#it was also like 5 girls and 20 guys and idk how that happened bc everyone at my high school had to take gov senior year

[steviescrystals]

being one of two liberals in a government class full of raging conservatives my senior year of high school was character development

[serialadoptersbracket]

Round 4, Match 5: Shōta Aizawa vs. The Fix

Submitted kids:

Shōta Aizawa: Class 1-A, minus Mineta, plus Shinsou Hitoshi (total of 20 kids). Mainly Eri, Shinsou, and Midoriya

The Fix: Conrad Schintz, and then he adopted like, an whole orphanage, named Madam Loathings home for wayward interests

Propaganda under the cut! (Spoilers ahead!)

Shōta Aizawa:

1. “This grumpy teacher pretends not to care about his students, sleeps during his own classes and why talk when you can also make annoying children silent by (harmless) force? Yet he loves them and they love him while he doesn't show it all that often.”

2. “He didn't mean to adopt them yet he did and he is grumpy about it. If he goes "those are my kids, damn it" it's not to someone else, it's to himself, with the damn it being a "fuck, why". Yet he is so 100% willing to risk his life for them. Because they *are* his kids now.”

3. “Idk the man is so tired what can I say. Harsh as australias wildlife but bc he doesn’t want them to actually die in the field so he’s trying to make them give up on signing up to risk your lives every day. I just submitted kiryu and I think that kiryu, bruce, and aizawa are soul sisters. They are all very special to me”

4. “Oh he tries so hard to stay scary and detached, keeps threatening to expel students, keeps saying he hates kids, and look at him now. Missing several pieces and risked death multiple times to protect them, at least 3 classes of ~20 students each lowkey adoring him, and literally canonically (not said out loud but it's basically official come on, they live together) adopted a little girl that was found by the protagonist and saved from the mafia. Also personally took the matter in his own hands when another department's student (so not one of his) showed a desire to change course, so much that even if this kid has living and loving parents he's often Aizawa's adopted family in fanfiction.”

The Fix:

1. “Ok ok so. Spoilers for mentopolis: First some context that mentopolis is a show that takes place inside one guys brain, all the characters represent something in the brain, and the guy whos brain they are in, named Elias Hodge, is so so very sad.

Ok so, The Fix, the personification of hyper fixation, is like is someone who has spent most of his life working for people, where his job was to 'eliminate distractions' (He kills people, basically). Then one day he is told to eliminate a child. His name is Conrad Schintz (Or the Conscience, due to an accident that happened to the guys who's brain they are in when he was a child- Conrad stopped thing he was useful, aka Elias stopped using his conscience, so his conscience has not grown since the incident, leaving him a small child)

The Fix has never had to hurt a kid before, and he doesn't want to do that, so he instead goes into protecting Conrad. Conrad kind of hates himself though and also kind of thinks he deserves to die so that's not good.

The Fix gave this like, beautiful speech to Conrad once about how hes important, I wont give the whole thing but something along the lines of ""There is a butterfly who has a tail that is there for if a bird was to grab on to the tail, it would break off and the butterfly would escape. I don't think you are the tail of the butterfly, I think you are the butterfly."" (its better in the actual show). I cry. There is another speech about eagles he gives Conrad when Conrad offers himself, to basically die, but i don't remember it that well.

Other then Conrad though! So There is this orphanage, called Madama Loathings home for wayward interests. Basically its a bunch of kids that represent past interests of Elias. Its run by this women called Madam Loathing (represents Elias' self Loathing)(she is very mean to the kids). The Fix donates a lot of money to this place, and visits a lot, the kids there love him and think he is so so cool. There is this one kid named Ronnie Reptile. He loves reptiles, and The fix gives him reptile facts, its cute. In the first episode, The Fix tells Madam Loathing how any of those kids/interests could be rediscovered by Elias at any time, and madam loathing sort of taunts The Fix, sort of saying how ""Oh I'm sure I can tell the kids they will call be adopted by The Fix soon, but that would be kind of cruel, wouldn't it?"" Implying that that won't happen. (cause, The Fix is hyper fixation, and hyper fixation adopting an interest would be good, you know.).

Note that Conrad used to live at madam loathing's, because he was mis identified as just a simple interest and not Elias' whole sense of conscience, but Corad ran away with his best friend, a dog named Justin. He lived on the streets after that.

So a bit later on in the series The Fix and Conrad have to go to to madam loathing's together (and another character is with them but he isnt relevant for this). When they get there Madam Loathing asks The fix if he is here to drop of Conrad here, and The immediately is like "Absolutely not, shut the fuck up." (I think that's the direct quote). I just really like that scene.

At the end, end of the series. Some plot stuff happens. The Fix met a women named Pasha N (She represents Passon), and they are in love, The fix proposes to her, its sweet, but then madam Loathing, who got some like, character growth I won't really go into here, and she says to The Fix how, she needs to go on a trip to find herself, and then she offers the entire orphanage to The Fix and Pasha, which is accepted. So in the end of the show, The Fix has basically adopted, that entire orphanage, so thats a lot of kids, along with Pasha, but she isn't in the show as much so I wont submit them as a pair. I didnt mention it before but The Fix is known for knowing a lot of facts and saying "Did you know." before saying a fact, which a lot of the time, it is a fact that is truly terrifying but thats a lot, and The narration at the end of the shows, says how The Fix and Pasha spend their lives with kids around them, constantly saying "Did you know? Did you know?" and it is very sweet. Conrad sort of had his own ending away from The Fix, but I still head cannon that The Fix adopted him too and Conrad comes to the orphanage sometimes.”

2. “listen. i don't know if this really counts as propaganda but just saying, mr. the fix thinks you're not the tail of a swallowtail butterfly. you are the butterfly.”

[hellsbellschime]

Danny Masterson’s ex girlfriend posted a series of ig stories about Mila and Ashton where she alluded to some things that happened back in the day. She mentioned something about Ashton’s ex who was murdered and what happened that night, and then mentions some some sketchy behavior towards Mila about her time on the show that actually made me really sad.

Like given that she was 14 and he was 20 you can already assume she wasn’t being treated age-appropriate. But also it hit really personally because I met a girl during my summer job who was 17 and had been working there for a while, and used to try really hard to fit in with some of the older guys bc she had a crush on two of them, not realizing that those men’s behavior (men who were 5 and 9 years older than her) where completely inappropriate. And then you look at old interviews with Mila and you can clearly see she was put in situations that are very wrong but that she dismissed as funny and probably being in those men’s ‘level.’

And the fact that she’s married to one of the guys now… i mean i know they reconnected like 10-15 years later but given their history and past interviews it’s creepy as fuck.

Idk just watching a woman defend a man who has most likely groomed her in some manner or at least been inappropriate enough for a third party who’s witnessed it to say she needs therapy to process everything she went through… that’s very sad .

Yeah it's all very weird, Mila being so much younger than the rest of the cast and being so young in general is just odd, and I can imagine a dynamic between a group of coworkers who are older teenagers plus one young teenager would be really strange and could make the younger person feel like they need to follow the lead of everyone else and go with the flow to seem "cool." I know nothing about them personally but just thinking about how a bunch of teenagers would act makes the potential dynamic here seem pretty obvious. It's just a kind of strange situation made even stranger by the fact that this was a cast of college-aged actors plus someone who started the show when she could have been a high school freshman.

[nathank77]

3/28/24

6:02 a.m updated/edited/added to

Well some retail therapy. Thanks to my creditline I have like 28 pairs of boxers but the majority are mediums. They fit but are uncomfortable... a little tight...

I've been maintaining my weight at 188. I could go hypo and gain some before I go to Methimazole once every 2 weeks it's experimental obv to see how my body responds.

So I bit the bullet, I mean I can't help it I'm a boxer snob and I won't ever wear Hanes again. Once you put on under armour boxers there is no going back. I'm not joking. They are so fucking soft and long lasting.

I'm going to look so good in my new body shot in these. I still got to buy cigarettes but I can afford it with the statement balance at the right time. I'm going this weekend...

Since I don't buy weed anymore and I'm not buying my medical card as of yet. I got my glasses and I'm about to get my Oakley later today.

Everything is in motion. Why not stop picking between my 5 pairs of boxers in large without holes and then wearing 2 pairs of Adidas with big holes in the butt... I got 12 pairs of under armour, and with my other 3 I already own I have 15, then 2 nice pairs of Adidas... so that means I got 17 nice comfy pairs. I can't go back to hanes. I could have gotten Adidas but they were marginally cheaper. And if I'm spending 26-30$ on 3 pairs of boxers I might as well go for ones I really like.

Beyond that I'm getting new shoes. I have a lot of pairs but every pair but one has holes in the bottom of the soles.

I still need t shirts too but I'm just going to look like a teenager and buy Walmart graphic t shirts in the future. I can get 20 for 130$ which isn't half bad. But not anytime soon.

Next month in April I got to get a couple polos incase I go to the tango so women find me attractive. The thing is I'm a t shirt, jeans and high top kind of guy.... so it doesn't fucking matter. Only issue is all My t shirts are tattered with the paint coming off.. minus like 2. I don't think it's a good idea to get them now as idk whats going to happen to my waistline. I'm about 6 weeks on methimazole... and I got 6 months to see where I end up....

So we will see. I have hoodies and a lot of them but they are stained and shit. Either way getting under Armour boxers will really help.

The shoes will help bc I can wear them or the other red Adidas depending on my outfit. One thing at a time. I'm excited that I don't have to wear underwear with holes.

I'm excited that Two pairs of sneakers I'm going to own don't have holes in the sole.

Polos next for the tango... and in a few months I'll get some graphics t shirts that aren't anything special but they won't be tattered, in a year or so I'll go hoodie shopping.

Depending on my waistline I'll get a new pair of jeans...in 6 months. I only have one pair... but it's nothing worth investing atm. I got to try them on in store anyways. Fit really matters to me.

I'm excited to debut my body in these boxers. And I mean wearing under armour boxers is like going commando. They are so soft and comfortable. I just can't go back to Hanes..

I also got 6 pairs of socks. I owe like almost 400$ bc of the game I bought on ebay but whatever i deserve comfortable boxers with no holes. I deserve shoes without holes.

I deserve to feel good about myself and be comfortable. I keep having money spending shock cause I'm so used to spending 300-400$ on weed a month...

But I'm not doing that anymore. I'm not renewing for a while.. and I'll figure out cbd as I go.. I still have enough to cure my microsleep days for a while.

I feel crazy but I spent all night doing math. Boxers are important.

Once I get my polo for a date night or the tango I'll look good for it but a girl has to accept me for me. High tops, jeans, a ratty t shirt and my nerdy glasses otherwise it isn't worth it..

I'm going to be me unshamed and proud... and if you don't like me fuck off. I don't wear dress shoes, I don't wear button ups cause I can't afford them but I would for a fancy date... I don't see those happening anytime soon.

