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I am a goddamn genius*
(*read: just followed the rubrics and cited her sources)
#Design and Analysis of Algorithms can kiss my entire ass#littleblondesoprano#it wasn't a bad class but it was a lot#now on to a class that already makes me wanna tear my hair out :)#I stg if I have to compare one more OS to Linux and try to fucking code (or READ code) I am gonna scream#brain scrampled egg#my need for it to be perfect vs me trying to give myself grace bc I don't know wtf I'm doing FIGHT
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Last line challenge
Rules: in a new post, show the last line you wrote (or drew) and tag as many people as there are words (or as many as you feel like.)
Sorry I took my time to answer xo Thanks for tagging me @just-here-with-my-thoughts <3 <3 <3
Actually I can't show much cause all my wips are for fanzines or commissions but!
I can show you a hint of what I'm actually doing for @devinsisland apocalyptic AU zine hehe
Very sketchy 'cause some of theses were just ideas exploration I ended up throwing (they'll be cleaned and posted on social for bonus later probably)
Also follow the zine here: https://www.instagram.com/aftermathzine https://x.com/AFTERMATHzine
(not me changing a tag into a promo post xD)
I don't really know who to tag, always scared of bothering, so I'm gonna try hhhh @lightspringrain (I'm the worst, I'm tagging while you're on break so Hm, no pressure) @wrenkenstein (hello I love your art and your whole vibe apparently we're mutuals so *flies away*) @clownery-and-fuckery @electrikworm
@scarletv0id (Please ignore if you don't wanna) And mutual who see this post but I'm too shy to tag!
#last line challenge#thanks for tagging me again#this forces me to post so this tumblr doesn't die while I'm in 10+ fanzines XO#I wish I had fic illustration to show but alas no time to xo#I need to redo a whole portfolio for job hunting#I'm so bad at it#I should do more social media stuff#have an insta and linkedin#post a lot#do other stuff than fanartsss#are you looking for a storyboard artist? well I exist!#a reason I don't is that I know my former classmates will see me and be like#"haha this b* who was first in class never made it cheh to her#or be glad I failed (I deserved to fail)#*sigh*#on another note#A friend invited me to see her thrilled but I need to travel in a new country and this stresses me very muchhhhh#especially with my disastrous English#I wish I wasn't 90% of my life paralyzed by fear#ok ANYWAY
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It kind of fucks me up to see some people come out of watching RGU having absorbed absolutely nothing of what the show has to say about patriarchy, misogyny, & queerphobia, outside of "men bad, lesbian good." Which like.....sure, I guess? in the absolute barest sense, I suppose RGU is partially about that.
But if this show's thesis were really as simple as "lesbian good," then Juri & her role as an antagonist on the mini patriarchy that is the Student Council would simply not exist at all. Juri would've won all the duels, kicked Akio in the nuts, freed Anthy, & ridden away into the sunset with Shiori in her arms before Utena even showed up if that were the case. But she obviously didn't do any of that despite being a lesbian, so there must be something more complicated at work here.
A lot of RGU's narrative is dedicated to deconstructing binary social systems & the ways in which they harm those trying to and/or being forced to fit within one of two narrow boxes; man vs woman, adult vs child, princess vs witch, prince vs devil, special vs not special, romantic vs platonic, etc. So for someone to watch all of that beautiful complexity, only to filter it through yet another essentialist binary...sucks, to say the least.
