#it’s really disheartening to see ppl I respect
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it is so hard to listen to any criticism of fat people who are objectively bad people, they just happen to be fat, without people inevitably making the issue about fatness
#this about amber l reed#not actually spelling correctly bc I don’t want anything to do with her or anything#it’s really disheartening to see ppl I respect#still hold super fatphobic views#it’s the same with the avocado boy
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yeah you support trans people but are you normal about trans men who choose to get pregnant
#i'm not a trans guy who evr wants to get pregnant but#the amount of queer ppl and other trans people i see joke around about like#how weird mpreg or men getting pregnant is#and use it as shock value shit#is really disheartening#like damn dude! it's almost like men CAN get pregnant and there IS a lot of men who choose to get pregnant !#they don't deserve any less respect for that#and their existence shouldn't be made into a joke#ik mpreg doesn't have a great history but like#it just weirds me out to see people treat the idea of men getting pregnant as something baffling#idk normalize it. stop treating it as some weird alien thing#my textbox#a little bit upset. sorry#discourse#pregnancy#<- for filtering
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I don't think Dragon Ball Z Abridged is "more accurate" or anything like that, but I do think that if they didn't want people elevating it above the original work they shouldn't have gone so hard on the serious parts. Like, the Cell Saga has a lot of scenes that are just fully dramatic with zero jokes. That pushes it into being both parody and a valid alternate dub, if we're going to speak in those terms. But members of TFS would say they don't want it thought of that way, and it's like, well, why did they make it that way then, right?
Very fair. I always get confused by that too. It’s like, why are you saying you don’t want ppl to think it’s better than the original when there were moments where you went out of your way to try and make it better than the original?
But I can kinda see where they’re coming from. When you make something for a fandom you love, you want it to be the best it can be, like fanfics. But when people start saying they like what you made more than the original work, it’s kinda infuriating. Like, ya, I wanted this to be really good, but this wouldn’t exist without what you just made fun of. So I can understand the annoyance TFS has sometimes. I don’t particularly like a lot of their opinions, but I at least respect their love for the series.
I think the real problem is how incessant the abridged fandom is, especially because most of it is made up of ppl who either haven’t watched the original DBZ, or have forgotten everything about it. (It’s really annoying when ppl make claims about dragon ball that are so obviously wrong, but at the same time so obviously something they learned from abridged, like Goku not needing to take his medicine being turned into Goku not wanting to take it)
Comedy series are often elevated by the small splices of drama they have, but I think the main issue is that most of the people who watched Abridged watched it as only a comedy series, instead of a parody series.
They also think the dramatic scenes elevate the entire series, which they don’t. They at most elevate a moment or an episode. It doesn’t retroactively make the series better (in the same way a lighthearted show switching to horror wouldn’t automatically make the show better).
I’ll be the first to say the dramatic scenes in abridged are great, but the issue is when the audience thinks these scenes are what make the abridged series better than the original, when the dramatic scenes the abridged series does have come directly from the original series. Android 16’s talk and Gohan’s ssj2 transformation chiefly. Those are literally just recreations of the original Dragon Ball Z moments, and thats a big reason as to why they are so impactful.
But anyway, ya, I totally see what you mean. I’ve gotten mad about it a few times too. It’s just overall so disheartening seeing people dunk on a show because they think the show they like is better, when the show they like wouldn’t exist without the show they just dunked on.
#aw man I started rambling#so many run on sentences#i hope this is understandable lmao#but fr the TFS fandom and TFS themselves sometimes are really annoying#I would say they are about as bad the actual dragon ball fanbase#which is a BIG accusation#ask#ask response#dragon ball#dragon ball z#dragon ball super#dragon ball z abridged#db#dbz#dbs
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Reasons why I think Crocodile is highkey queer in a trans way
Hello tumblr, your boy is back to cook once again.. I will list off all the reasons I think Crocodile (One Piece) is very queer (trans specifically) and my reasonings for it (Most of these will be based on my own theories btw, some/most of them arent based on canon)
I know its already a very popular headcanon but I wanted to list off WHY its so popular and even kinda implied!
