#it was fun and i learned a lot about myself and what i like but... whew.

[mummyemmatojames]

21. Reflection and a Reset: Grounding Him as a Toddler

Hello, dear community! Emma here, your Mummy-in-training, with an update on our MDLB and FLR journey after a tough moment recently. Thank you for comments, suggestions and messages.  I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting since the incident I shared—catching James breaking our rules on the baby monitor and the harsh spanking that followed—and I’ve come to some realizations about my role in this dynamic. I’m furious with him, but I’m also taking a hard look at myself. I’ve decided to make a big change over the next four days to reset things, and I’d love your thoughts on how to navigate this shift.

My Reflection: Too Lenient, Too Focused on His Fun

After a lot of soul-searching, I think part of this mess is my fault. I’ve been too focused on making sure James enjoys our dynamic—softening consequences, hesitating to enforce rules strictly, and sometimes letting small infractions slide because I didn’t want to upset him. I’ve been so caught up in nurturing him and keeping things loving that I’ve let the structure slip. Naturally, he’s been pushing boundaries, just like any child would if they think they can get away with it. I’ve been letting him “top from the bottom,” as I’ve heard it called—giving him too much control by not holding firm when it matters most.

The breach of trust—him masturbating in bed despite our clear rules—was a wake-up call for me. It wasn’t just about him breaking a rule; it was about me not setting a strong enough foundation to prevent it. I’ve been too lenient, and it’s led to him testing limits in ways that undermine our dynamic. I love him dearly, and I want him to feel safe and happy as my little boy, but he also needs to learn that this isn’t all fun and games—there are consequences, and I’m in charge.

The New Plan: Grounded as a Toddler for Four Days

After sitting with this realization, I decided he needs a serious reset—a wake-up call that reinforces my authority and reminds him of the discipline this dynamic requires. Starting today, James is grounded as a toddler for the next four days. I’ve set strict rules to bring him down to a much younger headspace, closer to age 4, to emphasize that I’m fully in control and that breaking rules has real repercussions. Here’s what I’ve laid out:

Bedtime an Hour Early: His routine now starts at 6:30 PM, with lights out at 7:30 PM—something he hates, especially since he’s already struggled with the usual 8:30 bedtime. No exceptions, no extensions.

Sleeping in a Onesie: He’ll be in a soft, toddler-style onesie each night—snug, simple, and a little embarrassing for him—to reinforce the younger age and keep him in that little space even while he sleeps. I got some very cute ones from Debenhams and M&S which I think he will fit. 

Asks Mummy Permission for Everything: For the next four days, he needs my explicit permission for everything—to use the toilet, to have a snack, to get up in the morning, to play with his toys (even Lego), or to leave my sight. If I’m not around to ask, he waits. This is a big shift from his usual autonomy, and it’s meant to drive home that I’m the one in charge.

Age Limit on Phone and Apps Down to 4: I’ve adjusted his phone settings again, dropping the Screen Time age limit to 4+ (from the usual 10+). That means no games or apps beyond the simplest, most toddler-friendly ones—no social media, no Call of Duty dreams, just basic entertainment if I allow it at all.

This is going to be a shock for him—I know that. It’s a huge step down from the 10-year-old baseline we’ve been working with, and it’s designed to feel restrictive and humbling. His sore, red bottom from his spanking is probably keeping him from complaining too much right now, but I can tell he’s furious about these rules. He’s been sheepish since this morning, avoiding eye contact and mumbling responses, but I can see the tension in his shoulders—he’s not happy about this, and I don’t expect him to be.

How It Started Today

I sat him down this morning, still sniffling a bit from last night, and explained why this was happening. I told him I’d been too soft, that I’d let him push boundaries because I didn’t want to upset him, but that it stops now. “You’re my little boy, James, and I love you, but you need to learn that breaking rules has consequences—not just a quick fix, but real changes,” I said. I laid out the new rules, and his face fell—especially at the early bedtime and the permission-for-everything part. He tried to protest, saying it was “too much,” but I cut him off and told him this wasn’t a discussion. “You’ll see this through for four days, and then we’ll talk,” I said firmly.

So far today, he’s been following the rules, though I can feel his frustration simmering. He asked permission to get up from the breakfast table, his voice barely above a whisper, and later asked if he could play with his Lego—I said yes, but only if he stayed where I could see him. He’s in the living room now, building quietly in his onesie (I had him change after breakfast), and I’ve got his phone locked down tight. It’s a stark contrast to how free he’s been lately, and I think it’s hitting him hard—but that’s the point. He needs to feel the weight of this.

