#it’s just kinda been here for a while sorta like reddit

[twopoppies]

hi! I’m not a Larry but I was thinking that the LZ relationship was fake until yesterday. I wasn’t completely convinced she was even there until yesterday. The reasons I thought it was fake:

L did that pap walk w/ a girl a while back, so I figured he wasn’t against these sorts of things, and since that one failed so badly I figured this one would be more elaborate

the dailymail/mirror photos all looked kinda fake/awkward/staged, he’s never seen anywhere but then they found him at the grocery store

the article that came out about fan speculation before they were spotted out together (and the quote from Reddit saying that they saw rumors saying he was dating her when literally NOBODY was saying that)

inconstancies in other articles

weird spam bots I saw on tiktok when after the electric brixton show. (Some TikTok’s were saying that he kept “looking to the balcony” and then there were random accounts who weren’t at that show saying he was looking at Zara? This was only after he followed her and nothing else?)

he hates love island???

he’s been very verbal about his new album upcoming shows/projects and might be doing this for publicity

They posted a concert story together and went public, were seen on a date together, but for whatever reason he didn’t take her to Coachella???

she’s a whole media/journalism expert, so she knows what she’s doing and can make this look real

As a non-Larry, I thought maybe he might be doing this to dissolve Larry speculation while promoting his new stuff, also she gets publicity and has a lot of projects coming up

i saw an anon (idk from what account here on tumblr) that said they knew about this trip in advance (obviously could’ve been fake)

there was an account on Twitter that I follow that warned her followers in advance that this was gonna happen (also could’ve been fake)

But omg, yesterday made me think maybe these were all just coincidences! I guess this might be real after all? Cuz as a non-larry I believe that Eleanor, Danielle, Bri, Freddy, all them were real. I obviously know the blonde girl from last time was fake and I thought this one was fake too? Maybe not? The only weird coincidences I can see now are:

The 2 girls that were posting about him yesterday were HUGE one direction fans and both frequent concertgoers. If they were such fans why did they take pictures/videos without his consent. One girl took a video with L and Z in the background and I saw L look at the camera. The other girl took a picture of them sitting/eating breakfast together. Like specifically to prove that they were together?? Seems disrespectful, especially for someone who is such a fan?

both of those accounts were VERY VERY vocal (responding to comments, replying to tweets, etc) saying things like “they were so cute/happy, etc” and trying to shut down any Larry stuff. Almost like they were told to?

the tumblr anon that I mentioned before (#11) said that they were going on a tropical getaway and the predicted them getting spotted at a night club, which is exactly what happened, so maybe they knew what they were talking about?

are there no larries in Costa Rica lol?

however, these may all just be in my head. I sorta dont like this girl because of the political stuff I’ve heard about her, not sure if it’s true tho. Plus with the whole ridiculous cheating thing, she just doesn’t seem right for her but then again that’s just my silly opinion. Is there anything else that I’m missing? Any other anons or proofs? I didn’t want to say any of this on Twitter cuz my oomfs are raging antis and I don’t want them to hate me 😭😭

I think the best way to look at this stuff is to remove Larry from the equation. It really has nothing to do with that. It’s just incredibly obvious that it’s fake. Even if I believed Louis was into women, he would never want to have such a public relationship and have it splashed all over the tabloids.

I don’t know how to prove something that is so over the top obvious to me. @daisiesonafield-blog has a post on her blog about how to spot a PR relationship. Maybe scroll through that because this one just ticks all the boxes.

[sentientgopro]

If there's one thing I wanna bring with me from Reddit, It's r/legoguns.

Now that I'm getting off reddit, there's one thing I wanna bring with me and it's this subreddit and idea, it doesn't seem to really exist on Tumblr. Here's some of my designs, and some of the best of other people's, with credit. All of mine can be realistically built with full functionality (mag release, charging handle, etc.)

MK18 of mine

Okay, when i first posted i forgot a "keep reading" button lmao. Heres 1 image as an eyecatcher though. 29 more to go.

Different kinda M4 built on same reciever

PPSH41.

Onto other people's far superior stuff.

"3rd version of my AUG" by u/vipeDoesStuff

"Messed around with the idea of a Nine- Tailed Fox issued M4 rifle" By u/Foxlegofirearms

"glOwOck" by u/VipeDoesStuff. Pure perfection.

"Lego AWM!" By u/JimsLegoGuns. Also on YT under the same name, has some tutorials that are a great place to start when learning the general conventions of designing these things.

"The Stoner Family" by u/FoxsLegoFirearms

"My custom UMP-45 haven't posted the irl version" By u/_xMr__

"4 generations of Aks" By u/FoxsLegoFirearms

"Sig Sauer M18" By u/VipeDoesStuff

"Finally made my 3a1 Carbine IRL" by u/JimsLegoGuns

"Glock 17" by u/VipeDoesStuff

"Glock 19 gen 5 MOS and a custom knife. Kinda EDC- ish." By u/jacqo_B

"Family photo (yes I like John Wick)" By u/FrostTGA

"TTI Pit Viper" By u/FrostTGA

"Contractor .308 from Payday 2" By u/VipeDoesStuff

"You want to see what 4 years of researching, time, effort, learning and pain looks like? Here you go." by u/FoxsLegoFirearms

"Lego P90" by u/edups2

"Some BO2 builds from a while ago" By u/edups2

"The 7 Gun" By u/BallsHD4K60fps

"Cock 19, sadly no balls" By u/BallsHD4K60fps.

"LEGO M4 MW SKELETONIZED" By u/edups2

"Lego Call Of Duty Zombies Ray Gun" by u/NickBrick

Aand thats image limit. Damn, I got carried away with that. Ive been picking very specifically too, there's ALOT of better stuff than just this that ive missed. Just take a little look through the r/legoguns sub. Anyway, I'm hoping these are gonna get some new people interested in this sorta thing, or increase the amount they're being posted on Tumblr. Lego guns sounds ridiculous but once you see how good they can be, it starts making more sense. So, I'm gonna tag this with #Lego guns in the hopes that it catches on. Thanks for reading. Including all Migration tags too, and 196 bc why not.

[1moreff-creator]

Here again with some observations about the imitation pieces, this time on Wolfgang's.

First, not something that is in the art, but rather something that isn't here. The Wolfgang with the crown has nothing in common with his dad (as seen in the picture of his wedding in chapter 1). If you look at the suit, it has the little metal bits on the arms and on the shoulders that are on Wolfgang's suit but not on his father's. The tie has the pattern that is on Wolfgang's, but not on his father's. The hair strand on his face is thick, unlike his father's thin hair. I just find it funny that the second page says "not like you", most likely meaning his dad, and he indeed lack any of his father's identifiable features.

As for small details, I found some : crowned Wolfgang got both a tail and fangs, the victim Wolfgang's crucifix is actually a necklace, and his sheep pin is actually not the same as his usual one (the sheep got upward ears on the imitation piece, while it got downward ears in the killing game).

Woohoo more imitation piece details with bigsnakesatethesun! Wolfgang next :D

Hmm… You’re right! While they’re in superficially similar attire and just look alike in general, a lot of the details are different enough to be notable. Could be a way to call attention to Wolfgang’s worries that he might be similar to his father (I think? It’s been a while since I looked at Eden’s Garden content so I might be misremembering), while in actuality being different as you said. Though I do wonder if the “not like you” could also be taken to be about his mother, as she was a lawyer that Wolfgang wants to live up to (again, from vague recollection).

