#it made me think deeply and i realised thats been my problem this whole year. maybe i will talk to someone about it

[gippyworm]

Man as soon as I am not "early" with my assessments I have instant attention issues... even if I don't perceive the task as that hard UGH. I might give feedback to the teachers because I wouldn't have to keep rushing all my shit if they would just release the content the Friday before each week like my first year classes did 🥲

[bigsharter666]

empty locket

i think i found it, squirrelled it away. noticed it's glimmer from a curb or pile of leaves, and added it to my collection of junk.

maybe i stole it from somewhere, was called to it and slipped it into my pocket. a nasty habit i picked up as a 14 year old girl, lipgloss and earrings. bras and jeans. someday ill kick it, not today.

but somehow this locket came into my possession, golden and cheap. it took me a month to figure out how to open it, to figure out it could even open. it had a little space for me to put something important. something special. a picture maybe. whatever it was, it was made for lovers.

i could never decide which photo of you to put inside. which smile i wanted to encase, keep safe and sound against my chest. which gentle eyes, messy hair, pink lips and dimples. which kiss in the morning, which anniversary day trip, which midnight conversation. there were too many moments, to pick one would be to leave the others behind. everything was important to me. i think thats part of my problem, thats i have never been able to let anything go. not a single moment forgotten, a tiny detail unscrutinized. i would describe myself as passionate, but i think this is more than that. i feel everything so deeply and in all of my bones. if a picture of you in a locket felt like a mountain to climb, imagine how i am now, with the choice youve given me.

so it stayed empty. and in my empty bed i finally think of something to put inside.

we are sitting in the basement of your house. ive only been there a few times, all of it feels brand new. book titles and authors your mother loved, boxes of dolls and old furniture stacked on the wall, an orange rug. a partition splits the room, youll tell me it wasnt always there, this used to be a flat. your brother lived down here. your whole life is a secret you are slowly telling to me, some lies are mixed in but i dont mind. its cold, the beginning of winter. i have my icey feet tucked under me to avoid the concrete floors, its uncomfortable but im too scared to move. im worried youll realise how late its gotten. every second feels like an eternity but im terrified, frozen still and silent. finally, you tell me you want to kiss me.

it is the first good thing i have ever held, the first good thing i ever got to touch. i was so incredibly alone. i know i dont have to tell you but my life before that night was ugly and sad. so i held onto that memory for far too long, and far too tightly. crushed it in my hands like plasticine, stretched it out so thin it lasted me two whole years. i have revisted it, examined it, relived and retouched it so often that someday when im old and gray it will be the only thing left.

i am putting that memory in my locket. i will keep it safe and hidden. i will not look at it anymore. the locket will live in my collection where it belongs. it will always be special to me, and you will too. but i cant hold you anymore. at least this way i can keep it safe.

[onewomancitadel]

i was thinking about salem/ozma today and i remember i picked up wayyy back in v4 that there was something there between them and i didnt know what it was but as a 14/15 year old i was like mannnn if shes like some jilted lover bent on revenge thats gonna suck so bad. and then cr/wby went "oh no, they were in love and then the gods tore them apart, theirs is an epic love story and theyre hurting but..." and i just. aououghhh i LOVE my billions of years old divorced couple whos gonna get remarried at the end of the series. they make my brain itch. i love the two big bad powerful immortal beings locked in a stalemate because they were in love once and can be again if they just REMEMBER.

something something rapunzel crying into her prince's eyes to clear them something something

i was like mannnn if shes like some jilted lover bent on revenge thats gonna suck so bad.

Lol!!!!! It's amazing how stuff in execution can be different from how you anticipated or imagined, it's why I try to keep an open mind. You never know when the divorced eternally locked in conflict bad wizards are going to hit you emotionally lolololol. I also like that she's not a jilted lover per se but was like... deeply in love with Ozma and that's not framed as a problem, the problem is that all there is now is hatred.

Me, Ozlem never twigged. I can't lie about that. By the time Qrow had that brother gods exposition dump I thought they were playing the worldbuilding really straight and whilst I otherwise liked it that soured me quite a bit, and then as I mentioned I dropped the show at the end of V5 (and left the subreddit I had lurked) because I thought Cinder was dead and I hated how everyone was celebrating it. I had otherwise really liked the volumes but I really didn't like the brother gods or how straight the conflict was being played with Salem.

Now, it's the height of summer in 2018, very late at night, hot and wonderful and sticky and the crickets are going, and I say: you know what, why don't I give Volume 6 a whirl. It was about two episodes from the finale and I simply expected the worst. I mean, I haven't had stars in my eyes about R/WBY forever; the brother gods really did a number and the subreddit and general fandom made me feel like I wasn't allowed to like the show.

Err, suffice it to say, I lost my fucking shit. Cinder was alive? THE BAD WIZARDS WERE IN LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE?

Everything became immediately clear. They weren't actually stupid. The conflict wasn't being played straight. It was actually interesting. They were actually smart. This is why I go on about Ozlem probably in part because it's one of my favourite things ever (ancient eternal conflict rooted in a romantic cosmic wound) but also because it literally rejuvenated my adoration for R/WBY. I stopped going on the subreddit. I realised I was allowed to like R/WBY. It was awesome. I also personally feel that Qrow's exposition dump is in part the bit of what they did with the mentor, where he himself went through disillusionment, and before that he had been somewhat of a parrot. So I feel that there was a lot which was recontextualised which also transformed the show, which is the best part about a twist like that.

Of course, when my Best Mate watched the show (as an adult not teenager like us lol) she called Ozlem from Volume 1 so I fucking hate her guts. She said, 'Well if he's Odin, where's his wife,' then at the Salem reveal, 'There's his wife.'

i love the two big bad powerful immortal beings locked in a stalemate because they were in love once and can be again if they just REMEMBER.

It is literally my favourite thing ever to ever favourite like gjidgjdiogjdiogjdiodiogjdiogj d it's perfect it's divine rediscovering who you are and figuring out what you really want and what the whole farcical conflict is for and the division and the gods themselves being petty and having feuds and it just goes deeper and deeper and deeper but comes down to something essential because Salem was alone. Ozma died and Salem was alone and she was never the same again and actually you're supposed to have empathy/sympathy for her. Her pain matters. She's forgotten it does.

My favourite thing about it is that they took the eternal ancient sad bad wizard and then doubled it and then made it a love story. Literally who does it like Ozlem. It's so good. I can see a parallel of them with Beren and Luthien in LOTR but Ozlem is like crack doubled by crack doubled by crack and right up my nose. It's the best. I love watching them commit follies apart from one another and people trying to say which one is worse and I'm like you're wrong trying to compare them because they're just like each other. You're wrong. They're SOULMATES.

nyeheheheh Reverse Ozlem.

rapunzel crying into her prince's eyes to clear them

:( Holy literally fuck :(

And when her tears touched his eyes they became clear again, and he could see with them as well as ever.

I haven't researched Rapunzel very much so I guess I now have to because it didn't occur to me there would be even more positive foreshadowing. The thing I'm wondering about rn is that Rapunzel has a boy and a girl (Ozma has Oscar and Salem has Cinder, symbolically their children) and they're involved in the reunion in the story... I mean in a way all of the characters are so I'm probably reaching at this point. But there really is a theme of seeing with clear eyes isn't there? Which makes sense because Salem's eyes are clouded black.

I mean I've maintained that we've had tragedy and we need comedy (which need weddings) so I think either way they're getting back together in some way. At least forgiving each other. I think the other Ozlem analogues in the story are all going to get together though. I really think there's more to it than just 'and sometimes shit happens and you have to deal with it I guess' because every character death progressively has had more intelligibility to it in the story, it's giving the story meaning.