My Resolve—and My Nerves

I’m determined to stick to this for the full four days. I know it’s not going to be easy—James is already sore and subdued from the spanking, and I expect he’ll test me at some point, especially as the early bedtimes and constant permission-asking wear on him. I’m a little nervous about his reaction—will he push back hard? Will he resent me?—but I also know I can’t back down. If I let him top from the bottom again, we’ll just end up right back where we were last night. This is about re-establishing my authority and showing him that consequences aren’t optional.

At the same time, I’m keeping an eye on his emotional state—I don’t want this to break our connection, just reset it. I plan to offer plenty of love and reassurance alongside the strictness—cuddles when he earns them, kind words when he follows the rules—so he knows this isn’t about me being angry forever, but about helping us both get back on track.

What Do You Think?

I’d really love some perspective from the community—have you ever had to do a big reset like this when you realized you’d been too lenient? How did your partner handle being brought down to a younger age like this, and did it help re-establish boundaries? For those who’ve dealt with “topping from the bottom,” how did you take back control without losing the loving side of your dynamic? And if you’ve got tips for staying firm over these four days—especially if James gets grumpy or defiant—I’d be so grateful.

Thank you for being here as I work through this. I’m still upset about last night, but I’m also hopeful that this grounding will be the wake-up call James needs—and the reminder I need to lead with strength as his Mummy.

With all my love (and a bit of resolve), Emma (aka Mummy) 💕

[kurogira]

hellooo, hellooo … taps on mic ♡ ꒰ˆ. . ˆ ྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀིྀི꒱੭ﾞi just wanted to take a moment to share my appreciation for all of the friends i’ve made on this platform ( oh god, it literally sounds like i’m gonna quit .. i’m not, i promise ! ! ) and for being so patient with me even when things got a little difficult, i know i’m not perfect — far from it, in fact … but practically growing up on tumblr has been such a wild experience ^^; despite how distant i might seem sometimes, i hope you all know how much i care for you ! ! i loveee mentioning you all to each other n rambling about how lovely everyone here is ໒꒰ྀི ․ ․⸝⸝⸝ ꒱ა it’s such a delight waking up to posts from my friends, seeing them constantly spread love & kindness wherever they go !! i’m always going to cheer you on no matter what happens in the future, and i hope that the love i feel for you all doesn’t go unnoticed. i’m not the best mutual, i struggle to communicate sometimes & that’s not the best quality to have especially because i had a lotttt of mutuals here but i think about you all daily, really.

if i see an anaxa fanart or edits of him of tiktok, i think of crow’s crash outs n it makes me giggle every time ദ്ദി ˉ͈̀꒳ˉ͈́ )✧ during my moze building journey, atlys & ayame came to mind immediately because i know how much they love them. isagi’s birthday was more than two weeks ago, i wondered how kayla would respond to it ( your yoichi postings were so cute 🥺💗 ) while watching windbreaker, i thought of all the ways i would explain to rye why i actually loved the anime so much & how im eagerly anticipating season 2 ! ! i rewatched kimi ni todoke, and i got reminded that at some point — that was one of crys’ themes & it was so pretty too ( just like her !! )

i love seeing yuomi post about her selfships because it reminds me that this makes her happy, this puts a smile on her face — one that’s bright enough to rival the sun. there’s this one dan heng gif i like to use, it’s incredibly silly & whimsical but i think of cee ++. mirei whenever i use it because i know they love him endlessly. i love seeing miss catte crash out over sylus, she’s so passionate about her love for him — and i’m certain that he appreciates every ounce of love you give to him. he’s a lucky man, i’m certain he’s well-aware of it too !!

i love whenever ohka barges into my dms out of the blue, even if i’m not the best at conversations or keeping up with one — he still talks to me. he still stops by to check on me, i love you & i get so excited to see you message me :(( i love when gwen texts me the second he notices i’m not feeling well, supports me in whatever manner he can & provides me with a lingering hope that everything will be okay.