This is me, take me as I am or GTFO. I live in poverty but I'm good with money. Take me as I am.

[gravyhoney]

Gladly, I love talking about my ocs.

So basically, Rubix (she/they) and Blake (she/he) grew up in a terrible situation, young kids with a group of bounty hunters who hated them. (Blake’s mom was a hunter and reallyyyyyyy didn’t bother to give him the time of day due to the crushing guilt of killing her own husband) and because of it they kind of. Hate each other. Rubix manages to get out when she’s 15 (Blake is 13) and Blake is MAAAAADDDDDD AS HELL and also a little jealous. Most of the plot of Golden Dandelions happens, Rubix and Blake are confronted with each other again (Rubix is 17, Blake is 15 now) and they uh. Try to kill each other until Rubix manages to give Blake a change of heart. Bounty hunters are arrested, Blake is adopted by Rubix’s friends mom, all is well. Also DURING THIS TIME Rubix met Sam (he/him, 18) and they totally hit it off. Become coworkers. Sam moves into Rubix’s other friend’s apartment building. All is well. Again. Rubix and Sam start dating bc. They’re cute. ANYGAYS!! A few years down the line, Blake (18) and Rubix (20) are like ‘I care about you deeply. This must be what romantic feelings for another person is and ALSO starts dating. Sam is fine with this. He’s pretty close to Blake aswell. Almost a year later, Blake, only knowing horrific trauma her entire life, is like ‘hey, this is too normal and nice and it’s freaking me out and I literally can’t stay here’ and leaves, leaving his phone behind and not even leaving a note or anything. Blake is gone for 8 YEARS!! During that time, Rubix and Sam get married and have one (1) kid named Skye, Blake shows back up, once again after 8 years, when Skye is 5. Rubix is PISSED but also fucking relieved as hell, Sam is only relieved. Blake is like ‘sorryyyyy this girl I was dating tried to kill me and I decided I wasn’t into it so now I’m back also I missed you guys and your kid is so cute can I be back in your life now?’ And Rubix is like ‘NO!!!!! Go live with your adopted sister or smthn ur NOT welcome in my house’ so Blake goes and lives with Inky and Pastel and uh. Then all is well idk.

Doesn’t start well, doesn’t end well, you know how it is.

As someone who heavily advocates for normalizing polyamory especially in fiction, I only have ONE polycule in my story. And it doesn’t even end well, two of them are HEAVILY connected due to a severe shared trauma, and one of them uo and leaves without a word for eight years and only shows back up after the other two got married and had a kid. They don’t even get back together.

[oh-my-damn]

Oh boy I logged in at the right time LOL. This is in response to the new ick ask, so if anyone wants to scroll who disagrees haha. I agreed with number 5 on that list as well. They made good connections on the other ones but 5 ties directly to my issues with older men dating so young.

Men who say things like they want a woman who knows how to apologize or doesn’t push back? I’m in my mid twenties and while I have been in relationships, just because of how the passage of time works, I don’t have as much insight into them as a woman in her 30s or 40s would. I go to my older cousins and mentors for advice all the time. To see older men with women my age is gross because no matter what there’s a power dynamic and with that comes the risk of being able to manipulate someone easier. I said what I said 🤷‍♀️

So yeah, I’m over Chris. There’s a reason I was never a Leonardo DiCaprio stan or something. Shit like this is a character/morals thing for me.

Once again, my opinions under the cut. If you read it and get offended or upset, that's on you. Don't hurt your own feelings lol

I absolutely agree.

It's something you won't understand if you've never been in a situation like that. All men can be manipulative, but there's something just a little more special about an older man dating a younger woman.

She can be smart, deep, mature (for her age! that's the key point bc thats what everyone always say).

Fact of the matter is that people change as they get older. They learn organically. They gain experience. It doesn't matter how mature you seem for your age, you will always lack experience compared to someone in their 40's.

Women in their (especially early) twenties are also usually in a situation where they're trying to define themselves in relationships. They won't know the pitfalls or red flags to look out for bc they haven't experienced them. Even if we think we have a handle on it, there will always be more to learn. And I think it's worrying that someone above 40 can "identify" with someone who's in their 20's. Cool dude, but you shouldn't be. It's a red flag that you do. A MAJOR one.

Now, Chris definitely fits into that box. He's never had a successful long term relationship. All of his exes have moved on pretty beautifully (most even got married/had kids RIGHT AFTER they got out of the relationship. Clearly they wanted it, just not with him.) I think it says a lot that he can't make it work with people within his age group and has now gone searching for younger girls. I always thought the rumors about him hooking up with 20 year old interns in DC was just that - a rumor. But now I'm not so sure anymore.

I'm done trying to defend him on anything. I feel bad for Alba if it really is a situation where he's controlling or manipulative. I'm not saying he is - I'm saying it fits the pattern (also the videos from the pap walk are also kinda alluding to that, ngl)

If they're happy that's great. But a lot about this situation seems fishy. It's not a coincidence they've been ramping it up ever since the WN trailer came out and its DEFINITELY not a coincidence they were "papped" the same day season 2 came out. It's also not a coincidence that the person who "randomly papped them" is the same guy as the one who took the pictures of him and Lily James in 2020 (who, btw, usually works exclusively in London and LA. lol) There was also someone on tumblr who revealed days in advance that a pap walk had been booked for Chris in NY. So they're definitely using it for PR - the question is just how deep it goes.

Either way, it's a shame it had to overshadow the entire SMA thing. That's honestly too bad. We'll see what happens. But I can't lie about my feelings. Idk when my muse will come back, all I know is that seeing his face rn makes me make this face

[kittywriites]

&& – (( WELCOME...TO JURASSIC PARK ))  just kidding

Kitty or Kat. 20s. Smutty nerd.

fullpogue  → kittywriites

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♥ This is an ongoing wishlist that I will continuously be updating based on my whims, wicked as they may be! They vary from cute and fluffy to NSFW debauchery so be warned xo.

&& Updated: 5/19

By Muse:

Caleb Carrick (R.aymond A.black)  — Cute domestic things, i.e: getting engaged, getting married, honey moon stuff. — Loosely based on Rufus and Lily from Gossip Girl. They were each other’s first great loves, but her ridiculously wealthy family won’t hear of it. At 18 they gave her the ultimatum of her trust fund and family, or him. She chose the money. Fast forward and they run into each other as adults again and those dormant feelings come back and he somehow finds out she didn’t really leave him by choice. — ALL THE AFFAIRS. He’s a sweet guy who never means to hurt anyone but he’s also very passion driven so if he meets someone who gets his heart racing even if he’s already married...

Elijah Young (R.udy P.ankow) — Give him all the cougars. Mom’s friends, friends’ moms, boss’ wives, neighbors.  — He’s a handyman/contractor/landscaper/etc. Gimme some Princess Bride ‘as you wish’ type shit where he’s working at her home and she’s a condescending little brat at first bc she’s rich and spoiled and he’s not, but soon feelings are happening and she’s sneaking around with the help even though her dad would kill him. Maybe even literally for some spice.

Javier Russo (T.ommy M.artinez) — He’s the black sheep of his family (think like, lawyer and doctor types, but he dropped out of college to live in a shitty apartment and play music in dive bars and he LUVS it) so I’m dying for something where he hooks up with a girl after he plays one night, and then shortly after goes to home to meet his brother’s fiance. Oh look, it’s the girl he had super hot sex with and neither one of them can stop thinking about it??? — I need him to repeatedly have his heart broken by a toxic hottie who reels him back in every time he starts to move on, kthx. — ACTUAL love at first sight with someone he can’t have. That’s the plot.

Roxanne Ford (M.adelyn C.line) — ANOTHER PRINCESS BRIDE-ESQUE VIBE OKAY. Give her some sweet guy that’s working in/on/around her fancy house that she loves to order around. She’s mean but he adores her, idk.  — She lowkey a little evil, so a plot where she’s blackmailing someone into an affair would be -chef’s kiss-. Basically this post.  — I would like her to BE a toxic hottie who repeatedly breaks some poor boy’s heart and then pulls him back in every time he starts to move on. Could be because she’s in love with him too but just doesn’t ~do love~ or just because she’s spiteful and selfish wHO KNOWS. — Give her an O.liver J.ackson-Cohen. Please.

Dominic Moretti (S.keet U.lrich) && PSA: he’s not a nice guy lmao. — Give him innocent little doves looking for adventure for him to seduce, corrupt, and destroy, but also give him evil little vixens that will gleefully watch him beat the snot out of a disobedient gang member, and then tell him how hot he looks with bloody knuckles. I mean...bonus if those are the same muse AHEM.

Jack Huxley (R.ay N.icholson) — He’s a grease monkey and he needs to have an affair with the shop owner’s classy, older, trophy wife.  — Highschool sweethearts that were supposed to “make it” but she became the one that got away when she left their little town. And now she’s back for reason xyz and oh hey, old feelings. And maybe she’s got a kid that looks like him, who knows?!

Angelo Martin (O.scar I.saac) && PSA: he is a VERY not nice guy lmao. — Loosely a professor, but could also be a boss or landlord. — VERY willing to exchange favors and blackmail for sex. Like, the dirty degrading kind where he constantly reminds you what a filthy little slut you are for letting him fuck you as part of a transaction. && For Dom and Angelo: I really think they’re evil besties who should definitely double team one of Angelo’s students when they see her in Dom’s nightclub one night. That’s all.

FC Pairings I Want Because I’m Superficial:

M.adelyn C.line/O.liver J.ackson-C.ohen (preferably something taboo like professor/student, stepcest, boss’s daughter, whateva)

D.avid Harbour/S.ophia B.ush

B.lake Lively/M.atthew G.rey G.ubler

R.udy Pankow/S.ophia B.ush

R.ay N.icholson/S.ophia B.ush

If you give me literally any of the above, I will love you 5ever!!! PLEASE feel free to shoot me a message to let me know what plot(s) or face(s) you’d be interested in!

As always, please read my rules and banned list before interacting, BUT COME AT ME, BOOS!

[choijrie]

Thoughts on Pretty Little Liars: Original Sin

First off, i liked it, it’s definitely a enjoyable show and it would’ve been way better if it wasn’t a pll reboot, bc of the og pll? nothing alike. It’s like show need it the name for it to be popular, made some references here and there (the ezria one? 🤢🤢), made the villain go by A and called it a day. Bc truly it doesn’t feel like a reboot, it doesn’t have the same feel to it that pll had, that made it so good even tho it wasn’t a good show at its core. Also i don’t see how are they gonna make second season? when we already know who A is? unless there is someone else working with Archie it wouldn’t make sense for more seasons.

