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Hello, your DST arts are nice!!!!
So I wish I could see even more. I love you!
Thank you! I sadly have had almost zero time to make a lot of art! Have some old-ish art that I made :)
^ This was for Walters birthday!
Plus some old little sketches for fun
#dst#dst fanart#dst walter#dst woby#wilson higgsbury#dst wilson#dst wes#dst willow#weslow#my art#I can never go without sneaking in some weslow >:3#it’s crazy how much I have improved#I shudder looking at old drawings…
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ehh, bring your kid to work day is a little–– 🤫✨
#lol i think this was the first spy x family thing i made#we also have prints of theeeese would anyone be interested? hehe#anyway it's crazy to see how much we've improved from here lol this was only a few months ago#spy x family#spy family#anya forger#loid forger#yor forger#yor briar#twiyor#twiyor month#yor x loid#loid x yor#twiyor art#twiyor fic#spy x family art#sxf#spy x family fic#pjseveryday#illustration#art#sketchbook#fanart#anime art#loidyor
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went a little more realistic this time to practice faces and make references for my Obey Me AU. Anyway did I mention I had an Obey Me AU that I’ve been cooking? (it came free with the inconsistent writing)
Written out Notes under the cut:
Lucifer
Angular features
Eyes look like solar eclipses after his pupils used to glow as an angel (so you can see where he’s looking)
Looks like a corpse because his blood is bluish now, he appears very pale. Not helped by stress + lack of sleep
His fangs poke out (vampire drip)
Mammon
Square, broad features
Give him piercings! Are his fangs natural or implants after getting decked?
Eyes are like lapis lazuli, and gold pyrite freckles in his skin
Mullet. He looks like he’s stuck in the 70s
BD//SM collar because he’s Babygirl. Insists it’s an edgy statement piece
Leviathan
Round features, with some sharp points
Has shark teeth + third eyelids
Hair is actually straight, crinkles up from water
Ruri-Chan and Azuki-Tan earrings
Blue/purplish blood
Eyebags from lack of sleep from gaming
Headphones cause if he doesn’t have something to listen to he panics
Satan
Angular features
Looks a lot like Lucifer
Bleaches his hair
Tufts of hair like cat ears
Gages + earrings + nose ring
Little fangs poking out
Dark Academia Vibes (library girlie)
Asmodeus
Doll-like, round features
Eyes look hypnotic
Heart markings all over body. Start to “drip” in demon form
Doll-like outfits, fashionable so people desire him (Mass Marketing of the Self)
Tongue is much longer
Two sets of fangs (one w/ Aphrodisiac injectors)
Beelzebub
Strong, rectangular features
Sun motif in hair and earrings
Chunk taken out of his ear from a fight
Eyes are ultraviolet colored
The most human-looking of the bros
Tanned but part of his hues are gone after years in the Devildom
Belphegor
Rounded, elongated features
I made him way too pretty for his goblin ass
Eyes look like night sky-ultraviolet too
Vitiligo so he looks like a cow
Moon phase studs
Underside of hair is white, top is dark blue w/ streaks
Septum piercing for cow motif
#obey me shall we date#obey me#obey me lucifer#obey me mammon#obey me leviathan#obey me satan#obey me asmodeus#obey me beelzebub#obey me belphegor#they’re so fluffy#I have some old art of some of the bros from a few years ago. It’s kinda crazy to see the improvement#the au has existed since like. s2 of the original dropped because it was built out of my theories for s2 and uh#I didn’t update it much. Because who fuckin knows how old these shits are#or how time works
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(You called for me) Gabriel / Reader Oneshot
Ok please be patient with me on this. I spent over 24 hours in a car on a trip to Russia a few days ago and it made me do something I've never dared to before: write a fanfic. On my humble Samsung notes.
If this isn't a total flop I might make more? I dunno? Maybe hop on ao3?
Criticism and feedback is appreciated ok thank youuu have fun
Another restless night, another hour spent lying in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling above you. The room was shrouded in the comforting night air, more illuminated than usual by the soft glow of the full moon outside.