I just love the idea that to save the world you need to empathise with the most evil of evil bad wizards ever (including that other bad wizard you don't like and find annoying) and her story matters and it's going to be fixed. I love the way they all wrestle with that and what I really love about Cinder is that she's such an obvious representation of how to fix it and understanding her is the crest of understanding Salem, so it's just one whammy after another. It's like rolling around in the riches of gold and emeralds and rubies and sapphires when I could've just had like, a ring or something. I would've been happy with just one Ozma or one Salem in any other story (like Solas or Ganondorf) and I get TWO. I would've been happy with ONE villain you're supposed to empathise with and I get... how many????????

Ugh I just love the way Salem's story is told like a fairytale by Jinn but then... Jinn herself has a bit of a bias and breaks the rules just for Ruby :/ and feels what looks like pity for Cinder :/ like even the spiritual magical blue goddess wants to help :/ like it's sympathy and empathy and magical barriers that need breaking all the way down I'm going to cry.

My favourite bit that V6 recontextualises is Qrow's line from V3: "And not special in a 'Daddy's special little girl' kind of way...' because she's MUMMY's special little girl (Summer's eyes -> Ruby's eyes, not abstract warrior powers). V6 really was everything in giving the show what it needed and I love it so much for that reason. That's the power of recontextualising narrative twists.

Anyway I'm so glad you share my enthusiasm for it because I adore it so much and it's my favourite thing ever and I love getting to talk about it and I love R/WBY soooo much and I hate what the fandom did to me lol. But on the other hand I'm glad I gave it a whirl again despite that.

[idjitlili]

Stop wait and listen baby that’s my pilosophy.

A request for @medievalmage

'Hello! Would you do a Faramir x reader where you’re out scouting with him and his brother and it’s night time and you end up falling asleep on his shoulder. Then Boromir won’t stop teasing Faramir abt it the next day and it’s adorable af and you just sorta kiss Faramir to stop Boromir’s teasing. Thank you!'

Hiya my dude,so sorry this is very late, I just haven't been feeling Faramir at the moment,but honestly I cant deny requests ,so here we are. I've been very busy making a teapot and bread,plus being tired. I hope this is alright for you.

Summary:Imagine growing up with Faramir and Boromir,you had liked Boromir when you were younger,but as you matured you lost them feelings and gained them for his younger brother.

Word count:1430

It was no lie growing up you had deeply liked Boromir ,how could you not?Gorgerous hair ,gorgerous face,charming. You had been bestfriends growing up ,well with his brother Faramir ,just friends with Boromir. Faramir never knew of your feelings for his brother;and he was the person you trusted the most.

Anways growing up,you would often spar with them ,westle ,whatever ,they taught you how to fight in fact ,when you were young. They thought you being close to the stewards sons could cause evil to try get a hold of you ,to get what they wanted from the stewards sons, gold and such.Yeah so they taught you how to defend yourself from danger,it took a while but you got there eventually. In fact it caused you to become much more close to the brothers ;you would wrestle with them after that. As you became much more accustom to their physical contact.

Your mother would tease you asking which one would you marry,she didn't have any problem you being around them,knowing they would become noble men. She was very pleased to discover that you had een trained to be able to defend yourself. However your father was not so pleased with you for being so close to these men,well teenages right now,as the years progressed his hatred died down. They would often come over for dinner,as you all would ride into the freelands for training and camping. When you would come home the next day ,it would be time for supper,so you'd invite them round.

Your father grew to like them ,even laugh with them,but he did question in secret with your mother when your marriage with faramir would be revealed. Your mother may of knew who you had liked ,but she knew you would grow to love one of them ,more than a school girl crush. Your father already knew from the look in Faramir and your eyes when they would meet from across the table.

You were only a young adult when you had joined the rangers with Faramir,which he allowed because he wouldn't let any harm come to you,plus he knew you could defend yourself.  That is what he would tell himself ,but in reality ,he wanted to spent as much time with you ,and be close to your as much as he could without being weird.

Anyways you two did grow close after just a week of working together ,constantly in each others presences. Truthfully everyone else that were apart of the rangers were men,they kinda scared you ,so you stayed by someone you tursted with your your whole heart,faramir. After that week ,you began to fall in love with the stewards youngest son. One or two of the rangers had degraded you ,or made some sorta sexual comment ,Faramir would appear and give them shit. After he would make sure you were alright,looking at you deep in your eyes,within two weeks you definitely began to realise that you were in love with your life long bestfriend.

That was over two months ago,you Faramir were closer than ever ,but you were about to be closer. Denethor II your bestfriends father ,had sent you ,Faramir and Boromir out scounting. Well actually Denethor was like 'Boromir go scout with some other dudes' not those exact words of choice ,so Boromir had chosen you two of course.

So you had taken your horses to go scout the forests ,near Gondor for spiders nest ,or orcs that could be planning to attack. You three had spent all day searching ,only to find nothing. Before you all knew it ,it was almost dark,you had made camp before you all gathered firewood. With that soon a fire was lit and you were all sat around the fire.  

You had forced the boys to help you peel some potatoes ,before putting them in the pan on the fire in some water. Sam would be proud to know you were making mash potatoes. They didn't take long ,your bellies were quickly filled. You had sat very close to Faramir as you were used to with all the other rangers ,as there was less spaced. General conversations ,and some of Boromirs battle stories were shared.

Yet soon your eyes grew heavy ,as the night grew dark,you hadn't even realised you had been leaning on faramir. You could not think about such a thing ,as you fell into sleep ,causing your head to rest upon faramirs should, he had wrapped his arm around you to support you up,but actually it in a few minutes you were against his chest ,clinging onto him.

Faramir had just watched you peaceful in his arms ,until his brother had caused him to break that gaze. "you know she loves you?" he had spoken sincerely ,he had seen it for a long time,such as your father. "don't give me hope when there is none ,brother." faramir was annoyed at the state,ment ,as he really did love you ,but he couldn't see that you felt the same about him. "then why is she so comfortable to lay on top of you? It seems to me that is not the first time." faramifrhad blushed ,but thankfully the flames of the fire had hidden that ,it was true ,you had down this many times before.

"just you see tomorrow I shall get the truth."

And Boromir was true to his words he would get the truth ,even if he had to go to you and get you to admit your feelings. Instantly when you we awake ,being last up, Boromir had began the teasing. He had been sat upon a log ,carving a small piece of wood with a sharp small knife. You had sat upon out of Faramirs hold ,beginning to brush your hair,allowing Faramif to finally sit up.

"So brother, when can i expect a nice or a nephew?" the smirk was clear in his voice, Faramir had sighed ,you turned to the brothers confused. "w-what? you have a woman?"  you were beyond embarrassed you would not have dared to touch him ,he was your bestfriend why wouldn't he say anything. Now faramir's cheeks had flared up."n-no my brother is-" but Boromir had cut his bullshit off ,like a dogs nuts. " i just figured from how close you to were , that it can't be too long until you are pregnant." you had choked, lauching yourself at Boromir ,more like tackling him ,causing him to drop his knife ,straddling his chest,his arms above his head. "damn  I should expect one real soon then. Brother she has some moves." Faramir just watched in embarassment at the whole situation.

"you'd think for being my bestfriend,you would know im virgin,also we used to wrestle all the time ,it not kinky shit."  as soon as you were finished you had squeezed Boromirs cheekjs,before grinning. "you know as child ,I had a crush on you,Boromir." he had grinned back shaking his head no,faramir just stood a few feet away ,knowing you never liked him. "well uh that didn't last long,-" you had stood up ,holding out your hand for Boromir to take,in which he did.

"don't expect children soon ,but I do love your brother" you had walked over to Faramir cupping his cheeks ,pressing your lips swiftly to his,before walking over to your horse feeding it an apple from your bag on his saddle.   Boromir had smirked at his brother raising his eyebrows ,while ,Faramir was a beet still watching you.

"I heard everything last night,thats my pilosophy baby,."

[neoncakey]

Beverly Marsh || Clown Makeup

Okay so I posted this on on my Wattpad account which is Radsavagee. So this is a halloween one.

