#it gets to the point where even bts related things doesn’t entertain me :// like i can’t just watch bts vids every hour of ever day

[heybaetae]

This is partially for me because I'm really curious about your opinion about this. 👀 What would you consider an unhealthy relationship with an artist you admire? Bts for example. And I don't mean the physical stuff like actually following them everywhere and taking pictures because that's not even liking & admiring the artist, that's just straight up fcked up and for money. But in like an emotional way? When is it too much? Because sometimes I say stuff like I'm emotionally dependent on <member> but honestly I don't think I am? Like they make me very happy whenever I watch something and they make me laugh so much and when they say something sad or talk about past experiences I also get sad, and when someone is not on social media for a long time I miss them a lot but I still go on with my day, do my stuff etc. And I cried with/for them in the past and there were things I could relate to that they had said or done. But I can still do my things, I'm not on social media 24/7 waiting for them to do something, so I guess I'm not truly emotionally dependent on them? 🤔 Have you seen someone who was on the edge of / in an unhealthy relationship with any artist?

good question! i have thoughts on this in general and a lot of it stems not just from the bts fandom, but previous fandoms i’ve been in where the parasocial relationship someone has to a celebrity they stan starts to concern me. for the record though, i don’t think any of the examples you mentioned about your relationship with bts are unhealthy. i think they’re all very normal feelings to have for them because you care about them, but it sounds like you still know where to draw the line. i don’t think actually being emotionally dependent on a famous person is healthy, but i absolutely agree that they can be a source of happiness, sometimes more than other things or people in your life can and that’s a more individual type of experience and might be worth talking to a professional about if it starts to effect you negatively. but if it doesn’t, carry on.

my concern is more with making a point to follow or keep an eye on someone’s non-famous family and friends on social media, harassing those people, and sleuthing for information to the point of making those people feel unsafe just for knowing or having any kind of relation to that famous person, especially if they’ve made it a point to keep those exact people extremely private for that very reason. i’d also question things if someone’s entirely personality revolved around loving a celebrity to the point of like…eating, breathing, drinking, traveling, replicating every little thing they’ve ever done with permanence such as copying tattoos and visiting every place they’ve ever been in—and i don’t mean public places like museums or parks—i’m talking real businesses like salons, restaurants, gyms, they’re known to frequent, etc. and going out of your way to make acquaintances with people who’ve worked with them just to feel “closer” or in the hopes of crossing paths, which starts to border on obsessive and creepy ulterior motives. wishing harm or threatening people on their behalf, demanding more work or attention from them, speculating way too much (not just being curious or making light jokes) about their personal lives, sex lives, mental well-being, and overanalyzing their interactions with each other to push a narrative or coming up with reasons why they’re being mistreated by their company or fellow members. i say this because i’ve been guilty of entertaining that kinda stuff in the past in a few other fandom(s) and it wasn’t until i got into bts that i finally was able to recognize how incredibly fucked up and abnormal that is for a stranger to do, fan or not.

there’s lots more examples but you get my gist. i think if you’re avoiding doing most of that, then you’re fine.

[reflections-in-a-critical-eye]

I have to say that I’m a bit tired of waiting for the “real” music. No more “it’s just an English release”, “It’s just a collab”, “It’s just the world cup song, not his album”.

These are still official BTS/solo member realeses, only because they are underwhelming doesn’t mean they should be considered filler even though they sound like it. And I think that’s the problem: we are all gaslighting ourselves into thinking that something amazing is going to come when them as a group(the English songs, Yet to cum) and solo artists(J-Hope solo, Jin’s solo, the awful collabs and now this fifa song) haven’t done anything interesting or good at all.

I still have some faith in Jk and Jm, but I don’t think I should expect them to save the group’s recent discography by themselves.

They could at least do something interesting non-music related to entertain us like Tae and Lisa in Paris.

Yet to cum

Thank you anon. I had a laugh and that's the only way to spell the name of that song to trully capture the reaction it gets out of me.

Moving on to the actual topic. I do understand where you're coming from. At some point, we have to look at it realistically, except there's this thing called hope that many cling to it. We need to know when to simply accept that maybe it won't turn out how we want. And that what we want is irrelevant because we're not the ones making that music. It's not like all the songs (as a group or solo) will be seen just as a footnote, they're there on the resume and are a proof of what they delivered in the past 2 or more years. For some, it's good enough, while for others, not quite. I guess only time will tell because we're too close to it.

I don't put all my eggs in Jimin and Jungkook's basket, especially since apart from collabs, we haven't heard any solo song. It's a waiting game.

And you're absolutely right, a bit of entertainment never hurts, lol. It certainly makes the days a bit more interesting in the fandom, when nothing else is happening.

[chemicalpink]

If it’s alright with you could you do an astrology post about how bts would flirt with a person they were attracted to?

So.. god I really hate disclaimers because I like to believe that we are all reasoning people, plus there’s a general disclaimer on my page BUT I know for a fact that people don’t read that (those same people won’t read this one anyway).

Disclaimer: This analysis/reading is based on my experience and knowledge of astrology, it is not meant to be the absolute truth, as BTS are real people, and astrology can only capture so much about multidimensional humans that have had past experiences and cultural approaches amongst other things, it does not have to resonate with you since this is in no way related to anyone reading it (unless you are a member of BTS in which case, get out of here lol ) This is just for entertainment purposes.

OKAY NOW THAT THAT’S OVER by default, Venus and Mars could give us an insight into their love styles, but I’ve already got reading about those here, here, and here 

We are going to use those BUT I’ll focus on their EROS (if you want me to do actual research and post a full love life analysis for each member, let me know in my ask)

SO BASICALLY THIS IS BTS’  FLIRTING STYLE ACCORDING TO THEIR VENUS, MARS, AND EROS. 

Kim Seokjin ʕっ˘ڡ˘ςʔ

I feel like a dad joke to tune into the other person’s humor is his way to go.

His Eros in Scorpio points to someone blunt in his approach, so something along the lines of overly flirting pick-up lines.

His Cancer Mars points to his overall romantic self so if Kim Seokjin is flirting with you prepare to live a drama scene where you feel like the only person in the world.

His Capricorn Venus reinforces the fact that this man is straightforward when flirting, and is very VERY selective as to who they approach.

So all in all, these three placements tell me that Kim Seokjin is a man that loves the fact that people are so multidimensional and he is here for it! he wants to know everything about the person he decided to approach because this man’s standards are over the top and he knows it. 

There's a lot of talking involved while getting to know each other, although he drops facts about himself here and there along with some funny storytimes, he will make it all about you.

A gentleman at his finest, drop you by your house, make sure you’re not cold, that you’re enjoying your food, that you’re comfortable.

This man’s way into your heart is ultimately his actions + his humor.

Min Yoongi  /ᐠ｡ꞈ｡ᐟ\

He’s... silent. Kinda shy, okay very shy, unless you gave off a great vibe, you’re not getting past awkward introductions and anxious small talk.

If you make it past introductions(because let’s be real, this man’s standards? impossible to fulfill), you’re in for a ride.

His Eros in Capricorn makes him crave to connect in a physical sense, even if it’s just hand-holding during dates, funny enough, this placement is the hardest one to make him open up so.. he’s not talking much about himself.

EVEN FUNNIER his Aries Venus points to someone bold and confident, which I can totally see him doing, the first move if he sees someone that plays into his idea of perfection.

Idk why it just strikes me as he knows what he wants from people, he’s not afraid of a challenge and chase, and his boldness as well as need for physical touch, makes him a great candidate for a fun short term, especially since his Eros signals that he pretty much values work more than love life.

Yoongi is... very much handled by his ego self, so he might be aloof at times, it has to do with his terrible high standards, a somewhat fear of intimacy and love for his work that keeps him from any type of social life (because he values work too much), but this man is also very romantic, and a great listener, as it is told by his Cancer Mars.

It’s all a matter of getting through his hard skin to get to the mushy Yoongi he doesn’t let many people experience.

Jung Hoseok ʕ♡˙ᴥ˙♡ʔ

This man loves a challenge, the thrill of the chase, not very healthy if you ask me but hey, you do you.

Playing hard to get will most certainly interest him. As well as letting him help you so he can “save the day”. This is all according to his Aries Eros. 

True to his Eros, his Aquarius Mars makes him be the biggest fan of flirting, and he obviously succeeds, thanks to his huge charisma and wittiness. 

LISTEN- THIS MAN as oblivious to affection as he is, can flirt with a whole group of people at once.

Free-spirited and quick-witted people are his cup of tea since it makes it easier for him to keep the flirting flow going.

I know I’ve said it many times before in this post, ISN’T IT FUNNY his Pisces Venus points to him being shy and awkward but cute, which I think pretty much describes Hobi, minus the shy.

So all in all, Hoseok flirting magnet, he is all smiles and will fill your heart with cute stuff and funny things, also, KING of not giving off mixed signals, he doesn’t even have to say a word, he flirts with his whole body.

KIM NAMJOON “φʕ•ᴥ•oʔ

THIS MAN BEING AN EROS IN LIBRA MAKES SO MUCH SENSE. He has a more traditional sophisticated way of flirting, kinda like courting.

It also makes him very giving, up until the relationship is off-balanced, then things end, so yeah, he likes to give, but he also likes to receive just as much. 

Also, very much into intelligent refined people. 

Just like Yoongi and Jin, he has a Cancer Mars, which only heightens his leaning towards traditional love and courting.

He will be devoted even when flirting, wanting to know everything about the other person, even on the first date, just- very very soft Joonie.

Lowkey, as poised as he is, his Scorpio Venus will give everyone a run for their money on terms of flirting. This man knows whats he's doing and how much he affects the person he is flirting with.

He’s just- so used to flirting and connecting with people that he doesn’t have an outcome in mind, just finds flirting fun and exciting.

Basically, Namjoon is a man that knows what he wants and how to get it, but flirting stages are just so common to him, he does it out of boredness, not that he doesn’t want to connect with people, quite the contrary, he finds people so amazing, it’s just- flirting doesn’t have an endgame for him.

Might I dare to go as far as to say, Kim Namjoon might end up in a relationship by accident just because he didn’t know when to end his constant flirting. 

PARK JIMIN  •᷄ɞ•᷅ 

His Eros in Pisces makes him one of the more emotionally passionate of the bunch, to an unhealthy state, in which he may manipulate himself in order to satisfy the other person. 

There’s a lot of thought going into dates, small gifts “because they reminded me of you” and a lot of cute stuff. Very Very passionate.

He has a Scorpio Mars, so as much as he is passion-driven and very much into cute stuff, and believing that he should 100% merge with the other person, he knows what he’s doing when he flirts.

Different from Namjoon, Jimin doesn’t just flirt for funsies, he entertains the idea of love when flirting, future plans, meeting the parents, he can just see it all.

AND he also has a Scorpio Venus so he is definitely aware of all his flirting and how he affects the other person, especially since there’s a lot of sex appeal going into it.

Not so much a mystery himself, but he tries to be the perfect fit for all. Which might ultimately hide behind this perfect partner facade. 

This man doesn’t just end up in a relationship by accident, this man falls in love on accident.

KIM TAEHYUNG ʕ •ᴥ•ʔ

We’ve got another one in love with the thrill of the chase.

Tae also has Eros in Aries, so there’s a lot of playfulness involved in flirting, from banter to playfully shoving the other person aside.

Might also be into dates where he can compete with you, like arcade, or something that he disguises as competition but he knows beforehand he’ll win.

Someone tell him it’s not healthy to crave impossible relationships, anyway, he’d love to be the shinning armor in his love story.

He has Capricorn Mars, which makes him have an honest, practical, and straightforward style of flirting.

The vibe check is real, so unless you pass it with flying colors, do not expect to be flirted with.

Although, his whole aura screams social and flirty due to his Aquarius Venus, which involves a lot of charisma and a great sense of humor. 

Just like Hobi, Tae can flirt with a bunch of people at once without even trying.

JEON JUNGKOOK  ₍ᐢ ̥ ̞ ̥ᐢ₎ ♥

Flirting for Jungkook is more of a mental game than an emotional one, according to his Eros in Gemini. 

Now listen, the nerdier, the better. But you would have to approach him first, as much as he enjoys the idea of talking to people, he doesn’t really do it that well.

Just like Jimin, he has Scorpio Mars, so in line with flirting being a mental game, he knows his game plan, his moves, he knows how people will react to them, he knows what he wants, and more importantly, how to get it.

He very obviously knows about his sex appeal and uses it as an advantage, even though at first he’s kinda awkward about it.

Much like Namjoon, he enjoys flirting so much that he doesn’t even need to have an endgame in mind. He likes to hear people talking about their passions and loves it even more if he learns a thing or to about it in the way, but his awkwardness comes through when he doesn’t really measure that most of the time when you flirt its because you’re interested in pursuing a romantic relationship.

His Libra Venus also plays the part, since it signals him being flirty and witty without even trying, just a man, his beauty, his charm, and his charisma. 

He’ll do anything possible to make you feel like you matter, even going as far as daring to hold your hand just because (which is a great pointer t know if he is really interested or just flirting bc he can)

Ultimately, his flirtation serves as a means to cheer themselves and other people up.

[alpacaparkaseok]

The Pact: Date #2

Pairing/Genre: OT7 BTS x reader (not poly), idol!BTS, best friend BTS

Word Count: 6.4k

Premise: The truth about the pact the boys have about you has been revealed. What happens when you agree to go on a single date with each of them?

Warnings: none, so much fluff (adkshdaslkfj...yeah. fluff.)

a/n: please, if you feel ok with it, let me know how this date was! Remember, you guys are deciding the outcome. Every little bit of feedback, even if it’s just unintelligible screaming, helps. I’d be very interested to hear your thoughts on how this date differed from last week’s!

Date #2

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It’s safe to say that by this point, you’ve replayed last Saturday’s date in your mind about sixty thousand times. Yet, despite your near-constant analysis, you find that you’re no more prepared for today’s date than before.

Perhaps it has something to do with the way it was described last week, giving you a little insight to how different this date would be compared to the relaxed atmosphere before.

Classic. Romantic. Picture perfect.

Your mind races with the possibilities; heaven knows that could be any of the boys. But you can’t help but expect one in particular to appear on your doorstep.

You shuffle back and forth before your mirror, triple checking your reflection. Jungkook texted you earlier this week with some instructions.

Dresscode was set to casual-nice. Whatever that means.

Make sure you’ve got your T-money card, which gives you access to the Subway.

Your green sweater vest is tucked neatly into your black skirt, giving you a posh academia vibe that you’ve honestly been dying to try out for a while. Hair falling in thick ringlets around your shoulders, the look is complete with black suede boots that only extend up to your ankle.

“Oh yeah,” you grin at your reflection. “I look good.”

And just there, resting atop the sleeves of your turtleneck, sits Hobi’s bracelet. The word ‘jagi’ is facing the ceiling, which is enough to soften your smile, remembering Hobi’s sweet date.

You’d gotten Jungkook’s permission to send a little message to Hobi, thanking him profusely for the date. It’d been fun to get to chat with him for a minute, already missing him. If you’re honest with yourself, you miss hanging out with all of them. It’s only been a couple of weeks since you were last all together, but it feels like months.

The upside to this Saturday is the fact that (after you’d sent some choice texts to Jungkook), you were given a time as to when your date would appear. Which is why you’re sitting on the edge of your seat at six o’clock ticks ever closer, waiting for the tell-tale knock on the door.

Every time a car turns onto your street, you’re leaping up to peek out the window, holding your breath until it passes by. However, this time you find yourself nearly passing out as a sleek black car rolls to a stop in front of your house.

You lose all ability to think straight when Kim Taehyung steps out of the car, straightening his beige cable knit sweater and puffing his cheeks out as he exhales. His black hair tumbles into his eyes, just long enough to brush up against his brows and make him brush it away.

Stumbling back from the window before he can see you spying on him, you bring a hand up to your chest.

“Ok, ok,” you rush to compose yourself. “Holy-”

A happy knock on your door cuts you off, and the only thing you can hope for is that you don’t say something stupid within the first sixty seconds of this date. If you can make past the first sixty seconds, you should be good, right?

Right?

You don’t have time to ponder as you force yourself to take a deep breath and open up the door. Sure enough, there stands Taehyung. Looking like he just stepped out of a French renaissance painting, complete with a smile.

