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Outers your wilds (my brain rots)
#outer wilds#outer wilds fanart#outer wilds hatchling#outer wilds gossan#outer wilds gabbro#outer wilds feldspar#sams art#my brainrot#it got me again#keep your eyes out for something big soon đ
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Awkwardness, tension, and lies part 2: Michael, I damn well know who you are.
Iâm trying to be funny with that title, but Iâm also so not. Itâs crazy that we have the airport scene at all to highlight tensions, but the fact that Mike acts the way that he does around Will astounds me most about that whole situation.
Hereâs why.
Mike argued in the Rink-o-Mania fight that he focused on sending letters to El, that Will should have reached out if he wanted to talk, that it was Willâs fault that they drifted apart. Once he blamed his prioritizing his girlfriend, twice he blamed Will. He never blamed himself. But then he did by episode 4. He called himself âa total self-pitying idiot.â He made up with Will. It was pretty clear that he missed Will, especially when he said that âHawkins, itâs not the same without you.â
So Mike did miss him. Right? And if thatâs true, then he was lying in that fight, right? He could have done better. Dare I say it, Mike probably wishes he could have done better.
Backtrack to episode 2 with the airport scene, the first hug. Mike misses Will. Thanks to foresight, we know this for a fact. And even if Mike wasnât truly thinking about missing Will at the time, itâs there. It exists. Missing someone - even if itâs only realized in a short amount of time - doesnât happen overnight. Itâs a slow burn. Why then doesnât he hug Will, say that he missed him, and let the fact settle in his mind?
The thing is that the show seems to answer this as Mike âworrying too much about El,â as said in the apology in episode 4, which leads me to believe that he was expressing indifference in that airport scene because he wasnât really thinking about Will. But then how might Mike explain his behavior towards that painting? He takes two looks at Will and clocks it and immediately asks about what it is. He might be inquisitive for a number of reasons that we donât get. Maybe itâs because of El mentioning it in her letter. Maybe itâs because Mikeâs never seen Will brandish such a large piece before, and heâs curious. Maybe itâs because heâs trying to make small talk. Whatever the weather, Mike is interested in Will by asking. But he also doesnât try to show it. He takes Willâs answer about it and cooly says, âcool.â Dead-faced. So, hm. Every which way you look at his reactions and composure in that airport scene, it seems like thereâs no clear way to understand his motives.
Unless heâs hiding something. Because to me, this all sounds like Mike is hiding something, and him hiding something would quite frankly answer everything.
See, the thing is that for Will, he hasnât changed so much over the seasons. Heâs still sassy, heâs still strong at heart, he still fights for whatâs right. And he still. Loves. Mike. I said in my last post that they both changed, but in actuality, Will was ready to welcome Mike with open arms, give him his painting, and love him no matter what, just like before. Itâs Mike who stifled that by being withdrawn. Mike changed. And itâs Mikeâs withdrawal that caused Will to change his attitude.
So notice how the story becomes so labyrinthine and Byler-centered at the get-go in season 4 because of Mike. I think that the show being in either El or Willâs perspective/focus whenever Mike is on screen is so interesting because we know that Mike has changed, but we never quite understand how, and it leaves us guessing.
In that airport scene, is he happy to see Will? Is he nervous to see Will? Is he trying to ignore Will? It could be, and I believe that it is, all three, but one thing is for sure: Mike isnât truly indifferent. If he was indifferent, he wouldnât have pulled the gayest most heartwarming apology for what he said in the Rink-o-Mania fight and basically ask Will to be in his life exactly as they were again. No, Mike isnât one for indifference with Will. Weâve seen this in season 3 in him bringing Lucas to go biking to Willâs house in the rain to apologize. Mike pursues Will. And for Mike, that never changes.
With all of this in mind, with Mike factually and expressively missing Will, with Mike changing and being withdrawn, with Mike still choosing to pursue Will later on, in that airport scene, what could he be hiding?
To answer this, I bring back the concepts of awkwardness, tension, and lies. Guess what ties all three of those things together along with his missing, withdrawing from, and still pursuing Will; thatâs right! Deep-seated, internally homophobic, hidden feelings.
