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ominous-feychild · 2 months

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✦ OC Questionnaire Tag 3 ✦

Thanks for the tag, @illarian-rambling!

Characters from Sun and Shadow: Freya, Crow, and Valyarus Characters from the Arcane Rifts: Gene, Tazin, and Mislav Featuring tAR's children at ages 15, 17, and 17! (Aka mid book 2.)

Questions: - Do you have a tell when you're lying? - What other media genre would you do the worst in? - Are you confident in yourself? from @the-letterbox-archives

Do you have a tell when you're lying?

Freya: Um... not that I know of? I'm not really in the habit of lying? (*remembers that she does, in fact, lie a lot... but mostly through omission of the truth!*) Haha... yeah! ... ugh, okay, um. If I had to guess... (*shifts uncomfortably in place*) it would probably be that I struggle in what to say? Though I kinda do that anyway? Ugh, I don't really know. (A/N: the easiest sign to tell that she's "lying" is that she avoids the subject completely. She'll change the subject or "get distracted". She also fidgets more, but that's something she does a lot anyways because she's awkward.)

Crow: Of course not! I don't lie anyway, so how would I find out? 😉🥰 (psst... Crow...) What? (You're supposed to basically be under truth serum for these Questionnaire posts...) Okay. And? 😘 (So you're telling me that you, a detective, have never told a lie once?) ... (See the issue there?) Nope! 😄 (A/N: WHELP! Uncooperative Crow understandably won't tell you, so I will. They're a very good liar, so it's hard to tell when they do. The best indicator is that they'll stumble slightly in their speech when almost saying something "they shouldn't" or they'll hesitate while trying to come up with a lie. The falters are always subtle though.)

Valyarus: (*snorts*) I would think not. Besides, I'm not in the habit of lying. There's too much magic that can force you into Truth-telling to be able to rely on it--no, best is operating in half-truths and implication. The best method of deception is allowing the one you wish to deceive to come up with the answers for themself. For example... (*slowly smirks, quirking an eyebrow*) I never said I don't lie just now... did I? (A/N: ahhh, our beloved douchebag faerie living up to his species's reputation. In other words: he's a fantastic "liar".)

Gene: I... don't know. I'd... like to think not. Maybe... maybe that I... (*takes a slow, deep breath, collecting himself*) ... I probably act more confident when I lie. I... I'm not confident. And probably don't... stutter as much. Or hesitate... So, speaking patterns? They--they change, I mean. My speaking patterns. When I lie.

Tazin: (*snarls*) I have no idea what the fuck you're talking about, you got me? I--I-- (*struggling to lie because of the whole "these questions are answered under basically-truth serum" thing*) FINE! I don't fucking lie because I can't, okay? I avoid the subject! Or I just--I don't know, I just fucking lie??? How am I supposed to fucking know if I have a "tell"??? Don't you think I'd fucking fix it if I knew??? (A/N: he gets avoidant of the subject and/or highly aggressive to dissuade the asker from continuing at the moment... or generally asking again.)

Mislav: Um... this is a weird question?... I guess I don't really--(*remembers he lies literally all the time*)--lie... (*lets out a slow, pained sigh, running his hands back through his hair in frustration*) I don't know? I just--try my best to bullshit it? Try to make people feel better, or avoid giving them the information they want? I don't know??? (A/N: best indication is that he answers too quickly. He usually practices/rehearses his lies before it comes time to actually tell them. Otherwise (if he didn't expect to have to lie/doesn't have one prepared), he freezes up, stutters, and smiles/jokes too much as he tries "appeasing" or distracting the questioner.)

What other media genre would you do the worst in?

(we're going to be implanting Forbidden Knowledge of our Real World genres and whatnot for them to be able to best answer this!)

Freya: The horror genre. (*shudders*) I cannot deal with scary stuff, okay? I think I would be the first to die. I'd scream, or cry, and break down--probably try hitting the monster or whatever over the head with a chair when it turns the corner and, well... that never goes well in those sorts of things, does it?