I would like to mention that I don't know Richie's sexuality so I just said bisexual. I haven't read the book so if anyone would like to tell me so I can put it in future imagines.

This is an au? That's what it's called right? So basically the whole pennywise thing never happened and it's in the 2000's. So I hope you enjoy this. 

Also tell me if I have any grammar errors as I do not look at my writing to check them oof.

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I heard a knock on the door and I knew who it was. I was going to do both of our makeup. And I guess out of the two of us I was kind of more girly. We were both a bit of tomboy and girly but I was more on the girly side while she was more on the tomboy side. 

I raced down the stairs and I nearly slammed into a wall on the way. I was nervous, butterflies were in my stomach. But I pushed those away because I didn't know her sexuality and I was just assuming she was into guys since she dated Bill. And I hear her state she was straight so I knew I had little to zero chance to date her.

Plus she's my best friend along with Richie. I was more closer to Richie though since I was friends with him since we were little kids and I had known Beverly since high school when Bill started crushing on Beverly. And she was then in the group and quickly her and I become best friends. 

Bill and Beverly dated for about a year and a bit and broke up at the start of this year. They had both move on or at least Bill and he recently got a girlfriend. Beverly no longer was sad about the break up and had gotten over it so at a point they had both move on. We had also meet Bill's girlfriend a few times and we all like her including Beverly. The two got on pretty well and it was really good!

Only Richie had fully known of my crush on Beverly and I knew his crush on Eddie. I was the only person to know about his crush because he was worried about people finding out he was bisexual. And I was also the same. No one else And we would honestly just talk on the phone about it quite a lot. It was honestly good I could just talk with him about anything but it would sometimes just hurt knowing that I had no chance with her. 

I opened the door and was greeted with a tight hug from Beverly. She was like that with me and I hugged her back and I could smell her perfume. And it wasn't like I was smelling her or ever have  that was honestly just a creepy move. But I guess she maybe had put too much perfume on and it was intense you could say. 

"It's nice to see you again! I missed you!" Beverly whispered to me as I felt my heart melt and crush itself at the same time. It kind of hurt but in a good way. I laughed a bit. 

"It's only been a few days," I commented laughing lightly. 

"That's still a lot of time since I last saw my best friend," Beverly commented as I kept my smile.  

Now I got best friend zoned. There is no hope for me now. God why do I think I ever have a chance with her. Like if you get friend zoned you are fucked. There is no hope for you. 

"Well let's get ready," I said and started to go up my stairs and Beverly followed me in excitement. I walked into my room and started to get everything ready. 

"Can't wait for the boys to be over and we can all go trick or treating! It's going to be great!" Beverly exclaimed sitting on my bed as I nodded my head agreeing. It's going to be so much fun no doubt.  

I started to getting her face ready. Because I didn't want her face to break out much because no one likes it when you break out more than usual or at all. 

"Yeah it's going to be one of the best years of trick or treating no doubt," I commented as I started to put on the makeup. It might be a while and I hope my hand doesn't freeze up. 

After an hour of doing Beverly's makeup and my own. I was done and I looked at myself in the mirror.

"Finished," I said to myself as I had just finished my own makeup after I had done Beverly. I started to put all my brushes away and getting them clean and everything. 

I hated sharing brushes so I made sure when I was done with Beverly to wash them and clean them and then do my own. I heard Beverly outside the bathroom door that was connected to my  bedroom.

So I decided to ask something that had been on my mind for a while.

"Are you fine with Bill's girlfriend Anna being there?" I asked Beverly. 

"Yeah I am plus I already like someone else," She said mumbled due to her being in another room and probably on my bed waiting for me to finish everything. After all it was nearly time for when the boys were coming. 

But then my mind started to comprehend what Beverly had said. She likes someone else who isn't me. 

Ouch. That hurt. I like her. 

"Oh." I said and I realised my mistake so I quickly followed it up,"That's good."

"Anyways you can come in now," I said and with that it didn't take long for Beverly to come in rushing. She swung the door opened and she finally looked at herself in the mirror along with myself.

"We looks amazing!" She declared in happiness. 

"Yeah we do and you look the best," She added as I blushed lightly. I was happy that my makeup slightly covered my blush. I just hoped she wasn't paying attention. 

"You are the best Bev," I whispered smiling.

And I know I said it loud enough for her to hear me.  

"So are you," She said pulling me into a hug and I hugged her back. 

We sat down on the bed waiting for the fives minutes to past so the boys would be at my door. But I couldn't help but think my chances with her are down the water. And I guessed she noticed my happy mood be replaced. 

"Something wrong?" Beverly asked noticing my mood go down. I was just staring at the ground. I needed to tell her about my crush on her. And I was going to do that. If she hated me it would kill because I would lose my best friend and that would hurt even more.

"Look I gotta tell you something and if you want to leave you can," I said and I was hoping she wouldn't leave I was hoping.

"You're scaring me Y/n. And nothing can get me to leave," Beverly said and I hope she was keeping her word.

You can do this. Beverly would just call you a freak or anything. Just like Richie told me that she wouldn't do that. That wasn't a Beverly thing to do. I trusted Richie so I decided to just say it outright.

"I like you," I said quickly and closing my eyes worried of her reaction.

Please no calling names. Please no calling n- 

"YES!" I heard her shout and I opened my eyes confused. 

Did I hear her right? Did she just say yes? No that's gotta be wrong like thats- thats just not right. 

"Huh?" I questioned as I looked at her confused. 

"I like you too," Beverly declared happily and smiling the widest I have ever seen her. 

"You sure? You ain't faking it," I said still confused.

"Yes I'm sure I like you, you dork," Beverly said pulling me into another hug as the door bell went and I knew it was the boys. 

"Lets get our stuff," I commented walking near the door where both of our small bags were. I put mine on my back and grabbed hers about to give it to her.  

"And before we go. Do you want to be my girlfriend," Beverly said as I nodded my head. 

"Yes," I said smiling. 

We walked down the stairs and opened the doors to see the group. I saw Bill as a cheesy vampire and Anna also being a vampire. And they were wearing matching costumes thats adorable. I saw Richie dressing up as the Joker since he loves the Joker. Eddie was the Iron Man and I figured since Tony Stark was his favourite superhero. Stanley was dressing up in his bird watching gear and that wasn't going to expect anything different from him. I knew Mike was dressing up as a Werewolf and I thought of Teen Wolf. And Ben was dressing up as an Explorer and it reminded me as like Carl from Up. 

"You l-look good guys," Bill said smiling and wrapped his left arm around Anna. 

His stuttering was getting better. And I was happy for him. He seemed to be much more confident now and it's sad that a guy like him was insecure about his stutter and the fact that people were teasing him about it. 

He's such a great guy and I know his girlfriend will treat him right and he will treat her right.

"Damn Y/n and Beverly. You two look amazing," Anna said as I smiled at her. She wrapped me into a hug and then Beverly as well and pulled her towards the back of the group to say hi to everyone. I will do that also after I talk to Richie.  

"Damn! Look at you guy's make up!" Richie praised us. I laughed slightly. I hugged him and he hugged me back just as tightly. When we let go I turned and locked the front of my door. They didn't noticed as they all began talking to one another. 

I thought of Richie's fear of clowns and how we were looking like clowns. 

"Are you sure you're fine because last time I checked you were afraid of clowns," I teased him playfully bumping my shoulder against his. 

"Well last time I checked you guys were already clowns for not telling each other your feelings towards each other. And now look at you two," Richie sassed out as I had my mouth open in shock. And I could feel myself 

I blushed deeply. 

"Ohhhh something happened. Tell me everything," He said leaning in to hear all of it.

"I confessed my feelings for her," I stated.

"And?" He said trying to get the information out of me fast enough even though he knew I was going to give it to him. 

"She told me she likes me back. And now we are dating," I said excitedly and I saw Richie smiling at me with happiness. 

"So you finally got the courage to confess," Richie teased and I rolled my eyes. 

