#it was just bad

[cherrysnax]

this shit got me thinking bout chance. where did he go after hot shower

[lauryn-order]

Anyway. I have so much anger related to my health and my ex. I found out I have liver problems and have to get a liver scan. And I’m pissed.

My ex used to forcibly intoxicate me. Which, as a kink, hot. As a lifestyle, not.

He’d have me drinking to the point of blacking out regularly. I was regularly hungover. Hungover beyond hungover in an alcohol poisoning kind of way numerous times. I can’t count the number of nights where I’ve had full bottles of liquors or 3-4 bottles of wine in a night.

I wasn’t allowed to tell him no. No was not a word in his vocabulary, as everyone in his life was too afraid to tell him no. I was the only person to ever tell him no and stick to it, but I did it on the rarest of occasions that I deemed the most important because of his over the top reactions to it. If I did tell him no, I was met with screaming, threats of things I REALLY didn’t want, temper tantrums, the silent treatment, slammed doors, revoking of finances, and other abuse.

At first I thought it was fun. Then it just became normal. I chalked it up to my alcoholism, but that’s not the case. Yes, I’m alcoholic in a functional way, but in the almost year since I have been away from him I’ve never drank more than a bottle of wine, I haven’t had a hangover that’s more than a couple hours of nausea or a bad headache, and I haven’t puked once.

I drink maybe 2-3 days a week and usually just a couple cans of something or one or two mixed drinks where I’m not even remotely buzzed afterward. I’ve been tipsy a few times and drunk a couple this past year, but not almost every night like I was forced to be when I was with him. I have full control of myself and my drinking and stop when I need to or want to.

I told my doctor what he did, and she thinks my liver is probably better than it was and is on its way to getting better. But it’s just not fair. He took so much from me and left me with nothing to my name. I have to pay for expensive therapy to deal with the trauma he left me with and now I have to pay for specialists and medical bills for the health issues he caused me. I don’t have the money for this.

He just keeps taking more and more from me, even almost a year later. And after dealing with him and what he put me through for 8 years he doesn’t have to pay me a cent even though it’s 100% his fault that I am broke, in debt, struggling, and starting from scratch.

I’m. Fucking. Livid.

[aethelflaedel]

I had a dream that they made sunfyre ugly and bright green in house of the dragon season 2..... I can't believe I'm at the point where the appearance of a fictional dragon is so important to me that it's showing up In My Nightmares

[just-your-average-tangerine]

One of the wildest things about studying film, especially as a queer person, is how many of these film scholars genuinely believe in and argue in favor of the Hayes code. Its mind-boggling to me.

[chiimeramanticore]

compilation of this type of post

edit: idk how much this is gonna do but since making this post i got covid and need some help, please consider it

[inkskinned]

please i love you i'm begging you bring back suspension of disbelief bring back trusting the audience like. i cannot handle any more dialogue that sounds like a legal document. "hello, i am here to talk to you about the incident from a few minutes ago, because i feel you might be unwell, and i am invested in your personal wellbeing." "thank you, i am unwell because the incident was hurtful to me due to my childhood, which was bad." I CANT!!!!

do you know how many people are mad that authors use "growled" as a word for "said"? it's just poetics! they do not literally mean "growled," it's just a common replacement for "said with force but in a low tone." it's normal! do you hear me!! help me i love you please let me out of here!!!

[sunriseovergotham]

characters have to be a little bit awful in ways that you cant defend. its good for the ecosystem. your honor he did do that. He did in fact do that

[kochei0]

I turn to Ares.

Thanks to Tyler Miles Lockett who allowed me to draw inspiration from his ARES piece for page 2! Look at his etsy page it's SICK

⚔️ If you want to read some queer retelling of arturian legends have a look at my webtoon

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[podcastwizard]

cashier: ok that'll be $20

me (visibly sweating): ah, yes, of course! a perfectly reasonable price for a grilled cheese and a small smoothie! that was exactly the price i expected you to say when i ordered a single grilled cheese and a smoothie and my vision is NOT getting blurry as we speak! i am a perfectly normal temperature and my speech patterns are natural and even because this is the countenance of an individual who expected to pay 20 american dollars for a single grilled cheese and a smoothie!

cashier: where's all that blood coming from

[theartofmadeline]

happy pride! this dragon is gay <3

[frankierotwinkdeath]

Y’all want Taylor Swift to be gay so bad but you won’t even write femslash about her

[max1461]

Disgust has absolutely no ethical weight. If you are basing your ethical positions on the emotion of disgust you should stop, it is entirely unjustified and leads to a huge amount of harm.

[bakedbeanchan]

random fire nation diplomat #492 will never understand the complex and fucked up relationship between the water siblings like I do 🙄

[badolmen]

WARNING 18+

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[lesbianralzarek]

"life doesnt get better, you just get stronger" does NOT include ages 11-17. life does in fact just get better from there. those years are dogshit. like, you do get stronger but its mostly just a factor of not being 11-17 anymore. positive thinking helps but it doesnt fix whatevers going on at 15, you have to brute force through that one raw