Mike hugged Dustin after Erica won Eddieâs campaign. He hugged Lucas at the hospital. Heâs not immune to hugging his best friends or something. This is about Will. Thereâs something different about him, to Mike. And I hear the question, well, wasnât it the distance that was different? Mike stayed in Hawkins with Dustin and Lucas. Maybe heâs just more comfortable with them. But to that I say, okay, so, if we believe that, then Mike didnât hug Will because he doesnât know Will anymore, and heâs uncomfortable being close to him after a long time. But from the way that he chose to reach out to Will and remain close to him emotionally tells me so much otherwise. Even after all that time, Mike made amends first after their fight. He gleaned that Will wanted things to change. He knew that he was at fault all on his own. âOh, I didnât say it.â âYou didnât have to.â
And, mind you, they fought because of the tension at the airport scene! I think that I need to really make that clear. Iâve been using the Rink-o-Mania fight as a crutch to my case, but truly, itâs on the main page just as much as the airport scene! The tension culminated with their fight. They were mad at each other. They had reasons to be, too. They left off unresolved. Things could have soured and we may have never gotten answers as to why Mike walked away. And then that could have been it! That could have been the end of Mike and Will! The Duffers could have had their storylines no longer intersect and their chemistry fall completely flat, but no. Mike gave an entire heartfelt apology and that was one of the only times that seasons that we heard from his heart and his thoughts. And it was all to Will.
Mike undeniably still knew Will; he knew him enough to know what he did wrong and came around realizing what Will had argued to him. Mike wanted to be comfortable with him again. So no, he didnât truly alienate Will nor become too uncomfortable with him not to wish âbest friendâship again with him. But he wasnât that way at the airport, so what gives? What first impression hampered him from being close to Will if he, deep down, wanted closeness with Will? What complicated things so much that he had to hesitate with Will at first?
Truly, the moment that Mike made the airport scene awkward, I think that Bylers won. We didnât get Will tripping over his feet, down bad for Mike and giving him the painting right then and there to be rejected. We didnât get them hugging like it was nothing. We didnât get comfortable smiles. We got tension, conflict, resolve, and betterment. We got everything. And we saw Willâs van confession, so we know that heâs been pining after Mike. And from the setup of the airport scene, with the question of what is Mike hiding? I think that Mike could damn well be pining after Will, too. I believe that thereâs love at work here, a kind of love that binds people together. A kind that fights and makes up. A kind that slowly figures out how to navigate life together and confronts and mollifies pain as needed. A kind that gives advice and listens. A kind that canât stop watching the other for assurance. A kind that gives each other their all.
I love the airport scene because, in my mind, it solidifies the fact that somethingâs up with Mike that we donât know explicitly yet that weâll have to explore next season. Weâve been given Willâs heart, weâve been given Elâs heart, but Mike has deflected self-vulnerability time and time again for the sake of others. But interestingly enough, the one exception is his apology to Will. (And, no, I donât count his monologue to El in the final episode of season 4 as true vulnerability. Truth is, El was dying on that table and Mike had a sense of obligation to save her - wholly or not, a sense at least, and if you disagree with that then you donât know Mike at all - so all of his words might not have been true.) I hope that he gets to be a little selfish for his own good next season and focuses on himself.
And maybe, just maybe, weâll know what hindered him at that airport. What he was truly thinking about. Perhaps who he was truly thinking about.
#byler#byler analysis#long post#byler brainrot#it got me again#this was way longer than I intended it to be#also /nbh to argue against with all of this Iâm just excited and arguing into the wall of this drought
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feeling an overwhelming amount of loneliness rn
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feeling deeply unwell after watching the hdm finale, ive been crying for 30 min straight
#im imagining what you will look like when youre older#hdm#EVERY ATOM OF ME AND EVERY ATOM OF YOU#it got me again#they filmed it so well and stayed true to the bokks#his dark materials#also KILLED me#thats such an underrated line#hdm spoilers
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why don't you lie face down in bed listening to the credits song from howls movie castle and then you'll feel better
#personal#its a sad night lads#it got me again#but tomorrow is a new day!!#and i shall watch a funny twink play video games before sleep
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I'm so fucking sick! I miss how easy it was to call in sick when it was the plague. I'm not going to die on my feet for college food. I know what the economy is like, fucking fire me.
I'm so sick. It's a cold from hell and I feel bad and I want someone else to feed me soup and get me water. But I'm weird so I'm alone when I'm sick. This sucks. I'm so niceys, I went to work super sick for like two days, which I probably caught from the other guy who was bullied into being there when he was sick?