Crow: Fairy tales. I'd either be the "lesson"--"don't do this or look what happens to you! You'll become Crow!"--or I'd be whatever the horrifying monster or villain is. I mean... (*laughs awkwardly, looking away and rubbing their shoulder feathers*) when you're me... you get used to knowing you're what's wrong with the world. (*beat. They realize what they've just said--*) I mean, romance. I'd probably annoy my love interest to death. 😎

Valyarus: (*fake gags, then with disgust:*) Romance. My only "biological" child was through magic, and I would not step foot near anyone with that sort of intention. I don't understand how others do. Much less why my daughter is so interested in Freya. They just met! (note: he's aroace and is equally disgusted with romance and sex. Also, yes, I know that's not how all aroace people are. I have plenty of other characters everywhere else in the spectrum. This is just where Valyarus is.)

Gene: Um... probably romance. I...'m not interested in it... not really. Be-besides with Mislav, I mean... and I... I don't even know why he likes me? 😅😓 ... people think I'm creepy. They don't say it--not to my face--but I know they think it. And I... I struggle to talk with people a lot. I try to say one thing, but they think I mean another?... I don't understand why. It's hard. And I--... I don't think I'd do well in that kind of story.

Tazin: The kinda thing where I'd have to teach. I don't have that kind of fucking patience, are you fucking kidding me? I think I'd explode on them. Maybe even literally. (*He pauses, considering it... and grins darkly*) Actually, wait--I take it back. I want to try. (I want to tag in and say traditional horror/thriller. I think the degree to which he'd freak out or curse out the monster would be comical and/or break the immersion, haha.)

Mislav: I would not be able to participate in a talk show or be in the news. A talk show? (*scoff*) Regardless of the subject, it wouldn't take long for me to be driven mad by their endless talking and pretending they know everything. The news? Even worse. I think I'd snap their mic in half. And only because I'd be struggling not to snap other things. <.< (read: necks, limbs, etc.)

Are you confident in yourself?

Freya: Ha... no, not really. I act like I am, but... y'know, it's just that--an act.

Crow: What's not to be confident about? I'm the greatest, I've never made a mistake in my life, and every decision I make is the best one I possibly can! 😘

Valyarus: (*poised on a grand chair; sipping tea elegantly with one hand while the other hangs over the side of the armrest. A nail file magically hangs in the air and is filing his nails while he sips tea*) Hm? What did you say? Oh. (*chuckles*) Of course I'm confident in myself. My abilities, my character, my decisions--everything. 😉💅

Gene: Depends what you mean by "myself"... (*goes quiet, looks away, and debates*) ... I... I try my best to make the right decisions. The best ones... that I possibly can. I--as hard as it is to not question them, it's--it's not good to worry about past decisions. I do my best, and that's--that's all I can do. So... (*takes a deep breath, collecting his thoughts*) I'm not confident, but I try to be.

Tazin: (*snarls*) Of course I'm confident. I've gotten this far, haven't I? (*and slowly starting to smirk instead--*) I mean, look at me. (*leans back and gestures at himself with both hands*) I used to live on the streets with Gene. Now I have a girlfriend. People used to be terrified at my name--and they still would be if I didn't have to stop with the whole "Svarog" thing. (*oops, snarls again and leans in close; threateningly*) Look, I don't care what anyone else says, but Gene wasn't the only reason we were successful! He wouldn't have gotten anywhere without my strength, got it!?!? (Is actually less confident than he thinks he is--overcompensates for that by having convinced himself that he's the greatest. Hm... wonder if that fits the diagnosis criteria for anything?)

Mislav: Ha... not at all. (*swallows and looks down at his hands, fighting back tears*) I... one of these days, this curse is going to take over me. Will I even know when it does? Or will it be slow enough that I never even recognize that I've changed? I... (*looks back up at asker*) I worry, one of these days, I'll only know it when I've done something I can't come back from...

Your questions: - Same as the ones I answered!