to eumy & cid, your writings are some of the best i’ve ever had the pleasure of reading — i love being able to rush to your comment sections the second i get a notification. you two genuinely make my days so much brighter. whenever dresvi starts fawning over baizhu on the dash, i think about how absolutely beautiful her soul is & how well they fit together as a couple. he’s also another very lucky person !! he better be looking after you ^^)

during my chat with stellar and cherie about their selfships yesterday, i felt myself learning a lot of things about them & i’m glad i stayed even if i didn’t type much. i prefer to lurk ++. keep a mental note but it was so nice just to see them ramble about them :(( they looked absolutely adorable & i can’t wait to hear more from them !! i showed cherie’s art to my little brother, who likes sketching anime characters on paper — and he absolutely adored her style even though it��s vv different from hers. i talked to him about her for a little bit, it was a really fun chat !! he wanted to watch tokyrev & i had to explain why he couldn’t do thattt justtt yettt … ( he’s 8. )

sage, chloe, mars, mj … your presences have healed me more than you’ll ever know. it’s so easy to be myself around you, to express my feelings without being judged or ridiculed for feeling the way i do. may, you are so kind to meee 🥺 it warms my heart how sweet you are to me .. and i hope one day i can repay all of your kindness ໒꒰ྀི › ⸝⸝ ก꒱ྀི১ zafieri, your cooking streams are truly the highlight of my days — though i would appreciate it if one day you stopped cooking poison 😔☝️ so then i wouldn’t have to explain to my mom why i’m crashing out while on call w/ the others …

alyssa’s someone who understands me pretty well because of how much we talk to each other, we’re always willing to lend the other a hand — and i love how much closer we’ve gotten ☹️☹️ especially now !! i am so so grateful for your presence, thank you so much. artemis, the second i am free from my scholarly duties i shall dash towards your humble abode ( in minecraft, obviously .. or not? ) & leave a sign full of my love for you !! i am so appreciative of your advice during my times of need & i will never forget how much it helped me.

vera reminds me of strawberry flavored candies, the kind that immediately melt in your mouth. i had a few yesterday, really wished i could share them with her 😔🙏 she’s one of the sweetest people ever, with some of the most lovely platonic fics i’ve ever read !! she’s a superstar ⭐️ n no one can convince me otherwise >:(( i love maru & the fact that we are #family ( dating my boyfie’s father .. never stopped thinking abt that HAHA ) i feel like her whimsical personality is such a refreshing sight, i get a good laugh every time i see one of her posts 🥹💕 love love loveee you !! i adore rei’s academic weapon mindset … despite how challenging it is for me to properly focus ++. keep my eyes purely on my schoolwork, she pushes me to do better & i think that’s such a beautiful thing.

tldr: i love my friends, even if i didn’t mention you in this post. i could keep on typing forever n ever but this post would be so long to the point where tumblr may delete it for how sappy i got during this & i started crying a little. but yeah, thank you so much for being here. it warms my heart so much to know that i have such a supportive community here ꒰ ´ ` ഒ giving each n everyone of you a big hug 🫂

[shaiyasstuff]

hiii, I love your writings so so much and every time I open the app I hope to see a new post of yours <3 usually I don't ask for stuff because I know writing is difficult and demanding, I write for myself sometimes just for fun and it takes a lot of brain working that I do not have lmao but if you do something similar to what I'm craving for I would be really really happy!

Basically I'm just a big nerd woman, I love anime and video games the most, it's the joy of my life besides doing art, and recently I've been thinking of my past bcs my birthday is in 8 days and reminding how bullying was a thing for girls like me (I'm over it now I'm almost 26 lol but some scars are permanent) and I would love to know how you vision the lads man enjoying/inserting themselves in their partner world of likings, maybe thrilled with how much knowledge you have about it all? bcs again, I'm reeeally into it and I love knowing/reading everything lol lore obsessed for sure (if possible something with valorant/league of legends/star rail if you know some of them but it can be anything seriously, and please nanami from jujutsu kaisen especially for zayne because they are my husbands 4 life and I love them the most ><) also I love your pfp, frieren is AMAZING!!!

Anyways, thank you very much for sharing your hardwork and beautiful mind, you're amazing and I hope you never stop writing what is in your heart <3 love you

SKSKSK ANOTHER FRIEREN FAN!! Hot take: Frieren deserves AOTY i dont care what others say XD Thank you so much for requesting this!! This was so much fun to write and honestly so so so so cute! I giggled a little too much imagining our boys just being with us (not mc, US, the real us)

So here is your request written below!! Do tell me if it’s not satisfactory >.< (I don’t play Star Rail so I did some research, if it isn’t accurate pls dont kill me) @goddamn-it-girl

Sylus

Sylus never really got video games.

“Why waste time in virtual battlefields when the real world demands strategy?” he’d say with a dismissive wave of his hand, like he was too good for flashy pixels and keyboard tapping.

But then one night, you’re in your usual spot, headset on, deep in a League match. You mutter under your breath, almost without thinking—

“God, I wish Sylus was more like Kayn’s Shadow Assassin form.”