Now, my opinions

First off, gotta get this off my chest, what the actual fuck is that Mouse storyline? like i honestly don’t get it, it’s so fucked up and we don’t even know a lot of it, why does she it do? why does her mom go to that group? why do they act like she was actually kidnapped when she wasn’t, wasn’t even taken for 5 minutes? it’s all so weird

I also don’t like how they made it clear that Wes is a creep but Tabby is still around him? I’m sorry but if 15 yo my daughter told my her 20 something boss made a move on her, i would make her quit and report him, why does she keep working with him seriously

I honestly don’t think Imogen pregnancy was handled well, i get that not everyone goes through the same things but it was like sometimes she wasn’t even pregnant, also zero safety awareness for this girl

Faran is my girl, love her, my favorite. The only thing i don’t get is why would herbully be madame giry? like idk i feel like she quite liked faran, she kept wanting to give the lead part and all, her bully is clearly her mom but it’s like they picked whoever bc her mom was in the other place

When it comes to Noa, there’s not much to say? at least for me, i liked her and that’s it, hope her mom goes to rehab

For the guys, nothing bad to say about Ash and Henry, i liked shawn but i don’t trust that he actually stopped using and i hate to say it but i truly liked Chip at the beginning, it’s wasn’t until he showed interest in Imogen that i thought he was a but weird, and if i’m not wrong it was after tabby and imogen talked about what happened to them? so it was pretty obvious

I liked Kelly, and i think she IS Kelly, but she doesn’t really know who she is without Karen that’s why it seems confusing, but i think her storyline was interesting, but i hate that she ended up with Greg

The moms sucked, all of them, a few of them less than the other but at the end of the day they all sucked

Also i wished the showed the principal a but more, like i think he could be involved in what happed to angela bc i thought he was showed as a teacher in 99 but wasn’t even sure it was him, so i ended up not giving him much thought, so it was a little out of nowhere

Overall it was too convoluted of a show to have only 10 episodes, it’s like 8 different storylines, it’s crazy. It would be way better if it wasn’t a pll reboot that’s all

[the-acid-pear]

I did my homework and i did my chores, time to tackle on the third book of this series, Son of Ogre

Chapter 1

Okay but the fuck is Baki planning to do if he stops fighting? That's literally all he has, he's not smart

WOOH THATS A BIT REALISTIC

PREHISTORIC ELEPHANT?!

King just went to have a snack. Also FUCK does that meat look tasty FUCKKK

This baby so cute 🥺

I'm so glad Yuji is doing stupid hilarious shit again it had been a while

Congrats on Baki for that mantis

Chapter 2

Who tf is this kid?

Poor kid lmao, i assume he will meet Baki

Look at my boyyy

HSTSRFAYDF DON'T CALL HIM A MANLET

Imagine Baki actually kills this kid HSJDYSSHCBT

Third comment with a ton of likes is "we do not condone child violence. We do, however, find it hilarious"

Chapter 3

AH SHUT UPPP KIDDO

But i like Baki memeing a round a lil

Chapter 4

🥺🥺 that's so sweet...

HELLOOOO STRYDUM MY GOD YOUR TITS GOT FATTER SIR 😳😳

Yujiro is such a fucking threat to society lmao

I love seeing Baki with his eyes open, he's looking more like his old self

Oh, shadow boxing incoming, alright

Chapter 5

Yuri? 🥺 /j

THE RETURN OF IRON MICHAEL?!

Chapter 6

I love how there's our silly little mains after every cover LUV em <33

Baki just dissociating his ass out and using it on his favor, the king

Why is Baki eating sour prunes aren't those meant to be sweet?

We all salivating

Chapter 7

Love to see there are even more swears there now

I can put my face next to my foot too tho

FAGDRJSEHARD YUJIRO CAN BEAT THE CANCER HOW ICONIC 😍

Also i would LOVE to see Yuji fight an Orca

WHAT?!

I love how everyone in the comments is calling out Rumina for not seeing issue going down to a dark hidden basement with a shirtless man older than him

Chapter 8

"piggy back me" USHSYFLFUDSY

This fight is going to be good

Chapter 9

Imagine Baki dies right here right know against an imaginary mantis lmao

Okay Baki getting damaged makes sense but the WALL?

Baki's dead (GOD IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE I HAVE SAID THAT)

Ffs it's true Baki COULD create himself a stand 😰

Chapter 10

OH FUCK IT'S TRUE

Chapter 11

This fight is so boring i had to take a 6 hour break

Baki just can't win against nature eh

This reminds me of Garland pulling a suplex on that Anaconda

Chapter 12

I can't wait for the main cast to ACTUALLY appear, instead of just, you know, them in the covers

This fight is slow but cool but slow

To fight a mantis you must think like a mantis 😎

Though it's true in this manga you will most likely win if you steal your opponent techniques so

Chapter 13

I MISS IGARI FUCKKK

This is so dumb i luv it

That mantis be swearing lmao

Love it when Baki goes full Yujiro

Chapter 14

TOBA...

Holy fuck do mantis fly?

Secret Chapter?

Is this how Yujiro got born?

Idk girl i would have killed him if i was you

WHAT.

I KNOW THOSE FROGS THEY ARE FROM PUERTO RICO I THINK

I might just be sleepy but this is so confusing

AKSHSKGSKSGSJSG JUST KILL THE BABY IT AINT THAT HARD

Chapter 15

GAIA...

Why is he like this?

Is "he" with us right now?

...gotta admit that IS true...

I love Strydum sksgwhwg

Yujiro really went XD

I don't think my man Arun in the comments is aware how gay what he said is, though maybe I'm wrong

Chapter 16

GOD THESE FUCKING COVERS MAKING ME SO NOSTALGIC, LOOK AT SPEC!

ANIME KENNEDY?!

I can't believe Bush is dead

AN ASIAN BOY HAS JUST KIDNAPPED THE PRESIDENT...

8 of January? My god he's a Capricorn

I'm sorry, what?

LAHQIGWKQFWKSFWIWG 😭😭

I love Baki so much, THIS IS THE KID THAT I MISSED SO MUCH

This explains why Baki was in prison clothes in the anime teaser

Chapter 17

BIG NUMBER

That one mf like 😐

Glad Baki is 18 now at least 😌

Love to see Oliva back

Chapter 18

This page not even bothering to charge the pages anymore

I'm sure there were better ways to go to jail, well, actually, no, but still

Toba used to just chew that off

Baki did that mantis hit you in the head too hard?

I. I watched way too many prison movies and shows. I don't like seeing someone as young and pretty as Baki in such a place. I rlly don't.

Chapter 19

Yanagi baby i miss you...

IRON MICHAEL?!

Mfkhsjsys 😳🥴

Eh got my hopes too high

CHE BAKI PIBE... LA PUTA MADRE NI ACA ME ESCAPO DE MIS COMPATRIOTAS

I hope he swears too i want to see a boludo o pelotudo PLEASE

I mean para pelotudos lo veo a Yujiro todo el tiempo pero igual JSGWKEGWG me pone bien argento ver al Che carajo

Chapter 20

HE SAID BOLUDO SUAHWKWGAKSGSKSGSKGD

I can't take this omfg new fav I'm sorry Doppo but he just said boludo 😭

Pendejo is more used as pibe here but i will let it pass bc idk the lingo in Cuba and he spent some time there so

Why don't i speak like this too ffs? All i do is say eh and call it a day

He's cocky enough to call anybody any age pibe so I'll let that pass too

Por favor no lo hagas che sksgwj

Chapter 21

Che, pibe, it's a good day to die...

Chapter 22

GSHAGSTSG he should have said "no boludo"

I'm falling in love with this boludo myself

That's talented and brutal

OH RIGHT YOU LOSE YOUR BALANCE WHEN YOU DONT HAVE THAT

Chapter 23

Hm that's, cringe

YESSS HE SAID PELOTUDO

OAHWLGWKQFSKSGSJS SIII ROMPELO TODO CHE, ROMPELO TODO POR DECIRTE YANKEE KSGSSJGS

Honestly i too get pissed off when called American or European, though i won't throw shit to Baki, he's some random 18 yo japanese boy, no way he would recognize latinoamerican lingo lmao

King shit Baki boy

Chapter 24

Oh that's why he's called Jun Guevara, that's fair

I like how they are mixing a bit of truth and a bit of lie it's fun at least

Chapter 25

I like how they are drawing nipples now, occasionally

I can't wait for Viêt to complain about propaganda in the comments

OH SHIT

😳 :Y

He's sooo nice 😍

Chapter 26

Only three? You mean the third is... 👁️👁️

HAHA YEAH YUJI-CHAN <3

I can't believe he works for the USA I'm crying and shaking rn

What a progressive manga, the three strongest and most dangerous men and none of them are white 😍

GET HIS ASS BAKI

Chapter 27

Why is this guy sweating sm?

LDYDYSUGFUDT BAKI PLS

I like how the only time Baki was willing to kill a person was when he thought Sikorsky had hurt his girl

Chapter 28

I feel like Ian will die

Man i love how Baki is drawn in this book

Ffs i called it, i have watched way too many prison things to know how shit goes down

I have seen these three before in fanart but I'm curious to see what they can do

Chapter 29

Their faces remind me of Doyle

OH I CANT WAIT TO SEE EM IN THE ANIME

ASSHOLE DON'T CALL ME STUPID 😢💔

I'm gonna struggle to tell em apart but i think I'll manage

Okay I'm not the only one who thinks they look like Doyle, fair

Chapter 30

The mouth vs Yujiro when?

Someone mentioned the have the same vibe as the dudes that worked with Gaia and like 👁️👁️

Chapter 31

Lmao someone in the comments recommended the same thing

These three must be great at sex (sorry)

KSHALDHDKD NEW FAV COMMENT: "go to Japan and look for the word "defeat". That way you won't feel cocky anymore"

Chapter 32

Hehe hello Junnn~

KSHAKDHKWGS

La luna

Chapter 33

LOS TRES...

Okay that's funny, hocico instead of mouth (hocico is used for animal mouths)

I'm so glad i know Spanish

The two things that drive me insane and make me ramble are Doppo's beauty and this stupid argentinian

OSHSKWGSKSG

Chapter 34

Imagine he's doing that illusion thing Dorian did

With his own blood, that's so cool...

Hoho...!

I did that once when i had a terrible nose bleed, didn't go well

Chapter 35

This book is fucking boring NGL

"now that you got no more urine left in you"

AH.

GAHDYR LMAO

Chapter 36

HO THAT TITLE, PLEEEASE I NEED SOMETHING, ANYTHING, TO HAPPEN

HHH he kinda cute...

Oww :(

JDJSJFRGAJ

God piantao is an old word i had never heard it before

AND he took a piss.

