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The Waynes' Nanny
Batfamily and Reader/ Bruce Wayne x Reader Chapters Ao3
Master & Servant
You either had become too comfortable in your position or youâd gotten too used to scolding the kids; either way, Bruce suddenly found himself at the end of your lectures. As the boss, he should have nipped it in the bud, but, truthfully, he liked it. He enjoyed the way you reigned him in when he got a bit too silly or arrogantâEven Alfred had come to appreciate his behavior a bit more afterward (especially when your reprimands pertained to Alfred doing work a man his age shouldnât have been doing).
The kids had gone to school, and Bruce, after a night of festive activities, decided it would be best to stay home. He was in the middle of signing some documents when you knocked on the door to his study before entering with a cool expression on your face. Bruce didnât bother to look up as you crossed the room to his desk, thinking you were there to cure a bit of your boredom. When a lacy pair of red panties slid in front of his paperwork he had to look up at you.Â
âWhatâre you doing?â He said, pushing his chair away from his desk. Were you coming onto him?
You were quick to reach across and pull him back close to you. âNot so fast there, honâ. We have to talk.â
âI��m starting to think we do if this is how you seduce me,â Bruce said as he threw the underwear back toward you.Â
You sighed before saying, âTheseââ You waved around the little piece of fabric. ââWere from your date last night.â
Bruce only managed out an, âOh.â
âOh. Would you like to know where I found them?â You spat out. No, he wouldnât, but he wasnât about to start answering rhetorical questions. âIn the kids' playroom.âÂ
âShit,â Bruce seethed out. He had been to a gala earlier in the evening, and, to keep the reporters at bay, decided to bring a pretty lady home. The sex was to relieve some stress, and, usually, he would be careful about where he had his intimate relations. But, he was so pent up that he must have been a bit reckless. That wasnât like him at all, and he would ensure that it never happened again.
âDonât leave things like this in there again, please,â You gritted out, tone stern and curt. âItâs incredibly irresponsible. Especially around young children, Mr. Wayne!â
âI know, you donât need to tell me.â Bruce felt a lightness in his chest, almost fluttering.Â
You threw the underwear in his lap. âApparently I do! Imagine if Duke or Damian found that?â
Bruce was mortified at the thought, but mumbled, âWe could always say it was yours.â
If looks could kill Bruce would be dead. You were not in the slightest bit amused and told him as much. You mentioned that the underwear wasnât even the tip of the iceberg of the issue at hand.Â
âYou can fuck wherever you want, Bruce, but donât do it around my kids. They donât need to get caught up in your fucked up sex life!â
He knew it would be a bad time to point out that they were actually his kids. Overall, he agreed and promised you to never do it again. That seemed to pacify you, more so when he apologized for suggesting that they could pass off the panties as yours.Â
 You expressed in a more calming tone, âI know you love the kids, but theyâre already having a hard time coping with the rumors about you in the media. Donât make it any worse by bringing it off the pages into their safe spaces.â
This is what Bruce liked about your reprimands, they brought reality back to him when lost it. You seemed done giving him a rightfully deserved scolding and began to take your leave.Â
He called out to you, though, beckoning you back. When you approached, Bruce rounded his desk to get a bit closer to you. âThank you forâŚbeing blunt with me.â
âSomeone needs to,â You were quick to say. âThough, Iâm starting to wonder who's the boss.â
Bruce smiled and chuckled, agreeing that the line had been blurred in moments like these. Looking down at the underwear in his hands, he finally got the courage to ask, âHowâd you know they were my dates?âÂ
You smirked and laughed a little as you began to leave. âI donât wear cheap panties. Do you need a lesson on that, too?â
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THE ONLY EXCEPTION
⍠now playing - the only exception by paramore
bakugou x reader
word count: 1,827 words
IN WHICH each time your friends caught bakugou only being nice to you.
a/n: still 'fool for you' just changed the title (â§ĎâŚ)
âi've never seen him so.. calm.â
âright? he's always so uptight.â
the two friends were peering over the couch as they watched bakugou and y/n sleep soundlessly. there was a serene look drawn on his face while he held y/n closely to him, her hand resting softly on his chest as their chests rose up and down simultaneously.
âhow come he's so much nicer to her than any of us?â kirishima complained with a pout stitched on his lips. he'd been friends with bakugou way before (two months) him and y/n got together. where was his special treatment?
âthey're dating duh. why wouldn't he be nice to her?â mina replied as gazed at the couple with a soft gaze in her eyes. their young, teenage love was truly admirable.
even if bakugou seemed to have a stick up his ass 24/7.
the couple twitched softly in their sleep. it had been a long and stressful day of endless amounts of training, and lord knew that they both needed a break. a thin blanket was all that covered their bodies, but anybody could make out the way bakugou held her waist and the way y/n laid her hand on his chest underneath the sheet.
the usually quiet library turned into a circus as it filled up with bakugou's grumbling, denki's whines, and y/n's giggling. the sight of bakugou repeatedly smacking denki on the head with rolled up paper was an entertaining sight to distract her from her note-taking.
âare you seriously this stupid?â bakugou growled as he peered over the blonde's notebook, erasing and scribbling over any mistakes he made. denki pouted while rubbing his head on the spot that bakugou smacked. âc'mon.. it's really not that easy!â denki whined.
bakugou's vermillion eyes narrowed at denki. âit's basic algebra! how did you even get this far if you can't do simple math?!â he snapped.
denki continued to pout as he grumbled under his breath, something about bakugou lacking basic respect.
