#it’s a miserable cycle

[nicejewishgirl]

I’ve literally been up every 30 minutes and need to be out of the house and arrived at by destination by 8:30 along w/ taking care of everything related to my family/dogs/household. I should try to sleep for another hour… hell who am I kidding… another possible 30 minutes but then it’s always harder to wake up. ahhh the life of an insomniac. getting to sleep isn’t even my problem anymore (it used to be so bad) but it’s staying asleep that just is impossible (especially on antibiotics and some of my other meds). that whole saga in the notes.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Nooooo Bestie, don't go to mad at me island

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[fishandshesmygills]

i fucking hate winter i want to [remembers threatening suicide just harms my loved ones] take down a deer with my bare hands and rip its throat out with my teeth

[unohanadaydreams]

It is genuinely diabolical that szayel lives so rent free in mayuri’s head that when something gives him an Emotion he fucking lucid daydreams entire conversations with the dude

Honestly, he did get a lot from Szayel’s lab and had freshly brought out his Arrancar zombies he copped from the guy, so it makes sense he was fresh in Mayuri’s mind.

But I think it’s less to do with Szayel and more to do with Mayuri’s own words being thrown back at him. Szayel could be anybody; what makes him special enough to tulpa is the clash of Mayuri’s mindset during his battle with Szayel vs Mayuri’s emotional reality laid bare during his battle with Pernida.

He fell to the same hubris that he mocked Szayel for. On top of almost dying from failing to recognize hallmark powers of a Quincy; something he has spent INSANE hours putting study in to the point that Mayuri is out here bragging he has nothing else to learn from Quincy as a whole.

Szayel is dead and Mayuri killed him with upmost disrespect and mockery. He represents stagnation in discovery. Szayel deified his own prowess and was proven mortal.

Just like Mayuri is post-Pernida.

It would be too painful for Mayuri to simply admit to himself that he genuinely loved Nemu and was scared of losing her. Or to admit in his own words that he’s frustrated with himself for losing.

That his efforts to treat Nemu like an object didn’t change that feeling within him. That he abused and took for granted his greatest accomplishment only to end up in a position where he has to start all over again. And even if that was always the plan, it’s painful because Nemu was no longer a number. He is losing his fucking mind with spirit Szayel screaming at him because he is just some guy who loves people like everyone else, underneath everything.

Much easier to lucid day dream someone you killed ruthlessly laying into you for *checks notes* getting attached to your pseudo-daughter and being genuinely sad she died. Let alone all the fuck ups during the battle.

[likethexan]

Just realized that Menelaus waging war against the Trojans is almost as much about Hermione as is it about Helen. Think of it: if Menelaus chose to remarry and had children with a second wife, Hermione would’ve been considered a bastard + treated the same way Orestes and Electra were…

[deadbaguette]

You’d think that loving (almost) every character in a media would be great but everytime I think about how much I love every character in the epic cycle I die a little more inside. They’re all so tragic and doomed???? Nothing but misery comes from thinking about them too much

[dragonsarecats]

my personal love letter to adam parrish <3

[wormchaser]

you are complaining about complaining too much while complaining about the fact that maybe people dont like you because you complain too much while complaining about being alone. just stop complaining and do something about it. talk to people. reach out. dont just wait for someone to come to you first.

i have tried reaching out to different people in the past year or so but it never works. i understand its my own fault for letting relationships decay because of my own insecurities and issues but that doesn't mean i can just will myself to think or believe different things about myself. it's a self fulfilling prophecy ; i think people don't like me so i don't reach out so people don't like me etc . i am sure you do not want to hear me list all the things i want to say in response so i will put them in the tags.

[tigtree]

and if i said the lynch brothers????? what then????

[akkivee]

kuukou encourages and believes in jyushi’s strength while firmly believing that he’s a weak person. if kuukou is having a bit of a rough time forgiving himself for past mistakes while telling hitoya that he needs to move on from his past weighing him down in harmonious cooperation, then i hope with every fibre of my being that this is going to be something jyushi and hitoya are actively saving kuukou from (from himself lol)

[windowsandfeelings]

Really putting all my effort into not whining about how uncomfortable I am to anyone who will listen. And failing.

[waspgrave]

I miss the days where art wasn’t Extremely Hard to do. You guys remember when I would draw every day? I remember when I would draw every day . It’s weird how drawing every day makes art not Extremely Hard to do, too.

[numnue]

rereading trc and whelk is so funny because he’s so miserable, bro is just stuck in a constant state of wet cat bc of one thing that happened to him in high school

everything reminds him of a reason to be miserable, my guys two favorite phrases are “sigh i remember when my dad was rich…:(” and “czerny, my high school bestie, would’ve loved this…sigh i remember czerny…:(“

he is literally “:(“ personified

[http-byler]

☆ SMILE! ☆

[deadguydeathmatch]

Dead Guy Death Match Round 3 Poll: 1

[willosword]

thinkin bout that one scene in invincible where mark and his friends are all hanging out but he just hovers alone by the window all tense until eve conjures him a non-alcoholic drink so he can join in and have fun :(