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When I was a kid I was kind of chubby, and in my teenage years I adopted the mentality of ' if I get fit then I guess I'm better than I was ' ( which was internalized fatphobia , an extremely weird kind that was only intended to be directed at myself. Very strange considering I've always loved fat people and been obsessed with how much I love fat people and even have had fat characters even when I was thin. But even if the intention was only directed at myself, inherently, fatphobia affects everyone. But mostly fat people. )
This post puts it into words perfectly. Getting fit didn't make me happy at all, it just gave me a very inflated and untruthful ego. And that ego was used as a safeguard for fat phobia. Even if it isn't intended to affect others again it still affects others. There is just simply no way around It.
It wasn't until I was able to start testosterone and transition medically that I felt comfortable enough in my body to gain weight. And after that, all those thoughts of how amazing it should feel to be fit melted away. Because it was always a should and never a matter of fact. I never actually felt better, I just felt lighter and tougher. I was tough because I felt like I wasn't allowed to be vulnerable in this world.
And that's lame. That's a very lame way of thinking. It's super lame to think that you can't be allowed vulnerability in this world. It is a Injustice to yourself to deny yourself comfort and softness. I used to feel so weird about perceiving myself as fat for the longest time as a teenager. And my adult life it was nothing but longing to be fat. And then I was able to transition.
So if you feel very uncomfortable about being fat, you should really get down to the root of that. Because it could just be that you aren't happy living the life that you are currently living. And if you delve deep into it and take the dive and find out that you actually don't want to be fat in the end that's okay too. But in this world you need to question everything about yourself in order to solidify it, without over questioning.
Challenging your beliefs builds character, and it builds morale. It gives you perspectives you would have never had without challenging your own views even when your views end up being something you still believe in and still agree with after challenging them which is kind of the point sometimes. Sometimes you need to come from a different angle in order to give yourself more context in order to actually explain something.
And the more understanding you have about yourself the better. No matter what.
So why not take the dive? I'm not saying go to the fridge and start stuffing your face, I'm saying question why you feel so uncomfortable with being fat. Question it and allow yourself to feel the emotion so that you can follow it and trace it to its source. Were you bullied? Did you have an abuser that was fat in your childhood that warped your view? Is your parent fat and you just don't want to be like your parent so it translates into fatphobia?
I think if people were more honest with themselves the world would be a much better place.
not to bat at a hornets nest but. people who were super insecure or were bullied about being pudgy and "got better" by becoming thinner or super muscular never actually got rid of that insecurity, they simply became the image they felt they had to live up to
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I Can Show You Just How Deep: S.M
SMUT | 18+ | MDNI
->Starring: Rockstar!MingiXafab!Reader
->Genre: Smut,
->Cw: Explicit language, unprotected sex, smoking, lots of self wallowing.. sore loser, consensual recording, car sex
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There was nothing more important than battle of the bands and this was the year that you were sure your band would win. For 3 years in a row you guys lost to Ateez, each time was a harsh slap to the face but you had a secret weapon this time. "Okay. Is everyone ready? Gaon, are you ready?" You ask the newest addition "Absolutely. I'm ready to help you guys win this yearâ The atmosphere backstage was hectic but all so exciting "Okay guys" you gather everyone around "This is the year, I feel it. We chose a kick-ass song and we practiced til our fingers bled. But remember no matter what happens I'm proud of all of you" They all "aw" and envelope you into a hug "Okay okay. Get off and let's go blow the shit out of everyone"
You all felt so pumped walking onto the stage and the screams from the crowd only seemed to fuel you guys more. You look through the blinding lights out to the crowd then over to Gaon giving him a nod. As soon as he started it's like everyone else disappeared. You've never played like this before. Everyone was in the zone and you could feel your heart swell with pride. The addition of Gaon seemed to really benefit the band. You had spent countless sleepless nights composing and rearranging parts, the bags under your eyes for the days to follow really proved that. But it seemed to pay off and nothing could be more rewarding than hearing all of your hard work pay off, other than winning of course. The screams of the crowd were roaring and your bandmates were filled with optimism.
"Wow wasn't that amazing" The MC shouts "Next up is our champs for 3 years in a row... ATEEZ" The crowd erupts into loud cheers and you watch the 8 men strut onto the stage, their aura screaming "Look at me!" You hated how smug they were, another year another patronizing smile as they walked past your band to accept their trophy and check they most certainly did not need. But not this year, no, this year you guys had it in the bag "Wait. Hold on... is that Wooyoung on drums? What happened to Mingi?" "He's on bass!" The 6 of you stare at the group on stage. They made some changes and you didn't know whether to feel nervous or hopeful but as soon as they started playing all of it flew out of the window. It seemed their new arrangement made them sound better than they've ever sounded. It's like the changes seemed to be some secret missing puzzle piece and with every passing second every fiber of hope was ripped out. When they finished you could barely hear yourself think with how loud everyone was and to make matters worse they had the audacity to send yet more cocky smiles your way as they descended the stage.
Tensions were high as you awaited the dreaded results. You were so confident walking in but as soon as they got up on stage it seemed to all fly out of the window but your bandmates still had a little left in them âAnd the winner of this year's Battle of The Bands is⊠drum roll pleaseâ The air was so thick and you could hear your heartbeat in your ears. âAteez!â You feel your heart drop and the disappointment sets in. You hear the cheers around you but they all fade away when you hear the defeated sighs of your bandmates âMan I really thought we had it this yearâ âMe too, especially since we had Gaonâ âIâm sorry guysâ â(Y/n)?â They all turned to look at you but you were nowhere to be found.
You stand outside of the venue with a cigarette in hand trying to cope with the fact that you lost again. You inwardly groan when you hear the door open and the voice of the person you absolutely love despise âYou know those things will kill youâ his deep raspy voice fills your ears âI think I deserve this after what just happenedâ you shoot back and he just holds his hand up in surrender âHey itâs not my fault the judges liked us better⊠againâ he holds back a chuckle when he sees your glare âWhatever. Just go back inside and let me wallow in my failure alone." You wave him off taking another drag "Come on, Don't be like that. It's freezing out here.â He urges trying to get you to go back inside but all you do is shrug âWell I canât just leave you out here alone. Someone might kidnap you or somethingâ He insists motioning towards the door "Can't be the worst thing that's happened tonight." He lets out a sigh "Can we at least sit in my car? It's warmer" he offers. You weigh your options, you could go back inside and get bombarded by your band mates or you can sit in a car with Mingi âLead the wayâ
You walk over to his car and scoff, of course. You stand in front of his pretty, shiny black M4 âAinât she prettyâ he has a wide goofy smile on his face âShe?â You ask looking over at him âWhat? You jealous?â He teases, chuckling at your expression âJealous? Of a car?" he nods, opening the passenger door for you. You climb in and he closes the door, jogging to the other side. When he gets in his cologne fills the car. The tension was thick and maybe it was the buzz from the cigarette but the dull light of the streetlamp illuminated him in a way that caused so many unspeakable thoughts to run through your head. Your mind drifts back to how his fingers moved so gracefully on the neck of his bass. His long slender fingers moving so expertly and wonder how theyâd feel on you- âyou okay?â Mingiâs voice pulls you out of your thoughts âUm yeahâ you clear your throat before speaking again âGuess Iâm still wallowingâ you turn to look at him and gasp when you realize just how close he was âI can help you feel betterâ his eyes flicker to your lips then back to your eyes âHow? You gonna give me that trophy?â You ask cocking your head to the side. He scoffs out a laugh âI was thinking in a different way. A way that we both know shouldâve happened a long time ago. You feel the tension, I know you doâ he leans in closer âSo what if I do?â You challenge âThen maybe we should do something about it. I can help it so many waysâ âShow meâ
âOh my god Mingi youâre so deepâ you gasp out and he canât help but push on the little bulge in your tummy âLook at that. Thatâs so fucking hotâ he reaches over grabbing his phone and opens the camera app âYou donât mind do you? Been dreaming of this for 3 yearsâ you shake your head âJust send it to me laterâ he sits up as much as he could and the bright flash illuminates the inside of the car giving him a clear view of the scene in front of him. The sight of his cock disappearing into your tight walls almost had him spilling into you too early âLook at how well youâre taking meâ his pace increases and he zooms in on the white ring that forms on the base of his cock âLook at this pretty little pussy" His thumb rubs circles on your clit "Fuck Mingi that feels so good" "Yeah? That feel good baby?"
The windows were foggy and anyone who walked by would be able to figure out just what was going on, especially with how much his car was moving. He rests his forehead against yours, his hips rut against yours "Shit Min you're gonna make me cum" The way your sticky sweaty bodies press together as he somehow buries himself deeper into you has you seeing stars and the tension in your stomach is begging to be released. âCum for me. Just for meâ Your fingernails dig into his bicep and your eyes roll back. Your moans fill the car as your contract around him âThatâs it baby. Just like thatâ his thumb rubs against your clit, riding you through your orgasm. His cock glides faster as he nears his release, deeps groans and growls leave his lips and with one finally thrust he spills hot ropes of cum into you. You both lay there out of breath. He presses little kisses all over your face "So? Still wallowing?" he asks quietly "If I say yes can we do this again?"
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You hummed quietly to yourself in the kitchen of the small two-story house you and Daryl occupied in Alexandria. After a harsh, intense period of fighting with not only the undead but the Saviours as well, it was nice to have some semblance of peace in the aftermath. It had been a grueling process to rebuild the remains of Alexandria from the ground up, but with the help from everyone in the community, as well as from people in other communities as well, Alexandria stood tall and proud once again. With all the houses rebuilt and with additional houses built as well, you and Daryl had opted to claim one of the smaller properties as your own, a sanctuary away from the bustling crowd of Alexandria after an exhausting day.
The paragraph of my first ever work in the The Walking Dead writing community. The story that kick-started this blog into what it is today. in SICKNESS and in health, posted February 25th 2024. Honestly, it feels like a lifetime and no time at all has passed since then. Itâs such a surreal feeling.
When I wrote that story, I definitely did not expect anything to come of it. I remember being on season seven at the time of writing that, and feeling my heart break with what happened to Daryl in the sanctuary. I wrote that little comfort fic for myself at first, just to feel better about the hurt that was season 7, but then I thought âhey. I might as well post it. Iâm sure someone out there will enjoy it.â And thatâs what I did. I posted it and exited Tumblr directly after, and did not touch it again for a whole day. And when I didâŠ
I saw my notifications showing me a bright blue â99+â. And I had gained a whole 20 followers, putting my follower count at the time at 29. Seeing that made my heart burst with joy. I could not believe that people were actually enjoying what I wrote. Also, I remember scrolling through my notifications and stopping dead in my tracks when I saw that @angelwings-crossbowstrings, aka one of the people whose stories inspired me to try my hand at writing for Daryl in the first place, had not only liked it, but reblogged it and followed me. My poor mom got bombarded with âholy shit, this amazing writer just followed me!â messages that day. She had no idea what I was yapping about, but she was supportive.
After that, I tried it again. Wrote something, posted it, and it got notes. And then again. I wrote my first installment for my âShopping Spree, Hangout Dreams AUâ as my third ever fic, which is still my most popular series to date. That fic also served as the gateway to people sending me their amazing ideas via requests.
And the hits just kept on coming after that. And I still canât believe that I get to say that people like my writing. Take that, my third grade English teacher.
This year had its ups, and it definitely had its downs. Due to the fact that I was so excited to get this blog up and running, I pushed myself too hard a lot of times, and I have burnt myself out on more than one occasion. I told myself that if I didnât pump out fics every day, people would be disappointed in me. I had set high expectations for myself, and I felt so bad when I couldnât live up to them. However, through lots of reassurance and guidance, I realized that it was unhealthy for me, mentally speaking. I was pushing myself way too hard, and I needed to slow down if I wanted to keep the fun of writing alive for me.
This year, I also had a moment where I was scared. I found something that made me realize that my blog could have potentially been the next target for a known plagiarist, and it made me fearful. I pour my heart and soul into every story that I write, so having the safety that I associate with writing threatened was a terrifying thing. However, thanks to the vigilant creators behind the @fanfic-plagiarism-watchdog blog, my worries were settled. (Although I still keep my eyes peeled for any suspicious activity on that other blog.)
Now, for the ups. Letâs get the negativity out of here. Weâre ending this year with a bang.
I never celebrated this, but I reached 1k followers this year! It happened so quickly, I barely had time to register and think of how to celebrate it. At the time of posting this, Iâm a little less than 70 followers away from 2k, and I just wanna say thank you to each and every one of you for deciding to stick around. Your love and support means the world to me.
I had a work of mine surpass 2000 notes! That number is still so surreal to me, oh my god.
Not something writing related, but I moved this year. It was definitely a good decision and I donât regret it at all. It was hard moving everything from one house to the next, but in the end, it was definitely worth it.
I also met some amazing people because of this blog. I still canât believe that I get to say that I know them on a somewhat personal level. @lazyneonrabbitt, @angelwings-crossbowstrings, @enlightndone, @shadowcitrine, @dixondystopia, @dix0nvix3n, @deansapplepie, @snailss, @remnantsofsleep and @yevmarie.
And I can not forget about my girl @holdmytesseract. Youâre one of my absolute favourite people ever and I love you. Keep being your awesome self, sweetheart.
And @thevegandarkelf. I still canât believe that I get to talk to her on a daily basis. What started out with a comment about how our angels (our OCs, Vec and Georgie) would have been friends in an alternate universe spiraled into, if I may be so bold, a friendship. Taylor has become a huge part of my day-to-day life, and I honestly canât believe that I get to just text you randomly throughout the day about anything at all. I love you.
I would also like to give the biggest of thanks to @daryl-dixon-daydreams. Her fic entitled âPlan Aâ was the first ever work of Daryl I read here on Tumblr, and she was one of my biggest inspirations to start writing after my long hiatus. So thank you for blessing us with your amazing writing, and I canât wait to read more of what you put out.
Now, to finish this off, I thought Iâd give my personal favourite fics I wrote this year:
Daryl Dixon:
HazelnutâDaryl Dixon x Fem!Reader
Was It was Boogeyman?âDaryl Dixon x Fem!Reader
Shopping Spree, Hangout DreamsâYoung!Daryl Dixon x Fem!Reader
Needs To Be PerfectâDaryl Dixon x Fem!Reader
Crushes Are For School GirlsâDaryl Dixon x Georgianna Hawkins (OC)
Scud Frohmeyer:
Look At MeâScud Frohmeyer x Fem!Reader
Perfect EndâScud Frohmeyer x Fem!Reader
PerformanceâScud Frohmeyer x Fem!Reader
Murphy MacManus:
Make A MoveâMurphy MacManus x Fem!Reader
The SafetyâMurphy MacManus x Fem!Reader
Irish Man In A ClosetâMurphy MacManus x Fem!Reader
Thank you all so much for sticking with me this year. I love each and every one of you so much, and I canât wait to embark into the new year with all of you.
Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays, and happy new year in advance!
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#thank you all for making this year memorable for me#i love you all so freaking much#wrapping up 2024#daryl dixon#scud frohmeyer#murphy macmanus
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*runs to refill tea (and rum)* I'm back, baby! đ
(Also, before I come across as some drunk, I'd like to clarify I haven't had a drop of alcohol before pregnancy, so Christmas 2022, whoa... đđđ)
Clearly having a blast and couldn't imagine a better Christmas than reading one of your amazing stories, friend â€ïž
Russell happened to spot the cozy little scene from the doorway. He couldnât help staring, and trying not to frown. When Colter caught sight of his brother loitering (and that look on his face), Colter tried to hide most of his smile.
Loved that little moment of jealousy there. How do you like tasting your own medicine, Russ? đ
I absolutely loved their pizza and movie date at home. And they already shared so much with each other đ„č The fact he felt secure enough to open up to her after this short amount of time says a lot, considering Dory hasn't even told her the story yet. I love them đđ€
She did offer, he thought, remembering what youâd said at the hospital. And yet, he hesitated.
Honestly, in this day and age, it's always best to wait for renewed consent (even though I'm pretty sure she wouldn't have minded in the least lol). Loved that he recognized that and hesitated!
You watched him go when he headed across the hall back to Charlieâs room. You sighed and beat your hand against your own forehead in frustration. What the hell am I doing?
