#it wouldve been a nice finish to the journey

[4giorno]

okay if i can get 70 pulls in 7 days c6 wrio is mine

[oscconfessions]

OMG HERE COMES MY VERY HOT AND CONTROVERSIAL TAKE!!!!!!!!! we didnt get enough of the Girls in ONE

i get its about liams journey to Stop ONE and all but its kinda hard for me to get attached to scenty/amelia or moldy or taylor because its either they didnt have a lot of screentime or they just werent given enough characterization for me???

i think it wouldve been nice if s2 wasnt just Liam Convinced Bryce To Go On His Journey To Stop Airy, and it also showed how much the contestants changed or have become insane in their many many days trapped in the plane. like yea there were the ONE investigations and it did wonders telling us what kind of person amelia was before the events of the game but. man oh man.

im not bashing ONE or cheesy!!!!! im just saying id love to see more of the girlypops. but ONE is finished already isnt it 😢

-🦕🍗

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[lifeonmarz-blog]

12th House MOON Synastry Relationship Stories

🖤🖤🖤

My last four flings moon has been in my 12th house. I’ve been in two of of theirs. I’m a Scorpio moon with Pisces in the 12th house. I always attract pisces moon men. It also doesn’t hurt that my Mercury & Venus are in pisces. My Sun & Venus are also in the 12th house. 

~Person #1 (Both ways)

Our relationship was short lived (6 months) but we both agreed it felt so much longer. Our relationship was long distance, that was a first for me. Actions on both our ends gave us trust issues. We both questioned each others motives. New information would come out and make us question each other, LIKE WHY WOULDNT YOU SAY THAT SOONER. It’s like we new what we wanted from each other but wouldn’t give into what the other person wanted (also bc of mars opp pluto composite) I really felt like I loved him and honestly without much reason. I assume he feels the same. I still feel like our journey isn’t finished yet.

Person #2 (His Moon in my 12H)

This guys moon fell into my 12th house. I see him mostly as a friend we flirt and realistically he’s more compatible with me than others but he doesn’t have his shit together so I just don’t see myself taking him serious right now. Sometimes I feel bad bc I feel like i’m using him for emotional fulfillment and not returning the same care in return. He has been trying to get with me for yearssss. Now we actually have a friendship. I avoided him for awhile bc he had sex with my ex bestfriend. Even though we aren’t friends anymore it was still kind of weird to me although their fling was a one night stand, that just bugged me for awhile. We vent to each other and i feel like i can rely on him to be a support system. I’m still a mystery to him. 

Person #3 (His Moon in my 12H)

 Number 3 was nice but I was intimidated by his financial success and maturity. He chased me for awhile then when he noticed I had lil anger he bowed out pretty fast. Id say i subconsciously sabotaged that relationship by feeling like i didn’t deserve to experience nice things and i felt like i wasn’t on his level. This is stupid yes, but this is the 12th house were talking about I was suppressing this shit.

Person #4 (Both ways)

So this guy had been my crush on instagram for awhile (like yearsss) so we finally start talking and this ended pretty quickly as well bc of mars conjunct pluto and venus opp uranus (i was uranus). I was the pluto person and his temper was short but he was the one who couldn’t handle the relationship. I felt like we wouldve been reallllly close if he had a better temper. He actually really reminded me of myself unfortunately. I liked him and the way he expressed himself. His mars was in my 8th house so he was really invasive about wanting to know about my childhood but i actually liked it. He picked up on little things very easily. 

Closing statements:

I met all of these people online and haven’t met any of them in person because of blockages in our way (really mostly arguing) but distance plays a role as well. All of these started off as crushes. One sided for the men with their moon in my 12th and from my side with #2 and mutual with #1. They disturb something in my psyche for sure. They trigger certain parts of me where I feel I lack. 

-Luv of MARZ

[tuiyla]

thank you for answering :) i wasnt sure if you were tired of this discussion hahaha

i think that it's a little strange how they wanted to make tatum the s1 leighton and tried to villainise her but then accidentally wrote her to be a little too nice to leighton earlier. had she been just a little bitchier or that they showed another scene of her not being too nice, it wouldve come across better and we wouldnt have this wtf? moment. im not sure if you're familiar with the show, but another tweet pointed out how accidentally likeable tatum is and compared the reactions to her (assumed) departure to how the reactions were to penelope from legacies (the tvd spinoff). and that kind of hit the nail on the head for me. i think it doesnt help that gracie dzienny pulls off that "mean top bitch you would root for" so well. maybe they shouldve watched her in first kill 😂

i just wonder how theyre gonna write leighton and alicia now since they sort of used up quite a bit of plot they couldve used for s3. and considering midori is on greys now, i wouldnt be surprised if they had to rip them apart just to accommodate any potential scheduling conflicts. it just feels like they shot themselves in the foot here a little. had they not write off tatum so quickly, they couldve given themselves space just in case that happens as well.

it all just feel like wasted opportunities. youre right in saying its easier for us to sit back, judge it and think we couldve done better after they already finished the job. especially considering how volatile the fate of hbo's projects are right now. but it just feels so wasted because the show already had a good chunk of people loving it and it also naturally grew this season. it couldve just been so much better, but of course we dont know what went on behind the scenes.

not that i dont deeply love the show, i really do and i get really excited every week. but if this happens again next season, then it'll just a little painful to watch subsequently because all i'll think of is how it couldve been better. and thats saying a lot considering its already quite a great show.

I’m really just missing the nuance from how Tatum was written. I mean, there is a way to have her be as supportive as she was and for her to still, ultimately, be someone who reminds Leighton too much of a version of herself she wants to change. But to pull that out of their asses and toss Tatum aside despite all the good qualities she’d been given, nah that ain’t it.

But in that sense I’m not sure Tatum was accidentally likeable. I think they cast Gracie for a reason, surely, a reason beyond that she kinda resembles Reneé Rapp. I do think the creators put enough thought into it to consider that Tatum would inevitably be likeable to many and I don’t think the intention ever was to completely villainize her. Nor would that be a good story. It’s just... there’s such a disconnect between her first three episodes and how easily she’s discarded. Once again I can only say that it was lazy writing and that’s what I find upsetting.

I’m just curious to see how Leighton’s journey continues, and I do hope they put more weight behind her social awakening in season 3. There is the question of how she can continue being with Alicia when Midori might not be available for as much as a love interest of a main character should be, but really I just care about Leighton. If they write Alicia out in episode one I am gonna be upset ngl lmao because then what was the reason? Ah well, we’ll see. I take comfort in the show’s apparently good numbers and that it was renewed for season 3 so quickly. But one can never know in today’s fragile streaming market and especially with HBO Max and their bullshit so I hope the show doesn’t alienate its audience in season 3. I fear the season 2 finale might have done some damage; valid or not is another matter, but yeah it’s tricky with audiences nowadays. But also, like you say, it is a great show and I enjoyed season 2 very much despite my criticisms, and I just wish for the pacing and other adjacent issues to improve in season 3. I feel like by the third season a series should be mature enough to have that stuff figured out.

[bobzora]

GUESS WHO BEAT PEE3 TODAY (fes, the journey at least)

(lengthy) final thoughts:

ryoji is kind of. um. "that was my name for a while. i didnt mind it." hes kind of trans. is the thing. also bro 100% drew the shortest stick in this game lmao

obviously ryo/mina isnt quite the same as some of the other insane peesona gay people (2,5. 4 is gay but not rlly insane) bc like. in that form at least we only know him for like...two months?or so? but. u know what. they r t4t and both (kind of) dead. good for them.?

jumpscared by "the arcana is the means by which all is revealed." ive been seeing that shit in like. youtube comments since the day i was born. insane

nyx was like. pathetically easy. to the point where i felt kinda bad about it lol. at least its funny. this is what happens when u have level 99 protag + black viper lucifer (+ messiah for salvation for ailment healing. i could just use me patra gems but its more stylish this way). nobody ever got below half health and most phases (minus last bc of the halved non-almighty damage + gown) were a 1/2/3 hit kill. guys who overlevel because they just love the velvet room so so much (and im prolly not gonna do ng+, especially with portable port on its way (femc!). so trying to experience most that i can)

i did cheese the reaper a while back. used thunder reign strat. was actually harder bc new moon rebalance nerfed the shock rate so its not 100% lol. but took advantage of its ai to get it stuck in a break skill loop (akihiko dekunda sweep) the money was nice, and i spent soooo much time in monad levelling personas. wont be able to do liz fight bc not doing ng+. (slightly related: ive played pee5 so many times and ive never actually tried the twins/lvnza/jose fights. vanilla 1 time, royal 1 time, royal again for a friends playthrough but its not ng+, ng+ for 100% royal but only up to exams...royal for another friend's playthru. lol)

yuka/mitsu is real. to me. theyre even the colors of the lesbian flag

i maxed most social links besides magician (bc hes annoying. surt wouldve been nice tho), mitsuru (got up to like 8 then ran out of time), fuuka (trapped at rank 1. dont like her enough, not enough time. sorry. i played with english voices u know how it is), yuko (accidentally reversed her), justice (i know. who would have thought. started her wayyy too late.), keisuke (hes soooo cute like. i wanna look like that tbh. but fortune isnt useful enough and i ran out of time)

speaking of social links i literally hate how they work in this game so so so so much. i dont want to date all these girls! let me hang out with other girls please... this is the biggest example of romance making all these games so much worse. like. what the hell. (aigis is like. the only good female social link (that i finished) (maybe bc she isnt very much a girl))

another mechanic i hate: NOT BEING ABLE TO PICK INHERITED SKILLS. is every ps2 era megaten game like this? i love love love 'sona/demon fusion but it is so much harder to make stupid crazy builds when u have to reroll over and over again. literally just a timewaster. what could have been...i cant believe my lucifer is still weak to ice. WHO USES PEESONAS WITH WEAKNESSES. IN THIS DAY AND AGE????