A smile that’s meant for you, you realize with no shortage of shock. Grinning at you while he tilts his head to one side, his hair falls across his face from it’d been semi-parted.

“Hi, my name is Kim Taehyung,” he taps his heels together and extends his hand out. As he swoops into a bow, you can’t help the giggle the bubbles up at the silly scene before you. Gently placing your hand in his, you watch with wide eyes as he brings it to his lips. Planting a soft kiss to your knuckles, he looks up at you from behind his hair. “And you are?”

At this point, you’ve realized that there’s no stopping the mad blush crawling up your neck. Attempting to shake it off with a laugh, you shake your head.

“Are you lost or something?”

Taehyung gasps, stepping back and nearly tumbling down the stairs. “C’mon!” He groans, his smile never faltering. “I was trying to be classy!”

Shrugging, you grab your bag equipped with the essentials (keys, chapstick, mints...more mints), and lock the door behind you. Linking your arm through Taehyung’s and delighting in the momentary surprise that graces his features, you smile up at him.

“Where to, Mr. Kim?”

“Ah! That’s better.” The two of you make it to the car, Taehyung opening the passenger side before hustling over to the driver’s side. Once he’s in and buckled up, he answers your question. “Choose a number between one and ten.” Coming to stop at a stop sign, he looks to you expectantly.

“One.”

He raises his brows, making a show of turning the blinker on to signal turning right. “Good choice. We’ll get there in about...twelve minutes.” You nod, smiling softly. “How have you been?”

“Good. It’s been weird, not getting to hang out with everyone,” you admit. Tae hums in agreement.

“Yeah, it’s been weird not seeing you around the house. What have you been up to?”

The two of you get lost in conversation, relating your most recent horror stories from work or your classes. Taehyung listens raptly, snorting when you mention that you considered bringing your homework with you on the date.

“Seriously!” You laugh. “There’s so much of it. I swear, my professors have all ganged up on me.”

Tae turns into a closed off parking lot, swiping a small card in front of the monitor and pulling forward when the gates swing open. “Well, I’m glad you didn’t. Hopefully I keep you entertained enough to keep you from doing homework,” he teases.

You gape at the huge building before you, the architectural design enough to have your mouth running dry. It looks like it was taken straight out of ancient Greece, the pillars stretching up high and boasting chiseled divots. Leading to the entrance is a path of hanging wisteria, the soft purple petals swaying in the breeze.

In fact, if you hadn’t currently been sitting in a car that was definitely a product of the 21st century, you would have thought that you’d accidentally time-traveled.

Taehyung’s soft chuckle brings you back to reality, and you watch as he throws the car in park and rushes around to open your door before you even have time to twitch a muscle. You find yourself torn between gaping at the building and the man in front of you, as he extends a hand out to you and pulls you out of the car.

“What is this place?” You ask, afraid to even blink for fear of everything disappearing. Tae gently links your arm through his, which in retrospect was probably a good idea. Heaven knows you’re at risk of wandering off and never returning.

The evening sky does wonders for Taehyung, the sleepy golden sunlight settling over him. “It’s a project that’s been in the works for a long time, actually. They’re bringing together different artworks - some are replicas that they’ve been permitted to use - from all over the world. The best of the best, all in one place.” He runs a hand through his hair, looking up as you enter the small tunnel of hanging wisteria. “It’s not open to the public yet, they just finished moving the final pieces last week.”

You blink, looking up at one of your closest friends with awe. Squeezing his arm, you take a moment to pause and look around at all the beautiful wisteria.

“I’m friends with some of the curators here,” Tae explains when he catches your eye. “They said we could have a look around...if you want to…?”

In response, you wiggle out of his grasp and take off toward the entrance, Taehyung laughing and hurrying after you.

The art museum is, in a word, massive. The two of you fall into a companionable silence as you take in the artwork, occasionally wandering away from each other to get a closer look at something. Every so often Taehyung will call your name, motioning for you to look at a piece he especially likes.

There’s a point where Taehyung is trying to explain the difference between the replicas and the real oil paintings. “See, this one doesn’t have the same kind of sheen, so it’s obviously fake.” He reaches out to touch it, but freezes as soon as his fingers touch the painting.

“What?” You ask, craning your neck to see. He turns to face you with a horrified expression.

“It’s real.”

You choke a laugh, seeing the way he slowly removes his hands from the painting as though afraid to set off a bomb. “You’re joking.”

He shakes his head, looking up and down the hallway before whispering to you. “Run. They’ll kill me if they find out that I touched that thing with my bare hands. It’s like...three hundred years old or something.”

“Wha-”

“Split up!” He hisses, taking off down the opposite end of the corridor. Heart pounding even as you laugh, you run the other way. Taehyung’s laugh bounces off the walls, only making you laugh even more.

It doesn’t take long before the sun has dipped below the horizon and the two of you find yourselves in a spot dedicated to different sculptures. Sitting down on the bench in front of them, you realize just how long you’ve been up and running around.

“Wow,” you breathe out, Taehyung grunting in agreement. “So you weren’t caught?”

“Not yet, at least.” He fidgets a little beside you before speaking again. “Actually, there’s one more thing left to do here.”

You glance over at him, delighted to see that his hair has somehow grown even fluffier over the course of the date. “What is it?”

“Let me show you.” He hops up, leading the way to the end of the corridor. He enters a small room that’s completely empty save for a white backdrop and a camera.

He walks to the camera, making sure it’s on before gesturing for you to walk before the backdrop.

“Think of it like one giant photo booth,” he explains. “Pose, and I’ll choose a backdrop for you.”

You chew on your lip, feeling a little awkward as you stand before the camera. “What should I do? I’m not used to people taking pictures of me.”

Taehyung frowns. “What do you mean? I take pictures of you all the time.”

Against the start white backdrop, there’s no chance he doesn’t see your blush. “No, er...not like that. I’m not used to posing.”

“Oh.” He steps back, crossing his arms. “Just...smile?”

He snaps a few photos before rushing over to a small printer. You wander over as well, laughing when you see what’s become of your photos.

There you are, smiling awkwardly where Mona Lisa usually sits in her painting. “Oh, that’s horrible.”

“Da Vinci would love it,” Taehyung objects.

“Here, I’ll take your picture.” You run over to the camera while Taehyung steps up front, placing both hands on his hips while looking off into the distance. Selecting the ‘Starry Night’ background, you take the picture.

“Oooh, very nice!” Tae croons when he sees the photo. “But I want both of us in this.”

“What do you mean, both? There’s only enough room for one-”

“We’ll make it work,” Taehyung says as he drags you in front of the camera. Fiddling with it for a moment, he turns back to you. “Ok, it’s set to take four photos in a row. Stay still.”

“How are you going to…?” Your words fade out as a light in the camera begins to blink, counting down. Taehyung comes around you, slipping his arms around your waist as he rests his chin on your shoulder.

Just as the camera flashes for the first photo, Taehyung decides to try his hand at tickling you mercilessly.

You squeal, trying to get away but unable to as Tae keeps his iron-like grip on you. “Stay still!” He scolds in a serious tone, even as a smile is pushing its way onto his lips.

“S-stop!” You can hardly breathe as the attack continues and the camera flashes again. “Tae! You horrible human being-”

Suddenly he drops the attack, standing up straight and smiling at the camera. You take the opportunity just as the final flash goes off to shove him, laughing maniacally. He shouts, stumbling backward dramatically. Taking the temporary distraction to your advantage, you hurry over to where the pictures are being printed. As each photo comes out, you can hardly hold back your laughter.

Picking up the first photo, taken just as Taehyung had decided to attack you, you turn around to face him. “Look at how evil you look here!”

He saunters over, a lazy smile on his face. “Oh-ho, classic.”

Sure enough, the other photos are just as entertaining, although you can’t help but groan at the second photo which shows you with a mixture of laughter and annoyance as Taehyung fights a smile. “Oof, this one isn’t the most flattering…”

“Does that mean I get to keep it?” Taehyung asks quietly, taking the photo from your hands and looking at it closely. “You look cute.”

You blink, but shrug it off. Taehyung has always been a bit more forthcoming with his flirtatious manner, but it’s just now that you realize there was actually some sort of truth behind all of those silly remarks over the past few years.

Huh.

Taehyung checks the time, looking up at you with wide eyes. “Oh, we have to hurry!”

“Why?” You manage to ask before Taehyung takes off in a brisk walk. He grabs your hand, giving you no choice but to try to keep up.

He doesn’t directly answer your question. “You brought your T-money, right?”

“Yeah...but why?”

“Why do I feel like we’re going to get in trouble for this?”

“We won’t. I will.” Taehyung doesn’t look the least bit bothered as he slips a hat on over his hair. “That is, if we get caught.”

“So no pressure.” You say sarcastically, wishing you had some sort of invisibility cloak.

You never knew that the subway could be such a rush. It’s a Saturday night, people are filing in and out of the Subway at a rapid pace as they chat jovially together. Taehyung keeps his head down, attempting to blend in and completely failing.

“Tae, you’re going to be recognized.”

He shrugs. “I do this all the time. Hasn’t happened yet.”

You furrow your brows. “You do? I had no idea.”

“It’s nice to pretend to be normal every once in a while,” he confesses, looking down at his phone. “Just don’t tell anyone. It’s a secret I’ve managed to keep for years.”

“I won’t. Promise.”

Pulling up the timer app on his phone, he grins mischievously at you. “Ok. We have 60 minutes to get to three different places.” He holds up his phone for you to see. “First, we’re going to that night market you hit up all the time to get Tteok-bokki, which you love probably way too much-”

“Hey! It’s a healthy obsession!” You defend yourself, only earning an eyebrow raise in return.

“Whatever you say, weirdo. Then, we’re going to that walnut shop - you know the one at the end of the line?”

“We’re going to a walnut shop?”

“Yeah. Namjoon’s got this new obsession with them, so I promised I’d pick some up for him”

You snort. “Ok, and the last spot?”

Taehyung lowers his phone, toggling the timer to 60 minutes and looking at you and chuckling. “It’s a surprise. You ready?”

“Wait, how on earth are we supposed to get to all of these places within an hour?” You ask, incredulous. “Especially if we’re stopping to eat or buy stuff?”

Finger hovering over the start button, Taehyung looks around the busy subway station. “We hurry.” With that, he links his hand with yours and begins the timer. “Run!”

Taking off like thieves on the run, you swipe your T-money card and hurtle past the barrier, rushing to see which line to take. “It’s the red line, right?” You ask, roles switching as it’s now you dragging Taehyung behind you. “Hurry! It’s already here!”

Rushing over to where the red line train is just pulling in, you leap through the doors as soon as they open. Taehyung is right behind you, and the two of you stand off to the side with your faces down and trying to hide your giggles. He leans down to whisper something in your ear, your head automatically tilting to hear him better.

“Keep an eye out for our stop,” he urges, squeezing your hand. You nod, remaining on high alert even as you’re bursting with excitement. You know that if anybody found out that you and Taehyung were out here, looking very much like a couple, you would be toast.

The rush goes straight to your head, pumping you full of adrenaline as your stop approaches. A thought hits you, and you hurry to voice it before you have to jump out and run.

“How are we going to get you through the night market without being recognized?”

“Oh,” Taehyung angles his body toward the door, preparing. “I talked with the owner of the stall you go to. He promised to have the food ready and waiting for us, we just have to meet him in the back.”

You still have no idea how you’re going to make it through the market without being recognized, but there’s no more time for questions as the train slows to a stop and the doors slide open. In a single heartbeat the two of you leap out and take off toward the stairs that will lead you out into the night air.

It’s embarrassing just how much you’re panting by the time you reach the top of the stairs, but you shrug it off as you see the huge crowd mulling outside of the market. Without giving you a single second to doubt, Taehyung plunges into the crowd.

The two of you weave in and out, a startled laugh coming from you as the two of you pass by a stall filled with BTS merchandise. Taehyung hesitates for a moment, almost looking like he wants to stop in, but thinks better of it.

The people around you are so focused on the different stalls and their night out that they pay you no mind as you pass by, bumping into people with every step you take. If only they knew that it was Kim Taehyung bumping into them.

He never lets go of your hand as you make your way to your favorite food stall, for fear of losing you in the crowd. Glancing back at you, Taehyung shouts above the din.

“It’s been almost eight minutes!”

You nod, once again wondering how on earth you’re going to make it to all the places Taehyung has planned. Your mouth runs a little dry as you see the long line of people waiting at the food stall, all of them wanting a taste of the delicious tteok-bokki. Going in a wide circle around the crowd, the two of you end up behind the stall where it’s surprisingly empty.

Taehyung wraps on the back entrance, loud enough to be heard over the loud night. A moment later an elderly man sticks his head out, eyes crinkling with a smile as he sees the two of you.

“Ah, I was just wondering when you’d be showing up! Let me grab your order.” He winks at you guys before disappearing back into the little stall. You take a moment to breathe, looking up at the starry sky. Taehyung joins you, smiling softly.

“Why 60 minutes?” You ask quietly. Taehyung shrugs.

“I make this run whenever I can,” he responds quietly. “I’ve never been able to do it in less than an hour. Thought that it’d be fun to try to break the record with you.”

You laugh quietly. “How come I didn’t know that about you? Why didn’t you invite me before?”

Taehyung runs a hand through his hair, his other hand still hanging loosely in yours. “The pact.” When you look at him with a confused expression, he goes on. “Think about it: have you ever hung out with any of us just one on one? At least, intentionally?”

You frown, running through your memories. “I mean, yeah, but-”

“Intentionally, though.”

Automatically your thoughts run to the memory of Hobi and that night you’d vented in his car for a solid two hours, tears running down your face. Or that time you’d gone shopping with Taehyung, that was intentional wasn’t it?

“We went shopping that one time,” you say.

“Yeah, but that was an emergency of sorts. Remember? You’d spilled on your shirt and had an interview for your internship soon,” he reminds you. “I took you shopping and dropped you off after.”

You remember that, but there were other times that you just spent time with one of the boys on purpose, right? Taehyung sees your thoughts, giving you another example.

“And that time you sat and talked with Hobi in his car for hours? He’d seen you walking and offered to give you a ride. That obviously wasn’t planned.”

You blink. “How did you know about that?”

Taehyung turns a little pink under the starlight, realizing that he wasn’t supposed to know that. “Hey, it’s not my fault. He wouldn’t shut up about it. But that’s not the point!” He quickly tries to backtrack, mussing his hair yet again.

“Right,” you sigh. “So what does that have to do with the pact? And what does the pact have to do with you and this weird route of yours?” You laugh, Taehyung chuckling nervously along with you.

He opens his mouth to respond, but at that moment the door opens and the same old man appears with a bag of your food. “Here you go!” He happily hands it over to Taehyung, who thanks him and hands him the money and thanks him profusely. You also thank him, smiling warmly.

As soon as the door shuts again, Taehyung is leading you back out into the crowd. He keeps a firm grip on the food, and you stare at it longingly. The two of you manage to make it out of the crowd without any complications, except for the fact that you had to drag Tae away from the merchandise booth.

Descending the stairs to the subway, you glance over at the food again. “Are we gonna eat that, or…?”

He squints at the screen that shows the different lines and arrival times. “We have four minutes before the yellow line gets here.” Stopping at the bottom of the stairs and standing off to the side, he hands you your food, chuckling as you tear into it. He shares it with you, devouring the food at an alarming rate.

It’s embarrassing to say that the two of you finish it with thirty seconds to spare.

“Wow,” you groan, rubbing your stomach as Tae throws the container away. “We’re messed up.”

He chuckles at you, checking the timer. “That, we are. But it was good, right?”

“Ugh, so good. I swear, that place is magic.”

This time, instead of running to the platform, you waddle. You get there just before the doors close, sliding in between the door and pole, which you cling to. Taehyung stands across from you, resting against the pole as well and smiling.

“Ready to go buy some walnuts?”

The question has you giggling. “Definitely.”

You fall into a comfortable silence, waiting for your stop to arrive. The walnut shop sits on the other end of the line, one of the final stops. It takes a few minutes to get there, each second ticking down. Once there’s only one stop left before you have to get off, you ask Taehyung to check the timer.

He raises his brows. “We’re making pretty good time. Thirty minutes left.”

“Nice!” You give him a high five, smiling simply because he is. “Let’s get these walnuts!”

Nevermind the fact that people listening in to your conversation think you’re crazy.