"Sure you're such, but do you think you could come and just wash dishes?" đ Does sanitation mean nothing to these people?
We'll get through,
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so ok yeah fine i watched gravity falls again and read the book of bill
#billford#bill cipher#stanford pines#bill got me againâŚ. in 2024�� what a time#also billford canon lets GO#2015 me is living#drawing gf again after so long feels surreal but good#ford pines#gravity falls#my art
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itâs cheaper to buy vegetables here
#robot alchemic drive#I CANT FIND THE OG POST FOR THE LIFE OF ME itâs like it got vaporized out of existence ???#and i needed this on my blog again. i just needed it#my posts
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THAT one's goin on the list too now!
#bg3#bg3 tav#bg3 the emperor#baldur's gate 3#i just got to this part again in my second playthru and it#makes me laugh every time like WHO do you think you're talking to??????#stelmane??????#i think the fuck NOT#8 int won't stop finch from being petty!!!#oc: finch#my art
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love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking
#yes i want things to be free like ??? that is not a weird desire#'but but it costs money to keep up' ok and? how is that my problem#the government has plenty of murder dollars they could reallocate a few to make internet services universal if they wanted#also these companies were perfectly capable of supporting themselves before the internet got drowned with ads so ÂŻ\_(ă)_/ÂŻ#edit: muting notifs on this post bc new additions have kind of petered out#so no one feel bad about adding something someone else has saidâ it is not bothering me im just trying to keep my#notifs page cleanish lol#also since i saw some people are being redirected to read my tags: firstly hiiiiii this is a special secret message for you:3#secondly i have learned since making this that the reason they were able to support themselves previously was because#of investors bankrolling everything#and theyre now finally realizing that theyre never going to actually make a profit and arent as willing to invest#however thats just a minor correction and doesnt change my overall point#once again. so many murder dollars#so thats why im just adding it here in the tags rather than making an actual correction#anyways . love yall đ#origibberish#bigger gibbers
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they are like puppies. 2 me
#gravity falls#dipper pines#mabel pines#stan pines#stanley pines#ford pines#stanford pines#gravity falls fanart#fanart#disney#pretty happy with the bg on this one!!!#to be honest i don't know how i got here#at first i just wanted to draw mabel and dipper sleeping on the floor bc i thought it was a cute idea and i love to draw cuddling#and then um. suddenly i had placed them in an entire environment and added stan and ford#couldn't tell ya what happened#but i had fun with it!!#anyway yeah thank you again for all the recent support#hit 12k!!!! woah!!!!!#i was gonna make a post thanking you for 10k but then i hit 11 and now 12 so um. whoops#to be honest i don't even know what to say đđ it's just crazy to me that ive gotten this far because ive had this acc since i was like. 12#it was my first social media i think#and the first way i got into fandoms#so yeah anyway. thank you :'))#mods art#mods draws#my art
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more people gotta try this shit where bill has not improved and will not change but he's just chilling so its fine probably. its great
#gravity falls#billford#bill cipher#stanford pines#gf nevermind all that#is this really for that? no but if its post canon bill on earth then it may as well be. makes it nice and easy to find later too#reread tbob because we just got our own (nicely water damaged) copy and i was like. i dont draw him cute enough#i will continue trying to do better#anyways stanley you are a butch woman. stanley transition now you dont even have to do anything youre already perfect#its just about the intent#every time i drew him for the last one all i could think was oohhhhhh my god you are a dyke. to me. please#in other news are there any burned out pushing-30s out there who havent drawn in years? i gotta say. i really gotta say.#get mentally ill about something its great. preferably alongside a few other people that you can use to create a perpetual cycle of insanit#gets you drawing again in no time and it feels great
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i love the idea of the batfam wearing each other's merch cause like. i know they'd be petty about it. usually they'd wear their siblings merch in (kinda) equal rotations, but they'd change it up depending on sibling squabbles or sibling favours. Tim, walking into the kitchen in a Red Hood shirt: Dick: TIM!? Tim: what Dick: it's Tuesday. you always wear Nightwing merch on Tuesdays. Tim: oh. Tim: you stole my last granola bar, last week. Steph, looking for something in Jason's room: JASON WHY DO YOU HAVE EVERYONE'S MERCH BUT MINE?! Jason, peeking into the room: i have your merch. in the trash. Steph: WHY Jason: you hit me with a blue shell in mario kart last game night. i'm never forgiving you. Damian, sporting a full-on Red Robin hoodie: Tim: woah. what brought this on? you usually only exclusively wear Batman or Nightwing merch Damian: you helped me take that splinter out of Alfred's paw yesterday. Richard on the other hand has recently messed up my painting palette. Dick, from the other room: IT WAS AN ACCIDENT! Damian: he'll get over it. Cass, wearing Nightwing merch for the 5th day in a row: Jason: goddamn. what did Dickie do to get in your good graces like this? Cass, smiling: he made me a flower crown Jason: ... that's it? Cass: it was a very nice flower crown. Dick, buying seven Signal shirts: One for everyone. Duke, behind him: Dick, you really don't-- Dick: shhhh, sunshine. everyone will love your new merch. (they all wore exclusively Signal merch for a week straight) Bruce isn't allowed to change up his rotation or not wear someone's merch because he immediately gets accused of playing favourites. He'd rather keep some of his sanity, thank you.