the extremely strange continuity with 1&2 is fucked up to like. nickelodean sitcom cinematic universe levels. u know.

im still fixated on 5.i make that very obvious. and i do like 5's overall story better (royal being a very big portion of that). but GOD i love love love the theming of this game.

those strega guys r definitely fucking. i literally do not care about them but thats kind of just a fact.

the concept of artificial personas (that kill you) (that u have to take meds for which eventually kill you) REALLYYYY fucks me up what a BANGER CONCEPT. JESUS! JESUS. gg kirijo group.

chidori...(wretched)

akinari... (very wretched)

i dont think i have a favorite. tbh. like i like mitsuru because i like women and shes hot but character wise shes not actually super my type. i like ken because hes the most fucked up ten year old in the world (justice bias). aigis is crazycrazy theres stuff to be said abt her (characters who give metatron bias). yukari is a mean girl and i like that about her (lovers bias). ryoji doesnt have that much screentime for obv reasons but thematically hes cool (guys who beg u to kill them bias). i like the protag a lot (protag bias). yeah

OBVIOUSLY i knew we were gonna die. and when. and where. and how. but :( head in aigis's lap, brushing away her robo-tears... didnt cry but wow this game.

joshua peefee christ figure moment

kimi no kioku is the best 'sona song. period. nyx (avatar)&nyx (nyx) songs go hard too. but man!!!! kimi no kioku!! LOVE how its kind of a motif in so many other parts of the soundtrack, especially near the end...a unifying melody, an overarching theme.

forever from now ill prolly watch the movies just so i can make an amv. this game needs an amv. and unlike pee5 the animovies should cover most of what id want to say in one!

after the answer, ill finally be able to finish eternalpun. im so sorry ive neglected you guys, my friends...my pee2s....

kimi wo i will never leave you <3

[azrielsribbon]

!!! A COURT OF SILVER FLAME SPOILERS !!!

Alternatively, Asli finished the book in like six hours and has many, many thoughts.

ON THE TOPIC OF NESTA, SOME CASSIAN AND NESSIAN AS A WHOLE.

holy shit. this is a lot.

She has grown so much, and I mean that by the little things.

I love that sjm didn’t make it so she was addicted to the wine and sex

Okay I understand Nesta was frustrating sometimes because she really was stubborn but some of the shit Cassian said was really out of line. Especially when he screamed that no one like fucking liked her.

Cassian was down so bad this entire book and I knew that the moment he said he hadn’t bed a female in two years. He was STARVINGGG

Her determination in getting down those stairs, I probably wouldve tested myself down a window or something.

I liked how she bonded with the House. It was a refreshing, different take on loneliness and finding a friend.

The House and how it looked after her. It was the biggest thing in her journey.

One theme I see in Nesta a lot is self sabotage, especially when it means the safety of others. She’s ready to throw herself in front of them.

Her banter with Cassian was really nice to read.

WHEN SHE MENTIONED HAVING A THREESOME TWICE I DIED

Cassian and his backstory was rip. It was really sad thinking about how little kid Cass really regretted some of the things that even he couldn’t control.

sjm did not disappoint with inner thoughts. Those were really refreshing.

She wasn’t vividly jealous or furious at Mor and Cassian’s friendship and I really liked that take.

Cassian’s silent jealously when Helion tries to flirt with Nesta and she dodged it LMAOOO

When Cassian kisses her in front of their family to help her get out of the map

Her silent bond with Az! That kept me going honestly. He was a sly bastard sometimes.

Sometimes I really questioned somethings, like those fast smut scenes but that’s just my preference.

Her marching down to Amren’s after she finds out they voted against her having the weapons she Made

Not to mention how she told Feyre about the baby and the labor risk out of anger, that really hurt both of them and me.

When she stayed silent during her punishment hike with Cassian. Each thought tore me apart.

When he warned her about falling and she was glad he didn’t see the expression on her face. How she didn’t mind if she fell down and how it would better.

When she cried after all those days of silence and finally told him how she felt underneath all that.

He softened up fast too and blamed himself for not realizing all this time why she hated the fire.

Can we talk about that dancing scene with Eris? And how Cassian was secretly exploding on the side as he remembered her mother wanted her to marry a Prince just like Eris.

WHEN ERIS ASKED RHYS WHAT HE WANTED IN EXCHANGE FOR NESTA TO BE HIS BRIDE AFTER LIKE A COUPLE DANCED LMAOO

The Solstice scene had my heart. The gift Az got Nesta and how she hugged him after he told her about it. How Cassian smiled at the sight.

HOW CASS GOT HER A LITTLE MUSIC BOX RECORDED WITH THE MUSIC FROM THE BALLROOM AND HOW HE ASKED THE MUSICIANS TO PERFORM IT FOR HIM AFTER EVERYONE LEFT SO HE COULD GET IT FOR HERRRR

They really kept shit away from each other till it exploded in an argument and that’s a reoccurring theme with this book couple.

WHAT MADE ME SO FRUSTRATED WAS HOW HE WANTED TO STAY IN HER BED AFTER SEX AND SHE WANTED TO CUDDLE BUT THEY DIDNT SAY ANYTHING AND ASSUMED THE OTHER DIDNT WANT IT

The topic of mates was RUSHED. Like I mean really rushed. First they argue, he says shackled and then the next time they get to speak (after the forced Blood Rite and labor scene) they accept it? I dont know, it didn’t sit with me.

I wish Nesta would elaborate on why she didn’t believe in Mates even more and Cassian would actually listen for once. Again, rushed.

The ending was fast paced in my opinion. We could’ve really had more to go off of, I needed more domestic Nessian.

ON THE TOPIC OF NESTA, GWYN, EMERIE

I am obsessed with Gwyn, Emerie and their friendship with Nesta.

I love how Gwyn and Nesta started, both gritting their teeth and still appreciating that aspect of each other.

How Nesta raced to help her with a book even when their first encounter wasn’t the friendliest.

Gwyn being persistent in paying back her small debt. I love her.

When Gwyn applied to defense lessons after Nesta defended them from the scholar priestess.

Emerie, my homegirl. I love her to death. The way she easily befriends Nesta, how Nesta stands up for her when her cousin comes to bother her.

I don’t know if it was just me, but Emerie and Mor might possibly be something. Either good friends or interested lovers.

THE WAY EMERIE BONDED OVER SMUTTY NOVELS WITH THE OTHER GIRLS AND LET THEM BORROW HER STUFFFFFF

Gwyn helping Nesta with her research on Valkyries. Muah.

Gwyn and Az, I feel like something might happen here and if it does, I do not want any Elriel drama getting dragged in, MY GIRL GWYN HAS BEEN THROUGH ENOUGH OKAY

Gwyn thinking she doesn’t deserve the purity jewel the other priestesses wear and her backstory honestly just broke me. She endured so much.

Emerie and everything she lost. Her mother, her brother, her wings and any dreams she had of flying. How she distracts herself with work and gardening to keep that off her mind.

The way the girls all developed inside jokes, jokingly hanged up on Cassian at training and always had Nesta’s back.

The way they were dedicated to each other even during the Rite when they couldve let one another behind and won.

HER SISTERSSS I CRIED I WOULD DIE FOR THIS MF TRIOOOO

ON THE TOPIC OF THE INNER CIRCLE + THE ARCHERON PARENTS

Fey-ruh was pregoooo she and Rhys raw dogged it

I felt really really bad when no one fucking told her she would die because the baby had wings and she wasn’t fit to give birth like that. Like. What.

Can we talk about how they fucked when Feyre was in her Illyrian form and didn’t think the thing through?

Rhys, I can’t stand the guy. First he wants to make a bargain with his mate that they die together and then he wants to keep it from her that she can die when giving birth to their kid.

I think what pissed me off the most was when he was trying to help Cassian get Nesta out of a nightmare/power “episode” and had to experience what she did with the Cauldron and seeing Elain and Cassian hurt. He said he knew she was feeling something but seeing and feeling it yourself was different. Yeah, what else did you think smartass.

Rhys has a habit of keeping important shit secret, Amren is no better either. I think that’s what pissed me off the most. They sometimes kept the too important shit away.

As much as Nesta grew, so did Feyre. They both developed pretty good in my mind, I don’t hate her as much as I despise Rhys sometimes. All and all I love how she and Nesta ended up.

Amren....I get her point about Nesta using and abusing their friendship. At the same time, sometimes she was too harsh.

Elain, darling old cottage core aesthetic Elain. I found her to be a little insufferable sometimes. How she showed up unexpectedly at the Library to talk to Nesta and they got into an argument was funny to me since Nesta pulled out some stuff on her.

