#it just scratches a part of my brain idk

[plumbus-central]

trans teen rick working through some stuff

on one hand he gets make up smeared on his face (which he hates at this age), but on the OTHER hand minnie is gonna get real close to his face and tell him how pretty he is.......much to think about

[shining-midnight-stars]

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[illegiblehandwriting1]

i love you flashbacks i love you pov shifts i love you nonlinear storytelling

[imeriayapping]

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That press conference leaves him raw to his bones and since then it's been feeling like the muscles can't wrap back around them just right, something is constantly off.

Pedro goes through his days trying to focus on racing and what next track will bring but somewhere in the back of his mind the knowledge of his wrongs sits, waiting for him to lower his guard and hit him in the full force again. Instead, Pedro puts the music on max to drown his thoughts and gets ready for the free practice.

.

It doesn't even take that much for the guards to fall and the hit of realisation get to him in full force.

The punch of realisation goes through Pedro after the race. After getting his first MotoGP win. After getting his hair ruffled in parc ferme by the calloused hand that he instinctively knows is Fermin's because that's the motion that has happened a million times before. It's a bit different because the hand is bigger and he has a bit more hair than then but still. Pedro has no need to turn to know who it is congratulating him.

He doesn't even register when he gets on the podium, just finds himself with a trophy in his hand and a victorious scream ripping itself out of his throat. Pedro feels like a fucking superstar, standing on top of the world hearing all of the neverending cheers from the crowd that exists just for him. He finally did it. Sharp teeth finally sank into oh so desired prey, warm blood of the first win making him drunk. Pedro has always thought that he would never want to share this feeling with anyone, hoard it in depth of his heart till the day of his death but somehow he feels a strange pull from inside to hold someone, to shake them, to make them feel the same.

As Spanish anthem start's playing pedro moves his gaze from sea of people under podium, instead choosing to look at his right only to find Fermin beaming at him already.

Just like he always did.

Always because somehow they end up together on the podium each time one has a result so important it will be forever burned into their stories. It's time to open champagne and Pedro needs to fight his initial want to turn away from Fermin. Instead he purposefully sends drink spraying his way.

It feels strange and somewhat unusual like working a muscle that you only engage in specific action and didn't do that exercise in forever. It's tight and makes you aware of its existence by how strange the sensation is but at the same time familiar because of the routine that is worked into your bones with how much you’ve repeated it throughout years.

And Pedro knows, he remembers how it is to narrow his attention to a boy shining like a star whenever Pedro layed his eyes on him and how it is to see full attention flicker to him after the first few drops of celebratory drink hits Fermin skin.

But it still feels a bit unnatural now. Which is confusing and stacked on top of too many other emotions, it makes Pedro feel a headache that builds up in the back of his head, spreading bit by bit and disorienting him further.

Thankfully he doesn't stumble on his way from the podium and even manages to find a quiet spot somewhere in the maze of motorhomes, deserted and quiet, ideal to catch a breath and fight a headache that sticks to Pedro like prosecco that his leathers are still soaked in.

Paddock continues to buzz around his hiding spot but somehow his little bubble of close metal walls doesn't let through nearly as much sounds as he knows there is outside. Small space makes him feel less taxing and Pedro can take a deep breath or two before getting back into the midst of chaos.

His head spins with too much of everything at the same time and it's hard to grasp any of it.

Deep breath in.

Deep breath out.

Bring light floods Pedro's vision when he opens his eyes, not even noticing when they shut. Buzz is still going trumping every bone in his body but the typhoon got quieter, more like white noise. Each muscle feels tight and it takes deliberate effort to make himself relax, even a bit, just enough to be able to fall back on the wall behind him and loosen the grip of his hands.

Cold touch to his back helps to reduce the buzz while a light clink of glass makes Pedro focus on where it came from. He finds that in his hurry to get away he’s taken a bottle of prosecco with him and with how tight his fists were didn't even notice. Thankfully, he was already sitting so it didn't shatter from impact but now that he looks at it all his attention is zoned in just there.

Pedro only now realises that some of that dizziness probably comes from having alcohol on the podium, not that he cares. But what it leads to is him thinking about Fermin. Again.

It's strange, he saw Fermin from afar for all this time, in the corner of his vision going through paddock or a stray post of his when Pedro was scrolling Instagram to numb his brain. Now looking back he still was there at all times, even with all Pedro's effort to block him out he truly never left. This thought makes something warm spill inside him, gratefulness for Fermin staying somewhat close by even when he knew that Pedro won't reciprocate with the same kindness.

Suddenly his shoulder and hand starts tingling, the memory of the celebratory hug he’d received after winning his moto2 title making itself apparent, it was one of many that day but it was stored in a hidden corner of his brain without him even knowing that. Pedro didn't appreciate it at the time but now it's for sure going to be one of the memories he will cherish more.

And with that his mind continues wandering in that day reminding him that podium that day was one of the reasons why he needed to put effort into not turning his back on Fermi today. Small correction: why he needed to put effort into not turning his back on Fermi again.

