#it took me 10000 years but here it is lol

[sandreeen]

Tumblr April Fools Boop with Sung Hyunjae & Han Yoojin, inspired by @transsongtaewon's post

[rassicas]

I'm working on a video going over the Splatoon story, and trying to nail down a solid time when the Ark Polaris crashed into earth. Log.exe is frustratingly really vague about it, and I was wondering if some specific wording might have been changed in translation/localization, and maybe the original Japanese text is a little bit clearer?

Here is my retranslation of Log.exe. I made this because there are a few differences between localization and JP! ... Some annoying differences at that LOL

From how i understand it, the ark Polaris had a more distant, stable orbit around earth for 10000 years. Over the span of the next 2000 years after that, the Polaris slowly gets closer and closer to earth until earth's gravity takes it in. Thus the Ark Polaris crashes to earth after 12000 years, so around the modern day in the splatoon world.

I dont think we'll get an exact time be it if it crashed, whether it was shortly before Splatoon 2 era, splatoon 1 era, or even years before that. The way i see it, that rough 12000 years= most likey sometime in the 2010s mollusk era considering the time Splatoon the Game was released. Or some time after the year 2000 of the mollusk era if we wanna be lenient when working with such a large time scale

... im honestly fine with the exact crash time being uncertain because it gives room for me to imagine it took some years for grizz to properly go insane, and for grizzco to be established and get a foothold in the inkling world... rather than if the ship were confirmed to have crashed in say, 2017, and everything happening in a few months. That's just me though.

[romanticatheartt]

I have a hot take and it might piss some people off specially the ones who believe Nesta didn't need a redemption arc (???) so please don't read this if you have this mindset

You saving your sister at death bed doesn't have redeeming quality. Because anyone in that room, specially Rhysand, would've jumped to help her without hesitation if they had the power. Nesta herself would've helped even if she hadn't finished her healing journey and was still distancing herself from everyone.

I'm not talking about how in those 12 days she didn't help the IC to find a solution, I'm talking about her seeing her baby sister at death bed. Because she didn't helped Feyre for 5 years and let her put herself in danger because Nesta knew she would survive. But the moment Tam/in took her, Nesta goes after her and searches for her. And this is exactly what happened, Nesta thinking IC would find a solution so she didn't even bother to offer a little help. Or even think about it...

In both situations the moment Nesta sees Feyre in absolute danger and is sure there's a huge chance that she might not make it alive, she makes a move to help/save her. I don't want one single person to come here and tell me it's not her job or responsibility- just shut it... don't embarrass yourself

You know what would've been redeeming?

The moment she realized Feyre might die during the labor, she should've started searching alongside the IC, she was literally working in a library at the time.

She should've talked to them and convinced them to let Feyre know of the danger.

She, talking with her sister, properly apologizing and try to bond with her and mend the bridge that's been broken between them.

Not sucking your trainer's d*ck the moment you find out. Not climbing down 10000 steps because you were so "angry" of the injustice you were facing and tell your sister she's about to die and made it about yourself. Because you wanted to show her that IC doesn't "respect" her as much as they don't respect you. And put her in danger in the process because you knew how the stress might hurt the baby but again you were thinking about your own hurts and pains.

I love Nesta and her book helped me to understand her so much better and realizing how similar we are and how much I share trauma with her. Not my trauma response tho.

I just hate the way sjm wrote her healing journey because she made it about herself lol. She projected her trauma and her experience during her process of healing and wrote it into Nesta's story and never cared how it might look at the end. Now Nesta saving Feyre, her blood sister, sounds more like a favor she gave and give *some* people the opportunity to make what Feyre did for her sisters a chore, a responsibility, something she enjoyed to do because she wanted to hurt herself. (and that's definitely not true) Don't even try to deny I've seen it many many times and I have proof.

And that's my problem with her book. I love that she made friends along the process and had her own found family, it led us to meet two beautiful characters. Her book gave us context of the reason behind some of her actions. We get to read how ashamed and hateful she is toward herself for neglecting Feyre. But the rest? No.

Sjm could've give us Nesta, fixing her relationship with the people around her and making new friendship with her found family at the same time but instead she wrote so many smut scene that has no purpose and doesn't help the plot moving. I'm throwing hot takes after hot takes jeez

In conclusion acosf didn't help people to forgive Nesta. Understand her? Yes. But forgiving her and give them the opportunity to considee her as their favorite character? No. I'm not talking about all but the majority, because as you see even now people can't seem to forgive her even tho they understand her much better.

To be honest acosf is one of the weakest book sjm has ever written and she hasn't wrote one single good book ever since... I wanted to make all these takes in different posts but fuck it, we ball<3

[11queensupreme11]

"Waiting..."

"...that voice, it's can't be-!""

"Waiting..."

"mom?"

"Waiting, Percy when you come home I'll be waiting

Even if you're the last thing I see I'll be waiting..."

"I'm right here, mom!

Can't you see?

I'm (waiting)"

"Waiting..."

"I took too long..."

"I'll always love you"

"And ventured too far"

"I'll stay in your heart"

"While you were-"

"Waiting, waiting, waiting..."

"..."

"Bye mom."

This is from Epic the musical, underworld saga, song is "the underworld", it's a rlly great musical of the Odyssey that I'd 100% recommend, if you don't know the song, the blue text is Percy talking so u can know who's saying each thing, I only changed the name part, aka "Odysseus when you come I'll be waiting")

Ok, imagine if time passed slower in ror!universe or Percy just spent enough years in ror!universe for pjo!Sally passed away(maybe like in epic the musical, by a broken heart, or other reasons) and finally arrived home, thrilled to see her mom, but gets the news that her mom passed away, she begs to go to the underworld to see her last time, even if it's just for a few minutes. (In epic the musical, what the dead are saying is their last thoughts, so Odysseus mom/pjo!Sally was thinking abt Odysseus/Percy in her last moments) (what would actually happen is maybe her mom gets revived or they at least hug unlike in epic the musical but shh)

(I love torturing my girlie)

(This took me so long to write pls notice it)

i was originally contemplating about having the time in ror verse be slower or faster than the pjo verse, but i changed my mind cuz i didn't want percy to miss out on the fun of being tortured by hoo events :D

ok now back to sally,

you know how only really good souls can go to elysium? like, ppl who died a heroic death or "lived a good life" (according to the wiki). well, i always got confused on that, did good life just mean be a decent person?? cuz that seems like a decent good ppl would just end up in the fields of asphodel. i feel like for mortals to go to elysium, they would've needed to die heroically or lived their life impacting the world in a positive way, and sally would definitely fit the bill!!!