ELAIN THANKING NESTA AND SAYING FINALLY AFTER SHE TELLS HER TO “OH FUCK OFF” AT THE SOLSTICE PARTY WAS SO RANDOM

Elain and Lucien is some fucked up shit. I understand how she doesn’t want to acknowledge the fact that they’re mates and all that but you can atleast thank the guy when he gives you a gift on Solstice.

I feel bad for Lucien because as sweet as Elain might show to be, she’s really hurting him and could just reject him if she really doesn’t want him.

AZ AZ AZ I LOVE HIM AND HIS SLY MOMENTS

Az when he cockblocks is the best thing. Do it more often.

Az and Nesta’s bond is something I want to see more, as well as how she literally thought about a threesome with him and Cassian.

Morriiiiigan. Everyone mentions her beauty and how she’s like the sun walking and I admire that. She wasn’t as annoying as I thought she’d be on the topic of Nesta and Cassian being an item.

She also wasn’t in the book as much which made sense since she was in Vallahan. I did like how she accepted Nessian towards the end.

The long awaited Mrs Archeron. Some of my theories about her proved true! About how she groomed her daughters into marriage ideologies at the worst age. 12 and 11? What the fuck?

The way she called Elain a pretty thing with no ambition at 11, no wonder Nesta and Elain have no proper knowledge of survival like Feyre did. She was set on making sure Nesta married someone who would treat her well, Elain married someone rich since her beauty was beyond all three of them.

Literally Mrs Archeron was not okay LMAOOO why are you telling your daughters this when they haven’t even bled yet damn CHILL

I felt bad since she didn’t care for Feyre and only their father doted on Elain and Feyre. Nesta was kept all to her mother to feed off Mrs Archeron’s narcissism.

Not to mention she died a year later

I found it funny Elain mentioned how at 15, Nesta even had their dad fearing her. Like it’s your daughter, wdym you fear her

The backstory on how Nesta treated him and how she feels now looking back. It was saddening and I unfortunately know the regret of not doing somethings. It must eat her alive.

I enjoyed reading this book, even if I wasn’t content with the ending. I tabbed a LOT of things so you’ll probably catch me editing and adding more to this in the morning. Thank you for reading all the way down here! 🤍

[cerinefalls]

𝐁𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐜 𝐁𝐫𝐚𝐭

(𝐴 𝐵𝑎𝑘𝑢𝑔𝑜 𝐾𝑎𝑡𝑠𝑢𝑘𝑖 𝑥𝑅𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑒𝑟)

Category: Slice of life/Comedy

Here today we have UA highschool, a source of trauma for some, and a source of-

"Babies!" Ms. Joke exclaimed with a clap. "Today, hero courses from Shiketsu and UA will team up. You will each be put in pairs and assigned a baby to watch over."

Some students clapped and cheered at the announcement. Others... were not as happy. One of such students was Katsuki Bakugo, a fellow first year at UA.

You looked at him, his grumbles rather hard to ignore. He was exuding a tense feeling. A mix of fear and regret it seemed.

You couldn't stare too long, though. He'd noticed you, and of course this meant he'd have to assert himself.

"Hey, extra! Hell are you staring at?" His face appeared visibly annoyed, yet his hands were in his pockets as if this were second nature to him.

'extras'

A word he used often. This time felt more personal than all the others, though. He was singling you out from the crowd, and an unfortunate wave of attention was sent your way.

You didn't get much of a chance to reply, either. Bakugo was loud, and it seemed Aizawa wasn't up for the embarrassment from this problem child.

"You're with them, Bakugo." The tired man sighed, waving a dismissive hand at his explosive student.

Katsuki scowled, and in this situation, it's best to ignore him. Ignore him you did! Turning your attention back to Ms. Joke.

"And that's all you need to know, really!" The cheerful woman beamed. "Any questions?"

Thank the heavens Midoriya kept notes, otherwise no one wouldve asked for the recap of instructions you'd missed due to Bakugo's outburst.

"Partners will work together over the weekend and care for a robotic baby. It needs to eat, drink, be changed, paid attention to, and entertained the whole time." She explained simply. "This will take place in the UA dorms, and you'll be temporarily moved in with your partner."

Start digging now, because it seemed Aizawa had doomed you in his attempt to quiet the human grenade. Katsuki Bakugo was unwillingly your babysitting accomplice.

You turned to see how he felt about it. His face was unreadable. He wore a mild frown, evident of neutrality, but his eyebrows were raised in what looked to be either acceptance or... dread. It was genuinely hard to tell.

__________

Fast-forward to a few hours later and dorms have been set up. By some off chance, Bakugo chose to bunk with you. How fun! Except, there was a level of discomfort that came with it.

That became all the more obvious when the two of you sat in silence. Katsuki's mattress laid on the left side of the room, yours on the right. The robotic baby sat in a bassinet between the two of you, silent for the time be.

"Those bastards went all out with the preparations, didn't they." Bakugo sighed. He broke the silence with that sentence, leaving room for you to reply.

"Yeah, guess they did." You laughed awkwardly. The silence returned.

It seemed he noticed, because he sighed and stood up, walking towards you with an apathetic expression.

"Look," He began, keeping his eyes averted from you while he spoke. "I get that if we're going to practice taking care of this thing we need to get along, so..."

"Y/N." You introduced yourself. Bakugo was being nice, what a shock. Well, perhaps nice was a stretch, but he was showing a mature level of neutrality to reach a common goal. It was a pleasant change.

He began tapping his foot, pondering his next words when a loud cry erupted from the center of the room.

He jumped at the sudden noise, cursing under his breath. Bakugo attempted to play it off and turn around to look down at the bionic siren.

"What's wrong with it?" You asked, unable to see past his shoulders into the crib.

"Hell if I know-" He was going to continue that sentence, but soon you were both holding your breath. A putrid smell filled your dorm room.

"Oh no..." You'd slowly realized what'd happened. It had begun.

__________

After a long, painful journey through parenthood, the deed was done. Who knew a fake child could cause such real problems. At least you walked out unscathed. Bakugo on the other hand, was no so lucky.

"The hell did they feed that thing?" He grumbled to himself as the two of you walked to the washrooms. You kept the freshly changed baby in your arms while he went to wash his hands.

"It's not like there's real germs involved, Bakugo. Just a smell." You heard someone attempt to comfort your unhappy partner when he'd turned the corner.

"Shut up, shitty hair." So it was Kiri who'd attempted to calm him. Nice try.

Once Bakugo finished in the restroom and was no longer a danger to himself or others, you left the baby with him. It was your turn to wash up, and hopefully this time there would be no issues while you weren't paying attention.

You washed from your finger tips to your forearms meticulously. Why? Katsuki Bakugo despised filth, and he would surely know if you hadn't done as you were instructed.

It was getting late. Almost eight at night, and you just realized something. Earlier in the day, everyone was told to get ready. The washrooms were packed, and you'd had no time to shower. This would be no issue if you were teamed with anyone else, but because of who it was, you had no other choice.

"Bakugo?" You crept quietly out of the washroom, poking half of your body out just far enough for him to see you.

"What is it, Y/N?" He called back. Did he sound... sleepy? No, there was no way. No high schooler got tired at eight. Especially no UA student. The idea was too far fetched.

"Is it alright if I leave you with them a while longer? I need to shower." That came out quieter than expected. It was uncertain how Katsuki felt about children, let alone babies, so asking this was nerve wracking.

Bakugo paused, his face indifferent. It was clear he thought a while before choosing an answer to your question.

"It's fine. We're partners, so if you've got to shower... make it quick. I'm going to put this load of crap to bed." And with that, he got up and left. Bakugo headed straight for your room and shut the door behind him.

__________

'Make it quick' he said. Sadly for him, unless you consider half an hour quick, those were the directives that you didn't follow.

After drying off your body and patting through your hair, you slipped on some nightclothes and walked out of the room. The dormitory was pitch black when you came out. Everyone had a baby to put to bed, after all.

Slowly approaching and entering your room, you were shocked to see it was dark and quiet. Silent even, all aside from the snore of your partner. You giggled. They weren't joking when they said Bakugo went to bed at eight thirty.

The creak of the door as you pushed it further open seemed to wake him, though. He yawned and sat up, holding a finger to his lips. Why? In his other arm was the baby, it's bionic brain fast asleep. You tip toed closer to inspect the scene.

"The asshole wouldn't fall asleep until I laid it with me." Bakugo groggily complained, sitting up slowly as to not wake the uncomfortably realistic techno brat.

"Ah... should I take it so you can rest, then?" You asked a genuine question, but the face your co-parent made indicated he'd taken it as a challenge.

Of course. Katsuki 'don't underestimate me' Bakugo was angry with you for questioning whether he could do it or not. At least he had the head on his shoulders tight enough to remember he shouldn't scream at you. If he did, it'd be trouble for everyone on your floor.

"Since you don't think I can do it, you come join me. Watch this thing while I sleep." He retorted in a shockingly calm tone.

"What? With you? Why would I do that when they put your bed in here so we could have space?" You replied, a bit taken aback.

"So you can see I can do it with or without you. Can't move the damn thing, anyway." Bakugo groaned. He was clearly tired. Cranky may even be the word to describe him.

You shook your head, heading towards your own side of the room. You didn't get very far, though.