LOCO NO SEAS HOMOFÓBICO NINGUNA MINA ACA ES MEJOR QUE ESTE PIBITO TE LO ASEGURO SKSGSKGSJAAGS

Se me cay�� un ídolo y yo que le quería dar 😔

ÑSHWQLSGOSGDKW

Let's see if he lied to Baki about just liking eh /j

Chapter 37

I luv Oliva lol

AJSGSKSLAGHS BAKI SNAPPED

I too wonder where the fuck Kozue is

Chapter 38

LSHSLDGSLSGSIEG

He is jealous of what you two have, it's normal, el Che just rejected his love after all ;/

Oliva is a king

OH A HANKERCHIEF I THOUGHT THAT WAS UNDERWEAR SHSGS-

Oh shit Oliva is like 45?! He looked so young

Te fuiste a la mierda, Che, el chabón estaba siendo re bueno con vos

Baki is just dead

Chapter 39

I love how realistic Che's fear is, he's rather smart, though not this time

POOR GUY AJSGSWJW

I didn't realize Che said "what more, it may be a woman!" but to be fair they ARE in jail so

Chapter 40

I'm feeling kinda bad for him ngl

I feel happy for him tho 🥺

Bruh they added one page after the ending of some naked anime girl tf 😐

Chapter 41

These prisoners having fun is kinda sweet

YO INSANE

Bitches be complaining about Maria's looks are just jealous 🥰

Chapter 42

Damn she lorge

He loves fighting naked eh

Only valid person is the one saying Oliva deserves better treatment which tbh true

Chapter 43

Fun fact i wear my jacket like El Che too, unless it's too cold

El che with the hair lose is so cute bro,,,

Something something fingering joke

Sikorski could fold a coin too

I bet the bandana will break

Chapter 44

I would have just fallen on top of him, how is he gonna counter that, eh?

Oh that super fun to know!

Oh the good ol dirty technique, i have seen this one before!

Chapter 45

NOOO MARIA DON'T DO THIS TO HIM

This fight is super cool tho i love these two characters

Chapter 46

They just keep changing the rules i think Itagaki is just flexing at this point

LAAOSFKAGSKAGSKAF???

Baki wants his protagonism back

I'm getting pissed off they keep putting semi naked underaged girls at the end of every chapter 😐

Chapter 47

Bruh just realized, the mouth got so hyped as this new cool villain and they died in their first appearance 😭

His damn bandana...

[piratadelamor]

TOKYO REVENGERS TRIGGER LIST

i've been wanting to get more people into tokyo revengers, and i'm about to publish a post on why to read it too, but i am also very aware that this story contains multiple triggers.

first of all, this is a story about gangs, so do expect A LOT of physical violence. though most of the heavy stuff we see/hear about happen in the present timeline (when the characters are in their mid 20s and the toman gang is turned into an actual evil crime organization), some of them also happen in the past timeline (when they're in middle/high school and toman is just a gang of kids riding motorcycles and fighting each other). it's a time traveling story and there will be many deaths, thought the whole plot is about takemichi trying to save everyone's lives. also, most of the kids involved in the gangs struggle with real problematic backgrounds that got them traumatized one way or another. some of the triggers here are from these kid's stories.

this is important because this is a story about kids involved in a violent world. yes you will see them happy and being best bros and acting like the kids they actually are (just how they should be <3), but you'll also see them suffer. so.......yeah. be ready for that.

anyway, here are the triggers (if i remember something else i'll edit this post later):

tw: violence, injuries, blood, weapons, death, car accident, suicide, abuse, prostitution, drug mention, rape, parental abandonment

idk if it's relevant but the toman gang uses the manji symbol, a swastika. i'm sure most people know that it is a buddhist symbol, but since it's heavily associated with nazism, it might be a sensitive image for some people.

some moments under the cut that i think are worth mentioning bc they're easier to skip, since they only happen once and arent major spoilers for the story:

end of chapter 9: when takemichi goes back to the past, he wakes up with a girl in her underwear on top of him. we don't know her exact age but she's younger than 15. takemichi runs away and nothing happens between them, and the whole situation is about her wanting to "grow up faster" and make her love interest jealous (she explains it in chapter 11). takemichi can't remember a thing, because it was his 14yo self that got in that situation. but still, she's a minor and in this scene she's shown in a very sexualized way (she's seen in her underwear in the last 2 pages of chapter 9 and the first 2 of chapter 10).

chapter 11: the conflict with the gang moebius is introduced. the episode that triggered it was the moebius guys getting into a fight with one of toman's member's friend. in this conflict, they raped his girlfriend. there's a panel in page 12 with this flashback that can be disturbing (EDIT: this same panel is shown again in chapter 47, page 5, during osanai's retrospective of the conflict!). in chapter 12, draken and mikey visit the girl at the hospital and we learn about her real bad state. so the situation is mentioned again, and we see her face. this episode is briefly mentioned again in chapter 14, page 5, and chapter 16, page 3. rape is mentioned other times in the story, not as something specific that happened to someone, but as a behavior of more agressive gangs/crime organizations.

if any of the other triggers i mentioned are potentially disturbing for you, but you still want to get into tokyo revengers, i can help finding the chapters when they happen so you can avoid them too!

[normal-thoughts-official]

you talk a lot about magnus and camille dynamic and how they started and all that great meta content that you know i love but here's a question that idk if you ever got: how long do you think they were together? bc i can't think of a specific timeline and personally i love the one you talked abt at some point how she was pretty much right after asmododo or something like that, so he went from one type of abuse into another... but how long was he there? was camille with him for 20 years? 80? 130? any theories?

ugh that's a complicated one because i don't really have an answer for that and i think about it often as well

altho i think you got confused about her being right after asmodeus, i definitely don't think she was. i mentioned it my post about the timeline to say that magnus COULDN'T have been born close to the 1800s because that would make it asmodeus and camille way too close and that can't be the case because it would imply camille is basically the only person he dated before alec doajsdoaj and we know that's not true cuz there's also other ppl like george and etc. it was more a point in favor of "early to mid 1600s" for his birth date

anyway! let's go through this. i mentioned in another post that i think he got together with camille right after george, and that i think george died around the middle of the US civil war, which lasted from 1861 to 1865. so let's say they got together around 1863. now, we have a few pieces of information:

magnus mentioned that he hadn't been with anyone for "almost a century" when talking to alec. i know i think magnus is time blind but he can't be TOO off here. that was in 2016 so that would make their breakup date be a little after 1916 if magnus remembers correctly

literally the only thing about the timeline in that time period that i can remember is that one picture there was in his file of magnus surrounded by girls at a party, which looked to be in the 20s to me. since camille was an abusive asshole probably sabotaging his every chance to meet people, that couldn't have been when they were together. so i'd say 1920 is like, the limit for when they could have broken up. it's up to you whether or not you think magnus would be jumping into his party animal role immediately after the breakup or if it would take some time for him to heal; personally i think both make sense (i think she made a huge number on him so it would make sense for him to take a while to get back to that kind of thing; on the other hand, a lot of people turn straight to being party animals after breaking up abusive relationships, especially because for so long abusers have kept them from doing anything fun. so both work imo) so it's up to you

conclusion: they broke up in 1920 at the latest, so the max you could go for is 80 years, if you go with a timeline where camille was right after george (george can't be after camille because magnus has had no relationships after camille, but there could have been a bigger gap between george and camille than i personally hc). it could still be less tho, because we literally have NO information whatsoever on what happened between 1861 and 1920. even if you go with "they broke up and magnus immediately went full party animal" (which is perfectly valid), it's also entirely possible that this happened in say, 1901 and that pic just happened to be from the 20s, years later. but i also don't think it could have been a lot earlier than 1901 because magnus said almost a century, implying less than a century between the year they broke up and 2016. and while i do think that any immortal would lose track of time after a while and mingle years and decades together, nevermind adhd time blind icon magnus bane, if they had broken up in, say, 1880, magnus would remember that over a century has passed, if anything because so much has changed since then. so i think for him to say that the breakup should have happened in the 20th century at least

so that's the analysis from what we've seen in the show. personal opinion! i think 80 years makes sense, but is a bit much. it makes sense because there does seem to be a pretty obvious gap in magnus' file from the 1860s to the 1920s and then it goes back to having many pictures of him, and that "disappearance" makes sense in the context of him being in an abusive relationship (which limits your interactions and going outs by a lot). it does seem to be a bit much because magnus is at max 400, so, if they had been together 80 years, that would have been 20% of magnus' life spent with camille. or 1/5. added with all the time with asmodeus, it seems to be... a bit much dioadsoaijd and like look i'm not judging, i know abusive relationships can last many years and decades even for mortals, nevermind immortals, but i just don't like the idea of it lasting this long personally, especially because i think it makes him getting with alec seem actually a bit soon considering how long the abusive relationship lasted, and that's ignoring asmodeus' abuse on top of it

so personally, i like it morenif its around 40-50 years. i think it makes sense. it would mean the breakup was sometime around the 1910s, and while, okay, there is a gap in his file that seems to only end in the 20s, we must not forget an important fact: shadowhunters are stupid. so i actually think it makes sense that like, magnus emerges from his abusive relationship and is still getting back on his feet, and shadowhunters just don't care. like who is that guy? oh some warlock, no one's heard of him since like the 1860s lol. whatever happened to him? who cares. anyway, we love racism

and then around a decade later it turns out that magnus is healing enough to be a pain in their ass; say, that is when he becomes HWoB, or simply that they are reminded of how powerful magnus actually is once he is back in activity, and so they go back to like, investigating him and updating his file. so the file gap could be explained in that case. it also actually makes more sense that it would take shadowhunters a while to pay attention to him again, and since magnus was healing from an abusive relationship, the time it would take for him to draw their attention might well be around a decade

and with 40-50 years of an abusive relationship that would mean magnus has spent 10-12% of his life with camille; which is a LOT of time (for comparison: my first abusive relationship lasted a little over a year and i was 16 at the time; that makes it have lasted around 6% of my life at the time, and it did a HUGE number on me, taking me almost 3 years to have a relationship again), but not quite as much as a full 20%. not just that, but him taking "almost a century" (it would actually make it be a little over a century in this timeline, but again, magnus is immortal and time blind, so give him a break) to get with anyone again makes sense. that would be around double the time he's spent with her before he heals enough to be with someone else. that tracks, because abuse fucks you up fast and unfuckening yourself up takes longer. magnus isn't even fully unfucked up (which is okay, he doesn't have to be), but for him to be ready to take such huge steps as he is taking with alec, i think around double the time he's spent with her spent on healing makes sense