Starting off strong with the main reasoning everyone tells you when you ask them why they hc it, his secret past with Ivankov. One Piece is no stranger to cooking with their villains' backstories/general past stories (the latter being the case for Croc, don't know if we will ever get his actual backstory) and Crocodile... has not been cooked yet. The only thing we know about him is his secret that only Ivankov knows, and based on how Croc acts with this secret it's safe to assume he would not want it out there... but why exactly???? I have a theory on that
Let's say he's trans, just assume it for a sec. Remember how queer people are treated in the OP universe. Although we can give the universe the benefit of the doubt and say the queerphobia isn't that bad to the point where queer people get killed just for being queer, they are very clearly outcasted. In the Impel Down arc we see this a lot, with everyone calling the New Kama soldiers either "a queer" (in the slur way) or a "pervert" (uncalled for tbh). I dont think the main reason Ivankov made the queer paradise was because they were outcasted, but I think that may be one of the reasons for it.
Now, still assuming Croc is trans, lets take a look at why my previous paragraph matters. If we go by the theory that he went to Iva and used their HRT powers to transition, this could be really bad for him if it came out! Like REALLY bad. There is a chance he could lose a large portion of his reputation and his intimidating aura even!! Besides the queerphobia, sexism is very apparent in the OP universe as well. I feel that if word got out that Croc is trans, people would not only be transphobic but also sexist towards him.
I don't think that Croc would get disheartened by all the negative thoughts people have about him, no. That would be very OOC. I think he wouldn't give two shits! But his reputation DOES matter to him, as a man that thrives to be a very strong and remarkable pirate (and also with his dream wanting to be the king of the pirates ofc).
2. Continuing from Impel Down arc, lemme ask you all a question.. did you notice how Crocodile very suddenly got his actual clothes back in the middle of the arc? Well I have an explanation for you. According to a question Oda answered himself, the New Kama prisoners steal clothes and they happened to steal his... for some reason. Why could this be exactly?????
Okay some of you may think I'm reaching (there is a lot of reaching in this essay), but I think that they may have done it as a favor to him knowing that they may meet him someday. JUST THINK ABOUT IT! Iva has history with Croc, they wouldnt ignore Crocs clothing I would think! My main theory is that Iva stole it with the thought of giving it back to Croc themself, maybe with the intention of making Croc join them? Whooo knows...
3. Take a look at this image here.
Now I want you all to think about the villains of OP. I'm not talking about those who are morally grey, like Hancock or Kuma for example. I'm talking about Moria, Doffy, Kaido etc etc. I already mentioned the queerphobia of the universe and how they are outcasted. I think my theory on the villains of one piece not respecting queer ppl as a whole has a chance to be partially correct. Im going to base this entire section on that theory, so feel free to skip if you disagree.
Crocodile as we know, is a horrible dude. Morally Black. No thoughts behind those eyes besides determination, hunger for power and the desperation for victory. I mean look at the dude, he looks damn bored all the time with the only times he shows emotions being when he has fun torturing people! We can safely say that Crocodile is that type of villain.
Now going back to the image, ASSUMING my theory that Crocodile and his past with Iva is based on him being queer, I like to think that he is more "kind" with queer people in general. Him letting a New Kama member do his laces may just be a representation of his power and superiority over the characters, but it could also hint at him specifically asking the New Kama member to do it (which is most likely the case). Why am I mentioning this? Well, as far as I can see, the New Kama member doesn't look scared. Could this be because they trust Croc maybe? Could the New Kama members know about Crocs support through Ivankovs depiction of him (without outing him Id assume)?
Yeah okay... too far of a reach maybe. But HEAR ME OUT ON THIS!!
Going straight from that theory, let me mention the best character in the show...... BONNNNN CLAYYYYYYY!!!!!!
Mr. 2 Themself.. I always thought its really interesting how Bon didnt have a partner while in Baroque Works. For those of you who dont know, the reason for this is because Bon Clay is a very queer individual, and often describes themself as being both genders! Due to this, they specifically went to Crocodile and asked to not have a partner. The partners in Baroque Works are always 1 man and 1 woman, and with Bon being both they didnt want a partner.