Poor girl đđ The morning after is always a tad awkward â especially if everything is still in the balance of will they/won't they and nothing *sexual* has happened yet đ
âWell hey there, cowboy,â you said, adopting a more sensuous tone. âI had a feeling youâd be packing. Whatâs that, a .45, or a 38 Special?â Russellâs eyes blinked wide. Then he erupted with deep laughter that made his shoulders shake. Aside from throwing a punch, your brother mustâve taught you something about guns too. âWell thank you, kindly,â Russell said, putting on a bit of a southern drawl, just to tease you. âBut youâre about to find out, naughty girl.â
Absolutely adored this exchange! â€ïž
Oooof, and that smut may have been my undoing for tonight! Holy hell!!! đźâđšđ„đ¶ïž
âYou know, drug dealers aside, Laramie isnât such a bad place to live,â you pointed out. âWeâve got a movie theater, a couple good outlet malls, a new Tex-Mex restaurant that just opened down the street. Iâm gonna have to find a new bar though.â
Again, she's so cute đđ€
I do hope they work something out. I don't think Russell would've necessarily taken the "big" step, knowing her feelings on this, if he hadn't planned to try and make it work somehow â€ïž
Heâd found where he wanted to be.
Perfect ending, friend đ„čđ (You know I love a bit of drama and angst in an ending lol)
I loved this series so goddamn much! It fit so well with every character and gave so much that the show didn't (like that awesome family reunion of the three Shaws). Can't wait to get into the one-shots over the holidays đ
Again, the merriest of Christmases to you and your family, Alex! Thank you for always being a wonderful friend đ€đ
Every Second Counts - Part 5
Pairing: Russell Shaw x F. Reader
Summary: One date with your best friendâs brother leaves you wanting more, even though his questionable job and vagabond lifestyle make you want to guard your heart. When your brother falls into trouble, however, Russell is the one you trust to help you find him.Â
AN: I thought about breaking up this chapter into two parts, but for some reason it didnât feel right. I hope you enjoy the finale! I think this is the moment weâve all been waiting forâŠ
Word Count: 7K
Tags/Warnings: 18+ only! Fluff, angst and hurt/comfort, â90s movie reference, mutual pining and tension, and a strong dose of smut.
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Part 5: âDamn Worth Itâ
You borrowed Russellâs cell to call Dory from the hospital. You let her know that Charlie was stable and resting, and that Russell was bringing you home.
You shouldâve known that when you two got there, you wouldnât have the kind of privacy you craved. Colter and Dory were waiting in his car, parked in your driveway. They met you in front of your house, where Dory pulled you into a big, swaying hug. She cried, you cried, and her brothers hung back to watch the warm scene.
Dory pulled back to get a better look at you. She hesitated to touch the bandage above your brow.
âGod. Are you okay?â she asked.
âYeah, IâmâŠIâm fine,â you sniffed, wiping at your face. âCome on, letâs go inside.â
Dory actually had your keys. After she handed them to you, you took in a steadying breath, and you unlocked your front door without incident this time. You invited everyone in.
Even though you told her not to, Dory began straightening up a bit for you. She had Russell take out the trash while she washed the dishes.
Meanwhile, you pulled Colter aside in the living room. You led him to sit with you on the couch.
âCan I at least give you $1,000?â you asked. It was all you had left in your savings, but the man had literally saved your brother's life, and yours as well. âI know itâs not much, compared to what your jobs usually get youââ
âPlease,â Colter said. He touched your arm. âDonât worry about it. Iâm just glad you and Charlie are safe.â
You teared up all over again, but you gave him a smile and held his hand with both of yours.
âThank you,â you said.
Russell happened to spot the cozy little scene from the doorway. He couldnât help staring, and trying not to frown.
When Colter caught sight of his brother loitering (and that look on his face), Colter tried to hide most of his smile. He let go of your hand, patted your shoulder and stood. You followed him to the kitchen, where he went to check on Dory. Russell filtered in behind you both.
âHey, wanna grab some lunch?â Colter asked his sister.
She gave him a raised brow. âWow, my brother actually wants to hang out with me instead of rushing off to the next job?â
He gave her an amused look. âIâve got some time.â
Dory was happy to hear that, but her expression dimmed when she turned to you.
âWould you want to go? Or do you need to rest?â she asked.
âOh, I need to get cleaned up, and then sleep for about ten years,â you said. âBut you go, D. Have fun.â
She frowned. âI donât want to leave you here by yourself.â
âWell, she wonât be,â Russell chimed in. âIâm gonna hang out here for a bit, clean up and take little power nap myself.â
At that, Dory slowly smiled, both amused and suspicious. Her gaze slid back to you.
âAre you sure?â she asked. You read the double meaning laced in her tone.
âYeah, definitely,â you said with a smile, and the beginnings of a warm blush. âYou guys go ahead.â
There was a knowing gleam to her own smile, but Dory shrugged and gave you one last hug. She and Colter said their goodbyes to their older brother before they headed out. It left you alone in the house with Russell for the first time since this all began.
âUm, you can use the guest bathroom if you want to shower,â you told him. âTowels are under the sink, and feel free to borrow any of Charlieâs clothes if you need.â
âItâs okay, Iâve got a bag in the car with some stuff,â Russell said, tossing a thumb over his shoulder. âI take one wherever I go.â
âSmart,â you nodded. âVery prepared.â
A strange silence stretched between you two, until you couldnât take it anymore.
âIâm justâŠgonna go clean up,â you said. âWe can order some food after?â
âYeah, sounds good,â he said. He was amused as he watched you scurry off, after giving him another smile over your shoulder.
Though heâd be lying if he said he didnât feel a small trill of nerves himself. It brought him a little bounce in his step as he headed out to his car to grab his stuff.
By the time you were done showering and drying your hair, Russell had ordered a pizza (and a side of fries). You padded out into the living room in an old college shirt and pajama shorts. He tried not to linger his gaze on your smooth, bare legs.Â
âSorry, forgot to ask if youâd want something else to eat,â he said.Â
âPizza is perfect,â you said. At this point, after almost a full day without food, youâd eat sliced bread out of the bag. You gave him a teasing look. âIâd ask you if you wanted a beer, but Iâm afraid itâs not up to your standard.â
âWell, thatâs okay. I happen to have brought a sample for you, just like I promised,â he said, with that grin of his youâd come to expect.
He retrieved a case of homebrew from his car, but you had to add some ice cubes into a tall glass before you joined him back on the couch. You poured the contents of a bottle into the glass.
âSorry, I know this is sacrilege, but I canât drink warm beer,â you said.
âI canât fault you, though I didnât really peg you for a pizza and beer kind of girl,â he said. He tipped a swig of beer into his mouth, right from a lukewarm bottle. He was a purist.
You quirked a brow at him and took another bite of your pizza slice.Â
âWhy not?â you asked, after swallowing a mouthful of pepperoni and mushroom.
Russell shrugged. âNever mind. Forget I said anything.â
âNo, no. I want to hear this,â you said. âWhat, because I teach college students?â
Russell looked over at you and leaned on his elbow, resting above his knee.Â
âYouâre a college professor with a handful of degrees,â he said. âIâve got a GED and a give âem hell outlook on life.â
You shook your head at that.Â
âWeâre different. Thatâs not a bad thing,â you said. âAnd like my brother, youâve fought for this country. Youâve saved lives, including mine. Iâd say thatâs pretty damn special.â
His head tilted at that. He didnât want to remind you that, just like you saw today, heâd taken lives too. Perhaps just as many as heâd saved. You could debate the quality of those lives, but in the grand scheme of things, he knew what he was. A trained killer.
He rolled his shoulders, feeling a familiar weight.
You didnât like the pensive look on his face, so you aimed to distract him.
âWant to watch a movie?â you suggested.
Russell inclined his head. âSure. What you got?â
That was how the two of you ended up finishing the box of pizza and a case of beer while laughing at Tommy Boy, of all thingsâone of the best '90s buddy road trip comedies of all time. Apparently Russell had never seen it before, but you enjoyed watching him experience it for the first time. He had a deep, infectious laugh that made you laugh just by proximity.Â
Later in the movie, the reluctant, unlikely duo of Tommy and Richard hit a deer, and tried to transport it in the car. Russell both laughed and cringed when the animal woke up and thoroughly wrecked the car from the inside. You noticed his reaction and nudged him in the arm.Â
Russell held in a grunt of pain when you unintentionally hit his injured shoulder, bandaged underneath his gray henley.Â
âWhat if that was the Chevelle,â you teased.Â
He cast you a playfully chiding look. âWoman, donât even joke.â
You laughed and squeezed his forearm in a friendly gesture. But he thought there was more than just friendliness when you shot him that little smile. He decided to take a chance.Â
âCome âere,â he said. He slid a hand around your waist and guided you closer until you came to lay against his side. You allowed yourself to rest against him, splaying your hand flat against the firm wall of his chest. Your heart tripped up faster, but you also relaxed more fully for the first time since you got home. You let out a long breath, and you used the remote to lower the volume on the movie a little.
âDo you think Charlie will be able to get past this?â you asked quietly. âThink heâll be okay?â
Russell hummed as he thought back to his conversation with your brother in the hospital. Charlie was still young, but he seemed to realize what heâd done, and what he needed to change. He wouldnât have volunteered himself for rehab if he hadnât.
Russell brushed your arm with his thumb. âWell, I think he knows what he needs to do. If heâs anything like you, then heâll be all right.â
Your mouth tugged upward, though you considered his words with a sigh.
âHe hasnât had it easy,â you said. âHe was barely eighteen when our parents died. Suddenly he had to be an adult. In fact, he almost didnât finish high school. Had to take care of the funeral, had to get a job, had to take care of meâŠand I didnât always make it easy on him.â
Russellâs lips curved in light of your faint smile. Then, your expression dimmed.
âHe pulled me out of the car,â you admitted. Russell looked down at you.
âYou all were there?â he asked.Â
âMy dad was driving. Weâd just gone out to dinner as a family,â you said.
You hesitated as the scenes once again filtered through your mind. Some things were hazy. Others, you could see with perfect clarity. You remembered how your parents argued about the best way to get home while the pouring rain beat down overhead, half-drowning out their voices.
You remembered what the flash of a red stoplight looked like through the car window, with streams of water coming down, and a dead leaf stuck to the glass.
You remembered the sound of horns blaring in your ears, the crunch of metal on metal. Your motherâs scream. The feeling of being suspended, and then ricocheted painfully through time and space.
Then the smell of exhaust, and the metallic tang of blood.
âWe were heading through a terrible storm,â you said, after letting out a long breath through your nose. âBy the end of the night, it was just me and Charlie in the hospital.â
Heâd broken his arm, but thanks to him, the only thing you really walked away with were a few cuts and bruises, and the memories of that day. They were like old scars, painful and tender at the touch.
Russell shook his head, his brows knitting together. âIâm sorry.â
âYeah,â you breathed. âAnd Iâm sorry too. I know you understand what itâs like to lose a parent.â
The movie played on as that new weight settled between you. Russell fell into his own thoughts as he continued to rub your arm in comfort. His own past wasnât like yours, but he did understand some of your pain.
âHow much did Dory tell you about how we grew up?â he asked.
You shifted a bit, so you could see his face too.
âI know your dad took you all to a cabin in some sort of compound in the woods, when you all were still pretty young.â
âHe taught us to live off the land. Drilled us, really,â Russell explained, noting your raised brows. âYeah, he wasâŠwell, a paranoid bastard, to be frank. We still donât know all of why, and what drove him to move us out there.â
âDory said he wasâŠeccentric,â you said. Russell snorted.
âHe was a piece of fucking work,â he said. âHalf the time I hated him, if Iâm honest.â
That part was hard to admit, even if it was true. Your hand soothed across his chest, more comforting as you listened. Russellâs lips quirked. He liked that about you, that you were willing to listen without judging him, or his family. Maybe that was another reason Dory seemed to love you so much.
âBut one night, it was like he snapped,â he said.
For a moment, he was lost in the memory. His fatherâs anger, and the damn crazy look in his eyes.Â
âWhat happened?â you asked quietly.
Russell glanced at you again. âI donât think you wanna hear this right now.â
You shook your head. âNo, I do.â
He hesitated, but that earnest look in your eyes got him. Still, he surprised himself when he actually told you. He explained it the best he could, the way he saw it in his mindâs eye.
Their mom had been missing, hadnât come home yet. Then his dad had torn around the house like a man possessed, until he told them it was time to leave for their own safety. Dory had been scared, especially when he grabbed her, yelled at her.
That was the one thing Russell couldnât tolerate. So he snapped, yanking the older man back and shoving him away. It was one of the first times Russell had ever defied his father.
Ashton Shaw left them then, heading out into the night and the rain. Maybe heâd realized what he was doing to his own kids, his own family.
Colter wanted to follow after him, but Russell stopped him. Being the eldest, he took on the responsibility, even if heâd been reluctant. Weâre better off without himâŠ
He was barely sixteen at the time, but Russell knew heâd seen his father arguing with someoneâa man heâd seen before, talking with his mother. And thenâŠ
âI watched him die that night,â Russell said.
Your hand clenched in his shirt, reminding him that you were still in his arms, still listening. He remembered that scene, looking over the cliff to find his fatherâs broken body down below.Â
âHe fell, and I couldnât stop it,â he said. âAnd to this day, I still donât know what all that was about.â
Heâd been reluctant to tell even Colter that it still haunted him sometimes; that night, and the not knowing.
You pulled yourself up further so you could meet Russellâs gaze.
âIâm so sorry,â you said.
The movie had long faded into the background, but at least it gave some white noise for the next heavy beat that passed between you two. His eyes eventually fell away from yours.
âItâs old history,â Russell said at last.
âItâs not just history,â you denied softly. âItâs your life.â
He didnât know what to say to that, so he just hummed in agreement. He encouraged you to relax against him again, with a warm hand on your back. You settled and released another contented sigh. Even though Russellâs story weighed on your heart, you did feel closer to him. It made you feel like you understood Dory better too, and even Colter.
Russell rubbed your arm. âYou doinâ okay? Youâve had a long day.â
âDay and night,â you agreed. Your eyes closed against your will. âBut, yeahâŠI think Iâm okay now.â
At that, he smiled. He laid a kiss on your forehead.
âGood,â he said.
A few minutes later, Russell heard your soft, deeper breaths in sleep. He chanced grabbing a throw blanket laid over the back of the couch. He managed to toss it over your body, but he made sure it covered you. You shifted in your sleep and curled up more comfortably against him.Â
Russell smiled down on you fondly. Heâd learned a hell of a lot more about you in just the past couple of days, but ever since he met you, heâd been picking up on the important things. The things that made you the woman you were.
And he wanted more, he realized. He wanted more time with you.
That turned out to be the last real thought he had before his eyes closed on him too.Â
Russell didnât wake again until the credits on the movie were rolling near the end. You were still knocked out. So he carried you, blanket and all, over to your bedroom.
He smelled the remnants of your floral shampoo and body wash in the air, likely coming from the bathroom. It was an intoxicating mix, one that had infiltrated his nose ever since you came out of the shower today.Â
It was only 6:00 p.m., but it might as well have been midnight. He laid you down toward the middle of the bed. There was still space on the other side. Very tempting.
She did offer, he thought, remembering what youâd said at the hospital. And yet, he hesitated.
Before he could make a decision, you made it for him. Your hand reached out to hook in his shirt.Â
Russell looked down at your sleepy smile.Â
âGet over here,â you said, tugging him downward. He chuckled and wrapped his hand around yours. He allowed you to guide him over, and he somehow managed to roll onto the other side of the bed without crushing you.Â
âReflexes like a cat, I tell ya,â he quipped.
You giggled softly. He took off his first layer of defense (his pants), leaving him in his henley and boxer briefs. He settled into bed behind you and slipped an arm around your waist. He fit in snug against your back.
âMmm,â he sighed. His lips pressed behind your ear, smiling there. âFeels nice.âÂ
âMhmm,â you agreed.
He couldnât see your smile, but you held his arm in place. For the first time in a while, you werenât alone.
In the early morning, you woke up to warmth and closeness. The man in your bed snored lightly, mouth parted in sleep while he faced you. You smiled.
How could a man who felt dangerous, in more ways than one, also make you feel safe? It was a wonder. Though when an idea hit you, you carefully slid out of bed.
Russell eventually roused in his own time. He blinked awake, rubbing the sleep from his eyes. He stretched out his limbs in your very comfortable bed. This sure beat rusty motel springs.
He realized that he was alone in the room, but he heard you puttering around the house. He allowed himself to doze some more.