BUT LETS SAY SHE DIDN'T. she did a lot of good things, but not really good enough to leave an impact (which is so untrue lol), BUT LETS SAY HADES COMES IN CLUTCH AND SENDS HER TO ELYSIUM ANYWAY (cuz he's a tsun tsun)

and because he's such a tsun tsun, when percy finally gets her ass back to the pjo verse, he allows her some time to see her one last time before giving a proper goodbye 🥺 percy's saddened, but she knows 10000% that she'll see her mom again in elysium when she dies 🥺🥺🥺

ORRRRRRRRRR

realistically, if enough time has passed, EVERYONE percy cares about would probably be dead cuz gaea rose to power and she wasn't there to take part of the quest to take her down. idk what'd happen to hades, but imagine returning home and realizing everyone you care about was dead, YOU COULD'VE PREVENTED IT, and there's no way to see them because hades probably got fucked over too when gaea rose 💀

[tobbesdiscordkitten]

Based on all the things i have read i came to a conclusion but i don’t know if im right, axl cheated on erin a 10000 times but broke up with stephanie because she cheated on him? How does that make Any sense? i mean i don’t know if my facts are right, i don’t know if axl cheated on erin but based on the years of what i’ve read, It feels like He did

Sorry if this is Ignorant of Me

It's not ignorant, anon. Don't think that 🫂

I wouldn't necessarily call it cheating, but Axl did hook up with several girls while he was with Erin over the years. The number might've been lower than 10,000 lol.

My opinion on this may be controversial, but it's how I view things, and I hope other people can grasp the point of view I'm trying to explain.

When you're a rockstar it is in your profession, though, it's not a requirement, to fuck groupies and party. A groupie's job is similar where they follow a band, or artist, around on tour and seek out a romantic/social connection. You have to think about it like a career because that's essentially what it is. It may be crossing the norms, compared to other jobs, and be considered taboo, but it's a profession, nonetheless. It's just not for everybody. Some rockstars stay faithful to their spouses and won't fuck groupies. But then there are those, like Bret Michaels and Axl Rose, who do fuck groupies.

Personally, I view it as a positive thing because it makes me think these rockstars are doing all these women a favor by sleeping with them. Not a lot of chicks can say they've been fucked by Axl Rose, but for the ones who got the chance to...they're considered LUCKY! Wouldn't you wanna be a groupie and fuck Axl, anon?? 👀

If my husband or boyfriend was a rockstar, I'd completely understand why tons of women would be throwing themselves at him. The difference between a groupie and a spouse is groupies are short-term while spouses are long-term.

Think about it: after your husband finishes touring he'll come back home to YOU, and nobody else. You are his rock, his biggest supporter, and you share, not only a physical connection, but an emotional connection - something groupies cannot accomplish. And that is far more important than ONLY having a physical connection.

If you cheat on your rockstar husband because of pure jealousy then that's a problem. Firstly, you are not in a profession where you have to "fuck your way to the top" in order to advance your career, like in some industries. I think Stephanie Seymour had to do this at the beginning of her modeling career until she established herself within the industry.

Speaking of Stephanie, she did not try to advance her career when she cheated on Axl with Warren Beatty, Charlie Sheen, or Peter Brant. She cheated on Axl because she lost her infatuation with him and used him as monetary gain. After Axl, she married Peter Brant since he has more money than Axl. Charlie was more of a cocaine fuck buddy for Stephanie. I go more into depth about that => here and Beatty had lots of money as well. Btw Beatty and Stephanie are 31 years apart...

She took what she wanted from these men and left them dry. But as a rockstar, you don't leave your women dry...you leave them soaking wet 😏

I understand it's normal to be human and to have feelings, including jealousy. But you also have to understand that it is part of your rockstar husband's profession to hook up with groupies, and if you don't like it then maybe having a rockstar hubby isn't for you 🤷🏻‍♀️

Remember, your rockstar hubby never uses a groupie for profit, however, for groupies, since they get paid for it, sure! That's a key aspect. Heck, you could join your husband on tour so he doesn't feel the urge to satisfy his needs with other women.

I know this may seem unfair. You're probably wondering, "Why do men get away with this stuff, but when a woman does it she gets burned at the stake?!" Like I said, it's part of a rockstar’s job. Women, not all the time, but most-likely, cheat on them because they're jealous. Rockstars don't.

Hopefully this wasn't too confusing lol. That's just my opinion on the matter. Others are free to agree or disagree with me, it's totally fine. I'm convinced I was a groupie in a past life, heh.

[l4k3hug43s]

trevor zegras x black!fem!reader

warnings: swearing? mean comments, pretty much pure fluff, tooth rooting, seriously they’re so in love it’s gross.

author's note: as a woc there is not many black girl leads around hockey so here’s a cute biracial trevor au!

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ps. happy 4 years baby 😚

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trevorzegras took a quick trip back to ny! thank you guys for the birthday wishes. 🧡🦆

happy 4 years my love. doing life with you makes things a million times better, gonna have to wife you up real soon 😉

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[superfallingstars]

Hey! Wanted to send you another playlist ask prompt (if that's ok) ^^: Percy Weasley in his flat, trying not to think about his family. I'm genuinely wondering what he would listen to

send me playlist asks!

