#it was exam season so yes

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[clockwork-stars]

[ask game] Hi!!!!!

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers <3

Okay I can't promise that I will put in 10 people askbox because I am scared to bother but I am answering because it's fun

Movies. I don't talk about it often on Tumblr for some unknown reasons but I currently have an obsession with movies that is making me deeply happy. I am watching too much movie for my own well being but it is fun and it feels nice so who am I to tell myself to stop (lastly I have seen Mutt that was really nice!)

Books and reading in general. (Not so) ancient bookworm here that used to read multiple books a week and that is now happy when they end more than 2 books in a month. As much as I don't read as many books as I did before, reading makes me happy. Truly. Mostly fantasy, I am not gonna lie but reading truly feels magical

Okay this one is weird but trust me on it: Notion. Being able to do organisation in my life, having so many Notion page or Excel sheet for so many thing (I might have at least 4 different systems/place where I report the movies I watch/things about them). It just feels nice to do so, to be able to do statistics with it (yes I am weird) to have pretty notion pages to motivate me to things.

Uni. Yes I had at least 4 anxiety crisis that were uni related this week but still I love it so much??? I am absolutely fascinated by what I am studying I just always want more and if I listened to myself (and that capitalism wasn’t a thing) I would just spend the 10 next years studying in multiple fields.

Being in fandom related space. On Twitter but also on tumblr lately, interacting with people, consuming fan made content, going to convention, watching new content with theories and random pieces of content all over my mind. No matter the fandom, no matter my implication in it (there are those fandom where I am barely liking some tumblr post then there is this where I am managing the Twitter jail account, and then in the middle those where I read fanfictions as if my life depended on it without ever interacting with this fandom on social media. I have a lot of types of interactions). Fandom life and fandom interactions just make me feel good and make me happy. And seeing people happy to be there or happy to have new content often make me love the original work even more (typically doctor who) because of how much it makes others people happy.

I could continue but the ask was for 5 things so here we are 🫡

(Apparently I am unable to just list things and feel the need to always explain so sorry and take this freaking long answer-)

[averlym]

HI I DIDNT KNOW YOU WERE INTO ADAMANDI HOLY SHIT. Can’t believe so few people know about this masterpiece of a musical

:OOOOO hai i agree it is criminally (haha yknow bc there are crimes..) underrated!! and really brilliant!!! discovered it literally midway through the week and akdfjgsjhdsjhjgdf

have a doodle of the saints :3

[linagram]

[ 𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖 𝚏𝚒𝚕𝚎 #𝟶𝟷 ]

the first linagram file is here! come on, open it, i'm sure there's nothing bad inside <3

???: So.. W-what exactly do I have to do?

Jackalope: Oh, it's easy. Just judge them, that's all.

Jackalope: You don't have to overthink it. Just follow your instincts-

Jackalope: Or, actually, you're allowed to overthink it. Just do whatever you want, but don't forget why you're here.

???: Uh.. When will I get to..

???: You know.. meet them?

Jackalope: Oh, you can see them on the cameras. Let's take a look.

Jackalope: They're still asleep, by the way.

Jackalope: So, the first prisoner.

Jackalope: Miyagawa Akio. 16 years old, a high school student. First year.

Jackalope: He's a genius when it comes to school, but when it comes to his appearance, there's nothing remarkable about it.

Jackalope: He acts all powerful and confident, but deep inside, he actually craves attention and compliments.

Jackalope: Prisoner 002, Hanasaki Aimi.

Jackalope: She's the same age as the first one.

Jackalope: A really cute one, isn't she?

Jackalope: She seems to be very polite.

Jackalope: But still, don't forget that she's a murderer.

???: They're.. only two years older than me..

Jackalope: Shocking, right? Kids these days..

Jackalope: Prisoner 003, Ishizu Shun.

Jackalope: This one.. Haha, you'll have to see for yourself.

Jackalope: His memory is terrible. Is it the mental illness or is it something more physical? No idea.

Jackalope: But he still fully believes he was in the right for committing his crime.

Jackalope: Prisoner 004, Chiba Naomi.

Jackalope: An elementary school teacher ended up in prison. A terrifying concept, isn't it?

Jackalope: How could they let someone like her not only spend time with kids, but even teach them?

Jackalope: It's almost like people felt.. sorry for her.

Jackalope: Almost like they never saw her as an adult.

???: These two scare me, to be honest..

Jackalope: Understandable. They're much older than you and have committed horrible, absolutely horrible crimes.

Jackalope: But the fifth and sixth prisoners are even worse than these two.

Jackalope: Prisoner 005, Sanada Kei.

Jackalope: A charming young man who is always in the center of attention and has everyone's eyes on him. Popular with both men and women.

Jackalope: He doesn't feel that connected to anyone though.

Jackalope: Be careful around him.

Jackalope: And now-

???: ...

???: .. W-why-

Jackalope: What's wrong-

Jackalope: Ohh, this one.