A few minutes later, you returned to greet him with a couple of mugs, drawing him back into the waking world with the rich smell of coffee.
âAww yeah, thatâs the stuff,â he said. He groaned as he slowly sat up.
You laughed and sat beside him on the edge of the bed. âGood morning.â
âMorning,â he said. His voice was deeper and rougher with sleep, washing down your spine pleasantly.
He accepted the mug you offered him. He took a sip and hummed in pleasure at its bold flavor. It wasnât as sweet as he usually liked it, but it was exactly what he needed right now.
âI just did a little sugar and creamer. That okay?â you asked.Â
âItâs good,â he nodded. And you looked good, he noticed, with your bed-tousled hair and an open robe over your tank top and little shorts. Â
âDo you want to meet Dory and Colter for breakfast?â you asked. âDory texted me this morning.â
Russellâs brows shot up.Â
âColt stuck around?â he asked.
âYeah, Dory asked him to stay at her place last night,â you said. Russell hummed in response.Â
A bit of an awkward lull fell between you. Youâd felt bolder yesterday in the hospital, but now, you werenât entirely sure what you were doing with a man who just slept somewhat-but-not-altogether platonically in your bed.
âUm, Iâll justâŠget ready then,â you said, pointing to the bathroom. âYouâŠtake your time.â
He cleared his throat. âUh, yeah.â
He peeled back the covers and climbed out of your bed, away from the sheets that smelled like you.Â
You watched him go when he headed across the hall back to Charlieâs room. You sighed and beat your hand against your own forehead in frustration. What the hell am I doing?
Youâd literally invited him into your bed last night, but he hadnât done anything more than hold you while you slept. It was incredibly kind, and it said a lot about him, despite his rough-around-the-edges exterior. You were just a little disappointed that heâd been a perfect gentleman about it all.Â
You rolled your eyes at yourself. What did that say about you?
You shook your head and resolved to freshen up. There was still a cut that the ER nurse covered with a butterfly bandage above your brow. You cleaned it up and applied a new bandage. Then you put on some makeup to cover the ugly bruise on your cheek and the dark circles that lingered under your eyes.
God, look at me. You actually wouldnât blame Russell for not being into you enough to make a move.Â
A bit disheartened, you changed out of your pajamas to slip on a nice, but comfortable dress over your bra and underwear. Afterward, you paused to stare at yourself in the mirror for a moment. What exactly do you want here?
âHey, uhââ Russellâs voice startled you, making you flinch. Maybe you were still jumpy.
He raised an apologetic hand. âSorry. Just thought Iâd ask if you want some toast or something. I donât think my stomach can wait âtil we meet up with Dory.â
You smiled faintly. âSure, go ahead. Whateverâs there, youâre welcome to.â
Russell paused, tilting his head. There was something off with you. He saw it, and felt it.Â
âHey, you okay?â he asked.Â
âYeah,â you said, glancing away.Â
Russellâs spidey senses began to tingle. He approached you and laid a hand on the counter, inches from yours.Â
âYou sure?â he said. He took in your hesitant face, then the pretty dress you had on. The color matched your eyes. Soulful eyes.
He smiled when you let him see them again.
âCan you see the bruises? I think I covered them up well enough,â you said. You turned to look at yourself in the mirror again, touching your jaw carefully.Â
Russellâs hand raised to find your cheek, earning your attention with wider eyes. His thumb swept across your skin as you started to blush.
âYouâre beautiful,â he said with a smile. âDonât you worry about that.â
Your face warmed further, despite your smile.Â
âYeah, the makeup helps,â you quipped.Â
âI didnât say anything about makeup,â he replied. Though he grinned and made a show of looking closer at your face. âAlthough, have your lashes always been that damn long?â
You laughed, but he didnât let go of you. Instead, his hand drifted down to your neck, cradling your jaw. His thumb brushed over your lower lip this time, smudging your lipstick a little. Your eyes met his, but theyâd already lowered, to the path of his hand. You were tempted to nip at his thumb, or better yet, suck it into your mouth.
Perhaps he read the thought crossing your face. Because when those darkened eyes flicked up to yours, he finally bowed his head to kiss you.
You took in a deep breath, and you melted into his mouth with a moan of wanting. A craving from the depths of your heart, finally being fulfilled.
You didnât let yourself think anymore. You gripped the front of his shirt and pulled him closer. He cupped the back of your head, tangling his fingers into your hair as he deepened the kiss. His tongue invaded your mouth, and you let him in. You met his every kiss with the same fervor, claiming him right back, demanding just as much.
Your hands slid up his chest and helped him shrug off the green jacket first, then his shirt (Led Zeppelin this time). He hooked an arm around your waist and brought you flush against him, so he could turn you around and walk you back to the bed.Â
You clung to his bare shoulders and savored the feeling of his warm, calloused hands burning up your thighs and ass, bunching the skirt of your dress. You helped him get it over your head and toss it onto the floor along with his clothes.Â
As he held you by the waist, his gaze dipped for a moment to take you in, from bare thighs and hips and lacy panties, all the way up to your breasts cupped in your bra. Through panting breaths, you smiled and blushed at the heated depths of his green eyes. You felt like your heart was beating in and out of rhythm. Â
But you managed to get a hold of your nerves long enough to drag your hands down his chest, down to his belt. You unclipped it for him and took your time in sliding the entire belt out of its loops. Then you let the brown leather fall to the floor.Â
Russell raised a brow at you, smiling. Taking your challenge for what it was, he unbuttoned his jeans himself and aimed to step out of them, but he had some trouble when one of the pant legs got caught around his ankle and sock-covered foot.
âShit,â he muttered as he stumbled a little. âHold on.â
Unable to help a small giggle, you grabbed his left arm to help steady him. He hissed in pain, but he cleared his throat to cover it. You gasped as you realized what youâd done. You noticed then that he had a bandage tightly wrapped above his elbow, right below one of his tattoos.
âWhatâs this?â you asked in concern. You held his arm with both hands. âDid you get shot? Did you get this looked at when we were at the hospital?â
Russell staved off your questions with a gentle hand on your shoulder.
âItâs okay. This is old, just still healing up,â he said.Â
You frowned up at him. âYou got stabbed, shot, what? When did this happen? I thought you worked in private security.â
âA couple months ago. I got, uh, grazed. Donât worry about it,â he said. âSometimes the job gets a bit dicey.â
He could tell though, that you werenât going to let it go easily.Â
âLet me see,â you said, trying to peek under the bandage. Russell laughed and gathered you into his arms to stop your attempts. Your concern warmed him, but it wasnât necessary.Â
âIâm fine, sweetheart. I promise. Can we focus on the fun part, here?â he said.
Your brows furrowed. You opened your mouth to reply, but Russell saw the testiness in your eyes. He dipped down to kiss you, swallowing whatever snippy remark you were about to make.
You werenât the only one giving into a craving here. Russellâs was bone-deep, molten in his blood, and getting to see you, to feel your soft body under his hands was already so much better than heâd imagined. His hold tightened on your waist, his fingers pressing into your skin.
A shudder ran up your spine at his touch. You circled your arms around his neck and let him continue ravishing you, then laying you down onto the bed.Â
While you were careful about avoiding the bandage, your hand did drift down his arm, and further still, to palm at the straining bulge pressing against you. And Jesus Christ, did it feel generous. He grunted at your touch and paused with his lips against your jaw.Â
âWell hey there, cowboy,â you said, adopting a more sensuous tone. âI had a feeling youâd be packing. Whatâs that, a .45, or a 38 Special?â
Russellâs eyes blinked wide. Then he erupted with deep laughter that made his shoulders shake. Aside from throwing a punch, your brother mustâve taught you something about guns too.Â
âWell thank you, kindly,â Russell said, putting on a bit of a southern drawl, just to tease you. âBut youâre about to find out, naughty girl.â
You giggled as he began to kiss your neck, languid and sloppy. He blazed a wet trail down the column of your throat and between your breasts. His beard rasping against your skin made you shudder a little, but it wasnât unpleasant. In fact, you quite liked that a lot.
He slipped a hand underneath you to unclip the black lace. You arched into him so he had easier access.Â
He slid the bra from your body and tossed it somewhere behind him. Just as heâd imagined, you had beautiful tits. His lips explored each of them in turn, squeezing supple flesh and rolling your sensitive, hardened nipples with his tongue and fingers.Â
It was a prequel, you thought, for what talents that mouth might have further down. You had to moan just at the idea, your fingers clenching in his hair, but also at the sensations he was drawing from your body wherever he touched. The man clearly knew what he was doing.
He traveled lower still and laid slow, occasionally nipping kisses across your stomach, hips and thighs. His fingers hooked around your panties and lowered them down your legs. You felt his warm breath panting against your thigh. You glanced down at him and tensed in anticipation.Â
âStill good?â he checked, squeezing your hip. You smiled and reached for his hand. Russell gave it to you, brushing his thumb over the back of your hand in affection.Â
âI think Iâm about to be,â you said cheekily.
He smirked. His other hand smoothed up the inside of your thigh and slipped past your folds, finding wetness that already coated his digits.
âGoddamn. Youâre soaked,â he said, just a hint teasing. âBet if I put my mouth on you, youâd fuckinâ drown me.â
Again, he stopped whatever smart quip you were about to levy at him next when his fingers found your clit. You let out a gasping moan instead.
He decided that he already loved that sound. He endeavored to pull it from you, again and again when he began working you open with his fingers and pumping them inside you. He enjoyed seeing you writhe and arch against his hand. Your hands squeezed his arms, his shoulders, trying to anchor yourself. Â
His thumb circled and strummed your clit in a rhythm only he could hear in his head, until you couldnât help biting your nails into his shoulders when you came. You shuddered your release as your core throbbed with warmth and slick around his fingers.Â
âFuck, thatâs my girl,â he said. His voice rasped deep with arousal. âWouldnât even mind if you did drown me.âÂ
You huffed in response, unable to form speech just now.
Next time, Russell thought. He slipped his fingers out of you and licked them clean, making your eyes widen. He smirked and stroked your thigh as you came down, a shuddering mess.
After taking a second to regain your breath, you pulled him down for a kiss, both grateful and fueled by a passion you couldnât put into words. What you felt for this man was instinctual, from the moment you saw him. And yet, it was also so much more. It was raw, and real, and maybe even beautiful.
The thought spurred you on as your hands moved with purpose down his body. Your nails caught at the waistband of his boxer briefs as you tried to roll them down. You got it halfway down his thighs, enough to let his hardened length spring free. You bit your lip at the mere sight of him. Goddamn.
Your hand slid around his cock, near its weeping head. You used the beads of wetness there to work your way smoothly down to its base. Russellâs body tensed above you, just before he groaned low in pleasure.  Â
You pushed at his chest to have him let you up.Â
âYour turn, baby,â you said. It would be one hell of a challenge to get your mouth down that beautiful 44 Magnum, but you were more than willing to try.
To your surprise, Russell shook his head and guided you back down.
âLetâs pin that one for next time too. Wanna be inside you already,â he said.
You blinked, but then you nodded in breathless agreement. He kissed you deeply, devouring you with his teeth grazing your bottom lip. His tongue soon slipped out to soothe it.  Â
âCondom?â he panted, between kisses.Â
âOh, yeah. UmâŠbathroom, bottom drawer,â you whispered, though you werenât sure why you were whispering.Â
âOkay, two seconds,â he said.
He left you in the bed, quite literally hot and bothered, and very naked. You crossed your arms over your breasts on reflex while you tried to recover. Your core was still tingling, and your heart was beating fast, though you couldnât stamp out the smile forming on your face.Â
You heard the sound of foil unwrapping and clothed rustling. When he came back to the bedroom, you finally got a full picture of what you were in for. You unconsciously licked your lips as your gaze dipped down his body, and the indeed impressive package at full mast, and full display.Â
A grin curved his lips when he caught you staring. He climbed back onto the bed with just a bit of struggle with all the blankets coiled about. He pushed a heavy blanket out of his way, accidentally shoving it to the floor.
âBack to business,â he said.
âOh, yeah,â you agreed, and you welcomed him back, sliding your hands up his arms and shoulders. You hooked your thigh around his hip as he found his way back between your legs. Holding his bearded face in your hands, you pulled him in for another kiss that reignited you both.Â
He sunk his hand into your hair and treated you to another slow, deep kiss. Until your thigh tightening around his hip urged him to satisfy what you both had been wanting and waiting for.
He grabbed your thighs and angled you higher. Then he lined himself up at your entrance. Looking into your eyes, your breaths mingling together, he sheathed himself a little at a time. A keening moan fell from your lips.
He started with shallow thrusts, giving you time to adjust. But that in itself was a torturous tease. It made the coil in your lower belly start to tighten again. Pleasure began to thrum inside you, ever slowly. Your head tipped back into the pillows with a gasp. Â
âGod, Russell, please,â you uttered. You squeezed his arms on reflex, your heels digging into his ass.Â
âI know, baby. Gonna fucking wreck you, I promise,â he said with a grin.Â
You huffed in amusement. That was a hefty promise.
Though a moan tore from your throat when he finally bottomed out, stretching your inner walls. He groaned along with you. His lips fastened to your neck as he gave you deeper thrusts.
âYou feel so good,â you said raggedly in his ear, raking your fingers through his hair. You felt every damn inch of him.
âYou too, baby. So damn good,â he gritted out. âTell me what you want.â
He raised your thigh a bit higher, his fingers pressing into flesh.
âUgh, fuck,â you gasped, as he hit a particularly delicious angle. âWhatever you want to give me.â
âYou sure about that?â Russell asked, panting against your neck. Your nails dragged down his back between the muscles in his shoulders, hard enough to earn a halting groan from him.
You nodded emphatically. âYes!â
His lips hinted at a smile. âOkay, hold on."
Before you could even respond, he pulled out of you all the way, just so he could guide you over onto your stomach. He pulled you up onto your hands and knees. As he ran a hand down the gentle slope of your back and around the curve of your ass, you breathed harder in anticipation.
âSo damn beautiful,â he muttered.
You glanced at him over your shoulder. You unconsciously bit your lip as your heart couldnât help but swell at his words. Russell met you with a look that betrayed his desire, making your lower belly tremble as well.
He parted your cheeks and slotted himself between your thighs from behind. You once again felt the head of his cock nudging at your entrance, and then pushing back in with one deep plunge. Both of you let out moans of relief at the feeling. Â
Pretty soon, he was pounding into you deeper and faster than before. Oh, fuck yesâŠ
You clawed at the headboard, trying to find something to keep you stable. Russellâs arm slid around you for a solid support. You held onto him right back with one hand while he continued to drive into you, earning each and every sound coming out of your mouth. Heâd finally angled you just right, so he could hit that special spot inside you with every thrust. Your pussy clenched on him in response, making him grunt in pleasure.Â
âFuck, youâre close. I can fuckinâ feel it,â he said, panting. He laid a biting kiss where your neck met your shoulder. You cried out in both pain and pleasure, your inner walls once again squeezing on him.Â
âYeah,â you nodded, breathless. âThis time, youâre gonna come with me.â
You reached back and tangled your fingers into his hair. He held you to his chest and squeezed your breast a bit roughly. You uttered a wanton sound. You dragged his hand down your body to part your folds. You used his fingers to press against your clit.Â
He picked up your hint, and then took control, massaging you with his fingers. There you began to tremble from the inside out. Warmth emanated from your core and spread outward, down to your toes as you came even harder on his cock.Â
Russell wasnât far behind. His voice joined yours as his body locked up, and he spilled hot into the condom. You almost wished heâd come freely inside you, so you could really feel him. Regardless, your body was boneless when he lowered you down onto the bed afterward.
âHoly shit,â you breathed.
He chuckled and kissed your shoulder, before he fully pulled out. Panting for breath though you both were, you managed to twist onto your side and reach a hand for his cheek. Your fingers slipped higher from there, cupping the back of his neck. Your thumb swept tenderly across his cheek, and you guided him down for a proper kiss.
Russell obliged you, his lips meeting yours plush and wet. He brushed strands of your sweaty hair away from your forehead with affection.
Somehow, that last kiss was softer than all the rest.
One thing was for sure though. There was no way you two were making it to breakfast.Â
âI kind of feel bad now,â you later confessed.Â
You and Russell were taking a few minutes just to recover under the messy sheets. He held you while sitting up against your headboard. He almost craved a smoke. Youâd given him a damn workout.Â
He smirked at the thought. Admittedly, his mind was more on focused on the scenes replaying in his head than on what you were saying.Â
âDory doesnât get to see you guys that often,â you continued, âand who knows how long Colter will seriously wait for us to get out of bed.â
Russellâs attention drifted back to you at that.