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Divider from @cafekitsune

#Plot twist: Valyarus is the secret villain of SaS and his ENTIRE motivation is just to get Freya away from his daughter. 🤣🤣🤣#Soren/Daleira brought up the idea of the engagement to him while he wasn't paying attention #so he was just all like “oh yeah sure hun. Whatever would make you happy dear” to Daleira. 🤣#He comes to find out he agreed to an engagement #freaks out and INSTANTLY goes into “how tf do I fix this” mode.#Decides the absolute BEST way to do it is blow up several parts of his own goddamn estate and blame it on Freya #lucky him she's actually brand new to the idea that she has fire magic and doesn't know how to control it so it ACTUALLY worked #man's just sitting over there #stunned #“I really didn't expect this to work out this well...”#for legal reasons this is a joke #I mean for one the attack on Valyarus's place is far from the only one that happens #and I mean the man's sus but why would he frame his own daughter's fiancée after he AGREED to it? She literally crossed a whole ocean.#Would be crazy if that were true though am I right?#Also love me my Mislav angst; poor boy will never escape from it #the feychild tag games #the feychild speaks in tags!#sun and shadow novel #the arcane rifts #freya ula #crow the cursed #valyarus fenastra #gene the amnesiac #tazin the theater kid #mislav the berserker #writeblr tag games #ace characters #aro characters #aroace character #autistic oc

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welcometogrouchland · 2 years

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[ID: a digital illustration of Luz and Hunter from the owl house. Luz sits on the right with her hand on hunter's shoulder. Hunter sits on the left facing Luz. They're both in their designs from the end of Thanks to Them. Hunter has his eyes closed and is crying with a pained expression, while Luz looks on with tears in her eyes. The background is dark and the scene is dimly lit. The second image is a variation on the first image where a spectral version of flapjack sits on hunter's shoulder and Manny's hand in on Luz's shoulder. End ID]

Felt like posting something devious today. Do you think they'll ever talk about what they've lost? Bond over it? Mourn??? Grieve????

#the owl house #toh #hunter toh #luz noceda #hunter noceda #flapjack toh #(BARELY i did not put the effort into that bird that i should've)#manny noceda #(also barely but I feel like it's more obvious here)#i sketched this out months ago when TTT first aired but the lines were giving me trouble and i shelved it #until now when i really just wanted to finish something but wasn't happy with any of my sketches #it was inspired by the interview dana did where she said grief would be a major theme of season 3 #both bc it scared me and also bc it made me start thinking ''hm okay. which characters are grieving rn and how might they interact?''#my money's still on darius if hunter does get to talk through some of his grief in the next few eps #(just to tie a nice bow on their relationship and maybe dicuss the previous gg a bit more and flesh darius' motives out)#but like. luz is his sister. grief is sooo central to her arc as well it's like. even if they don't get time in canon #(which is understandable. they do not have a lot of time rn for extended fanfic-esque character exploration conversations)#but that doesn't mean i can't rotate the idea in my mind at terminal velocity until i get sick #i would apologize for not posting festive art at this time of year rn BUT YKNOW WHAT. I'VE HAD A ROUGH COUPLE OF HOLIDAY SEASONS #THIS COUNTS AS FESTIVE FOR ME!#it's getting better this year though. slowly #anyway this piece isn't perfect and there's a few bits I'm not happy w/ that i could've spent more time on #but to my own credit i pushed myself to use reference and do a (albeit simple) pose I don't normally do!#so props to me in that sense #anyway happy holidays! think abt these devastatingly sad children with me please!

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morocosmos · 11 days

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FFXIVWrite 2024 Day 11 - Surrogate

Masterlist Fandom: Final Fantasy XIV Characters/Pairings: Leofard Myste & Warrior of Light Rating: Teen & Up Additional Notes: Takes place at during HW patch 3.5. Major spoilers for the Shadow of Mhach alliance raid questline. Ao3 Link

Lady Raimille. The picture painted by Stacia's tale was everything an orphaned child could want from a parent. Everything except that she'd passed on too soon — but not before giving her foster son one last gift.

