him a whole episode.. and then just forget about him because i’ts convient. Hopefully he’ll play a bigger role as things progress and we find out where he came from because his misuse is a dark spot on an otherwise great second half of the season. 

Frobo does get to prove himself useful though and open s the temple door he just weirdly dosen’t come along. But this does leave the door open for Sasha to come in as our heroes struggle with the first puzzle: Turns out this dungeon was built by a bro, seriously the temple languge is very broey and VERY hilarious contrasted with how normal for a fantasy setting the others were, as is fitting the strength gem, so our heroes have to compete feats of strength. Unfortunately this does not mean wrestling the ghost of Jerry Stiller to the ground but instead fighting some Lava Worms, and fighting just ONE of them and lifting the provided warhammers is a challenge for Anne.. and she’s the only one who can with Marcy not having enough upper body stregnth and the plantars all de-hydrated spongebob style. 

So naturally Sasha ends up being their savor, easily dispatching them and getting some help from grime who while also dehydrated, is still phsycially strong enough to be of some help. Marcy is overjoyed to see her.. and is the only one. Given Marcy hasn’t been on the wrong end of Sasha and Grime like they have, it’s understandable: while Marcy’s grappled with Sasha’s actions and grip on her and Anne, it’s been clear it hasn’t hit her as hard as it has for Anne and she likely dosen’t get the full scope of it like Anne does. To her Sasha just made a mistake and she’s back now and tha’ts what matters. To Anne and the Plantars... sasha and grime tried to kill them and Sasha then tried commiting suciide to save them. The scars of that haven’t really healed for them, nor should they. 

And given Sasha has spent the season clearly blamiing everything on Anne defying her and has been raising an army based on her resentment, and given she flew into a jealous blinding rage at finding her exes were fine and dandy without her she.. wholheartdly apologizes. 

Yeah she apologizes.. but tellingly while she talks about her and Grime being left homeless following the battle.. she leaves out everything after: The fight with Yuan, the growing rebellion, driving her friends away, the horrifying army Grime now commands. Something’s off. 

Anne naturally dosen’t trust her to do this herself and insists on coming along sitll. The next task is juts.. asking how much you lift bro, which Sasha easily passes by lifting, bro. 

The final test in Jim Crunch’s Temple of Fitness, I mean who else could’ve wrote this, is of course a big fight with a giant statue of a toad, fitting how each temple so far was built by one of the civlizations: there were frog statues and symbols in the first temple, the second was guarded by a newt and the last now has a toad guard.Though curiously.. the test itself is wholly designed for a human. Before it wasn’t 100% clear even with the hyroglyps if the chosen ones had to be human or not.. but now it’s impossible to argue otherwise. There were hints : The fact the guardian pegged her as a possible chosen one on sight , the ruins in the background of the title cards which also depict the watcher with a thousand eyes (which is what i’ll be calling him till we get his, her , they or it’s actually name. ).. but here the chamber includes a gravity increase dbz style, meaning our heroines are the only ones who can stand as the Plantars and Grimes frog and toad bodies respectively aren’t strong enough to stand anymore. And while Marcy tries it ends up falling on Anne and Sasha with Sasha being Angry Anne doesn’t trust her.. and Anne not refuting it, pointing out she has EVERY REASON not to. As she puts it “it’s not just toad tower”. For most of their lives Sasha has been controlling, caring about what she wants and not what the people she loves wants. It wasn’t just the fight there... it was simply the wakeup call to how bad a person Sasha had been. 

And for the first time in the episode.. Sasha is geniune, apologizing for what she did, and genuinely admitting how she treated Anne wasn’t wrong. it was something she coudln’t admit to herself episodes ago.. but faced with both loosing two more people due to her behavior, and having plenty of time to reflect on said behavhior.. she finally relaizes it’s her. Fuck man.. what else is there to say. 

Oh right the giant monster thing, which Anne trusts Sasha to finish.. and we get anothe rDBZ homage as Sasha removes part of her armor, which creates a CRATER, which lowers her weight enough to fight the thing. She gets a thumbs up and the honor of recharging it. 

Anne suggests opening the box.. but Marcy is VERY quick to shoot that down and suggest talking to the king. And while her reason SOUNDS good,, they don’t want to get warped somewhere ELSE at random.. it’s very clear from her actions and how quick she tried to stop it that she needs them to get to Andrias for whatever he’s talked her into. And I emphasis talked her into: Marcy trusts the king, and was in a very emotional place when he was about to talk to her at the end of season 2a... and he knew it. He knew she was at her most vunerable, most malable and trusted him completely.. and knew right then and there was his shot at getting vengance.. for him and his master. Whatever he has planned.. it’s not good. The mechancial lovecraftian horror he keeps in his creepy basement full of lost souls is a dead giveaway from that. But I don’t.. fault Marcy for it. It’s not just because I sympahtize.. to her Andrias is a good noble king trying to help her. He’s the kindly mentor she always wanted, a person who enjoys her skills dosen’t care how much she talks and has complete faith in her, something even Anne struggles with. 