You look at the clock on your nightstand; precisely midnight. Two hours after your drunken father came home again, letting his pent-up frustrations and anger out on you in a one sided yelling match. Of course, as usual, neither was your mother of any support; only giving you that same disapproving, disdainful glare. You were never really welcome, not even in your own home- your parents biggest mistake lingering around only to weigh them down, and remind them of what they could've had. Or so they've told you, many, many times before. Tonight was no exception.
When the broadcasts first announced the new threat infesting the county, "alternates" they called them, you were, admittedly, both terrified and somewhat relieved. You were never really one to believe in the supernatural, but who knows, your parents were just superstitious enough to maybe fall for their schemes.
The first announcement had been around, what, a year ago now? Not much had really changed admittedly, although the population had begun falling drastically since then.
Your parents had of course used this opportunity to also confiscate your phone, the CRT TV in your room and old little MP3 player gifted to you by a relative, god forbid you let an alternate in to potentially threaten them, your own safety not even really a point for consideration to them.
Living with your parents was already hell, but getting by without your favourite albums and shows? Torture.
So tonight when you lied in bed unable to fall asleep, your mind wandering as usual, it may have wandered a little too far.
You recalled something you overheard your parents talk about. A friend of your dad's, a man of unwavering faith, who had been found dead in his own home a few weeks ago, seemingly in the middle of his usual prayers. Even though his family mentioned having seen an odd, ghostly figure outside their home that night, the doctors seemed to blame the cause of death on a brain hemorrhage.
It made sense, come to think of it. When you first saw the emergency PSA, it explained all kinds of methods to protect yourself from alternate attacks, one of which being avoidance of religion, faith, and philosophy.
So then, the alleged "ghost" that visted that poor man just might've been... Well.
This gave you a bad idea, but you weighed the options available to you.
Either you would die in a similar way as the old man, or... you might just get lucky and bargain with it. Alternatively, nothing happens, and you remain stuck with an unhappy married couple that hates each other as much as they hate you.
It was definitely stupid, but at this point it seemed like you had nothing to lose anyway. You weren't really much of a believer yourself, so you didn't exactly know how to pray, but you gave it your best shot. Sitting up in your bed, hands clasped together with a bowed head and closed eyes, you tried your best to focus.
If there was a god out there, may it hear your pleas. Wordless whispers called for help, begging to be heard, while you did all you could to try to concentrate on any spiritual connections. All the while you knew you may as well be praying to a literal demon.
A few minutes passed as you racked your brain for what to say before you stopped, your hands falling back into your lap.
What the hell were you doing? Yes you hated it here, and you couldn't even run away if you wanted to, but inviting an alternate to your house just like this? It was a death sentence, and not a pretty one, that much was certain.
You shook your head. It probably wouldn't have worked anyway. Right, this was all just some silly superstition, not that different from those "send this to 5 other people or you'll die tonight" chain e-mails. You laughed internally at how silly it was that you even thought this would work to begin with, and, admittedly, felt a brief sense of relief. You decided that you were ready to just go back to sleep, and just as you pulled your blanket up to crawl back underneath it- you almost jumped.
It was a voice, faintly audible outside your window. You didn't even process it until a few seconds after, a barely legible, strained whisper.
"I heard you praying."
You froze. A cold wave shot right to your stomach. Slowly, agonisingly so, you turned around to face your bedroom window.
A tall figure stood outside, its hands clasped together similarly to how you just had a few minutes ago. With long, flowing white robes and silver, wavy locks that reached down to his shoulders, he looked... Ethereal. Not to mention the massive, pure white wings folded neatly behind his back. His head blocked out the full moon, the light creating something almost like a halo around him, making him appear even more angelic.
"Woah."
You couldn't help the little gasp of awe. He seemed to find it amusing, his grin spreading a little too wide for comfort. Admittedly, you almost doubted if he even was an alternate at all. Maybe you'd come out a person of faith yourself, after this.
"Are you... An alternate?"
You whispered hesitantly, quiet enough to try to conceal the trembling in your voice and also not alert your parents sleeping upstairs, though you weren't sure if he actually heard you at all.
