#it wasnt rly the intent but I do like them

[trash-can-sam]

Unrequited serirei I drew quite a while ago. I was just thinking about them again. I think about unrequited serirei a lot actually I have such bad brainworms for them often.  So sorry if this is like. unreadable because of my handwriting.

Reigen can be greyaro or demiaro or whatever you want but I just want yall to know this man is not alloromantic.

[orcelito]

Finished ep 402. Could do without the fatphobic caricature I will be honest

[matoitech]

i saw plenty of the newest gundam series but id like to finish the og still lol

[bigmack2go]

Ok so it’s been two days so i think I’ve finally processed everything enough to talk abt it

(Lmao that sounds like trauma. It actually about meeting sky)

So

Yk he texted me to meet him infront of the bar. I read AT the bar so i didn’t see him for a while (i didnt realise this until today) and the. He came in instead. He was rly confused for a second and didn’t see me. He looked around and the other person other than me (besides the bartenders) was some rly old man. Mind you: i told him what i looked like and that was NOT it and he looked a little lost but in an abnormaly adorable way (he was fidgeting with his hands and ahh. Sometimes i forget he’s human/silly so that was a very beautiful reminder of that)

Anyway so i went to him and i he still didn’t notice me for another few seconds. My mind was blank though so i just stood there like 🧍 until he saw me. The next few seconds are just gone from my memory. (I have extreme memory loss and i didn’t take my meds that day so any second i wasnt hyper aware of what was happening, is just,,, gone. And since i have adhd too, that happens a lot)

well anyway so i said “i made something… well they’re not done yet but” and i took the shoes i made out. I asked if he could sign them and he was just like really in shock. He was really flashed by the shoes but also that i wanted him to sign them. He just looked at them for a while and kept complementing them (i died btw) and then at some point he just stopped mid sentence and was like “wait- hold up, did you say you want me to sign those?!” Like he was Not Prepared ForThat At All. Like bro was so flashed and then i think that thing that i wanted him to sign it hit him off guard idk. I magically had a pencil apear (i hid it in my sleeve before that bc for some reason i thought that was a good idea) and he was like doinh a double take at something he didn’t even look away from? Idk. Well so he signed them and he was like,,,, spelling it aloud and it was adorable and i wanna die. (He also really didn’t wanna sign anywhere he shouldn’t and he was rly unsure and askee a few times”

“Okay lets see where do i— where do you want me— there, i’ll sign there is that okay? Okay. Okay so….. there. S. Mhm. K… oh that’s a weird K. And Y. There. Sky. Thats my name” (thats word by word what he said) (how cute do u wanna be? Him: yes.) and then he gave them back to me and there was A LITTLE HEART BEHIND HIS NAME AND WHEN I TELL YOU I ALMOST SCREAMED IN HIS FACE. It doesn’t look like a heart. More like a defirmed triangle but the intention is clear…

Well the. I asked if we could take a foto. Mind you, my phone has one if thos protection thingys where you cant see the display when you lopl from the side. Anyway i dint remember what he said or when he put his arm around me but the next thing i remember his arm was around my shoulder and his face was like…. Touching mine(?) (that sounds creepy as hell wtf) i was really shaking and i couldn’t see the display i just say that he was frowning a little after not taking another foto. I didn’t think anything of it in the moment and just thought he was still suprised i wanted a foto.

Well now this part i remember VIVIDLY. We were tlking a bit more and i was shaking even more now on account of I WAS LITTERALY HAVING one of SKY FLAHERTYS ARMS AROUND ME TWO SECONDS EARLIER.

Well he noticed i was shaking and put a hand on my shoulder (i double died) and then he like hugged me. (I got revived) It wasn’t like a side hug but also not a face to chest hug, but something inbetween. It was slighty awkward but at the same time not at all and ig even felt sort of casua? This time i was caught of guard and i was just staring at the air. (The bardender saw it and she winked at me and i did like a little silent scream with my face and she chuckled) well that all happened in like three seconds tops. So when we pulled apart (sounds like we were kissing WTF) i was like, ‘ok this felt like a good bye hug, this is a good time to leave’ (i regret that with every part of me.) and i started to leave. (He looked a bit confused. He probably thought i was gonna stay a bit longer, conciddering how we talked earlier)

Now this is where the bad thing happened.

Okay so Sky like,,, realises i’m leaving and he’s like “oh okay, uhm well, again, rly like the shoes and… nice meeting you!”