#I know some of you are like 15 & are thinking about these sorts of things for the first time in your lives so I'll have grace#but at the same time...the average women's studies 101 class gets more complex than 'man bad woman good'.#in general that's an at best shallow + unhelpful & at worst actively destructive way of thinking#I'm gonna need some more critical thinking ok#btw this post wasn't spurred by anything in particular. it's just an attitude I've been thinking a lot about recently#rgu#revolutionary girl utena#feminism#gender essentialism#rant
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#sharing because my elementary school textbooks did give the 'lee wasn't bad' myth#though thankfully my high school history classes were a lot better#history#racism
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Why no female Frillish
Justice for F Frillish
↑ i said this in the tags. i.e. there was no female frillish model on the typical place i source models from. but there was for jellicent. case in point:
there just wasn't one. the image on TMR shows a female model:
she's considerably happier. but she's just not included in the contents of the zip file when downloaded. don't ask ME for justice for her. ask whoever uploaded these models onto TMR for justice
#not pkmn#maybe i wasn't clear enough in the tags. which is fair. it's getting into that True Finals Week‚ as i call it in college#where it's not Finals Week. where you take finals. but instead it's that One week of the year where every class assigns all their big final#projects at you at once. and it's faaar more work than finals week#and this one is killing me more than it ever has. it's my last two weeks of school Literally Ever right now so it makes sense#but holy shit i'm having a bad time! so tags are getting shorter. apologies to those of you who look forward to that#commentary but i'm a little Out Here rn. so a lot of the time the only commentary you'll get from me is in asks like these
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I somehow made it through the school day running on one hour of sleep
#I went to sleep at 5am yesterday#not by decision though - or not fully at least#i was feeling very shitty so I tried drawing to calm myself down but it didn't work and I ended jp just getting worse#Nobody at home was awake ans I couldn't talk to any of my vontacts because again they were all asleep#and I really needed to talk to somebody so I ended up reaching to a Mental Health helpline#I thought of reaching out to a suicide prevention hotline at first but I didn't because I wasn't going to#nor thinking of#commiting suicide.#I didn want to do something pretty bad which I was trying to distract myself from doing but not kill myself#eventually I found a general mentak health helpline and texted a woman through there at early 3am/very late 2am#we talked for two hours. she was really nice and helped me calm down and gave me advice on what to do if that happened again#it was 5am when we stopped talking and I had to wake up at 6am so I didn't sleep much#I really appreciate whst she did she helped me a lot - she also offered to call my parents but I said no because I didn't want to worry them#and she understood she was really nice people behind these kinds of things are like wingless angels#I've been able to take short naps between classes and a considerably long one after an exam but I dtarted the day on 1 hour of sleep#AND SURVIVED IT yippee#my stuff#vent
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Not a baiting ask: I don’t recall any of the characters dressing more androgynously as the books went on, save Gabrielle? There are passages of Louis and Lestat wearing lace, pearls and velvet frock coats in the modern day, in reference to 18th c. fashion: Is that what the other Anon may have meant? That’s not an androgynous sartorial choice with historical costuming in mind, though, it’s Louis dressing in the fashion of his human era. (Perhaps there is a misconception from a passage in which Louis wears lace and pearls at Armand’s urging, or someone sharing such passages with intent to mislead other fans about the canonicity of Femme Louis or Femme Lestat beyond Anne’s personal identification with them, which has happened before and will happen again.) In the show, Louis dressing in lace, pearl and velvet would be Louis dressing in a colourful three piece suit in the style of the 1910’s.
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Ah! Thank you for the correction, anon, I didn't remember any either, but I'm hyper-conscious of only having read through Memnoch (and having read most of the books I have quite a while ago, although I've been re-reading TVL recently) so I chose to take the ask in good faith and assume perhaps something happened in later books. That could very well be what the anon meant, but perhaps you're right too that there are scenes being taken out of context.
#i mentioned it recently but i actually listened to the behind the bastards eps on beau brummell a few months ago which was FASCINATING#but talked a lot about these sorts of shifting ideas of masculinity and mens fashion particularly in the 1800s#(and largely a result of the french revolution)#and a lot of that covered how that dandy style really became emasculated as a part of the rising working class and anti-rich sentiment#but also men wanted to look poorer than they were across europe to avoid being targeted in anti-rich revolution which is basically what led#to beau brummell's invention of the modern suit#which is just#hilarious#that it was created as a way for rich men to look slightly less rich (yet still fashionable and expensive)#on a different note it's interesting what people latch onto#i'm seeing so many people use those tweets from anne's son too and like#as a beatles fan i feel i can say this with authority#but looking for answers about a dead artist's art from their adult children is bad and weird#no matter how involved they may be in an estate#ESPECIALLY when it comes to questions involving sex#whether that be their characters or the artist themselves#anyway#i'm hoping this whole thing wasn't just a baity-response to my post the other day about not seeing louis as femme#so yes! choosing to take it as perhaps some misinterpretations :-)#louis asks#iwtv asks#okay i should get back to writing
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So busy with Sparkstember that I almost forgot that I go back to school on tuesday
