#it’s like you’re not even there. they’re very self-centered and self-involved.

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Yeah. Cool.

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Watched the Nimona movie last night. Review I guess. It was pretty damn good. Definitely would’ve probably been regarded as Blue Sky’s magnum opus if they’d gotten to release it instead of being fucked over by Disney. Very cute, very funny, very powerful in the right moments. A thing that stuck out to me is that it’s really only an adaptation in the loosest sense of the word. It takes the core premise and beats of the comic but is functionally an entirely different kind of story that does its own thing. And given that ND Stevenson was heavily involved in production, I suspect that was intentional.

The comic was much darker and more downbeat in a lot of ways, plus it was significantly longer and thus could afford to be slower paced. But more than that, it was a lot more meaty in terms of themes and scope. The whole “LGBT allegory” element was there, but it wasn’t the sole focus, the comic was a story about a lot of different things; not just an LGBT experience, but also discussion of fantasy genre tropes and clichés, criticism of other fantasy deconstructions, character study, exploring what it means to be a hero or villain, critique of the glorification of crime and cruelty in underprivileged communities, corruption in governments, peer pressure, the senseless and self-perpetuating nature of violence, the worthlessness of revenge, etc.. And above all that, it was a story about trauma and people’s responses to it, with Ballister representing people who actually deal with their problems and move on while Nimona represented people who let their mistakes and suffering and grief consume their identity, or worse, use it as an excuse to indulge their worst qualities and take out their feelings on everyone around them.

The movie, by contrast, has a much more narrow focus. The LGBT allegory is front and center and basically the entire focal point of the movie, aside from a spattering of themes about the danger of zealotry and rigid fundamentalist thinking. This gives the movie a much tighter narrative and pacing that suits its inherently shorter runtime, but also leads to a ton of changes to the story either to convey a different kind of message or just work better in a different medium. Most obviously in how Nimona is vastly more sympathetic in the movie and essentially really is the silly gremlin the comic fakes you out into thinking she is, scrapping the comic’s twist that she was a genuinely bad person who was completely serious about wanting to be a villain, caring nothing for the lives she destroyed with her behavior and idolizing Ballister because she thought he was the same as her and would thus tell her what she wanted to hear (i.e., that she was justified in killing and destroying everything around her in the name of getting even). And in the changes to the Institution’s history and nature. And all sorts of other things.

All in all, I feel if you go in comparing and contrasting the movie and the comic, arguing which changes are for the better or worse, you’ll be setting yourself up for disappointment in either direction because they’re two different beasts and it’s like comparing apples and oranges. So keep that in mind if you’re a fan of the comic watching the movie or a fan of the movie wanting to look into the comic. I think ultimately I still like the comic better, but that’s purely my personal opinion and there’s plenty that I think the movie did better.

Some other observations:

Riz Ahmed my beloved, thank you Mr. Stevenson for this perfect casting. Literally perfect for Ballister.

Acting in general was very good. You can tell this was a passion project for a lot of people, not just Stevenson.

Only two changes that are objectively bad are Ambrosius losing his awesome Van Halen hairdo and changing Ballister’s last name — Blackheart is a way cooler name than Boldheart and it’s a pointless change, one that I’d argue even hurts the narrative since it makes it too obvious that Ballister isn’t actually a bad guy.

The animation is really great with fantastic expressions, stylish movement, and wonderful aesthetics that perfectly suit the story, but there’s times where it feels a little off. But there are parts where it looks less “movie” and more “cheap mid-2000s CGI-and-Flash cartoon show from France”.

The humor can be a hit and miss, in a “going through the motions of a Hollywood animated comedy for kids” way. The movie excels when it’s either imitating the comic’s Old Internet sense of humor or going hard on the drama, but there’s bits where it seemingly slams on the brakes to do Illumination-esque Twitter humor and those bits definitely throw off the vibe.

Having an actual straight up attempted suicide in the climax was shockingly ballsy. I genuinely can’t believe they went there, but I’m glad they did because the film wouldn’t have felt nearly as raw without it.

I don’t know how they managed to make the Director even more of an asshole than in the comics, but they did.

[skitskatdacat63]

pls complain as much as you want about the eff won movie, i agree with all your tags and i'm sure you have more to say 👀

Hello here I am, ready to complain!!! I did in fact have more to say so thank you for asking

*Sorry Grace if you read this and I accidentally stole any of your talking points lol

ALSO DISCLAIMER: If you disagree with me, please do not fucking bug me about, I do not care, let me be a massive bitter hater in peace, thanks

I. Disinterest 

First of all, who asked for this? To me the appeal of F1 is how exclusive and confined it is. There are only 10 teams and 20 drivers you have to learn about which makes it very easy to become super invested. If you want to step outside that, you can learn more about the lower formulas or past seasons(there’s many of them!!!!) So why would I, someone extremely invested in the people and narrative already taking place, even remotely care about some made up drivers? Especially since they’re not JUST made up drivers, they’re made up drivers in the background of REAL drivers. I am highly invested in the results of current F1, so why would I want to watch a movie where those results and drivers are in the background. I’d rather just watch DTS, which is a crazy statement within itself.

I’ve actually thought a lot about how one could mesh real and fake within a sport like F1. Cause I daydream about my OCs in F1 haha, but then start thinking too hard about the logistics of it all. I came to the conclusion that putting fake F1 drivers into the real story is just not a great idea. Because you’re disrupting the actual results and inserting yourself into them, and also as I said, putting real life people in the background out of self interest. It just complicates things so much to add outside elements to such an insulated sport. If this movie had made up a completely fake grid, I’d honestly be all for it and probably would be pretty interested. Like, wow, give me a whole franchise of this!!! Give me a movie about every fake team!!! Get me invested!! But at the end of the day, I’m always going to care about the real life drivers more

In other racing movies, that are biopics, there is a focus of maybe one or two drivers. And those other drivers that were in the grid at the same time become background characters. BUT it’s in service of a real life story with real life people many may already be emotionally invested in. They’re not just turning the rest of the drivers into background characters in order to prop up their own fake F1 drivers, but rather just putting the focus on a story that deserves to be told. There’s so many stories that deserve to be told in F1, literal decades of stories. Why are they putting so much money and effort in service of a story that no one knows or cares about. 

Also I can already tell this movie is gonna be like…60% action, 40% plot. Again, if I wanted any of those things, I’d watch actual F1. It feels like a male power fantasy for men who wish they could try driving F1 cars.

II. Invasive 

I really dislike how involved it is with F1. You know, F1, something that is people’s legitimate job? It’s already a very flashy sport with so much publicity around it, why do you have to unnecessarily  add to that? Their cars being on the actual grid, the fake drivers being in the media pen. I just find the whole idea of them inserting themselves into modern F1 to be so weird. 

All those clips of Brad Pitt alongside the actual drivers genuinely make my skin crawl, it’s soooooooo fucking weird. Like that one clip of him standing alongside them for the anthem. Imagine you work your whole life and put so much blood, sweat, and tears into getting into F1, and then this rich asshole is allowed to roleplay next to you. There’s already enough pressure with the netflix cameras around all the time. And now they’re forced to be in a movie as well. Maybe I’m self centered but I’d be so annoyed if they were making a film about my sport and then I find out I’m only there to be a background character in a story about made up drivers. It just makes me cringe so much to imagine him pretending to be an F1 driver next to the actual drivers, like is that not embarrassing???

The social medias….very strange. Like the stuff with them using Paul Aron as their rookie. Even if they did get his permission, which I’m still not sure about, it’s so weird to me. Like oh the main characters are made up but you’re still willing to use other drivers in the pursuit of your own story. I’m sorry but is that not weird to anyone else???? I dislike how much this movie blurs the line between fiction and reality, involving real life drivers whenever it’s convenient. Looking at their socmed makes me cringe so much. I’m sure a bunch of self insert writers or novel writers would do the same but they’d get bullied. Yet a bunch of grown ass men are allowed to literally roleplay on twt/insta and it’s suddenly fine and normal? Lmao their most recent post is the FP1 results from Hungary. Is it not so fucking weird for them to make up placements, and thus just ignore the actual drivers who got those positions? Imagine you’re Lando and you got P6 and you go on instagram and suddenly discover that you did not in fact get P6, but rather Sonny Hayes did! Wow that 60 yr old sure is a good driver. 

And let us not forget to mention them making memorial posts for Senna and Jules Bianchi. That actually made me feel sickened, especially the Jules one. Imagine using a real life tragedy for publicity on your roleplay twitter. Is that fucking creepy???? Like why of all things would you choose THAT to play along with. They’re a made up team that is in no way associated with either drivers, so why are they talking about them? What is the point. 

Okay but that clip of Fernando staring at Brad Pitt, I’m fucking dying. I wish he could give his actual thoughts on it. Like what is it like to see a guy older than you, pretending to be an F1 driver, while you are there, doing your actual job. I like to think he had a dementia moment and was like, “hey wait when did that guy join the grid? I thought I was the oldest!?”

III. Dramatising

There already is a pretty big issue in this community where the drivers are treated like characters, and not real people. There’s so many people out there who just watch DTS and treat F1 like a soap opera. People who only know about F1 in the context of made up drama, and now there's gonna be a movie about made up drama. This movie further blurs the lines between fiction and reality. Again, they’re literally turning the F1 drivers into background characters of a movie. Like, wow you’re not real people anymore, your lives exist in the back of this story now. Imagine how confusing this would be as a new fan.

I know they’re all a bunch of rich privileged guys but, at the end of the day, this is still their job, not just fodder for drama. I want the sanctity of F1 to be respected okay. It's such a cool sport to me and I love all the real stuff about it, and I don't like the way media treats it and changes it.

IV. Old Man Self Insert

I basically covered this in my other categories but I just want to complain more. I really really despise that this movie just feels like some old guy really wanted to drive F1 cars and had to come up with a reason to justify it. I feel like someone who is a serious F1 fan would want to honor the actual history and context  of the sport more, y’know? Not just make a blatant self insert film, inserting himself in the literal daily life of the actual drivers. It annoys me bcs this is a sport where people start getting called old when they hit 30, not that I agree with that but I’m just saying, it’s a very ageist sport where youth seems to be valued over most other things. My resident GOAT old man, who is 18 years younger than Pitt, constantly has people saying how he should retire to give younger drivers more of a chance. So why the hell in a sport with this environment are we getting a movie about a 60 YEAR OLD driver. It’s just so clearly a self motivated passion project, and Domenicalli and others want to milk F1 for all the money it's worth. Okay so a made up team is allowed to be 11th and yet you keep shunning actual teams that could join and bring in more publicity/money? Okay, okay…

V. Misc

I’m ngl it feels like a made up team would have an easier job getting into F1 if they really wanted to, because of the publicity. And yet Andretti cannot. Imagine a docu film about a brand new team joining F1 for the first time ever and the trials and tribulations it takes to be a new team in such a historical, bloodthirsty sport. But nah let’s put all that money and effort into a make believe story. 

