#it just hits different chat ...... i love this scene sm ..

[xxplastic-cubexx]

watching the argentina scene from first class In Class and fighting god himself to not giggle and kick my feet and do a little back flip

[kai-uh-arcadian]

Something you’ll never know

synopsis: you and aeri were inseparable while you were growing up. Is that connection still there?

word count: 15k (jeeez) (it could've been 3 parts but I love you all so much so here you are)

cw: angst, cussing, drinking, f reader, childhood best friends to...(?) idk if there's any i missed please lmk!

notes! So sorry if its a confusing read with the timelines and such. the italic paragraphs are flashbacks/memories! for clarification Aeri and reader are ages 12, 22, and then 30 in this. It's inspired by the movie Past Lives (one of my fav movies, I recommend it!) barely proofread again, I also tried to add extra space in between different scenes, I hope it flows okay!

This is my first angsty fic ever but I had a lot of fun writing it! I really hope you enjoy it and if you'd like to, lmk your thoughts!!

as always dms and asks are always open!

xoxo love youuu (: <3

20 years ago in Southern California,  SM Elementary School

Ever since you can remember, Aeri Uchinaga has been a constant presence in your life. You first met in preschool, where she quickly took a liking to you for reasons you couldn't quite understand. As a ‘slow-to-warm-up’ child, you were perfectly fine with doing quiet activities on your own while your classmates ran around, chatting amongst themselves. But Aeri must have seen you as a challenge or a game, maybe? She was determined to crack the ice and see what lay beneath your quiet exterior. She would always join you at the drawing table and start rambling about a variety of things that crossed her mind or even go as far as sharing her stuffed animals with you when she saw you playing ‘family’ alone with your own.

And before you knew it, she had you hooked. Aeri was more outspoken than you at the time, and she often took the reins in your friendship, but you were (more than) happy to follow her lead. You quickly learned that she had a habit of charging in head first, and it became your unspoken mission to keep her from getting into too much trouble.

You promised yourself that you'd always be there supporting her from behind.

You dribbled the soccer ball skillfully toward the goal, weaving through defenders with ease. Just as you were about to score, a loud yelp from the basketball court made you stop dead in your tracks. Your hesitation cost you as a player from the opposing team slid in, tackling you. Pain shot through your leg as your planted foot twisted in a way that it should NOT twist.

You got up from the ground and ignored the pain as you waved to a classmate on the sideline to take your place on the field. You limped as quickly as you could toward the court from the field, fighting back tears. The adrenaline kept you moving.

Eventually you made it to the basketball court where Aeri was.

“Are you okay?” you asked as you reached a hurt Aeri, who was hissing slightly at the sight of her skinned knee. Almost every ounce of pain washed away when you saw her.

She looked up, surprised, as your shadow blocked the sun. To her, you probably looked like an angel.

“Y/n,” she sniffled, “Where did you come from?”

“I was just playing soccer,” you replied, kneeling in front of her and offering your back. “Here, hop on. Let’s get you to the nurse.”

“Mm~ okay,” Aeri shyly mumbled as she climbed onto your back, resting her chin in the crook of your neck as you hobbled toward the infirmary.

“How did you know I was hurt?” she inquired softly.

“I dunno, my Aeri instincts must've kicked in... But you do have a pretty distinctive scream that I could hear all the way from the soccer field” You chuckled

“Ah~! What!? That’s so embarrassing!” She buried her face into your neck. “Why did you come over? You said you were playing soccer?”

“Well yeah I was, but remember when we were five and had our first sleepover?” you asked, chuckling. “Ya know, the one where you couldn’t stop crying because you missed your parents, especially your mom.”

“Hey! Why bring that up now?” she groaned, playfully hitting your back with her fists. “It wasn’t my choice! My parents were busy with work, okay!”

“Nono~ we made a pinky promise, remember? I told you, ‘I’ll always be here for you, no matter what.’ And I vaguely remember claiming I’d be your prince or somethin' like that.. I’m just keeping my word.” You smiled at the memory.

“That was like seven years ago…I can't believe you even remember that” she sighed contentedly. “Well, thank you, my prince.” she let out a teasing chuckle

“Of course, Lady Aeri,” you replied in a playful, formal tone, adjusting her higher on your back with a little hop.

There was a small break of silence before Aeri took notice of the cadence of your steps.

“...Wait, are you limping?” Her tone suddenly turned serious, like a mother about to scold her child.

“Uh…” You hesitated, “No…?” you chuckled nervously hoping she'd drop the topic (she didn't).

She peeked over your shoulder and saw your left ankle, red and beginning to swell.

“Ah~! What happened!? Let me down, I can walk! You idiot!” she exclaimed, trying to wriggle off your back.

“No way! We’re almost there anyways, and all this wiggling isn’t helping the pain either!” you bickered with the girl on your back before finally reaching the school entrance.

After school, your mom tended to your hurt ankle. It wasn’t anything serious, just a mild sprain. You worked silently on your assignment before she spoke up.

“Y/n, honey~” your mom cooed before sitting down next to you at the kitchen table while you were doing homework. “What do you think about Aeri? Do you like her?”

“Hmm,” You hummed while  placing your pencil down as memories of her flooded your mind.

One specific memory came to the forefront of your mind,

You and Aeri were laying in the lush grass together with your heads touching and holding hands.

“Aeri, look!” You pointed to the sky “I see a shark.. Or maybe a really  big tuna?” a playful giggle escaped your lips 

“Mhm~!” she agreed, “Look over there! Doesn’t that look like Haku from Spirited Away?” Aeri’s eyes widened in excitement as her favorite character appeared in the sky, her finger excitedly pointing 

“Yeah! I think it does!” You stole a glance of her. 

Her eyes were glued to the blue sky adorned with fluffy white clouds that looked like they felt like cotton candy. The sun reflected against her dark brown hair and made it look like a beautiful dark ocean rippling in the wind

It was a cool summer day. A gentle breeze wafted her scent of strawberry shampoo and a light rose scent from her deodorant. The sky stretched over both of you like a blue canvas with puffy cotton balls. The warmth of the sunshine wrapped the two of you into an embrace only you both could feel.

 You stared at her with so much… happiness? While she pointed out various shapes, her face lit up more and more each time she spotted one

“What is this feeling?” You thought “It feels like i’m going down a steep slope of a rollercoaster when I’m around her”

“Hm~ Y/n? Is there something on my face? Did you hear me?” She briefly stopped her tangent when she felt a soft gaze.

“Oh~! No sorry,” You giggled

“I- just” you began barely above a whisper

“Wow, look!” Aeri unknowingly cut you off “Those ones look like two hearts about to mash together” she exclaimed giddily

Your gaze went back to the clouds and you paused  for a few seconds causing Aeri to look at you

“Were you gonna say something?” She mumbled and you met her eyes

“I’m just.. Really happy right now!” you said, unable to verbalize the feelings you were having.

“I like her” you replied to your mom

“Ohh~”She nodded in response before genuinely inquiring “Why?” 

“Well… She said I’m like her prince” she responded to her mother so nonchalantly and innocently

“Her prince?”

“Mhm, I think i’ll marry her one day” You smiled before picking up your pencil again-- completely unphased.

“Mm~ I see, I see. Well Y/n, does she want to marry you, too?” 

“I don't know if she likes me too, but if she does I know she'll say when we’re ready!” She smiled brightly at her mom 

“Ah okay~ When did you grow up my sweet daughter?” Your mom lightly pinched your cheek which caused you to giggle. “Well, I was on the phone with her mom earlier... Do you want to go on a date with her?"

Of course you excitedly nodded your head in agreement

You and Aeri stepped into the park, nature wrapped around you two like a comforting hug. The trees swayed gently in the breeze, their leaves left a playful pattern of light and shadows on the ground below. While birds chirped happily overhead, their songs blending with the soft rustle of leaves, creating a soothing melody that seemed to dance through the air. Both of your mom’s made their way to a nearby spot to watch you both 

“Aeri! Let’s go” You said as you grabbed her free hand 

“Oh~ Ma, can you hold these?” Aeri swiftly passed the small bouquet of flowers you had bought her to her mother before being whisked away by your eager pull

“Oh!”  was all Mrs.Uchinaga could get out before the two of you ran off exploring the park. She couldn’t contain her laughter and began to take a digital camera out of her purse.

“They look good together, so happy huh?” Your mom glanced at Mrs.Uchinaga as she was snapping a picture of the two of you running hand in hand in the luscious green field. 

“Yeah~ Aeri talks about Y/n a lot. She says she wants to marry her one day” Her mom let out an astonished laugh “When did our girls grow up?

“That’s exactly what Y/n said! “ She laughed, “We can’t be too surprised right?

"Ah~ I guess not." Aeri's mom began, "Remember that time we kept Y/n overnight once and Aeri was crying uncontrollably and then suddenly stopped? My god, it was so scary! I thought something had happened to her but when I checked the baby monitor, Y/n snuck out of her own crib and into Aeri’s! And then they fell asleep like that!” She laughed with a tinge of nostalgic sadness 

“Ahh~ They were about two and a half years old huh? Oh~! Remember that time I told you when I put them in charge of her brother while I was making them lunch and when I walked back into the living room and found all of them asleep on the couch with Kosei in between them! It was so cute~!” Your mom smiled brightly “I have the photo somewhere still!” 

Both you parents sighed contentedly, reminiscing on you two. After a bit of comfortable silence, you mom spoke up

“My Y/n cares about Aeri a lot. I can see she does too, it puts my heart at ease to know my daughter has someone who cares so deeply about her.” Your mom’s eyes began to get a bit watery

Mrs. Uchinaga placed her hand reassuringly over hers, a warm smile gracing her lips. "She's a smart girl—you shouldn’t worry too much. I'm forever grateful she's been in my Aeri's life. Look at them," she pointed affectionately at the two of you, nestled under the low-hanging branches of the weeping willow tree.

"Aeri! This is where we can take our shoes off," you exclaimed, gently parting the "curtain" of leaves as if entering a secret world.

Your imagination ran wild, the simple weeping willow tree transformed into a spacious apartment in a bustling city.

"And here is where our dining room is," Aeri chimed in, moving to the large stones and pretending they were seats. "Here, sit. Let me get you a coffee, honey," she playfully immersed herself in the game of house.

Aeri returned with a hollowed out rock with a stick in it, “Here’s your coffee!”

You pretend slurped through the stick straw, “This is soo~ delicious” and you fake slurped more causing both of you to giggle

“Hey, Aeri” you placed the rock coffee cup down and Aeri joined you at the “dining table”

“Where do you wanna live when you grow up?” you met her gaze

“Mmm, definitely a city. I want my fashion business to be very popular!” She flashed a cheerful thumbs up “What about you?”

“Mm..” You looked down, shyly contemplating

“Are you getting shy?!” She gently nudged your shoulder teasing you

“Nono~!” You waved your hands in defense while a smile appeared on your face “Hm.. I guess wherever you go?”

While you and Aeri played house, imagining your future together, your parents sat nearby on the park bench in comfortable silence, smiling as they watched the two of you. A gentle breeze drifted through, rustling the leaves and carrying the scent of blooming flowers through the air, adding to the peaceful moment.

“We’re moving soon,” Aeri’s mom finally said, breaking the quiet. Which explained why she asked to take them on a 'date'

Your mom didn’t respond right away, her gaze still on you and Aeri. After a few more beats, she spoke, doing her best to mask her emotions. “Oh… where?”

“South Korea,” Aeri’s mom replied softly.

Your mom paused, her voice steady but tinged with sadness. “Why leave everything behind?”

“There are better opportunities ahead than the ones we’ll leave behind,” Aeri’s mom answered with a quiet sigh, as if trying to convince herself as much as anyone else.

Later, on the car ride home, you and Aeri had both fallen asleep in the backseat, your hands still clasped together, oblivious to the change that was coming. Your mom glanced back at the two of you and with a bittersweet smile, she snapped a quick photo.

Neither of you knew how much your lives would change in the next few weeks.

You sat at your desk, your gaze unfocused as you stared blankly ahead, lost in a haze of thoughts that swirled around you like fog. Aeri’s voice cut through the noise, her laughter ringing out as she animatedly chatted with her friends nearby. Her vibrant energy filled the room, lighting up the space, yet somehow, it made the gap between you two feel even wider. You were in the same room, but it felt like you were worlds apart—both of you in your own little world.

"You're leaving?" one of her friends exclaimed, disbelief in her voice.

"Yeah!" Aeri replied, her excitement unmistakable.

"Never coming back?" another girl pressed, curiosity laced her voice.

"I don’t think so!" Aeri laughed, her tone light, almost carefree.

"What?! Why not!?" the girl pushed further, as if she couldn’t fathom the idea.

"Well.. I could never become a fashion designer here!" Aeri giggled, like her answer was obvious… like she wasn’t about to leave behind everything you had known together.

After school, you found yourself walking past Aeri as she waved her friends goodbye. Her cheerful farewell echoed behind you as you caught a glimpse of her. Her smile was as bright as ever, but for the first time, it felt distant—like it no longer belonged to you.

"Oh, bye!" she called out to her friends, her voice cheerful before turning her attention to you. 

"Wait up!" she hurried to catch up with your steps.

You slowed down slightly, but something in you hesitated.

"Oh, sorry," you murmured.

She quickly caught up and the two of you began the familiar walk home, the silence between you felt heavier than ever. Aeri seemed comfortable, at ease with the quiet, but for you, the weight in your chest grew with every step. Even though she was right beside you, it felt like she was already slipping away—like an invisible wall was growing between you, expanding with each moment.

It was disorienting, jarring even, to think that after today, she wouldn’t be walking next to you every day like she had since kindergarten. Each footstep echoed what was coming, and despite the comfort of routine, the reality of her departure pressed down on you, suffocating the words you wanted to say but couldn’t find.

The world around continued its hustle and bustle, completely indifferent to the storm brewing in your heart. Cars rushed by, bikes whizzed past, and people hurried along the sidewalk, insensitive to the internal chaos you were grappling with.

Every emotion flooded through you, leaving you drowning in a mix of sadness and anger. Each step felt trudging through quicksand as if your feet had been stuck in concrete. Your body was subconsciously pulling you away from your house to prolong your inevitable separation– like a dog who doesn’t want their walk to be over yet.

As you reached the fork in the road that diverged toward your respective houses, a heavy cloud hung above your head, thick with everything you wanted to say.

"Bye, n/n," Aeri's voice carried a tinge of melancholy as she began to walk away, her figure receding into the distance.

You paused, unable to tear your gaze away from her retreating form.

Every memory you’ve shared with her played in your head like a movie montage.

“C’mon Aeri, don’t be scared! I’m right here with you!” You aggressively whispered while carrying a bag of snacks and a blanket, trying to convince Aeri onto the roof of your house

“What if we get in trouble? What if we get locked out and we’re stuck here forever!” Aeri said to you from inside through the opened window 

“My parents know I do this, it’s a flat surface so you have to be a real dummy to slip off! And don’t worry, it only locks from the inside and if you’re scared you can just hold onto me!” You reached out your hand to Aeri

She couldn't help but smile, your own reassuring grin reflecting back at her. She warmly accepted your hand, her breath hitched when your hands made contact.

“O-oh thanks, let’s place the blanket down!” Aeri was glad it was dark because she was sure her face was the same shade as a tomato!

"Not too shabby, huh?" You chuckled lightly, settling onto the soft surface and patting the spot beside you, inviting her to join you.

It was a warm summer night. A gentle breeze wafted your scent of shampoo and a cologne-y scent from your deodorant. The sky stretched over both of you like a dark blue canvas with twinkling stars. The warmth of the evening wrapped the two of you into an embrace only you both could feel.

You felt her staring at you while you pointed out various constellations, your face lit up more and more each time you spotted one

“Hm, Aeri? Did you hear me?” You briefly stopped your tangent when you felt a soft gaze on you

“Oh~! No sorry,” Aeri giggled “What did you say?”

You scooted closer so your head was touching hers, “See those stars over there? It’s kinda like a weird looking 7?” You extended your arm while pointing, trying your best to point out three out of the millions of stars in the sky

“Hm.. oh! Yes!”

“That’s me! And your birthday is October 30 making you a Scorpio! and hmm” You began to move your pointer finger to search in the sky

“Ah! There! You see that pattern that kind of looks like a snake with claws?”

“Yeah~ I actually do!” Aeri giggled as her imagination took over

“Well, Aeri if you ever feel sad or something and I’m not with you for some reason ” You chuckled sweetly. “I just want you to know that we’re always together in the sky!” You both turned to meet each other’s gaze at the same time 

“Well I don’t think we’ll ever get separated, I want to be with you forever!” She innocently beamed which caused you both to giggle 

“Me too Aeri!”

After a few hesitant moments, you found your voice, though it felt as if your heart might stop with the effort.

“Aeri,” you called out softly, the word heavy with all the feelings you had kept buried for so long.

“Mm?” She turned to face you, her expression softening when her eyes met yours, and the cheerful energy from earlier was nowhere to be found.

“I.. I like you,” you said, your voice trembling slightly, but you held her gaze, resisting the urge to look away. You felt as though you might crumble, but you forced yourself to keep going. “I’m glad we spent our childhood.. together.”

Her smile faltered, shifting into something sadder, something that you couldn't understand. She didn’t respond immediately, as if the words you’d just said had stolen her breath, and for a moment, neither of you spoke. She was at a loss for words and the silence stretched endlessly between you.

You bit the inside of your cheek, trying desperately to maintain your composure. “Bye… Aeri,” you added softly, your voice cracking ever so slightly as you turned away towards your house, trying to put on a brave face.

You couldn’t bear to see the sadness in her eyes any longer. Tears threatened to spill, but you fought them back, willing yourself to hold on just a little longer.

“Bye..” she faintly whispered out

The moment you started walking toward your house, your chest tightened. Tears streamed down your face as the weight of the world as you knew it came crashing down.

What you'll never know and what you couldn’t see, was that Aeri began crying too.

About 10 years later, you sat at your desk in your cozy apartment room at UCLA, the late afternoon sun casting soft rays across the scattered textbooks and notes. With a sigh, you pushed some papers aside to rest your elbow on the desk, propping your chin on your hand.

“How the actual fuck do I even solve this?” you muttered to yourself, staring at the confusing statistics problem on your laptop. After a moment of frustration, you searched for a tutorial on YouTube, hoping for a miracle.

As you scrolled through the list of videos, you could hear your roommate Yunjin bustling around in the kitchen.

“Jennie-poo~!” you called out, leaning back in your chair. “Can you come here?”

A few seconds later, you heard your door creak open. "Huh?" came Yunjin's voice, her (dyed) red hair poking around the doorframe as she stepped inside.

“Do you have any idea how to solve this?” you asked, switching your browser back to the page filled with complex formulas. You pointed at the screen. “I seriously have no clue what they’re even fucking asking”

Yunjin leaned down, squinting at the problem for a moment before laughing. “Yeah, I’m gonna be honest with you—zero clue. You’re so fucked,” she said, still giggling.

Yunjin, aka Jennifer, was from upstate New York, and the two of you had been roommates for four years. It felt like fate sometimes—being assigned to live together your freshman year was totally random, but she was practically you in a different form.

“You’re absolutely no help,” you groaned, laughing a little despite yourself as you buried your face in your hands.

“You’re so welcome,” she said, patting your head playfully. “I’m gonna make some jjajangmyeon, do you want any?”

“Not right now. Maybe save some for me later? I gotta finish this shit” you replied, sitting back up and stretching.

“Yeah, of course. Good luck!” Yunjin said with a wink as she left your room.

You sighed deeply as you turned back to your YouTube tab, clicking on a video tutorial. As fucking expected, an ad began to play—one of those painfully long ones you couldn’t skip.

“Do you want to be a model? Do you think you have what it takes?”

The words faded into the background as your mind started to wander, pulled back by an unexpected memory.

Aeri.

It had been so long since you’d allowed yourself to think about her. Years, even. But something about the mention of fashion, pulled you back into the past. The past where she lived, where her dreams had once shone so brightly.

Aeri had always talked about becoming a fashion designer—about where she'd live and make a name for herself. You could still picture her so clearly, sitting beside you, messily sketching her ideas in her notebooks. Dresses, bags, runway looks… She used to tell you all about it, her eyes lighting up with excitement.

“I could never become a designer here,” she’d said once, laughing. She was always so sure of her path. Always ready to go after her dreams, no matter the cost.

She may have been right

Suddenly, the thought of her became overwhelming. You couldn’t help but wonder what had become of that dream. Did she make it? Was she in South Korea, living the life she’d always wanted? Or had things turned out differently?

Your fingers hovered over the keyboard as your mind drifted back to the memory of her laughter and the way she’d talked about her plans with ABSOLUTE certainty.

Without thinking, you opened a new tab. You hesitated for a moment, a tightness in your chest returning. 

A memory flashed into your mind to when you were having a sleepover with her

“Y/n…” Aeri’s voice came softly from the left side of your bed, sadness creeping into her usual playful tone.

“Mm? What’s wrong?” you asked, glancing over at her.

“I wish you wanted to be a model,” she pouted. “Then you could try on the clothes I design.”

You laughed softly. “I mean, I still could... Why are you thinking about that now?”

“Well, obviously I want to be a designer! SO of course I want you to be the first person to wear the clothes I make,” she beamed, her eyes sparkling with excitement.

The video kept playing and the math tutorial began playing. 

Why the hell am I thinking about that now? It’s been like 10 years?

 Aeri Uchinaga…

You leaned back in your chair and positioned your head towards the ceiling

What are you up to…

With a sigh, you slingshotted forward and opened Facebook and began to search.

After an hour of searching, you finally found a lead—her father’s company page. It was a bit tedious to find her or her family, considering they lived in a completely different country.

“Hi, I’m looking for my childhood best friend, Aeri Uchinaga . Please let me know how I can contact her.”

And with that, you posted the message and, for the first time in hours, tried to return to your homework.

A few weeks later, on the complete opposite side of the world at 5:30 PM in Seoul...

Aeri sat in her dorm, the warm afternoon sunlight streaming through the window as she lounged on her bed, phone pressed to her ear, laptop resting in her lap.

“Ne~ umma, remember Xinyi? She plays basketball in college now!” Aeri said with a smile, scrolling through Facebook while chatting with her mother.

“Wow~! I’m not surprised,” Mrs. Uchinaga replied with a chuckle on the other end. “She was always knocking on our door, asking you to play.”

Aeri laughed lightly. “Yeah, even though I was pretty bad. She tried so hard to teach me, but I was just ass”

“It’s okay, darling. Sports weren’t really your thing,” her mother comforted warmly.

Aeri absentmindedly scrolled through her feed, clicking on old profiles and updates from people she hadn’t thought about in years.

“Who else should we look up?” She asked her mom.

Aeri paused, a small smile creeping onto her lips. “Who’s the one I had a huge crush on?”

“Y/n L/n” they both said at the same time, sharing a laugh.

Aeri’s fingers hovered over the keyboard, and she began typing your name, curiosity piqued as she searched for her old crush. As she clicked through posts, she suddenly froze.

“Umma! This is crazy!” Aeri exclaimed, her voice full of shock. “She posted on dad’s Facebook page a few weeks ago looking for me!”

“Oh wow really? Well~ I’m not too surprised, Aeri. She really liked you!” her mom replied, her voice filled with warmth.

“I’m looking for my childhood best friend, Aeri Uchinaga ...” Aeri read aloud to her mom as her eyes scanned the message.

Aeri’s heart raced as she scrolled through your profile. Even though your hair was longer and your features were more defined, the essence of you—the same joyful glint in your eyes—hadn’t changed at all. It was as if time hadn’t erased any part of the person she remembered so vividly.

“Umma, I’ll call you back,” Aeri said quickly, cutting her mom off as she reassured her with a chuckle, “Yes! I promise I’m eating well!”

She ended the call with a smile, but her pulse quickened as she stared at the screen. Her eyes scanned the message again and again, as if reading your name over and over would somehow make this more real.

“Ahh~” Aeri inhaled deeply, her fingers trembling slightly as she sent you a friend request and began typing a message to you.

“Y/n! It’s Aeri, you remember me?”

It was 1:30 AM in your on-campus apartment in LA when your phone buzzed, receiving the new message.

“Fuck her! She doesn’t deserve you! You’re like… sooo out of her league,” Yuna mumbled to your other friend, Ryujin, as she poured another shot for her.

“Right?” Ryujin sighed before pausing to take the shot. “I just don’t know why I miss her… so much,” she grimaced as the alcohol hit the back of her throat.

“Ryu, you should have some water,” you slurred, hiccuping as you passed her your water bottle.

“Y/nn~ how about you drink some water,” your roommate Yunjin chimed in, giggling as she slumped over on the couch.

The four of you sat in the living room, post-gaming the bar, waiting for your DoorDash to arrive. Ryujin rested her head in your lap, and without thinking, you rubbed her back to comfort her.

You took a long gulp of water with a satisfied “Ah~” before reaching for your beer.

“Wellll~ Beer is basically water. You should have some too Jennie-poo! It isn’t a post-game if we don’t drink till we die,” you exclaimed, taking a sip from the can.

“UGH~” Ryujin groaned, deadpanning, “I want to die~”

“Girl, she literally cheated on you and then wanted to be exclusive while she was fucking someone else—like, what?” Yuna added, deadpan.

That comment made all of you burst out laughing(she was right), even as Ryujin lightly punched Yuna in the arm.

“Hey~! Be niceeee~ Show some compassion!” Yunjin scolded, trying and failing to stifle her laughter.

You were still chuckling when your phone buzzed again in your pocket. Grabbing it, you blinked a couple of times, trying to focus your eyes on the notification.

Giselle?

Your vision was still a little too blurry to make sense of it.

"Hey!" Yunjin faked being cold

“You have a secret girlfriend or somethin'?” Yunjin teased, sounding just like a jealous girlfriend.

“Huh?” you responded, still distracted.

“Who’s messaging you at 1:30 in the morning? You have a sneaky link you’re not telling us about?” Yunjin continued, laughing.

Meanwhile, Ryujin was still moping in your lap. “Hey! Sensitive subject!” she groaned dramatically.

