#it makes me incredibly happy

[stiffyck]

actually like. please? i know we all love shipping and we all love making characters fall in love and have a beautiful romance but think about what if that character couldnt love in that way? wouldnt that be interesting to explore?

wouldnt it be interesting and fun to explore how a character may feel discovering this about themself over time? wouldnt it be fun exploring how this character may feel if they are dating someone but dont feel the way about them how theyre "supposed" to?

wouldnt it be interesting to explore how this would affect their relationships in general? i feel like the lack of something most of people consider "normal" would be interesting to explore.

like i think exploring aro identities is really interesting and i wish more people tried to understand and see this as well.

i always enjoy those 2-3 fanfics in a fandom where they explore exactly this. ive recently read a TLOU fanfic where Joel meets with an old friend. It was incredibly satisfying to read and it was such a sweet fic.

I've read a moon knight fanfic that i actually cried over because i could relate to how the author wrote Jake. That fanfic explored 3 different relationships between layla and the moon knight boys and it was so incredibly sweet and I couldn't be happier over Marc being ace and Jake being aroace in that fic.

I'm gonna be honest but it's usually the fanfics that explore these kinds of relationships that make me the most emotional and that I am the most thankful.

I WISH ARO HEADCANONS WERE MORE POPULAR IN FANDOMS

[shakura-kazuki]

I feel like posting art on my main would be better than posting it on the new art blog (and then just reblogging it with said art blog) since it's an already established blog (even tho it's flatlining), but I'm posting so much other stuff that it kind of, will go under. BUT at the same time - I'm reblogging stuff on my main because it's fun and awesome art and comics and people should look at them.

I'm conflicted ugh.

Maybe giving this blog more personal or thematic touch would help. But that might also mean I need to curate my reblogs more. Which would mean less reblogging which is bad because reblogs are important.

I just need to post more art more regularly to be seen I suppose.

[milkcartonbastard]

Anything that has ever been remotely sweet and has graced my inbox is being selfishly stored there. Your messages are my dragon hoard <3

[veryasianfailure]

Was planning on making some character pins for myself but never got around the pin making part The characters are from the Lil' Pootis series from @quazies on yt!

[gilmores-glorious-blog]

obsessed with this video of matt performing bring on the men with a beautiful drag queen

[inkskinned]

you're grabbing lunch with a nice man and he gives you that strange grimace-smile that's popular right now; an almost sardonic "twist" of his mouth while he looks literally down on you. it looks like he practiced the move as he leans back, arms folded. he just finished reciting the details of NFTs to you and explaining Oppenheimer even though he only watched a youtube about it and hasn't actually seen it. you are at the bottom of your wine glass.

you ask the man across from you if he has siblings, desperately looking for a topic. literally anything else.

he says i don't like small talk. and then he smiles again, watching you.

a few years ago, you probably would have said you're above celebrity gossip, but honestly, you've been kind of enjoying the dumb shit of it these days. with the rest of the earth burning, there's something familiar and banal about dragging ariana grande through the mud. you think about jeanette mccurdy, who has often times gently warned the world she's not as nice as she appears. you liked i'm glad my mom died but it made you cry a lot.

he doesn't like small talk, figure out something to say.

you want to talk about responsibility, and how ariana grande is only like 6 days older than you are - which means she just turned 30 and still dresses and acts like a 13 year old, but like sexy. there's something in there about the whole thing - about insecurity, and never growing up, and being sexualized from a young age.

people have been saying that gay people are groomers. like, that's something that's come back into the public. you have even said yourself that it's just ... easier to date men sometimes. you would identify as whatever the opposite of "heteroflexible" is, but here you are again, across from a man. you like every woman, and 3 people on tv. and not this guy. but you're trying. your mother is worried about you. she thinks it's not okay you're single. and honestly this guy was better before you met, back when you were just texting.

wait, shit. are you doing the same thing as ariana grande? are you looking for male validation in order to appease some internalized promise of heteronormativity? do you conform to the idea that your happiness must result in heterosexuality? do you believe that you can resolve your internal loneliness by being accepted into the patriarchy? is there a reason dating men is easier? why are you so scared of fucking it up with women? why don't you reach out to more of them? you have a good sense of humor and a big ol' brain, you could have done a better job at online dating.

