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My beach day with Kei
#nagai kei#nagai nendroid#pocket kei#ajin nendroid#ajin#Was feeling very overwhelmed and had a desperate need to go to the beach#which is rare for me despite living so close so I just got up n took Kei with me so I wouldn’t be alone#it was nice to sit alone#n get some fresh air#The water was off limits cause it was contaminated and the beach was full of trash tho#so I only got a few plain photos
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Trick or treat!!!!!!!
happy ween
#this is my halloween art. enjoy#i am sitting inside and playing minecraft leave me alone#( we got a lot of trick or treaters this year it was nice)#ask#yuno#gun#halloween
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I don’t think An gets enough credit for being like… such a casually nice & kind person without even trying. To the point where even I can tell and I’m not a VBS fan (behind on stories) bc it just bleeds through in every interaction she has with other characters. Like it’s never her being Absurdly Over The Top Kind she just. Treats everyone equally. Friendly with everyone. Thinking abt her being the first one @ school to attempt to befriend Mizuki and treat them like a person. Nene being nervous on her first day of second year and An just immediately walks up to her like Hiiii good morning!! An Shiraishi: Lesbian Jesus.
#project sekai#despite being fond of akito I still didn’t read the vbs stories but I might go read them for an specifically#because I like her :) an my friend an.#also very nice and friendly to rui (&tsukasa) despite rui (& tsukasa) making her job on disciplinary committee like 1000x harder#she reminds me a lot of one of my close friends in highschool (minus the lesbian part)#in that she’s like. ‘popular’ but doesn’t care abt it & talks to anyone and everyone#like u know the highschool girls who r like. obsessed w being popular and only talk to ppl they feel make them look cool? opposite of that.#i feel like an is the type of person to see sm1 sitting alone at school and go I need to be their friend#‘tsukasa collects strays’ no that’s an.
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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it
#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL#AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP#yep that was meee :3#man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did#but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying#I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious#I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep#then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh#I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking#so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital#luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point#so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like#I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do#and I was scared it might make things worse#but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack#luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone#and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there#I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city#bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there#so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by#I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before#I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches#so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die#cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome#but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug#but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication#now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf#sleep.txt
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This far into the new game changer and I already know this is one for the history books
#put it in the fucking pool room#game changer#dropout#zac oyama#brennan getting to sit down alone i. a wizard themed room and eat a nice meal?#can only be lulling him into a false sense of security#those foods looked dense. they looked heavy.#is feeding brennan safe foods yet another layer of sams masterful plan?
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✨ Anxious and sad but still posting ass ✨(also unpopular opinion but I like my stretch marks a lot)
#mine#me#I think I’m gonna have a little cry and then I’m gonna take myself out to the movies#cause I’m not gonna sit in my apartment alone and be sad all night#🍑🍑🍑#stretch marks#send me something nice or something to make me smile pretty pls#because my brain is screaming not so nice things right now#k bye 💗
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saw someone categorise the hypmic characters based by their last names and sometimes that’s a seating arrangement style in jp classrooms so i arranged them as so lol
#vee queued to fill the void#i added the chuuoku women to try and get as many seats filled since 18 is a hard number to make look nice#(as if 21 doesn’t have the same problem lmao)#but i almost regret doing that lol doppo could have been with his fellow 29 year olds and sasara and rosho could have sat together rip 😭😭😭😭#but i guess samatoki can be happy he’s by his sister lmao#and doppo has jakurai at least lol but frfr rip rosasa lmao#i also feel really bad gentaro is all alone 💀 ramudice got to sit together but gentaro is in a corner in the front THIS IS SO SAD LOL#i need a better seating arrangement lol 7x3 looks so bad but gentaro in a corner feels even worse lmao
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THE BRAVERY WAS SO WORTH IT, IT HAS BEEN SUCH A SHITTY WEEK BUT HE WAS SO SWEET AND FUN AND SO EXCITED WHEN I TOLD HIM THE FIRM DELETION MATCH WAS ONE OF MY TOP 3 MATCHES OF 2023. 😭😭😭💚💚💚💚 I AM REALLY FULL OF JOY TONIGHT. IT WAS SUPER FUN TO GO TO THE INDIE SHOW. THANKS FOR MAKING THIS AWFUL WEEK BRIGHTER, ETHAN.