“Fuck if I know, I honestly have zero clue,” you mumbled, your words slurring as you stared at your phone before turning it off.

The next morning, you woke up in your bed with a slight headache. You groaned, rolling over to reach for your water bottle and chugged it like it was the last water on Earth.

The cold water worked its magic, refreshing you enough to (barely) function. You grabbed your phone from the charger and started scrolling through your notifications, still half-asleep. But then, one notification made you freeze—last night’s Facebook message.

You clicked on it, your grogginess instantly fading as your eyes widened in surprise. It was from none other than the girl who made you experience your first instance of love—Aeri Uchinaga.

“Giselle Uchinaga?” you muttered to yourself, reading her profile in disbelief.

That’s why you couldn’t find her!  It made complete sense now. Her features were more mature, but that familiar smile—the one that had always warmed your heart—was still there, lighting up her face in every picture. You couldn’t stop smiling as you scrolled through her photos.

Just then, Yunjin’s voice broke through your thoughts, pulling you back to reality.

“Y/n! Are you awake? I made avocado toast and eggs!” she announced from the other side of your door.

“Ahh~ okay, yeah, lemme pee and I’ll be out!” you called back, your voice still raspy from sleep.

You quickly splashed some water on your face and pulled on a pair of sweats and a hoodie before stepping out of your room.

“Good morning!” you chirped, only to be met with a synchronized groan from Yuna and Ryujin.

“How the fuck do you have this much energy? What puts you in such a good mood?” Yuna asked, holding an ice pack on her forehead.

“Hm?” you replied, walking over to your coffee cup on the table that Yunjin had filled for you. “Thank Jennie-poo! And nothing, I just don’t have a massive hangover like you two idiots—should’ve drank beer instead of taking shots”

As you sipped your coffee, your mind of course, drifted back to last night. That damn text from Aeri.

The two of you exchanged a few quick messages, exchanging numbers, and catching up briefly before settling on a time that worked best for both of you to video call. It felt surreal, reading Aeri’s replies after all these years—like time had somehow folded in on itself, bringing the past back into the present.

You found yourself staring at your phone, the FaceTime app open and ready, but your heart pounding in your chest. What if things had changed too much? What if she wasn’t the Aeri you remembered? What if you weren’t the person she expected? Your thoughts spiraled as you adjusted your hair for what felt like the tenth time.

It’s just a call, you reminded yourself. It’s just Aeri. You’ve known her before.

But even though you’d told yourself that a hundred times, the butterflies in your stomach wouldn’t settle. The phone buzzed in your hand as the screen lit up. Incoming FaceTime: Aeri Uchinaga.

You took a deep breath, your thumb hovering over the screen for a moment longer than it should have. Then, finally, you swiped to answer.

Aeri’s face appeared, pixelated for just a second before the connection stabilized. There she was. Her familiar eyes, her smile—the same, but different? You stared at each other for a beat, neither of you quite sure how to start.

Aeri broke the silence with a nervous laugh. “Wow.. it’s been so long. I almost forgot what you looked like!”

You smiled, feeling the same rush of emotions you hadn’t felt in years. “I know right? I wasn’t sure what to expect either. You look… different. In a good way, of course.” nervousness still present in your voice

“Same to you,” Aeri said, her voice softening as she studied your face. “It’s like, you’ve changed, but... not really, you know?”

You laughed, the tension beginning to ease. “Except now you’re Giselle, huh?”

Aeri grinned, rolling her eyes playfully. “Yeah, that’s a long story. But trust me, it’s still me. Aeri Uchinaga at heart.”

You both chuckled, the ice slowly breaking as the conversation started to feel more familiar. It was strange, seeing her face again like this after so many years—older, more mature, but still with that same smile.

“Soo.. You’re really out there becoming a designer, huh?” you teased, shaking your head with an incredulous smile. “It’s kind of wild thinking about you... you know, living in Korea and actually doing all the things you told me you would like years ago”

Aeri laughed, her tone warm but modest. “Don’t let social media fool you. I’m not as glamorous as it seems. I’m still the same girl who couldn’t shoot a basketball to save her life.”

You grinned, shaking your head. “Oh god yeah! I remember! You were sooo bad. I thought for sure you were going to quit after that first fall.”

“Whatever! I literally was just trying to impress you,” she joked, her laugh lighting up the screen.

With each passing minute, the conversation felt easier. The laughter flowed naturally, memories of your childhood together resurfacing as if no time had passed at all.

“So... how have you been, really?” Aeri asked after a while, her tone more serious now. “I feel like I missed so much. of your life"

You nodded, the weight of the years between you sinking in. “Yeah, it feels strange, I feel the same too. I’ve been good, I guess. But seeing you like this… I dunno.. It feels like yesterday, you were just that little girl on the other side of the road from me.”

Aeri smiled, her expression softening. “Right? I don’t know, life is so weird sometimes.”

“Yeah,” you agreed, a small smile tugging at your lips. “And now, you’re the girl on my screen.”

As the night went on, you both talked about everything—your lives, your dreams, the things you had wanted to say but never got the chance to. It was like reconnecting with a part of yourself you thought you’d lost. By the end of the call, there was an unspoken understanding between you both. This wasn’t just a one-off conversation.

“So, let’s not wait another decade to do this again?” you said with a grin.

Aeri laughed. “Deal. Next time, I’ll tell you the full story behind ‘Giselle.’”

“I’m holding you to that, Aeri” you replied, your heart feeling lighter than it had in years.

And that’s how it was. For a few months, you both shared everything—your days, your worries, even the smallest details. You started waiting for her calls, looking forward to the time you’d spend talking. She was always there, her laughter filling your nights(and early mornings!), making you feel closer to her despite the distance.

It was almost as if you were in a relationship. The way she looked at you through the screen, the way your conversations lingered on hopes and what-ifs. You could almost imagine what it would be like to be with her again, for real.

You routinely called Aeri during your day. 

Hey,” you greeted with a smile as the screen connected.

“Hey,” Aeri chuckled softly on the other end.

“Is it 7:00 in the morning there? I thought you said you never wake up before 10:00,” you teased, noting how early it was for her.

“I don’t,” Aeri replied, a smile tugging at her lips. “But this was the only time that worked for you, right?”

“Well yeah but don’t you have class today?” you asked, raising an eyebrow.

“Yeahh~” she admitted, “but it’s later~” sleepiness still evident in her voice

You couldn’t help but tease her. “Ya know Aeri, your english is pretty rusty”

“Hey!” Aeri chuckled in return and her eyes opened slightly. “I only speak English with you and my mom!”

You both laughed yet some silence strung between the two of you

“So, you said you were leaving California to be the world’s greatest designer... You still want that?”

Aeri paused for a moment while shifting in her bed, then smiled. “Hmm... I think maybe I’ll have a business like.. My own line of clothes”

“Ahh wow~” You sighed, “ You’re the same Aeri I remember. Wanting to do everything, have everything and also still so sassy.” you teased again

She laughed, feigning shock. “Sassy? Wow, can’t believe you think of me like that”

Aeri’s grin widened before continuing,  “Actually... I got invited to Japan this summer to design for this brand for a whole month. My professor helped me get into the program!”

“Wait, so you’ll be in Japan for a month?” you asked, surprised. “That’s amazing.”

“Yeah,” Aeri nodded, her excitement palpable. “It’s crazy. I can’t believe it’s happening.”

“So, how are your applications going?” she asked, her voice softening.

“Hmm, wellll~ they’re going,” you replied with a small smile. “I’m looking at Boston for grad school.”

Aeri sighed, a hint of nostalgia in her voice. “Ah wow, look at us.. when did we grow up? It feels like we’re almost... truly adults.”

“Hmm, I know,” you agreed, a thoughtful pause hanging between you. “Too soon though.”

You hung up shortly after and went about your day. You studied with Yunjin, and later, the girls came over for dinner, followed by a late-night study session. By the time you showered and finally settled into bed, it was already 1 AM when your phone buzzed—Aeri was calling.

“Hello?” You mumbled out as you turned your lamp on

“Oh sorry, were you sleeping?” she asked, her face slightly blurry on the screen.

“Mm,” you sighed softly, rubbing your eyes. “No, I just got into bed, actually.”

“Long day?”

“Mhm, but that’s alright. What’s up?” you asked, shifting into a more comfortable position and reaching for your glasses.

“I’m just.. in Haebonchang right now,” she said, flipping the camera to show the view. “Look how beautiful the sunset is, Y/n.”

The sunset was breathtaking, shades of pink, orange, and purple blending into each other like a painting across the sky.

“Wow... it’s beautiful, Aeri,” you said in awe.

Aeri’s voice softened before she flipped the camera back to herself. “Yeah... I wish you were here,” she said quietly, her eyes flickering between the camera and the fading light.

There was a pause, her words lingering in the space between you.

“Maybe one day.. We could go there together,” you whispered, your voice tinged with sadness.

“Yeah.. I’d really like that,” Aeri responded, her tone gentle but carrying the weight of something more.

There was a brief second of silence. As if both of you were hesitating to speak up.

“I miss you,” you whispered, barely audible, your voice filled with longing. Time zones didn’t matter, distance didn’t matter. You really just longed for Aeri. 

Those three words heavily hung in the air between you two.

“I miss you too,” Aeri quietly admitted, her voice soft but sincere, resistance evident in her confession. 

The day after that interaction, things started to feel different. The FaceTime calls slowly became more sparse, and her texts were less frequent. You tried not to overthink it, giving her the space you thought she might need. But as the days passed, the silence began to weigh on you. Eventually, you double texted  her, unable to ignore any longer.

“Aeri, is everything okay?”

For the first time in days, her response came instantly.

“Yeah sorry, I’m okay. I just have something on my mind. Can we call later?”

Her words did nothing to ease your nerves.

“Of course,” you typed back, keeping it simple, though your heart raced.

 The uncertainty gnawed at you, the anxiety tightening in your chest as you stared at the screen.

Finally, what felt like days but in reality was just a few hours, Aeri called you.

You hesitantly answered “Hey Aeri, you okay?”

There was a pause, and that’s when you knew it didn’t seem promising.

“Y/n,” she began softly, her face on the screen appearing hesitant, almost conflicted.

“..Aeri?” you prompted gently, your voice unsure now.

She sighed deeply, her gaze dropping for a second before meeting yours again. “Y/n… I need to talk to you about something.”

Your heart skipped a beat. “Yeah I know, what’s going on? You okay?”

“When is it possible for you to visit me in Seoul?” she asked bluntly, though her tone remained soft.

You hesitated. “Well, maybe about a year or so? Just with grad schoo–”

She cut you off gently,  “I know.. You don’t have to explain yourself, I just– God,” She paused as if holding herself back from admitting something. “It’ll be over a year and a half until I can visit you”

Your eyes stayed glued to the screen, watching her struggle to compose herself. The pit in your stomach deepened

Aeri swallowed hard, clearly struggling with her next words. “I think we should stop talking for a while”

Your chest tightened.

 “Why?”

“I came here..” She began, “ No– I’ve had this goal since forever. I want to accomplish something here but.. I can’t stop myself from looking up flights to California every day. 

And I think… I think I need to focus on committing my life here”

You blinked, the realization slowly sinking in. She was leaving again.

“So you want.. to stop talking to me?” Your words trailed off, unsure of how to finish that thought or if there’s anything more you could possibly say.

“Just for now,” she said quietly, her eyes softening with what seemed like guilt. “And I really don’t want to lose you. But I know.. I have to give this my all.”

You bit your lip, trying to keep the lump in your throat from forming. “Aeri.. It took me 10 years to find you.” 

She looked down again, exhaling slowly trying to fight a sob from coming out. “I know Y/n, but I’ll be back before you know it.. It’s just a brief break”

Fuck

You nodded slowly, though your heart ached. “Alright then Aeri ”

“I’m sorry.” Her voice was barely above a whisper now. “I’m so sorry” She began to cry.

“No need to be sorry,” You said as you choked back your own tears, clearing your throat to cover it.  “We weren’t dating or anything so don’t worry about it. Really.”

There was a long pause, the silence between you filled with all the things neither of you were ready to say.

“Take care of yourself and good luck, okay?” Aeri said, her voice soft but final.

“You too,” you replied, your throat tight, the words barely escaping. “I’ll be right here.”

The call ended, and for the first time in months, the silence felt unbearable.

Aeri never knew that this was the hardest you cried in years.

Whoever said times heals everything, is a straight up liar. Time doesn’t heal, it just lets you get used to how things are now.

It had been about eight years since you had last spoken to her and honestly, you didn’t think much of Aeri anymore. Life had moved on, as it does. Although, there were days when you’d think back on everything but those thoughts were extremely rare now, fleeting, like a distant memory and it didn’t sting the way it used to. You’d convinced yourself that was just how things went. People come and go, and life moves forward whether you’re ready or not.

Once you graduated and started your new job in Boston not long after. You settled into a routine that felt strange at first but eventually became your new normal

Somehow, you managed to entice Yunjin to move to Boston. She had moved into a place not too far from yours with her (now!) fiance. Her sister also lives in Boston too so the transition wasn’t too hard. Yuna and Ryujin had ended up in New York, so weekends/every other weekend often meant catching a train to visit them or planning get-togethers whenever everyone’s schedules aligned.

Your 9-to-5 job wasn’t glamorous, but it was steady—something you could rely on. You fell into the rhythm of it quickly enough. The crowded subway rides during rush hour, the packed streets of Boston, the distant hum of the city became part of your daily routine. You’d slip into your office, get your work done, and slip out at the end of the day. It wasn’t what you imagined back when you were chasing dreams in California, picturing something a little more exciting, maybe a little more daring. But it wasn’t bad either—it was.. just comfortable.

After work, you'd sometimes grab a drink with coworkers or meet up with the woman you’d met shortly after getting into grad school. There was nothing too serious between the two of you, just the occasional dinners or casual hangouts. She was fun to be around—easygoing, good company, someone you could relax with. You’d meet up after work at a bar downtown, sharing a drink and small talk about your days. Or sometimes, you’d catch a movie or grab takeout, sitting side by side on the couch in her small apartment, talking about work or random things that made you laugh.

It wasn’t the life-altering-head-over-heels kind of thing, but it felt normal, almost comforting. There was no pressure to be anything more than it was or used to be, and that was fine with you both. Life had settled into place without much fanfare, a quiet routine that you didn’t mind..

It wasn’t until one quiet evening, after a long day at work, that something finally disrupted your routine. You were sitting on the couch, nursing a beer, and scrolling through your phone without much thought, letting the noise of the day slowly fade away.

That was until a notification lit up your screen. You glanced at it out of habit, not expecting anything important. But the name made you pause.

Aeri Yizhuo.

Who?

Aeri…?

Your heart skipped a beat as recognition clicked into place.

Oh, for fuck’s sake.

For a second, your heart skipped a beat. You stared at the message, the familiar feeling creeping back into your chest, one you hadn’t felt in ages. You hadn’t thought of her in so long, and yet, there she was. After all this time.

And then, the truth hit you like a punch to the gut.

Aeri was married now.

You felt the sting of it, sharp and unexpected, cutting deeper than you would’ve liked to admit. It shouldn’t have hurt this much. You hadn’t thought about her in so long as you knew she’d been building a life in Korea. You had moved on! Or at least, that’s what you told yourself.

But here she was, after all these years she still had the ability to make you feel something. A feeling couldn’t quite put your finger on.

After all this time, part of you had still hoped for something. For something more than this.

About a month or two after your surprise catch-up with Aeri, you finally decided it was time to visit her. The timing was perfect—it was the end of the fiscal year, and you had some extra days off to use. You figured, why not? It would be a good vacation right? The thought of seeing her after all this time felt surreal, but exciting in a way you couldn’t quite describe. You’d booked your flight, set to leave next weekend so you and your friends decided to meet this weekend.

"So," Yunjin piped up, setting down her shot glass with a grin, "Why are you going to Korea?" You, Yunjin, Yuna, and Ryujin were all seated in Yunjin and Kazuha's shared apartment, a half-empty bottle of vodka in the middle of the table while your beer cans scattered around your side.

"She's going to see that girl, rememberrr?" Ryujin teased, her tone playful.

"Who?" you replied, pretending not to know who she was talking about.

Ryujin rolled her eyes, clearly not buying it. "Don't play dumb, idiot. You know exactly who I'm talking about—your first love, right? I thought she lives there, doesn't she?"

"Oh, I see how it is," Yuna chimed in with a smirk. "You just broke up with your girlfriend so you could go see her, huh? You dog"

"What! I’m going for vacation," you exclaimed, shaking your head. "And plus, you guys are crazy. She's married now."

"WHAT? Seriously?" Yunjin blurted out, her voice incredulous.

"Mhm," you nodded, your tone more casual now though it stung to admit it. "For like five or six years now"

You couldn’t even  bring yourself to feel bad about it. After all, from your previous conversation with Aeri, it was clear how happy she was. She’d met her wife, Ning Yizhou, during her design trip in Japan. Aeri had described Ning as an absolutely beautiful soul, someone kind and supportive. They both work together now, running Aeri’s business, Giselle.

From the way Aeri spoke about Ning, you could hear the genuine love and admiration in her voice. There was no bitterness in your heart—how could there be? You were happy for her, happy that she had found someone who brought light into her life, someone who shared in her dreams.

In fact, you were proud of her. She really did accomplish everything she had set out to do. It was bittersweet, of course, but you were genuinely happy for her. 

That’s all that mattered.

Right?

You stood just outside of Incheon International Airport, the thick scent of rain mingling with the smoke from your cigarette as you waited for your Uber. The weather had suddenly turned gray the second you had landed, casting a quiet gloom over the city, the kind that sinks into your bones(What a great sign, huh?). Raindrops softly patterned on the sidewalk while you took another slow drag, the smoke curling up into the damp air.

The second you crushed the cigarette beneath your shoe and bent over to pick it up, a car pulled up in front of you, headlights cutting through the misty rain. You quickly threw it in the appropriate spot in the trash can and opened the back door, climbing in with a sigh.

“Annyeonghaseyo~,” you greeted the driver in your best (broken) Korean, trying to remember the phrases you had studied years ago for Aeri.

The driver smiled politely in the rearview mirror, his eyes crinkling with amusement. “Ah, I also speak English. Are you going to the hotel?”

You felt your cheeks flush slightly, nodding as you let out a small, relieved laugh, “Yes, please!” lowering your head in a polite bow.

The car slipped into the rainy Seoul night, the city lights blurring through the raindrops on the windows. The sound of rain hitting the roof of the car was soothing. Your eyes traced the streets as you drove deeper into the heart of the city. The roads were wet and glistening, the neon signs reflecting off the slick pavement, painting the night in hues of red, blue, and green.

The drive felt longer than it was, the beautiful city of Seoul was a lot to take in. Finally, you pulled up to the front of your hotel, the bright lights of the entrance cutting through the rain. The driver helped you with your bags, and you handed him some Won with a shy bow and a “gamsahamnida,” before heading inside.

Checking in was a blur of polite smiles and hurried conversations with the hotel staff. Before you knew it, you were standing in your empty room, the door clicking shut behind you with a finality that made the space feel even bigger.

The rain had picked up, drumming harder against the window. You crossed the room slowly, setting your bag down by the bed before making your way to the large floor-to-ceiling window that overlooked the city. The lights of Seoul stretched out before you, and they were incredibly bright. 

A reflection of your younger self flickered in the glass, dim and blurred by the raindrops. It was as if your inner child was staring right back at you—smiling brightly in those stupid colorful shorts your Mom loved to dress you in with a big toothy grin stretching across your face. 

As quickly as she appeared, she vanished. Then reflected back was an almost unrecognizable adult. It was you. The light in your eyes was still prevalent, but it just wasn’t as bright as it used to be. Years must have dimmed that spark and softened the edges of the person you once were.

You leaned your forehead against the cool glass, watching as your breath fogged up the window. The city below pulsed with life, its bright lights and movement carrying on unaware of your inner turmoil.

In that moment, surrounded by the bright lights of a city that was so beautiful and full of life.

You had never felt more alone.

Some bridges in Korean folklore represent reunion and enduring love, like the Magpie Bridge, where separated lovers meet once a year to reaffirm their bond. Others, however, represent a fleeting reconnection—brief moments that can’t last, like this one.

The next morning, you got ready and made your way to Seonyudo Park Bridge, a location Aeri had sent you earlier. The sky wasn’t rainy (luckily) and the soft hum of the city seemed distant as you stood at the edge of the bridge, anxiously watching pedestrians and tourists bustle around. Snippets of Korean and bits of broken English floated past you as you nervously fidgeted with the strap of your tote bag.

You shifted your weight, glancing around, when a voice called out, one you hadn’t heard in person in years.

“Y/n!”

Your head instinctively turned.

Suddenly, in front of you stood a child. She wore jean shorts, a Hello Kitty shirt, and had medium length black hair. Her smile was bright, lighting up her entire face, and her eyes sparkled with a familiar excitement.

It was a smile you could recognize anywhere.

For a moment, you were transported back in time. There she was—Aeri, as you remembered her as a child, standing on the other side of the bridge. You froze, staring in disbelief as the vision of her younger self ran toward you, wide-eyed and full of life. It felt so real—the way she moved, the way her smile hadn't changed.

But then you blinked, and the vision vanished and adult, present time Aeri was just walking toward you. She looked different—grown up. Her hair had grown longer, her figure more filled in, and her features had sharpened with time. But that damn smile, the way her eyes crinkled in the corners when she smiled, was exactly the same as you remembered it from 20 years ago.

Without thinking, your body moved on its own, a shy yet goofy smile creeping across your face as you walked toward her. Your strides were longer, more eager, and you met her about three-quarters of the way across the bridge. You met her where she was.

Now standing just a foot apart, neither of you spoke at first. You both stood there, taking each other in, as if afraid to break the fragile moment. Aeri was still shorter than you by a couple of inches, and she was dressed in a sleek black leather jacket with gray slacks that made her look effortlessly beautiful.

You looked down at her, your heart racing, and for a few seconds, the world around you seemed to fade away. The silence between you wasn’t awkward—it was heavy, but not uncomfortable. It was the weight of everything left unsaid, everything that had built up over the years.

Finally, Aeri sighed softly, her eyes locked on yours, and a smile tugged at her lips. “Wow~,” she whispered, looking up at you with a mix of awe and warmth.

She surprisingly embraced you in an unexpected  hug. Your hands hovered, ghosting across her sides.

“I missed you” She muffled out on your shoulder

You didn’t respond.

You both pulled back from the hug, standing there, just staring at each other. There was something almost surreal about it—the way you both remembered each other so clearly, yet in this moment, you felt like strangers, familiar but somehow unrecognizable.

“You look amazing,” you croaked out, your voice betraying the flood of emotions. “You’ve changed but... you haven’t? If that makes sense.” A nervous laugh escaped your lips.

Aeri lowered her head, letting out a soft, breathy chuckle. “I could say the same to you... When did you get so tall?”

You shyly smirked “I think you’ve just always been short.”

“Ah~ so you haven’t changed at all. Still so~ annoying,” she teased, her laugh infectious.

The laughter faded, and a comfortable silence settled between you both as you took each other in again, the weight of time pressing gently on the moment.

“So...” Aeri smiled, her eyes crinkling at the corners. “You wanna go? I’ve got a few places planned for us.”

“Yeah, of course. Let’s go,” you replied, and without another word, you followed Aeri much like a dog

The Han River has long been a symbol of flow, change, and life in Korea. Flowing water symbolizes the constant change in ones life.. they’re moving in different directions, but still connected in some way.

The walk wasn’t far, but neither of you spoke at first. Aeri led the way and you followed, both of you too shy to break the silence. Finally, she guided you to a quiet spot near the bank of the Han River, the water glistening under the dim light of the overcast sky.

“How’s here?” Aeri finally spoke, settling down near the water’s edge.

“Mmm,” you murmured, nodding as you sat beside her. The lush grass below you.

You both sat quietly, watching the water, the silence growing heavier with unsaid words.

“Was the last time we talked really eight years ago?” Aeri sighed, breaking the silence again.

“I think so? We’re 30 now... So, yeah, I guess it was,” you said, turning your head slightly toward her. “Feels weird huh?” You gave her a little half smile.

“Wow...” she whispered, her voice carrying the weight of those lost years.

After a brief pause, she added, “You know.. before I got married, I went to New York with my wife.”

“I know.”

“I sent you a message on Facebook, I didn’t know if you had changed your number” she continued, smiling softly but with a hint of sadness in her eyes. “But you didn’t respond”

There was another pause. It felt like she had more to say, so you stayed quiet, waiting.

“I wanted to see you,” she admitted quietly. “I was disappointed.”

“I’m sorry,” you said, your gaze fixed on the water, avoiding her eyes. There wasn’t much else you could say, something was hanging in the air between you.

Aeri shifted, her tone changing slightly. “Well, I also wanted to meet your girlfriend. How are you guys doing?”

“We’re not together right now,” you admitted.

“Oh, I’m sorry... I didn’t mean to— wait, did you break up?” she asked, concern lacing her voice.

“Oh well no, I don't know, we’re just... in a weird spot right now. She wants to get married but...”

“But you don’t?” Aeri asked, cutting through your hesitation.

“Yeah it's just, I don’t know, it’s just... complicated,” you sighed, trying not to reveal too much, keeping your emotions in check.

“What’s complicated?” she pressed, her voice direct, almost matter-of-fact.

You chuckled lightly at her tone. “I’m still paying off my student loans. I just don’t want my wife to carry that burden, you know? Boston is expensive enough as it is...” It wasn’t entirely a lie. But deep down, you knew there was more to your hesitation than just the financial part.

“I just feel like she deserves someone better than me. We’ve been together but.. not really together for so long... She deserves someone who can give her what she wants. Someone... less ordinary and..”

“Ordinary?” Aeri interrupted softly, her voice filled with disbelief. “You’re far from ordinary, Y/n. You know you’re...” she trailed off, as if catching herself before saying too much.

You gave her a small smile, ignoring her hesitation. It was clear neither of you wanted to dig into old feelings, not yet, maybe even never. There was too much that both of you were avoiding.