Now what did i do? The logical thing would be (not to leave at all ever again ever. why did i do that???) to say “thanks, nice to meet you too!” But no. Brain-less little me walked backwards (almost tripped) nodded and said “Guten Appetit” IN GERMAN. (For the record sky does not soeak german. And if he did, what i said was “bon apetit” in german. He was NOT about to eat) he looks at me like the moron i am. Like he looks at me like a literal moron like i’m a crazy idiot or smt. He literally did the Albert face when Race says “I’m famous!”(but i’m pretty sure that was just pure confusion. It didn’t look like an action he had any control over)

Anyway so i blush. Turn around and just,,, get away as fast as possible. When he gained back his composure (which was a lot faster than me obviously) he was like “Wait i still have your magic— oh whatever” (i pretended i didn’t hear it cause i was so embarrassed ydek) well it turns out he still had my pencil.

Anyway so then i texted him like this that “what i meant was nice to meet you too. Sorry. Got nervous” and he said “your fineeeeee” and i didn’t know what to answer but i had already read the message. So i take a screen (no tume for copy paste) and send a message to everyone person i can think of with the question of what to say. (Shoutout to @chaosfairy18 who saved me from an actual breakdown there. She answered rly rly fast)

I ended up saying thanks again and that it was rly cool. Then for some reason i said “also my mom says hi” (she didn’t. Idk why i did that. I legitimately do not remember.)

And thats it. I’ve said most stuff before but you wanted to know what exactly happened so here it is ig

[likablemuffin]

Mikey gets injured or smth idk

(From: random ROTTMNT chatfic)

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usernames: 

Mikey: Glowyboi

Leo: Neon-Leon

Raph: PIZZAPIGEON

Donnie: Bootyyyshaker9000 (of course)

April: Kiwibirb

Also any spelling mistakes is intentional!

Glowyboi: can u guys com help?

                                                         PIZZAPIGEON has entered the chat

PIZZAPIGEON: Whats wrong Mikey?

Glowlyboi: i accedentally cut myse;f with my hobby knife :(

PIZZAPIGEON: Is it a big cut? Are you alright?

                                                          Neon-Leon has entered the chat

Neon-Leon: dud com on tge medby 

Glowlyboi: oh no ita not thats bad! :D ill be finw

PIZZAPIGEON: Are you sure?

Glowlyboi: yep!

                                                           Bootyyyshaker9000 has entered the chat

Bootyyyshaker9000: You'd better disinfect that cut. Because if it gets infected and we have to deal with that, I will not be very pleased.

Glowlyboi: its seriouslt not thst bad dw!

PIZZAPIGEON: Can I come and make sure?

Neon-Leon: i stil sy u shuld go to thr mwdbay

Bootyyyshaker9000: Your writing is genuinely so bad, I'm not joking.

Neon-Leon: ita prefct

PIZZAPIGEON: Why did you cut yourself anyways? are your hands shaking again? Didnt Donnie give you compression gloves?

Glowyboi: yea...i just....wasnt wearin tjem

Bootyyyshaker9000: Mikey... you're ALWAYS supposed to wear them when you're handling something sharp! So that situations like this wont happen!

Glowyboi: i just forget! :(

Bootyyyshaker9000: First, it's "forgot", not "forget". And second, that shouldn't be something you're forgetting about! And how do you forget about that anyways? I made those so you could make your art, and now you're not wearing them when you're making art? I don't understand.

Glowyboi: i rly just forgot!! i ws doing domething with my hobby knife anywaus so it didnt involvve extreme precision :D

Bootyyyshaker9000: I suppose that makes sense. Still, if you're handling something sharp and your hands are shaking, please do wear the gloves. I made them so you wouldn't injure yourself.

Neon-Leon: is thwer blud in ur flpor nw?

Glowyboi: in?? oh on! ya thers a bit but its fine!

PIZZAPIGEON: Why would you ask if theres blood on his floor??

Neon-Leon: bcuz hrs provly blrrdin

Bootyyyshaker9000: Please make sure to clean up the blood. I do not wish to come into your room and see blood all over your floor.

Glowlyboi: gotcha dee!!

Neon-Leon: cn i cme wiyh sum bsndagrs 4 u?

Bootyyyshaker9000: What did you even say???

Glowyboi: yea u can give me sum banddais if u wany! :D

Bootyyyshaker9000: Band-Aid's??? Is that what you said? How do you guys even understand each other...

Neon-Leon: i dodmt

PIZZAPIGEON: Yeah Leo said bandages.

Bootyyyshaker9000: It's close enough!

Neon-Leon: im cmeing mike

Glowyboi: thanks lee!!!

Neon-Leon: np

                                                                           Neon-Leon has left the chat

Glowyboi: c u guys!! :DD

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Bootyyyshaker9000: Leo better not mess this up.

