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Some of my fave life drawings from the past month
#life drawing#sketches#soc art#traditional art#figure drawing#it’s been so nice going to sessions#sketchbook#artists on tumblr#original work
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Haven't posted too much since this week was hectic [😩], so it me after a slightly longer jog earlier (thankfully it's warm enough to sensibly go jogging) and then coming back to trim the beard/shave some 🪒🚿😌
#ore no kao#[i feel like since sticking with the beard through 'rona it's grown on me#so now i like having it around some during the winter lol]#also hi to the quite-a-few cute new people/mutuals following whatever it is i'm doing here 👋🏽#[missed out on my cousin's 6pm dinner party w/ a sis or two but in my defense it was already past 5 and that was an 1hr30m trek to BK lol#didnt get to squeeze in the gym like i hoped but bright side of going tmrw is the one cute front desk guy should be there lol hmm]#my trainer getting me to jog has been a nice thing to keep up since our sessions ended
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re: the last post i reblogged bc i am realizing just how much i yapped in the tags and i do not wish to subject the wider tumblr public to that rant LMAO
#copying the tags bc it is very much a tag rant#bros. truly it has been nothing but a wonderful time here#perhaps even the most enjoyable time i have ever had in a fandom despite being here for like 3 months tops#(bc i'm actually posting stuff and interacting with people for once but i digress)#but i cannot deny. being part of a smaller quieter fandom after coming from some of the larger ones on here has me scratching at the walls#guy on the left was me in september where everything was new to me and i had all this wonderful fanwork to go through. autism heaven#guy on the right. me rn. please do not ask me how many times i have refreshed the tags on both here and ao3. it's ungodly#has me doing things like (on top of actually interacting with people) rereading fics. long ones. which i have done before. twice?#out of many years of reading#i've hunted down nice long fics older than me (also never done before) (because none of my other fandoms are older than me but still)#[edit nvm i remembered there was exactly one fandom i've dipped my toes in that is also older than me so ive definitely read some fics#from there that were Aged. didnt hunt those down tho it just happened. edit over]#but i've put off reading them bc like. what if they don't get them like we do yknow. what if they write something and it's Wrong#perhaps a terrible thing to think of them because what i can tell their writing is very high quality but still..#every day i consider rereading welcome to the panopticon on ao3 and one day the demons will take over and i will be reading all 88k words#once more. among other fics#congrats to these guys they truly have consumed me and i fear it is terminal#kit yap session
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#i haven't been able to go through tumblr recently#i have a bunch of stuff ive needed to do and i haven't done any of it!!#i'm behind on secret life too :[ i saw pearl's episode last week but i haven't been able to watch any other POVs#or anything from session 2 which is sad#i don't wanna mute the tags so i'm just staying off the dash#but hopefully HOPEFULLY soon i get to have time where it's just me and i can just Draw#this weekend was nice but i am still doing a bunch of stuff#some good stuff too! my friends are lovely! but still stuff. and coursework.#gonna have to live like a hermit for the next while in order to have fun online and make fanart /silly#time to last minute work on my second group presentation project in two weeks!#delete later#the words of a fudgecake#[scheduled]#edit: after this was posted i broke up with my ex of almost a year lmao (its a good thing dw)
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Honestly I'm also not fully happy with what they did with Whis this book
#morningtalks#asc spoilers#Not like they gave Whistlepaw a lot of screentime at all despite how relevant WindClan was all of a sudden#(nooooo that had to go to Crowfeather. Not like he's got enough attention with TNP + PO3 + his super edition + deputyship + TBC#+ Changing Skies now too. Noooooooooooooooooooo we really can't have a single other cat in WindClan be important)#At least Whis had an excuse. Making Additional Content for another book that readers have to buy and be USELESS in that book#But Whistlebreeze?#Out of all the fun names you could've chosen. Whistlebreeze?#At least it's not Whistlepelt or Whistleheart#But really? Whistlebreeze?