First off, you can basically always send playlist prompts, I’m fine with it, I have a ton of fun with these. It’s just a matter of whether I answer them in a few weeks, months, or years LOL

I confess, before receiving this ask, I had thought about Percy for maybe a grand total of 5 seconds, so suffice it to say that I had no idea what to do about this. However I recently (VERY recently) started rereading the series and I’m slowly remembering who tf he is lol. My playlists for the other Weasley kids all have a huge Britpop influence, so I decided to continue that (along with some other alternative 80s and 90s stuff) on Percy’s. Hopefully it comes across that he is a huge stuck-up nerd, but he is also just a young guy trying to find his place in the world, going through the difficult process of realizing that he's made a mistake, and admitting to himself and the people he hurt that he was wrong... I imagine it was a very humbling experience. Also wow there’s so many great songs about moving on and starting a new life and I don’t think about you at all anymore so idk why you’re even sending me a sweater MOM. Basically I'm quite proud of the lyrics on this one (part of why it took me 10000 years to answer) – so let's get into it

Track list:

Blur - There’s No Other Way: starting off strong with some early Blur. Tbh I don’t really know what this song is about but I enjoy that it starts out with “You’re taking the fun out of everything.” Soooo true Percy you killjoy

The Wedding Present - Box Elder: Great song about leaving (specifically a relationship – unfortunately most great songs about moving on are about relationships, but whatever)! “I’ve got a lot of things to do / A lot of places to go / I’ve got a lot of good things coming my way / And I’m afraid to say that you’re not one of them.” Yeowch!

Lloyd Cole and the Commotions - Are You Ready To Be Heartbroken?: I adore this song in all its 80s glory! The meaning is a bit ambiguous but imo it’s about being an opinionated, idealistic, pretentious young person (“Making your friends feel so guilty about their cynicism”) who doesn’t realize real life is going to – well – break their heart.

The Smiths - London: I just heard this song for the first time two days ago and omg it's perfect. Like it’s literally about leaving your friends and family behind to go move to London and work in the big city. Percy would 10000% listen to this (and uncritically agree that the only reason his family is mad at him is because they’re jealous of his success and his big boy job at the Ministry)

Ned’s Atomic Dustbin - Selfish: from what I can tell, this song is about being an insecure loser so you get all stuck-up and mean about it. "If I don't know what's cool / Will you call me a loser?" ... “I hope your head's aching from having too much fun” ... “The selfish gene in me / Has finally come into being / He’s teaching me how to be mean / But that’s a sorry sorry state to be in” ..Rather fitting, isn’t it?

The Wedding Present - Getting Nowhere Fast: read an article about this song (the original song, this is a cover) that described it as “the feeling that your failing life isn’t what you signed up for” and honestly I can’t describe it any better than that

Blur - Birthday: this song is about spending your birthday alone and feeling really weird and bad about it. Which is something I hadn’t even considered could have happened to Percy but now I 1000% believe that it did

New Order - Weirdo: These lyrics man. “It’s a life that’s made for me / Where I can be completely free / So long as I obey this sound / That echoes all around” Lollll

Dire Straits - Brothers in Arms: This song is a little dated for Percy’s time, but I quite like putting 80s stuff on here because I think older music adds to Percy's supposed maturity as well as making him seem accurately uncool. And “We’re fools to make war on our brothers in arms” wow sooooo true

The Verve - Neon Wilderness: truly captures the vibes of being a lonely young person living on your own in the big city. I can vividly picture Percy listening to this alone in his flat and slowly realizing what a sad and solitary life he has created for himself…

Pavement - Stop Breathing: THE REALIZATION. This song is technically about a soldier dealing with the emotional toll of war but it works fantastically well for this playlist (the guilt of realizing you were wrong, that you truly hurt others, and that your whole belief system was massively flawed). “Write it on a postcard / Dad they broke me / Dad they broke me.” Ummmmm screaming crying throwing up

The Rentals - It’s Time to Come Home: It really is.

WOWWW this one was so fun! It was a challenge to create a playlist for a character I’m not super familiar with, but honestly that was probably the most fun part about it! It’s so rewarding when you spend some time thinking about a character you (initially) feel neutral towards and force yourself to really consider their motivations and relate to them – I like Percy a lot more now LOL. Thank you so much for the ask!

[emeldiir]

Idk anything about intersex, how are you intersex and transgender? What type of intersex? There like 10000 types?? I’m gonna need a weekend to research and learn lol

Alright I just want to say, with all respect, these questions aren’t the best to ask an intersex person right out the gate. In the future, I would suggest doing the research first, and then asking any questions you have left once you have the basics down. these questions made me feel a little weird and i did not appreciate the approach you took.

I will answer these questions (within my comfort levels) for you though.

I am intersex and transgender bc I didn’t know I was intersex until about 2 months ago. I’ve grown up feeling out of place and dysphoric inside my own body and came to the logical conclusion about 3 years ago that I was transgender FTM. I feel transgender, I am transitioning into a body that feels more comfortable to me, and since I was born female but identify as a genderqueer trans man, then I think i fit the criteria to be transgender.

as for the ‘type of intersex’ that I have, I have PCOS. i’ve been diagnosed for 8 years. I wasn’t aware that PCOS was considered an intersex condition, but when i learned the fact, all of the pieces fell into place and i finally had a label for what I was feeling and how I had grown up.

There are over 30 different intersex conditions, each one with different variations and traits.

I would recommend that you do your research and learn more about the different conditions that exist and more importantly get the information straight from the source through respectful questions, and careful consideration of the intersex person you’re asking first. there’s several good intersex blogs on here that you can read through and learn from.

have a good day anon.