"Hey, that's not fair." The tired blonde hothead was clearly upset now, but for what reason was still a mystery. "If I've got to sleep with this thing and you're still gonna doubt me, you have to stay with me." Of course.

You stayed silent for a few seconds, lost for words. His logic made sense, but you weren't sure on whether it was a good idea. In theory, it was the perfect chance for him to prove himself, and for you two to act as a real couple would when caring for a child. On the other hand, this was meant to reflect hero work. Not a family scenario, but one where a child was being babysat. It was a hard call.

Bakugo could sense you were unsure about it, and questioned why in his head. After he finished thinking it through, it made sense to him why you'd hesitate. He turned over and laid back down. "Forget I said anything."

His words snapped you from thinking, and you felt as though he may have gotten the wrong idea. "Wait. I'll do it to watch them while you rest." It was past his bedtime after all, and if you admitted to doing it for his pride he would've chewed you out.

You dragged a blanket from your bed to his, laying on the other side of the baby. Soon enough, you heard Bakugo snoring again, and you were the only one awake in your dorm. Quiet and peaceful, as it should be.

You watched the baby as you said you would. It was merely eight forty five, and had you gone to sleep, the baby could've easily woken up moments later. You wanted to keep your word to him, so you stayed awake and watched over the baby.

Crickets and wind, a calm mix of sound flood in through the window. A sleepy combination of whistles and cool air. Your comforter sat over you heavily, warm and snug. That means when you felt something reach over and hug you, it startled you a bit due to the unexpectedness.

You remained calm. Waking the baby would be an awful mistake. This was confusing, though. When you checked, Bakugo was still fast asleep. This was an unconscious action.

Consciousness aside, it was cute. Did Katsuki sleep with stuffed animals? It would explain why he'd hugged you in his sleep. Regardless of the reason, this comfortable position lead to you dozing off. Sooner or later, silence was spread across all of the UA dorms. The babies had really tired out these young heroes. Perhaps tomorrow would be more peaceful.

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[barnesandrogersfanfics]

Ocean Eyes - Part 2

It was an unusually hot day, so i pulled out Mason's kiddy pool and filled it for him to cool off in. I was sat on one of the sun loungers close by reading my book where i could still keep an eye on him.

"Mom?"

"Yeah babe?"

"Is auntie Hannah coming round soon with Lucas? Im bored"

"They should be here soon buddy" i smiled over at him.

"Okay.... im hungry"

"Fine.... i'll go get you something but you have to come out the water while i'm inside...."

"Oh mom i dont wanna get out...."

"Mace come on now...." i rolled my eyes putting my book down.

"Knock knock" i heard a very familiar voice call out from behind, i turned and stared wide eyed at none other than Scott Evans!!

"Scott.... what... what are you doing here?" I asked standing up and walking over to the back gate to let him in.

"Chris told me where you were, i had to come see you! I've missed you! You stopped replying to my messages and wouldn't take my calls...."

"Yeah i'm sorry Scott, that was a dick move" i nodded, I had been friends with the Evan's since we were kids.... best friends with Chris and Scott "i was dealing with some stuff.... guess i didn't handle it well"

"I can see that" he said looking over at Mason who was sat in the pool with his back to us as he crashed some toys around "he yours?"

"He is, thats Mason"

"Well you gonna introduce me properly??" He asked being his usual sassy self!

"Sure, come on over" i led the way over to where Mason was playing feeling my heart racing, i hadn't been this nervous in forever!

"Hey Mace? I want you to meet a friend of mine...."

Mason turned to face us and i heard Scott audibly gasp.

"This is my friend Scott"

"Hi" he said shyly looking Scott over.

"Hey bud, its nice to meet you...." Scott smiled at Mason before turning his attention to me with wide eyes as Mason carried on playing as if we wasn't there.

"Is there something you need to tell me Y/N?....."

I looked away from Scott keeping my eyes on my son, i shook my head in disbelief..... i did not expect to be having this conversation today!

"You know his a spitting image...."

"I know Scott! Im not blind" i snapped.

"But how?? I mean i know how! But...."

"Hey! Its just us...." i heard Hannah call from inside, she always let herself in.

"Hey.... oh shit"

"Hey Hannah, good to see you" Scott smiled with a little wave.

"Scott..... what a surprise..."

"Han, can you watch Mason while i go inside and talk to Scott?" I asked as i shifted nervously on the spot.

"Sure".

"Hi auntie Y/N!" Lucas said loudly as he ran past me heading to Mason.

"Hey buddy" i smiled at him as i led the way into the house with Scott following close behind.

"Okay so spill it" Scott said breaking the awkward silence between us as he pulled out a chair and sat down at the kitchen table.

"What do you already know? What did Chris tell you about us?...." i asked avoiding eye contact with him.

"Well obviously i know the two of you used to hook up occasionally.... he said he just lost contact with you when you left town"

"Wow....." i scoffed shaking my head "is your brother still an asshole?"

"Why are you calling him an asshole? I thought you guys were friends??"

"We were. Then we were more.....or at least i thought so"

"You two were serious?"

"I guess not"

"He never said anything...."

"Before he made it 'big' with the whole Captain America thing we were serious"

"How serious?"

"Serious enough to get married....."

"Im sorry WHAT???!!"

"Yep"

"How did i not know about this??? when did this happen??" he stared at me with wide eyes and his mouth hanging open as he tried to process the information.

"You remember the weekend in Vegas for my birthday, before he started filming Winter Soldier?....that one night you got food poisoning and stayed in bed..."

"You got married in Vegas?! were you both drunk??"

"Nope, stone cold sober" i shrugged "god i loved him Scott.... he was telling me he loved me and talking about starting a family..... we walked past a chapel and he asked me to marry him. Promised we'd do it properly when we got home...."

"My god...... so what happened?"

"Chris wanted to wait until he finished filming to tell everyone.... or so he said. When he came home once he was done filming he told me we had made a mistake. His career was taking off and he wouldn't have time for a wife..... he was getting a lot of attention from women, he didn't want to be tied down with me did he?"

"Did he say that?!"

"He didn't have to, he was pictured with different women all the time" i shrugged.

"What an asshole!" Scott spat sounding pissed at his brother "how could he do that to you of all people??"

I shook my head as i thought back on the time i was heartbroken.... pining for my best friend... my husband, and he had so easily forgotten about me, i quickly wiped a stray tear away before Scott could see.

"I found out i was pregnant two weeks later. I tried calling him but he never answered or returned my messages..... so i made a choice. I decided to pack up and leave, start somewhere new where i could raise my baby. I received divorce papers shortly after which i signed and returned, i didnt want anything to do with him"

"You should have called me! I wouldve talked some sense into him!"

"He didn't want me Scott let alone a baby.... he made his choice and i made mine" i smiled looking out the window at my beautiful boy "i dont regret it for a second, Mason is my world. He's my perfect little boy.... even if he does look like a spitting image of his father. Thats the hardest part.... its the eyes.... he has his eyes".

Scott was suddenly beside me pulling me into his arms and holding me tight.

"Im so sorry sweetie"

"Its fine.... it was a long time ago.... when Chris showed up here yesterday i nearly had a heart attack!" I mumbled against Scotts chest.

"I bet.... why was he here?"

"Apparently we're still married! That jackass never filed the papers! But now he's seeing someone and its getting serious he wants the option of marrying her"

"You should tell him about Mason....."

"I can't Scott, he'd hate me.... what if he tried to take Mason from me?"

"He wouldn't do that, he might want a chance to get to know his son but he wouldn't hurt you like that....."

"Can you be sure? 100% sure that he wouldn't want to take Mason?? I've seen some of his interviews about wanting kids...."

"Don't you want Mason to know his father?"

"Of course! You dont think i wanted my son to have a dad? I tried to tell him Scott but he ghosted me!"

"Look i love my brother you know that, i know what he was like a few years back, he went through a phase of being an absolute douche bag..... but his different now"

"I'll think about it okay?"

"Okay..... i'll be there for you through it all i promise"

"Thank you Scotty, god I've missed you" i smiled giving him another hug "you staying for lunch? Mason's hungry"

"Id love to".

Scotts POV

Y/N stood at the front door waving me off with Mason, my NEPHEW! I still couldn't believe it.... Chris was a Father!!

I waved to them both as i pulled away and started my drive home. 20 minutes into my journey my cell started to ring, i looked down to see it was Chris calling.

"Hey"

"Hey, what you up to?"

"Just on my way home, i went to go see Y/N"

"Oh.... h..how was she?"

"Surprised to see me, but she was good"

"Good, thats good. What did she tell you?" He sounded worried, nervous even.

"I know everything...." i huffed out a breath "how could you be so fucking stupid Chris?? you married our best friend.... our oldest friend and then left her!"

"I was such an asshole back then.... i know, but i can't change that now can i?"

"No i guess not"

"It was so good seeing her yesterday man, made me realise how much I've missed her. I was hoping we could work things out, be friends at least but.... Scott she fucking hates me!"

"Can't say i blame her....."

"Im not that guy anymore Scott" he said sadly and i knew that, id seen the change in my brother over the years.

"Try and talk to her again, maybe she just needed to get over the shock of seeing you"

"You think she'd wanna see me?"

"I have no clue, but if you want to sort things out with her your going to have to make an effort with her. Let her see your not the same asshole that left her"

"Maybe i should just leave her alone, she's been fine without me...."