#I find it boring honestly#It's obviously a me thing. I'm obviously going to take Whis' name more seriously than most because I draw that damned cat Every Single Day#But there were so many possibilities for really poetic and pretty names#But they stuck with the simple option. Whistlebreeze#I obviously wanted Whistlebird#But with Ivypool's Therapy Session you could've made an argument for Whistlestorm#Even if it doesn't sound good at all. The two 't' s really don't make for a good name#But it would've been better than Whistlebreeze as far as I'm concerned#-breeze as a suffix can be cute and I like it but it has little to do with Whis aside from WindClan#Whistlebird neither but it sounds fun and has a rare suffix#Obviously Whistlefrost would've been hilarious#Heck. I just thought about Whistlecreek. Kinda odd but could be a more discrete hommage to Frostdawn as a RiverClan cat#(Frostdawn is a good name tho. Pissed she's back to being a healer but Frostdawn is good at least)#I also love the -berry suffix but with Berryheart just being a nuisance it would've been a very stupid decision here#But I'm just annoyed that they went with Whistlebreeze. It's boring. It's kinda pretty yeah but it adds nothing#It says ''Whis is a WindClan cat.''#Whistle- is a hard prefix to work with. The 't' and 'l' at the end makes it nearly impossible for a good amount of suffixes#Because they wouldn't sound good. (Any occlusive or lateral would've been horrendous. That's why Whistlelight sounds bad. Too many L's)#Whistlebreeze does sound nice at least but again it's bland and I am disappointed and really they could've done so much#With this name. Whistle is a difficult prefix but it offers so much poetic potential
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I have another outing tomorrow. Been avoiding outing myself to this friend for far too long out of fear it might change our relationship. But he deserves to know - and I gotta put some trust in the fact that he cares about me enough to support me being trans. It's so nerve wracking though *screams*
#personal posts#trans stuff#we are way too close for him to not know this important thing about me#he already knows me under my chosen name (like everyone) but it's a gender neutral name so he doesn't know I identify as a dude#today i texted him to say that i have to tell him something about me when we meet tomorrow#and he said that he's always there for me and open for everything#which felt nice#but ahh#i'm nervous#why is being trans literally the most emberrassing thing in the world#so much shame shame shame#i feel like i have way too much going on in my life rn#i'm so overwhelmed#but this needs to be done to get rid of the guilt and shame#also#my therapist will be so proud of me if next session i can tell him i finally came out to this friend#because he's been like... 'do it'#and he's right#it's long overdue
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Just in time to put her up on AF! :D
Her name's Lucie, a Pen and Paper character. Vampire: the Masquerade, an Elder campaign so she's uh. Like 400ish. Usually easy to get along with, just, don't make her mad, you do not want to meet her claws.
#Vampire#vampire the masquerade#vtm#world of darkness#wod#my OCs#Lucie (WoD)#somehow despite her being decently easy going she got into fights - verbal or otherwise - with most other SCs#In my and her defense. The Brujah Prim basically told her ''Stop giving a shit about your clan''#(There was a Hunter who had JUST said he refused to promise not to hunt vampires in the city because he wanted to ''exterminate evil'')#(So Lucie said then she could not let him leave bc. Who knows when her clan is considered 'evil'?)#(Verbally fought the Tremere Prim for the same reason bc he's been sheltering the Hunter)#(and ofc the Hunter is also an SC. He didn't get hurt yet but Lucie's planning to finally get rid of him next session)#(She gets along SPLENDIDLY with the local Setites tho which is surprising lmao)#(She also gets along with the Malkavians but their leader is just a nice fella so that's not surprising)
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finally took the plunge and signed up to a choir after 8 years of no singing 💪I did 14 years of choir when I was a kid/teenager then had to stop because my studies didn't give me enough free time and then I moved to a new city and never took the time but now I don't know anyone here aside from my colleagues and a handful of friends + my main activity is related to work (sewing) so I felt like it was time to a) go back to something else that I like doing (a d miss doing tbh) b) meet new people
#look at me being a grown up#yes I have been thinking about doing this for a year and it took my mother going 'you know what would be nice for you? choir'#for me to be like ugh now that I've talked about it with someone I have to do it lol#it's an amateur choir so it's low stakes and the first sessions are to see if I like it#vinformation
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The Fool :)
MOTH and PERRY and their 2003 SUBARU OUTBACK
[moth and compass is a collaboration with @natdrinkstea!]