And just like that, he’s behind you.

No warning. No hello.

Just standing there, arms crossed, eyes glued to your screen.

He doesn’t say much at first. Just watches.

“Hm,” he hums thoughtfully as your fingers fly across the keyboard—Q, Q, D—blink forward, another kill.

“It doesn’t seem that hard.”

Next week, you walk into the room after a long day—bag dropped, shoes kicked off—only to find him hunched at your desk.

Your computer’s on. He’s wearing your headset.

You watch, amused, as he furiously taps keys with a strange kind of intensity. His brows are furrowed.

And then you catch his champion.

You cross your arms, smirking.

“I cannot believe you got jealous over a video game character.”

Sylus scoffs, not even turning away from the screen.

“I wasn’t jealous. I’m learning to jungle. That way I can protect your lane.”

You laugh, falling into your spot beside him like it’s second nature now.

Because you know that’s not really why.

He just likes the way your eyes light up when you win.

Rafayel

Rafayel shares your love for video games.

He gets your obsession with Star Rail.

He’s the type to sit right next to you as you ramble about lore for the hundredth time, nodding along like it’s the most important story he’s ever heard.

“I’m telling you, Natasha is literally the coolest—like, hands down.”

“Hm. No,” he says, already smiling. “Himeko’s the coolest.”

Cue the dramatic banter.

You clutch your chest like you’ve been wounded. “How dare you.”

“Hey, I don’t make the rules.”

So you fake a cry, full-on pout and teary eyes.

He sighs dramatically, hands in the air. “Okay! Okay! Natasha’s the coolest! The best! The queen!”

You flash him a smug smile. Victory.

Then, one afternoon, you finish cooking lunch—something warm, something he usually comes running for the second it hits the air.

But today? Nothing.

Frowning, you head to the bedroom.

The door creaks open and—

There he is, slouched over the study table, completely zoned in. His brows are drawn together, pencil in hand, the quiet scratch of graphite filling the room.

“What are you doing?” you ask, curious.

He jumps like he’s been caught red-handed and slams the sketchbook shut, hugging it to his chest.

“Nothing!” he says way too fast, flashing you that boyish grin. “Is lunch ready?”

You laugh, shaking your head, and motion him to follow.

But back in the room, the sketchbook still sits on the table, forgotten in his rush.

One page left open—just enough for you to see it.

A carefully drawn sketch of you, soft and radiant, dressed as Natasha.

Of course he thinks she’s the coolest.

She looks a lot like the person he loves.

Xavier

Xavier would be insanely good at Valorant.

He saw you play once. Literally once.

And the next weekend?

There’s suddenly a whole PC setup right next to yours—dual monitors, custom keycaps, matching chairs.

He’s ready.

You blink at the setup, suspicious.

“What is this?”

“I figured we could grind to Immortal together,” he says like it’s the most casual thing in the world.

And he means it.

The first time you watch him play, you’re slack-jawed.

“How are you so good at this?”

He just shrugs, smug. “I’ve got good hand-eye coordination.”

Cheeky bastard.

But he’s not just good at the game—he’s good at being with you.

He’ll pull you into his lap on the couch after a long match, your legs draped over his, your hands gesturing wildly as you talk about Omega Earth lore like it’s gospel.

And he’s right there, nodding along with genuine interest.

He treats your passions like art.

When you draw your Reyna and Gekko ship, he’ll lean in over your shoulder, voice soft.

“You know what would be cool? What if Agent 7 wasn’t Reyna’s little sister, but actually the real founder of Valorant?”

You pause.

“You can’t just—drop lore like that—”

“Oh, and did you know if you wallbang that corner on Lotus with a Sheriff—”

“That makes so much sense!” you gasp, and then immediately groan. “No wonder I’m hard stuck Gold.”

He just grins. Because he doesn’t just drop into your world for the weekend—

He builds a home in it. Right beside you.

Zayne

Zayne wouldn’t just support your love for anime—he’d understand it.

He’d see the depth in it the same way you do.

You’d spend nights curled up on the couch, Jujutsu Kaisen playing on loop, your eyes wide and shining with every fight scene, every emotional beat.

He’s right beside you, always—arm slung around your shoulder, fingers tracing lazy circles on your arm as he watches with quiet attention.

He’d chuckle softly whenever you’d throw yourself back dramatically, clutching your chest and declaring, “I can’t do this,” after every tragic death.

He’d never mock it—he’d just pull you closer.