CROCODILE LITERALLY HAD NO REASON TO INDULGE IN THIS REQUEST IN ANY WAY??? Why would he, knowing that he will literally LOSE MANPOWER, accept this request at all? There are 2 outcomes to this question. 1, he trusts Bon Clays abilities.. or 2. He respected Bons identity enough to agree to this request. I personally think its the latter because why would he choose less manpower over more?? Even if he trusts Bons abilities, Bon is still vulnerable working alone, and there is no reason for him to not pair them up with anyone besides the identity thing. We constantly see him respect queer characters and even know he has a past with the MAIN QUEER THEMSELF! This is especially weird because he canonically looks down on everyone and thinks everyone is worthless unless theyre useful to him. I don't think any of this is a coincidence........ ONTO THE 3RD REASON!
3. This is Lil CrocTM.
Now, I have asked many people on this and it is confirmed I AM NOT REACHING! THAT KID IS ANDROGYNOUS AF! Yes you could argue he leans more on the masc side, but nevertheless him looking so androgynous as a kid may mean something... WOW! AN ACTUAL CANON REASON AS TO WHY HE MAY BE TRANS! APPLAUSE APPLAUSE
Those are all the main reasons, some honorable mentions;
In this scene, he makes that face the second Iva mentions meeting him as a rookie.. hmm... could this be because he was a WOMAN back then?
Iva specifically says the words "revealing his past" and mentions only one weakness. If that secret was him being trans it would make a lot of sense!
2. Its said that one of the main inspirations of Croc design is Captain Hook, the disney villain. If youre a disney fan youd know that Captain Hook is a very blatant homosexual character. Not trans, I know, but still a queer character! I thought itd be worth mentioning.
Yeah ok thats basically all I have. I know there is a high chance his past secret has something to do with his scar and missing hand (a character we know of that made him like this maybe?) but I still really love the idea of him being queer in some way. Trans Croc DOMINATIONNNNNNN
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completely agree w everything u said abt the state of dcd rn :( its sooo disheartening i miss all those guys so BAD especially gch its devastating i really wish i had known abt them sooner so i couldve seen them all together??? but yeah i get u and i hope no one in your inbox is being weird abt u being less active !! completely yr choice and i respect u mwah - @flamingheretic
its good to know that im not the only person feeling like this, i was getting the impression some ppl were maybe feeling the same cause ive seen a lot of mutuals move onto other things plus a lack of interest in dcd like if the cobras, 3oh!3 and millionaires show was announced in 2022 it would've been mental lmaooo but yeah i'd kill to see all the dcd bands in their full lineup but i'll settle with seeing fob and tai minus chizzy and watching 240p videos of the others :D
#mwah#no ones been weird to me but i mean go ahead if u want to#ill start gatekeeping the santi dvd that isnt online anywhere but i have on my drive if u do#ask#flamingheretic
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So many people are leaving and it’s so heart breaking cause I’ve gotten so used to you and your posts. I really don’t want you to leave (I’ll be doomed for good 😭) but at the end of the day its your choice and no matter how sad it might be we have to respect your decision.
ash, my love :( this is breaking my heart too what the heck.. i know, it's been so disheartening :( it's just that, life's been so busy and i spend my free time writing, but i always catch myself thinking whether the effort is still worth a dying site (and how many are still ready to stick around for me bc what if ppl aren't) and yeah it's dumb!! nothing's set in stone tho, so i'll see. thank you for saying that 🤍
#ty for caring bc my insecure ass always thinks nobody would LOL#i love you 💕#notes for rid 🌹#ash <3
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it's a bad time to be alive babes i just found out some of the people i considered as friends are not supportive of lgbtq 🗿 ... and im ASEXUAL-
tw: homophobia
they give such bs "i dont support being gay but i respect you as a person" or "i dont support lgbtq but you do you" or "idrc if youre lgbtq, it's still wrong to me but i will respect you, as long as you respect my opinion taht your sexuality is not valid, respect goes both ways" how tf does that make sense ??? and then you consume bl/gl content like ???? be so fucking serious rn
the next times ppl come at me with the "i dont support lgbtq" i stg im gonna be like "i dont support straight ppl" since "respect goes both ways" no ?? "yeah i dont really support people being straight but you do you" ☺️ "i dont support u, a woman, loving you bf, bc straight relationships are wrong, but i do respect you as a person, we can still be friends !! idrc if ur straight, it's whatever."
and it's really disheartening seeing so many people around u not supporting who you are as a person, and then lie to you that they do like 🗿🗿 if u dont support lgbt, then you dont support me as a person BC LGBT IS WHO I AM ???????????