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

RoR Kyoshi thoughts (From someone who jumped to her parts in the book) SPOILERS

(tw suicide mention)

Ok I finally got to see what's in the damn book. So I skipped to Kyoshi's backstory portions (the only two instances I know of). And........yeah I still don't like it, but it's not......as inflammatory as I thought it'd be. It's just so vague? (I still plan on making that other rant, but I want full context first)

*The only two moments of Kyoshi I know of are the meditation thing and Disha revealing her old companionship.*

I don't know the full context within the book (I'm kind of eh on going into it now because I heard they mary sue'd Sozin/Roku by giving them special powers because they are special boys, which I would've stomached if they just didn't screw Kyoshi over). But what I got from the dialogue within just those two scenes were.........lackluster and odd. (of course maybe I'm missing context, but I know I wasn't lost in the convo and I know some spoilers of what lead up to some, but the interactions AS IS? It's just making me go "hmmm")

Maybe they'll go more in depth in a 2nd novel (I hope not! <3 I don't want another thank you <3 I'm afraid of what you'll do <3), kinda like how we got more Kuruk in SoK. Because there's still a lot of questions and not a lot of answers. And it makes me wonder if they are just taking us for a ride ngl (I'm still recovering from the burns of my other fandom, I'm not giving myself hope that is for the case here, but the feeling is still nagging at me).

I think what annoys me now is..... 1) It still doesn't feel like it lines up with ATLA/LoK, and 2) It's wishy washy.

"Oh she was bad......well not too bad, she did a lot of good. But we still stopped working with her. :) And I mean it was A LOT of good.....but still bad things happened tee hee" Like?????? Pick a lane, don't make it so wishy washy TT0TT

I know they are constraint to ATLA/LoK, aka she needs to be viewed positively. Even by Aang (you know the people who didn't want to work with her?) when he first sees her statue in S1. And like??? Do you REALLY expect me to believe that Chin Village wouldn't be preaching about how horrible she was post-Chin???? Yes they are self centered, but I just know if they could use more slander to their advantage they would.

So anyway, she can't go full mad dog Dani from GoT (still feels like it due to lack of build up, we needed a few more books because RoK/SoK still gives us options of where she could end up, and ATLA/LoK cut off some of those options but there are still plenty of options regardless). Because then it wouldn't line up with later canon.

So like, if it's going to feel weird, maybe go a different route? "Oh we needed a way for her to die" she's immortal not invulnerable! Holy shit. There are 10000s ways you can write her character and it didn't have to lead here. She could've committed suicide because *insert reason*. She could've gotten hurt in battle, BY A SPIRIT! If no human is strong enough, then we can always "Spirit it away". Maybe she died protecting Rangi. Or just protecting someone! Anyone!

Speaking of Rangi. Where is she? :) Where's Rangi? :) This is coming from someone who thought she wouldn't live to see Chin, where the fuck is Rangi? Cause you can't open the book about "oh there's firebenders who can learn immortality" AND THEN NOT DO ANYTHING WITH THAT! You cannot put such an important emphasis on her character in relation to Kyoshi's well being in the Kyoshi novels, and THEN NOT MENTION HER???? Ok ok I haven't read the whole book, but I was told she wasn't even MENTIONED?!

You know, this is why I think something is up. Disha's perspective, the lack of Rangi mention AT ALL, the vagueness of it all esp her death, why it took 2 damn years for her to die???? Something is up. If the next Roku novel comes out and they aren't like "Lol we had you, no she wasn't THAT bad, she did get abandoned by the Air Nomads but that was because of a misunderstanding/betrayal lol" (in all honesty, even more tragic if that was the case. She didn't even do the thing that cause her abandonment, which would track with how unlucky she is). And tbh, if her reputation was fucked over, it'd parallel Kuruk pretty well. (esp if spirits were involved)

Anyway, if they aren't going for a twist later. It feels like they just chose the most obvious/lazy (and not well thought out/planned) idea first. It needed to have a needle thread and I just don't think they threaded it. And it just comes off as messy.

[beardedjoel]

Hi, don’t know if you take requests, but I just found out that my husband’s been cheating on me our whole 7 year relationship with multiple women and had an affair for the last 6 years, texting her while I was giving birth to our son. I’d love to read something about revenge or something about another man (Joel lol) healing me and being really nice to me, cause I could never do that in real life and I need something 😩

anon, my heart is going out to you soooo so much right now! that's just awful and words can't express how sorry i am that you're going through all of this. i hope you know that you without a doubt 10000% deserve better and everything good from a partner, someone who cherishes you like you deserve. i’m sorry i took a while to respond to this, but i wanted to write a little something for you. and if anyone has any further recs for those requests anon mentioned please drop them!

it’s not much, but it’s just straight up softness and goodness from joel, i hope it makes you feel even a fraction better ❤️ please reach out to me if you want or need to talk!

reassurance

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summary: a tiny sweet moment of validation and love from joel after your anxiety takes over. pure fluff 💛

You hear him before you feel him, attempting to be quiet coming up the stairs to not wake you one second before he wants to. But you’d already been tossing and turning, replaying the previous night in your head, the anxiety that kept flaring up every time you tried to recall the words that started the argument in the first place and coming up short.

You’re steeling yourself for heartbreak and you don’t know why. Joel has never been one to threaten leaving you, to act like he was about to give up on you. It had been a stupid argument about dishes - something so benign, so remotely not worth either of your time, and yet you worried. That this was the end, the second things get hard or they lose interest in you. You’ve been hurt too many times before to not take that well known pathway in your mind and start spiraling.

Your eyes are still closed when you feel the flutter of his lips on your cheek, as gentle as he can be with all the glorious scruff he has on his chin and cheeks.

Your eyes slowly open, and you know they look sad, worried, tired from a lack of sleep. You’d settled the argument well enough, both of you seeming to laugh it off in the moment, but the dark hours of the night had sent your fear biting at you again.

“What’s this, baby? Why the face?” Joel asks, seeming shocked to find you anything other than smiling up at him as you do most mornings.

You instantly tear up, unable to help it after hours of fussing, a carousel of negativity turning through your mind. Your head shakes and you turn it away, trying to blink away the wetness pooling under your eyes.

“Baby? Oh, come here…” he coos, laying down next to you and wrapping you in his arms. It’s warm, comforting, smelling just as he always does - home. “Is it about last night? Honey you know I moved on from it right after, no hard feelings,” he explains, seeming to start understanding your lingering anxiety.