But yeah they’re not really doing anything inventive anyways. Wow an old man driver who they’re probably gonna pretend is not completely age inaccurate for this sport. And the supposed dynamic of it. Isn’t it supposed to be Brad Pitt’s chara coming back to mentor a rookie prodigy?? When are teammate relationships ever that nice?????? The only similar relationship I can think of is Seb and Micheal but they were on diff teams, and RBR was a lot better than Merc atp. I feel like the only time you see mentor-like relationships is either when the two are on diff teams, the car is an absolute backmarker, or the mentor absolutely outclasses the rookie. 

The fucking “who cares about safety” line, who authorized that????? Thinking about how I almost got ripped to shreds on here for talking about how refueling was interesting, and yet a blockbuster is allowed to disregard safety??? And weren’t they saying in that trailer that they have to make the car for battle? Is their strat being terrorists??

VI. Javier Bardem

GAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH WHY DOES ONE OF MY FAVORITE ACTORS HAVE TO BE IN THIS SHIT FUCKING MOVIE GOD DAMN YOU JAVIER YOU MOTHERFUCKER!!! 

It is very painful to me that he’s gonna be in this movie, and that his doppelganger who you may know as Fernando Alonso will also guest star. Like I don’t want to give this film money nor do I want to watch it. But the fact that there’s the possibility of seeing Fernando Alonso beloved on the big screen…it’s so tempting.

It’s just irritating cause his chara in the trailer DOES seem like smth I’d actually be interested in. Like I think he’s gonna be a dubious team owner or TP and man….that’s so perfect. But not in the context of the full movie lmao. So who will be the brave soul and make the Javier Bardem and Fernando Alonso cut for me? Maybe I will ask my brother to write down the timestamps for me. 

I digress. There’s probably some things I forgot to complain about but this is what I came up with <3 I hate you Brad Pitt and I hate you Domenicalli and I hate you MBS, etc etc. Lmao you know what this feels like? When you're in a fandom for a fandom for a franchise like the MCU or SW, and nrw shows/movies come out and you feel like they're bastardizing the whole franchise. This is what this movie is to me.

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First Date with Azriel

Azriel head canons 

Your friend sets you up on a blind date 

And you hate blind dates because they’re so awkward for everyone involved 

But they’re your best friend so you agree because they rarely, if ever ask anything of you 

The guy they set you up with is named Azriel

The date itself is to an art museum, you don’t hate it because if the guy is boring and self centered like the many other blind dates you’ve been on you can simply wander to a different exhibit, it’s a big museum you can get lost easily 

Azriel is waiting outside the main entrance when you get there, his hair is messy like he ran his hands through it one too many times and he keeps looking up whenever someone passes him

He looks better than the half blurry photos your friend showed you, all giddy that you agreed to this stupid date “this is Azriel” wiggling their eyebrows at your reaction

You take a deep breath, walking up to him ready to get this over with  “Azriel?” “(Y/N)?”

 He looks just as worried about this date as he opens the door for you

He’s such a gentlemen letting you decide which exhibits you want to see

He doesn’t even make a single comment when you get lost trying to find the Degas painting 

It takes you about 15 minutes longer than it should’ve as it was right next to the exhibit you were currently in

He’s also nice enough to not mention you almost walking into a wall either as you were too busy studying the map printed on the pamphlet

You’re not sure if the date is awkward at first, or if he just simply doesn’t like you by how quiet he’s being 

He opens up, a little, like you find out his favorite artist is Edward Hopper and that he generally likes the art museum as he comes here often with passes

You two comment on your favorite paintings 

You also find out he fidgets with a small gold chain around his neck whenever he’s nervous, getting a glimpse of the gold whenever he opens his mouth and his eyes flicker to you before looking back at the painting

He fidgets with that small gold chain around his neck constantly 

He buys you a few postcards from the gift shop that you had in your hand, easily slipping money across the counter before you could even open your purse

You go to refuse but he just shakes his head grabbing the small paper bag from the cashier 

After the museum you look at him hopefully, you didn’t realize how much time you actually spent in the museum, walking back through a few exhibits multiple times but you generally enjoy his company 

You and him walk to a little coffee shop across the street 

He orders a double shot, you order a vanilla latte 

He listens as you talk about school, your job, your shitty apartment and all the good books you’ve recently read 

Both of your coffees are long gone when you look at the time again, apologizing profusely that he didn’t get a change to talk about himself 

You hate people who only talk about themselves and yet you just did that 

But Azriel just shrugs, a small smirk on his face “How about next time I’ll talk about myself?” 

And you blink, taking a second to realize he asked you out on a second date 

You smile blushing and nodding “I’d like that very much” “It’s a date then (Y/N)”

You both stand, Azriel walks you back to your car dispute that he passed his own car on the way to yours

He opens up the driver’s side door for you, he second guesses himself before he presses a light kiss to your cheek, you raise an eyebrow “Did you miss there?”

He tilts his head, shaking it slightly as you get in the car “No, I only kiss on the second date” he replies “good think you agreed to a second date” he winks before gently closing your car door 

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Then There Were Three

Pairing:  Marc Spector x bi f!reader x Layla El-Faouly

Summary: Things get complicated when your two friends, Layla and Marc, who you may or not be madly in love with, invite you to be their roommate. Prequel to What Good Girls Get and how their relationship started. But it can be read on its own, I guess. 

Warnings: No explicit smut, but subtle illusions to masturbation and some mentions of kissing, ANGST( resolves with happy ending tho :) ),friends to lovers, jealousy, slightly toxic behavior from everyone involved, reader gets drunk and makes questionable choices but Layla and Marc come to the rescue, mentions reader kissing stranger, feelings of unrequited love followed by profession of feelings, happy ending :). Let me know if I missed anything

 Wc: 3.6k

 A/N: Soooo, why did no one tell me writing angst was so fun?? I wrote this as a prequel to What Good Girls Get because I really want to make a series out of their relationship/dynamic. So, I decided to write this to sort of set everything up and give some background into how they all came together. I'll most likely still write Marc x Reader x Layla fics separate from the series, but I think this'll be fun. Let me know what you think and if you'd like to see more. As always comments/feedback are always welcome and encouraged!!

You first meet Layla in a self-defense class she's instructing at the community center. You hit it off immediately and begin hanging out outside of the class. She even introduces you to her husband, Marc. He's really great too, so you eventually all start hanging out together. Your friendship quickly grows, and you find yourself seeing them multiple times a week.

 You're out grabbing coffee with them one day and tell them how you are looking for a second job. In turn, Marc mentions that they have been going away for work more frequently and are considering getting a house sitter, not wanting to leave their place empty for days and possibly weeks on end.

 "The job is yours, if you're interested of course," he offers.

 "Really? Yeah, that'd be great." You nod, relieved to not continue the job hunt, something that has been huge stress on your life

 "Of course. You're there all the time anyway,” Layla says and you all chuckle. She's right, you're always coming over to have dinner and watch movies, often times sleeping over since your apartment is across town.

 You adjust well to the new ‘job’. It isn’t difficult. All they have is a fish and few plants so it isn’t too demanding. You really just laze about their apartment and clean up here and there and await their return. It begins to feel like a second home. You rarely spend time at your own place, really only going back to get clothes.

 Not that you’re complaining, you hate your apartment. Things are always breaking and the landlord is an asshole, so when it comes time for your lease to be up, you decide to look for a new place. You voice your concerns about finding somewhere on such short notice and, yet again, the couple present you with a convenient solution. They offer up their spare bedroom.

 "Oh, no, I wouldn't want to impose," you say, although not voicing the real reason for your reluctance.

 Since you first met Layla, you may or may not have developed a crush on her. And then you found out she's married and you decided to push those feelings aside, out of respect for their relationship of course.  But then you all started hanging out together and in no time, you started falling for Marc too.

They're both so great, but you know nothing could ever happen between you and them. Layla had once opened up about her and Marc having been through a lot and said they’re finally in a happy, healthy place. That's all you needed to hear and immediately buried those feeling deep inside you. They're relationship is finally stable again, who are you to come in and shake that up over a little crush?

 Well, what started out as a little crush soon develops into some very serious feelings for both of them and it's getting harder and harder to ignore. You start to envy their relationship. Seeing them together makes you think about what you don't have. But it's more than that, you're envious that you don't have it with them.

 You like being able to be roommates, but the proximity makes it harder to keep your feelings for them at bay. You're constantly coming home and finding them all cuddled up on the couch or just seeing little glimpses of them being couple-y in general and it really starts to get to you.

 You eventually decide to start dating again, hoping it'll help you move on from your feelings for your roommates. While they're away for work, you decide to invite a guy over that you had been out with a couple of times. They end up coming home early and Marc flips out. Layla tries to calm him down but he says you can’t just be bringing strangers into their home. He storms off and Layla apologizes. You send the guy home. Technically this is your home too, but you realize it would be better if you mentioned your plans to them before hand, just out of respect.

 That isn't an isolated incident, though. Marc doesn't seem too keen on you dating in general. Layla seems to be supportive, yet constantly warns you to be careful meeting people online. So, you try to keep them in the loop of who you're seeing, hoping that resolves the issues. But any time you mention a date, Marc goes silent. You had met this girl a while back and suggested a double date to try and ease some of the tension and Marc flat out refused. Anytime you would even bring her up he would dismiss it and get short with you.

 After a while of him acting like that, Layla surprises you by saying she shares that same feeling. She tells you that it’s probably not the best idea, although she's a lot kinder about it. She won't give you a reason why, though, and you just assume it's to not cause division between her and Marc.  She had initially said it was fine to have people over while they weren't home but she eventually sides with Marc on that, too, saying not to just to be safe. You're disappointed and their decision starts making dating even harder. 

Not wanting to jump through the hoops of dating, you feel like your back to square one with nothing to distract you from your feelings for Marc and Layla. They feel bad since you seem to have given up on dating, so they begin inviting you everywhere with them. You love being with them, but at the end of the night you go back to your room, alone, wishing you could hold their hands, kiss them, and show them affection like you're desperate to do. You're frequently tempted to turn down their invitations and offer the excuse of not wanting to intrude, especially when it seems like a date night type of activity, but Layla just tells you you’re always welcome and that they’d really like you to join.