âCome on, itâs not like they know why weâre running late,â he said. You gave him a knowing look.Â
âAre you kidding? They were already suspicious when you brought me home yesterday,â you replied with a laugh.Â
Russell grinned and rubbed your arm. He knew you were probably right, but he couldnât bring himself to care.Â
âYeah, well. That was damn worth it,â he said.
You smiled. You rolled your head over on his shoulder, so you could see his face, but you became contemplative as uncertainty crept in. You let in a breath to gather your courage, and you decided to take a chance.Â
âYou know, drug dealers aside, Laramie isnât such a bad place to live,â you pointed out. âWeâve got a movie theater, a couple good outlet malls, a new Tex-Mex restaurant that just opened down the street. Iâm gonna have to find a new bar though.â
Russell smiled at you. He knew what you were suggesting.
He sighed as his amusement faded.Â
âLook, even if I stayâŠâ he hesitated.
He looked into your eyes and saw the vulnerability there. You were being honest with him, putting your heart into his hands. The least he could do was be honest. He covered your hand where it rested on his chest.
âIf Iâm on a job, I could be gone weeks at a time. I wonât be able to tell you where I am or what Iâm doing. Thatâs gonna be hard on you,â he said.Â
He knew his friend Doug made it work with his wife, but their relationship wasnât without friction because of the job he and Russell shared.
âI can handle it,â you said firmly.Â
âYou just had a little freak out over a scratch earlier,â Russell pointed out, with a gesturing hand at his bandaged arm.Â
âOkay, thatâs different,â you said.
You wouldnât say it now, but there were things that still concerned you about his job. You had a strong feeling that "private security" wasnât all it entailed. However, after what heâd done for you, after what heâd done for Charlie, you knew that Russell Shaw was a good man.
There was something good here, and you didnât want to lose it this time. You shifted in his arms, so you could face him.
âLook, we can sit down and figure all that out,â you said. âBut do you want to at least try? OrâŠam I reading this wrong?â
Russell stared back at you ruefully. He raised a hand to touch your cheek, grazing your soft skin with his fingers.Â
âNo, youâre not,â he said.Â
In fact, what he felt already ran deeper with you than heâd like to admit. He let out a long breath through his nose.Â
âOkay,â he said at last. âIf weâre gonna do this, letâs do it right, I guess. Iâll book a motel here in town for now. If things go well, I canâŠI donât know, find an apartment.â
Your answering smile broke him down further, even as it warmed him inside. You turned over to circle your arms around his neck, and as an added bonus, pressing your bare breasts against his chest. You kissed his cheek with a happy hum. He laughed at your enthusiasm. He also accepted your sweet path of kisses that led to his lips.Â
He groaned when it became not so sweet, with your tongue slipping hotly against his. His hold on your hips tightened.
âUh oh. Baby, we canât do this now,â he chuckled, even though your hand was already wandering down his body and under the sheets. You both were supposed to be getting ready to meet his brother and sister for lunch.Â
âFive minutes,â you said against his lips. All the while, you were pushing him back onto the bed. You began to kiss down his chest, and lower still.  Â
Russell snorted. Right.Â
But he wasnât about to argue with you. He had a gut feelingâŠone that made him almost certain.
Heâd found where he wanted to be.Â
AN: Well, then! I hope you enjoyed the "happy ending." đ I always get a bit sad at the end of a series, but thank you to everyone who's followed the ride on Every Second Counts. Let me know what you thought of how it all shook out here at the end between her and Russell! đ
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Ok so these designs are cute as hell, the Internet is just mean
I have too many thoughts about a game I still need to watch
#goodbye volcano high#i dont have the money to buy it but god i need to watch a playthrough when i have time it's so interesting to me#like; the theme of 'yeah we're going die but that doesn't mean we can enjoy what time we have left' sounds amazing to me love that#its so funny i was actually watching a review of it that was basically 'this game sucks and here's why'#and then it just started listing off shit like- 'the characters designs are pastel they're nonbinary you die no matter what'#and then my neurons just went off and went 'đïžđïž oh! sounds amazing i want to see more'#fuck yeah pastel nonbinary dinosaurs lets go#well i think its just fang thats nonbinary and then two other trans characters#i saw a cutscene! and it was about the experiences of being an apart of a family as sec-gen immigrant and trans-#and i thought that was cool as hell dont recall ever seeing that in any of thr arts ive seen before (but there's lots of art out there!)#heard it got some glitches tho (havent looked in depth of what those glitches are) hopefully it got patched out#also im so fucking pissed i saw the gator game before i saw this đźâđš (context; apparently made by people who made a fangame where they#the mc of this game a datable side character and they only have a happy ending if they detransition? which fucking yikesđŹ)#i saw people say 'oh but they did it empathetically' like how the fuck is taking a canon nb character and making them only happy through#detransitioning empathetic that sounds super fucking shitty and gross#i think a character that detransitions can be done and would be interesting to see- but this just reeks of people being transphobic for real#oh also purple dino has a slug or worm or something apparently! seems cute! just a lil thing#apparently its a rhythm game; listened to some of the songs and it sounded good! sadly i suck at rhythm games#but apparently failing doesn't affect the story? kinda wish it would but honestly better for me lol-#pink one and fang end up dating i believe- from what i saw pink is like- soft spoken artist? dunno if accurate but she's cute#all the characters are cute just look at them!!! awesome#also they have to just continue school like normal before they die and honestly thats so real#also saw people dislike the fact you dont see the characters actual die or the meteor#which is ??? dunno i just think some things are better left implied than shown-#anyways man i keep trying to find neat stuff about the game and all i see is people bitchin about it or praising the shit fan on instead đ#man if i had two nickles for a time i grew to become obsessed with a media only for loads of people to hate id have two nickles#first nickle is kat elliot she's such a cool character Internet wasn't ready for her#also yes i saw obsessed i can just tell this is something ill go bonkers for#i mean god look how much text is in my tags for this already! and i still need to see the game in it's fullness!#im sure there's other cool shit
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Another fucking wip on fnaf because inconsistency is my skill
#In my au the crying child kind of accidentally helped kill Charlie lol. He pushed her outside and locked her in the rain. Tee hee#And THEN. He went to go check on her because he felt a little bad since Sammy was going ballistic#and accidentally witnessed the last bits of his dad murdering Charlie. He then hides and was going to wait for his dad to leave but#Since OBVIOUSLY will needs to dispose of evidence he was going to stay there. So he kind of. Went over to his dad and they had a mutual agr#Will in return started treating him âbetterâ and also stopped using him for experiments (as much) and instead tried doing remanent stuff#And then Mike and Elizabeth got kind of envious (this was also their father subconsciously pitting all three against eachother )#so then they started to bully cc#Sammy comes into play because he also kind of helped cc push Charlie outside because Charlie was deemed âthe favoriteâ and Henry truly#Never bothered to try and care for Sammy. This is not saying he treated Charlie good either#but. He treated her VISIBLY better than Sammy#and Sammy looked up to William (this is actually kind of relevant and is the reason why security breach and help wanted exist becauseâŠ#Sammy saw William and his work as amazing and even when he figured out he used actual children for his stuff he continued it needlessly.#He usually spent more time in the Afton household than his own which is. Quite sad. William actually thought of him as the perfect nephew/#Apprentice and taught him in his ways. Heâs as old as Micheal#and also the Freddy bully. (Iâm figuring out how to not make him white#Oh. Right#also cc was friends with sam#(the one u shouldnât have killed) and she has two siblings#Why is this relevant. WELL. BUDDY. So the Bonnie bully is in fact Jeremy.F#he has an older sister named Ximena. She worked at Fredbearâs diner and then circus babyâs pizza world#and Jeremy was friends with Micheal AND SAMMY. eventually after Will murdered the og kids#Jeremy was tasked with distracting Mike.#Their younger half sibling is Sammy. Jeremy is also later tasked by William to distract Micheal in any means possible from what Will is doi#Ximenaâs life was essentially theatened and in order for will to ensure the animatronics donât target her Jeremy was forced to distract mik#Even though he was still grieving for his sister and grappling guilt over cc. Mike also was somewhat mean to him sometimes and Jeremy a#Babysat Elizabeth sometimes. By distraction William never clarified so Jeremy kind of went for a romantic ish approach. Heâd constantly tak#Thereâs more but I donât want to explain đ#Mike out from his house
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literally everyone in the games: WOAH CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT KID SURVIVED?!
50% of the fandom: ....and then he died and became golden freddy OOOOHHHH I GET ITTTT matpat youre so smart
#txt#WHY WOULD THERE BE A POINT TO KEEP REPEATING OVER AND OVER AND OVER THAT THE BITE VICTIM SURVIVED#AND HOW AMAZING AND IMPRESSIVE IT IS AND BIZARRE IT IS#AND THEN ALSO HAVE MICHAELS WHJOLE THING BE#'WOAH ISNT IT CRAZY HE SURVIVED THAT?!'#AND BABYS WHOLE 'YOU WONT DIE' THING?!#OR THE FACT THAT THE PROTAG IN FNAF 4 IS CANONICALLY MICHAEL AND IS HBALLUCINATING HOSPITAL EQUIPTMENT AND THE NIGHTMARE FREDBEARS#WHY WOULD GOLDEN FREDDY BE THE ONLY CONSISTANTLY HALLUCINATED ANIMATRONIC IF NOT A HALLUCINATION FROM THE CCS POV#OR THE BOOK THAT MIKE CANONICALLY OWNED HAVE QURESTIONS IN IT DIRECTED AT *SOMEONE WHOD NEVER READ THE BOOK?!*#YOURE TELLING ME THEMATICALLY. LITERARILY. THAT THE THEMES FIT BETTER IF#THE CRYING CHILD RANDOMLY FUCKING DROPPED DEAD DESPITE IT ALL?!#DESPITE BEING TOLD HR WAS GOING TO BE PUT BACK TOGETHER?! BYU WILLIAM!? WHO IS WORKING ON A WAY TO STAY ALIVE FOREVER?! WHICH TURNS HIM INT#A ZOMBIE. AND MICHAEL *ALSO* ENDS UP TURNING INTO A ZOMBIE. WHY WOULD WILL NEED TO USE THE REMNANT ON HIM HM?!#HM?!#BECAUSE AS FAR AS I KNOW THE ONLY REASON HED USE IT ON MIKE IS IF HE THOUGHT MIEK WAS GOING TO DIE#AND WHAT BETTER WAY TO MAKE HIM THINK THAT THAN A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCEEEEEE AFTER HE ALREADY LOST HIS OTHER KID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#I FEEL LIKE ITS LIKE COME ON GUYS ITS BEEN WHAT. WHAT?! 5 YEARS?!#JUST ADMIT YOU DONT WANT A DISABLED PROTAGONIST
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"get off my chair, jester. the king sits there."
#⯠ê°á starry thoughts à»ê± *·Ë#⯠ê°á ffxv à»ê± *·Ë#god. with all of its imperfections i still definitely love ffxv so goddamn much.#the last half of the game is really uhm yeah but also? yeah? still love it. especially because of the chocobros..........#the game really makes you attached through them throughout your journey and wow there really is a lot to be improved with ffxv#and yeah i know the dlc content (haven't played properly them though) but i suppose yeah hmm my experience with ffxv#is better than those who waited... so many years for it. as i only got into it sometime 2018/2019. and then as a kid i didn't know the#criticism people had about xv and it was one of the first games that i actually went really far into? and then i was really obsessed so.#yeah i ended up knowing dlc content lol but i think my young mind not thinking as critically as i do right now is one big reason as to why#i really enjoyed xv! i had no expectations and no outside influence. so it was absolutely amazing.#even then i could see the imperfections but. yeah. anyways uh what was the point of this post.#RIGHT. man i really love noct and prom and gladio and iggy. idk. they all mean so much to me.#the campfire makes me so sad and then noct's words to his friends at the end and just. wow. yeah.#fun fact when fighting against the final boss? i was able to call upon a summon and that was really fucking funny to me because#heyy yeah garuda (?) haha thank you for helping me bring his health down to half and oops okay wow quickly next phase time!
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⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠâŠ . ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠâŠ . ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă .
"I am so fucked" is something that immediately ran through your mind.
But as you were walking in the spaceous courtyard, you couldn't help but practically float to the source of that amazing smell coming from one of the estates many kitchens in the hallway.
You walk into the kitchen, head peeking curiously at Uraume cooking some soup in a large pot ,following Lord Sukunas request. This was your favorite, and he knew this very well.
Ever since you had moved into his large estate, your life has drastically changed. You were a normal person, with nothing remotely special about you. But you had Sukuna whipped. You were Sukunas favorite, which also automatically came with being the biggest gossip of the Heian Era. Everywhere you look, people would make assumptions about you and your status with the lord. Ever since your arrival, there was no more need for concubines. And it made them furious.
A group of concubines walked past you while you were peeking in the hallway, the ladies snickering to themselves and bickering about you for the 1000th time. You could even call them obsessed with you.
'i really don't get whats so special about her.'
'she's just some high class whore that happened to get lucky.'
'she must be some sort of witch.'
Are some of the things they would say. But as they walked by, one of the woman came up behind you and bumped right into your back, muttering an 'oops' before quickly giggling and running off. You went lunging forward, as your leg tripped, causing a large bleeding bruise. Uraume immediately ran to your side, quickly residing besides your shaking body.
"shiiitttt-" you muttered as you looked down at your leg, while Uraume held it up with their hand. "Don't move." they said as ice started forming around your fragile leg. You winced and whimpered in pain, as blood began trickling down your leg to your feet.
"Please don't tell Lord Sukuna... he cant know about this-" you say, as if thats the most important thing right now. "Y/n. You know I must inform him. That would be going against his wishes." Damn, you knew they would say that. You'll just have to try and hide your leg for as long as possible. But what that entirely possible? Considering he always had somebody watching you when he was not, and the fact that he can basically know for certain when something is wrong.
You knew how he would react, and that he would go overboard and blame it on those girls. And you took pity towards them. While they did practically vomit in your presence, you didn't want to be known as some prissy complainer.
⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠâŠ . ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠâŠ . ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă .
You had convinced Uraume to leave your side, as you layed in your futon, trying to distract yourself from the pain. Sukuna had granted you the privilege of sharing a bed with him. He was currently busy (as so you thought), with fornicating with important business matters. So what better time to get better than now? You had all day to yourself in your mind.
You toyed with your thumbs while staring at the ceiling. Due to the status your leg is in, your options of keeping yourself busy are quite limited. While your glad Sukuna doesn't see you in your current state, you wished he was here keeping you some sort of company.
Being Sukunas favorite came with its perks, but one of its downsides was being pretty lonely. People were scared to become close to you, due to Sukunas tendency to kill people on sight when it came to you. You are always being targeted, and people don't want to fuck up their chance at life.
You were lost in your own thoughts, when suddenly the sliding door slams open, with enough force to cause an earthquake. By the look ok Sukunas face, you could tell he was furious. Not at you, but to whoever did this to you. Next to him was Uraume, looking as unbothered as ever. They were holding a tray, consisting of soup, water, towels, and a mochi a servant picked out at the fancy market per Sukunas request.
"Show me your leg, woman." Sukuna demanded, making his way towards you on the bed. He sat next to you, as he tried pulling the covers out of the way, but glared at you when you tried to stop him. "Why must you resist? I already know what happened. Hurry up and show me."
Your felt your eye twitch, as your body stiffened at his gruff words. "Nothings wrong 'kuna. What are you talking about?" You say, as you look him into the eyes, but failing to do so fully because of how intimidating he got when he was mad. Sukuna let out a guttural sigh, looking over at Uraume. "Hold her down." He says to them. "Understood." As Uraume made their way over to you, holding your hips down with their hands. Sukuna pulled the covers off of you and you could see his eyes widen upon looking at your injury.
"The fuck is this?" He exclaims as he looks down at your leg. You look away in shame, as the blood dripping down your knee hits the mattress, and stains the white satin bedsheets a deep crimson. He then looks back up to you, looking for answers.