Once you make it to your stop, the two of you settle for a brisk walk rather than running. Together, you walk down the street hand in hand while trying to find the walnut shop.

“You never finished explaining that thing about the pact,” you recall. You’d nearly forgotten amongst the rush of eating and the sleepy subway ride after. Taehyung glances down at you, almost looking a little bummed out that you remembered.

“Oh...right.” He stops on the corner and presses the crosswalk sign. “Well, that’s one of the things about the pact. I never invited you to come along with me because I couldn’t. It doesn’t allow for intentional one-on-one activities.”

“You know how weird that is, right?”

He snorts. “Yeah, I know. But that’s how it is, I guess. All of those other times you were with any of us, alone, it wasn’t on purpose. It just worked out like that. You know, something about keeping everything even. And, spending too much time alone with you would probably lead to breaking the pact.”

Nodding, you tuck this information away for further examination. “Sounds like you guys thought of everything.”

“Almost.”

“Ok,” you begin to cross the quiet street, this side of Seoul starkly different in comparison with the busy night market. “So what does this route have to do with any of that? Why did you even start doing this in the first place? It’s...all over the place.”

Taehyung chews on the inside of his cheek. “Well...oh! We’re here!”

You roll your eyes as Taehyung bounds up the stairs of the walnut shop, which appears to be nearly closed. Why they’re still open at this time of night is beyond you. Do they really have people coming out to buy walnuts at all hours of the night?

The little shop is warm, and the young girl behind the counter looks anything but shocked as Taehyung enters. She immediately leans down to grab a small bag, placing it in front of her.

“Just the one bag?”

You pause to wonder just how many times Taehyung has frequented this shop for the employees to be so familiar with him. The thought makes you smile, picturing Taehyung sneaking in here late at night just to feed Namjoon’s odd walnut addiction.

“Just the one should be fine,” Tae responds, looking at you over his shoulder with a warm look. You don’t notice it, lost in your own thoughts as you wander over to a display.

Once he’s finished with the transaction, he wanders over to you. “Looks like we might just make it.”

You turn around, looking at him expectantly. “How much time is left?”

“Sixteen minutes. Let’s go,” he holds out his arm for you, which you rest your hand on the inner crook of his elbow. Bidding the girl goodnight, the two of you wander back out into the night.

“Soooo...where to next?”

Taehyung shakes his head. “I told you, it’s a surprise.”

The subway on this end of the city is much less crowded, it’s easy to find the blue line and hop on. You realize that you’re heading back to a stop fairly close to the night market, which makes you wonder.

“Why’d we go to the end of the line before this?” You ask. “It would’ve been much quicker to go here second.”

“Because,” Taehyung sits beside you, stretching his legs out. “It’s a spot that you can’t rush in. It’s meant to be the final destination.”

Giggling a little, you nudge him. “That sounds a little morbid.”

The Han River glistens from your viewpoint atop the bridge. Sitting next to Taehyung, your feet dangling off the edge, you take a deep breath.

“I see why this had to be the final stop,” you say as you breathe out. The entire Han River lays at your feet, the city lights bouncing off the surface and creating a dazzling atmosphere to rival that of the stars above you. People walk along the edge or ride bikes, their small figures making you realize just how high up you are.

“Mmm,” Taehyung hums beside you. He leans back, glancing over at you as you take in the view. “This is always the last stop.”

You take a moment to allow the sounds of the night wrap around you, tilting your head up to the stars and watching them wink down at you. A profound contentment settles over you, a smile playing on your lips.

“And my last question?” You mumble out. “What’s so special about this route?”

The quiet moment seems to be enough to urge Taehyung to finally answer you. He sits up, admiring the way you look, sitting here on top of the world.

“About a year ago, we all talked about the normal, everyday things you like to do. What we would like to do.”

“I remember,” you muse. “You guys were talking about what you’d do if you weren’t famous. Romanticizing the mediocre.”

“Right.” He slings his arms over the railing, looking out over the people enjoying their Saturday night. “You talked about how you always go to that night market to get tteok-bokki. You basically swore by that one stall, it was hilarious. But you looked so...I don’t know, I just remember thinking, I’ve never seen someone so happy about some cheap night market food. But it made me happy. And then you said that you like to grab your food and head out to the Han River. Enjoy the evening with some good food and a view.”

A slight breeze picks up, ruffling Taehyung’s hair. He hardly notices, wearing an adorable look of concentration as he continues. “And that just seemed...I don’t know, it became this thing for me. Those late nights at work or when we were away, I’d always stop and wonder if you’d gotten to do what made you so happy. But then, I realized that it wasn’t enough for me to just sit and wonder. I wanted to- I wanted...to be there with you.”

Your breath hitches in your throat as you catch sight of the faraway look in his eyes. How many times had he stopped and wondered if you had gotten to do something that made you happy? Sitting beside this man who is such a force for good, you find that you are entirely out of your element.

“So, whenever I had a chance in the evenings, I’d make up an excuse about picking up some more walnuts for Namjoon’s stash, and I’d head out. They told me to be back in an hour, hence the sixty minutes. But I’d take the train to the night market, go straight to that stall and pick up some tteok-bokki. I knew that I couldn’t just call you up and ask to go with you, and I was kind of selfish and didn’t want the other guys to come along. It was...I don’t know, I wanted it to be our thing. So I’d go there and hope I’d run into you. Make it look like an accident, so we could hang out. Just the two of us.” He laughs quietly to himself. “I sound like a stalker, don’t I?”

You only manage to shake your head, at a complete loss for words. Taehyung continues on, feeling the need to get it all out.

“In my mind, I thought that it would at least take you about fifteen or so minutes to get from the night market to the Han, so I’d run down to grab the walnuts and then head up here,” he gestures to the bridge. “And I’d look out and see if I could spot you. Maybe run down to meet you, pretending to bump into you. Give me...an excuse to see you.”

Taehyung glances over at you for a minute, looking a little embarrassed. You stare back, the shock evident on your face.

“Really?” It’s the only word you manage to get out. He smiles gingerly, huffing out a breath.

“Really. Does it creep you out?”

You snort, scooting over a little closer. Taehyung instinctively wraps an arm around your shoulder, pulling you against him.

“No.”

“No?”

Taking a deep breath, you take a leap. “Am I allowed to tell you that I sometimes wished I’d run into you?”

Taehyung tucks a loose strand of hair behind your ear, looking at you with an indescribable emotion. “I don’t think you should.”

You frown. “Why not?”

The moon and the stars as your only witness, Taehyung gives you a long look before leaning down to press a kiss to your forehead. He lingers for a few seconds, his warm lips reminding you of spring after a bitter winter.

When he pulls away, he gazes down at you and you just know that he’s memorizing this moment. Tucking it away for a rainy day, similar to the rain clouds behind his eyes. “I’m scared of hoping.”

In the span of five syllables, he’s completely shattered your heart. It’s now that you recognize that look in his eyes.

How many nights has he sat up here, waiting for you to come along? Hoping that you’d bump into him at the night market, delighted to see him?

Hope can be just as devastating as it is uplifting.

Taehyung sees how you’re dying to reassure him, dying to just give your heart over to him at that moment. He knows it, sees how it could play out. But before you can open your mouth, he’s stopping you.

“For now, let’s just enjoy the view and try to stay warm,” he murmurs, pulling you impossibly closer. You rest your head against his shoulder, heart still aching from his small confession. “Don’t worry, jagiya. Just remember to have fun, ok? You’ve still got five dates, don’t forget that.”

How could you?

Time ticks by all too quickly as the two of you remain snuggled up together atop the bridge. Eventually you fall into a quiet conversation, Taehyung chatting happily about how he had a mini crisis on night when he came on this route and Namjoon complained about having not finished the walnuts from last night. He’d had to find some other sort of enticing treat that would act as a cover for him.

“When it comes down to it,” he says as the two of you enter the subway and find a seat. “I didn’t want the boys to find out, because I didn’t want them to think I was going behind their backs. They all deserve a chance, and me trying to find a way to bend the rules wouldn’t have gone over well.”

You marvel at how perfectly his hand fits in yours, sighing contentedly as the subway rumbles on. “You always have been a rule-breaker.”

You’re exhausted from having run all over Seoul, nearly falling asleep as you get back to Taehyung’s car. He grins at you, turning on the heater and beginning the drive back to your apartment. Your eyes struggle to remain open, slipping closed every few seconds.

“Sleep, jagiya,” Taehyung urges. “I’ll wake you up when we get there.”

“N-no,” you say between yawns. “I’m fine.”

Taehyung chuckles to himself when you fall asleep about thirty seconds later. The sound drifts into your dreams, where you dream of art museums and the Han river.

Needless to say, you’re a bit disappointed to be woken up from your beautiful dream when Taehyung opens up the passenger side door and crouches before you. He can’t help but laugh at how adorable you look, completely disoriented and staring at him like you can’t quite place where you’ve seen him before.

“Hey,” he whispers. “We’re home.”

Gently unbuckling your seatbelt, Taehyung helps you out of the car and only continues to laugh as you wrap your arms around his waist and bury your head in his chest.

“I’m so tired,” you groan. “I wanna go to bed.”

“Well, you can. You just have to unlock your door first, jagi.”

Somehow, in your half-asleep state you manage to fish your keys out of your bag. Taehyung helps you unlock the door, swooping in to help you when you nearly trip over your doorway.

“Woah, watch where you’re going,” he teases. Suddenly the world turns sideways as Tae places his hands under your knees and around your waist, literally sweeping you off your feet. “How about we get you to bed in one piece?”

Some small, semi-conscious part of your brain is currently screaming about how embarrassing yet attractive this entire situation is, but for the life of you, you can’t tell why. Instead, you opt to nuzzle in a little closer to Tae’s sweater as he uses his foot to kick the door shut.

“I love this sweater,” you mumble, eyes falling shut again. “You look so good in this sweater, did you know that?”

“Oh...thanks. And yes, that’s why I wore it.”

You hiss, swatting at his chest. “That was very narcissistic of you.”

“You’re too tired to walk, but you’re using words like narcissistic?” He shoots back. Making his way through the dark house, he enters your room and sets you down on the edge of the bed. You sit up straight, watching as his silhouette turns on your bedside lamp. Squinting at him, he crouches down before you, resting a light hand on your knee.

“Thank you,” you whisper.

“You’re welcome,” he whispers back. “You need anything before I go?”

Always finding a way to push the limits, you smirk down at him. “Are kisses really off-limits- ow!” You rub your knee where he just flicked it, appalled at him as he straightens up.

“Don’t get greedy,” he teases with a raised brow. Heading out of the room, he turns back to look at you from the doorway. “Goodnight.”

It’s this moment that you memorize. The way the light from the lamp barely reaches him, his dark hair a little messy and a tired smile on his face. The way he leans up against your door, looking for all the world like he belongs here.

“Goodnight, Tae.”

Your ears strain to hear his footsteps, a fissure forming in your heart as you hear him closing the door and driving off into the night. Eventually, sleep takes over.

Even as you dream, the feeling of being wrapped up in Taehyung’s arms while sitting above the Han River lingers.

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Ask on Army-Multi Behaviours and K-pop Fan Archetypes Related to ARMYs and BTS (Repost)

Anonymous: Bpp, I don't understand people who call themselves fans but instinctively reach for the least charitable interpretation when something comes up about their supposed faves. They remind me of one American friend who thinks it's a personality trait to complain all the time. Even about the most harmless things. And my Republican step-grandma who only comments on anything to criticize it. I wonder what their state of mind is like on a normal day, because their first reaction every single time is negative. And it's not just 'unpopular opinions' but just weirdly glossing over easy, accessible, and plausible realities that would explain something before coming here to complain, again. Does it strike you as weird when you see things like this?

It's weird to choose to remain in a space you cannot stop criticizing, a space you refuse to see anything good about, and a space you make no effort to partake in positively. It's not even critical inquiry because half their takes are uninformed. Their 'hot takes' are entertaining to read but at the same time they seem so sad. I mean who does that? The person I saw doing that this afternoon stans another kpop group and doesn't put nearly the same scrutiny as she puts on BTS and armys on her real favorite group that she comments on only to talk about shipping and it's like, don't they see it's obvious what they are?

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Hi Anon,

You’re going to have to give me more to work with because I don’t traffic in indirects. But in any case, I guess welcome to the world and seeing how some people do things. As I’ve said in another post, if you’re a critical person, k-pop is the perfect genre for you cause you’ll never run out of things to be critical about, and you’ll always have a willing audience to affirm your gripes. No other genre elevates the opinions of random fans like k-pop lmao. I’m not American but even where I live I know people who like being contrarian. I don’t mind it because multiple perspectives are usually a good thing, so long as everyone gets their say and all aspects are considered fairly. This doesn’t happen often on the internet because nobody changes their minds here, but it’s typically a good sign to see people civilly conveying they think.

For example, I like that people are able to point out they find it excessive when fans freak out about COVID announcements because it’s true some behaviors border on irrational (even if you’re upset about it what good does crying all day do?), and I like it when other people can explain why they’re legitimately as worried as they feel. It’s called conversation. Or as close as one can get to that on Tumblr.

The rest of what you described just sounds like a regular k-poppie or multi as relates to BTS. It’s not about whether they listen to more than one artist. In fact, usually these sorts of people don’t really listen to music that much at all. It’s that they have a group they actually stan that’s not BTS, and usually use BTS and/or ARMYs as the crutch to comment on all they find wrong with k-pop, of which the group they actually stan of course has it’s own examples of. In my experience, those other groups/fandoms even have it worse than BTS or ARMYs, but again, in k-pop, nobody is actually concerned about the underlying issues. It’s about the subject. Normally I’d say BTS is the most prominent social phenomenon right now so of course everyone and their momma will be talking about them in every context, but this is a pattern I’ve observed with k-pop stans even before BTS became really famous. Like being hypercritical of BTS / ARMYs is the most consistent feature of a k-pop stan and it’s been like this for as long as I can remember loool.

It’s just what it is and I’m so used to it I hardly even notice it these days. I suggest you get used to it too because this is one thing that will definitely not change.

Originally posted: March 29th, 2022 9:32am

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To the person who sent me the thousand word essay, if you check out my ask policy I don't publish these kinds of long asks. I used to get tons of them and it got to be too much. Also, a lot of your comments contain anti talking points that I will not publish on my blog. But I can respond to some of the issues you raised.

TW/CW - brief mention of homophobia and suicide.

Basically your message was a sort of cataloguing of your doubts about BJYXSZD. To quote your closing paragraph, "Ah....i am just desperate for them to be a couple after all these months and the bts videos and inteviews, but it just doesn't add up anymore. So, as a confused fan, i thought about seeking reassurance to you."

I don't think it's my place, nor is it really anyone's place, to try to convince you or reassure you that GGDD is real. You will either believe or you won't believe. In my experience, people who are filled with doubts and in need of a steady stream of candies and clues to keep them satisfied are going to find themselves on a constant emotional roller-coaster of euphoria and misery.

Let go of your need for certainty.

As I've said in the past, when you let go of your need for certainty you will find that certainty comes a lot more easily. People who need certainty approach GGDD like a detective agency or a hungry ghost, focusing on their craving for proofs and candies that never quite seem to satiate them, and they miss out on the real joy of just being a fan.

A lot of the doubts you listed are things that don't really fit with why BXG believe BJYXSZD. We don't base our belief on the fact that they did a BL show together. We don't base our belief on the fact that they get along well together. We don't base our belief on candies. We base our belief on the insight we accumulate over a period of time, and that's not something that can be passed on to someone else. It's something everyone has to discover for themselves.

GGDD have nothing to prove. BXG have nothing to prove. We are all just here to enjoy them, love them and support them.

My advice: just relax, let go of your need for certainty, and enjoy GG and DD. Certainty will come or it won't, so there's no need to fret over it.

A couple things I felt the need to respond to:

Hidden relationships

Hidden relationships are totally a Thing in the entertainment industry, of course. Andy Lau with his 24 year hidden relationship is a great example. But you seem fixated on the idea that if GG or DD were hiding a relationship, it must be a heterosexual one.

Heteronormativity is a huge part of why so many fans have a hard time believing that GG and DD could ever be a real couple. There can be endless signs that a man is in a gay relationship and the fans will just dismiss it all, but if that man so much as smiles at a woman, fans are immediately ready to believe he's in love with her. Heterosexuality is seen as the default, and that makes homosexuality invisible to a lot of straight people.