The noblewoman’s real portrait hung above them, enshrined in Leofard’s quarters. Presiding over his affairs and his family; watching over the man himself. Moro'a knew that paintings like this cost a considerable sum to commission, and that taking care of them required specific knowledge and attention; unexpected obligations for a sky pirate.

But the painting gleamed, immaculately free of blemishes. “I had wondered as to the origin of his vessel's naming,” Cait Sith said softly, his voice touched with emotion. “‘Tis a most beautiful painting.”

Moro’a’s time in Ishgard had also taught him that portraits like this one were made to memorialise — a likeness captured in brushstrokes, preserved from time. Remember me as I was, in this moment. Remember what this person means to us. Situated where their loved ones could gaze upon them, and never forget.

I doubt I'll ever feel worthy to sit where he sat.

Throughout their adventures, Leofard had pretended as though the portrait wasn’t there, and it was all Moro’a had needed to know not to bring it up. He’d accepted it without judgement, without ever considering otherwise. What was he here for, if not to hide from ghosts and broken hearts; from memory?

But now that Stacia had told them what Leofard would never impart himself, the pieces that made up the leader of the Redbills had finally begun to click: why a man who prized freedom so highly would build his new home a stone's throw from the Holy See, and why the loss of his airship had made Leofard retreat into himself, like a creature seeking familiar refuge.

It seems she kept him safe until the very end, Utata had said, and Moro’a’s heart had clenched so tight that he thought it might shatter.

It wasn’t any of his business. The voidsent had been stopped, and Cait Sith had found a new home. His time with the Redbills was coming to a close. It’d been an engaging distraction, which was precisely what Moro’a had needed; there were no stones left to overturn, no more accidental revelations to be had. He would go his separate way, into the unknown, and then…

Later, as he was stowing the few essentials he’d brought into the manacutter, Moro’a heard footsteps approaching. He turned to see Leofard, who was already dressed in a clean set of clothes and red-tinted goggles. “I almost forgot,” the sky pirate said, as breezy as could be now as he held something out in his hand. A Redbill scarf.

“You didn’t have to,” Moro’a murmured, feeling a strange mixture of reluctance and guilt.

“And I say otherwise, Warrior. I reckon you’ve done more than you’ll ever need to to have earned this.” His hand stretched closer, and Moro’a considered refusing. He was ready to quit this place, to move on. I’m not who you think I am, he wanted to say.

Instead he found himself reaching out for the scarf, and tucking it in with the rest of his things.

If, after he'd said his farewells, his hand reached under the collar of his shirt to gently hold the necklace that rested against his chest, to remember, he was the only one who needed to know.

#ffxivwrite2024 #ffxivwrite #kae scribbles #moro'a kihshimo #leofard myste #cait sith #hhhhhh this prompt is loaded with multiple meanings and i feel the need to yap about it #tag essay incoming #obviously it's about raimille; leofard's surrogate mother #and it's also about haurchefant if that wasn't already clear (in which case my bad)#except that moro'a's still deep in grief and coping by. not processing things beyond what he knows is necessary to keep going #so it's also about how this whole adventure is a replacement for what moro'a really needs to be doing; a temporary reprieve #there's the moment moro'a realises what raimille means to leofard and what this almost does to him #he doesn't acknowledge it here but it's because he had a surrogate parent of his own #well sort of #moro was his friend and confidant and inspiration; she nurtured his interest in the world beyond their own when he was a kid #she's the reason he went to eorzea when hell broke loose in their little part of corvos and why he's an adventurer at all #he doesn't know if she's dead; he has no idea what happened to her after leaving his clan #and so he isn't thinking of her here; partly because he's trying not to #but the feelings are still there; buried and waiting to be torn open (that happens in stormblood)#ig if circumstances had been a little different moro'a and leofard may have wound up becoming closer a lot sooner????#but that isn't what happened lol #last thing more of an extra note: the necklace is precious to moro'a and what ties a lot of this together #it was originally a gift from moro which was lost in the sea of clouds after moro'a rescued emmanellain from the vundu #after which haurchefant took it upon himself to replace the necklace by matching the original gemstones as closely as he could #the necklace represents the two people moro'a loved most. after taking up goldsmithing he starts to add more pendants for others #starting with ysayle and mide #okkkkk bye