PIZZAPIGEON: It'll be fine.

Bootyyyshaker9000: It better be...

PIZZAPIGEON: Donnie I swear...

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[heartsoji]

being the inarizaki vb club's precious manager hcs

summary: you sign up to be the boys vb team manager bc like why not you'd prob get some good organization skills but you end up gaining some bffs, some bruises, and a whole crew of bodyguards

warnings: a liiiiiittle bit of swearing and mentions of harassment also its not proofread

you signed up to be the manager for the boy's vb team not knowing what it would be like

it was ur second year of high school and u had quit abt 7 clubs bc they just weren't that interesting

not like in a mean way like "ugh! this is too boring for my tastes smh" but just it didn't have any appeal so u smiled and resigned with no hard feelings yk

IT WASNT LIKE A SALTY QUIT U JUST COULDNT FIND ANYTHING THAT WAS FUN AND THAT U WERE PASSIONATE ABT I CANT STRESS THIS ENOUGH ITS NOT LIKE THAT GIRL'S HOST HOPPING THING FROM OURAN

tbh u just didn't rly know what other club to sign up for and the boys vb team needed a manager soo..

they honestly should have just put "babysitting some brats that are somehow the same age" instead of "managing the boy's volleyball team"

they are so protective of you lol

like this one time you let out a little scream bc some random teacher touched your no-no square in a very intentional way

the vb team was THERE in 2 seconds flat

kita stares at him intensely while holding back the twins by their shirt to keep them from quite literally MURDERING THAT MAN

aran calms down ginjima and akagi who literally just start hyperventilating

suna stares at him. hard.

the twins who are unable to attack him just scream

"WHAT. DID. YOU. DO. TO. OUR. MANAGER U FUCKING JACKASS" etc

the teacher got fired the next day funny coincidence huh ?

ANYWAYS

kita is actually helpful

he's canonically good at keeping ur fellow second years in check so lucky u !

hes also rly organized and tidy which is v helpful !

aran is such a sweetie

helps u out in any way that he can

also acts a pillow to some of kita's blunt blows

like "he means that he's sorry bc he realized that he seems kinda unappreciative of ur efforts sometimes" when kita says smth like "sorry for not saying nice words to you"

a translator for kita, basically

akagi shares ur puppy energy so the two of u get along rly well

ur both friendly ppl so its a v sweet and wholesome relationship

u sometimes have to stop gin from making bad decisions but ugs get along well

also ugs r both second years so ur classes r on the same floor so u see each other in school sometimes

as for the main 3 brats AKA some of your fellow second years who somehow become ur new bffs

atsumu is SUCH A FLIRT but like jokingly bc that's just how he is yk

always talking to you and annoying you like atsumu would u just like stfu pls and thanks

osamu is constantly slapping atsumu to provoke him (which is so stupid tbh but works every single time lmao)

is always eating like u turn around during class and he's just eating an onigiri behind his folder 😐

ugs like to gang up on atsumu its a great bonding activity

you and suna r sleep buddies bc u both r so sleep-deprived

well suna's just a sleepy person but u r sleep deprived so ugs will sleep side-by-side during free periods

suna always forgets his lunch so u've learned to pack extra for him

you let him sleep on ur lap and he lets u sleep in his

when the four of u take buses or trains to hang out u and suna always sit next to each other so that ugs can fall asleep on each other

if ur up for it he'll cuddle with u platonically

bc ppl r great body pillows and a good source of warmth

only if ur comfy with it tho ofc

the twins (mostly atsumu but a bit of osamu) will tease ugs abt being a couple but both of ugs just roll ur eyes and go back to sleep lmao

you ended up staying to be their manager for the rest of high school bc of how much fun it is

[bathroomtrapped]

omg okay i had no idea about the evidence bag thing but that is definitely a good explanation for it. i figured it wasnt an actual canon thing for it to be the day before 9/11 but i saw some people taking it seriously so i was just curious if there was any definitive proof to the contrary; it's cool to know that there is!!