"Who did this." "...." you don't respond. "I said, who did this. Don't make me repeat myself." "it was the blonde girl... I dont remember her name all too much..." you say, as you look away from him. But his upper hand grabs hold of your chin, forcing you to look in his direction. You can clearly see he doesn't know who your talking about, not bothering to remember the looks and names of other woman, besides you. That was something Uraume had told you, and every time you think about it, it makes you warm up inside.
"Fuckin' hell woman... you're gonna be the death of me someday." He says, with genuine concern for your leg. "Uraume, run her a bath feed her, and get some of the nurses to take care of her. I have something I need to do." He says, as he gets up from the bed, quickly giving your already messy hair a ruff. As he stands int he doorframe, he gives you one last glance before leaving, leaving him with the last word.
You stare dumbfounded into your own thoughts, until your snapped back into reality by the sudden realization... 'holy shit, is she in danger?' But those thoughts are also occupied by Uraume lifting you up into their arms, and carrying you to the warm, steamy bath that usually accompanied you and Sukuna. But since he was busy doing god knows what, you were alone with Uraume and two other handmaidens.
As they scrubbed your body in the giant tub, you fell into your own thoughts. You tried to relax deep into the water, but the wooden walls ran thin in the estate, cauing you to overhear something you wish you hadnt.
⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠâŠ . ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă .
"My lord! Please, I apologize for my actions!" The girl had exclaimed. She was begging for her life at this point. Sukuna, as well as three butlers had the poor girl surrounded. She was on her knees, kneeling all the way to the floor, with her hands pressed firmly against her face. All she could do was pray that her life could be willingly spared.
"What is the meaning of this? You think its all fun and games around here, but you are simply wasting my time. It shouldn't be on such trash like yourself." He states firmly. Hearing Sukuna call her trash got to her head, and drove her deeper into a state of despair.
"You are merely incompetent, easily replaceable." Sukuna says as he kicks her head, with a harsh 'thud'. The girl grabs hold of Sukunas feet, as she rests her forehead onto his left. "Please! Ill take one hundred lashes! Just please don't kill me, i'm still so young-" "Tsk, i've heard enough." He says as he slashes the woman across the back, leaving her killed in a blink of an eye.
"Take care of this, I cant have somebody like her be around Y/N."
As he gestures the butlers to carry and clean the residue up, he walks towards your room, head held high, and feeling proud of himself. He doesn't feel the need to impress you, but he had to admit he felt really good right now. Not at killing the woman, but at the idea of your reaction. Will you be concerned? Happy? Angry? Who knows, but it always ends the same.
He walks into your shared bedroom, not even knocking, as he stares at your sleeping form, and sees your cute little silk pajamas. God, you were adorable. But he would swear on his life to never truly admit that. Your chest moves up and down as you are in dream land, your shirt riding up to reveal your stomach.
"Brat, wake up." He says, which immediately waking you up from your sweet dreams. You shoot your head up, as Sukuna glares daggers into your eyes.
"You awake now? Good. I slayed that brainless, ignorant woman."
He says, no feelings behind his words, as he slowly crawls his way up the bed, eyes still locked onto yours. He looks you up and down, seemingly staring into you, making you feel exposed.
"What did you do?"
"Thats not important right now. But I think I know what is."
⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă . âŠâŠ . ăâș ă . ⊠. ăâș ă .
#sukuna#sukuna ryomen#sukuna x reader#heian sukuna#heian era sukuna#heian sukuna x reader#sukuna x you#sukuna x y/n#heian#heian era#jujutsu kaisen#jjk x reader#jjk x you#jjk x y/n#jjk smut#sukuna smut#sukuna fluff#sukuna angst
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âand they were roommates
part 2
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hockey!ellie x hockey!vi x hockey!abby x figureskater! reader
college au! fluff & angst (?)
synopsis: you were just trying to find a new roommate. how bad could it be if you lived with the universityâs most popular hockey trio notorious for breaking score boards and breaking beds (n backs) too?
warning: theyâre all fucking bimbos and simps. reader ur so pretty u make them so dumbđŁïž. caitlyn slander but i promise i love her so fucking much im sorry to my best girl. !!!!!!mentions of reader and harassment!!!! dumbassery. thats all. this is half edited
a/n: this lowk was rushed im sorryyyy my babies but enjoy nonetheless <3
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Abby didnât know what she was expecting when she opened the door. After Viâs declaration of your arrival (and the pathetic scream that followed of how pretty you are), she rushed downstairs while pulling her shirt over her bare upper body and pulling her hair back in a quick bun.
[a/n: hey author popping up in her rlly fast to say that idgaf. they like to be shirtless. (#selfindulgent)]
Vi thought being a woman was enough to be pretty in her book, so Abby just brushed it off and carried on. She thought you were gonna be some other female hockey player with a big ego and the usual nonchalant attitude. (how misogynistic)ïżŒ
Click. She unlocked the door.
You canât be anything special, right?
Swing. She opened the door.
âHey, you must beâ whoa.â The blonde was immediately slapped with your scent. It was intoxicating in the way where you made her mind blank for a second. She couldnât think of anything else besides the fact that you smelled so sweet, like a cupcake. She didnât even have time to register how stupid she looked, because holy fuck, Vi wasnât lying. Abbyâs mouth hung slightly open as she took you in, her breath caught at her throat. She saw how your soft hair fell perfectly down your upper body, how your pools of liquid warmth-eyes met her gaze, how your toned body covered with your leggings and tight jacket hugged your body so nicely she could have ogled at you for so much longer if you didnât speak upâ
âUh, Hi, Abby right? I emailed you yesterday about the roommate inquiry?â
Abbyâs throat was dry. Your voice wasâJesus.
âOh. Yeahâ yeah! Iâm uhâ Iâm sorry for making you wait. come in, come in.â She moved to the side and gestured you to enter. She canât lie, she did have a slight peek at your ass while you walked in. Lethal face card, mesmerizing voice, add amazing fucking ass to the list. (She mentally thanked her eyes for flickering down there but also mentally punched herself in the face for being no better than a man.) Abby took a sharp breath in. Lord, this was not gonna be easyâŠ
As you walked into the gorgeous house, Vi descended from the stairs. She was toothbrush-less this time, and somehow had less clothes on. She was in a sports bra and (Abbyâs) low rise grey sweats. Her muscular biceps and ripped abs were hard not to look at, not to mention that delicious v-line that was barely covered from the band of her Calvin Klien boxersâ
âHey. Sorry for leavinâ ya out there sweets.â She smirked and leaned against the wall, looking at you up and down. âHad to spit out the toothpaste.â she added with a wink. This earned Vi a scowl and a mouthed âQuit it assholeâ from Abby.
âHave a seat.â Abby politely said from behind you and smiled, and pointed to the couch. As you turn to walk to the living room, Abby smacked Vi right at the back of her neck and whispered a firm and fast âBehave you fuckinâ dog.â Vi, like a dog, sulked with her puppy eyes on full display. The duo made their way to the other couch, sitting stiffly.
Abby clears her throat to break the silence. âOur other roommate has a class right now, so sheâll be coming a little later.â She smiles, and tried not to let her eyes travel down to how perfect your tits sat under your jacket.
Vi, on the other hand, grew more confident since the toothbrush incident. God, she could not rip her eyes off of you even if she tried. You sat so politely on their couch, your pretty legs crossed over one another and posture so straight she wouldâve mistaken you as royalty. Normally, when she sees a pretty girl, sheâs fast to flirt. Her on and off toxic ex, Caitlyn Kiramman [a/n: i fucking love caitlyn im sorry ok] which happens to be one of the most sought after girls in school, was pretty to Vi. She was easy to flirt with, easy to tease, easy to fuck. You, on the other hand, made her feel different. You were making her dizzy. The moment she say your pretty fucking face standing out their door, she knew it was over for her from the way you smiled so nicely. You werenât just pretty to Vi, you were more.
If the feeling of butterflies was a person, itâd look like you.
âââ
OkayâŠso theyâre both hotâŠso what?
You thought as you collected your thoughts to speak up. Cmon, if you could make your professors gawk at your public speaking skills and befriend angry cashier Dan, you could talk to these hockey players. TheseâŠgreek god sculptedâŠchiseled to perfectionâŠhymn worthyâŠhockeyâŠplayersâŠ
You cleared your throat.
âOh no worries, I understand how demanding class could be. Your place, itâs so nice n cozy.â You laughed off the information Abby gave you about their late roommate and your eyes looked around their humble abode. It was indeed cozy, and much cleaner than you anticipated. It was a two story house with modern kitchen interior and a gorgeous ginormous marble island that you would kill to bake and cook on. Overlooking the kitchen island was their living room with a cloud-like couch that sunk when you sat your ass down on the cushions. The large 77â inch TV was sleek against the wall with a hockey game on. Then your rememberedâŠ
Shit. Hockey. Something you donât fucking play.
ïżœïżœSo, youâre a hockey player?â asked the one with pink hair.
Did this pink protein pack sex god just read my mind?
âUhâ wellââ you struggled. âNo. Andâ before you reject me alreadyâ I can explain.â
The two chuckled softly at your words, finding it charming the way you stuttered.
âGo on sweets, weâre listening.â The pink haired one said again, relaxing a little on the couch and tilting her head. You donât know if you hated that nickname or loved it, but it definitely had you shifting in your seat. âOh, and Iâm Vi by the way.â she smiles.
âYes, (name) go on, we wonât stop you from elaborating.â Abby, the one you emailed, smiled politely and listened attentively. She reminded you of a bear, a big cuddly bear with huge biceps and incredible hands. She leaned back on the couch whilst smiling at you ever so slightly, almost like she was admiring a flower in full bloom.
âYeah, alright thank you.â you nodded and took a breath.
âIâm a figure skater for the school, and we use the same locker room and rink. I saw flyer and I thought Iâd give it a tryâ but I totally understand if you want to venture other optiââ
Of course, you were cut off when the door was slammed open. Jesus, they maybe hot but they could use some damn etiquette classes.
âYO, WHOSE SEXY ASS CAR IS OUTSIDEâ ohâholy fuck.â
You were interrupted mid-sentence when a cute (and equally hotâ you were praying to get the ick at this point because you couldnât fathom how they all were so attractive) brunette girl entered. You turned around to see her walking in with bags of Taco Bell and three (extremely large) Baja Blasts in a carrier. She met your gaze, and she practically turned into a tomato.
An awkward 5 second pause made the air in the room thick before a voice broke through it.
âUhâ Ellie! This is (name), we were just starting to talk about the details of her potential move-in hereâ Abby said, forcing a smile and shifting in her seat. She looked at Ellie with a smile, but her eyes screamed âsit the fuck down youâre embarrassing yourselfâ
Ellie? Oh- Ellie! you thought.
âEllie huh? You must know Dina then?â You perked up, your eyes shining at the mention of your best friend.
Ellie gulped. She was a deer stuck in headlights,
but more so a deer that was stuck looking the fucking illuminating angel that was sat on their couch.
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Between her and her best friends, Ellie had always been the least upfront and straightforward of the three.
Donât underestimate her though, she pulls extremely hard. Girls are always thirsting in her instagram dms after she posts a picture of her flexing her tattooed arm after a pump at the gym, but always did it without having to try. She was, what Vi and Abby call her, a loser lesbian. In this case, she was living up to the name as well.
âYeahâ I know Dina.â It took her a second to respond to your question, she was busy looking (fawning over) your pretty fucking face. Perfect eyes, cute nose, pretty hair, and lips of an angel. You were so, so fucking pretty.
âThatâs great! She said you were really cool, itâs good to put a face to the name.â you smile at Ellie and she felt the lub-dub of her chest fasten.
âYeahâŠitâs good to put a face to you too. A very pretty one for that matter.â she smiled softly while heading to the couch. She put the Taco Bell and drinks on the coffee table.
âOhâ (name), help yourself.â Ellie added.
You looked at the Taco Bell, and politely declined. âSâ okay, thank you though.â
âAlright, so sorry for the informality of this allâ Abby cut in between, sitting slightly forward as she was squished between Ellie and Vi. You had the one couch fully to yourself, while dumb, dumber, and dumbest were compacted like sardines into the other.
âIâ donât apologize I understandâ hey do one of yall want to sit on this couch by the way, you guys are packed on one, and it is yallâs couch. I promise I donât bite.â You laugh softly, pointing at the big empty spaces next to you.
The three idiots looked at each other with the most brainless looks on their faces, and all stood up to move.
âOh I thoughtââ
âWait were youââ
âWhoâs gonnaââ
They all spoke at the same time, looking at you, then at the other the couch, and then at each other.
âI can sit nextââ
âNo you should stayââ
âGuys just sitââ
You cleared your throat to hide the laugh that was bubbling in your throat. Your hand flies to your mouth to hide the smile that was creeping up on your face. They looked like lost puppies, cute. They all looked at you when you cleared your throat, their faces glowing pink with embarrassment. Finally, Abby sat on the same couch as youâ on the complete opposite end. She spoke up:
âOkay, letâs get startedâ
âââ
You donât know how you got hereâŠ
A measly three hours later of Abby, Ellie, and Vi barely asking you questions and instead cracking jokes, you were munching on the Taco Bell nacho cheese fries that Ellie brought back.
âIâm convinced Professor Viktor and Coach Talis are fucking!â Vi said, throwing her arms up while earning a laugh from Ellie and Abby.
You, on the other hand, had your brows raised in amusement and ears perked up due to the new information. âCoach Talis? As in hockey team Coach Talis?â You laughed while covering your mouth thatâs still half full of fries.
âYes! Yes Coach Talis!â Ellie laughed back, nodding her head.
âNo shut the fuck up, I swear he always flirts with Coach Medarda during the rink-switch between the figure skaters and hockey players!â You said, trying hard not to laugh as you dropped the bomb on them. âI swear one time I overheard him say a cheesy fucking pickup line like âare you the ice?, because youâve got me slipping into your heartâ and Medarda looked so over it she said she was a desert.â
âOh? So he swings both ways?â Abby said, wiggling her eyebrows and biting her finger âhow cheekyâ
You barked out a laugh, one where you genuinely felt like your stomach was gonna concave in itself if you didnât stop. âOh my godâ I havenât laughed like that in so long- whew.â you said wiping your eyes from the tears forming. You felt warm. You felt welcomed. To your surprise, the trio was so much more than you expected. The measly three hours started with you four being stiff and awkward toward each other, but once Ellie cracked a joke about some stupid fucking niche thing, the four of you started to snowball into different topics. From these measly three hours, you laughed until were hungry, laughed until you ate their Taco Bell, laughed until you were clutching your stomach and wiping tears in your eyes, laughed until the three hockey placers felt a warm feeling in their chest despite the thick snow outside.
âHoly crapâ Iâve been here for so longâ you pointed out as you looked at the clock and the window outside. It was dark already even if it was only 5, the wintertimes in Jackson always promised a dark atmosphere early on in the day.
âOhâ oh right. Yes right so roommate inquiryâ Weâll reach out in a few days? Up until we decide?â Abby said, sipping on the half empty Baja Blast.
âYes! Yes of courseâ uhâ do you guys want my number or is the email just fineââ
âNUMEBR! I meanâŠnumber yeahâŠso itâs easier to contact youâ Vi said, a little too fast. Ellie whispered a sarcastic âgood oneâ to her while laughing softly.
You smiled at them, and pulled out your phone so each of them could put their numbers in.
âCute wallpaper, by the way.â Ellie said, handing the phone as she was the last one to have the phone. You mentally slapped yourself. The wallpaper was of you, Dina and your pet, Dog, looking slightly stupid in matching costumes from this Halloween. Dog was a celery. You were a carrot stick. Dina was a ranch. Why? Why not.
âYou have a cat?â Ellie asked, and you nodded.
âYesâ his name is Dogâ well okay technically he was supposed to be a dog, but you know buying a pet from CraigsList is never a good idea. He was supposed to be a Pomeranian, but I got handed a mini kitten instead. I decided that I loved him too much to get rid of him, so I named himâŠDogâŠinsteadâŠâ you shuffled, cringing at yourself because you must sound so, so stupid right now. Ellie bit back the stupidest fucking smile. You are so fucking cute. She could eat you out up on the spot. Right now.
âYou named your catâŠDog?â Vi asked, amused and smirking. âThatâs real charming, sweets.â She laughed put her hands in the pockets of her (Abbyâs) sweats.
âCharming? Sâ a little stupid honestlyââ
âOh no it isnât. I had a turtle when I younger and named her Fish. If thatâs any consolation.â Abby adds and she laughs.
