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I wanted to write something Ghoap related. Why not continue this weird hurt/ angst kick I've been on.
CW: attempted date rape, non-con drugging, alcohol, violence, blood.
A guy in a bar attempts to 'pick you up' the best boys Johnny & Simon come to the rescue.
Merry Christmas/ happy holidays. <3
You’re mad, she said she wouldn’t do this again, leave you alone at a bar while she went home with some stranger. But here you are yet again alone finishing on your 4th? 5th? drink. Who cares, you signal the bartender over for another.
The fresh gin and tonic went down like a treat numbing your anger and making you relax. You pull your phone out getting ready to send her a long 'fuck you' message. You’ve only just started typing when someone comes up on the stool next to you.
“Hey, can I buy you a drink?” You frown looking up at him. He’s cute black hair, nice casual suit, kind of gives you a sleazy salesman vibe.
“I’m good, thanks.” You say going back to the text.
“C’mon, what is it, vodka tonic?” He asks, you look back over at him almost rolling your eyes. He’s not that bad looking. You sigh, not responding for a second. You don’t want to have to owe this guy. ‘It’s just a drink’ your drunken brain tells you ‘don’t turn down a free drink.’
“Gin and tonic.” You correct him. He smiles, waving the bartender over. You finish your short angry text to your friend and put your phone back in your bag.
“I saw your friend leave earlier.” He says paying for the drinks. You pick yours up and he signals for you to cheers with him. You clink your glasses together before taking a sip.
“Yeah, she went off with some guy.” You say a little more bitter than you wanted to.
“Shit, think she’ll be coming back?” He asks, sipping his drink, coke and something.
“No fucking clue. Probably not.” You sigh.
“Shame, at least the drinks are cheap.” he jokes. You smile at him, getting a better look at him. He’s skinny, his sleeves rolled up to his elbows.
“So you from round here or not?”
“No, only here to see my friend. It's her birthday tomorrow.” You say.
“Wow so she ditches you the day before her birthday for some twink?” He chuckles.
“Yeah.” You scoff, he was a twink. There’s the sound of a crash behind you, a woman screaming. It pulls your attention as you look at the commotion playing out behind you. Two men are squaring up to each other with smashed glasses on the floor. It’s not long before security are running over them, pulling them apart.
The incident has your blood pumping and adrenaline rushing through you. You look back picking up your drink and finishing it off to quell your nerves.
That’s it you’ve had your last drink you should go home.
“Thanks for the drink.” you say to him as you jump off the stool.
“Leaving already?” He asks. You nod. He reaches out and grabs your arm. It makes you uncomfortable and you freeze.
"Yeah. I have to get back to my hotel.” Shit, you shouldn’t have told him that.
“Oh, I can walk you if you want?” He asks.
“No, thank you but I'm okay.” You pull your arm out his grip walking away. The adrenaline from the drunken fight is still pulsing through your body.
“Well take it easy.” He says as you walk away, you turn back, smile and nod at him as you leave.
There is still a line outside to get back into the club as you leave it must not be that late. You pull your phone out to check where you need to go. You’re not used to the busy London streets. You must have drank the last 2 drinks a little too fast as your head feels particularly foggy.
You’re turning down streets using your phone’s maps app to guide you. Your mouth goes suddenly dry, your head swimming more than normal. You sway all of a sudden feeling unsteady on your feet. You stop looking at your phone looking ahead of you trying to regain your balance.
It doesn’t help and you lean up against a sign at the corner of the street. Maybe you’re going to be sick, you drank the drinks too quickly and now you’re going to pay for it.
You retch but nothing comes out, your throat feels dry, your head swims as your legs give way. You fall to your knees. Panic comes over you, this is not a good place to be doing this.
You curse under your breath, you’ve clearly had way too much to drink.
Hands land on your shoulders, the grip is strong then the hands slip under your armpits. The person pulls you to your feet, you try to talk but it just comes off as a slur as your body is pulled into a private parking area behind some bins.
You’re not sure what’s going on, your vision is fuzzy, your breathing picks up. You can feel someone trying to pull your jacket off you, maybe you’re being robbed. You try to talk again but nothing comes out. You try to grip your jacket to pull it back on you but whoever it is, is stronger than you.
You feel someone grip the waistband of your jeans. Panic overwhelms you, you get enough energy to push the person off you. It doesn’t last long before there is a sharp pain on your face. You yelp as your face stings.
“Stay. Still.” A voice says through gritted teeth. You whine trying to build up srength again but nothing happens.
Silent tears run down your face. You hate this, you hate what’s happening. Your head is swimming, you close your eyes still fighting with the hands on your waist. Suddenly the person is gone, your body falls to the floor slumping against the industrial bin.
New hands land on you pulling your jacket back around you. You try to push them off but they grab your wrists.
“Hey lass, it’s okay, you’re okay.” You don’t know what accent that is but it’s not English, maybe he’s Irish?
“Take it easy, what's your name?” He asks, you stop fighting, looking up at him. He’s tall even though he’s crouched down in front of you. He has a mohawk, and even in the dark you can see his deep blue eyes. You’re not going to tell him your name. You stay silent.
“Okay, you don’t have to tell me. We’re going to get you somewhere safe okay?”
We’re?
You look past him, you can see another hulking figure holding someone up by their collar. You see fist meet skin, it makes you gasp. The man-Johnny-pulls your attention back to him.
“How you feeling? You look a little worse for wear, think you can walk?” He asks. You nod and he helps you to your feet. You sway against him but he supports you holding you up as you walk out the parking alcove.
There’s another man, and one on the floor groaning. You see blood, you can smell it in the air. More hands are on you now. You look up at the tall man standing next to you. You feel sick, your head throbbing, your vision blurring. Your legs give way again as your arms start to tingle.
“C’mon lass, can you hear us?” The dark haired man says as you collapse fully to the ground.
“Yes,” You try to say but it just comes out as a slur, it’s barely English. You don’t care, you suck in one last breath of air before everything goes black.
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The Devil and Angel's Waltz
Kingdom of Ebreau:
prologue|part 1|part 2|part 3(you are here)
"Are you disfigured?"
"What?"
"Nevermind."
You stared at the maid as she walked away, stunned.
What in the...
"Something the matter, Messiah?" Marika's voice rang from across the table. You turned your gaze back and blinked.
"It's nothing, your highness." You smiled politely as you raised the teacup to your lips, eager to taste the drink. The smell wafted into your nose first before it even reached your tongue.
Jasmine tea.
You swallowed.
With honey.
You placed the cup back down on the coaster. The tea was well balanced. If not steeped for too long, Jasmine tea is quite flavourless with only its aroma to remind you of the kind of drink it was. The honey mixed in afterward added a nice subtle tone of sweetness to the otherwise bland tea.
It's good.
Under normal circumstances, you would have said it tasted great but the question the maid whispered into your ear earlier as she poured you this drink made the liquid not go down right. You'd even say it had an unusual bitter aftertaste.
"You may simply call me Marika, Messiah. You are no ordinary folk so no need for such formalities." Marika smiled as she reached for a cookie on the table. "T-that wouldn't be very polite of me, your highness." You declined her request, letting out an awkward laugh.
You glanced at Zephyr beside you. He hasn't said anything ever since you arrived at the palace. His cup of tea sat untouched on the table, growing colder by the minute. A slight smile was present on his lips as he listened but it felt different from the one you’re used to seeing.
It looked…superficial. Fake. Ingenuine.
Zephyr didn't want to be here.
That makes two of you then.
Actually, scratch that. That makes three of you.
You peaked at the silent white hair beside Marika from the corner of your eyes. This was the fourth time since the moment you two met. With the help of your veil, you managed to avoid detection by the prince whenever you snuck glances at him. You wished you didn't have to do this but Calerus' words still rang clear in your mind.
Beware the heretics.
It would be foolish of you to ignore this individual when even god himself tells you to be wary of him.
Thus, even with your whole body going into fight or flight mode, screaming at you to look away from his eyes, your mind was determined to keep tabs on him.
Xion was sitting with his legs crossed, one over the other. His hands placed neatly on his lap, occasionally patting down his silver uniform and smoothing out any creases. He kept his gaze on the table in front of him or off to the side throughout the entire conversation. His ruby eyes were distant and unfocused like he was thinking, plotting, scheming.
He was mentally elsewhere you concluded.
You looked away, not letting your gaze linger longer. You turned back towards Marika, who seems to be the only person who actually wanted to be here. She finished swallowing the bite of the cookie she had eaten before continuing. "I don't mind, Messiah. Please just call me that. If we are to rule together and protect Ebreau, putting so much importance on our statuses and titles will only obstruct our cooperation." She reasoned.
"I-I see..." You mumbled behind your cup as you took another sip of the tea to calm your nerves. Silence fell over the table. You looked up from your cup in confusion. Marika stared back at you, the same sweet smile on her face.
...?
You knitted your eyebrows together behind your veil.
What's going on...?
Xion's priecing gaze snapped towards you. Your body froze in place as he stared you down, like a predator does before pouncing on its prey. Your mind raced for words to say as the staring continued.
"The temple simply call her 'Messiah', your highness. However, if you must know, her name is (y/n)." Zephyr finally said his first words after getting here, helping you break the silence. "Ah, I see. Then, (y/n), I hope this will be a fruitful collaboration." Marika smiled.
Oh, she just wanted your name?
The realisation hit you and you breathed a sigh of relief, your hands relaxing their tight grip around your tea cup. You felt Xion's eyes also leave you as the tension that hung in the air dissipated. You internally thanked Zephyr for answering in your stead, not daring to think how long that silence would have lasted or how it would have been broken if he didn’t.
"Would you like to see the ballroom now, (y/n)?" Marika placed her cup down. "You may practice there while the servants are finishing up the preparations for tonight's ceremony. I will personally inform them if you wish." The queen offered. It would be a good idea to familiarise yourself with 'the stage' for tonight. Plus, extra practice could never hurt.
"I would like that, M-marika." You struggled to get the queen's name out your mouth. It felt wrong to call someone with such status by their first name. "Follow me then." Marika smiled and stood up, leading the way out of the room. Xion followed behind her, not bothering to toss you a glance. You and Zephyr walked at the back, side by side.