i've found one of the commentary tracks (with just leigh and james) and a bunch of clips of the one with leigh, james, and cary thanks to this one youtuber but i cant find the full one of the three of them, sadly. do you know where you found the one with all three of them? iirc the yt channel said the track with all 3 was from the uncut version but i have no idea if thats actually true or not tbh

but ty for ur response i so appreciate it i love getting into really intricate details about the franchises im into so learning even the most minute details about it is so fun!!! like the white lighter detail thing u pointed out... lives were changed, honestly. even if it wasnt intentional its still super mf cool

here is a link to all the commentaries for the franchise! shoutout to the owner bc God that mustve taken time. im not sure if that specific commentary track is on the uncut version or not id have to check my dvds. actuallyyyyyy one sec. okay so apparently my uncut says "2 audio commentaries" and my widescreen version only has one so id say ur best bet (if u wanted to buy one) would be uncut

the white lighter tho... makes me sick to my STOMACH. it makes me ILL!!!!! adam may be 25 or 27 but he died a member of the 27 club. the one club centered around men who died wayyyy too fucking young. UGH anyways. little things like that rly make saw 1 so special to me

[ghosttotheparty]

Hi! me again on my 3000th reread of a mess of holy things and two things

1st this line

“Liking you isn’t the— the scary thing. It’s… what other people say. And think. That’s what’s scary.”

“Right,” Eddie says slowly. Steve looks into his eyes intently.

“We’re not the problem,” he says. “We’re not doing anything wrong.”

literally gives me heart palpitations and a stomach ache but in a good way ohmygod

2nd im curious in your mind what steve was like in highschool? I was just reading the part where steve was telling eddie that he was a bully by association kind of like like he stood there while his 'friends' bullied other kids and he was voted prom king in his senior year and they still called him the hair so theres all the elements of canon steve that we know and love but in your version by the time he is in college to me at least and forgive me if im interpreting this wrong hes more like? quiet and docile i guess for a lack of a better word? he keeps to himself and if it wasnt for literally running into eddie he would have stayed that way. So in your version was he more like canon steve in highchool and then the years of his Parents behavior kind of made him more withdrawn or was it more he was always that way but he was still popular anyway?

I am most likely reading WAY to far into this but this is my favorte version of steve and eddie and my fav hobby is to over think about them so what can you do lol

okay toodles!! :)

hi i adore you

1 - thank you sm i loved writing that scene!!! that whole kind of theme is sososo important me and i love when it comes up in media (rn i can only rly think of the scene in young royals after the video was posted and simon says 'we havent done anything wrong' to wille; i ADORE that line and i think it's so important for characters and audiences to know and rly understand that there isn't Anything Wrong with queer love or queer sexuality)

2 - SO! quiet and docile i think would be a good way to describe this steve!! when he was in high school he was definitely popular but it began partially because of his parents; it was a small town and everyone knew who the harringtons were and assumed what kind of person their son would be, so a lot of people befriended him just to get in on that life, but steve wasn't a party animal or particularly outgoing (he def was a little more extroverted in high school but it wasn't crazy). he ended up popular by association after a little while because he was friends with tommy hagan and the guys that *were* particularly popular and outgoing and threw parties. some of the running jokes (like calling steve 'the hair' and 'king steve') came from the guys liking to pick on steve; they found it particularly funny because he was the quietest and the most religious (?? in a way; everyone knew the harringtons were religious) so they found the irony of their jokes funny

i think this is why when steve started college he didn't really know what to do with himself or how to make friends; it was around middle school that people started befriending him because of his family, so when he moved to the city and suddenly nobody knew who he was, it was a sort of breath of fresh air that came with a wave of loneliness and he didn't know how to feel about it.

anyway i love this steve sm hes my baby

toodles <33

[taniushka12]

For the ship ranking ask:

Hera/Maxwell

Hera/Eiffel

Minkowski/Lovelace

:D!!!! Thank you!!

(w359 spoilers ahead)

Hera/Maxwell

Squick / Just nope / A trainwreck you can’t look away from / Mehh but they are bloody everywhere / Not interested but no negative feelings / I need to see how I could make it work / BroTP / Cute / I love them(!) / They rented a room in my mind and are here to stay

confession, ive never been that big of a maxwell fan, but MAN these two are soooooosososo GOOD they're easily one of my favorite relationships in the podcast!! Even though you know maxwell is Up To No Good from the beginning its so easy to be swept away by their chemistry, and then by the fucking... Behemoth that is the ep Memoria, i almost wished for maxwell not to betray them even though i knew for sure it wouldn't end in any other way ;_; ;O; they're such a tragedy 100/10 no notes, love them

Hera/Eiffel

Squick / Just nope / A trainwreck you can’t look away from / Mehh but they are bloody everywhere / Not interested but no negative feelings / I need to see how I could make it work / BroTP / Cute / I love them / They rented a room in my mind and are here to stay

i adore their friendship!! they're really good!! but gosh i do NOT ship them At All x_x on one hand i strongly hc hera as a lesbian, on the other the fact that eiffel told the tale of his daughter at the same time that hera was down cemented the parallel on my mind, which makes the ship Very uncomfortable tbh :/