(again, i'm mostly going off my own experiences here; my abusive relationship lasted almost a year and a half, my next relationship was almost three years after the breakup. so almost perfectly double the time before i was ready to have another relationship. and again, i know recovery isn't the same for everyone and a lot of factors go into this, but i just think a timeline where he's been with her for 80 years and then gets with alec less than 100 afterwards is a bit too fast)

i still think 40 years is kind of a very long time to be in an abusive relationship and like holy shit i cant even imagine, but also i mean, mortals have abusive relationships that last that long and to an immortal itd feel like less time, and it does seem to be what best fits the timeline, so

and yeah i think those are my thoughts dadsajdsa

LAST MINUTE EDIT BEFORE THIS IS PUBLISHED CUZ IM NOT REDOING THE WHOLE THING: i got an anon today saying that magnus said something about not having seen camille in 130 years (link) which i didnt/dont really remember but i trust that theyre right and im wrong because i dont remember a lot of shit from this show. 130 years before 2016 would be 1886, meaning that if they broke up at that time and got together right after george's death as i personally hc, that's a 20-year relationship. that sounds like it fits the timeline as much as any other to me, and like i said in that ask, i think it makes sense that magnus would play it down to alec by saying "almost a century" instead of how long it's really been cuz it's a bit too vulnerable, and plus, we know one of the ways he protects himself is by not letting people pinpoint exactly some important dates from his past, particularly his birthday and etc

and okay i know that 20 years together, then 130 years recovering is a huge difference, but also i think with twenty years together as opposed to my comparatively short abusive relationship the scars of abuse would deepen a lot and quicker, so maybe it makes sense that it would take a longer time to feel confident enough to get to dating again. plus, like i said, there's no real math to be had in that process, everyone is different, has their own history and recovery process and etc so it's not like there is a deadline. so actually scratch everything i said above im going with this timeline. the one thing that doesn't track with that is the gap in his file but also like i said shadowhunters are stupid, so. yeah 20 years together is probably closer to it

in the end its kind of a relief cuz i was like "holy shit 40 years is so LONG" so... yeah udndidn

[misterbitches]

hi! this is long as shit i’m sorry. i hope it makes sense. i ahve adhd and like 5 million learning disorders so this is just word vomit cos there’s so many words in my brain. my b.

i’ve had such a tough day so thank you for replying and sharing! @yeedak​ 

i was thinking about what i wrote and i meant to clarify that as well. some cases are fine for both parties and it’s not like you weren’t consenting and it seems like you were happy! same with my friend who was dating a 20 yr old. if they’re happy you know i’ll clown on ‘em but yea. so for anyone that sees these posts your relationship with your partner who is older or whatever. i’m some dumb girl on the internet okay. ill side eye older ppl tho

i think a lot of people feel the same way you do now (me included.) it feels really good at the time but alter we can see the dynamics playing out. i’m 29 now and i think aging is just such a huge process. it’s wild how you at 31 are a totally different person, right?

and the US racism is probably some of the worst ever in its iteration because of slavery which started from europe etc but USA is so fucking unique bc of columbus bringing slaves here and displacing indigenous peoples or hispanola and because america is so influential the way it views race, particularly with black people as objects, has so deeply permeated into the current historical psyche globally. it’s fascinating to track how necessary anti blackness is to the flourishing of america but also the world at this point. also want to point out how fuckign scary sinophobia is here especially for covid. one is a straight historical line (black ppl + the US) and the other had to be manufactured and to continue to exploit the non-white americans and keep antiblackness in tact.i could go on about this all day. the pain of this place is immense.yet as bad as it is here, this is still the only place i truly feel safe as a black person. because of the unique experience we have in america and through the diaspora especially because we are veyr much ocncentrated here. it would be nice to like move to norway and have some alleviation financially or get free healthcare it’s just not feasible if no one looks like me. it’s fucking tough. 

i hope you don’t hate it here though and people treat you with respect. but as you know being a woman and jewish and an immigrant....shit is tough. the USA is a hellhole. :( america is so deeply tainted and desperately bad because it was founded on strife and blood and there’s no way to reverse that and what this country did in turn when it gained enough power and could capitalize off of the colonial forefathers. this is why we hsould all luv revolution!!!

HOWMEVERRRR 

boy oh boy oh BOY OH BOYYYYYYYY. well wlecome to the world of BL lmao especially as an adult with some obviously deep perspective just given your background. it is a fucking mess and it’s a hard mess to like but it pulls you in. i approach it like i do with soap operas since these are essentially telenovelas, you know? just like the drama at a billion. but the tricky part of that is like....what parts of it do we understand for critiquing? because so many of the shows are so bad at being like good pieces of things to look at just production wise and story wise. but i feel like these shows ask us to take them seriously, so why shouldn’t we take the content seriously? and this is being primarily peddled to young girls. 

i bring this up often but i read this thing about yaoi and the interest younger women/girls have in BL and its fascination with pederasty essentially. this component i think is key when we talk about who gets affected by these things the most. society in general is bad 4 girls bla bla we know lmao but in “more sexually conservative” societies it may be harder for these girls to feel safe even expressing normal emotions romantically and sexually and particularly with guys. some people hypothesized, and i think i agree with this hypothesis, that they can live through the casualness of BL. they don’t feel threatened because they can put themselves into the shoes of the other character. oftentimes, the more feminine or the younger. this was in conjunction with the age gap aspect (they say pederasty as well because there’s unethical age gaps that r gross and that is indeed what we would at least call a touch of sexual abuse if people dont feel like calling it an obsession with youth and power and uhhh young ppl and perhaps kids) where maybe girls could see themselves in these situations as the person being saved, loved, taken care of, and sadly also sexually active and penetrated. 

i think that’s just one aspect of it but i do think there’s validity in who gravitates towards it. i cannot imagine seeing this stuff and not getting enough information as a young kid, i sure as fuck know i didn’t!, and seeing these things and you look at it with 0 critique because you’re young and you may have no interest in it or you simply cannot understand what is wrong. no one is teaching you these things and these shows confirm it. and it is wild how intrinsic patriarchy is to BL although in its existence it also can’t be in line with patriarchy given the nature of two [cis] men!

it begs the question about the replacement aspect. is it just so girls can put themselves in these characters shoes? if so then that means we believe that gender is so interchangeable within our relationships and interactions and that doesn’t seem right. there’s more to lgbtq+ than just existing; it’s finding ways to communicate, finding a family, safety, your people, being a free person. there’s a lot to gain and a lot a lot to lose. and a gay man is also not a woman because those are also two distinct experiences.  especially in societies that have a more hidden aspect to sexuality (idk how to word this bc the BL industry would NEVER survive in america but in a way there’s a more “progressive” look at homosexuality but it’s still fucked up because we live in a Society, you know? at the same time look at what we are doing to trans kids. literally waging war so it’s bonkers how we all collectively have some real progress happening but at the same time not at all. the concept of ‘ladyboys’ and the frequency we see trans people in thai shows is wild and something that we absolutely do not see here in the US. still, none of these groups feel safe or are getting better material conditions in either place. we just show the ways we can try and tolerate oppression witout eliminating it imo)

to me it is clear: it’s money. which most things exist to make money so. but also who is the audience for these shows? and they have to market towards them. all that said all hope is not lost there are some decent shows. it’s just like regular media on TV though where it’s so fucking saturated as an industry that it’s literally sifting through garbage. and there are some days when you can handle the trash and others where it really fucking hurts to watch the violence, the rape, the manipulation, the violations, the stupid messaging. i have never seen more people trying to do mental gymnastics and seeing if things were “technically rape” than in teh BL fandom and that is so fucking sad.

i came into these shows at 28 with almost 0 clue of what as media BL was like esp as media that countries can use as soft power with the revenue. but i realize like...i’m 29 now and so many people don’t have a sizeable, though not huge, amount of life experience. and i wonder for people on the internet who are usually searching for something if they spend so much time on it like what a 15 year old girl thinks. what a 20 year old girl thinks. 

it is incredibly problematic and so awful but there’s also some rewards. if you haven’t i would definitely watch i told sunsset about you which i don’t think i’m going to finish and i doubt i’ll watch the second installment (watch this be a lie) but when i say some fucking impeccable storytelling and art? phew. now that is a fucking piece of media that works. it takes from moonlight heavily and you can see like...the artistic dedication is there and the story makes its world and sets up its stakes extremely well. 

i think because this is marketed towards much younger people too they know they dont have to try as hard. but they SHOULD because then you can have a fucking masterpiece like that. i think even this prolific gay thai filmmaker (who is like solidly against the government) who is so respected (and who i like a lot! if u wanna know i can tell u lmao but the films are very uhhhhhhhh “artsy”) would like i told sunset about you. i wish more people had budget like that and also just cared about the stories. it’s the fucking magic of art to figure out what you can do but there is very little incentive honestly. idk i am very pessimistic. there are days when it’s really a great pick me up and distraction but it is never a place i would love for to feel seen or heard but i’m more of the mind of i never trust the mainstream until they prove me wrong ;) 

or i never trust the mainstream and i still buy into it anyway and then cry when i don’t like what i see adn i yell “BOO GET OFF THE STAGE!” when an old man won’t leave a teenager alone

[polyamorouspunk]

Ramblings about my concert

General topics include things like social isolation n gender n social roles n system stuff n shit

SO

Where do I even start? I guess I’ll just write what comes to mind so no promises for continuity especially in terms of positive and negative stuff.

Right now I’m just dealing with the fact I had the best night of the last few years of my life where I had friends, like actual friends for the first time since moving down here and finally feeling like I really belonged and was valued some place and now it’s all gone. Even when I went to pride and handed out bracelets I walked up to people and they said hi and thanked me and walked away. I was all by myself and I honestly didn’t make any friends. The one person who truly talked to me was an older butch lesbian who said I see what you’re doing and it’s kind of you. And like she told me her name and we shook hands and like… I felt seen. And I felt so seen last night in a way I haven’t felt in so long I’m literally about to cry okay.

So I got to the venue at like 3:15 because we only have one car so my mom drove me and just hung out in the area doing things. I’ve gone on longer drives with my partner without her but I think still a part of it was it’s a late night (we got home at 12:45am) and she wanted to make sure I was safe, because like… I’m 22 but still treated as the child of the family which is fine but it’s true. Like 2 years ago my mom literally like told my brother to walk me across the road and I’m like I’m fucking 20 years old-But anyway yeah got there at 3:15 I was like the 7thish person in line. I looked around and I mean I literally told my mom I was just going to go sit on the curb and listen to a podcast. I put my earbuds in and the HOTTEST FUCKING GUY and his little brother (going to refer to them as K and A bc they’re relevant) came up in line behind me. K started talking to the people around me so I pulled my earbuds out and actually talked. I talked to the 5 people around me (K, A, an active service member, and another guy) for over an hour and a half. We literally just shot the shit for hours talking about everything and anything.

Eventually they pulled us into a VIP line where the other guy, K, A, me, and a girl dressed as Chucky (we’ll call her 217 bc that’s her username?) we’re the first 5 people in line respectfully (notice how they were behind me… and then they were in front of me… but okay…) meaning that we literally got To The Front Of The Stage.

