#it was the withdrawal! the whole time!
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bill-gates-hate-blog · 5 months ago
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cutting sugar does tank your mood but the moment you realize that's the thing that's making you spiral it doesn't feel so bad
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alagaesia-headcanons · 8 months ago
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Eragon and Nasuada are both well loved characters with a lot of good qualities, but they also have some serious flaws and make some grave mistakes. For example, I feel they're objectionable treatment of Murtagh has been discussed relatively often. However, I think they need Way More criticism for how utterly negligent they were in preparing for the confrontation with Galbatorix. Without the outside benefit of genre awareness, it's so egregious how they almost never even try to come up with a plan to kill him. I feel like it springs from inexperience, being overwhelmed, and arrogance, but it's so severe because the ramifications extend to countless lives beyond their own. And no matter the reasons for it, neither of them ever then acknowledge this failing and amend for its consequences, and that is inexcusable. The fact that the first and only plan they ever had to defeat Galbatorix (which immediately fails btw), Eragon came up with hours before the final battle is honestly sickening. Considering their war is justified by a moral basis, the Varden's ethics, specifically in their leaders are all but non-existent.
Why???!!!! It feels like they take no responsibility for their allies! Their concern for them is vague at best and doesn't inform their actions. It's as if they believe that because these people willingly joined their cause knowing they could die, they as leaders are free of blame for anything that happens to them, which is a naive and indulgent misconception. Their decisions still determine those people's fates! And in regards to the eventual fight against Galbatorix, that potential fate they're taking a chance with should they lose is all their allies being slaughtered, down to the very last man. For a start. But Eragon and Nasuada are too young to shoulder that weight as their stations demand and too arrogant to admit their inability, so they just leave it by the wayside.
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blubushie · 10 months ago
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Watching Mavis contemplate the idea of herself possibly being on the path to becoming an alcoholic is strangely cathartic after how she treated me for being an alcoholic. I'd say I wouldn't wish the shit I've gone through on my worst enemy, and that's mostly true. I wouldn't wish the shit I've gone through in full on my worst enemy.
So I hope her recovery goes quick. But I also hope it sucks. I hope she gets withdrawals that she recovers from, but I hope she suffers the fevers and the chills and the cramps and the cravings and the agony. I hope she learns a lesson in how she enables and encourages the way society treats the struggling, the less fortunate, the downtrodden, the traumatised, the addicted.
I hope she learns something from this and never speculates or utters another fucking word about anyone else's coping habits or addictions. I hope she learns to stay in her fucking lane and not judge people for the methods they use to cope.
I hope she comes away with the knowledge of what her own medicine tastes like, and I hope it's bitter.
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k-0re · 2 years ago
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tptm chp 17 sketches part 1 >:))))))
tptm... the fic that can have the cutest moments ever to only crush my soul two paragraphs later
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korn-maze · 2 years ago
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🖤💀Woodstock'99 Jon💀🖤
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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 10 months ago
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Just applied for a summer childcare position (like for a camp type thing) that pays 20–28 dollars an hour based on qualifications (I should be towards the end of that scale because I work in a school; and the only requirement the job lists is to be 16 and have experience with children). So hopefully they’ll consider me. That would be wonderful.
#I hate applying for jobs so much. Everyone uses a different website that makes you sign up for newsletters that clog your email#that you have to manually unsubscribe to#But yeah that’s way more than I get paid as a para lol#which is kind of sad because being a para or teacher is a lot more strenuous and complex than supervising kids during structured play#Because usually the kids enjoy stuff like rock climbing and swimming#so you don’t have to guide them through ten different layers of mental gymnastics to complete their work#or sometimes physically keep them from leaving the learning area after every problem they complete#(of course I do the last thing very gently; and I don’t like having to carry kids from under tables back to their seats#but they’re not going to learn anything if they stay underneath tables all day long… that kind of defeats the purpose of being in school.#I give a lot of verbal warnings before too. Some kids just refuse to learn all the time regardless of their mood because it’s funny to them#Anyway: Kids should not be playing video games past bedtime on a fucking Oculus Rift#Like seriously the tech withdrawal in some of these babies is palpable#Horrifying#Anyway this summer job will be a breeze if I get it#Hopefully no one will be begging me for chromebooks during rock climbing#(I know it sounds like I’m irritated with the kids; and I am. But it’s more irritation with their parents letting them become addicted#to iPads for the sake of convenience; and also frustration directed at capitalism that makes the parents so tired#that they let the iPad babysit their kids so they can rest. It’s the whole system man. It’s fucked.)