Then one night, he wakes up to an empty bed.

It takes him seconds to notice your absence—your warmth, the subtle weight of your presence.

He pads into the living room quietly, finding you exactly where he expected.

Curled up on the couch, legs drawn to your chest, your face softly lit by the glow of your phone screen.

You’re scrolling through endless fanart of Nanami—

Nanami glowing with cursed energy.

Nanami, suit wrinkled, tie loose.

Nanami, unwavering, standing tall even as the world tries to break him.

Zayne doesn’t say a word.

Just walks over and gently lifts you into his arms, settling you onto his lap like you belong there.

Let’s be honest, you do.

You hesitate, then murmur, almost shyly, “He reminds me of you.”

Your fingers toy with the hem of his shirt.

“Not just the suit thing. It’s the way you carry yourself. How you protect the people you love. Even when it costs you.”

He’s quiet for a beat, then nods.

“I see myself in him too.”

You giggle, already scrolling to show him more—

“Wait, look at this one. And this one. And oh my god this—”

He just smiles. Soft. Reverent.

Because he doesn’t just tolerate your love for anime—

He sees the soul of it reflected in you.

And maybe, just maybe, in him too.

[serendark]

Source illustrations by @ancharan: • https://ancharan.tumblr.com/post/773860555406655488/theyre-cuties-and-i-think-they-should-kiss • https://ancharan.tumblr.com/post/767336447230492672/this-was-a-really-fun-stream-thank-u-all-for I traced their artwork for personal practice, and they gave me permission to post it when I asked. (Thank you so much for that!)

Me yapping about my thoughts and process under the cut

So! I've been practicing drawing Ford recently, and figuring out how exactly I want to draw him. Lots of artists approach his features or character in many varying ways, and over time I've come across some that really feel like the perfect Ford for me, like those are the Fords that I wish I could draw and want to strive towards being able to on my own.

I think the ideal in my head is this blob of vibes that does not look like any one artist, and I'm getting closer to being able to see it manifest in my own style the more I practice.

Naturally, ancharan's Fords have left a strong impact on me! I really like how they handle facial anatomy in general and also how they make use of it for strong emoting and expressiveness. Their Fords feel so unique, yet also so very like Ford, and it's just amazing!

My goal isn't to be able to imitate ancharan's art style, nor is it to draw Ford exactly how they do. I wanted to figure out what it was that I found so appealing about their Fords, and then I wanted to figure out what I can learn from that as I continue to iterate and practice my own. What is it about my depictions of him that I feel like need work, what are things I can improve on? How can I draw him so he feels better to me?

I find myself already feeling pretty happy with what I've learned from ancharan's work, and it was what helped me out with that latest Ford drawing I just posted. It turns out that the major thing I need to work on is, unsurprisingly, facial anatomy, particularly how to set the eyes into the face. Just in general and also for masc adult or older men, which is completely predictable when I've nearly exclusively been drawing anime magical girls for years, haha. (RIP Magia Record.)

For the above drawings, I started off by tracing my construction lines directly onto ancharan's illustrations and copying various details. My main goal with the faces in particular was not to copy their lineart exactly, but to look at where they put things and how, and try to draw it in my own style, I guess? Like, when I'm constructing the face, here's where I'm used to putting the eyes and nose, and then here's where they are in this image, so what does it feel like when I deviate from what I'm used to and try something closer to this? What is the version of an adult male in my head and how I would draw them right now, versus how ancharan depicted that idea here? That kind of thing.

These drawings are clearly extremely close in appearance to ancharan's and that was on purpose, as I did trace or otherwise draw over the top of them. But I do like the differences between my art and theirs despite that. I like a differently shaped jawline for Ford, and I think larger eyes and a larger nose? It feels like their Fords and mine have different faces, even with the copying, and that feels like success to me. I really, really adore how my top image Ford here came out, and I think it's probably the best Ford I've drawn, period.

That brings me to the Ford I posted earlier (not traced, to clarify, nothing else I have posted has been traced). First, I drew the face just off the top of my head, the way I normally do, while trying to think about and consider what I liked about the above Fords and felt like I had learned. My attempt was....idk, it felt uncanny to me, and not at all like Ford as I was imagining him. I'm pretty sure it was due to anatomy and facial proportions issues?

So I took that bad Ford and tried to figure out how to make it, well, "good", based on what it was that I liked so much about my outcome in the top image Ford here.

I ended up with a much better Ford that I felt way happier with (old on left, new on right):

Honestly, it's amazing how big of an impact seemingly small changes can make when it comes to this. Like, these have such similar lines, but they feel SO different from each other, right? Small details also do SO much work here, to an astonishing extent.

