#it’s been a long day of being sick
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you can take the family out of the psychics but you can't take the psychics out of the family
#i think about the aquatos especially these four every single day of my life#just. the complicated mess that is being a psychic in the aquato family. i'm obsessed with them#psychonauts#psychonauts 2#nona aquato#lucrecia mux#augustus aquato#frazie aquato#razputin aquato#my art#honestly i might go back and fiddle with this one some more but right now i'm just sick of looking at it#you ever try to draw something and you have a Vision and you do a ton of Planning and then it Does Not Work? yeah#or maybe it's fine and i've just been looking at it too long. it definitely isn't what i wanted it to be though. alas
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#basically what happened#i woke up to see the breaking news in my inbox#felt sick for 0.2 seconds thinking of the dictatorship and all the times that korea#used its military against its people#this wasn't that long ago! immediately wondered how my parents would feel#and then got sidetracked all day only to log in and find out the coup failed LMAOOOOO#so we just turned on the korean news on yt and loudly went 'WHAT AN ABSOLUTE MORON' without worrying#he should have been forced out of office 0.01 seconds after being elected#but MAN FINALLY!!!!! impeachment process let's go!#why would you ever think this would fly in a country that remembers the dictatorship (it happened in the '80s! SO many people remember it)#and all the trauma associated with the past several decades of authoritarian rule and military/state violence#is no longer the same country it was back then#and ousted the last president who was unhinged and idiotic (park geunhye) 7-8 years ago#because ONE THIRD OF THE WHOLE COUNTRY (16-17 million people) PROTESTED IN THE STREETS and broke records for protest numbers#we didn't even have time to check in on everyone we knew because it was over before we knew it#dying because my friend told me 개새끼 is trending hfasldfjsakfja#okay time to delve into all the fun posts about this
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#kirby#ask to tag#daily kirby#my art#digital#hal laboratory#nintendo#having a lot of feelings today about being so sick for so long.#they're not. good ones.#I turned in the last of the additional evidence for my va disability compensation earlier this week#it was around this time in 2015 that I got whatever bug was going around the barracks because everyone got it that's just how it works#I've been debilitatingly ill ever since.#that's not the day that's filed as the breaking point but it's when things went bad.#(there's a specific day in late january where I ran out of compensatory mechanisms and truly broke.)#(that's how it's saved in my head and also literally what's documented in the military files.)#anywho. thanks for reading my little rambles those of you that do#oh yeah also reminder if you have any prescriptions that will run out before new years you should really refill them asap!#when I'm putting my pill organizer together for the week I always check if I have enough for the following week as well#if I don't I make sure to order it before the end of the week I just put together#(this is not a wholly accurate representation of the number of pill bottles I have to sort every week - it's only about 2/3rds)
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they are ignoring my big beautiful pathetic himbo wife and his cute little platypus tail that he has for some tank part reason im too dumb to understand why
#how can u laugh 😿 this is not a JOKE 😾⁉️⁉️⁉️#love the way starscream was smiling and entertained by demo's people pleasing and having to make himself frown#so he can make demo even more exasperated by his apathy#'it's funny when he nags cyclonus but he can stfu around me pls '#part of what makes armada starscream so cool is demo taking a lot of the more pathetic sides of his ppl pleasing#starscream's ppl pleasing is more for competitive career (power) reasons and fear#demo's tries to be but also he just wants megatron to like him and be nice to him pls :(#whereas megs actually likes starscream and wants him to succeed one day just not today lol#and starscream is like no wtf ure weird i just want ur position . gtfo#it's like the one worker the manager wants to make a new manager one day but the worker hates it there & just does whats needed then leaves#& trains new ppl by being like 'yea so the fuckass manager likes it like this so if u see him then do that shit but heres how i do it lol'#new ppl being mini cons who hes like that cool younger adult to wholl send ppl home instantly if theyre sick & is chilled but professional#meanwhile demo is the suck up tryhard who just needs to put the fries in the bag bro#he wants to be manager so bad but hes also annoying and dumb and megs just wants him to leave his office so he can pretend 2 work#cyclonus is the broke guy who just goofs off bcs if he gets fired then he gets fired but they havent yet bcs theyre understaffed#n he knows it too. he sleeps on the job if it slows down for 1 second. but hes an adrenalin junkie who can get distracted#demo wants meg to want his effin cookje so freaking bad... i love pathetic men#sideways secretly has 3 jobs total & 2 of them are at their competitors' who pay better so he dgaf abt this one#he never picks up shifts and doesnt care abt working less hours. hes hust here for the drama tbh#he clocks in wondering if demo will ever get that megadck hes been bitching abt#he clocks out a disappointed fujoshi#it's ok bcs karen hot rod who works at their competitors comes storming in with his kids & needs rizzed up#by either starscream or sideways bcs they fucked up his kids' orders on purpose after hr gave them a spiel abt their long list of allergies#demolisher#starscream#cyclonus#transformers#maccadam#tf armada#sideways