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I am sad and disheartened even though it's about a fictional character, I needed someone to share it with who can understand, I was roaming around the internet, reading stuff about Natasha. I have seen a lot of stuff mocking nat, her abilities, her usability, tweets joking about her guns against aliens ( how wrong), her running around whilst the other avengers are "flying",... Not to forget, the ones resuming her only by her titties and ass, then there was a tweet by a WANDA( WOMAN)Stan saying she would have been a run through, cum dumpster if the MCU was ok with sex scenes & the truly sad part is how everyone was laughing at that. It's sad to see that Natasha not only had been done dirty by marvel but also the audience.
The funny part is a lot of people believe that yelena is a better character than nat, of course she would be, no one let nat to be more than an ass and titties as if though the whole screentime she got in the MCU was just a steamy photo session. I got a lot to say about the sexualization part I don't know how to put it in words, it's a lot
OMG- please you can rant to be abt it all the time please. I’ve been ranting about this for DAYSSSS IM SO GLAD SOMEONE ELSE FELT THE SAME.
First of its sad (yet not surprising) that a Wanda stan said that. They always let down other women in order to bring her up. That’s why there was a phase where i hated Wanda because of her fans (dont come at me ok seriously on tiktok they wont stfu).
Literally the coolest thing about Nat is the fact that she has no powers but get shit done, A LOT. Everyone has their preferences, but literally how can you not see how cool she is?!!
Natasha Romanoff, no powers but will not hesitate to charge into battles with other superheroes. Homegirl only had one, let me emphasize this ONE parachute yet mf just jumped from THOUSANDS of feet in the air. Knowing she could’ve died but she’s such a pure soul so she did so without any second thought. HOW ARE U NOT IN LOVE WITH HER ALREADY?!!
I truly trullyyy do love Natasha, she’s a fictional character, but omg she’s like so cool and everything. But like u said she was done so dirty by Marvel and the audience. (which is why i like to say, ppl who love Natasha is literally the coolest ppl ever. I aint joking, other superheroes are easy to like, but natasha is for legends only)
Im very sad for Scarlett too, the way she got overly sexualized especially in the early days of the MCU. Then when she finally got her solo movie, her character got thrown off a cliff BEFORE HER SOLO MOVIE CAME OUT and ppl constantly said Yelena stole the movie. Look i love Yelena, but this aint about her. Please, let Nat have one thing, but she really can’t can’t she?? Literally have some more respect for Scarlett.
And another cool thing about Nat is the fact that she kept her heart even after all the traumatic childhood she went through as a child. People love to say Wanda had the saddest life, but so did Nat. We all know what the red room is basically mirroring in real life, marvel won’t say it but we know what it is. They both have sad traumatic past, but Natasha kept her heart. And after going through all of that?!!! I dont know how one could but here she is!!!
She was taken as a child, put in a mission where she had a taste of what a normal life would be, ripped away from her and had to be put in the red room again. Found a family with the avengers yet they never seemed to care much abt her don’t they? Found her sister but then her sister was snapped, and then had to lead the Avengers for 5 years because idk wtf the others were doing. AND THEN SHE DIED WTF MARVEL WTFFF?!
Anyway im so sorry, i could rant about this all day. God i love her sm you don’t understand 🥲🥲
#vlake answers#vlake rants#vlake is Natasha’s number one supporter#i will defend natasha romanoff til my dying breath#natasha romanoff
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hey i respect u a lot and i love it when ur an asshole but i just want u to know being an asshole to someone who thinks they r trying to help w the whole gpt thing doesnt make them not wanna use gpt it just makes them think the people who want them not to use it are assholes. like fuck gpt but the cake thing is p demeaning & just shuts out the ppl ur trying to advise into ur an asshole and im not listening land. not helping the anti ai movement, just making urself look mean about it yk
While I will fully acknowledge that the "I'm sorry my follower added that comment to your post" cake Is rude as shit, what's also rude as shit is reblogging a post about Chat GPT contributing to the death of creative expression with unasked for advice about using it to replace the work of copy editors instead, especially when that work actively continues to teach chat GPT more shit about how to steal and take work away from myself and people like me.