As for the other stuff, I think the fangs and tail and the fact the cross is a necklace and not a crucifix aren't hard things to spot, but it's still worth calling out in case anyone didn't see them!

And the sheep ear thing is fascinating! I’ve found very conflicting reports on what ear position means in sheep (evidenced by this Reddit post where there's three completely different answers, and one of them includes "depends on the breed"), so it's a bit hard to analyze. One source claims horizontal ears, which is kinda what we see in killing game, are possibly connected to relaxation and comfort. Which makes some amount of sense, as animals usually put their ears up when they're alert. Given that Imitation Sheep Pin Wolfgang is about to get stabbed, I could see why he'd be more "alert" than the Wolfgang in killing game, though it's a bit odd since I wouldn't exactly say that killing game Wolfgang was particularly "relaxed and comfortable."

Instead, I would relate it more to the fact that a sheep's ears being down can be an indicator of the sheep being in pain (hey here's another source!). It makes sense to think that killing game Wolfie is in some sort of pain, given I doubt anyone's doing particularly well there. Meanwhile, Imitation Wolfie looks quite happy in a liberated sorta way, so I can see the angle that he is no longer in pain.

In fact, you could probably combine both interpretations. Killing game Wolfgang is in distress aka pain (seen by the issues he was working through in his breakdown with Diana among other things), which would be the "real" way to read his pin, but he pretended to be relaxed and have everything under control, so most of the rest of the cast "reads his pin" the other way. Meanwhile, Imitation Sheep Pin Wolfgang has no reason to pretend to be relaxed, as he seems to be free from pain and worries, so his ears are in what would be the natural position for his breed... I guess?

Okay maybe I'm going a little crazy there, but then, that kinda is the basis of my blog so. Thanks as always for bringing this up! I enjoy it forever :D

[cruesuffix]

Yandere nikkimick anon here! Your headcanons were AWESOME, especially for someone who doesn't write and interact much with that kind of content. I like that you wrote it more in a horror way than "you're mine" "I'm possessive" stuff that's very common in yandere genre. Anyway, do you have some ideas for how yandere!Nikki would handle getting rejected by Mick? Lots of horror and nsfw appreciated

the yandere!nikki anon!! i am SO sorry!!!

as you can see… it’s been way too long and i procrastinated this ask so much because i really don’t know much about yanderes. thanks to reddit (i know i know!! that’s the last place a bitch like me should be in!), and old school wikis, i am sorta kinda prepared. i’ve been procrastinating everything in favour of writing my wattpadesqe fanfic that will never see the day of light, but i’m pulling myself up to write something that is hopefully on par with my last headcanon! ⚠️ your warning here fellow readers: major warning for horror and nsfw hcs!! ⚠️

Here’s: yandere!nikki handling rejection… totally perfectly normally!

- honestly… we all know that man is not handling rejection well at all!

- mick, as any other normal being would do, rejects nikki after he makes this long winded speech about how much he loves mick and how they need to be together because they’re totally meant to be. mick would be weirded out, mainly because this is his bandmate and he now has to be in a band with him forever while this man is quite literally going crazy over him.

- nikki at first, looks calm. he nods as mick speaks and when it’s finally his turn to speak, all he can do is tell mick they’ll be together no matter what.

- from then on, nikki does whatever it takes to try to change mick’s mind. maybe he leaves him things like flowers or notes in his mailbox or something (which leads mick to wonder how nikki even found his address). things take a dark turn when he convinces himself someone else in the band has a crush on mick and is “trying to steal him away from nikki.”

- if it’s tommy, nikki would go insane. he’s convince his terror twin is plotting against him. bringing in the horror aspect, nikki seems like the type to try to poison someone to get what he wants. if he suspects it’s tommy taking mick away from him, he slowly puts arsenic in all of his food until one day tommy just collapses. he’s dangerously ill, and everyone’s concerned for him… except nikki, who tells him to suck it up and that “everyone gets sick on tour!”

- if it’s vince, nikki would be livid. as we know, in the 80’s nikki and vince were pretty antagonistic towards each other. with nikki thinking vince is trying to sabotage his and mick’s (non-existent) relationship, it only gets worse. maybe one day, fed up with vince getting too close to mick, he threatens him with one of his switchblade knifes and tells vince if he ever gets close to mick again he’ll slice his throat. ofc vince would probably get too scared to mess with either of them again, causing him to isolate.

- of course, mick puts the puzzle pieces together and begs nikki to stop. nikki, naturally, gets manipulative. he agrees to stop, as long as mick gets honest with him and just admits he’s in love with nikki. when mick refuses to do so, nikki goes into a rage.

- “what do you mean you won’t? you love me, i know you do! we’re meant to be together, SAY IT!”

- if mick tries to distance himself, nikki just lurks behind him. if he wants his own room, nikki will convince their road manager not to. it will get to the point where mick can’t have a moment to himself because nikki is somewhere around.

- also… you wanted nsfw and i think this may be the only situation i can provide:

- seeing as though they have to room together on tour, i like to think nikki would lock himself in that room with mick and beg. he’ll beg for some kind of release because it’s “mick that’s making him feel that way anyways.” and ofc mick does not want a single part of it, so he refuses. that’s when nikki would just whip his dick out and start jacking off in front of him… to show mick exactly what he’s doing to him. mick would sleep with his back to the wall afterwards… or if he’s really desperate, he’ll sleep out in the hallway.

- i’m not sure yanderes kill their desired person but… i wouldn’t put it past nikki. maybe as an accident! like he’s already holding something heavy (maybe his bass??) and arguing with mick over… the same thing they had been for a week or something. anyways, it comes to a head and before nikki can really think, he lifts his bass and smashes it over mick’s head. His body crumples to the ground and nikki can only stare at it in complete shock.

- …ok, that took a turn. I guess I like the horror aspect a little too much!

i’ll stop here before i really go crazy with this prompt. this one was great to write (when i actually pushed myself to do so at least!!)! i’m sorry you have to wait so long for these though… i really need to stop lying around when it comes to these asks! also i’m sorry if this is not at all accurate to how yanderes handle rejection… maybe i need to consume more media about yanderes and all that idk. either way, i hope you enjoy these, despite the wait!!

[professoruber]

Theory on Meridian | Birds of Prey (2023-)

Spoilers ahead for Birds of Prey (2023-) #5 - Along with general spoilers for the series as a whole

So Birds of Prey (2023-) #5 released; and so I am writing this post both as a follow-up to my pre-release speculation but also to discuss a specific theory on Meridian. While I may be focusing on this one specific character a bit much; I think its worth considering how she's kinda been a major driving force of the plot despite her limited appearance and revealed motivation. So there is plenty of potential for some discussion here.

Namely; what is Meridian's true nature and motives?

So far we have not seen a direct detailed explanation from Meridian regarding her motives or why she has specifically excluded who she excluded. We do however get a bit of a hint at some stuff, which in turn also supports the idea that she is indeed from the future as she claims...

"Where the final battle always is" - Meridian.

Quite the intriguing word choice, which Cass also picked up on as being concerning. This does imply that this is not the first time Meridian has gone through this; and that in turn implies the Birds of Prey have failed in previous timelines. This could be used to explain why she did things the way she did; perhaps telling the Diana or Barbara has backfired in some manner before.