âuh.. katsuki?â y/n called out hesitantly.
though he still kept the glare on his face, the way his body language softened was visible, and how his tone contrasted from denki to her was plain obvious. âwhat?â
she turned over her notebook towards him so he can see her work. âi think i did it wrong.. can you check it?â
bakugou grabbed her notebook and skimmed over her work. âyeah.. here, let me explain.â he leaned over closer to her, close enough to where she can smell caramel on his skin.
denki's mouth fell agape as he watched how the guy went from raising hell on him to looking like he was practically skipping in a field of flowers inside his head. âthat is SO not fair! how come you're so much nicer to her than me?!â
âcause she's not an idiot! keep working!â
it was far past midnight, and it was already one thing that izuku couldn't sleep, but on an empty stomach? it made it far much worse. he tried everything in the book from counting sheep to counting his breaths, but nothing could beat his racing mind and the sound of his stomach growling.
izuku didn't want to disturb anyone, but would it really hurt if he just tip-toed to the common room? he sighed as he ran his hand through his curly green hair, quietly making his way to the kitchen to not wake anyone.
but as he walked through the common room, a taller figure appeared in front of him.
âGAH!â he yelped, hastily smacking a hand over his mouth as he realized how loud he'd screamed. âshoto!â he half-whispered. âwhat are you doing?!â
todoroki stood still, his expression unwavering. âi couldn't sleep.â his direction turned towards the kitchen. âi wanted to get a snack, but i think someone is in there.â he said.
that's odd. it was almost one in the morning, and the only people that izuku thought could be awake fell asleep ages ago. he asked todoroki who it was but he only shrugged, showing he only heard the person but never checked who it was.
he never thought he'd be met with the sight of bakugou resting his chin on y/n's shoulder as she made them snacks.
âat 12:47 in the morning? that's way past bakugou's bedtimeâŚâ todoroki muttered under his breath.
bakugou's tone was softer, softer than anyone had ever heard besides y/n herself. âyou better not burn it.â he huffed.
y/n giggled, slightly turning her head to face his side profile. âi'm not going to burn our snacks,â she assured. âi'm an expert.â
âexpert my ass.â
âhey!â
izuku and todoroki looked like a deer in headlights looking at the scene before them. they wanted to walk away, believe them, they really did. but the sight of bakugou being so domestic was such a rare and amusing sight to see.
âdo we⌠leave?â izuku suggested.
âi don't knowâŚâ todoroki answered. âthis is really weird.â
bakugouâs head shot up from her shoulder and turned to look at the two voices faster than the speed of light. his ruby eyes were narrowed as he glared them down as his lips curled. âthe hell are you guys doing?â
izuku's hands flapped around in a panic. âw-we were just about to leave! i swear-â
âyou're very affectionate, bakugouâ todoroki said, as blunt as ever.
âshut up!â he yelled, his face turning as a red as a tomato and his hair puffed up. y/n giggled once again at the dramatic scene that laid in front of her. âdo you guys want snacks too?â she offered.
âwhy are you giving our food to extras?â âsuki!â
brutal wasn't even the word to describe today's training session. everyone was curled up on the ground, hands over their stomach as it even hurt to breathe. the sounds that filled the room were heavy breathing and complaints. and y/nâ was nowhere to be found.
mina, jirou, and ochaco all wandered the hallways, a worried look etched on their face as they searched for their friend. âi'm really worried about her y'know.â mina was the first one to break the silence.
both girls nodded in agreement.
âso am i,â ochaco said. âshe just disappeared right after training ended.â
the trio kept wandering the halls, looking in every corner and every turn where y/n could be hiding.
suddenly, through the glass window, they see their little y/c haired friend sitting on the bench, with her fingers intertwined on her lap and her head hung low.
âthere she is!â jirou yelled, quickly running to the nearest door to go outside and get y/n while the other two girls trailed closely behind her.
but something made them stop dead in their tracks. the closer they got to the window, the more they were able to see someone elses silhouette sat next to her.
âis that bakugou?â
bakugou's arm was wrapped securely around y/n's shoulders, intently listening to her rambling about whatever she needed to get off her chest.
âi did really bad today.â she mumbled, her voice filled with sadness and frustration.
âand thatâs okay.â bakugou comforted her. âone bad doesn't mean you suck. everyone has bad days.â he reassured her, rubbing light circles on her shoulders.
y/n shrugged, playing and picking at her fingers as they rested on her lap. âi just think iâm weak, yâknow?â she mumbled once again.
âyou're not- hey. look at me.â bakugou squished her cheeks and turned her head to face his. âstop. you think i'd be talking to you like this if you're so weak? hm?â
âno?â she muffled due to how much bakugou was squishing her face.
âexactly. you're strong, so stop putting yourself down because of one off day and keep training.â
âyou're hurting my cheeks.â
bakugou let go of her face, lightly patting her cheeks as an apology. âmy point is, one bad day doesn't mean you're weak. think about every other time you've kicked ass.â
y/n laughed softly, her face changing from what looked like a kicked puppy to her usual grin. âthank you suki.â she said.
âthis is the cutest thing I've ever seen.â mina whispered while clenching her shirt where her heart is tightly.
âwho knew the pomeranian could be such a romantic?â jirou teased as ochaco and mina giggled along side of her.
bakugou lightly ruffled the top of y/n's hair, lightly blushing from the way she looked at him with such a lovestruck glance. âyou're strong. don't start with that âi'm weakâ shit cause i won't hear it.â
âyou're so sweet when you want to be.â
ânow you're pushing it.â
âwhy are you only nice to me?â the question caught katsuki off guard.
the couple had been in y/n's dorm room simply sitting in silence, with their legs entangled together and the light noise of the TV playing in the background.
he turned his head slightly to face her, their eyes meeting instantly as she was already looking at him so softly. âwhy wouldn't i be?â katsuki questioned as his fingers lightly played with her hair.
y/n shrugged, not having a response to his question. it just seemed out-of-character for him. he was the type of person to not let anyone change him, good or bad.
but the crude boy would come to be a puddle of sap when it came to her. even if it wasn't obvious verbally, the ways his eyes softened when they laid upon her was enough said.
