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iiiiiiis-things · 1 year ago

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Y/N MAKES: PANCAKES

pairing: Duke Dennis x femblack!reader

cw: MENTIONS of fingering, kai being a dumbass, agent is your twin, that's it ??

blurb: soooo yeah i rmb watching markiplier makes literally all the time so this may or may not be a series.

a/n: ummm hey ?? 😂 yes ik i've been gone i'm gonna keep it real school is rlly taking over everything so i won't be posting as frequent i'll post like once or twice a month unless it's a reblog.. but in the summer i do intend to be more present !! (may or may not drop something in valentine's day we'll see 😗)

"duke get your ass in here" he walks infront of you and kai to get to his side of the table and you take the opportunity to smack his ass with the spatula

"bae."

*smack*

"dawg."

*smack*

"ouch! nigga stop!"

he turns around giving you a stank eye rubbing his ass cheek

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"once upon a time, in New York City, the bronx. there was a woman who dreamed a dream. to take the previously made invention of pancakes and turn it into something incredibly new and interesting and zesty." before you could finish your intro kai cuts in from the back

"woah"

"kai shut the fuck up"

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"i have decided that it should be up to me a fine ass black woman to revive the art of lost art...of pancake... art"

"you're doing great babe"

"duke."

rolling your eyes you take a deep breath and continue on to introduce your 'guest' "but as much as i wanted to, this fine ass black woman can't do it alone i present to you." you slam your hands down on the table creating a loud boom before lifting your hand up to your right

Duke walks into the frame and made the poor choice to get his revenge and smack the hell out of your ass with his spatula, which resulted in you smacking the hell out of the side of his fat ass head "known for his strong ass flipping capability, if he were to flip at 100% capacity he would annihilate the entire universe- and trust me. i know" a smile spreads across your face as you you make eye contact with him, he laughs before resuming his composure staring at the camera with an intense look "a lot of people may call him by his nick name 'duke dennis'" you use finger quotes around his name "but his legal name is actually my man. sooo"

"it is?"

"yes it is."

he sides eye you "ion-"

"NEXT! we have the crust nestor" you raise your left hand as Kai walks in rubbing his chin as if he fine or something "if you were to even question anybody who has the greatest, crispiest, goldenest crust" "i don't think that's a word" your brother leans over and whispers

"kai"

"my bad"

"as i was saying. the greatest, crispiest, goldenest crust in the world.. they would say my brother" you stretch your hands out as you describe him. kai brows furrows at his introductory "i have a name" you look over to him and there was just silence before the video was cut to the next clip

"and if you're wondering who I am, among the two negros standing next to me well, i can't believe you dont recognize me"

"your not that popular" Kai says shaking his head in denial and laying his palms flat on the table

"okay you know what, kai.. you getting on my last nerve" you turn your body around to fully face him lowering your tone as like your mother did anytime she was about to pop the shit out of him for asking to get something from the store "i'm sorry" his head hangs low and Duke turns his head to the side and brings a hand to cover his mouth, hiding his smile.

"like i let you be in my video" "i know, i know" Kai shakes his head "and you come in here disrespecting me like i won't slap the shit out of you" you make italian hands and cock your head to the side "ok sis, i'm sorry" rolling your eyes you wrap up your introduction.

"now let's get started and with this trio of perfection, how could anything go wrong?"

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the next clips shows you slamming the bag of flour on the table in front of you as your boyfriend and brother line it up with everything else "we're going in RAW, unpro-" before you can finish your sentence Kai bursts outs laughing and Duke joins him causing you to roll your eyes.

"we're not using recipes! we're not using measuring cups! we've been doing this for hundreds of years" you side eye duke and point his way "him fasho- but uh we totally know EXACTLY, what to do with the ingredients on display on the table on th- here.. on the table.. displayed-here..." (i actually had a stroke writing this)

"it's ok, take your time baby"

"alright, whatever we're starting now. twin give us the count down" agent starts to count down from three and you immediately go for the flour "also i forgot to mention that someone-" you glare at Duke pouring at least 1 cup of flour in your bowl "forgot the buttermilk" for some reason the first thing Kai did was spray his bowl with pam which Duke notices "the fuck?" he stops pouring the sugar in his bowl to look at Kai because for some reason the next thing he decides to do is pour in the milk.

"see unlike these two idiots, i know that your supposed mix the dry ingredients first" you say glancing up at the camera "where are the spoons?" you look around the table as Kai lifts his head and winces "oh shitttttt- my bad yall"

"nigga"

"are you serious?"

you then smack your lips "fuck it" you start to mix the dry mix with your hands after doing that you grab the vegetable oil and pour just a little inside "ice spice is so fine" Kai grabs an egg cracking it inside "she wants me to be in her new music video" Duke furrows his eyebrows grabbing the oil from you "you?" you grab the carton of eggs from Kai's side of the table "yes. me nigga" kai smacks his lips as you accidentally bump into him knocking almost half his mixture out of his bowl "my bad"

"so as you can see my opponents being the dumbass they are used two eggs when your only supposed to used one" you use your white girl voice as you crack an egg into your bowl "yall this how I be in y/n pussy" you look at duke who holds up the bowl and starts to use his middle and ring finger to mix his pancake solution "boy stop lying you be like this" you lift your fingers creating a 'c' motion duke smacks his lips and stops you "girl no the fuck i don't, i be like-" before he could correct me kai yells at us with a face of disgust "OKAY we get it god damn"

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after playing around for a little bit time eventually runs out and the three of you attempt to create at least a few decent pancakes "we have syrup right?" Kai asks "duh why the fuck would we have pancakes and no syrup?" Duke responds to Kai. he smacks his lips and his brows come together as he starts to get irritated "bro didn't you forget the buttermilk?" "didn't u forget the spoons?" "okay but at least-"

"oh my god both of y'all shut the fuck up."

you all finish up your pancakes in separate rooms to create a little bit of suspense and to see who pancakes turned out the best and after setting the camera back up it was time to present.

"hey guys" agent waves at the camera as he fixes the flash "i'm going to be the judge of everyone waffles" you look up and fixes his statement "pancakes" "same difference"

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"why the fuck is it hard?" agent tries to cut Kai black ass pancake with a knife but it doesn't budge "and black" Duke adds trying to get Kai eliminated but the way your twin was struggling to slice it was already enough. "you see it was a visual representation of my sister" Kai uses his arms to explain as you step forward "nigga u tryna be funny? alls i see is a black ass blob"

"it was supposed to be a monkey."

agent ends up picking up the mess with his hand, but it was so hard he couldn't even take a bite..

"alright next." he moves over next to you and removes the lid on top of your plate and he immediately begins laughing. Duke and Kai comes up to see what so funny as they soon realized what you created "i was inspired by the song peaches and eggplants featuring sexyy red and mulatto" your white girl voice comes back as you hold up the plate for the camera to see. obviously it was a peach and eggplant you even took the time to color your batter but what agent found so hilarious was the powdered sugar and whip cream spread across the peach and syrup leaking from the tip of the eggplant.

"alright, alright cmon lemme taste it" he grabs a fork and begins to slice through "hey!! i can cut through this one!" Duke laugh booms throughout the house as Kai rolls his eyes, after successfully cutting a nice piece of the peach he stuffs it into his mouth and begins chewing "mmm." you look at him with momma lips telling him he better say something good or he was gonna be fired "i mean yeah it's good. like real shit. but-" you whip your head to him seeing what else he has to say "wayyy to much whip cream, it makes the waffle extra sweet it would've been better with a drizzle of syrup" you once again correct him "pancakes" "shut up, tomato tomata"

"ok duke you ready?" "no" " to bad" he removes the lid exposing his pancake which didn't look bad at all but he forgot one thing "just normal waffles?" you scream from behind the camera "PANCAKES" "I KNOW WHAT I SAID" your boyfriend breaks up the small bickering "well shit how was i supposed to know we was making eggplants and monkeys? ain't nobody told me shit." he shrugs as agent cuts through his pancake and drowns it in syrup that spilt over on the plate before stuffing it in his mouth "mmm. it's not bad" you walk back into the camera frame wrapping your arms around Duke waist giving him a peck on the cheek which makes him grin "don't playyyy! see my baby can cook!" "but-" "damnit never mind" duke frowns as he catches an attitude and removes your arms from around him and agent continues "i don't know what the fuck u did but this is the chewiest waffle i ever tasted"

you walk over to the plate and you grab another fork to taste, cutting a small triangular piece you bite the tip off immediately realizing what twin was talking about "it's not necessarily chewy... it's like.. doughy" waving Duke over he walks up behind you wrapping one arm around your waist. lifting up the fork with leftover pancake on it you bring it to his mouth as he takes a big ass bite stuffing the rest in his mouth. Duke chews and chews soon swallowing "i don't see what yall talking 'bout that shit good" he points to his plate. Kai pops up out of nowhere with a fork squeezing inbetween you and agent trying to snag a piece he rolls his eyes and leaves back behind the camera to make sure it was still recording. "what the shit ?? this shit taste like ass" Kai immediately spits it out and Duek smacks his lips "nigga stop playing wimme that shit taste amazing!"

you move over grabbing your own plate over so the three of you can taste it. you and your brother both take a bite of the eggplant as Duke waits patiently for you to feed it to him "mmm. yeahh thats perfect. i don't even wanna taste the peach" kai shakes his head in disbelief that you actually made a decent pancake, rolling your eyes u feed duke a small piece of the eggplant, being a little nervous for his reaction "mmhm." he balls his fist bringing it to his mouth "oh yeah" he points towards your plate "that's the shit right there" you smile glad that he took a liking to your creation "thank you baby" you give him a kiss and Kai once again interrupts "ALRIGHT, my turn!"