"Yes I did and thanks for being there for me Richie," I said gently and I was actually thankful for a best friend like him.

"No problem that's what best friends are for," Richie said as he wrapped his arm around me pulling me into a side hug. 

"Now all you gotta do is confess your feelings for you know who," I teased him and he smiled lightly at me while rolling his eyes and shaking his head.

"We gotta get going guys," Bill said as everyone started to get going and I was in the back.

Beverly came to me and held my hand pulling me away from Richie and went in front of the group.

"Hurry up babe I want food," Beverly complained as I blushed and rolled my eyes. 

God I couldn't wait for the memories of tonight. Tonight has got to be the best Halloween night of all time. 

[fandomboy15]

Shiro and Keith are parallels of Aang and Katara

I’ve never done anything like this before but this popped in my head and thought it would be fun to write. Okay so for a long time now we’ve seen people comment on their ships and how they parallel other shows, the most common that i’ve seen is The Legend of Korra. However Voltron creators Joaquim Dos Santos and Lauren Montgomery also worked on Avatar the Last Airbender, with JDS joining in season 2 and LM in season 3. After seeing screenshots and watching season 7 episode 1 it made me think as a whole how the relationship of Shiro and Keith parallels close to that of Aang and Katara. This is just my own idea and people can disagree if they want to but this is my own personal interpretation. Also would like to add that people can ship whatever ship they want as all ships are valid in fanon, and again this is my own idea of what could happen in canon. So let’s start by analysing Aang and Kataras relationship and how it then parallels Shiros and Keiths. 

1) The brother complex: One of the biggest things people use to discredit Sheith is the use of the brother line. People often use this to call Sheith an incestuous ship and that it means nothing else. I feel like i have to say that it’s obvious that they’re not actually brothers due to multiple reasons, such as season 7 episode 1 showed them meeting for the first time as well as confirmation that Shiro never knew Keiths dad and Krolia upon meeting Shiro never referred to him as her son. Instead the brother line in my opinion is more used to confirm either one of two things. One tumblr blog called ‘Arahir’ mentioned that Keith uses the brother line as a way to ignore his feelings as he saw Shiros relationship with Adam and didn’t want to get in the way of Shiros happiness. Or alternatively the brother line is more Keith mistaking his own feelings as in season 6 episode 5 he also says I Love You, confirming that Keith does love Shiro which shows how deeply they’re connected. 

In ATLA Katara once referred to Aang like a little brother and in another episode as a good friend. This automatically doesn't mean that these two characters are related or their friendship discredits them ever being in a relationship, its shows that their is a bond between them with a mutual level of respect and care for one another. As well as the fact that feelings develop and change over time as Katara learned to stop viewing Aang as a brother and started to develop real feelings for him which eventually them to be in a relationship at the end of the series. This is what I see happening with Sheith which I will go into more detail later that it is a slow build, it’s not going to happen until the end as their feelings are still developing and growing in that Shiro and Keith are learning to realise their true feelings for one another go deeper than that of a friendship. 

2) The Mentor / mentee relationship

In ATLA we can see this with Aang and Katara. When these two first met Katara was fascinated by Aang and the fact that he could help her learn Waterbending. Katara soon becomes a master and eventually becomes Aangs Waterbending master to help him reach his full potential as the Avatar. 

This can be seen with Keith and Shiro, as Shiro became Keiths mentor and helped him get into the Galaxy Garrison as Shiro believes that Keith has a lot of potential and wants to help him reach it. In both of these ships I feel like it signifies the the mutual level of wanting to help one another and support and lift each other up to do the best they can, which we know was a problem that Shiro had in his relationship with Adam. (also I feel bad but i’m not trying to hate on Adam at all but based on what the creators of the show said and what happened in the episode with him it does portray him in not the best light but I think he’ll be an interesting character to know). 

Also would like to add in this part the age difference. With the introduction of Adam it makes sense that Shiro would not have had feelings for Keith pre-series for a couple reasons. Number one is that it would be pedophila which is not okay at all and also is something that people use to discredit them since its not true nothing romantic happened between them before the series began. Number two is that Shiro and Adam before they broke up, which people are seeming to ignore, where in a loving relationship and Shiro doesn't seem like the kind of guy to be eyeing some-other guy, especially one that is about seven years younger than him in the pre series. Also by the start of the series we know Keith is 18 and with the two years on the space whale and the fact that a year has passed since they’ve been in space it puts his age at 21 and Shiros age to 25-26 which is not that big of a difference and it further help show that they are two consenting adults. 

Also on another note to signify their closeness and support of one another is the parallels of dealing with responsibility and how the mentor helps the mentee. With Aang he never wanted to be the avatar he just wanted to be a normal kid, but Katara is the one who helps him realise the responsibility he needs to take on in order to save the world which she does by supporting him and eventually helping him master waterbending. This parallels Sheith as Keith had to deal with the responsibility of becoming the future leader of Voltron and it was Shiro who helped him realise his potential to be the leader that Voltron needed. 

3) You saved me: 

“You Saved Me”

“You saved me”

“We saved each other”

This is another parallel i found interesting is how both they are saving one another. The first image was Aang realising Katara saved his life after he was shot by Azula, and the second image was Shiro grateful for Keith rescuing him. That ones interesting since it was more Allura saving Shiro by being a magical USB haha, but it shows that Shiro thought more of Keith saving him. Also it was so cute how Keith never once let go of Shiros pod because he could never leave him. 

Also holding the other in their arms there was a parallel for this as well. 

Katara holding Aang after she revives him.

Keith holding Shiro after he wakes up. 

Not even reaching they are literally holding each other the exact same way, if that ain’t a parallel then I don’t know what is. One cradling the other in their arms after being hurt really bad. 

“You’re Okay”

“You Found Me” 

Fuck my heart hurts i love them all so much. We stan two people holding each other and in love aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

4) Its a slow build relationship: With Aang and Katara their relationship was a slow build between them falling in love with each other. You can see how Aang obviously has a crush on Katara but it eventually turns into love and Katara slowly falling in love with Aang as the series progresses. They didn’t immediately become a couple even though they kissed three times before the end of the series they still needed to grow as characters and eventually fall in love. 

As for Voltron many of the cast and crew have also talked the show being a slow build. It’s the reason why characters like Lance haven’t had a pivotal arc yet because it takes time to properly set up these characters and how it affects the story. With Keith and Shiro their relationship has also been a slow build that I feel like with Kataang won’t happen until the very end of the series. But yeah this was kind of short but also I just feel like we need to be patient cause it yields focus, get it haha. So yeah just based on everything that has happened between these two I can just see it slowly growing more and more from friends to eventually boyfriends and then husbands cause if Shiro almost got engaged once so he’s gonna do it again. I feel like since Shiro and Adam broke up he probably needed the time to find himself and wheres a better place to do that in space, and eventually Shiro is slowly growing more and more in love with Keith, and as for Keith he also needed to find himself and I think him spending those two years with his mom really helped him grow and become the leader that Voltron needs him to be and now he can focus on other things... like Shiro. 

5) Other characters to ship them with:

It’s not really a secret that a part of the Voltron fandom has been about shipping and a lot of times it has turned toxic which is stupid because people should be allowed to ship whatever they want. This also happened in the avatar fandom with the ship war of Aang and Katara vs Zuko and Katara. This was a really big deal and there was a lot of people who shipped Zutara and were not happy when they didn’t end up together . 

In all honesty since I think that Sheith parallels Kataang then I believe that Klance parallels Zutara. Again I am not hating on Klance this is jut my opinion (it’s funny i act like people will actually read this) but with Klance and Zutara they are similar in that they're opposites you know the whole red/blue contrast, fire and water, ones cool headed and the others hot headed. To me thats how Klance is they started off not really fond of each other but they have had moments which has led to a friendship and trust between the two similar to that of Zuko and Katara. But also with Sheith like i’ve said in this whole post is that its slowly building up to a romantic relationship just like Aang and Katara and even JDS mentioned and its on the official Voltron twitter that Shiro will have a stronger relationship with Keith, i mean like seriously the only place that they're relationship could possibly be stronger is if they start dating, in my opinion thats the only way it can become stronger with them both admitting how much they love each other, but again I don’t think this will happen until the very end because once again its a slow burn and it takes time to build up even more. 