“So, how’s work?” you asked, gently steering the conversation away from the tension that had built up. The question felt like a safe place to land, something casual and mundane.

Aeri smiled, seeming to relax a little. “Busy, as always. Giselle’s doing well, though. It’s everything I dreamed of... and more stressful than I imagined.”

“That sounds about right,” you chuckled, the heaviness between you starting to ease. “But, I knew you could do it. I’m really proud of you, Aeri.”

Slowly, the awkwardness began to dissipate. You found yourselves laughing about silly memories from when you were younger, filling in the gaps from the eight years you had missed.

Aeri told you about the ups and downs of her business, her wife, her travels, and the unexpected ways life had changed her. You shared stories of grad school, your friends, your job, and the quiet moments of your own life that had shaped you. It was easy to get lost in the rhythm of it, the back and forth, as though no time had passed at all.

Before you knew it, the sun had started to dip, casting soft shades of pink and orange across the sky. .

“Remember that one time when you fe–”

Your stomach grumbled loudly, cutting through Aeri’s story

“Oh my god, are you hungry?” Aeri’s eyes widened with concern. 

Oh, no I’m fine, really!” You tried to assuage but of course she did not relent

“No it’s okay, I could eat too. Let’s go get some food, there’s a great to-go spot nearby, and then I’ve got one more place I want to show you.”

She was already on her feet, tugging at your sleeve before you could even think to protest. Not that you would, of course.

You chuckled softly, offering a simple, “Alright,” as a smile crept onto your face. It just felt so natural. Aeri was still the same, always charging ahead, her excitement infectious, leading you from behind as she had so many times before. 

Some things really never change.

Soon, you both arrived at a cozy 24-hour convenience store, the kind that makes it fresh right there. It was small and tucked away, but the smell of freshly made meals greeted you the moment you stepped inside. You ordered an onigiri, feeling like that’s all your stomach could handle after such a day like this. 

You unwrapped it and took a bite, savoring the simple comfort of the food, but before you could settle in, Aeri was pulling you along again, her food in hand, excitement bubbling in her voice.

“Let’s go, the bus comes in three minutes!” she said, glancing at her phone with a grin.

You both made it onto the bus(after scarfing down your rice ball) barely just in time. With no seats available, you were left standing together, holding the same pole.

Strangers pressed in around you, the sounds of conversation and the hum of the city filling the space. But in that moment, it felt like it was only the two of you in the world.

Your fingers brushed against each other, but neither of you moved. The silence stretched between you, not awkward, just heavy with all the years missed. 

You met Aeri’s gaze, and for a brief second, it felt like time slowed. 

The bus glided (not) smoothly through the city streets, and yet the tension between you was almost tangible. Your mind raced with everything you wanted to say, but none of the words seemed right.

"Ae—" you started to say, but before the words could form, Aeri cut you off softly.

“Oh, we’re here,” she said, her voice gently pulling you both back into the present moment.

The bus came to a stop, and you followed her out, stepping into the cool evening air. The two of you walked side by side, the quiet comfort between you settling in again as you made your way toward Namsan Tower, known for its Love Lock Bridge.

“Do you want a picture?” Aeri asked, breaking the silence. “It is your vacation, right? I feel like you haven’t taken many pictures while you’ve been here. Probably my fault,” she laughed lightly, her tone warm.

“Oh yeah, sure!” you said, handing her your phone.

You posed in front of a scenic spot along the path, flashing your signature bright smile.

“Ah~ so cute,” she teased, snapping a few photos before handing your phone back to you.

“Thanks,” you said, quickly glancing at the picture before slipping the phone into your pocket.

The two of you continued walking, your shoulders brushing against each other now and then as the foot traffic toward the bridge picked up. Just before you reached the bridge, Aeri stopped in her tracks, turning to you with a serious look.

“Y/n,” she said, her voice soft but steady.

“Hmm?” you looked at her curiously.

“Why did you... search for me?” she asked quietly, her gaze lingering on you.

“Eight years ago?” you finished for her.

“Mhm,” she nodded.

“Do you really want to know?” you asked, meeting her eyes. She gave a small nod in response, waiting.

You took a deep breath, searching for the right words. “I wanted to see you again... I don’t know. You left so suddenly, and I guess I was a little pissed off, honestly.”

“I’m sorry,” Aeri said softly.

You let out a small huff of laughter. “Why are you apologizing?”

“I guess... you’re right. I don’t have anything to be sorry for,” she admitted, smiling faintly.

“You were just in my entire life, and then you left... and then, bam, I found you again,” you said, the words coming out more candidly than you expected.

“Why would you do that?” she asked, her voice carrying a hint of vulnerability.

“I don’t know, honestly... You kept entering my mind when I was in college. I thought about you... a lot,” you admitted.

Aeri nodded, her expression softening. “I see.”

“We were babies back then, huh?” you chuckled, the tension easing. “And even eight years ago... we were still figuring things out.”

“Yeah,” Aeri smiled, a bittersweet glint in her eyes. “I can’t believe we’re not ‘babies’ anymore.”

You both finally arrived at the Love Lock Bridge, the sky now a deep shade of blue, illuminated by the city lights below. The bridge was alive with the soft hum of conversations you couldn’t quite understand  and the distant sounds of traffic, but you felt a quiet stillness between you and Aeri walked around.

“Ning  and I came here for our anniversary,” Aeri said, her voice almost wistful as she glanced around. “It was hard to find at first. We spent months looking for the perfect spot to place our lock.”

She started scanning the rows upon rows of locks, her fingers brushing over the cold metal as she looked for hers. But while she was focused on finding it, you couldn’t stop staring at her—the way her hair fell over her face as she leaned in, the subtle concentration etched on her features, the soft smile that tugged at her lips every now and then as she searched.

You knew you should probably  be at least trying to help her, but at this moment, it felt like she was a world away, even as she stood right next to you. She was talking about their anniversary, their love, and you couldn’t shake away the sinking feeling.

Then suddenly, She spotted it. A small, worn lock with their names etched in faded letters. Ning and Aeri. She pointed at it.

“There,” she said softly.

Your eyes followed your finger, and she smiled when she saw it.

“Wow... I didn’t think we’d be able to find it.”

You forced a smile, but the heaviness in your chest lingered. After a few moments of small talk about the lock, the conversation lulled, and Aeri checked the time. The soft glow of the city lights and the quiet hum of the evening reminded you both that this reunion, like everything, had to come to an end.

“I should probably head home,” Aeri said quietly, her voice carrying a hint of reluctance. She didn’t want to break the moment, but it was inevitable.

You nodded, your own smile fading. “Yeah, I should  get back too.”

Home. She was going home to someone—to a life that didn’t include you. And as much as you tried to push the thought aside, it stung.

She walked with you toward the bus stop, in silence. The conversation from earlier echoed in your mind—how you had found her again, only to realize that the distance between your lives was now undeniable.

When the bus pulled up, Aeri watched as you stepped inside. She gave you one last, soft smile, the kind that carried more meaning than any words could, just before the doors closed between you.

You said your quiet goodbye, instead of walking her home like you used to, you headed back to your own place. Alone.

The next day arrived with a clearer sky, though the weight of the previous night still lingered faintly in your chest. You weren’t sure how to feel, but Aeri’s early morning text had a way of pulling you out of your thoughts: “Let’s go to  Seoul Tower today! I feel like everyone who visits needs to see it.”

Of course you agreed, a few hours later when you had checked out of your hotel, you found yourself walking toward one of Seoul’s most famous places, N Seoul Tower, with Aeri by your side. The streets were alive with locals and tourists, bustling around market stalls and snapping photos.

There was a vibrant energy of the city surrounding you, but your focus was on Aeri, who was as animated as ever, pointing out landmarks and sharing random facts about the places you passed. It was cute.

“This place is sooo a must for anyone visiting Seoul,” Aeri said with a grin as you passed a shop offering hanbok rentals. “Wanna try one on?” She teased “Or are you more in the mood for food?”

You bantered back. “Let’s try food first. I don’t think I’m ready for a hanbok yet,” you playfully rolled your eyes

You stopped at a food stall, grabbing some hotteok, tteokbokki, and grilled meat skewers.

“You have to try this. It’s my favorite,” she said, handing you a cup of hotteok, her face lighting up as you took a bite of the warm treat “See?! I knew you’d like it.”

The day moved quickly as you wandered through the crowded streets, snapping photos, enjoying the ‘touristy’ vibe. It felt easier, lighter, as if you could both escape into the city, even if just for a while.

As the sun began to set, casting a warm golden hue over the city, Aeri led you to the top of N Seoul Tower. From the observation deck, you could see all of Seoul stretched out before you. The view was breathtaking, the city bathed in the soft light of the sun.

“This city... it’s strange how much it’s become home,” Aeri said quietly, her voice softer now. She leaned against the railing, staring out at the skyline. “I never thought I’d feel that way when I first moved here.”

You stood beside her. “It’s beautiful,” you said, your own voice hushed, as if speaking too loudly might break the delicate moment. You stared at her as she gazed out over the city, your mind was elsewhere.

For a while, you both stood in silence, taking in the view. In that moment, it didn’t matter where you had come from or where you were going. 

For now, this was enough.

After spending the day embodying a tourist and such, the sun had long set, and the once-bustling streets now felt quieter as you followed Aeri back to her apartment.

You were nervous of course,

“She knows I’m coming. right?” you asked, pausing mid-step.

“Of course,” Aeri replied, leading you up the steps to her apartment—the place she now called home.

As you entered, Aeri's wife, Ning, was already by the door. You weren’t sure what you had expected, but seeing her in the flesh felt surreal, like a final confirmation of the life Aeri had built without you. It felt like the gap between your past with Aeri and her present had suddenly become tangible.

After a brief moment of silence, you gave Ning a polite bow, offering your best attempt at broken Korean. “Annyeonghaseyo,” you said, smiling awkwardly.

Ning returned the gesture with a polite bow of her own. “Hello,” she responded in careful English.

For a second, both of you stood there, staring at each other incredulously, trying to find the right words, the weight of the moment hanging between you.

You nodded, your heart racing slightly. “It’s nice to meet you,” you added, this time in your most broken Korean.

Ning smiled kindly, understanding the effort you were making. “It’s nice to meet you too,” she said

Ning chuckled softly, the slight language barrier immediately apparent but not uncomfortable. “Aeri told me… a lot about you.” she responded in English

“Likewise”

Aeri came to your side, sensing the mix of emotions swirling in the air. “Ning, should we grab something to eat? She’s leaving later tonight, so I think we should eat,” Aeri said in Korean, but you didn’t quite catch the words.

Ning nodded and turned to you, switching back to English. “What do you like to eat?”

You pondered for a moment, thinking of something simple but satisfying. “Hmm… samgyupsal?”

Ning’s face immediately lit up at the mention of her favorite food. “Let’s go get samgyupsal!” she said, her excitement evident.

You three ended up at a cozy late-night bar and restaurant, the soft hum of conversation and clinking of glasses filling the space. Dinner had gone smoothly, the samgyupsal hitting the spot, and now you were all nursing drinks, passing time until your Uber was set to arrive.

“So, have you traveled out of the United States before?” Ning asked in Korean, her expression curious. Of course, you didn’t understand, but Aeri leaned in, her voice low as she translated.

“She’s asking if you’ve been out of the country before,” Aeri said with a small smile, eyes flicking between you and her wife.

You shook your head with a soft laugh. “I’ve been to Japan and Spain before, but I think Korea has been my favorite so far.”

Aeri translated the words, and Ning nodded with a smile.

“She says Seoul is a good place to start when visiting Korea, but if you come back, you should visit Jeju Island. It’s beautiful there,” Aeri translated again, while Ning added in her own bit in Korean, her face lighting up.

“I’ve heard great things about Jeju,” you said, returning the smile. “Maybe next time.”

The small talk flowed easily enough, but as the night wore on, Aeri slowly stopped translating, and Ning sat quietly, sipping her drink. It created an odd dynamic—one where it felt like Aeri was caught between two worlds, and Ning, though polite, was drifting further into her own thoughts.

You couldn’t help it. With the drinks loosening your tongue and emotions swirling inside you, the words began to spill out. Leaning in slightly, you lowered your voice, careful to keep your tone steady. “Aeri… thanks for introducing me to your wife.”

Aeri blinked, caught off guard by the sudden shift in conversation. “Mm,” she mumbled, her gaze flickering between you and her drink, unsure of where you were headed.

“I can tell she really loves you,” you added softly, the sincerity in your voice clear. "I didn't realize liking your wife would hurt this much."

Aeri’s eyes softened, her brow furrowing slightly. “Really?” she asked, her voice almost hesitant, as if she needed confirmation.

“Of course,” you replied, your words gentle, but heavy with the weight of what you weren’t saying.

A moment of silence passed, the sounds of the bar fading into the background as the two of you sat there, the space between you filled with things that had been left unsaid for too long.

You took a sip from your glass, gathering the courage to speak again. “… When we stopped talking back then… I really missed you. Did you miss me?”

The question hung in the air, heavy and raw, as if you’d been holding it in for years.

Aeri’s gaze dropped for a moment, her fingers tracing the rim of her glass. When she finally looked up at you, her voice was softer, almost vulnerable. “Of course I did, Y/n.”

A dry laugh escaped your lips. “But you met your wife then.” There was an edge to your voice, a bitterness that surprised even you.

Aeri responded instantly, almost defensively. “And you had a girlfriend.”

You scoffed softly. “Right,” you murmured, shaking your head with a small smile. “Sorry.”

Aeri fidgeted with the rim of her glass. “It’s okay.”

After a few quiet moments, you exhaled, the weight of your thoughts pressing down on you. The words slipped out before you had the chance to stop them. “Seeing you again… it’s made me have some strange thoughts.”

Aeri lifted her eyes to yours, her gaze gentle but curious. “What kind of thoughts?” she asked softly.

You hesitated, your fingers tracing the rim of your glass as you searched for the right words. “I keep thinking… what if I had come here eight years ago? What if you never left California? If we’d just grown up together, stayed in each other’s lives…” 

You paused, the questions swirling in your mind before you continued, your voice growing softer. “Would I have still searched for you? Would we have dated? Broken up? Gotten married and had kids? Just.. you know, stuff like that.”

You glanced at Aeri, her expression unreadable as she absorbed everything you said.

“And what I’ve realized,” you continued, almost to yourself, “is that California… it was always too small for your ambition. You outgrew it before either of us realized. I’m happy you moved here, Aeri, I really am.

And the truth is, I liked you because you’re you. And who you are…” You trailed off for a moment, letting the words sink in before you finished quietly. “Who you are is someone who leaves.”

Aeri’s lips parted slightly, her breath catching. She looked away for a second, as if trying to gather her thoughts, before her voice came out in a whisper. “The Aeri Uchinaga you remember… she doesn’t exist anymore.”

Her words cracked slightly, as if admitting it to herself for the first time.

You felt a soft chuckle escape you, one tinged with understanding. “I know,” you replied. “I know.”

She nodded, but quickly added, “But… that doesn’t mean she never existed.” Her eyes met yours again, softer now. “I left that version of me behind 20 years ago. I left her with you.”

Her words, the honesty in them, tugged at something deep within you. “I know,” you repeated, meeting her gaze, a strange sense of peace settling over you. “I know we were only twelve… but I really did love her.”

Aeri’s lips curved into a small, sad smile, the kind that holds years of unspoken truths. “I know,” she said, her voice barely a whisper. “You’re crazy, you know that?”

You both let out a quiet laugh, the sound soft but comforting, a brief return to the simplicity of who you used to be.

“I think we must’ve been something together in our past lives,” she said after a while, her voice distant, thoughtful. “Otherwise, why would we be here together right now?”

You thought about her words, turning them over in your mind. “I agree,” you finally said. “But in this life… we obviously just aren’t those people to each other, are we? We’re finally in the same city for the first time in 20 years, and here we are, sitting together... with your wife.”

Your expression softened, as you quietly acknowledged the truth you both knew. “To Ning, you’re someone who stays,” you whispered.

A few moments of silence passed between you and Aeri.

“Who do you think we were to each other in our past lives?” Aeri asked suddenly, her voice soft, almost wistful.

You tilted your head, considering the question. “Hmm… I don’t know,” you said, your tone thoughtful. “Maybe we were forced into a political marriage to stop a war…Or maybe we were just two strangers on a bus who happened to sit next to each other. Or even.. maybe I was just a branch you decided to sit on as a bird on a cold morning.”

You and Aeri chuckled at that, though you could sense a sadness behind it.

You both sat in the quiet for a few more moments, the weight of those imagined lives lingering in the air, until Aeri excused herself to use the restroom, leaving you alone with Ning.

You turned toward her, feeling guilty for the past hour. “I’m sorry we spoke alone,” you said gently, your voice low. “It won’t happen again.”

Ning gave you a small, gentle smile, though there was something sad in her eyes. “Don’t worry,” she replied, her English hesitant but kind. “You two haven’t seen each other in a while. I’m glad I got to meet you Y/n.”

You nodded, her response easing some of the tension in your chest. “I’m glad too,” you said softly, offering her a smile in return

When Aeri returned, you paid the bill and the three of you made your way back to the apartment to grab your luggage. The atmosphere had shifted slightly—quiet, but not uncomfortable, just the natural stillness that follows the end of a long day.

“Hey, I’m gonna walk her to her Uber,” Aeri said to Ning, offering her a small, reassuring smile before turning toward you and the door.

You paused for a moment, glancing at Ning. Bowing slightly, you tried your best to piece together the Korean you’d practiced. “Nice to meet you. Come visit me in California.”

Ning’s eyes softened, and despite the awkwardness of the language barrier, her warmth was undeniable. She returned the bow, her own English just as halting but genuine. “Definitely,” she replied, her smile sincere. You offered her a small smile in return before following Aeri out the door.

As you and Aeri stepped out of the apartment, the cool night air hit you both. You walked side by side down the quiet street, neither of you saying much, both lost in your own thoughts.

The streets were dimly lit, the distant hum of the city lingering in the background. Every now and then, your shoulders brushed, but neither of you acknowledged it. 

As you neared the end of the street, where your Uber was set to pick you up, you both stopped, standing under a flickering streetlight. The quiet air felt thick, the weight of the goodbye neither of you wanted to acknowledge.

Aeri shifted slightly, glancing at you before looking away, her hands fidgeting in her jacket pockets. “Will it be here soon?” she asked, her voice soft, trying to smooth over the tension between you.

You glanced at your phone, the screen glowing back at you. “Two minutes,” you replied, your voice barely above a whisper.

Silence.

Some more silence fell between you two as the night deepened, the distant sounds of the city humming softly around you. Neither of you made any effort to fill the quiet, as if both afraid that words would shatter whatever remained between you.

Finally, the low rumble of a car pulling up signaled that your time was almost up. You glanced at the Uber, then down at your bags. With a sigh, you began to pack them into the trunk, your movements slow, almost hesitant, as if trying to delay the inevitable.

Just as you were about to open the car door, something inside you stirred. You couldn’t let this moment end without saying it.

“Aeri,” you called out, your voice breaking the silence as you turned toward her, your hand resting on the handle of the door.

She looked up, her eyes lighting up just a little as she responded, “Mm?”

For a moment, you hesitated, unsure if you should say the words that had been circling in your mind. But the thought of leaving without voicing them felt unbearable. So you smiled, that bittersweet smile tugging at your lips as you spoke.

“What if this is a past life as well, and we are already something else to each other in our next life? Who do you think we are then?” You could feel a deep sadness in your voice as the words left your lips.

Aeri blinked, the question taking her by surprise. Her eyes searched for yours, as if trying to understand the depth of your meaning. She looked almost vulnerable at that moment, her lips parting slightly before she whispered, “I-I don’t know.” Careful with her words

There was something in the way she said it—like she wanted to know, like she wished she had an answer for you but couldn’t bring herself to find one. The distance between you two felt like more than just the physical space separating you—it was something neither of you could cross.

You had realized just then. At that moment. That she hasn’t been looking at you with any sort of love or longing. She’d just been looking at you with nostalgia. A life before the weight of the world crashed down on her.

You lowered your head with a sad laugh in response to her.

“Alright,” you began, “Goodbye, Aeri Uchinaga.. See you then.” you whispered finally parting ways with the girl you'd known 20 years ago.

A feeling of loss over you, almost suffocating. You still managed a genuine smile because you were happy Aeri was happy. 

Bittersweet. 

“See you.. then, Y/n L/n” she whispered. 

With that, you gave her a small nod, your heart heavy. The air between you felt thick with everything unsaid. Aeri looked back at you, her eyes holding a mix of emotions—nostalgia, sadness, maybe a little bit of both.

You opened the door and got into the backseat of the Uber. You glanced out the window one last time, catching a glimpse of Aeri standing there under the streetlight. She looked a little blurry in the dim light, but still the same Aeri you’ve always known.

For a second, your eyes met again. Neither of you waved, neither of you spoke. You both knew this was how it had to end.

You took a deep breath and nodded to the driver, and the car pulled away.

You silently stared out the window as the scenery of Seoul flashed by while tears streamed down your face. 

You’ll never know that she was crying too. Harder than she ever had before.

[quotidian-oblivion]

For your ask game! (May I choose more than one?)

🌤️Share your favorite piece of dialogue from your WIP.

🌧️Share something angsty from your WIP.

🌈 Share something soft/fluffy from your WIP.

Love your work!

HIIIII! You absolutely can choose more than one!

Ask game

(Sorry it took a while, it's really busy here on my end)

🌤️ Okieeee. So, this gave me an excellent opportunity to revisit the wips I have been neglecting because of life. Thank you

TW: Implied child abuse

Btw, the following scene is a chat/texting scene

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Jason: Hey baby bird, u still awake?

Tim: My throat hurts.

Jason: Its spring Jason: Did u get an infection or sumth? Jason: Where exactyl does it hurt?

Tim: I don’t know.

Jason: Does it hurt inside? Outside? When u swallow?

Tim: Outside

Jason: Did u hit sumth??

Tim: No

Jason: Baby bird, please. Tell me what happened. I can help you.

A pause.

Tim: I’m not supposed to hide

Jason froze.

Tim: I’m sorry. I dont want to disturb you

Fuck.

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V angsty, ik. Kinda combines the second q too? But fortunately, i'm not low on angst pieces.

🌧️ Alrighty, let's see, more angst.

Aha! Tim's 6 in this one

TW: Implied child abuse

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Tim forgot all the pain and ran to his room, not stopping until he locked the bedroom door, then crawling into his closet and closing the door of that too. Only then did he break out into proper crying. 

Blindly fishing around for one of his few stuffed dolls, he found a random one (a dolphin) and hugged it, curling up on top of it. 

He didn’t know what had just happened, but the memory in his brain was fuzzy and blurry. 

He knew that he would forget it soon. Then maybe he could apologize and bring his dad back.

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I'm having fun! Now, sumth fluffy to balance out the angst.

🌈 Aaaaaalrighty. Sumth fluffy. I love this scene sm. Mainly cuz how chaoticly accurate it is to the fam.

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She once tied him up to a chair tightly and spoon-fed him all different kinds of food when he had accidently gone two days without eating.

She made him properly chew and swallow a piece of fruit, two vegetables, a glass of milk, chicken tender nuggets, and an entire slice of cake. She had shoved in the last bit of cake into his protesting mouth, when the others finally showed up in his room to end the torture. Tim suspected that Alfred was responsible for their uncommonly late arrival. 

When they confronted her, Cass pointed at Tim and said, "Too small." 

Tim made a noise of indignance. "I'm not that small. I've grown a lot over the years." 

Cass poked his stomach and sniffed, "Too empty." 

That sent Jason and Dick into a fit of laughter that ended up with them wheezing on the floor. 