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BEE KISS TOMORR- *dead* /j
If anyone wants to watch me drawing this like a little victorian child then the timelapse is below the cut 🤣
(FLICKER WARNING. It's all through out so be careful!👍 )
#RWBY#Bumbleby#Blake Belladonna#Yang Xiao Long#Foxarts#YOUR HONOR I HATE THEM (that's a lie actually)#I'VE BEEN STARING AT THIS FOR 3(?) DAYS NOW AND I'M SICK#Technically this doesn't contain spoilers but let me know if I should add the tag!#In reality I think cloud scene will happen episode 7-ish BUT being delusional is what being a bee fan is all about-#This is the first time I've actually tried drawing a kiss sooooo hope it turned out ok xDD#I am the one who looks away when anyone kisses for more than 2 seconds so.#Kisses aren't very photogenic that's all I'll say (I had 3 tutorials open and 5 references pulled up)#This was so messy- I forewent line art because I hate it and I thought it wouldn't be bad to just clean up the sketch. I was kind of right.#Watching back the recording is funny because I've always known I'm disorganized but just watching it play out is hilarious.#Enjoy my little notes and doodles 😌😌#They're so soft I want to scream.#I SURE HOPE I DIDN'T FORGET ANYTHING 😭#Risking my livelihood for these stupids since 2020 *strikes pose*#Anyways that's enough of my rambling.#HAVE A NICE DAY Y'ALL!!
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1) this might be the MOST embarrassing thing I post here ever…I was TRYING to escanciar bien but 😳…I SWEAR I DID A GOOD JOB UNTIL MY BF FILMED ME😭😭 pouring cider like this is a lot of fun and traditional to where I live🥰 (also you can hear the traditional bagpipes in the background😆)
traditional asturian cider (sidra asturiana) is VERY dry…not sweet at all, and it’s poured like this to aerate it. You have to pour in very small amounts and then drink it super fast before the carbonation leaves. There are special lids etx that you can put on the bottle though so that it pours a lot more easily and you don’t end up spilling all of it like I did😭😆
ANYWAYS every year my city does the cider festival…and we try to break the world record for the most people pouring cider at the same time. We didn’t get it this year😔🙏 but two years ago we did!! It started raining a little bit an hour before we were supposed to do it & lots of people bailed🙄 it rains every day here…what did they expect…
2) the sunrises lately have been so beautiful!!!💓
3) the gremlins👹
4) some of my “normal” art…I don’t really post it here but I like how this one turned out a lot💓
#IM TIRED OF BEING SO SICK😭😭😭😭😭#like the fever broke a few days ago but I’m STILL SO TIRED…so bored…so blah…#I’ve just been walking when I feel fine and watching lots of movies etc#maybe today I’ll do another drawing💓#anyways it’s been a long time since I did a diary post bc I feel like I have nothing interesting or anything#but maybe you’ll find the cider thing funny😆😆#everyone is always so surprised Asturias is part of Spain…our traditional things are NOTHING like the Spanish stereotype..#and the bagpipes are so funny😭😭 I try to avoid them in the streets bc the noise hurts my ears#but from far away I do like hesring them#ANYWAYS I HOPE YOU ALL HAVE AN AMAZING DAY😙💓😙💓
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can ppl in this fandom like... stop... implying that transmasculinity in hcs or (especially) canon is shallow or misogynistic or even transmisogynistic on princible, like literally just by being prescent in someones mind or in the text. like that doesnt fuckin feel good. thats kind of really nasty to imply. if its not okay to say about other trans experiences, maybe dont say it about this one either. why is there a weird little exception here. yall KNOW how much that sucks to hear all day every day. what the fuck
#my t#idk how to tell the hs fandom that every piece of trans coding in roxy in hs1 can be read as transmasc too. like transfem and transmasc#at the same time from the EXACT same reasons. its almost like we all share experiences just by way of being trans. weird i know#its almost like being trans rlly truly highlights what it is to be human and how we are all in fact at the end of the day human together#i just want everyone to stop trying to 'poke holes' in other fans trans hcs FULL STOP across the board no matter who they are#or what the hc is. its needlessly hurtful and more often than not trips into real peoples dysphoria which then#makes the target more likely to lash out. so the person poking them abt it can do a ''SEE? THEYRE ALL MEAN ONE OF THEM#WAS MEAN TO ME JUST NOW'' routine. its so obviously a 'im not touching u!!!' playground maneuver like holy fuck grow up#if you wanna fight for transfem/me folks right to just exist random fans personal headcanons is not the fuckin time or place#the XY in roxys name could be read as her having been DMAB or it could be hussie having a long running giggle about him preordering#his own transmasculinity. roxys colour being pink could be bc shes a girl or it could be compcis!!!