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sysig · 4 months

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Sweet dreams, for a time (Patreon)

#Doodles #Parapluesch #Mama Oz #So I mentioned that Mama Oz's grief doesn't come from Literally losing a child in how we understand the phrase #However - the dream sequences usually conflate Feeling and Experience #Thus - this #The fact that her actual function is as a magazine rack is so - well it's a lot haha it's a real statement piece #A stuffed animal made with the hide of a different animal made specifically to hold magazines in her belly pouch rather than a Joey #That's........a concept lol #I just can't see her as a piece of furniture! I know that's her function but no! She's a stuffed animal!#It's so easy to imagine her backstory - a child growing up in that home and having her be mama to all the other plushies #Not used as a magazine rack at all - constantly pulled out of her Utility to a more emotional and playful side #Until the child grows up and she's forced back into what she was made for - her ''purpose'' yes but to have to give up what she became #It's like this piece of furniture was doomed to sadness from conception! Personifying an object to that degree - I mean you gave it a face!!#Hard to believe I'm so emotionally invested in this item I'd never seen before and now #I guess that's good memorable design for you haha #She's also still quite fun to draw :D She's very cute!#I wasn't sure about giving her a mouth since I'm pretty sure the actual version doesn't have one - and some of the plushies don't #But I like the idea of her having a little Moomin-like mouth up under her snoot hehe #She kinda reminds me of Sniff even huh #She was fun to draw lying down haha I can very easily see her in my mind's eye standing herself back up in the Parapluesch animation style #I'm still thinking over how her story would conclude - I want her to be able to stand on her own as an individual #But I want her to retain her desire to nurture! She's still a plush even if she started a bit unconventional #Healthy balance to be found somewhere hmm

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screwpinecaprice · 2 years

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Hmmyeah, I don’t know why this timeline got angsty. 🤔

Steven Feels a Pregnant Connie’s belly, trying to talk to the baby and see if the newborn infant kicks, he proceeds to kiss Connie's belly for luck. requested by Movie Mayhem at Patreon!

#connverse #Connie Maheswaran #Steven Quartz Universe #my shiz #patreon request #October patreon request #comic #my comic #SU #SU fanart #Steven Universe #Gold TL #For added context well it's just a bit too early for them to do this. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#They are not prepared for this. lol #I mean they're in their early 20s here just to clarify.#I was playing around the idea that Steven is a super human and if his kid will be some sort of too much for the normal human body to handle #But like Connie will be able to handle it because they're been together fusing and ... together together if you know what I mean #Like her body being introduced and be familiar with magic through out the years.#If you caught the drift in my distant future connverse AU this is linked to how they were able to preserve Connie after so many years #I mean. I wasn't sure if I was able to explain that AU's premise well so that might've not been noticeable haha #Meh. That's not important right now anyway. I digress. ... So like #It was. like. a bit too soon? It'll get more and more easy on the next times.#She'll pull through no worries. She's flippin Connie Maheswaran after all. lol #Adding to how Steven is just always there if she needs anything.#He just a little paranoid about the situation but he get things done #Plus extra helping hands from the extended family #Their life is involved with a lot of teamwork #It's a delicate situation.#You know. I really don't know why I chose this path but hey. This is canon to this timeline now #I mean the extra context can be excluded lol

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running-in-the-dark · 2 months

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my niece is staying with us for the whole weekend for the first time. until now it's always been one night only, not two.

it's the second night now and I have already decided this is not happening again anytime soon. I'm so fucking exhausted. it'd be less exhausting if it was my nephew, I think - he's older and also doesn't need as much help (even when he was her age).