You mentioned Leslie Cheung. I recommend this excellent post if you want to see why the world wasn't ready for him. He was an inspiration to LGBTQ people, without any doubt. I think he was equally a cautionary tale for a lot of people, even if the tragedy of his death wasn't necessarily directly related to his queerness or how he was being treated by the public.

There's a trope in society and in media and entertainment, that queer people are tragic figures. Queer characters are often presented as emotionally and psychologically turbulent people who meet untimely, tragic ends. Queer stories tend to be focused around "the struggle of being queer" and the rejection, fear and bigotry queer people face. The violence, the death, the suicides.

How could this not feed into the fears we have as queer people growing up in an often hostile world? How could a story like Leslie's fail to scare as many people as it inspires?

And besides, there are closeted gay couples in the entertainment industry in China.

I have talked about the whole hidden relationship thing, the whole 'needing to appear single' thing, in the past. You can find some of those posts linked at the end of this one. I've also talked about the pressure to appear single (along with the pressure to enter a straight marriage) previously here.

DD and the anti bullshit you've read

I can tell you've read a lot of anti lies in your travels. You're carrying a lot of the toxic ideas that antis spread online. I'm going to take a wild guess and say you spend most of your time on Twitter and YouTube, where these lies are part of the air people breathe on those platforms.

The rumors of DD being in a relationship with that heiress are nothing but harassment and bullshit. She is a known celebrity stalker who has caused scandals with multiple celebrities. Antis spread those lies because they are harmful to DD, not because they're true. DD denies them because they are false, not because he's got something to hide.

DD has never once been spotted with her. He's never once been photographed with her. There exists in the world exactly zero evidence of any common thread between her and DD. Zero evidence that they've ever even been in the same room together. Zero. There's no candy, nothing.

Meanwhile the candy connecting DD and GG together is so abundant it would put Willy Wonka out of business. There are constant reports of them being seen together, evidence of them being together, etc. Some of that stuff is stalker material that I won't share on my blog - such as DD's suitcase being spotted in GG's car a few days ago - but yeah, if you believe in the stalker heiress BS but not GGDD, that only speaks to your ignorance of the situation.

One of the things I find most frustrating about being a BJYXSZD BXG is that we are constantly characterized as spectacularly naive and deluded, meanwhile it's our most vocal critics - the antis, toxic solos and insecure turtles - who unquestioningly believe anything they read.

As for 22*7, you can always tell a DD anti by their willingness to claim DD should have spoken openly about GG during the whole scandal last year. No one who knows anything about GG and DD or about the situation could say in good faith that DD should have spoken up. I view that whole attitude as a litmus test for who knows and understands and truly supports GGDD, and who is either uninformed or an anti.

You can read more about that here and here.

And no, GG has never issued any statement denying BJYXSZD. Neither of them has.

BJYXSZD is not based on old BTS and interviews

I sometimes get sick of seeing clips and photos and metas about the Untamed, I sometimes get tired of talking about the same old interview clips and BTS. I see these things as ancient history - something fun to visit every now and then, but not where I want to live. I don't base my present belief on any of that. All that stuff can ever really do now is give us background on how things started and give us a bit of insight into how they get along and interact.

No BXGSZD that I know of bases their belief on "old BTS and interviews."

Both GG and DD have interesting new projects and endorsements. There's a ton of new content coming out all the time. We still regularly see new evidence that they're together. The past stuff is just for context.

Wrapping this all up, I'll just reiterate what I said before. No one can, or even should, convince you that GGDD is real. That's something you'll have to make peace with for yourself. If you want to get there faster, just relax and enjoy being a fan, and take some time to learn more about GGDD. Certainty may come in time. If it doesn't, well at least you had fun!

Since you are a newer fan I recommend checking out my BXG glossary, along with my masterlist post for some of the things I've talked about in the past.

[sugar-petals]

BTS Tarot Reading: Life After Fame

↳ @sheebaba​ had a request: 

hiya and sure! let’s see. tarot is a bit vague when it comes to clear yes and no verdicts, but the context of the imagery helps so i went for that.

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↪ here are the members that settle:

jimin: ACE OF CUPS — he’ll restructure his social life based on a relationship that sweeps him off his feet. however, given the harmonious nature of the card, there’s no drama of cutting ties. it’s just that such a new element is introduced to his routine that he naturally and slightly distances himself from the public to take care of love and daily life. we’ll still hear about him and his S/O plenty (note the overspilling cup) regardless. it’ll be a happy end, no grief, no remorse on either side.

taehyung: QUEEN OF COINS — nobody’s surprised at that one 😄 this queen, the archetype of motherhood and domestic life, tells us that tae will retreat to home life big time. also, given the blooming nature and absence of swords on the card, he will not use technology as much anymore. we won’t see as many updates unless he exhibits art or photography. he has tons of things to organise and his wife is the utmost priority. he could even be a full-time househusband.

namjoon: 6 OF WANDS — this is the member i am surest about in terms of concluding stardom. this reversal is a pretty classic sign, there will be a point where he will renounce the limelight for good. he doesn’t want to be widely seen, heard, and applauded and instead opts for letting go of the satisfaction of renown; he’s satiated and content. we will witness a humble descent into privacy from him. and he will keep it secret, the card reveals no hints about relationships.

seokjin: 7 OF SWORDS — at first, people will hardly notice, this card is about sneaking away in silence. a guy carries five swords away from a battlefield on the imagery. five could be the # of members he keeps in touch with, which worries me since it’s one missing. the card also relates to exiting military, he could retreat after his service. jin might return though, tarot readers say about the card that the sly sword guy soon gets caught 😂

↪ and here are the ones that don’t:

jk: PAGE OF COINS (reverse) — this page is all about laying foundations and taking opportunities. in reverse, you rather see the person sticking to their guns and old plans. jk is still avid to be the born singer to us. he won’t pursue a different education to start in an unknown field. so, he would rather continue performing instead of the usual idol career after disbanding. he won’t look for a different income source or career. he already told us, he never believed there was an alternative to begin with.

yoongi: PAGE OF WANDS (reverse) — he’ll take a long time to abandon and shift his lifestyle. yoongi is not motivated to embark on another great adventure, nor does he have lofty goals for private undertakings. charging into dating and travel right away? not him. he stays in his comfort zone. it’s as he said, he won’t get active outside the industry anytime soon. he will keep the wheel going, agust d stays a staple in the landscape. pd yoongles remains a constant to us.

hoseok: 8 OF COINS — he is keeping up the good work. on the card, you see a guy pictured immersed in chiseling. hobi thinks of many a project, he will be quite active in k-pop with up to 8 pieces of major chart-topping music coming out. if not, he will be pretty busy working in a related field (likely dance). we’ll definitely see his productivity, his energy won’t run out. he’s the member we will get the most consistent updates on. he’s a long-term superstar 😊

↳ NOTE: curiously, no major arcana appeared in this reading. so it doesn’t predict the state of things over several decades. think 3-7 years instead. the minor arcana (=suits) are short-term trends and daily life topics.

DISCLAIMER // tarot is speculative, there is no guarantee for accuracy. believing in the cards is a choice. all portrayals are fictive and for entertainment purposes only.

[il0veyoujk]

New Girl

Welcome to my acc! This is my first ff and I hope you’ll like it!

Summary: Nefeli (20) is new in Seoul town and a young band called BTS are helping her. On a party-out night, the boys tho discover her guilty pleasure and next morning are using it against her in a playful way

Warnings: None

Notes: None

This is a tickle related ff, if you are not interested in it, please keep scrolling

Lots of love Nef 💕

“Ha bro, I told ya, this movie was sooo boring!” Jungkook exclaimed as he and his friends, Jimin, Namjoon, Jin, Taehyung, Hoseok, and Yoongi were sitting on their usual spot in the park.

The boys, well known as BTS, own a little unpopular band in Seoul. They do small shows at the local clubs just for their fun and when friends are coming around their place, they sing together to entertain them and they live all together since Jin turned 23, in 2015.

They all met at that exact same park years ago. Jimin and Taehyung had gone for a typical walk after a long school day, same for Hoseok and Namjoon who were studying at the same college. That park was Yoongi’s inspiration to write lyrics, so he was there to do his hobby. As for Jin, he had taken out his dog for a walk and Jungkook was waiting for a date that didn’t end up well.

Jimin had brought his guitar with him so he and his friend started singing ‘Stupid Love’ by Jason Derulo. Minute after minute the seven boys were singing together. One song, then another and another one, and another one until they had sung 12 songs together. And that’s how they met for the first time.

So now, seven years after their first met, the seven men were sitting again at the same bench and talking about everything and nothing and laughing like mad, which wasn’t rare when they were all together.

Just then a girl walked by. She was a girl around her 19s, with dark brown, curly, long hair. Her eyes were dark brown too and she was juicy… Her chubby cheeks were light red from the heat and 5.2 height was making her like she was 14 years old.

Her black – styled outfit caught the boys’ attention, as they were used to Korean girls wearing more colorful clothes, but she didn’t seem Korean. And also, the fact that she was looking around like she has amnesia and she couldn’t find herself made them more curious.

“She seems lost,” Namjoon noticed and that earned nods from his friends.

“Should we help her?” Jin asked which earned more nods. Yeah, for such a noisy boys, they were too quiet when it comes to girls.

“Um, excuse me, girl” Jimin said a little loud because he was away from her.

She turned her head and smiled softly at them as she came a little closer “Yeah?”

“You need some um… help? You seem lost” he asked her, returning the smile.

The girl looked around her and then back at the seven pair of eyes which were looking at her. The eyes were giving her the sense that the warmth of them was all around her.

“Yeah, I’m new to Seoul and I have no idea where am I or what to do” she explained.

Jungkook, Namjoon, and Taehyung let out some ‘ohs’ while the rest of them said nothing and just looked at each other.

“So, you’re looking for your house?” Jimin asked her again.

Their eyes widened as her answer which came out of her mouth was “Actually I don’t have a home yet”

The boys looked at each other, speechless. They had nothing to say. How’s even possible a girl was homeless and lives on the streets in a town like Seoul, it was too dangerous.

There was an awkward silence for some seconds before she spoke again, understood what they were thinking. “No no no, I’m not homeless” she laughed. “We exchanged houses with a girl from Korea, but she forgot to tell me where the house was, so I don’t know how to get there. She told me that she would text me the address, but she hasn’t yet, so I’m staying at a motel until she text me where to go”

The boys let sighs of relief as they heard that. They may meet her for the first time, but they were feeling bad for homeless people and they were always trying to help them.

“I’m Jimin and that’s my friends, Jin, Yoongi, Namjoon, Hoseok, Taehyung and Jungkook” he introduced themselves, pointing at each boy.

“I’m Nefeli” she said “My friends call me Nef tho” and smiled.

“You have a beautiful name” Jin said, which made her blush a little.

There was another awkward silence between the boys and Nefeli, so she decided to leave. “It was nice to meet you, thank you” and she made her way to go but she was stopped by a deep voice.

“Well, we can help you if you want” Taehyung suddenly said, earning looks from his friends and a surprised expression from the girl.

The boys were surprised too but then they changed into smiles and confidence. “Yeah, we can show you the town and help you get used to it” Jungkook explained happily.

Nefeli was seemed to be more surprised than she was before. She didn’t want to trust some random strangers, but she didn’t have a choice if she didn’t want to end up sleeping in the streets that night.

‘I can’t trust them, what if they are dangerous?’ she thought to herself. ‘But they seem so nice and they looked confused when I said that I don’t have a home’ she rethought. ‘Maybe I should trust them’

She kept staring at them lost in her thought when she understood that she hadn’t responded, and she was looking at them like she was from Mars.

“Um yeah, sure” she finally said. However, the boys sensed the fact that she was unsure about them. Her eyes could tell them. She just put a little smile on her face and then just sat there and waited awkwardly.

The boys really wanted to be polite to her, but they all knew they wouldn’t be more concentrated on her. They were just gonna help her but she wouldn’t their first priority at that time. They had wayyyy more important things to deal with, such as their job or colleges and their friends or family dramas.

As Nefeli’s eyes were traveling all around the place, they landed on a poster. She left from the spot she was standing to watch the details. The boys were watching her movements confused until they understood what this poster was about.

 “Oh, are they you?” she asked them curiously/surprised and they all chuckled.

“Yeah, tonight is our last appearance, wanna come?” Namjoon kindly asked.

Nefeli was a huge fan of music. Not just K-pop, she was listening to every genre of music. From pop to metal and from rap to classic music. The truth is that she had missed going to bars with friends and having fun. Her college was very demanding, and she had a lot of work to do every day, so she didn’t have time to go out and have fun. Now that her Erasmus made her come to Korea to finish her studies, she thought it was a good idea to have some fun. She was the only one who had high grades enough to go to an Erasmus. So, when she heard their invitation, she immediately thought it was a good idea to have some fun, even with some random guys she met just that day. And she wouldn’t be in danger because they wouldn’t be with her, she would watch them singing.

“Yeah sure, that’s a great idea!” she happily exclaimed. “What songs do you prefer?” she asked. She always wanted to know details about what she was about to watch and have planned the near future and her deeds. It was a part of her personality.

The boys chuckled. They weren’t the most popular band in Seoul, so they weren’t used to reply to questions about themselves and their program. So now that one girl asked about their show made them feel pleased and flattered.

“Well, the songs are ours and they’re pop. Me and Namjoon are writing the lyrics, Jimin is playing the guitar and Taehyung is playing the piano, while we are all singing” Yoongi explained. It was the first time Nefeli had ever heard Yoongi speaking. “However, I, Hoseok, and Namjoon are doing the rap parts”

“That’s amazing!” she said, a little louder. That caught boys’ attention, but not in a bothering way. They were more flattered than before; it was the first time someone was showing interest in their songs.

“Ugh… We should get going now, we have to practice” Jungkook sighed. The time was almost 20:00’ and they were only two hours left for their concert to begin.

“Jin and I have some time tho, we don’t have many lines today” Namjoon said “Let’s go for a coffee” he suggested.

Nefeli thought about it for some seconds. They were some guys she had met some minutes ago, in a city she was new to, and they were speaking a language she couldn’t understand.

However, the warmth of their eyes and their positive and pleasant aura confirmed her that they would not harm her and that she could trust them, so she nodded lightly. Yeah, that’s true. For someone who doesn’t trust people very easily and she’s afraid that they would hurt or abuse her, she trusts them very easily.

“Great” She was so excited to go for a coffee and eventually has some fun with friends, but now she was feeling weird. Like she didn’t belong with them. They were friends since… Well, since forever! And she was just a random girl they had met at the park some minutes ago, to who just showed pity and asked her if she was ok.

That was something that Nefeli hated most of all. People showing pity for her. It felt like people were talking to her because she was hopeless, and they were feeling sad about her life. It was like one time when her ex-boyfriend told her that he was staying with her because she didn’t have where to live, and he was feeling bad to leave her on the streets. Needless to say, that she broke up with him straight away. Fortunately, she found an apartment quickly, so she didn’t have to leave on a motel for too long.

But now it was different. She was feeling like a left-over piece of a puzzle. Like a coin between diamonds. Like a fly into milk. Her arms were folded in front of her chest and she was watching the boys chatting like she wasn’t there made Nefeli looking like an idiot. Her eyes were stuck to their backs and her pace was similar to theirs.

 Jin’s P.O.V

When I and my friends saw that girl, Nefeli, walking in the park, like she was an alien who came to Earth, we all thought we should help her. She seemed so… I don’t know… Out of this world.

When I noticed her black clothes, at first, I was confused. I’m not used to too many Korean girls wearing dark clothes. But she doesn’t seem to Korean. She’s wearing a black hoodie with a skull on it and black ripped jeans with black converse. I kinda like that outfit.

So Jimin decided to make the first move and asked her if she needed some help. It was the best choice. Namjoon wouldn’t know what to say like Taehyung and me, Yoongi never talks too much and that’s noticeable. And as for Jungkook, we all know how shy he gets when girls are around. I don’t know why Hoseok didn’t say anything, probably got shy too.

I was shocked when she told us that she didn’t have where to live, I don’t like people who live on the streets. I feel bad about them. Nefeli must have seen the sadness in our eyes when she said that because she fell a little bust, she covered that with giggles and explained the whole situation.