"i'm not eating that shit."

#duke dennis is my man #duke dennis amp #duke dennis x reader #duke dennis x black reader #duke dennis x black!fem!reader #duke dennis #kai cenat #agent 00 #x reader #x black reader #guess who's back #(kinda)

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eggtartz · 1 year ago

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✧ 21th October ✧

Ran Haitani // Girth Of An Object (f! girlfriend reader)

kinktober masterlist

warnings : mentions of sex toys, baton play, penetration with baton, slight aftercare, dirty talk

you rummaged through ran's closet because twice a month, you'd agreed to have a cleaning day in the apartment. you opened up the last dusty box as ran dusted the whole place and helping throwing away the trash. "found anything, babe? some memories from the past perhaps?" his voice was muffled as he adjusted the mask over his mouth.

"there's this one box, i think it's your tenjiku stuff" you said, sweating behind your mask. "oh? oh shit, it is" you could hear the smile in his voice as he looked through it. "oh babe, look. it's me and rin! and kakucho! look, mochi's hair looks ridiculous!" he cackled.

"said someone who had braids like annabelle" you snickered as he glared. "shut up, it was cool. i miss my long hair" he ruffled his currently lilac hair. you smiled as you went through more of his things "woah ran! is this your baton? you used to use this?" ran smirked "oh babe.. you don't know my history with this baby"

he took the piece of metal, still clean and not rusty. it had a black and white stripes, a small R.H. carving on the handle. you smiled at the look of the weapon "you know what that oddly looks like?"

"what?"

"my dildo"

ran spat out his spit. "what the hell babe, you horny?" he raised his eyebrow "no! tell me it doesn't look the same" you cackled, reached over your drawer and pulled your pink dildo, the one ran bought for your anniversary. he has done a custom piece, a R.H carving on the tip. "tell me it's not the same!" you compared the objects side to side. "well, the baton has a wide girth i think. wanna test it out?"

again, it was cleaning day so you two were a sweaty mess as you ended up making out on top of each other on the couch. since the mattress is getting dried under the sun. you made small whimpers as ran nudged the head of the baton right at your pussy lips. "let's see.. we're gonna start slow alright, sweetheart? or you're too greedy for that?" he purred againts your ear. "just fuck me with it, ran" you hissed, eyes pleading.

"i knew you were such a greedy one" he chuckled, playing with your clit so you'd be stimulated enough for the metal to pierce through your walls. "that's it, take it in. imagine, it's my cock." he cooed. "you're doing so well, keep it up sweetheart" he gave slight slaps to your oversensitive clit making you writhe under him.

his baton was almost half inside you yet you felt like being split in half. the width of the baton stretched you sooo deliciously, you groaned at the lack of movement since ran's moving so slow. "hurry, ran.. need it inside me, please" you raised your hip, rolling it for any fraction. "oh shit, look at that" ran spat on your pussy "it's so pretty, stuffed and wet" he cooed, one hand caressing your inner thighs. your cunt gushed around the foreign object when ran finally picked up his pace, using the baton to thrust inside.

"ah! oh, it's so much better than the dildo!" you smiled drunkenly as ran smirked "does it now? what a freaky sweet thing you are" he caressed your clit, flicking it softly and gently. he often spat on your pussy to make sure it's lubricated enough despite not needing so since your slick is coating the baton very well.

"ran! oh, i can feel it.." you moaned with a high pitched voice "feel it where? in your tummy? your insides?" he bought himself down to have one tit in his mouth, flicking your nipple with his tongue. you grabbed his hair, as you felt a wave of intense stimulation coming. your pussy convulsed as you came undone, thighs shaking with pleasure. "there we go. you did good" he mumbled, taking your other tit while soothing your clit in circles, taking out the baton slowly from your pussy.

he bought the baton to your mouth as you licked it, tasting yourself as you traced your tongue to clean up your own mess. "there we go, still think this one is better than the dildo?" he raised his eyebrow. "yeah.. much better than the dildo" you smiled.

"but it can't beat this one, can it?" he patted his crotch, a bulge already apparent behind his sweatpants. "oh no, this one is the best" you purred, slowly rubbing him. it's safe to say that on the cleaning day, you two did nothing done.

#tokyo revengers #tokrev #tokyo rev x y/n #tokyo revengers x reader #tokyo revengers x yn #tokyo revengers smut #ran haitani #ran x reader #ran imagines #ran smut #ran haitani x reader #ran haitani smut #ran haitani imagines #kinktober entry ♡˖

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runningincircl3s · 2 months ago

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Nothing Ever After

Noah Sebastian x Reader x Vinny Mauro

Chapter Twelve

chapter warnings: none!

team vinny we are so BACK!! happy friday, happy belated birthday to noah sebastian the man that you are and happy november! it's a week until my birthday and i'm sooo happy about the chapter that'll be coming out that day <3

also if anyone was at apocalypse fest or vin's afterparty dj set i hope you had the best time ever it looked soo fun!!! i've been torn between not wanting to check twitter because of the intense fomo but also wanting to see all the pictures and videos :)

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You walk into the green room after lunch, carrying your laptop and camera in your arms ready to show Bryan and Matt the pictures you and Noah chose last night to post on the band’s social media accounts. However, as you walked up to the door you could hear Justin talking. You stopped where the guys couldn't see you and listened in on what they were saying.

“I don’t know who was in the hotel room next to me last night, but it sounded like they were having a great time.” Justin laughed. “I don’t think they stopped for almost four hours, I almost had to knock and tell them to shut up.”

"Really?" You heard Ryan scoff, but as he was about to say something else you walked in, greeting the guys and ignored the way Vinny was glaring at you from the couch in the corner, barely looking up from his phone.

“Y/n! Do you have those photos ready?” Matt asked as he sat down, leaving the only space for you between him and Vinny.

“Yep, why don’t you take a look?” You smiled, opening up your laptop and loading the edited pictures.

“So these are the ones Noah chose last night?"

"Yep, it was a tough decision but we decided on these few."

"They look sick! I love that one with Folio in the back." He smiled, clicking through the pictures. "Could you send them to me? I’ll get them posted tonight.”

“Of course.” You said, quickly sending the pictures to your phone.

“Matt, they need you out there, somethings gone wrong with the mic.” Chris chuckled, walking into the room to get another water bottle. “Noah’s pissed.”

“Fuck,” Matt groaned, stretching as he got up, “I better go and see what they’ve fucked up. But thanks, y/n.”

"No problem." You smiled.

As he left, Chris and Ryan shortly followed behind him, leaving you in the room with Justin, Ricky and Vinny. As the others were busy talking about something, you saw Vinny put his phone down on the table, rubbing his eyes.

“So,” you began, not bothering to look up from your phone as you spoke to him, “How's Caitlin?”

“How should I know? She went home yesterday before we went back to the hotel.” He sighed, “So you and Noah had fun last night?”

“What do you mean?” You looked over at him as he shrugged, sitting back on the couch, his legs spread as he rests his hands on his head.

“I know your room is next to Justin’s, and I saw the way you kept looking at him yesterday.” He said, “C'mon, tell me I’m wrong.”

“Vin, what happened to leaving each other alone.” You groaned, running your fingers through your hair. He smirks, seeing how frustrated you were becoming.

“Does he know?”

“Know what?” You asked.

“About us?”

“There isn’t an us, Vinny. There wasn’t an us.”

“So I mean nothing to you? That meant nothing to you?” He raised his eyebrows.

“Vinny, I never said that.”

“I can’t keep doing this with you.” He sighed.

“You’re the one who brought it up!” You argued, trying your best to keep your voice down and stay calm.

“And you’re the one who started it-”

“What are you two arguing about?” Angela laughs, walking into the room and dropping her bag down onto the table.

“He's being a dick, nothing new.” You hissed as you picked up your things and stormed out of the room.

“Woah,” Angela gasps, “What have you done to upset her like that?” She crosses her arms as Vin shakes his head.

“I haven’t done anything, she’s just suffering the consequences of her own actions.” He shrugged, picking his phone back up as Angela rolled her eyes and chased after you, as Rick and Justin looked at Vinny in confusion.