"Chris..... i wasn't going to say anything but theres something you should know...."

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[cassyapper]

loving you may mean losing you but i dont mind (jotakak playlist)

dont talk to me about the title of this thing im embarrassed enough

anyway but okay so!!!! very excited to share this!!!! this has been in the works since september but my picky ass finally found an adequate amount of songs so here it is!!!!!! my jotakak playlist (:

special thanks to my lovely and wonderful friend jade for helping me finish this this thing <3

track list nd why i picked the songs that i did under the break!

1. the predatory wasp of the palisades is out to get us! by sufjan stevens i chose this song because it’s all about internalized homophobia and being in love with your best friend as a kid which RLLY resonates w jotakak imo. esp cause in the song, stevens’ friend ends up leaving abruptly, leaving stevens to wonder about what couldve blossomed if they had stuck together and worked through the difficulties together, which JOTARO....THAT IS JOTARO-CORE esp cause kak also “leaves” (dies). so this song was a v obvious choice for me and in fact this song is what inspired me to create this playlist in the first place

2. we are beautiful, we are doomed by los campesinos! this song is abt being in love with someone but you both have ur issues so it’s kind of a mess. considering jotaro and kakyoin’s (to point it quite frankly) trauma and the fact that both of them do jack shit to try and cope with it healthily, this song DEFINITELY fits them. esp cause this song mentions physical fighting and the imagery that goes with it (”he got his teeth fixed/im gonna break them”, “i’ve got a fist on fire”, etc) and the entirety of the bridge/last verse rlly gives me these two’s vibes so! ya (:

3. love love love by of monsters and men this song is the singer feeling like shes completely unworthy of being loved by this important person in her life, particularly because she has NO idea how to show affection and love the (for lack of better word) “acceptable” way, or any way at all really. this REALLY has jotaro vibes cause he is one repressed motherfucker and as we see the entirety of his story, jotaro is full of love he loves so much it’s just he has no idea how to properly express it cause he’s scared essentially. but that didn’t stop people from loving him, in this case, that being kakyoin. hhhhHHh

4. ribs by lorde this song is about being scared of growing up but due to the lyrics being written the way they are, i kinda spin the interpretation of it to be the fear jotaro and kakyoin had on the crusade to egypt, as they were the youngest and didnt know if they’d make it back and everything is just incredibly overwhelming there is so much going on all the time those 50 days. i can do a full analysis on why but that would be kinda long LMAO. for now let’s leave it at they have a very Unique fear of growing up but it still fits with the lyrics. particularly the last bit of the song with the “youre the only friend i need” verses,,,makes me think of these two...

5. can i call you tonight? by dayglow i interpret this song to be about trying to figure out what, exactly, your feelings are for this very specific and important person in your life. since jotaro and kakyoin r both repressed and also suckers of internalized homophobia, i think they fit that theme very well. particularly with the whole “i feel like we’re close, but maybe we’re not actually? what are we?” theme going on in the lyrics, this whole song makes me think of jotaro and kakyoin figuring out their intense and sudden (cause again only 50 days but also, those 50 days had So Much going on) feelings for each other. also the “now i’m no longer alone” line in the chorus HHHHHHH that’s them

6. la la la love song by toshinobu kubota ft naomi campbell SO I KNOW THIS SONG IS KINDA JUST FLUFF but we need some light-hearted moments in this thing hjgg;. ALSO toshinobu kubota is canonically jotaro’s favorite musician so i wanted to reference that and this was my fav love song of his that i’ve found so far so (: also the “you are my shining star” line,,,heh

7. truce by twenty one pilots so this song is very soft. it’s about tending to wounds and taking a moment before continuing to push on. it makes me think abt jotaro and kakyoin taking care of each other on the journey (for example the lovers arc/n’doul fight). also the whole “stay alive, stay alive for me/you will die, but now your life is free/take pride in what is sure to die” makes me go fucking nuts that is. that fits these two to a T fuck

8. this side of paradise by coyote theory this song has big “two lonely people are in love with each other for the first time” vibes and OHHHHHHHHHH THAT’S JOTAKAK.... there are a lot of little lines that make me specifically think abt these two, such as “love so strong it makes me feel weak” (jotaro-core...), “if you’re lonely come be lonely with me”, “i’ll be yours if you’ll be mine” (wanting some security while ur in love for the first time is common but especially for these two i think it works spectacularly) but yea this song as a whole is just...ohhh them. theyre in lvoe HK;FNJFL

9. i saw you in a dream by the japanese house EVERY. SINGLE. LINE. OF THIS SONG IS POST-EGYPT JOTARO. EVERY SINGLE LINE. and the ghost the singer talks about seeing? they hadnt changed at all? they were such a pretty vision, a perfect hallucination? BRUH... just listen i could do a whole analysis on this song it all just fits jotaro mourning kakyoin throughout the years so so so so well it makes me feel nuts holy shit i just. literally every line. every line fits i am not joking. i cried when i first heard this song LMAO

10. video games by the young professionals SO LMAO obviously kakyoin’s epic gamer moves are being referenced but beyond that i interpret this song to just be the fun parts of being in love esp when ur young (backed up with the “kissing in the blue dark” and the “watching all our friends fall” lines). also the chorus just makes me want to cry cause just, happy jotakak moments PLEASE. “the world was built for two only worth living if somebody is loving you, and baby now you do” THEYRE NOT ALONE ANYMORE THEY FOUDN EACH OTHER IM GONAN WAILLLLLLL oh my god. im nuts theynkjNJKNJF also “i heard that you like the bad girls” please. these two shitty teenagers

11. ikanaide by sohta ft. yuki kaai this song is abt not wanting someone u love to leave u cause youll miss them obviously but also ur scared of how the time will change you and if it’ll make you unrecognizable eventually. big post-egypt jotaro vibes 😔 especially cause one part of the chorus translates to “i shouldnt cry, i shouldnt cry, but the truth is i want to say dont go” and im jus like OHHHHH NO IT’S JOTARO FINDING OUT KAKYOIN DIED jkfnNKJFNJDhkld

12. therefore you and me by eve ALRIGHT. god this song is one hell of a doozy. i interpret this song to mean being sincerely in love but youre in the wrong place/wrong time. considering the uh Whole Situation in part 3 there were definitely better times to fall in love for these two. jotaro and kakyoin try to be happy w the moments they do have (i think the second verse in particular adds to this sentiment what with the selfish ghosts part) but they want a better environment understandably so theyre also just kinda ignoring things until they can properly care for a relationship. but well...who knows if theyll live to make it to that better environment ):

13. mayonaka no door/stay with me by miki matsubara this song is a v sweet sentiment abt like “it’s not just heat of the moment!! i do care about u a lot!!” and asking the person u have feelings for to stick around. big kakyoin and jotaro vibes as it would be easy to call what they have a fling considering how relatively short of a timeframe they had but i genuinely think their relationship was deeper than just that and this song nicely reflects such. “jotaro and i will share a room cause we’re both students” fuckin head ass

14. a thousand years by sting oh sting.... so since sting is kakyoin’s favorite musician canonically i had to add one of his songs here as well but beyond just that i do think this song fits them!! it kinda gives me big “if not in this life, then the next” vibes which is a big uhhh thing for jotakak. they may be doomed to tragedy but the moments they have together make the tragedy worth enduring ironically i feel like this song is mostly from jotaro’s pov considering i dont think he ever completely got over kakyoin and this song def has that kinda sentiment but hey it fits them...

15. mr loverman by ricky montgomery SO FUNNY STORY i actually REALLY. REALLY didnt wanna add this song at first cause i felt it wouldve been...idk too cliche? i guess? and i was ALL kinds of picky when choosing songs for this playlist HOWEVER. eventually i relistened to it and read the lyrics while thinking specifically abt jotakak and it actually rlly does fit quite well KJDFN; another jotaro mourning song ): it’s not just the chorus tho the whole song fits jotaro immediately post-egypt but also i feel like some time around part 4 this sentiment would come back to him cause Yknow. Gays In Morioh and the mess of his family life back in america. it just aches for him cause while he’s happy josuke is happy he wishes he couldve had that for him and kakyoin too but yea jus ... them

16. you by petit biscuit an instrumental?? in a ship playlist?? yes that’s right much like mr loverman i was hesitant to put this song in cause it’s harder to justify since i dont rlly know much abt music (and not to b controversial but interpreting lyrics and interpreting music r two different things) however i really think the vibes of this song fit jotakak. it’s got a somber melody but the keys of the piano are high which im taking to mean “light in the dark” which. jotaro and kakyoin (along w the rest of the crusaders) were each other’s lights in the dark. also the ending samples a conference/lecture talking about space flight and like. star platinum. space symbolism. jotaro. yeah

17. saturn by sleeping at last MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. this song is all about losing someone very close and important to you, but reflecting on the good they brought into your life rather than the pain of losing them. this song also has HEAVY space imagery which stardust crusaders is absolutely chalk fucking full of so also it’s a very philosophical song and considering that jotaro and kakyoin are both Nerds and both got a nice view of the stars/space in the desert with each other, im sure they had conversations similar to the one highlighted in the song. i think it’s a good note to end the playlist on cause kakyoin is dead and jotaro is the survivor but it’s not a mourning song so much as jotaro taking the love he had for kakyoin and pushing forward with it allll th way into part 6

but yeah that’s the tracklist! i might add or take away a song or two but this is mostly it (: hope yall enjoy!

