#it hurts and yet I cannot stop!

[brotherslayer]

I find that a lot of my interests are like a yoyo where it fades and then comes back at random intervals. It's the same with TWP but when I read that new fanfic on ao3 I was immediately slapped back, kicked right back in so hard that it was no longer a yoyo it was a roller coaster😭

I think I need to lie down for a bit

[dirtytransmasc]

totally don't imagine little Aegon, maybe 7 or 8, playing with his toys while Sunfyre watched on, pouncing on castles carved from stone and gnaws on little wooden soldiers.

don't imagine him play-fighting with his boy. Aegon and his training sword fighting against the merciless beast that is his little golden fledgling, gently attacking playful claws and flapping wings and nipping beak, parrying when the dragon gets too close. or Sunfyre finally tackling his boy, mocking dragonfire when he screeches in his face, before nuzzling his boys cheek.

don't imagine them curling up in the sun, out in the grass or in a windowsill. Sunfyre spreading his wings over his boy to bask in the light, burying his face in the warmth of the crook of Aegon's neck.

don't imagine the hatchling perching on his bonded's shoulder. don't imagine Aegon sneaking to see him when he was sad or angry. don't imagine Sunfyre crying out in distress, restless in his den when he could feel Aegon's distress but could not get to him

don't imagine the fledgling finding his way to Aegon's window, sneaking in and curling up next to the boy as he laid drunk and miserable, coping as he wrapped around him. don't imagine him perching on the roof of Aegon's chambers, crying to him when he got too big to enter.

don't imagine his sweet little chirps and songs. don't imagine Aegon's little giggles and chuckles. don't imagine the nuzzling of white hair or the scratching. don't imagine them being happy

[footnoteinhistory]

[angelsdean]

seeing a post that gets some things right (interesting complex john thoughts) but other parts dead wrong (bad dean takes) has me like *eye twitch*

[sarrai]

Saw some takes on how Dante and Vergil don't love each other at all and I'm just. Baffled how someone can get into the series and come away thinking that they actually hate each other.

[seneon]

yk i screamed when i saw it, tossed my phone to the side, slapped my hands on my mouth, stared into nothingness for a solid 5-6 mins before i picked my phone back up to do the same thing again

[celestie0]

finished watching “one day” on netflix and i genuinely feel so empty and dead inside

[lavenoon]

A stubborn but kinda humorous Robin stepping back into HQ after a mission (that Moon already return from, who is nervous and fidgety bc he lost sight of Robin) is suspiciously holding their side.

“So, where were-“

“So I got stabbed lmao :)” And punctuates every step they take with an “ow”

Anon I admire your determination to give an animatronic a heart attack gfhdjs

Pre-stabbing/ This is the stabbing? Dusk freezes, trying to work past the cognitive dissonance of "banter! everything fine!" and "wait. 'ouch'? stabbing?", but then he's on them. Not roughly, but insistently moves their hand away from their side, and then it's basically the stabbing comic but with the added guilt that he wasn't even there. He already blames himself in the scenario where he was there (and out of reach, whatever he may think), but without any details? Maybe with time they can convince him to take it easy on himself, but in that moment it feels like a fact that settles in his nonexistent gut - this is his fault.

And boy, is he making a fuss. They aren't taking another step on their own, he's carrying them until he absolutely has to give them up (probably when the ambulance shows up), and no one in the vicinity will miss the fact that Robin got hurt because he's just all over the place, yelling for and at higher ups to fix this, and whatever protests they have fall on deaf ears. Periodically looks down with the most desperately hopeful expression, reassures them that they'll be fine - though ironically scares them even more, because this isn't the Dusk they know

Post-stabbing? I'd like to think that Robin wouldn't be quite so blasé about it - but maybe they do try to hide it, because they don't want him to worry. Either way the freeze moment absolutely falls away, there is zero hesitation before he checks them over. Even as Robin tries to reassure him that they'll be fine, it's not that bad, the other was worse and they survived that, please don't worry - he doesn't process any of that. His thoughts are just filled with the fact that it happened again, and this time he wasn't even there. Scarily stoic but all in all does the same - picks them up, gets help, doesn't let go until he has to.

Afterwards tries to deal with the crushing guilt, neglects his own solo missions to shadow Robin (more so than he already did), and won't even lean into the rival act for a long while. He'll just be silent, and keep an eye on them, until they snap.

They don't need a babysitter - the job is high risk, they're human, things happen. They're alive, and they plan on staying that way, so why won't he go back to normal?

And this is the moment where I'm officially off the deep end, have another alt reveal.

Because Dusk breaks. They've never seen him like that. He can't cry, but he's clinging to them, on his knees, and just shaking all over as he holds them. Begs them to please let him do this - he doesn't want a third time, he can't have a third time. Every time they leave for the night he worries that he won't see them again, and he can't do anything about it because the rules prohibit them from sharing their identities and he won't cause them trouble with the higher ups, but please, in the few hours he gets, please just let him watch. Maybe - maybe for the few day shift missions they have, let Dawn watch -

Dawn?

His work partner. He should have told them ages ago, yes, it was a joke that got away from him - his counterpart, a Sun animatronic, who handles undercover intel collection. They can't miss him, really, dressed as he is -

And for Robin a few things click into place. They're frozen for a moment as they process, don't even hear Dusk still talking, and the coincidences just slot into place. And it makes sense. They don't get angry (maybe a little, but mostly at themself), and then their shoulders sag and they put their hands on his.

"Hey," they say, softer than he expects, and he quietens. Freezes when they pull down their mask, and smile.

"Let's go home, okay?"

"Home - What -"

"I didn't know I have two tenants. Sneaky, I have to admit. I thought Sun was just a private person, but I suppose I didn't see the forest for the trees."

The trembling stops, only to start back up again when he starts laughing - buries his head where he's leaning near their stomach, near those scars. Shaking with laughter when things click into place for him, too. They give him the time to process, maybe absentmindedly stroke their thumbs over his shoulders, just to show him they're there, still there.

After a bit, the laughter slowly peters out, and he lets out one of those tinny sighs, that are half an imitation of something human, and half something completely unique. Looks up at them, and just smiles.

"Home sounds good."

[the-descolada]

I just can’t imagine treating a friend that way

[angelstrawbabie420]

hmm i think i am not coping. very well

[0ransje]

We may be going extinct but at least we have each other.

[zannolin]

you ever get an idea that is sooooo. arghhhhh bites into a roof tile and cries.

[flowermist7432]

Honestly lately I realized how big of a homebody I am. And for the first time in months I've started forcing myself outside my house, at least 3 times for the first time in months. And today I've opened up my curtains.

It's a small accomplishment, But I'm trying, y'know? Trying to eat and step outside, while also trying to see the brighter side of things instead of complaining and giving up. I'm beating myself up and making excuses to be lazy and not better myself.

[our-lady-of-mcr]

everytime i think im done ranting i remember something else LMFAO this one is extra long i hit tag limit god mf damn

[astranauticus]

oh i absolutely gave myself way too much of a workload this semester but holy shit i finally have like... about 80% of that orv changgwi animatic down in concept and i am. cartoon villain cackling

[mooseyspooky]

Yesterday, less than a day off my pain meds, I'm in total despair because I'm not able to make any progress on vampire Johnny

Then today, what do you know, the brain fog cleared up and I've been writing on and off for a few hours