“I- it’s just so stupid -“ you start, trying not to completely breakdown.

“Now you know we don’t say that word about ourselves around here, yeah?” Joel reminds you, a promise you’d made to him to not be so hard on yourself.

You sniffle, nodding and finally turning your head towards him. “Just… feels silly to ask b-but…” You let out a tiny sob, all the pent up emotion finally breaking through. “Do you love me still? Do you - do you want to be with me?”

Joel sighs, a compassionate sound of sympathy that makes you cry harder. His hand is on your cheek, making sure you keep looking right into his eyes, so sincere and full of care for you.

“I love you so much it’s fuckin’ crazy. And I know you get in your head ‘bout things, but angel, you’re my everythin’, an’ I hope you don’t ever question my love for you, yeah?”

You give him a watery smile, the validation like a balm to your soul. Sometimes all you need when your mind starts to play tricks on you is for Joel to bring you back down to earth. “Yeah… y-you’re right…” you nod as he wipes some of the tears off your cheeks. “I love you, too. I’m sorry…”

“No sorrys, you did the right thing by askin’ if that’s what you needed. Only wish you’d have asked me sooner if you were so worked up.” He shakes his head a little, wishing he’d known somehow, been able to comfort you as soon as you needed it. It makes your heart swell a little at how much he cares, how badly he’d wanted to help you when you hadn’t always been offered that in your past. Rough around the edges, but always a big softie at heart - that was the Joel Miller you fell in love with. “Promise me… next time you’ll do it, mkay? Even if you gotta wake me up in the middle ‘f the night to ask. I wanna be there for you, baby.”

Your smile grows, the tears slowly subsiding as you snuggle into his warmth. How you got so lucky to have someone so patient, kind, and understanding is beyond you a lot of the time. There have been days you wondered if you deserved love like this, or questioned if it would ever come along. But here in Joel’s embrace, the sunny morning spilling in through the windows, a hand running through his bedhead, you find that you don’t wonder at all.

“I promise.”

[latenightgasstationwalk]

Staving off a tide of violent urges as I process the various horrors I saw today. This job is becoming actually bad for my brain. Today I went to an apartment complex that I’ve already bitched about a few times, but today was my breaking point lol I was lead into the apartment by this Maintainance man, who promptly took off the second he knocked on the tenants door, they came to the door abs I couldn’t even process what I was seeing when the door swung open. One bedroom apartment, 5 people on the floor wrapped up in blankets and literal crack smoke in the air. A windowsill is stacked high with picked clean chicken bones? Roaches everywhere. as soon as I walked in one of the people in the apartment went up to this girl who was completely still on the couch and started violent shaking her screaming “WAKE UP HEY WAKE UP THERES PEOPLE HERE” and she was 110% unresponsive. The windows had been broken for about a year and just had a board put over them….on the inside. Here’s a fun fact: When you break a window and board it up from the inside, all of mother natures mighty feats of degradation of man made materials will ruin your sashes and window frame forever! At least that’s what happen when you leave busted windows up for a FUCKING YEAR WITH NOTHIN TO PROTECT THEM BOARDING THEM UP FROM THE INSIDE MAKES 0 SENSE

Just a week before when I went to measure the windows The aforementioned maintenance man insisted I measure these windows from the outside, because he “didn’t wana take thee boards down” so I was like “uh ok” I really didn’t see a problem at the time. So he very clearly didn’t want me to see the inside prior, for obvious reasons, so he had me do it from the outside so I’d show up and be blind sided. That was my working theory when this happened initially. Come to find out, my co-worker / best buddy already went and measured these 7 months ago and told them they were beyond repair and glass replacement wouldn’t even work at this point. So this guy Fucking knew what he was doing the entire time.

So when I got back to the shop and informed my boss of what happened she called and said she didn’t want to put her technicians in any danger so we wouldn’t be returning. This Fucking maintenance man told her that he was in there the whole time. Like I wish I took a picture of this mother fucker when I came outside of that actual nightmare, he was sitting on a picnic table smoking a cigarette, this guy bailed on me as fast as he could and went out for a lil smoke break while I tried by best to avoid any stray needles that may have found their way onto the carpet. Then tells my boss on the phone that he was in there with me lololololol sublime excellent wonderful amazing im this close to turning one of these mother fuckers into an example it’s not even funny.

Either way, my boss said she’s going to try to get permission from the big big bosses (we’re a small company owned by a multi-billion dollar company) and she said even if we do go back in the future we’re going to have ground rules that these maintenance blockheads have to follow the second they don’t were Fucking splitting.

Like I just can’t do this anymore, one of my clients at this job is a housing assistance program that provides housing for addicts and that’s like my main daily thing. And like I’m not looking down on anyone in that kind of position, I have addicts in my life and it’s terrible and sad, but I can’t help but not feel safe. Especially when the extent that the people who are supposed to be coordinating this Shit for me do is call me and warn me about the bad stuff lol I’m not accusing anyone of trying to steal my tools, but I’ve been told probably 10000 Fucking times by the same guy “not to leave any expensive tools around because the people in this unit have already stolen from several contractors” it’s like dude what the Fuck. I make $19 an hour I don’t get paid enough to fight off the most desperate people alive.

And this keeps happening every Fucking day because they’re putting me in charge of all the glazing jobs that the more senior glazer doesn’t want anymore lol so this is just my life for probably the next couple years. Trying not to get killed for the $10,000 worth of tools in my van or just the van in general. Like it’s really Fucking dumb. I’m sorry if I sound insensitive to the struggle of the people in these situations but I promise you anyone in my position would be incredibly frustrated and generally unhappy lol

Thanks for reading

[m34gs]

What are your Top Five Ships of All Time that you can Scream (TM) about and why?

All time? Of All Time???? OOOOOH you are making me choose! This is tough, but an exciting ask! Thank you so much, friend!!! I will list them in reverse order, from number 5 to number 1!! (as always, this is just a list based on my current interests, and it could change in the future!)