Band played trivia with the VIP group (we lost- shocker) and then did a Q&A before giving us early access to the merch table. I asked K, A, and 217 if they wanted to go to the merch line and 217 said she was good so K, A, and I went and got in line. By this point it’s been like 2 hours of us talking nonstop and K turns to me and was like hey… if anything happens to me, can you keep an eye on A? And I was like of course I was planning on it anyway. A is 15 and in high school and it was his first concert and K was his wanna-be bad boy older brother (who mind you, was STILL the hottest fucking guy).

However by this point my praternal instincts kicked in and my “I need to adopt all weird emo children” over-rid my “this guy is really hot and I want to make out with him” instinct because K kept talking over A and I could tell A never really got a word in because his brother was just so much more confident, and so I focused on A and really listened to what he had to say and we became fast friends. Before the 3rd band even went on we were speaking in unison roasting K. He was like I feel so ganged up on and it was like yeah because you’re the confident one who we can joke about.

217 had actually saved our spots for us?? Which was like amazing because like idk we only talked to her for like half an hour?

K (23) was 100% smitten with 217 (27), which, like, listen apparently I also have a thing for girls dressed as Chucky because she is NOT the first girl dressed as Chucky I have stared at nonstop… which brings me into a whole nother world of “Do I Actually Like Girls Or Is Savvy Just Here™️” which… is bothering me a bit, tbh. And speaking of that A referred to me as she/her the whole time which I didn’t have the heart to correct him on but I did introduce myself as “Sav”. He thought I said Seth and I was like uh no my name is Savanna but Sav is a bit more gender neutral. Anyway, K was like so do you have an Instagram and I turned to talk to just him and I’m like she literally just said she’s DMing the lead singer, you don’t stand a fucking chance. They did trade instagrams and I followed her on the band’s social media app. In theory I could get A and K’s instagrams from her, but also I didn’t ask for A and K’s info myself because like… I just didn’t know, man. I mean I spilled everything to A because we just talked for hours and like… my Instagram is Savvy’s. Like. I talked about being cottagecore as well and like no one really got it… like idk. And now I think I’m still present enough that like scrolling through my dash I was kind of like cringe at all the cottagecore content we follow and my brain was like fuck this I should make my main account more like this because this is what we’re (I’m?) really into right now but that also doesn’t seem fair to Savvy. She’s put a lot of work into her cottagecore content. I guess I just don’t vibe with it right now.

So yeah I adopted A as my new child and fell back into that “mother-son” friendship role I had with my emo friends in high school and then… I got adopted by the hottest guy in the world minus the lead singer of the band who was… literally a year older than me… because… I related more to his 15 year old brother in high school than… someone my own age…

He was like lol I’m going through a divorce don’t get married and 217 was like same and I’m like ? I’m a child ? My mom drove me here ? My mom is driving me home ? Which I did NOT say because that’s embarrassing but 😓 yeah

Idk what else to say. The band was good. 217 wasn’t kidding when she said she was buddy-buddy with the lead singer. I liked her for the most part except at the end he threw her a water bottle and the people behind us caught it and she turned around and was like “he was giving that to me” at them which felt like… idk a little entitled? And like I was worried about being a weird fan“girl” but this 27 y/o was literally like *fixes her hair* haha yeah me and the lead singer DM on the down-low *bats her eyelashes* which like… she was pretty. And once again I see a girl dressed as Chucky and I feel out of place with my short hair and weird gender and just… I miss feeling pretty and like… getting attention from really hot 23 y/o guys because I… look trans… I feel like I can’t win.

There was another person K started talking to who gave me major trans vibes and they were also super fanish. Me and A were kind of just chilling and casually nodding and headbanging. We didn’t jump around and mosh. I don’t jump/mosh because my boobs are huge and it’s really uncomfortable for me. So like if I get top surgery I probably would… but also like… fuck this sometimes I just want cis guys to look at me and see a hot alt girl because like… idk I see a cis guy and I think he’s hot and I’m like that’s great but he’s not going to date you when you look like a fucking tr*nny… bc you are… god it’s so complicated.

And like yeah… we been knew I have the biggest crush on the lead singer (BECAUSE WHO DOSENT, OKAY? THERE ARE MEMES ABOUT HIM MAKING STRAIGHT MEN QUESTION THEIR SEXUALITY, OKAY?) and like yeah I’m a jealous person seeing him pay a lot of attention to 217 was a bit jealousy inducing especially when this really hot guy who had given me like all his attention and felt like he was trying to impress me turned and did the same to her too… he had a lot more in common with her in terms of like social maturity than I did with either of them. I was on the social maturity level of his 15 y/o brother.

All that depressing stuff aside though, people like… actually complimented me? Talked to me? About things I enjoyed? And I felt more like myself than I have in forever and like… sometimes I think I’ve just become this reserved person who puts on a face and that’s true, and I think that’s the new “real me” (hate that phrase for so many reasons) but then I get a taste of the vibrant person I used to be and I just crave it… I was a social butterfly even as a weird nuerodivergent outcast. I thrived in high school. It was when I hit college and I didn’t know anyone I started closing up and keeping to myself because I suddenly lost all my friends and the people I related to. And my family is great, and I mean they support me 100% but I just… can’t talk and act like myself around them. At work I barely say anything. Talking to my family I love them but I’m clearly the odd one out. Half my wardrobe is Van Gogh yellow shirts and denim overalls and rainbow striped shirts if someone who has like artsy tumblr gay fashion… and that’s me too… I do feel at home in clothes like that… but idk. It’s like that’s Savvy, the Savvy that should have been, the “ideal girl version” of the “weird girl” and I’m just the last trappings of holding onto our emo phase… I liked moving down here. I got to reinvent myself. I finally felt comfortable enough in my gender and body to wear girls clothes. To wear something other than oversized black t-shirts from Hot Topic. A box I felt like I had been packed into by those around me. And going back home and wearing my beachcore clothes I just feel… cool. I feel like a fresh new me. Like a less depressed and happier tropical version of me. But yeah I 100% bought 3 shirts last night and my room is littered with band merch now…

I feel really alone back at my house sitting alone in my house the same I’ve been doing literally since I moved down here literally since I graduated high school.

At least once high school was over and I stopped spending every day with my best friends I’d know since I was 5 and 8 I could call my boyfriend to come over and be depressed with me… like it’s a lot less depressing cooking toast for every meal and watching Netflix for 6 hours straight when you’re with someone… now I just do it by myself.

And getting a job was supposed to up my social interaction and make me less depressed but… idk. Going to work I wear polo shirts that make me look like a 14 y/o boy and then I wear an apron over it like a housewife. Like I work at a store geared towards upper middle class white people and I’m… me. I’m going to start wearing the necklace I got from the VIP to work. I like wearing polos. It makes me feel a lot more masc or at least gender neutral. I like wearing my mustard yellow long sleeves and overalls and being cottagecore and sitting in the grass and baking cookies and bread and making soup. I like wearing my pastel pink skirt and my strawberry milk shirt with my strawberry milk socks and hair ribbons and milk bag. I like wearing shirts with hot men dismembering people on them with ripped black skinny jeans and really big stompy boots. I like wearing my FFA shirt with a pair of Levi’s jeans and a good pair of steel-toed work boots. I love all these things so much that I never really feel like I belong in any one fully because they’re all so different. I get weird looks at the metal concert for talking about how much I love cottagecore. I get people weirded out by me talking about true crime and blood and gore because that’s “edgy” and that space is for “wholesome” things. I literally was an FFA student for 4 years and worked on many farm situations but like I wore band shirts and black ripped skinny jeans to class and like AG is kind of geared towards cishet farm kids… And because of that I just separate myself into these… personalities… because it’s easier to say “hello I’m Savvy and I like cottagecore”, “hello I’m Tillian and I like true crime”, “hello I’m Punk and I like heavy metal music”, and “hello I’m Will and if I could have one wish it would be to basically be Aragorn from Lord of the Rings” instead of… I’m me, and I’m all these things, and these things don’t cancel each other out or make me any less valid in any of these spaces: in fact it makes me stronger and more diverse.

And honestly? When I really feel like my truest “self” I feel like there were never more than one of us to begin with: it was just me, only me, all along.

[jaegerboob]

WIP ROUNDUP!!

i was tagged by @trashpocket​ (hey bae ;)) and since im lonely here on tumblr and have no one but the void to yell at, i won’t be tagging anyone :((

okay let’s start off with my published WIPS lol i have quite a collection and boy do i regret posting most of these, but anyway that’s here’s my hot girl shit

"i’ll figure it out with a little more time” - (if u knew me at my thai BL phase no u didn’t :)) anyways this was a supposed to be a pretty short fic that features an oblivious Sarawat not knowing how to navigate his feelings towards Tine and Tine being an equally giant dumbass. their school is hosting a school dance and Sarawat’s emotionally constipated ass doesn’t know how to SPEAK and just ASK Tine to go w/ him. i swear i might be the author of this story but i also get mad at these fuckers

“we’re boyfriends?” - ah yes another Thai BL fic, i will admit. i have NO idea where to take this story lmao. i still wanna finish it tho cuz i hate disappointing ppl. the fic starts with Ae and Pond making a dumb bet so Pond will stop jerking off in their shared room and promises that he won’t do that as long Ae dates someone random and based off of Pond’s choosing. sweet bby Pete wanders into their campus accidentally  and gets picked. Ae does the deed and tells Pete they’re dating. Ae thinks that Pete and Pond are scheming to make his life a living hell but lo and behold Pete has actually fallen in love with him (heheheh) 

“i wanna ruin our friendship” - hello lgbtq+ community :). we all know where this fuckin title is from don’t be sneaky. so here’s my KilluGon college fic. I initially wrote this like two years ago and uploaded it on wattpad lmaooo then i edited it and posted on ao3 and once again i have no idea where to take this (ive forgotten what my original idea for this was lol) so basically Killua and Gon are really close friends and Gon is sortof a player in this AU idk why khdkadha but anywayz all of Gon’s exes have left him bc they’re jealous of Killua but Gon would never pick his current S/O over him so HAAA. it all goes to shit tho when Retz decides to trick Gon to taking her back for the school dance and idk what path to go for T_T 

AIGHT now for my UNPUBLISHED WIPS buckle up yall this is a LOT. all the titles are WIPS so that’s why theyre iffy lol

“pussy talented”- (don’t mind the title lmao i just wanted a cat pun in there somewhere) basically, Bokuto is a firefighter and Akaashi an editor. They work near each other and Bokuto often visits Kuroo, who works with Akaashi. Ofc Akaashi falls in love at first sight but then he overhears that he has a "Kenma" waiting for him at home. Akaashi assumes that he's probably Bo's boyfriend and then leaves him alone, making Bo confused as hell. Little that he knows that Kenma is actually a grumpy calico cat.