#roxys desperation for a bf is from loneliness in canon but its often read as her feeling like she needs one to be a real girl#it can ALSO be read as another aspect of him struggling with compcis and comphet esp w/ his fantasies abt being 'a mother'#yknow what i never fuckin see that rlly highlights the fact that this is just a shitty 'girls rule boys drool' thing? theres like. no#discussions on the potential of roxy being any kinda intersex. absolutely none. he could be mtftm for all you fuckin know#but oh yknow being mtftm is A Shallow Read so we cant have that. hs is only for girls didnt you know we need to terf- i mean turf#out every single instance of queer mascness bc its Evil in the text didnt you know#god help the fandoms word of god token trans boy dirk strider for 'choosing' his eternal misery while everyone else is enlightened#by way of transforming into a girl. bc we must place girlhood on an inhuman pedistal of perfection and niceness and joy and rainbows#like what IS this mahou shojo brand gender essentialism???? im fuckin sick of it#can we remember that girlhood isnt & wasnt safe or joyful for everyone & that that can translate into how we curate our fandom experiences
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recent things and such~
#photo diary#image 1 - kind of interesting lacy looking clouds. Image 2 - pinky purple sunset stuff#image 3 - These REALLY cool flowers I saw in a field ? growing wild so like.. weeds I guess. but I like the color of them and how the#petals are small and layered. Image 4 & 5 - More recent hair growth progress. I still think it will never get much longer because#it's been basically the same lenght for multiple years now BUT I do feel like maybe it's getting like... just the tiniest bit longer?? Just#not as obvious of progress as the first few years. Like now if I take it out of the braids and actually hold it so it goes straight down th#very tips of the hair on one side goes down to the tip of my pointer finger. and on the other side goes a little past my thumb. and I#remember maybe last year or two years ago it was only to my knuckles or like midway down my thumb. so.. perhaps it's not reached a#maximum genetic possible length just YET as I'd thought it had maybe lol.. perhaps I could slowly gain a cenitmeter or two#here and there gjbjh.. Unfortunately incredibly doubtful it will ever be down to my knees though as I had wished. oh well.#image 6 - writing again... as always... Slowly chipping away... And looking for ways to make it go faster lol. The original premise was 8#main characters with 6 quests for each. Then it was 5 with 6 quests. Now it's 4 with 4 quests each. And even that I'm like hmm... what#about having only 3... so it could be done faster... lol.. I think mostly just because I have no gaurantee of investment. So it's like#I could spend years and years doing 500.000+ words of writing and then have about 3 people total actually play the game and nobody cares#and nothing ever comes of it. You know? So I have to balance that somehow. And rather that put out the 100% complete version#be putting out like 'here's ENOUGH of it for you to see what the concept is and what it's like. and IF theres any investment then I#can put in the effort to finish the few bits that I left in more of a preview form'' type of thing. And then it's like.. well if I'm#limiting the initial scope anyway - how much is enough to cut away? and how much would be TOO much? etc. etc. I'm pretty sure I#already have it down to a balanced minimum but some days when I'm very stressed over my ability to actually finish anything I'm like..#ehhhh..maybe I could make another main character into a side character.. as a treat lol..#image 7 - cabbage noodle beef stir fry sort of thing. As usual I kind of cook the beef too long because I'm afraid of getting sick if it's#underdone despite preferring medium rare steak lol.. Funnily because usually making something at home has the advantage of you#being able to do it Exactly The Way You Like It whereas me cooking meat is often like.. ah yes.. the worse way that I dont even like. love#to make a tough chewy anxiously overcooked protein puck for myself. :3 Images 8 - 10 -- various plants from the deck. though#some of these pictures are old and they're no longer alive lol.. Most of my plants actually do live through the winter because I#painstakingly move them inside and outside and inside and outside depending on the temperatures. But sometimes.. one cannot#help but be lost. Especially the temperature change sometimes can make them more prone to mold and stuff. and humidity is#hard to control indoors. There's always one or two that deteriorate despite my best efforts. But that's better than every single one of the#dying because they alll freeze when it gets to 20F one night and I left them outside or something lol#ANYWAY.. hrm.. still working on friend quiz thing... and sculptures.. and videos maybe?? costumes... rghhhghhrrr.. (< to do list angst)
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When people ask how I am doing today I will try not to say "I feel like I am dragging my own rotting corpse behind me but I might make it to winter break before I collapse" and instead say, "hanging in there!"