“Y/n? What happened?” Angela asks. Smiling softly as she found you sat on the step outside, your head in your hands.

“Everything’s such a mess,” you frown, looking up at her, “I’ve fucked everything up with Vinny, and now I’m afraid I’m leading Noah on.”

“Wait... Rewind, tell me what’s happened whilst I’ve not been here.” She said, sitting down beside you.

You tell her everything, and watch as she takes it all in, putting everything together in her head as you catch her up on what's happened in the few days she's been away.

“Sounds like Vinny’s just jealous.” She states.

“But it’s my fault.”

“No, honey, you set your boundaries and told him you only want to be casual, no strings, right? And he’s still holding on to this hope you’ll drop Noah for him, because he's mad that Noah now doesn’t have to share you with him.”

“But I don’t want Vinny to hate me,” you frown, feeling your voice begin to crack as you speak, “I really like him, I'd be more than happy to just be friends with him but I don't see that happening, do you?”

“Hey, he doesn’t hate you, y/n. I know Vin and I know for a fact he's upset but he does not hate you.” She reassured you, taking your hand in hers.

“Then how do I stop him from being upset? It's not like I can apologise, there's nothing to apologise for!”

“He’s a guy, buy him food or something- No, I’ve got an idea! Follow me!” She grins suddenly, rising to her feet.

"Angela, what are we-"

"Shh, I have a plan, okay. Trust me!"

Angela pulls you up and you follow her back inside. You follow her through the venue, to where the majority of the guys currently were for soundcheck.

“Y/n’s going to get pizza!” Angela called out, and everyone but Ricky’s face lit up, “I’m sending her and Vin out to get it since they're not really doing anything right now, so if you wanna let her know what you’re getting…”

“What?” You furrow your eyebrows, “But I’ve only just had lunch!”

“Well we haven’t,” you hear Bryan say, “I’ll get pepperoni!”

The guys all told you their orders, and Rick said he’ll order something else in something before the show. As Angela had announced it out loud to all the guys, Vinny couldn't find a way out of this, not wanting to draw any attention to the situation they were all unaware of by causing a scene.

You were expecting the walk to the shop to be unbearable, but it was actually going pretty well. Neither of you spoke a word to each other, both too afraid of saying something wrong and starting another argument as that's all you seem to do at the moment when you're together.

“Is there any reason Rick was the only one of the guys who didn’t want pizza?” You ask, testing the waters and breaking the silence between you.

“He hates pizza,” he said bluntly, before adding, “He’s said before that it’s his kryptonite.”

“No way, who can hate pizza?”

“Well... Rick,” he shrugs, still looking down at the ground with his hands in his pockets, “I know I’m biased because I’m Italian, but I almost fought him on the spot when I found out.”

“I can't believe it." You chuckle, before another thought came to you and you turned to look at him. "Do you ever have sauce with pizza?”

“What kind?”

“Ketchup, mayo-”

“Hell no!” He exclaimed, “That’s an actual disgrace! Mayo is bad enough alone, it makes me feel sick just thinking about it…”

“Exactly! Thank you!” You agreed, “Bryan always eats pizza with mayo and it freaks me out.”

“He’s insane! You will never catch me eating pizza with any sauce, ever!” He chuckles, holding the door to the pizza shop open for you.

You collect the pizzas, and you're thankful the guys decided to share so you only had to carry three boxes, whereas Vinny had to carry 4. You were also thankful it was only a short walk back to the venue, but that didn’t mean Vinny didn’t get stopped by a few passing fans asking for pictures with him, and couldn't say no.

“I’m so sorry, Vinny.” You tell him as you continue to walk back, and he looks at you in surprise.

“For what?”

“Everything, I knew we should’ve just stayed friends but everyhting just happened so-”

“Hey,” he stopped you, “Forget about it, okay? It’s in the past. We need to spend another two and a half months together and the guys will be so confused if we’re just fighting or avoiding each other the whole time.” He smiled.

“I guess,” you frown, looking over at him, “Thank you.”

“You don’t need to thank me y/n, it’s the mature thing to do, right? Let's put everything behind us, I just want to move on.”

“Yeah, me too.” You smile, cursing Angela because whatever her plan here was, it certainly worked.

“Are you sure you don’t want me to take another one?” He asks, motioning to the pizza boxes

“No! You’re already carrying 4, Vin. We'll be back in a couple minutes anyway.”

To say you were happy that whatever happened between you and Vin was now resolved was an understatement, because you really loved his company. As you brought the pizzas in, Angela got the door for you two, giving you a look to say ‘I told you so’.

“Vin you’re needed out here!” You hear Justin call out, and Vinny dumps his pizza boxes down on the table in the green room before making his way out.

“So… I see you two haven’t killed each other. Worked things out?” She crossed her arms with a smirk as you went through each box and checked your notes app to find whose was whose.

“I think so,” you said, “I didn’t expect him to just forgive me that easily but he did?”

“Like I told you, he doesn’t hate you, baby. He doesn’t have the ability to.” She chuckled, and some of the guys started to come into the room.

“Ryan, this is yours and… Ruffilo’s. This is Bryan and Noah’s, that one’s Folio's and Justins, this one is Chris’, that one there’s for Matt and Jolly…”

You gave out everyone’s pizzas, and when you sat down pizza-less, Vinny noticed and shuffled over to the spot on the couch next to you.

“Wanna share?” He asked, holding a slice out for you. You weren’t hungry, not after only having your lunch an hour ago, but you took it anyway and thanked him.

“Got any ketchup?” You joked, a slight smirk on his lips as he looked at you in horror.

His face lit up, telling you he had an idea, and before you knew it he was digging through a plastic bag in the corner of the room, walking back with packets of mayo and ketchup, catching the attention of the others.

“You’re not…” You couldn’t finish your sentence as he towered over you, opening the packet of ketchup and putting it on your slice of pizza. “You bitch!” You gasped, putting it back down in the box and snatching one of the packets of mayo from him, covering a slice in it and handing it out to him.

“I will if you will.” He shrugged.

“Vin, you can’t be serious.”

“I’m totally serious, why? Are you scared?”

“No! Are you?”

“Pfft! Of course not, I'm not a pussy!” He shook his head.

"Oh yeah?" You raised an eyebrow.

“How long do you reckon it’ll be until they fuck?” Ryan asked, watching the of you, and Folio and Angela both snorted, earning questionable looks off the others, especially Noah.

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Motionless had just finished playing, and as it was Bryan’s day to go out and shoot some photos for Bad Omens so you stayed back in the green room. Through Motionless’s set, you and Nicholas were having a debate on whether Ricky or Vinny was taller, and you both settled on believing it was Rick- but throughout their set, and the hours leading up to it, Noah didn’t speak a word to you. You just assumed it was so nobody suspected anything after last night, but he genuinely seemed pissed off. He didn’t even laugh when you made any jokes, he didn’t even bother to ask you what Matt thought of the pictures.

It wouldn’t have bothered you so much if Angela didn’t also pick up on his behaviour. As the Bad Omens guys left to get ready to go on, she came and sat by you.

“Someone is clearly jealous of you and Vin,” she chuckled, “It’s funny really. He has no idea does he?”

“Who has no idea of what?” You asked, repositioning yourself to sit cross legged on the couch.

“Noah doesn’t know about you and Vin, but Vinny knows everything about you and Noah.”

“Ang, please. Vinny was only telling me to tell Noah this morning, but I don’t see why I have to.”

“Because he hasn’t spoken to you all afternoon, he’s been watching you and Vin eye fuck and he’s jealous.”

“We weren’t-”

“Girl, I saw what I saw. If Noah really meant as much to you as it seems, you would’ve realised too. Ryan certainly did.”

“What did I do?” You heard Ryan ask, setting his mask down on the table and shaking his sweaty hair.

“Nothing.” Angela smiled, as she finished packing her makeup away, “See you guys on Friday!”

You forgot you all had the day off tomorrow, meaning another night in a hotel bed instead of the tour bus, and you were grateful.

“Update!” You heard Vin say, and as you turned around you saw the dreaded sight of Ricky with his camera, and you got up ready to flee, “We literally just got off stage, I went nuts out there, we all went nuts out there... I think I need a shower… Hey y/n, do you think I need a shower?” He was suddenly invading your personal space, his arms wrapping around you in a scarily sweaty hug, and what was left of his body paint was rubbing off on you.

“Vincenzo I swear if you don’t let go of me right now!” You threatened, pushing him away.

“Y/n, give me an update!” Rick smiled behind the camera.

“Update- Is this my first update? Vin stinks, and I’m gonna beat his ass for covering me in sweaty paint!”

“You would never!” You hear him shout from the hallway, presumably on his way to get changed.

“Oh yeah?” You grin, quickly reaching in your bag for your deodorant and chasing him.