He didn't respond for a moment, tempting you to ask again, before that inhuman whisper was heard again.
"You called for me, and now I am here."
Avoiding your question, huh. Suppose he was an elusive sort. You quickly glanced around your room, eyeing the door in particular just in case; you really hoped your parents were asleep.
"May I... Come closer?"
You couldn't even recall the last time you were this polite to someone, though it was your best bet not to piss him off while he was still friendly, if you could even call it that. You had no point of reference, though he wasn't actively trying to harm you, so it was a start.
The angel, his smile unwavering, simply nodded, waving his arm in an invitation to approach.
It took a moment for you to will your body to move from the initial shock, but with slow, careful steps you moved to open the window to properly speak to him, a pleasant cool breeze inviting itself into your room.
"So... What's your name?"
Did alternates have names? Suppose they just took on the name of whoever they were trying to mimic. You leaned onto the window frame, trying to catch a good look at his face; and for the first time in god knows how long you were met with eyes that, albeit a bit creepy and lifeless, looked back into your own with an unfamiliar lack of hostility.
"You may call me Gabriel, child."
Gabriel? That name sounded familiar- Oh! The Saint Gabriel's church at the edge of town. Suppose that made sense, given his angelic appearance, if it wasn't just one morbid coincidence. Your thoughts and scrutinizing stare dragged on for a bit longer than you were aware of, though, as his voice pulled your attention back to him.
"Are you lost, my lamb? I can save you. Let me in. Let me into your mind."
The last bit seemed a bit more... Pushy than the rest, making your stomach feel just a little heavier. You gathered your thoughts anyway, trying to push that feeling aside for now. You did do this for a reason, after all, though now that he was actually here you were starting to second guess things.
Gabriel seemed to take note of your hesitation after a while of you not responding.
"Open your eyes, my lost little one. Look at me. I can grant you anything you wish for. You just need to let me in."
An odd mix of dread and comfort you'd never felt before settled in, and the feeling was almost... Refreshing, in a way. You quickly glanced back up at him, and he was still staring at you, ever so patiently, eerily.
"Uhm... I was just- well, it's probably kind of silly."
No backing out now, not when he was already here. Even if you wanted to, you don't think he'd let you go so easily. As you verbally stumbled over your own thoughts, he simply waited, his unblinking eyes staring into you, gouging out your soul. Or so it felt.
"I just thought... Is it possible for, well... Is there a chance for humans to be able to ally with alternates? Can I join you?"
Surprisingly, that got his smile to falter, if only a little bit. A flicker of emotion you couldn't quite explain showed in his eyes- surprise, perhaps, or consideration.
"What for, my child?"
That uncanny whisper of his never gave away any emotion, monotone and unfeeling, yet not unfriendly. Admittedly, his question made you pause; you hadn't exactly thought of how to explain this to him. You hadn't even expected him to show up at all.
Fidgeting nervously, unsure of whether to tell him the truth or not, you tried to think of what to say. Despite your rationality screaming at you for being an utter moron, you knew you were in too deep at this point.
"I don't think I'm any good to these people at all anymore, I just... don't know what to do anymore. With myself. I have nowhere else to go. And, maybe..."
You weren't sure if you should say it or not, you already let more vulnerability slip than you wanted to. But your spite driven words were quicker than your brain, and man did it feel good to open up for once.
"...maybe for revenge, also."
Gabriel listened to you surprisingly attentively, very interested in your words. At your last statement, he perked up with an almost malicious twist to his grin. Before he could respond, though, you suddenly heard the sound of your parents creaky old bedroom door and footsteps from upstairs. And you could tell by the sound of them that it was your mother. And she was pissed.
For a very panic filled moment you weren't sure what to do, your thoughts racing- instincts called for you to jump into bed and pretend you were asleep like you usually would... but with Gabriel here, you couldn't- and that's when you realized you really only had two real options.
Stay here, and continue living this miserable life, and also deal with the imminent outburst of your mother.
Or go with him, and then... Well, nothing and no one could possibly guarantee what would happen to you then.
"Choose wisely, my dear lamb."