#I was on a call on monday and the person said you seem exhausted long day?#And I was like no long decade#Long month#Long week#Alternative is that I have been saying it's not that my job is so hard it's just that I so profoundly don't want to do it#People really relate to that#I should mention i work in clean energy policy and trump being elected makes my job suck#It's so much grief for the world and the work i got to do under biden that I can't do now and climate grief broadly#It's real#zenaida talks (too much)#It's not that this is my first rodeo I'm just so fucking sick of the goddamn rodeo
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#just a heads up if it seems like I'm blogging and normal: I am not#have genuinely been struggling between planning either... suicide. or to run away from everything#idk all I can even say is I'm just capital t Trying. right now. for anything#so I'm distracting myself somewhat with stuff like finishing fgo stories and whatever#All I want is to be treated with a little dignity.#and I feel like lately nobody does or people just assume the worst of me and then blame me for it#or infantilize me or act like I'm some fucking animal to be observed and trained#this is on top of the amount of stress I'm going thru at work being the person who comes in clutch while Everybody calls out sick#so yeah I have been contemplating ending it all lately because I can't fix myself and I kind of don't want to#regular posting may return idk#we'll just have to see how this next week goes#I just ask people to not take out their frustration on me I am already dealing with everybody I ever known taking it out on me right now#and treating me badly and blaming things on me because they know I can 'handle it'#so I'm struggling between 'it's really me that's irrevocably bad everyone else is right' and 'everyone is taking their depression out on me'#and I just. can't. take it. anymore.#and I don't have the energy to defend myself because every day someone asks me to take responsibility for some nonsense or try to mediate#and i don't have time for my own feelings right now so I'm just driven to try and hurt myself#and I couldn't even talk about this for a week. I would hear myself or another alter telling me to shut the fuck up and stop being dramatic#I couldn't process anything#I couldn't physically or mentally even conceptualize telling anyone anything because it all just seemed so stupid to me#and it kind of is?#but I don't really know what to do about it.#so here I am. Still here for now. I don't know. I don't feel like anyone can actually help me. I'm well aware that nobody Can help me#so rose is forced to be alone once again while whatever this is passes or changes shape. idk#long tags //////92829
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I am like completely spiraling without the structure, deadlines, and social life of school BUT it’s really easy to ignore that spiral day to day so Also grad school was psychological torment for other reasons
#the executive dysfunction has never been more disastrously worse and that’s the source of 70% of my self hatred sooooo#my job has me managing my own tasks and time and brother. I believe in the importance of what I’m doing but that does not translate to#getting it done on the schedule I wish I was doing it. that I should be doing it.#it’s all long term slow tasks to chip away at that no one ever checks in on except me#and it’s not like oh ok slack off like. it’s a museum job. I care about these objects and thsi museum#also having zero real life friends to see in person is fun.#at least my parents have a dog. love her.#also being sick for two months isn’t helping like it’s really fucking with my physical and mental health#I’m so unbelievably disappointed in myself every single day for things I know I need to do and just don’t.#I probably do need like. actual treatment BUT that isn’t going to happen anytime soon so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#I’m fine I’m just having a bad week for my mental health
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Having a high pain day and I just want to cry (some more).
