#it just sounded so pessimistic

[katyahina]

the unholy amount of details in your art is impressive :o how do you keep it up? are your eyes ok? is there a secret? are you a wizard? im just jealous bc i have eyesight issues lmao

Oh, well, this is hard to explain actually... The main reason is that Bloodborne has very detailed designs as is, and my brain will not let me rest well at nights until I got every little thing JUST right! xD It takes a lot of time to ensure I got details right, but that's just how I roll.

So yeah, my secret is just perfectionism </3 I presume you sent anon after that Rom drawing display or so? She has many branches with glowbuds on them and is COVERED in eyes and has grass at the tips of her tails, so I was just... repeating this. In drawings, I tend to appreciate every single detail about character there is, no matter how minor or at times maybe not very pretty. I also have this WIP with the faces of like 130-something Bloodborne characters' faces drawn that started as self-reference - and I try to factor every face "imperfection" they have (if shown in canon) or add some fitting ones (if never shown).

And I do not know how alright my eyes are? I've got strange eye issue back in early 2020, weird 'grey' spots in my eyes around which details ALSO 'distort' - it was very hard to read through this at first, plus I still see some numbers and letters wrong (usually numbers next to each other switching places and I realize too late). Doctor outright said there was irreversable damage by some infection that 'burned' places in my retinas and that it "isn't clear whether you go blind in 2 months of 2 years or in 20 years or never". Well... Clearly, 2 months and 2 years predictions failed yet, so hopefully there will be other 18 years. x)

It is very hard to explain what exactly I did, but I was training myself to tilt my head in a specific way to still see the details I needed, and over time I could more or less look through these 'spots' - as you've noticed, detalization in my drawings didn't suffer! The spots are more blurried than grey either now... Either 1) the 'irreversable' was doctor's mistake or...... 2) I was blessed with eyes but OUTSIDE of my brain to draw my stuff, LOL!

[owtt]

i really feel like i’ve been confused on how to style following the new update. i know it was the point but: everything is way too detailed. and the filters have been making me feel crazy lately

[trialruntantrum]

My predictions for the Percy Jackson tv series:

Annabeth eye roll compilations become a thing

Lin / Hermes mentions legacy AT LEAST once

Mr D and Chiron are besties now

The pink poodle isn't actually pink and we're all disappointed again

They'll force a Star Wars / Marvel / other Disney property reference in there

Rick and Becky will make a cameo and I'll scream

Lin will find any excuse to sing, or at the very least hum

Greek mythology starts tending over Roman empire tiktok

Percy is a gamer

Leah meets Zendaya

[bugeyedfreaks]

If/when they get to the new show, who do you think they'll get to play the Professor and HIM? Pretty big shoes to fill.

This is one of the reasons I don’t want another reboot. I think back in 2016, it was a prime opportunity to get the entire gang back together to do something. Recasting characters always changes the vibe of the show, and (I gotta be honest even though I don’t want it to happen) we don’t know if anything’s gonna happen to any of the other actors at this point (I mean, Chuck McCann’s gone, too!). The voice actors are also getting a whole lot older, people’s voices change, again changing the vibe of things…

…anyway, I don’t want to think of who they’re going to choose if it happens. I rarely like recasts anyway. 😞

[theoscelosaurus]

(bit of a vent lol)

So. I get a lot of derision for 'giving up as soon as things get hard' and in some ways I get it. I know how it looks but I just– I'm so. so fucking tired of hearing 'just try, you'll see it isn't so bad'

As if I haven't tried. As if I don't know full well that it is that bad. It took 3 months of 'just pushing myself' to almost kill me. It sounds so stupid when I say it like that and I don't think ppl would really get it even if I told them, i mean how could they? I barely know what happened and I was there

It took me 3 months to go from being student at a top 5 university with the single minded goal of getting a PhD in theoretical quantum mechanics to not being able to read.

I couldn't talk; no matter how hard I tried the words were so slurred people couldn't understand what i was saying (not that I would have understood it if they replied). I've been an artist my entire life but I couldn't remember how to hold a pencil, let alone how to drink a glass of water without pouring it all over myself.