Perhaps I should have said that in the reblog but there is so little good faith discourse on this website that the one allowance I could make to good faith was not blocking immediately and bothering to respond at all. Bluntly, I'm fucking tired. I once had a harassment brigade against me because I posted a polite reminder that people with HP urls should change those. No matter how nice and polite I am people who want to misunderstand still will, and I didn't reply because I was doing praxis or trying to help the anti-ai movement— I replied because I was annoyed and upset! But maybe that's nihilistic and i shouldn't get jaded and assume everyone I disagree with is going to ignore everything I say and/or send me nasty grams, I'm just tired of writing out long-form thoughtful responses to people who aren't going to listen.
At the core of my irritation isn't actually the anti-ai argument at all— I think people should consider the intent of the OP and if their "advice" will be welcomed, even when the advice is genuine and well intentioned. It's like that post about wanting nice mugs and to own nice things that got brigaded with advice to go to a thrift store. The post is not asking where to find nice mugs. The OP of that post did not want advice on how to correctly use Chat GPT, and I did not reblog it for that.
Thank you for respecting me, even though I'm an asshole. I was a little harsh, but I feel very strongly about this and this is my life and career. I do a lot of slush pile reading and copy editing, and asking chat GPT to do rephrasings for you is the #1 tool of plagiarists. It's really disheartening to see it in my own online space— I could have been nicer about that, I just didn't have the bandwidth this morning to assume good faith.
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hi Fran, totally get your frustration over Quimm—I think the people who want them together (or to stay together, or get back together, etc) are a bit out-numbered xP … it can be disheartening!! So I totally get you, and sorry to hear it’s making you feel bad )):
But remember, the ship means a lot to a lot of people, and I’d even say it’s one of the backbones of fanon in this fandom—so I don’t think Quimm is going anywhere, at least!! I respect whatever people wanna ship or interpret them as, but I agree it would be nice if more ppl were loud about them as we are 🙈
Hi- I'm really, really sorry that it took ages for me to answer your asks -again- but I felt like I needed the right mindset to answer this one properly, otherwise, I would have behaved very negatively.
(Which I did in the first poll's results... I'm also very sorry about that. You guys really don't need me being passive-aggressive over stuff like this.)
But, Yes, it IS disheartening. It is disheartening to see so few people genuinely like them as a pairing and it kills me that I get so sad about it because I don't have the right to worry so much over what others like- I should KNOW AT THIS POINT- BUT-
It's so.. painful, still. Especially when you're me and you have a history of getting harassed or arguing with people over opinions on this ship & the other one I hate so much. People I thought I got along with, no less.
But, I cannot deny, that's true. Quimm, for better or for worse, has been popular for being one of the few character duos that are directly connected through flipdecks, and seem to have unfinished business going on. (that's not something Timm and Cecilia have haha) There are also many who favored it before I even set foot in this community, and deep down I still hope they like it because a lot of what I've written and drawn is also inspired by them, the people who were obsessed with it before I took the torch myself.
And well, even if I have posted less and less with them, that doesn't mean that I have stopped thinking of them, or Flipline in general. There are days when I can go for hours talking and discussing headcanons, Quimm ideas, and other stuff without a care in the world. But I just, don't feel confident enough to share it here, but instead to friends only.
I would love to find a new place to do that in, to share my art, and headcanons, and place all the cheesy, dorky, made-with-love art and content for these two that I can make.
Because, haha, they still have my heart and they aren't giving it back anytime soon.
And yes, I also want there to be more people that like the ship... which is actually funny because just when I was having this crisis I met a new person who has also recently asked me my opinion on their own ideas for them two. It's funny how the universe works sometimes.
Maybe there aren't many people right now, and maybe it'll be long until we can settle a stable little group (though I know there's still a few people who like it) But I do know I want to share the art and stuff that I make of them, at least to those who care.
and I know that there are indeed, people who care. I'm so sorry I didn't remember before.
