#it spoke to me

[smthaboutuss]

projecting my period cramps onto vox so I'm not suffering alone<3

[frenzyarts]

[im-stuck-in-fandom-hell]

[universesrising]

@a-big-chicken-nerd remind you of anyone, dingus

[whumpshaped]

Yk what I deeply enjoy? Whumpee who used magic for everything not being able to use it at all after the whumper harvested it. I saw you mention that lil tidbit abt that one ask abt the magic drain thing and it won’t leave my brain. So this is a continuation?? idk man.

It’s not like the magic is gone—Whumpee can still feel a well of power inside of them. they just for some reason can’t access it. maybe it’s a trauma response, maybe their body just needs to recover, maybe it’s permanent. Nobody knows.

but whumpee feels like half of themself. they feel broken. even after they had escaped whumper, whumper still had an iron grip on the power they had so aggressively sought. Caretaker watches Whumpee get quiet. Something they never used to be. They’re not eating much, and not gaining much weight back from the incident.

Sometimes caretaker finds them trying to use magic from peeking around corners—leaving whumpee feeling miserable and frustrated that the only reason they were useful in life was evading them.

Truth is, magic is a fickle thing and only when whumpee has accepted themself without it, will it start to come back.

tw past trauma, self-blame, self-deprecation, feelings of uselessness

Whumpee was sitting on the couch, bundled up in several blankets to keep their malnourished body warm. They still hadn't gotten used to it — the cold, the fatigue, the weakness. It was a constant uphill battle. A reminder of all the things they'd lost, things that had been taken from them by force, violently ripped away with nothing but a throbbing wound left in their place.

An invisible one. One they couldn't explain, couldn't show to a doctor, one characterised not by what it was but what it wasn't. It was impossible to grasp, and it seemed impossible to heal.

Nonetheless, they tried to fix it sometimes. They reached out towards objects far away, willing them to float into their hand. They tried to light candles with little sparks of magic. These had all been so normal, so natural before, and now they felt like insurmountable tasks. To anyone on the outside looking in, it must've looked like Whumpee was crazy for even trying; but they felt it. They felt the magic inside of them buzz to life whenever they called on it, hitting a glass wall every single time.

Sometimes they tried to ignore it, but that proved to be equally impossible. There was a constant nagging at the back of their mind, a pull to the life they'd had before and desperately wanted back. Magic had been easy, light, joyous, magic had been their everything. And they knew it was still there. It was calling on them just as much as they were calling on it.

"Come on," they whispered, squinting at one of the half-read books on the coffee table. "Just an inch. Just one."

The book didn't budge. It didn't rise into the air, it didn't even slide across the table towards them. Tears pricked Whumpee's eyes as they pushed and pushed and pushed, only for the core of their magic to deny them access again and again and again.

"Hey, Whumpee," Caretaker said softly, and they quickly looked away from the book, trying not to come across as too depressed.

"Hey."

"In the mood for some lunch?"

Whumpee deflated even further. Truth be told, they weren't. "Uh… thanks, but I think I'll just eat something later."

"You said that about breakfast," Caretaker said cautiously. "Not even a bit of soup? It's your favourite one, too. You must be hungry by now."

Whumpee hummed passively. "Not really."

"Okay, um…" They walked over to the couch and sat down, putting a gentle hand on Whumpee's shoulder. "Do you want to help me make the food at least? Maybe it'd help with the appetite."

"I don't know how to," they admitted quietly. "I don't know how to do anything. Not without… you know."

Magic.

Caretaker offered them a compassionate smile, rubbing their arm a little. "Well, maybe you'll have to learn like the rest of us peasants. I can teach you."

They didn't want to learn. They knew how to do things their way, and learning it all over again in a different, more difficult way sounded like torture to their exhausted mind and body. "Okay," they said anyway, terrified of being perceived as even more of a burden.

They were given the task of peeling potatoes; with a knife, like the average person. Caretaker gave them all the instructions on how to handle it safely, on how to make sure that the actual flesh of the thing didn't get thrown into the garbage, then left them to their own devices.

Their first attempt was humiliating. They took off several huge chunks of perfectly good food, before eventually taking off a chunk of their own finger. Caretaker was gentle when putting a bandaid on it, speaking to them like one would've done so with a child.

"You think you can try again?"

Whumpee grimaced. "I think… I think I should just go back to sleep."

Caretaker handed them the knife with a knowing look. "I think you should try again."

So they did. They moaned and groaned, complained and got frustrated, but they did try again. And the first time they were truly, earnestly happy with their skinless potato, the first time they held it up proudly and with a smile, they could feel a jolt of electricity shoot through their body.

Maybe there were different types of magic in the world. And maybe they could coax each other out.

[goodmusicandcheapbeer]

SINCE IT’S FREAKY FRIDAY YALL

somewhat nsfw under cut :0

I SWEAR IT LOOKED AT ME FIRST

[lonelyy-clown]

Man I love watching some RTVS streams and thinking “how will my vocabulary regress today?”

[cinnabarts]

as long as you don't derez me in the morning

[crypticmoth-art]

Watching Death Takes a Holiday for the umpteenth time in three days solely because I like Fredric March’s monocle.

[allhailthedumpsterfire]

"The awful things we do to make the head go quiet,"

Hozier (To Someone From A Warm Climate)

[notetaeker]

April 4, 2023 - Tuesday | Ramadan Challenge 🌙 12-13/30

Day 12: Most challenging thing about Ramadan and how do you try to overcome it

For me it's always that time of the month that's the most challenging thing. My motivation always dips and whatever I am doing doesn't do it for me anymore </3 I always try but it often feels like stepping out of Ramadan for a week ;_; Honestly it's the same this year but I'm trying to not let my baseline drop and at least keep listening to lectures + doing dhikr + looking thru the annotations in my Islamic books.

Day 13: Have you ever completed the qur'an? Ever? What abt during Ramadan?

Not in Ramadan, not yet 😭 I'm always super motivated in the beginning but always fall behind when I can’t pray. I’ve continued reading after Ramadan though + completed it that way! Alhamdulillah 🌱

[mcnuggyy]

real 🫡

[creatureoftheclouds]

[greencheekconure27]

Wooden Easter egg I bought at the annual plant market two weeks ago

[bts-hyperfixation]

BTS Hybrids

Seokjin: Quokka

A hybrid nurse who more or less stumbles into the Bangtan household. He just wanted to keep checking in on his favourite patient, he hadn’t planned on slowly falling in love with the entire pack…

That's it! That's all the members!

Might post a teaser?

But the actual release day for chapter 1 is Sunday GMT morning