“Shit!” He laughs, watching you walk into the dressing room and approach him, “I’m sorry!”

“Oh yeah?” You smirk, ready to spray him, but he reaches out, taking your wrists in his hands, fighting you off. “Vinny!” You laugh as he tackles you.

You end up pushed up against the wall, his hands holding your wrists above your head as you can't help but giggle, ready to surrender.

“Woah!” Justin's eyes widen as he walks in, “Please tell me I’m not interrupting anything!”

“No,” you say as you wiggle out of Vinny’s grasp, “Not at all!”

Justin looks unsure as he looks between the two of you.

“I’d tell you guys to get a room, but you both have one, and I’d much rather you do… Whatever this is there.” He chuckles.

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@rumoured-whispers @collisionofyourkissmakesitsohard @lma1986 @thisbicc @dominuslunae @miss570 @miamore0570 @jilliemiw86 @itsyaboinoah

#noah sebastian x reader #vinny mauro x reader #noah sebastian fanfic #vinny mauro fanfic #nothing ever after <3 #bad omens fanfic #motionless in white fanfic

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ok here are two off the top of my head

this one analyze the moments finn talks about noah which imo just make me 👀😍

https://youtu.be/qgXPO2r8uZU?si=xbEueZAPSF4_F4t8

then this one the foah moment starting at 1:05 with them when finn is having his anxiety

https://youtu.be/TwF2PvdpyQo?si=_RGOPNgFAJVGomWP

CLIP ONE Ok, starting off strong. This is one of the top cast clips imo. I love Noah's insistence that he's not wholesome followed by an onslaught of people saying he is HA that's funny. Show us more of your really un-wholesome side, babes. We've seen it a little now. Teased it. Let go a little more. Your captive audience is begging for it. Also also I can listen to him read the damn phonebook. Noah has theee most soothing voice. I'm still obsessed. I wonder how aware this boy is of his gay audience, to be honest? He's gotta be aware of the effect he has on guys. He has to know. There's a whole other side we're not getting and I for one am curious as hell.

Finn's impressions of him, though. They're so accurate! "He's just the nicest person in the world." FINNN. Yeah this one is interesting. Overused word but ENDEARING. Wait wait I forgot how fucking hysterical this interview is - Eduardo as Noah "Oh, it's a life or death situation. Let's go get on a private jet and fly somewhere else!" And Charlie's "God it's so annoying that you have to die right now. Ugh!!" STOPPP - which is what made Finn laugh like this. Boy. Again, funny, but not that funny? He's laughing like he finds everything about the boy he likes hysterical. Or, devil's advocate - it's the fact that Eduardo and Charlie are yet more older man of which is Finn's kryptonite, always acting up and laughing harder just because he LIVES to impress and humor men. Either way. 👀

Just look at him. He was wheeeezing over that bit. Oooh then the poker story. Great moment. Finn, Finn, Finn. "What did he say!? He said something sooo funny." Do you remember word for word what my good buddy Noah said, do you remember, did you memorize everything he's done in our presence like I have? And the other two "Uhh... yeah..." Clearly Noah is someone sooo special to him, love this. Oh, to be a fly on the wall.

Noah better be with Finn and the other guys and anyone else because... someone else just isn't as fun in these interviews! Need him to cut loose and get weird and be silly and gives us the energy. Not giving with hmm. Be nice be nice be nice.

CLIP TWO Oh, the babies! Red carpets are honestly probably the hardest to get through I just want to crawl and hide in the same way baby Finn probably wanted to crawl and hide. He makes me so sad here. Clearly going through it. His nerves 🥲 He's so bouncy and fidgety and oooh it's rough. It's a little rough to watch. And then Noah saves him a bit. Sweet. And then Noah clocks it more and just, keeps trying for eye contact. He knows, and I feel like he so much wanted to slip behind Millie and console him - but how sweet when Caleb sees it, too? This group is so special. Then the very intense eye contact between Finn and Noah? Woah. It really seemed to center Finn a little.

Now, I don't even necessarily read it as romantic (but who's to say that little teenage crushes are impossible at this time) but it's more to me, showcasing this truth in front of us about the place they have now and have had in each other's lives. There for each other. They've probably helped each other out with a lot, down from the edge, a source of comfort and companionship. Beyond the romance chatter and all we love here - this is why Noah calls him a "special person" and the same with him to Finn. There's a connection there, whatever it really means. And it's cool we've gotten to witness something like this. There's a lot of negativity and contention in the industry. I think that's what part of why this group has been so compelling to observe over the years. It's a bit more authentic and real, the intertwining relationships.

Gosh, the longer I watched the clip though - the deeper I pulled my sweater over my face. Too recognizable. Seeing a kid who's both excitable and also in the depths of excruciating anxiety? Looked like a mirror. Wanted to close my eyes.

#asks

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neuroticbookworm · 2 years ago

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Step by Step Episode 8 Ramblings

Episode 7 Ramblings, here

Put is not even gonna let Pat say his piece? 2 minutes in and I'm already burning mad

"I haven't taken you for granted like before"

"I know, you've been really good to me" Oh Pat, you pathalogical people pleaser

I continue being impressed by this show showcasing how adults do and should handle relationships and everything that comes with it. This must be one of the most realistic breakup scenes in BLs. And it is done without compromising the emotions of the characters. Hats off, really

Jane is wearing two layers of pink. Our resident Tumblr color demon @respectthepetty has taught us that pink = love, so good to know that his feelings has remained unchanged or even intensified from last when we saw him

My god, Khun Jeng looks so fineeeeeeeee

And he's wearing a dark blue shirt underneath his neutral brown jacket. While Pat is in a dark blue cardigan. Interesting

Ohhhhhhh wow Jane is pissed and Jaab is too. The cat fight between these two is gonna be hilarious

Put, you insufferable snake, ya dumped. Stop misrepresenting facts

Jeng, how the fuck did you know? Are you really THAT perceptive?

Oh man, that is the worst takeaway you can ever have from a failed relationship

*jaw dropped* Oh Jeng is going for the jugular. Oh he's done playing games, he wants to fight

Oooooooooof. Put, you manipulative bastard

Oh it's still not over. Oh they're still going, holy shit, this is intense

Is that a threat, about coming out? Seriously, what the fuck

I CAN'T WAIT to read all the body language analyses y'all are gonna write on that scene. Woah, that really was something

Ae and Beam are here!

Well, Ae looks like a goddess, as usual. What else is new?

I love this scene and the commentary that comes with it. Keep your noses out of pregnant people's business, for fuck's sake! How hard is it to have some basic decency?

I love that Tae is calling out how quickly Jeng's mood changes from brooding to giddy and vice versa in this conversation.

We have a new stuffie. The shark is out and the tiger is in. YES I SEE IT AND I LOVE IT

Oh I'm sooo ready for this non-date date. I want the sweet, sweet fluff to drown me. Gimme all the blushing, all the eye contact, all the accidental brushing of fingers, GIVE IT TO ME

OH MY GOD, he planned the whole thing. He had people move chairs out of the way for aesthetics. This complete bitch (affectionate)

GUYS, THE FLIRTING, I know I said I can handle it, but this is too adorable ^^

Jeng just hung up on his brother in a flash, not even waiting for him to respond? Oh that's cold

Oh shit, Pat is drunk, again, Here come the truth bombs

Damn, Man Trisanu is nailing this. He is acting his ass off to show how restless Jeng feels before every almost-confession

This slowburn is gonna kill us all, honestly

Oh we are dancing, oh it's so gloriously awkward, oh make it stop

Jaab, my beloved, I've missed your melodrama. You look like a divorced sugar baby who won half the riches in the settlement, I love it

Jeng tells Pat he can be just a safe space for him, while Pat is sobbing on his shoulder about his ex. All while Jeng has been trying the whole day to confess his own feelings for Pat. Every atom of this man is a green flag, I swear

These drunk disaster gays, I love them so much

Pat, sweetie, no. Please, you must be joking. Don't tell me you didn't know, DON'T TELL ME YOU ARE THAT OBLIVIOUS!

Okay, now Pat has to rethink each and every one of their interactions to see if he has ever misled Jeng, or if Jeng has ever crossed his boundaries. And then recalibrate his feelings with this new information. Yeah, this could take a while.

I'm leaning more and more towards the possibility of a second season, or even a special episode, after the show ends. Because there is no way they can fit all the domesticity these characters deserve within the next couple of episodes.

Ahhhh I can't believe the slowburn is still not over. I love it and I hate it and I'm pretty sure this show has turned me into a sadomasochist.