#my mother INSISTED on driving me like im not an adult#“YOU CANT BE IN A PARKING GARAGE THERE AT 11 PM ALONE THAT IS HOW PEOPLE DIE” lol#so i had a beer after i did my m&g#and made friends with the guy alone sitting next to me#and it was such a nice time!!!#ethan is the best i am so happy i decided to go!!!
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i slept all day n all night n partially through the day again w only 1 interval and im still so tired im so exhausted my whole body is tense n sore
#horrors beat my ass so deeply i still feel off#i think i regressed back into my social anxiety by at least 60% literally just. by thinking myself into a hole#a very deep jagged hole#i was so alone n invisible i went right back#trying to respond to messages and im just sitting here again. i cant think. all i feel is the humiliation#i wonder if i jinxed myself by thinking about how much i had changed these past few months the other day#its weird because i was so . surprised in a good way 2 have that realization n then in a couple hours in spiraling fear & loneliness#its like it was all gone and i was right back where i started#and i still feel covered in the dirt from falling back in the hole#my body still hurts#my throat still aches#my mind is still . wrong#i just wish my feelings werent so dramatic#i wish i werent so scared#i wish i werent stuck constantly subconsciously fearfully looking for a sign proving the only good or nice thing i hav is fake#the only problem is me#but i dont know how to fix it#i dont want to be a problem#i dont want to ruin everything
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something thats so important to me but that i cant demonstrate w/o drawing them is that heart is a completely different style to mind & soul. as in shy's very cartoonish compared to them both. its just Neat to me .:3
#contrasts nicely w/ hyr being the ''happy/bubbly'' one as well. makes apathy more Inch Resting too tawa mi#mental image of some cartoonish little heart sitting alone and destitute in apathy. out of place....#shes out of place in 'reality' and in apathy. adds to how lonely she feels .:-)#speaking.mp4
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THESE TOOK SO FUCKING LONG!!
some of the pictures are a little blurry but we're just gonna have to deal with that
#the mountain goats#absolute lithops effect#collage art#all hail west texas#this song hits differently when it's summer vacation and you know you're going to spend the rest of the summer alone in your room#and also your jaw hurts and you're dealing with a bunch of medical conditions#save me john darnielle#i really don't like how the last one came out cause i was running out of things to put in it and had to use that weird W#but i guess we'll have to deal with that too#special thanks to my SPED school's art room and the two nice art therapists that tolarate me#this is the only actually productive thing i did this school year other than sitting around and petting cats
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"wdym you don't know him he's your 'aunts' son" I have literally never met or heard of this guy in my life and I only see the 'aunt' once a year
Like I haven't even met him as a kid this is just a random adult man I do not know
#random#we haven't even gone out to dinner yet and mum has already called me rude#bc the second i walked into the house i had 5 different people talking to me#and i got hugged by like three people so i got overstimulated even faster than i thought i would#and i panicked and went to my room to calm down but my grandad followed me bc he wanted to ask me more questions#but i got to sit alone for like 5 minutes before my mum came in and told me i cant be rude and i need to try to be nice today#but her opinion of being rude is just me ignoring all my boundaries/discomfort/anxiety so I'm going to get yelled at#and like i said we haven't even gone out yet so theres a pretty high chance im going to start crying in front of my entire family#and that'll make me even more overstimulated so fucking yay#vent post#in the tags mostly#sorry for the rant
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for single friends: what do you do/do you do anything to celebrate valentine's day? (Or galentine's day for that matter)
#my friends and i want to do something together so that we're not all sitting in our rooms being alone and sad#all of us having gone through some romantic disappointment or other recently#would appreciate ideas!! we dont have any#since all the nice cafes and bakeries around here WILL be overrun by couples#that's just how it is in this towb#town
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hi so, checking in (sorry, its personal bullshit again, ill get back to the fandom stuff you actually wanted,,,, eventually)
things. are going bad. like, really bad, like last january bad. like im about to lose all my personhood again bad. im hoping its still just going to be a small blip and things will start upticking soon, but. im bracing for that not to be the case. it feels different to me
i vaguely mentioned earlier in the week taking a bit of a step back, and ive decided to extend that into a full break. my queues probably going to run out before im back, though i have slowed it down some. thatll be the only noticable difference for 99% of people. i wont guarantee any dm responses on here, but ill do my best for the couple of people who have me on discord
i didnt really want to do this again but it gets messy in my head, and ive found the best way to control the clawing beast of attention and need and the things that make me want to be a person i dont want to be is to cut it off at the source. its not nice, and it hurts, and it definitely kills the chances of making friends but. i promise you its better than the alternative.