“killugon flower shop AU” - Wing owns a flower shop and Killua helps out with Zushi along with Alluka out of boredom and one day Alluka asks Killua to help out with her client then he meets Gon and is immediately smitten until Gon says that he's looking for something that he can give to a girlfriend (it was actually Ging's request lol), lots of misunderstanding, Killua being too shy to ask the handsome stranger out and Alluka and Zushi being done with his shit 

“rice isn’t the only thing getting crushed here” - Osamu falls in love with one of his most loyal costumers—Akaashi and he thinks he might just have a shot at it until one day while Akaashi is ordering a bunch of riceballs, Bokuto Koutaro of Japan's National Volleyball team enters the restaurant and sweeps Akaashi of his feet, unexpected angst and a generous helping of unrequited pining :)) dw this fic can go two ways: Bokuto is just Akaashi's best friend who he hasn't seen in months or b. Bokuto is actually Akaashi's fiance maybe i’ll write both endings heehee

“killua is sad and gets lovebombed” - while staying in Whale Island, Killua thinks he that he doesn't deserve Gon and tries to leave him while he's asleep but his plan is stopped when Gon wakes up and they both end up revealing their true feelings for each other

“excuse to write charles getting fucked by two delicious men” - Erik and Charles have been in a relationship for years now and basically fell out of love so when Erik gets promoted and has to move, Charles agrees and so they break up. Charles turns to Logan (who harbors a giant crush on Charles) for companionship and sleep together once. Logan says it was an accident but Charles wants more and they establish a FWB situation of sorts since Charles isn't ready yet. But then Charles gets into an accident and can't remember what happened the past year and a half so he still thinks he's with Erik. Meanwhile, Erik is living a luxurious yet empty life and when he gets the call from Raven about Charles' situation, he immediately goes back running.

“killua in whale island” - KilluGon are like 20-ish and Killua visits Whale Island and Ging just happens to be there as well. Killua thinks about how even though Gon and Ging are near identical, Gon just looks so much more handsome. (probs just a oneshot) 

 “another horny cherik fic” - Charles is a demon who was accidentally summoned when Raven, Hank and Ororo uses Erik's blood to perform a demon summoning ritual (as a joke) they didn't know it would actually work so now Charles is stuck with Erik because the human absolutely refuses to sell his soul

“IwaOi overboard AU” - Oikawa is a rich pretty boy and Iwa a college dropout who works at his uncle's repair shop with his younger brother Tobio and cousin Kyoutani ( both 5 yrs old). One day he gets called over to fix one of Oikawa's cars and after a failed and disastrous encounter with a drunk Oikawa, Iwa leaves the mansion fuming. Later in the day, it's discovered that Oikawa got in a car crash that took away his memories and since Oikawa apparently lives alone, he has no one to get him. not until Iwa comes ofc and with a malicious and vengeful intent, he tells Oikawa that they're dating and live together in his crappy apartment

“dancer Akaashi” - Akaashi is a dancer, Osamu is a bartender at the bar he works at and has also been in love with Akaashi for the past two years. He doesn't confess since he knows Akaashi doesn't like romance but then enters a bright eyed cheery Bokuto who sweeps the unreachable Midnight Moon off of his feet, bokuaka but im leaning towards bokuosaaka since akaashi deserves two boyfriends

“watch me be poetically horny for Akaashi Keiji” - Akaashi is a vampire and Osamu, a skilled artist. Akaashi posing nude and delighted at how beautifully Osamu portrays him. Osamu says otherwise. 

Cherik College AU - drift by great gable.... late teens cherik... Erik being a misanthropic horny bastard and Charles a snarky piece of shit.... they get paired up for 7 minutes in heaven... turns out Charles has been ogling him for a while now..  hmmmm,,,.,. ( i wrote this when i was drunk and my og draft is too long so take this instead lolz) 

“ BokuAka (NSFW) ” - Bokuto pushing off a guy who tried to hit on Akaashi while they're at a club. Akaashi gets so turned on he immediately drags Bokuto to the bathroom where he gets his facefucked in one of the bathroom stalls or Akaashi getting his face fucked in a dirty alley at the back of a bar after Bokuto gets into a fistfight.

“KuroKen (NSFW)  ” -Kenma does top during sex but but he's just really lazy to put in the effort 

aight that’s it oh damn i just now realize how much i have T-T bruhhhhhhh and this isn’t even all of them damnnn 

[vanityloves]

anyways im gonna listen to/read the fuckin...rise of the ogre shit bc ive been putting it off 🪓🥴 im gonna put stuff under the cut bc im gonna be TALKING n dont wanna make a new post everytime

piss

ok he performed for 2 pounds 50. which is basically $3 today i- well it was absolutely a power play on his father behalf that also had the promise of money so.

also lol he said Rejection fueled my ambitions which, yknow,, i already knew but it still hurts and i will continue to talk ab it xoxo

AH HELP. "...if ebay had been invented at the time he would've sold me online there and then,"

"man hands on misery to man, yknow"

THEN PROCEEDS TO CONNECT IT TO MUSIC/HIS CAREER. this man said :) the one thing i truly have a passion for. the one thing i fucking like.

oh yeah. bullied by students AND teachers.

oh god hes 42ish during this interview? ok.

the fuckin school bully saying he wouldve acted differently if he knew what hed become

getting called "faceache", then proceeds to call 2d that. jfc he really does just repeat what everyone says. really "treating others how i was treated/how they treat me"

maybe thats why? hes kinder to fans? bc :] you support me and like me so, ok ill return that energy

MURDOC GETTING HIS ASS BEAT N PARADING HOME LIKE WELL I WON BC 'I PISSED YOU OFF' SJDJD

a real rowdy boy. absolute nasty boy. fraud and arson... shooting ppls windows with his air pistols

black sabbath being a huge inspiration? fucking absolutely.

became a satanist n shit at age 16? "it fitted me like a glove" "heavy metal and devil worshipping became my favorite past times" ajsj funny that ppl in trying times often seek religion or following of some sort

heavy metal being his favorite, n loving the clash, while hannibals was more punk based

hannibal breaking murdocs nose for the 2nd and 3rd time for playing his music on hannibals turntable

he doesnt sound that bitter? ab hannibal? he doesnt sound incredibly fond but he talks ab how he got him into a lot of music. so, i imagine they we're a bit closer than i thought?

international baccalaureate in antisocial? anthropology?

MURDOC IS ACTUALLY SMART HE WAS JUST. NOT INTERESTED IN THE SUBJECTS? I GUESS? (also,,, he literally Built cyborg noodle and i think he had a PhD too lol. but its always nice to hear hes actually...yknow, interested or good at other things)

alright but murdoc having a fascination w/ other cultures - or at least some interests, that lead him to actually study the damn subject and "pass with flying colors"

'fuck college though. im gonna be a rockstar'

he sold his soul at 18ish? whenever the fuck he got kicked out but college was mentioned so my brain goes to 18ish idk

he lived with his father still and paid rent via low paying jobs one including 'part time dressing as santa'

help he was ab to take a Personal Job for quick cash and uhh well, "still made me call him sir though" he really said 20 dollars is 20 dollars, huh "that story was totally true"

alright, 1997,,,

2d stuff

loves zombie stuff? thats really cute, and is freaked out by the way they move. god he rambles

both he and murdoc are horses in the chinese zodiac

[[jfc ok if the official shit compares them a lot i understand why ppl ship them but Dont. its a narrative foil and that doesnt always mean Romance jfc.]]

SUMTHINK.

truly... a lil stinker. super cute bouncing baby and a "bit thick" which is stull so endearing to me. hes just a happy man!

excitable 10 year old and would dance around his room

jfc the fact he has normal/caring parents. i kinda forget how opposite hes supposed to be from murdoc but i think thats another thing jsjsysg (murdoc said why isnt my tragic story making me famous why does he get to be the Star. no wonder he acts like a loon)

i still dont get how gettin bonked by a tree branch made him go bald and also turn his hair blue

big tiddy nurse mommy,,,

went to the same school as The Cure and got decent grades despite hittin the noggin quite hard. WANTED TO BE A STORM CHASER... OMG??

oh thats really cute, hed bond with his dad by building keyboards toegther 🥺💕

messed around with paints and graffiti? artistic king

MURDOC AGAIN: QHDJ 'VILLANOUS' GANG HELP

oh yeah d day...new instruments, new band, new singer - and 'had to be the best or no dice' and absolutely CONFIDENT that his songs were bangers ajsjd

but on that same note, had absolute faith (or desperate) in 2d which i love

ransacked the fucking music shop jdjdj and 2d said he was Just Standing There behind the counter the whole shift hdhdh

"thats when your eye came out, yeah" "yeah!-" HELP WHY DOES HE SOUND SO HAPPY AB IT ?? yes he said ut hurt but he sounds...ok

jfc murdoc ragdolling this poor mf around. dunking him and slapping him around. actually? so incredibly terrible and abusive and i hate him for that 🔫 im sorry 2d stans. we dont condone that behavior here ong.

how and why the FUCK did 2d's parents allow that fucker near their child after that i??? help. wtf. his moms a nurse why didnt she just have murdoc sit in plain view of other people. god damn.

2d flying out the window n hitting the curb "whoops"

"just two black holes...[ah] it looked great...a blue hair, blacked eyed GOD- the girls would go wild-" "pretty boy looks" ???? HELP. HE DOESNT GO LIGHT ON THE COMPLIMENTS, HUH

RUSS TIME

oh yeah, he straight up kiddnapped this man help. idk how he managed that, russ is a Big Man??

AND MURDOCS MUSIC WAS SO FUCKING SEXY GOOD that russel said hm alright ill stay, :] out ifbhis owm free will im screaming.

"oh this is one of them febreeze commercials" "uh . yeah sure. *murdoc turning on his Sick Tunes*" but that either means? it was just his guitar playing the convinced russ? unless he and 2d recorded sumn?

"2d was the looks, murdoc the brains, then russel truly was the heart"

'while 2d and murdoc liked music, this man was a MUSICIAN' god fucking bless this book holy shit ny man russ getting some respect. he said back hurts from carrying this band.

murdoc basically heard this guy had big trauma that gave him So Many Skills n said "thats what i want" ok idk thats actually really? inch rest ting to me. seems that murdocs fine handing out compliments but i guess that where his charisma really helps out yeah?

"he was going to be in my band whether he liked it or not" ...murdoc-

HELP. 2D IS LIKE BRO GO ON IM LISTENING 🥺 despite hearing the story 50-60 times and murdoc said fuck off you lil shit.

ok irrelevant but i love his voice! its super comforting n nice to listen to 🥺

HELP MURDOCS SO BITTER. "NOTHING THAT HAPPENS TO US IS NORMAL" WELL YEAH. THIS IS TRAUMA CENTRAL.

idk how/why he sucked up all his friends souls though ... how are they all possessing the same person. they said "its my turn on The Russ"

DELL IS HIS ACTUAL, LITERAL SOULMATE...KING...😭

went to a private school,,, and was already possessed? and the thing where he gets bigger and smaller is a reoccurring thing?

was in a coma for 4 years?

hiphop machine...time and history...the ultimate set i guess.

his knowledge was infinite and hes a "Renaissance man" hes so fucking smart our king. jack of all trades but a master of drums. he said i know im good and what of it

PAULA.