#em draws stuff#oc time again hehe#moth and compass#the fool: moth worley#this ask was from an ask game about ocs by archetype which I am only getting around to uhhhhh a month later#and there really was not anyone else to choose for this one but moth! it's literally even their tag-organizing epithet!#the main difference between me and moth is that moth can drive and I cannot (which is something of a shame since I love Trip In Car)#lyrics are from 'i own a car' by ninja sex party altho' I spent the entire drawing session listening to carly rae jepsen :)#been having a lot of fun with photocollage lately - someday I will learn to draw this my favorite car in the world but Not Today!#more carposting soon (she has Lore)#this one is that rare picture that I've shown to my parents and well we are back to Not doing that again!#mom is losing her eyesight so I will forgive her for asking 'is that santa' and also she did have nice things to say after I explained more#but dear old dad refuses to stop saying that that isn't a cat but a chinchilla - thus he has lost knowing-what-his-son-is-drawing privilege#go back to drawing gnomes pops
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I found an old fidget spinner and I've been using it (it's been very nice ^_^) but I forgot !!!! It's glow in the dark !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#the sky speaks#literally incredible#its nice for restless energy tho i hav so much of it rn i wanna hop skip n jump#just saw my mom a couple hrs ago#it went good !#shes doing okay in the rehab place. better than the last place she went to but theres atill been drama#and theyre pretty understaffed#but nice :)#my weekedn is PACKED!!#tomorrow i work at the zoo then friday im going to fright night#then saturday is visitation for mom again and afterwards is thomas and carries bday party#then Sunday im going to thomas and carries AGAIN to play minecraft togwther#OH and friday i also am going to my moms job#next weekend is packed too dear gdo#and i wanted to open commissions gdi. not gonna happen for a while im afraid#maybe in december ?#ive barely been drawing#too busy#not enough energy to be creative. mainly been playing chill games and reading fanfic ij my downtime#oh i also had my last session w my therapist today! shes having her baby soon so i wont see her til after the new year.... kinda sad tbh#i came out to her as trans last week and we talked abt it some today tho!!! it was rly nice i had never talked abt it out loud before#felt lighter afterwards. she told me to write down everything so i can organize my thoughts better when i tell my parents#bc i wanna tell them at some point. i RLY want a breast reduction dear god. and ive gone back and forth on hrt. still contemplating it#sometimes dad will call me his 'favorite son' as a joke when i help with like. yard work or handy stuff. makes me happy#he sorta knows im gender fluid but not totally?#im juat rambling at this point. goodnight everybody 😴
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idly wondering with what experts would diagnose me if I was 100% truthful and could remember every single thing that happened to me and every single quirk I developed because of it <3
#like esp. at the start my mother would sit in on all my therapy sessions#and i didn't yet grasp what therapy was for at age 11 so i just talked about my day#and showed the nice lady my latest drawings orz#all that got me was a 'oh that kid is just shy and a little scared going to school just force him to go it'll be fine <3'#never said anything about the nefarious bullying or the things going on at home#because at that point i was so naive i thought it was NORMAL#and other therapists later on only ever focused on my weight and how sloppy i dressed. never addressing all my other issues so i gave up#never talked about all the other stuff for a while.#also that ONE situation i can barely remember but that fucked me up the most i think back in kindergarten... never told anyone about it#except a friend last year. wondering what therapists would say about that if i ever opened up about that to them#after a bit of thought it'd also explain my aversion to being touched/examined by doctors in that area. great.#ANYWAY just wondering <333#also all the 'negative' feelings i immediately throw in the repression bin. like jealousy frustration anger annoyance entitlement etc#been told one too many times that these things are ugly and shouldn't be displayed. should stop acting like a spoiled brat#never learned how to handle any of that <333#recently have taken to being overly analytical about it all. trying to find what triggers these emotions and then rationalising them away <3#they do still fester deep in my soul tho <333#good thing i'm so good at repression that i forget about it all eventually until something makes me remember and then i suffer#but then i repress again and i can live in blissful ignorance again <333333#wish i could be a dumb silly billy more often and not think about things too much like i usually do haha#maybe that's why i'm so drawn to and fadcinated by the bimbocore subculture/movement...... 🤔#anyway anyway just thinking haha