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And that's it! Ooh, tysm anon!! I loced hunting through the wips. It makes me want to write again. And i'm crediting that to you ^^

Hope you have an enchanting day! 💖

[sorryimananti-romantic]

LMAO NOT US HAVING THE SAME TASTES IN OUR ANIME CHARACTERS IM CACKLING 💀

yes! bleach is one long anime, one of my big four (naruto, fairy tail, one piece are honourable mentions) but bleach is def my fav bc the genre and art literally everything is my thing

omg if the recent animations are doing justice i've got to give it a go. i have the attention span of a cat lmao hence why i prefer reading (bc i have to physically swipe) over watching (suddenly i'm staring at the dust on my keyboard i gotta clean it)

GIRL URAHARA FKDJGHDJ HE'S SO im gonna say it DADDY. 12 year old me had a crush on this daddy like a huge crush he's such a tease and i still love him sm jfdgkdhg he drives me crazy lmao. AND YES YORUICHI. absolutely adore these two.

kenpachi and yachiru is the duo of bleach, no questions. recently read a post and it's coming to mind now-- not only do they match each other's freak, they accentuate it which makes their partnership so good. his bankai was insane.

omg yes ulquiorra and grimmjow were my babies. i adored them even when they gave everyone hell 💀 AND YES. THIS SPECIFIC ORIHIME SCENE!! istg even after all these years i remember these quotes word by word. and omgg if you think i can write sth up to that level i will sob?? 😭😭 tite kubo is literally my biggest inspiration like if you ever see a poetic line from me in my fics know that there's a tite kubo influence behind it bc he slayed so hard with this scene!

and omg. orihime and ulquiorra ugh 😭 i want to write this now AHAHAHA i really like the concept of this warm, healing person x hollow person that only knows how to destroy (why do i feel like i've written sth like this before hmm this concept just very familiar to me)

omg yes thank you for refreshing my arrancar memory and i remember how much i liked the hueco mundo arc! these characters were such a good twist imo and OMG I REMEMBER THE TWO SCIENTISTS FIGHT ITS BLURRY BUT I REMEMBER IT BEING KINDA GROSS WHY WAS THAT (i need to reread lmao i'm sold) (also i think rereading it now would be so much fun i fear once i start i'll be unable to stop hoho) (also i'm a sucker for scythes too we're the same)

the quicys :')) i had to google these names but i remember whatever you said vaguely. but i agree with everything lmao and i have to talk about rukia's bankai it's soo pretty. honestly i never vibed with any quincys that much back then, maybe it'll be different now. liltotto is still memorable hehe

omygod. the kon arc was hilarious. and the captains showing up 💀💀 nothing beats that fr

AND YES YES AIZEN AND THE FIGHT WAS SOOO GOOD MAN KEPT COMING BACK but like all the tricks he pulled would always have me go O.O (bruh i'm itching to reread now bc like these memories are scratching at my brain now AHAHAHAHA)

omg you should never delete your yapping i love unfiltered yapping sm and this was so good. i only have one person irl i can talk to about bleach but we haven't talked about bleach in years so it is so refreshing to do this again! you def could write the manga atp tho AHAHAHAHA

AND YES. I'M THE BLEACH ENTHUSIAST WHO WILL NITPICK ON EVERYTHING (BUT OUT OF LOVE) i just need to reread again lmaooo i used to like chat about bleach with random ppl on tumblr back in those days. you can hit me up whenever you want too bbygorl let's both reread the manga that would be so fun omg?? imagine reading together and discussing chapters or arcs together AHHHHHH

i was snooping around your blog and saw that you also like bleach (the anime/manga) 👀 are you still following the new seasons or did you stop at some point?

do you have any favorite: character, shinigami (shikai/bankai), arrancar (abilities/resurrecion), quincy/sternritter (abilities/shift), visored, hollows, arcs? special moments that have stuck with you (positively/negatively)?

it's so rare for me to find someone else into it lol so you got me curious now~

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omgg when i tell you that bleach is the love of my life, possibly my fav manga ever (or at least one of my fav)!! i started reading and occasionally watching (bc i was more of a reader) back in 2012 until the manga ended (somewhere around... 2016?) and then i reread the whole thing again and watched whatever episodes were available :'))

i don't read mangas anymore, i sometimes watch anime (not very often) but i still cherish bleach so much. and omg seeing those terms made me go *blink blink* bc it's been so long i had to google to confirm what some of those were!

and that's why my answers might not make sense BUT I HAVE FAVS. definitely. firstly, ichigo, ofc. esp when he attained bankai. kisuke urahara is also my biggest anime crushes (also my anime crushes are such a strong indicator of my type). from the arrancars, i remember how obsessed i was with ulquiorra and grimmjow (ulquiorra's arc and the way he died? and the scene with orihime still lives in my head rent free).

i honestly don't remember much but i remember being a fan of the ishidas too. i also have the softest spot for rukia and byakuya, kenpachi and the little girl that tags with him. toshiro's powers always fascinated me the most and aizen was so hot for being the villain lmao. and omg ywach!! always gave me the chills.

i think my fav arc was when (the explanation's gonna suck) the soul society is in... shambles? with ywach and the other espadas. thousand year blood war or sth? basically before the manga ends. i think the ending and opening of this anime are perfection.

i think this is my cue to reread bleach bc i've been wanting to reread (and hopefully getting back into reading manga) for a while now. since the last time i touched this manga was in 2016, my knowledge is very dusty if you can't tell already-- but if i pick it up again, i'm bothering you 🫵 bc it really is rare to find a bleach enthusiast! i need to hear your fav moments and fav characters too, come on. refresh my memory (and give me the push to pick bleach again)

[im-in-vin-ci-ble]

Heyy could I possibly request f!OC x Mark, in which the OC is Red Rush’s daughter who also inherited his powers. Set before the events of episode one maybe at a Guardian’s work party or smth. Mark and OC are hitting it off in a ‘Idk what’s going on my dad just works here’ solidarity during the party; while her doting and protective father Josef is keeping an eye on them, unsure about how he feels about his favorite sidekick growing up on him. Maybe Olga and Debbie try to be matchmakers too lol

A/N: okay well this is CUTE AF, I love this sm thank u for requesting <3 also josef and olga are married here, no one dies (yet) and everyone is happy!!!

Pairing: Mark Grayson x Fem!OC

Rating: T

Warnings: mild swearing

The annual Guardians of the Globe Founder's Day party was never really Zasha's scene. It mainly consisted of the Guardians and the Global Defense Agency's families, and more often than not, she was the only one in her age group. Her true purpose there was to really just pay her respects to the people — including her father, who people knew as Red Rush — who protected the planet.

This year's Founder's Day event was different, however, as Omni-Man finally accepted the party invitations he'd been ignoring for years. Although there were jokes that he had accidentally RSVP'd to the party, or that his wife had accepted the invite behind his back, everyone seemed happy, and still pleasantly surprised, when he and his family walked in.

Sitting down with a non-alcoholic beverage in her hand, she watched as everyone shook hands with the powerful Nolan Grayson and his loving family. Zasha's mom, Olga, walked over to say hello and immediately dragged the three to where Zasha and Josef were. The two male superheroes first exchanged pleasantries, followed by Olga forcing her daughter to get up so she can properly be introduced to the teenage boy standing across from her.

"Zasha, hi," Debbie said with a wide smile as she gave you a warm hug. "This is my son, Mark. I don't think you two have properly met yet."

He extended his arm, "Oh, hi, uh, I'm Mark," he replied with a sheepish smile.

"Hi, I'm Z," she said as Olga gave her a soft push to move her forward. The young girl's eyes threw daggers at her mom before politely shaking his hand, "Nice to meet you."

"Are you all hungry? They've got a lot of food," Olga told the Graysons, leading them and Josef, who squinted his eyes at Zasha and Mark, over to the buffet table.

Zasha and Mark looked at each other awkwardly and exchanged nervous smiles. He began to rock back and forth on his feet, shoving his hands into his pockets as he attempted to think of what to say.

"So uh, how's... superhero training?" he asked.

"Uh, good," Zasha answered, nodding her head. "We managed to take down Titan yesterday so that was pretty cool."

"Oh yeah? That's great," Mark exclaimed. "How about, um..." he scratched the back of his head, "Is the, i-is the drink... good?"

She looked down at her cup and clicked her tongue, "You know for a party that's sponsored by the government, you'd think they'd have better catering."

He chuckled, "If I knew this was going to be a boring party with adults and toddlers and no good food, I would have at least brought a snack and some comic books."

Zasha sat back down and looked up at him with a smile, "Well you better take a seat, buddy, because the next few hours are going to make you wish you were being hurled at buildings instead."

She gently patted the seat next to her and Mark accepted the offer. "Do you go to these things a lot?" he asked.

"Unfortunately, yes," Zasha replied. "You are so damn lucky your dad never wants to come to a Guardians event."

Mark laughed, "You know what, I used to be really jealous of all the families who got together during these events but right now, I'd do anything to just go home." He looked around and sighed, "I don't even know most of these people."

"Me too, and I've seen their faces at least thrice a year ever since I could remember," she agreed. "Actually, I think this is the first solid conversation I've had with someone at these things."

"Really?" he asked in shock.

"Really," she answered, taking a sip of the bland orange juice that now mostly tastes like water. "Most of the guys who are my age that have attended aren't really cute, nor are they interesting, so meh."

Mark's head snapped up at that remark and he felt the warmth rush up to his cheeks. "The other guys aren’t... cute and not... interesting?"

"Hell no," Zasha laughed. "Have you ever tried connecting with a person who has no special abilities but know you're a superhero? It feels like talking to a wall."

He crossed his brows, "What do you mean?"

She sighed and leaned forward, "They usually ask me what being a superhero is like, but when I tell them that I managed to take down a man with rock for skin, it's like I'm a freak."

"You're not a freak, Zasha," he replied. "And any guy who feels that way about a girl who's trying to save others sounds like a shitty person."

"And they're not even cute!" she added.

"And they're not even cute," he repeated after her with a laugh.

Zasha sighed again and sat back up. She looked over at him and briefly examined his face, "Well it's a good thing you are."

Josef turned around and watched as the 17-year-old boy chatted up his daughter, as well as literally take his seat at the table.

He held on to Olga's arm and leaned in, "I don't like what I'm seeing over there."

Olga turned to look then laughed at her overbearing husband. "They're just talking, Josef," she said. "It's not Zasha's fault she can enjoy a pleasant conversation and you can't."

"Mm..." Josef groaned, "I don't like it."

"Don't like what?" Debbie asked from behind.

Olga walked over to her and excitingly yet subtly pointed at Zasha and Mark, who were now facing each other now laughing. "Josef's worried that Zasha won't have time to be his daughter anymore if she ever started dating boys," she explained to Debbie. "You know he scares off every single boy Zasha introduces to us? I'm worried she'll never have a boyfriend!"

"She doesn't need a boyfriend, Olga," Josef chimed in grumpily, crossing his arms as he watched the two like a hawk. "No one will be good enough for Zasha anyway. She can literally outrun all the boys she dates."

"So are you saying that my Mark isn't good enough for Zasha?" Debbie asked with half a smile, momentarily shutting Josef up before he nervously tried to form a sentence. "I'm just teasing, Josef," she followed, winking at him and almost warning him not to underestimate her son.

Olga chuckled, "It's good for them to bond. They're both teenagers and superheroes, if they ever date at least they won't have to worry about keeping secrets."

"Whoa, wait," Josef exclaimed. "They just met, who said anything about dating?"

His wife rolled her eyes at his remark. "We should, what's the term... hook them up," Olga said. "Debbie, ask Mark what's going on and I'll ask Zasha."

Debbie agreed to the plan and walked over to Mark and Zasha while Josef huffed in annoyance but stayed in his position; there was no way in hell he was going to keep his eyes off of them.

Debbie offered Mark some food from her plate but he kindly declined. "Good choice," she said. "For a party paid for by the government, you'd think they'd have better food."

Mark laughed and nodded in agreement, "That's what Z said!"

"Oh really?" Debbie replied with a playful smirk.

Mark and Zasha looked at each other as if they were sharing an inside joke before Olga called her daughter over.

"Sorry, mama is calling me," she told the Graysons as she excused herself.

"So..." Debbie trailed off, raising her eyebrow at her son whose cheeks were rosy red.

"Mom, please don't make it weird," Mark begged.

"You and Zasha seem to be hitting it off."

"I begged you not to make it weird," he groaned, covering his face.

"I was just asking!" Debbie said with a giggle. "Why are you being so offensive?"

"I'm not, mom, I'm just... ugh," he groaned again. "Please don't say anything to Josef and Olga. Don't make it weird."

"I won't, I won't," Debbie reassured him. "Are you gonna ask her out though?"

"Mom!"

"Okay, okay, I'm leaving," she said with a hearty laugh, nodding at Zasha who was walking back to her seat.

"Sorry about that, my mom was being strange," Zasha said. "Everything okay?" she asked Mark, who now looked like he'd been slapped over and over again.

"Yeah, yeah! Great! Everything's great!"

She smiled at him but Mark leaned over and kept his head down. Another moment of awkward silence fell upon the two; Zasha looked around while tapping her toes and Mark's sight was glued to the floor. From the corner of his eye, he could see his mom and Olga delicately signalling at him to make his move. He covered the sides of his face and continuously mouthed "No," but the two were unrelenting. He took a deep breath and finally sat back up, and looked over at Zasha who was still pretending to casually look around.

"Hey, uh, Z?"

She quickly looked over at him with wide eyes, "Yes?"

Mark looked behind her head and watched as Olga and Debbie were giggling and whispering to each other, like a bunch of high school girls who just saw their best friend talking to their crush.

"Uh, I'm hungry."

The smile on Zasha's face was quickly replaced with a look of confusion. "Okay... and?"

"Oh! Um," he cleared his throat, "do you... like burgers?"

Zasha giggled and nodded, "I do like burgers."

Controlling his urge to fist pump, Mark cheekily bit his lower lip and moved a little closer, "You wanna head out and grab a bite?"

"Uh..." she turned around and watched as Olga and Debbie quickly nodded their heads, her mom giving her a sign of approval to leave the party. "Sure, I'm starving."

Josef looked on as the two of them stood up and began to make their way to the exit. Sighing in defeat and sadness, he called them over to the place where he's been stationed at since the Graysons arrived.

"Papa, we're just gonna get something to eat," she informed him nervously, knowing his scare tactics when it came to the guys she introduced him to.

Josef's eyes softened as the sight of his little girl, who he knew and finally accepted was growing up. She was making her way into the world and as much as he wanted to always protect her, he knew that she was just as smart and as capable to start doing it herself.

He took his daughter's hand and held it tight, "Okay, call me if you need a ride home."

"I will," Zasha said, giving him a kiss on the cheek. "Love you, papa."

"I love you too," he replied with a smile that was immediately erased when he focused his attention to Mark. "Bring her home by 11:30, and no sneaking into her room by the window," he ordered the teenage boy sternly.

Caught by surprise by the sudden formality, Mark straightened his back and nodded. "Uh yes, y-yes sir, Red Rush, sir."

"Papa!" she exclaimed. "No more scare tactics."

"I'm sorry," he chuckled, "that was the last one, I promise."

[tarantulas4davey]

i saw someone else mention it but how do you think the ralbert youtuber au would go if they only met online so like race doesnt know waht ao looks like?

OH MY GOD yes ok i’ve talked about this before but Many Thoughts, Head Full™️ about this and that time someone brought it up made me half regret how i originally wrote it cause ITS SO FUCKING GOOD

ok so imagine if you will -

the sort of,,,,, key among us crew??? from before, but minus al. at this point al has been streaming on twitch for a hot minute and posts youtube vids sometimes but he’s faceless and sort of underground compared to the rest of them

then he plays in a different lobby with spot and elmer right when the game started blowing up, and the rest is history

spot reaches out on discord and offers to have him in their main lobby for a few rounds on stream and they go from there

for the record when he first joins it’s literally a copy paste of jason’s reaction corpse the first time they meet but it’s race’s reaction to “red” (find here) i’m not kidding the thirst is REAL besties

and like obviously it goes well cause red keeps playing with the massive group

but in the shuffle race gets red’s discord and follows him on instagram and twitter and stuff

and race being race is like ‘i’m gonna befriend him cause he seems GREAT’ meanwhile albert’s brain is just short circuiting cause there’s a pretty boy ACTUALLY TRYING TO TALK TO HIM !!!

and after a couple months they’re streaming after they get proximity chat working and red is ACTUALLY crew mate for once and they’ve finished their tasks and are just chatting

and albert just says something about piercings or his hair or his tattoos or something and race is like “bro you know i have no clue what you look like right?”

albert’s just like “????? i haven’t sent you a picture or something ???? lol one sec” and he just messages one of the only pictures he has of himself to race on insta so he can open it without showing his stream

and obviously albert can’t see this at the time but race literally goes “😳🤭🥴” on stream to several thousand people. like you can literally see the moment it hit race’s brain that albert was hot.

long story very short cause this post is going to be ridiculously long any what they keep talking and vid chatting behind the scenes and streaming together (and flirting so much all the fans can’t tell if they’re already dating or not honestly)

and eventually they get a chance to meet up in person (and it may or may not be a date that they haven’t told anyone is a date)

they film some stuff together but overall they’re pretty lowkey about the fact they’re kind of a thing,,,,,, like romantically. cause they don’t want the internet to run with it and make it something it’s not before they’ve figured out how much they actually like eachother

the answer is a hell of a lot. like just- so much. they’re not MaGiCaLlY iN lOvE or anything but they just sort of click and can tell that t h i s is the type of person they would WANT to spend their life with

which is why they publicly announce their relationship 10 months later. mostly cause they’re moving in together and don’t really have a platonic explanation for buying a 2 bedroom apartment that has one guest bedroom.

and obviously by this point there’s been plenty of theories and guesses (that were honestly quite accurate and weren’t horribly disrespectful like the nightmare that was the 2014 gaming community cause both parties were publicly out as gay, in race’s case, and bi, in red’s) but having it confirmed was a big ‘holy shit’ moment for the fandom

and the squad is some of their best friends so they’ve known for months and they’re all just like “lol yeah all that’s changed for us is we can make fun of them for being grossly adorable on stream now and tease them on twitter instead of in the groupchat”

albert does his face reveal in similar fashion to the original like,,,,, 3 months after that?? and then from there it pretty much just follows that natural flow of canon au

oh except they get engaged a bit later lol. closer to 27/28 then 23/24 (i cant remember what age i had down in that post)

ahhhhh this was really fun !!!! i love this concept sm and have been thinking about the differences since the original ask came through over a month ago

thank you for being patient with me anon !!! this has been sitting half done in my drafts for far too long so i’m finally posting it

[the-outsiders-blogg]

I’ve got a request. Maybe twobit forms a secret friendship with a really cool soc girl. They started talking because of a shared love for Mickey. One day he finds out she is being abused. that’s also why she would only met up with him at night, because her dad would throw her out for associating with ‘trash’. Or something like that idk

Thank you for the request babe! I love this concept sm 🤗

Different sides of the tracks (two bit x reader)

You and find a greaser that you get along with really well, but your dad isn’t too crazy about you running around with him.

You were at the drive in. You’d ditched your ride, he turned out to be an ass, so you decided to sit in one of the seats by yourself. You didn’t really mind being alone. You liked the quiet actually. It was refreshing, because things were pretty... hectic at home.

Just after you sat down, you heard a certain greaser making a scene with a few soc girls. Technically, you were a soc too, you just didn’t like to think the world was so black and white - socs and greasers. The greaser leaning into the nice, convertible corvette was Two Bit Mathews, a loud mouthed greaser with a good sense of humor. You thought so at least. You knew him from school, y’all had a few classes together, but you didn’t know much about him other than that.

You tried to ignore the complaining and squealing of the soc girls. Sometimes you hated how shallow soc girls could be, how they could complain about someone trying to make friends with them. Eventually you heard the soc girls tell Two Bit to get lost, and you heard his footsteps walk in your direction.

“Is this seat taken?” asked Two from behind you.

You looked up at him. “All yours.”

Two Bit sat down. He looked half surprised that he didn’t have to convince you to let him have the seat.

“Nice shirt,” you said looking at his t shirt with Mickey printed on the front of it.

“Well thanks,” said Two Bit. “You a big fan of Mickey?”

“Yeah, it’s tuff enough,” you said.

Two Bit grinned at your use of the word “tuff.” Socs didn’t usually say that.

“What brings you to the chair section of the drive in?” inquired Two.

You shrugged. “I wasn’t having a great time in the car section.”

Two Bit nodded knowingly. “It’s y/n, right?”

You nodded.

“I’m Two Bit,” he said reaching out his hand. “Nice to meet ya.”

You shook his hand. You usually didn’t shake hands with guys. You two watched the rest of the movie together and chatted about movie snacks, cars, and school. Eventually, Two brought up the elephant in the room.

“You know your pretty nice for a soc,” he said politely.

You smiled at him. You didn’t want to get into that whole ‘things aren’t that black and white thing,’ so you just said, “Thank you.”

Two walked out of the drive in with you, still cracking jokes and going on about how the plot of the movie.

“So, where are you headed after this?” he asked.

“Dunno. Gonna find somewhere to sleep.” you said with your eyes downcast.

“Not gonna sleep at your place?” asked Two.

You didn’t respond.

“Well, do you wanna come over to my friend’s house? They always let people crash there,” said Two Bit nicely.

You couldn’t tell if he was trying to get laid or actually offering you a place to sleep. You didn’t really care either, as long as it meant not going home. So you agreed to go with him.

The house he brought you to was smaller than you expected. You knew that things were different on this side of the neighborhood, but this house was just so run down. Maybe you just weren’t used to seeing houses like that.

“Who’s place is this?” you said, hesitating at the front door step.

“My friends, Sodapop, Pony, and Darry live here,” said Two holding the front door open. He opened it without unlocking it.

You scoffed. “Some friends you have,” you muttered before walking through the door.

The house was surprisingly well kept. The furniture was worn, but clean, and everything was organized neatly.

“Anyone home?” called Two Bit, looking into the kitchen.

“Yeah, I’m here, Darry’s here too,” said a voice from the kitchen.

“Hey Soda, Darry,” said Two, leading you into the kitchen. “This is y/n.”

You waved to them awkwardly. You weren’t expecting to meet anyone. They looked at you a little surprised; you were dressed like any other soc girl after all, but they didn’t say anything, they just greeted you politely.

“Nice to meet you,” said Sodapop. You didn’t know there were greasers that looked as nice as him.

“Y/n needs a place to stay tonight, is that alright?” asked Two.

“Yeah of course,” said Darry, cleaning some dishes.

You were surprised how willing they were to help someone they didn’t even know. Two Bit guided you to the living room again and turned on the TV. Funnily enough, Micky was on.

“Beer?” Two Bit asked.

You nodded with a polite smile. Two disappeared into the kitchen and came back with two cold beer bottles, handing one to you.

“Some hospitality,” you said popping open the beer bottle.

“Yeah. We’re more human than the socs make us out to be,” said Two Bit, half jokingly.

You grinned at him as you took off your jacket with your eyes still focused on the TV. You realized Two was looking at your shoulder. You looked back at him confused for a second, before realizing you had revealed a large, purple colored bruise.

“Never seen a bruise before?” you asked defensively.

“Not one that size. Especially on a pretty girl like you,” he retorted.

“Don’t go on about it,” you said, getting annoyed for the first time that night.

“Where’d you get that?” said Two Bit prying.

“I fell.”

Two was obviously unconvinced.

“My dad gave it to me, alright? Don’t go on about it,” you snapped.

Two was suddenly at an uncharacteristic loss for words. “Y/n, I’m so sorry I didn’t know,” he finally managed to get out.

“It’s fine, it’s nothing,” you said without expression.

“It’s really not,” said Two moving from the lounge chair to sit next to you on the couch.

You felt a lump growing in your throat. Of course you weren’t okay with it, but it had become your new normal. You didn’t think about it that often; but now you were talking about it.

“Y/n, if you ever need a place to stay again, just talk to me,” continued Two Bit.

You sighed tiredly. “Thank you, Two.” You looked at him with saddened eyes.

“Hey, it’s okay,” he said. “Can I wrap my arm around you?”

You nodded, closing your eyes to hold back tears. Two wrapped his arm around you like he said he would, and you leaned into his chest, letting out a small sob.

“Shh, it’s okay, it’s ok,” said Two Bit softly. “Everything's okay now.”

🥺🥺 WOW this one hits different. Sorry I got a bit carried away it’s pretty long. I might write another part on this one, send a request if you want a second part :)

[zepdeans]

there’s not a lot I can say about s3 that hasn’t already been said (and articulated 200x better) but! here are some of my (albeit dumb) thoughts :~)

ep1 -isak leaning against the bathroom wall gets me EVERY time its such a powerful scene esp introducing you to s3 and tarjei..... spare some talent for the rest of us please -LiTeN gUtTeN fRa StRaNgEr tHiNgS -isak rly ties his pants w a shoelace...... -isak noticing even for the first time bc of his laugh.. whew.... also. i love this intro SOOO much bc its so non-monumental? theres no dramatic music or whatever but its not subtle.... like you know right away o shit love interest!! hello sir!! bc isak’s expression watching him :’) i could go on -isak is a bad liar HOWEVER this only applies to stupid nontrivial things e.g. the black sweatshirt. but when you look at him lying about like, his sexuality, he hides that shit well -”c00l” isak. i hate u so much -honestly all u have to do is look at even for .2 seconds and u can tell this boy has had a crush for a solid month bc he just looks awestruck (HOWEVER henrik’s acting is *chef’s kiss* bc its subtle enough to go undetected b4 you actually know eVEN SAW HIM ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL) -even isak and emma all sitting on the bench together is funny enough on its on but then a song called threeway comes on and like. julie sdshjsfdjfkjskd ep2 -there’s something so endearing about even’s handwriting idek what -i LOVE even’s video w mikael it reveals so much about him to us- how weird (ok we saw how weird he was w the paper towel thing but) and dorky he is? and his love of film! his view on love stories and how he sees the world :( but it also shows a lot abt isak because he saw even making stupid jokes about vladimir putin and was like yeah we about to fall in LOVE love -isak not using headphones to watch even’s video or r+j?? bde or general incompetence what’s the verdict guys -the isak watching r+j scene hits so hard like yall ever think about isak lying in bed at 3am staring at the ceiling probably thinking about how he’s never gonna get a beautiful world-shattering romance like that like ..... also him changing positions skam get out of my life go away ur too realistic -not to make this even more self-projection-y but isak simultaneously being the least emotionally vulnerable person ever but crying during r+j > -i made a post abt this already but even’s INTENSE staring vs isak’s “i have never looked anyone in the eye in my life” gets me it says so much about their characters -even said i see your bde move (asking me to buy you beer) and i raise u with my own (inviting you to my house after faking not having my id) -”if you listen to music” even is such a dick fsdjhsdff -when the message comes on...... i rlly do owe julie my life huh -”have you heard about my rapping?” “I have actually” have we talked about this enough????? 1. isak finally feels comfortable enough w even to flirt and his first move is to RAP for him jesus christ. keep in mind this is the same man who pulled that smooth af ibuprofen line w emma like...... 2. even has heard about isak’s rapping. either this means im-not-on-social-media even went out of his way to go thru homeboy’s instagram OR isak’s rapping is actually talked about. i- -the group chat messages. cant believe i forgot about the 2016 clown epidemic

ep3  -mahdi is a good friend and i love him. thank u -even wearing isak’s cap until he chucks it at him sjksfjsdjsd -how much yall wanna bet isak’s been listening to illmatic on repeat since last friday thinking abt even (even tho meeting sonja shattered his heart a lil) [also kinda an aside but i think a lot about how isak n even bonded over rap and how some homophobic lyrics in 90s etc rap might have impacted them? or how that little detail ties into julie’s story? e.g. halftime by nas, which is on illmatic] -whats worse. even staring into isaks soul wearing a size xs see-through white t shirt or isak staring at even for five (5) seconds before chugging his beer and immediately making out w emma. OR even crashing that party before it can start “i think you guys are bonding too much” cheesy ass shjhfsdhskdf -yall act like evak didnt invent hands. did even shaking isak’s shoulder telling him his apartment is nice mean nothing to u -im convinced robyn wrote call your girlfriend for this scene specifically bc how could anything fit so perfectly by coincidence -is anything better than egging isak on- even bech naesheim (2016) -idk if yall have read the scripts but i love the sock thing so much bc its soo true to how isak thinks and it makes everything so much more interesting and !!!