(and i Know.. that that wasnt the intention, which is why i dont rly mind ppl shipping them, but its very hard to shake that first impression 😔)

Minkowski/Lovelace

Squick / Just nope / A trainwreck you can’t look away from / Mehh but they are bloody everywhere / Not interested but no negative feelings / I need to see how I could make it work / BroTP / Cute / I love them / They rented a room in my mind and are here to stay

SORRY WOMEN but i just dont see it!! their relationship is well enough and i do like their friendship, god knows they both need it, but yeah i dont really care abt em :/ congrats on the lesbians for being one of the biggest ships in the fandom though 👍

[highly specific ship ranking]

[scourgefrontiers]

im gonna ramble about my old hetalia fandom experience and memories for a minute bc im feeling nostalgic. snip snip

so i got into hetalia in 2012 after seeing a screening with my friend @mephilesthegay at an anime con. i dont remember much about the process of me falling in love with it at the time, but i do remember tumblr was a huge influence on that--i discovered the ask blog community, which was SUPER huge in the hetalia fandom at the time, and i wanted in! so, i made askdeadpreussen, which was my first and most loved hetalia ask blog for an au of prussia where he was...dead. lol. b/c if u know hetalia u know that theres a whole thing about prussia being dead at some point

i think the ask blogs were what really drew me into the fandom part. i had multiple ask blogs--dead prussia to start, and then a BUNCH of 2ptalia blogs...even a 3p/4ptalia blog at one point! it was a fun way to interact with other fans and artists as well as work on my own art skills. i really do miss ask blog days ngl but my energy would not allow for that as much x'D

but ya like. i made so many friends from my hetalia days! i still have a couple :) we've all kind of moved on from it of course and gotten other interests, but we all still have that tying us together

its crazy how hetalia held so many different interest points for me. honestly the base hetalia concept wasnt necessarily what appealed to me (the whole humanized country thing); it was mostly the way the characters interacted with each other and their relationships as people rather than nations. that, and the whole au scene that came from them. oh my god the aus...even the canon ones! its crazy how many canon variants hetalia has. mochitalia, nyotalia, nekotalia, chibitalia (even tho chibitalia is just..them as children so its not rly an au per se)--i consider 2ptalia canon as well b/c the creator made it. but the fandom made so many cool aus themselves as well! demontalia and wingtalia and monstertalia were just a few that i remember and loved!

i think i was way more into 2ptalia than base hetalia anyway. 3p/4ptalia was a big interest by extension but not a lot of ppl really liked 3p/4ptalia. i was one of the weirdos that did x'D i just love "same but different" stuff !!!! i think thats where i got it from, was the 2p/3p/4ptalia stuff

hetalia really shaped a lot of who i am, at least in regards to interests and stuff. plus? the art style i had when i was big into hetalia is probably the best art style i ever had. it was definitely Me, and i still try to use it every now and then--you can see it in my "natural" art style that i try to use sometimes. hetalia really influenced my childhood for better or for worse, including my early art career lol

anyway. all of this to say despite its glaring flaws, i appreciate that hetalia was a part of my life at one point. for one reason or another it got me interested in learning new languages and learning about new cultures, which whether intentional or not, it happened, so theres also that. this isnt me praising it for being ~culturally explorative/appreciative~ or anything like that bc it obviously has its problems, but im just saying for me personally it did open up new worlds and ideas to me that i dont think i would have had if i hadnt been into it--friends, creative ideas, artistic expressions, fandom experiences...all of that was thanks to hetalia for me

so ya. end of ramble there lol

[smoosnoom]

You write so beautifully.

I can't even begin to describe it. I'm super new to the ST fandom but I've had a few ideas and I was wondering if you had any tips on how to properly write the characters? Byler specifically, but the whole party for sure.

Oh, and superheroes. How does one even write about superheroes. Any idea?