It didn't kill me but it killed every part of me I cared to keep alive. It's been 3 years and while I can paint and hold an only slightly stilted conversation and do just enough of everything to get by I'm nowhere near the person I was and I don't think I ever will be.

I can't remember the last time I wasn't in pain and I spend an average of 18h a day in bed. But yeah. If I just try a bit harder this time, care a bit more. As if I don't live every day with the knowledge that if push came to shove I would rather die than risk ever experience it again

And yeah, that does mean I would rather die than get a job. I don't care how childish that sounds it is not worth it, it is never ever going to be worth it

[piplupod]

the reason Juno can be so pleasant and niceys to be around is because me and a couple other chucklefucks back here are taking on the brunt of the less pleasant symptoms that you get when you are abused your entire life by the people who are supposed to keep you safe. if you think Juno's pleasant and kind and soft, it's because some other parts of the brain have to hold all the ugly "bad victim" reactions and temperaments.

I'm just pissed that people who haven't gone through this shit get so shocked and horrified at some really common sentiments among abuse survivors.

[simplydnp]

I’m so sorry you are going through this- I’m sending vibes

thank you anon <3

[brionysea]

me before: stranger things season 2 has the least depressing ending 😁

me now: stranger things season 2 has the most suspicious ending 🤨

[willkimurashat]

Nine people you want to get to know better

Thank you so much for tagging me @calla-lilly and @noahsthottie 💕💕💕

Last song: according to spotify it’s Cygne by Loïc Nottet🤍

Currently watching: been rewatching The Big Bang Theory, but also watched a shit ton of films over the last week, (some for class, some for fun) including Ordinary People (don’t even talk to me😭😭😭), Fences, Secret Life of Bees, The Danish Girl, and The Pale Blue Eye

Currently reading: Gosh, I’m such a slow reader and I’ve been ferociously reading textbooks for class and actually finished two (2) in a week and a half (be proud of me:))!!! I started Difficult Conversations: How to Discuss What Matters Most (for class again😫 - whoever decided that summer classes should be allowed??😭), but I haven’t finished it and now I have to prepare for my next class and I literally want to cry

Current obsession: it makes me so sad that I can’t think of anything currently:( I’m usually obsessed with at least one thing at any given point in time, but I’ve been so stressed and down and blue lately that I don’t even know☹️ I guess the closest to that will be litg once the new volume drops tomorrow lol:)

Tagging: @wardingoffevil @justtuesdays @sparxaf @litg1carlstancentral @fox-from-fairytale @perfectlysunny02 @kunepie @richdesire @rebelrayne absolutely no pressure! And sorry if you’ve been tagged already!🥺

[spider-man-2o99]

what if they keep the venomous bite but just use it for a one-off gag or someything?

honestly, if it's FUNNY i might not mind as much, but, like, (BTSV aside) miggy's only ever gonna be on the silver screen Once, y'know..?

[wiitzend]

i hate the term 'speaking my truth' and every other variation of it so much.

[bellabrady]

Since you're bored 😆...

How do u think this season of 9-1-1 is gonna end? U can list out ur predictions if u have any.

Love ur blog btw!

honestly i might be weird for this but i never realy have predictions for how a show/season will end because i used to be a bellarke shipper and if that mess taught me anything it's that you can't always trust the narrative because sometimes showrunners just suck and it traumatized me so much that now i don't even try to make predictions because i know i'll just be disappointed with whatever the hell the writers come up with 💀

[leaving-fragments]

just this morning an older guy i met in the fields walking his dog tried to argue with me that climate change isn't real and then tonight i read this ft article on how bad it's getting and it just makes me cry

[hugcollector]

one of those days (long tags)

[toastspirit]

I have gotten this far in life by focusing a lot of my effort on what I’m best at, while also being led to fuck around with other stuff due to my indecision. I have seen this as weakness. But it has helped me branch out. It has helped me find joy, sometimes.

However, I am still GOOD at some things. Not perfect. I can improve. But if I have gotten this far with this strategy, then why should I overhaul it now…?

[waywardsalt]

tag rant but man i fuckin hate the new direction for loz