I still would like some specific reasoning for her information security choices and why she didn't provide more information apparently, but it'd still be a decent handwave at least on the part of the writers. Assuming Meridian is on the up and up of course, because...

Meridian might be evil (possibly)

I have seen it pointed out on Reddit that Meridian's speech bubbles...

Have the same reversed (black background & white text vs the typical white background & black text) colouring as Megaera...

Granted; the reversed text for Meridian appears to be a sign of her voice getting distorted by the mask (her speech is coloured normally both when her helmet is off and occasionally even when it's still on), and her speech bubbles' edges are not drawn the same as Megaera... but it's still an interesting coincidence.

And that comparison got me noticing another strange similarity in their colouring.

Both appear to have a sort of black/green/yellowish colour scheme, especially in the cover art. Those controlled by Megaera are also depicted with green eyes...

So overall it is a strange series of coincidences I think.

These panels do have Meridian helping out Cass and Zealot by fighting the mind controlled Wonder Woman, which could go against the idea she herself is under control.. but on the other hand, she's also doing it to get Cass and Zealot to go where she's telling them to; so if she does have ulterior motives this may be orchestrated to push them in the direction she wants?

Hard to say; especially since the mind controlled Wonder Woman is also shown with the reversed colouring in her text bubble as Meriden (albeit still with rougher edges) and Megaera. Her little comments like "Crap. That felt less scary in my head" also do provide support to her being genuine ("Crap" was also something of a signature expletive for Maps in Gotham Academy for that matter).

Still, I can't deny the odd coincidences. Especially since they chose to design Meridian's costume and 'aura' in a way which is oddly similar to the main villain despite the fact that I don't think think Maps has been associated with such a theme before. And if Meridian is evil or being controlled, then it could better explain why she excluded Diana and Barbara and also why things have gotten so out of control despite her foreknowledge and implied previous attempts.

All very interesting stuff.

Or maybe I'm overanalysing all this stuff and Meridian's just time travelling hero and Future Maps.

(Imagine though if this ended up being a sorta 'backdoor pilot' kinda thing for Robin!Maps; introducing her a villain the form of an evil future her? Maybe not but still).

In conclusion

I got some mixed feelings about Meridian. On one hand, scattered comments by her do admittedly point to her seeming genuine and not being controlled. And the fact her bubbles are drawn without the rough edges of Megaera and those controlled by her, and also are coloured normally when her helmet is off, could point towards it just being a coincidence; they might've just used the same technique to depict 'distorted' speech for both.

But still... this is quite the number of coincidences; between the colouring of both her costume and speech bubbles, as well as the oddly sparse information we've gotten from her and her limited appearances. The possibility of some kind of twist regarding her is something worth considering I think.

Still do hope for Present!Maps getting involved in the Birds of Prey though, that would be cool. And hopefully more Cass and Maps interactions, those are cute.

[bohemian-nights]

Nettles Casting Speculation

Since HBO won’t announce the casting for Nettles(understandably), and because we are all going mad due to a lack of official news for her, I thought I would compose a list of all the actresses who could potentially be her.

(Shout out to @nettlesdefensesquad cause she found a lot of these actresses).

Take this whole list with a massive grain of salt because my criteria for this was Black(ish) British/Black(ish) actresses in British productions between the ages of 26-33 (according to some guy on Reddit, Nettles actress is 32, so I thought I’d be lenient with the age) who’s side profile sorta matches this picture of Nettles presumed actress in costume:

Keeping all that in mind, here’s our list:

1. Gabrielle Brooks

While her side profile does not really match the woman in the blurry photo, Gabrielle just turned 33, I believe she’s following/being followed by some of the HOTD cast, and she doesn’t appear to be working on any projects at the moment so we can’t rule her out 🤷🏽‍♀️

2. Yohanna Ephrem

Can’t find her exact age, but based on the side profiles it looks as if she could be a match and she appears not to be working on anything right now. She also doesn’t appear to have any social media so bonus points?

3. Marilyn Nnadebe

Marilyn is 32 and it appears like she is not working on any projects right now.

4. Jordan Loughran

People have been fan-casting her for years, but since she was used in a recent fancast, I decided to look her up, and lo and behold she’s 31! Jordan was already on a HBO show, Raised by Wolves, which also happens to be the same show Alyn’s actor(Abubakar Salim) was on so bonus points.

5. Lois Chimimba

The side profile isn’t that great of a match, but she is 31, about to be 32, and she doesn’t appear to be working on anything at the moment.

6. Tamaira Hesson

I can’t find a decent side profile pick and I can’t find Tamaira’s exact age, but under her playing age, it lists 20-30. She doesn’t appear to be working on any projects at the moment and besides LinkedIn, she doesn’t appear to have any social media.

7. Ronke Adekoluejo

Ronke is 31 and her side profile is kinda a match.

8. Meesha Turner

The side profiles aren’t that much of a match, but for the people who speculate that Nettles actress is tall, Meesha is 5’9.” She’s 32 and she’s not working on anything at the moment. (In fact back in October she left her role as Catherine Parr in the production Six the Musical).

9. Jasmine Rachelle

Can’t find her exact age, but she’s I don’t think she’s older than 25/26. Jasmine is 5’9.”

10. Sherelle Johnson

I can’t find her exact age(or a side profile pic), but her playing age range is between 18-28. I also don’t think she’s working on anything at the moment.

11. Crystal Clarke

Crystal’s last show Sanditon just ended and for the time being it does not look as if she has any other projects in the works. She is around 30.

(I would literally jump for joy if she was playing Nettles).

12. Gleanne Purcell-Brown

The profile isn’t dead on, but Glenne’s playing age is between 20-30. She doesn’t appear to be working on anything and she is 5’8.”

13. Lebogang Fisher

Her playing age is between 18-28. She doesn’t appear to be working on any projects at the moment.

14. Casey Al-Shaqsy

Casey’s playing age is between 19-25. She doesn’t appear to be working on any projects at the moment.

15. Lydia Fraser

Not a side profile picture, but Lydia’s playing age is between 20-35. She is currently working on a stage play though.

16. Yazzmin Newell

Her playing range is between 20-30. It doesn’t look as if she’s working on anything at the moment(her last series was canceled earlier this year). Steve Touissaint is also following her.

17. Madeleine Mantock

She was gearing up for a play back in June, but she’s 33 and 5’9.”

18. Tia Bannon

Not sure about her exact age, but she graduated with a BA back in 2015 so she fits the age range.

19. Danielle Vitalis

Honestly, this is another case of the side profile not really matching, but she fits the age range(play range is 16-30) so I’m adding her just to cover all our bases🤷🏽‍♀️

20. Karla Simone-Spence

Listen my behind knows she’s not going to play Nettles, but she follows Bethany on Instagram and she’s 27. Let me dream 😭

21. Natalie Simpson

Her playing age is 23-33(I think she’s in her early 30s).

22. Leah Haile

According to her Spotlight, she’s currently working on the Snow White movie that comes out next year, but I just thought I might include her. Her playing age is between 16-25.

23. Jessica Allain

Do the side profiles match? Probably not, but she’s 26 and pretty tall so I’m including her.

24. Thalissa Teixeira

Shes been fancasted as Nettles in the past and she’s in her early 30s and it doesn't look like she's really working on anything🤷🏽‍♀️

25. Shantol Jackson

Are the side profiles matching? Nope, but she is 31.