#step by step #step by step series #step by step the series #step by step ep8

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lostfracturess · 16 days ago

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gods crying screaming throwing up, left on the floor crying

you know, usually i have a list of somehow arranged and ordered things to tell you, but now i feel like if i try to put something in a resemblance of order, my thoughts will be just running away, sooo this will be ultra chaotic, i am so sorry

okay, the very first thing that pops up in my mind, is of course the relationship between satoru and the s&c reader, that...god, how one can even put a definition to them? that codependent obsessive agonizing mess, that leaves you destroyed, but in the most painfully pleasant way ever possible. once again, i am in a total awe with your writing, but you already know that. i am so grateful that you sharing your talent, your efforts and hard work with us, and at some point i feel like i can't stress it enough how many emotions and feelings your art evokes in me. and with your description of codependency and addiction, i feel as my heart being ripped apart and from my chest, because of its sheer intensity and devastating realness that hits harder than a thousand bricks. i really can't say that i am so familiar with all the things that happening here (thanks god i guess), some things just tug at my heartstrings and fill with that (in) escapable hollowness and sadness. absolutely adore when you depict their relationship this way, more delving into a complexity of codependency to the point where you can quite understand what was happening; love the raging contrast- or not even a contrast, more like depicting love and hate the same sides of the coin, or more like edges of a knife they twist inside of themselves with what their feelings to each other are. completely chained, connected and interwined to the point you don't know where each of them starts and ends. satoru sees it as a dirt (woah, what a surprise, isn't it?), but i see it's as something more. while you're aware that codependency is unhealthy and all of that stuff, destroying and (self)-destructing to the point of only seeing dirt and filth, you can't deny that there might be genuine feelings in it and discard them completely, because love isn't always about something beautiful and easy, sometimes it about pain and grief and loss. and you show all that aspects with such... precision, care and dare i say tenderness, that leaves me in awe, as usual, with the way you convey the complexity of these situations without any answers (like it was said in the chapter). it is sad, beautiful and tragic. while i guess everyone's here aware that codependency isn't a healthy form of a relationship, as a person, who might've experienced it (i am still not sure, haha) i can't say that it is so easy to leave things just as they are and stopped loving, for as i've said already, love, no matter how painful it might be, doesn't work this way. and even in that chapter, when we see the borderline crazy behaviour (or not even borderline, i am not exactly sure 😭😭), personally i can't just look away, and then BOOM, a glimpse of something soft and tender so fragile it might break if you don't hold right, like we see a constant rollercoaster happening between satoru and s&c reader (we all are in for a ride here 😭). the constant push and pull between them makes me punch the walls and jump out of the window, because i can't look away, can't help but admire that chemistry you build them, that connection when they are so interwined they started behave and seen like each other, when their love feels suffocating and murdering to the point it evolves? devolves? into hate, and you're not sure about anything but the way they belong to each other with such a clear understanding that it's frightening. though i do hope they will eventually found a balance (or at least a semblance of it), after this chapter my hopes aren't this high (the failing liver, coming into a stage: hiiii 😃😃😃😃)

of course, satoru. i absolutely adore the chapters from his pov (because he's so pathetic & in love & psychotic & obsessive? haha, who knows <3) as it offers as such a different perspective into things and into his messy head (that leaves you even more in shock after, but it's okay, hehe. love him so much) and the way i can distinctively tell when it's him or suguru, or both our reader girls- seriously, the woman, the writer you are, nici 😭😭😭😭. i am completely in love with the way you write him, seriously i don't understand how a person that doesn't even exist has such a chokehold on me. there's must be some psychological explanation- anyway. the way this whole chapter (that is totally named RIGHT) screams about his constant guilt, gnawing and clunching on him, and tears him apart, until this is almost the only thing filling that void inside- I FUCKING CAN'T. this is so beautifully devastatingly sad written that i am in awe once again. he blames himself for everything since he's an addict as we all remember, and i know how it's hard to persuade a person that something isn't his guilt, but fuck it's so hard that eventually you just give up. honestly, it just makes me smack my own head against something, because he didn't see ANYTHING good in himself. guilt, shame, addiction, codependency, it all consumes him to the point he doesn't understand who he is (though his relationships with the s&c reader brings out the worst and the best in him). and the way the s&c reader loves, and what's more important sees (despite all satoru's attempts to push her away and sabotage the only good thing that happened to him, which is he himself admits) the man behind the mask and addiction, and loves him to the point she concedes with him taking the drugs. doomed and so so beautiful. the last weeks i can't help but think that s&c satoru is kinda mitski coded (especially brand new city, though the lyrics aren't entirely fitting, the whole vibe of raw vulnerability paired with intensity just gets me) 🥲 your s&c satoru is so... addictive, yeah (no pun intended). brilliant, arrogant, devastatingly tragic, raw, vulnerable, scaring in his intensity, but you can't help but being drawn to him (and of course so fucking hot)

the entire chapter was a pure CHAOS, just as we all expected, but not to that extent, i mean fucking cops and satoru's liver saying its hi (goodbyes) ???? in the most unexpected way, with that monday that feels more like the end of the world, which will totally be, and i can't can't imagine the s&c reader finding out, because her main nightmare, seeing satoru dying, is slowly and surely coming to life. i will be SOBBING. i just know.

so glad naoya finally getting what he should get 😤😤😤😤😤

anddddd so happy to see satoru and suguru communicating, almost before the whole thing started to unwrap. despite everything, suguru is still here for satoru (also: that "he" throughout the chapter - this is suguru, right 😭😭😭 this is a stupid question, but i have to clarify)

thank you again for this amazing chapter!!! and before i barrage the whole amount of my thoughts i counted the time i spent on reading and writing the comment, just regarding that previous ask: i did the reading and writing my thoughts in an hour and a half, and have been writing this for an hour already (then would be hit with the aftermath of reading it for a week almost). also i am reading it while i have to get up early, but do i regret this? no. will I regret it in the morning? probably yes, but it was worth it.

sorry for that chaotic mess of my thoughts again 🫶🏻💜

"She looked up at me with those pretty eyes of hers, and I saw the guilt there, swimming just beneath the surface. And for one horrible moment I thought, Good. Let it pull her under like it's pulling me. Let it fill her lungs the way fear is filling mine" FUCKING HELL WE BARELY AT THE BEGINING OF THE CHAPTER I AM CRYING SCREAMING THROWING UP ALREADY. i don't KNOW something about satoru destroying himself and (sub) consciously destroying everyone around him, as if they were pulled by the gravitational force unable to resist- RAHHHHHHHHH

"Watching the person you love cut themselves open on all your broken pieces, bleeding themselves dry, yet still reaching for more. And that thought made me want to scream" future me, should i stop reading here?

"Before I understood what it meant to love someone so consuming that self-destruction became a form of worship" can we just frame it? i am done pretending miss nici isn't a new shakespeare 🙂‍↕️

"Until I can't tell if I want to love her or ruin her. Until I can't remember which one would hurt more. Who I was before her. If I was anyone at all" for me it's definitely to love more. the thing is he's so caught in his self-destruction tendencies that ruining someone and pushing them away is the only way of loving he knows (in my opinion, of course). also he's so dramatic, i can't 😭

"It was admirable, really. And sometimes, that very defiance made me want to break her. Perhaps only to prove I could. To prove she wasn't in control. Perhaps because I was terrified that I wasn't. That I never was" GODDAMN FUCKING ROUND!!!! glad that he spiraling AGAIN, the only sight of her at the party enough to make him lose any semblance of control and shamblings of that SOMEHOW steady relationship they started to develop in the end of the last chapter!!! i AM so happy!!!!!

"Suguru walked up to her, still standing where I'd left her, and cradled her face in his hands, tilting it up to meet his gaze. My god, could he be any more obvious about it?" satoru, lemme hold your hand while saying it-

"They looked good together, standing there in the dim light. The brilliant researcher and his gifted student. No addiction between them. No sharp edges that sliced you open if you got too close. And I hated that" i am gonna fucking kill myself. like okay, we all talked about suguru being hopelessly in love with the s&c reader, but what about satoru seeing his best friend with her and being perfectly aware that he would be so much better for the s&c reader than he, would treat her right, wouldn't put her into the spiraling painful abyss his addiction is and it KILLS him, because he WANTS to give her that future, to try the rehab, to quit the drugs, but he can't because he's a fucking addict, and it destroys not only him, but the closest people to him. i don't know, if i were him (let's just not, you would say, yeah, i agree), I would've gone crazy with the guilt.

omg i wrote it before he thought about it 😃😃😃😃😃😃 it hurts TWICE

"Careful, Zenin. Your face is already fucked up enough as is. Would be a damn shame if something happened to what's left of it." there's something about protective possessive satoru that makes me lose my fucking everything. don't judge me please

"My fingers found the pill on their own. Out of habit, really. Without thinking, I snatched up the silver letter opener next to me and crushed the pill beneath it, watching the powder scatter across the polished wood like fresh snow. I bent down and let the burn fill my nose, sear through my brain, numbing everything in an instant" i so fucking HATE that he's so HOT while taking drugs 😭😭😭😭😭

god i love s&c reader so much, she's so fucking strong it terrifies me, but it terrifies me because i know exactly what it takes her to stand her ground like this and how she would be in shambles later 🥲 why nici.