ep4  -i will never get over even sending isak bad seinfeld memes -even smacking open isak’s locker. first of all whew second of all u think as soon as he got into the stairwell he lowkey cried bc ow -parallel of isak saying “it’s 2016, why are you religious?” to sana vs. emma’s “it’s 2016, get out of the closet” to isak anyone :( -”takk sanasol!!!!” thank u isak for my life -I wanted to be with you aloneeeee -even’s face when he sees the pool like we get it youre a director -how many times do i need to say even is such a dick sjkfsd “does it look like i care about my hair?” “usually but not right now” like this would only work on isak i love soulmates!! -even just.. fully choking isak out ssdhgfd got em -when the first notes of im kissing you start ooh boy -even going in for the kill kiss and isak going from huh to oooo shit and pushing his lips out at the last minute. phenomenal 

ep5 -ngl as soon as im not in love comes on my heart goes uwu bc like!!!! that song the meaNING.... them......... i jus love this scene sm like theyre in their own little bubble and they both feel so comfortable and at peace :((  -even leaving isak comics about an inside joke of theirs like yall mind if i scream -isak feeling left out from the conversation and his friends whew i felt that... and having them talk about how gross it is to makeout with a girl w facial hair?? blease :( -taking stock of isak’s nicknames: issy k, isabell, izzy, baby jesus, -im not even gonna bother trying to articulate thoughts on Pause bc it’s a literal masterpiece. thank u tarjei henrik and julie for inventing television with this one  -MAGNUS SDFKJSDFJKDSHK "oooh my name is Jonas and I love idealism and reading klassekampen and I don’t like plastic and I skate on a skateboard made of sustainable wood and wear old clothes because new clothes are bad for the environment and I only drink recycled water” screAMMM -what i said abt pause also applies to pride ugh its such a powerful scene and!! the beginning of kicks to isaks stomach. honestly what i fucking love about this episode is how it goes from hell yea best day w even ever to crying in the street within one week (s3 had the best balance of angst and payoff thanks) -even’s Soft Party Flannel... forever tainted by this scene rip -not knowing why even kissed sonja keeps me up at night -speaking of. how used and stupid isak must’ve felt when he saw even completely unbothered, hooking up w his ex at this party?? whew :( -bros is one of my all time favourite clips solely bc of the music?? lift me up gives me chills and when hold my liquor starts i LOSE it -ep5 and 6 remind me of that quote “to see what your characters are really made of you have to break them” because julie rlly goes all in and god it hurts so good

ep6 -never have i ever seen insomnia portrayed as accurately as tarjei did here and i remember when i first watched the cantina scene i was like. winded bc its SO true to sleep deprivation whew -i really like that isak wasnt together with even when he reached out for help and came out to jonas. bc it was him, on his own, being strong enough to talk to his friends and then eventually he was confident and secure enough in himself to be in a good place when even started reaching back out!! -i have no idea what its like to come out to someone, to be afraid of your friends rejecting you, everything isak went through. but tarjei’s acting of when, like, you have something you KNOW you have to tell someone, and youve put yourself in the position where youre going to have to tell them, but youre terrified and eventually just force yourself SAY the words??  -and isak’s smile when he realizes jonas is gonna be his bro no matter what :’)))

ep7 -weirdly one of my favourite isak looks (black t-shirt grey snapback c-c-c-combo) -”what’s your name again?” have i mentioned i love sana and isak bc i love sana and isak -jonas truly is the best friend oh man. perceptive, thoughtful, loving, laidback, a friggen BRO. tbh i was wary of him in s1 and thought he didn’t treat eva well (tho I recognized he loved her a lot, he was just bad at being a boyfriend) but jonas in s3?? just goes to show how powerful your perspective of someone can change viewing them in a different role!! because while jonas was a crappy bf, he literally is SUCH an incredible friend and his actions and words and just! him! in s3 completely redeemed any illwill I had towards him :’) -maybe im a little gay (up there with other s3 comedy classics such as “thats a boys name”) -mahdi season WHEN ugh a legend -’when someone asks isak if hes going to a family party’ literally what other reason for living do i have if not to read the boy squad text convos -isaks locker finally opening and his smile at evens drawing whewwwwwww!! also even rlly is that guy who wont text you back but will leave hand written love letters in ur locker -also. another stellar look from valtersen -slutt a meld meg is a whole masterpiece like what other piece of media has the RANGE -eskild: play hard to get. jonas: no smiley!!! isak: nah fam im good B)

ep8 -this episode is BEAUTIFUL bc you feel practically euphoric?? like hell yeah theyre finally together!! isak is out and accepted and even is done with sonja! but theres also this unsettling undercurrent of worry bc you know deep down something isnt right? why is sonja calling isak? why is even acting kinda strange? whats going on? yknow?? -literally never going to get over 5 fine frokner :~) even is such a goddamn nerd and he’s the man of isak’s dreams can u believe!!  -sana’s little speech is SO important in so many ways ooo i love her so much -also have we discussed eskild making evak do a photoshoot for him. highkey those are my favourite pictures of ALL time u can tell even was like hm strange but im down while isak was more omg guys stop🙄 omg haha eskild i cant believe youre making me cuddle with even for a photo🙄 i cant believe ur making me snuggle this dude for a pic!!!! definitely would not have done this otherwise!!! -magnus only realizing it’s THAT even after seeing how isak looks at him. whew -isak is so brave i rlly love that kid! his text to his mamma <3 -no r*make will EVER nail text conversations like mari/julie did w evak’s this week thanks for coming to my ted talk. i'd quote the best ones but it would literally double the length of this post (ok ill cave. “hahaha shut up❤️” GETS me) -you dont know whats in store but you know what youre here for. hallo -isak running around oslo with even’s clothes looking for him :( his heart is so big he cares about even so so much -when Part II (on the run) comes on in the credits its like a kick in the teeth honestly

ep9 -ive already screamed enough about cherry wine but god it fucks me up -cannot put into words how much I love eskild and how good of a person he is, he just has so much love in his heart  -”wait they have waffles here? see ya” -this convo is why i love skam so much!!!! magnus giving insight and good thoughtful advice to isak was such a brilliant move by julie (also truLy heartwarming) bc like. magnus is a flawed layered character! he’s dumb and ignorant and not very careful with his words BUT hes also such a sweet guy. i genuinely dont think he would hurt a fly and him talking about vilde (in ep10) is ;-; bc he really likes her and respects her and wants to be a gentleman! hes so loving and just. yeah. also i wonder if isak and magnus (and vilde) ever talked about having mentally ill parents and lent on each other for support bc like....<3 [sidenote- this is why i HATE b***** like they absolutely massacred magnus’s character and magnus did not deserve that!] -det er bare slutt........ very cool of tarjei to invent acting here. also the character development makes me WEEP like at first isak lied and told his pappa it was over bc its easier to brush stuff off and say you were joking than be vulnerable especially about 1. having a boyfriend and 2. saying youve already broken up?? but then isak was like hey im done with lying about who i am bc i want my life to be REAL and he told his dad the truth even if it was hard and even if he was trying rlly hard not to cry  -isak reaching out to even<3 standing up for even<3 -o helga natt. another scene i genuinely cannot comment on bc u cant really put into any written language how magical and breathtaking and heartbreaking and powerful and brilliant this scene is. so. -jk. obvs i cant say anything intelligent enough to give this scene justice but probably the most stunning piece of television i have ever had the privilege of watching. even’s text breaks my heart every gd time (esp since we never really see this side of him before finding out he’s bipolar? his guilt, insecurity, feeling like a burden, being scared of losing everyone in his life because he thinks he’ll hurt them). the music is SO beautiful i cry real tears as soon as the strings start. also the brilliance of JUST o helga natt playing and no dialogue except for isaks one line? isak’s realization when he sees the cross. him RUNNING across oslo to go to even. the FLASHBACKS all going backwards in chronological order until them smoking on the bench. isak looking at the bench and not seeing even and u can feel his heart breaking and urs breaks too! but then he remembers the bathroom and he turns and theres even and whewwww. du er ikke alene<3

ep10 -minutt for minutt is THE most healing clip im telling u. and like.. seeing even depressed really is hard and as someone who was very very depressed for 4-ish yrs of their life it rlly hits me? like when youre in an especially bad funk and you cant get out of bed and youre just numb and exhausted and feel so shitty and u want to be alone but you really dont???? could go on but literally i owe henrik holm my life for his portrayal of even  -not to be a soft bitch on main but when isak tucks the blanket over even and it keeps getting pulled off his back so isak just. covers that spot with himself? -i do love that call between sonja and isak bc once again! a flawed (realistic) human being -and isak thinking its his fault even is depressed? it means a lot that sonja told him its no ones fault, even is just bipolar. and i wonder if isak felt that way about his mamma as well, guilty for her being ill, and if what sonja said made him feel better about that situation too :( -lowkey random but when isak is rambling really fast and he goes “maybe we’ll get bombed tomorrow and talking about all this is a waste of time” it continually punches me in the throat bc that is /exactly/ how i ramble and think like tarjei........ pls -like eskild said. there really is so much love in isak’s little grumpy teenage body<3 -isak no longer just passively accepting life as its given to him, now he fights for him and even!!!!!  -isak is such a forgiving person and seeing him able to just accept things and move on? incredible -i remember when i first watched ep1 i was like oooo even and isak are gonna be kosegruppa partners and thats when theyll first get together, cooking food or smth!! but lmfao after episode 3? kosegruppa whomst???? also hilarious vilde thought isak of all people would willingly sign up for kosegruppa just to go to revue parties -even and linn friendship!!!! -cannot articulate how mf heartwarming it is to see even smiling and being more himself after being depressed (also thank u julie for having ups and downs coming out of his depression- its so true to life having one day when youre feeling awesome and then the next you feel awful again for no reason and its SO frustrating) -I had to stop watching passe pa meg cause it made me toooooo crazy! it would just be like: “I like seeing you laugh” and I was like: *SCREAMS* -im the fucking master of lying 😤 -literally don’t know why isak and even ragging on kosegruppa is so funny but “did you think I joined to have fun” gets me every time -I SAW YOU THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL -also even literally radiating love @ isak watching get snarky w vilde on the phone bc it reminded him of the first time he saw him! even rly is that boyfriend who thinks isak being pissy is the Best Thing he has Ever seen -halla boiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz -literally the glo up of isak telling his friends the order in which he’d bang them -No filter! wow I love symbolism -so nice to see the girls together for a lil bit :) -the boys hyping up mags while also telling him to be respectful awwwwww -take desperate to a whole new level- Confucius  -who’s going to show isak how to properly hold a beer can -literally evak banter gets me thru the day. thank u tarjei and henrik for having phenomenal chemistry + improvisation skills + making isak and even the dumbest nerdiest boys i have ever seen -biology partner. and friend. ;-; -even literally is the biggest stoner blease -isak’s talk with eva is just sooooo<3 and not to be emo on main but every single word of the last few sentences he says hit me so gd hard because i feel the exact same way in my BONES -livet er nå 💛

final thoughts :( <3 -this season is so special. it feels like one really long oscar-worthy movie or smth?? i cant even exblain, its just magical. ALSO very dear to my heart. -julie really said you guys have seen isak sad and alone and repressed for the past two seasons so heres him falling in love with the best person in the world and coming to terms with who he is and being brave and opening up and finally being happy and living a real life -this season definitely feels different from s1/2/4 to me editing or production or music smth wise? as in, its got a lot fewer aesthetic shots and the cinematography seems a bit different if that makes any sense???? I also think this is the season most focused just on the main (i.e. not many- if any? sideplots going on) -literally will never get over the thought, love, and detail put into this season. when i say there is literally nothing i would change about it, i mean it and coming from my nitpicky ass??? means a lot lmfao. the acting, directing, music choices, symbolism...... sublime -s3′s cold rainy autumn aesthetic makes me ACHE for fall and also nostalgic for a highschool experience I never had lmao?? also. all the nighttime clips >>> -don’t know what else to say except thank u skam for my life

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Primadonna Girl - K.W.J. AU

You were a model reaching the peak of your career, when your darling daddy just announced that you’re getting married to Kim Woojin, the heir of his best friend’s company.

Genre: Businessman!AU/Fluff/Some light Angst

Pairing: Woojin x Female Reader

A/N: almost the last chapter!!! this scene is full of flufffffffff <3 and someone is making a comback (((((; ty 4 reading,,,,,, love yall sm mwa mwa

Word Count: 1200

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Woojin joined you inside of the humongous closet (which was more of a room actually, and it confused you two, since your parents know that you guys cycle through around eight pairs of suits and seven dresses), and sat down beside you in the middle of the lush carpet.

“What are you doing?” you ask as he opened up his own suitcase. He looks to you and smiles.

“What kind of a husband would I be if I just let my wife go on a trip alone? Considering your assistant is still probably looking over the handbook you sent, it would be an awfully stressful trip to handle everything on your own, right?” he said, standing up to gather a few polo shirts and a maroon long sleeve item.

You sit there in silence, holding your socks. It was at that moment that you realized one thing. You love this man. It’s only been a short while, but the little time you spent together got you thinking how much you’d enjoy spending more time with him. And with that thought, you muster up the courage to look him in the eye and say these words:

“I think I like you,” you start, squeezing the poor duck patterned socks. “I know it’s literally been like, a day, but I think I really like you.”

You look down, smoothing the article of clothing in your hands before rolling them. You continue packing as Woojin stood there, smiling softly at you. In his head, only one thing was running through his mind: I think I love this girl.

...

That night, after packing almost half of your entire wardrobe (which wasn’t much really, and you realized you needed to go shopping badly), you and Woojin head to bed, and this time, completely disregarding the pillow fort you made in between, going straight to Woojin’s arms.

The next morning, you woke up to the sound of your alarm softly beeping underneath your pillow. You gather your surroundings, not being able to move much because of Woojin’s heavy arms. For one workaholic, he sure does have some thick biceps. You roll over on top of your fiancé, kissing him on the nose. After a few times, Woojin wakes up, groaning about how it’s too early in the morning.

You laugh, hitting his chest lightly and getting up. “Darling, it’s already eight in the morning, our flight leaves at ten.”

He grumbles into the pillow and you smile, brushing through the knots in your hair. You bother him again, laying your full body weight on him. “Wake up, wake up, brush your teeth and make a bumble shake!” you began singing to him, as he lets out a few more groans before sitting upright.

“Oh shake it to the left, and shake it to the right,” he sings measly, shaking his head with the lyrics, trying to get himself to open his eyes. You beamed at him, and he grinned back. The sunlight seeped into the room, creating a heavenly glow around the two of you.

“Let’s get going so we can grab some breakfast,” Woojin starts, pushing you back into the white comforter and heading towards the bathroom to freshen up.

...

The two of you were going to have breakfast at a cafe just a block away from the airport. You were decked out in a cream chiffon sundress, wearing a new line that a company has gifted you. Sleek gold bracelets adorned your wrists, and you let Woojin wear the gold earrings it came with, just a simple hanging earring. He was dressed up in a cream button down with the cuffs rolled to his elbows.

To simplify everything, you looked like a model couple to the public eye. In fact, you heard some ladies whispering about you two at another table to your right. Under your Cartier sunglasses that your dad gave you for your eighteenth birthday, you peek over to see them gossiping, trying to hide behind their big hot pink purses, which made you roll your eyes. Hot pink was so out of season.

“So, what do you want?” Woojin said, flipping through the menu. You chose to sit outside, under the sun, because you just opened a new highlighter and you wanted to show the whole world how gorgeous it was. You leaned over to him, resting your hand on his thigh. He looked like a real CEO there, legs crossed and his own pair of sunglasses adorning his face.

You smiled, how beautiful we look, oh my god those ladies are fangirling right now.

“The pancake combo please,” you say, pointing to the picture of three pancakes and a latte. He nodded, getting up to order. You waited patiently for him, fiddling with the car keys. In the middle of thinking about what kind of key chain to get Woojin, one of the ladies stood up and went inside, following your fiancé.

You narrow your eyes at her, looking at them through the glass windows. Fortunately, Woojin was already talking to the employee, who looked a bit familiar. But seeing the woman get ‘familiar’ with Woojin was enough to make you stalk over to them, opening the glass doors and letting the chimes ring.

He spots you and waves you over, completely ignoring the girl trying to chat him up. Once you pass her, you couldn’t help but think she was well over twenty nine, which made you cringe internally. Woojin puts his hand on your waist and you lean against the counter, waiting for your order to be called out.

“Two pancake combos for mister Kim Woojin!” an employee called out, and when you get a good look at his face, you gasp, taking of your sunglasses.

“Braces boy!” you say, not expecting to see him again, considering this cafe was a different branch.

Jeongin looked at you surprised, “Oh, noona!”

“What are you doing here!” you whisper shouted, excited to see a familiar face. Woojin got the tray off of the counter, offering a smile to the younger boy.

His eyes widened as he bowed to him, before suddenly turning to you.

“Oh, I got reassigned here because it’s closer to where I live,” he glanced  back at Woojin. “Are you together?” he asks, curious as to why you were almost going to murder him the other day and now you were eating together.

You smiled at the kid, “He’s my fiancé now.”

You deliberately wanted to let that woman hear this, and to your delight, she just about fainted. I mean, wasn’t it obvious enough that you two were in some sort of relationship?

Jeongin looked perplexed, nodding at the two of you and bidding you a nice meal.

“Who was that?” Woojin whispered to you as he carried your tray over to your table.

“Oh, the little kid who served us coffee when we first met. Remember that?” you reply, lightening up the mood. He thought about it for a moment before laughing, giving you a playful side eye.

“Inconvenience, huh?” You groan in embarrassment, kicking him underneath the table. He just laughed, and the two of you chatted away until you finish your meal.

Chapter 10/10

Masterlist

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Fabricante de deseos

So this one (Wishmaker) started weird because the tittle is translated in the website but not in the episode itself, but anyway let's go!

I just love Adrien's latin spanish VA so much okay? He's so freacking talented and a beautiful human being

Was Tikki's VA changed? Because she feels really off... like she had a really hard time reaching Tikki's voice tone (and believe me, it's pretty high)

Also I know Plagg's VA has been another person since s2 but I have the first one's voice so deep in my mind that when I hear him I still think: "Oh yeah he's another VA"

Ngl I really like Luka's soft tone of voice, it's so soothing (in an aroace way btw)

Aww I really love the scene where Luka is explaining the inner music of Marinette and Adrien, tho I couldn't avoid thinking about a sad Garbage Agreste playing a sad piano while Adrien tries to play a rock song or something lol

Umm they actually left Alec's akuma name as Wishmaker instead of Fabricador de deseos??? Then why bother to translate the tittle in the first place? Also this reminded me a stupid headcanon I had around s2 where Alec could be akumatized with something related to a duck because of how he was affected in Simon Says XD

Chat Noir's mocking tone in latin spanish hits soo different

Oh how much I missed Luka's transformation sequence!

I'd like to give some context before my next comment: I like to watch audiovisual media with both audio and subtitles in spanish not because I have any auditive impairment but just in case and I like to compare each translation

Ok now that said, it was weird to see that the subs was written "Dont' waste your time, I don't have" (refering to CN telling he doesn't has/remembers his childhood dreams) but the audio said "Don't waste your time, if you don't have to spare"...

Now Wishmaker misgendered Chat Noir because he said "Vive tus sueños de niña" meaning "Live your girl childhood dreams" (unless you headcanon CN using she/her pronouns, then congratulations it's canon in the latin spanish dub)

It's so cringy to see SM in the gone-crazy anime camera angle...

Jeez Luka is a good liar for someone who dislikes lies 😬

Adrien's laugh? 100/10

And in conclusion, drag queen Alec my beloved <3

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Stress In The Night

Anon said: Can I request a scenario where chanyeol is stressed from work and gets mad at his gf for trying to talk to him.. a happy ending pls!.

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Genre [Rating] : Angst 

Length: 3,397 words

Pairing: Chanyeol x Reader

A/n: slight cussing and little bit of harm (but not much). this is not written the same way my other scenarios have been written so it is extremely choppy and not well written like the others. Sorry for botching the request so horribly and for not coming up with a better name for the scenario. This also took me awhile to fulfill because I didn’t know how to do the fight scene or anything of the scenes that would happen after that. 

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Exo had just finished a long tour, traveling from Korea to America, to Japan, to China and back and all of the members were exhausted! Fan’s screams were still ringing in their ears from all of the arena performances but especially from those that crowded around them as they’d attempt to make their ways to or from airports. Chanyeol could still feel the touches of the fans that would reach their hands out to touch him as he and the rest of Exo were jostled around by managers and staff so that they could get by the endless sea of fans without being harmed. It was a typical thing for the members to have to put up with but after having just performed in China, getting on a plane no more than an hour after the performance and having arrived in Korea to this was a bit much for them to take, and that doesn’t take into consideration what the anti-fans had tried doing during their tour that they’d had to put up with: Baekhyun had been hit in the face by a large book that one of them had thrown at them causing his nose to bleed profusely, Chen had been scratched by the long, pedicured nails of another enough to make him bleed, Suho and Kyungsoo had struggled to get away as staff pushed fans and anti-fans away that were tearing at their clothes, someone had stuck their legs out causing Lay to fall and Kai to trip over his fallen body, Xiumin had his hair pulled by one of them and, Sehun had had his feet stomped on, last but not least, Chanyeol- oh Chanyeol- one of his favorite necklaces (that you had bought for him) had been jerked off his neck and stolen by a fan that had gotten past the barrier of staff members. All of those things had happened at different locations but it was still enough to irk the members especially Chanyeol who had suffered last as they headed out of Incheon airport upon finishing their tour.

  Each member let out a relieved sigh as they took their seats in the van that had awaited their arrival to take them back to the dorms. None of them were in the mood to talk much, even Baekhyun so they all just rested their heads on the head rests and closed their eyes to try and get some sleep or some would stare out of the windows at the scenery passing by as they began to leave the airport, and others- such as Chanyeol- pulled out their phones and earphones to listen to music and mess around on different apps and check media reports. As Chanyeol listened to Linkin Park he received a message from SM, along with the others members. “Did you guys read this?!” Baekhyun scoffs as he holds up his phone, SM expects us to come back to the building and start working on the new choreography for our next comeback and they want us to finish it and have the MV filmed in less than a week!”

Groans and whimpers filled the silence of the car ride. “They said we’d have two weeks off to rest after this!” Chen complained, tossing around in his seat like a child throwing a tantrum, “Two weeks my ass!” Chanyeol chimed in furiously with a low growl, “you should know by now that two weeks to SM is only two minutes for us! As long as all nine of us are still together they’ll push us from comeback to comeback, tour to tour, until we drop dead!” He was enraged as he sat back down in his seat, with his arms crossed over his chest! He knew that SM would pull something like this, all of them did. It wouldn’t have been such a big deal since they’re all so used to it but Chanyeol had promised you that he was really going to have a break this time and he’d spend every moment of the two weeks with you but now he’d have to, once again, tell you that there was a change in plans and he knew that you’d be upset just like he was- hell you had threatened to break up with him if SM was always going to keep you two apart by keeping him busy like this. Looks like that break up would happen sooner rather than later.

No one said anything else throughout the rest of the drive, they all sulked in their own special ways over the lack of fair treatment and rest that they deserved. Some scoffs and murmurs could be heard under the breaths of some of the more irked members but, other than that, all was silent.

  Upon being dropped off at the dorms all of the members trudged to their rooms except Chanyeol, he stood in the living room with his phone opened on an article circling around about the statement of EXO’s new comeback that had been made by SM. As he read further down that article, he became more infuriated! Just as Baekhyun and the text had said, SM expected the comeback to be sometime next week.

Just as he was debating smashing his phone to pieces a text message popped up. It was from you.

“HEY! Wanna come over? You’re probably exhausted but it’d be nice to see you J”

Chanyeol opened up the text and began to type his reply begrudgingly. “Sure. I’ll be there soon but don’t expect too much chatting. I’m tired.”

He knew that it may seem insensitive as he pressed the send button but he wasn’t in the mood to act like everything was all butterflies and rainbows right now after reading the article that confirmed that his plans with you were out the window. The fact that he’d be back to work tomorrow made his blood boil! EXO had just finish what was, perhaps, their longest tour, literally they had JUST FINISHED but now they were expected to be in SM tomorrow learning the new choreography and acting scripts for a new comeback without a single day off at all! Chanyeol felt like he could crush his phone within the palms of his hand due to the anger that resided in him at that moment however, once again a messaged popped up just in time to save his phone from being the victim of his fury.

“That’s ok. I know you just got back so I don’t expect much. We can just chill out J”

“OK, I’ll drive over. Be there soon.”

  The drive didn’t take long since your residence wasn’t far from the dorms, just a few stop lights and a couple of turns before he’d be at the parking lot to your apartment. Chanyeol shut off the engine to his G65, taking a moment to sit in the quiet atmosphere of the car, pondering the choices that he could make about the future of his relationship and the future of his career. Could he persuade you to give it another chance once you’d find out about his new schedule? Could he met with Lee Soo man to convince him to give EXO more time to rest before making a comeback? He wasn’t sure but he’d do whatever it took to make each situation have a decent outcome.

Chanyeol opened the door, not caring how wide open he had flung it since no one was parked near him. Since he hadn’t worn a seatbelt, there was no need to take the time to unbuckle himself so he just stepped out and looked around, taking glimpses of the smog filled night sky and the lampposts that lined the parking lot with chipped paint covering their structures. These weren’t the best apartments in town but they beat living on the streets so at least he could be happy that you had someplace to call home.

“Hey, are you Ok?” a voice called out to him, it was close and the tone was familiar, one that he’s come to love hearing, so he snapped out of his little trance and looked down to see you wrapped up in a light blanket standing in front of him. “Hey, stranger, long time no see” you joke with a growing smile on your face, you open up the blanket and drape it around his body as best as you can, snuggling up to him as you close the remainder of the blanket to your chest, “let’s go inside” “OK.”