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camryemerald · 1 year ago
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the fact that the ebu is taking more time than usual to release the participants list for eurovision this year gives me hope they're at least reconsidering allowing israel (and maybe azerbaijan, for that matter) to participate
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eric-the-bmo · 1 year ago
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[Taking a break]
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ace-with--a-mace · 8 months ago
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mr neils father pls compliment your son tell him he was amazing pls he was so good
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opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years ago
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#sometimes u have a day thats just so. i cant even. its seems 2023 is my year of rage#directionless rage. i guess im mad at me but instead of being directed inward it just goes out into empty space#im just fucking. im at my saturation point#its a good thing i stopped taking measurements yesterday and went to the store tomorrow bc im so fucking#mostly bc i noticed a problem with the code for a paper that is fucking less than a day away from being locked in on acceptance#and now its like fucking i have to go through and change a lot and im also less than 48hrs away from another massive project starting#that will occupy my whole fucking waking nightmare of a life. so its a good thing im level headed. its a good thing i can accept my fuck#ups with honestly. bc im so fucking. ive had it. im up to fucking here with everything and i just want it to be done#im fucking full of bitterness and black bile and i want to break things. and whose fault is it? fucking mine#bc im too fucking exhausted constantly all the time to fucking pay attention to what im doing and notic that a fucking function isnt#working properly. fuck u fuck u fuck u. so what r we gonna do abt it?#idk well see what my boss says. i already texted her that news and its good bc at least i caught it but god its so fucking irritating#god. will i b told off for this? maybe. i probably deserve it. haha if so that will send me for an absolute tailspin. i cannot stand to#feel ive done something wrong. even when i kno i have. last time i had a total freakout meltdown and made v bad choices and that wasnt even#this bad. so its a good thing im currently fairly stable bc the desire to make bad choices is very strong#im just so sick and tired of everything and i want to let things implode bc im vindictive against myself. but we must not do that we must#be reasonable. so idk we may have to withdraw the paper. whatever i dont give a fuck. itll get accepted elsewhere. i dont fucking care#leave me alone to dissolve into the dirt and set my data ablaze to be helpful to no one. erase my Prospective impack. i don't fucking care#anyway today sucked. i might have to stay up all night trying to fix this. ensuring that i fuck up the start of the looming project yayyyyy#i hate it here. i stopped having fun over a year ago#itll b fine. im just fucking. im full im impotent rage#unrelated
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mutalune · 1 year ago
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Me a few weeks ago: I’m going to be on tumblr more and answer messages and -
Life: actually great news! You’re mentally ill in the not-funny way and we have to change your meds again
Me: ah right I don’t get to do things I like I forgot
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toxooz · 2 years ago
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Me looking thru pics of Arthur Morgan like a smoke break 💀
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wanteez · 1 year ago
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i swear some people only became professors for the power trip n not bc they actually want to help people learn
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picturesque-score · 2 years ago
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i am a failure
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yuripira4e · 2 months ago
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This is so incredibly real. Like yes they’re AWFUL and they’re LOSERS but that’s not the issue we’re trying to fix here
“your characters need to be likeable” allow me to introduce you to the very worst guy who ever lived
#Hassan fakes his death for a year and doesn’t really think about the consequences#he also kills a man#and jumpstarts the rising of snger god from the cult he joined#Joanne is so mean but I’d never call her awful she’s simply just having the worst time#her girlfriend is her exact opposite and it physically pains her to hear her lie which is in her nature#her dad is her mom who killed him and took over his body and who killed her actual mom#she’s killed a lot and has to take care of her little brother who is slightly sociopathic because of how he was raised#Benjamin is his whole personal can of worms and Lee sucks but more in a loser w anger issues wau#jude is just awful generally she’s not nice#princess who doesn’t understand the amount of prissiness she gives off#she eats someone’s hand dorry#she was hungry#she hangs her father but that’s honestly the best thing she’s ever done#pez is a freak and has 3 children who do not speak to her anymore#she’s drunk medicinal alcohol when going through withdrawals and had to get saved#I have a lot of more bad people but they’re supposed to be awful#Anne sleeps with and kills a 17 year old for a cult sacrifice to conceive a child chimera who dhe absndons because she thinks he’s defective#from ages 30-47#and then posesses his body and makes him think he’s going crazy#and then she takes his boyfriend#-3/10#Malina is kind of awful#she’s just got a lot of trauma she’s working through and her chest gets tight when she has to even think about talking about her emotions#she’s started so many bar fights and then gotten mad at Leith for stopping them#Krina isn’t awful she’s just a bitch#Farah ronan and Amado r all safe because they’re all my favorites#and Lale Quinn leith and wryder from the other story#wryder is awful but he’s a 13 year old boy he’s allowed to be#my writing
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muttever · 22 days ago
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part of me wishes i could try psychiatric medicine again (because my brain is not right) but last time i did that i tried many prescriptions at varying levels of dosage and literally never noticed a difference, good or bad, so i dont think that would work
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