"But seeing her do it—it was like staring into a mirror and seeing not just my reflection, but the reflection of everything I hated about myself" you know, i see it more like 'the reflection of everything i didn't become', because despite their likeness in finding the very wrong situations without not even a right answer, without an answer really, she didn't lose herself in the drugs, like he did. it's not that i blame satoru, we all know the circumstances, i mean that the s&c reader is much more stronger in the terms of the will and character that i see. not only because of this scene, but the way she handles herself, her trauma with father, relationship with her mother...yes, of course, she's not entirely perfect (god forbid that) and literally is in codependent relationships, but again it wasn't like her choice to fall in love with satoru. it's never a choice. and if talking about his hate to her - i feel it this way again, as if he hates and loves her for not ending up like him, despite their likeness in characters and self-destruction tendencies.

"Times like this, I'm really feeling that age difference between us," satoru. please. you're the last person i expect to act their age in this story.

"And somewhere in the haze of beer and the way she was looking at me, I tried to remember why the hell we were even here. Oh right—something about stealing keys. Real professional operation we've got going here. The medical board would be so proud. Their star surgeon, reduced to playing beer pong as a distraction tactic" queen please you're so funny 😭😭😭

OKAYYYYY BUT THE WAY SATORU REPEATEDLY CALLS THE READER HIS FUTURE WIFE SMILING BLUSHING KICKING MY FEET (am in an asylum already?...)

"That stubborn tilt of her chin that always meant trouble. My palms started to sweat"

the ethical committee:

the possibility of being kicked out of the hospital, the medical license revoked:

the prospect of dinner with his mother:

the s&c reader nodding to drink at the party to a guy that nearly dragged her: heart stopping palms sweating bone crashing.

"My brain short-circuited as I realized she'd been walking around all night in stockings. Actual stockings, with what I knew had to be a garter belt hidden under that criminally short skirt. The same spot where she was now deliberately sprinkling cinnamon" oh my god he's gonna cum in his pants i fear, GIRL GET YOUR MAN 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

"I took my sweet time with the cinnamon, letting my tongue glide over the exposed strip of flesh, feeling her shiver. My teeth grazed her skin, just enough to draw a soft gasp from her lips. If she wanted a show, I'd give her a show. And part of me wanted to shove that skirt higher, to chase that taste of salt and cinnamon further up her thigh until-" biting the pillow- HOW HOT IS THISSS (also: he's so pathetic. lovingly.)

you get it??? fucking lost his mind over damn stockings. ahhhhhhhhhh (honestly, i would do the same, i mean??? it's the s&c reader. I STAND WITH MY CANCELLED WIFE)

"Let's make this more interesting," she announced, her voice carrying over the crowd. "Losers jump in the pool." A pause, then because apparently she was hell-bent on giving me a coronary. "No clothes." STOP THE COUNT I AM BEGGING YOU WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

OH MY FUCKING GOD, THIS IS INSANE I LOVE IT SO MUCH GIVE ME MORE

"The sight sobered me instantly. Something twisted in my chest, sharp and painful. The bruises I'd carefully tended to, the ones that still made her wince when I changed her bandages—on full display for this crowd of drunk idiots, turned into a spectacle" NO NO NO NO TAKE IT BACK NO NO MORE

what can i possibly say besides that she's so lost in everything that was happening, happening between her and satoru, the lab, the fucking fire that she's gone kinda borderline crazy??? and the fact that she exposes her bruises, something intimate to everyone, like she exposes her and satoru at that party?? like she exposes her entire self just to save satoru, and she's always doing it, and he hates himself for letting her do it, because in his mind that's him should always protecting her, and not otherwise. judging by that flicker of regret that crossed her face before diving it kills her too, acting like a bait for a guy that nearly- we all knew what was it. god, how infuriating and humiliating must it feel, and also that's she's afraid of disappointing satoru ahhhhh i CAN'T.

it kills me but it kills so good.

"The itch under my skin had spread, making my whole body crawl with invisible insects while she did the dirty work. Even after everything, she was still trying to save me" fuck STOP BEING SO STUPID I AM LITERALLY GONNA CRYYYYY SATORU STOP FOR THE GOD'S SAKE LET SOMEONE CARE FOR YOU, DON'T YOU SEE YOU'RE DOING THE SAME THING FOR HER???? stupid junkie 😤😤😤😤

"What kind of man was I? What kind of professor? I was supposed to be her mentor, her… something more. Instead, I was dragging her down with me" i swear to god if he's gonna leave her or do something stupid I WILL REACH THROUGH MY SCREEN AND DO SOME UNSPEAKABLE THINGS

"I stared at the blood, watching it pool in the lines of my hand. It looked wrong somehow, too dark, too thick. The longer I stared, the more it seemed to move strangely, crawling along the creases of my palm" I DIDN'T MEAN DYING BY LEAVING, WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK, CAN I BREATHE IN THIS STORY FOR A SECOND????

COPS????? OKAY????? I AM NOT EVEN SURPRISED AT THAT POINT.

higuruma to the rescue it seems. or-?

"Withdrawal crawled beneath my skin like insects, each bite feeding the rage that built vertebra by vertebra up my spine. "Depends. Are you actually doing it, or just power tripping?" in that moment I wanted to recreate the legendary shibuya accident so bad.

OH MY GOD WHAT'S GOING ON I AM PISSING MY PANTS

"My voice was mechanical, professional. Inside, my mind screamed. Why was she here? Had she been drinking? Were her meds interacting with something? I should know this. Should be better than this. Should be fucking better" dear god, what were you supposed to do, drag her out of the party the moment you see her or something? putting an unneeded guilt at yourself so s&c satoru core

you know i am just thinking how utterly devastated the s&c reader will be when she finds out about his liver.

"No, you can't." Suguru slammed the test results down with enough force to make me flinch. Since when is he always so fucking tense? " oh, lemme think 🤔 🤔 🤔 🤔 maybe it's because being in love with the woman his best friend loves and watch them surely trainwreckingly destroy each other??? or being angry confused and frustrated at his friendship with you drifting apart?? or developing feelings to a person he supposedly shouldn't and hurting her??? oh, i even don't know. satoru, an empath:

"I wrapped my arms around her waist and her fingers found my hair instantly, like they belonged there, gentle strokes that made my eyes flutter closed and I thought, this was home. This was peace. Even as my body screamed for relief, even as guilt gnawed at me, here with her, I could almost believe everything would be okay" yeah the fix of fluff amongst the pure chaos and pain, thank you nici we all say in unison

i would be so inevitably MAD WITH HIM WHEN I FIND OUT. GODDSS WHYYYYY HE'S SO STUBBORN I WANNA SMACK HIS PRETTY WHITE HEAD

me and your writing, a summary:

please i love chaotic thoughts so send them in any order you want :'))

yeah it's so hard to define their dynamic at this point, i guess i'm a bit obsessed with these kind of difficult relationships that are a bit codependent, have this love-hate, intertwining to the point of losing themselves in each other, but all the while being aware of the toxicity, but that like can't help themselves? it itches my brain just right for some reason.

and you're so right that love isn't always pretty or easy, and i love your perspective on the genuine feelings and tender moments that exist even in those twisted moments. i'm so glad you get that, bc i love writing that :'))

and the way i can distinctively tell when it's him or suguru, or both our reader girls

ahhh thank you !! this made me so happy to read, i try to make them distinct, so i'm glad this came across well

and about satoru, yessss he is so painfully tragic yet addictive (no pun intended but also totally pun intended) and it's such a joy (and heartbreak) to write him in all his chaotic, brilliant, vulnerable and messy glory haha.

i had a few issues with this chapter before that i thought his pov was too confused once again but then again, like when are an addict's thoughts very rational? like it's a disorder to begin with and i wanted to show in his pov how his addiction and his trauma affect his thoughts and how his mind works so it's all over the place and complicated and messy and i'm so guilty for enjoying writing this.

also, the mitski vibes? spot on. like, yeah, exactly, that's it.

oh and about the who is "he" satoru is referring to in this chapter is not suguru or sukuna. idk if you want to get spoiled (if not skip the rest of the sentence) but it's basically explained in the next chapter as we visit satoru's childhood home so it's one of his parents but not his mother (i'm getting creative to say it without saying it lol).

can't tell you how much it means to me that you took the time to write this, even staying up late, it's kind of crazy to that i spend so much time writing a chapter (which is probably my fault bc of perfectionism) and it gets consumed in such a short time, but like another anon also said, it's not just about the time spent reading, but the connection, the impact, and the thought it inspires afterward.

knowing that you spent hours not only reading but also thinking and writing these heartfelt responses makes it all feel so worthwhile, like knowing that something i wrote could inspire that level of engagement and connection is a gift, and i can't thank you enough for giving me that <3

and yess your chaotic thoughts as we read, here we goooo !!!

maybe !!!

can we just frame it? i am done pretending miss nici isn't a new shakespeare 🙂‍↕️

god i laughed out loud reading this hahaaa

i am gonna fucking kill myself. like okay, we all talked about suguru being hopelessly in love with the s&c reader, but what about satoru seeing his best friend with her and being perfectly aware that he would be so much better for the s&c reader than he, would treat her right, wouldn't put her into the spiraling painful abyss his addiction is and it KILLS him, because he WANTS to give her that future, to try the rehab, to quit the drugs, but he can't because he's a fucking addict, and it destroys not only him, but the closest people to him. i don't know, if i were him (let's just not, you would say, yeah, i agree), I would've gone crazy with the guilt.

yees this !! like he knows so painfully clear that he is not a good partner but he loves just so deeply that he can’t stop and then seeing her with someone that might be better it’s just ahhahsdifwjaenrahe!!! i can’t

maybe there’s a reason to why she is so calm (towards the end of the chapter) that we’ll see in next chapter lol

i feel it this way again, as if he hates and loves her for not ending up like him, despite their likeness in characters and self-destruction tendencies.

oh i love this perspective on it !