26. Sophia Brown

She's tall 5’ 8” and 31. I really couldn’t find a good side profile pic of Sophia, but I wouldn’t rule her out.

27. Zaraah Abrahams

She’s 36 so she’s a little out of the age range, but she looks young, again, we are covering all of our bases.

28. Razan Nassar

She’s on the young side(25), but she’s been in a show with Bethany Antonia(Get Even), hence the inclusion.

29. Simona Brown

She’s 29 and she doesn’t appear to be working on anything.

There are some actresses who are a bit too young so I didn’t include them, but in case Reddit guy was all the way off, Corinna Brown(who follows Bethany) and Coco Rebecca Edogamhe are good contenders.

This list is not extensive, so anyone with any suggestions feel free to add them 😊(please add them because your girl is desperate 😭).

[sleeplesslark]

Under the cut because of mentions of horror and horrifying situations

I enjoy reading those scary ask reddit stories. Like "what's the creepiest thing to happen to you while canping". Something about them makes my brain buzz with happy chemicals. I know most of them are probably fake and if they aren't they're peoples real stories and shouldn't probably be analyzed like fiction but I've had this idea in my brain for a while.

I kinda feel like there's a difference in some of them, something being terrifying vs creepy or even unnerving. I feel like, creepy is a step before real fear. Something is wrong and potentially there's a threat but your brain can't quite tell yet. Puts you on edge.

Like. Human footprints found in the morning circling your tent as you slept is creepy, unsettling, its an encounter that will stick with you for all the what ifs. Nothing happened so there was no threat. Or was there? You'll never get to know.

Creepy lives in that sorta space I feel like. This has probably been put more eloquently, but to me creepy is also worse than scary. Scary is like the relief of the threat making itself know, the tent being torn open with you in it is scary, horrifying, traumatizing. I don't mean to downplay it. In horror stories though creepy just. Sticks under my skin more. There's no catharsis, no ending to the buildup sometimes. Just you and some footprints circling your tent out in the middle of nowhere.

I feel like there's some writing advice in here somewhere. In college another student did this super well. I won't say the scene or what happened but it was this well timed, beautifully crafted scene where a piece of the environment got altered in a space of time it shouldn't have been able to. The main character blows it off but as a reader you know that shouldn't have happened. Thus the main character isn't alone, is being watched, carefully. But nothing happens in scene. Just a lot of buildup to an unsettling realization. I think about that scene all the goddamn time I hope that student publishes the book so people do analysis on it.

[smudged-red-ink]

A VERY LONG AND RAMBLING BOY AND THE HERON POST

I saw Boy and the Heron a month ago and have been processing since then.

Here's the thing: I wanted to love this movie. I really really did. I loved the trailer, I loved the snarky little heron, I loved Mahito's hair on the posters. So I went to the theater and payed my twenty dollars (still money well spent) and then...

Well. It took a while for things to get going. Maybe that's just my short attention span, but I felt like there were a few more scenes in the set up than there needed to be. There were a few points to get across (Mahito is a struggling kid, he has complexated feelings about his dad's new wife, he misses his mom) and these points were communicated, but more times than they needed to be.

Then the heron finally showed up. And then he disapears. He shows up, he disapears, he shows up he disapears... again, one time more than he needed to. We all saw the trailer, we know Mahito goes with him, but damn it took a while.

Okay, okay. Natsuko disapears, Mahito follows her. And he goes to the tower with this random old lady in tow. And as much as I love Kiriko, I feel like this is the movie's biggest problem right here. Lemme explain.

Miyazaki's best worlds and characters feel so magical because they are secrets. It's Chihiro walking into the bathhouse alone. It's Ashitaka watching the forest spirit across the lake. These moments are so powerful because they are so personal. It's just a kid against the world. And even if it's not explicitly a secret, it feels like one.

But everyone and their aunt knows about the tower in the woods. A random lady gets to venture into the other world with Mahito. It isn't something personal that Mahito discovers. It just sorta happens.

Anyway, the Heron gets pronounced Mahito's guide. But then he just kinda...dips. For a movie called the boy and the heron, the heron was conspicuosly absent for a lot of it. I wanted more banter. I wanted more of a journey between these two. Mahito tried to kill him, so why are they allies at the end? It makes sense, but it could've been a lot deeper emotionally.

The world that Mahito gets dumped in is set up really well, as sort of an oceanic underworld populated by spirits and birds. But halfway through it just kinda switched gears and became a canibalistic-but-somehow-still-light-hearted parrot kingdom. Now I have nothing against canibal parrots, I liked them quite a lot actually, but it felt like such a shift. After the eloquently thwarted pelicans and the watawata, the parrots were a hard left. It might've been fine, but we never went back to the world's original tone, and I was sad about that.

Also Himi-- the movie was set up as Mahito's emotional journey as he grieves his mother, but they baredly even say goodbye at the end. I wanted more here.

Anyhow. It was good. I just didn't think it was great. I like Miyazaki's dream logic as much as the next person, but this felt less like dream and more like a repeated "and then what if we forgot about most of what we just spent so much time setting up and completely switched gears."

TLDR (to borrow a little reddit phraseology): Less set up, more Heron, and more "secrecy" = A perfect movie.

[vryptidart]

bg3 adventures continue

tragically i started playing and screenshotting too much to take time to actually do my liveblog updates (also a friend invited me to spam their dms so the torrent got redirected ghfhgfhfg) here's a big long ramble with not many pictures as i scroll back thru my screenshots

im up to act 3 now!! 121 hours played waow ive gotten my money's worth

we kidnapped the last egg from the creche, and lae'zel is keeping it in her inventory- also is rebelling against vlaakith im so proud of her wipes away a tear

love the orpheus name im so tempted to name a character eurydice for funzies hehe

gale has been told to kill himself for mystra. tattie has been trying to convince him that this is a silly solution. they smooched about it and had astral sex later

shadow cursed lands were very fun to work through- tattie talked every single one of the non-ketheric-and-isobel thorms into killing themselves. bards are wild yo

did have a sorta cheat-sheat guide to make sure i could save as many of the tieflings and such as i could- i think i only lost one in the isobel kidnap attempt scene. ive been looking up stuff more and shamelessly savescumming as i play now but im finding a balance with it, i can go honor mode another time lmaooo

oh and we did the kill yugir thing for raphael to find out what was going on with astarion's scars, and tattie is being supportive but will prolly try to talk astarion out of doing the ascendance in cazador's place bc i strongly suspect the cost will be Awful

beloved shart has been gently tugged away from shar 💜💜💜 we love her white girl middle of the night drastic life change haircut and dyejob

tattie is now fully wyll's lawyer. tattie is going to eat mizora alive gfhghf i was talking with a friend abt him and i really like the idea that of all the companions, karlach sees the clearest that tattie is a goddamn shark. boy's got a silver devil's tongue and knows how to use it- but also has a very big heart, which guides how to use it. tattie can and will talk his way in and out of hell, making a profit along the way, and puts this to full use when it comes to negotiating wyll out of this contract and getting him as many bonuses while he's stuck in it as possible. karlach is just fuck yeah i love being a henchwoman to this pintsize terror gfhghf

barcus wroot has grown on me so much. i like him so much and i really do feel for him with wulgren ahhh- what a nasty snarl of a relationship that is.

dolly dolly dolly is actually the best character tho.

He Who Was is very Falk to me- im prolly gonna be taking some Notes from him in how i write Falk in future hehe there's just Something There with the whole Judgement thing..