But it’s VERY clear, to me at least he’s been likely using her from the moment they met: to her sh’es just an optomistic pawn, someone gullible enough to do whatever he says. I’ve always felt that her “missions” probably had some darker purpose she wasn’t aware of: getting Andrias things he needs for his army, an army she has no idea is opressing people. She’s insulated from that and instead surronded by adoring people who accept her for once. Even going to wartwood, she hasn’t yet made the connection between the toad towers and what their purpose is. I think deep down she might suspect this stuff.. but she can’t ACCEPT that the one person who every had nothing but faith in her.. is a horrible person who opresses others and somehow has even WORSE plans in store. 

Sasha likewise is facing the pressure of her parental figure.. while her patching it up with Anne was legitmate... her and Grime’s own plans rely on getting in there and Grime simply sees the other two as pawns , and just like the king he wants he wants to overthrow, their use expires once his plans in motion. 

But the thing is.. it’s clear despite assuring Grime she’s still all in.. her face in the last shot, as seen above.. says otherwise. Her apology was legitmate, not just an attempt to get close to the one thing in her way of power, but what she’s come to realize: she’s gone from blaming Anne for it.. to realizing it was her. But she’s also stuck: while Marcy is unaware of the strings her pupeteer is pulling her towards.. Sasha is all too aware of what her mentor is planning. And the thing was she was all too willing to go for it. She blamed Anne for what happened at the tower, blamed Anne for turning marcy against her and blamed the plantars and co for turning anne against her. But in the harsh light of day... none of that’s true. Marcy dosen’t hate her, neither does anne, they didn’t turn against her.. they were just tired of her shitty behavior and wanted the friend they found that day on the playground back, the woman they loved who’d go to hell and back for someone and not the bitter, manipultive person she became. She’s once again realized it was her fault.. the question is if that’s enough for her to do the right thing or not. And the hardest question of all is IF not reblling isn’t the right thing. Wfhile the Toad’s probably shoudln’t be in charge either, Andrias REALLY shouldn’t. There’s NO easy answers here, no happy outcome that makes everyone live’s better. There’s no easy way out, no shortcut home.. just the louder and louder drumbeats of war and one girl’s decision of whose side she’s going to take.

Final Thoughts on the Third Temple: As with the other four sasha episodes thus far, this was frogging brilliant. Shoudln’t be a suprise and it makes me both look forward and dread the war to come

Next Week: The plantars try to bury the hatchet with Sasha and Grime, the girls enter a battle of the bands, and the finale comes ever closer.

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Starker Drabble: truth serum mishap? - starkerkitty91x

“Are you sure we should be doing this, Mr. Stark?” Peter asks. His entire figure exudes uncertainty, the hunch of his shoulders, the nervous rubbing on his palms against his jeans, the lines between his eyebrows. “I don’t want you to do anything that might, like, hurt you. My project isn’t worth that.” 

Tony can’t help but smile, feeling a stab of fondness for the kid. Plenty of things had changed since he’d started attending NYU focusing on biochemistry, but his heart hadn’t been one of them. The kid cares, heart as big as his brain. Hopefully, his brain is as large as Tony believes it to be, the man thinks, glancing down at the test tube of clear liquid resting in a holder on the lab table. Otherwise, Tony really might get hurt. 

But second only to his affection for the kid is his trust in him. Peter is smart. He’s been working on this serum for two entire semesters now. They can’t bother testing it on him with his genetic modifications, so Tony will gladly play the guinea pig this time. 

“If it really is a truth serum, then your work certainly could be worth some injury for the greater good,” Tony says. Peter’s face only gets paler. “But! - for what it’s worth - I don’t believe anything is going to go wrong. We went over your numbers together and everything checks out. Sometimes, kid, you just have to bite the bullet and go for it.”

“I don’t like that analogy,” Peter snarks. 

Reaching out, Tony picks up the test tube carefully. He sniffs at it. “I don’t smell anything.” 

Peter brightens, only a little. “Exactly. It’s not supposed to have any noticeable taste or smell so that it can be disguised in other solutions.” 

Tony hums. “Bottoms up.” 

Peter is right about the taste. Tony isn’t entirely unconvinced that he didn’t just drink spring water. Maybe that’s the kid’s goal here, maybe this is meant to be a control test. Sitting the test tube down, he takes a seat just in case the stuff he just swallowed isn’t Dasani and it has any unsavory effects that knock him out. Tony’s too old to be doing this, too old to be allowing himself to be experimented on and sure as hell too old to deal with any side effects. 

But for Peter - 

“I’d do anything for you, kid, you know that?” 

“Thanks?” Peter says, cheeks a little flushed. He drags over a chair until they’re sitting by each other. “That’s out of nowhere though. How do you feel?” 

“Totally normal.”