The palace's hallways were long. Not surprising there. With multiple twists and turns, up and down some stairs, the walk there seemed to stretch on forever. At least the walkways were decorated very nicely though. They provided some form of distraction from this boring excursion. The walls were painted in white with some kind of floral motive drawn on in silver near the bottom and top. Paintings of knights on horses, nobles in luxurious clothing, flowers in the wild and many more (including some abstract ones that didn't look like anything at all) hung on the wall. Some almost side by side, some few and far between. The carpet beneathe your feet was blue with golden edges as it paved the entire way to the ballroom, even the stairs had them. Plus, it looked surprisingly clean.
The servants here must work real hard.
You thought to yourself as a butler pushed open a large wooden door, allowing your little entourage to enter.
The room before you was spacious, to say the least. Just from one glance, you could tell this was the ballroom where nobles and commoners alike would gather during special occasions.
Just like your initiation tonight.
The ballroom was beautiful and extravagant even without any extra decorations. The floor was marble and it glistened. Looking down at it, you could see your reflection in it. No doubt the work of the maids mopping it on the other side of the ballroom. A small stage was placed to the side for the orchestra who will be responsible for the music of your dance tonight. Two long tables were placed opposing the stage, on the other side of the ballroom. You assumed it's for the food that will be served this evening. Several butlers were up on ladders, wiping away at the glass windows, determined to clean away any smudges.
You turned your gaze ahead of you.
A young maid was wiping down the thrones Marika and Xion would be seated on for tonight at the far end of the ballroom.
The servants here definitely work real hard.
"You may practice here for the afternoon, (y/n). I have informed the servants here to let you use the dance floor." Marika turned to you and said with a smile. Behind her, the butler who had helped open the door walked away and towards the directions of other servants, probably to inform them of the queen's order. "Thank you, your highness." You nodded your head at her before catching your error. "Marika." You corrected yourself.
Marika's smile grew even wider at that. "I will leave you to it then, (y/n). I still have matters to attend to before the ceremony starts tonight so I must excuse myself." Marika made her way back towards the door before stopping and turning back towards you one last time. "Please don't hesitant to call any of the servants if you need something. They'll be happy to serve you." The queen finally stepped out of the room.
Silence fell over your group for a moment as you stared Zephyr, Zephyr stared at you and...Xion stared at you both. To be honest, you were too scared to look at Xion but the current situation called for it so you slowly shifted your gaze to the prince.
Xion was still looking at you with those cold ruby eyes. His face blank and his body unmoving. It was unnerving how still he was. It was like he was simply observing you, waiting for the right time to make a move. But what that move is, you’re not sure.
You opened your mouth to speak but before any words came out, Xion bowed. "I will leave now too." He excused himself and within a few seconds, he was gone as well.
...
You watched as he left and as the door swung shut, you let out a sigh of relief, the tension in your body dissipating. It felt like you could finally breathe again.
"Are you alright, Lady (y/n)?" Zephyr's voice sounded beside you and you felt his hand on your back. His worried face came into view as he leaned down, his bangs falling to one side as he did so. "...That..." you started as you tried to find the right words to describe how you were feeling. The thumping of your heart, the sweat in your palms, the nauseousness and the dread. There really was only one answer.
"That was terrifying."
~✟~
What is this room for?
The thought flashed through your mind as you slipped on the ceremonial dress. The soft silky fabric rubbing against your face as you pulled it down your head and then body. Your hands patted down the bodice and skirt, smoothing out any creases and ensuring there were no folds.
You walked towards the full body mirror placed beside a bookshelf on the left side of the room. The room was nearly identical to the one you had tea with the queen and prince just now with only the arrangement of furniture slightly different and an extra mirror for some reason (maybe you're too poor to understand the taste rich people have in interior design). You stood in front of the mirror, admiring the details of the dress.
For the monumental ceremony tonight, the temple went all out with your clothes. Similar to your daily attire, the garment was in the shade of gold. The fabric metallic and shining. A clear statement of its high quality. The skirt reached down to the floor. Its hems brushing against the carpet beneathe your feet with every movement. The skirt was further accentuated with a few layers of sheer fabric in a similar colour, some longer, some shorter, creating patterns and adding volume to the skirt. Floral patterns were embroidered on parts of the fabric using gold thread and finally dusted with a small amount of glitter as a finishing touch.
The sleeves were long just as your usual clothing. The fabric was semi transparent and clung loosely to your arms. Not a bad choice considering how light and airy it was, not to mention soft. There was no collar, making it perfectly breathable and easy to move in.
You can't imagine how much money they spent to get something with such standard.
Better take care and not rip it.
You reminded yourself before slipping on the pair of black court shoes that were prepared for you.
Leather. Sturdy.
You clicked the heels of the shoes together twice. The sharp sound resounding loudly through the room.
"Alright, all done here... Time to head back." You mumbled to yourself as you folded your clothes and took them into hand. As you exited the room, you grabbed your veil on the table beside the door with your other hand and pushed the door shut using your foot once outside.
Back to the ballroom. Zephyr should be back with the new veil too.
You turned right and headed down the hallway, retracing the path the butler had shown you before to get here. The butler was kind enough to lead you to an empty room not far from the ballroom to allow you some privacy to get changed. Zephyr went to retrieve the modified veil in the meantime so it was just you for once.
With one hand, you twisted and turned the veil, trying to find the opening where your head was supposed to go. Once you do, you leaned down slightly and threw it on before securing it in place using a hair pin. You patted down the veil, especially the back side of it where you couldn't see, not wanting any of the fabric to fold or stick out.
Lowering your hand, you focused on getting back, your feet light with each step. You felt at ease, the boulder weighing on your heart there no more. Knowing that it was just going to be you and Zephyr for the rest of the morning and early afternoon, it relieved you. Just time for some last minute rehearsals and then rest. No more queens and princes-
"Messiah."
You froze in place and your blood ran cold. The tranquility beforehand vanishing into thin air and in its place, an agonising dread. Your heart pounded. Your anxiety spiked. Your muscles tensed as your mind went blank. Consumed by an all-devouring fear, you stood still in the middle of the hallway, unable to run from certain 'death'.
Footsteps thumped closer. You squeezed your eyes shut and clenched your fists, bracing yourself for what's to come.
You turned.
"Your highness?"
It was a miracle how your voice didn't crack.
Xion strode over, the same deadpan expression on his angular face. His boots clicking softly against the carpeted floor.
"I thought you left, your highness. Is there something else you have to take care of here?" You mustered all of your courage and spoke, trying to sound calm and composed but your voice still gave you away, wavering during the sentence.
Crap.
You cursed internally.
Steady thyself, lamb. This is thy chance to persuade this apostate.
Calerus' voice rumbled from deep within your mind again.
Your eyebrows twitched.
Persuade? What does that mean??
No response from the deity.
"..."
The people around you seemed to have a tendency of ignoring you. Xion, similar to Calerus, remained silent, not bothering to answer your question.
He got closer and closer until he was directly in front of you before...
Walking past.
You knitted your eyebrows in confusion before moving to turn to him.
"Your highne-"
"Don't move."
Every muscle in your body obeyed.
You stared ahead of you, frozen in place as Xion went around to your back.
His presence sent shivers down your spine as he stood behind you. Even with your back turned, you could feel him staring you down. It felt like daggers going straight into your head, making you feel numb and afraid.
You felt his breath hit your nape as your veil is gently lifted by him. It was warm, surprisingly. Considering his icy nature, you thought even his breath would be cold.
"Y-your highness, what are you doing?" You couldn't hold back the voice crack this time. In a similar fashion, your question gets ignored once more.
A light touch and all your hairs stand on end. His hands brushed against your nape as he reached for you from behind.
Was this it? Was he going to choke you? Suffocate you right here and now?
You clenched your fists and gritted your teeth, the only movement you were able to do in your frozen state. Alarms blared inside your mind, urging you to make a break for it, to run as far away as possible from the danger but something stopped you from doing so. Was it paralyzing fear? Or something more...divine?
You twitched. Sensation finally coming back to your limbs. The muscles in your legs tensed and contracted, ready to start sprinting any moment now.
You took a step forward.
And Xion put down his hands.
"..."
"..."
You took a deep breath and slowly...very slowly glanced behind you. Xion still had that deadpan look on his face as he stared at you. His ruby eyes shone like gems under the light that flooded in from the nearby window.
You tried to talk, to ask what all that was about but words fail you. Only shaky exhales come out when you open your mouth, a sign of the fear that still grasped you.
Xion looked on silently. You watched him, searching his face for any microexpression that could reveal what he was thinking or why he did what he did.
...A frown.
It was quick. Unnoticeable if you hadn't been paying attention. A small dip in the corners of his lips before it was gone and his mouth began to move.
"You’re staring, Messiah." Xion's voice snapped you out of it.
You immediately adverted your eyes as you tried to salvage the situation.
"Ah, I'm terribly sorry, your highness." You bowed and said quickly. "I didn't mean to. I was just....confused! About what you just did...?" You ended your sentence in a question. Unintentional but perhaps necessary since you didn't know if he even did anything to you.
Another brief silence. However, this time, the prince seemed gracious enough to answer your question.
"Your button was undone." Xion pointed out.
You blinked.
My button....?
Then a thought occured to you and you reached behind your back. There, at the opening for your head, just below your nape, you felt a little button that you had managed to miss when you were putting on the dress.
"I saw it before you put on your veil." Xion was being extra talkative right now, having just said two sentences back to back.
"I see. How did I miss that....Thank you, your highness." You smiled in embarrassment. The tension in your shoulders dissipated as you heaved a silent sigh of relief. Glad to know he wasn't planning on hurting you or anything of the sorts. You weren't sure why he was still here in the first place despite already excusing himself but then again, you're not familiar with the palace's layout so maybe there's something at the other end of this hallway or maybe even beyond it. It was hard to say.
"If nothing else, your highness, please excuse me. I need to get back to the ballroom." You quickly bowed and stepped aside, eager to leave and get away from him.
"Please wait, Messiah."
Xion's arm appeared before you, stopping you in your tracks.
?
You glanced at him in confusion.
What now...?
Xion was quiet as he stared at you and that's when you notice something swirling in his eyes. Something that wasn't there before. It wasn't devoid of emotions like earlier. You could see...
Caution.
He seemed...cautious of you.
But that doesn't make sense. Why would he be cautious of me?
Before your thoughts could go further, the prince opened his mouth. "Why were you staring at me?" He took a step towards you.