[hinasho]

i saw someone ask the question “if you had to choose who would die in The Long Night who would you pick” and that’s such a strange but also fun question i want to answer it. so my picks would be:

the deaths i’d keep:

melisandre, theon, and jorah dying is already fine. the first two’s deaths were satisfying and fit their characters perfectly (melisandre finally found her purpose and theon finally found his way home). jorah also just needed to damn die ahdjchs. i can’t imagine his character being of any use in the episodes after tbh. tyrion was dany’s hand now, grey worm commanded the unsullied/her fighting forces. jorah served his purpose episodes ago so him dying here, and especially dying to protect dany is fine and fits well.

beric’s death being in TLN is fine, but i’d just change how he died. i’d rather he have played a role in defeating the night king rather than simply saving arya. i know she’s the one that killed the NK, so technically he did, but still. i’d rather him have played a more important role in directly dealing with the NK rather than dying alone and left behind in a hallway.

ed like jorah served his purpose. in 8.02 we got that really sentimental shot of the last three nights watchmen standing atop a wall (of winterfell) so them reuniting right before the end was beautiful. ed dying was fine. just hate that he died saving sam like wow talk about the survivor’s guilt.

visieron dying was fine.

the deaths i’d remove:

lyanna mormont. i know she was a kid so she stood the least chance of survival, but it’s fantasy and tbh the child lord surviving after taking down a giant and living to old age and being seen as a legend would’ve been really cool. “the youngest lord to kill a giant and survive the long night” would’ve been a nice tale to have to her.

the unsullied/dothraki. now since these are a people, ofc some of them had to die. i’m not saying save all of them. but the instant extinction of the dothraki is terrible and the majority of unsullied dying is also tasteless for the simple fact that these are the two groups in winterfell that consist of mostly poc and most/all of them fucking die. it’s bad. especially bc??? this isn’t even their home????? the Whiteness™️ to write these two groups of color dying for white people they not only don’t know but who also openly look at them with disdain. what the fuck.

the deaths i’d add:

(here’s the kicker lol)

brienne. she’s served her purpose! she finally got the stark sisters to safety back in their home and kept her promise to catelyn. and then not only that, she finally became a true and official knight in 8.02, her lifelong dream. her dying in TLN would’ve been fine bc she’s finally accomplished all she’s wanted and i think would’ve died at peace. it also would’ve been sad bc shes such a great honorable character.

grey worm. him and missandei giving their “what will we do afterwards :)” hopeful speeches, finally being officially and comfortably together, is what wouldve made his death, while expected, still hit emotionally regardless.

gilly in the crypts. not little sam, just gilly. it would’ve been heart wrenching seeing her die, and i don’t think sam should’ve found out until the morning after/after the fight. this leaves sam to raise little sam as a single parent, kinda contrasting his awful late father. sam doesn’t have much while his father had everything. sam would be the dad to little sam that he wished he had.

the hound. specifically defending arya. beric wouldn’t have been with them and would’ve been off doing smthg involving the night king, while the hound is the one that sacrifices himself to save arya.

tormund. listen i love tormund so much but him dying in TLN wouldve been good. the army of the dead was his fight, not the fight for the iron throne, so his end being here would’ve fit. but there is the issue of them making him the one and only face of the free folk we know now tho. in the earlier seasons we had mance, ygritte, karsi, etc. so one of them dying was fine bc we still had other characters representing the free folk. the fact we only have tormund now, while emphasizes how many of them has died, from a writing standpoint is more of a hinderance than anything else bc now he basically has plot invincibility. i’d have probably had karsi survive hardhome somehow so that least if tormund died, we’d know who the next leader of the free folk could be.

ser davos by defending a little girl. specifically that little girl we meet earlier with the scar on her face. it would be his way of being there for another little girl even tho he couldn’t be there for shireen. i think mr “i don’t fight” dying by protecting an innocent child would bring him peace and would be satisfying (while also emotional).

a stark ffs!!!!!! idk which one, but one of them should’ve died. it would’ve sucked major ass and probably would’ve been tear jerking, but i still think it should’ve happened. preferably at the very end of the episode as the final character death. in my head, the perfect candidate would probably be jon. in my perfect world, the storyline of him being a targaryen wouldn’t exist, so he’d still be ned’s son. as a nights watchmen, him and the white walkers have always been connected while him and the iron throne have not. him dying here, most likely giving his life to ensure the white walkers are finally and truthfully gone forever, would’ve been a good end.

BONUS: deaths that, if were to happen, would have to happen during the fight for the iron throne

(now in my perfect universe, the FFTIT would’ve come before TLN. regardless tho, some characters were more connected to either storyline so their deaths/final endings should reflect as such in whatever order the storylines happen)

jamie. he’s survived a lot of stuff, so if his death were to occur at any point, it should be during this. it would also be a nice full circle since he began this journey killing the mad king so him ending the journey to ensure cersei, the mad queen, is off the throne wouldve be pleasing.

gendry. i like him and it’d be sad to see him go, but him dying for the iron throne, the throne his father essentially died because of, would be interesting

arya. after doing smthg that would directly involve cersei’s death. cersei’s the only one left on her list (well besides the hound but tomato tomatoe) so arya dying to finally finish avenging her family would’ve been interesting. she’s basically turned herself into a weapon at this point so her death being her hitting the final target would fit.

(in my version, this would also leave bran and sansa as the last remaining starks. and since bran is Smthg Else Now, essentially just sansa. a parallel to how ned was the last of his siblings.)

i think cersei is an obvious one.

the mountain. specifically at the hands of the hound (bc ya know in my version the FFTIT takes place before TLN).

those are the ones i can think of off the top of my head. but yeah! if i had to pick and choose who died during TLN (and who didn’t), then these would be my picks :]

[letsboldlygomotherfuckers]

hello u dont gotta answer this i just saw ur tag on the jack post about rose being in the parallel universe and how he shouldn’t know that But i just watched s3 and in utopia the doctor tells him that rose did it and then later in the radiation chamber that shes trapped there so. only telling u bc it drives me bonkers when i think i notice a plot holebut actually now that im thinking abt it he doesn’t know doc put her back after journeys end so actually you’re right in the end what a journey i just had god im going bonkers now why did nobody ask what he was gonna do w the metacrisis why did they all just brush past that

this ask was a journey lmfaoo but yeah as far as jack knew rose (and maybe tentoo, who knows what he assumed (threesomes he assumed threesomes)) stayed with ten, he had no idea he would drop her back off in the parallel world and honestly no reason to think he ever would, like its such a minor thing to nitpick over honestly but like if theyre gonna bring up rose why do it sloppily??

(ngl i literally wrote a ficlet on this exact topic as soon as i heard about jack coming back bc i knew they werent gonna do it right, i wasnt even expecting them to bring it up in the first place lmao, anyway i wrote a lil confrontation scene where jack was like nice good to be back ok so wheres rose? and 13 wouldve absolutely avoided jacks gaze and been like droppedherbackintheparalleluniversewithtentoo and jack wouldve been like sorry you WHAT anyway we can only dream of the writers ever giving us anything that meaningful at this stage lmfao maybe ill finish that one day)

[smileykeijser]

Hey, I'm having a bit of a rough night. Do you happen to have some piece of writing you could share? About anything, really, I just need to read something good

hello lovely, I’m sorry you’re having such a rough night, here’s some sort of finished elippo smut that’s been in my drafts for a while (it’s unfinished but can definitely be read, there is a tie off point). 

Elia’s hot breath wafted over Filippo’s ear, gravelly voice breaking the spell they were both so taken with, “I need you now.”

Elia could hear the shaky breath Filippo let out, right into Elia’s ear, thrumming with desire, and at the very highest pitch, so faint Elia could barely hear it, a whimper, something needy and delicious that bled across Elia’s tongue and coated his tongue with lust, thick and heady he could lap it up with ease.

“Eli,” and god, if Elia thought he had had a difficult task a minute earlier holding himself back from ravishing the beautiful boy in the middle of an alley in thick air that was steadily growing darker, the temptation only grew stronger with his own name perched on the boy’s tongue.

“We’re going to go home, you’re going to strip down to nothing but your tattoos, and I’m going to fuck you senseless baby,” and at that, Filippo let out and ungodly sound, guttural and overdrawn, just like the ones he breathed out when Elia was hot and hard inside him. “And I’m going to turn your ass nice and pink, just the way I like it.”

“Please,” Filippo whimpered, desperate fingers clinging to Elia’s shirt, cock growing hard against Elia’s thigh, “please.”

“Let’s go,” Elia initiated the separation, withdrawing from the embrace with reluctance weighing his limbs down, taking in the shuddering frame of his boyfriend as they clasped hands and walked   — no tumbled —  down the alleyway.

They expertly wound their way through short-cuts that halved their journey, and soon they were at the door, Elia’s fingers tiptoeing under Filippo’s shirt, pressing heated points into his skin, causing the boy to fumble with his keys, cursing Elia’s inability to keep his hands to himself under his breath.