5. Brawler/Hoodlum from Akudama Drive. Listen, listen. These two? They are in love. So clearly in love. Brawler is Constantly showing off for Hoodlum, and Hoodlum blushes??? When he's talking with Brawler???? Excuse me?????? I 10000% believe Brawler knew Hoodlum stretched the truth with his amount of years he owed the system, but he took One (1) look at Hoodlum's pretty eyes and went "yeah that's fine he's pretty I want to keep him around I will humour him" and that was IT. (I could also talk about the scene with the bridge but I WILL NOT for reasons😭😭😭 He's resting. Just resting.) This one comes out at number 5 because while I love it and could easily go on and on and on about it, I haven't talked about it as much or as often as the others on this list.

4. Mondo Oowaa/Kiyotaka Ishimaru from Danganronpa. These two. THESE. TWO. Ugh. I love them so much. Mondo is MY SON. He's just so...precious. And so is Taka. I love them both and I think their dynamic is very sweet. I think they are very similar to Brawler and Hoodlum in some ways, but obviously not exactly the same. I do love how they bonded over a mutual respect for each other that came from competition. I also will cry every time I watch Mondo's execution, and every time Taka ends up murdered. Pain. I live for the AU where they are both alive and healthy and able to fall in love and live happily ever after. This ship is at number four because I did settle down a lot after my initial playthrough of the game and while I can definitely scream about them at any given time if prompted, I don't search them out as actively as I used to in fanfiction or fanart.

3. Jade Leech/Floyd Leech/Azul Ashengrotto from Twisted Wonderland. This OT3 is honestly addicting to talk about for me. I love them. They're three of my favourite characters in the game, and I really find their dynamics fascinating. They have this incredible trust with each other, they know each other so well, and they support each other. Also I am *here* for the Mafia theme. Love that so so so much. Honestly, over the past few days I don't think I've shut up about them in our DMs and texts.

2. GrimmIchi from Bleach. Honestly, I had to give Grimmjow and Ichigo one of the top two spots. I mean, honestly, I'm one of the co-writers for a blog *dedicated* strictly to GrimmIchi (though I haven't written anything there in a long while...ooops). I have Many Many Many thoughts about them and I love to yell about them. It's very hard to get me to stop once you get me going, and it's so easy to get me going. Just ask @backwardshirt

Honourable Mentions: Byakuya/Kirigiri/Naegi from Danganronpa, Gundham/Souda from Danganronpa 2, Noiz/Aoba from DMMD, Vash/Wolfwood/Meryl from Trigun, Lawrence/Adam from Saw (2004), Byakuya/Renji from Bleach, Vil/Rook from Twisted Wonderland, Bokuto/Akaashi from Haikyuu!

1.Number one spot goes to:

Kalim/Idia from Twisted Wonderland. I mean. It's not hard to figure out, I'm sure, lol. I talk about them a lot, and I make a lot of posts about them. I love to discuss different dynamics, different possible aus, and I have written several one-shots and short scenes about them now, as well as a multi-chaptered fic centered around them as a pairing (and there will be more to come!!!). I love them and I will take any and all opportunities to shout about them. They are so cute; the introvert and the extrovert, the grumpy rain cloud and the sunshine beam. I love that dynamic with my entire soul. I can't help but be drawn to them. They got that Sun and Moon dynamic. Both of them have such complex emotions, and I think both of them struggle with conveying what they feel; just in totally different ways. I love them so much!!!!!!!!!!

[dutchwinter]

okay actual correct music ask game . 100 gecs and cobra starship for artists and uhhhghjkg. blue sky noise by circa survive for album

100 gecs YEAAAFGGHH i havent gotten around to listening to 10000 gecs in full but ive heard a bit of every song. and i loved 1000 gecs like two years ago i was OBSESSED with that album. ill say i know em even if im not all that familliar with their new album

Favourite Song: bloodstains or hand crushed by a mallet

Least Favourite Song: uhhh maybe ringtone? sorry i can only answer with 1000 gecs songs bc i dont remember their other music all that well. except bloodstains i listen to that everyday

Favourite Album: 1000 gecs

Least Favourite Album: i guess 10000 gecs but thats only because i dont know it well. i love it though

Song that got me into them: im not sure i dont have good memory..

Seen Live?: noo

Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 

cobra starship... i love the music i have heard but havent heard much though so yeah i dont know em. i know you make me feel hot mess and snakes on a plane lol. when i found out you make me feel was a cobra starship song i almost exploded tbh.

First song youtube took me to: well its you make me feel but im gonna scroll until i find a song i dont know. literally the 3 i know came up. okay its guilty pleasure.

First Impression: this sounds kinda familliar lol maybe i have heard it but if i have i dont remember so whatev. he doesnt even read.

Do I like it?: i actually really liked this song. i love fun pop music from the 2000s early 2010s. its like the best music ever made

Would I listen to more from them?: yes of course

Rate (from what I heard): cobra starship is the best band on earth

blue sky noise.. im afraid to say this but i have not finished this album i know like. 3 songs. ill go listen right now i swear it. OH MY GOD GAY PEOPLE WIN. sorry im literally watching the you make me feel video right now. brb

okay its tomorrow ive listened to it. . um wel l that was the best album ever okay moving on

Opinion on cover design: i used to hate circa covers but like nevermind best things ive ever seen 10/10. i love this one though but there are some ones i like better

Favourite songS: ALL OF THEM?? i guess imaginary enemy frozen creek... i have to stop here bc ive named the entire album and deleted it pretty much.. spirit of the stairwell... etc..

Least favourite song: girl i guess compendium lol. but its good so whateverr.