#I don’t remember if I had my meds this morning but I suspect not#and I saw my Physio and he prescribed a new exercise but today we didn’t have time for acupuncture or massage#and i just have the bad brain juices right now from being in pain for so long#think I’ve hurt since an hour after I woke#just low key but inescapable low key ya know#also upset because i didn’t effectively communicate with my Physio#I wonder if he’d have done something different if#instead of saying ‘this has been a high pain month’#I said ‘there were days this month where not once was I pain free’#fucking sick of that word
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i dont kno what my body is doing but ive been waking up so sick everyday n then after like 10 mins it just Vanishes
#at first i was like o this is nice actually itll spare me from the usual horrors of my body being (tmi) horrifically constipated for a bit#its been going on for So Long#every single day#n its so out of character for my body#i dont know whats goin on in ther.....#might just be its still fighting the stomach flu i guess but i never had these symptoms when i was sick#i just hope it doesnt become the new normal o(-< i dont need a new gross body trait
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#yesterday i had this moment where i cried so much and so hard in a way i haven't cried in so long#it was a moment of pure soul crushing grief. it was like i had lost my dog already. i felt like i was never gonna see her again#(she's still here. tired and sick and currently sleeping. being very loved. still here.)#i was talking to my mom and sister a couple of hours ago and they said they had a moment like that too yesterday#and i think for me that was an extremely difficult but necessary moment of acceptance#in that crying i let go of my fear and denial and fully accepted that there is no getting better this time. she will be gone soon.#and god animals are so very sensitive aren't they? because it's like my other two dogs know too.#it's like thay had that moment of acceptance as well. they were so quiet yesterday. they didn't eat all day.#it's unbearably painful. i'm extremely sad and my heart is shattered. but i'm glad that i'm at peace#no dog has ever been as happy and as loved as she has been her entire life. i'm sure of it. and me and my family are going to be okay.
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I often try to remind myself to interact more with the fandom, that I should make more friends and have a better sense of community. Look for more people, read more fanfics, broaden my horizons.
And then when I do that-
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Let's say I am once again reminded of why I am so fucking insular in the first place.
#it has been a long fucking day guys#you wouldn't believe the shit show I dealt in ao3 recently#and that's not even mentioning the other shit I saw today#the denial#the stupid ship wars#on both sides honestly I had needed to scold ghostflower shippers before#the racism#recently I found a fic that got me fucking sick of how much antiblackness it had in it despite Miles being a protagonist in it
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no ones ever gonna understand how much i love daigo doin this stupid shit after dissolving the tojo
#snap chats#is this a gaiden spoiler. its been like five months catch up you nerds#ANYWAYYYYY NOO I LOVE HIM ....... this whole bit is like four seconds long but i love it so much#i just reminded myself i should probably make gaiden/y8 videos for daigo.. i'll make it a JP/ENG comp or somethn.. one day#not soon tho like its barely anything since he's not in those games Long At All but still. im lazy 💀#excuse me while i gush about daigo for twenty minutes now because hehee HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T GET OVER IT#this is literally the middle aged equivalent of going yippee like YOU CAN TELL HE'S SO RELIEVED IT'S SO CUTE#got the energy of a student with crippling anxiety after they somehow get through giving a presentation without throwing up#AND his lil smile ......... thank you gaiden you made me wanna eat drywall with daigo's sad puppy dog eyes about kiryu#and then immediately made up for it a minute later#sorry i keep scrolling up to look at him and i love him so much. what if i threw up#i dont like using babygirl lightly but this is actually the most Babygirl frame of him ever ive decided#thats my boy .... i love my boy so much ..... he's so cute ... come so far in life congratulations king ..... ily ...#him lookin up at the sky for a minute just to breathe i know he thankin god for the fact he somehow isnt dead yet#im gonna ignore the fact all of this was for naught so i dont bash my head against a wall anyway stan daigo#im gonna be sick i love him so much#if i redraw this later shut up. i love him...#this is why i try not to look at cutscenes anymore cause when i do i feel my brain being put in a microwave and start to melt#its not my fault i love my guys so much .... ok bye i have work to do ....#and then when i finish that work i can go back to loving my guys YAAAAAY !!!!!!!
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