ARABELLAAAA- i saw someone on reddit who made their player character be arabella thrown back in time, and thats SUCH a fun idea omg she's fascinating- i Really like the kid characters in this game tbh (thaniel/oliver also kinda counts there, especially on the oliver side) they're so well done

speaking of thaniel

this scene was so funny bc it glitched out with halsin being an owlbear dfhgdhfghd every shot looked like this it was HILARIOUS

im considering that tattie and roan may well have historically hooked up. she's the same kinda wiley shit that he is ehhehehe one of his rare bi exceptions

hot. love this lesbian and her wife.

ketheric got his ass kicked, then so did myrkul, yayyy GALE STOP TRYING TO BLOW YOURSELF UP I SWEAR TO FUCK

moving into a LOT of juggling characters in the party based on who i think will have the most narratively interesting presence/responses (with some help from regular searching of 'bg3 best party for x narrative' lmao)

tattie eased off on the dream visitor once the emperor reveal happened- he's still willing to work with him but gale told him he loves him so he's not about to break exclusivity and the emperor is a bit too cloak and dagger

and then we went to the circus

kiss me gale. tell me im beautiful gale.

then gale introduced tattie to his cat (basically like meeting the parents tbh) and now we are at a brothel mindmelding with the nymph who is horny for illithids. emperor do you have a sending stone i could pass on to someone-

[glitch1997]

Ughhhh, I need to figure out my Lightner Mail story...

I know I probably haven't talked about it here before, but it's basically the official main lore story fanfic thing for my goofy Deltarune AU. The one with Spam, y'know? I've been wanting to redo it, sorta. It's a little messy... and cringe. And I only have one complete chapter. The others are purely just ideas at the moment.

The first chapter is an introduction to everything, of course. Spam shows up in the Light World for the first time(after a mostly typical Snowgrave Route), and The Fun Gang(Kris, Susie, Noelle for some reason) tours him around Hometown. All of them have a cute little moment watching the sunset, and because it's dark now, Spam changes into his Darkner form and freaks out a little. Susie pulls out her phone so he can use the flashlight, and it works for some reason(see how this is cringe and doesn't make sense). Anyway, they head to Kris place, Toriel (almost) says she's surprised that Kris has friends, and she invites them in. Spam gets to stay the night, and he sees his new self through the bathroom's mirror.

I had planned to make chapter 2 the one where he goes to Castle Town and meets up with Site(Blue) again, but that might be a little difficult. So, if Lightner Mail takes place at the end of DR Ch. 2, how would Spam go to Castle Town if he were to wake up in the TV Dark World?? I do enjoy the idea of him trying to talk to Tenna again, but it kinda ruined my original plans, especially with the lore drops of their relationship and his past. I have to rework the way I reference his backstory in LM(Lightner Mail) now.

I mean, I could just push back the events of DR Ch. 3, and have him go there later, but idk. I might just pretend it doesn't happen, actually. Cuz, would Kris still open the fountain if he stayed with them? Idk, maybeee??? It's just so hard to figure this stuff out! When I played Ch. 3, it changed my perspective quite a bit. When I started LM, it was before Ch. 3 and 4 came out, when all the theories about the game seemed accurate to me at the time. Aughhhhhh, do you see what I mean now?

Something I had wanted to change about LM's Ch. 1 is the fact that Spam was vaguely aware of what he was as a Darkner. I'll give a quote of that part:

"And then the school and the 'librarby'."

"Eh... don't ya mean 'library'?-"

"Nope. Look at the sign. It clearly says librarby."

Oh. I guess it did say that.

"We actually had a sick adventure in there recently! Though, when we were done, we just sorta woke up in the computer lab. Kinda like you!"

"Like... me?- Wait, ya’ said ya’ had an adventure in a computer lab?"

"Well, yeah-"

"With... tech-related items?"

"Y-yeah...?"

"Kay... just checkin'."

HE SHOULDN'T BE THIS SELF-AWARE! LIKE, BRO, WHAT THE HECK!!

I was going to change that part of the story, or just take it out, but I'm reconsidering it now. We know that most of a Darkner's past comes from their interactions in the Light World. But I'm a little confused. I thought Darkners didn't exactly know what they were. I mean, Ralsei knows, but he kinda has to. And I think Queen says something about her being a computer, but I think that’s just a general term. But some of the Darkners in Ch. 3 are strangely aware of what they are. Ramb has quite a few memories from when he was an object, and even states that he is a power cord. Tenna is the same. So, would Spamton be the same or...?

Ugh, idk about this stuff. I'll have to take a lot of time to reconsider things.

And, in fact, I haven't played Ch. 4! That could give me some answers, hopefully, maybe.

I've included Berdly in an animation with Spam before, but I'm starting to wonder if that would even be canon. If LM is in a Snowgrave timeline, Berdly would be a frozen chicken nugget. But he might not be... dead. I've accidentally given myself some spoilers from Reddit while trying to defeat a boss. So it seems like he might be okay.

I also haven't beaten the Knight with the Shadow Mantle yet. I don't know if something different happens after.

Btw, in LM's Ch. 1, Spam gets to the Light World through the bunker. I just saw it as a sus mysterious place, somewhere extra dark, perhaps... darker than dark mwahahahah

But now there could be a Dark World in there, and idk what the heck that would look like. Bro, help- I thought Ch. 4 was supposed to be in the church. Although, it might still be. Idk.

Anyways, the point is that Lightner Mail is messy and needs to be reworked.

And I also need to go play Ch. 4.

[callsigndreadfrost]

So on the 10th we're going to see Lich King. We haven't been to any concert in years. Last band we saw was Lacuna Coil and that was while I was still working at the airport so... it's been a while lol.

There's reasons for it. When Slayer was gonna come here this producer assbag got greedy and demanded more money or some such shit. So bands sorta stopped coming. At least that's what I remember, this happened years ago. Second was that during the hurricane Maria thing Richard, C's best friend, moved to Texas and he was our only communication for all things concerts.

Recently C was on Reddit and found out that bands had been coming around again for a few years now and found a store that sells band merch AND has info on bands coming over and they sell tickets. We went there today, it's called Odin's Court btw and I love that to bits, to get tickets for Lich King.

Lady that owns the store is like around her late 40s early 50s if I had to guess. She showed us one of her battle vests she started back in 1986. It's in great condition and looked badass.

C got himself a Bathory shirt and got me a shirt, sticker, necklace and pins :3

I already had a really nicely done Thor's hammer but it's heavy and it's kind of a pain to wear it so I told C I would trade mine for one of the ones in the store so we traded. I already had this shirt from when Iron Maiden came here but it doesn't fit. I picked the right size but it absolutely was not the size it was labeled as. I like loose fitting clothes unless I'm crossdressing so I haven't used the shirt in long ass years and I wanted one I could comfortably wear.

Found an Amon Amarth shirt and got super excited but it was small 😞

The sticker and the pins were for a super dorky lame reason ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

Jelani.

His code name is baphomet (points to url of main blog and art blog).

I also associate him with goats so as soon as I saw those pins I just HAD to have 'em.

All I need now is a wolf pin to go with the goat one and I'll have myself a little Jelani/Angelus kinda for lack of a better word tribute sorta thing to that couple. Wanna find one of a buck and a fox (best if sable) for Uthorim/Loke.