Jackalope: That's the sixth prisoner. One of the prettiest ones here.

Jackalope: But again, still a murderer.

Jackalope: And her name is Yoshioka Ei-

???: !

???: N-no-

???: N-no, i-it can't be her!

Jackalope: What? Are you surprised to see someone like her here?

Jackalope: Oh, you haven't seen the other prisoners yet-

???: WHAT IS SHE DOING HERE?!

Jackalope: Well, she committed-

???: SHE'S NOT A MURDERER! SHE CAN'T BE!

???: ONEE-SAN WOULD NEVER MURDER SOMEONE!

???: SHE'S TOO KIND FOR THAT!

???: AND EVEN IF SHE DID MURDER SOMEONE.. THAT MEANS THEY DESERVED IT!

Jackalope: So forgive her then.

???: What?..

Jackalope: If you think she's innocent, forgive her. I'm not stopping you.

???: .. N-no..

???: .. This is insane. This is madness.

???: You're making me judge my own sister!

???: And she'll have to go through not one, but three trials!

???: Why.. Why would you do this?

Jackalope: So you don't want to accept that your sister could have murdered somebody?

???: HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO ACCEPT THAT?!

???: She.. She doesn't deserve to be here! Let her go!

Jackalope: Can't do that. Forgive her first.

???: I FORGIVE HER! I FORGIVE HER, I FORGIVE HER, I FORGIVE HER!

???: She doesn't have to go through those three trials, please, just let her go!

Jackalope: Again, I can't do that.

???: WHY?! WHY CAN'T YOU-

Jackalope: Because your whole family is here.

Jackalope: It would be rude to just let her go without even letting her join the family reunion, no?

???: ...

???: .. My..

???: ...

???: .. Is this what you used to make me fall asleep?

Jackalope: Right. Don't drink too much-

Jackalope: Oh.

(sound of someone falling on the floor and glass breaking)

Jackalope: .. Oh well. We have three more anyway.

Jackalope: Maybe 14 year olds don't really make good guards.

Jackalope: .. What about 15 year olds though?

***

???: ...

Eiko: WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?!

(sound of Eiko dropping something)

Eiko: What.. Why..

(sounds of someone's footsteps)

Shun: Eiko-san..

Shun: Are you okay?

Eiko: ...

Eiko: .. What was this supposed to mean..

Eiko: I found this tape in my cell this morning and there was a note saying where I can watch it and..

Eiko: Why would they-

Eiko: .. This wasn't done by Eiji-kun, was it?

Eiko: .. No. No, he would've never done something like this.

Shun: W-why are you so sure?

Eiko: Because even though he believes that everyone here deserves to be punished, he would've never done something like this out of malice.

Eiko: This video feels like it was recorded to.. laugh at me in the future.

Eiko: Eiji-kun would never do something like this. He only punishes people for the sake of justice. For the sake of making this world perfect.

Shun: Didn't he make Yurika-san everyone's maid even though she clearly hated her job?

Eiko: Well, a fitting punishment for someone like her.

Eiko: And also..

Eiko: My whole family..

Eiko: .. Ahaha..

Eiko: I knew they were criminals, but I didn't know they were this bad.

Shun: Um.. Is there anything I can do for you?

Shun: Just tell me. I won't forget it, I promise-

Shun: W-what are you-

Eiko: For now, can you just hold me like this?

Eiko: I'll come up with a plan later.

Shun: .. S-sure..

Shun: Ehehe..

[arttsuka]

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

- anon who asked how you are doing

Thank you anon, I really appreciate it 🫂

[astudyintheburningofhearts]

THE HEARTSTOPPER SEASON TWO OFFICIAL TRAILER HAS ME IN NEAR TEARS OK.

[linalilia]

I'm kinda late but yeah :D

For fandoms: Soukoku, Jade x Trey, and Leona x Ruggie

For your ocs: Akio x Ichiro, Aimi x Akane, Kei x Daisuke (Now that we know more about them, I'd like to see what you think of these skips, hehe. :DD)

it's okay it's okay! i'm surprised to see no bllk ships here /lh

LISTEN. AGAIN. i'm just not really a fan of this dynamic in general? like, i really like the concept of 😠😆 characters being a couple, but ehh, for some reason soukoku is just.. not it for me. it's like, i can see the "hating each other" part, but i can't see the "secretly in love with each other" part?? also i just got too tired of seeing it everywhere and the "this ship killed my grandma, okay" part is like. i've told this story to my other friends before, but long story short, back when i was like 13-14 years old and i just got into bsd, i was a part of this gc and all members liked skk, but i didn't, so they came up with this great plan: THEY JUST KICKED ME OUT OF THE GC EVERY TIME THEY MENTIONED SKK AND THEN ADDED ME AGAIN WHEN THEY CHANGED THE TOPIC. like. i get it, they were even younger than me and they said that "they did that for my own comfort", but also.. yeah, i kinda get ptsd every time i see them now /j

i just.. don't really get it?? like yes, i know about their interactions and i know about the whole "oh, trey thought jade is just like him fr but it turned out that jade likes working for azul" (??) thing, but also.. idk, i just don't really care about this ship :'D maybe it's bc i'm kinda neutral when it comes to these characters too (i'm like a magnet for trey and jade simps though. i have too many mutuals/friends who like them JDJSKSALSL) so that's why i don't really care about shipping them too?