Your eyes widen in surprise, not expecting a question, much less a confrontation from him. "S-sorry?" You stuttered in response, your mind still in denial of what he was referring to, too afraid to accept the fact that he may have noticed.
"Back when you were having tea with the Queen. I noticed you looking at me. May I know why?" His voice was low and cold. He had asked a question but you knew that that didn't mean he gave you a choice.
You swallowed nervously as you looked up at him. You tried to think of a reason to excuse your suspicious behaviour. There was no way you could tell him the literal god this kingdom worships told you to be weary of him. You weren't even sure how he found out in the first place. You made sure to be discreet about it and you wore your veil to cover your eyes from view. The chances of catching you watching him were low and yet...
"..." You opened and closed your mouth, no words finding their way up your throat.
Crap, I'm blanking.
"Messiah..." Xion muttered under his breath and suddenly, his face appeared inches away from yours. His blood red eyes seemed to pierce through your veil as he gazed directly at you.
You instinctively took a step back in fear.
Bad move.
Noticing your retreat, Xion advanced towards you, making you back up until you finally neared the wall.
You gasped as you bumped into a vase placed beside the wall. Your hand shot towards the tall vase, grabbing it and stopping it from toppling over. It was heavy, having been filled with dirt to nurture the greenery planted within it. You gripped onto it hard, trying desperately to steady the wobbling vase.
Before you could even recover from the panic of almost breaking the royal family's belonging, Xion's hand slammed the wall beside him.
Bang!
You jumped, you feet accidentally kicking the vase. The vase slipped from your hands and came crashing down to the floor.
You winced as the vase shattered into pieces, the sound akin to a jab to your eardrums as you cringed. The dirt poured out and the plant laid on the floor, its roots exposed with the shards of the broken vase around it.
Your heart pounded against your ribcage, panic rising inside you. You held back the urge to curse as you swallowed, looking at the mess you created.
"Why were you staring at me, Messiah?" Your heart nearly jumped out from your chest when Xion whispered into your ear, his hot breath uncomfortably fanning it.
"..."
whatdoidowhatdoisaynonononononoidontwanttodiepleasegodsavemesomeonesavemezephyrcalerushelpidontwanttodieiwanttogohomeletmeleavedontkillmepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease
I don't want to die.
"Messiah-ilikeyoursuit." Xion raised an eyebrow at your mumbling.
"Pardon?" "I like your suit." You repeated, your gaze still cast downwards at the ground.
Xion knitted his eyebrows.
"What does that mean?" He sounded skeptical.
"..." You were quiet and Xion was about to press you again when you let out a string of sentences, bombarding him with information.
"I think it's nice. I like the design. I like the style. The colour matches you. It looks good on you. It makes you look cool. I'd like something similar for myself." You blurted out in rapid succession.
Your mind had gone into autopilot mode when the fear overwhelmed all your senses, making you spew out random nonsense. You wanted to kick yourself for saying something so dumb but to your surprise, it seemed to have worked in your favour.
"..." Xion stared at you incredulously, his mouth slightly agaped.
He suddenly backed away, his hand on the wall returning to his side as he narrowed his eyes at you. You stared back silently, your mind still recovering from the intense moment beforehand. You breathed shakily as you waited for him to make his next move.
"..."
"..."
None of you said anything.
It wasn't a hard conclusion to make that the prince of Ebreau was a man of few words. Ever since your meeting this morning, he had been quiet, silently observing and listening from the sidelines as you interacted with other people in the palace. Even when he did talk, it was only a few short sentences. He was reserved but never at a lost for words.
However, for once, he seemed speechless.
For once, you could garner something from his expression. He was thinking. So very clearly thinking. He was considering what course of action to take.
You prayed he would consider letting you off the hook.
The prince looked away briefly before meeting your eyes once more...
A small smirk spreading across his lips.
Blood drained from your face.
"You are...quite humourous, Messiah." Xion scoffed as he shook his head. "Unfortunately, this uniform was custom made for me and me only so you can't get one yourself." He explained coldly before turning away.
"I wish you a good afternoon, Messiah. I await your performance tonight." With a few short sentences, he was gone again, leaving you alone in the hallway with your thoughts and the thumping of your heart in your chest.
You watched as his silhouette got smaller and smaller down the hallway before finally disappearing. You clenched your fists by your side.
Xion...
Just what are you planning?
Another voice rang in you head alongside yours.
"Well done, lamb."
~✟~
You flopped down on the comfy bed, your legs hung over the edge as you sighed.
This was it. The ceremony was just another 2 hours or so away. The sun dipped below the horizon outside the window of the guest room, dying the evening sky orange. Your last practice session had gone well with you doing the entire dance while in full ceremonial attire.
Your hands reached up to rub your eyes before blinking multiple times in quick succession to get the exhaustion out of them. Looking through your veil put a lot of strain on your eyes. The pixelated world seen from within your veil made your eyes constantly work overtime just to ensure you could see everything around you and make correct judgements in situations. Times like these when you didn't have it on were a blessing for your eyes, like a long awaited and very overdued vacation from their job.
You turned your head towards the clothing rack beside the dresser. Your ceremonial robe hung neatly on a hanger and beside it, your new modified veil. The veil was made shorter in front, covering only until just above your lips and long in the back like usual. Golden brown tassels were sewn on at the ends of the veil, both front and back to add some weight to the fabric.
Zephyr really was a life saver. You're not sure how or where he managed to get a tailor to accept such a sudden commission but somehow he did and you're grateful he returned with a much more practical veil for dancing. It made the dance that much easier now that you weren't constantly struggling to just breathe.
You were escorted out of the ballroom at around 3 in the afternoon. The workers in the palace had to get the last bit of the decorations set up and preparations done before guests arrived so you needed to get out of there around then or else you'd risk making their job harder. It was about time you get some rest too before your big night so you complied without much thought.
And thus, you have been spending the past hour or so fretting over the ceremony tonight. This was a big deal and no matter how much preparation you've done, it just didn't feel enough.
Maybe your footwork could use some more polishing or maybe your arms needn't be so stiff or maybe you could smile a bit more or maybe-
"Ugghhhh!" You huffed out loud in frustration as your hands went to your face. This was so nerve-wrecking.
Can I just bail tonight? I'm sure Zephyr can help me come up with an excuse.
You looked towards the opened window, peeping through the gaps between your fingers. Perhaps you could jump out? The entrance gate is just across the palace garden. Wait, no. You're on the 3rd level. You'd die if you vaulted out of here.
A soft breeze blew through the window, fluttering the curtains as another idea popped into your head.
Maybe I could tie together the curtains to make a rope, do this the Hollywood way. Ah, but it won't be long enough... Oh, oh! Maybe I could use the bed sheets and carpet and-
Your grand escape plan was suddenly interrupted by a knocking on the door.
That must be the maid.
You got up from the bed. Marika had assigned a maid of hers to help with dressing you up for the ceremony tonight. Even if it was kinda redundant since you can dress yourself just fine and don't really need any make-up or hair styling (you were going to be wearing a veil so nobody would see it anyway), it wouldn't hurt to have someone do it for you while you did some final mental preparation for later.
Your hand reached for the door and pulled it open.
"Hello, Messiah."
The girl's silky voice greeted your ears as the top of her head came into view the moment you swung open the door. Her black bangs hung over her eyes and framed the side of her face, obscuring her face from your gaze.
"Hello. Please come in." You greeted back and gestured for her to come in. The maid rose to a standing position but continued to keep her head low as she stepped into the room, her hands gripping a brown bag in front of her, which you assumed to contain the make-up she'll use.
She walked towards the dressing table and placed the bag on the surface before standing aside, head still bowed as she stood in wait for you to sit down. You quickly shut the door and scurried over, taking a seat at the dressing table.
The maid reached into her bag before circling around to your back and began to comb your hair using a brush, getting all the knots out. After that, she took out a small bottle and sprayed some of the liquid inside onto her hand before rubbing it into your hair. The sweet fragrance wafted from behind you and into your nostrils.
Lavender.
You played with your fingers as you sat still, letting the maid do her work. No words were exchanged between the two of you. Out of boredom and perhaps some curiousity, you decided to start a conversation.
"What's your name by the way?" You looked at her reflection behind you in the mirror. She was looking down, focusing on your hair as she began styling it. Her hands worked diligently, twisting and tying your strands.
She paused, not expecting you to strike up a conversation.
"...I'm Erna."
She replied softly, her gaze still casted downwards.
Silence fell over you two again as the conversation ended as soon as it started.
"..."
"..."
She's so quiet.
You felt her continuing to do your hair, making no effort to carry on with the conversation. You sighed quietly as you hung your head, ultimately deciding to just keep to yourself and let her work in silence.
What's Zephyr doing right now...?
Your thought drifted to the saint as you tried to find something to ponder about. It's rare that he's not with you right now. Wherever you went, he always seemed to be by your side and ready to assist you in any way he can. In fact, it was weirder now without him around.
He will be attending tonight's ceremony too, right?
He probably will. Unless there's something he has to attend to in the background as the initiation proceeded, he'll watch...hopefully.
You really hope he does. You can't promise you'll do well during the dance. Heck, you can't even guarantee you won't collapse from the sheer stress. You needed him to save you if the worse came to pass, save you from the embarrassment and/or potential concussion.
Crap, I really don't want to do this...
You fidgeted nervously in your seat, rubbing your hands together as you suppressed the nausea bubbling inside. You took a deep breath.
In and out. In and out. In-
Your thoughts were cut short when you suddenly felt a breath hit your neck. Instinctively, you turned your head and you jumped in your seat at the foreign face in front of you.
Erna's green eyes stared into your golden ones, stoic and cold was her gaze as she breathed down your neck.
!!!
You wanted to ask what she was doing but before any words left your mouth, you saw the blood drain from Erna's face and she suddenly collapsed onto the floor, screaming hysterically.
"AAAHHHHHH! NO! NO!" Erna's voice pierced through the silence, her hands on her face, grasping at her eyes almost like trying to gauge them out.
"T-there's no way! It can't be! NO!" The girl continued to babbled on. She was shaking, her entire body convulsing beside you on the floor. You were in shock but it didn't take long before your body leapt into action on its own, jumping out of your seat and kneeling down on the floor beside the (you assumed) fear-striken girl.