So yeah, that was my day. Looking forward to destroying my hearing at the concert next, next week. Also C let me dork out by letting me talk his ear off about n s f w stuff concerning Jela and Angelus because despite how short yesterday's post was I wanna keep indulging 🤭

[dzpenumbra]

8/13/23

This is gonna have to be short tonight, for several reasons. The biggest being that I've been fucking typing all goddamn day for two days straight and my right forearm is gonna get worn out because I still type completely wrong. I type normally with my left hand, but with my right hand, I use pointer and middle for letters, thumb for space and pinky for backspace/enter. It ends up putting all the strain on my pointer and middle fingers, rather than distributing it across four fingers. So... that arm gets worn out, and I really need to be cautious of injury, because I've definitely hurt it before.

I've been typing a lot because I've been active on reddit, posting in support groups. I've been doing it basically all day.

I... I am really fucking frustrated with how much difficulty I have with just... cold-calling people and shit. Like... okay... there is a listing active for Part Time faculty in Art and Art History (probably religion classes too) at the Community College up the road from me. Walking/skating distance. I went to this college for 2 semesters in 2007. It's a community college. It's a part-time position. And I'm not applying because... they say on the listing that you need a Master's degree - requirement. I only have a Bachelor's.

I can't get myself to just fucking walk up there and talk to someone there and say "hey, I used to go to school here, I actually took Comparative Religions and Science and Spirituality at this school while you were building this facility. I have a degree in Art. I've been active as a freelance artist for 13 years. I study ancient history, religion and art every day. You need an Art and Art History teacher. ... ... Pay me?" And then I can just hold out my palm and just sorta nod and gesture my head towards my hand in a coy, inviting manner.

Or... I could just fucking call and ask to talk to someone who knows about hiring stuff, and just... tell them my situation and that I'd love to help out. But I just get hit by a fucking brick wall. Every damn time.

"What if I don't actually want to teach?" "Why bother, I'm not qualified, I'm clearly not qualified. It says very clearly that you need a Master's, why would I waste their time asking... 'but are you suuuure?'" "Will I really be able to emotionally handle going from complete isolation to standing in front of like 20+ students and having them stare at me for an hour without having a panic attack?" "Am I even going to get paid anything for doing this?"

I just feel like... a sense of looming regret. Like doing this is going to be something I regret having done in the future. And I don't know if there's something I'm picking up on that is right on the money, but I can't see it yet? Or if I'm just self-sabotaging. They feel the goddamn same. The whole "it's not paranoid if there really is someone out to get you" thing.

So I really have to actively push back and say, "would it hurt to try?" Hell, maybe if I can get a meeting with someone there who does hiring and they turn out to be a really nice person, I can actually explain my situation a bit (without getting too personal) and maybe we can come up with a custom plan that works for everyone. Who knows.

I spent some time looking up places to cold-call today, because despite how much I'd love a more comfortable arrangement? It's going to be cold-calling no matter what I do. I listed the solo-artist tattoo shop that is in my building. It's a guy who runs the place himself. I have no idea how the fuck this guy can afford to rent an entire commercial space in this building to run a solo shop. That has to be expensive. I can drop an email and say I live in the building, I'm an artist but really... I'm not looking for an apprenticeship, I'm kinda just looking to be an artist's assistant right now? Just hang out and help with some of the leg work, maybe draw up stencils for him, help clean and organize, inventory, reorder stock, shit like that. I know most of the ins and outs of tattooing from my past experience, it was just... a while ago... It might be more incentive for him to hire me if I'm actively not trying to apprentice, which I'm not. I think tattooing is behind me. No promises, but it's most definitely not a goal. I'm much more concerned with just... getting myself around other artists. Making friends who know the business, know the art world and can help mentor me and guide me to the right place to get my art around people who appreciate it.

The second one on the list was the art collective. They're doing another nude model drawing thing on the 23rd. I am going. I've decided. I'm even going to buy a ticket this time. I don't care if I'm sitting in the back the whole time. I'll just order a ticket and shoot an email to them and say "I'm new to the area and I'm looking to meet art friends, I'm planning on coming to this drawing session. Does this tend to turn into a social thing after the drawing or would there be other times that would be better to come by and meet people as well? P.S. I live a block away and I'm free all the time and I would rent a studio with you but my apartment is criminally expensive right now."

The third one was a new place I found downtown. It's... it's a hike. It's a 4.5 mile trip on the ol' hybrid board. I could always just take the community car thing for it, but... if I were to get a job here... yeah, that'd be super expensive. They take a spiritual approach to artwork, in a way that's... it has hints of art therapy to it... but it's less diagnostic and treatment focused and more narrative focused. Which is definitely appealing. And I really do feel like those kinds of people would understand a creature like myself, and vice versa. They have an open studio Thursdays from 12:30-2:30... so I'd have to get up early for that, but I could definitely reserve the car for that one. The con side to this one? The position they were hiring for was... graphic design and social media management. Fuck that. And... if I were to manage to get some kind of position there, getting there reliably (especially in the winter) would be rough.

So, those made the list, but then the next place I clicked was... a gallery. And... I started to implode a bit. Not hugely, just a little at first... then more and more... like cracks spreading on a windshield or something. And then it just started getting super loud. "You don't have enough similar coherent pieces to have your own exhibit." "None of this stuff looks anything like any of your stuff." "This looks like art you'd see in a gallery, and your art doesn't look like this... so... fill in the blank..."

It was a contemporary art gallery, so that might be part of it, but... idk. I just don't know where my shit will fit. Once I really started thinking about my work being on display in a gallery, the walls just started closing in. It's really upsetting. I don't even fully know why, I just... I struggle to believe it will ever happen or something? And I'm not even sure I want it to happen? I mean... The Path... shit like that? My concept piece videos? I could absolutely see that playing in a gallery. 100%. My bird illustrations, maybe. Even my abstract pieces. My mandalas? I don't know. But all of them together? ... I feel like they're going to see it as an incoherent mess.

Because I am an incoherent mess. XD DUH. It's the same problem with social anxiety, it's the same problem with posting on social media, it's the same problem with my art shit. I have too many interests, too much to say, too many things I want to do. I am like 5 people living in one body. I want to draw and paint and sculpt and skate and make videos and explore the woods and garden and take care of animals, I want to do it all! And I refuse to settle for one thing, because every new thing I explore and learn how to do contributes new insight that benefits all my other work.

Comparing it to music - I started with guitar, then vocals/lyrics, then added in composition, then piano, then drums, then bass. And when I say "then", I mean I went through a phase where that was my primary instrument. I still play all of them. After doing vocals, my lead guitar became much more lyrical, much more inspired by the melodies I wanted to make with my voice. After doing drums, my rhythm guitar was much more informed by what the experience of playing that song on drums was like, and could adjust accordingly. After doing bass, my composition changed completely, I started thinking about tone and resonance and space in completely different ways. Every piece helped inform every other one, and my understanding of music as a whole started to expand dramatically. Not just from an academic standpoint of sitting and studying music theory, but from first-hand experience. From... empathy, compassion, perspective.

So... my diversity in artwork has provided me great gifts, and helped me reach ideas I never dreamed of. But I've feared for so long that the artifacts of this intellectual journey of art... the relics of my process... just don't really demonstrate how profound my creative insights are.