âPhew, okay so Iâm not alone in this boat. Oh, I hope itâs okay that I have a pet, I forgot to mention it since we all gotâŠâ You look at the coffee table with Taco Bell sauce packets and wrappers messily sprawled on it ââŠoff topic.â you laugh, and so do they.
âIâll help clean by the wayââ
âNo! No, we couldnât ask you to do that sweets. Sâ okay, you should get home before it gets too dark.â Vi waved you off with a smile.
âWeâll walk ya out.â Ellie added, gesturing to the front door.
You left their place feeling so different than you expected. They bid their farewell as you pull out of their driveway, the trio waving goodbye and screaming âDRIVE SAFE!â as you get farther. A part of you couldnât believe how well it went.
The other part of you wanted them to text you so bad; saying that they would love to have you as their new roommate.
âââ
âWe are not having her as our other fucking roommateââ
âEllieâ what the fuck? Why?â
âVi, use your damn headââ
âOkay guys letâs relax and think this through.â
After you left and the door to their house shut, hell broke loose. The trio had two opposing parties and an undecided one. The decision was gonna be so much harder than they anticipated. They argued while cleaning the mess in the coffee table, they argued while putting away the dishes, and they are still arguing. Itâs been an hour.
âVi, we are ALL clearly into her, how do you think having her as a roommate would be?â Ellie argued
âEllie, come-fucking-on! Itâs too early to make that decision! And so what if weâre all into her? (Nameâs) a fucking adult and so are we! We can control ourselves!â Vi barked back, getting slightly irritated at her best friendâs immediate dismissal.
âAll Iâm saying is thatâ If she does move in, how the fuckâll that affect how we act towards each other? How people act towards her? Listen, weâre not so known for being the mostâŠmodestâŠpeople. Weâre fuckinâ notorious for sleeping around okay, and whatâll happen to (nameâs) image if people find out sheâs living with us! For all we know, people could hate her because of us! Itâs happened beforeâ you know it has. Your ex was subjected to the worst after people found out that you guys were a thing. The only difference there is that Caitlynâs a fuckinâ bitch and moved on so fast! She could take the criticism!â
She paused, and took a deep breath. Her voice was now, much softer. âIâm not saying (name) cant, but come on, she was a fucking carrot stick for halloween. She has a kitten named Dog. Sheâs tooââ Ellie huffed out, and there was a pause. The air was thick.
ââSweet?â Abby finished for her, smiling a sad smile when reminded of your presence. Sweet. Like a cupcake.
Ellie let out a breathless âyeah.â and shook her head.
Vi sighed, shaking her head. âFuck. You have a point.â she said, massaging her temples.
They stay quiet for a second, letting the reality sink in. Ellie broke the silence.
âAbby, what do you think? Youâre the most logical one with this typa shit, plus you pay the mostâ what do you want?â Ellie said while sighing. They moved to the kitchen now, Vi sitting on the island while Abby was preparing her meal prep on the stove. Ellie was sitting on the island stool, conflicted.
âYou have a point. I mean, fuck, people are brutal. I donât want her to face all that.â Abby said, turning off the stove and sighing.
âSoâŠ?â
âSo I think we know our answerâŠâ Abby hesitated to say.
âDamn. Fuck.â Vi cursed. âMâ not textinâ her. I donât wanna break the news that weâre rejecting her.ïżœïżœïżœ She shook her head.
âI donât want to either.â Ellie said, her fingers playing with her bracelet.
Abby scoffed and glared at the two. âYou guys fuckinâ suck.â She let out a long sigh, and raked her fingers through her hair. She grabbed her phone from her back pocket, getting ready to text you, but was met with surprise instead.
You texted first..?
She was perplexed, and saw that you had just sent it a little over three minutes ago. She opened her messages:
2 new messages from (name)
(name): hey abby, sorry for the inconvenience i know i just left. theyâre evacuating our dorm because this creepy guy found a way in and started harassing me n the girls hereâ itâs been a reoccurring problem for months. the police have him in custody rn tho. im in the er rnâ nothing serious but the police js wanted to do an overall check for all the girls he encountered bc he was literally insane n on heavy drugs.
(name): im texting to ask if i can crash tonight? my brother and Dina are out of town for a weekend get- away n all my friends lived in the same dorm building n are all spread out now. sorry again, i can always book a hotel if u cant!! no worries :)
Oh, Abby was fuckinâ livid. You were harassed? You sweet, sweet girl? You?
If fumes could be seen seeping out of Abbyâs ears, itâs beyond be palpable that Abby was beyond furious.
âWhat? Abby what happened?â Ellie was fast to ask, noticing her best friendâs shift in demeanor.
Abby didnât respond to Ellie, but her fingers typed faster than she could think.
3 new messages from abby
abby: what the fuck? (name) are you okay? send me the address of the ER now, mâ coming to getcha.
abby: forget about booking a fuckinâ hotel ur staying here. weâd be happy to have u as a roommate, ur moving in as soon as possible, n never going back to that shitty dorm.
abby: hang tight sweet girl, im omw.
Abby didnât register the nickname she called you, she didnât give a fuck. It was true, you are such a sweet girl, so sweet that your scent was imprinted on her when you gave each of them a parting hug. No, she wasnât gonna go on with the night knowing some fuckass creep put his hands on you.
âAbby, what the fuck is going on?â Vi lost her patience, standing from the kitchen counter. Ellie followed too, seeing as Abby was grabbing her keys and heading out.
Abby was ready to sh00t someone at this point. She let out an irritated sigh, and was throwing the pillows of the couch to find her hat, tucked under a pillow.
She found it, put it on, and quickly explained the situation.
âFuckingâ (nameâs) in the ER. A fucking creep somehow entered her dorm building and started harassing her and the girls there.â Abby said, rushing toward the garage door. Ellie and Vi stood there, frozen with anger.
âWell are yall fuckinâ coming?â Abby yelled.
Ellie and Vi scrabbled to their stuff, both gradually getting angrier and angrier as reality set in
Oh, they were coming alright. They were ready to declare war on whoever the fuck did this.
âââ
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You guys do not appreciate Gaz enough so Iâm here to sell him to you
this shit is important so yall better read
I truly donât understand the lack of Gaz love -
ok well
I do at some level
I think the argument usually levied against his character id that heâs boring
but beautifully stated by tumblr user mockerycrow in their character analysis of him
CHARACTERS DO NOT HAVE TO HAVE A TRAGIC BACKSTORY TO BE INTERESTING CHARACTERS
press keep reading to fall in love with Gaz
Who is Gaz?
Iâm going to start out with who Gaz is as a character
morality
Gaz is someone who has a strong sense of morality and struggles with the balance between doing the right thing and doing the morally right thing, thereâs this debate between long-term morality and situational morality that Gaz struggles with
look im maybe not the most linguistically talented person on earth so im just gonna throw in a few quotes which i think gives Gaz
Gaz is someone who admist chaos and war is trying his best, trying his best to be a good person, to be reliable and to do the right thing
if thays not lovable idk what is
relationship to price
ok so i think this aspect of Gazâs character is what people tend to focus on
and as much as the omg priceâs son shit is cute i think heâs become a vehicle for people to emphasise priceâs daddy factor (which like dont get me wrong keep up the good work)
but i think theres so much more to that
i forgot who wrote this but someone said something about Gaz trying to follow in impossibly large footsteps and i think thats so accurate
going back to Gazâs struggle with morality thereâs so much untapped potential in the idea that his idol, may not be an amazing person, having to come to grips with the idea that Price, his role model can look at a woman and child as interrogation leverage is something that i think people need to look into more
OK so now
Untapped Potential
so here are somethings which i
idk if this is like the correct phrasing
headcannon? idk i just think these are parts of Gazâs character which could be rlly interesting to explore
ahem
yes Gaz is a good guy, but that doesnât make him passive Gaz has shown moments of anger, like in the interrogation with the butcher when he lunges at him or when him and price first meet
i think the fact that Gaz is so calm and collected but has these moments are cracks in the facade he creates
i believe personally he has a lot of repressed anger whether it be at the world, at himself, at his captain hes an angry dude hes just better at keeping it under wraps
and i know we donât really have many details on his backstory but cmon thereâs no way u sign up for a job like this and donât have any issues whatsoever
i think this quote is so good for this because heâs harnessed his anger, itâs what makes him good at his job, a knife, a weapon
i think another interesting concept for Gaz is guilt
the fact that he cares about whats right and wrong how does he feel going to sleep at night? do these things haunt him? is he irredeemable?
i think its like that one quote âthe dog that weeps after it kills is no better than the dog that doesnât. My guilt does not purify me.â
Final Thoughts
anyways guys thanks for coming to my ted talk
i know this was really messy but i just want to encourage some Gaz love because i think heâs a really interesting complex character who we just need to dig a little deeper into
i hope this incites some more gaz love
THANK YOU đł
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Aphrodisiac sex with Viktor has taken over my brain. So I'm gonna write about it đ€.
My first Arcane fic!! Wooo!! I hope I wrote his character well!
(nsfw, fem!reader, use of aphrodisiacs, alcohol mentioned, masturbation, oral (fem and male receiving), dom-ish!reader, sub-dom!Viktor, Viktors a tease, friends to lovers?, I think this is it!)
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The night started out normal, enough. You went out with some friends for a nice girls night out filled with drinks and gossip, and it was an amazing night. You're relatively tipsy by the time everyone is ready to go home, it's about half past midnight, and the only thing you can think about is going to bed. That is until, about half way home. A sudden spark flows through your veins, creating a dull fog in your mind. Maybe you had a bit more to drink than you thought you did.
You've decided to walk a tad bit quicker to get home. A small apartment in the downtown of Piltover, it's a nice size and not too expensive, especially since you're sharing it, and the fact that there's only one bedroom inside just adds to the fact. You're just glad that Viktor doesn't mind sharing a bed.
You have to fumble with your keys for an embarrassing amount of time before you can actually unlock the door. It's silent inside the apartment, there's no sign that Viktor has already come home. Although, that wouldn't surprise you, ever since he and Jayce started to work on the Hextech, you've been seeing less and less of him in your shared apartment.
You push off a shower until the morning, it can wait a few more hours, it's too late. When you enter the bedroom, you almost scream when your eyes focus well enough to see someone sitting at the small desk in the room. So he is home, you rub your temples and sigh. Heâs always staying up late. You don't want him to hurt his back, more than he already has, by being in such an awkward position all night. So you gently grab onto his shoulders to try and wake him up, his shirt has slipped and your palm rests on the bare skin, the warmth that comes from him could burn you. From such a simple touch that foggy haze fills your head once again, when Viktor is in a better position you'll get a drink of water. You tighten your grip on his shoulders and carefully shake him, a sad attempt to wake him. You would just carry him to the bed, you're strong enough, but you don't want to irritate his leg.
âHey, Viktor.. are you awake?â You whisper, when you feel him stir. No response comes from him, but you're not going to give up any time soon. So this time you try a different method, you crouch beside him and lift up his head to try and see if he's awake, and he's not. Of course he's not. But you're determined to save his back from his hunched position. Each time you try something different and your hand makes contact with him, you can feel another spark flow through your veins and the foggy haze in your head gets stronger. Maybe this time you'll just splash him with ice cold water, but that'll probably give the poor thing a heart attack.
âViktor, come on. You can't stay like this,â you groan and try to shake him awake, once again to no avail, and your feet are starting to ache from crouching in your heels for so long. At this point you're starting to give up, and you try to shake him one last time. Your hand rests on his waist this time, the other on his arm, you can feel the warmth of his body, along with his scent, a mix of oil, metal, and his shampoo that creates an intoxicating smell that you'll never get enough of now, from this position and, as much as you may hate to admit it, it sparks a dull throb in your core. âVik.. please?â You shake him, trying to ignore the fire that's sparked inside of you, and this time he does wake up. A shallow gasp escapes from him as he pushes his head up and rubs the back of his neck. He lets out a low groan and looks over at you, the noise has you thinking about just how he would sound if you had your way with him.
This time it's his turn to shake you from your, not so innocent, thoughts, and he pushes himself up from the desk, now standing while you're still crouching. The position puts you at the perfect level that your thoughts start to wander again. âJust how much did you have to drink?â He chuckles as you stand yourself up, one of his hands reaches to press against your forehead, and it burns. You can't tell if it's him or you that's warmer, but the contact has a familiar pulse starting at your core. Just before he's able to say something you push his hand away from yourself. âEnough,â you reply, trying to shake the feeling away.
He scoffs and leans against the desk, and you can't deny how fucking hot he looks. His hair is messed up, his clothes have wrinkles in them, and his hands, god his hands, have traces of whatever he was using back at the lab on them.
You decide to take a shower now, maybe this way you can deal with the problem of your hormones raging like a horny teen. The warm water feels like it's been sent straight from heaven and down on your aching muscles, you can feel yourself relaxing under the water. You let your hand drift to your breasts and massage the flesh of one and then the other, feeling your nipples harden under your palm. Each touch you give yourself, you let yourself imagine that it's Viktor. You place your free hand over your mouth to silence your gasp when you push a finger inside your hole to find yourself dripping from such light touches. You curl your finger up to try and hit that one spongy spot inside you, and when you finally find it, you hope that your hand muffled the loud moan you let out. You slowly add another finger, wishing it was his instead of your own. You set a steady rhythm of your fingers, while grinding your swollen clit against your palm. You bit down on your hand in a sad attempt of silencing yourself, silently praying that the mix of your palm and the running water will be enough to not let your moans escape the bathroom. You start to speed up your fingers as you feel your orgasm get closer, desperately grinding against your palm for the friction you crave against your clit. Soon enough your orgasm crashes down on you, and you let out a loud moan. Now you're left panting from the aftershocks of your orgasm, yet even after that, the haze and pulse is still evident. Maybe you should just sleep it off.
The shower you had was relaxing and when you come out you find Viktor sitting up on the bed, with a book in hand. You crawl into bed beside him and lay your head onto the pillow, closing your eyes and relishing in the cold feeling of the fabric against your, still burning hot, skin. Even after a long shower the feeling hasn't stopped, and now being right beside Viktor, it's seemed to double. âAre you okay?â Viktor asks, when you lift your head up from the cold release of the pillow, all you can muster is a nod, if you open your mouth you're afraid you might just moan, you can feel his body heat from under the covers and his scent is evident in the bed. âI'm fine, Vik, think I just had a little too much to drink,â you laugh and rest your cheek on one of your arms, âbut I'll be fine after a good sleep.â
Viktor sighs and lifts your face up, his hand holding your chin. He studies your face and you can feel your face heat up from his intense gaze. âHmm, you don't seem fine. You're practically burning up,â he states. The way his accent sounds when he speaks has you clenching your thighs and hoping he doesn't see you doing so. He keeps your face in his hand for a few more seconds before he finally lets go, âmaybe it was one of the drinks you had making you burn up.â He brushes some stray hairs out of your face and he shuffles so you're both laying down, he pulls your face closer to him and squints his eyes at you, before he can say anything else you pull him closer and kiss him, feeling his reciprocate the kiss just spurts you on more and you thread your fingers in his hair.
He rests a hand on the curve of your waist and when you feel it you pull away and feel yourself internally panic, âholy shit, I'm sorry. I have no fucking clue whats gotten into-â Before you're able to finish your scentance he pulls you back down and kisses you. His hand trails down your waist towards your thigh and he strokes the side of your thigh, occasionally giving the fat of your thigh a squeeze. âI told you. It was one of the drinks.â He mumbles against your lips and grabs your hip and pulls you closer, you take the hint and quickly climb on top of him, straddling his hips, and he groans when you grind down on his semi hard erection.
You pull away from his lips just long enough to tug his shirt off, quickly doing the same with your own, before connecting your lips again. You start to trail kisses down his jawline, towards his neck, leaving a kiss on his adams apple, and moving to the side of his neck to leave more kisses and occasional harsh sucks to form a mark, savouring the noises he lets out every time you do. Being careful to not hurt his leg, you move yourself down to trail your kisses lower and lower until you reach the hem of his pants. âMay I?â You ask breathlessly and he chuckles, âyou practically tore off my shirt, you think I'd say no now.â He scoffs, a teasing undertone to his words that causes the throb in your core to heighten. You pull down his pants and boxers to let him dick out, wrapping your hand around the base and giving him a few strokes before you wrap your mouth around the tip, licking up the bead of precum that's settled there. He groans and tangles his fingers in the strands of your hair, not pushing or pulling but just resting his hand there. You start to bob your head, making sure to tease the tip, relishing in the noises he's making, a mix of delicious groans and whimpers leave his lips and it spurs you on more. He thrusts his hips up and the tip hits the back of your throat causing you to gag around him, his fingers gently tug on your hair and when you look up at him he lets out a loud groan. You use one of your hands to reach down and rub your clit, matching the pace of your fingers with the pace of your head. He thrusts his hips up again, this time a little rougher, and you know he's getting close. You swirl your tongue around the tip and he pulls your head off him. âNo, when I cum, it'll be inside you.â He says, and you whine at the loss of friction when you pull your hand away from your aching clit. He pulls you to him and kisses you, savouring the way you taste and groaning when he tastes himself on your lips. You pull your pants off and straddle his hips again, lifting yourself up and lining his cock up. You give him a few strokes and slowly start to sink down.