Also another parallel that I can imagine is comparing Shiro and Adam to to Katara and Jet. Obviously Shiro and Adams relationship was more serious than Jet and Katara, but I do see a parallel in their relationships. Katara wanted Jet because she thought he was this amazing person but of course his true intentions were shown and he tries to convince Katara that he is right and that her opinion is wrong. This is similar to Adam in that I don’t think he is a bad guy just that he doens’t truly have what Shiro wants at heart and I feel like when we meet him in season 7 it will be similar to when Jet returned in season 2 of ATLA where it was awkward but eventually they’ll make up but won’t get back not because Adam will die like Jet, but because Adam just isn’t the one and Shiro has found someone who truly supports and accepts every part of him, *cough Keith cough*. 

6) Earthly attachment: 

Okay so we in ATLA there was an arc for Aang where we could learn to control the avatar state. However in order to do so he would have had to let go of his love for Katara as she is what bounds him to the earth. However Aang is like nah fam i love her and then leaves. Eventually he gets his avatar state powers back but basically this shows how to Aang, Katara is his entire world. 

Now while there hasn’t been any spirity parallels between Sheith I can see the parallel of them being the one that ties the other to the earth. The first comes from Haggar in season 6 where she says that Keith and Shiros bond runs deeper than any of the other paladins showing how much they mean to one another and that literally their fucking connected on a spiritual level. The second example comes from another blog which you can find here: 

http://acekeith.tumblr.com/post/176132479409/a-little-vent-post-about-whats-been-bothering-m

Basically they talk about how in season one when the paladins focus on their important memories, and in it Shiro doesn’t think of Adam because they broke up and Shiro doesn’t see him as being him home anymore, instead Shiro thinks  of the Kerberos mission and the rocket which is where he took Keith to say goodbye to him showing how Keith and his dreams of being in space is what is most important to Shiro.

Also on Keith’s side we can see how important Shiro is to him back in season 2 i think when Keith was fighting the blade of mamora. in this episode we learn that Keiths greatest fear is Shiro leaving or abandoning him. I feel like this says that Keith can literally not live without Shiro as he is the only person in his life that he truly cares for and feels love for. 

Also speaking of spirit magic i do have a headcanon that something like this could happen, cause of how they said the white lion isn’t done with Shiro so what if Shiro tries to gain cool powers from the white lion but he’d have to let go of Keith but he can’t do that, my heart would burst but this is just a headcanon though I would love it if that were real. 

7) Flustering mess: I saw this and thought it was a funny parallel that i wanted to include. 

Aang literally becoming a mess at the sight of Katara wearing a different necklace. 

Shiros gay panic when Keith came back older and hotter. They are both actual messes when they see their baes looking good. 

So maybe this is a really interesting theory or maybe i’m just crazy. But honestly i loved making this I thought it was really fun to see the parallels between two of my favourite shows ever and two of my favourite couples ever. If people can think of anymore parallels then let me know. Also again please don’t hate me on this just wanted to share my own opinion of this and am not trying to invalidate any other ships as people can ship whatever they want. But yeah I just really love Sheith and pray to god everyday it becomes canon haha.

[faunusrights]

OFFAL HUNT REMASTERED LIVEBLOG // CHAPTERS 10 + 11

we had a week of peace and now we’re gonna get annihilated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have no clue how long this liveblog may end up but hell and high water i’m combining them both

she tore the jade pendant from her neck and flung it into the darkness.

let’s give a warm welcome, to sadness,

i’m very excited for all-new cinder content hhhhhhh if u havent gathered by now I Love This Bitch and I Love Her Many Problems so im thankful for this gift 😞

Cinder was a ruin, her pride carved and served like slabs of meat.

i can FEEL diesel n kc rly patting themselves on the back for every bit of wet meat they can toss at me!!!!!!!!!! U HEAR THAT I CAN FEEL U!!!!!!!!!!! but also i still love this shit w/ all my heart!!!!!!!!!! IM NEVER GONNA STOP SAYIN IT

She had never looked at Glynda’s files.

im so sorry cinder baby but that whole thing? is still HILARIOUS oh my GOD i cannot believe you fucked up that badly. u shoved yr entire head into a beartrap. u absolutely crapped yr pants on that one. yr gonna be thinking abt that on yr deathbed,

/looks at the chapter title again

hhhhhhhh im. so pumped. its gonna be hard to talk abt most of this w/o doing a million fingerguns a minute but i’m gonna try my best

Cinder approached the mirror and touched its silvered face with black-tipped claws,

I SAID IM GONNA TRY MY BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

She was iron barbs beneath the nail bed, glowing coals underfoot, the singular capacity to do harm. She was a beast, armed with fang and claw and a deep, dark void where her compassion should have laid, and she was dressed for dinner.

HHHHHH god YES THIS IS THE CINDER IM THIRSTY FOR............ i literally cannot say anything that isnt a massive 👈😎👈 but AAAAAAA

like im reading thru this and i cant cherry-pick lines this whole bit? is SO GOOD...  kc n diesel are Yet Again obliterating me w/ their mastery of the narrative style of offal hunt and i just love all of this i rly wish i could explain how offal hunt is EXACTLY MY BRAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! F U C K

The final touch on her mastercraft disaster: the four sawed-off horn stumps which grew among her silver-streaked hair.

HOOOO B O I i am. Losin it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE HER HORNS.......... CINDR...............

Wretchedly, she wondered: did Glynda even respect her now?

any other villain: my plan didnt work and im mad >:( cinder fall: my plan didnt work and now im mad but also mostly sad :(

CINDER’S TRYING HER BEST GOD.......... i literally hate how the remaster has made her So Soft, Actually... I BELIEVE IN U CINDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!! DO YR BEST

Every part of her was hot and hollow. She was sick with loathing.

i LOVE HER.... CINDER I HOPE U KNO THAT YR LOVED... god tho i dont like how SAD I AM RN... cinder’s so small and the world is so big and wants 2 Shit On Her blease

honestly like. im rly- LOOK I SAID THIS BEFORE BUT. this is why im rly lovin the new cinder content because in the first version we only got glimpses of her internal machinations and now we’re in full-blown Always Sad territory and everything is suffering :)

She blinked. Her double did not.

‘well’, thought murphy. ‘that’s terrifying.’

she’d only survived thanks to a keen instinct for danger, cultivated during her tenuous teenage years.

i NEED. I NEED. CINDER BACKSTORY. all these lil nuggets dont constitute a meal! I WANT A BIG MAC AND FRIES. WHAT THE HELL WAS THIS BABY DOING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also again. the body horror of offal hunt? peak content. Im Lovin It

its getting harder to divine what is and what is not a 👈😎👈 because we got bits sprinkled around and theres only rly a spoiler potential if u glue em all together so im still being extra careful and the answer is blared in everyones faces so this whole kondor scene will go uncommented unless some Bullshit Happens which it will, so,

When she had become so invested in Glynda’s approval? When had a desire to be recognized as something inhuman, something ferocious, something black and terrible and capable of keeping up with Glynda Fucking Goodwitch turned into this?

oh! oh! i have the answer! i do! i know the answer! it’s you a lesbian,

The spectres of her youth haunted this city, owl-eyed children and fox-eared teens. They’d been a second sort of family, the only kind she’d had within these walls, and she’d wondered what had become of them in the past decades, but…

It was too sentimental, and she wasn’t meant to be a creature of sentiment.

oh boy okay wow

okay so actually this bit made me cry??? fuck OFF im losing it!!!!!!!! LET HER BE SENTIMENTAL!!!! LET HER HAVE PPL TO CARE ABT!!!!!!!!!! IM LITERALLY CRYING IM GONNA DIE!!!!!!!!!