To use an analogy - the polished stones that I made when my cat was sick and died. Every day I would polish these stones by hand with diamond and ceramic sanding pads. Every day. For hours. The entire process was a... coming to terms with death process. A meditation. My grief literally eroded those stones. My pain, my suffering, my sadness, my despair... in watching my beautiful lovely girl waste away in the end of her days. And those emotions, that horrifically painful experience of having Death himself as a roommate for weeks on end, wondering if this is the day he takes my surrogate daughter... All of those emotions transformed these normal everyday pieces of driveway gravel into stunningly gorgeous faceted stones. I don't even know what kind of stone it is, I just know it looks like there are flecks of silver in it. But if you just walk by and look at it? It's a handful of polished rocks in weird shapes.

I guess what I'm saying is... I feel like my art doesn't speak for itself sometimes... and since no one has ever asked me what my art is about... Okay, I'm going to correct myself here. ONE TIME I was asked what a piece was about, and it was at my senior show in college, and it was my bandmate who asked me. That's it. So... I really do fear that I'm going to send in a proposal to a gallery, and they're just going to look at the piece... and just go... "yeah, we'll pass". Or... the ever-so-common, "this isn't my thing".

Is that a reason to not try? ... Jury's out. But I'm leaning more towards, no. I should still try. Same with the college teaching position, even if I get denied, at least I tried.

I played a bunch of Rimworld today. It was storming off and on all day. And I finally started sketching designs for my black jeans. It's getting weird and I'm loving it. First, I want to do celtic knots down the seams on the sides of the jeans, running vertically. I want to do black outlined in white on one side, and the same thing inverted... white outlined in black on the other side. I learned how to make celtic knots and it was really cool, I had never done that before and it's a very interesting process. I came up with a repeating design that I'm happy with, so I'm set to start working on that, that should be cool. I decided I want to go with a sorta... Duality theme. With Light on the left side and Dark on the right. And my starting concepts are... to do the bubble/membrane concept at the bottom. The idea is to do the same type of texture drawing the connective tissue as black on the Dark side and leaving the jean underneath as a fill, and do the bubbles as white on the Light side and leave the jean as connective fill. I don't know if it's going to look good or not, I've never done it before... but fuck it, right? I think the narrowing pattern of big circles descending down into smaller and smaller bubbles tends to be the most compelling, and I think it would work well at the bottom of the pants. Then... above it, I want a narrative piece on each leg - the left I want to have a woman kneeling with her back arched and hands in Anjali mudra at their heart, head back, chin lifted, heart lifted to the sky. And she is praying up to the sun in solar eclipse, with the dark circle of the moon in the middle and the glowing rays of the sun shining behind. In the same spot on the other leg, (I think) I want a man in extended child pose, a more traditional submissive prayer pose, with the moon in lunar eclipse above, with the dark shadow of the earth over a glowing crescent moon. This is subject to change, the genders I might swap, the pose on the Dark side I might change for symmetry's sake.

I've been watching a ton of these videos of this guy who clearly knows a shit ton about archeology and old religious art, and he compares it to Elden Ring, which is like... entirely based on old religious/spiritual artwork and architecture and mythology. It's fucking so goddamn interesting, I really can't put into words how compelling this is for me, and how much of a new love I have for this game now. It belongs in a fucking museum. I want so badly to go replay it now! I have to hold myself back!

I kept seeing a trend popping up, from Babylonian carvings, and Greek, and it reminded me of Egyptian art... this idea of telling a story sequentially through artwork in a stela. Like telling a mythological story through a series of pictures carved vertically from top to bottom, or as the papyri I was remembering depicted, from right to left on a scroll. I am tempted to take the same approach with these pants... and sorta... get narrative with it. And tell a story for each leg, going scene by scene from top to bottom. And tell mirroring stories, with similar themes, similar composition, but different narratives.

It's crazy how one drawing, one concept can unlock that. It was just this idea of Duality, dark and light, left is light/right is dark. Then... the duality of down and up... one person submitting their heart down to the earth in prayer, the other lifting their heart to the sky in prayer. And a unified cohesion being... the composition, the mirroring, and somewhat the narrative. What's the narrative? Fuck if I know. I think eclipses are incredibly powerful and iconic and worship inspiring, so I drew the parallel. Where I go with it? We'll just have to find out tomorrow, I guess.

I'm cutting myself off, I want a shower before bed and it's super late. Bye!

[automatismoateo]

Christians voting for Trump BECAUSE they think he might be the antichrist via /r/atheism

Christians voting for Trump BECAUSE they think he might be the antichrist Alright this is a weird one and I'm mostly losing this an an anecdote to atheists out there who still move in Christian circles enough to know if this is just some folks in my family being reaaalllly out there or an actual thing. If you aren't familiar with dispensationalism or the series of requirements for the rapture it probably isn't for you. So I have some far right family members who I hadn't seen in years. It was one of those sorta sad but probably for the best things. Iean the last time I saw them theee was a tantrum about my section of the clan having a glass of wine at dinner and giving each other presents for Christmas. It wasn't likely to be a vibrant familial relationship. But so found myself with them this past weekend and we got to talking. I used to be a conservative Christian (but Catholic, which of course is basically satanism to them now; while I'm not Catholic I certainly don't feel that way because I understand and respect satanists too much) while they went fron Catholic to evangelical to, apparently, Trump votwes who really hoepe he's the literal antichrist. So we're all American of Irish descent, which to me just means American but we still have a few cousins and old folks with accents wandering around both here and there. Doesn't mean squat to me (our ethnic food sucks) but Palestine came up and rather than say "hey look at that squirrel" I engaged tepidly, in a way that's usually fairly safe, just the usual comparison of the course of the Irish experience with that of the Palestinians, but basically emphasizing the clear distinctions. I kinda forgot how off the map some of these folks were and had no idea how far they'd gone. So obviously they were basically for Israel for biblical reasons, but it led to the presidential race of course (and this is an instinct ex-christians often have to refuse to give into) I made some comparisons of trump to the antichrist, at which point my uncle (who is pro-trumo) said oh yeah sure. Basically they see him as the antichrist and think everything is proceeding according to God's plan. The fact that he's obviously not a Christian is a positive sign to them. He gets elected, prophecies are fulfilled the end times proceed. I thought they were joking at first but they were emphatically excited and I got (yet again) them attempting to save my soul (along with a side debate among them about whether a Catholic who is now an atheist could actually still be saved because I was once a Christian and yes the wrong kind but maybe I wasn't really a Catholic when I was a Catholic...it's so fun when folks discuss the finee details of your probable damnation right in front of you). I finally made the right call and fucked out but it has been in my head the past couple of days. Has anyone else encountered this, pro-Trumo voters who hope trump is the antichrist? Submitted October 16, 2024 at 09:06PM by True_Discipline_2470 (From Reddit https://ift.tt/L5tmnvh)

[girlvinland]

I saw a comment on a post that was like “I can’t believe people over 30 use this app!!!” and I’m like 🤔 ???

[pandasan-power]

Zeke is my favourite fictional character. He's just so... fascinating. He's initially presented as weird and mysterious but he turns out to be a giant dork and a huge loser with the most severe daddy issues I've ever seen.

I love him so much. Here's a very long ramble that's kinda sorta a character analysis (it's bad though).

He gives off Reddit mod energy (then again, Eren has Discord mod energy (disclaimer: I love Eren too)), has the sense of humour of a 12 year old, hangs around people who are quite a bit younger than him (granted, his only other option is creepy old military men), has smoked since he was probably like 15 and spends his life "pretending" to be stupid.