"Erna, what's-I'M SORRY! I'M SO SORRY!" You reached for her shoulder, wanting to comfort her and understand what the heck was going on but before you even made contact, Erna pressed her head to the ground as she screamed out apologies. Her sobs were clear as she took pauses between her words, breathing heavily in before choking out her sentences once more. As it went on, her yelling began more and more incoherent and her words muddled until unintelligible.
"Erna...!" You tried to snap her out of it, raising your voice, hoping she would stop. However, to your dismay, it seemed to trigger her even more as her sobs quickly became desperate cries.
"I'M SORRY! PLEASE FORGIVE ME! I DIDNT KNOW! I WAS MISLED! PLEASE FORGIVE ME! IM SORRY! I WAS WRONG!" The girl screamed her heart out as she continued to cry. Her nails digging into the carpet below her, causing her knuckles to turn white.
Thump, thump, thump!
Footsteps echoed from outside the doors, coming down the corridor and getting closer to your room. The commotion in here must have caught someone's attention.
You continued to try and calm Erna down from this sudden mental breakdown but to no avail. Anything you do, no matter how big or small, it always seemed to have the opposite effect of what you wanted. Erna continued to cry out, her voice becoming hoarse and raspy from the strain she put on it.
"I'M SORRY! PLEASE! I'M SORRY! I'M SORRY...CALERU-What's going on in here!?" A guard bursted through the doors. His eyebrows knitted and his arms tensed, ready to strike any perpetrator on sight.
"I-I don't know! She just suddenly started screaming!" You tried to explain despite also being in shock at the situation. The guard looked at the curled up Erna on the floor before at you. You braced yourself, knowing how bad this looked. Two people in one room, the only exit and entry points being a door leading to a corridor that is guarded and a window that is 3 stories up, the logical conclusion that everyone would jump to is pretty cut and dry.
However, you didn't hear any "Hands where I can see them!" or "Back away from the girl!" or any other aggressive commands from the guard. The moment you two locked eyes, the guard froze, his eyes going wide just how like Erna's did moments ago but instead of falling down and screaming his head off, he just stood at the doorway, one hand over his mouth as he stared incredulously at you.
Oh no, what now?!?
You panicked. The intense gaze of the guard that seemed to bore into your soul paired with ear piercing screams of Erna were overloading your senses. Your heart raced inside of your chest, the sheer absurdity of the situation was making you blank once more. What should you do? What could you do?
Sweat beaded down your forehead as you contemplated what to do.
I...I...?!
Your train of thought was suddenly cut short as you were pulled onto your feet abruptly. Hands tugged at your upper arms as they hoisted you up, even making you stumble in the process from the sheer speed and force. Before you even recovered, you felt a warmth embrace you as the hands wrapped around your body. One of the hands even pressing your head against the soft fabric of its owner's clothes.
"Are you alright, Lady (y/n)?"
!
You craned your head up as you heard the all too familiar voice. The concerned face of the kingdom's beloved saint stared down at you, his eyebrows knitted gently and his lips turned downwards into a small frown as he held you close.
Saved!
You cheered internally as you buried your head into Zephyr's chest. Your hands shakily reached up and wrapped around him, returning the embrace as your fingers gripped onto the back of his robes for solace. The scent of Zephyr's hair wafted into your nostrils, calming your mind and slowing your pounding heart.
"Sir, please take this maid to get help. I'll stay with the Messiah and help her get ready." Zephyr said to what you assumed to be the guard at the door.
"I..y-yes, of course, Saint Zephyr." Footsteps came into the room and you heard some shuffling before shortly after, the footsteps led out again. Erna's crying still rang clear in your ears but they grew softer and softer as the the sound of soles clacking against the ground got further and further away before finally...
Silence.
"..."
Zephyr sighed.
You felt his hand gently caressing your head as he whispered.
"Let's get you ready, Lady (y/n)."
You nodded slowly against his chest.
You felt safe.
Zephyr was here.
There was nothing to be afraid anymore.
~✟~
The chatter of hundreds of guests came from within the ballroom, their voices muffled by the closed wooden door before you as you stood in wait for your time to enter. Beyond the closed doors, you could hear the clinking of champagne glasses, the sound of joyous laughter and the beautiful pieces of music performed by the orchestra the palace had hired. It was lively inside with every guest present eagerly awaiting the main attraction of this evening's ball.
You took a deep breath and exhaled.
The time was nigh.
You cracked your neck and rolled your shoulders, getting the tension out and helping you relax before your big performance. This was no time for stiff bones after all. As if on cue, you heard Queen Marika's voice boomed from beyond the door and you immediately straightened your back.
"Welcome, children of Ebreau. It is a wonderful night this evening for we shall be witnessing a monumental moment in our kingdom's long history..." The Queen gave her speech but you toned it out midway through (Sorry, Marika.). You did one final recall as you reconfirmed all of your dance steps and positions for each of them.
This is it. This is it.
You felt like you were gonna pass out with all the blood rushing to your head from the anxiety of everything but you couldn't deny you felt a tinge of...happiness and pride. With this ceremony, you would be officially heralded as Ebreau's Messiah and be one of the people who would lead it. You're not sure if this strong feeling of love for this nation that you didn't even originate from, heck, this nation that you didn't even want to live in in the first place, was false or not but you knew for a fact that you wanted to help it. Maybe you were being brainwashed by Calerus to love Ebreau so you'll sacrifice yourself for it or maybe you've just developed a saviour complex after being treated as such, you're not entirely sure. You just know that you want to make Ebreau better. You want to make the lives of the folks here better. You want to help Zephyr. Especially after all he's done for you. He gave you his all and you will do the same,
You must do the same.
"Do not let thyself be shackled by deeds of the past, lamb."
!
No matter how many times this has happened, you don't think you could ever get used to Calerus suddenly speaking to you out of nowhere.
"Intentions determine the nature of a deed, not the action itself."
You knitted your eyebrows.
Where did that come from?
You weren't not sure why Calerus decided to randomly give you a life lesson before your initiation. You wanted to ask for his reasoning but you held back. Based on past experiences, you know he won't reply anyway so you just kept it in mind for now. You can ponder about it later.
"...now, let us celebrate the coming of our prophesied Messiah!"
"That was your cue, Messiah." A pair of hands suddenly fell on your shoulders as Marika concluded her speech. You jolted in surprise as you turned your head back and were met face to face with red eyes.
Xion?!
The prince towered over you as he stared down intensely at you, seemingly searching for your eyes behind the cover of your veil. His breath fanned your face as he continued.
"Good luck."
Xion stepped back, leaving you confused in place. Why was he here? Shouldn't he also be in the ballroom right now? And why was he...
Smiling?
A chill went down your spine at the sight of Xion's lips curling ever so slightly upwards.
You had so many question you wanted to ask but in a similar fashion, they went unvoiced and unheard for the moment you opened your mouth, the doors to the ballroom creaked open and...
A hand pushed you in from behind.
~✟~
You stood in front of Marika. She was seated in her throne beside the king's which was left unoccupied. She smiled early at you as she nodded, acknowledging your presence.
"..."
You reminded quiet. Talking wasn't part of your initiation procedure. The walk to the thrones from the ballroom's entrance was a long one, made longer by the scrutinising gaze and hushed whispers of judgement from the attending guests. From the way their gaze would flicker back and forth from you and how they tried to hide their mouth when they spoke, it wasn't hard to surmise what they were doing.
You tried to ignore them.
Just do your part.
You bowed your head and curtsied slowly, paying your respects ot the queen. Picking up the sides of your dress and bending your knees, you held that position as you waited for the music yo start and for your cue to begin your performance.
Here goes nothing.
The first notes of the piece. Slow and melancholy, the piano sounded out.
You rose from your curtsy, unhurried and measured. Your head remained bowed, looking down at the ground before tilting it slowly to the side and then back up, facing forward once more.
Violins. Questly weaving themselves into the melody, accompanying the lone piano.
You lifted your right arm to your chest before turning to face the guests, stretching out your lifted arm as you did so, letting it lead your movements.
You returned your arm back to to its place before again, you bent your knees and curtsied in the direction of the guests.
The duet of the piano and violins softly faded out as they held the last note of the bar.
You rose from your curtsy one last time, counting the resting beats in your heart.
...6...7...8.
8 resting beats and then you jumped into action. Literally.
You hopped in place before doing a chassé forward and into first arabesque. Closing your feet back together, you followed the tune of the flutes as it carried you through your pas de valse, your eyes following the movement of your hands just as Zephyr had instructed you during practice.
The harmony of the music accompanied you as you glided across the floor, spinning with control and grace. Your heart thumped loudly in your ears and blood rushed to your face, both from the dancing and nervousness. You tried your best to stay calm as you performed an assemblé before slowly rising from the plié.
The music swelled as it slowly began to reach its climax.
Just a little more...
Another spin before you swung your arms up from your sides to beside your head as you lifted your gaze up towards the ceiling. The crystal chandelier dazzled brightly in the air almost as if it was a star in the night sky. If you were outside right now, you would be looking at the sky, perhaps even into the eyes of The Prosperous Lord himself. Maybe that was the point of this move. To lock eyes with the god of this kingdom and swear eternal servitude to him. Who truly knows?
A slight slow in the music and you dropped into a deep curtsy, arms resting at your sides as your head bowed in unspoken submission. The last note rang, low and long as tension permeated through the ballroom.
"..."
You held your breath as you stayed in your position.
Did...I mess up?
You swallowed nervously as the silence in the room nearly deafened you.
Then, a clap came from behind you. Followed by another to your side and among the audience. Slowly, more guests followed along and it wasn't long before the ballroom erupted into a thunderous applause.
You physically felt all the tension leave your body as you breathed a sigh of relief before standing back up.
I did it...it's done. It's finally done!
You couldn't help the smile that made it's way onto your face. All of your hardwork paid off! It didn't go to waste! You...you did it!
You were still high on the glory when Marika interrupted your celebration. "That was a beautiful performance, Messiah." She smiled at you as you turned to face her. "Thank you for your hardwork and here's to a fruitful collaboration in the futur-"
You were suddenly pulled onto the ground.
"Ahh!!" You screamed as you collided with the floor-
Wait, no.
Someone's chest.
You slid across the floor with the person beneathe you, shielding you from impact. Gasps and shouts of terror came from the audience around you as the two of you finally came to a stop on the floor.