#batfam#batman#cassandra cain#damian wayne#dc comics#dick grayson#duke thomas#jason todd#stephanie brown#tim drake#bruce wore a black bat shirt twice in a row once#cause he mistook it for his own merch#and got flamed by the whole family for playing favourites#he never made the mistake again#they all have mugs with their logos on them btw#source? trust me bro
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People should make more doomed by narratives siblings relationship.
Like with lovers you can just sever it and not have it related to you ever again but with siblings how could you?
You grow up with them you raise them or they raised you you both know how unforgiving the world is to both of you? You would die for them but will hate them for doing the same and yet none of you would regret it and both of you know it. They could be the person you loath the most and miss the most cause you still remember how they sneaked a candy into your hands. You can sever the tie but you can never look away at what you've lost, at whom you've lost because fate doesn't allow you to be together, eating dinners in quiet peace, if only there's another life, another time, where i can make you another plate of pancakes i would im sorry im sorry im sorry â
#[borealis.txt]#sorry um. got feels again#just. aughhhhhhhhh#like genyas and sanemis relationship and the brothers in sctir#theyre so fuckin tragic cause god. aaaaaaaaaaaaa#'because my nemi is the best brother' WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME!!!!!!#edit: alright you guys can rb this again cause im feeling charitable
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I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just canât try to process emotions the same way as them, itâs just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcanâs meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about whatâs upsetting them
People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human
â-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didnât even bring a dish!!!â
âThe purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?â
âYeah!!â
âAnd they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?â
âMostly just my dish but yeah >:(â
âHow illogicalâ
âThatâs what Iâm saying!!!â
#star trek#Vulcans#Humans#not based on a specific thing#but I used to know this annoying couple that were âfamily friendsâ#who would show up to potluck dinners and the like and would either bring nothing or bring something really just. out of left field?#like a bag of frozen chicken to a bbq#and then proceed to make sure they are first even if it was stated to let kids go first#would take HUGE amounts before anyone else got a chance to get a plate#and then make off with the leftovers again even if they were already claimed for#and it wasnât a food insecurity thing trust me I would never speak bad about a person getting food if that was even a remote chance#the adults who raised us knew them really well and weâd been to their house a ton of times#they were just dicks#and yeah. theyâd occasionally insult the food. while eating the MAJORITY of it.#it was so weird at their home they would go out of their way to get the healthiest options possible#you know the really bland tasteless expensive stuff that apparently was healthier#but then if they were visiting our house they would. eat all our unhealthy snacks.#that always pissed me off so much as a kid because we actually had a food insecurity thing going on#and also a variety of other reasons that are a bit too depressing to bring up on this post#but anyways weâd hardly ever get to have nice snacks#and this couple would just take them all??? even after weâd tell them repeatedly that it was ours and those snacks werenât gonna be#replaced#hated that couple#if youâre wondering why they were âfamily friendsâ itâs because the couple who raised us#(it feels weird to type it out like that but apparently legal guardians doesnât fit since they never finished petitioning đ)#liked having them around because it made them look like âsuch great Christianâsâ being nice to the people#that no one else wanted to be friends with#I always thought that was a really weird and fucked up reason to be friends with someone#this got long sorry đ
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My sleep paralysis demon is hotter than yours
#homicipher#mr crawling#fanart#i love him so much#art#crawling x mc#game so good it got me using tumblr again
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