I love my niece but she just asks so many questions. like when we're watching a show or a movie, even if it's one she has seen before (even multiple times), she doesn't understand what's going on and constantly asks me to explain everything. I don't mind it, really, but it does take a lot of energy. plus tonight it took over two hours for her to fall asleep because she was scared by the noises of the house and the nearby road. I get it, but damn I'm so fucking tired, I just want to sleep 😭

#my nephew will get to stay for two nights soon so that it's fair and everything #but then I think we'll go back to one night only for a while #I just can't sleep when someone else is here. and I do not handle being tired well. or rather being even more tired than usual #so yeah no this is too much #I'm so glad I don't have children. I literally would not survive #we played board games with her today. her idea. she chose the gsme #but it was so fucking difficult.....#I think most kids would have understood this game at like. 10 maybe. probably before that really #she's 12 and a half and just did not get it at all #she's got difficulties learning and she's finally getting (more) help for that in school now but I'm really.. a bit shocked that it took #this long for her parents to accept that #she's a great kid but it's been obvious since she started school that she needs more help #so anyway yeah it's 3am and I think she finally fell asleep after I put Charmed on for her #I've got a massive headache and I'm so fucking tired I feel like I'm losing my mind lol #couldn't sleep last night & I hope it's better tonight. but having someone else here is stressful.#ugh I wish this wasn't so hard for me. I want to be the fun aunt (I'm their only aunt.. aunt-like person... whatever) but I know I get more #and more impatient when they're here. I hate that. but I can't change it. I've tried! for 10 years! but it didn't work #don't get me wrong - I'm never mean or angry with them. I just get somewhat annoyed and I know it's noticeable and I hate that #they don't seem to mind. they love visiting us. but I don't like it because I hated the way adults treated me when I was a kid so I want to #be better #:(#anyway I have to sleep now or tomorrow will be hell :)#personal

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wuxian-vs-wangji · 3 months

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Yeah... I remember seeing the architectural design majors at my uni having this breakdown each semester...

#love in the air #lita #rain #scriptwriting was the only course within my major famous for making people openly cry #because the professor would eviscerate you with her feedback #not to be mean; but she would look at the feedback you'd already been given by your classmates over and over throughout the course #and if you still hadn't fixed issues she'd really stab into them and rip you apart #she liked me though- i followed the syllabus due dates and no one else did #meaning day 1 i already had a treatment ready by the first class #and even though she told me the syllabus schedule didn't need to be followed; i chose to follow it #because it kept me a week ahead or so #So when I finished each 200+ page draft of my script I was finishing it a week early #which let me focus on other exams in other classes and manage my workload more easily #the only time scriptwriting made me cry was when i spent 6 hours typing draft 6 of a 214 page feature and my computer crashed #erased the whole thing #i'd been typing up the script based on hand notes i'd written on my previous draft so it was easy to recreate #but redoing it took 8 hours since my hands were so tired #but that wasn't the classes fault; that was my fault #i did really well in the class; you just can't take feedback personally and a lot of writers really struggle with that #i've lost so many friends because they claim to be writers who take feedback seriously #and then it turns out they're little bitches about it and throw tantrums after begging me to give them feedback #so now I will not give a friend feedback on anything they write #for the record- the way i was trained is not to be cruel or mean #you literally just go through it like 'here is what I had issues with as a viewer and here are some ideas on how to easily fix that'#always offer a solution #and for every complaint you have to give a complementt #so i'm not out there like gordon ramsey ripping into people; it's very gentle and kind #except when i gave M her round 6 feedback on her script and she STILL insisted Mt Everest was 3 billion years old in her story #AT EVERY STAGE OF THIS SCRIPT I REMINDED YOU IT IS AROUND 30 MILLION YEARS OLD GET IT THROUGH YOUR-

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lord-squiggletits · 6 months

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"Rodimus is a better Prime because it didn't hurt for him to bond with the Matrix while for Optimus it did" headcanon/theory my beloathed.