âi asked you a question first.â she retorted.
katsuki exhaled sharply, his gaze turning from her to the ceiling as his heart rate sped up a bit. âyou're just.. different.â
y/n's eyebrows raised slightly as a smirk stitched itself onto her face. she scooted closer to katsuki's side, leaning her head on his bicep as she stared lovingly at his side profile. âi'm.. different? there's more to that, isn't there?â
âof course there is. you just don't get to know that stuff right now.â
y/n knew that katsuki wasn't one to talk about his feelings. she wasn't looking to change that. but the simple thought of him just looking at her differently from the rest, like shes the only person in every room, made her heart flutter.
âdon't think i'm getting soft though.â katsuki grumbled, an arm slipping around her waist as he pulled her impossibly closer.
âyou're just⌠the only exception.â
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Going off of the Malleus ask, which yans do you think would stress the staff least to most?
Least to most in terms of stressing the staff out if they got in a romantic relationship with the Human. (Minus platonics and Erikir, cause that ain't happening)
Idia (the most sane in the staffs' eyes and has Papa Hades to keep him in line)
Neige (Sweet, non-threatening)
Alistair (also sweet, more interested in exploring and playing games than a true threat)
Silver (a good egg)
Epel (a little rowdy, but so much more tame than the others)
Trey (he is seen as the 'mom' friend by many, not the best choice but a good one)
Rook (trustworthy and dependable with minimal aggression. They are aware he would sooner let his 'beauties' kill him than he would kill them)
Jade (sly, but dependable and smart)
Che'nya (already saved the human once, but might be bad luck)
Sebek (Loyal and loud. Unlikely to cause too many problems)
Jack (loyal, but a dangerous species, is considered Domestic so he is less of a threat)
Cater (dumb. Sweet, but dumb. Hopefully learned his lesson and is a more mindful guard)
Jamil (they know he is crafty despite being so middle of the road in terms of academics)
Ace (terrible attitude, terrible grades, will only get worse if with the Human)
Deuce (a little more tolerable than ace but also more of a threat than ace)
Ruggie (crafty, cunning, dangerous species. More submissive, but still dangerous)
Floyd (Likes to bite. Likes to be a wild card. Unpredictable)
Rollo (fire is not healthy for Humans, but he is more 'tame')
Riddle (skilled mage, already overblotted once, who's to say he won't do it again?)
Azul (has contacts and is a powerful housewarden, he is a cunning and far too inteligent threat)
Kalim (they know his wishes kill people and they are terrified his wishes will kill the Human, plus he is so spacy he should never be trusted)
Leona (a prince from a long line of Human eaters)
Vil (A popular actor who is always in the public eye and being surrounded at all times, he is also unnervingly skilled in potions)
Lilia (Dangerous older Fae, with dangerous older Fae tricks)
Malleus (DANGER. CAN AND WILL TAKE HUMAN AWAY. DANGER)
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[1] Better â§. â â â â âcha haein x fem!reader
Cha Haein wasn't the type to get distracted during training.
Footwork, breathing, precisionâevery movement was calculated, controlled.
But today, she was off.
"Alright, take a break," you said, stepping back with an easy grin, barely winded from sparring. "I don't wanna be responsible if 'The Dancer' suddenly gets sloppy.
Haein exhaled, lowering her wooden sword. "Iâm not sloppy."
You tilted your head, giving her a look. "You hesitated twice."
She had.
Which was ridiculous. She never hesitated.
But how was she supposed to focus when her mind was still stuck on what you had said earlier?
The casual, offhanded way you had mentioned it.
"I've been busy lately. My boyfriend's been asking to meet more, so I donât have much free time.'
It had taken everything in her to keep her expression neutral, to not let the words hit harder than they should have.
Because why should she care?
You were her friend. Maybe. She got jealous.
And the more you talked about him, the worse it got.
You always spoke with a small smile, but your words never matched.
"He's been stressed, so I don't mind if he forgets things sometimes."
"He's usually not like this, I think he's just tired."
"I mean, he's not ignoring meâhe just gets busy."
Excuses. So many excuses.
Haein had seen couples before. She wasn't blind. She knew what love was supposed to look like.
And this wasn't it.
She could see it in the way your shoulders tensed when his name came up. In the way you always gave more than you received.
She had thought about saying somethingâhad wanted toâbut what right did she have?
So instead, she forced herself to stay silent.
Forced herself to tighten her grip on her sword and focus on training, even though she hated every second of it.
Because deep down, she already knew.
She wasn't just upset because your boyfriend didn't treat you well.
She was upset because she knew she could treat you better.
âââ ââ
ââ
â ââ
Cha Haein had never been much for socializing.
The crowded banquet hall, the clinking of glasses, the stifling chatterâit all made her nervous. She had planned to leave early like she always did until she saw him.
And at that moment, her plans changed.
You were standing near the bar, neatly dressed, your usual confidence overshadowed by the presence of the man beside you.
Him.
Haein's fingers curled around the stem of her untouched wine glass as she watched him drape an arm around your waist, speaking over you as if you were just there to decorate his evening. The way he barely glanced at you when you spoke, how he only touched you when others were watching, how his attention wandered the moment someone more important entered the roomâ
It made her stomach clench in a way she didn't like.
She knew you deserved better.
And she knew she could do better.
You had been her friend for years - someone who understood her quiet nature, someone who never forced her into conversations she didn't want to have, someone who always knew when she needed space and when she needed someone by her side.
But here you were.
Accepting someone who didn't even see you.
The thought made her act before she could think twice.
Her heels clicked lightly on the marble floor as she approached, her usual quiet confidence making people move away without her having to say a word. She didn't hesitate as she approached you, not looking at him.
Just you.
"Dance with me."
Your head suddenly lifted, eyes widening a little. "Haein?"
She tilted her head slightly, lips curving into the faintest of smiles. "You look sad, I want to cheer you up."
You blink, and for the first time tonight, she sees something flash across your faceâhesitation, disappointment, something deeper.
Your so-called boyfriend doesnât even notice her presence, too busy talking to someone else.
Haein steps closer, her voice lower, softer.
"You don't have to pretend with me."
A breath escapes your lipsâsomething between a giggle and a sigh. "You don't even like dancing."