Thanks, T

hello !!!!! im sorry for taking literally Forever to finally answer this ask, i hope i am not too late, or that this is still useful when u see this :)

thank u so much !! hmm me personally i am not even sure of how to write characters LOL but ! some things i think help when writing byler are maybe taking into consideration their personalities ! theyre multidimensional and fictional (obviously 😭) but thats amazing because !!!! u can take any facet of them and make it all the more exaggerated, a lot of scenes u see will fed up and rolling his eyes, u could emphasize in on that, or mike being so clueless, all of it is canon and u can have as much fun as u want with it :) there's no real way to write a character because they are all subjective ! do whatever u want with it !!! most likely people will enjoy it, there are so many enjoyable interpretations of them that u usually cant go wrong !!!

specifically for dialogue though, thats a little different !! i quite literally try to visualize and imagine the characters saying it, if the quote has any kind of words that just . sound wrong in their voices or just dont sound like something theyd say, even just by making a character too well spoken sometimes makes them sound out of character . an example could be just . mike being way too confident when he talks about his feelings, he's really articulate but he always includes "i don't know"s or "um"'s or just general stuttering ! i recommend just rewatching some scenes and seeing what words the characters tend to repeat :)

so just in general i think its good to go back to the source material and do some comparing-contrasting with ur work !!! and Remember that its fanfiction, u cant rly go wrong with it :]

and . superheroes . i have no idea 😭😭 i really aimed for humor with my own fic of superheroes, not much realism, so i didnt exactly focus on the semantics of it . but ! i did try to be creative with the verbs iused to describe the way they move, since theyre "super" u can have a lot more freedom with what they do to fight or move !!!!! it depends on what kind of approach ur taking i think ! something realistic verus something humor-based often contrast very much when u try to write them LOL

sorry if i wasnt a lot of help !!! and i apologize for taking so long to reply, it wasnt intentional at all !!! thanku for the ask :)

[industrialgender]

forgot to post this earlier but tolking abt bands i sawwww ^__^

suotana: my 3rd time seeing them yay ^__^ rly good show i had so much fun and was smiling like a dork the whole time. highlight of the 1st day for sure!!!

anima hereticae: hadnt listened to them before. ok bm/melodeath band

kaunis kuolematon: 2nd time seeing them but this time i was at the front and it felt magical

kallomäki: ok dark folk band that puts on an amazing live show ^__^ 2nd time seeing them so i was ready and lining up to be smeared with heretic blood and chanting along

thrown: first band of day 2. metalcore so idgaf

swansong: decent melodeath band w a female vocalist. pretty good but i got the impression they dont have much performance experience

deathchain: good dm band nothing else to say

huora: rly fun female fronted punk band obvs id listened to them before but hadnt heard them live before.

suffocation: screaming crying throwing up. was right at the middle at the barrier and had so much fun ^__^ also i cant believe i got to see the legend terrance hobbs augh

the halo effect: ok melodeath band. hadnt listened to them before. they said they played mostly old shit and more bands need to do this!!

nicole: metalcore/alt metal band so they werent super my thing. the power on stage went out in the middle of their first song TWICE so that was the most amusing part

ingested: 2nd time seeing them and they were ofc great. 3 walls of death fucking killed me tho. missed the last 15 ish mins bc i went to see the next band buy had fun!!

inferia: fun pronogrind band ^____^ super happy i got to see them

body count: i already knew i wouldnt like them so i just chilled and listened to them in the bg (bc it was impossible to not hear them)

horna: augh this band is so good and i was initially so excited to see them but i was so tired and had an awful headache. i hope i can see them again soon and have a better time!

shade empire: first band of day 3. idgaf some ok melodeath/meloblack. didnt listen to the full set

rytmihäiriö: hardcore/thrash type band. ok background music

party cannon: omggg i had so much fun ^__^ literally had it all: pool toys in the pit, wife carrying pit, pushup pit, someone being carried on an infetable orca. this show made me want to dedicate the rest of my life to slam metal

warmed: good bodom type melodeath. wasnt super familiar w them before but enjoyed myself

marianas rest: 2nd time seeing them. only caugh the first 30ish mins of their set but theyre so captivating live omg

blackbraid: good usbm band ^__^ tho there was a cameraman on stage for 80% of the set and he kept standing in front of the band members -____-

thy art is murder: not a deathcore person but i had fun. the pit was SO crowded tho.

kyy: good bm band. had listened to them before but wasnt super familiar w their discog

shadow of intent: like ok melodeath/deathcore band. i barely glanced at the stage but i enjoyed this stuff in the bg tho

verikalpa: ok folk metal band. nothing more to say

satanic north: GOOD bm band. they had someone as a guest vocalist for one song but i wasnt trve kvlt enough to recognize him since he wasnt introduced....