 There is one thing that they don’t ask you to join in on. It's the thing you crave most. It’s what you dream about when you’re alone at night satisfying those needs with your hand while you know they’re fulfilling them for each other.

It’s almost torture on those nights you're all watching a movie and they start getting closer and closer on the couch. They snuggle up together and give quick kisses when they think you aren't looking. They're obviously wanting more, but out of respect for you, they keep things tame. But you know. You know when they leave halfway through the movie, telling you they're tired and run off to their room, and you hear the giggles and whispers as they sneak away.

 Then you're left alone, only imagining what they're doing in there, and the emptiness in your heart is joined by an ache between your legs. So you go to your own room, giving yourself a pitiful orgasm that leaves you with even more longing than you felt before.

***

One night, you walk into the living room on your way out to meet your friends and they’re going at it on the couch, hands roaming over their clothed bodies. They sense you walk in and pull apart, going to apologize but you turn away, and rush out the door with an awkward 'bye'.

 You try to brush it off, but it puts a damper on your evening and you drink more than you should. You find some random person to go home with, hoping to take your mind off things. You end up making out on their couch but all you can think about is Marc and Layla. Not feeling it anymore, you tell them you want to stop and get your things and leave. You walk out of the building, then realize you don’t have a ride.

You make a feeble attempt to order an Uber but the level of intoxication makes it seem like an impossible task. You finally manage to open your messaging app and see a bunch of text from Marc and Layla. They're freaking out because you always text them if you’re not coming home that night and they fear the worst thinking something happened to you.

 You call Layla. You brace yourself for Marc to go off on you for not telling them where you are. She answers immediately, clearly on edge but relieved to finally be hearing from you. “Where are you, babe?” The nickname she calls you sends a pang of hurt to your heart, knowing that when she calls Marc that, it holds a totally different meaning.

 “Please don’t call me that,” you mumble.

 “What? Where are you?” she asks, hearing the slur in your voice and hoping you’re somewhere safe.

 “I don’t know? Umm…” You look around for a street sign, but turning your heads around has your head spinning and you get dizzy and take a seat on the curb.

 “Are you still at the bar?” She knows where you'd gone and with who, but judging by the frustrated whine you let out she can tell that you're no longer there.

 “Put Gina on the phone,” she instructs, hoping you were still with the group.

“I'm not with her. She…I don't know where she is. Probably still with the girl she was talking to earlier. I don't know though.” You sigh, wishing you had thought this whole thing through before running off.

 Layla sighs, frustrated that you split from the group. You hear Marc exclaim, “What?! They left you alone? Where are you?”, letting you know you’re on speaker and he’s heard everything.

 “Marc, she just said she doesn’t know,” Layla says, trying to calm him down a bit. “What’s the last thing you remember?”

 “I met someone and we went back to their place but now I'm outside and… please come get me.” You slur out your explanation and you hear Marc grumble something, but you can’t make it out.

 “Marc, don’t. Babe? Babe, you still there?” Layla's voice crackles on the line.

 “Please. Stop,” you plead, you voice laced with hurt.

 "Stop what? I need you to listen to me. Can you turn on your location for me?" You fumble for a good five minutes and they both try walking you through the steps and you finally manage to share your location with them. “Stay put. We’ll be there soon," Layla assures.

 They stay on the line but you sit in silence, wishing you were tucked into bed and ready to forget this whole night. When they finally arrive, Layla gets out to open the door for you, and guides you gently into the back seat.

 There's a tension in the air and you're left feeling like someone whose parents caught them sneaking out. Marc sits in the driver's seat, grumbling out various comments like “How could you be so irresponsible?”, and, “Going home with some stranger, do you have any idea what how dangerous that is? You’re lucky they let you leave.”

 Layla places her hand on his thigh, trying to get him to let up, but she doesn’t say anything. She looks just as disappointed as him. He continues, “I just don’t know what you were thinking…", and you see him shake his head.

 You become fed up with the scolding. “I just wanted to have a little fun, ok? I don’t have a partner at home I can run to whenever I need a good screw. We’re not all as lucky as you two!”, you shout, crossing your arms. Your sober self will regret that, but right now you don’t care.

 “Were not saying you can’t go out and meet people, we just wish you’d be a bit more careful,” Layla says, sensing your agitation, but frustration continues to bubble up inside you. “Yeah, well you sure act like I'm not allowed. You treat me like a child! You monitor who I'm going out with like you’re in charge of me or something. Unless you’re going to include me the next time you guys run off to your room to fuck each other, then I'd appreciate it if you would just stay out of my business.” You huff and slum against the seat.

 "Babe…we don't mean to-" Layla starts, but before you can stop it, and all your pent-up feelings start flowing out of you uncontrollably. "Enough! Cool it with the 'babe' and 'honey' and 'sweetheart'. I'm not your 'babe' and I'm clearly never going to be so would you spare me the hurt and…and disappointment and stop calling me that?" You feel tears well in your eyes and your voice quivers as you speak. You get no response, both of them clearly not knowing what to say.

 Just moments ago, you were seething, but it's morphed into a sadness that makes your chest feel heavy. Not wanting to let them see you cry, you turn and lean your head against the window, not noticing the look they give each other. Your comment seemed to shut them up so you finish the ride in silence.

  When you pull up to the apartment, you stumble out of the car and storm into the building before they can help you. Once you're through the door you go to your room, slam the door, and throw yourself onto the bed. You lay there, already drifting off, but Layla walks in with a glass of water and some ibuprofen that she knows you’ll be needing in the morning. Marc follows behind her with a washcloth.

 She helps you sit up and gives you some water, then gets up to grab you some pjs. While she rifling through your drawer, Marc gently wipes your face, cleaning the sweat and tears of the night off. You sigh at the feeling of the warmth on your skin. You lean into him as he does it and he soothingly strokes your back.  You feel yourself starting to drift off in his arms but hear a “No, no, no. Not yet,” and he chuckles while he sits you back up.

 Layla’s hands you your clothes and they both turn around, wanting to be respectful, but also to be there in case you fall, which in your state is very likely. It takes a bit, but you manage to slide your shirt and shorts on and fall back onto the bed. They turn back and bid you goodnight. You mumble a 'night' before sleep overtakes you.

*** 

You wake up and the events of the night come flooding back to you. Your head is pounding, and your breath quickens as you replay the conversation you had in the car the night before. Fuck. You’re never drinking again. Those feelings that you tried so hard to bury had finally come to the surface. What's even worse is that the two people you absolutely did not want to hear them, did. You stay in your room as long as possible, but eventually you can no longer ignore the grumbling in your stomach. You tip toe to the kitchen, hoping not to run into the couple. Luckily, it seems like they’re both gone so you make yourself breakfast and sneak back off to your room.

 As you finish your food, you decide that you can’t stay here. Everything you worked desperately to keep a secret has come to light and you can’t face them. You pack up your things, the tears coming and going as you realize your two favorite people will no longer be in your life. They've become your support system, your safe haven and it's all gone. And it's all your fault. You reluctantly leave your keys on the counter along with note. You can’t seem to figure out what to say, you stare at the blank slip of paper. All you write is, 'I'm sorry' and leave it at that.

  Luckily, your friend offers to let you stay at their place until you can figure out a new living situation. After about a week of hundreds of missed calls and text from your ex-roommates and withering away on your friend's couch, they invite you out. They can tell you're hurt and don't want you to completely fall apart, so they try to get your mind off of things.

 You spend the night trying to dance and have fun with your friends but you're too distracted. You don't dare drink. The shame from what happened last time making you consider never drinking again.

 You fall back into a semi-normal routine, but can't seem to pull yourself out of this funk. You decide to use your day off to visit your favorite coffee shop, somewhere you usually go every morning before work but haven't had the energy to go.

 Drink in hand, you walk out of the café and feel the sun shining bright and warm on your skin. You smile at the feeling, something you missed while you holed yourself up in the apartment for weeks.

 You turn to walk towards the park, but your smile immediately drops as you come face to face with the two people who haven't left your mind since you last saw them. You almost drop your drink as they walk up to you.

 "Hey," Marc greets softly, not wanting to startle you further.

 "What are you doing here?" you ask, breathlessly. The sight of them causes the events of your last encounter to flood your mind. You suddenly feel very overwhelmed, your nerves telling you to run away, but your feet remain glued to the ground.

 "Can we talk?" Layla asks. You're obviously hesitant, but the way you left was abrupt and there was no closure, so you feel like you owe it to them. You're just not ready to face the rejection you weren't giving them the chance to voice to you.

You follow them to the park across the street. You walk along, your body swirling with emotion. More than anything, you feel embarrassment and shame for the way you acted. But that calmness you always seem to feel when they’re around soothes you.

 As you all take a seat at one of the picnic tables, you speak first. All the things you've wanted to say to have been rattling around in your head for weeks, so you waste no time in letting them know.

 "Look, I disrespected you guys and your relationship and I was totally out of line. I've thought about it a lot and I care about you two so much, but it wouldn't be fair to you guys or even myself if I pretend like these feelings aren't there." You don’t want to stop having them in your life but you can't push these feelings down any longer. "It was really taking a toll on me and I think it might just be better to cut ties completely to allow myself the space move on," you confess. It's not easy though, and every second you look in their eyes makes saying goodbye seem even more unbearable.

 A look of hurt flashes across their faces as you mention breaking off the friendship and you feel guilt bubble up inside you once again. This is your fault. If you hadn't drank, if you had just kept your mouth shut, this wouldn't be happening. But you would still be hopelessly in love with them and the unreciprocated feelings would be too much to bear, regardless.  

"I can't keep following you guys around like some lovesick puppy. I just…I can't do it," you declare, voice cracking as you feel your throat start to get tighter as the sadness overtakes you. Layla reaches across the table and places her hand on top of yours.

 "Listen," she starts, "we want you in our lives. You're our best friend and we love you so much."

"But," Marc speaks up and you think to yourself, here we go. They get you alone to tell you what’s already been made perfectly clear, they don’t feel the same and you would just be getting in the way of their relationship. You feel tears start burning in your eyes and turn to the side trying to blink them away.

 "we had no idea how to tell you we want this relationship to be something more." Your head swings to look at them, confusion written all over your face.

 "It was selfish to act like we did. Inviting you to date nights, being all cuddly, not being supportive of your relationships," Layla interjects. " We should have communicated our true feelings and it must have been very confusing for you. We are so sorry to have dragged it out this long. We should have spoken up sooner but we just didn't know how to tell you. We didn't want to scare you off if you didn't feel the same.