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last few hours in boston :(
#purrs#conference tag#we literally just got here and now we have to go 😭💔 i havent rly felt as enriched by this conference as i have in the past (though there’s#still 2 more sessions to go to incl the closing plenary and we’re getting lunch in the station before the train ride home) but ive walked#around so much and have spent time with people i love and some people i miss. and have been on adventures i have been looking forward to for#a rly long time though i am kinda bummed i never made it down to fanueil square. but… idk what happiness feels like anymore but maybe for me#it’s just absence of misery and despair. or contented ness. i have gotten a little triggered from time to time these last few days and ive b#been lonely in my hotel room but MAN it has been nice to not be miserable and suffering and to take walks and to not go to every session (ev#even though i do feel bad abt it like i missed 2 plenaries and an afternoon concurrent session which is more than i usually miss) and to#be in this city which feels so much like brighton and so uncity like in some ways. it’s so charming and omg i went to harvard and it was#NOTHING like what i imagined it to be / feel like.. just a quaint artsy quirky town. and the rest of the places ive been have been like that#too. and people LIVE here every day!!!!! there’s a big beautiful world here both above ground and below!!!! and im gonna be late to#breakfast but… i just feel nourished and healed in a way i wasn’t expecting to. I haven’t been this far away from home in 3+ years and#it’s just been really nice being somewhere else and going on adventures and seeing things surviving. i miss my grandparents a lot and im sad#to not be visiting them and to be unable to visit them now lol but it’s just rly nice and special being here. im goingto miss it so much and#im trying to savor every second. i wish we had one more day here and im a little sad to be going home lol#* what i meant when talking about happiness earlier is that i think… i have been happy these last few days. for the first time in a really#really long one. and that’s nice. it’s good to be happy again. and good to be here
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#diana's music diary#good morning#i slept early#it was nice#very cozy#I only slept like 4 hours though cause I had to get up for a delivery... also I'm posting this a couple of hours after waking...#as is becoming usual for these... I've been kind of vibing to music pretty much...#anyway yesterday was good but so exhausting... played lethal company with friends like I'd said which was really fun!! was a little bit of#process getting my bearings in it since I'd seen maybe one second of gameplay before but after a day or two in game I picked it up I'd say!#I mostly just ran away when I saw something scary but I tried scanning a monster and it opened the door which made me scream once ahaha#after that I was a lil tired but we ended up having a session of the project moon ttrpg I'm in kind of out of nowhere#it was short but v fun to play Frei again he kind of completely shut down the distortion singlehandedly which was surprising considering he#has no combat capability.. incapacitated them and read its mind which helped us figure out what we needed to do to resolve the distortion#-peacefully! my partners character did the actual resolving cause Frei is terrified of going near anything as gross as that distortion was#(it was a giant gross greasy burger monster. who was just bob from bobs burgers. he ended up in a polycule with linda and teddy after.)#Frei also read my partners characters mind a bit and maybe upset him a little by mentioning his daughter (her character is divorced lol)#anyway yeah... I was tired after both of those so I kinda got in bed and passed out quickly while listening to music...#idk what I'll do today I'm a bit sore still and I'm v sick and tired rn so I'll probably just relax a bit...#let's make today nice and cozy and good... love u friends thank u for reading <3
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mfw listening to the Niko episode
#atlas entry#I know the actor playing Niko is actually nonbinary and that they wrote the episode themself but I still can't help thinking “lol yeah okay”#when Niko's like “Dr. Bright i don't have to go outside to socialize I have my internet DnD group!”#like yeah guilty as charged but it would've been nice to get a nonbinary character who's not so stereotypical#the bright sessions#tbs podcast
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mwah <3
im back in your inbox my darling <3
i know rn you're going eep peep, but i love you and you can't escape me <3
UPDATE me and my boyfriend will have our one year anniversary in 4, almost three, days
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(october 4th for reference (us little trans mascs fell in love in october HEHE))
also I'm going to send you an ask
(or if u turn them off tag you in a post)
whenever I finish a movie because I'm watching all of the studio ghibli movies!