One day I'm literally gonna snap and make a whole post addressing why what's wrong bc I'm tired of the inaccuracy and tired of ppl not understanding the Point TM of IDW and its version of the Matrix/Primacy and even more tired of people putting down Optimus in favor of Rodimus by essentially arguing that being unworthy means you deserve to be punished/put in pain bc you just weren't good enough to hold the Symbol of Ultimate Authority

#it's wrong on so many levels both in terms of lore and as well as like what the general themes of idw1 are #it's just a validation contest using the matrix as some magical symbol to decide who's the most special #which is ironically something that was a plot point in exrid/OP. specifically how stupid of an idea that is ldskjflksd #ppl revealing that they havent read anything besides mtmte/ll as usual #like half the reason ppl think optimus is a bad prime and rodimus is a good prime is literally bc like #optimus was written by an author who was specifically trying to deconstruct him (sometimes to the point of absurdity)#and rodimus was written by an author who takes a more optimistic/idealistic approach. and is also better at writing #but also like am i seriously the only person who thinks that that argument is fucked up?????#like 'OP felt pain which means he's unworthy/not a real prime/not a true leader'#ok so you think that there's a hierarchy of moral goodness in which anyone who falls short of that Moral Ideal should suffer #as a sign of their unworthiness?? like does that not sound dystopian as hell to any of you?? why would you WANT the matrix to work like tha #even if the theory were true (which it isn't) why would you view the matrix as a good authoritative moral judge of character #if its idea of 'moral judgement' is to inflict pain on anyone who's supposedly not truly good/worthy #wasn't the entire point of the ending of LL (including rodimus being a good leader) that everyone is worth it?#like rodimus literally said 'you ARE damn well good enough' or something like that #so what? everyone else in the universe tries their best and that's enough but somehow when OP suffers it's like #a sign that he's not actually a good prime/leader?? we're really going with the punitive perspective purely for One Guy??#swear to god ppl are projecting their authority issues onto Optimus the way they shit on him for things they would excuse #if any other character did it #Optimus is uniquely deserving of pain/being marked as unworthy bc idk he was a cop once and that offends my delicate sensibilities #what's even funnier is how much harm was inflicted by rodimus as a captain sheerly due to his stupidity or ego but everyone forgives him #i guess bc as long as the matrix likes him that means he's valid no matter what he actually does as a person #WHICH IS SOMETHING IDW ITSELF ARGUED AGAINST BC A LOT OF THE PRIMES THAT WERE CHOSEN BY THE MATRIX #WERE DICKS AND THE FACT THEY COULD WIELD THE MATRIX DIDN'T MAKE THEM GOOD PEOPLE #like oh my god stop using the matrix as an arbiter of moral authority in idw1 it literally goes against the themes of the story #including the themes that are embodied in rodimus himself #idw op love

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ellenchain · 1 year

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BlackWidowCalmityCobweb on AO3 wrote a comment under my fic that 47 is kind of a dog and Lucas is definitely a cat

and I just have to agree to that

I know no one asked for this but I spent way too much time drawing this, so now you all have to see it

#hitman #what do you mean they're from the same institute and it doesn't make sense that they're different animals #shhh we don't do canon here #47 is in my head a doberman #and Grey a Norwegian forest cat #47 would be so well trained #while Grey is all like “I do what tf I want”#“touch me and your hand is off”#I'm sorry if there isn't any resemblance #I've never drawn so much animal at once #I swear I'm not a furry #I think you can see that I have zero practice #but the idea was somehow so very cute in my head #I wasn't sure what thing Grey could wear #I don't think he would wear a collar #free and naked

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thenamessparkplug · 2 months

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every second i spend not making a twisted psychological horror is a second wasted