Gosh, those giggles were so cute, it reminds me of me and my brother when we were younger and he used to tickle me just too forced me to go and steal the cookie jar, then, when our mom would say that the cookies where gone, he would say that I ate them.

I’m so glad that Tae had the idea to help her and she accepted it. Usually, people wouldn’t have trusted some random guys they just met. She was about to leave when he suggested that to her.

And I’m really happy that she will come tonight to the club for our show. When she noticed the poster, I didn’t expect her to be so warm and interested in our little band. No one has ever been if I want to be realistic. Kids in our schools don’t give too much attention to us and it felt good that someone eventually did.

However, when Jungkook said we better should get going, Namjoon had a nice idea. We all saw that she was feeling still a little bit awkward with us. I don’t blame her; we’re some strangers in a completely new town who suddenly cared for her. So Joon said that I and he have some time free because we don’t have too much work or something like that and that we could go for a coffee.

The truth is that we have A LOT of work, but I didn’t want Nefeli thinks we’re some creepy boys who find random girls and just ask them questions. To be fair, I was surprised when she nodded.

Sometimes it’s like Joon and I have telepathy. He can guess what I’m thinking just by the look, so as I do with him. One day he had guessed that one of my sugar gliders was sick just by how I was looking at the TV. We don’t have the relationship Tae and Jimin have but we’re very good friends too.

Now we’re walking down the street tho, she’s not talking to us. Namjoon told me something about his ex-girlfriend to which I laughed a lot, but Nefeli didn’t seem to catch up. I don’t know what to do. She’s walking behind us with her arms folded and noiseless. I looked over Namjoon and mumbled a ‘do something’.

I know how she may feel. When I moved from Gwacheon to Seoul for my studies, no one was talking to me. When I finally found the company, they weren’t talking with me too much. Fortunately for me, I quickly took a step and started talking to them. But I was surrounded by boys my age. Unlike Nefeli, who’s surrounded by guys older than her.

 Normal P.O.N

Jin looked at Namjoon and mumbled a ‘do something’. They had sensed that she was feeling lonely and weird. But Namjoon had something on his mind.

“So Nef” she called her with her nickname hoping that would make her feel more comfortable. She looked up at them and smiled softly, didn’t want to show them how she felt alone. “We’re almost there. Let’s play a game while we’re on our way”

Nefeli sat near the window with Jin cornering her and Namjoon across her just when a nice little girl with short curly blonde her and two big hazel eyes got their order. Jin got a blueberry flavor tea, Namjoon an Americano, and Nefeli got a hot chocolate with marshmallows.

Namjoon had noticed the disappointment in her eyes when Jin announced that they were there, and they wouldn’t play the game so when their drinks arrived, he decided to just do that- “We can still play the game you know”

A little grin made his appearance on her face again while at Jin’s was confused. But that didn’t seem to bother him as he smiled too, and he was just waiting as impatient as the girl beside him for Namjoon’s decision.

“Let’s play 21 questions” he suggested which made Nefeli’s smile wider and Jin’s smirk appear. Nefeli like that game so much. She liked learning facts for other people. And also, it was a good time to learn things about those strangers.

‘Gosh, what am I doing? They’re complete strangers and I’m gonna play a game a have a chitty-chat with them!’ she thought to herself again. But that time the thought was a little faded. They had earned her trust and she didn’t know-how. She was just feeling safe with them for a weird reason.

“Okay Nef, you go first,” Jin said. His voice had something amused in his voice. Maybe it was the thing that they could know more about that mysterious girl who met just some hour ago at the park.

“Okay… Um… Fav song?” she asked not knowing how to start

“ME!” Jin answered quickly.

“Run with me,” Namjoon said too after he thought about it a little more and then asked, “Fav food?”

“Italian!” Nefeli exclaimed immediately, blushing a little.

The boys chuckled at her childish behavior and smiled at her “Lobster” Jin replied too and then proceeded to his first question.

“Biggest fear?”

“Elephants” Namjoon admitted not too loud, which earned Nefeli’s giggles as he playfully glared at her.

“Spiders” the girl said and now was the boys’ turn to giggle which made her glare at them just like Namjoon did.

The hour passed like that, with questions, giggles, and even some storytimes. The atmosphere was so light and nice. The guys turned out that they weren’t dangerous or that they wanted something from her, just like she thought. She had learned many things about them and some things for the rest of the guys too. Things like their most embarrassing moments, fav movies, first crushes, things about their families, and many more.

Just when she thought the game was over, Jin said that it was one question left and that he would ask it. He was thinking for a long time. He didn’t even look at Joon or Nefeli to concentrate more on his thoughts. Until it hit him-

“Biggest weakness?” he asked a mischievous smirk on his face, looking both at his friend and her.

“Um… I don’t know hyung… I don’t think I have one” Namjoon said, taking Nefeli by surprise.  ‘Everyone has one, he must have one too’ she thought and made the one thing she knew that would make him talk; she stared at him. Somewhen she read on the Internet that if you stare at someone who’s lying, that automatically makes him tell you the truth. And it worked. Soon Namjoon was looking at her and looking away immediately until he cracked.

“Okay, okay! Untidiness, satisfied?” he shot his arms up in surrender and leaned back on his chair. “Jeez kiddo, where did you learn to do that?!”

The pink line, which was on her cheeks by the heat, became clearer with the mention of the nickname. One of the things Nefeli really LOVED was nicknames. She was feeling nicknames are something special between her and her friends. Like something only, the two knew about and was important for their friendship. Especially when the nicknames were coming from her older friends.

Yes, Nefeli was feeling Jin and Namjoon, friends. They were the only ones from the group she knew well, and she was familiar with it. She laughed so hard that sometimes she was holding her belly of laughter. And she learned facts about the boys she couldn’t even think the boys were able to have done. Also, they shared with her stories of their lives. Childhood memories, teenage crushes, and adult adventures.

Her thoughts were interrupted by Jin’s voice who was looking impatiently at her, waiting for her answer. “Nefeli? What about you?” he asked her. ‘Oh my… I can’t say that! It’s weird’ she said to herself as the boys were looking at her and were waiting for her to answer.

“Uh um…” she opened her mouth to say something, but she hesitated to even though it was just a game.  

“C’mon Nef, it’s just a game,” Namjoon told her like he was reading her mind. “You don’t have to be embarrassed about anything”

And he was true. It wasn’t something she had to be embarrassed about, she just couldn’t realize that. The first time she told someone about it, it was her older cousin and after that, he couldn’t stop using it against her.

“Yeah Nef, everyone has one and that’s not bad. I’m sure it’s nothing you have to be insecure about” Jin comforted her. It was incredible how two boys she had met some hours ago, could give her the comfort she needed and read her like an open book.

“Well, it’s childish” she started to say. “So what?” the asked in unison. ‘Gosh, it’s just a game! Just say it already’ she pushed herself until she finally said it.

“I’m ticklish!” she admitted, immediately covering her face with her hands to hide her now tomato face.

The boys looked at her for some seconds before they chuckle and give her a comforting smile.

 Nefeli’s P.O.V

The boys were so sweet with me the whole time. I have a great time with them. Who knew that some random stranger would end up being some of the nicest people I’ve ever met? I don’t know about the rest of the boys, but these two are awesome! Namjoon even invited me to their concert tonight.

At first, when their friend, I think Jimin is his name, asked me if I was okay, I felt a little nervous and weird. I’m not that sociable and it was new for me people talking to me at the park. But their warm aura made me feel like I’m safe. Don’t ask me why! I don’t know either.

However, as we were walking down the street with Namjoon and Jin, I felt alone. They were talking and laughing together, while I was walking behind them, with my head down. I didn’t know what to do or say. Thank God, Namjoon is a clever guy and sensed how I was feeling so he suggested playing a game altogether. When Jin told us we were already there, I felt disappointed. I thought it was a good idea to get to know them better. Maybe the game was a good opportunity to see if they’re indeed dangerous and they wanted something from me, or they were just kind and gentle. But, instead of a rethink about the game, we just entered.

The café was so cute. There were also some posters of my fav band, Guns ‘n’ Roses. We sat at a sweet corner, beside the window, on a soft red velvet couch. I sat beside the window, Jin cornering me and Namjoon across me. An amazingly sweet girl came and got our orders. It was cold outside, and we just wanted something to warm our bodies.

So, when our drinks were on our table Namjoon told us that we could still play the game. He must want the same as I did. Probably.

So, he suggested one of my favorite games, ‘21 questions’. I always liked that game. I could learn facts for people and understand something more about their personalities.

I did the first question, even though I hesitate. I’m not the girl who would start the games so at first, I didn’t know what to say, but in two seconds I had said the first question that came to my mind.

The rest of the game was so nice. The boys told me so many stories and they made me laugh so hard. Jin told me about how his first date went when he poured a whole vinegar sauce on his girlfriend’s head as the waiter was passing by them and Jin accidentally kicked him. I laughed so much at it. Or when Namjoon had stuck his head under his bed because he was looking for his glasses which were on his head and he had forgotten about it. But the story I laughed at the most was one where they were all had gone to an amusement park and Hoseok, who’s afraid of heights, has stuck on the top of the wheel. He was screaming like me when I was five years old. I know that it wasn’t funny for him when he had to face his fear, but the story and the memory are.

However, when Jin asked about our biggest weakness I hadn’t had too much time to think as Namjoon spoke first and said he didn’t have one. I immediately knew he was lying. Everyone has one! So, I did the only thing I could think to make him spill it; I stared at him. Many years ago, I knew for a fact that one girl was lying to me about something. She had stolen twenty dollars from me, and I didn’t know how to prove it. I decided to make a research on Google until I finally found out that if you want to make someone who’s lying tell you the truth, all you must do is to stare at him. And it works every time! I finally got my twenty bucks back and I learned Namjoon’s weakness.

But soon it was my time to say my weakness. I really didn’t want to tho. It’s so embarrassing! The word itself makes me have so many butterflies in my stomach.

Since I told John about it, he tic… He does that to me every time! For love’s sake, he’s 42 years old! He got married this August and he still uses that when he wants me to do something and I don’t want to or when he’s just bored. And what’s the worst? I like it when he uses my weakness against me. Oh gosh… No one should ever learn about it! It’s too embarrassing and weird!

“Uh um…” I started but I closed my mouth immediately, realizing how weird it would sound. What if they wouldn’t want to spend time with me anymore? They were so sweet and caring with me. What if they thought it was creepy?

“C’mon Nef, it’s just a game, you don’t have to be embarrassed about anything” can Namjoon and Jin really read my mind? Because they comforted me for the exact same thing I was thinking about.

I was pushing myself and I was trying to make me sure that it wasn’t too weird and that I should not be embarrassed about it. And their eyes nailed on me, didn’t help the matter. It was like they were saying ‘Say it already!’. I was feeling like I’m under… Well, I don’t exactly know what, I was feeling stressed. And without even realizing it, I just said it out loud!

“I’m ticklish” as soon as these words left my mouth, I covered my whole face with my hands -at least I tried, my hands are super tiny!- to hide my now tomato face.

The boys chuckled and I looked up at him only to be met with two smirking boys, making me recovering my face. Even though they were trying to hide them, I could see them. I could never imagine them smirking at me. I met them one and a half hours ago! However, I liked it. I like people smirking at me. It hides something mysterious behind them and you can never know what’s hidden. And most of the time it’s not bad.

“Was that all?” Jin asked me to which I just nodded, behind my black sleeves, which I pulled high enough for them to reach the top of my fingers. If the skull on my hoodie could blush, it would.

“Cute” I heard Namjoon saying under his breath. Just then I felt some pokes on my sides. Jin! His fingers hit some of my most sensitive nerves, making me flinch so much that I would have fallen on the ground if I hadn’t had the table blocking me.

I backed in the corner of the couch and brought my legs up to my chest to block his devilish fingers as hysterically giggles were escaping my mouth unstoppably. I still can’t understand how he managed to hit my worst spot for the first time!

Namjoon took a ship of his coffee, wide smiling at the scene while Jin was laughing along with me as he was poking me all over my sides and tummy. Fortunately for me, the rest of the customers weren’t looking at us.

“JihihihiHIHIhin! Stohohohohop!”

“Leave the poor girl alone hyung” Namjoon finally saved my while I was trying to beat his hands away, successfully after Namjoon’s saving.  

“I like your weakness” Jin winked at me, making me blush one more time. I’m not the kind of person who blushes too easily, how did those guys managed to make me blush at least three times in one day? Well, it was kind of cute tho…

However, when I saw the clock on the wall I immediately turned to the boys and said “It’s 21:47” Jin and Namjoon jumped from their chairs, Namjoon ran to the barstool to pay for the drinks while Jin rushed outside the shop. I just sat there watching their super-speed like Flash had gotten into them in a cartoon program. I giggled as the two ‘animes’ made their moves in ten seconds. I tried to imagine them like real animes, and I tried my best not to burst put of laughing!

 Normal P.O.V

Nefeli snapped out of her thought when one hand landed on her shoulder, shaking her and pulling her to sit up. Namjoon. She looked up at her and grabbed her coat before she was pulled by a much stronger man outside to enter the car.

“I think I’ll walk until the club. I must learn the streets” she said right before she got inside. The boys looked at each other and then back at her. They were in a hurry, so their eyes were uneasy, and they were making quick moves.

“Nef get in the car” Joon insisted, making her more nervous and trapped in her thoughts. ‘If I got inside and they take me to a quiet place and do something?’ she thought. ‘I won’t get into the car, I’ll walk, nice opportunity for a nice, long walk’ and with that, she shook her head earning a look from both. However, they quickly sensed that, and they covered it with a warm smile and Jin told her “Okay, we’ll see you in some minutes, the address is…” she typed the address on her phone and saved it so she could ask the strangers if they could help her or the taxi driver she may take.

She looked at the car as it was running down the road fast, leaving some smoke behind it. That’s when she realized that they would be completely screwed up if they got late.

Nefeli let out a small smirk appear on her face and paced the exact way the car drove some seconds ago. Just then realization hit her. ‘Oh my gosh! It’s 21:50’!’ she yelled inside her mind and started running down the street. The boys would be very disappointed and sad if she didn’t show up. After all, they were so gentle and sweet with her that it would be at least rude not to go.

So, she did the only thing she could think at that time; she started looking for a taxi.

 Meanwhile

Jin and Joon had finally arrived at the club safe. When Jin is in hurry, his driving can be dangerous, and everyone knows that.

As they got inside, the audience was already waiting for the boys to start. They hadn’t seen too many people in place for their songs before. Even Namjoon, the tallest member, couldn’t see the stage properly.

The club was a huge, dark place, with low light. At the left there was a small stage, facing a large hall, filled with small and tall tables with two tall leather backless chairs. Behind that, there was a glassy bar, with a mirror from the right to left sides of the wall, with selves on it with the bottles of alcohol. The ceiling had all the lights for the shows and four huge black speakers. Also, colorful balloons and confetti were waiting for a great time to be released. The walls were leather with some marble details and gold corners.

They struggled to make it to the backstage (a little room behind the stage) to meet the rest of the boys, who all sighed in relief as soon as they saw their leader and the eldest member.

“Thank God you’re back! We start in like two minutes!” Jimin exclaimed, making the others nod while they were getting ready.  

Jimin was holding his guitar, ready to make his appearance on the stage, Taehyung was looking at his scores, Jungkook was drinking a water bottle and the rest of them were just sitting there enjoying the relax, before the big time’s arrival. They were all so nervous and yet so excited about their first ‘big’ show. Yoongi and Namjoon’s legs were shaking up and down.  

However, Jungkook was the first one who noticed that someone was missing as he popped his head from the door to see the audience and its amount.

“Where is she?” he asked a tone of sadness in his voice. Immediately all the eyes turned to Joon and Jin, looking at them quizzingly. They were waiting for her so much.

“She said that she will come by foot” the eldest explained, not looking at their bandmates while trying to fit the microphone in his pocket, God knows why.

Shock ran through them as soon as they heard that. They weren’t expecting that, partly because Nefeli didn’t know the town and partly because the boys thought she was trusting them.

Hoseok opened his mouth to complain but a guy from the club shut him when he came in to announce to them that it’s time and that they must come on the stage. “C’mon guys, it’s time, the audience will eat us alive if you don’t come up there anytime soon” earning nods from the small band.