  A warm cup of tea was handed to him the moment he sat on the couch. The blanket that you had had wrapped around you was now covering his lower body up to his chest and the warmth of the apartment helped sooth him a bit. It hadn’t of been until he felt the couch dip down as you sat down next to him and smiled when he realized how tense he has been. He smiled back, still tense, but slackened his posture to see if that would help, he also knew that being around you would get him some peace of mind, that is until he’d have to tell you about what SM has pulled.

“So, how was the tour?” you asked. It was always easy to tell when there was something on Chanyeol’s mind, especially if it was bad, and now seemed to be one of those times so you figured you could help him out a bit by talking with him about it even if he had said he wouldn’t talk much earlier.

Chanyeol let out a deep sigh, “at least they didn’t ask what’s on your mind” he thought. “The tour was fine” he replied dryly, “same ol’ same ol’.

“Why so glum? Aren’t you happy to be back home? Do you not want to be here with me?”

The slight hurt and panic laced in your voice as you spoke caused him to swivel his head around until he was looking directly into your worried eyes. “No. No babe that’s not it at all. I’m happy to see you” he confirmed rather hastily but you could tell there was something he was hiding. You decided to press further to see if he’d let out what was bothering him. “Did something happen during the tour or did something happen on the way home?”

“I don’t want to talk about it.”

“C’mon Channie, it’s ok. You know you can tell me anything” you pressed on.

“I said I don’t want to talk about it” he repeated grumpily, curling into the blanket wrapped around him. His face was stern, his jaws clamping against each other, anger could be seen in his eyes as he avoided your gaze, looking down at the floor in front of him as he sat curled on the couch.

“Channie, tell me what’s wrong you know you won’t feel any be…”

“I SAID I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT!” he snapped, glaring at you with an irritated gaze, he teeth clenching together tightly behind his closed lips as his breathing became slightly erratic.

His booming voice frightened you. You curled up against yourself as his gaze remained on you. You knew that something bad really must’ve happened and he may not want to talk but now you were even more pressed to get him to tell you what was wrong. “Chanyeol, you know you won’t feel any better if you don’t tell me what is wrong.”

You barely have enough time to finish your sentence before he snaps at you again, grasping each of your arms in his and holding them tightly, shaking you lightly, “DIDN’T YOU HEAR ME Y/N? I SAID I DON’T WANT TO TALK! IF I SAY I DON’T WANT TO TALK THEN I DON’T WANT TO TALK SO JUST LEAVE ME BE OK!?!”

Tears filled the brim of your eyes at how frightening he was acting, his booming voice didn’t help either especially not when it was directed straight at you and the tight grip that he had on your arms was hurting you- all you wanted to do was whimper and curl into up into a ball to get away from the verbal attack. “Chanyeol, ok I’m sorry. You’re hurting me.” It comes out as a squeak as you look away from his glare, staring down at your knees “ok, we don’t have to talk about it.”

  Chanyeol let go of you and sulked back into his corner of the couch all the while mumbling to himself, and indirectly to you, “and to think they said we could just chill *scoffs* so much for that shit!”

“You know what?!” you ask annoyed, a bit irked that he was acting this way so suddenly to you “I’ve done absolutely nothing wrong  so I don’t see why you’re acting like such an asshole! All I was trying to do was let you get whatever it is that is bothering you off your chest but you’re the one who acted out of line! Look my arms are all red from where you were gripping me so harshly, they might even bruise! I was just trying to help and this is how you act?! Well I’ll tell you what, if that’s how it’s going to be you can just leave! Oh, and by the way! I’ve noticed that you’ve taken off your necklace that I bought you. I remember you promising me that you’d always wear it. Look at me, I’m keeping my promises by always wearing the stuff you buy me so thanks for staying true to your word you lying ass! Oh and also, again, I heard that you’re having a comeback next week! What happened to having two weeks off and spending it with me huh?! Do you really think that I haven’t seen the articles? You just came home from tour! I haven’t seen you in months yet here you are acting as if this is just another ol’ normal day and nothing’s happening when you’ve just hurt me and lied to me twice! I just wanted to spend some time with you and this is what happens?! You know what? I’m through, I’m through with your lies and your attitude! You can just leave now. Leave and don’t ever come back! I never want to see you again!”

Tears pooled out of your eyes as you cried, you didn’t want this to happen but you really couldn’t take it anymore and the way he had just treated you really set you off, it really hurt, so you ended it with him. You couldn’t date Chanyeol anymore and it really hurt, it hurt you so much. You kept listening for the sound of his footsteps to ring throughout the apartment before the door would slam shut but it never came, instead your arms were jerked away your face and you came face to face with an infuriated Chanyeol.

“You think I just chose to take off that necklace huh?! You think I wouldn’t keep my promises to you?! Fans surrounded us at the airport and practically mobbed us practically every time we stepped foot into an airport! None of us got out without some attack or another! Do you really think I’d just stop wearing your necklace after I’d made a promise to always wear it well guess what I kept my promise but some bitch fan of ours got close and stole it straight off of me so that’s why I’m not wearing your damn necklace, don’t blame that on me because I couldn’t control that and it’s not like I could go after everyone in the crowd searching for whomever took the necklace! And as for the comeback, there’s another thing that you have no right to blame on me! Do you really think that any of us want to go straight from having a tour to having a comeback back to back huh?! Well, guess what?! You’re wrong! Do you really think I’d lie to you about wanting to spend time with you then set up a schedule that would make it impossible for me to do that huh?! Do you think I have any control over that huh?! No! No I fucking don’t so don’t you fucking go off on me like that blaming it all on me as if it’s my damn fault because it’s not!”

“Chanyeol let go of me you’re hurting me again!” you scream as you keep your eyes clenched shut. Chanyeol was terrifying you and everything else going on wasn’t helping the situation, thinking of it all was making it harder for you to not wail in complete distress once again, it was all so much to handle in just a short amount of time. “Let go of me and just go!” Even with his grip not faltering you manage to bring your legs up against your chest to form some sort of protection against anything Chanyeol could try to pull as you continued to keep your eyes shut. “Please leave!” you cry “please leave!”

  Moments go by before the grip around your arms ceases. You think Chanyeol is going to leave like you demanded but instead you feel a pair of gentle arms wrap around your curled up frame, “I’m sorry y/n, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean any of that.” The apology shocked you and you open your eyes as you sniffle, tears still escaping in a downpour as eye contact is continuously avoided. “Y/N I’m really sorry. I didn’t mean to take all of my anger out on you like that. I’m so sorry.” The break in his voice brings awareness that he too is crying now and you feel the arms around you begin to tremble. “I’m sorry y/n I’m so sorry!” You look up to see that Chanyeol has pressed himself against you as well as he could and his head rests at the end of your shoulder as he cries, continuously apologizing to you between broken sobs, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”

“It’s ok” you bring yourself to say as you stifle your crying “I’m sorry for getting angry at you. I should’ve been more thoughtful. I’m sorry.” Your arms wrap themselves around the giant frame of his as best as they can in the position that you’re both in together, “I’m sorry.”

  Both of you fell asleep within each other’s arms that night, all of the crying lulled both of you to sleep but it was peaceful since both of you had apologized.

  When Chanyeol woke up he could smell the sweet aroma of bacon and hash browns cooking in the kitchen. When he looked over to the side of the couch were you had been perched and fell asleep against him the night before, he found the spot empty. “of course it’s empty” he thought groggily to himself “food can’t cook itself so they must be in the kitchen.

Chanyeol forced himself off of the couch and made his way to where you were in a zombiefied state, he nearby bumps into you before he stops. “Smells good.” The smile you send him makes him smile “it’s for you. You probably have to be at SM soon so I figured I could make you this real quickly then send you off that way you could eat some good before you have to practice.” “No, I’m not going.” “What?” the look of shock on your face makes him chuckle, “I said I’m not going to practice today” he repeats as he wraps his arms around your waist “I’m going to stay here with you. If SM has a problem with that then they can just shove it and deal with it for a day. Today I’m going to spend my time with you.”

  Just as you finish dishing up the food Chanyeol spins you around to face him. “I love you” he says with a smile, grogginess still fogging his expression so he looks a bit silly. “I love you too” you reply back, hugging his waist. “I never could’ve asked for a better partner!” “And neither could I.”

  Chanyeol leans down to kiss you and as he deepens the kiss both you of simultaneously know that everything is ok. All is forgiven and the day couldn’t possibly start off better than this. This kiss was the start of a good day.

[houseofkatylady-blog]

This is an interesting topic.  I hear it come up A LOT in podcasts and on youtube.  Where do you find inspiration for your art?  My source has changed from where it was when I began and I just wanted to share with you on the off chance you may be struggling to find inspiration for your art.

Not that anyone has asked me, but I thought I would talk about it because I haven’t heard this (specifically where I find a lot of my inspiration from) mentioned a lot.  Most people say to go out and take a walk, read a book, socialize, explore, and basically open yourself up to new experiences.

While all this is very true, I think that there is another resource that isn’t often mined.  At least a lot of people don’t talk about this particular one.  OR I don’t HEAR it being talked about too much…maybe I’m just listening to the wrong people.

For me, where I pull resources from is a lot different now than when I started.  In the beginning, and gosh, I will get to a point where I don’t start every blog post with where I began,  but I was working with mostly watercolor so I had to be inspired to paint something specific, a flower, a face, animal, etc.  This led to a lot of times that I was just uninspired.  It also led to a lot of frustration when it didn’t turn out the way I wanted.  I constantly struggle with this, and now I know to keep working it until I get it the way I want or to just let it go and move on (which I also struggle with, but watercolors you can only work so much so a lot of the time I was just left frustrated.

I think I can pinpoint roughly when my mindset started to shift.  It was about a year, or maybe two, into my journey,  I had messed with “art journaling” ( I put it in quotations because at the time I thought of art journaling as a separate category in art) but I was still mainly focused on using watercolors.   I had a new sketchbook and I was going on a trip with my family to the beach.  I wanted to document the trip and I started by painting small scenes recording where we were or what we did.  I will insert some of those pictures below.  I didn’t fill up more than a few pages.  I added some ephemera I collected.

Transitioning where I find Inspiration for my art journals.

Adding a little ephemera and overlapping or merging what I painted.

After the trip, I was a little lost.  I was struggling with adding to the sketchbook when I had originally intended it for the trip….not sure what I was thinking, there was no way I was going to fill up an entire sketchbook.  So I noodled around for a little while.  I am pretty proud that I was able to let go of my perfectionism a little bit.  I tried out a few things, brainstormed some ideas for some stickers I wanted to make.  Fast forward a few weeks (or a month?)  to another trip I took with my family.  My parents and I drove up from Asheville NC to Wisconsin to visit my sister and brother-in-law.  My mom likes to art too, so we “arted” together in our hotel, and I documented some of what we did and saw.  Again I will share some pictures of that below.

Again I added ephemera and this time I printed some pictures to add of what we did and saw.

  And again I hit the roadblock of what to do and make after the trip.  (you see, I have A LOT of issues).

But the point of this tangent is that this really changed what I thought I was “allowed” to do in my sketchbook.  As you can see in the last picture, I had started to play with modeling paste and stencils.  I had cut out some watercolor flowers I had painted and added them to the page.  This experimentation is what really ignited the change in my mindset.  I stopped looking for specific subject matter as a source of inspiration and started really just exploring what I could do with different media (mediums?).

  AND THAT is what this looong winded post is working its way towards.  My source of inspiration now is about playing with media and learning how they work and what I can do with them.  I have transformed my process from specificity to abstraction, kind of.

I still like to paint, make recognizable images within my pages.  I usually fall back on plants, flowers, and animals.  But its alll about the media as far as what gets my creative gears going.  Now this does present a problem of my wanting allllll the art supplies, but that’s a whole different post.

So this spread I’m about to share with you is an example of what I am talking about.  I have fallen in love with fluid acrylics, but I really didn’t understand what or how they worked.  Mostly prior to this spread I was using the “pouring” approach, just letting them move on the page and mix.  I played with how they reacted to alcohol inks and water.  But the catalyst for this page specifically was watching a video by CreationsCeeCee on putting a few drops of fluid acrylics on a page and then misting them with water.  I had just gotten a small mister and so I was dying to try it.  IT WAS LIFECHANGING.

I may be exaggerating a little, but for me it changed everything.  And to think of how much acrylic I had wasted prior to this.  (I didn’t waste it, it was a learning experience, but dang, I used way more than I needed.)

And that “ah-ha” moment is what drives me now.  Pushing to figure out how a medium works and how I can manipulate it to achieve my vision is so freaking rewarding, I’m hooked on it.  Not a bad addiction in my opinion.

So enough with the rambling, let’s show you what I’m talking about.

This was the page where it all clicked and came together.  I was so fast and easy, I sometimes wish every page was like this.  I say sometimes because I truly believe that the challenges and struggles are the backbone for growth and progress and they are what make me really appreciate the moments like this.  They make the good times even sweeter.

  So all of that being said, I know there are so many more challenges and struggles ahead of me and I look forward to them.  Because I know that if I keep on going and don’t give up, they will result in more moments like this.

I should provide a disclaimer that this isn’t a cure-all.  There will still be creative blocks and lack of inspiration.  But hopefully, this can provide another source for inspiration for someone out there that perhaps just needs to change their mindset.  If that’s you, I really encourage you to try that new technique or medium that you’ve been itching to try but hesitant to tackle.  It can change you in soooo many ways.

  Anywho, I think a logical next step may be for me to do a sketchbook tour so you can see the big picture.  So that’s what I will be working on next.  I am hoping to post about once a week from now on.  And I’ll need you to hold me to that, so come find me and yell at me if I am MIA!!!  And if I’m not, come find me on any or all SM platforms to see behind the scenes and more current work I’m doing!  I would love to chat and art with you!

  Thanks for visiting and I’ll talk to you soon!!

❤

Katy

Where Inspiration comes from. This is an interesting topic.  I hear it come up A LOT in podcasts and on youtube.  

[honeybearloco]

“...As Well Then?”

Requested by an anon. I actually really like Jin.

For a girl like you, he didn't mind the teasing from his members. You stuck up for him but for all the wrong reasons.

You were good friends with Namjoon, though you were a year older than he was. You had a younger brother who was the same age as Namjoon. The two of them were like brothers. Namjoon was just as annoying as your little brother and you could barely stand him.

As you got older, the less annoying he got and he became like a second younger brother to you. He always thought of you like an older sister anyways. And to hear about his success with BTS made you happier than ever.

You got older and more mature. You were no longer just your little brother's older sister. You weren't a little girl anymore. You were a grown woman doing big things.

You were a vocal coach, songwriter, and a producer at SM Entertainment. You have written songs for a lot of SM Entertainment artists and artists from other companies. You were most credited for writing and producing amazing side and title tracks for Red Velvet and EXO.

A lot of people enjoy your work. You were respected in the entertainment industry. Though you've only been in the industry for a short time, a lot of people have found themselves looking up to you as a role model.

You were also known for not being scared of speaking out against SM Entertainment as well. A lot of companies wanted you to join their company. You told your brother not to join SM Entertainment because she knows what happens to the trainees.

He joined a smaller entertainment company and debuted in a seven member boy hip hop group. A lot of people know your brother for that. Which was why no one was surprised when your brother was announced as Main Vocalist.

Not many people know your about your friendship with Namjoon and you thought that was good. You didn't like to keep everything about your life out there to the public. They could end your career at any time if you were caught slipping.

It had been awhile since you hung up with Namjoon. He invited you over to Big Hit to hang out a bit and check out his studio. You of course accepted and got dressed. You knew it was Namjoon so there was no reason to dress up for anything.

You put on some blue jeans and an oversized sweater. You grabbed your backpack and facemask and headed out the door. Namjoon texted you the address and you drove there.

You made your way inside. You told the staff who you were and they made sure you got to his studio. You opened the door and peeped your head in.

You saw Namjoon chatting with someone. The two of them looked over at you. You bowed.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt."

"No, no! It's fine. Come in." Namjoon said.

You stepped in and closed the door behind you.

"Hi." You said awkwardly.

"Oh! Um, Y/N have you met Jin?"

"Sadly no. Could you introduce us?"

"Y/N this is one of my group members, Jin. Jin, this is In Young's older sister."

Jin looked back to Namjoon.

"The one who works at SM?" Jin questioned.

"Yeah."

Jin's face lit up more than it already was. It was a beautiful sight.

You put your hand out for him the shake.

"Nice to meet you, Jin."

He shook your hand softly.

"The pleasure is all mine."

You smiled.

Instead of hanging out with Namjoon. You found yourself getting to know Jin. Surprisingly he was a good person to have a deep conversation with. He was a good listener too.

"I just don't want people to see me as a celebrity or someone who is close to celebrities. I don't want to be known as Y/N, an SM Entertainment employee or In Young's older sister. I just want to be known as, Y/N. No title behind it. You know?"

"Yeah. I understand completely."

"Why are you such a great listener? I don't get to talk to many people about how I feel. But I feel like-"

"We've known each other all our loves." He finished your sentence.

"Oh my gosh! Yes! See! You even finished my sentence. Where have you been all my life? We could have met back in University. Hell, we went to the same one and the same year. We just studied different things."

"Don't worry about that. Just know I'm here now."

"Thanks Jin." You have him a small smile.

You found yourself telling things you'd only tell your best friends, asking for his opinion on outfits and accessories, talking on the phone until 4 in the morning.

The more and more time he spent with you, the more and more he knew he was falling in love with you. It of course was obvious for his members.

"Hey guys! Y/N is coming over!" Namjoon said loudly for everyone to here.

"Oh, is she coming over for Jin?" Taehyung asked jokingly.

Jin only have him a death glare.

"Isn't obvious? So when are you gonna confess to her?" Yoongi questioned.

"I don't know what you are even talking about."

"Oh, so saying her name and I love you in your sleep is your way of being her friend."

"Yah! I don't say her name in my sleep nor have I said I loved her." Jin lied.

"So you weren't dreaming of going on a date with Y/N. 'No Y/N allow me. You have such pretty eyes, you just have a beautiful face, and the way your body looks in everything you wear. It's so beautiful. And the way-'"

"SHUT UP!"

The guys all laughed. The doorbell rang and Namjoon opened the door. You were standing there with two large bags, one in the left the other in the right.

"Y/N! You're early!"

"I know. Do you mind?"

"No. Come on in."

You walked in and set down the two bags. You stood up.

"Hey everyone!" You greeted.

"Hey Y/N." They all said.

You reached into into the first bag and began pulling out smaller bags, handing them to each of the boys. You handed Jin his last, because he was the biggest.

"Yah! That's not fair. How come Jin gets the biggest? You and I have been friends longer." Namjoon whined.

"Because he is the eldest." You answered.

You handed Jin the bag. He blushed slightly.

"Oh you shouldn't have. Thanks Y/N. I'll go put this away then we could watch a movie or something."

"Yeah, totally!"

"Great."

Jin rushed to his room before he could embarrassing himself. You sat on the sofa next to Namjoon.

Hours later the eight of you were watching a new drama that you had found about two or three weeks ago. It was a Sageuk drama. It was very interesting. You were envious of the lead female. You didn't hate her, you just wanted the leading man to yourself.

Jin found himself staring at you every couple of minutes. There was a kiss scene. You only rolled your eyes and scoffed.

"What's wrong with you? Are you jealous of the leading woman?" Namjoon asked.

"Ha! No! Why would I be?"

"Because I saw how hard you were staring at the leading man. You think he's attractive."

"Whatever. Jin is way more attractive than him." You announced confidently.

Jin's eyes widened as did everyone else's.

"What?"

"Nothing."

Time flew by. You were getting tired as were the guys. Jin was walking you to your car.

"You know you didn't have to walk me to my car, right?"

"I know. It's just really dark out and I didn't want anything to happen to you."

"Jin, what could possibly happen to me?"

"What if some crazy fan might try to hurt you?" He asked.

"I can take care of myself but thank you for caring."

You opened your car door and got in the car. You turned on your car. Jin turned around and began to walk away. He stood about seven steps away from you car. You pulled out the parking spot.

Jin turned around and flagged you down.

You turned to your left and stopped your car. You turned your car off and got out. You walked over to him.

"Jin, I'm really tired. I need to be-"

"I like you." He interrupted.

"What?"

"I said, I like you."

"Jin, you shouldn't be saying things you don't mean. I need to get going."

You turned around but he grabbed your wrist.

"Y/N L/N. I like you. Ever since I first saw you. You had me at 'Sorry I didn't mean to interrupt.'"

"You remembered what the first thing I said that day. Jin, that's so sweet."

"How could I forget? Seeing your face, hearing your voice, there was something about you that made me interested in you."

You smiled. "So should I confess as well then?"

"You like me too?"

"Yeah. I didn't want to confess because I didn't think you liked me as well."

"Okay. Let's try this again. I like you, Y/N."

"And I like you, Jin."

"Would you like to go a date sometime?" He asked.

"I'd love to."

[mystarmyangel]

[COMPILATION] 170521 YoonA Birthday Party Fanaccounts by itnw0628

Outline: 1. Song - I Like You (Original by Weather Forecast)     2. Greeting 3. Cake Cutting 4. Q&A 5. Song - Hero (Original by Okdal) 6. Inside YoonA's Brain (What YoonA is thinking recently) 7. Yoongstagram (Pictures of 'The King Loves') 8. Additional Q&A 9. Greeting (YoonA walking around the audience seat, taking questions directly from fans) 10. Photo Time 11. Song - Deoksookung (Original by YoonA & 10cm)

- YoonA said her solo SM Station song will be released in a couple months, likely after full SNSD comeback. - YoonA treated us so well omg I just can't even describe. She came down to the audience seat, walking around and received Qs - YoonA talked a lot, took a lot of Qs from fans. I might have to stay all night to translate them lol but I'm happy. She was amazing. - YoonA said she told her manager about this birthday party from March. She told him she'll do it no matter what. - YoonA said she was counting how many days left for this birthday party recently. She was really looking forward to this event. - YoonA sang total of 3 songs. 'I like You' by Weather Forecast, 'Hero' by Okdal, and her own 'Deoksookung' - YoonA said she might do IG Live for the first time on her birthday so stay tuned. - YoonA changed the lyrics of 'I Like You'. Original is 'Hello my angel', she sang 'Hello my SONE'. - YoonA at the beginning. "I was at the waiting room, feeling nervous (of conducting bday party) even though it's already my 3rd time." - YoonA, "Because of drama shooting, I couldn't prepare a lot of things for this birthday party, unfortunately. Therefore, I would like to have a lot of conversations with you today." - YoonA, "I wanted to do what you want me to do, and many said they want to see me sing. That's why I opened the party with the song." - Before cake cutting, YoonA, "Should I wear bunny headband or sunglasses? I guess you'd prefer bunny, right?" then put it on. - YoonA, "I told manager oppa that I'll hold birthday party, because I had overseas schedule but didn't have many local schedules. Therefore I thought Korean fans might feel sad about it. That's why I wanted to hold this birthday party (for you). According to manager oppa, today is the only day I can set the schedule for birthday party, though it's a bit early." - After cutting the cake, YoonA asked fans if she can take bunny headband off. Fans said no, so YoonA replied "OK, I won't." - YoonA, "I heard Sunny unnie's birthday party was awesome." Fans said yes. YoonA, "It gave me a lot of pressure." Fans laughed. - YoonA, "I asked Sunny unnie what exactly she did for her party. Sunny said 'Not much....but I feel a bit sorry for you.' Sunny unnie actually said on our kakao chat room, 'How did you prepare this for every year? You're amazing.’” - YoonA, "Though mine might not be as funny as (Sunny's), I'd like to make this party to show my charm." - YoonA, "Perhaps I stayed in the mountain for far too long, it still feels a bit awkward (doing this)." then laughed. - YoonA, "I think Q&A section is the most interesting one, since we don't have much time to interact with each other besides this.

Q&A Portion

Q1: How many times did you watch 'Confidential Assignment'? I believe you look so natural in the movie even for you. “It was really fun shooting the movie. It was my first movie, and fortunately I met a lot of good sumbaenim and staffs. I wanted to start my movie career with this sort of role, not the main role. I think I chose the right one. Compared to my previous ones, I acted different for this role. I did it more comfortably. I still keep in touch with a lot of actors/actresses until now. Oh, and about the scenes which draw a lot of laughter, many of them were actually ad-lib. E.g., there was a scene which Minyoung told Chullyung 'My room is here.' I thought she would say like that so I added it. It wasn't planned, but I think the director thought it was funny, so he included the scene. Also, the scene which MY and her unnie talking about unnie's husband (played by Yoo Haejin), I added the line 'Yeah, you should've cared more about the appearance when choosing your husband. I was really surprised.' Director said the line is really funny, so he included that one, too. That whole conversation had a lot of ad-libs.”

Fans asked about the most famous scene, 'Do you still love that woman?' was also an ad-lib. YoonA said that script was planned.

“The scene MY watch CY on the news and being hit by her unnie was planned, but the line 'Wow he's so cool!' was an ad-lib. It was really fun shooting the movie. I'm glad many fans like it. Thanks.”

Q2: Hair style or color which you want to do someday? "I guess many fans are really interested in my hair." then laughed. "My hair isn't growing, it's more like getting cut every day." Fans went silent. YA, "You don't have to look that sad." laughed. "I bleached my hair 4 or 5 times when doing Party promo, and after that my hair got weaker. But I don't regret doing it at all because it was really satisfying. I heard that many fans like my black hair? But dark black is not my favorite color, unfortunately." Fans shouted, "YoonA is meondeul" (Whatever YoonA does, you're awesome), then YoonA suddenly started laughing. "Actually I said the same line while shooting movie. Then they trolled me by saying "Oh, so you're meondeul? Hey meondeul!” “For my hair, I want it to be long. And the color, I don't like too fancy one, dark brown might be my choice as of now.” YoonA asked fans, "Which style do you prefer?" Fans said "Everything!" YA replied, "Though you say so now, I know you'd complain! Even though I dyed my hair once, my hair got cut so fast it almost feel like I dyed again." then laughed.