Your dilemma seemed to be rather palpable to the "saviour" as he pulled you out of that mental spiral, and you were rather grateful for it. As much as it made you nauseous with uncertainty and anxiety, you finally snapped out of that paralysis and turned towards the window.
"Please, help me. This is the only favor I'll ever ask of you. I will do anything you want in return, I promise."
You began to plead in an urgent, hissed whisper, practically leaning out of the window, causing him to take a step back.
Desperation and panic shook your words as you glanced back at your bedroom door.
"Get me out of here."
He chuckled, an amused sound mixed with something you couldn't quite explain that made you feel more fuzzy than you'd care to admit.
"Come. Come to me, my child. Step outside."
For the first time tonight hesitation became a foreign concept as you practically leapt out that window. Your bare feet felt the cold gravel beneath, just in time as the door to your room swung open.
The angered yelling of your mother were drowned out by the feeling of suddenly being lifted off the ground, Gabriel taking you up into his arms like your weight was akin to a feather.
He was cold, lifelessly so. And yet the soft silken robes, the way he held you in his arms, and his deceitfully promising whispers were lulling you into a sense of security you hadn't felt in a long, long time.
"A lost little lamb, asking their shepherd for guidance..."
His eerie, yet strangely comforting laugh filled your ears once more over the noise of your mother not yet realizing you weren't in your bed. You're surprised she wasn't hearing him at all. Maybe it was another mind game of his.
"You made the right decision. I knew you would. Such a smart, yet scared little thing you are, are you not?"
You leaned your head against his chest, sighing deeply, beginning to forget what you were ever doubtful about during the start of this whole fiasco. Your weight began to sink into his arms as you relaxed. He held you a little tighter in turn.
"Of course I shall guide you, my child. Come with me; you will be mine. You will be safe."
Just as the furious woman realized to check the opened window, Gabriel vanished as swiftly as he appeared, leaving behind the sight of nothing but an empty garden, peacefully quiet, as if you were never there.
#stole gabriels dialogue from volume 5 hehe#cuz hes so very silly and im obsessed with that claymation part ngl#also im still trying to get a feel for how i even want to write him#I'm metaphorically pacing around the room and curling up into a ball posting this#i get so many ideas i like but im not confident to write let alone put it out into the world to see but fuck it we ball right#cant improve if you never try#archangel gabriel#tmc#the mandela catalogue#the mandela catalog#tmc gabriel#alternate gabriel#the mandela catalogue gabriel#oh and also#authors note hehe#huge thanks to howl-arnon for both giving this a read and giving me some much needed feedback#and also for giving me the confidence boost i very much needed to step out of that comfort zone#wow tags have a character limit. thats crazy.#ok ill shut up now
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got asked to draw two of my old wc rp ocs :-) left is cicadahop, right is scallopstar
#my art#wc oc#squints. its been a dogs age since ive posted anything wc oc related#oc#BUT YA!!!! these guys are old. i think i made cicadahop 2018-2019 but i could be wrong/i have no way of checking haha#and scallopstar was made 2020.? i think? both are vaaastly different#if i were to play them today i think id keep a lot of things the same for cicada. shes just a silly girl who wants to make friends and#and be kind. as for scallopstar. i think id change a lot#one reason: ive gotten a lot better (I HOPE) with storytelling now that ive been playing dnd for a well over a year#and since i also run two different campaigns. two: i have more experience writing a character with an arc that turns them into a villain#three: i was really going through it at the time so. erm. LMFAO plus i was like 16 so ANDKJFGNJDFHBGJH#but yeah!!! kinda crazy looking at my old art and seeing how much ive improved#also a weird feeling to draw them again but not a Bad weird feeling. been doing a lot of reminiscing#thank god we can copy/paste tags bc if i had to rewrite this all id be so sad HAHA#the crop was weird so i wanted to fix it before it was too late lol#since these 2 are ocs im not gonna indicate this was a request the same way i will with the other requests lol
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Many such cases of adding a third fucked up guy into the mix to make me actually interested in a ship