He wants to smash his head against the wall. This makes Pedro feel so dumb, it makes him realise that he could get so many more shiny smiles sent his way in the last few years if only he hadn't closed off completely. But in the end that's what got him the title isn't it? So looking back he's truly not sure whether he would change anything.

And now all that is left for Pedro is to hope that Fermin didn't give up on seeing the person that he was before. He hopes that Fermin also still has that little boy that Pedro spent countless days with inside himself too.

[spacey-llama]

RIGHT ABOUT NOW! THE rockafeller skank lore BROTHER! CHECK IT OUT NOW! THE rockafeller skank lore BROTHER! (requested by @peter-griffin-mpreg-the-second)

I actually actively am a fan of this guy he is one of my (many) Just Dance blorbos. He’s so! Special to me! ALSO, this one is definitely more like a smattering of headcanons than like... a consistent lore thing for him.

Preface (mostly for the person who requested him): As a fellow Rockafeller Skank fan, I’ve seen your posts and your headcanons are super awesome and cool (I love to see people thinking different thoughts about the same character, it’s so fun)! Mine are. Way different! I came up with a lot of this months ago! If you don’t like them that is so okay and valid :)

So! This is DJ Rock-A-Fella AKA Rocky! He's a dorky highschooler that DJs in his free time. Also, he goes to Woodcrown High School in Dancity. Originally, though, he's from Cyberfunk :)

If anyone's throwing a house party, you just KNOW he's going to show up with all his equipment and be like "Hi, what's up, this music sucks, I'm plugging my stuff in."

He's like one of those guys that has to play a guitar at every party, except instead of playing "Wonderwall," he's making a mashup of "It's Raining Men" and "Holding Out For A Hero." No one expects it to be good, but he's amazing. It's his passion!

Currently, Rocky's dating D.A.N.C.E (who I call Julie). They've been together since middle school. They did one slow dance together on a whim at a school dance (it was kind of awkward) and Julie asked, "Hey, do you wanna, like, date?"

And he went, "Sure."

And they've been together ever since. She's a cheerleader! I imagine they go on little arcade dates and she absolutely DESTROYS him at like... Mortal Kombat.

I don't know! To me, he's just this little nerd with really good music taste.

Bonus headcanons!

He collects TokiDoki Unicornos! Rocky and Julie have matching Unicorno keychains :)

He owns at least three Domo t-shirts.

Julie's been trying to teach him how to rollerblade, and it hasn't been going well.

Under that beanie is a buzz cut (and fun fact, in his map you can briefly see that his hair is blue!)

But yeah! That's kind of what I have for him? I adore him so much.

EXTRA BONUS! Because you caught me on a character I really loooove, here's a playlist I made for him forever ago :D

[astraystayyh]

I can't explain how OBSESSED i am with this specific part

[ray-elgatodormido]

Me: *draws tons of 3k stuff. Looks up a lot of 3k stuff. Often rewatches Wo Long cutscenes on Youtube for refs when I’m away from my pc. Likes a lot of 3k stuff. Yada yada yada you get the point.*

My YouTube recommendations: I Sleep -_-

Me: *Listens to two JoJo’s Bizarre Adventure opening songs (and one ost) and adds them to my playlist because they are absolute bops*

My YouTube recommendations:

REAL SHIT 0_0

[skunkes]

I mean this vent completely neutrally and as an observation rather than Woe is Me negativity but going ham in my sketchbook has been Fun but along with not really Learning anything (tho historically no art knowledge ever sticks to my brain) I'm no closer to understanding how I WANT to draw! if that makes sense.

I dont really identify with or want to continue any of the patterns I try (nor do they get any more muscle memory-y, in the fundamentals area).

Its fine as long as its Fun but I really feel the aimlessness. Like I'll keep going but I've also. Been doing that. All I do is Keep Going, when does it all tetris together!

[orcelito]

Ok so I was wondering like

Top 0.005% of listeners. That's Pretty Damn Small. But I was wondering Just how small...

357.1k monthly listeners

0.005% of 357.1k is... just under 18...

Guys. I'm within the top 20 listeners for IAMX. Period. 🫣

[theotherrichardpapen]

Sydney Theatre Company - Strange Case of Jekyll & Hyde // Sally Rooney - Normal People // Christian Lee Hutson - OCDemon // Anne Sexton - A Portrait in Self-Letters

[wistledown]

it would be so hot actually if we got lady AND lord whistledown

[trenchcrows]

im gonna be honest the new lovejoy song sounds like it'd be on a caracan/4wd ad

[blueish-bird]

sorry if I don’t remember your name or conversations/experiences or basic things about myself, every few weeks my brain gets factory reset and I have to relearn how to be alive

[volfoss]

The bonding experience you get with other commenters on a long manga tbh

[ultrasopp]

Game review from real gamer. i am not finished at all but saga of sins. Yeah. Platformer where everything looks like stained glass and u turn into monsters to enter people’s minds and fight sin. U can pet the dog and also enter the dog’s mind (he is free sin)

[paradisepoisoned]

Changed my username to something equally as cringey but this is a blog dedicated to drawing yaoi for an anime that ended in 2009 so cringe is on theme actually