With the door closed behind them, Elia wasted no precious seconds delaying the inevitable, not when he could, with a few steps, press the boy to the wall, and map Filippo’s body with his own. So he did, pushing through the thick, lust rich air to press their legs together, to feel the outline of Filippo’s hard cock against his own, to puncture the tension with his lips on the boy’s skin.

He flirted kisses down Filippo’s neck, pale skin warm beneath his lips. The way he was rewarded with feather light brushes of breath from his boyfriend encouraged him to go gentle, to kiss the tender patches to elicit the most expressive sounds from the boy and lick swooping paths up the column of his throat. However, the way Filippo’s fingers were digging into Elia’s waist, sharp, bordering on painful, urged Elia to nip, to bite at the skin, to suck purpling marks into the flesh that would bring Filippo arching up towards him, leaving him desperate and needy.

It seemed Filippo appreciated his taking the second path, as the moment Elia bit the juncture of his neck the boy practically whimpered in his ear, tugging at Elia’s hips in urgency, trying to grind their cocks together, even though they were still confined to fabric chambers. The feeling of Filippo’s hot cock through his jeans was nearly too much for him, he reigned himself back lest he spin the boy around with rough hands and tug Filippo’s pants down to launch an attack against his asshole. Lust flared within his core, hot and sparking desire through his entire being, revealing a demanding side to him, to the part of him that craved the boy more than anything, and from his lips, without his own consent spoke sharply.

“No.” Licking a circle around the newest of the bites, darkening with every second, his hands found Filippo’s hips, forcing the two apart.

“Fuck,” the word trembled on Filippo’s lips, finally falling, as Elia’s eyes took in his. Filippo’s eyes were always dark, it was, in Elia’s opinion, one of the most compelling features the boy posessed. Whether they were the only dark thing in a morning ringed with sunlight or he fell into them like the night sky around them, Elia could never tear his own eyes from them. That time was no exception, in fact, the pupils were threatening to swallow the iris, and with the already hazy look about him, Elia couldn’t help the guttural grumble that he released.

Elia remembered the way Filippo had shivered at his commands back in the alley, how he had done nothing but shudder in his arms, and then Elia spoke. His voice sounded barely his own, sharper around the edges, deeper, commanding.

“Get on your knees,” and for a moment, just a moment he wondered if he had broken the spell. If suddenly the dulled edges of reality would sharpen and Elia would let his tone even out again and they would work each other through their orgasms with lazy hands tugging at cocks and lips pressed together with no urgency. He would’ve taken any route to orgasm with the man he loved, but when Filippo sucked in a burst of breath and blinked out a cluster of fluttering eyelashes before lowering himself down, eyes clinging to Elia’s like a lifeline, Elia felt his insides become molten.

Elia thought the sight of Filippo, the boldest, most confident person who was normally so rich with comebacks, kneeling before him at his express order, was possibly the most gorgeous thing he’d ever seen. Filippo’s eyes were wide as saucers from the angle, and an almost giddy smile was curved upon the boy’s sinfully pierced lips. He made Elia’s mouth water, and with a dominance that had only recently revealed itself within him, Elia reached down and roughly combed his fingers through Filippo’s colourless locks. The move was sharp enough to tug on the boy’s head, and Filippo’s head tipped back easily, as if he hadn’t been resisting the motion at all, happily bearing his throat with unabashed enjoyment.

“Now,” Elia spoke, fingers still nestled in the boy’s hair, which was even more mussed than it had already been from their night out. At the sound of Elia’s voice, Filippo’s plush pink tongue darted out, swiping across his lower lip, as if he was lapping up the situation as much as could, savouring the taste of Elia’s demanding voice and demeanor. “You’re going to take my cock out and put your pretty mouth to good use.”

Elia shuddered as Filippo snapped to in an instant, fingers zipping down his fly with expert ease, as if he had been patiently waiting for Elia’s say so to jump to action. Filippo’s hands worked swiftly to shove Elia’s pants down around his ankles, never breaking the heady eye contact they were holding, and with one last artful flick of his wrist, Filippo tugged Elia’s cock from his boxers. Instantly, despite the forced break of eye contact, Filippo took the head of Elia’s cock neatly between his beautiful, slick lips and sucked, roping a litany of praise from Elia.

“That’s it baby,” Elia panted out, pressing his palms against the wall to brace himself as he pressed forward, watching with awed eyes as his cock slipped even further into Filippo’s mouth without fault, Filippo just clung to Elia’s thigh with one hand, using the other to tease Elia’s balls.

“Fuck yeah, Filo, you take my cock so well,” Elia mumbled as Filippo’s tongue worked its wicked way around his length, rough compared to the slick heat of the rest of his mouth, and incredibly addicting. “I could do this all day baby, just push into your gorgeous mouth, it’s like it was made for my cock.”

Elia’s ramblings were spurred on by the whines Filippo let out when Elia spoke, the wavering, shaky, high pitched frequencies that rumbled along Elia’s shaft and sent tremors through his being.

Elia was no stranger to the suction and heat, the expert that Filippo’s blowjobs were, but he was alight with the power, the control he felt, his hand tight in Filippo’s hair, choosing just how fast the strokes were, or how luxuriously lazy they could turn, all from his hand, his touch. And when he felt himself near to falling, hitting the craved high like a ton of bricks, he had the control to stop.

Even though he could think of little better than the look of Filippo’s cock stretched lips swallowing him down, and the pink tongue he could feel rubbing circles under the head of his cock reaching out to lick up the excess come, or having to suck his own fingers into his mouth to get the come off, he imagined his cock, shades darker than Filippo, sliding in and out of his tight hole, constricting as Filippo crashed into his orgasm, had him practically seeing stars.

Elia forced himself to tug his hand backward and pull Filippo’s lush mouth from his cock. Filippo made no attempt to lick up the spit that dribbled down his chin, a concession for his come, Elia thought. Though Filippo’s eyes had not left Elia since he ceased having his cock down his throat, Elia tipped the boy’s head back even more, looking deeply into his eyes, dark as ever and pliable under his touch.

Seconds, taut and hefty passed, and finally, Elia spoke.

“Look at you,” Elia pulled an extra tug at the boy’s hair, nudging a satisfying ‘ngh’ from his throat, “totally wrecked.”

Peripherally Elia spotted a movement, Filippo’s hand drifting toward his own crotch, where his cock was, no doubt, excruciatingly hard and trapped in the agonizing and unrelenting pressure of his jeans. Elia easily could have let it slip and let the boy palm himself on his own term, but no, tonight was his, and so he nudged the boy’s foot away with his own, and under the touch, Filippo’s eyes gleamed.

“As soon as I let you go, you’re going to have a minute to strip down and present yourself for me on the bed.”

With Elia loosening his grip on the boy’s hair, Filippo nodded slightly. “And one more thing, “Elia added, “don’t you put a finger on your cock.”

[namuneulbo]

week nineteen

this week was so much fun !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

monday was a normal school day and after that i spent a lot of time packing.

tuesday was yet another normal school day and in the evening l was part of a tiny concert thingy and performed two songs so i went to support her. there was no where to sit so me, e, m and s had to stand through the entire thing.

once i came home i finished up packing and around 11 my mom drove me to the train station. it was a lot of firsts for me that night so i got a bit overwhelmed and cried a bit. nothing too bad but i got a bit teary-eyed. it was my first time travelling alone, it was my first time on a night train and it was my first time on day ferry in YEARS. i havent been on a day one since i was like,,, 10?

i didnt sleep too good on the train (i had a compartment) but i slept way better than i wouldve on the ferry. i slept w the window cover open so i could look outside when i couldnt sleep. it was quite nice just very loud and shakey.

idk if ive mentioned this before but im terrified of sleeping at ferries and in general a lot of stuff about ferries freak me out a bit. i think its just the concept of a big heavy ass boat in the middle of nowhere... HOW DOES IT FLOAT? anyways, the day ferry was a lot better. i get quite anxious at night so i think not being anxious helped a lot w not shitting myself. i went w the newer boat that i used to like less than the old one but after travelling w it alone i learnt the layout of it more and i understand it now and the internets good on it so i honestly have no complaints about it now. i had prepared for shitty internet so i had my phone filled w games that dont need wifi, i brought my mouse and mousepad so i could play sims (although i ended up just making sims which doesnt really require a mouse) and a book (more specifically we will get through this night).

oh right, i forgot to tell u where i was going, right?

i went to stockholm.

once i got there wednesday evening, i met up w my sister at the subway station. she helped me charge my subway card and then we went straight home since it was evening and we were both tired.

thursday was quite uneventful tbh. not that it was bad, just we had no plans. i did go into the city by myself which was exciting. i went to three stores, the first one being punkt shop. i had in mind to get some patches to iron on my jeans bc of an eyeliner spot i got on them so i wanna cover them in patches. minhyuk would be proud of my custom jeans.

anyways, i didnt find any cute ones there so i continued my journey to bengans to look at albums. ig i originally didnt plan on buying any but i did have in the back of mind a thought going “if they have shape of love or a wjsn album, im gonna get it” and what did i find? ONE SINGLE SUPER YUPPERS! ALBUM. it actually wasnt there the first time i looked when i just looked around quickly but i went back to really study their sortiment and there it was thanks to the person who put it back and only got one version of it instead of both. the purchase was so impulsive i literally grabbed it the second i saw it, did a lil jump in happiness and went to queue to the cash register. the people in front of me had all been looking at the kpop section at the same time as me and i had accidentally started queueing in front of them so i asked if they were queueing and they were like "yeah" and i apologized and went behind them. one of them (HOLDING A MONSTA X THE DREAMING ALBUM) was like "omg wjsn!!" and i was all like "yes! omg! theyre my fav group!" and they were like "save me, save you is their best song!" and i was like "totally!" (i lied, i dont have a fav song). i then took that moment to mention monsta x too since OBVIOUSLY there was a fucking ujungbebe in front of me!!!!!!!!! (for context, i ult monsta x and my fav gg is wjsn.)