I think the Ford I really like on the right also feels pretty different from ancharan's, and doesn't feel exactly like my results from the tracing, either. It's the most "me" that a Ford I've drawn has ever felt, I believe, and I'm pretty stoked about that. I think that feeling also comes from it being closer to that ideal Ford in my head than I've been able to draw before.

There's a lot I still need to practice and improve, and eventually I want to draw different facial expressions and angles (I am filled with fear). I am glad for the progress I've made though, and thankful for other artists in the community whose work has been inspiring for me and also just fun to see in general.

I'm deeply appreciative of ancharan for letting me post these! I feel like these drawings are such obvious copies of their artwork to where I didn't feel comfortable calling the drawings my own original artwork, and I didn't want to post them publicly without permission.

I am happy to be able to share them here. Thanks again, ancharan! Go check out their artwork!! Their whole gallery is awesome! There's also this cool espresso machine AU☕ that may be of interest...

If this post is incoherent, it's because I haven't slept yet whoops

[harbo-urr]

I can explain.

/the tier list is based on how much *I* like them, not on how good I think the character writing is/

Disclaimer: subjective opinion of a (probably) not neurodivergent person with a very high level of anxiety, agarophobia and depression, who also peaked in high school. Additionally, I'm partially thinking about the characters in a context of how I would feel about them in real life.

- S-tier: Ken reminds me of my awesome life partner but with an addition of some of my mental health problems, so I naturally feel close to him. He's cool. His self esteem is all over the place and I connect to it A LOT. I also like that he's a tough cookie and knows many smart things. He also has money and good relationships with his parents. Like, what else do you need in a person?

- A-tier: Kazutoshi is just a very well written character. I wouldn't say I usually like personalities like him, but he's story just makes it impossible not to root for him. Also the disability representation in him was super insightful for me since I never had any life experiences with it in any form, so it was a fun learning moment. I genuinely forgot he was not immune to dying and I'm still grieving a weird amount about it. Idk I don't want to think too deeply about him, it'll make me feel things.

Tamba reminds me of myself but if my mother didn't put time into developing my brain, so I love her dearly. She's like my inner terrible fucker up child. Her voice lines are very entertaining too.

- B-tier: all those are just characters with awesome arcs and personalities, they all are equally great. I just wish Tsuno was with us a bit longer. Funnily enough, all of them would be a C-tier if they died earlier than they did (aka if I knew them worse)

- C-tier: Kinda so-so territory. I have no negative and no positive thoughts about Wada, I just want him to get help; Sasaki is a similar case to Tamba for me, we're definitely extremely similar, but she dies too early for me to get to know her properly; similarly, Isono and Harada are potentially close to home character for me, but alas, I don't feel like I know them enough; Ojima is just boring, but he at least doesn't annoy me.

- D- and E- tier: .......well. how do I put it.

Let's start with Hama. This boy has some of the absolute best moments in the series. He's surprisingly wise, caring and kind. By all means, he should be the B-tier.

He also claims he has a demon arm and uses "badass" every other sentence.

Is it a crime??? No. Did my eye twitch? Yes.

Objectively, he doesn't deserve to be this low, but he had a lot of unjust things happen to him already, so what is another one.

And speaking of that...

Watari.

If she tried pulling her "principal watari" thing in front of me I would walk out of the room in a second. I cannot. Like. No.

Any play pretend freaks me out, like, how do I know she didn't go crazy, how do I know she doesn't actually believe she's a "principal" and most importantly, how can I feel safe around a person who thinks it's okay to go into a kindergarten mode in a killing game situation? Yanagi is weird with his prince act, but it's the kind of delusional that is easily understandable looking at human culture, but Watari's behaviours? No. Permission to be silly has been denied.

And I did feel bad for being so annoyed at her every word during the first two chapters and the first half of the third chapter, but all my uneasiness proved to be absolutely correct once she started to feel conflicted about the whole Okazaki situation (even bringing it up to Ken, like, are you serious girl?). And then the whole chapter 4 disaster.

It proved to me that, first and foremost, Watari is just unapologetically herself. She would act and do and think things that are impossible to control predict and justify in my head. Things that I wouldn't hope to influence in a million years because her inner world is so fucking strong. And I hate that.

So yeah.

Not a fan.