HELP. HE RMBRS THE STALL: CUBICAL NUMBER 3 🥴 IF I DO RECALL 🤤

yes russel our king. fuck up his nose 5 more times. probably stunted his growth too. he shrunk after russ gave him a wallop im sure

why dies paula sound like tracer overwatch

also only dated 2d for 2 months before joining the band?

HELP SHE REALLY WAS THE FIRST MURDOC FUCKER: "but when i saw murdoc with his thick greasy hair, green teeth and yellow skin i thought 'oh this is the ine for me!'" "OH HES SUCH A DANDY-" HELP ME IM HQJDHD

sick in the head...like i want to hurt people help girl. shes fucking Crazy. but she rly said damn i didnt hear back from him again 😭 and my purse is gone JSHHD

MURDOC: SHE WAS DEPRESSINGLY UGLY *still fucked her*

NOODLE TIME

"small japanese person!"

2d: we werent gorillaz until noodle arrived!

im dying the reason he chose gorillaz. 'swinging through the jungle baring my ass'

noodle really said "im just happy to be here" and she balanced everyone out 😭 "she gave off pure love and the fact that she could laugh at murdoc REALLY helped too" RUSS... IS BABY

JFC MURDOCS SO FUCKING CONFIDENT IN THIS BAND IM LIVING FOR THAT. HE SAID YOU WANT US SO BAD IT MAKES YOU LOOK STUPID. THE CHARISMA

2d rambling ab some girl he met and "ssSs" "whats the s stand for hawhaw" "i dont know!".

THE RECORD LABEL GUY.

one song is all it took i ❤ good for them

just murdoc talking ab the party that they threw for thier deal and saying "you dont know how much of a dick i felt like [when carrying one of those huge checks]" like oh thats whatll make you a dick? alright.

A FOOD FIGHT THAT WENT SO HARD THAT IT KNOCKED 2DS TONSILS OUT? WHAT THE FUCK

ahshdj damon and murdoc not getting along bc of Rival Band One Uppery + damon calling murdocs cuban heels crap since ge wore steel ones with gold spurs.

MURDOC FEELIN EMBARRASSED BC HES 'QUITE PROUD OF HIS SHOES'

but the band and damon getting over music and their ambitions and became a "paternal figure"

HELP MURDOC SAID AWIOGA @ RACHEL WHICH MADE HER THROW HER DRINK IN HIS FACE AND SPLIT FROM 2D. kinda sad actually, she said i still like 2d but murdoc kinda ruined it by trying to get it in with me, it put a strain in our relationship :/ oh god murdocs That Dude

nov 31 1998: started recording :]

40 tracks that got cut down to 15 holy shit

KONG STUDIOS 🤲

hooking up cameras in every room ejdjsu

webby artist of the year in 2006? holy shit

noodle learning ab kong studios omfg

JFC. YES I KNEW KONG WAS BUILT ON/IN A CEMETERY BUT I DIDNT KNOW PPL FOR THE FUCKING PLAGUE WHERE THROWN THERE HDJD

built in 1739?

the ghost of the first owners ghost still roams around in the kitchen in the early hours and moans 'aaa glass of water'

theres some rotting bullshit near the studios and in the summer its fucking TERRIBLE

the former owners were a biker gang, and they all died in a fire

murdoc said this place has bad vibes. i want it.

grim weather

the building feels impossible to escape from huHgg

[mychemicalaromanticism]

things ive already established r on this post

besties this got so fucking long but heres a giant ramble about cherri

okay so. there are huge differences betwn cherri as a hyperviolent drac hunter and cherri as a friend of the four and cherri as the girls mentor. with the first one he was 17 and desperate to distance himself from his upbringing so he went all in on Being A Killjoy. he was always one of the first ppl to rush into a fight and he fought hard. he blew up his fuckin hand with that attitude. and all the while he was just racking up more unaddressed trauma and eventually he ran away from that, too. giving himself radiation poisoning was more appealing than facing his problems.

so as a teenager/young adult hes kind of constantly in a panicked state. hes scared the people from his past are going to find him and drag him back with them. so he lashes out and he runs away over and over again.

i said in another post that he has some past life shit goin on which usually would give him a connection to the witch that manifests early in life, but with all the stuff hes gone through he has been Preoccupied. he can become oblivious to almost anything that doesnt apply to whatever hes focused on. not in a hyperfocus way its likeeeeee. when u live on survival mode during prolonged periods of stress. hes immune to magic bullshit bc hes too tired and scared.

anyways around his mid-20s he finally has a little more stability (as much as the average person living in the zones can have, that is) and he finally notices that Weird Stuff happens around him. basically: out of my list of Powers People Connected To The Witch Have he has the prophetic dreams/enhanced intuition as well as a form of sensing ghosts where he can see auras and kind of like, echoes of past events in ppls lives. that look like auras. itz complicated and not of utmost importance so im leaving it at that.

anyways thats what makes him start writing poetry. just 4 funsies he'll describe his weird experiences and embellish them to make em pretty. just as a casual hobby n all that.

he would forget fun ghoul in between the times they ran into each other but its pretty easy to be reminded of who fun ghoul is. the most insane 10 year old cherri has ever met. cherri isnt a brother figure to ghoul. hes just. his friend that happens to be more than twice his age. its whatever lmao

to cherri, ghoul is kinda like a stray animal he keeps seeing. which is hilarious. ghoul actually goes and finds him to introduce him to jet when they start running together, and cherri meets party and kobra (spark and birdie at the time) when he drives the four of them to a party. because he has a truck hell yeah. so now instead of one stray animal he has, like, a feral cat colony that he drives around occasionally. i have no real-life human relationship equivalent to them because irl if some guy that is not related to any of you and isnt even a childhood or family friend and theyre hanging out with you? they are usually not a safe person lmao. but this is my fantasy land and im too stubborn to change anyones birth years even though ghoul being born in 2004 makes everything really hard to make not creepy.

so yeah hes a casual somewhat friend of the fab four. hed probably get more and more concerned as they got famous. the beginnings of any sort of protective feelings, awww :) that sets him up for becoming the girls mentor.

OH FUCK. THE GIRL..... i think if i was in my late 20s and i heard that the gang of 13-17 year olds had adopted a 5 year old kid i would go bananas. what the fuck. it is a LONG while before cherri meets her. but he has the strongest affection for ghoul (if you could even call it that) and ghoul absolutely adores the girl and swings her around under her arms like a cat to show her off to cherri and its very endearing and the girl is sweet and funny so its easy to be around her. and (unfortunately) she is somewhat used to interacting with weird easily agitated people so she kinda gives him space. cherri isnt quite the uncle figure the fandom usually makes him (i luv uncle cherri sm but he simply cannot exist in the universe ive created, f), but hes a little similar.

and then the four had to go and pretend to die. lol.

when the girl was kidnapped, fucking everyone who knew her was ready to storm the city then and there. like regardless of how little you knew her, if you had ever met her you would fucking die for her. she is pure childish charisma and shes precious. i love the girl. so cherris immediately on board with whatever plan the four make to get her back. ive already talked abt how it fucked up the girl tho; there was no way to tell her that the four werent actually dead, she sees the building collapse and she shuts down. and cherri has to fight against his instinct to leave the radio station and never come back when he sees an eight year old girl sitting dissociated on the couch. that fucks everyone up.

i just realized i havent talked about literally anyone else at the radio station. i think cherri started lingering around the station bc it was safe and sheltered while also not being a popular spot. there are less kids there (people pass through but its not a hangout spot). he was kind of just hanging around to get away from the heat and noise and dr d took notice. because that man can see ur soul and no one knows if thats literal or not. so theyd chat a few times a day and show pony was the one 2 get him out of his shell a little and also was the first one he mentioned his poetry hobby to. im making this all up right now as im writing bc i dont know anything about LITERALLY any of the ppl associated w the radio like im not even going 2 try with chimp n newsie i do not have the willpower to tackle all that. justttt. cherri pony n D become bros and live 2gether there.

back 2 the regular timeline. the rescue mission happens in 2019. the girl lives at the station until 2023. during that time she is very much depressed and withdrawn and is only happy when the four come to visit. none of the Adults know how to help her so they just keep her safe and cared for and hope she'll open up to them.

she does not. she takes the weird cat thats been hanging around and she runs away.

cherri does not see her for three years. shes still worse for wear in the mental health department and he can see all kinds of visions of what shes been through since the last time he saw her and he fucking hates the ultra vs bc they remind him of his past. he does not want her going down that path but its obvious that she isnt crazy abt the ultraviolence thing either so thats a relief.

they have a kind of tense relationship throughout the comics. he feels like he failed her and that spirals into feeling like he failed the four for not being a good adult to them and fun ghoul for not helping enough when his commune was bombed and all kinds of shit and that irrational thinking mixed with plain old, yknow, caring about the girl, is what makes him take a bullet (laser. whatever) for her.

i was trying to figure out the timing of each of their ghost experiences, but i want both of them to talk to the witch and im just gonna make it like dreams where a whole buncha stuff happens but irl its been like seconds. so its like barely a second while the girl has her Witch Convo and cherri FINALLY gets a straight answer, yes there is weird shit going on with him having powers. he doesnt have any story-significant past lives because im lazy, hes just an old soul. like really fuckin old. the amount of latent life experience and stuff his soul/energy/whatever has picked up along the way makes him VERY noticeable to gods n stuff. he fuckin lights up all the alarms like what the FUCK is that over there. she wasnt rly able to get to him or even properly notice him while he was a kid and a young adult so shes happy to finally see him again. he has a STRONG sense of familiarity with her. they know each other on a wild ass level that he cant really comprehend.

welp thats some more lore I'll have 2 think abt. anywayz

post canon is when he and val get to have the most awkward spiderman meme moment of realizing that they have the same trauma SOOOOO thatz fun lol /s sorry kings i thought it would be fun to give u something fucked up to bond over <3

not much changes in his personality. he has a better understanding of Weird Magic and delights in freaking out the ultra vs but for the most part he returns to his life at the radio station. i love him

THIS GOT SO CRAZY LONG I DID NOT MEAN 2 GO THROUGH EVERY PART OF HIS LIFE LIKE SOME WEIRD CHARACTER STUDY but here we are. this is basically a first draft like almost all of this is subject to change but u gotta start somewhere. so heres my start i love this guy. its probably obvious but i have not read ANY twitterverse killjoys stuff </3 maybe i will someday idk