also. jesus christ. why can't you just get a drink with somebody without your internal feminism meter pinging. although - in your favor (and judgement aside) in the case of your ariana grande deposition: you have been in enough therapy you probably wouldn't date anyone who had just broken up with their wife of many years (and who has a young child). you'd be like - maybe take some personal time before you begin this journey. like, grande has been on broadway, you'd think she would have heard of the plot of hamlet.

he leans forward and taps two fingers to the table. "i'm not, like an andrew tate guy," he's saying, "but i do think partnership is about two people knowing their place. i like order."

you knew it was going to be hard. being non-straight in any particular way is like, always hard. these days you kind of like answering the question what's your sexuality? with a shrug and a smile - it's fine - is your most common response. like they asked you how your life is going and not to reveal your identity. you like not being straight. you like kissing girls. some days you know you're into men, and sometimes you're sitting across from a man, and you're thinking about the power of compulsory heterosexuality. are you into men, or are you just into the safety that comes from being seen with them? after all, everyone knows you're failing in life unless you have a husband. it almost feels like a gradebook - people see "straight married" as being "all A's", and anything else even vaguely noncompliant as being ... like you dropped out of the school system. you cannot just ignore years of that kind of conditioning, of course you like attention from men.

"so let's talk boundaries." he orders more wine for you, gesturing with one hand like he's rousing an orchestra. sir, this is a fucking chain restaurant. "I am not gonna date someone who still has male friends. also, i don't care about your little friends, i care about me. whatever stupid girls night things - those are lower priority. if i want you there, you're there."

he wasn't like this over text, right? you wouldn't have been even in the building if he was like this. you squint at him. in another version of yourself, you'd be running. you'd just get up and go. that's what happens on the internet - people get annoyed, and they just leave. you are locked in place, almost frozen. you need to go to the bathroom and text someone to call you so you have an excuse, like it's rude to just-leave. like he already kind of owns you. rudeness implies a power paradigm, though. see, even your social anxiety allows the patriarchy to get to you.

you take a sip of the new glass of wine. maybe this will be a funny story. maybe you can write about it on your blog. maybe you can meet ariana grande and ask her if she just maybe needs to take some time to sit and think about her happiness and how she measures her own success.

is this settling down? is this all that's left in your dating pool? just accepting that someone will eventually love you, and you have to stop being picky about who "makes" you a wife?

you look down to your hand, clutching the knife.

[napping-sapphic]

I just want to fall in love with someone who makes me feel safe like even when we’re angry or sad or upset i just want to know that both of us are still going to be okay

[wyvernity]

quick personal update -- i've been in chinaaaa for the past few weeks! plus a few days of layover in tokyo, so i got to visit japan for the first time! good experiences good food all around \(^_^)/

now that i'm officially back, i can share some of the soulsilver i've been stockpiling since march..... and since i'm too lazy to make multiple posts, you guys get the full dump. warning! there are a few!

[alleesaur]

memories of drowned flowers my goat, my babygirl, aehaheUHEAUH (i rlly like him :D)

he would appreciate that, in his ever-ambivalent way :)

[chamoemileclown]

StarBobby!

[smile-files]

NO ONE ELSE CAN HELP YOU

NO ONE ELSE CAN HELP YOU

(objectober 2024 day 20: dream)

[krikzilla]

*Screams on top of my lungs* GAMTAAAAAV

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[that-butch-archivist]

A beautiful friend of mine has finally stepped out of the closet as a radiant she/her. Score one for women, huzzah, we have another win for women! ... And now I am even more frustrated with my college workload lol. It was bad enough being behind on reading & archiving in general, but to be busy when I ought to be getting a friend resources and examples of people like herself by the dozen???

[eggplantgifs]

Yuma Kagiyama: Rain, In Your Black Eyes » 2024 Four Continents

[8xlewis]

carlando being soft husbands through the years

for a rainy day

[foxett]

Three more days for sunkel week. Im too lazy as to post them separately. Mischief/errands (day 2), Late nights (day 3), Birthday (Day 4)