“Not fuzzy in the head? Distractible? Or -” 

“I’m always distractible.”

Peter laughs a little, revealing rows of neat, white teeth. “To be fair, it balances out your tendency to hyperfixate.” 

“Might be nice to experience a healthy middle for once,” Tony muses. “Should I be feeling it?” 

“It might only have detectable physiological effects once you try to lie. Tell me, what’s your name?” 

Steve Rogers, he goes to say. But the breath it would require never makes it past his throat. His teeth click together audibly. Holy shit, Tony thinks. It works. It really works. The harder he strains to try to give any name other than his own - to even give his nickname, Tony - his tongue rests uselessly in his mouth. Peter’s eyes are wide as moons watching Tony struggle, his entire being lighting up with excitement that makes the discomfort completely worth it. 

Then, the other half of the serum begins to work. It’s not enough to keep someone from lying, Peter had said when he presented his project to Tony. You have to compel them to tell the truth. The compulsion begins like an itch in the back of his throat. A feeling of momentum in his chest, like the words are held there and ready to explode out of him. The answer flashes in front of his eyes - Anthony Edward Stark - but he grits his teeth against it. The longer he resists, the worse it gets. He feels it on the tip of his tongue, feels it in his gut, feels it in the flashing synapses of his brain. 

Through his teeth, after only a single minute of silence, he admits: “Anthony Edward Stark.” 

Peter hoots, pumping his fist. But at the sight of the sweat beading on Tony’s forehead, he sobers, reaching out to rest the back of his hand against Tony’s flushed skin like a mother with her child. “Are you okay?” he asks. “Does the compulsion hurt?” 

“Yes,” he says. Relief floods his chest. God, it feels so good to tell the truth. “Not unbearable, though.” 

Peter frowns. “I don’t like that. Maybe we should end the test here.” 

“It’s worth it for you, kid,” Tony blurts out. “I’d hurt a thousand times worse than this for you.”

Peter blinks. “I - that’s, that’s nice? Not really nice, though, because I never want to hurt you, Mr. Stark.” 

“Tony. Please call me Tony. I get that maybe you were nervous to at first and that now it’s like a longstanding joke, but you don’t know how often I think about your mouth forming my name, how often I think of what it must sound like. I fucking crave it, kid, please give it to me.” 

After he runs out of breath, Tony stares blankly at the kid’s face. Holy shit, he thinks again. It’s doing more than just working. 

“The compulsion aspect is out of hand,” Tony says, standing jerkily. He winces when he barrels on to say: “I need to leave the room before I admit my feelings for you.” 

“Feelings?” Peter says, gaping. “You - you have -?”

“So many feelings. Namely romantic and sexual ones these days.” 

“What?” Peter’s voice is nearly a shout. “Sexual feelings?” 

“Of course!” Tony answers, bidden to by the drug in his system, the drug that pries open his teeth no matter how tightly he clenches them shut. The drug that roots his feet to the floor to keep him from walking away. He has an out of body experience (or maybe that’s wishful thinking, maybe he just wishes he could sever his ties with his body and float away to never have to deal with the repercussions of these confessions) watching himself spill his most depraved secrets and thoughts: “You’re not a child anymore; I feel helplessly attracted to you; sometimes when we’re down here working together it’s all I can think about: bending you over one of these lab tables, you getting down on your knees for me so that I could feed my cock into that snarky little mouth of yours, spreading your legs and licking you open to see if you could cum from my tongue alone, for fuck’s sake, I need to leave the room!”

“Why?” Peter asks. Now his voice is quiet, gentle, his hand cool against Tony’s heated flesh when he rests it on the man’s forearm. “Why do you need to leave?”

Tony swallows hard. “Because you don’t feel the same, because if you did feel the same it would still be wrong, because I’m far too old and it’s perverse, because people will think I groomed you, because I’m not good for you, because I could never be good for you, because I’m going to lose you and I can’t stop talking.” 

“I don’t want you to stop talking,” Peter says. He brings them closer, until the fever inside Tony’s body feels fed from the outside by the kid’s own body heat. Still, his hand is cool and refreshing when it reaches up to press against Tony’s cheek, and maybe the honesty goes deeper than just his words, because Tony can’t help but lean into the touch, to let himself have this moment because he wants it and there is no lying to himself about it. “Mr. - Tony - you, you have to know that I feel the same way. I’ve always felt the same way. I thought I was being like, super obvious about it. I don’t care about what anyone else would think. Because I know you’re good for me. You always have been.” 

“Want to be good for you,” Tony breathes. His body shakes, and there’s no telling if its the drug or the vulnerability. He cringes at the neediness in his voice and his words, but that’s him. At his core. At his most honest - yearning. 

“You are, I just said,” Peter replies. “Can I kiss you?” 

“I might die if you don’t,” Tony admits. 

Peter breathes a little laugh, breath fanning across Tony’s open mouth. “Don’t want that,” he murmurs, standing up onto his toes.