You looked back at your original position. An arrow was lodged into the ground. Its tip buried into the now broken floor.
What on earth...?
You furrowed your eyebrows as confusion washed over you.
Realisation came late but only because you refused to acknowleged the truth.
Someone wanted to assassinate you.
Your breath hitched in your throat. If this person didn't pull you aside...
That might have been it for you.
The person beneathe you shifted, slowly sitting up as they continue to hold you close.
You finally turned your gaze back to your saviour, wanting to thank them. However, the words got caught in your throat as you locked eyes with them and realised who it was.
Ocril?!
The person who saved you just now....was your ex-boss?????
He's the captain of the Ordo and likely the one who gave the green light to allow you to work as the Ordo's errand girl. The few years you've been there, you've rarely ever seen him, let allow talk to him. He was at the pinnacle of the hierarchy while you were at rock bottom. There were never any situations where your paths would have crossed.
Though from what you heard from the other guards, he's a rather quiet person, distant even but not cold. He'll never refuse to help someone in need even if he may seem a bit apathetic.
This information has always been word of mouth so you were never able to confirm nor deny it but looking at the black haired man in front of you now, you saw the protectiveness behind his blue eyes as he hid you behind his back.
His gaze narrowed as he glared at a slightly opened window high on the wall, a glint of rage swirling in his eyes.
"Are you alright, Messiah?"
Ocril asked, eyes still glued to the high window.
"I-yes. T-thank you for saving me." You replied, still flustered and shocked by the current situation.
The captain glanced back at you briefly before standing up, his hand on the hilt of his sword fastened to his side.
"Guards!" Queen Marika shouted, standing up from her throne before rushing over to you. At the same time, another familiar voice called for you from behind.
"Lady (y/n)!" You felt Zephyr's arms wrapped around you as he hugged you tightly. "Are you alright?" Zephyr asked frantically. He seemed out of breath, probably from running over due to the commotion started.
"I'm okay." You nodded, reassuring Zephyr as you pushed yourself back onto your feet. Queen Marika arrived too as she helped you up despite your protests.
You felt Ocril's gaze on you the whole time, glancing back at you silently. If he had something to say to you, he never did.
Your disorientation was short-lived as your attention was immediately drawn back by the terrified screams of the guests in the ballroom. To your horror, masked figures began jumping down from the windows, weapons in hand. Some held bows, others held daggers as they landed on the floor of the ballroom.
Chaos ensued immediately.
The guests made mad dashes towards the doors, all wanting to escape before things got bloody or worse, before their lives were targeted. Royal guards were quick to crowd around you and your little group, swords drawn and ready to defend three of the most important figures in Ebreau.
The intruders began their attack. The archers stayed at the back as they aimed to thin out the defense and divert the focus of the surrounding guards, hoping to give an opening to their allies who held daggers to go in for the kill.
Cling!
Ocril deflected an arrow coming towards him with his sword. More royal guards came into the ballroom as they joined in to fend off the attackers. Metal clashed together as the guards around you swung at the enclosing figures but was blocked by the attackers' own weapons. The sharp sound pierced your eardrums, making your ears ring uncomfortably.
Zephyr held you close. His hand grasping yours in a death grip, afraid you'll get separated from him. Queen Marika gritted her teeth and knitted her eyebrows beside you. Her usually soft features hardening as she watched the onslaughts, mind racing with how to resolve this situation.
The guests continued to flee, their shoes clanking loudly against the floor as they tried to escape. However, they were not spared the fury of the intruders. Some of the hooded figures went after them, dragging them back into the ballroom and hurting them as they refused cooperation. Royal guards came to the rescue but not before the attackers had already injured them, splattering their blood on the marble floor.
You squeezed your eyes shut as you held back a gag, terrified by the sight.
"Lady (y/n)!"
Zephyr yanked you back by the hand, just in time as a knife swung at you but missed by an inch. Your eyes widened as you narrowly escaped potential death (or potential disfigurement).
You didn't even get the chance to thank Zephyr for saving you when he, himself came under attack. One of the hooded figures had broken through the guards' defense and swung their dagger at Zephyr. Fast on his feet, Zephyr dodged the attack, sidestepping the figure before swiftly kicking them in the back of their knees, causing them to fall and drop their dagger. He kicked the dagger away before the figure had a chance to pick it back up.
!!
You couldn't help but be amazed. You didn't know Zephyr had moves like that.
The guards' defenses were strong but not impenetrable. Openings for a breakthrough were small and rare but the attackers took every opportunity. With enough tries, 2 of them managed to breach the line of guards and came towards you and Queen Marika.
They swung as you both dodged, though each with varying degree of ease. In a flash, Queen Marika's hand shot towards one of assailant's wrist, grabbing on tightly and stopping them from attacking before promptly disarming them with her other hand.
!!!
Did everyone here know self defense except for you?!??!
Another attacker broke through the defense and went for Zephyr. Left to your own devices, you raised your arms in front of you out of pure instinct as you desperately tried to protect yourself.
The hooded figure was relentless in their attack, swinging and slashing at you nonstop, leaving you with no choice but to keep backing away.
You felt something pierce the skin on your forearm before a sharp stinging pain began to spread from there.
You hissed in pain as your held your forearm, feeling warm blood oozing out of the cut and staining your sleeve. While you were distracted by the pain, the assailant took advantage of the moment and swung down at you.
You were running high on adrenaline, your instincts to survive going into overdrive mode as you grabbed their hand without even thinking, hoping to stop them from hurting you. Good news, it worked. Bad news, they retracted their hand before swinging again immediately and this time, you didn't have the chance to block.
Your attacker slashed upwards at your face. You tried to pull your head back from the blade but before you even knew what was happening, your veil had been slashed apart from the bottom near your lips up to your left eyebrow.
"Ah!"
You cried out in pain as your hands went to your face, feeling the same warmth and wetness from earlier dripping down your cheek and staining your fingers.
Blood.
You weren't sure where the wound was. Was it just around your eye or was your left eye now permanently messed up. You didn't know. The pain was agonising as you groaned and began to tear up from it.
This was messed up. Why was this happening?
What have you ever done to them to deserve this kind of treatment?
Who even were these people?
Why you?
Why the guests?
Why did they hurt everyone?
The figure raised their dagger high, aiming the point at your head.
"DIE!"
They plunged the dagger down to deal the final blow.
"!!!"
The dagger stopped in midair as the attacker froze.
You glared at the figure through the gaps between your fingers, teeth gritted and eyebrows knitted. Your blood dripped from your hand as you slowly staggered towards them.
You weren't thinking clearly. Your rationality having completely been thrown out the window as your emotions took over. A lump formed in your throat as you stifled the urge to scream and lash out. Your hands were shaking but not from fear.
You shook from pure, unadulterated rage.
These uninvited intruders dared to barge in and ruin your initiation that you prepared months for before proceeding to attack anyone and everyone on sight, not even sparing the innocent guests.
Perhaps if it had been just you who was targeted, you wouldn't have been so furious.
Perhaps you would have understood where they were coming from if no one else was hurted.
Perhaps you-
No.
Perhaps these people don't deserve your mercy.
Whatever grudge they had with you, however deep their hatred for you ran, it was no accuse to come for your neck. It was no accuse to jump the peace talks and resort to violence. It was no accuse to hurt others, innocent or not.
There was no accuse.
You raised your hand, curling your fingers into a fist.
I will cleanse this nation of its filth until only the beautiful remains. And until the garden of Eden appears once more, I will not stop, for the foundation of this paradise...
You swung your fist.
"Will be the blood of your kind."
You punched the figure in the face.
"Ack!"
You heard the figure gasped before falling to the ground.
"..."
Your senses came back to you as the rush of adrenaline passed. You backed away quickly, putting as much distance between you two as fast as you can before they can recover and attack again.
Your heart thumped loudly in your ears as you saw the figure pushed themselves onto their knees, one hand holding their face.
Suddenly, an arm appeared before you. You looked up and saw...Ocril. He shielded you behind him as he watched the figure scrambling on the ground in front of you, sword at the ready to defend you in his other hand should the figure attack again.
However, that seemed unnecessary.
The figure pressed their head to the ground as they started screaming.
"FORGIVE ME! I'M SORRY! PLEASE HAVE MERCY! HAVE MERCY!"
Everyone stopped and looked at the figure on the ground, including the other intruders. The figure continued to scream and you could hear the start of a nervous breakdown in their voice.
"I DIDNT KNOW! I WAS FOOLISH! FORGIVE ME! FORGIVE ME! MY LORD, PLEASE HAVE MERCY!"
Everyone stared on dumbfounded. The other intruders being especially confused by their ally's behaviour.
Another one of the hooded figures broke through the defenses of the guards and came to their ally's side.
You couldn't hear what they whispered to the other but you doubt they said much as they were immediately pushed to the ground by their ally.
The figure continued screaming and this time, you could tell they were crying.
"CALERUS, WE'RE SORRY FOR DOUBTING YOUR WILL! HAVE MERCY ON US! I BEG OF YOU! WE'RE SORRY!! HAVE MERCY!"
The figure's companion looked at them quizzically.
The stalemate between the guards and intruders was quickly broken soon after when a group of guards tackled some distracted figures and pinned them to the ground. The fight resumed but this time, the intruders seemed to be backing off.
The two figures in front of you scrambled to their feet(well, more like one of them dragged the other onto their feet) as they tried to fight their way out this time around. Ocril gave chase, leaving you in your place after a brief glance back at you to make sure you're alright.
Immediately after Ocril left, Zephyr rushed back to your side.
"(Y/N)!"
He hugged you tightly before noticing the blood on your face and gasping in horror.
"You're hurt! And what happened to your veil?!" Zephyr asked frantically as he held your face in his hands. He wiped some of the blood off your face with his fingers as he began to apologise profusely, "I'm sorry i didn't protect you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
As cold as this may seem, you couldn't help but wonder what was up with people apologising over and over again to you today. Zephyr was already the third one within the last 24 hours.
Looking up at him, you noticed tears beginning to form in his eyes. In a daze, you reached up and wiped his tears away with your sleeve. "You tried your best. I understand, Zephyr." you mumbled softly to him.
That seemed to have the opposite effect on Zephyr as more tears welled up in his eyes. He pulled you close and clung to you tightly, wrapping his arms around you as he silently cried. You felt his tears wetting your shoulder as he buried his face there.