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i relate to the anons, lately (from what ive seen on twt) the fandom has become so toxic and hostile its very disappointing
the unnecessary fanwars and dragging, not to mention the bodyshaming etc ppl do its so disheartening. ik it sucks that the boys still get so much hate but this isnt how we should respond and i wish the ppl who do these things know that the tannies would be so disappointed in them for behaving like this 😭
theyre such nice ppl and their messages are all about respect and love it breaks my heart that some of the fandom still acts like this 😭
but apart from all the strength and comfort the tannies existence and music has given me, being a part of the fandom is also so nice, ive seen incredible fanart and gifs that inspire me on their own. and there are so many funny ppl on twt its hilarious 😭 the memes are so funny and i love the sense of community that happens when a member goes live and we all come online and share our thoughts and reactions 💜 i also feel such immense pride when i use bts fanmade sites for resources (doolset, bangtan subs, bts interview archive etc) like,,, its such a massive record of their content since debut and its so well organised, its insane how ppl come together to create these solely based on their love for bangtan and to spread their message 💜
i hope the negative sides of our fandom doesn't ruin ppls experience of bts and their music :(
you guys keep on mentioning such awful stuff like body shaming or people getting bullied for winning an event, it’s horrible man, I didn’t even see any of that and still thought the fandom’s got some problems. :/
BUT I had to smile so much while reading all the positive things you’ve listed, I 100% agree with everything!! Especially the fan artists and translators and people who upload/ archive content, oh they’re the best and we’re really lucky in that regard.
I hope the same thing, love!! 💗
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"We can disagree on politics and still be friends"
The problem is is that it's much deeper than that now. Whether it's abortion rights or LGBT rights it's a deeper issue than a simple disagreement on policy because multiple of those things either directly or indirectly affects the lives and rights of our fellow Americans, lots of times our family members and friends.
The other thing is, that as liberals, we believe wealth inequality is a MAJOR underlying issue for everything, we care about social causes, and we try to be very open to different ways of life. With that in mind, trump to us represents the worst of America. Long before politics trump was handed everything in life, he could've done literally nothing and become a billionare, he scammed the backs of hard working people, he paid little to nothing in taxes, he created a fake university, he's egotistical, he's self centered, he's a narcissist, he dehumanizes immigrants, he attacks ppl who are different, he mocked a disabled reporter. Trump to liberals represents the WORST of everything in America... someone who actively adds to the wealth inequality, someone who is so self centered and doesnt care about others, someone who dehumanize those who are different. So when we see ppl, lots of times ppl we respect, not only support but actively encourage trumps behavior, its really disheartening and hard to accept.
It's beyond a difference of opinion on taxation. It's become a HUGE difference in how we see and live our entire lives. Im not going to say ppl should or shouldn't end relationships over trump, but I do completely understand the reasoning in doing so.
#democrats#politics#political#liberal#fuck billionaires#fuck the rich#fuck trump#trumpforprison#harris 2024
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Most people that claim they desire Academic Validation are really just suckers for human validation and I'm one of them.
I'm currently experiencing major burnout and I've realized it's because my motivation to succeed has never really been valid. Don't get me wrong I love the pursuit of knowledge for the most part but I think I've always loved academic validation more cus it's the only sort of validation I receive from other people
I'm known as this holy grail genius at my school and in reality I feel like a fraud. Especially right now as my grades are getting worse by the second, I can't even begin to go into detail but I'm getting marks I never thought I'd get and my only thought is "What would people think".
I'm scared and afraid of disappointing everyone around me cus ppl expect sm and no one say it's in my head. Cus once I told a friend of mine I got a 91 on the math exam and they were very clearly disappointed and surprised.
It was so disheartening and I feel like my entire worth has been based on my grades because that's the only thing that has ever made me worthy of attention from others.
Nonetheless I want to break free from this constant search of validation, I want to enjoy the bliss of success without it being connected to someone else.
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I don't know how to get it but it's part of getting out of this horrible rot I'm in right now.
I think the main part is building discipline and self love.
Heavy on the self love because I'm so self conscious lately, I've always been hyper aware of my looks and now I feel worse about it knowing my intellect isn't making up for it in any way.
I think I've been concerned with seeming smart rather than actually being smart and honestly you can blame me because perception is a bitch.
I'm not going to lie to myself here but I feel like even with every bit of self love perception is still important. I'm very much a leader and someone who likes to get involved wherever I am. Especially at school I'm always participating despite my depreciating grades.
I faced the repercussions of negative perception in my middle school grad year. I had really wanted Valedictorian and didn't get it cus most people including my teacher didn't like me very much. I don't blame them but it made me very hyper aware of people's views of me.
No I am not a people pleaser and I probably will never be, I do not wish to be viewed as the perfect kind person and I still very much set my boundaries without being mean. But all In all I try my best to make sure I'm respected and seen as smart. So far in high school that has worked, most people see me as smart.