 "Really?" They both nod and Marc's hand joins Layla's on top of yours. You let out breath that feels like it was trapped in your chest, and you relax your shoulders. You've been dreaming of this moment. Dreaming they'd pull you into their arms and tell you they want you, to have a relationship with you. You almost don't believe it, having convinced yourself there was no way they feel the same.

 "So…now what?" you ask and they both chuckle. As elated as you are, this is going to be new for all of you. You have no idea what it's going to look like, and how you're all going to adjust.

 "We go get your stuff and you come home," Marc says, and gives you a warm smile.

[moderndayamymarch]

my unpopular harry potter opinions:

I don’t vibe w the dumbledore bashing. he obviously was machiavellian and should’ve told harry more than he did but also it was a war and dumbledore’s plan to get harry to sacrifice himself was kinda the only option. I also just find harry and dumbledore’s relationship to be one of the most interesting ones! they’re very similar (half-bloods, anger issues, guilt complexes, & natural born leaders), dumbledore obviously genuinely cared for harry, and I love the way deathly hallows mirrors half blood prince in the way that harry digs into dumbledore’s past like dumbledore had him do with tom riddle’s in order to actually understand dumbledore’s plan

I’ve never understood the draco appeal. his first appearance in the books involves him being racist and making fun of hagrid. he’s then essentially a little neo nazi the entire time they’re at hogwarts. he says that he hopes the chamber of secrets kills all the muggle borns, routinely calls ppl like hermione slurs, and is awful to marginalized ppl like hagrid. like obv he’s a product of his environment and raised by his parents to be like that but I never understood the whole “why is harry so mean to draco, draco’s just a tortured misunderstood soul” like would you befriend a little neo nazi? I think he’s a great character, but I guess I don’t understand the fanon draco.

I’m not a snape hater, I find his character to be one of the most interesting/complex. he’s a grown up bully taking out grudges on 11 year olds, but he also stands up for harry to dumbledore after learning about dumbledore’s plan. I also love his doomed friendship with lily.

I’m not a ron hater either. ron’s a good friend to harry and truly loves his best friend. his jealousy/insecurities is what makes him real. like yeah you really shouldn’t be jealous of your friend’s fame when it’s bc their parents were murdered and wizard hitler’s tried to kill them multiple times, but when you’re 14, you get irrationally jealous! and in the end ron recognizes that he was being self-centered and grows as a person by killing the locket horcrux! above all, though, ron is a loyal friend who would do anything for harry and hermione. and that’s what matters! also the kid is funny! he makes the best sarcastic asides.

I don’t understand the marauders fandom, but I support them. they’ve truly built something so separate from jkr and I respect that. that said. I don’t get james and regulus? like as a ship. I’m not sure where it came from and tbh I don’t want to know.

too many people in the marauders fandom ignore or push lily to the side and I’m not here for it! she’s one of the coolest characters!! her love for her child and her sacrifice make destroying tom riddle possible!! she stands up for severus against james, she was talented at potions, she just wanted her sister to love her again!

I don’t think tom riddle’s descent into moral decay was caused by dumbledore. I already wrote about this in depth, but homeboy needed severe psychological intervention that didn’t even exist in the 40s in order to not be like that.

[mixingpumpkins]

God forbid there are colors

Literally.

I’m begging y’all celebrating Pride to be as loud and proud as you can, not just because you deserve to celebrate, but because people in churches are full of the most paranoid, self-centered idiocy about it to the point where I got woken up unnecessarily early today for an “emergency” to cater to said idiocy. And if I have to hear paranoid screaming about Pride first thing in the morning, you’re damn right I want everyone to have the biggest, loudest, most joyful Pride month yet.

Context: Among my side gigs, I’m webmaster for a few churches’ websites, because a paycheck’s a paycheck, it’s not too demanding of my time, and my work is the reason they have all their sermons and events live-streamed/archived on their sites every week in case, y’know, they’re ever saying shit that might involve someone looking into their tax-exempt status.

I usually set up all the back-end video streaming stuff on Saturday and try to use a topical picture from our photo subscription as a background for both the video thumbnail and the post thumbnail. As requested, I also try to post the service bulletins along with the videos, but one pastor has a habit of not sending me the bulletin before my midnight-the-night-before deadline, so at that point it’s agreed that I’ll just use a seasonal nature picture as the thumbnail photo and upload the bulletin whenever I get around to it on Sunday. (Most of the photos for that church, consequently, end up being nature photos.)

This morning, Housemate #2 — who is on a million committees in that church with Housemate #1 — comes screaming into my room at ass o’clock, telling me I need to fix the website now, the pastor even contacted her about it, etc. etc. (I don’t believe her because she said she couldn’t show me a text or email because she “deletes them immediately” — and also the pastor emailed me the bulletin/notes to add to the post long after the post was already up yesterday and didn’t say a word about any fixes needed.)

Y’all. She was mad because the image on this week’s post was a “rainbow.” To be clear, it was this: 

So of course, I’m like, “...??? It’s a field of flowers.” Because it’s a field of flowers that’s colorful, but pretty damn clearly not a rainbow. 100% wasn’t even on my radar as rainbow — my search term in our image subscription was “summer.” (Housemate even went to a flower festival a few weeks ago and hinted that I should use a very similar photo that she took the next time I needed a nature pic for this church’s video thumbnail.)

But she’s insisting this picture is basically a rainbow and they can’t have anything that looks like Pride and how could I do this, I clearly did this on purpose, change it now to something that can’t be misconstrued, etc.

Fine. Wake me up, invade my space, scream, be bigoted, falsely accuse me of malicious intent ... Cue malicious compliance.

She’s hovering over me as I open up the church’s image subscription and all the places I need to go change settings and whatever to update the site. I conspicuously type in “summer” so she can see that this pops up among totally inappropriate ones like beach balls and kids playing in sprinklers. I point it out to her and start scrolling through the images to find a different nature pic. She tries to point out other ones.

“Use that one.”

“I’ve already used that one.” (Just a few weeks ago, in fact. They do not want repeat images.)

“What about that one?” She points to a different field of flowers that is actually the lesbian flag. Like, actually, obviously the lesbian flag. Housemate is not up on these things because she is too pure to know such sordid details; she only knows rainbows = gay = bad. As funny as this would be, I guarantee there would actually be screaming from people if I posted a literal lesbian pride flag made of flowers instead of a random colorful field of flowers, so I decide to save myself a little trouble and point out the issue.

“Lesbian pride flag.”

“This one?”

“Too small.” (I pull it up on the canvas and resize, to demonstrate that it turns into unintelligible pixel hell.)

“Here. These are flowers. They’re pink, yellow, and blue.”

“That is literally the pan pride flag.”

“What the hell is that?”

“Pansexual. Pride. Flag.” I pull up a picture of that so she can see.

“Well, it’s Trinity Sunday, search for that instead.”

I do. There’s a few too-small pictures of doves and a bunch of triskele and triquetra knots. She points to one of those. “There. The Trinity symbol. Use that.”

“That’s a pagan symbol. I wouldn’t want that to be misconstrued.” Incidentally, I point out, as I open the middle-of-the-night email with the bulletin boasting a similar picture, someone should probably remind the pastor about that since he’s so worried about people misinterpreting images as something non-Christian.

She’s grinding her teeth at this point. “That’s different. That has words [Father, Son, Holy Spirit] around it.”

“It’s still a very recognizable appropriated pagan symbol. Or would you be fine posting a swastika just because it has different words around it?”

We go back to nature photos.

“Try this one.”

“That’s really close to the bi pride flag, you know.”

“HERE. THIS ONE.”

Very thick pale pink and white flowers ... under a blue sky. Hmm. Looks very much like the trans pride flag, if I’m honest. She’s pissed, and housemates are going to be late for church soon.

“There. Those white daisies.”

“Yeah, we can do that, but you should know this picture does look like the agender pride flag if you’re just glancing at the colors.”

“I don’t care. I don’t know what that is. Nobody normal knows what that is, they’re not going to misconstrue it.”

“Hmm, I don’t know, since apparently that was the issue with the first picture, but I’ll use this one.” I upload it and fix all the things that need to be fixed on various platforms for everything to update. She stomps out and I go back to sleep.

Five minutes later she’s back, waving her phone in my face. “YOU DIDN’T CHANGE THE PICTURE! IT’S STILL THE RAINBOW PICTURE! CHANGE IT NOW!”

This is two times I’ve been given a mini-heart attack this morning by someone barging into my space while I’m trying to sleep, and she’s lucky she hasn’t gotten maced on instinct. “You watched me change the picture. Clear your browser cache.”

“I don’t know how to do that. Change the picture!”

I grab my laptop again, go to the website, and show her the picture is changed. I rattle off an explanation of why she needs to clear her phone’s browser cache, which I have given her several times before, and remind her she’s late. She blanks out at anything tech-talk and leaves. Totally looking forward to getting more screaming about this later. 🙃

You know, that “rainbow” picture was 100% an honest mistake, but I think part of this week’s pay from that church specifically is going to go to an actual rainbow shirt from an LGBT-owned shop. ✌️

[rddykilowatt]

ramble ramble ramble ramble zeno beloved ramble ramble ramble ramble

I’m gonna dump akayona thoughts here ‘cause I love this series lots and they make me very happy to ramble about! (warning for spoilers if you’re unaware of anything about zeno or his backstory)

I don’t see a lot of people analyzing or digging at the things that I do, usually they’re more centered around widely known details and fan favorites and such.

So here we go:

Ever since Zeno wiggled his silly way into the group (the dragons, yoon, hak and yona) he completely threw away all of his self preservation. And you can say “well ofc, he’s there to protect yona” but I think you’d be wrong for simplifying it that way. He's such a complex character. Out of all of them he is the one that stands to be the least affected by Yona’s presence same with the presence of the other dragons. He simply decided to approach them on his own accord, they didn’t approach him. This guy has had to kill and run to protect him from others and from himself for millennia.

He’s completely lost his purpose in life by the time we meet him in the series, having lost so much and constantly being at odds with the concept of time. But he found that purpose again in protecting the hhb, which is where I bring this back to the previous statement that he completely threw away all his self preservation, or rather he actually gained some.

During the Xing arc the dragons end up being imprisoned, and Zeno willingly offers himself up to Mizari to have his arm cut off as means to get away easy, but they all outwardly express their disdain toward this. Jae-ha being the one to intervene and avoid Zeno being subjected to such treatment.

Though I think it should be said that he could’ve easily sacrificed himself for them here, it's just his arm right? But he let's Jae-ha intervene and sway the topic away from him. Despite the fact that he could at any moment throughout the series (after his power has been revealed) when there’s a battle or confrontation, power his way through fights and run away or get help at the drop of the hat but guess what? He doesn’t do that, he stopped doing that for the sake of the others. He instead he chooses to stick by the side of his companions even if he could just as easily tear himself apart or be torn apart in order to help them escape.