ALSO HI IM SORRY IF THE SPACES ARE WEIRD IM WRITING THIS ON MY PHONE ON A BUS AND I WAS WRITING IT ON MY LAPTOP BUT IT DIED SO UHHHH ILL FIX IT ONCE IT HAS SOME BATTERY !!!!

well, i walk out feeling happier than ever bc i now have my first wjsn album and my first gg album in general. i went by tiger to, once again, look for patches but they had none.

friday. THE day. conan gray concert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i went to queue in the morning and arrived around 10 am. i happened to walk past two ppl on my way there and it sounded like they were talking about conan so i turned around and asked if they were going to the concert and they were so we walked to the venue together. in my itzy era. not shy! not me! itzayyyyy!

well,, i queued two hours alone before l arrived. i did kind of expect it to be awkward but not THAT awkward. we hugged and then barely talked. like i said earlier i was in my itzy era on friday so i even brung myself to ask questions and she only replied w short answers and stuff and it was hard to keep any convo going w her. i dont blame her though, she mightve been really shy and i know what thats like.

so u know, technically i kept myself company all of the seven hours i spent queueing. i didnt talk to the ppl i met at the subway station either. only every now and then wed exchange some words. i went on two bathroom breaks, one when i went to the closest mall to get something to eat and to also pee and one like an hour before enterance. i was so stressed for no reason on the second one. i had been contemplaiting it for like 40 mins before deciding to actually go.

since i had vip1 tickets i was part of the group who entered first. i realized there and then that i couldve just arrived at that time instead of queueing bc everyone got mixed up and the number system we had made in the afternoon was all thrown in the trash. we walked in and got our goodie bags. i didnt check them before coming home that evening but they consisted of a tote (THAT IS THE CUTEST TOTE EVER AND IT WAS A REPLACEMENT FOR SOME CAR DICES BUT I PREFER THE TOTE SM MORE), a necklace, a lil wooden box and a signed post card thingy.

since i had vip1 we entered first bc of the q&a. i had been a bit stressed in the last queue inside the venue bc i thought i would get a shit spot but i ended up getting one person in front of me and throughout the concert i got pushed to barricade so i spent like 70% of my time w a barricade spot !!!!!!!!! i was so happy since i brought a pride flag and it was so big i couldnt hold it up unless i was barricade.

the q&a was amazing. i was a bit sad they couldnt use all questions but conan was the sweetest ever. hes so effortlessly funny. we werent allowed to film so i didnt but i think it was nice to really be in the moment. i could feel myself just staring at him in awe. he also sounded sm like what he does on video???? like ive noticed that a lot of the time, celebrities have a more high-pitched voice irl but he sounded really like what im used to. hes also even prettier irl???????

then we waited more and mallrat came on and her and her dj were amazing and so hot. i hadnt listened to her music beforehand but she killed it live !!!!

then.... conan. omg. HE WAS SO GOOD. hes such a good performer and i was just in awe the entire time. i feel like i had quite a good mix of in the moment and recording too but i think my goals for my next concert is to be yet a little bit more in the moment but i think kot being allowed phones during the q&a kind of,, helped w that since all my focus was on him obviously. we also had like eye contact for 5 secs so were married obviously.

now. to the best part. oh my fucking god. okay. so. during people watching he walked down the staged and went to run past us and like give us a running high-five and i touched his hand !!!!!!! well, our fingers BUT it was something BUT it gets better,,, the second time when hes running the other way he grabs my pride flag and holds it for the rest of the song!!!!!!!! oh my god, i love him endlessly. i was shaking so much and i couldnt even sing along i was just,, in shock. like, yeah, obviously i was trying to get him to take it since i was trying to make it as visible to him as possible and waving it during and after songs so i was expecting it but yet when it happened it felt like a dream. conan gray has held my pride flag. i can die happy.

after the concert a security guard gave it back to me and i was smiling so widely and while walking w it it felt like the biggest flex ive ever done in my entire life and i think it was tbh.

saturday. i went out to eat w my sister and her boyf. we had vietnamese food and it was so good omg?????????? i loved it and the restaurant was so pretty.

later we walked through monki and weekday before heading to the store. they had just gotten fully stocked w vegan chocolate so my sister wanted a bunch of it. we went home and watched some program while having a salad for dinner and the salad was so good ?????? i always eat sm good food while im at my sisters place bc her boyfriend cooks so well.

we then played board games and had some snacks. it was a really nice way to end my short trip. i also got my sisters boyfriends old the 1975 sweater which is lit !!!!!! i love the 1975!!!!!!

oh and my sister and her boyf lives w their friend and shes the sweetest human ever. shes always so invested in what im doing and what i like and she makes me feel so included all the time. like when i was looking through the album i got she saw and got so invested and asked me a bunch of stuff and she complimented it sm and made me feel so listened to even though she doesnt listen to kpop :(

so yeah, i left this morning and my sister accidentally turned off her alarm in her sleep so she couldnt say goodbye. i was a lil sad bc i love hugs even if theyre the sad kind. i think i get a lil extra emotional when i hug my sister too bc my familys not that touchy but when my sister moved out we always hugged when we met and before we left. like, the first time i remember like,, having skinship w her is when i was like 14 and we were holding hands so we wouldnt get lost in the sea of ppl at a twenty one pilots concert. bruh, i feel like crying, i love her sm.

i went up on the wrong side of the subway station so i had a little longer walk and i got a bit stressed towards the end even though i knew id arrive in time to the ferry terminal. this time i went w the older boat and omg it sucked ass? i cant believe i used to prefer it over the new one. its so shaky and has so little charging stations and has such ball-sucking wifi. never again. i did get to watch some yt videos though and i had a lil conan gray marathon in the morning while the internet connection was good and then watched monsta x stuff throughout the day. ive been in love w the inssaopp videos w minhyuk and hyungwon. i can feel them becoming comfort videos. i love inssaoppas editing and concept and stuff, its really funny and then add my fav kpop group in the entire existence of kpop groups to it + my ultest ult bias of ult biases???? perfection.

im writing this on the bus omw to the train station. ill be waiting at that train station for two and a half hours and i was really nervous about it earlier since its in the middle of the night in the middle of nowhere but theres quite a lot of ppl on the bus so i feel safe and much less anxious rn. this thing literally scared me more than the ferries when i realized it after booking the trip.

sotw: conan gray - people watching

[ialwayswanttobesomeoneelse]

why the fuck how the fuck do i give up 

how did i become to exist in this space

a common place to reanimate

make myself i break myself into selfless and selfish

why i try to sell fis that i didn’t catch 

instead of feastin im making out like a bandit

 conning emotions imma make a mandate and articulate 

what i say to monsters that do feel this way 

out of names out of ways to leave this day to repeat this day 

to make believe this way im not ridiculous im just repetitious to my constituents forming a habit out of sea foam dissipating like it’s fake chrome 

wearing off and out like im made of something special that i cant think of 

my brain is jello, toxic, and mush filled with radioactive thoughts i suppress with kush

piece of the pain piece of the pie peace of mind 

but how do i define what makes me real 

what makes me feel when ive no right to even eat a meal

 i aint real but im not fake true to the heart thats hollowed 

programmed to think this to be this to want this to need this to feed this

 inhibition and unrelenting cataclysm of desperation and depression 

filled with webs of paranoia no machete can cut through 

where the spiders keep crawling and intercepting fly by thoughts 

injecting with venomous perilous worries of extreme scenarios t

hat probably wont come to be let alone hurt me but they hunt me 

drain me of my fluids just like spiders do it

 just like i ve been through this all before tally marks on the wall

 two score ago i wouldve never even thought that id be where i am trapped in sardine can 10x 10

claustrophobic wearing robes with nothing else on

 like a creeper reading the paper on their front lawn 

showing the world their stupid dong, that’s the bell class is out but i didn’t learn a thing 

peers who saw me lonely, sad, or upset in the cafeteria where no one would help 

i ask for advice try to be nice but im a doormat to the whole world 

i start to unfurl coming apart at the seam of the crime 

run away for a while skipping the heat landing on my own two feet

 idiot wearing new balance cause I’d fall into deep into that well

a wealth of darkness and hell with nothing but fears and mystical spells

keep me afloat as i drift through the waterways into the sea lost in a journey

 seeing that id been in stagnant pond i confused for being not me

lying to my own portals of who i was who i am where i can go where do i start again 

there’s no finish line waiting for me 

just ticking down time a waste of a spine 

the one in that gutter across the street  

the rest of my affects that wanted to defect from all my neediness and greedy ass trees 

that made me wanna pick up my things in go once the summer starts to fall into autumn