#honestly maybe it's better this way. i'd rather just not care at all rather than be super stressed about it#just like i've been doing with every little thing for most of my life#might have missed the date when we were supposed to choose our elective courses. well whatever Lol#and i still don't even know what my schedule is or what classes i have this semester oopsie#well the university itself doesn't seem particularly pressed about giving us the schedule either#but i'd probably better still read up on the classes at least before they start#i don't have high hopes for this year just like with the last. probably should just stop pretending that i still want to study anything atp#this wasn't even my first choice of a course bcs i had to prepare for that damn exam to be accepted for my preffered one#but i couldn't be bothered to study for it again which probably should have told me enough abt whether going into this again is a good idea#i'm so tired just thinking about it but i know that actually looking for a job and then having a job will be a thousand times worse so uh#but at least i'd have my own money and start doing something ughhhh. useful maybe. who knows what it will be though#i have no ideaaaaaa. but this feels like just putting off the inevitable. like at some point i need to get my shit together#i will probably report at the end of the next week about how i'm so done already#i don't really knowwww mannnnnm. i don't feel like i had any vacation at all even though 3 months have already passed#and i also sort of didn't prepare something relatively easy to do that would have given me an actual document#that would confirm that i actually finished that part-time school thing last semester#can't really be bothered to come back to it at this point though#well at least i learned something actually useful and interesting from that and that's enough for me tbh#and a lot of it is also relevant to my current area of interest (digital drawing and computer graphics in general)#well speaking of which i'd better just get back to drawing now lol. just one more left to finish!!!#in short i guess that my new way of dealing with stress is just ignoring it all#well it's worked in some way at least so it can't be an entirely bad thing lol#goosepost
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3.40 i woke up bc i was cold and needed to pee and now i can't fall back asleep i keep thinking of the people i accidentally ghosted. is it ghosted if there was no intent to ghost? i feel so bad and it's not even like i don't think about them i often do think "i should really reply to them... once this is over ill properly sit down and write them... " and then i don't bc something else happens and im dealing with that and the longer i leave it unanswered the more difficult it becomes because i feel so guilty and therefore want to do things properly not half assed but bc i feel so guilty a part of me also tends to avoid it even more. if i do this to you just know i'm really sorry and ill get back to you i swear
#i have this friend i didn't reply to him for 6 months and then i did with lots of apologies he replied no worries haha AND I WENT AND DIDN'T#REPLY TO THAT FOR ANOTHER 6 MONTHS and the thing is when i had texted him in january i was falling ill and then i was ill for more than a#week so i wasn't really in a condition to reply. and since bc of the illness i had missed some crucial classes and was in the middle of#exam session and i was really struggling so then too i delayed texting him. and then the second semester started and it was such a shitshow#and then i fell ill again and i thought to write him hey i was first ill then send i didn't reply to you and im ill now and im replying to#you 🫠. but then i didn't again#anyways last week i finally texted him like ''hey. how are you ? im really bad at keeping in touch im sorry. can i offer you lunch or dinne#one of these days to apologize and so that we can catch up a little?'' and he hasn't replied yet which is like obviously fine. id get it if#he didn't reply for 6 months or a year i'd pretty much deserves it id say. i'm just worried that he'll never reply bc i have fucked it up#entirely. the truth is all my lifd ive been used to seeing many people i care deeply about like once or twice a year without barely any#contact in between and when we're together again it's like time hasn't passed at all. we just pick up from where we left#the same goes with long distance friendships. to me#anyone ANYONE can tell you how little i reply. :(. still. i know it's not good. @ friend i hope you'll find it in you to forgive me and let#me treat you to lunch#god. side note there is something in this house that is triggering my allergy so bad whether its dust or cat blanket im having the worst#time#good night ill try to sleep again now#it took me one hour to write this post yes
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Went to class tonight and another trainer has a dog that is definitely a bit out of her league though she is trying and doing good with her and she asked to trade dogs for the night (out of humor) and as I was trying to explain that she did not, in fact, want the bitey baby the instructor piped up to go "She's put a lot of work into Tassie to get where she is", which obv made me feel good, and then later on in the Fit Dog class the instructor pointed over at me and told the class "She's got a ton of training background so she can get her dog to do a lot of stuff" and I was just so flustered and goddamn tickled. Not going to lie it's really nice seeing the effort get noticed.
#tassie#dog training#for the record this is the one viszla i have ever met#not a bad dog and not a bad trainer#but it is a lot of dog for someone who clearly wasn't expecting it#she is definitely putting in the effort though#tassie only growled at one dog tonight so progress!#it was really nice to be pointed out by the instructor though#been attending her classes for two years
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i want to write about the complexities of my hawke's relationship with his mom but i think i'd get accused of having mommy issues
#its just. listen. i think leandra was technically a good mother and sacrificed a lot to give her children the life they deserved and#she did love them. but that doesnt mean she didnt hurt hawke#or that hawke didnt feel his mother was awful while knowing she did her best and had reasons to be the way she is#and feeling guilty about resenting her#every time she blamed hawke for bethany's death. using her last words to say shes proud of hawke#i just. man#and hawke did love her but he was so very deeply hurt also. she wasn't just good or just bad. you can't say she was a bad mother.#you can say she was a good mother but yknow im just repeating myself at this point#leevi liveblogs#dragon age#also. i have for a while now wanted to share my thoughts on the class aspect of anders' actions in da2 but i dont want to open that can of#worms.... id get murdered or something
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Can't add the exact timestamp (it's at the end) but they just??? Jump off screen???? Do they not die???