"I don't want to," she admits. "But I'll do it for you."
That makes you pause.
And then, slowly, you place your hand in hers.
Warm, familiar.
The moment your fingers clasp hers, she swears she feels something happen.
She eases you onto the dance floor, her grip firm but careful, as if she's afraid you might slip. The moment you settle into the rhythm, the warmth of your body close to hers, she knows she's done the right thing.
Because this â holding you in her arms, watching you smile without forcing it, feeling the way you move naturally against her â it feels right.
"Why did you do that?" you ask, your voice smaller now, more vulnerable.
Haein exhales softly, her gaze steady. "Because someone should."
You blink at her, your eyes searching hers. And in that moment, she knows you understand.
Because he always understood her.
She doesn't need to explain.
It goes without saying how much it hurts to see you with someone who doesn't see you the way she does.
Needless to say, she wanted to be the one holding you like thisânot just tonight, but forever.
The song slowed down, and so did you, the distance between you becoming impossibly small.
Your fingers tightened around hers.
And then, barely more than a whisperâ
"You should have asked me sooner."
Haein held her breath.
And she swore, in that moment, that she would never be late again.
âââ ââ
ââ
â ââ
And then your lover notices.
The music continues, but Haein can feel the weight of an angry gaze burning her back.
She ignores it.
Until she doesnât have to anymore.
"Oh, isn't this cute?"
Your body tenses slightly, but Haein doesnât let go. Instead, she turns aroundâjust enough to meet his gaze.
He looks uncomfortable. Defensive. Like someone whose pride has been wounded.
Good.
You sigh, backing away slightly. "I don't want to do this here."
But Haein's patience is running out.
"She's busy," Haein says, her tone even but firm.
Your so-call-boyfriend scoffs. "Oh, so you're speaking for them now?" He laughs. "I know. You've always been strangely protective, haven't you?"
Haein didn't react. Not taking the bait. She just tilted her head, her hand still resting lightly on your waist.
"I protect people who deserve it," she said smoothly. "Not people who treat their partners like accessories."
His expression darkened. "You donât know anything about our relationship."
"I know enough," Haein said, her voice calmâso calm it was almost insulting. "I know they deserve better."
His jaw clenched. "And you think that's you?"
Haein smiled, slow and careful. "I know that's me."
You sighed softly beside her, and she didnât have to look to know you were trying not to laugh.
He scoffed, but there was something uncomfortable about his postureâlike he knew he'd already lost.
He was angry and reached for your hand. "Come with me-"
But then his actions were quickly interrupted by Haein. She glared at him, exuding a dangerous aura. "Donât touch her."
He pulled his hand back and trembled under Haein's gaze.
Haein tilted her head toward the exit. "I think you've stayed too long."
His eyes glanced between the two of you, but in the end, he just stuck out his tongue and turned away. "You'll regret it soon."
As soon as he left, you sighed, running your hand over your face.
"That'sâŚsomething."
Haeinn hummed, "Are you sad?"
You looked up at her, a slow smile spreading across your lips.
"No," you said, your voice warm. "It was kinda hot, actually."
Hae-In blinked. Then she smiled.
"Good."
She held out her hand again. "Another dance?"
This time you took it without hesitation, your fingers wrapping around hers as if they had always been there.
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[patience is a virtueâŚ?]. in the over two hundred years that dokyeom has been working as a guardian angel for heavenâ cycling through various humans needed proper guidance time after timeâ never had he met someone so, soâ
âhello! my name is dokyeom, and from today on, i will be your guardian angel.â
âso morally problematic.
âoh, itâs alright. i donât need one.â
that was the first thing you said to him during your first meeting. it still rattles him three, four months into being assigned to you, and throughout these past four months, heâs slowly started to realize exactly why your previous angel resigned.Â
âexâexcuse me?â dokyeom stammers, and the heavenly halo spotlighting him in the middle of your room flickers a bit, in tune with the flustered twitch of his smile. youâre not even looking at him. youâre sitting cross legged on your desk chair, swinging it back and forth as you pour a hundred percent of your attention into your cell phone. âhaha, everyone needs and has a guardian angel, silly! you are one of the special people to actually meet yours!â
special is a stretch. itâs a general rule in the GAORAP (Guardian Angel Operating Rules and Procedures) that no angel may, for whatever reason, materialize in front of their assigned humanâ except in special cases, where direct contact between angel and assignment is deemed absolutely necessary for the latterâs spiritual growth and development.
in other words, when someoneâs strayed too far from the path towards god, heaven has to directly intervene.
âhey.âÂ
his words seemed to have caught your attention.Â
âcatch.â
swoosh!
thwack!
just not in the way he had hoped.Â
âwhoa. holy shit. seems like even angels can get hurt.â
his first meeting with you ended with a phone getting punt straight into his nose. no wonder mingyu looked like heâd gone through hell and back in the six months heâd been assigned to you, and the moment his resignation got approved, itâs like he regained back seventeen years of life, singing praises of hallelujah while skipping out from the management office.
that was because you are way worse than hell. case in pointâ
âcanât you justâ canât you just talk it out?! ack, stop! stop! heâs already unconscious!â
right now, the nth person youâve dragged into alleyway simply because you didnât like the way they were looking at you. dokyeom is stressed. so, so stressed as his words fail once moreâ bam!â and your fist lands on the nameless victimâs nose again. he winces. he canât intervene directly. your reformation should start with you after all. but youâve shown no signs of even wanting to become a better person.
âcâmon, he started it! he glared at me from across the street like he wanted to start a fight! look, he even punched me too!â you let the poor guy fall onto the dirt ridden floor to snatch dokyeomâs hand, press it up to your cheekâ your blood grazed cheek, warm and burningâ almost like an inferno from hell. âsee. it hurts when you touch it here. donât you have healing powers or some shit?â
dokyeom lets out a squeak and snatches his hand back.
you cackle, turn your wildly grinding face back to the opening mouth of the alley, and start walking away (not without landing a spit on the guy that allegedly tried picking a fight with you).