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That's been my extremely subjective tetro pre-chapter 5 tier list. Maybe it'll change when the story's over, and maybe I'll let Hama out of his D-jail and move some guys from C higher, but Watari is staying just above the hellfire line and I'm not moving her anywhere even if I end up studying her character under a microscope to figure out why she triggers me so much.

[lovefeedsthefire]

ok first i wanna say

1) i’m a newbie here so most of what i know about these guys is from what you guys have posted/told me! plus my little bit of extra research

and 2) i wanna say i love all of your very complicated relationships with steve. reading all of you guys’ answers, it’s like… he’s obviously everyone’s favourite, and a lot of you identify with his personality but aren’t happy about it, but even though he’s your favourite you wouldn’t touch him with a ten foot pole in terms of friendship/any relationship because he’s so difficult, but you also really want to fuck him. and that’s so valid of you

my favourite guy: obviously steve!… sigh. i think we can all agree that there is this magnetism to him that’s really hard to explain. plus he’s cute and funny and stupidly charming, and mysterious and complicated and difficult, and painfully my type. so yes, he’s my favourite

liked by everyone but me: i don’t think there’s anyone i hate that everyone likes but i do think i like neal less than others might. the himbo thing doesn’t really do it for me. but he’s an incredible guitarist so i respect him immensely in that regard

didn’t like at first: i know “at first” implies that there’s been a change, but it was jon and it hasn’t really changed 😅 idk why but i got bad vibes from him from the first time i saw him

would like to know more about: i don’t know much about ross but he seems fun so i wanna learn some more about him. and gregg seems a bit mysterious too

least favourite guy: jon and herbie. yikes

similar personality: firstly i worry for all of you who are answering steve for this.. i’m kidding haha but really i don’t know which one of them is most similar to me! i’m an exceptionally non-neurotic person — very easy-going, chill, not sensitive, don’t care much about things, don’t have drama with people, don’t get caught up on things, don’t regret anything… but there are particular things that i can be a bit controlling about, and i can be quite combative (i’m very opinionated). so i wanna say mostly ross for the chillness and humour but with a hint of steve and i’m a bit academic/nerdy so maybe that part of jon

fav ship: ideally myself/steve/a locked room/a week’s supply of food, water, and alcohol/a bed/and a bedside table full of… supplies. lol but in all seriousness, out of the ships we discuss on here, i’m most drawn to steve/gregg 🤗 they seem to have an interesting dynamic but not as bizarre and tortured as steve/neal’s

least fav ship: jon/neal gives me the heebie jeebies and steve/sherry is a trainwreck, bless them

would befriend in real life: definitely ross, he just seems so nice and funny. i would also befriend steve just to see what happens. i feel like he and i would get along initially and have good banter but we’d eventually clash. his S tier neuroticism and my anti-neuroticism would be like the unstoppable force and the immovable object so we’d reach a friendship impasse i think 😅 where he’d try to create some kind of drama between us and i’d be like “gorl… sis… what are you doing” and he’d get mad and stop talking to me 🙃

would never befriend in real life: jon! no thank you. one of the things i do get combative about is politics so 🙅🏻‍♀️

would fuck: gurl you already know... the list of things i would do to steve could fill a book. and not one of the words on the list were in the bible. and he’d be out of commission for about 12-15 business days. i know herbie hates to see me coming

would marry: i don’t think i’d marry any of them 🙊 very anticlimactic way to end

We need to play this with our guys 🤔🤔

I'm gonna post my answers soon

[bacchuschucklefuck]

caps from comic Im doing

[xxplastic-cubexx]

after finally playing scarlet witch long enough to get this icon ive decided that you really have to love wanda to get this icon

anyway Bonus cause Heh....... Fam.....

[endy-boi]

hello!! agenderish dragon here!

i started off down the agender path after meeting a bunch of queer people and learning more about being queer, and after some self-examining decided that i didn't really feel connected to my/any gender identity at all. i started out just nonbinary, but after spending some more time just exploring what was available, decided that agender was more specific and felt right.

as for pronouns, i use any pronouns with a bit of a preference for it and they. (it/its is somewhat coloured by my therianthropy, but both are grabbed as they're more enby pronouns. i'm also fine with neopronouns, but don't have any specific set i use for myself)

in terms of dysphoria/euphoria, i feel dysphoric in my body with facial hair and a dick, and i'd probably feel the same if i had tits i think. i wouldn't get top surgery for sure. i try to look more nonbinary, or genderfucked (to try and make people second guess my gender lol) when i can. i like experimenting with various gendered aesthetics to kinda mix it up. i like it when people have fun with my pronouns, or use unusual pronouns for me.