A good example is this scene in the current arc:

Even with the artifact from Hiryuu castle in their presence that causes there powers to amp up and everything, Zeno sits tight, literally. He sits there tied up tight with the others. I bring this scene up as an example because like I previously stated he could just tear himself apart here, now more than ever to help them escape. But he doesn't.

(Whether this is due to his wisdom beyond years or because he doesn't want to upset the other dragons is up in the air for sure but we're gonna say it's cause he doesn't wanna upset the others for the sake of this post)

I feel like it should be explained further, it’s been brought up multiple times throughout the series where Zeno’s partook, especially in anxiety inducing parts, the others don’t like to see Zeno hurt even if he heals, even if he’s used to the pain. They don’t like it, they’ve been very upfront about how much they hate it, how much it scares them to see him injured in ways that would kill any mortal being, in ways it would kill any of them. Seeing him bleed is the worst experience for them. And I think Zeno makes the conscious choice to no longer completely tear himself apart just to escape in order to save them because he doesn’t want to scare them more than they already are in the situations they get involved in. As well as when it wouldn’t be necessary to do so, when they work together just as well to escape without unnecessarily blood being shed.

Zeno is honestly an enigma of a character, he says a lot but simultaneously says nothing. Which makes me love him even more.

What I’m saying here is all me reading between lines and using my own brain to come up with something that would make sense rather than it being a verbal statement or thought being stated in the series. There’s no real textual evidence that outright states that Zeno has made any of the choices I’ve stated, it’s just my own thoughts surrounding him.

At the end of it all here, I personally believe this is one of the best ways his character could be written, especially as the only one remaining from the original dragons. He gives things away to the group and the readers but only with bits and pieces. The rest is speculation or a matter of putting things together. In my opinion he keeps us hooked into the series, he’s the one character still present that carry’s so much weight and wisdom with him. He’s the one character in the hhb that understands the pain that each separate individual has faced that even they amongst themselves can’t understand.

They’ve all learned how cruel the world can be, how painful being alive is in their own ways but in my opinion Zeno is the only one that understands their individual experiences infinitely. For crying out loud he knows things that the characters around him don’t even know and that we the readers don’t as well. He’s seen and lived through more life than them all combined, but he still holds onto his humanity albeit rather stubbornly. He still continues to learn and grow and above all else he sees that everyone is human and that there can be/is still good in the world even with all the bad.

Yona maybe be in the title of the series, but Zeno is still just as much of a main character as she is.

[ifearifearifear]

The FNAF Multiverse (9/10)

Here we are, nearly at the end of my little silly textbook draft. Don't worry though, I'm not finished with this AU. (Not by a longshot)

Chapter 9: The Spaces In-Between

And here we are. A part that I’ve been eagerly awaiting.

Explaining what lies between universes. This is where things start rounding out into something you can really sink your teeth into.

First off, the space between universes is… Interesting. Yeah, that’s what we’ll call it.

It’s filled with fractured pieces of forgotten universes. Broken, misshapen settings, haphazardly mis-mashed together into a distorted landscape, full of tears and chasms that only plummet deeper into the multiverse. Characters who have forgotten who they are - Characters who are confused, lost, and scared - Characters who have been alone in the broken, uncanny wastelands for so long that they’ve gone mad - Characters who have begun to remember things they shouldn’t be able to, who have begun to remember their previous revisions, the loop they’ve been on for lifetimes - Characters who’ve realized their entire life was planned out as a narrative, all to entertain onlookers like a trained beast in a circus - Characters who are angry, so so angry that while other universes continue to exist, theirs was abandoned and forgotten, and they were left to rot in the wastes between worlds.

Characters with a predetermined fate know nothing of the hell that those forgotten experience. To be doomed by the narrative is to have a place in it. And for these wandering souls, the narrative, the story, the life that they once had… It’s long gone. And now, there is no narrative to guide them. They’re left wandering. Even characters doomed to death serve a purpose. Even characters who face fates worse than death have the security of a story to fall back on, even if they don’t know it. But for those without a story to support them, there is nothing. Nothing but to wander, often in solitude, for eternity.

Surprisingly, navigating the spaces in-between is rather easy, as long as you’re careful. The hard part is finding an exit. Or rather, an entrance. The space in-between is quite vast, and despite how many universes exist, it’s still very much a hotdog down a hallway situation. [Note to self: Find a better way to phrase that before you post this.] [Update: I couldn't.] The sheer scale of the multiverse makes it difficult to find universes through just wandering.

With the sole exception of the center of the universe. There, you can't go five feet without tripping into a universe, simply because of how cramped it is there. But as it pertains to anything beyond X±.1 Y±.1, there will be a lot of wandering involved.

An interesting addition, there are two universes which, in this AU, could have built-in interuniversal travel. The first of them being FNAF World. Specifically, the Flipside. This is the point where I’m going to establish a specific coordinate for a world. The fourth level of the flipside exists at X0 Y0 Z-1. It exists directly under canon at the lowest point of the multiverse, and if anything falls through from canon, it ends up there.

And the second of these potential easy integrations is - drumroll please…

The Fazbear Frights anthology. I’m sorry.

The initially cut and later released Fazbear Frights story, The Scoop, sticks out severely for being intensely meta. And because of that, it is, in this AU, an example of a larger story spanning over multiple universes. And that could potentially be the case with several other stories from the anthology series, but I’m electing not to touch the matter any further, because the canonicity of these books is still a topic of vicious debate, and I’m not about any of that.

Also, I'm not even going to touch In The Flesh. I know there is an argument to be made there about it taking place in another independent universe, but I really can't take that story seriously.

But anywhom, with that out of the way, the next chapter is mostly going to be a note from me, rather than a direct explanation of the principles of this AU.

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[teopatra]

Oracle channeled message

*trigger warning: toxicity*

this is NOT tarot, but I do tarot too *wink wink*

- im getting that you met someone on the internet or thru mutuals and was instantly attracted to this person. This person could even be a public figure, some type of TV, radio, or Internet personality, or just really popular (may even have a rather large social media following or larger than normal). This person puts on a good front, not a show bc they’re not pretending, they’re really just beautiful trash lol. But looks can be deceiving and you were definitely deceived..

- you may have heard of a reputation about this person but for some people instead of listening to them or even your intuition, you allowed your ego to lead you into this persons trap. 😔

Like most other people you thought you’d be diff (with this person bc you are diff you were just misled or stubborn and well that’s the lesson you have to learn).

- behind the scenes this person is a bit of an A**hole, or they’re really dead inside or have no personality. That’s why I didn’t wanna use the term “TV personality” bc this person is very self centered and ✨narcissistic ✨ 🙄 .. you’ve prob never dealt with someone like this to this extreme arrogance and delusion , prob only heard about it from others or read abt it on the internet, or you’ve only witnessed it on television. Well now you’re experiencing it first hand.

- for some I’m getting this actually may be a friend who is experiencing this or someone around you and if that is the case then those 2 people have a lot in common and not in a good way based off of beginning scenario

- The person your friend, sister, or someone you know (or maybe you don’t know them or aren’t necessarily friends with them but you all have mutual friends and you’re watching the situation play out.) Or one of your friends dated this person before and now that ex is in a new connection with a new victim. Im using the term victim bc this “guy” or person is draining this persons life force. This person is actually a pawn for the dark side if you know what I mean. They use their looks to charm and fool people into thinking they’re not toxic, but unless you’re romantically involved with them you really wouldn’t know, which is the scary part 😳🥵 ..

- I’m sorry to say but for the sake of “love” or a false relationship this person bargained their soul. They sold their soul and have become just like their person. The people around this person prob don’t realize how toxic he (or she even tho for most this is a he) is bc they’re asleep consciously or they’re in the matrix and they’re pawns too. This person has the power to hypnotize people especially with intercourse. I’m hearing coercion.

Be careful

[deadcityhq]

CHARACTER NAME: nathaniel / john mandrake

CHARACTER FACECLAIM: gabriel marques

CHARACTER AGE/DOB (if relevant/they’re not old af): 20, but likes to pretend he’s way older

CHARACTER PRONOUNS/GENDER IDENTITY/SEXUALITY ETC: he/him, thinks he’s a man in a manly man way but is actually just a guy, attracted to people who are either bad for him, will punch him in the face, or both.

CHARACTER FANDOM (if relevant): bartimaeus sequence

OC OR CANON: canon

CHARACTER TYPE (for example: werewolf, shadowhunter, warlock, demon etc): magician/spirit but it’s complicated

HOW LONG HAVE THEY BEEN IN NEW YORK/WHY ARE THEY THERE ETC: he got thrown into this place in a brand new reality after being blasted to atoms, doesn’t really have a choice, is trying to figure things out and this just seems like a good place to stick to for that.

IMPORTANT CHARACTER INFORMATION TO NOTE AND SHARE (this could be important headcanons for initial plotting, mini bios etc, supporting docs):

- first of all, if reading any of this makes you go “wow t, another wet and pathetic man raised in a fucked up system with strong social divide between people with and without magical capabilities who saw the flaws of the system and then subsequently died in a self-destructive/sacrificial way who you are now dragging back to life to make suffer some more?” then the answer is yes, absolutely.

- so imagine this: in a world controlled by magicians capable of summoning powerful spirits and bending them to their will, the british empire reigns over the world in our very own 21st century and, to avoid family dynasties forming, magicians adopt the very normal practice of paying non-magicians to give up their children so they could be trained in magic. you are nathaniel, aged five, and your mother just literally sold you to some man so you could have a chance at a better life. you are stripped down of your name (because spirits can use your true name against you), any identity but than of an apprentice, and forced to be a genius student of a very mediocre man (who forces you to have the fake wizard name of john mandrake). at the age of ten his work friend publicly bullies you so you spend years plotting an elaborate revenge plan against him, succeed but only by the grace of being constantly roasted by the powerful spirit you summoned (who knows your true name, whoops) and discovering that the guy was kind of planning to feed the entire government to a spirit of immense power, become a government official yourself and kind of a self-centered dick (don’t let the spirit return to his home plane because you’re scared he will tell your true name to someone, even though he is kind of your best and only friend and it almost kills him), finally slowly realize how fucked up the whole system is (both with dehumanizing people who can’t use magic and enslaving so many spirits), get faced with a brewing revolution because many non-magical people are resistant to magic now, find out even more evil wizard plans to be fucked up and take over the government, fuse with your spirit bestie in a profound and powerful display of human-spirit trust and equality not seen by the world ever before, fight the bad guys, win and then sacrifice yourself to save your human revolutionary not-girlfriend (but maybe girlfriend just a little bit, it’s complicated??) and spirit bestie, desummoning him from your literal body the last second before a fucking building collapses on you (and blows up).