âgonna stop by the market! you can head home first, mr. angel!â
so much for reformation. this is worse than dealing with a murderous convict. what makes you worse than someone who has committed numerous crimes against humanity, is the fact that you seem to get a kick out of seeing an angel in distress. you seem to enjoy testing just how much of your bullshit he can handle before snapping.
âhaha, maybe think twice next time before taking someoneâsââ
âplease think about the consequences of your actions.â
âwhere did you get that phone?â
âthatâsâ thatâs trespassing! this is illegal!â
âwhatâŚwhat was your reason for breaking his nose this time?â
itâs fine. this is fine. he can handle all of this. he was trained for this very thing. you should become a positive person who is considerate of others, his mentor had told him on the day of his promotion. heâs so, so patient. heâs the embodiment of patience. that virtue is literally imbibed into his very being. one day, heâd be able to get you to do something good. it doesnât have to be grand. it doesnât have to be virtuous.Â
but if he keeps trying, if he could just stop you from acting out just once, then the rest will follow.
maybe his words will work this time. maybe youâllâ
âwhat the fuck did you just say to me, you prick? hey, get over here! iâm gonna kick yourâ whoa!â
nevermind.
âhey what the fuck, angel, what are you doing?! dokyeom! put me the fuck down!â
no amount of coaxing or convincing can stop you from succumbing to your violent impulses. nothing. âstop squirming,â he grunts. you hang over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes. your fists hammer against his back as he walks a set of stairs that lead the way down. he skips a few. you let out a sharp yelp. âif i drop you, you might just end up straight to hell at this rate.â
âlet me go! hey! are you even allowed to do this?!â sure, he isnât supposed to intervene directly, but 1 john 3:18 reads: âlet us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.â actions speak louder than wordsâ if words fail, then heâd just have to pick you up and stop you from doing wrong himself.
#prompt: dokyeom + angel#i'm starting to think i made this activity just to give myself an excuse to pull out the dumbest shit out of my ass.#and pretend it's literature#dokyeom x reader#seokmin x reader#lee seokmin x reader#dokyeom x you#seokmin x you#lee seokmin x you#svt x reader#seventeen x reader#svt x you#svt fanfic#seventeen fanfic#svt scenarios#seventeen scenarios#dokyeom au
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um- can we have shadow with a reader who gets chronic headaches- theg didnt tell shadow until they got one bad enough to cause tears because they are so used to headaches at that point- and shadow is a gentle fluffy bot there to help
âIâm Always Here to Helpâ
Pairing: Shadow the Hedgehog x Reader
Requested: Yes (by an anon).
Description: You always wound up with chronic headaches on the worst of days. Luckily you had your partner to help you out this time.
Notes: More fluff, more fluff, more fluff! I hope you enjoy, anon!
(Reader will be gender-neutral.)
(Not proof-read/beta-read.)
(TW for swearing, but only for one bit of dialogue.)
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Blinking your eyes open, you take in your surroundings, groaning a bit as you rub your forehead with your pointer finger and thumb.
You woke up with one of your chronic headaches.
Great.
The room around you is a bit dark, but thereâs sunlight peeking through your curtain.
âŚUnfortunately right onto your face.
You put your arm over your eyes, letting off a sigh.
Itâs fine, youâve dealt with your headaches before.
You sit up from your bed, uncovering your face, and trudge off of the bed with a small yawn.
You head out of your room, entering the kitchen, seeing your partner, Shadow, making breakfast. From what it smells like, heâs making bacon and eggs.
âMorning, [Name],â Shadow says. âSleep well?â
âYeah, I did,â you mutter. âYou?â
âIt was decent,â Shadow replies. âSleeping beside you always makes it better.â
You let off a smile at that.
âCould you put four pieces of bread in the toaster?â Shadow asks.
âSure thing,â you say.
You open the bread and pop the four pieces into the toaster, pushing the button down.
âŚOnly for it to come back up.
Confused, you look at the dial, and surely enough, itâs at its usual spot.
You then check if itâs plugged in, which itâs not.
You plug it in and push the button down again, and it works this time.
You let out a quiet sigh of relief. You didnât want to have to buy a new toaster.
After about a minute, the toast is done, and you butter each piece, placing two each on a plate just as Shadow finishes the food.
The two of you eat your breakfast, chatting about whatever, and after eating, Shadow quickly does the dishes, and the two of you head off to the couch to watch something.
âŚOnly for Shadow to get a call on his communicator.
Grumbling, Shadow answers the call.
âWhat do you-â
âShads! Sorry for the sudden call, but we could really use some backup!â the voice of Sonic says.
âAnd you couldnât call any of your friends?â Shadow asks.
âYeahh, about that- Theyâre all already here,â Sonic says. âYouâre the last one I could call.â
Shadow lets out a sigh.
âOn my way,â Shadow says, ending the call. âIâll be back.â
âStay safe, okay?â you request.
Shadow nods before Chaos Controlling away.
You let off a sigh of your own. You wouldâve hoped hanging out with your partner would get rid of your headache, but now that was cancelled.
So you have to find some other way to get rid of your headache. So be it.
You start off by drinking some water and taking two pain relievers, which unfortunately will take a while to kick in, so now you need to pass the time.
MaybeâŚyou could go on a run? No, your headache would get worse from that.
You couldâŚclean the house? No, Shadow does that during his spare time.
MayâŚbeâŚbaking?
Yes! Baking would be great!
Baking isnât stressful, surely?
Besides, you can make something nice for you and Shadow to enjoy!
Getting out the ingredients to make a chocolate cake, you get to work.
Eggs, baking powder, flour, sugar-
Oops.
A bit too much sugar.
Thatâs okay, you can deal with that much.
A bit of vanilla extract, chocolate, andâŚ
Okay! All mixed!
Pouring the mixture into a baking pan, you set it in the oven and let it bake for the required time while you make the frosting.