YoonA: "Why did you guys write about Ooh-La-La so much?" Fans shouted "Because it's 10th anni!" YoonA: "Then we should talk about ITNW?" Fans shouted: "We want to see you doing narration on the song!" YoonA laughed, said "I can't even remember it." Then YoonA laughed weakly, said "I just remember the line after I said I can't even remember it." Fans laughed. Fans shouted "Please sing Top-T-O, too!" YoonA, "What is Top-T-O?" Fans, "Top Secret-Trick-Oscar." YoonA: "OK, I'd suggest the idea. If one of those songs are included in the future concert, please remember it's because of my work!"

Q3: Your favorite nickname? And have you tried ticketing for your own birthday party? "Is ticketing for Yoong Party tough?" Fans said yes. YoonA: "Good." Fans laughed. YoonA: "Makes me feel like I'm popular." laughed. "I haven't done the ticketing. I thought about doing it in a bigger venue, but it's hard for me to be the exception." YoonA jokingly added, "And what if the seats aren't full (when I hold the party at a bigger venue)?" then laughed. "My favorite nicknames are 'Dre-Yoong' and 'Yoong-phrodite'. Describing me with dress on, I really love them. I also like the simple one such as 'Yoongyi'. "I think it's time to say goodbye to nicknames such as 'Him-YoonA', 'Deer', 'Lim-Choding'" then laughed. But, if many fans still want to call me like that, it's OK. "You can call me meondeul" then laughed.

Q4: Do you know your aegyo video is still being played on Weekly Idol? "I know! I should've done it better if I knew it were going to be played like that! "Perhaps I should collect my appearance fee for that." then laughed. "I'm curious about the reaction when they watch the clip, so I search for it. It's funny." then laughed.

Q5: Role you want to do in the future, and the one that you like the most so far? "I know what you want me to do. The character should be born rich, a bit sassy. Or, her job requires license, such as doctor." Fans roared. "Cop? Well, we have Kang Sojoo for that, she looks so natural with it. I actually received two scrips yesterday and one of them was born rich, though I didn't read it carefully just yet. When I looked at the script, I thought 'Well, fans would like the role if I do it.'" then laughed.

Actually, my favorite dramas are 'Discovery of romance', 'I need a romance', and 'Oh Haeyoung Again'. I'd like to do a romantic comedy like that, though I don't have any particular character in my mind. But, I don't like the horror one."

Q6: Do you have anything curious about SONE? "I got a lot of questions for you, but the problem is, when I ask you something, you always say 'Everything!'. Such as, 'Which style do you prefer?' then you say 'Everything!'. It's always like that!" then laughed."

OK, then. When I'm thinking of you, which thought and feeling you want me to have?" Fans jokingly said, "Everything!" YoonA replied, "You can't say everything on this question." So fans shouted a lot of things, such as "Happiness", "Reassuring", "Resting place", etc. YoonA listened every single thing carefully.

Q7: You've been our happiness for 10 years. To you, what are we? "I actually thought about it and put it on the letter I gave you before the party. Consistently cheering for me for 10 years, that's not easy. I can be myself because you've been here. I feel so grateful. Put it simply, you're the one who made myself now. I got a lot of strength by reading your comments."

Q8: What do you feel when you act 'San'? "It's tough, but also fun. Historical drama is the first for me, but I didn't feel much problem. Tough part is, since it's being filmed in various places, manager oppa has to drive a lot. I feel sorry for him."

Q9: Which smartphone game do you play recently? "Recently, not much. But there is a game I'm playing now. It's 'Swipe Breaking Bricks'. First time I saw manager oppa playing it, I said 'Why do you play such a game?'. But now I'm playing it. It's addictive.” (Link for the game: here)

Q10: How was your feeling when you filmed 'Give Me A Meal'? Fans shouted, "Highest ratings!" YoonA replied, "Yes, right. Thanks to you who watched it, I felt very proud. It was really fun. To be honest, I didn't expect to be rejected that many times." then laughed. "But I actually liked it. I know some fans felt sorry for me, but those things make better TV. Since I didn't film the variety for long, it was so good. And I was really hungry, I ate quite a lot." then laughed. "They didn't let me eat anything before that. I received some snacks from kids in the town, but staffs didn't let me eat them."

Q11: When do you feel your love towards SONE the most? YoonA without hesitation, "When you give me food, and when you say my pics on IG don't look worn out." Fans laughed. YoonA complained cutely, "Well, I found others' pics look as worn out as mine. You're especially harsh on me!" Fans laughed.

Then YoonA explained to fans why certain pics can't avoid being looked worn out. She was really cute lol. "And why do you dislike pic with frame on?" Fans replied, "We want to see you big." YoonA: “Then you can zoom in!"

Fans asked YoonA to take a pic closer. YoonA, "Ah, it's very hard to make cute face and take a pic myself. It's embarrassing." Fans, "You're pretty as you are." YoonA, "You're gonna call me 'Sel-Go' (person not good at taking selfie) if I take it naturally!" YoonA complained cutely, "You're so picky, it's really tough to satisfy you!" Fans laughed.

Q12: Boo-Meok or Jjjik-Meok? (FYI, BM means person who pours sauce on Tangsooyook, JM means person who dips each one into the sauce) "I'm Jjik-Meok. I like it being crunchy.

Q13: Do you like the color of the wristband of Yoong Party? "Wristband? Oh, that one. It feels like we're in the club together. Don't take it off when you go home. I heard you had to take a proof shot for Sunny's birthday because you lost the game. She's really good at games. I wrote one for Sunny's birthday party game, and I think I wrote it way too easy. I didn't know it'd be used like that."

Q14: When will your solo album release? "Actually I have a song to release, but since I'm shooting drama recently, I have to concentrate it first. So I'll work on it after finishing drama shooting. I want to put my voice on the song of which style I like. It's a fan service for you, and also for me." then laughed.

It's not an album, just a Station song. So there's not gonna be any promotion for it. I'm planning on writing lyrics of the song together with other writers."

Q15: I found you have similar clothes, so what is your criteria when choosing them? YoonA firmly said, "I know what you mean when you say 'similar clothes', but each and every one is different." Fans laughed.

“I don't have any particular criteria. I just think about the time and places when selecting which outfit I should wear. But I do like the simple style. Perhaps that's why my wardrobe looks rather limited. I know which style suits me well, and I think my stylist knows it, too but sometimes we feel like trying something different. I wish fans don't get stressed too much (about my clothes). You know what I mean."

Q16: Voice of 'Station~' on the SM Station Trailer, is it yours? "Yes, it's me. It was really fun to see fans arguing whether it's my voice or not. I was like, 'It's me~'" then laughed." (Link for the SM Station trailer, YoonA’s voice at 0:28 mark: here)

Q17: What do you want to do with fans the most for SNSD's 10th anniversary? "I want to ask you back. Which one do you want to do with us?" Fans shouted lots of things, including reality show.

"Oh, reality show. I guess we can make it work? With Channel SNSD team? But, I'm not a manager, so..." then laughed.

Q18: Do you still feel difficult on running social medias? YoonA said quietly, "No, but if I do this, you say something, and if I do that, you say something..." Fans laughed. YoonA continued quietly: "But it's not difficult. I'm doing great and I'll keep doing it." Fans cheered. YoonA suddenly raised her voice, "Well, I (jokingly) said so because I wanted you to feel sorry about that." then laughed. "(Jokes aside), Please keep cheer for me."

Q19: Which role among the ones you played is your favorite so far? YoonA asked back to us, "Which one do you like the best?" Fans shouted various roles. "I think when San comes out, you will lover her quite a lot."

Q20: How about singing Ooh-La-La, Etude, and My Child for 10th anniversary concert? "Since so many fans requested Ooh-La-La, I'm thinking about actually doing it." Fans roared.

"But first, I should persuade unnies. And I believe they will hate the idea, saying 'Why do we sing Ooh-La-La!!'" then laughed.

"But it's gonna be fun. I should do it. We don't need to dance the choreo, though, right?" Fans complained. "You know, (unnies) won't like to practice choreo." Fans, "But it's 10th anniversary!" YoonA weakly said, "Oh, you're right."

Q21: When you did pre-election voting, why did you wear normal clothes while other actors wore drama outfits? "We agreed to do the vote after lunch. I already changed clothes when I went to eat lunch, but other actors didn't. They said they'll vote with drama outfits on. I wanted to change it again but it was quite far, so I couldn't."

Q22: How do you feel about younger girls? Hmm, I don't know why you ask this question to me. I like dongsaengs. At this point, one fan shouted "Then date me!" YoonA burst out laughing when she heard it.

Q23: Which song do you want to sing for the concert? "I'd suggest singing Top-T-O."

Q24: 1+1 aside, please do 'Oppa-ya' and 'Unnie-ya'. (FYI, this fan meant 'Oppa-ya' by Shin Hyunhee & Kim Route.) YoonA sang the first part of 'Oppa-ya' for us.   (Link for the song: here)

Q25: Your solo promo plan, and full SNSD album plan? "I think my solo song will come out after finishing full SNSD promo.

Q26: What does stripe T-Shirt mean for you, and how many do you have in your wardrobe? YoonA laughed weakly, said "Really..." then passed on the question lol

Q27: Since you only follow SNSD members on IG, don't you feel inconvenient when looking others' account? "Yeah, sometimes it's inconvenient. I thought about expanding it, but I came to the conclusion that right now is the best. If I follow others, then some might complain why I don't follow SNSD members only." then laughed.

"I got my way to read others', though. I tag my staffs when posting pics, so I can go to their accounts by the tags. And if someone told me fans posted something, then I search it and go to the account to see it. Yes, I'm telling you now to post a lot of things (about me)." then laughed.

"If I expand followings more than SNSD members, is it OK for you?" Fans said yes. YoonA, "OK, then I'll start following others. Everyday I'm surprised to see number of my followers improved a lot, very quickly. You're making me 'Shoo-Seu (superstar)'" "Fans shouted "Im-Shoo-Seu!". YoonA, "Shoo-Seu...I like it. Im Shoo-Seu, I like it."

Q28: Songs you like to listen (recently)? "I love listening Korean songs and English songs. Oh, Chinese songs, too, for studying purpose. If I have to pick one song I really like recently, it has to be "Gejji" by 2LSON. I like that type of song." (Song link: here)

Q29: Are you preparing SNSD's 10th anniversary album well? Please tell me the concept of new album. YoonA playfully said (almost felt like trolling us), "I don't know it yet. It's not decided yet."

Q30: If you didn't do idol, which job would you pick? You must be known as the one who's as pretty as celebrities! "Many people told me I would find a way to be the celebrity no matter what." then laughed.

Fans laughed, too and YoonA awkwardly said while laughing, "Just saying. I just wanted to read this question."

Q31: To you, which choreo is the coolest / toughest among SNSD's. "You know the answer for the latter one, right?" Fans all said, "CMIYC" YoonA, "Yes, right." then sighed heavily. “And the coolest one is, to me, it's Karma Butterfly. Idea of using chairs was cool, and the song was also great. Other SNSD members love it, too. When we did SMT concert, we asked staffs for letting us perform Karma Butterfly but we couldn't. I think it's the coolest. And it has SNSD's vibe. I think Genie and Hoot are typical SNSD-esque songs, and KB has it, too. But I like CMIYC and IGAB, too.”

“Problem is, I haven't danced for a while. Speaking of dancing, I remember funny episode with Hyoyeon unnie. It was an event show, and Hyo bragged, saying 'Hey, you guys haven't danced for a while, right? I've danced every day!’ It was so funny. But seriously, Hyoyeon unnie really loves dancing. It's cool.”

Q32: Please show us your pretty face more frequently. "Yes, I will. To show you myself more frequently, I'm shooting the drama very hard."

Q33: "How can I do everything so well?", is this real? (FYI, this fan is talking about YoonA's answer for Sunny's Q on her birthday party) YoonA asked back to us, "How do you think?" Fans said, "Yes, it is!"

Q34: When do you think 'Yeah, I'm really pretty.' while watching your video? YoonA couldn't stop laughing after reading this Q. "Actually I received the exact same Q when shooting Confidential Assignment. Director and Hyunbin oppa asked me the same question. Well it's more like they trolled me, but anyway. So I jokingly said, 'Do you know how my fans tell me about this question? Do you know when I'm the prettiest? They asked me when. I said, 'The answer is 'tomorrow', that's when I'm the prettiest.'" then laughed.

“Then they burst out laughing, even mocked me for that. They trolled me for that when doing interviews as well. But, I like that one, too. 'Tomorrow'."

(END OF Q&A Portion)

Talk about songs - YoonA said she never sang both 'I Like You', and 'Hero' before. But she picked those songs because of the lyrics. - YoonA, "Just like last year, I thought about the lyrics the most when choosing the songs, because they're for the fans." - YoonA, "I could pick a song which I can sing more comfortably, but considering everything, I think this song (Hero) is the right one." - YoonA, "This song contains the message I want to tell you & the one I want to hear from you. Please listen to the lyrics carefully." - During the 'Hero' stage, YoonA fist pumped when the part 'You're my only hero.' came. Original song: Link Rough trans of song: Link

Inside YoonA’s Brain - After singing 'Hero', next section was 'Inside YoonA's Brain'. She categorized her interests and talked about them. - FYI, YoonA put this drawing in front of her and talked about each category.

(Above photo cr @k_to_ri on twitter)

1st topic: The King Loves 'The King Loves' takes biggest shares, so YoonA started with that one. YoonA, "I started shooting The King Loves from January, and now it's May. 90% of my schedule was filled with it."

2nd topic: SNSD’s 10th anniversary album YoonA, "I was a bit worried that drama shooting might affect preparing ‪SNSD's 10th anniversary album. We're preparing the album step by step, and I'm looking forward to see how ‪SNSD's 10th anniversary album comes out. It's been a long time we did album promotion, so I'm looking forward to it, and I think it'll be exciting. I'm really curious to know how ‪SNSD's 10th anniversary album will come out, and which one will be the title number." then laughed.

Since I already received many requests from you for ‪SNSD's 10th anniversary, I will ask if some of them can be reflected.”

3rd topic: Travelling & Vacation YoonA, "Well, I can fill all of my brain only with these. Travel, and Vacation." then laughed. “I really want to travel somewhere, and I need a vacation so bad. That's why I described 'work' by the small dot. It's my reality (but I want to avoid)." then laughed. “Since I did K2 and The King Loves without break, in my mind I want to take a (little) break. So if I tell you I'm taking a break, don't be surprised. Because that means I'm preparing something!" then laughed. “But in reality, I don't think I'm taking a break." then smiled.

"About travel, I got 2 themes. Vacation spot (place you can rest your body) or the place u can feel something, like Italy, etc. I checked Yuri unnie's IG and she went to Europe. Jealous. I was like, 'I want to take pretty pics there.'" then laughed.

4th topic: Shopping YoonA, "Since I'm mostly staying in the mountain recently, I got no time to put my own clothes on. So I want to shop. I'm thinking about shoes recently. Or accessories. Speaking of shoes, my feet aren't that huge. But sometimes, fans gave me shoes of which size are too big. Sad thing is, those shoes are very pretty. But I couldn't put them on. Anyway, my interest is now on shoes and accessories."

5th topic: Wine YoonA, "My specialty (among alcoholic beverages) is wine. Not that I'm being luxurious." then laughed. "Maybe talking about alcohols won't be accepted fondly?" Fans said "It's OK." YA, "I was talking about the company." Laughed

"To me, liquors with strong smell, such as soju, whiskey, etc. are difficult. But wine is fine. Especially red wine. I love it. I'm thinking about studying wine when I have free times. I'm not a strong drinker but I'm not a weak drinker as some think. Though I have to admit I can't compete with Soolkyu unnie. Yeah, I think there are members who are weaker than me. I think I'm in a higher tier. At least that's what I like to believe. You know, we got 'Al-Sseu' (person who is very weak at alcohol), right?" then laughed. "Mostly, our members like the atmosphere, not alcohol itself. So I want to study more about wine when I have some time off."

6th topic: Golf YoonA, "Recently, people I met constantly told me that I should play golf. At first, I considered golf is for elder people, but I was wrong. Nowadays, many (young) people also play it. So I thought about learning golf, but I couldn't make time to do it. But I want to learn it someday. Since I'm not an active person, I think slow sport like golf suits my style. I also like to breathe in fresh air outside. Also, many people can enjoy it together at the same time, I like that part. Even some of SNSD members play it."

Fans asked "Who is the best golfer among SNSD members?" "Actually never seen any of them playing yet. Fun thing is, when people learn golf, they always take videos of themselves swinging the golf club, then brag 'How about my form? Isn't it look great?' So all I saw were those videos." then laughed. "I think I saw Yuri and Hyoyeon unnie uploaded the videos before, and most recently it was Sooyoung unnie. Anyway, I'm thinking about learning it."

7th topic: Birthday party YoonA, "As I told you earlier, I was wondering about the things I'd do for this birthday party. I thought hard about it. I even had a crazy idea. 'How about putting a glass of wine for each and every seat? We all drink and hold drunk bday party!' But the problem is, alcoholic beverage is prohibited in this hall. That's why I couldn't realize it. Oh, and among audience there are certainly underage ones, that's one of the reasons I couldn't do it. After that, I had a hard time thinking of interesting ones. So I thought I'd make the theme as 'interacting with fans'. Then, boom! Sunny's birthday party happened." we all laughed.

"I was wondering if I can still do it with this (boring) theme. But, I will think of better ones for the next birthday party. Since you come here & spend your precious time with me, I didn't want to disappoint you with half-hearted effort.”

8th topic: Game YoonA, "I'm interested in VR. I'm thinking about buying it after finishing drama shoot. There are plenty of games I want to play, not just VR ones. I always wanted to learn 'Winning Eleven' (Pro-Evolution Soccer). Nowadays, when drama shooting gets tougher, I thought about games that I'm going to play, and it made me endure. Speaking of games, I know I talked a lot about Sunny unnie today, but I have to do it again." then laughed.

"When we visited Vietnam recently, I asked Sunny unnie about VR, since she already owns one. She said it's really interesting. Then Sunny unnie said she also got Nintendo Switch, suddenly took it out and bragged, said 'You need to play Nintendo here.' So I asked her which one is more interesting. Sunny unnie was like, 'Well, it's a different species, you can't pick one.'”

9th topic: Yoongtizen YoonA, "The reason I put this one on the board is, I still couldn't quit doing it." then laughed.

"When I'm bored or want to see my videos/pics, you fans are the fastest. I'm enjoying being Yoongtizen. I think fans' reactions are different by regions. Searching for them, it's interesting. I also got strength because of them. I searched fans' request about my birthday party recently, but unfortunately, I couldn't find many. So I was like, 'Why you guys don't tell me in this situation, so that I have to agonize.'" then laughed.

“As Yoongtizen, I look around literally everywhere. Do I look like a person with nothing to do?" then laughed.

"But, if I don't do it, then how should I know (what you want)? It's not like we can meet & talk like this every single month. And when such meeting happens, I think if I know what you like or dislike, I can make a better conversation with you. Yoongtizen has the biggest share of my internet activities." then laughed.

"Therefore, please post a lot of (good) things about me." then laughed. "But, I don't get hurt by bad comments anymore. If I can't handle it, then I should quit being Yoongtizen." then laughed.

Fans asked her which site YoonA look around. YoonA, "Every one. I mean it." "Major portal sites, I go every one of them. If you think about certain site now, yes, I go there, too. Even the ones you want me not to go, I might go." then laughed. "I'm getting a lot of strength, so Yoongtizen will continue. If someday half the seats of birthday party are empty, then I might quit being Yoongtizen. Please don't let it happen." then laughed.

Yoongstagram - YoonA showed us pics which were taken when filming 'The King Loves' with explanation. - YoonA showed us total of 13 photos.

Photo #1 First photo was YoonA sitting at the set, waiting for something. She said her make-up artist took the pic without her noticing it.

Photo #2 Second ones had two photos, and cat filter was used for both ones. YoonA said those are taken by her make-up artists as well.

Among those two pics, first one was YoonA wearing light red drama clothes. Second one was YoonA sleeping with white clothes on.

YoonA said the character (San) is quite boyish, yet she doesn't disguise as a man.

About white outfit on the 2nd pic, YA said if she hadn't changed to normal clothes on the early vote day, she would've worn that one.

Photo #3 Third ones also had two photos. First one was the photo of scripts, and the second one was YoonA passing out with her script.

YoonA, "TKL has total of 20 ep & we're shooting around 16. Many sunbaenim and staffs told me I will gain a lot by doing this drama. Since we have many actors/actresses with similar age, we got a Kakao chat room. We're getting along pretty well. It's fun."

Photo #4 Fourth one was YoonA standing on the guardrail of the bridge with wire on. She wore sky-blue outfit.

YoonA, "It was a wire scene, but it's not like I'm flying or fighting in the air. Just a precautionary purpose. I guess I'm more athletic than I thought. Director said I'm very good at learning martial arts. I got compliment of doing combination work very well especially. I guess practicing choreography has to do something with it. Tough part is, director requested me to do more martial arts scene because he thought I'm quite good at it. I was like, 'Please…'" "I think you can see me doing martial arts as early as episode 3."

Photo #5 Fifth photo was YoonA with Hong Jonghyun. YoonA wore white clothes, and it looked bottom part of the outfit was covered in blood. In the photo, you can see a lot of lamps. YoonA said those lamps look really pretty in real.

YoonA, "Hong is a good actor, and he takes care of me very well. And he also has a very good wit. His character is very cool."

Photo #6 Sixth one had two photos. First one was YoonA wearing sky-blue headband and clothes. Second one was YA wearing light sky-blue dress.

In the 1st pic, YoonA looked boyish, and the 2nd pic she looked more feminine. YoonA, "1st pic was taken in Jeju when I did the first shooting. I believe you will see cute San a lot in the scenes filmed in Jeju. The reason I took the 2nd pic was, I wore skirt for the first time in a long time, I just wanted to leave it as a pic. Problem was, it was inside the car and the bottom part of my body couldn't be shown on the pic. So I just took a selfie. "

Photo #7 Seventh one had three photos. YoonA put a mask on all three of those pics. She's put red blanket on, and eat Hobbang with the mask on.

YoonA, "If you read the original story, you would know that San puts a mask on. There's a reason San puts a mask on. But, it is very inconvenient. When I put it on, because of the moisture, it gets wet. I was putting the mask on and at that time, snack (hobbang) arrived. So I just ate it without taking the mask off. Only thing good about the mask is, it covered my face, sometimes I could sleep without being noticed." then laughed.

Photo #8 Eighth photo was YoonA wearing the same outfit (light sky-blue dress) with 2nd photo of the sixth. But this time, it was a full shot.

YoonA, "I know some fans will complain that the outfit is not fancy compared to other historical dramas, but there's a reason for it. I asked my make-up artist to take a pic of the sky because it's pretty, then she said 'You're prettier.' and took a pic of me."

Photo #9 Ninth photo was YoonA with an actress who plays her servant. Both of them put the masks on.

YoonA, "She is 4 years younger than me, and according to the director, she was cast because she got similar image with me. And more I see her, more I understand what director means. She is so nice, and her voice is very feminine. "Please cheer for her, too. I told her 'When the drama is aired, some will say you're prettier than me, so stay confident.

Photo #10 Tenth photo was YoonA with an actor Lee Kiyoung, who plays her father.

YoonA, "He really takes care of me so well. He also gives me a lot of advises about acting. He always calls me 'daughter'. And he's the one who told me that I will gain a lot by doing this drama."

Photo #11 Eleventh photo was YoonA with Hong Jonghyun and Im Siwan. YoonA was wearing a crown-like thing made by flowers on her head. YoonA, "AKA Won-San-Rin. Main characters of TKL. Im Siwan oppa constantly played tricks. Because of that, he didn't look good on this pic, unfortunately. Both Im and Hong take care of me so well. Always ask my intention first. Both good actors. Such nice guys. Two characters got such different charms, I believe many fans would argue whether San should be with Won or Rin.

Photo #12 Twelfth photo was YoonA with four other actors/actresses including Im Siwan. YoonA was wearing drama outfit but only partially.

YoonA, "It was taken after drama shooting, before we're going home. This pic is not the prettiest, but I love the air, that's why I picked it. We're shooting in a very friendly mood. The situation was, 4 of us including myself finished shooting that day so we're off, but Im had to shoot more. So we're like 'We're done yay!' while Im was like 'Dang I'm not!!'. He even sang a song with his lines, it was so funny."

Photo #13 Thirteenth photo was YoonA with three actresses and Im Siwan. All 5 of them wore white clothes. Im was positioned at center.

One of the actresses on the pic was Jang Youngnam, who played the role of YoonA's older sister on Confidential Assignment.

YoonA, "Im said he never had a drama shoot with this many actresses, so he needs to leave it as a photo. That's why we took this one.

- YoonA, “This is the first time I did pre-production drama so it was a new experience for me. I know you loved Minyoung a lot, and I wish you do the same for San. I hope your favorite character (that I played) changes every time I do a new drama or movie."

Additional Q&A

Actually, Yoongstagram was the last section YoonA prepared. She was going to take a pic with fans and wrap it up. YoonA, "What time is it?" fans, "6" (beginning time) YoonA, "Six? Hey, you guys really surprised me!" we all laughed. It was actually around 8, but fans constantly shouted "6", "5" to make YoonA stay more. So YoonA asked fans, "Do you have more Qs?"

This is why 'additional questions' section was inserted. It wasn't planned. YoonA just wanted to spend more time with fans.

Fan: "Do you have any plan to visit your photo exhibition next week?" YoonA, "As far as I know, there will be two photo exhibition for me, right?" Fans said yes. YoonA, "I know everything." fans laughed.

"Not sure I can be there (because of the drama shoot), but I certainly thought about going there. I was like, 'Should I go there under cover? Or just go there and say hello to everyone?'" then laughed.

YoonA, "Problem is, I don't even know my schedule for tomorrow. Speaking of my schedule, you sent support for me, the coffee car. They said now it's OK (to receive fans' support). Among the support you sent me, hand fans became the most popular one for everybody. Everybody used those hand fans, said 'YoonA is making us cool.' So I was very proud, thinking 'Our fans are this great.' Anyway, I would like to go to the photo exhibition, but I can't be sure. Actually, I already saw some of the pics which will be displayed on the exhibition. If I don't have schedules at that time, then I will visit those photo exhibitions.”