"Times like this, I'm really feeling that age difference between us," satoru. please. you're the last person i expect to act their age in this story.

pleasseeeeeee omg

I DIDN'T MEAN DYING BY LEAVING, WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK, CAN I BREATHE IN THIS STORY FOR A SECOND????

ahah omgg i’m sorry, it’s all so much lol it’s like when you play the sims and all status of your sim is on the red edge lol (if you ever played that game)

in that moment I wanted to recreate the legendary shibuya accident so bad.

GIRL AHAHAH

you know i am just thinking how utterly devastated the s&c reader will be when she finds out about his liver.

yeahh probably. but can i tell you that i look so forward to write this? like it’s in my mind since the beginning of the story :’))))

oh, i even don't know. satoru, an empath:

pleasseeeeeee omg 2x

yeah the fix of fluff amongst the pure chaos and pain, thank you nici we all say in unison

it can not be only angst right ?? <3

and lastly, as always, please know how much it means to me that you took the time to write me this. it's such a privilege to write for readers like you who see and feel so much in these stories. thank you from the bottom of my heart for every second you spent reading, thinking, and writing this. wish you a happy holiday season if you celebrate <3

#inbox #wiserion

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stopisa · 2 years ago

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worse before it gets better ch.2

[ ushijima wakatoshi x reader ]

summary - everything was going great but all it takes is one day to ruin it all. trust lost in love struggles to heal.

• cw: suggestive and foul language, gaslighting, cheating

• a/n: almost a year later here’s ch.2, i got busy with college but now that i’ve graduated i have a lot more time!

• pls give this love on ao3

• read chapter 1 here

You stand there in the doorway, staring at the wall behind him, not daring to look him in the eyes. Why the fuck is he here? Didn’t he say he was busy today? Despite what you told Tendou earlier about confronting him, the reality was you really weren’t ready for it. Semi actually showing up just had to make things so much harder.

“Sooo…are you gonna let me in or are we just gonna stand here all day?”

Snapping out of your trance you respond, “Oh! Yeah…sorry.”

He steps inside and turns to face you as the door closes. “How’s my pretty girl been today? Taking it easy I see.” He nods his head over to your setup on the bed.

“Weren’t you supposed to be busy today?” irritation lacing your words. You were never the best at hiding what you felt.

“Woah, what’s the hostility? I can’t come visit my girlfriend?”

‘Girlfriend?’ you think. How funny.

“Well, you said yourself we couldn’t hang today, I assumed you were busy doing other things.” emphasizing the last part in your tone.

Semi goes to sit in your desk chair and lets out a sigh, “ M’kay, what’s with the attitude? Is it that time of the month? Or are you still pissed off about yesterday? Y’know, I have other things I need to do besides just being with you.”

That’s it. Your frustration has boiled over and you didn’t care about whatever came out of your mouth next.

“Yeah, no, like the bitch you fucked last night?” Your intense glare burns through him.

The room goes silent. Not a sound is heard for seconds that felt like years.

He scoffs. “What are you talking about? I was in my room alone all night.”

“Bullshit, Tendou told me he saw a girl leave the room last night. A girl from your fucking class.” Your eye twitches from the anger.

Semi rolls his eyes, “Yes, and? She needed help on the assignment, nothing more.”

“Are you serious?! Tendou also told me he saw the condom in the trash. Stop lying to me!” Throat going dry from the yelling.

“Do you actually believe anything Tendou tells you? You know that guy is high off his ass every fucking day, he was just seeing things. Better yet, who knows? Maybe he told you all this to get you to leave me so you could get with him, I see how you two talk. Wouldn’t be surprised if that was his intention.”

You can’t believe what you were hearing. Is he seriously trying to play the victim?

Your hands come up to slide over your head in an effort to cool down, “You’re seriously gonna gaslight me like this?”

Semi gets up from the desk chair and looks at you with a mocking expression, “Gaslight? That’s a big word, you sure you know what it means?

The. Absolute. Audacity. He really went there. His pride is so big that he really went there. Where was the man you met in the library all those months ago? You didn’t know the person standing in front of you. At least you didn’t want to believe it was him.

“Y’know, I should’ve seen this coming a while ago. All the canceled plans for the past month, not hearing from you for hours on end, how distant you got last night after I told you I wasn’t comfortable having sex yet. How could I be so stupid?”

“Oh please, y/n. Boohoo. Not the ‘woe is me’ gimmick.” he spat back.

“Woe is me! I gave up so much of my time to be with you only to find out it was all for what? For you to go and betray my trust? Did I ever mean anything to you?!” Your ears were ringing.

“Yeah at first you did, before I knew I was signing up to be with a fucking prude.” his words were like venom. They made their way through your ears and into your heart.

Tears were forming in your eyes, making your vision blurry but for the sake of not giving him the satisfaction of seeing you, you look down. Your voice painfully cracks, “We’re done…get the fuck out of my room.”

“Are you kidding me? You’re gonna get all hurt over something that never-”

“I said get the fuck out of my room!”

“Tch.” Semi walks to the door, grabs the handle, and takes a moment to look back at you. “Get over it. Soon you’ll realize you got mad over some dumb shit and just end up coming back.” and with that, he slams the door.

Your heart felt like it was going to burst out of your chest. You take a moment to regulate your breathing.

Walking back to your bed you throw yourself on top of it, face smushed into the pillow. A sob chokes out, followed by several others. You choose to let it all out for about 20 minutes.

Pillow soaked from where your face was, you get up to wipe the tears, grabbing a tissue to blow your nose. You stand in front of your mirror, staring at the puffy-eyed, red-nosed individual.

‘I’m not a prude…I just needed time.’ you think.

‘Why the hell would he say such things?’

Something sparks within you during your internal dialogue.

‘No…he’s full of shit. I’ll prove him wrong.’

You go back to your bed, grabbing your phone to remove all pictures of him from your social media and change your status. He is no longer welcome in your life and you’ll make damn sure of it.

You walk out of the shower to find the mirror fogged up. Hand wiping down the steam to reveal a refreshed figure, a contrast to how you were just an hour ago. A sad smile on your face in reaction to the minor improvement of your state. Your phone reads ‘4 pm’ when a message comes through from Tendou,

‘Hey so, earlier today Semi came back and kicked the trash can across the room. Did it happen?’

Sighing through your nose, you pick up your phone to answer.

‘he just showed up at my door, i ended up blurting it all out. not pretty.

‘Geez. I’m sorry. I’m on my way to Ushijima’s place but we can meet up somewhere stop if you’d like.’

All too quickly you replied ‘please’.

“No fucking way he said all that to you!” Tendou’s auburn eyes were wide in shock after you told him what went down.

“Yeah so needless to say he’s no longer welcome in my life 'cause at least I have that bare minimum standard set” You let out a huff of air from your nose and look down at the coke that by now had been watered by the ice. How did your life become so shitty over the span of 24hrs? You chewed on your bottom lip as you were lost in thought, thinking of ways to fix this. Should you get back together? Download a dating app? Start looking into hookups? Drop out and run away forever? Yea, these all sounded like things a sane person would do.

Tendou clears his throat, snapping you out of your thoughts. “Thanks for sharing all this with me. Y’know it’s not easy being vulnerable, especially when the wound is still this fresh.” You offer a smile in response, “Thanks for listening.”

Walking out of the dining hall, you feel the cold air hitting your face, reminding you of that night all over again. All too naive. All too oblivious.

Spinning on his heels towards you, “Hey, so I’m going over to Ushijima’s to say hi…aaand lowkey avoid my roommate. wanna tag along?”

“No, I shouldn’t. Don’t even know him, Tori. Not sure if he’d like unknown guests this late too.”

“Pfft. Don’t be ridiculous, he may not look like it but he likes meeting new people.”