You put on your oven mitts to take the cake out, and-
âŚWait, why does it smell like somethingâs burning?!
You quickly open the oven, and black smoke comes out of it, causing you to cough, backing away from the smoke while waving the smoke away from your eyes.
Once the smoke subsides you fall to your knees.
The tears from not only the pain of your headache, but from losing the cake you worked hard on, start pouring out of your eyes, and you choke out a sob.
You feel a pair of arms quickly wrap around you, and you turn around almost as fast, burying your head into your partnerâs chest as you let the tears fall.
âShhh, Iâm here,â Shadow says. âLet it out. Iâm not going anywhere.â
He holds you in his arms until you stop crying, and you let out a sad sigh.
âDo you want to talk about it?â Shadow asks.
âIâŚyeah,â you mutter. âI justâŚof course the day I want to do something nice for us is when I have a chronic headacheâŚâ
Shadow kisses your forehead before putting his hand on your cheek, rubbing it gently with his thumb.
âIâm sorry, sunshine,â Shadow says.
âEh, itâs not your faultâŚThe pain medicine finally decided to kick in, anyway, so itâs not as bad,â you tell him, leaning into his touch. âHow did the fight go?â
âKicked Eggmanâs ass,â Shadow says nonchalantly. âAlso got to see the Faker get his shit wrecked, so that was funny.â
You let out a chuckle at the mental image of this.
Even though you two had vastly different days, at least you could always come home to each other to make each otherâs day.
#sonic the hedgehog#sth#sonic fanfiction#sonic characters x reader#sonic character x reader#shadow the hedgehog#x reader#shadow the hedgehog x reader#shadow x reader#sonic oneshots#sonic oneshot#oneshot#requested oneshot#requested#etc#insert tag here#tosffw writes
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yall, i think the stress is getting to me i keep having horrible nightmares
#life#probably my sleeping meds doing a thing too#but like last night i was about to be murdered in my sleep#like.. decapitated#and tonight i had my phone stolen and i chased after the person#and managed to grab their walkie-talkie and listened#and it had the most horrific noises coming from the very end#like people being tortured and abused#and it made my heart pound from terror#it was already so stressful and it got so so much worse#anyways my cat is getting surgery today and i'm very stressed about it + the recovery#+ my own mental health but that's like.. low prio surprisingly#can't afford to think about it too much
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my cat is the best. it's only 3 in the afternoon, but today has already been A DAY⢠and now she is just giving me all of the love.
#too much stress built up#then i had to at the very last minute be like nope i can't do this thing today it'll only make things worse#(thankfully the lady was very very nice and understanding and I didn't have to pay a fee for canceling to last minute)#and then i had to get all the way home again#and now i am so exhausted and as flat as a pancake (with the cat on top of me)#some days it be like that#it's okay#could have become something much worse (it can always get worse)#at least i made some pizza dough this morning so i've got that already easy for tonight#let's just breathe#cry a little bit more#hold hands#and have the rest of the day go in as gentle of a way as possible#lea speaks
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if i might bitch about work for a second: yesterday was hellishly bad despite being able to keep up with it and i found out that apparently our department made 4600 dollars yesterday which is making me angry beyond belieffffffff
#this is math i do fairly often bc i enjoy ho-hum math and hate my job and like#even if we took off 2000 bucks for overhead costs which feels excessive but i will concede it#that would be enough to pay everyone working a little over 860 dollars which is 300 more than what i make in a WEEK#literally WHEREEEEE IS IT WHERE IS IT GOING WHERE IS IT#i dont like following this logic through because on days where there are fewer orders we;d do less#and i disagree with gig work's implementation as ive seen it and i think that would stress people out worse than we already are#(which is significantly)#but at the same time. 850 dollars. i cant afford to buy groceries this week. 850 dollars...#can i get a BONUS or SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#it makes me soooo angry i was talking to one of the deli guys who asked for a raise and got denied mid-question#before our director accidentally showed him that their department is four thousand of gods own dollars under labor#its so revolting to me i talk to so many people in this store who are terrified because of medical bills or rent or car shit#half my department works two jobs just to get by and ALL OF THEM drive junkers#honestly one of the things thats scaring me about if i actually move out is that i do rely on...living with my mom#i pay for most of my own food i pay an absurd amount of rent to share a room with her but she's willing to drive me to work#even though i've offered to walk multiple times and she REALLY should prioritize her own time more#but at the same time...not having to pay for rides has been carrying me hard#if i got a car i'd be fucked because those things bleed money and generally ethically i disagree with cars#but if i dont its like okay pony up the money learn to navigate buses (except for sunday when they dont run) or get ready#to walk to your job where you walk all day and then walk home in the dark#which. i love walking. and listening to music on my own while walking. so bad example. but i also love not having my feet hurt#all the time always no matter what im doing which is something im becoming increasingly unfamiliar with#its like. ultimately. something's gonna get fucked no matter what#and then i hear a figure like 4600 and i remember how avoidable all of this shit is. how avoidable it is for ANY of us#our ceo is gonna walk away from this merger attempt with 5 billion dollars in safety-cushion money#the 10 top execs beneath him with 1 billion#and its just so. what can you even do. 5 billion. can a number like that even mean anything? how could you possibly need that much#850 dollars would be a lifechanging amount of money for me right now and im not even one of the worst off#its just. god. this world could be anything but what it is but its this and for what
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Masking and RSD are a brutal combination huh
#Doing it scared when you've got a condition which gives you sudden & violently intense bursts of self loathing without warning is one thing#but combining it with a a system of coping mechanisms that are incredibly energy intensive#and the external expectations that end up policing reactions outside the previously established (masking) norm is the coup de grace#Being allowed to be visibly or tangibly stressed scared or annoyed would make this so much easier#but instead it just makes it worse because those around me either react negatively or hysterically both of which trigger the RSD even more#it ends up costing more emotionally and mentally managing the emotions of those around me so I don't cascade into meltdown#than it does to continue masking#which itself already incredibly draining and disassociative
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Rant in the tags, ignore it if you want.