Underrated track: idk

Overrated track: idkk man

Rate: i need to say here that all the songs i didnt mention are literally favorites. i cant stress this enoughh. what the fuck

BIG MUSIC ASK GAME

[thekaijudude]

Most Powerful Ultras list: A powerscaling calculation attempt

So yeah, after the recent asks, Ive received requests to actually try and figure out just how large each power gaps are, and after browsing through various stats, I was surprised that I could actually somewhat figure out just how strong each ultras are relative to one another

I’ll skip the rough working of the actual calculation tho (like 4 pages worth lol I aint posting THAT)

Bruh this entire calculation took me about an hour

So, the main information and assumptions I have used:

1. Magnificient’s Mega Bomber Punch impact power of 120 000t

2. Powered’s normal punch impact power of 100 Million t

3. Zero assumed to be equivalent to a 20 year old human (lowball proportionality constant)

4. Geed’s age being speed up by the same proportionality constant

5. M78 Red Ultras’ power scales proportionally to their age

6. Gruebe being 100x stronger than Ruebe via the Ruebe Light Ring official info

For the sake of convenience, the unit of measurement used here would be NG (1 average New Gen, like X, Geed etc)

(I’ve used many more approximation assumptions [Like Zero being 1.5 NG] and did not list them here cause if that’s the case, I might as well post the whole actual calculation procedure lol)

So I’ll list the exceptional ultras as well as just how much stronger they are compared to an average New Gen in increasing order and u can even actually see yourself just how much stronger they are to each other relatively:

Ruebe/Trigger Truth: 100 NG

(Brief explanation of how I got this result, I simply took the average power level of all the components and multiply by 100 based on Gruebe's official multiplier, same calculation done for the rest of the fusions)

Mebius Pheonix Brave (actual, without Crew GUYS included): 150 NG

GV: ~200 NG 

(I just approximate both Ginga and Victory to be 2 NG each but one can easily argue they could be stronger)

Average Ultra Brother / Nexus (at the min): 1000 NG (lowball, because assumed Mega Bomber Dynamite is Magnificient’s standard punching power here)

Nexus Anphans (by himself) was basically able to defeat Titan, each Absolutian at the minimum is comparable to a single Ultra Brother, so tbh his power ranges anywhere from 1000x-10 000x NG

Gruebe/Taro/Nexus (~max): 10 000 NG

(The reason why I placed Taro here is mostly because of Toregia [whom is scaled to Taro], which essentially would've beaten Gruebe as shown in the RB and Taiga Movie, but I won't be surprised that this is not the true baseline of ALL the Ultra Brothers and that Taro is even stronger than this)

Saga: 15 000 NG

Reiga: 10^13 NG

[Assuming Ginga = 1 NG as a lowball estimate. Although Reiga is formed by the Mvoie/fused forms as its components, UGF3 shows that Ruebe x Grigio still forms Gruebe regardless so this is a pure 11-way fusion]

Super Taro: 1.5 x 10^15 NG

Mebius Infinity: 1.5 x 10^17 NG

Ken/Belial (at 130 000 years old): 10^39 NG

Assuming every 10000 years = 1000x previous level of power,

130 000 ÷ 10 000 = 13 units of geometric increment

1000^13 = 10^39 NG

Ken/Belial (at 160 000 years old): 10^48 NG

King: 10^90 NG

Noa: 10^105 NG

(Didnt include Legend and the hypothetical Lugiel since there’s virtually no info on them for me to calculate their approximate power level)

Along the way I made further estimations for easier calculation (like just assuming Grigio is 1 NG despite her being weaker than that and Ginga and Victory being 2 NG each etc)

Just for fun, I also calculated how many NG are needed to fuse together to each stronger ultras:

Ken/Belial (at 130 000 years old): Equivalent to a 34-way fusion

Ken/Belial (at 160 000 years old): Equivalent to a 43-way fusion

King: Equivalent to a 88-way fusion

Noa: Equivalent to a 103-way fusion

Yeah so this just puts into perspective just how ridiculous the canon power scaling is, even if I assumed lowball assumptions (linear scaling, Zero’s age being taken as 20 instead of 18 in human years as a general proportionality constant, Ultra Brother being all only 1000x stronger etc)

But this definitely isn’t a perfect calculation, but it would explain most of the canon interactions between beings in these different tiers (Like the directors’ cut scene of Saga and the Ultra Brothers, UDK, Super Taro with Ken etc)

I'm generally gonna go with this powerscaling from here on out

[jessefandomunited]

I honestly feel like it's a trait in people using ADHD as an excuse to be shit victim-complex friends. You are not the issue here, and there's only so much of a good friend you can be before you start pulling pieces of yourself off in the hopes that it'll make them happy.

Spoiler: It won't make them happy.

You're 28. I'm 29. We're both learning at the similar time that sometimes, it's better to let go of a friendship that's hurting you than keep going just because it's been ten years. I knew my austic ADHD friend since we were both like 13, and yeah, quietly taking more space for myself until we couldn't hear each other any more was tough at first. But then I realised how beautiful that quiet was - it let people who didn't want to use me speak up, and their voices were more beautiful. I've had other friends for 10 years, 9 years... it doesn't matter the length of time. People change, and they see you changing, too. And sometimes, if they don't like what they see you changing into (usually because it makes them feel shitty about themselves because while you're moving on, they're still stuck in the same place and don't want to move on), they'll try in vain to bring you down with them, or they'll be horribly mean. I've had both done to me, and letting go of the friendships has been liberating.

Do yourself a favour. Be your own main character.

Yours with love, one of your supporting characters <3

It really means a lot that you said that and let me tell you you are much more than one of my supporting characters because that was wonderful. I think what gave me the most pause was I have been looking on redit and tik tok trying to find people in similar situations and a lot of adhd people were on both sides . Like there were far fewer saying “ you need to stop using adhd as an excuse” because it like pushed the thought that adhd people are lazy . And I don’t think that I think continuing saying that about anything will limit what your brain believes you can do. I mean it took me a while to stop using my anxiety as an excuse to blow up someone’s phone if they texted me something I could see as mean. It was a terrible trate and I didn’t want that part of me to ruin my friendships. So I worked on it. I think for anyone if it’s important to you, you’ll work on it and if you coddle yourself in your brain too much you will not grow. Like if I have a headache but get over it and I’m good to run but I coddle myself and say “ nooo you were just in pain you don’t need to” then the next thing I know almost two months have gone by and I only ran like two or three times ( still getting my 10000 steps though so not worry lol).