i absolutely consider myself a part of the trans community, and i find a lot of shared experiences from all over the community whether binary or not. the experiences of being trans are shared across a lot of queer people, things like figuring gender expression is really similar for me i think.

my romantic/sexual orientation is also coloured by my gender identity, i'm aroaceish in large part due to the dysphoria i feel in my own body.

to be honest, in daily life being agender mostly means just not bothering much with gender. i don't care much about pronouns, and probably less than usual about how my gender is percieved. i live largely without considering my own gender much. this bit is probably individually specific to me, i wouldn't be surprised if other agender people really want to be seen as agender and have that part of their identity always be respected, but for me i'm agender because i don't really care much about gender.

all of this is still up in the air, gender identity, sexual orientation, pronouns, etc., and honestly i don't think i'll ever stop experimenting with my identity.

(some of this description may be a lil contaminated with recent discoveries in my identity, but i've tried to capture my thoughts when i was figuring it all out! my identity is also further complicated by my therianthropy, so some of my experiences aren't generally applicable. but that's a given for any individual.)

hope this helped, and enjoy writing!!

i am making an agender oc but idk how

hallo look at the title yes

now i hardly have time to make ocs, but whenever i do i think about how badly i wanted to make an oc who is not under the binary trans umbrella.

its just that i never met anyone agender irl or online, nor have i seen much content about them. i did some brief research but i figured that most of my information come from the people and not potentially from influencers/speakers who arent agender.

now i know what its like to see queer characters and have their personalities/backstories be nothing but their queerness.... which sucks, so NEVER FEAR i will not do yall wrong like that.

i understand concepts of dysphoria, gender, pronouns, euphoria, etc and i wanted to know how it may be similar or different to binary trans people? how do agender people interpret/discover their own (nonexistent) gender in the first place? what is the common gender expression practices, or some things that give them dysphoria/euphoria? what are some stereotypes that are harmful that i should avoid? some dynamics that would be interesting/unique to consider?

i know that everyone is different, but if youre agender what are your experiences? maybe you know someone who is agender, what kind of stuff do they do in regards to their identity?

+ if i accidentally offended anyone, pls tell me i dont want to fumble up thank you!

[lunarharp]

fwee top 5 things i had fun with this year :-)

[hulloitsdani]

@moe-broey THANK YOU!!! AND IM GLAD THE RUFFLES ARE APPRECIATED!!!🎉🎉🎉

But seriously this is the highest compliment, because this is actively what I’m trying to do when it comes to how I draw Kiran! I really want to convey how unabashedly charming this silly little tactician is. It helps explain how they keep the order intact on a social level and also why this keeps happening:

In retrospect, Alfonse never really stood a chance, did he?

Anyway I won’t lie, I did all this for the Loki bit. Please imagine that she’s just off screen for all these outfits hitting that exact pose.

[wackywatchdotcom]

the thing about me is that the process of waiting for a new ep is relatively new for me... i watched the pilot when it came out like everyone else did but at the time i was too focused on a different show to really care (one, which is funny, since its an extremely similar show conceptually) (i highly recommend it i was obsessed w it for well over a year and thats like. genuinely some sort of record for me. and when i say the shows are similar i mean soooo similar. not enough that they fill the same spot in my heart but like. if you watch it ull see what i mean heart emoji). i was around when the teaser came out but i wasnt super invested at the time. it was only like 2 months ago that i decided to get high and watch the show and i was like. woah. woah wait this show fucks

ive liked shows n stuff that were ongoing so its not like im unfamiliar w that concept but i feel like every show and its community and its team has a different feeling and cycles to new parts of it coming out. and bc ive never seen how that works for this show im very excited to find out... i find older posts abt teasers and images from episodes and the site and whatnot and i imagine ill be weird and very not normal about it! because that tends to be my response to those sorts of things

[loderlied]

sharing some thoughts about deactivating here because it’s been difficult pondering idk.

[evanescentsun]

new wip

[triptychofvoids]

kinda love that people genuinely come to you for health advice and you earnestly answer them, thank you for your work

aheh gern gesehen, its what im here for!

[kjzx]

I've been playing slitherio these past few days, and after some time messing around with nicknames and my own experience with the stuff, I've realized anger is something very easy to weaponize. On my second attempt of having "trans rights" as a nickname I killed a huge ~5k point worm as a teenie tiny 200 point worm simply because it was so desperate to kill me specifically. Anger makes your life harder, but it also makes people really unwise. I fucking bet this is in "the art of war", even though I haven't read it.