- as if that wasn’t enough, after all of the events described above nathaniel didn’t die. his soul had been too altered by having fused with a spirit, his death had too much magic involved, but instead of drifting away to the plane where spirits dwell, he instead got sucked into another world of humans. (I’m not saying that it was because of some recent cosmic imbalance caused by various events, but maybe)

- surprise! his magic doesn’t work here anymore because there is no access to the spirit plane.

- also surprise! the last events before his death have left him so profoundly changed that he now has some spirit powers himself! those include shapeshifting, manipulating energy and the elements, and so on. he is pretty bad at it so far.

- he is also really trying to be a better person now, and maybe find a way back to his own world to be a better person together with his friends and found family, but the latter might just be easier than the former, because turns out it is really hard to unlearn a lifetime of awful habits.

THREE AESTHETICS THAT REMIND YOU OF YOUR CHARACTER: a night spent pouring over ancient tomes, intimate conversations with friends, standing under the rain, thinking that you’re cool while you’re actually just kind of wet.

OOC INFORMATION:

MUN NAME/ALIAS: t

MUN AGE: 22

MUN TRIGGERS: -

[tottymatsuno]

My au of angels is slightly different than I think a lot of christian based texts, like biologically (they are not organic life forms)

They are shapeshifters who communicate mostly through static, and on higher dimensional planes, so kinda in a reference to Ososans anime/animated 4th wall jokes they can literally go from 3D to flat one dimensional images, to even higher dimensions. They have true forms, and they have forms to show humans.

Earth in itself is too bright for their eyes to adjust to, so they’re in constant pain bc they got LOTS of eyes, and also they are used to darkness that extends past the vacuum of space. They are not used to this amount of light.

I also wanted for black to be the color of heaven, rather than white. This is based off of my own experiences as a black person. And also bc there’s that one set where they’re goth bikers lol, but mostly bc I’m sick of the anti blackness woven into our very language and the connotations that black is evil and demonic.

Anyways in this au, the matsunos wear a lot of black specifically to be assholes and be like “we were once the holiest” and in other universes where they are angels and wear white, it’s supposed to symbolize that these dudes are not good angels and are rebelling already

More things are angels can use magic, but very rarely do bc witchcraft is a sin or whatever. They do perform lots of rituals but under very specific situations, or times of year.

Because they’re shapeshifters they typically when they exist in heaven, don’t really have concrete forms, unless they want em. They can make genitalia tho, which brings me to my next part!

The nephilim war, which was basically what it says on the tin, a bunch of angels after the rebellion involving @girlymatsu s oc Erina, and the angels wanna be parents

Like a major theme of my angel/religious aus is the idea that angels as a species are very powerful, very obsessive, and are very loving to the point where god is like “I don’t really want you guys loving someone more than me so no kids no families no partners no nothing thanks”

A lot of my stories and ideas center around giving them or them struggling to create and maintain family units. They’re very repressed. Their halo is probably the most obvious sign of love and devotion bc they can’t control it, their very nature is self sacrificial because they all want to be martyrized, but also because it’s them making a shield out of themselves.

It’s subconsciously saying “you’re now my most important treasure, and even if I die I will protect you with my very essence” so like it’s a big deal when a halo appears over someone else’s head when an angel is around.

Anyways lots of wars behind the concept of love. This is like the context Todomatsu is living under.

They also are a very patriarchal society, there’s lots of misogyny too, very Christian ideals that imo aren’t sexy unless gay, so I blast my queervision on them.

They tend to be either born to or assigned classes, one may work hard to gain a promotion but its rare. Standard angel hierarchy at work with seraphim as the top.

There’s more stuff that isn’t super relevant to this au in specific like what their jobs can be, how they work, their interactions with humans, them in modern society, their culture but…not important!!

Anyways all of this set up so i can kick him in the face

OKAY SINCE MULTIPLE PPL SAID THEY WERE INTERESTED!!!

The body of Christ au is a spin off of my apostasy au

Which has been inspired by a lot of my friends, but I’d been working on it since 2019?

I remember getting loved of inspiration post partum when I started collaborating with the fellas!

@pajamamatsu for the succubus/demon au inspo

@girlymatsu @ichikos as my main sources of inspo and feedback, and also who compliment me when we play fruit salad with oso, ichi and totty

@itchypinefield for providing so many different facts

I can’t remember which side blog is viris ososan sideblog @marriedonacross but I rmbr viri had a multiverse au

and ofc clover who played otome villainess with us! I haven’t listed everyone but also the fellas in the girls be devious/demon GC for letting me bounce ideas and make a structure for it!

[babiestbubbles]

ROTTMNT Agere Headcanons

Raph:

Mostly Caregives but when he goes down, he goes down. He’s just an itty bitty baby. Cutest thing ever tho. He tries his best to be a good and helpful little one even if he can’t do much. He’s really never over the age of 3, maybe 4 if you’re pushing it. 

He’s a very expressive baby though, he loves interacting with his brothers, even if it’s just peek-a-boo, watching cartoons, or scribbling all over with crayons (Raph’s not allowed near the paints or other art supplies out of fear he’ll try to eat them. His caregivers have their hands full just keeping them out of Mikey’s mouth and he actually knows better.) 

He also loves shadowing his caregivers/babysitters, sometimes even his siblings who are also regressed, just toddling behind them and maybe imitating them or trying to help them out. A well behaved sweetheart. The only reason he’d ever end up crying is bc he’s gotten hurt or someone else (*cough* Leo *cough*) is being mean to him.

Leo:

Kind of young kiddo most of the time, rarely ever over the age of 6/7, but also almost never falls into the baby range (0-3) unless something super bad’s happened. 

Is actually incapable of caregiving, he gets too anxious and it ends up doing more harm than good to anyone involved 

Sometimes an older sibling type if he does end up falling in the older age range but that’s the best you’re gonna get. 

He’s a super active kiddo though, always on the move, always wants to be doing something. Usually teams up with Mikey to make little plans. They’re great at playing pretend together or really doing anything together, they feed off of each other’s energy, but this also means they encourage one another to get into trouble. 

He tries to be independent a lot of the time but also very much enjoys being doted on by his caregivers. Definitely enjoys a nickname like ‘Little Prince’ or something adjacent, he loves the idea that he’s the center of attention and most of the time his caregivers are happy to oblige. He’s a bit cheeky. He does like messing with his cg or babysitters a bit, but nothing too serious and all in the name of fun. They can always handle it.

He’s actually a bit similar to Donnie and Mikey in his sensitivity to criticism. He doesn’t usually shut down as quickly or intesley as them, but he’s still heavily affected by even minor criticism. Everyone around him knows his littlespace is his only opportunity to be ‘troublemaker’ or break the rules etc. so most of the time he gets off without any real punishment, other than maybe the consequences of his own actions. Ex: cleaning up a mess his prank made or being stuck sleepy all day because he went to bed late.

Mikey:

Chaos baby at any age. Most fluid when it comes to headspace range. Will jump from 3 to 5 if activities get exciting, might drop down to 2 if it’s just movie night. 

He’s always bouncing around, happy to do anything and everything that will satiate his boredom. He’s usually pretty good about keeping out of trouble, but sometimes he just can’t help it, trouble knocks right on his front door. What is he supposed to say? “No Thanks”? He isn’t lame.

He actually struggles to sit down and do stuff while little. He needs a lot more simulation when regressed. He actually requests Lou Jitsu theme songs or a movie playing in the background if he’s coloring with Raph or his siblings because coloring alone isn’t ‘interesting*’ enough for him (*he means stimulating he just doesn’t have the proper vocabulary)

Super talkative, even when he can’t talk. Sounds simply never stop coming out of his mouth. He’s always rambling about fantastical nonsense or his favorite something or why he dislikes something. The kid never seems to run out of conversation topics. Even when he’s just a baby, can’t form words or sentences, he’s still babbling. Making happy coos at things or saying words in succession “April, April, April” “Paint, colrs, pretty” Sometimes gets self conscious abt his voice but usually gets better with a bit of reassurance. 

Very quick to meltdown but also pretty easy to soothe. Most of the time just needs help processing his emotions but will also very readily take an icepop bribe to settle down.

 He can’t really handle the idea of being in trouble, he freaks out that he’s bad and will almost shut down. The same thing happens if you tell him to quiet down/be quiet/shut up. He stops talking entirely, and you know something’s wrong when Mikey stops talking. As for soothing, usually he just wants to cuddle and be told it’s alright, he’s a very good boy, etc. A tv show is a really good distraction for him after he’s had an episode and needs time to feel better. 

Donnie:

Either incapable baby or menace teenager/older kid. Doesn’t really fall in the toddler range unless it’s a special day (ex he and one of his brothers have plans to do something together while little)

Opposite of Mikey, super nervous to talk, typically goes non verbal, but tries to sign if able. (they all know pretty basic asl. Their lexicon is huge but like they don’t use proper asl grammar/sentence structure and tone indicators and stuff. They just sign words in succession)

Loves puzzles, games, building things, making things etc. while regressed. Usually when he’s older but even when he’s a baby, he insists on getting to play with foam blocks or magnets so he can build, or he wants to do jupiter jim activity books.

Definitely the one who struggles the most with insecurity abt his headspace. His classic Donnie overthink continues even when he’s little and he gets embarrassed that he’s weird or wrong for regressing. He needs a lot of reassurance that it’s okay and healthy and normal.

Ironically though, he’s probably the one who needs it the most. He struggles with taking care of himself when he’s having a hard time mentally or emotionally, he needs someone else to take care of him. Make sure he’s eating, sleeping, taking breaks. 

He’s super scared of being bad/getting in trouble, just like Mikey but quite frankly to a worser degree. At this point everyone knows not to scold Donnie for things when he’s little, even if he’s 11/12 because he will cry, sometimes entirely meltdown. That’ll either pull him out of his regression (and lead to him isolating for the rest of the day) or it’ll send him deeper into a smaller headspace. If it’s really bad, he’ll spend the next few days drifting in and out of babyspace. He’s generally a very sensitive baby, sometimes he can’t even handle jokes about him being ‘bad’ or a troublemaker or misbehaving.

He absolutely cannot handle punishment at any time ever. While he is a menace and messes around and is kind of feral, he’s careful, he doesn’t really properly break any rules (mostly because he has a huge fear of getting in trouble), so there’s really never a reason for him to be punished, but if he did break a rule, there’s no way he could manage to make it through his punishment. Just having to face his caregiver while knowing he did something wrong would probably send him into a panic attack. 