#I finished rewatching gravity falls for the first time since the show ended and I've been snooping around the fandon tags#and honestly. I don't really care about ford sorry guys 🙏#so like billf/rd isn't that interesting to me like I get it. I promise I understand#just I sare way more about the stan twins problems than fords toxic yoai triangle thing#HOWEVER add in fiddleford leaving his wife and son bc he's that crazy about ford and then ur situationship let's himself#get possessed by a demon and they have a mutual obsession thing going on. ok well he's already come this far why doesn't he#just go all in is what I'm saying. billf/rd^2 is just sooo funny to me and why more engaging and messy than what was already going on#missed opportunity from most of this fandom#sstfu.txt#really tried to avoid things going into the tag whatever#but no yeah I will always care more about family drama in the stuff I watch than shipping#I'm really wondering how much jk simmons was paid and if that was why ford showed up so late#bc like. I do think season 2 is stronger than season one but I still feel that the pacing could have improved with#not what he seems and tale of two stans should have happened around like episode five and shuffled some other plot points around#only like what. 5 episodes with ford in actually there before the finale is a bummer
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you know, i always find it really funny when dudebros complain about syndicate and odyssey being too "jokey" or not "taking its characters seriously" or whatever…
like, did y'all collectively sleep through "it's-a me, mario!", "i meant besides vaginas", ezio inventing the latte, bartolomeo's... just... *gestures vaguely* entire character, etc?
like, it's fine to have preferences of course, i myself prefer a more serious and grounded tone, but these are usually the same people who tout the ezio trilogy as "peak assassin's creed", call ac1 a glorified tech demo and hate on connor for being "too serious and boring", like? make it make sense!
#asscreed#ac syndicate#ac odyssey#dont get me wrong#i do have problems with syndicate and even more so with odyssey#but it's not the tone lol#honestly i think kassandra is the protagonist that's the most similar to ezio if you really think about it#but bc she's a woman she's suddenly 'overpowered' and 'unrealistic'#yall don't remember the insane things that ezio survives in revelations do you#speaking of which#been replaying the ezio games lately#and i have something to confess...... i really don't think ac2 is good#ac brotherhood was a BIG improvement#in terms of story pacing for one (none of those insane unmotivated time jumps... well aside from the strange montage at the end)#and the characters are a lot more fleshed out (probably bc there aren't like 20 of them)#and the handling of female characters is MUCH less egregious#maybe bc there's only really claudia and caterina left LOL#lucrezia is a little annoying i guess... but she gets a pass bc she's cesare's sister and really they're the same kind of crazy lol#and hey we actually get to see how dangerous sex work can be and how it's not just a way for sexy nuns to give inner peace to men#even cristina gets fleshed out!#and i like that we get so see ezio being a little bit of a selfish prick in her missions#and making bad decisions in interpersonal relationships#at least i THINK that's what we're supposed to take away from it... but who knows maybe it's just supposed to be a tragic love story...#i hope not.... i hope the player IS supposed to think that ezio's treatment of her is bad. otherwise.... :/#sorry for rambling#guess im just kinda surprised by how much i enjoyed brotherhood#it had been a long time since i last played it#also the modern day is really good!#that you can talk so much to everyone and also being able to read their emails and the mundane banter... idk i just think its neat :)
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Lien-da on Valentines~ 💌
Last year I sketched Lien-da around Valentines Day so guess what I did this year❣️
#Lien-da the Echidna#archie sonic#crawled back to hell for H E R 😍#love her so much but I don't think I draw her nearly enough#crazy how I much I have improved drawing echidnas compared to my post last year#also really wanted to play around with her hair with these sketches#......I want to play with her hair 👉👈#pouty Lien-da face#also just HAD to also do a mini color study of that panel from Mobius 25 yrsl if you know this babe you know the one#d i s s o c i a t i o n s t a t i o n
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Found old art of mine from like 9 years ago… never give up folks cause god damn what was I doing back then
#orange posts#jokes aside crazy to see how far I’ve come#and how much I still criticize my own work even though I’ve improved DRASTICALLY#just goes to show that sometimes it takes time#and comparison is the killer of passion#and to be completely transparent#before I started uploading to this blog#I had taken like#at LEAST a two year break from not only posting art#but creating art in general#yeah I drew occasionally but not like I am or have before#I’m rusty now#and have to relearn a lot of anatomy stuff#but I’m finding I’m a lot kinder to myself and the mistakes I make while relearning the one thing I love to do so much#n e way#enough rambling#keep creating even if you’re a new artist and struggle finding your place :) 💚
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It's important to fans to understand me, and me understand the fans. I put a lot of work on my English to talk with you guys. And I think I'm doing a good job.