ill see you when i see you, i guess. i hope its soon. i hope this isnt how it feels to be. i hope the feelings that have existed this week go dormant again. but itll be what itll be. i can't change that
#i know these things do not matter in the long run but it feels important to me to say#easier to concentrate on public presence than the emotions of it i guess#nyxtalks#vent#not going to lie to you my friends. im scared#the problem is ultimately. it all feels rational in the end. it feels weighted and worthy and not just a product of mental illness#so i can sit here and feel as in control of my headspace as i want. its just i agree with my darkest thoughts#am i even a person worth the effort? all evidence points to one very clear answer#anyway#it scares me. ive felt more at home in my skin these past few months. had some rough spots for sure but. i hoped this would go away for muc#longer. i hoped i could at least get a couple of years#i dont know. i live in hopes of an impossible future where the dark doesnt get so dark you know? i think thatd be nice#i still can't function in any of the ways a person should. but at least i wouldnt be such a burden then#itd be easier to carry. if it was lighter#i dont really know what im saying im just. scared & sad & spending my entire day at work catastophising (and sm stuff there is NOT helping)#and all i really want is to lie curled up with my friends and not move for days and be held and comforted and feel a love that is true#and i dont even think thatd change things. i dont think anything can help me#even in my most fantastical scenarios i dont change. im just easier to love that way#ok im going to shut up now i dont think any of that had a point. its just rambles for me and me alone#ill see you when i see you. dont know when but i will be back. i can promise you that much#i have plans to keep for now at least
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Just the way Shin Tsukimi’s “mask off” moment is him becoming increasingly frustrated to the point of having a nervous breakdown where all he can do is laugh maniacally because he’s so done with everyone acting so incompetent and not seeing things “as they are” (aka how he sees them) is just. Mwah chefs kiss hes just like me fr 😰
#yttd#shin tsukimi#like guys you just cant comprehend the ways in which we are the same guy#in the good ways and the bad ways#cuz like god this is exactly how id feel in the same situation literally exactly#it IS how i feel constantly and its an infuriating experience when its like#it feels like you hold the inherent truth like you see something no one else can and you try so fucking hard to explain it#you dumb it down as much as possible but no one will listen to you even though youre trying your best and so you just lose it#and you just sit on your high chair all alone cuz why bother talking when youre clearly the only competent one here#and its so real because shin is like. justified for the most part! he DOES know shit that no one else does!#no one can see how dangerous sara is or how stupid it is to put all this blind trust in her and he doesnt get that it makes no logical sense#but to everyone else sara is just a nice smart girl who wants to help so why wouldnt they trust her?#and hes just so like stuck in his ways about it and believes it so strongly and why wouldnt he? he knows the statistics#and he knows he himself is weak its all hes ever believed about himself#god like. that scene just means so much to me lol i relate so hard it hurts#and its hard to know when youre justified in your beliefs and when youre talking nonsense it all feels the same#and you dont WANT to be an ass you want to understand truly but you literally cant comprehend being that stupid#im so glad this character exists man
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bad news is i didn't really get to do rp stuff this week like i wanted. good news is i caught up on a lot of work. it's super exciting, too, cause a couple of them are finally moving forward to finalize their work of official publishing and i'm so happy for them. :') side bonus to good news: i've written out a framework to all the asks for the fortune reading bit. so all i have to do is write them up. ^^ if anyone still wants in on it, just go here and read how to.
hope you're all doing good. stay safe. <3
#ooc#just a small update. fam emergency stuff is in a wait and see lull. i was alone with the cats and house sitting and just went ham doing#chores so my parents have less to stress about since they have been struggling lately. which is why i didn't get around to doing#what i wanted with rp. i mean i went fucking ham on the place to make it nice and fix some things around here#i know how mort can just spend weeks on end working on fixing shit around her cabin x_x#but hey good news is i slept some and i'm so stoked for some of my clients asfdsgfdg shit is exciting
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