I just finished porco rosso <33 Gina my love <33 I love porco rosso it's one of my favorites
rn is pom poko. so silly. so fun. I'll come back when I finish :)
I swear I'm going to send you so many asks you'll be sick of them <3
I love you! have a good eep peep kazuzu, my darling orange blossom <3
never gonna want to escape u anyways my lovely, lovelyy shroom dearest <33
WAAAHHHH WOWOWIOEWOEWIOWOOWWW HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO U TWO !!! this feels like celebrating the coming of two wonderful guardian angels or smth cause i feel so happy WAAAAAHHHHH SHROOM :''D (that reminds me of the song by girl in red !! n i hope u two luvly trans mascs have every joy the world has to give 4 evermore <33 !!!!)
HEHEHE IM GONNA BE LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEXT ONES U SEND (or tag me in) !!
OOO porco rosso is gonna be added 2 my watchlist along w the others u sent now hehehe !
HJDFSFKSSK I FIND IT SO FUNNY THAT THE ASK IM ANSWERING NOW ABT POM POKO IS LIKE "this movie is so silly (cradles it gently in hands)" THEN THE NEXT U SENT WAS SO DIFFERENT IM
DHSJDSFDSGFDSKDHFDF
WEEEEE IMMA LOOK FORWARD TO THEM ALL THEN !!
I LOVE U TOO !! n i did have a good eep peep (after the pain of stomachs n all ough) shroom, my ever so sweeting guardian angel <33
#ur asks r like a breath of fresh air oomf (i've been studying all day for my exam tom :'D)#n surprisingly it's going well !! i've been listening to classical music ; laufey ; n sabrina carpenter to soothe the flow of the session !#n as much as i love studying most times ; it gets tiring n sickly shjdjgsjdsfsj#so !!! i'm rewarding myself w typing out replies to asks (aka love letters)#aaww i'm gonna go back to studying after a bit more time so have a a nice anniv ++ week shroom !! love uu !!!#my delineate of love#🔆
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had a trainwreck of an in person consult for my sleeve tattoo yesterday only made better by the itty bitty yorkie shop dog adoring me and sitting on my lap the whole time.
#also chatting with my partner after ofc i felt so much better tysm chris ♥#but yeah it was not great#it was supposed to be on friday#but she changed it last minute saying she was too busy can we do it the next day at 5 instead? yeah fine#kinda disappointing she didn't tell me in time to like do smth with friends i was invited to but had to opt out of bc of the consult#but whatever#get there early text her that i'm there. stand out side. in the rain. for 15 minutes. she didn't see the text. she didn't see me outside.#in fact.. she was in the middle of tattooing somebody. the client noticed me after 15 minutes and finally let her know.#she comes over all suspicious like. cracks the door and asks 'who are you?what do you want'#even after i say i have a consultation at 5 she didn't remember it was HER who had the consult. i had to rattle off all the details for her#to finally remember it was HER consult and say 'oh i completely forgot about that'#finally get let in and sit down and. she then spends the next couple minutes profusely apologizing to the other client. saying like#'ohhh im so sorry i completely forgot i had a consult scheduled.... i'll get this over with quick' which. well. :(#finally start going through it. she doesn't remember anything about the tattoo. not that it was a sleeve. not what elements were in it. :(#i wasn't expecting a sketch or anything but. even just having re-read the emails before the consult would have... been nice....#after she does that she says 'oh we didn't really need an in person consultation' which is also. :( because she suggested it.#i get a whole like 5 minutes to rehash stuff we already went over in emails including her not remembering i'd put down a deposit AND we had#3 sessions scheduled already.... and it needs another 2 sessions which i wish she'd told me about because she's booked so far out my last#session might not be until. may.#i didn't even get to ask any questions! i wanted to ask! like does she use saniderm? (i can't have that on my skin)#does she want other things for a tip than just cash? (absolutely not offering that now) has she dealt with KP before? are there any things#she wants me to bring to the sessions? (they're gonna be long)#and then i'm rushed out the door and sitting in my car in the rain and just absolutely fucking crushed#and feeling bad that i feel so bad because like. is it entitled of me to think that like.#maybe if u have a client paying u thousands of dollars to design & tattoo their sleeve tattoos.... you'd like.... treat them like a client#i was so excited about my sleeve i was so fucking psyched and now im. not. at all.#i'm worried about what if she forgets about my appts? what if she books over my appts like she already did with just my consult?#and i'm left hanging trying to get things scheduled in so so so so late like i'm some second rate flaky walk in....#i guess it could have gone worse
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