You returned his hug and patted his back as you waited for him to calm down.
Zephyr must have been worried sick about you...
After a while, Zephyr reluctantly pulled away, breaking the hug. However, he still clung to your hand as he began to recompose himself.
The ballroom was a mess.
Although the intruders had already either fled or been captured, damage had still been done. Some unlucky guests who were targeted by the figures sat to the side of the ballroom as guards tended to their wounds, their sobs loud enough to be heard from the other side of the room. The floor was splattered with blood, belonging to both attacking intruders and defending guards alike. Swords and arrows laid scattered and broken on the ground, a stark reminder of what just transpired.
"..."
You couldn't believe this had happened.
"(Y/n)."
You weren't given much time to wallow in despair at the devastating events that just happened. Queen Marika snapped you out of your thoughts as she approached you. You noticed a small cut on her upper arm but besides from that, she seemed unscathed. "Marika, are you alright?" You nevertheless asked out of formality.
The queen nodded before replying, "Yes. Thank you for asking especially when you seem to be in a worse state than me." She gave you a worried look, "I'll call for the royal physician to look at your wound. Hopefully it's nothing too serious..."
You nodded and thanked her for it. Before you were escorted away to have your injury checked and treated, Queen Marika began speaking again. "(Y/n), I know it's been a long night but...I must request that you extend your stay just a bit longer." You cocked your head to one side at her words. You thought you would be going back to the temple after this.
"May i know why?" you expressed your confusion.
Queen Marika sighed deeply as she looked down momentarily. "The situation...may be worse than I thought. I don't wish to push this burden onto you so soon but..." She trailed off.
"We must bring forward our meeting."
~✟~
I. Am. So. Sorry. This was supposed to go up months ago but life got busy and i got stuck at the final ballroom scene T-T Im sorry to everyone who waited so long for this chapter!!! but at least, this chapter is extra long compared to the previous ones so hopefully it will be enough satiate the hunger and quell the anger ^^;(jk) Glad i finally got it done though. been feeling really guilty about postponing this chapter for so long.
Thank you for reading and please tell me if you find any errors so i can correct them!
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Christmas with Claggor ⋆.ೃ࿔
Description: fluff, friends to lovers, au!Claggor, gn!reader
A/n: I did not proofread so my apologies if there are any errors !!
Preparations
- You guys would decorate the bar for the upcoming Christmas party
- Powder and Ekko setting up the garlands, Mylo hanging the Christmas lights, while you and Claggor are decorating the tree
- “All we need is to put the star on top”, looking around for a ladder until you felt someone tap your shoulder
- “Or I can carry you so that you can reach it?” He chuckled while also nervously looking at you
- How can you deny him? You meekly nodded as he carefully held your thighs with one arm, “Sit on my shoulder so you won’t lose your balance” he smiled, bringing you to the tree
- The others watching you both with teasing smiles
- “And here I thought they’d get together before we did” Powder muttered while Ekko jokingly rolled his eyes
- Trying to put the star on top with shaking hands from the thought of how Claggor was able to carry you so easily
- “Got it!” You smiled staring at the decorated tree
- “Nice job sweetheart”
Party
- You were in Powder’s room, checking yourself in the mirror making sure nothing was out of place
- Meanwhile, Claggor was trying to find you since the party has already started and you still hadn’t come down
- He passed by Powder’s room and did a double take
- You also saw him from the side of the mirror and looked at him
- “Hey, sorry for taking so long. Just wanted to make sure I don’t look like a mess” you chuckled and all he could do was just stare with his mouth slightly open
- The silence was starting to overwhelm you until he slowly approached you
- “You look really good in that outfit sweetheart”
- The nickname was driving you insane
- “I’m afraid everyone is going to stare at you” he chuckled
- And he was right, you caught most of the people staring at you, and Claggor did not like that
- He kept his hand on your waist the entire time with the excuse of “I just want to make sure you won’t get lost”
- Sticking to each other’s side the entire time
- Until you started to get tired and he suggested that you both could go to the rooftop and relax there
- You agreed and he guided you towards the stairs, never letting go of your waist
- You both sitting on the edge, staring at the sky with your head on his shoulder
- “You know” he muttered at you looked at him, he was fidgeting his tie
- “I wasn’t lying when I said that you looked really good tonight” he gently held your chin, staring at your eyes
- “Thank you Claggor, and you look okay i guess” you both quietly laughed
- He leaned closer and stared at your lips
- “I know we’re friends, but I can’t stop thinking about kissing you for so long”
- You also leaned in closer, “I could give you one as my gift” you whispered
- “You don’t get it. Once I get to feel your lips, I will never stop asking for it”
- “I don’t mind”
- You both were staring at each other, waiting for the other to make a move
- “Oh hell” he couldn’t wait anymore and quickly pressed his lips onto yours
- Holding onto his neck while he held your waist, pulling you closer
- “Merry christmas sweetheart”
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This is actually a sort of two part ask, but if you dont do those its fine. Clonegrim reuniting with Lion and Gulliman, and then Clonegrim meeting the Sons of the Phoenix for some nice bondng time (Sons of Dorn my ass, Cawl.)
I actually have story on this in the works :3 it’s just not ready yet
BUT ASK AND YE SHALL RECEIVE
His hair was a mess, grime and dried viscera covered him, he wore a a tattered mess of random imperial rags and a Necron style tunic.
His eyes had dark bags under them and they looked tired. It there was a look saying “I can fight and will if I must.”
Guilliman had prepared various speeches and replies to say when he saw Fulgrim. But this version? He looked younger. Had it not been for the determination in him, he would have called it pathetic
Fulgrim tried to stand tall, balancing on the spear he had.
“Roboute Guilliman,” he spoke, trying not to let his voice falter. “I am a clone of your brother, Fulgrim. I have most of his memories… before corruption. I do not know why I was made. But I am not corrupted by chaos or the warp. I will be… better than the first. He… disgusts me. I hate him. I hate what he’s become… and I hate what he stands for. I am against him. I am still loyal to the imperium and Father. I have escaped from Necron clutches and fought tooth and nail to… get here. I am still… a Primarch. I can fight… I can be useful… I am on your side… and I am…”
The clone collapsed to his knees, breathing heavily, tears pricked his eyes.
“You are exhausted,” Was the only thing Guilliman could say.
The clone looked up at him with disdain and snapped, “Of course I am! I… golden throne… I just crossed half… the galaxy! Everyone trying.. to kill me! Wouldn’t listen! I… please let it be over… Roboute… brother… please… I’m good. I swear I am. I won’t betray you. Not like him… I want to do right… I want to see father again… I just…”
There were so many things he wanted to say. To yell at him… but this wasn’t the original. This was a clone. He even looked young.
Guilliman knelt and put a hand on his brother’s shoulder, “I do not fully trust you. I can’t. But you can rest now. You’re in my custody now.”
Fulgrim let out a sigh of relief as he collapsed forward, caught in his brother’s arms.
Their reunion was brief. Guilliman led the Lion down towards the stratagium deck.
“A clone?” He questioned. “And you trust this?”
Guilliman nodded, “We’ve been able to bond. He acts like a teenager with his age, but he’s saved my life. He is loyal. He is more like Fulgrim than the original. He will be pleased to see you.”
The door opened as they walked in.
“Are you sure?” Lion asked.
Before Guilliman could answer a voice called out, “Lion!”
Lion froze as a slightly shorter version of the third Primarch practically leapt into his arms.
He was stunned for a moment before speaking, “Fulgrim? Fulgrim!”
Excitement overwhelmed his suspicions. He hugged his brother and lifted him into the air.
“You look younger,” he laughed.
Fulgrim smiled back, “And you brother look older.”
Guilliman chuckled, “What a relief this is. I have two of my brothers back.”
All three embraced.
“I will warn you,” Calgar said. “They were most upset when they learned of who their geneseed really belonged to. Some are still in denial and insist they are sons of Dorn. Granted this was before you came back.”
Guilliman placed a hand on Fulgrim’s shoulder, “They will love you.”
The clone sighed, “I certainly hope so.”
As they exited the Thunderhawk rows of Purple, white, and Gold armor stood in neat succession. Those without helmets had pale blonde, white, or silver hair. Eyes were down shade of purple or a close blue.
Fiery imperial defiance danced in their eyes.
Fulgrim stepped forward and scanned over them.
He smiled, “You are all a sight for sore eyes. Many of you already remind me of the loyal sons of the imperium during the heresy. I am not Dorn, nor am I the original Fulgrim. But I swear unto you that I aim to rectify the originals mistakes. To be better. Now please, show me your ways and customs of your chapter. I am not here to destroy it or make you a carbon copy of the third legion. You are already better.”
Shocked expressions crossed the sons of the Phoenix’s. Yet slowly, they approached their Primarch out of curiosity and the longing for their father.
He slowly rested his hands on the shoulders of his sons as they introduced themselves.
Guilliman sighed with relief.
#warhammer 40k#wh40k#warhammer community#warhammer 40000#space marine#40k#warhammer fic#warhammer40k#my writing#warhammer#warhammercommunity#warhammer fanfic#sons of the phoenix#clone of fulgrim#fulgrim#roboute guilliman#lion el'jonson#marneus calgar#Primarch#primarchs#requests
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I'd like to request “Don't fight me, baby. Struggling is pointless.” with Makoi pleeeaaassee <33
comin right up !!!!!
nasty sentence starters
VII - "Don't fight me, baby. Struggling is pointless."
(cws: sequel to this prompt, gn!reader, noncon, dirty talk, overstim, creampie, possessive makoi)
“Fuuuck, I need a cigarette after that.” Hayao had commented cheekily when Makoi kicked them out into the courtyard, where the three of them sat on the patio smoking while the boss got his licks in with his new toy.
“Don't fight me, baby. Struggling's pointless.” Makoi grinned from ear to ear, nothing but pure, impassioned love in his eyes. “You're yakuza property already. Fuck, that's good-” He groaned, sweat pouring down his sculpted chest in the hazy, musky heat of the little paper-walled room.
“That's right, just melt into it, baby–so much easier if ya just give it up.” The Azumako heir cooed with utmost condescension–and it was warranted, because what could you possibly do? He was strong, and he pinned your arms down when you tried to swat at him initially. It only made him hornier, which only made it more agonizingly sensual when his flesh slid against yours and he stretched you out to make it fit. You moaned, overstimulation dominating every cell of your body–and Makoi laughed, echoing your pitiful cries of ‘Noooo’ back at you.