The stretch is delicious and you moan when you've lowered yourself all the way. He brings one of his hands to your thigh and rubs it, you place your hands on his chest and start to lift yourself up. You whimper as you do so, adjusting to the stretch. A few seconds of just having his tip inside you, you lower yourself back down and repeat, slowly getting faster and rougher with each bounce. Soon you're riding him, one of your hands is on his chest, supporting yourself and the other rests on Viktors hand that's squeezing your thigh. You speed up a bit more and he groans when he feels you clench around him, his head falls back onto the pillow. His hand leaves your thigh and he brings it up and starts expertly rubbing your clit, for a second you find yourself jealous of his experienced fingers.
âViktor! Fuck.. please don't stop!â You moan and clench around him, his hips start to rut up to meet your bounces. You both know that you're close and you know you aren't going to last very long. Your moans start to become more frequent and at a higher pitch, one of your hands leaves red scratches down his chest as you feel your orgasm get closer. Your nails dig into his skin and you bury your face in his neck, biting down on the sensitive skin when your orgasm hits you, your pussy pulses around his cock and with a few more thrusts up he's cumming inside you, his muscles tensing and he's moaning.
You both lay with each other for a few seconds before Viktor speaks up, âdo you feel better?â He chuckles when you nod, you're still panting and you rest your forehead against his, a sheen of sweat on you both. You whimper when you push yourself up and feel his softening cock slide out of you, the globs of cum that drip out of you make you whine. He grabs your hips and pulls your pussy closer to him. âI can't have you dripping on the bed, we just changed the sheets.â He groans and pulls you so you're sitting on his face, his tongue lapping at your folds and tracing your clit. You can feel the vibrations of him laughing when you squirm on top of him, his hands have a tight grip on your hips, ensuring you don't move too much. You thread your fingers in his hair, tugging on it as you start to grind your hips on his face. He ravages you, eating you out like a starved man. The curve of his nose bumps your swollen and sensitive clit deliciously and you pull on his hair at the feeling, when you do he groans into your pussy. He doesn't slow down or even hint at stopping as you can feel your third orgasm of the night creep up on you.
âFuck! Viktor.. âm so close!â You whimper and grind your hips down on his face, the obscene slurping noises that come from him just fuel your arousal. You tighten your grip on his hair and your thighs tense around his face as your orgasm hits, your squirming as he helps you ride out your orgasm. He laps up all of your juices until you're trying to push yourself off from sensitivity. âThere we go,â he sighs when you move off his face, he has a sheen of your arousal around his mouth and he licks his lips and smirks at you, ânow you won't drip on the clean sheets.â You laugh and he pulls you closer to him, wrapping his arms around you and kissing you, you can taste yourself on his lips and itâs one of the best things youâve ever tasted.
âHow did you know it was the drink?â You ask him, feeling your eyelids grow heavy with each word that leaves your lips. âAphrodisiac, it was easy enough to figure out when you came out of the shower. You're not as quiet as you think you are,â He smirks when you groan at him. He presses a kiss to the crown of your head, one of his hands rubs your back, drawing random shapes and figures, and successfully lulling you to sleep.
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fuck i miss being in an orchestra
#original thoughts in their natural habitat#i need to find one to join#just a chill casual one that doesnt require me to have grade 5 because why the hell does every orchestra in this city require grade 5 minim#m#i just wanna play my viola on a regular basis#im listening to my spotify playlist of all the songs i played in my hs orchestra and fuck man i miss it so bad#i miss that orchestra specifically#i miss ms k i miss ms m i miss mr t who learnt the tuba in three weeks because ms k REALLY wanted someone to play the tuba part#i miss my desk partner of like four years because no one plays the fuckin viola#i miss the yearly orchestra camps we went on#i miss the fact we were about 5x better than the other schools orchestras in the area and ms k KNEW IT#i miss how hard she pushed us but how fucking amazing it always turned out#i never got to do my last performance with that orchestra#we were supposed to play the same song that had been my first song to play in that orchestra#it was supposed to be at my final prize giving ceremony at the school#like the graduation ceremony#and then covid had to come along and fuck the whole ceremony up#i miss it so bad man#i miss making music even if im not the best at it
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So this NOT to imply the writing is bad
But so far the Batfam fic as me genuinely shaking in anger , the fact that dick is convinced that y/n as to prove herself to be "worthy" genuinely got to me to the point I need a pallete cleanser
Could we please get a small drabble of reader growing close with one of the "outside" batfam members?
Like maybe Kate(batwoman) and Luke (batwing) because they are under used
Or hell, maybe to really grind the family gears, reader gets close to azrael
(you know Bruce would've able to do shit if reader got close with Kate, she would fucking eat him alive)
Hey, You're all good bro! I also just want to put out that my fic is based on an au! The portrayals of any characters in my fic are based off of their canon and fanon counterparts, just with my own twist. Since this is a darker universe/au, the Bats along with other heroes are going to be a lot more brutal and jaded.
Also love your idea bro. But, I'll do you one better. Constantine. Bruce absolutely can't stand him and the reader being friends with/getting along with him? Oh, that's bound to grind Bruce's gears. It would also be easier to meet Constantine too.
Let's just say one day the reader gets caught up in some Justice League Dark stuff that Constantine is trying to solve. She gets kidnapped by a cult that wants to use her as a sacrifice. I mean, she is a pretty huge target, being the daughter of a Billionaire after all. Anyways, shes kidnapped, nobody is coming to get her, not from her family at least. Long story short, Constantine arrives too late to stop the ritual, but things don't go according to plan for the cultists anyway. Turns out that the person sacrificed wouldn't be killed, but would instead become a vessel.
Great, now you have some old, eldrich being living rent-free in your mind. The being is old, donning the title "Keeper of Hell", but you'll just call it (they? him? her?), Adam. Yeah, Adam wasn't too happy with the name. When Constantine arrives, however, hes pleasantly surprised to find you alive. When he realizes that you, a 15-year-old, now carry the presence and power of an eldritch being older than Gotham itself, he groans while lighting up a cigarette. Looks like he'd have to deal with you now.
He checks over you making sure you have no internal and external injuries before explaining your situation. He feels a little sorry for you, but he is in no condition to train you. He asks around to other JL dark members, hoping to see if anyone is willing to help you control your new powers. He sighs again when nobody steps up to the plate, too busy with their own sidekicks and quests.
Reluctantly, he tells you he'd help you figure stuff out. And there begins the blossoming of the amazing "Grumpy old man and kid they didn't ask for" troupe. When you tell Constantine your name, he blanks, because of course he gets stuck with one of the bat's kids. However, based on your tone of voice when discussing your family (and the way you begged him not to let Bruce/Batman know of your predicament), he's guessing things aren't all too great between you all. Well, thats not his problem, his only job was to train you and make sure you don't end up accidentally killing someone.
Yeah...like that thought process is going to last. Training sessions start out bleak and professional, he's only doing a job. Then as time continues, he finds himself enjoying your company, your enthusiasm to learn and your rambunctious/sarcastic comebacks always have him fighting off a smile. It's been a while since he's had company like this. Soon, you're both going out on missions, and then ice cream breaks afterward. He lets you fall asleep on his shoulder, drooling all over his trench coat after particularly difficult missions and he can't bring himself to mind.
He's fond of you, although he never admits it out loud. It's okay though, because even though he's never said it out loud, his actions speak louder than words. You could feel his love and pride for you. Although he wasn't exactly your dad per se, he was still something to you, maybe the wine uncle? You don't know, and you don't particularly care to put a label on what Constantine was to you, you're just glad that he's there.
Shit hits the fan, however, when one day you decide to go on a solo mission. It's nothing crazy, just getting rid of some poltergeists and low-level demons and shades. Now, were you given permission to go on this mission alone? No, but in a normal teenage manner, you decide to go anyway. Everything was fine, you got rid of all the poltergeists in the area and even some of the shades too! It's all going well until you realize that the demon mentioned before was not as weak as you were told. You gulped when its blood red eyes turned to you.
"Well shit." Constantine was going to kill you.
It immediately lunges at you, you barely rolling out of its sharp claws. You hit it with a couple of spells, causing the demon to roar out in pain, burn marks now littering its side. Its tail whips at you, colliding with your stomach as you fly into a wall with a loud thud. You groan as you pick yourself up, clutching your ribs, each breath a jagged pain that ripples through your chest. Your arm is slick with blood, the gashes from the demon's claws burning as if its very essence were trying to sear your flesh. You grit your teeth and weave another spell, calling on Adamâs power to knock the demon back. This time, a burst of raw energy slams into it, shattering its leg with a sickening crack.
For a brief moment, you think it's over, ready to strike the final blow. But the demonâs leg snaps back into place, bone and flesh knitting together as if the injury had never happened.
âOf course,â you mutter under your breath. âWhy would this be easy?â
The demon lunges again, and youâre just a split second too slow. Burning pain flares through your right arm as its claws tear into you, ripping through your flesh like paper. You scream, the sound involuntary, but you push through the pain, refusing to go down without a fight.
Drawing back, you unleash another spell, a sharp projectile of energy aimed at its neck. The demon flinches, letting out a low growl. That reactionâpanicâgives you the first glimmer of hope. Its neck. That's its weak spot.
With renewed determination, you gather every ounce of strength you have left. The cuts across your body throb, and your arm feels like itâs on fire, but you push it all aside. You can do this. You have to do this.
You unleash a volley of cutting spells, each one aimed at the demonâs throat. It fights back viciously, throwing you around the room with a strength that makes your vision blur. Every hit you take feels like your bones are splintering, but you keep going. You keep attacking.
Finally, one of your spells strikes true.
The demon lets out a gurgling screech as your spell cuts deep into its neck. Bloodâthick and darkâpours from the wound, and it claws at its own throat, choking. Its body spasms violently, and then, as if collapsing in on itself, it begins to disintegrate. In a few seconds, all thatâs left is dust.
You stand there, panting, barely able to process the fact that you did it. You won. A grin spreads across your face, and despite the pain radiating from every part of your body, you let out a weak cheer.
But the celebration is short-lived.
Pain cuts through you like a knife, sharp and sudden, reminding you of just how battered you are. Blood is still oozing from the various gashes across your body, and your arm feels like itâs hanging by a thread. You stumble, nearly falling, but catch yourself at the last second.
âCrap⊠Iâm bleeding out,â you mumble, wincing. âWhoops.â
With what little energy you have left, you remember the spell Constantine taught you, the one that would tether you to him no matter where you were. He warned you not to use it unless it was an emergencyâand bleeding out from demon-inflicted wounds definitely qualifies.
You lift your shaking hand and cast the spell, a sluggish flick of your wrist sending out a ripple of energy. A portal forms, shimmering and unstable, but functional enough. Without much grace, you stumble through it, disappearing from the demonâs lair.
What you didnât know, however, was that Constantine was currently in a Justice League meeting.
The first thing you feel is a sudden drop, like the ground beneath you has vanished. You barely register the sensation of falling before you crash, hard, onto something solid. Groaning, you blink through the haze of pain and find yourself sprawled across a massive table.
You can hear voicesâmuffled, alarmedâbut the world is spinning too much for you to focus. All you know is that you're lying on something cold and hard, and youâre absolutely drenched in blood.
Forcing your eyes open, you see several figures standing around you, staring in shock. Your vision is blurry, but you can make out Supermanâs cape and Wonder Womanâs armor. You try to process what's happening, but the pain in your arm and ribs keeps pulling you under.
"Ow, ow, ow, ow. Fuckkkk." You cry out.
Suddenly, the scent of smoke fills the air. You don't even have to look to know who it is. Constantineâs familiar trench coat brushes against your arm as he crouches beside you, cigarette dangling loosely from his lips. His eyes flicker with a dangerous mix of exasperation and barely concealed anger.
âWhat in the bloody fuck, kid?â he snaps, his tone harsher than usual, but the concern underlies his words.
You wince, the situation hitting you all at once. Crap. Now I've got to deal with this.
You muster a weak, sheepish grin, wincing as you turn your head to face him. âHeyyy Constantine, how are ya?â
His brow furrows deeper, and heâs clearly not amused. âWhat did you do?â
You swallow hard, trying to think of how to explain yourself without getting ripped to shredsâverbally or otherwise. âIâwell, promise you wonât get mad?â
âToo late for that, kid. Iâm already halfway there,â he growls, his eyes narrowing as he looks over your wounds. âNow get to it.â
You bite your lip, trying to find the least disastrous way to explain. âSo⊠I sorta⊠mighta⊠gone on a solo demon-hunting mission,â you blurt out quickly, hoping heâd just move past it.
The way Constantineâs eyes widen, and the immediate twitch in his jaw tell you that heâs definitely not going to move past it.
âYou did what?!â His voice rises as he stands up, rubbing a hand over his face. âOh bloodyâ I thought I specifically told you not to go by yourself! And this is what happens!â
âHey, well, Iâm alive, arenât I?â you say, grinning nervously, trying to play it off.
âThatâs besides the point!â He throws his arms up, pacing as he takes a long drag from his cigarette. âBloody hell, I shouldâve known better with you kids. I swear, this is why I neverââ
Just then, a dark, grim voice cuts through the chaos, and your heart nearly stops.
âConstantine,â Batmanâs tone is low, authoritative. âWhy is my daughter bleeding on our table?â
Oh no. No, no, no. Not now.
You freeze, your mind going blank as you feel the weight of Batmanâs presence at the end of the table. You slowly, painfully turn your head to see him standing there, cape draped over his shoulders, his gaze icy and locked onto you. His usual stoic expression somehow looks even more intense.
âAh⊠shit,â you mutter under your breath, groaning inwardly as you realize youâve just landed yourself in the absolute worst situation imaginable. âI completely forgot he was still here.â Wait, did you say that out loud?
Constantine gives you a sidelong glance, raising an eyebrow. âYes, kid, you did. And now weâve got more than just your wounds to worry about, donât we?â He sighs deeply, rubbing his temples, already anticipating the fallout.
Batmanâs eyes narrow, arms crossed as he takes a step closer to you, his voice low and dangerous. âCare to explain yourself?â
Youâre still bleeding, your head is pounding, and youâre pretty sure at least a few bones are broken, but none of that compares to the fear creeping up your spine as you look up at your father. Your mind races for an answer, but every excuse you can think of feels flimsy at best.
Constantine clears his throat, sensing the rising tension in the room. âRight. Letâs get her fixed up before this turns into an interrogation, yeah? Kidâs bleeding all over the place, and sheâs already taken a beating. Weâll save the lecture for later.â He waves his hand, muttering something under his breath as he kneels beside you again.
The tension between Constantine and Batman lingers in the air, thick and heavy, but Batman finally relents. His eyes softenâslightlyâas he watches Constantine work to stabilize your injuries with magic.
You can feel yourself growing weaker, the adrenaline finally wearing off as the pain becomes unbearable. Constantine mutters a healing spell, one that slows the bleeding and knits some of the less serious cuts together. It's not perfect, but itâs enough for now.
âI think itâs time to get you all fixed up, huh?â Constantine says softly, his earlier anger tempered by concern as he helps you sit up, his hand firm on your back to support you.
You nod weakly, not daring to meet Batmanâs eyes again. Youâre in deep trouble, but for now, at least, youâre still breathing. As Constantine gets ready to teleport you to a safer place to heal, you hear Batmanâs voice, calm but steely.
âWeâre not done here.â
And with that ominous promise hanging in the air, Constantine picks you up, and the world around you shifts once again.
Constantine gently carries you through the halls toward the Justice Leagueâs med bay, muttering curses under his breath with every step. You could feel his frustration radiating off him, and now, in the quiet aftermath of the fight, guilt begins to settle in your chest. The adrenaline from the battle has worn off, and now you're left with the consequences of your reckless actions.