You soon found yourself standing in front of a door that read “Wakatoshi”, a very tall man lets you both in, and you give a quiet wave, he simply nods his head. While removing your shoes, you take in his room. Simple decor, a few medals hung on the wall, two very healthy plants on his window, and his homework spread across his desk. He sported a white t-shirt that clung just tight enough on his chest and black gym shorts. ‘Handsome.’ you smugly thought to yourself.

“Hey buddy! This is my friend y/n, she’s great and kinda getting over a breakup right where her boyfriend, i guess ex now ‘cause he totally cheated on her cause i saw-.” You look at Tendou with wide eyes as if to shut him up with your glare, getting the message he shut up. Feeling shitty about the introduction you look at the floor to avoid Ushijima’s piercing green stare. “I’m sorry you had to experience that, hope you feel better soon.” Surprised by his empathy but you thank him.

You allow the two friends to talk, well, it was mostly Tendou carrying the conversation while his massive friend would respond in “mhm”. Trying to entertain yourself, you glance at the surroundings again, landing on the homework at his desk, recognizing the textbook immediately.

“Ah so you’re in Dr. Melendez’s Spanish Literature class! I took that two semesters ago, great time. How’re you liking it?”

The athlete’s eyebrows raise before his expression relaxes, “I’m taking it for my humanities requirement, but I do find myself struggling..”

“I’d be more than happy to help you whenever you need it,” this statement was genuinely true considering that you did so well in that class that the professor recommended you to become a tutor for his course at the tutoring and writing center at the university. You did have to politely decline since you were already working at the library and the payout wasn’t worth it.

Much to your surprise the smallest of smiles appears on Ushijima’s face, “Actually I would like that. I could compensate you well for your time.” Tendou’s head continues to move as he follows the conversation with the most shit-eating grin. Cheeks mildly darker from embarrassment, you put your hands up in front of you, “No, no. Don’t worry, I’ll do just do it for free, glad to help a friend of a f-”

“Don’t be so humble, it’s your time. I’d expect the same if I was in this position. Does $50 an hour sound reasonable? I’d be willing to negotiate.”

Almost choking on the sip from your emotional support water bottle, you look at him for a split second as if he grew a second head. Ready to decline the offer and return to your pushover ways your thoughts freeze. ‘This is your chance at another job’, your worries of bland dining hall food and begging for people on Reddit to give you PDFs of pirated textbooks slowly fade away. Maybe it had the potential to even help you forget some of the bullshit that went down early today. “Wow, um, yea no that’s perfect. W-when would you like to start?”

Pleased with your answer he replies, “I would prefer as soon as possible to ensure I stay ahead with the course work. Perhaps this Monday?”

As the two of you continue your interaction of exchanging numbers and arranging a place to meet, Tendou maintains his smug grin.

#🖋.writing #really hope y’all like this #haikyuu!!#ushijima x reader #ushijima wakatoshi #semi eita x reader #semi eita #hq!!#reader insert #ao3 #fanfic

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zu-is-here · 1 year ago

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Hey zuu

Oh hii Gayfish! (*'▽'*)

UPD:

Oh no reason to worry about it! (ówò) Your family comes first so there's nothing wrong in delaying <3

My bad I'm empty-handed either but happy birthday to the twins! (〃ω〃) Your latest reblogs with them are such a nostalgia ☆

How are you doing today? *^* Heheh yours is sooo cute too! Pink rulesss (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)♪

Take your time╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

Bruh!! It was such a mistake to use mascara cause I cried all my tears out in the end ;w; Did you like it?

OH yay!! (*ﾟ∀ﾟ*)

[spoilers for Barbie]

Ah I can feel you! (ówò)

Perhaps I didn't take it so politically cause Ken's attempts were more ridiculous than depressing to me, although there's a deep message here.

I guess this is not so much about patriarchy or matriarchy, but about the right to be whoever you want without being obligated to anyone?

That's what made me cry in the final, when Barbie asked her creator to be a human and not an idea and felt what it's like to be one ;w;

Oh!! (°▽°) I suppose it's really individual cause I didn't cry at all when I watched Everything Everywhere All at once, and while everyone was talking about how Great this movie is (it is! *^*), I was like "?? Well that was 60% crazy, 30% fun and 10% sophistic :'D"

Looks like it's controversial indeed ("ó3ó) What do you think would be a better ending? *^*

Pff true, she acted so good xp I also enjoyed Alan, he looks so confused the whole movie XD

Speaking of the other movie— did you watch Oppenheimer? *^*

Sadly no cause we can't watch it in cinema now :') But if they'll make it legal, I'll definitely go the second time all pink! \(//∇//)\

Oh these men ε-(´∀｀; ) Alternative? :0

Awww true! (〃ω〃) That's some real things <3

> Also no I haven't seen the other movie, but my friend has, and she really enjoyed it! So has jan!

This is not as exciting as Barbie is heh, but I'm a big fan of Christopher Nolan's films, and he nailed it again <3 (The adult scenes were superfluous though, but a man can have at least one in his career right? x)

[text ahead cause of the images limit xp]

> Alternative? You know like goth, punk things like that

Ah I see! (ﾟ∀ﾟ) Looks like it's not common for them in our modern world x)

> Other then the movie zu, how have you been? What you been up to?

Working on the next part of Trapped! (☆ω☆) Hopefully I can finish it before opening commissions, that's when the real work starts xp

Do you have other news to share? *^*

> Good luck with commisons zu!!

Nothing new, just been listening to phantom still, I wonder if there were any songs left out of the movie that you might not have heard

Thank youuu Gayfish! <3

So addictive (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)♪ Oh I wonder too *^*

> Recently I've been super into Notes and Notes twisted every way. As well as Why have you brought us here? Have you heard any of these before?

Woah— I don't remember listening to the first one! (°▽°) And I like how leitmotif repeats in the second one ☆ The voices are ssso good... *^*

> Oh! Did you just go off and listen to them now?? I love them to!! The way the voices mesh in the argument, and how christens name being repeated 3 times is a common motive.

Yesss! ♪ The musical must be better in terms of listening to them, cause in the movie, watching them steals almost all the attention :'D

> And the tunes of "His eyes will find me there, those eyes that burn"

Is the same as "hunt down this murderer, he must be found" in the finally

OH right!! (*⁰▿⁰*)

> It's also sad, how much the songs are starting to reflect christens trauma. She's so frightened, and his fear is growing ever strong, its twisting her perception of it all. All up until the point kf no return, and then the phantom singing all I ask of you.

The moment she realises that he knew about her and her lover the whole time. And she hears his true motive has truly been her the whole time, and she stands up and rips off his mask

Trueee, that was so intense in the movie as well ;w; Thought that's where the viewer knows that Erik saw them and knew about them, but the music shows it another way *^*

> I still haven't seen the movie, but the musical is spectacular visually as well.

I wonder if you'd enjoy the 25th anniversary recordings, it's very well shot.

The only thing that turned me off from the movie si that the phantom was cast for his appearance, not his voice, when it really should have been the other way around for a character who's a musical genius.

Awww I would! *0*

I've heard that many actors tried to get this role (Antonio Banderas as well?) and they took vocal lessons for this cause singing songs on their own was a prerequisite ☆

> Did you know that the longest running Broadway phantom played the role for 7 years? Almost every night for 7 years! The way they hop from one song to the next, his poor voice.

He got the biggest round of Applause at the end of the show

FOR real?? \(//∇//)\ That's crazy yet respectable!!

> One thing that was pointed out to me, which kinda kills alittle bit of the tension, js when Eric is over hearing All I ask of you, he's hiding behind the horses bottom, in the statue XD idk if makes me.laugh.

In the book he's ontop of a very high up statue, and it's a wonder he even heard them.

You know I've actually been to that oprea house

PFF well he's hiding after all xd You've been there?? (*ﾟ∀ﾟ*)

> Also I'm sorry if you are getting tired kf talking, idk if you are busy with trapped and would rather take a break?

Oh I really enjoy talking to you about them! *w* We can both take a break though, no rush anyway <3

> Well if you do wanna watch it, you can rent it on you tube. It's my favourite versionnnn.

Of course if you get the chance to actually watch it ! Do!

I'm going to be keeping an eye on it, waiting for it to return, Andrew said that it should come back, so if it ever comes back to London, I will tell you just in case it co-alines with a time you could visit!

I know I want to see it againnn.

Awww that would be amazing, thanks! \(//∇//)\

> Ok! We can take a break heh, sorryy

But I'll see if I can find a picture of the oprea house and send it over!

It's alright! (ówò) I'll be looking forward to it *^*

@help-im-a-gay-fish OH wow!! \(//∇//)\ This is a great photo, "catching a moment" <3

He did a really good work at trying to make it as real as possible though *w*

> Me ans Jan found a night tour of the opera housessss I think we might goooo

*GASP* That's awwwsome! (〃ω〃)☆

#updated #ask #zu is happy

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