She would go barefoot from this point on, her heels clutched at her side. When she left the hotel room to steal into the night, she promised herself not to look back.

im sorry im just. so sad rn. i havent cried over a fic in YEARS and we still have another chapter ago i hate this SO MUCH..............

here comes chapter 11 

if i cry even once more im going to stab!!!!!! im not sure what BUT ILL STAB!!!!!!!!!!!!

Even without his wings, the Manticore would easily have been twice the size of any of the other Grimm, far outstripping them in sheer bulk.

HATI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HATI HATI HATI

holy shit we actually get to see him this time!!!!!!!!!!! WE GET TO SEE THIS LEGENDARY BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS CHONCC,

also hes a manticore now which is, Radical, may i just say, and just a little bit sexy,

The effortless grace in each move betrayed power most Grimm would not live to achieve. Once he stood, he had to dip his head low to meet her eye to eye. His canines were the length of her forearm.

if u werent here for the remaster? we never even SAW hati but now hes here, hes Big, and rly thats all that matters,

Like a child who’d been allowed to lie and lie until at last they’d strangled themself in the web they’d spun, Cinder couldn’t speak. Could only wait on his verdict.

every single one of cinder’s inherent themes is killing me and this business w/ family? stop. im dying. this is rude

The scant space between them popped and cracked like an sparking flame, warm and effervescent, and this time, Cinder lingered, hugging Hati close.

IF I CRY ONCE MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF U ASSHOLES MAKE ME CRY ONCE MORE I WILL DOXX YOU,

aaaaaaaaaaaaaah im loving this content i rly dont have words for it dhjfgsdfgjh i just, rly like the words, and the order theyre in, and i honestly keep forgetting to liveblog it cause i just wanna READ EM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tempting as it was—as it always had been, ever since she’d left the relative safety of the wastes and learned what happened to scraggly-limbed teens with horns and fangs and gleaming eyes—

with every chapter i desperately have 2 kno more abt baby cinder i HAVE to know i am so. UNBEARABLY CURIOUS... baby cinder what happened... what happened 2 u....

A lantern’s glow warmed her, bleeding into the darkness leeching at them both. It was a gentle gold across her skin, and like an answering signal from a distant outpost, Cinder saw a flush of light through the dark fur lining Hati’s throat, as though flames licked at his insides.

i forgot. that cinder glows like that when she feels Loved or full of pride and you know what i dont like these chapters. they were made to hurt me and i Dont Like That (im mclovin it)

From the safety of Hati’s neck, she found it easier—after all this time, he was still her bastion.

WHEN YOU REALISE? THAT YR ACTIONS HAVE CONSEQUENCES?? STOP,

For a regular person, the machine would be able to draw out short bursts of power, the likes of which no Semblance could ever channel. The taxation would eventually destroy the soul so deeply, so thoroughly, as to leave it empty for good.

For a Witch? For—

the fact. she cut herself off before she could think��‘for glynda’. has me on the FLOOR. this bit is just So Much i dont like it

Glynda Goodwitch would not abandon this hunt. Cinder knew it, had read it from her palms like an open book—Glynda Goodwitch did not know how to stop. If it had been anyone else on Remnant, they might never return, might never pull themselves back into action after today—but Glynda did not have a shred of self-preservation.

me, knocking against cinder’s head: u kno for someone w/ so many schemes in yr brain yr pretty dumb and gay, huh,

firstly let’s talk abt cinder’s “””””””””””””””””””self-preservation””””””””””””””””””” instin-- whats that? not found? yes

[Glynda’s] eyes were empty, hungry, insatiable.

i feel like ive read this line before! lets jump back a chapter--

In [Cinder’s] eyes, there was a subtle, endless hunger.

WAKE UP CINDER SHE’S YR SOULMATE!!!!!!!!!!! THE COFFEE’S READY U CAN SMELL THE BACON FROM HERE WAKE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

With a fluid leap, they were in the air, the ground quickly shrinking beneath them. Pressing her face against his neck to shield herself from the wind, she closed her eyes and prepared herself for what was to come, trusting Hati to deliver her safely.

that said i ADORE my boy hati is literally the best part of offal hunt kc and diesel do not interact,

He was frozen in horrific anticipation, like watching an imminent tragedy and being absolutely helpless to stop it. Like all the tension was mixed with grief and hopeless, futile fear.

when will offal hunt be nice to me. when will any of these characters get to be happy. hello. im full of sadness.

The sound was like a saw working back and forth, but resonating inside her head, rattling every tooth in her jaw, deafening to her ears.

im literally gritting my teeth at this i can hear it in my own head and its Very Bad!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

okay god i can barely handle to quote anything more this bit is hurting ME so lets swiftly move on before I Die

Cinder closed her weary eyes, sinking into sleep like a shallow grave.

BE NICE TO HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BE NICE TO HER JUST THIS ONCE, PLEASE, IM BEGGING YOU,

They only knew death, only ever sought death; fangs and claws slicked with blood, magic rending meat and marrow apart, and everywhere that choking, scalding heat, spilled blood like magma, like the core of a planet.

hmm... that seems like a 👈😎👈 ~reference~

They were all alert, ears pricked, hackles raised like Hati’s. They all fixed on the same spot, somewhere beyond the darkness of the cave opening, and though she could barely think, she knew:

She was out of time. The Witch was here.

oh no.

okay so THATS CHAPTERS 10 AND 11! i only cried ONCE and u kno what thats. a Victory. these two chapters were VERY GOOD i rly loved em and i can tell new readers r gonna have a blast w/ this shit!!!!!!!!!! meanwhile i, a veteran reader, am full of peril,

terrible.

[parkers-gal]

Sorry when I said I "hate her" I meant hate her music, not her as a person, that's my fault for bad wording I'm sorry. Madonna is the blueprint for modern pop, she revolutionised the music industry in countless ways (even if Ariana doesnt realise it, she has been indirectly impacted by Madonna's career) and Gaga almost single handedly started the whole dancepop era, and forced all the other singers to up their game. They are queens cause they adress controversial issues that could get them banned from the industry. Gaga and Madonna don't need to change themselves to keep up with what society wants because Madonna set the marker for what society wants. They both changed to show their desire to tackle multiple music genres and fields of art. They didn't give a fuck either, Madonna had more media boycotts than anyone else and got excommunicated twice, Gaga once. Madonna made an album deeply criticising America just after the surge of patriotism after 9/11. If that isn't not giving a fuck, I don't know what is. I love Aris voice, it's so soft and warm, but in my eyes a nice voice shouldn't be one of the main things that makes you a queen of pop. Yes of course no one is perfect but I feel previous pop stars have set the bar extremely high and in my opinion Ariana is yet to reach the bar. Her career has been relatively safe, and she's not exactly known for being boundary breaking in the same way gaga and Madonna are. I think she just wants to make music and leave without making highly publicised eras like the Erotica era or The Fame Monster era, or even the Teenage Dream era. Which isn't a terrible thing, just not what I'm after. I like those heavily publicised eras. I have no problem with this; Ari just wants to vibe. But queens of pop don't just vibe. You can stand by your statement, these are just my thoughts <3

lol i’m not saying it’s madonna’s or gaga’s fault for changing to keep up with society. that’s society’s fault that they don’t have the attention span for women like them. they have different ERAS and they look different and make different music and THATS what they do. i know madonna paved the way. i know gaga did too. that’s part of the reason i love ari; it’s because she’s friends with both of those women and she knows she’d be nothing without the women who came before her. ariana doesn’t change her look very much; she doesn’t make all types of music or does a lot of what madonna or gaga had to do (and that’s partly because she just doesn’t care). i’m saying ari is the queen of pop because she’s basically just made similar music for the past seven years and we’ve yet to see her leave her top spots. she’s staying relevant, and i think that says a lot, especially about a women, because the industry is sexist as fuck. gaga and madonna aren’t my favorite, but that doesn’t mean i hate them solely because ariana is ‘better.’ all i’m saying is all three of them are queens of pop, but ariana is recent; she’s younger and she’s more appealing to me because i grew up with her. i acknowledge gaga and madonna, but they aren’t MY queens only because i’d never listened to much of their music