And yet he genuinely cares about other people in his own way. He really did just want to make it so that Eldians didn't have to suffer. He assumed that because he had a shit life and was treated terribly (as were his parents), everyone else was in the same boat. It never occured to him that other Eldians were happy, because, like, why would they be?

He's willing to go to the ends of the earth and beyond to fulfill his mission, which he's held on to since he was a teenager. Even though Ksaver did plant the seeds for Zeke, Zeke came up with his plan himself. Ksaver never mentioned anything about reproduction, just that the Founder could be used to alter Eldian biology.

He's devasted when Eren goes "lol jk bro" and betrays him, because he finally found someone he thought he could trust (his first mistake was trusting Eren of all people). He couldn't understand why Eren went against his plan, or what Eren was even trying to accomplish in the first place.

Also, I think it's worth mentioning that Zeke's euthanasia plan undermines everything Ymir Fritz went through. She suffered severely, but I like to imagine that she really did love her daughters to the best of her ability. Zeke saying that Eldians would be better off not existing in the first place and that he's going to get rid of them is telling Ymir Fritz that all her suffering was for absolutely fucking nothing. Whereas Eren wants Eldians to live on, because that way, Ymir can be freed, and she can see that there is beauty in the world (which she did via Mikasa, as badly explained as it was lol).

Zeke never saw that beauty. He was brainwashed and abused and taken advantage of his entire life. By his parents, by Marley (yes, even Ksaver), and, later, by Eren. To him, there was nothing redeeming about the world.

Hence his final line where he talks about what a lovely day it is and how nice/clear the sky is, but that it ultimately is too late to realise that (? I haven't read the chapter in a while, I don't remember the exact wording). That's him acknowledging that he was wrong about the world lacking beauty.

Yes, Ksaver did care for him and did love him, but he did also use Zeke for his own gain. He was projecting his son onto Zeke, as he said so himself in canon, and he was also hoping that Zeke could accomplish what he (Ksaver) wasn't able to. Zeke may not have been as determined to save the Eldians (in his own way) if he hadn't spent time with Ksaver.

Zeke and Eren are fascinating to me, because Eren threw away his humanity in order to save the world/his loved ones, yet was very upset that he had to do so (given his paths convo with Armin), yet Zeke... was stripped of most of his humanity before he had a chance to even embrace it. My personal interpretation is that he never realised he was lacking humanity (which is something Levi kept trying to point out, especially in the forest with reminding Zeke about his Rakago crime) because death and killing were so normalised to him (and to him, his enemies weren't human because they were mostly Eldians and he, as an Eldian, wasn't considered human -- or at least he may have used that as a justification for his actions), and it wasn't until the very end that it hit him.

Lastly, part of why I love the dynamic between Zeke and Levi is that they're two sides of the same coin. They're both admired and feared by people (for different reasons), are traumatised in every possible way, and are similar yet also very different.

When they're interacting, neither of them give a shit about the other's status or powers or whatever. They fight like equals on par with each other and don't hold back. Warchief Zeke? Captain Levi? Nope. They're just Zeke and Levi to each other. (And they'd be friends if they were on the same side, maybe.)

ANYWAY Zeke Yeager is a great character and I love my monkeyman so much. He had such good character development and his backstory is really well done. The "I love you, Zeke" paths scene is my favourite since in all of SnK just for how much that means for both Grisha and Zeke.

[zumpietoo]

Umm....Okayyy...

Why do you object to this and why is it “worse” than MLK (both instances were horrifying...)? It actually sorta explains why they chose 1955 versus 1953.....

Is it because, LBR, you hate black people being focused on? And I do say this while thinking it IS kinda icky that Slizzy’s involved, but there it is....

No, it isn’t kettle-bullshit, but thanks for confirming yourself as a Cole-hater, too...

And, LBR, what Racist is REALLY pressed about here? That it turns out Tabi’s gonna have moar screen time. (and, again, stuff about black people).

OML....yes, Racist, reddit is such a reliable source....especially when it’s all, already been entirely disproven. Plus Cole and PP haven’t had many scenes together (and lots of those were split screen!) for over 2 years, dumbasses....and it’s WHY they cast a new LI for Jughead.....

Also, he’s the fucking NARRATOR and remains their biggest draw....so, nooo....but there wasn’t gonna be moar jizzy again, anyway....

Additionally,

A) cuz, yeah, Izzy, you’re ALWAYS right.....

B) he also is entitled, by contract and his civil rights to a harassment-free workplace, so, again, your argument is shit.

I mean, see above, you ignorant piece of trash. Plus, again, you’ve been wrong about everything now for over two seasons.

Ummm....dude, bullshit, you’ve been insisting you’d be getting everything you ever wanted, wrapped in a big fat bow, for the past two seasons. Additionally, OFC, why do you even want this? You hate Cole and have opted to make that crystal clear (and then some), so why do you want this? You don’t even like Jughead.

Is it cuz black lady and you hate Barfies? Cuz that’s all I’ve got....

I’m also laughing because while, yes, it IS possible there’s jizzy endgame in the last 2 minutes of the show, essentially offscreen, to boot....even that is looking increasingly unlike. And time was, you insisted that would be the worst ever.

Now sad crumbs at the end would be enough? Ummm....okayyyy....

Oh good lord.....while, yes, it’s clearly show promo (cuz duh), no it wasn’t “Cole ignoring his Pee Arr team”.....cuz why TF would he? Especially to do something kinda uncomfortable for himself, that he didn’t have to do?

OML.....where to even fucking start?

Ummm.....no, the writers don’t care what the actors want, now or ever....they also DGAF what YOU want....

Meanwhile, ummm....if the network didn’t want a full final season, they wouldn’t have ordered one. From BERLANTI....who would be the entity negotiating this (and seemed fine with their much moar popular show, The Flash, getting a much shorter final season)....and literally, again, every show on the CW is looking at the ax soon enough, because the entire network is essentially no moar/soon to be no moar....

And no, while the network retains final approval, it does NOT work that way, either....plus, again, there are other networks, etc....this anon’s ignorance is just utterly and spectacularly breathtaking.

Additionally, again.....Netflix pays for the show, they’re fine with it, etc....

And I thought RAS was gonna save the show from Babyman???

Errmm.....I think, again, the cast cares about working in a hostile environment/getting to sexually harass their targets. A LOT....and maybe peeps think that cuz it’s what the cast endlessly pretends?

Again....nope. Paley was fine, had the same attendance (a bit better, in fact) than other shows. Also, if it’s such lost shit, why are YOU here talking about it?

I always love your endless doom and gloom scenarios, as well....plus, my recent (and still not quite resolved) provider switching gives me some further insight, here:

It’s actually kinda a big pain in the ass now to watch the CW live....

USGOTV (or USTVNOW, whichever one is free) has shut down.....the other one wants $29 per month to have access to the CW’s live east coast stream...

Nobody wants to pay for DirecTV (stream) or Hughesnet, YoutubeTV (which I’ll be cancelling post free trial, for this express reason) doesn’t have agreements in all (or many) markets for live CW---so you’re stuck simply streaming the app the next day....which you can do for free, anyway. But doesn’t track for live ratings.

I’ll personally be switching to HuluLive, but they REALLY limit how many screens and locations you can watch from....

The other option I could gather is going waaayyyyy old skool and putting in an antenna (who knew?), but not really so wanting to do so...

(she has many other posts, but I shall pause with this for the moment....)