#my little fucked up brain wants to make little fucked up things but i CANT because i have no motivation to finish ANYTHING EVER #and i also have like zero of the skills required to make the things i wanna make #but the CONCEPTS wont stop FUCKING ROTATING AROUND IN MY HEAD:(((#growlllll #please i just wanna take the basic outline for a horror concept i really really like but then make it actually good #because they fucked it up horribly #well not horribly it just wasn't good #but theres SOMETHING IN IT PLEASE JUST LET ME MAKE IT GOOD #SHAKING YOU #IT HAS SUCH POTENTIAL:((((((((((#man if i had a nickel for every horror comic i read that had some aspect of EXCELLENT horror but they absolutely fumbled the rest #id have two nickels #well actually i dont know if theyve fumbled one they still have the chance to pull through (dont read this im talking about dont read this #the other being everything's fine #ofc #that is the one i REALLY want to take the general concept of and make it better #and by general concept i mean literally nothing in the actual comic and just the ads i got on youtube #i want THAT SHIT #that shit scared me SO FUCKING BAD IT WAS AWESOME #god the fucking dog scene im still not over that #that scene with voice acting + sound effects was HORRIFYING #ESPECIALLY without context holy FUCK #to instill the level of fear that gave me is a DREAM #the whole concept of everything seeming just slightly off #eventually ramping up to genuinely horrible senarios #and for everyone to just pretend it isn't happening #is SUCH. A GOOD. IDEA.#i will NEVER not think thats cool #i just WISH they had lived up to those ads man #the comic was surprisingly disappointing imo

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cry-ptidd · 8 months

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Hi!

I've been following your blog for a lil bit, and I was wondering, what was your inspiration for creating Laura?

Blessed be <3

Hi there!! Thanks for your support!! <3

As for Laura.... she's been through a few phases.

At first, she was actually supposed to be a vampire. Her name comes from the main character in Carmilla, Laura, the one that gets lesbianed by the vampire girl.

She was supposed to be a vampire maid that could phase through walls and become intangible. Physically she'd be rather skinny and pale with white hair, probably having albinism. She wasn't a fighter at all, she would've been more of a watcher/snitch that told Integra about anything unusual, kind of like Pip post-canon. She was quite weak physically and rather elegant/even slightly meek, but she had a tongue on her, and by that I mean she taunts and haunts her opponents while Alucard kills them because she didn't like to get her hands dirty. The scene that made me want to create her was the assault on the Hellsing manor, where she'd mock Luke or Jan about the other's fates once they got their asses beat or tell Integra what was going on and update her about it.

Then, I remembered that in canon werewolves were the ones that could become intangible (we never see any vampire other than Alucard do that, and he's cheated so he doesn't count), and I thought about it a bit more, and the character design for the Original Laura didn't really match what I'd imagine (my) werewolf oc to be like, so I changed her up. Her hair became brown and her discreet personality became more rough; that's also why Laura wasn't that strong at the beginning.

As for her name and identity, it's mostly because I love the story of the beast of Gévaudan (and had a hyperfixation on it when I was 13) and wanted to do something with that idea. When I did some more research I also remembered Jean Chastel, and thought it would be a very interesting idea to do something with that. Besides, "Laura Chastel" lowkey sounds cool.

So I mixed up the two and thus Current Laura was born, but she too went through a bit more changes even when I started posting her. Which is why her current personality is a bit different than the one from the very beginning. She is now way less respectful and impassive, also she was supposed to have an axe. Her very first design is still on my blog, the first thing I posted about her actually.

Her wolf form was also brown at the beginning, but now it's black. It's also bigger, although it was supposed to be quite huge from the beginning.

Maybe I should do something with that vampire maid prototype. It could be an interesting concept. Also, maybe I could explain the details of Laura's design.

Thank you for your ask! Blessed be! <3

#hellsing oc #my oc #laura chastel #ask response #my mind is a mess #there's so many ideas and so little time #would she have been a more interesting character if she wasn't as strong?#i like her feral nature but I don't wanna make her a Mary sue #as much as I despise that term and its usage #i try to make her nuanced and well-written is what I mean

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