The imposter syndrome kicks in even more when I'm surrounded by clearly smarter students, which is a part of the reason I didn't go to a competitive school.
I don't actively avoid smarter people though, I still respect and hold them to high honor. Even at my current school there are people I think are smarter than me and I admire them greatly (only the nice ones).
But in a room full of overachievers I feel overshadowed and there's no denying that.
Now that was a lot of yapping abt self esteem and perception but the real main cause of my current situation is my phone obsession.
It's sad to admit that my attention span has decreased, my sleep schedule is extremely fucked and there might be no saving me.
I don't remember the last time I've gone through a whole week sleeping early and not going on my phone at night. It's quite sad and I'm afraid to admit that I am addicted.
Right now it's 1:40am and that says a lot.
Now that we've addressed that, we'll talk about my plans to change.
Truth be told, I've planned to "change" a bunch of times but I never really execute the plan or held it for long and that is the case for a lot of things in my life. I love to plan but I never go through with any plans of mine
I think it's because I've never truly "wanted" something, which leads me back to the original point of his yap session. My motivations and want.
To succeed you really have to want it at all cost.
And I want it but do i want it badly? I don't know.
Right now the issue is, I'm too comfortable with myself and where I am. Always on my bed with my phone, afraid of any sort of discomfort and avoiding work.
My mind isn't willing to leave this state of false comfort and yet I keep facing the consequences of my actions.
I'm beyond disappointed in myself and I'm using this as a reflection period to really understand what I can do to change.
am I still scared I'm gonna remain stagnant and useless? yes. But will I try? yes.
This weekend I'm gonna ponder on all these thoughts more and really reevaluate my motivations in life.
I have life goals already, I know what I'm gonna do and I know what to do.
The problem is doing it.
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ur right it kinda feels like bc of covid and social media everyone’s become sort of like… entitled to total strangers’ time and attention and they’ve become way more insufferable about it than before. i feel like the isolation covid created has really destroyed a lot of (especially younger) people’s understanding of boundaries/privacy so they feel like they can just go into strangers’ inboxes/chats and be super invasive/annoying. idk it’s interesting.
it's really really bizarre like obvious the internet has always been kind of brutal but the caliber of meanness i see on tiktok/the lack of basic boundaries and respect i see across all social media is literally unprecedented. it's kind of disheartening 😭 like ppl really forgot how to act and now we all have to put up with this rampant entitlement, ego tripping, attention seeking behavior etc it's WEIRD! i miss just going on club penguin abd maybe writing a fb status about the weather back when i was 9. that's what it was all about
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im just here to salute you for everything you're saying about how different occupations bring different kinds of exhaustion bc srsly.. nothing irks me more than poll who for whatever reason believe they have a monopoly over feeling exhausted or overworked bc they arbitrarily decide that what they do is more demanding or worthy of feeling tired at the end of the day..
like we're all on the same friggin team and it would be humorous to me if it werent for how nasty & judgmental some ppl suddenly become bc what they are really saying is 'your feelings are invalid and dont matter therefore you dont matter and i can treat you as if you are beneath me as such'. truly disheartening behavior..
everyone is doing their best and have so much going on that none of us can imagine adds to that level of exhaustion :( how difficult would it have been, really, for the driver to have taken a moment and realized that they can recognize that feeling and empathize?
idk maybe its just how my brain works.. sorry for this novel of an ask but in light of the economy recovering from covid, combined with the emotional recovery we are ALL facing, we should be more understanding of others now more than ever...
i see exactly what you are saying and completely respect how exhausting it must be for you, love.
keep your head up and you are only bound to keep going up from here, lovely♡
(i hope im not out of line with this message but apologize if i am - you dont have to post this if you dont want to i just wanted to empathize w what you are saying)
i don't even need to add anything else, you said everything perfectly so thank you for understanding and being so close to me<3 I appreciate it very much xx I'm hugging you tight!!
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Thank you for standing up for bisexuals. I've always fought for lesbians and defended them against TIMs, lesbophobic bis, whoever as I have a lot of respect for yall. But some of the discourse I've been seeing from some lesbians against bis has been disheartening. So it really made me happy to see your comment <3
no prob man ur welcome <3 i think some ppl are just way too interested in dumb arguments and tallying up oppression points or whatever nd thats what fuels all the lesbian/bi discourses but like. can we just be normal
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