As soon as they got out, on the stage, cheers and applause filled the room. Colorful lights fell on the boys as soon as they got on stage. A glossy piano was on the edge, and a base for guitar as well as a base for scores. From up there, the band could see all the people. It was an amazing experience!

“Hello guys, were BTS!” Namjoon started explaining and introducing the group. “Me and my bandmates are gonna entertain you for tonight! We hope you’ll have a great time!” the boys took their places. “Our first song is called ‘Run’” he announced before they start their show.

Time was passing so quickly and the band was getting more flattered. All that love was unprecedented. The lights were on them and blue, pink, and green lasers were playing with the dancing figures under the stage.

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It had passed an hour and more and the girl hadn’t shown up yet. Namjoon, Yoongi, Jin, and Jimin had lost their hope to see her again, in contrast with the rest of the members who were still waiting.

However, they didn’t let that eat them alive. They had better things to do at those moments. Let’s face it, she was just a girl they had met in a random place who just seemed lost. If they weren’t so carrying, they wouldn’t even discuss about talking to her. They may be waiting for her and be disappointed when they didn’t see her, but their show was their number one priority.

Now, the boys had sung more than half of the songs they had prepared for tonight's show. And they were so energetic that they were jumping and dancing like maniacs all night long.

“Say what! Jjeoreo Jjeoreo Jjeoreo!” Jungkook finished his part as well as the song. Cheers, clapping hands, screams from little girls, and people were screaming for more, as the band’s faces were something more than excited and thankful. Their hard work was finally recognized and appreciated.

“Saranghae-ah!” Hoseok shouted from the microphone and the audience went mad. It was by far their best concert and they were feeling blessed.

As they were ready to start their next song, Yoongi and Taehyung noticed a familiar figure in the audience looking at them with a soft smile. Nefeli. She finally made it and now she was sitting there, on the bar, watching them and having fun.

Yoongi grabbed the microphone before Jin could take it “We have a very special person here with us tonight” he announced, earning everyone's attention. However, the rest of the boys immediately realized who he was talking about and they made sure to wear their biggest, gummiest and sweetest grin they could.

“Give us your warmest cheer for our friend, Nefeli” he exclaimed. In a flash of light people were screaming, whistling loudly, and clapping just for her.

It felt so… Sweet. Never someone had done this for her and she felt like she was special. In her life, people aren’t giving her compliments or talking and treating her so kindly and making her blush so hard. She was so flattered and red that she was feeling like she would explode from all the blood that was in her heart at that moment.

The smiles and the grins on their faces could tell they were happy she was there. Suddenly it felt like she was their first priority. It was so kind she made it and came to their concert. They were sad but at the same time so concentrated on their work, but now they were relieved.

“Our next song is dedicated to her and it’s called ‘Euphoria’” Jimin cut his words, gaining a glare from Yoongi and some chuckles from Jungkook and Hoseok.

The song was so nice! Its lyrics were sweet and so emotional (in a good way) she thought she would break out with tiny, crystal tears. As the song was going on, the girls were all amused and you could see hearts flying above their heads for the seven young singers.

The hours were passing so pleasurable. It turned out that the boys were so talented and their songs were very good. Nefeli liked a song called ‘Run’ the most. It was obvious that she liked that so much tho. She was moving with the rhythm and she learned the refrain for the first time, even if she couldn’t understand the language. It was a heart-touching song it was clear.

Now it was 01:02’ and the program had finally come to an end. More people had come and now the place was more crowded than before. The boys were in the backstage and Nefeli was outside the club. She was freezing cold but she could handle it.

It was the first time she had so much fun in months! Her college had swallowed her and the lessons were tough. Music was her favorite thing in the whole wide universe, so it was like she was in Heaven. Live Pop music in a nice club, just paradise.

‘Why didn’t I bring a coat with me? Jeez, the weather here is so cold’ she mentally complained, hugging herself. And she was right. The nights in Seoul are too cold in December and Nefeli wasn’t prepared for it.

Just as she was thinking that a tap on her spine makes her flinch and let out one single giggle before turning around to see the seven singers. They were dressing in heavy clothes, their faces were sweaty and their hair was messy. Their breaths were coming out like smoke as they were mixed with the cold air and Jungkook and Jin were wearing skull caps. The boys were exhausted and Nefeli could sense that, however, they were super happy about their success and they were smiling like crazy, from ear to ear.

“Wow, guys that was perfect! Congrats! You’re very talented!” she exclaimed, couldn’t wipe the excitement off of her face, making boys’ smiles grew and let out some chuckles.

“Thank you, Nef! Where were you? We were looking for you” Jin asked too happily, gosh knows why.

“I was here, I was waiting for you to come here and congrats you to go f-” She couldn’t finish her sentence due to Jimin pulling her with them back inside. “No no no no, you’re not going anywhere!” he said.

Nefeli started getting anxious. Jimin was pulling her with them, inside a bar, not knowing why. After all, she wasn’t knowing them too well. Sh4e was so confused. ‘Why do they insist so much? I came here, watched them, had fun… What do they want now?!’ she asked herself, so she stopped.

“No!” she shouted, gaining weird and confusing looks from the boys, and some strangers. “I-I’m just tired, I wanna go to a motel for some rest,” she said, realizing she had snapped out. She didn’t want to be rude, just defend herself, and make sure she was safe.

“It’s okay, we understand... We just wanted to have some fun with you and get to know you better, like Jin and Joon” Yoongi explained, making the boys nod in agreement. However, their face dropped to the ground. “So, that means we have to say bye” Taehyung continued looking sad in his eyes which were screaming tiredness too. “It was so nice to meet you, we hope we’ll see you again sometime!” Namjoon gave a warm smile and waved at her like the others before they turned their backs to get back inside.

She immediately felt bad. They were all so kind and sweet to her and they helped her feel so comfortable. And how she returns the favor? She lies to them, confuses them, and disappoints them. She didn’t like disappointing people. Seeing them sad, was making her sad too. Especially when she was the cause of their sadness.

“Wait!” she yelled, walking up to the boys, making them stop their way. “I’ll come with you” she smiled. Jungkook and Hoseok pulled them inside happily, and the rest of the band followed them, satisfied with the way things turned out.

The place was more grounded than before and the bar was full. Music was all around and some couples were making out too. There was a barman behind the bar who was purring vodka in shots.

“One round of eight” Jungkook ordered immediately.

“It was so nice coming with us after all” Namjoon said, side hugging her. That caught Nefeli by surprise. But hugged him back anyways. Cuddles and hugs are her number one favorite thing in this universe.

“I’ll just have only one, I don’t like alcohol,” Nefeli said as her chubby cheek was pressed on Tae’s torso, afraid of being drunk, gaining some chuckles and giggles from the band.

“As you wish, girly” Hoseok joked, making her smile widely and blush at the nickname.

“Here we are,” Jungkook said excitedly, bringing the shots with him, making the rest of them cheer, along with the young girl.

“Okay on count on three,” Jin said as everyone was holding his glass. “Oneeeee” he started counting “Twooooo” he continued, everyone ready to drink “Three!” he yelled and drunk and laughed.

“More more more more!” Yoongi commended, hitting his glass on the table they were at, everyone nodding in agreement, except Nefeli.

“Oh c’mon Nef… Just one more!” Jimin pleaded while the six others were giving her puppy dog eyes. She giggles too at the boys’ childless. She didn’t want to destroy the atmosphere tho, so she finally agreed “Fiiiiiiiine, but only one!” she said, holding the new glass of vodka.

 One shot became two

 Two became three

 Three became five

 Five became eight

 Eight became twelve

 And soon she was drunk!! Just what she didn’t want to.

She was dancing and laughing with nothing, just by herself. And she was saying incomprehensible things. Alcohol had a bad effect on her, after all, she wasn’t used to drinking.

The seven singers had noticed that and they were trying to stop her, unsuccessfully. At first, they were laughing at her deeds, but then, when things started getting worse, they were trying her best to calm her down. Everyone was expecting Yoongi to drink too much, but no! It was her.

“Slow down girl, you’re gonna pass out!” Jimin tried to grab the glass of her hand, but it was useless. She had an iron grip on it.

“Noooo I’m *hic* okayyyy, look!” she dragged out the words, before she made a turn, around herself. However, she fell onto Namjoon, bursting out in laughter, only she knows why. Fortunately for her, Namjoon was quick and he caught her before she could reach the floor, face down.

The leader looked at his friends like he was saying ‘we should do something’ and they all agreed while her giggles were hitting their ears, still on Joon’s arms.

“I think we should get going” Jimin announced to the girl out of blue after his mental conversation with the band.

She shook her head furiously, her mood changing immediately and she was really close to tears now. “Noooo, I don’t wannaaaaa goo” she complained, giving them her best puppy dog eyes. She hugged the table, refusing to let it. Jin took a step closer to her and tried to wrap his arms around her waist to pull her.

As he did that she did something unexpected; she flinched away and giggled harder, making the boys look at her confused.

“Hehey! Stohohop!” she yelled, glaring both smiling at the eldest. Jin and Joon just chuckled, realizing what the girl was talking about in contrast with the five who seemed to be more confused than before. “You know I’m deadly ticklish!” she continued, bringing grins to their faces as soon as she said that. It was clear that she couldn’t understand who she was talking to so she kept going “You know, I actually love when people making me laugh with that! It’s super fun!” they all awed at her confession.

“Oh really? Whyyyyyy?” Jungkook played with her drunk self. “Because I like laughing and when they tickle me I laugh and it’s so nice to laugh and I like it and it’s good and my mind goes whoooooo and I don’t think of anything bad and sad” she laughed so much at herself, making the band laugh along with her.

Suddenly her expression changed and became serious “But don’t tell the boys! It’s too embarrassing!” the boys laughed and all nodded in agreement. “Sure, girl” Taehyung joked around.

All of sudden, she started looking around like she was in the space and she could walk properly. Her arms were reaching whatever they could and her head was too dizzy. She was feeling her stomach spinning right round like a washing machine and her legs couldn’t stand her anymore. Her mouth was numb and her breath was sharp.

“What’s happening?!” asked Jin worried, trying to catch her arms.

“She’s just too drunk” Yoongi explained, having been in her position too many times so he knew what she was doing and how she was feeling. “Just give her some seconds”

Jin, Hoseok, and Jimin were trying to hold her now still, Jungkook, Namjoon, and Taehyung was trying to make space for them and watch their moves so that they could help if it was needed and Yoongi was just sitting there doing nothing but watch. “Some seconds to what?” asked a very worried Hoseok. “I don’t feel well…” Nefeli said out of blue, getting them all by surprise. “Oh Jinnie I didn’t know you had a twin brother, neither for you shortie” Jimin’s jaw dropped while the others were trying to hold back their laughter unsuccessfully. “I think- I think I need to-” she started.

“3, 2, 1…” Yoongi counted under his breath. And then BLACK. She fell onto the floor, making everyone in the building look in their direction.

The band was shocked! Was it a good idea to invite her with them? What were they going to do with her? Was that their fault? They were the ones who were insisted on more shots and yet they were the only ones who were not drunk. Guilt was filling them, and at the same time, the boys didn’t know what to do.

The crowd had circled the eight young adults, watching the scene. However, no one made a move to help the poor singers. A glare from Yoongi tho, made all the people look away and follow separate ways in the club, holding their drinks.

“I think we should keep her home” Namjoon finally said. He may be the clumsiest, but his ideas were always the bests and the boys were following each and every word he was saying.

Jungkook picked her bridal style, letting her long curly hair fall behind his arm, leading to the car. Hoseok left some money on the table and followed him, as the other five members were already in the car. Namjoon was at the driver’s seat, next to Yoongi. Jimin, Taehyung, and Jin were behind them and Jungkook, Hoseok, and the girl would be sitting in the third seat.

Jungkook set her on the seat and Namjoon start the car. Yoongi was used to drunk people, but Jin, Jungkook, Taehyung, Jimin, Hoseok, and Namjoon weren’t.

They were all super silent during the ride and their thoughts were complicated. How did they managed to get under their protection a random girl? Even if that protection is for only one night. Yes, they were insisting to meet her and know her better, but they could never imagine things turning like that. But they were feeling guiltier than under pressure.

As they parked at the parking lot and got inside, they decided to let her sleep on the couch. They all needed a good rest so as Nefeli. And their couch was huge, in contrast with her who was too short.

Hoseok grabbed a duvet for her. The house was too cold. Jungkook, who was holding her bridal style once more, set her on the sofa softly and Jimin covered her tiny body with the duvet, before they all headed to their rooms, saying goodnight whispery.

   “Ughhh, my heeaad…!!” Nefeli complained as she opened her eyes. The boys were already awake and chitty chatting in the dining room when they all turned their heads towards her.

Her head felt like someone was hitting it with a hammer, her eyes were red and puffy, and her stomach was spinning right round. Her hair was a mess, she couldn’t feel her legs and she was still wearing the same clothes she was wearing the day before.

As the eyes scanned the room, she immediately understood she wasn’t at the motel she was staying at and shoot up from where she was laying. Well… She tried to… She fell back on the couch, realizing she was too dizzy to stand up.

As soon as she noticed the boys tho, she got panicked, getting she was at some strangers’ house, not knowing why. “Why am I here?” she asked, a little harshly for her normal talking”

“Good morning to you too Nef,” Tae said, making her feel bad straight away. However, she still needed some answers so replaced that feeling with anxiety.

The seven were all sitting there, watching her moves, which made her feel awkward and yet more nervous. Yoongi wasn’t smiling too much to her, when was he? And as for the rest of them, they were all giving Nefeli some warm smiles, which made the young girl return the smile.

“You were too drunk to let you go just like that, so we decided to bring you here” Namjoon kindly explained. That didn’t help the matter…

However, Hoseok was more awake than his leader so he caught what she was thinking. “You can leave whenever you want, you’re not forcing you to stay forever” he chuckled to lighten up the mood and gained some surprised yet weird looks.

“I think that’s obvious” Jimin spoke up. Nefeli just nodded.

As soon as Nefeli heard these sentences, she felt guilt rising inside her. These boys took care of her when she couldn’t take care of herself, and then she got scared of them. How could she think like that? It wasn’t fair for what they did for her. However she didn’t let those feelings showed up on her face, she didn’t want the seven men watching her like that.

There was a comfortable silence as Nefeli leaned again at the couch, watching the room better, noticing it was decorated both cutely and boyish. It was a brown-pastel color, with a wooden floor, and a fan on the ceiling, at the same color. The kitchen, the living room, and the dining room were one and behind the table, there was a huge glazing. The apartment wasn’t too big, but she could see ten doors. Maybe eight bedrooms and two bathrooms. ‘How did they managed to fit all them in such a small house’ she thought.

The smell of fresh coffee hit her nose which made her broke out of her thoughts. Jin had prepared a mug for her and set it on the table where they were all sitting. It was a nice smell. She traveled her back in time when she and her mum were sitting on their balcony, Nefeli drinking chamomile and her mum coffee.

She made a last effort to stand up and walk but failed one more time. “Ughhh” she complained, holding her head, earning some chuckles from the boys.

“Wanna come help?” Namjoon asked kindly, offering a hand to help her stand up and she happily accepted it. He passed an arm around her back and with his free hand he held her arm and lightly pulled her on, walking her to the table and sitting her between him and Jin, in front of her mug.

“How was your sleep, baby girl?” Hoseok questioned her. ‘Babygirl? Am I still drunk’ she asked herself, hearing the nickname. ‘It was cute tho’ she felt a little more comfortable, so she nodded and gave a soft smile.

“Thank you so much,” Nefeli said before she took a sip of her coffee, feeling better straight away. However, they all seemed confused about what she said. “About what?” Jimin asked her. “About bringing me in and taking care of me when I wasn’t able to do it for me” being shy she was, she didn’t dare to look at them.

“No need to thank us,” Yoongi said, smiling at her too. Just then a box of painkillers inside a huge hand appeared in front of her mug.

“Those should do for your headache” Taehyung assured the young girl, placing the box and a glass of water beside the dirty pink mug full of sweet coffee. She thanked him and opened the box to take the magic pill which will solve her problem.

She swallowed the water with the painkiller and felt immediately better. The hammer stopped and the washing machine in her stomach was spinning softer.