#so i just needed to get this out bcz it's literally being weighing on me since forever and I can't help but cry about it#i know medical procedures are jarring and overwhelming but it's just too much for me I'm not a strong individual in any way#but I've tried not to show how much this whole ordeal has been weighingbon me and tried to be strong not shedding a single tear#i cry when someone raises their voice or is mad at me#for my parents who've been nothing but caring and loving towards me#i honestly feel like a burden on them bcz they've been working so much constantly running errands and doing my stuff#it's overwhelming not being able to wake up from bed on your own wear shoes or even eat yourself#i can't even do the most basic of tasks like getting dressed or drinking water by my own without needing any help#especially since the glucose has been off and i can't help but think if the people with chronic issues who basically have to live this life#hats off to them bcz it's been 4 days and I'm already on the verge of a breakdown#i for once actually talked to someone about this and they said that I'm being horribly pick me-ish and begging for validation#and i should think about my parents for once and don't get self absorbed when they need my support bcz it's difficult for them also#and yeah i guess that's true to some extent#anyways I just needed to get this one out bcz the anxiety and the stress has been piling up for days and yeah ig it just got worse#i would've wrote it down in my diary but don't have it on me#feel free to scroll by or give some advice or opinion#thank you for bearing with me for these past days bcz no matter how strong i try to be at the end of the day I'm just 16#going through my first big procedures#somi.exe
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so.. i accidentally touched a trash can which made me feel like my hand was burning so i went to go and wash it and in the process i nicked the faucet with my fingernail and i got like dirt(?) under it. which. terrifying???? anyway i started hyperventilating and my hand started burning again but worse and i was trying to figure out what to do bc i was in the bathroom of all unsafe places to be, so i like ran out to the hallway and my hands are covered in soap and water which feels unsafe enough as is, and everything is just dangerous and i feel like someone's wedged something under my fingernail and tried to pry it off me and i'm trying so hard not to scream again bc i don't want to freak my mom out and i'm still hyperventilating bc there's this unknown thing on me. so anyway. it took a bit to get it together enough to like. go back and wash my hands again. and now i'm like. completely exhausted. aaaaand i still feel like i can't breathe like an hour later :') i had lovely plans to go out this evening and maybe walk and watch the sunset but now i feel like death! point being. fuck ocd :)
#boink#vent#ocd#i think i might've had a panic attack?#idk#i don't really have those very often or very severely#but that might be the worst like contamination ocd event i can really recall#which is good ig#but still not so nice seeing as i'm supposed to be better after going to therapy and i am most definitely not#normally it's just like a general veneer of complication and anxiety on top of everything#but this was like#this was terrifying#i'm still kind of rattled ://#maybe i'm being overdramatic#i don't know :(#i'm super ticcy now too lol#unsurprising ig#and ofc i'm not actively panicking anymore#but still nothing really feels safe rn#my coffee cup smells like ice which is scary and my clothes were in the cabinet and maybe even on the floor so god knows what's on them#i'm glad i took a shower earlier today already or else i wouldn't hardly be able to move at all#i had to use some fertilizer in the garden and ofc it got on me bc gardening is messy so i already had to shower after that#unless i wanted to be stressed all day and contaminate my clothes and my bed and any food i wanted to make#not ideal#ough#it's just so fucking tiring isn't it#god it's exhausting#and what makes it worse is that i can't even deal with it on my own when everyone's around#and when everyone's around there's so much more chance that things are unsafe#it's been so much worse at home
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I can't sleep again
#it's all just too much#i need to be sending out emails and arranging stuff for a whole load of different things#but doing that fills me with such anxiety because i dont know how the fuck it works#but every moment I'm not doing those things it fills me with anxiety because i realise I'm standing still#and the only way forward it seems is through this#only it's not because the previous thing i was going was actually working and helping me forward but then my local gov said no actually#you're not allowed to do the thing anymore because we think so even tho we dont know what were talking about#so now you got the offer to look into this other thing that really just feels like the thing you already had but worse#so you have to contact the new thing and see what exactly they're about but already deep inside you know it probably wont work out#so it feels like you'll be doing that only so you can see it doesnt work in the hope that maybe if it doesnt work you can go back#to the gov people and show them the old thing was actually right. but that might not work and then you'll have to sue them#and all the while you spend your days just sitting at home doing nothing and slowly wasting away#getting a little bit worse every day. as you feel all the progress you made in the last year slowly slip through your fingers#and you start to think that maybe this is it. maybe it just doesn't get better. maybe this really is the best you can do and any more just#isn't in the cards for you. maybe you're just not cut out for this whole adult life business. you'll forever be...a failure#and that's just one thing. one thing of many you constantly need to worry about. it's not even adressing that your adhd treatment is still#kind of unclear who exactly is responsible. you've been running out of meds for a week and still haven't called because it's too much stress#or the way its been almost five years since you got on the waiting list at the gender clinic#three years of which were spent on the waiting list#but even now you've been âin treatmentâ for the past year and a half you still feel like you're no further. still no official âdiagnosisâ.#still no approval to change your birth certificate. your passport will run out by the end of the year and you'll have to get yet another#new one with your dead name on it. still no idea when you might finally get their approval to start on HRT. no idea when you might finally#get to stop feeling like every single day your body becomes a little less yours. where you look in the mirror and see someone stare back who#just simply looks wrong. feels wrong. you look at the hair on your head that really needs a haircut but you dont dare touch it because its#the one little thing that keeps the dysphoria at bay. and then you think of your dad and his bald head. and you look at your hairline and#cant help but wonder âis it receding a bit more right there?â always wondering if you'll lose this little bit of safety too#its all just too much. i dont know how much longer I can keep pushing myself forward at this rate. when all the good things get taken away#and I'm left having to deal with all of it on my own. i dont want to be alone but i dont know how to reach out to those around me. not even#to my friends sometimes. i know they're out there and i know they care but at the same time i dont know how to#let them. so I'm left alone and it's all my fault? isn't it. i know not all of this is my fault but also all of it is and i just
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I just want to write a quick love letter to my ADHD medication real quick. I finally got back on my correct ADHD medication and then had, no fucking joke, perhaps the most insane rollercoaster of a fortnight within fucking days of getting back on this prescription. If even half of the things that had happened to me in the past two weeks had happened in like, January (everyone's favourite mental breakdown month), when I was on an absurd alternate concoction invented through "idk, here's a bunch of scripts and just see what happens" pharmacist magic ("just call around. I don't know when it will be back in stock. Just keep calling places. Go up a dose. Go down a dose. Try both at once") because America says Australia isn't allowed any more of my medication đ¤ no were being too greedy đ¤đ¤đ¤
Went back on my correct dose, had the insanest two weeks of my life, and got through it only some problems. And with an ultimately positive view on the week and my performance in it. If this had happened in February you would have had to have me committed. I don't even know to what department but somebody would institutionalise me for something.