My general consensus with this fight is that it's just extra content and... in-between canonicity. They don't show up in the credits (in a scene) regardless if you kill them or not, and the pupils are alive(?) or possibly some other ones are alive as they could just look similar/be reused sprites
long speculation under the cut
Fitzroy is lore for sure which contradicts some of the implications about trancending that we get but like. Royal is kind of a dumbass AND is being told all of this from mother/one concern. There's multiple implications of the "ancestors" (both isi and Him followers) coming from somewhere else/resetting the planet and leaving instructions/tech for their respective people to use. Fitzroy seems to fit in the between stage before the concern has studied the tech, but AFTER the Ancestors arrived/reset the planet. In The Tower and the Bastion there are images of famous earth landmarks (taj mahal, new York, pyramids I think) implying that some sort of Earth was destroyed/minerals drained (more connections to the themes about environmentalism) and that humanity was "reset". RIGHT BUT CANONICITY. Fitzroy is more lore... If u want him to be. The true past of humanity is still foggy ESPECIALLY with conflicting views from Him followers and the Isi. The concern claims to have longer records of history, and has aforementioned images, but they shape it to their beliefs and leave out certain parts intentionally as well as only educate people deemed more faithful (concern staff) and censor/mysticize parts for the common folk and ESPECIALLY city one residents. Cough cough 'merica haha but not really I doubt he was thinking about Americans specifically. This is more likely a commentary on religion specifically they larger ones and how they shape societies views and history! (Remember when we used B.C?) I'm not going to say this is an effective commentary or a scathing remark on Christianity (I believe that Christianity is used as a reference as it's the poster child to westerners for what "religion" is. He probably intended for this to be about religion as a whole but like. Come on. It's definitely Christianity with a few changes to make it a "generic religion" especially with the focus on punishment and ascension to a "good place". They also use sin/sinners a few times but that may be for familiarity especially since he had a whole npc for explaining terminology) that aside. Canonicity. Again. The history behind the Starworm followers vs the Isi is intentionally left a mystery! Fitzroy and Leticia are real as fuck (if u think they're canon) and provide some ideas for what actually happened in history but who knows! I should get back to my conversation I got distracted haha.
#text that should be about royal#iconoclasts#lore speculation#mothers corners#Youtube#long post#analysis#(?)#also feel free to reply my ideas are very foundational especially on the religion part :-P but I have a lot of thoughts on xtianity#Being seen as “what religion is”. Especially when not every culture uses the “good place bad place” idea#Or the nobility of suffering Or Or the focus on punishment and atonement#I do think elro is telling the truth with what they teach the lower class so I may use him as a point of reference in the future#He's also a really funny and interesting character. I also completely understand why people don't like him#I'm sorry for not having other examples but he is literally Walter fucking white#Oh my God for Halloween I should draw him in that costume. I have an old sketch of him as reanimator actually#I'm too shy to show it tho hehe... Also the only connection is “science” and “crazy syringe!”#Also by calling him funny I mean his actions are. I like how he gives up on his religion immediately...#Definitely only because it affected him personally (penance) but he probably wasn't that devout#If a follower anyways. Especially with Robin helping out. “Lol it won't get me!” >Wife and daughter die#A lot of his actions are absolutely caused by grief and I really like how he's written. I like the themes of grief!#He's absolutely an asshole tho ESPECIALLY to mina actually honestly to any woman in his life#Teegan get with a real man. Fuck that guy. Also counting grey as a woman in this instance. Woman in a lesbian way not as a gender#Teegan is the only person who survived elro besides robin#themes#Teegan has her shit TOGETHER. I saw her and Gustavo talking in the credits I hope they become good friends :-)#robin survived elro and like he won't try to protect/control her anymore but... God...#elro#(mentioned) (also I might talk about him in the future I really like how iconoclasts deals w grief)