#elly de la cruz#i adore this man#i am genuinely SO impressed with how much his English has improved in less than a year#athletes and language learning and the use of interpreters was already so interesting to me even before i become a Sports Person#considering what i studied in school#and baseball is such a crazy overlap of all that#the most 'American' sport but also so international#and then you think about everything going on with ohtani and his interpreter#which is wild and bringing a lot of attention to the language industry (and maybe not good attention!)#and it's like yeah - interpreters and translators absolutely need to have an ethics code and oversight considering the power they have#but not many people think about that!#anyway i'm rambling whoops#but i fully support interpreters AND athletes learning to speak the languages of the countries they play in#and elly is killing it#which is unsurprising#he is good at everything!!! we're so lucky to have him
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We managed around 45 minutes this morning and even got to where the local hardware store is ❤️ And there's so many beautiful flowers everywhere now! ❤️❤️❤️
#bats the chion#sam the papillon#it's really crazy how fast my ability to walk is improving now#soooo much better than I hoped for!#I still have to go slow and all but if this goes on I'll be able to do normal walks in no time#if I knew that I would have moved much earlier 😂
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HAPPY (late) BIRTHDAY @zu-is-here!!!!
i can't believe i missed your b-day again!! i had to make you something this year and so why not draw the bean the legend, the sweetest baby ever as a gift!!! >:Dc
thank you so much for all of your sweet words and making your blog one of the most comforting places to be at!! hope you're having an amazing day<3333
#art#my art#my gif#my animation#fanart#gift#aim#sorry i'm a lil late! school has been a lil crazy with assignments and group projects lately and i only get some spare time the weekends#that and i didn't know how to draw something big and that doesn't need much time with a mouse hh :'Dc#i guess i went with a small gif because i've been waiting to make one with lil baby aim for sO LONG!!! look at him being so cuuute >:'Dc#(i technically had a whole different idea last year but i'll wait until i have a tablet again-#i wouldn't wanna limit myself when it's supposed to be a big surprise project >;)c )#you're like- one of my biggest inspiration ever on this site so you know i had to doodle something at least!!#don't think i forgot about your amazing gift last year either!!! if you were so kind to draw me something and brighten up my day like that-#then you can BET i'll repay the favor!!! >:'Dc thank you so much again for your supportive comments and your sweet words#your presence is beloved by so many people around the world!!! no matter who passes by you always treat them with so much care#and respect!! your works have only improved throughout the years at an insanely rapid pace and i can't believe it's been 3 years now#you deserve all the praise and support and i wish you the best of luck in your future projects!!! have a nice day/night<3333
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Mousou telepathy feels like it gets shorter every time I reread it... my most trashy guilty pleasure romcom
#Iykyk#its Such a.... setup but then it veers#so sharply into this . platonic female friendship rep SO GOOD#there are soooo many mini references to MT in my work. theres so much#subconscious inspiration i took from it..... that i only realized on this current reread#the romance is so funny also theyre So Bad at communicating but it's actually funny for once#because the bad at communicating thing is the actual character flaw theyre recognized by the narrative to have#the way all of the characters grow and improve ESPECIALLY MY GIRL MAYA TF#one of my favorite fictional girls of all time#turns from a basic female rival with a mean streak into the funniest best friend with a mean streak#i love how her personality was consistent she just improved herself. but she kept the attitude. i LOVE HER#😭😭 i want to reread it again....#the plot twist goes crazy every time i read it i dont care it makes everything 100x funnier#GAH#mousou telepathy#shoutout to maya chan youre a real one best girl forwver amen#MANA*** IM SORRY.. IM TIRED.