[kyeomyun]

I JUST FINISHED READING AS IT WAS MY GOD SHUT UP SHUT UP WUY R U HURTING ME RGHT IN MY FEELS (im a sucker for Angst nd exes to lover's) SIGN ME TF UP I RLY RLY RLY LIVE THIS TROPE LIKE IT SHOWS IT LITERALLY MAKES ME FEEL.AT EASE THAT ppl outgrow each other we evolve se change no mater how much other ppl try to convince me nd themselves that they are for forever im their forever nd they will be there for them forever (from a frnds pov) im actually sobbing ir started sobbing when they parted ways nd when they said tha k you fir tonight nd all the give yrs like I WASNT FUCKING READY FOR IT TO END THIS SOON 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞SHUT UP U MADE ME SOB nd I literally lovedthe end cuz it was the most realistic nd it literally screams love is all abt letting go

have a good day and take care of urself <33 goodluck for ur school exams u are gonna do well in them cuz I believe in u

OH MY GOD? THIS MADE MY HEART ❤️❤️❤️

FIRSTLY, THANK YOU FOR THE KIND WORDS

:(( i am honestly at a lost right now since this is probably my favorite comment

SECONDLY, SORRY FOR MAKING YOU CRY LOVE 😭 THAT WAS SORTA MY INTENTION AND KINDA GLAD THAT IT WORKED?

THIRDLY, yes many moments do not last forever. they can always last a long time but never "forever". no matter how many times people want to prove to themselves that it can be as such. glad you got the overall theme of it LOL

Lastly, I HOPE YOU ARE NOT SOBBING ANYMORE 😭 PLEASE PLEASE DO NOT CRY TOO MUCH 😭 don't want you having puffy eyes anytime soon ;-;

oh my god, your ask made my day so so so much better so thank you so much for this love

:((

ALSO THANK YOU FOR THE WISHES! I HOPE YOU HAVE MANY DAYS AHEAD OF YOU THAT ARE BRIGHT AND WHEN YOU DO HAVE BAD DAYS, JUST KNOW THEY DO NOT LAST FOREVER AND FIGHT THROUGH THEM! take care of yourself as well and have a good night/day <333

[darthnell]

Omg 🥺♥️♥️♥️ excellent :D

YEAH THE DREAM IS SOMETHING… smthn abt the best sleep ven’s gotten since winning being a combination of sleeping at the foot of her parents bed and dreaming that she died so her gf could live.. yeah..

She is sure going to need a lot of time to Adjust to not being in the arena…. Thats what happens when u spend ur whole life preparing for something and then manage to come out the other side alive..! Somehow!!!! ;-; She will realize this soon…

Haha yeah.. home… ;-; she is going to have a Time returning home for sure.. i will say that she does make it home at some point, they wont give her the full Eri treatment 💀

The chains… :) the chains had to show up some point.. i wasnt able to work this into the mythology of the arena but its kind of a callback to how the gods kept Fenrir bound and chained and stuff.. yeah. Tbh not sure about the muzzle for the rest of her Capitol appearances (i haven’t planned her victory tour outfits yet) but its possible that they’d just use other types of jewelry to keep with the theme.. depends on how her mental state is and how wary of her they are.

Ooh ill put pics at the bottom; i dont have one of Oberon’s outfit bc i made that up in my head but i have Ven’s and Dag’s !

Ahh thank you i loveeee writing Ven’s anger 🥺♥️♥️ its kinda funny bc irl i am very slow to anger but writing really angry characters is so cathartic.. ven will NOT in fact be careful!!!

:D we love vengeance… and righteous anger… sure hope she knows what to do with it…

Re: Apheleot/Aphelion, that is So funny u say that bc. I actually got Bethia’s name from a mashup between one of my characters and one of my friends characters in another friends fic.. and said friend’s character’s last name was in fact Aphelion LOL. I did that bc i was getting to interviews and i was like shit. I havent named this MoC yet. And i wanted it to be a diff person than the one in my later fics, so i turned to my friend who had the other fic and they were like lol do this and i was like fuck it. Sure. JDJXKDKD.. I REALLY LIKE YOUR INTERPRETATION OF IT THOUGH SO WERE GONNA GO WITH THAT ACTUALLY EVERYTHING I DO IS 100% INTENTIONAL ♥️🫶

Haha.. byebye scar 💀💀💀 head in hands. This will have Consequences.

CAR CRASH… its so accurate and also. Rly funny u say that bc it Does make me think of Cry Baby by the Greeting Committee (which is a maritrix song ofc) this lyric in particular (but fr the whole song fucking slaps).. whole song makes me real fucking emo waaugh ;__;

Oh theres also this lyric.

Head in hands .

Okay outfit pictures:

Ven’a dress (imagine there are a bunch of bracelets and stuff there). Also this is the inspo for the muzzle but imagine it’s got a top piece too (that actually makes it a muzzle lol)

And Dagmara’s !