But it’s like I know that their brain works differently but i think because of that it’s your job to figure out how to make sure you get your adult responsibilities done. Like they don’t seem to forget to go to work or their work schedule, or their job duties at work , or that rent is due. Like what do they do to remember that. And all I’m asking for is for them to text me or reach out personally, a real apology where they take accountability and for us to have a sit down talk or phone call. If they cannot do that to save our friendship, then I feel like there really wasn’t much of a friendship to begin with, which hurts to even think about.

If you’re still reading this you’re a trooper and I will say I’m surprisingly not as doom and gloom as I sound. I’ve actually been pushing myself to become the person I wanna be. While Amy wants to stay in side and binge more criminal minds and rennfeild till my mind bleeds. My other ideal self Piper has been pushing me to do more activities. She downloaded meetup and we’ve gone out to singles night and a sound bath thing ( which was so relaxing). She’s made me say yes when people ask me to hang out after an even that went till 10. She’s pushed me to make sure I’m consistently trying to plan things with my grandma and siblings because even though , yes they can plan too, I’m okay with doing a little extra to get some one on one time with them. I’ve been trying to cut down how much I do it with my friends because I think it should be mutually planning unless it’s a theme park trip I will plan that lol. She’s pushed me to journal in a coffee shop every Saturday morning as a consistent thing I can look forward to. I’ve been trying new styles , taking myself on more dates , and hardest of all, actually spending money on myself. I’ve stopped worrying about gas and have been over to my other friends house more because I typically just wanted people to come over to mine ( especially when I was planning it). I’ve been really shifting myself to be the person I want to be a kind magnetic person that people just love to be around. That is my goal and I’m getting there , I already feel more positive about my life as a whole and I feel like I’m finally actually living it.

Wow that brought a lot out of me, thank you again for that I feel really at peace about the whole situation. It’s just whenever I think about it it just makes me a bit upset with how I’ve been treated. But it’s good to revisit those emotions just to remember it’s okay to feel them, but not to wallow in them.

[jyndor]

i hope you don’t mind if i give an example of how this can work: my insurance costs $300~/month and that’s after a subsidy because it’s through the aca marketplace, but it’s still private insurance.

a few things to understand, as pulled from my insurance company:

in-network means your doctors/facilities/hospitals/labs/etc that have a contract with the insurer. out-of-network means they do not.

copay is a fixed dollar amount that you pay for “services” lol jfc it’s HEALTHCARE not a fucking facial. coinsurance is a percentage of medical costs you pay after reaching the deductible. a deductible is the amount you must pay each year on “services” in order for the insurance company to begin to pay for those “services” - not including your premium, which is what you pay a month just to be insured.

out-of-pocket costs are the costs you pay when you get healthcare “services” it’s killing me that they keep saying services. bitch I am an eshetician, I provide services. out-of-pocket maximum is the most you could pay in a plan year for COVERED services before your plan pays 100% - this includes deductibles, copays, coinsurance, etc. not premiums.

okay. so my insurance premium is $300/mo based on my estimated earnings of $45k/year. i’m not going to touch on out-of-network stuff because OP is talking about specifically COVERED (usually in-network) procedures. out-of-network is an important part of this shit but I do think it’s important to stress to people who have socialized healthcare just how even doing everything exactly as your insurance company wants you to do it (by staying in-network) you get hosed.

my in-network deductible is $2000. my primary care visit copay is $30. my specialist visit is $60. cool, doesn’t seem the worst right? yeah well this is “good” insurance. if I need to go to my primary care physician for my annual exam or because I’m not feeling great, I will pay $30/visit. which to many of you is like ??? why are you paying - and yes, of course it’s absurd.

here’s where we get into trouble. if I have to go to the emergency room and EVERY SINGLE PROVIDER who works on me in any capacity is in-network (which isn’t always the case) I will pay 25% coinsurance. say the total bill is $1000. if and only if I’ve already hit my deductible for the year, I will owe the hospital $250. but if I haven’t met my deductible, I pay $1000.

and remember the out-of-pocket maximum I could~ possibly have to pay before my insurance plan pays everything? mine is $8700 (btw out of network is $17400). SO what if that bill isn’t $1000, that was just a simple number to make things easier to understand. what if it’s actually $10000 like OP’s example? it’s not uncommon. if I haven’t yet hit my deductible on procedures/medicine/visits/etc, I will have to pay the remainder of my deductible + then after that 25% of whatever is left of the bill. so if I have to pay the whole deductible ($2000) that leaves $8000 left on the bill, for which I will have to pay that 25% coinsurance. 25% of 8k is $2000. I would owe $4000 on a $10000 bill.

so I sprained my ankle literally yesterday and I have done it many times. so I decided since it was the literal 2nd day of the year, I didn’t want to go to the urgent care or ER or whatever. I took care of it (hopefully) at home to spare myself whatever the bill would have been. if I had gone to the hospital and if the hospital is in-network (let’s assume it is) I would have had to pay everything out-of-pocket unless it somehow cost more than $2000, and then I would have had to pay 25% of whatever was left on the bill.

say I get like 35k in costs overall this year. THEN i will probably hit that OOP maximum, and not have to pay anything for in-network care. idk if I will hit that, I hope not because that means A) I’m going through it lol and B) I’d have to pay $8700 out-of-pocket not including my monthly premium.

healthcare in the united states is a racket. it’s cruel and unsustainable and it costs people not just an insane amount of money, but also it lowers our quality of life and our life expectancy. and it’s bad for almost everyone, even someone with a “gold” plan or “good” insurance.

i think a lot of ppl who live outside the usa don't get that if someone is insured and their procedure is covered by insurance they still have to pay. like, the insurance does not cover your healthcare it just gives you a discount on your healthcare. and sometimes that discount is care that would've been $10k without insurance is $2k. people cannot afford covered, insured procedures.