“C'mon-” He panted, his thrusts slapping wetly throughout the condensed haze of sex in the air. “-Gave it to my boys so nice, I'm feelin’ left out.”
Suddenly, he pulled out and held your legs aloft, sitting back to peer down between them and force your hands up to cover your face in embarrassment. “S'winkin’ at me, baby.” He chuckled. Makoi tested the abused flesh with his finger, circling tightly around your entrance before he dipped it inside. “Oh, fuck.” He dragged it out and slipped it into his mouth, sucking on two of his digits at a time just to taste your essence and bring them back down for some more probing. But your foot kicked out, you knocked him off balance, and he wobbled, giving you the perfect opportunity for you to flip over on your stomach.
Crawling away, however, was a pipe dream. He dragged you back against the tatami by your hips, his fingertips pressing bruises into the soft dips of skin. “Likin’ doggy more anyway.” His pearly teeth gleamed in the low light at the panicked expression you cast over your shoulder. “Relax, you'll take it so good for me. Pretty thing…” He murmured the praise into your ear with a slow, soft nibble as he slipped it in. It contrasted with the harsh thrust he delivered afterwards, his hands gripping your shoulders to yank you back to meet another, and another, and another. His palms smoothed down your arms until they met your wrists, and he tightened his hold around them to put you right in the position he wanted; your ass pressed up against his groin so every plap vibrated from deep within.
“Yeah?! Like that?” He roared, his open palm coming down on your jiggling ass with a sharp smack. “My fuckin’ bitch, my fuckin’ hole–goddamn squeezin’ on me like–hrgh-!” Makoi's voice grew pitchy and broken with each buck, clearly enjoying the ride twice as much when you made it harder for him. Something about you squirming really got him off.
“Oh-ho fuck yes! Where you been all my fuckin’ life, sweet thing?!” Makoi's voice catapulted off the thin walls, a look of pure, unadulterated bliss on his face as he humped you for all you were worth. “Prolly fuckin’ some shrimp-dicked chumps, huh? Nah, you're fuckin’ mine now, mine an’ my boys’ for-fuckin’-ever.” He slurred huskily. He looked drunk but he only smelled of cologne and not sake–maybe it was cause he'd never found someone who cried so sweetly at his promises to make them his.
“I know you don't wanna cum again, but I'm gonna make ya,” He pinched your lower lip between his thumb and forefinger, jerking your head to the side to look at him. “Cum on this fat fuckin’ dick, and I'll buy ya the biggest fuckin’ rock for that little finger.”
Plap, plap, plap, plap–they sped up, grew louder, got deeper. Makoi yanked your head back again and bit down on your neck, your squeals echoing through the little room until they dwindled into helpless, unconscious panting. Your last sensations were of heat and fullness and sticky, thick ropes of cum, before the bliss wiped your mind blank and the world whited out for a long while.
You awoke to Makoi rubbing your trembling legs some time later, one of them laid over his lap as he looked out the now-open screen, where the distant sounds of cicadas peppered the quiet, starry night. The other three were gone, having left behind nothing but an ashtray on the step and a few empty bottles. He traced circles into your knee as he came to the end of your thigh, only drawn away from his contemplative stargazing by the rustling of your kimono as you struggled to sit up. It had been long flattened and soiled beneath you by sweat and Makoi's seed, but it at least provided some semblance of cushion over the tatami.
“Y'okay?” His inquiry came out soft, gentler than the cackles and taunting that still rung in your ears from earlier. A bit befuddled, you didn't nod or shake your head, just stared through him. Regardless, he still leaned over and kissed the top of your head, with a hand bracing your cheek for his thumb to graze over. “Tea's on the way. Just relax.” His voice was as hoarse as yours felt, though you couldn't bring yourself to speak a word except one. Hurts.
“Hurts?” He repeated with genuine sincerity in his eyes. At his side, he dragged over a heavy-looking bowl that sloshed with water–from the depths of it he pulled out a soaked, steaming towel, which he wrung out and tested on his arm before laying it out carefully between your legs. The little hiss and grab for his shoulder to brace at the initial sting had a smile creeping back across his lips. “Yeah, y’took it hard. Thought I came so hard I blacked out back there.”
Makoi's fingers remained gentle, nudging at your flesh through the warm towel to soothe those pains he and his friends had caused. Why it felt so personal, so loving, was as much of a mystery to you as it was to him. He couldn't pinpoint why he liked you so much…he just did.
“Are you gonna get rid of me now?” You croaked. Makoi raised a brow, scoffed, and just split the quiet night with a chuckle before he leaned in close to your face.
“What'd I say? You're-” Smooch. “-fuckin’-” Smooch. “-mine.”
#makoi azumako#makoi azumako x reader#spicy writing#yandere ocs#yanverse#ellie writes#anons#ellie's sentence starters
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Just about every SINGLE inspo bathroom I could find had a big ass window in it. Well, my bathroom is small and windowless, cool. But it turns out putting a big window-sized picture up in a bathroom has a somewhat, Sims-like, space-embiggening effect:
Even if it doesn’t seem like it makes the room any bigger to you, it’s noticeably not as big-feeling as it would be in a regular room. It doesn’t loom. If you have a tiny windowless bathroom, consider obtaining a window-sized big framed Piece Of Art for it.
Common interior design mistakes: having a crummy house. Try having high ceilings with big windows, this will make your space feel airy amd inviting! Lots of extra rooms give you places to store things and reduce clutter in your living space. Consider having a view of the city skyline or perhaps the ocean, this will give your home a peaceful and sophisticated mood. Easy tips that anyone can follow!
#feat. lemon spider#art by roachpatrol#Missing The Point Of Posts o’Clock#also it’s all thrown off a bit by toilet grab bar now but WHATEVER#it was balanced nicely before that was put in#feel like the picture should move left now
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Alfred starts secretly dosing the manor with antidepressants and they stop wanting to fight crime
#i think it'd be funny if he dosed them with antidepressants and suddenly batman is soo much more careful than before#even bruce waynes relationships start improving#bruce starts freaking out when his now chemically balanced brain realizes he's putting his kid in severe danger every night and bans robin#from patrol. until he himself stops#after a few weeks of being 'happy' by his standards he starts realizing that something is amiss and eventually finds out that all the drink#in the manor have anti-depressants. to bring things back to the status qou he starts dosing himself with scarecrows fear toxin and robin#goes back on patrol. alfred is annoyed his plan didnt work oh well was nice while it laste#batman#robin#alfred pennyworth#bruce wayne#damian wayne#my thoughts#sadly jason doesnt get dosed often enough for them to actually work. anti-depressant would work wonders for you bbg#jason todd#tim drake
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achievement unlocked: accidentally starting something in my tiny town.
#To put it simply: local thrift store has a 48 hour hold policy. Wanted a furniture piece that would be helpful w dad being more homebound.#Was told it was bought two days before and lady would be back for it. Was in thrift store again today. Four days later.#Asked if policy meant it was back up for grabs or not. Shop manager herself said after six days abandoned when they needed floor space#I could take it home as long as I picked it up today. Slapped money down for it thinking SWEET NOW HE WONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT STEPS#dear reader. The woman had the audacity to show up for it not long after I left with it. Owner stood by store policy.#Oh facebook having a field day about this little rolling table.#out of stories#ANYWAY IT'S GONNA BE SO HELPFUL IT HAS FEATURES TO BE A NICE LIL MINI DINNER TABLE FOR MY PARENTS + ME IF THEY WANT JUST FOR THEIR ROOM.#SO ON DAYS WHERE HE CAN'T WALK OR BALANCE HE CAN JUST HOBBLE TO HIS CHAIR AND SIT AND EAT AND STILL HAVE DINNER W US.#NO MORE WORRYING ABOUT HIM AND THE STEPS!!!
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Summer Won't Last Forever; 100 Follower Event (Closed)
Technically past the OG 100, but oh well; better a little late than never! And thank you for the support, and I'm happy that people are enjoying the silly little stories I write. Now; onto the event!
Fandom
Just TWST at the moment. You can request the main cast, side characters, and staff!
Duration
I will be holding this event for 10 requests for followers. Once this is filled, I will be closing the event. This is so I don't overwork myself. The only exception will be for mutuals. Mutuals get special treatment, yes.
Once they are filled I will close the ask box until I'm done writing them, which. The ask box will then return after the event.
For mutuals, hit me up in messages if I close the ask box before you can get in ^v^
Rules
1 request per person; the only exception I may make is for mutuals (depending on engagement).
1 character per request; but do include two backups in case I already received an ask for X character with X prompt (also in case there are a lot of requests for one character). You may also include a backup prompt in case it has already been used.
Please include if you would like it to be platonic or romantic in nature.
No NSFW.
If you are on Anon, do feel free to leave an emoji (see here for taken emojis)
As a reminder, I typically only write gender-neutral reader (they/them/their's/you). I make exceptions for trans reader though (just include gender identity and pronouns please).
Ortho and Grim are strictly platonic.
Anything romantic will be aged up; imagine the cast to be in an actual college.
~ Now onto the Event ~
Hot days fall into cool nights. Carnivals arrive in town. Long days spent at the beach or community pool. Fond memories made with friends. But, summer won't last forever.
Prompts
Stargazing
Let's beat the heat
Beach day
Farmer's market
Road trip
Carnival fun
Campfire antics
By the babbling brook
Long-distance relationship
Caught in the rain
Also, feel free to leave up to 3 emojis in brackets if you want to add anything extra. The majority of these should be fluff, but feel free to indicate if you would like something other than fluff in your ask!
Example; May I request *character* with *prompt* and (🌻🌻🌻). Could it please be platonic and fluffy?
These will be in the form of drabbles; which may range between 300 and 900 words depending on if the muse of writing inspiration strikes me or if I get carried away. Knowing me, I may get carried away for some ^v^;
Once this event is done I'll be heading back to writing for the Soul Match AU; which will be none other than the resident wet cat, Idia Shroud *ominous chortling*
Tags (aka my mutuals that I have on my main ^v^)
@eynnwwyjth, @krenenbaker, @azulashengrottospiano, @silvers-numberonefan, @twistwonderlanddevotee, @ithseem, @inkybloom-luv, @leonistic
As a reminder, do not put my work — or others for that matter — into AI as it steals. Link to Masterlist
All works will be under the tags #dove does events & #100 follower event.