tbh the age gap makes me feel a bit uncomfy? like, listen, i'm not the type of person who goes "IF THESE TWO CHARACTERS ARE NOT THE EXACT SAME AGE, YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO SHIP THEM", but ehhh, idk, i think leona is a bit too old for ruggie. i think i like the concept in theory, since i enjoy dynamics where character a has more power and character b is their servant/follower/etc, but ruggie is like.. basically, i think he deserves better jdkdslsdls

WELL. UH. NOW LET'S TALK ABOUT WHAT I ACTUALLY LIKE. okay, i love both platonic and romantic versions of akio x ichiro. they're just so cute, but so toxic at the same time <333 like, hear me out. they have a very cute dynamic bc akio just wants someone to listen to him and admire him and just do what he says, but also recognize that he's more than just his intelligence and he has other good qualities too and if ichiro needs attention and someone to guide him and answer his questions, well, akio would be glad to do that! but also, there's a lot of angst potential since akio still misses arata to a very bad and obsessive degree as it will be shown in season 2 and he may also see ichiro only as a "second option" because he would like to reconcile with arata if he's able to go back home and also, unlike riku, ichiro probably doesn't really share any traits with arata? but hey, maybe akio should just stop searching for guys who look and act exactly the same way and try something new? also i can definitely see them as, like, that type of ship where someone talks a lot and the other one just listens and nods. but yeah, i think they should go to therapy together once they're out. if they're able to leave milgram that is (also hi i'm typing this while thinking about t2 akio and I'M THIS CLOSE TO CRYING)

AIMI X AKANE IS SUCH A CUTE SHIP (both platonically and romantically) IT LITERALLY MAKES ME MELT. like, their t1 version is so heartwarming, aimi finally gets a friend (maybe something more?) and akane finally gets someone who won't look away and give her all the attention and love she needs! also matching bandaids!! brushing each other's hair!! aimi saying that she can hug akane if she's too cold!! (and aimi is very soft and warm and her prison uniform is just like that as well) but also man. i'm thinking about the fact that i've actually never revealed much about aimi's backstory and what kind of person she was before milgram and like, why she was bullied by everyone.. and again, her undercover lyrics, if someone is not her friend, they don't deserve to even breathe. would love to see akane's reaction to t2 aimi, hehe <3 (don't worry, aimi is still cute, but now we get to know how messed up her morals can be) (also the fact that their love languages go together so well makes me go insane)

AGAIN. i love them both platonically and romantically. two angsty boys who have some love-related problems, how cute <3 but also, i think daisuke deserves someone better than kei jdkslsls. kei's morals are literally non-existent and he genuinely enjoys hurting people though one of the reasons why he likes it is because he thinks it's a normal way to show how much you love them. their love languages go together surprisingly well too (the masochist bit made me laugh so hard like if kei found out HE WOULDN'T LEAVE HIM ALONE AND WOULD TEASE HIM NON-STOP). this is also that kind of ship that really makes me wonder how your ocs would react to the t2 versions of my ocs, though in this case it's more about, well, kei's t2 mv and more info about his crime because IT'S GONNA BE SAD.

[skitskatdacat63]

Oh...

[kunikinnie]

by any chance, are you currently taking requests? 👉🏻👈🏻

Unfortunately no, I'm currently not accepting requests at the moment. I still have a lot to finish AHAHAhuhu Hopefully by the second week of April I'll be open for requests again :)

[thinkingnot]

holds my sanity *my arms hovering empty in vain* im.keeping.it.together.

[mann-walter]

The kids despite being ill-behaved, are just kids. They act tough and adult-like, but see the world still as kids do. Their acts are not purely the product of well-thought malintent, but "what's cool", what will set you firmly recognized within your society.

If the main character hasn't been so awful as the "responsible adult" and has actually given these children proper guidance, that Gangsta Phase would just be one of those cringey phases of teen life and not something so defining.

But, alas...

[strayheat]

the social comeback i will have after im done with this fucking exam tomorrow is unimaginable. posts i made at 1am downing an energy drink 12 hours before my final final exam

[averlym]

a word to the wise sometimes the only true rest is looking beyond what you thought was success

so true! adamandi is full of wise advice such as this, including: "and you'll never feel better if you - fucking die- you stupid ass!"

[sainterlude]

june-october is my season of anxiety & depression (at least what it used to be when i was in uni). i hope to make the best of this summer!

[storiesoflilies]

I am quite simply torn between the urge to absolutely SLAY and be an absolute academic weapon, and to simply bed rot and procrastinate.

no, no i am not ok.

Lily xo