[melissaspruce]

Its 2:40am and i cant stop my thoughts

The first time she cheated on me was in a nightclub toilet. Right infront of my eyes. And she denied it. I felt everything crumble id never been so destroyed. Ill never forget how broken i was when i went to my best friends house the next day and collapsed in her arms. I did a weird thing, I pretended it didnt happen. I denied it. The second time she cheated on me was when i was waiting for her at a pub and she left me there alone for 3 hours while she ignored my phone calls and would occasionally reply with petty lies as to where she was. Little did she know someone had seen her with this girl just out front of the pub i was waiting for her in. Whats worse was this girl added me on social media and smiled to my face as I waved hello as i introduced myself kindly. What a dickhead. Then months later i noticed a change in her. Like she was deleberatly trying to get me to hate her. I still stayed and loved her even then. She then broke up with me and told me it was her not me. That old chestnut. Then came back to me when she was lonely a few weeks later. I lied and told her i hacked into her messages and her whole face dropped with guilt. She eventually let out it was the same girl from the night she left me for 3 hours in town. And that she was so guilty she broke up with me so she could meet up with her. Swore she never did anything as per usual. Whats worse was i worked on forgiving her, only to be lying in bed with her at night and have this girl call over 20 times crying she was going to commit sucide. I still bared it. It changed me but i still kept loving her. Then when we would go out i would have to deal with this girl being everywhere we went staring. After that i broke up with her because i found myself becoming crazy. Always checking her posts. Her likes. It began to consume me. Then she pulled the sucide card and told me how much she hated herself. I knew that pain all too easily and my heart broke for her. And yep you guessed it. I contiuned to love her. After that i noticed whatever she had been telling her family and friends must have been horrible because their demanor was noticeably different with me. I couldnt understand why i was so hated when i did nothing wrong. She would show me text messages from her best friend telling her being with me was a bad idea. That I was no good. I would never have shown or told her the things my friends said about her, that just nasty. But still i loved her. Eventually the months rolled by and her phone for 2 years always remained face down.  She stopped posting pictures of me and would yell at me everytime i did a snap chat with her in it. Eventually i had had enough and broke up with her again. 2 days later she was back at my door step smiling and saying it didnt feel right to not be with me. And still i loved her. I noticed one night again that she was acting weird and replying at strange times. She told me she was with a friend having a quiet one at home and broke up with me the next day. A few days later i had a friend contact me and tell me she was in another lesbians snap chat having a ball all 3 in bed. How cute. For everyone to see but me to be left in the unknown like a meaningless piece of shit. Ill admit this was my final straw and although i dont feel good about it. I called her a slut and a dog and told her she was dead to me. And now i lie in my bed awake at night thinking of all the times we partied together and she would go strange and distant from me walking meters away from me acting like i wasnt there with her. She was probably entertaining someone else in the room and making it look like we werent together. Or how she would go from fine to instantly looking like i made her the most miserbale person in the world when the girl she cheated on me with was within eye sight. Dickhead Mel. And i followed her around still loving her like a fuckwit. Or the way she would drop me at the flick of a switch if her friends or family mentioned something distasteful about me. I dont know why i held on for so long through all of this. I know i loved her. I even tried to ask if she wanted a threesome from time to time. In the hopes that when she cheated next it wouldnt be so painful. But it wasnt me. I couldnt watch her enjoy herself with someone else. I never thought id ever stretch myself as far as i did to stay with someone ever. The nights i lay happily in her arms while she was probably riddled in her own guilt. It destoryed me thats for sure. My self worth took a beating. I no longer thought i was beautiful or smart or worthy for that matter. If only i could be skinner or richer or have nicer things would she love me more? Its fucking unbareable how much it changes you as a person. I for the first time in my life got bitter. I felt like i had to flaunt myself to show her maybe someone would want me. But she didnt seem to care. I would comment on other girls things and flirt in the hopes she would see and actually fucking care. Its almost like it turned into a competition. I knew it was wrong but i felt so fucking defeated. Another friend sent me screenshots of them flirting obviously she didnt think id ever clue onto that one. I tired to move on with another girl in one of our breakup spells but my heart was always stuck on her. And she kept telling me how disgusting we were and I looked desperate. Said more about her character than anything really. I took a long time to be intimate. I didnt really know how to show love. I liked that she was distant and would let me take baby steps at opening up. The problem was then once i did i had wrapped her up in my vines and held on tightly. Maybe too tightly. I cant bare to watch her move on like i know she will. Or to deal with seeing her in town. Or even to cop the judgement from thoes who are her friends. Ill never heal from her until im away from her all together. Out of sight and i pray out of mind. I feel sorry for whoevers next and i feel sorry for her for never allowing herself to heal from her own past heartbreaks. What do you expect when she cheated on her last partner to be with me. Loyalty? I remember when she was fucking me and her boyfriend was ringing her in town looking for her how she laughed at his name on her phone. Then i realised she did the same thing to me with the other girl. I pray it doesnt consume me forever. Or that i dont turn cold like her and hurt my next lover. It changes you. It really changes you. Probably the biggest lesson in love i have come to face so far. And whats sad it my story is all too familiar. The love letters i wrote when i poured my soul out to her only to find them crumpled in a shoe box. The flowers id buy her only to watch them slowly die on my bedside because she forgot to take them home. The cute posts that sat there without even a like or comment from her. The present i bought her for our one year only to recieve nothing in return. The family events I was never invited too because half her family didnt even know i existed. It made me feel less than a spec of dirt. The countless times i loved her and it was never given back and everyone could see her so carelessly leaving me out to dry. Alone. This probably even resonates within half the people that read this. Its deeply saddening that the word love is used all too easily. That it means only a season for many. I only pray everyone finds some solace within themselves before using up another pure soul to drown their own demons and miseries. And honeslty it feels good to get it out. If even on a blog. To pour my mind out and feel the pain.

[mildspyce]

42 things you can start right now to make yourself a better, happier person

Wake up each morning, have a glass of water and do some deep breathing. It’s like a massage for your organs. 

Dedicate one day during the week that you can afford to have a sleep in and stay in bed for a few extra hours. This should be a day that you can also organise to catch up with a friend. Make this a day when you don’t need to stress about studying or work, and you can focus on yourself! 

For each other day of the week, go to bed early and leave your curtains up. Before you fall asleep, drink a glass of water. Set your alarm for a reasonable time and wake up with the sun! When you do wake up, go to the bathroom, then come back to your room and make your bed straight away. Don’t get back in it! Making your bed everyday actually makes you have a better nights sleep. Make a delicious breakfast and check out all your social media accounts while you’re eating in the kitchen. This will save lots of time in the morning, and help you feel energised as you’re not going straight back to bed.

Sleep with your window open, even in the colder months. Letting in a bit of fresh air is so nice. When you go to tidy your room each morning, light a candle to get the room smelling nice and fresh. 

Wait 20 minutes after eating before brushing your teeth, otherwise it won’t do the job properly. Make sure you floss as regularly as you can too! If you go too long without flossing, when you eventually go to do it, you’ll experience a lot of pain and sensitivity. Take care of your mouth, you use it everyday. 

This one can be hard, but eliminate all negative elements in your life. This could be people, social media pages, your job… anything that is leaving a negative effect on you should not be part of your life. I tried doing this towards the end of high school, and very slowly, I started losing most of my ‘friends’. But the people who are still with you, are the ones that will be with you for a long time. Remember: if you’re not losing friends, then you’re not growing up. If someone is stupid enough to give up on you, then be smart enough to let them leave. 