Ngl i was squinting at that pic so hard like “what fucking color is that” (went with pale warm grey i think)

Ty again for reading and leaving your thoughts btw !!! I appreciate them as always and it makes me happy that you’re enjoying 🥺♥️

Chapter 67: Silverfist

Panem is eager to hear from its Victor, but even the smallest notion can pack a punch.

[chisatowo]

I am the only Chiaki fan actually

[evilyisme]

so, last semester, 1 of my fave instructors was discussing the importance of emotional intelligence/maturity within relationships (& life in general). & he told us that after he started going to therapy, he made a rule for himself:

don’t date people who lack the emotional vulnerability/maturity needed to maintain a healthy relationship.

& it’s a gr8 rule cuz my last relationship was screwed over by my partner not having the emotional intelligence necessary to communicate or deal with his emotions in a healthy way. afterwards, i had to keep myself from becoming closed off/distant & distrusting w/others because i’d trusted him so deeply. i trusted him to be honest, to be kind, to respect me. and then he wasn’t really honest & ended up not really being kind & not really respecting me.

(hopefully the “Read more” thing works properly. if not, sorry about the long post)

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if people don’t know what they’re feeling on a deeper level, then they base their decisions on surface feelings. and when people don’t understand themselves, they can’t truly understand others. i mean, if you don’t know how to deal with your own emotions, how can you expect to be able to deal with others’?

tho people don’t generally mean to— i feel like people sometimes use those around them to fill “voids” without realizing it. they search for others who can fulfill a given role adequately & lose sight of the actual humans around them.

people will like or love the idea of a relationship with someone, but not necessarily the person. people will respect their internal/idealized version of their partner, but not their actual partner.

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assuming (instead of listening to) what someone (who has not given you a reason to distrust them) wants/needs/will do (when that person is actively expressing their feelings & being real) means you aren’t really listening to them... and/or don’t view them as a human being w/a mind as complex as yours. it’s disrespectful to the person you claim to respect. it’s hurtful.

it’s one thing to do this unaware and then, when you realize what you’re doing, apologize and try to work on it... but it’s another to have someone make you aware of it, only for you to push the blame onto them.

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1 of my friends mentioned how she “would prefer dealing with an outright asshole over a cowardly asshole anyday.” and i think she’s right. i mean, say 2 people do some shitty things & both get called assholes for it.

the outright asshole will say, “yeah it was a shitty thing to do. i caused you pain. i know i’m an asshole, but i don’t care.”

the cowardly asshole will say, “oh maybe it wasn’t a good thing to do, but if you’re hurt, that’s not my fault. i’m not an asshole, you’re mean for saying that & causing me pain.”

as my friend pointed out, at least the outright asshole is honest, upfront, & takes responsibility for their actions. they’re still an asshole, but they aren’t pushing the blame onto you. you walk away with closure & clarity.

the coward is (whether intentionally or unintentionally) manipulative, implying you’re at fault/to blame for the pain that the coward caused you. the coward looks for ways to avoid being honest & taking responsibility. the coward often creates more pain because of this. they may make people feel bad to avoid facing their own emotions. they’ll project their insecurities or flaws onto you. they might try to make you out to be a villain of some sort— maybe cuz they’re afraid that if you aren’t angry & bitter, then they have to face that they’ve actively hurt someone... and/or admit that they’re the one w/resentment.

you can combat anger & bitterness; you can’t really fight sadness & forgiveness. so, when someone’s used to angry & bitter responses... and you respond with deep or outright hurt/sadness & forgiveness... they don’t know how to deal with that. they’ve developed habits for dealing with being yelled at or attacked &, unfortunately, that’s what they’re more comfortable with. so they either convince themselves that your sadness & forgiveness is fake and you’re actually mad... or they believe your sadness & forgiveness, but don’t understand or feel like they deserve it, so they lash out.

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yeah... idk, i needed to get that out of my system. i‘m “too” vulnerable, but i’m also one of the most emotionally intelligent people i know. because i experience my emotions deeply & fully & do my best to analyze them. i try to understand other people to the best of my ability & move past assumptions wherever possible.

i keep thinking about how one of my friends said that i’m the kindest person she knows & it makes my heart warm. because that’s what i want to be. i’d much rather live open, kind, & trusting, than survive closed & distrusting.

it can be hard to reach the point where you feel confident in your emotional intelligence & openness, but it is possible. introspection, especially through/along with therapy, definitely helps. and it’s largely a matter of finding the right therapist for YOU, not just whoever’s available.

what just sucks ass is the fact that emotional & mental health isn’t taken seriously enough. & that good therapists often don’t come cheap. but it’s still worth trying. it’s so so worth it to find a therapist you can work well with.