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9, 10, 30, 34 for the pride asks?
hellooooo I'm honestly shocked that people have questions for me <3
9) When did you realize you weren't cishet?
Shipping helped me come out as bi lmaoooooo I am autistic. In sixth grade I was drawing me and my friend and I thought "If we were in an anime, people would ship us -> wait I ship us" so anime made me gay I guess
Gender diversity had definitely interested me but at 14 I saw a picture of phalloplasty for the first time and I was HOOKED. I didn't know trans men existed. This led to me typing "ftm" into youtube (love when you just type a vague ass term and hope the internet brings you what you need. I'm so bella googling "vampires") and I saw a 20 minute video (still up, I think!) of someones transition on T. I cried NONSTOP and was like okay lightbulb I want that soooooo so so bad.
10) Something that gives you gender euphoria:
This would be a fun list! But here's an answer you might like. I have a plain tight black T-shirt and when I wear it I feel like Patrick and that gives me SO much gender euphoria.
30) Are you monogamous or polyamorous?
lets fall in love and find out (I answered this on the previous post <3 )
34) What are you needing most right now (what would make your life easier or more fulfilling in regards to existing as queer)?
I answered this in another one but the sillier and more immediate answer is gay sex. I need to be kissing boys. I need to be pegging girls. I need to be providing the trans community with orgasms to destress them and help them start the revolution. Gay sex is part of my enrichment.
#im a lover babey#also yeah idk how much the autism affects how i go about things like feeling gender and feeling attraction and stuff#my life would be so improved with gay sex but whos wouldnt tbh#may we all have the gay sex we wish to have#lore#marco lore#ask#anon#oh yeah i guess the phalloplasty thing might beg more questions lol but i saw it in a sexuality textbook#which was CRAZY for the time like this book was from the 80s or 90s#the first time i saw a naked cis man was side by side with seeing a naked trans man thats pretty damn awesome#but also it was so indistinguishable that i used to stare at it forever and reread it over and over bc i was not comprehending#i was like WHAT DO YOUM MEAN DO YOU MEAN I COULD LOOK LIKE THAT
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#me when im finally actualky doing the things that make me hapoy#happy wtf is hapoy#i need to get more into cosplay and furry stuff too#i cant wait for my local convention. its genuinely the only place i find people irl with my interests(specifically bjds/dolls)#its legit my favorite place. i wish i could go to more cons but honestly its kind of expensive#and its more tricky when its not literally ten minutes away#but i do have the ren faire in the fall so im pretty well rounded with fun events throughout the year#i just need to make sure i finish my cosplay stuff before the con.#and maybe work on a fursuit. thats going to have to wait until next year though i think#also its crazy how much better i feel when i force myself to get things done#things i like#i just spend a significant amount of time NOT doing things and im trying to fix it#also. crazy coincidence that now that im on different meds i actually feel better.#like im at the bare minimum of feeling vetter and its still such an improvement
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I actually made 9 drawings in 2 days
#ok 3 days because i took my laptop with me today just to finish some of them because i didn't have time or energy left for that yesterday#and 2 out of those 9 still aren't fully finished as of me writing this but i'll get to that in a minute#it's so crazy to me that i can actually already see such a big improvement between the 1st abd 7th like damn#if i'm still strong enough to continue with these through the rest of the month#this might really turn out to be one of the most effective and successful drawing exercises i've had so far#i still feel kind of silly about how it takes me this much work and time to do what is just colored doodles at the end of the day#but i'm also trying to remember that. well. i've had so little exercise and you can't be amazing and skilled at this or anything right away#and i only started taking drawing seriously at the very end of last year. abd even then my practicing is very inconsistent#hard to do anything lest something creative and somewhat demanding#when you also have to deal with the absolute lack of ability to do anything at all due to being severely depressed most of the time. lol.#ok whatever i'm mostly just posting this because i'm happy that i actually did manage to do this after all#and i'm also really happy with the result. i especially like the KMH drawing i think it turned out really great and i'm excited about that#yay.#goosepost
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