Getting sent to time out or his room or something would just lead him to meltdown there and then deny himself any comfort after. He’d push away from cuddles and deny any sweet/comforting words his caregivers tried to tell him afterwards. (Poor baby doesn’t think he deserves it)

This only happened once and his caregivers learned their lesson when they were stuck with a baby Donnie for an entire week. [He was so embarrassed afterwards but also was so far in headspace he doesn’t remember a lot of it]

[moonianbbyg]

moon notes.

Disclaimer: these observations do not have to resonate with everyone and everything stated is based on personal experience.

✧˖* ARIES: i noticed that aries moons are very protective of their romantic partners! they could possibly be very territorial of them simply because it’s hard for them to get along with just anyone so when they find someone they can romantically love it feels like a miracle. aries moons have this tired look to them - similar to pisces risings their eyes look so tired or they’re downturned shaped. their eyes are very interesting because every time you look into their eyes it feels like there are so many secrets but at the same time there is a desire for wanting to put your own secrets into those eyes. aries moons are really focused on their beliefs from what i’ve seen, example: if they strongly believe in God they will try putting prayer before anything. or if they’re into crystals and spirituality they could care less what others have to say about it. aries moons hate when they’re not being understood and it doesn’t hurt them it just gets them very mad because they always try getting boldness to even say how they feel because they think they’ll be judged. (especially if they have virgo personal placements as well)

✧˖* TAURUS: it’s something about taurus moon women. they easily attract men who always want to be the center of attention for some reason.. they’re the only people who can naturally intimidate someone self centered and make their ego be lower just by a stare. taurus moons have high standards they want people to be able to reach because they always try to see the good/both sides in everyone and in every story. they’re also very guilty of their gluttony tendencies sometimes. i think people see them as someone who needs a lot of healing and usually their partners get disappointed or easily don’t feel loved by them because they are so hard to understand since they have often mood swings. taurus moons come off serious when you first meet them but they’re actually very fun people who love good energy and vibes. if these individuals taurus moons make any aspects to their lilith sign they might love it when people cry over them because a taurus moon will teach you how to cherish your normal life even when it’s boring because you don’t know what someone else is possibly going through.

✧˖* GEMINI: i don’t know how to describe this but gemini moons have a rbf personality 😭 they might look approachable in the face but it’s hard to impress them in order for them to show you their fun side. gemini moons love to spread their interest onto others so if they like certain shoes they will try to make you be into them as well. when they have a crush on someone they get really shy but straightforward at the same time - they’re the type to be like “hey i love you but jk unless you want me too lol” which makes them tend to be risky text senders too. they’re the type of person who easily attracts attention they don’t care to have, they just know deep down certain people desire to be just like them.

✧˖* CANCER: people with cancer moons are so forgiving especially with their lovers and close friends. they hate being involved in drama and they self pity in a good way¿ cancer moons are very straightforward and they will tell you if you’re making them feel uncomfortable and they’re very focused on fairness and justice. they want balance in anything and everything, they truly believe that sharing IS caring. cancer moons tend to have the urge to fight people or dance with stranger when they’re drunk, they just wanna be all over the place. they’re very ambitious and they’re career oriented people, working hard is a go to for them and they’d never let themselves be a stay at home wife/husband or ask others to provide for them

✧˖* LEO: leo moons LOVE self love affirmations so much and they might’ve been doing them since they were very young. they don’t easily let people have strong opinions on them and they like proving others wrong. i notice that many leo moons love their eyes or hair. they want to keep secrets with many people but they hate telling their own, they usually develop trust issues very young. they aren’t really competitive unless it’s about their friends. they were the type of people in kindergarten to get jealous when their best friend had another friend. leo moons also can’t stay mad for long and they always try to go back to someone by using their sympathy. they tend to hate long conversations unless it’s about mysterious topics and having to find out about unfinished situations. they’re very into detective documentaries because they like learning from them. i noticed leo moons tend to hate math but still won’t give up on trying to be successful as possible at it (or just any subject they’re not good at)

✧˖* VIRGO: virgo moons literally get attached to people so fast.. they love people who desire to work hard for their dreams and people who love to party. they want soul ties with anyone they think suits their personality. confident people attract them easily because they’re the type of person to say everyone is beautiful. i notice that a lot of virgo moons show love by cooking for their loved ones and during their childhood they might’ve payed attention while their mom/grandma was cooking just so they learn how to cook faster. as a kid they were always ambitious and had goals. i don’t know why but usually virgo moons pay attention to their school life a lot all until they get into high school - they start caring less and less. many people feel attracted to them because they’re so nice and even when they have something to say they KNOW someone else might not agree to but they still make it sound agreeable lol

✧˖* LIBRA: libra moons are just.. something else. they love to compliment people and expect the same energy in return, but crushing their ego is so easy because you can call them ugly jokingly and they’re just gonna give you that disappointed or sad stare. libra moons tend to get taken advantage of a lot because they know they’re people pleasers but they just can’t stop. these people just love their moms so much - literally she could’ve been the worst ever and they’ll still stick up for her. during their teenage years they probably payed a lot of attention on how they look and if their outfits are cute but as they get older they kind of stop caring about their looks. libra moons are the perfect example of personality over looks when choosing a partner! one negative personality trait i noticed about libra moons is definitely being a people pleaser who COMPLAINS even though it was their decision to do something for the other person. for example if they give (NOT borrow) $ 100 they will make a big deal out of it knowing they decided to help. you can easily notice when a libra moon is admiring you or someone -they just zone out mid conversation just to analyze your/their face. talking to a libra moon is like talking to yourself but you’re agreeing with everything you’re saying. even though libras are stereotyped to be indecisive libra moons are indecisive about unnecessary things like where they wanna go eat but when it comes to important situations they already know what to say. also i would like to add - if you’re a libra moon please work on your honesty.

✧˖* SCORPIO: I LOVE SCORPIO MOONS 🥺 literally my favorite moon sign i like it even more than my own.. these people just know how to comfort you and be there for you even if they feel awkward hugging you or anything similar to physical comfort. their moms could’ve been the first people to ever cause trauma for them but they still have a soft spot for her, their relationship’s theme is ‘i love you, but from a distance.’ i noticed that scorpio moons with siblings don’t pay a lot of attention to them, they just like having their alone time and are definitely night people. family issues really bother them so much because they hate coming home knowing they can’t even talk to their loved ones. they love watching horror movies or scary documentaries, dark theories, detective shows and etc. because i think they like learning from those type of shows. sounding smart seems to be important to them because when someone tries to outsmart a scorpio moon they get annoyed super fast lmfao like they just wanna know they’re right in every situation. it’s something about scorpio moons wanting to be the big spoon when cuddling.. or do y’all wanna be the little one but don’t wanna admit it because you have a desire to be the dominant protective one 😵‍💫 LOL

✧˖* SAGITTARIUS: you can literally tell your whole life story to a sagittarius moon and they won’t tell anyone. they are so trustworthy and kinda forgiving because if you betray them they’re most likely to give you another chance because they hate arguing with people or being on bad terms. i noticed that they’re really interested into other people’s cultures and are very respectful towards all races, they just don’t discriminate. usually they try to avoid going to other people for advice but they will for sure ask their mom a million questions until they can understand from her advice why something is happening the way it is? these natives hate isolation - they just seem to always want to be outside in nature with many people. they’re also most likely to have many friends. sagittarius moons are very good listeners like even if they get tired of you and you notice it, if they care for you they’ll still put effort into listening to you. sagittarius moons also have a very nice music taste i observed and they are the type of people to slowly get into all genres as they get older

✧˖* CAPRICORN: honestly there isn’t that much to say about capricorn moons in my opinion. i see them as conceited people with hidden insecurities. don’t get me wrong i’m not hating on capricorn moons but it’s okay to admit how you truly feel about yourself or about something in general 💀 i noticed that in relationships they always tend to need advice even if it’s a small unnecessary situation happening. they romanticize a perfect relationship (that’s perfect for them in their minds at least) and they always search for advice that could make their dream relationship manifest into reality. a positive personality trait that capricorn moons have is forcing themselves to feel numb about the things that hurt them the most for sure. they usually hate ranting but when they finally do/decide to they’ll pour out their whole heart then act like they didn’t after, they just don’t like being vulnerable publicly. many people (or at least very unprofessional astrologers) talk harsh about capricorn moons “having” detached emotions but they’re actually very sensitive individuals who just want to be understood. i know this will sound stereotypical but capricorn moons really have a bad relationship with their mom or both of their parents and they might’ve experienced ab*se growing up

✧˖* AQUARIUS: aquarius moons have so many things on their mind and they are usually stoners lol but not certainly depressing thoughts, they just find themselves thinking about things a lot but they won’t overthink it too much. aquarius moons could make sex be their love language at some point in their lives just because they want to please others and themself. they want magical sex. i noticed they enjoy aggressive music 😭 or are the type of people to judge someone for not liking a certain artist that they like. these people just know how to make someone laugh without even trying, their thoughts (especially their thoughts when they’re high) are the funniest thing ever < and i see this as the reason for many people having crushes on them because they’re never boring and are so interesting to talk to! aquarius moons tend to always get lost when ranting like they could be telling you their whole life story and they’ll randomly zone out and be like “what did i just say?”

✧˖* PISCES: honestly i don’t even wanna talk about this moon sign because i could write 3 pages just about them, there’s so much to say and i don’t even know where to begin plus my taurus moon is lazy. pisces moons ARE the family member that just randomly knows everything. they have a weird mindset of wanting to come off/look lovely to any stranger and seem like an angel. they can’t handle confrontation and usually disagree with something even if there’s proof just so they get left alone. they want to feel spoiled, royal, financially stable and well pleased. pisces moons either think of money, sex or how depressed they are every now and then.. pisces moons are the CEOs of falling for fictional characters or celebrities. pisces moons dating a virgo sun is going to feel like paradise for them but they might not want to admit it because they want to be praised and begged for. i brought this up because virgo is pisces’ sister sign and then dating someone who’s sun opposites their moon will leave them speechless because it feels so perfect or too good to be true. pisces moons remind me of capricorn venus because they romanticize toxicity. they tend to be very hardworking to the point where they forget to eat throughout the day. honestly this is a weird observation about them but they either can or cannot handle spicy food at all. if i keep talking about pisces moons i’m just going to focus on the negative tingz so this is it for pisces moons 🤗 thanks for understanding

ASPECTS

moon conjunct NN these people or know they’re destined to be known/famous or they have a desire to be.

moon opposite mercury tend to overthink and confuse themselves a lot and jump into conclusions that aren’t even true.

moon square jupiter really put effort into whatever they decide to do (when they want to) because this placement can also indicate a person being very lazy

moon opposite neptune love mysteries or they love playing detective

moon trine venus have stalker tendencies especially if it’s stalking their exes.

moon conjunct venus tend to experience karmic relationships a lot or their partners are usually very immature. they have a hard time leaving because they see relationships as entertainment.

moon square sappho experience sex at a young age and keep on experiencing. they always seem to be open to try new things with their partners.

moon conjunct pluto love themselves for some reason, their confidence can shift a lot though. - one day they’re in love with themselves and then the other they feel like the ugliest person in the room. they’re also so excited about their future and what’s meant for them.

moon conjunct saturn either a) act like their dad a lot b) look like their dad more than other family members c) they don’t fear him at all. moon conj. saturn people also seem to be so fearless about anything. they LIVE by the motto go with the flow.