Fan: "Any languages you want to learn?" YoonA, "First, I want to master Chinese which I've been learning from my middle school days. Then, I want to master English. After that, I haven't thought about it. But if I have to choose one additional language to learn, then I want one which is not commonly picked."

Some fans said, "How about Arab?" YoonA, "You know, Middle East Asia is coming. No, really." YoonA, "If ur thinking about learning Chinese, then Arab might be a better idea (cuz there are alrdy many ppl who can speak Chinese). It's my prediction, so mark my word. If I'm wrong, then forget about it." then laughed. When I was a student, I had to pick between Chinese and Japanese. I picked Chinese, because many people picked Japanese then. When I filmed K2, I thought about learning Spanish, too, but it's very difficult. So right now, Chinese and English.”

Fan: "Are you gonna have a birthday party with ‪SNSD members on your birthday?" YoonA, "I'd love to, but unfortunately it's very likely that I have a drama shoot, even on my birthday. I might be able to meet other members for album work, but for my birthday, I'm not sure yet. But we did talk about meeting on early June. No particular reason, just we haven't seen each other for quite long. So I guess we'll meet then. If so, then we will be able to celebrate Seohyun's birthday." then laughed.”

Fan: "Between 'God of War Zhao Zi Long' and 'The King Loves', which one is more memorable for you?" This fan asked YoonA a very long question, so YoonA jokingly said, "You're not a journalist, right?" then laughed.

YoonA, "About GOW ZZL, because of the language barrier, I think I couldn't fully describe my character. I feel a bit sorry about it. But if I do it again now, then I might be able to describe the character better (because my Chinese is improved). ZZL and TKL have similar aspect because both drama gave me a feeling that I'm acting double roles. Difference is, I think ZZL was more splendid. Since they do a lot of historical dramas, accessories and costumes were fancy.”

Fan: "Do you have any plan to hold an overseas fanmeeting?" YoonA, "Are you from China? Oh, you're the one who came and support me at Baeksang Awards. But I'm sorry, I don't have a plan for China fanmeeting as of now. But I know CHN fans really take care good care of me. I'd like to visit (and hold a fanmeeting) there, so please wait for me.”

Fan: "What is the most memorable birthday present from ‪SNSD members?" YoonA, "Hmm, I don't know. To me, being together is the most interesting thing. Talking to each other and having fun. Most of the time, me and Sunny unnie's birthday parties were held together. I think Sooyoung unnie's birthday party produced more memorable moments than mine. I really wanted to join SY's birthday party this year, but I couldn't because of the drama shoot. I told SY unnie that I could've worked a perfect retro concept. She said, 'Whatever you do, you won't look funny at all.'”

Fans: "What are you drinking now?" YoonA, "This? It's water. From SUM Cafe. When we do team promotion, manager oppa has to prepare different colors of bottle cap (to avoid confusion). We could choose one of the bottle caps. Every single time, I could hear the distant shout "PINK! PINK! MINE!" from someone. (Because of that someone) I don't even look at pink. Even picking a color isn't easy for us." then laughed.

Fan: "Which food did you cook recently?" YoonA, "I got no time to cook recently. French toast only?" Fans, "Ooooh" YA, "It's an absolutely easy one." then laughed.

Fan: "Have you thought about taking a villain role?" YoonA, "If there's a good one, then yes, I can think about it. But do you want me to do it?" Fans said yes. YoonA, "OK, let's assume I took a villain role, but she's not a protagonist." Fans, "That's a NO!" we all laughed. YoonA, "There you go. Hard to find a protagonist villain." One fan shouted, "Sympathy For Lady Vengeance". YoonA, "WHAT?" we laughed. YoonA, "But I'll think about it if there's a good role."

Fan: "How many comments do you read on your IG post usually?" YoonA, "I read them as much as time allows me to do. After I write IG post, I push refresh button couple times to check how many comments were made, yes." then laughed.”

Fan: "Why do you post IG so late, almost after midnight?" YoonA, "Sorry, I guess I woke you guys up because of the IG notice on your phones. But I usually go to bed quite late. I tried to sleep early, but most of the time I couldn't sleep too early. It's my habit. Plenty of times I thought about uploading IG post but gave up because of the time period. (too late)”

Fan: "Do you have any intention to do IG Live?" YoonA, "I do, but right now I don't have anything to do (for IG Live) since I'm usually at drama shooting nowadays. Oh, birthday? Yeah, I thought about doing IG Live on a special day. Birthday sounds good. I'll try to do it.”

Fan: "Which camera apps do you usually use?" YoonA, "B612, Camera 360, and sometimes Pic-X (note: Not sure which app she meant for the last one)"

Fan: "Among Taeyeon's new songs, which one is your favorite?" YoonA, "'When I Was Young', and 'Make Me Love You'. Especially the latter one, I love it.”

Fan: "Is 10th anniversary album a full album?" YoonA, "That's...a secret at this point."

Fan: "What do you usually talk on your kakao chat room?" YoonA, "Recently, we talked about ‪SNSD album.

Fan: "Concept wise, which is your favorite ‪SNSD song?" YoonA, "Genie."

Fan: "How do you feel being that pretty?" This question made YoonA burst our laughing. YoonA, "It's a happy feeling." we all laughed.

Fan asked YoonA a question regarding TY's Persona concert. YoonA pretended being bitter, "I couldn't go there. I envy you!"

Fan: "Among shooting locations for TKL, do you have any recommendation for us?" YoonA, "Hapcheon. Flower garden is very beautiful there."

(The place YoonA referring to) – Pic cr @Kuru_mm on twitter

Fan: "How much do you like SONE?" YoonA pointed a balloon, said, "Whole amount except for that small balloon." We cheered but one fan, "Why take out the balloon amount?" YoonA, "If I just say 'This much' then you might think I'm not being sincere."

Fan: "Do you have any plan to join a variety like Crime Scene?" YoonA, "Sorry, I'm not that smart." then laughed.

Fan: "Do you have any plan to do twitter?" Many fans screamed "No! Not twitter!" lol I think they (jokingly) meant that YoonA shouldn't find out what they're doing on twitter. YoonA, "Why? Why no twitter? In fact, I'm not interested in twitter, but why? That place must be protected? From me? Do you write some bad stuffs about me there?" fans laughed. "

Ending

While receiving additional questions, fans asked YoonA to walk around between audiences just like last year. YoonA, "You want me to do it again? But it's too late, already over 2 hours. Time is up for noraebang (karaoke)." One fans shouted, "Service Service!" then others shouted, "Even noraebang gives additional time for free!" YoonA laughed, said, "OK, I'll do it." then she moved down from the stage, walked around the audience seats and received Qs there. OK, this is it for additional questions. I might have missed some questions because some questions went by too quick, but anyway.

After receiving additional questions, YoonA took photo with us, and sang 'Deoksookung' with fans. And the party is over I like the fact that Deoksookung unofficially becomes a fan song for YoonA. Fans singing 10cm part while YA singing her part sounds so good. There will be no more updates about ‪YoongParty. I think it's my longest one so far anyway lol. Well, though it took a lot of time, writing a fanacc also helped me reminding how nice and awesome YoonA was. I enjoyed doing it.

YoonA’s version of I Like You –  Download Link YoonA’s version of Hero – Download Link (Two songs download cr to @_19900530 on twitter)  Deoksugong Stonewall Walkway by Yoonaya - Download Link

All fanaccounts credits go to itnw0628 on twitter, download links & pics to respective owners credited above :) Compiled by mystarmyangel Download in word doc: here

[delicateheartstranger]

March 17, 2020

Dear world,

Many things have been on my mind. My mind wanders a lot. So first lets talk about outing people. So recently the nurse at my php program outed my chosen name to my parents. Outing people sucks so fucking much. Like that was supposed to be someting I did when I was comfortable and felt safe. Not anyone else’s job. Sure slip ups happen, but that just makes me wanna go back deep in the closet. It isn’t the first time shit like this has happened. I’m talking about lots of other kinds of outings to. 

So when I was hanging with my friend DK (I have more about him later) and my friend LC we were talking about an ex friend of LC. She then proceeded to tell me how this former friend who lives up the street from me is HIV+. I didn’t know what to say. It made me kinda a mix of uncomfortable and annoyed with LC since that’s something deeply personal to just reveal regardless of how angry she was. And I mean yes the former friend was a cunt to LC from what I’ve heard, but being unstable and cunty doesn’t call for outing someone’s heath status like that. It kinda makes me trust LC less. Me and her have been friends for years although throughout them will lose contact for like a year or two and always randomly start hanging out again. So yeah outing, not good.

Now with DK. I realized that we matched on tinder a few months before we knew each other. I stopped using tinder cause I tried using it for dating and just wasn’t getting the results I was looking for. Plus lots of people swiped left on me more often when I showed my double chin in photos vs when I hid it. Don’t need that bad vibes in here. I am thinking of downloading tinder again just to delete my account or unmatch DK before he can realize we matched. It’s not that he isn’t like attractive or that I wouldn’t date him, but rather I doubt he sees me the same way? Yeah we matched and even talked a bunch, but like that doesn’t mean he likes the real me. I don’t want him to be going through his old matches one day and see me (and my deadname which I had been going by back then). I value our friendship more than any potential relationship. I don’t want things to be awkward. Plus he’s got a thing for LC. Well he has a thing for a bunch of people, but LC is on the top of the list. I just don’t think I could live up to her prettiness level at all. So I’ll repeat what I did in middle school with SM, but at least acknowledge it this time round.

What did I do in middle school? In middle school I had a close friend group between me, SM, IM, and in 8th grade our friend KL joined. We stayed close in the first half of high school, but everything fell apart around 11th grade. Or at least I grew apart from the group which hurts. I don’t know if they are still together. I should message them. I think I will after this. Anywho, back to the point. In middle school I was severally bullied. The worst bullying was those years and my time at my 2nd high school. I was pretty in the closest about my sexuality and straight up denying any form of gender dysphoria. I was one them kids who was like ‘dang i’m jealous of trans people they get to transition to the gender they feel comfy in’. Major clown vibes and egg_irl shit. But the person I realized only recently I had feelings for was SM. She was super smart, funny, kind, anxious, and very gay. At some point I realized that there was some romantic tension between her and IM. So in a way subconsciously I stepped away from feelings for her. Top it off in 8th grade we had feelings for the same girl and I set them up. I remember feeling like shit and thought it was over the other girl. Nah it was over SM. I remember she used to have the longest brown hair that she kept in a braid. I thought it was beautiful and kinda was jealous. Even when she cut it short in high school I still loved her hair. I had kept pushing away my feelings for her in all of middle school. Then came high school.

I don’t have many memories from 9th grade due to trauma. But I managed to remember all these painful memories. Ahahaha nice job me, forget the good shit and only some of the traumatic shit while remembering a lot of bad shit and some the trauma. Either way what happened was she had broken up with this girl over the summer (different schools not worth it). Then comes in my toxic friend CH. She was kinda a huge bitch. She first had a crush on my friend RS. So being the match maker I am I set her up with my friend RS (who back then for context still identified as a cis male). CH was in the closet about being trans and they dated for like a week before CH broke up claiming she didn’t want her parents thinking she was gay. Okay fine. Then late in 9th grade me, CH, SM, and a few other friends hung out at lunch. CH told me she had a thing for SM and I could tell SM had a thing for CH. So with a lil bit of work and match making magic I got them together. It was kinda in a way me trying to make SM unobtainable even though by then I was okayish with my sexuality. I remember at many points feeling this deep sinking pain in my chest and stomach when I saw them together. The heat in my ears would rise and I felt like crying. I for awhile thought it was over CH. Then it hit me one day in 9th grade it was over SM. I was so ashamed and felt so fucking shitty that I just kinda pushed it away.. Tucked away my feelings and even the memory of knowing, although the memory of realizing could’ve left cause trauma. Another time I was looking for the two of them at lunch and I found them making out behind the school. The pain in that moment I could not use enough words combined with all the languages to explain that pain. It was worse than a speeding commuter train hitting me while watching a bunch of kittens get shot. I would later learn that same pain when I had to avert my eyes from seeing DW kissing this girl for a play. To cope with it in the moment I remember cracking a joke and leaving. 

I loved her. Soon enough the two of them broke up cause SM wasn’t i a good head space and she was like I don’t wanna hurt CH like that. CH was also plus size like me. That will be relevant later. So now the scene is 10th grade. SM introduces me to SMY. They had known each other for awhile and rode the same bus home. SMY was a year younger though. Soon enough SMY and SM started dating. I felt that same pain again. I didn’t know this time why as by then I forgot about figuring out. SMY a few months in came out as non binary. SM was fine with that and still liked SMY regardless. So when I left my first high school I kinda fell outta contact with SMY. She never was good with that outside of school with me. Then in my first year of 12th grade after KL saw me (yes even in 12th grade I was this bitch) cut on my snap story brought all of us together. I talked to all them and for a few months we were as close as we’d been back in the good old days. It was so refreshing to talk to SM. But nothing good last in my life. SM left the chat. Fine. Then IM leave. Then it kinda goes silent and we all fall apart. Or at least I’m not there. Again after this I’m gonna try and message all three of them. I miss them. SO YEAH I BASICALLY LET MYSELF NOT BE WITH SM. She was open to dating fat, non binary, non typical beauty people, and I just made up excuses to repress my feelings. I wouldn’t let myself be happy? Who knows. She could’ve rejected me and it could’ve made shit real awkward. 

I’m gonna just do the same thing? But knowingly this time and more self aware with DK. Sure it’s not really too healthy, but it’s with the pros and cons put together better than the cons of potential revealing of this info and me trying to pursue a relationship. Besides, me and him have wayyyyyy to much shit we’d needa work on before dating. Like you can and date with mental illness and should be able to. But if both partners suffer both need to have a certain level of stability or it could lead to lots of unhealthy shit. Witnesses enough where that wasn’t true and I ain’t signing up for that. 

Good things that happened today was that a cosplay tik toker I like liked my comment I put on their video, after I did a cosplay duet to another one that I like they also liked the video I made and commented something nice, and soon me and my mom will watch The Goldfinch together.

My brother’s school is forcing him out. The state was like ‘yea no ya’ll better gtfo and go home while corona up in this bitch.’ So there goes my mental stability. I’m kinda fucked now. My parents are leaving tomorrow to pick him up. So yeah world I’m actually fucked. I am worried that I might do something I will regret in these coming days and weeks. I have had a bit more non passive thoughts about self harm and SI. I won’t have anything. No where to hide. No where to cosplay. Even more judgment. I’m actually screwed. Wish me luck. Hopefully things will turn out good? Probably not. Hope if you’re reading this things are good for you. Any advice?

Yours cordially,

A

[ladyburksn-blog]

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Marketing Blog Tumbler Post Big Hit Entertainment

 Intro: Big hit is a Korean entertainment company. They produce good music and are home to some big name artist. The most famous being The Bang Ten boys or BTS as they are better known by their fans. I think social media is essential for what they do because it allows the company to get their name as well as the artist name out as well as spread the word about different types of music they are working on right now. In turn this builds up their cliental and their artist fandoms grow and more of their music albums to be sold. They are in the Korean music entertainment industry quickly making a name for themselves overseas and globally particularly here in America as of lately. Many Entertainments companies find it essential today to use social media to market their music artist and Big Hit is no different. In fact if anything I would say this is one of Big Hits’s strongest marketing tools and one of their greatest strengths as a company. Big hit has a whole team whose sole purpose is to use various social media sites to het their name and the name of their artists out to as many people as possible at one time.  They do this by updating their artist fans regularly by posting about their everyday activity on both Big Hits social media sites as well as the group of artists individual social media sites.  They encourage themselves to frequently update the SMS as well as the fan café online encouraging them to post selfies and go live. This is accomplished using the V app an app which allows one way video chat and answer questions or just talk to fans normally allowing their fans to have a small peak at their being the scenes in their life.  As often as possible leaving their fans the ability to connect to them.  Big Hits is really good about using every social media tool there is at their disposal. 

 Overall social media use: Big hit entertainment company that was founded by Bang Si Hyck back in 2008 -2009 has been using social media since as early as 2010 to promote their up and coming groups. I have found footage that dates back as early as 2011 of the now members audition to get into their company. Although in recent years it has become clear that Big Hit has defined their practice of using social media as an effective marketing tool, which is probably what lead to their biggest KPOP group winning best social media artist in the 2017 billboard awards. This was a first for a KPOP group like themselves a huge feel considering they had to beat out a lot of big name artist like Selena Gomez, Arianna Grande, & Justin Bieber. This group uses twitter, instagram,Vapp,onlinefan café, you tube, facebook, and snap chat it has also been rumored that a  couple of BTS has some secret fan accounts on these platforms as well as tumbler used to interact with their fans. As far as I can tell the company use both their Twitter & Instagram accounts the most when it comes to the promotion of themselves. They use You tube, the V app and fan café a lot. Their strategy seems simple use the media sites for promotion of the group and its activities and use the other media outlets to build fandom and increase the sales of their merchandise and sales.

  Big Hit seems to use a lot of marketing strategies whether it be promoting their albums with contracted marketing firms to promote a certain album or just using their connections with local radio programs and various music shows and variety shows at local broadcasting stations to promote their artist current activities and keep their name on the front of people’s minds to generate buzz and interest in their groups . This causes an increase in album sales, revenue, and builds fandom which increases concert sales, merchandise sales, and sales for future concerts. The marketing strategy seems to be the use of social media along with its various platforms to promote their artist as well as their products. For example when BTS released their Wings album back in 2016, Big Hit released multiple mini clips of each member with a dramatic back story along with a small snippet of a song each lasting about 30 seconds a piece and the fandom went nuts trying to figure out what was going on.BTS became a hot topic on Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, and even you tube as several people began to debate what these teasers could possible mean as these theories were circulated around #’s related to BTS began generating more specifically BTS fans. Now this was not a first for Big Hit as they did a similar mini story release when BTS released their third album in their “The most beautiful moment in life trilogy titled “The most beautiful moment in life Forever Young” which included a dramatic video that took the whole fandom by surprise and the result was a storm of comments and theories circulating around the fandom along with multiple hashtags about the video again. However like the mysterious video teasers they had used to promote the wings album. This video preluded a whole dramatic back story that left the fans asking one question. “why? What happened? This was a good move on Big Hits because it peaked everyone’s interest it got everyone asking about upcoming Album and MV release. In fact the interest was so much several you tubers even add videos about both of these campaigns to share their own theories. Even Big Hits current campaign for BTS newest album “Love Yourself” was first introduced with a highlight reel featuring a different back story for each member. All of which were very cute and memorable due to the cute meets the members had with girls featured in their reel and it got the fans talking about who these girls were and how they related to the album as BTS rarely use female actors in their MV’s again this album was released two weeks ago was met with much anticipation and numerous hashtags has managed to top the chats of all the KPOP charts and music shows and has made it on to the Bilboard top 100 here in the US. So you know if to determine the most critical relationships necessary for Big Hit and their success. I would say it is probably the relationship they have with Korea’s various broadcasting stations and music shows like music bank and mnet countdown as the various entertainment variety shows. The relationship they share with local radio stations who often play the boys music their relationship with various news reporters and online news sites who are always writing articles on their activities, success, and their own relationships with different brand sponsors who see their artist model things which currently include puma, BBQ chicken, smart uniform,SK Telecom. 

Data : Facebook BTS’s official Facebook page has 5,223,675 people following on their page and 5,144,119 likes on their page there is a link on this page to Big Hits home page which hasn’t been set up yet so I wasn’t able to see how many people had visited it. But seeing as it was pretty high up in the search bar when I googled it so I think it is pretty safe to assume that I am not the only one interested in this company. However I did find their Wikipedia page & was able to gain a ton of useful information from there. Big Hits facebook page has 1,595,756 followers and 1,573,413 likes There are featured videos and articles about its artist. I’m pretty sure it’s the same stuff that appears on BTS page only Big Hits is in all Korean, while BTS’s has been converted to English for their overseas and international fans. Wikipeida: Big Hit which is a south Korean entertainment company founded in 2005 by Bang Si- Hyuk and is currently home to to kpo idol group BTS and Musical duo Homme, although it previous groups include 2am,8eight,Glam and Lim Jeong-hee, and its more notable former trainees includes Hwang Eunbi (SinB)  and Jung Eunbi (Eunha) of well know upcoming female kpop group Gfriend, well know rapper Iron who was featured on popular television show “sshow me the money” Jin Hyo-sang (kidoh) and Kim Sang-gyun (A-tom)of well know male Kpop group Topp Dogg, Park Seung-Jun (seungjun) and Jung In-Seong (Inseong) of popular up and coming kpop group KNK, Jo So-Jin (sojin)of popular female kpop group Nine Muses, Kim Joo- mi (Zumy) of famous and well seasoned female kpop group Ladies Code, and Ahn Hyung-seob a former contestant on popular audition program Produce 101, season 2. Big Hit which is a private company has 52 employees and has an annual operating income of 35,500,000,000 won as of 2017 and is located in Seoul Gangnam-gu, Nonhyeon-dong, 155-010,10-31 Cheong-gu bldg,2F, South Korea. Twitter:Big Hits Twitter has over 3.6 milion followers and seems to be updated frequently , and is used to promote not only Bighit as a company but their Artist as well. Their most recent tweet which was tweeted just 12 hours ago  was used to share an article written on Naver.com about their group BTS and how they took first place on Music Bank for the second week in a row. The Article goes on to say that BTS beat out another famous artist I.U.’s song “Autum Morning” with their new track “DNA”.  BTS’s official results K-charts was calculated based off the fact that they received 65% of the digital music record votes, 5% music sales, 20% number of broadcasts, and 10 % of Audence preference to give BTS a score of 8,876 points to the 6,376 points I.U. won. BTS historic unseating of Kpop Queen I.U. is just the beginning though . Because this trophy was not the only one BTS has managed to score this comeback. They have also won first prize on MBC’s music show “Show Champion”, and KBS’s 2 TV “Music Bank”, SBS’s “Popular Song” and Mnet “MCountdown” and have secured a spot in Billboard’s top 100, proving that not only are they a very powerful and talented boy group, but that “DNA” is an awesome song and this has already a very successful comeback. (Article is written in Korean, but was translated by @NefariousEunoia and can be found on Big Hit’s most recent Tweet in the comment section, or if you can understand it feel free to read the original article on Naver, link can bee found in Big Hit’s most recent Tweet.) Instagram: Big Hit does have a Instagram in fact it has two… @boys.BigHit which has 2,900 followers, and  is believed it is used to promote the Big Hit trainees to promote their activities, although this Instagram page only has 1 post.  Meanwhile the other Instagram Big Hit has @BTS.BigHitOffical  has 5.8 million followers and has over 346posts each with at least a million likes. Which is why most people believe that this is Big Hits official Instagram, as it is used most often to promote the boy activities. However it is possible that both of these are used by Big Hit as they both have verified and each includes a link to the Big Hit website. (Which again unfortunately has not been set up yet) BTS Amino: This is an app that connected the BTS’S official fan café and its purpose to allow international fans of BTS and other Big Hit group to stay connected to their favorite artist and the company keeping them up to date. Many fans are not able to join the official fan page as its layout is entirely in Korean as is the majority off their uploads. By going through this page which is in English and updated in English (for your language of choice) You can both keep current with events and stay connected to your favorite artist and meet other fans like themselves and even send fan mail via email to the boy and their company. It’s a pretty cool app I had it on my phone in order to research it for this project, but I am considering keeping it as it allows for having fun with it. 

 Assessments and Recommendations Big Hits over all marketing seem to be a pretty successful one. Big Hit uses all their tools at their disposal which means their music and their main musical group at the moment BTS.  Big hit uses their connections with various to secure BTS a spot on the music shows every time they have a comeback, which allows BTS to perform and promote their new song which in turn increases album sales. By doing shows like this in which fans are encouraged to vote for their favorite performer or team it generates buzz online and produces numerous hashtags with BTS as part of the subject line. This in turn generates more fans, more interest in their group by increasing sales of future concerts and merchandise sales. Another thing this does is bring in perspective companies who are looking for bright young stars to model clothing lines or participate in photo shoots which gives another line of revenue through group contracted work in which Big Hit gets a portion. So as you can see social media plays a key role and works hand in hand w Big Hits as well as other marketing tools to help promote their product. Which in ths case shows they have a solid foundation and a lot of potential as a group. Recently it has become a trend to cast popular idols K-dramas and variety shows in turn this reaches a new demographic and a new population. This boosts the drama rating thanks to KPOP fans it draws the prospective Kdrama fans into the KPOP fandom therby once again increasing their sales of merchandise and concerts. In addition to bringing the artist appearance fee plus the fee for singing the show OTS all of which Big Hit gets a cut of it also means it is sure to buzz among the fans of the said artists and groups and KDrama fans everywhere meaning more online articles, mentions, reviews and hashtags ultimately building more revenue coming in as the show fans will purchase the OTS on I tunes if not. Another new marketing concept for Big Hit whom had been using the boys beyond the scenes you tube channel to shoot Bangtan Bombs. Also BTS appears in a similar show back 2014-2015 called “American Hustle Life” it was shot in LA despite the boys of KPOP not being very well known at the time it was received pretty well and most of the episodes can still be found on you tube today all with a pretty significant amount of views as we know leads to more social media posts. Overall I would say that their marketing strategy is a pretty solid one. I don’t really have anything to recommend in the way of changing things, what they are doing seems to be working. I would however say that Big Hit does need to get their website up and running soon. 

 Citations: www.http://facebook.com/ibighit

www.http://Facebook.com/bts 

www.http://Twitter.com/bts_twt 

www.http://Twitter.com/BigHitEnt

www.http://instagram/bts.bighitoffical

www.http://Ibighit.com

www.http://entertain.naver.com/read?oid=76&aid=0003159480 

www.http://btsblog.ibighit.com/m 

www.http://btsamino.com

www.http://youtube.com/bighit 

www.http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/big_hit_entertainment 

www.http://youtube.comabiz

www.http://youtube.com/vip www.http://youtube.combangtantv 

www.http//bbc.co.uk

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