Smile to strangers on the street. This doesn’t happen as much as it used to, and it should. A smile is a simple way of letting them know you have acknowledged them walking by you. You don’t have to stop them in their tracks and ask them what they had for breakfast. Just a smile is enough. 

Give up complaining! The only thing it does is make you dwell on the problem even more. If you want to resolve an issue, act on it and do something about it. Complaining won’t solve it. The world is still going to go on without you, choose happiness. 

If you have an app that holds a lot of different styles of music (I use Spotify), try cleaning your room whilst listening to something new. Your brain will be focused on a task and you won’t decide straight away if you like or dislike them. 

Go through your facebook, instagram, twitter, snapchat etc. If you stumble across someone’s profile that constantly annoys you, delete them. Don’t follow people on social media who constantly complain. It will only frustrate you and bring you down too. Instead, try to catch up with them in person so that they can personally tell you what has been going on. You will get a more authentic reaction out of them this way. 

Life isn’t fair sometimes. You will be rejected, and you will get told ’No’. Don’t take it as a negative for yourself, use that word as motivation to better yourself, thats when you try again. And you try again and again and again until you get it right. You don’t give up because you weren’t good enough the first time; always ai, for progression not perfection. 

Work out your money. As much as you like spending it, you actually do need it! Create a chart and work out how much money you receive. (I find it easier to do in weekly segments). Then write out all the payments you have to make (rent, car payments, groceries, fuel). Then take what you have left over and divide it in thirds. Two thirds of this should go into a separate savings account that you don’t need to look at, because you know there is money in there. For the rest of it, take a friend out for lunch, buy yourself a new shirt or go see a movie. I’ve found this is the easiest way to save money, while still having enough to do something fun each week!

Imagine how you would act around someone who doesn’t like you. You would try to look as happy as you can right? Well try to do that all the time, even if you are having bad day. Forcing yourself to smile actually puts you in a better mood, and appearing happy will attract the right type of people to you.

If you never ask, the answer will always be no. 

Try to organise a get together for your work colleagues. The people you work with are different to the friends you went to school with, but they have pretty similar struggles to you. Try to organise something fun for everyone to get together, you’ll learn so much more about them. 

Send a message to your best friend, remind them how much you love them. 

How you make others feel about themselves, says more about you than it does about them. If you don’t agree with someone’s belief or their behaviour, who cares? Move on! Don’t bring anyone else down, it will make you look bad and eventually make you feel terribly guilty. 

The way you do things isn’t always the only way to do them. Be open to learning, respect other people’s way of thinking. 

Concentrate on your eyes when you are speaking with someone, make sure you look awake and engaged. This will make the other person feel more conformable around you, and you’ll feel much happier afterwards.

Always use your smile, it is so easy and feels so rewarding. Smiling during a conversation will make you and the other person feel so much more relaxed, and you will end up having more fun! My boyfriend always tells me that his favourite feature about me is my smile, because when we first started hanging out, I made sure I was smiling in each conversation so that we would both feel more relaxed!

If you’ve sent a risky text message and haven’t got a reply yet, turn your phone off for one whole day. If you turn your phone back on and you still advent got a reply, let it go…

Try some exercise! So many people hate the thought of exercise, because they’re scared about working for something and making your body sore and tired. But trust me, there are so many types of workouts you can do that leave your body feeling fresh and energised. Stretching is also great; I’m no yoga expert, but I’ve definitely found some stretches that make me feel strong and flexible. 

Don’t accept negative vibes, and if they happen to come into your life, use humour to turn them around. People like laughing, if you have the ability to turn something into a giggle, I salute you. 

Look on Pinterest for some simple body workouts; this is where I’ve found most of mine! They usually have pictures and instructions and believe it or not, they actually work! I wanted to work on my body for me. So I looked up a simple core workout on Pinterest and did it at least 5 times a week for a few months. After a while of doing this, if I missed a few days I would feel guilty, which motivated me to get straight back into it. Once I started seeing results in my body and happiness, I never wanted to give up. That was over a year ago, and I’m still going with it!

Hope for the best in every situation, but keep in mind what the worst thing is that could happen. Don’t get your hopes up, you will only feel more gutted and disappointed if it doesn’t turn out the way you had planned. It is okay to be wrong sometimes. 

Try not to talk when you are angry, you will end up saying something that you don’t mean, and will cause more drama later. Instead, take a few minutes to calm down and breathe deeply. On the other hand, listen clearly to what others say when they are angry, what they are saying is what they have been holding in. 

Here’s a little trick to talking to your crush over text. You don’t want to annoy them, and you also want them to know you’re interested. Use my ‘Half Time Rule’. If you send a message and they take 30 minutes to reply, you should reply to them in 15 minutes. This makes you engaged in the conversation and you can easily let them know you’re interested, without texting them every second of the day. 

I’m a big believer of everything happens for a reason. If an opportunity comes and you don’t think it is right for you, think again. If you weren’t supposed to take it, it wouldn’t have made itself available. Sometimes, life will keep repeating itself until you have learnt your lesson. 

Try to keep a close eye on your diet. I’ve learnt over the last few months, its actually really easy to say no certain foods. Once you get yourself into a routine of only eating the right foods, your body gets used to it, and thats when you start to see results. Eating the right foods is a huge contribution to your mental health. There are so many foods that have multiple benefits; did you know that eating 2 bananas gives you enough energy for one hour of intense intercourse! 

Imagine that your tongue is made of glass, and if you say something slightly damaging, it will shatter. This has helped me with thinking about each thing before I let it leave my mouth. Having this mindset makes you a much nicer person. 

Love can hurt like a pain you’ve never imagined was possible. But when you find the one, you realise that your past experiences of love, weren’t ‘love’ at all. They were like mini warm ups. 

Go through your wardrobe; pull out any clothes you haven’t worn in the last year and donate them. Don’t sell them, there are people out there who actually need them! 

There is nothing in nature that blooms all year long, so don’t expect yourself to either. It is okay to have bad days, it is okay to be sad and cry. As long as you remember that at some point, you need to pick your head up and carry on. 

I’ve learnt that there will always be someone out there who doesn’t like you. There will always be people who will find something to drag down about you. Kill them with kindness! If you’re happy, healthy and doing well, then who cares what anyone else thinks! Be competitive with yourself; the only person you should try to be better than is who you were yesterday. If you ever find yourself thinking about that, take a look at yourself, smile and then move on. Don’t think about it, it’s not important.

Never discourage someone who is making progress, even if they are slow. We are supposed to help each other. 

Buy yourself a nice notebook and pen, and write down funny and positive things that happen to you. This is a nice way for you to count your blessings and revisit old memories later on. Write down a few things that you’re grateful for too, it is nice to revisit them later on and see if there is anything new.  

Get a haircut! Spice it up and do something different. I like doing this every now and then; if you get a decent hair cut and begin to work on your mental health around the same time, your hair will start growing again and then you can look back and realise all that has happened in your life since you had your hair cut! 

Do something for your family and try to stick to it. You could pick a night of the week to make them dinner; you could take over the laundry for a few days or even give the house a quick tidy up. Your parents will appreciate it and it might even motivate your siblings to help out too!

If you are stuck on an issue and unsure what to do, imagine how it will effect you in 5 years time. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? What type of person do you want to be? If the issue isn’t going to matter in 5 years, then stop stressing about it!

The best type of friendships, are the ones that you don’t expect to make. Be polite to each person you meet, you don’t know what type of day they’ve had, but you can always make it better. And who knows, maybe you’ll get something out of it. 

Shave your legs in the afternoon after a long day. Moisturise them and put on some socks. Try to do this on the same day that you decide to wash your sheets. You’ll feel so relaxed and ready for a good nights sleep. 

Once you are starting to be happy with the person you are becoming, be humble. Don’t expect otters people to have the same mindset as you. People will still be ignorant and selfish, keep your thoughts to yourself and remind yourself why you started.