#100 follower event#dove does events#twst#twisted wonderland#twst x reader#twst x gn reader#twisted wonderland x reader#twisted wonderland x gn reader#mutuals can and will always get special treatment#tw flickering#<- for the gif#depending on how this event goes can and will effect future events#if engagement is good; great then i'll continue doing them; if not; i'll still do them just not as many#also 10 is a good number since i have noticed that engagement has been super low with a lot of blogs; we don't bite people ^v^#i did 10 for the match-ups and i was able to balance them quite well plus good writing#don't be like dove and write 31308 words [just the soulmatch au] in 34 days; 69.6 pages#<- ayeeeeee nice#gotta read over some inspo material first for idia though; back to the greek mythology hyperfixation i go#writing; powered by hyperfixation~#also i put the rules before the actual event info as that makes the most sense to my brain#edit; 42000 words since June 13 or 14 someone take my laptop away
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Doodle that was. Supposed to be something else but I decided it would be funny to draw them scared pressed against the wall silly style (attempting to hide in plain sight)
Now what are they hiding from....? 🤔 And Why? 😳
Under cut! Is a process shot that would make an onlooker ask "Where are their clothes :/" but I actually really like the anatomy there so I wanna show it!!
Omg nobody look!!! They're naked........ (mostly.)
#fire emblem#feh#I THINK i've mentioned it before but moe's pants are v intentional (few dif ways) but most relevant here#is how they cover up moe's figure. which is honestly something i downplay but IS meant to be present#VERY thin line to tread. between how it can feel nice vs aaugh augh ogh aaugh dysphoria. aaughhhhhooughghhh#but also it was really fun to draw moe like. prominently round shaped. it really is so satyr coded.#PLUS ALSO. dysphoria can't catch me when alfonse fire emblem over here is so thighs. he is SO thighs#but here comparing the process to the clothed sketch you can really see just how much the pants change its shape#moe is NOT a twink. its thighs and ass are too fat. this should be celebrated. give me strength to celebrate this.#meanwhile alfonse i just can't help myself. he's supposed to be slender esp upper half of him but#put some flesh on his bones or so help me. make him sturdy. climbable. ect.#still sharena calling him 'kind of slender actually' in alfred's fbs lives in my mind rent free.#it is SUCH a balancing act.....#fe alfonse#moe tag#summoner oc#my art
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I have decided that yenskier overrules geraskier because it implies geraskier existed and at the same time it acknowledges that it wasn't healthy
#also it's very full of rage#it's an us-against-the-world kind of ship#and not a i-will-ruin-you kind of relationship#i mean if you put all three of them you get the optimal relationship because it forces them to be balanced and everything nice#but if we're talking about just boring 2 partecipants couple i think yenskier is a much more empowering dynamic for all parties#eccept for geralt bacause he's an asshole and needs to learn manners before ever speaking to either of them#the witcher#the witcher netflix#jaskier#geralt#yennifer#yennefer#geraskier#yenskier#inthepipes
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Just ate the most amazing tangerine I've had in A LONG TIME
#but as i was eating it...the entire experience reminded me of myself in a strange way#i chose it because it looked amazing - the skin was a vibrant orange i had never seen before#but as i tried to peel it i had massive difficulty#i wondered if maybe it wasn't actually ripe yet despite how wonderful it looked on the skin and maybe it would be bitter or dry to eat#then it sprayed me as i was trying to peel it and i tasted it#it tasted nice#finally i got enough pieces exposed to take and eat#and as i bit into it - it was everything i had hoped:#a perfect balance between sweet and sour without being at all bitter#i could not eat it politely due to its firmness and juice ran down my hands and sprayed onto my face and hair#but it was worth it#and it made me think:#hey. i look great but i have an incredibly tough exterior too#but when you take the time to get to know me — you realise i can be very sweet and very sour at times depending on my life#and maybe i am a mess too#but all put together...i am still wonderful. and that i am worth the effort too.#roacc#thoughts of a cruel mistress
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Say, and I literally don't mean any offense but isn't Jesse being included in the storie a little much? Not in a negative sense because I genuinely love him and its your story and you can of course do what you want I was just wondering since it just feels like we get a lot from him even though he's supposed to be a side character? ( I'm really sorry if this comes of as offensive cause I really love Jesse and all of his awkward, jealous and apparently self hating self )
Perhaps, but at the same time it is very much on purpose, which is about to become incredibly obvious in the upcoming chapters. I can guarantee he takes a sizeable backseat in the next story though (as in, probably won’t have chapters almost exclusively dedicated to him).
Just the same, I really wanted to lay his foundation and get him established as a character now so I don’t have to do it later when it’s inconvenient and ill-fitting, and thus can go all out with the gut-punching stuff instead :3
#no offense taken anon#I always feel like I go overboard#but then there’s the group that’ll be like ‘we haven’t seen Jesse in a while where is he??’#so I doubt I could ever truly reach the perfect balance#I just know what needs to happen before certain points and thus I’ll make sure I’m there *-*)9#and if that means putting some extra spotlight on a side character to drive a point home#then that’s what we’ll do!#legacyverse#oc: jesse marvell#asks from nice people
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Good evening girls. Made an absolute fool of myself @ the sams club today
#basically I was like let me go get snacks for the salon since my mom added me to her membership and I haven't really utilized it yet#got my snacks. was like okay let me get a slice of pizza! thatll be good#order my pizza. they tell me it'll be a 12 minute wait. I say that's fine!! and decide to put my snacks in the car while I wait#get out to my car. get all the snacks in. have one case of dr pepper left. haul it up.#one can fucking explodes and covers my light pink skirt in dr pepper viscera and gore#I now look like I've pissed myself#aight. well I already paid for my pizza so I gotta go back...#clean up as much as two napkins allow me to and head back in#ofc nobody cares but it feels like people are looking. whatever. so what if I pissed myself. grow up.#go to fill up my cup w dr pepper (despite the betrayal). no dr pepper.#dear god why. okay. uhhhhh starry???? i guess!!#take a sip. it tastes like shit. oh well. theyre calling my name now#go pick up my pizza. the cheese is nice and melty and it smells good. :) okay. life is still good!#halfway back to the exit I'm balancing my plate on my arm and and I'm holding the cup claw machine-style#the lid snaps off the fucking cup and it spills a good 1/2 cup (cooking measurements) onto the floor#oh my god why. why why why why why.#okay. we can fix this. it's not a ton. put my cup on table and do a cute little walk of shame back to the napkins#get like 50 napkins and do my goddamn best to clean up my mess. goes fine. okay. time to get the fuck outta here before I do something worse#back at my car. open door. holding cup like normal now. lid pops off again and spills all over my skirt a second time.#why the fuck is this happening to me.#out of rage I put my pizza in the car and dump the rest of the cup out on the pavement. tasted like shit anyways#lady in car next to me watches the whole thing.#yeah you're witnessing mental illness bitch. enjoy.#lost my appetite. pizza is good but I don't even want it now
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I think there are limits to what is considered basic respect and crossing your own boundaries for someone else. I definitely have experienced that a lot, where one day I will be "me", and the next day I'll be someone else with completely different boundaries and feelings. There's also cultural implications, the type of "respect" varies to where you live.
So, I feel like, there is a lot of figuring out of social cues involved, and that's clearly not easy for people who don't see anything wrong with acting in different ways, whether it be their neurodivergence, culture or boundaries.
I find it naturally easy to be "nice" when I am me. But there's many people that have to work harder to "be nice" or "polite". And that doesn't make them an asshole. So depending on your social skills, you can be completely out of luck and offend someone that you didn't mean to offend. And at that point, is it really true to say that being "kind" doesn't come with emotional labor or social work?
Some of y’all act like basic manners, general human decency, and kindness to others is SO MUCH emotional labor. I don’t like that shit.
#its not really as simple as op is making it out to be#and while i understand their feelings#not everyone has the same social understanding and energy#that's what im alluding to. and before anyone says 'its not that deep'#i find it difficult to ignore that people like me struggle a lot#including- *too much* social nicety causes things to be awkward or stressful#i say this as someone with severe social anxiety. its not as simple as being nice to everyone#and to put down boundaries you have to be rude#there needs to be a healthy balance lest you snap at someone and ruin their damn day#thats happened to me more than once where i was socially drained and yelled the fuck at people#people should be nicer but people should also do away with many many social rules
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#tag talk#been playing a new minecraft world. went back to 1.12.2 to play Tektopia cause it's still hands down the best colony sim mod I've found.#and honestly it's a lot of fun to play without making big farms or anything. no elytra no iron farm no mob grinder just playing.#I did add the mod that gives you xp from harvesting crops because it makes enchanting gear way more accessible and I like it like that.#I also miss the old ore generation. strip mining isn't very fun so it's nice to be able to dig for all your ores in one place#having to dig for iron at ~y=0 and then dig a second time for iron at - 56 just fucking sucks. and deepslate is cool but sucks to dig throug#anyway yeah I've been just building a starter base first so I've got the resources to build and care for my town starting out#it's gonna be a forest vibe. town hall is gonna be up in a big tree in the center so I've been building that up rn.#oak logs + spruce planks really is pretty much the best combo ever. they look so good. I'm bad at making custom trees though so it's hard#idk what design I'm going for with the ground buildings. I haven't gotten there yet. I'm gonna lay out the paths first and then do buildings#get an idea of the shape of the town before I decide what the buildings are gonna look like when fitting in. lotsa leaf block hedges for sur#I also miss when fishing gave you better enchanted books. it was the best way to avoid having to do villager trading.#I got an autofish mod on latest version (1.20) and spent the entire night fishing with a maxed out fishing rod and got zero mending books#like. I don't want to be forced to do villager trading. they're trying to cut back and balance villager trading.#so why tf can't I get mending anymore. it's stupid.#I also put in a disenchanting mod that lets you transfer enchants from tools onto books so that's a good way to get mending from all those..#all those extra fishing rods and bows that fish up once you already have a maxed one.#I need to make a second rod without luck of the sea so I can fish up more lily pads. I don't need anymore enchanted books#anyway. by I'm gonna go snooze in bed some more
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