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#one final left 😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫#i am procrastinating studying#my motivation to study is nonexistent atp lmfao#which is bad that this class is last#bc idk anything in this class#😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀#and the slides aren't great and there's not a great straightforward way to study in my brain rn#i need to write down some stuff i can do#i i have like a lil les than 14 hours 😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀😀#why was this class so bad for me it wasn't even like that bad like the prof wasn't horrible#just not for me ig 💀💀💀 i just could not pay attention to him everything he said went right in and out thru my ears no comprehension#hm so how do i reread all the chapters or something in like < 10 hours or smth lmfao#also what do i even mean reread as if i read them all the first time slkjnfgdfigbpiurghpqireughdjfhsglfgjhaldkjfh#my last two finals were ok like ........ on par for what i expect lmfao and i think i did as well as i was gonna do on them#but this one#it's fucking unfortunate timing that it's last and day after another final bc i would rly appreciate a lot more time to study for this one#and i cant manage time so i haven't rly started studying for it lmfao why would i study before the day before 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩#anyway whatever#my chinese song playlist hitting hard rn it's so good and so nice to listen to while studying bc i dont get too distracted lol#and the songs are so GOOD i've been bonding more w my roommate over it XD#i think it's kinda funny how my music this week is gonna be so different than normal lol on airbuds since it does weekly music stats#out of nowhere just only lindsey stirIing and chinese songs lol#and then mxmt/oon in btwn there bc she also chiller music#jeanne talks
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the worst feeling in the world is thinking you understand something and then taking a quiz on it and realizing that actually, you understood nothing at all
#damien.txt#my quiz grade wasn't That bad but it was also... not good#and i am frustrated because i feel like a lot of the stuff on the quiz was. not really discussed in depth in class#and now really all i want to do is go home and lay down in bed and maybe cry a bit#because i cannot deal with academic failure#but also i have a whole project due today that i need to work on so. literally cant do that#sighh. considering going to my professor's office hours to talk to him about this quiz bc. some of the questions man.#also maybe i can get him to take pity on me <3#i think i am maybe doing not as good as most of the people in this class which is.... rough. humbling.#i don't think that's ever happened to me before. but i think a lot of this is going over my head maybe#and bc this has never happened before i have no idea how to ask for help!!! ahhhhh!!!#literally it's compounding so much actually. like im getting lower grades on essays in this class than i ever have before in other classes#and it can't be that my writing is worse or something because i'm still getting higher grades in other classes?#so i guess it must be that i dont understand the content as well. but i literally have no idea what i don't understand#ahhhhh. Ahhhh!!! this class is not even in my field it's literally just a required class for my major!!!#i'm a literature major but we have to take like an 'advanced rhetoric' class and i took rhetorical historiography for some reason#and now. suffering. so much.#okay time to go. stare at a wall for an hour. and then start my project#academic.......... weapon...........................
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I'VE OFFICIALLY FINISHED MY FIRST DAY OF MY JUNIOR YEAR :DDDD 💖
#dru speaks#it wasn't a bad day but it wasn't a particularly good day either XD#all my hardest classes are in the first half of the day and all my easiest are in the second#which is great cause the second half of my day is chill#but not great cause i have to do a lot of thinking early in the morning#also ONE OF MY FAVORITE TEACHERS IS GONNA BE ON MATERNITY LEAVE UNTIL OCTOBER AUGH- 😭💔#but yeah i still can't believe i have to keep going back there until june. i'll get used to it though :] 👍 obviously XP
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in my downward spiral of simping over miguel i realized that spanish is SO sexy. i've been blind this whole time
#i'm. fine#im fine#i feel bad i took spanish for 3 years back in high school but i remember basically nothing#lo siento maestra :')#ngl i miss that class#random sol lore drop but in my school district#u could take spanish 1 in 8th grade and if u did u can go directly to spanish 2 in ur first year of highschool#so obviously that's what i did bc 3 years of foreign language were required to graduate#and if i can finish sooner i would#my 8th grade spanish teacher ended up transferring schools and she started teaching at my hs when i took spanish 3 so i saw her again#i was so happy when she remembered me😭#she made learning spanish rlly fun tbh#my spanish 2 teacher wasn't very good so i struggled a lot and i ended up hating the class#but having my og teacher made it fun again#even if i was kinda fucked bc i didn't learn much the year before LOL#i remember asking her 'co se llama (whatever i didn't know) en español?'#SO often 😭😭😭 god bless her soul since she never got mad for asking#i miss u maestra i hope ur doing well wherever u are#she got pregnant toward the end of my junior year and i got to see pictures of her baby my senior year#so cute 🥺🥺🥺#sol.txt#OOPS i meant 'como se llama' in the earlier tag LOL tf is co se llama
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