âHey, Constantine⊠IâIâm sorry for not listening to you. I really am,â you say, your voice soft and heavy with regret.
He sighs, not looking at you, but his tone is stern. âIâm not going to lie and say Iâm not mad at you, kid. You didnât just ignore my warningsâyou put yourself in danger. There are rules for a reason. What if you got seriously hurt and couldnât cast a spell back to me? Even worse, what if you died or got possessed?â
His words hit you hard, and you wither under the weight of them. You know heâs right. All those rules and restrictions arenât just him being overprotective or controlling, theyâre because he cares. Heâs seen the kind of darkness that can swallow people whole, and the thought of that happening to you terrifies him, even if heâll never say it out loud.
By the time you reach the med bay, the guilt feels like itâs pressing down on you as much as the pain in your ribs. Constantine lowers you onto a cot, tucking you in with a gruff gentleness that only he could pull off. He sits down on the side of the bed, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it with a quick flick of his fingers, his eyes never leaving yours.
âWhat Iâm trying to say, kid,â he starts, exhaling a cloud of smoke, âis that I care. I care about you, I care about what happens to you. I donât wantââ He pauses, his voice softening. âI donât want to ever have to find your body one day. So please, from now on, let me know before you do something stupid like this.â
His words hang in the air, raw and unfiltered. You nod, trying to process it all, and then something clicks in your mind. Wait⊠did he just say let him know?
âLet you know? Does this meanââ Your eyes widen as realization hits you. âDoes this mean I can go on solo missions?â
Constantine lets out a resigned sigh. âYes, yes, you can start going on solo missionsââ
âHell yeah!â you exclaim, sitting up a little too quickly. Pain shoots through your ribs, but you canât help the excitement bubbling inside you.
ââbut, only the ones I sanction and authorize,â Constantine finishes, cutting through your excitement with a stern look. You deflate a little at his words, but itâs still a victory in your book.
Without thinking, you throw your arms around him, ignoring the sharp pain it causes in your ribs. âOh, thank you, thank you, thank you! I promise I wonât let you down!â
He chuckles, patting your back awkwardly before pulling away. âYeah, yeah, I know you wonât. Now, lay back down and get some rest. You still have dark and brooding to deal with.â He gestures toward the direction of the meeting room, clearly dreading the inevitable confrontation with Batman. âAnd by extension, I do too,â he adds with a heavy sigh.
You groan, sinking back into the cot, the exhaustion finally catching up with you. âI donât know why he even cares. If he did, he wouldâve figured this out ages ago.â
Constantine glances at you, his expression softening for a moment. He takes a long drag of his cigarette before speaking. âHe cares, kid. He just⊠doesnât always show it the way you want him to. Doesnât mean he doesnât feel it.â
You scoff, though part of you knows heâs right. âYeah, well, doesnât feel like it.â
Constantine stands, taking one last drag of his cigarette before flicking it into a nearby ashtray. âDoesnât matter how it feels right now. The Batâs going to want answers, and if I know him, heâs going to want to have a very long talk with you. Youâre not out of the woods yet.â
You wince at the thought of the upcoming conversation, knowing that Batmanâs interrogation will be thorough and far less forgiving than Constantineâs.
âGreat,â you mutter, closing your eyes and sinking deeper into the cot. âJust what I need.â
Constantine gives you a small, almost affectionate smile before turning to leave. âGet some rest, kid. Youâve earned it. Iâll deal with the big bad Bat for now.â
And with that, he walks out, leaving you alone in the med bay. As much as youâre dreading whatâs to come, you canât help but feel a sense of relief. Despite the pain and the mistakes you made, you know that Constantineâs got your back. And, maybe, just maybe, Batman does too, even if itâs buried under a mountain of brooding and silence.
For now, though, you let the exhaustion pull you under, trusting that everything else can wait until tomorrow.
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As you rest, your body finally succumbing to the exhaustion, your breathing evens out and your mind drifts into sleep. The med bay is quiet, sterile, but the tension in the air lingers, waiting for the inevitable. Eventually, a dark, caped figure glides into the room silently, his form casting long shadows across the walls.
Batmanâno, Bruceâstands over you, his sharp eyes tracing every bruise, every cut that mars your face. His jaw clenches as a million thoughts swirl in his head, none of them offering any comfort.
What the hell happened to you? Why are you and Constantine so close? How did you even know Constantine? How much had he missedâhow little attention had he been payingâto not notice any of this?
Bruce sighs, a deep and frustrated sound. He removes his cowl, setting it on the side table with a weary hand. Without it, he seems less intimidating, less imposing. He stares down at you, seeing the cuts and bruises marking your skin, but what hits him harder is the way your face, in sleep, is still so achingly young. You're his daughter, and yet it feels like you're a stranger to him now.
How did you get so far away?
He knows the answer. The fault lies with him, with the choices he made, the excuses he repeated to himselfâtelling himself he was too busy, telling himself he would check in later. Later never came, though, and the space between you widened, until it wasn't just him you were drifting away from, but your brothers too.
Bruce noticed the way your brothers treated you, the harsh words, the cold shoulders. He saw the distance, but he justified it, telling himself it was sibling rivalry or something that would pass. He didn't step in. And now, as he looks at you lying there, bruised and battered from a fight he wasnât even aware of, the reality sinks in: he has no excuse.
With a heavy sigh, Bruce reaches out, his rough but careful hand carding gently through your hair. The gesture is tender, hesitant, as if he's not sure whether he has the right to touch you like this anymore. But as his fingers comb through your hair, you stir in your sleep, a quiet murmur escaping your lips as you unconsciously lean into his touch. It's such a sweet, innocent moment, and for a brief second, Bruce allows himself to feel the warmth of it.
But the moment is fleeting.
He feels the presence before he sees it, the unmistakable smell of cigarette smoke filling the room. His jaw tightens as his hand stills. He doesnât turn right away, but his voice cuts through the silence.
âConstantine,â Bruce says, his tone gruff even without the cowl to disguise it.
Constantine steps into the room more fully, leaning against the wall, a half-smoked cigarette between his lips. He regards Bruce with that same nonchalance he carries everywhere, though there's a flicker of something else in his eyesâsomething more cautious.
"Thought youâd still be brooding over in the corner," Constantine says, taking a drag of his cigarette. His eyes drift to you, lying peacefully on the cot. âDidnât expect to see this version of you.â
Bruce doesnât respond right away. He pulls his hand back from your hair, his gaze hardening. "What happened?" The question is direct, but underneath it, Constantine can hear the concern, the frustration Bruce doesn't voice aloud.
"She went off on her own," Constantine mutters, taking another drag before blowing out a cloud of smoke. "Went after a demon. Got roughed up pretty bad, but she handled it in the end. Strong kid. Stubborn too. Wonder where she gets that from, eh?"
Bruce's eyes narrow. "And you let her?"
"Let her?" Constantine laughs, a short, sharp sound. "Mate, I didnât let her. She went behind my back, just like sheâs gone behind yours for who knows how long. Difference is, Iâm the one she actually came back to.â
That lands like a punch to Bruce's gut. He doesnât react visibly, but Constantine can see the tension in his posture.
"I didn't know she wasâŠ" Bruce starts, then stops, shaking his head. The words feel inadequate. "I didn't know she was involved with this stuff, i didn't even know she was a meta. Or that she knew you."
"Yeah, well, she found her way to me," Constantine says with a shrug, stubbing out his cigarette on the wall. âAnd she's not a meta by the way, she's a vessel for some eldritch being"
A vague expression of surprise appears on Bruce's face.
"I don't blame you, mate. I was surprised to find her alive afterwards. Not just anyone survives that kind of transformation, she's strong.â
Bruce crosses his arms, his gaze flickering between you and Constantine. âI know sheâs strong.â
âDo you?â Constantine raises an eyebrow, the challenge clear in his tone. âBecause sheâs been running herself ragged trying to prove it. To you. To herself. And, hell, maybe to me too, but at least I see it.â
Thereâs silence for a moment. Bruce clenches his jaw, turning to look at you again, sleeping soundly despite the tension in the room. He knew Constantine was right. You'd been pushing yourself, fighting to show that you didnât need themâthat you were strong enough on your own. And he had let you. He'd let you because he didn't even care to notice.
Constantine sighs, sensing the weight of the silence. âLook, I didnât come here to throw stones. But youâve got to get your shit together with her. Sheâs tough, but sheâs still a kid, and sheâs your kid. She needs you.â
Bruce doesnât answer, but his silence speaks volumes. He watches you, the soft rise and fall of your chest, and feels the regret gnawing at him.
âIâll handle it,â Bruce finally says, though the words feel hollow.
Constantine gives him a long look, then nods. âYou better. Because if you donât, sheâll be right back with me..â
With that, Constantine pushes off the wall, flicking away the last of his cigarette. âIâll check in on her later. Try not to fuck this up, mate.â And with one last glance at you, Constantine leaves, the tension in the room ebbing with him.
Bruce remains, standing over you, his mind a whirlwind of regret, guilt, and the desire to fix whatâs been broken for far too long. He leans down, pressing a gentle kiss to your foreheadâsomething he hasnât done in what feels like yearsâbefore stepping back, pulling the chair beside your bed to sit vigil over you.
Heâs still not sure how to bridge the gap, but for now, he stays. Itâs a start.
Well, thats all folks! I really enjoyed writing this au, so thanks for the idea! Maybe ill even make a pt. 2 to this? Who knows? Anyways, I hope you enjoyed it.
#batfamily#yandere batfam#platonic yandere#neglected reader#yandere bruce wayne#yandere damian wayne#yandere cassandra cain#yandere dick grayson#yandere jason todd#yandere tim drake#john constantine#yandere john constantine (kinda)#batfamily x neglected reader#batman#batfam#batfamily x reader#justice leauge dark
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i have not touched crossfire in almost 24 hrs and its making me realize what a fugue state ive been living in for the past week. i got so much done today. this book has me in a chokehold deathgrip and im only on chapter 6 out of 9
#fun fact i got almost done w 5 and had to stop bc i was so distressed#actually got out of bed but ended up finishing it at my desk n bawling#i tried to start 6 to drive myself into a depressive corner ig??? but my gma called me back#and we stayed on the phone for an obscenely long time and when i got off i did other things other than read#havent thought abt that book since i stopped reading last night like#not that its not amazing n im sure once i sleep i will read it all day tmrw#but like wow i am unfortunately at the super relatable depression inducing parts so like#probably better to read in chunks and do other things between instead of trying to finish an entire chapter#in a single day#like!!! it was fun when it was happy. its not anymore lmao its pain#actually this is making me wanna rewatch daiya again#but not the entire thing.... maybe specific games or so...... smth to think abt laterrrr
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But I Love Him | Oscar Piastri x Reader
Summary: Oscar Piastriâs girlfriend is Danny Ricâs biggest fan. When Oscar announces heâs signing for McLaren, sheâs not sure how to react.Â
Warnings: Fluff. Crack fic
Only a small one. Inspired by Nicole Piastriâs hilarious podcast appearance. Did I push back my scheduled posts in favour of this sudden smau? Yes
20233-2023 season
F1 Masterlist
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mclaren what a race đ an amazing drive from our honey badger
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landonorris great race, mate
yn_ln thatâs my driver!Â
â oscarpiastri love you too
â yn_ln shush, daniel might see this and then think weâre dating
â oscarpiastri we are dating
â yn_ln youâre ruining my chances
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â yn_ln lovely, wonderful, talented mark. fancy spoiling a girl and getting her danny ric merch?
â oscarpiastri you donât talk like that to me
â yn_ln because i have to deal with you leaving your wet towels on the bed
â Â yn_ln plus all your merch is alpine
â user1 she's so real for that tho
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yn_ln welp, there go my chances of meeting danny ric if youâre not going to be an f1 driver
â danielricciardo iâm sure weâll both be in aus at the same time in the future ;)
â yn_ln omg he talked to me. oscar, he talked to me!Â
â oscarpiastri yup, i can see that
â yn_ln why donât you care?!Â
logansargeant thatâs one way to break the newsÂ
â yn_ln heâs so dramatic isnât he
â user2 why is oscar still with her? sheâs so mean to him
â user3 it's called banter. try it some time, babe
aussiegrit never a dull day with youÂ
â yn_ln at least you get to hear about this beforehand. the alpine announcement shook me
â oscarpiastri um, it shook me too?Â
â yn_ln do you need me to stroke your hair again?Â
â aussiegrit @/yn_ln you're no better
nicolepiastri your girlfriend is distraught that you didnât consult her before being a drama queen. i raised you better than thisÂ
â yn_ln đ€đ€
â oscarpiastri beaten for #1 child by my own girlfriend
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oscarpiastri itâs officialÂ
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yn_ln but i love danielâŠ
â oscarpiastri i know. everyone does
â yn_ln but i love him the mostÂ
â oscarpiastri i know
â user4 bit weird that youâre not congratulating him
fernandoalo_official amazing news. canât wait to see you on trackÂ
user5 mclaren are so messy for using an alpine pic
user6 okay but hello mr piastri. i was not familiar with your game
â user7 yn saw the vision when she fell for him years ago
â yn_ln câmon guys, he was cute beforeÂ
â oscarpiastri iâm still cute now!
â yn_ln no, now youâre hot
â oscarpiastri oh đ€
â landonorris fuck me, is this what i have to deal with now?
â logansargeant yes
â arthur_leclerc yes
â frederikvestiofficial yes
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yn_ln hubbyâs first f1 race weekend (but more importantly, i met THE daniel ricciardo. and he was wearing his best colours)
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oscarpiastri i thought this was going to be a really sweet post and then
â landonorris i actually watched his smile fallÂ
â yn_ln heâs in love with you now. itâs your responsibility to brush his hair and promise him heâs specialÂ
â oscarpiastri between you and my mother, i donât think iâll ever have a comfortable day on the internetÂ
danielricciardo i took really nice photos with you, and you post this one?Â
â yn_ln please donât be mad at me. i cry easilyÂ
oscarpiastri itâs bad enough that the world knows daniel is your favourite driver. can you at least pretend mclaren is your favourite team?
â yn_ln go papaya!Â
â yn_ln love you, pookieÂ
â oscarpiastri love you too, sweetheart
â user8 the fact that no matter how hard she bullies him, he can never NOT say i love you back
aussiegrit proud of our boyÂ
â yn_ln me too!Â
â oscarpiastri say it to my face, you coward
â user9 how is oscar so sweet and introverted in interviews but then we see him like this on his girlfriendâs insta
â oscarpiastri she brings out the demon in me
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danielricciardo stole my seat so i stole your girl tagged: oscarpiastri, yn_ln
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arthur_leclerc i bet heâs crying in his driverâs room
logansargeant i joked about stealing her once and he hit me with a wrenchÂ
frederikvestiofficial i made her laugh once and he bit meÂ
landonorris @/mclaren are you seeing this? i think i want a new teammateÂ
user10 pr are screaming
â user11 they do anytime yn comments on things
oscarpiastri keep her
â yn_ln oi!Â
â yn_ln i mean⊠he did give you permissionÂ
â logansargeant where was this treatment for us?
â oscarpiastri iâm fed up of her now. i still had hope back then
maxverstappen1 i thought we were foreverÂ
â yn_ln you canât beat my devotion to him
â maxverstappen1 no but i can beat your devotion to your boyfriendÂ
â yn_ln eh
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oscarpiastri she loves me really
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yn_ln my whole đ
â oscarpiastri i love you lots Â
â yn_ln you know youâre my favourite guy forever
landonorris can confirm that they are disgustingly in love around the paddockÂ
â yn_ln youâre just jealous because you keep trying to steal him
danielricciardo i was stood next to them once and she didnât even glance at me because oscar was making her laughÂ
â nicolepiastri heâs not even funnyÂ
â yn_ln donât say these things. youâll ruin my reputation as danny ric stan #1
user12 heâs not beating the orange cat allegationsÂ
â user13 not with all the comments over the years of her stroking his hair to make him feel better
logansargeant bro relax. no oneâs going to take her from youÂ
â oscarpiastri danielâs rejoined red bull. her favourite driver is back with her favourite team. i have to stake my claimÂ
â yn_ln when he gets possessive đ
â arthur_leclerc đ€źđ€ź
frederikvestiofficial i thought not being in f1 meant i could escape this. get it off my fyp
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