“Sooo” Jungkook started. “Wanna stay for lunch?” he suggested. Now all the eyes were on her. But instead of feeling comfortable, she nodded straight away. She wanted to spend some more time with them. After all, they had proved that they are not dangerous and that they were kind and friendly, so why not? Also, she wanted to thank them for all the care they showed towards her.

“Of course!” she exclaimed “I’ll cook,” she said, a little too loud, which made her grab her head in pain and the boys grin.

“I’ll do it for you. You’re in our house and we must make you feel comfortable” Jin disagreed. “I’ll help you tho!” she made sure her tone was both imposing and sweet, so they won’t feel bad.

“Okay, so get up!” the eldest playfully commended, banging his hand on the table, making her groan in pain as her head felt like it had just been hit by a bell. “Jiiiin!” she complained, the boy immediately apologizing and pulling her. “C’mon, it’s 13:30’ already!”

“What?!” she exclaimed, still holding her head, turning it to look at the clock on the wall. “Okay fiiiiiine” she stood up, tiredly, following Jin in the kitchen, some steps away.

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Half an hour had passed and the apartment was all filled with a delicious smell of Korean fried chicken and some fried rice tingling in everyone’s nose.

Laughter was all around the living room as the eight young teenagers were sitting on the couch, chatting, while eating what Jin and Nef had cooked in the kitchen. It turned out that the young girl was a fast learner when it comes to cooking.

“Last night was so good! And your songs are super amazing!” she said out of blue. The singers all grinned, satisfied with her having fun with them. At first, they thought she wouldn’t even show up at the club. Even though they didn’t care so must at all when they invited her, they lit up when they saw her.

Their songs were all written by them and the majority of them were written a long time ago. Due to their colleges, studies, and works, they were able to write too rarely, either lyrics or music.

“It was our pleasure” Jimin smiled at her.

“Did I do or say something too weird?” she innocently asked. Only if she knew… They looked at each other not knowing what to say. If they told her the truth, they would make her feel uncomfortable one more time. But it was her right to know what she did last night. It wasn’t too loyal of them to hide it. Jin and Namjoon were in the worst position tho. There were the first ones who learned about it and they promised her not to say anything to anyone.

“So?” she insisted, waiting for an answer impatiently. She immediately understood something was wrong and that she indeed had done something embarrassing.

“You were just too happy and you were dancing and laughing alone” Hoseok tried not to bring her in a bad mental position, bringing fun and nice memories to all of them and making all chuckle. Except of course the poor girl who was too drunk to remember a single thing.

“That’s so embarrassing…” she smiled nervously, pulling her long, black, sleeves to her fingertips and hiding her face with them.

Suddenly, a nice noise echoed in the room. She lifted her head and saw a nice, wooden guitar on Jimin’s lap. The melody tho was too familiar. It was a heart-melting song, which we're bringing images of her teenage life when she had had a hard time. Images of her idol, one of the biggest guitarists of all the time who owned that specific song with his band, images of her and her best friend singing that song, images of her group of friends doing their stuff in public without giving a damn about what people say or think about them, images from an age that passed irrevocably. Until those thoughts were cut off of the first lyric.

She's got a smile that it seems to me, Reminds me of childhood memories…

Jimin’s voice was ringing in her ears like paradise. She hadn’t had listened to that song for a long time and now it felt like she was a teenager again, with all those amazing memories and moments being brought back to life in the most amazing way!

And soon, when Jin, Jungkook, and Taehyung added their voices it was even better!

I’d hate to look into those eyes and see an ounce of pain…

She was moving with the rhythm, humming the melody. Namjoon, Yoongi was sitting on the couch taking videos of the moment, smiling, while Hoseok decided to join the singing club.

And that’s how their day passed. With songs, jokes, and laughter. Sitting on the couch, talking about everything and nothing, with small breaks for some singing.

Now, Nefeli was lying, her back against Jungkook’s side, thinking about what she would do and listening to the boys’ chat.

‘I think I should get going’ it was the first thing that came to her mind. She didn’t want to bother them… ‘But I’m having fun… Plus I don’t know how to get to the motel…’ Nefeli changed her mind.

However, what made her break out of her imagination was a simple poke on her ribs.

She flinched and squirm around, only to see Jungkook lightly smirking at her, not showing his (A/N cute) bunny teeth.

“What?” she asked the grinning boy. What she got as a reply? Another poke. She squirmed, even more, not knowing what Jungkook was trying to do. “What are you doing?” Now all the eyes were on them. The boys caught were their youngest friend was doing. Jin and Namjoon glared at him, Hoseok was grinning widely, Yoongi was just watching (everyone could see a hint of amusing in his eyes tho…) and Jimin and Taehyung were smiling fondly.

Nefeli knew them for only some hours but yet she was feeling close with them. That was a part of her character, when people were treating her like a piece of glass and sweetly, they had automatically win her and her heart.  And that happened with those seven; they had won the girl. She was feeling close and she could be herself with them. Playful, sad, happy… Whatever she felt…

“You woke the toddler inside him, kiddo” Namjoon noticed mockingly, earning some wider grins and smiles from his bandmates and a giggle from her.

Now, Jungkook was slowly putting her in a playful mood. Even if she didn’t know that they knew about her ‘guilty pleasure’, she wished deep inside they could tickle her.

“I’m not doing anything!” the bunny-tooth boy said innocently, jabbing her some more, making her back away, a stupid grin on her face as she was trying to swallow her giggles.

No one made a move to help her, enjoying the fun scene. As she was backing away, Jungkook following her movements, she reached the arm of the couch. Her playful mood was 126% on, like the boys’ mood. So she did the only thing she could; she got up and ran, followed by Jungkook.

“Get her!” the young singer yelled to his friends, and they did as he said. Unfortunately for her, she passed by Taehyung, who grabbed her legs and throw her over his shoulder with ease. Leading her back to the couch, she begs for letting her go mixed with her giggles were all around the room, making the boys laugh under their breaths.

Nefeli slapped his back multiple times, trying to get him to put her down, which did literally nothing. She was hanging over his shoulder, giggling her heart off. Taehyung lay her on the couch, pinning her arms above her head with only one hand, everyone circling the pair. Hoseok was facing her feet, Namjoon and Yoongi her knees and thighs, the Jin and Jungkook her sides and ribs, Jimin her neck and Tae her armpits.

The only thing which was escaping her mouth was a waterfall of small shyly giggles and some small breaths in-between them. She knew what they were up to, she didn’t know why, but she was enjoying every second of it. She didn’t want to admit it tho as she still wasn’t aware that they knew about her little secret.

“Look at you, all red” Tae teased, poking her armpit, making her flinch and laugh harder, the band laugh along with her. Soon enough, her laugh grew an octave when Taehyung dragged zillions of times his finger from her elbow to her armpit, its speed getting faster by every second, which drove her insane.

As things couldn’t get any worse, some pokes were added on her sides by Jungkook on the left and Jin on the left; one of her two worst spots. “Aaaha” she screamed as a reflex, making the guys smirk wider. “Soft spot?” teased Namjoon who was now digging under her knees, making Nefeli kick her legs.

However, when Taehyung decided to sit on her arms she was unable to move an inch. Electric shots run up her body when she felt someone play with the very middle of her sole. Hoseok. “Nohohohohoho” she giggled, trying to get free, which turned out it wasn’t easy. That was until Yoongi and Jimin decided they wanted to join the fun with Yoongi squeezing her thighs and Jimin fluttering his fingers around her neck, satisfied when he found a sensitive spot on the crook of her neck. “PLEAHAHAHSE!” she pleaded, as she was attacked to all her sensitive body.

Jin out of blue sat on her waist, smirking down at her as he bends down on her ribs’ level. Scribbling all over them Jin brought to the surface some of her loudest laughs and shrieks he could. “JIHIHIHIHIN NOOOHOHO” she yelled as his finger slipped in a space between her lowest and second-lowest rib.

“Hey, do you remember that song… How was it going…?” Hoseok innocently asked, playing with her toes like piano, earing some childish-like giggles from her. “HOSEOHOHOK!” she cried, wiggling her toes like crazy, trying to stop the torturous fingers. “Aish, this piano is so noisy!” the rapper teased, not stopping his assault.

Jungkook, that evil little boy, was now pinching her sides with his thumb and index finger, as squeaks were leaving her mouth every time, mixed with the hard laugh from the rest tickling. “One for me” he said pinching near her hips, earning a squeal. “One for Jinnieeee” he continued, pinching near her ribs, the squeals getting louder. “One for Yoongiiii” he sank, pinching in the middle of her sides, making her scream more than before. The young boys knew he had hit the jackpot with that spot, so he just continued with the pinches and clawing there, while he was counting all the members, five times each of them. “JUNGKOOHOHOHOHAHAHAHA!”

They had get her for sure and were rough from the start. That didn’t seem to annoy her tho. She was enjoying it so much. She had some centuries to laugh like that and she needed it.

“Oh-huh… Looks like someone’s afraid of crabs!” he said, as his friends laughed at his comment.

Just then Jimin had the most evil but at the same time a good idea he could think. “Hey Nef you like raspberries?” he asked innocently. Her eyes would widen if they could, as he bent down and nuzzled his nose in her neck. “No no no no nooOOHOHO JIMIHIHIN!” her laughs were all around the room. Smiles were growing bigger on their faces as they were watching the girl smile and laugh like that. It was so nice making sure they weren’t scaring her. If they wanted to be honest, they were into tickling too, just like her. However, only those seven men knew about each other’s guilty pleasure and they were only using it on each other too. They didn’t know if people were okay with that. But when they found out about Nef thinking the same about it, they knew they were gonna give a try. And they didn’t regret that…

“Oh no, look two spiders!” the eldest mocked, pointing at his fingers. “They’re coming towards your belly, they spiders are gonna get ya!” he played with the laughing girl underneath him. When the spiders- sorry, fingers, came in contact with her skin, they run wherever they could. “STOOHOHOHAHAHAHP!” she pleaded with watering eyes, trying to shake her head from side to side, unable to do it tho, due to Jimin’s head blowing raspberries and nuzzling at the crook of her neck.

Namjoon’s fingers were squeezing her kneecaps with difficulty. Nef was jerking and kicking her legs so much that he couldn’t even catch them at times. So he decided to go back behind her knees, but this time he had something in his mind. He got out of his pocket a big feather and dragged it at the spot, making the poor girl arch her back. Jin then got the opportunity to blow a raspberry on her ribs, and Nefeli collapsing her torso back to the couch and wiggling. “Ah, a lil worm is trying to escape!” the eldest mocked, his hot breath tickling her ribs more.

Yoongi tho, who had sat on her too, had a hard time with her thighs. As she wasn’t too sensitive there, the rapper couldn’t find a nice spot on them. However, when he reached her inner thighs, he knew he had a sweet spot to play for a looooong time. He was scratching and pinching and digging there, making the girl underneath them rocking her hips and laughing harder and harder.

“NOHOHOHAHAHAHA!” she couldn’t do much more than wiggle her torso and arch her back. She was starting to get exhausted and no one could blame her for that. They were in that position for only 15 mins but still, it was like hell. Well… In a good way.

The tears had no stop on her eyes and the smile on her face wasn’t leaving its place. It couldn’t anyways. The tickling was never something she could resist and her ticklishness wasn’t something she could hide from anyone. And she thought she could take it more until-

“NOOOOHOHAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAT THAHAHAHAHAHAT!” she must have woken up the dead people from their graves with her scream when a hairbrush simply touched her sole. Immediately all the tickles stopped and the eyes were on her panting self. Nefeli’s breathing was heavy and her cheeks were redder than a cherry. Her eyes closed and she wasn’t moving.

“Are you okay sweetheart? Did we go too harsh?” asked a very worried Jimin. He was feeling bad and could say that the rest of them too. They never wanted to scare her or make her uncomfortable with them.

“Nohoho I’m *cough* good. I just haven’t experiehehence something like thahat before and I was surprihihised by the hairbrush” she giggled when she calmed down, ghost tickles still on her body. Relief formed on everyone’s faces and some sighs could be heard around the exhausted girl.

“We’re sorry Nef,” Jungkook said, rubbing her palm with his thumb, helping her relax.

“Yeah, we know you like it so-” Taehyung started but when all the eyes -including Nef’s- fell on him he stopped, aware of the stupid move he had just done.

Nefeli’s eyes widened and if her face could turn redder, it would do. The secret was out and no one could do something about that. She glared at Namjoon and Jin who shot their hands up in surrender saying in unison “It wasn’t us!”

“Then?” she asked, folding her arms in front of her chest as she sat up. She was feeling so embarrassed and now distant towards them.

“Y-Yesterday, when you were drunk you told us about that and no one managed to stop you” Namjoon explained, looking down. “Also we like it too and we thought it would be a nice way to break the ice” Yoongi continued. Nefeli had nothing to say. She was just blushing more and more and a shy grin appeared on her face.

“We’re sorry, we thought you’ll like it… If you wanna go then you can, we didn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable” Hoseok apologized and everyone started backing away and sitting up from the couch.

‘Nononononononoo’ Nef mentally cursed herself for letting that happen. She didn’t want that, she wanted more fun. She wanted more time with them. She wanted more laughter. She wanted more… “Um…” she started and the boys turned their heads at her. However, she was just too shy to ask. Just the idea of the word was making her flustered, red, and… A strange knot was making its appearance every time in her stomach. Her smile would turn shyly and her eyes would shine and not even dare to look at something else than her feet. “Yeah?”

“I-It’s um…” Nefeli started, not knowing how to tho. The band circled and towered her, looking at her with wide eyes, waiting for an answer. She took a deep breath and finally said “It was okay, it um… I didn’t feel uncomfortable…”

All the faces lit up and relief filled everyone’s heart. They smiled at the shy girl in front of them, Jin sitting beside her. The eldest threw his arm around her body and hugged her. The hug was warm and calming, making Nefeli melt in it and hug him back.

“So? We can continue?” Jungkook broke the nice moment, making the hugging duo look up at him and the girl flush redder. With all her might she brought her body closer to the young many next to her and lightly nodded “B-But n-not all together…” the words escaped her mouth like a river, surprising everyone.

They discussed with their eyes, confusing her. Hoseok and Jungkook took a step towards the girl after that and Jin lied her down, leaving her with the two boys. The youngest sat on her waist pinning her arms above her head with one hand, her childish-like giggles filling the room, the boys smirked. Hoseok sat again where he was, facing her feet. She was feeling nice with the whole situation and she was giggling like a toddler from anticipation.

“Now you have calmed down I think I shall continue what I started,” Hoseok said before he scribbled the hairbrush all over her soles, bringing a whole new waterfall of hysterical laughter to the surface. “NOHOHOHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA” A huge grin appeared on everyone’s face and they all get comfortable, enjoying the view of the laughing girl. He, OF COURSE, had to start with one of her two worsts spots…

“That must tickle a lot” teased Jimin, making the things much worse for Nef. One thing the young girl hated (OBVIOUSLY loved) was being teased. She didn’t know why but she did and it was always nice and fun.

The boy continued his assault, not caring if he was currently tickling a screaming girl. Jungkook was still sitting on her, looking at her red face, as she was frantically shaking her head from side to side. Her curls were moving with her head, becoming messier.

“Aww… Is our poor girl too ticklish to stand a lil hairbrush?” Hoseok scribbled faster the thing on her feet. “Ow ow ow ow!” she yelled, the scribbling becoming softer. “Sorry baby girl” if she could smile more, she would to the nickname.

Just then, the younger singer pulled up her hoodie and bent down near her face. “I wanna eat some ribs, how many can you gimme?” he smirked, immediately bringing his fingers in the first pair of ribs, rubbing his index ones on the bones. Nefeli arched her back, feeling her nerves shake in her body. “Oneeeee… Twooooo… Threeeee…” he counted, slowly and torturous, still rubbing the bones back and forth. The next number, the next bone. Losing the turn now and then, starting from the beginning, driving Nef crazy.

“AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA” the hysterics were poured out of her mouth without stopping. Taehyung, Jin, Namjoon, Yoongi, and Jimin were watching amused from the other corner of the room.

“Aaaand tweeeelve…” Jungkook counted, finally setting her poor ribs free. Hoseok was now using his blunt nails to scratch right below her curled toes. Her knees and feet were shaking, as she was trying to avoid the feeling, unsuccessfully.

“Coochie coochie coo,” Hoseok said near her feet, his hot breath not helping the matter. He was alternated between playing with her toes and digging in the back of her knees, Nefeli going mad.