MOON IN HOUSES

moon in 8H often feel out of place and and have a desire to be satisfied with their lives. also possibly experienced many deaths growing up.

moon in 11H love attention. they want to know people find them beautiful and usually people feel safe around individuals with their moon sitting in their 11H

moon in 9H people are so interested into foreign culture and people. they’d rather watch something in another language rather than in their own. they possibly feel like every vacation they go on has some sort of important meaning behind it. they also have a desire to often move away.

moon in 10H are either the friend everyone feels the closest to or they were the popular kid at school. attention chases them so easily!

moon in 1H just can’t seem to care about other people’s opinions. but they tend to get overly self critical which doesn’t mean they lack self love though. they just want to glow up glow up and glow up more each day

moon in 7H can be a messed up placement to have imo. simply because they emotionally depend on those who even show them the tiniest bit of attention and this individual can come off as naive. it’s possible they love their future spouse more than they love them or they develop a sick obsession for them.

this post was created by @moonianbbyg on tumblr <3 if reposting my work please give credits.

[bots-and-cons]

Tfp optimus, ratchet and bumblebee with a reader who's Raf's older sister and is like a tony stark (ironman). Genius, very advanced tech, rich, AI and the suit. She knew about them from the start but left them be until she realised her lil brother got too involved with them and decided to provide for them tech (make ratchet's life much easier) per Raf's request. Thank you!

I’ve been recently rewatching some of the earlier MCU movies, since I needed some background noise for playing Minecraft. I did some HCs for you, hope that’s okay

~Bumblebee~

•You visit Raf and your family every once in while, but you’re often busy with running your company and helping people

•You knew about the autobots, and the decepticons, but since it was pretty quiet on the actual fighting  front for a long time, you never felt the need to get involved

•But when your surveillance picks up your little brother outside his school, getting picked up by a yellow robot in his car mode, you decide it’s time to get involved

•So you get your suit on and you fly to where you know they’re basing and hack the base computer to open up the hatch up top, so you can fly in

•You’re of course confronted by a lot of blasters and some hostile intent, but you know they wouldn’t harm a human, so you step out of the suit and explain yourself

•You become a friend and an ally to the autobots and you help them quite a lot

•Bee is definitely a fan of your suit and tech in general, not so much because of how much it helps the team, but because he thinks it’s insanely cool

•Raf is happy to see you more often you get him a laptop, hooked up to your network and AI

•Bee still thinks you shouldn’t get involved with the whole war, but you tell him it’s not his decision and that you’re already involved

~Optimus Prime~

•Optimus was aware of you, since you’re basically a celebrity, being a superhero and all, but he didn’t know you and Raf were related

•So when you first come to the base, he’s a bit confused and quite wary of you

•But you end up being a good person, even if you’re super sarcastic and making a joke out of a lot of stuff

•Your humor is not always appreciated though and he tells you so if you go too far

•You’re connected to the bot’s comm line, and you occasionally jump in and just listen, or talk with them, sometimes offering advice and sometimes to joke around a bit

•You don’t interfere with the fighting much though, but you do make sure no humans get hurt because of them

•Unless it’s M.E.C.H we’re talking about, then you’re just fine with getting rid of them

•Your main goal is to keep Raf safe and you got super angry when he got that whole energon poisoning and almost died

•Optimus thinks you’re a bit self centered and arrogant, but you’ve always been helpful, so he never says anything

~Ratchet~

•The upgrade in tech you gave him, dear Primus

•Ratchet appreciates your contribution to their cause immensely, but he’s also a bit suspicious about your motives

•He knows you want to keep Raf safe, and he trusts that you would never do anything to jeopardize his safety, by doing something bad to the team

•You come to visit every now and then, doing some upgrades and since Ratchet is the one who’s usually at the base, and you like to talk, you end up having some conversations

•You have a bit of an agenda though, you’re hoping maybe you can learn more about the autobots and the decepticons and how the whole war is going and stuff like that

•Ratchet isn’t very talkative though, but he answers some of your inquiries, but mostly you just work separately

[multi-kpop-fanfics]

Ok but imagine Wonwoo being a lawyer and fucking the shit out of his opponent lawyer before going to court 😔😔

ik he was the doctor in that episode but GOD DAMN HE FITS THE LAWYER CONCEPT TOO WELL

You were on your way to the court, hands gripping the steering wheel as you were mentally preparing for the case you had ahead of you. 

It was the usual divorce case - rich couple, a lot of money involved and a very angry wife who caught her husband cheating on her with his secretary. You nearly wanted to puke at how unoriginal and boring this case was, but you took it upon yourself to defend the woman, for the sake of women’s solidarity.  However, there was a detail that made this case very interesting and made your blood boil with anger and excitement at the same time - the husband’s defending lawyer was none other than Jeon Wonwoo. 

Out of all the lawyers you’ve ever faced before, he’s the only one who matches your wit and skills, thus making him your greatest opponent in the law field - and the only one who has managed to break your case-winning streak. And you absolutely despised him for that. 

Or maybe it was just his gentle yet powerful aura, combined with his dashing smile and sharp features, his tall and strong frame always accentuated by the suits he wore. Whenever he walks into the court, he has the winner’s mentality, a confident smirk on his lips every time he has you as his opponent. He always has his way of making heads turn to his direction, even if he wasn’t showing off in the first place.

Simply putting it, you hate Jeon Wonwoo for who he is, because he has everything you’re looking for in a man.

You check the time on the control panel of your car and decide to make a stop for some coffee, having at least one hour ahead of you until the court assembly. You park your car next to a polished black Mercedes, which looks awfully familiar to your eyes, but you shrug it off. You enter the shop, your suit jacket draped over your arms. “One caramel macchiato, please”, “Right away, miss. That’ll be four dollars”, the cashier replies and you search for your wallet to pay your coffee. 

“The coffee is on me”, you hear a voice next to you and you spot a man’s arm sliding the credit card over the POS machine. “Oh, thank you, you didn’t have to-”, you turn your attention to him and your face falls once you realise that the one who paid for your coffee was Wonwoo himself. “What are you doing here?”, you ask him with a passive-agressive tone. “Just drinking a cup of coffee, just like you, sweetheart”, he smiles, taking a sip of what seems to be a dark-roast espresso. “A caramel macchiato? I didn’t have you for the sweet type”, “Gotta make up for the bitterness of the field and those in it”, you reply with irony.

“It’s truly a shame, Y/N. Such a beautiful and capable woman like you, acting like a poisonous bitch, tsk tsk...”, Wonwoo comments with a demeaning tone and you poke your cheek with your tongue in annoyance. “You see, Jeon... Some of us are poisonous bitches because we have to deal with self-centered assholes who think that own the world, you know what I’m saying?”, you retort and smirk once you see the man drop his smile and clench his jaw. 

“Follow me”, he grabs your wrist and pulls you towards the restrooms, all while you’re protesting. He slams the door open and checks if they’re empty, kicking the door shut behind him and pushing you on the wall, caging you between his arms. “What the fuck do you think you’re doing?!”, you grit your teeth, eyes seething with rage. “You have some nerve, calling me a self-centered asshole, all while you walk around in your fucking YSL heels, looking down on everyone every time you enter the court”, he growls in your face, as he takes off his suit, loosens his tie and unbuttons the first three buttons of his shirt, his toned pecs peeking from underneath. “And do you know what’s the worst of all?”

“It fucking turns me on to the point I want to fuck your pretty brains out”, he admits with a heavy tone and you feel a rush of wetness pool in your lacy panties. “What’s the point of saying it if you won’t do it?”, you taunt him with a smirk. But it backfires on you, as he roughly takes off your suit shorts, throwing them on the floor aggressively and he shoves your panties to the side, hastily unbuttoning his own slacks to reveal his impressive girth, your mouth watering at the sight.

"You'll regret saying that, sweetheart", he bottoms out with one powerful thrust, knocking the air out of your lungs. "And I think you already do", he chuckles as he grabs your thigh and hooks his arm underneath, angling his hips to hit you deeper. He takes a quick look at your heels, running his hand over your leg, goosebumps erupting on your skin. He looks back at you and starts fucking you hungrily, his cock drilling your cunt in a brutal pace.

"Goddamn, sweetheart, you're so tight around my cock", he groans and you moan, your hands gripping his chest, nails digging into his skin. "Fuck, you're so damn big", you hiss and Wonwoo chuckles darkly, his lips trailing wet kisses on your jawline. "You're way prettier when you're taking my cock, baby", he comments and lets your leg down, his hand finding your clit and rubbing it in rapid circles.

"Shit, I'm gonna cum if you keep doing that", you whine weakly and Wonwoo rams his cock even faster in your soaking cunt, his free hand coming up to wrap around your neck. "You wanna cum, sweetheart? Good, because -ugh- I'm cumming too", his deep moan echoes in your head, "Gonna fill your tight, slutty cunt with my cum", he adds and you clench around him at his filthy words.

"Oh? You'd love that, wouldn't you? Getting fucked by the man you hate the most and letting him breed you like a bitch in heat, huh?", "Fuck, just fill me up, you bastard!", you scream and he stills himself inside you, spilling his hot seed generously, triggering your own orgasm as well. You feel your body go limp against the wall, but Wonwoo keeps you from falling with his arms, his cock still sheathed inside you.

"Fuuuuck...", Wonwoo groans in satisfaction as he finally pulls out of you, his cum trickling down your inner thigh. "You fucking-", you snarl but he cuts you off by kissing you senseless, his tongue hungrily devouring your mouth. He pulls back instantly, smiling at your flushed and disheveled state. You can't help but smile back, feeling content with the way you've ruined each other's pristine image.

This case just got a whole another turn.