ADHD medication I love you đĽ°
#now i am going to rest so much this weekendâźď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸#adhd#auspol#why america gets to decide how much vyvanse australia can import no one has successfully explained to me#like i quit my old job i hated so so so much#like for better and worse the last two weeks have been extremely wild#and now long weekend great finish#worked from home all week at new job and had a really great time#i have like one more hard thing to do but i already practiced it last night in a dream đŞ#and let me tell you in the dream the situation was MUCH more stressful than it is likely to be in real life#oh to any mutuals who know me irl and have discussed this. yes since i got covid last week i can dream now.#its so fucking weird.
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'once a week or more' well rip
my default state of being when i'm not having a bad day is a little tired & nursing a budding headache. i have a headache right now that i'm ignoring
is this going to be another of those 'there is no such thing as a 'mild' concussion, if you hit your head bad enough to black out it is a concussion' lmao???
i get headaches from fucking everything. weather/air pressure (low and high). low/high blood sugar or too rapid changes there. too bright/dim light (at home i am specific about my lights/curtains at different points of the day/depending on how bright it's outside to avoid these). rapid repetitive/jarring physical motions (just jumping a little can be enough/make it worse). muscle tension. doing stretching/exercise that gets blood really flowing. lack of and/or bad sleep, or too much sleep. getting (strongly) emotional. caffeine (a new exiting one! only started regularly drinking coffee fairly recently. how much caffeine is too much is a fucking mystery though). i should wear glasses (myopia, not too severe) but i avoid it unless i need to see that far that well in part bc the glasses pressing on my temples give me headaches more easily than my eyes being slightly tired does.
i'm probably forgetting a bunch more
but every time i've seen people describe migraines i've thought well mine aren't anywhere near that severe/those specific kinds of headaches so No Way it's that
but. i do have other symptoms on that list? i just never thought it might be related to my headaches bc i'd not seen those mentioned, at least not in a way that i could identify as something i should consider in connection to this, and there's always the huge stress that migraines are always extra super bad to the point that a Real migraine completely disables you for a while. while to me it's. it's annoying, it hurts, if it's particularly bad it can make things more difficult but not impossible/near impossible; just, a general It's Not That Bad, therefore normal and i should just deal with it
#i should probably try to keep a diary of this crap for a while#i am looking at additional symptom lists from should-be-reliable sources and it's not looking great#yourebablingjulle#best part is i actually mentioned this offhand to a doctor once a few years back while discussing other stuff and he basically went#yeah it's normal some people just get headaches more easily#not sure how i phrased it or if he understood how frequent my headaches are#work stress definitely contributes so it's gotten worse since that time period tho#i often avoid painkillers or strategically schedule taking them bc otherwise i'm having them near constantly#most notably i might bear through a few hours of a semi-bad one if i know i need it later to be able to sleep ok#(not too common but it happens)#bc at their worst they do fuck with my already sketchy ability to sleep#melatonin thankfully works for me and it is a lifesaver#one other thing i know works is acupuncture but one session costs almost as much as a year's supply of melatonin and that Not affordable#(i had ~a year while recovering from depression/burnout where i could have ear acupuncture done weekly without having to pay for it#figured that if nothing else i get to chill for a bit on a regular basis. scheduled no-stress time.#when the nurse was unavailable at times and couldn't do it i realized i slept noticeably better when i got my ears poked regularly)
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the dream would be a 15hour week workday at a low stress job not that far from home but not too close it feels intimate to your home, a small mangable appartment that wont fall apartwith furnishings i like,bills that arnt stress inducing in a way that make me think about money all the time, and just chill and do my hobbies when im not doing all the other things people have to do in their adult to not be that sad life like cook and clean and talk to people
#would be cool to publish and stuff#but again dont want to turn my hobbies into somthing more stress inducing then perfecting my craft already does#cant belive the dream is the bere minimum#25 hours a week max#but still its really just the bere minimum#oh to live the bere minimum#life always finds a way to make things difficult#and it would be cool to be able to get rid of some of the more consistent stuff like money stress and work stress#so when there are more difficult things to worry about its not pilled up on the stuff thats day to day#i know some people like having alot to do but that is not me#but yeah feel free to make this your dream too i think its ok to just want to exist stress free enough to properly enjoy the mundane#cuz the mundane is pretty neat#and everyone acts like its this terrible thing but it happens everyday#the sun sets the sun rises but i still get excited when i get a good view#want to enjoy that without worrying about everything i have to work for to become successful#i think we are alowed to not want to work for things we dont care about that much just for the bere minimum of existence#would be totally diffrent if it got u up there but#it doesnt?#but im totally chill if giving like 25%-50% gave me just enough#not saying that would be how much i care just now much energy i give#and honestly alot of work can come out of that much energy#giving your 100% is stupid and uderrated and your 100% will become worse and worse#ofc still fine to do it but all the time is crazy people still gotta use some of that energy to live life outside of the hustle#offical hustle hate post
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