“What’s the matter, sweetie? What’s so funny?” Taehyung innocently asked. If Nefeli could glare at him, she would, but she couldn’t. She was busy laughing and getting tickled. Hoseok made sure he had hit every sensitive spot on and behind her knees, making were kick her legs.

“I think it’s time to eat,” Jungkook said, as he bent more. He opened his mouth ready to touch the spot, making Nef mentally wide her eyes. “DOHAHAHAHAHAHAN’T!” she cried inside her laugher.

“Don’t what Nef?”

“DOHOHAHAHAHA IHAHAHAHAHIHIT!”

She fell…

“As you wish” he teased, nibbling with his sharp, bunny teeth all over her right ribs. They were running up and down, touching every bone they could and every time his mouth would close, they would end up on her sixth and most ticklish rib.

As if things couldn’t get any worse, Jungkook started poking her side, earning a wild scream from her “AAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA”

Worst spot pt.2…

All the boys smirked wider and continued enjoying the view. Not that Nefeli wasn’t. In fact, she was having so much fun and she was the one who was enjoying the most.

“Ohhh soft spot I see,” Hoseok said, running his index and middle finger up and down her foot. Why was it necessary to be hit to her most sensitive spots at once?! The rapper’s fingers felt like it was a billion tiny bugs running up and down in the most torturous, yet enjoyable way. Her toes had curled up and her feet were shaking right and left.

Jungkook on the other hand was squeezing her sides furiously, electric shots hitting her body with every squeeze. She couldn’t do something more than lay here and take it. She was so exhausted and red. And then he remembered something…

“Ah, I almost forgot your favorite,” he said as then, without warning he blew an abnormally ticklish raspberry just above her belly button. “NAHAHAHAHAHAT AGAIHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAN” Nefeli couldn’t control the waterfall coming out of her bunny-tooth mouth. Things got worse when he blew on her sides yet again, bringing hot and salty tears out of her mouth

As the tickling was going on, Jin had got out his phone and he was recording the whole scene. The truth is it was a very nice and funny scene. They were all clearly loved it.

However, when her laughter fell silent, they all sensed she had had enough. Her face could tell. Her mouth had turned a shape which was yelling it wasn’t enjoyable anymore and her breathing was hard and shaky.

Jungkook and Hoseok creased their tickling and they finally stopped, letting her catch her breath. They even rubbed her spots, helping the ghost-tickles disappear and her relax more. Jungkook came down from above her and cuddled with her, as the rest of the bad circled them.

“Are you alright love?” Jin asked sweetly, stroking her curls. She nodded, smiling softly and leaned more into the boy behind her.

“I hope we didn’t go too harsh on ya,” Yoongi said, sitting on the floor below Nef.

“No, it was good” she admitted, hiding her face, making everyone chuckle. She didn’t want to say that she loved it…

After that day, Nef was every day with them. Having fun, laughing, with some tickling and mostly love and care. They became best friends and the boys welcomed her in their group like she was belonging to it since forever.

It also turned out that the house she was staying at, was just a few meters away from the boys’ and they were all glad about it.

Who could imagine that a walk in the park would turn out so good?

Who could imagine that a stranger would become their new best friend?

Who could imagine that a new girl would fit so well in a new town?

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If I Never Met You: Chapter 13

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Genre: (PG13) Fluff

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The following days blurred together, all passing along in a similar way. The boys working hard on their album, Sejin and I working on trying to get more exposure for them, me occasionally making some time to attend one of their practices, and being able to eat meals with the boys here and there so we could catch up.

Whenever I was at the company, I was too busy and preoccupied to notice if people were talking about me and hadn’t had anymore run-ins with that rude woman (whose name I still didn’t know), which was definitely preferable for me. Before I knew it, it was April and the boys were all but ready to debut. Although, they still practiced hard every day to make sure they were perfect with everything.

I started to feel anxious about when we’d finally get a broadcasting company to give us a call and say they could debut on their music show, but we didn’t have any luck yet. Sejin didn’t show it very much, but I thought he was getting antsy about it too.

By this time I was starting to really feel homesick and miss my family, but I didn’t have enough money to pay for plane tickets. While I did of course get paid and didn’t need to pay rent yet, I found myself using a lot of my paycheck on the boys too. Because the company only had so much money they could spare for them, they often paid for things out of their own pockets from the money their parents sent them. So I would frequently buy groceries for them and anything else they needed whenever I could to help.

I had a day off where I was supposed to take the day to just relax. But to be honest, sitting at home alone was really boring. So here I was, watching as the boys were working on perfecting the dance for We Are Bulletproof Pt. 2 for the millionth time. They finally decided to take a break, completely worn out and collapsing to the floor.

“I literally didn’t sign up for this,” Suga said in between breaths. “I was told I didn’t need to dance.”

“That was back when we were supposed to be strictly a rap group, hyung,” Namjoon responded.

“But I still didn’t sign up for this,” Yoongi reiterated.

I walked over to start delivering water bottles to each of the exhausted boys so they didn’t need to get up.

“How does it look, noona?” Hobi asked.

“I think it looks amazing,” I responded with a big smile. “You know I’m not a dance expert but you guys are so impressive. Including you,” I said as I lightly tapped Yoongi with the tip of my shoe.

“Do you think it’s good enough to perform on stage?” Jimin asked.

“More than enough!” I confirmed. “I have watched a lot of groups’ performances and you guys are definitely more than cut out for it.”

My phone started ringing from my bag that was sitting on the floor, so I walked over to answer. It was a number I didn’t recognize. “Hello?” I answered.

“Hello. Is this (Y/n) from Big Hit Entertainment?” the caller asked.

“Yes, it is,” I responded, somewhat surprised. It was the first time I got a call relating to work. “How can I help you?”

The woman said she was calling from one of the broadcasting stations that we’ve been visiting every now and then for the last two months. When I heard that, my heart started racing and I looked over at the boys who were still collapsed on the floor, but were all watching me with curious eyes.

“I was calling to let you know that we would be happy to debut your group, BTS,” the caller said. “We could put them in for June 13th.”

My face lit up. That sounded perfect. We still needed to film the music videos and do the photo shoots for the album, but based on what I knew we could definitely get that done within two months. “Yes, that sounds great!” I finally managed to respond, a smile taking over my face.

“Wonderful. I’ll put them into our schedule for a debut showcase that day. I’ll be in touch for us to work on more details later.”

“Yes, thank you so much!” I said and we said goodbye before hanging up.

“Who was that, (Y/n)?” Seokjin asked. “Why do you look so happy?”

“Guys!” I said, rushing back over to them and almost slipping from stopping so suddenly. “It looks like we got a debut date for you!”

“Really?!” they all asked at once.

“Yes!” I confirmed. “They said they can fit you in on June 13th.”

“You’re not joking, right?” Namjoon asked.

“Why on earth would I be joking about something like this?” I responded. “Of course I’m not!”

The boys who were so exhausted they could barely stand just a moment ago were now full of energy from excitement. Next thing I knew, I was getting attacked with hugs from Jimin and Jungkook, and the rest of them soon followed to create a big group hug.

I felt Jungkook shaking so I looked at him to see he had tears in his eyes. “Jungkook, why are you crying?” I asked him, stroking his hair.

“I’m just so happy that our hard work is going to pay off,” he responded in between sniffles.

“Yah, don’t cry,” Jimin said. “You’re going to make the rest of us start crying.”

Everyone was silent for a moment except for a couple sniffles here and there, not just from Jungkook but a few of the others as well.

“Alright!” Hoseok finally interrupted the moment. “We know we have a debut coming soon, so we better make sure we’re flawless. Let’s go!”

Everyone agreed, and went back to practice both of their songs with their renewed energy while I exited the room to call Sejin and tell him the good news.

We had to communicate with the company a bit more to confirm things had been arranged and then we were set to go. The next couple of weeks were jam-packed with work. Now that a show agreed to showcase their debut, we needed to get the other stations to schedule them into their shows in the days afterward – which was a lot easier to get them to agree to than the debut stage itself. And we needed to work with others in the company to get everything regarding their music videos and photoshoots scheduled and arranged.

While two months was enough time to arrange everything, we had to make sure it all moved both as quickly and as smoothly as possible. Because of that Sejin and I were busier than ever, and I only got to see the boys once in a while.

In the midst of working on preparations, Bang PD-nim asked me to pay him a visit to his office. When I got there, I found all seven members of BTS there as well, standing to fit into the space that became a little cramped when there were so many people in it.

“Hello, PD-nim,” I greeted with a smile.

“Hello, (Y/n),” he replied. “I’m glad you had a moment to spare in your busy schedule.”

“Of course, PD-nim. I always have time for you,” I responded with a slight bow.

He chuckled. “Glad to hear it.”

I felt a tug on my arm, and looked to see Jimin pulling me towards him and the others, soon wrapping me in a hug.

“So first I want to apologize for asking so many of you to be in my office at once,” PD-nim said. “But it’s just easier to have to say this only once. I called you all here because I have a surprise for you.”

I saw curious and excited reactions from the boys around me, and I was definitely curious myself. But we all stayed silent as we waited for him to elaborate.

“I apologize for not being able to offer more of a budget to you guys up to this point,” PD-nim continued. “I know you understand our financial situation, but that doesn’t make it any less hard. So, even though it may not be a huge improvement, I was able to work out a slightly more comfortable accommodation for you all.”

“We’re moving?” Namjoon asked, sounding excited.

PD-nim chuckled. “Yes. You’re moving.”

Various cheers rang out from the boys, and I couldn’t stop from smiling at the great news.

“Again, it’s not a huge improvement, but it is an improvement nonetheless,” Mr. Bang reiterated. “Hopefully, it won’t be too long before we can start doing even better,��� he added with a smile.

“So am I moving too?” I asked.

“Yes. I still want you close to the boys. So you’ll be in the apartment across the hall from theirs. And in case you’re wondering, yes it is with the same arrangement we currently have.”

“Alright, sounds great,” I replied. “When is the move?”

“We’ll be getting you guys moved on May 12th.”

“Wait, can some of us live with noona?” Jungkook asked.

“Jungkook!” I responded. “We’ve already been through this.”

“While I’m sorry that she gets a place to herself while you seven share, I’m sorry but that’s not possible,” PD-nim backed me up. “Just imagine the headlines when the press inevitably finds out some of you are living with a girl.”

Jungkook frowned, but seemed to understand as he nodded.

We all left excited and happy that they were going to have some more space to themselves. I didn’t care too much about my personal space, since I was just one person and I didn’t need a lot of room. I hoped the place I was moving to was a bit smaller in size and cheaper so he was able to spend more money on the boys’ accommodations.

Despite the awesome news, of course the following days were still the same, just as busy as ever in preparing for the boys’ debut. A few days later, Sejin and I were in the middle of a meeting to finalize their wardrobe (some of which I had a lot of questions about but my opinions were shut down rather harshly) when I felt my phone buzz in my pocket. Seeing that it was the woman from the broadcast station for their debut, I excused myself to take the call.

“Hello?” I answered.

“Hello, (Y/n)-shi.” She replied. “I called because I had something to tell you.”

“Yes, of course,” I responded. “What do you need?”

I could hear her sigh. “My boss told me that we can’t debut your group.”

My heart sank. “I’m sorry, could you repeat that?” I hoped that I heard her wrong.

“I’m sorry to tell you, but when he looked over the upcoming schedule, he told me to tell you we can’t debut BTS,” she restated. “He said your company is too small and we shouldn’t waste time doing a stage for a group that probably isn’t going to get any attention.”

It took me a moment to gather my words. “Please, is there any way we can change his mind?”

“I already tried. I feel bad having to go back on it after I already told you we could, but he really wasn’t changing his mind.”

“I’ll do anything I can to keep them on the schedule. Please,” I practically begged.

“I’m really sorry but there isn’t anything I can do for you. Goodbye.”

Before I could get another word in she hung up the call. I immediately tried calling her back, but of course she didn’t answer. I felt like curling up in a ball and bursting into tears right then and there. But I couldn’t. I had a meeting to go back to, so my emotions would have to wait. I composed myself as much as I could and re-entered the meeting room.

After it was over, Sejin and I walked back to our office. Oppa closed the door and asked me, “Who was it that called you?”

“It was the broadcasting station that said they’d debut BTS,” I replied quietly.

“What did they need?” He asked since I didn’t continue.

“She…” I started, but I really didn’t know how to say it. I closed my eyes and tried to keep the tears I felt stinging behind them from forming. “She said they can’t debut them anymore.”

Sejin was silent for a moment. “Are you sure that’s what she said?”

“Yes. I couldn’t believe it at first so I asked for clarification. She said her boss said they can’t debut them because of our company being small and we can’t promise their success.”

It made me jump when I heard Sejin slam a fist onto the desk. “This has to be a joke,” he said, running his fingers through his hair. “We’ve been preparing for a few weeks, already have multiple schedules set for their debut, and they’re going back on it now?”

I just stood there with my head hung low. “I’m sorry, oppa. I’ll take full responsibility for whatever needs to be done.”

“Don’t apologize.” He almost sounded angry, which made me quickly look up at him. “And you don’t need to take responsibility for anything. This isn’t your fault. Don’t you dare think it is.”

I nodded, and we stayed there in silence for a moment. “What do we do?” I finally asked.

“We try to get their debut back on track, that’s what we do. We’re still going to keep all their schedules, the photoshoot and music videos, everything. We need to convince them to put them back in their schedule. If we have to cancel their appearances on the other shows we’ll become a joke and it’ll be that much harder to get them debuted.”

“Okay. I’ll do everything I can, oppa. I promise.”

“Even if it’s not the same company, we need someone to do it. I don’t care who at this point.”

“Understood. I’ll do my best.”

“Also, don’t tell them quite yet. If we can fix this quickly, there’s no need to worry them with it. I’ll let Bang PD-nim know of course, but this doesn’t need to go any farther than that for the time being. You and I are going to be running around even more than we have been to fix this. Just promise me you won’t tell anyone else, okay?”

“I promise,” I said, pulling out my phone to make some phone calls to try to get their debut back on track.

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2020 VMA’s Recap!

Every year, I always look forward to a few things and one of those things is definitely the MTV Video Music Awards. The VMA’s have been iconic every year since it’s inauguration in 1984 with Madonna’s Like A Virgin performance. As the insanely obsessed pop culture person that I am, the VMA’s are like a national holiday and I prepare myself heavily before they happen. For this year, obviously things are different because of a little thing called the Covid-19 Pandemic but anyhow, I was still excited. When the nominees got announced I was a very mixed bag of emotions. I was very excited because Lady Gaga and Ariana Grande got the most nominations of the year (9) but, I was disappointed because Harry Styles and Dua Lipa only got technical nominations and didn’t get any in the main category. One of my friends shared the same disappointment with me and they said how every nominee in Video of the Year was from North America and I didn’t even think of that. I wish they didn’t nominate some things... but that’s alright. As the weeks went on, I voted for my faves and MTV announced Keke Palmer was hosting whichreally got me excited again because she is a queen. Also, when they announced the performers, my favorites being Miley, Gaga, Ariana, and Doja, I became thrilled.

Now, here I am with my Rain on Me shirt on, a few hours after the ceremony ended and I got to say, I am IMPRESSED!!! That was an AMAZING ceremony. For an award show during a pandemic, I got to say MTV pulled, it, off. Let’s get into it!:

OH. MY. GAGA. 

Lady Gaga was the star of the night and I am NOT disappointed one bit. Going into the night as the most nominated artist (tied with Ariana) I had high hopes. When I heard she was performing, I screamed because I couldn’t believe we were FINALLY getting a performance in the Chromatica era. Knowing that she had so much planned for the era, it’s been sad to see none of it come to fruition. Now let’s live in the present. THIS PERFORMANCE?!? FREAKING INCREDIBLE. I don’t even know where to start. The beginning of the performance with the old television, her laying down on the couch (mask on!), and seeing the TV have the 1999 VMA’s (with BRITNEY mentioned!) was when I knew it was going to be one of the best performances of her career. THEN, she WENT DOWN THE POLL and Chromatica II started playing and I almost threw up. I was so excited that she chose to do that interlude and sing some of 911 (maybe the third single?)! I was shook. Next, she had a quick change and started singing Rain on Me, and I immediately was hyperventilating. When Ariana came out, I really thought I was gonna pass out. In that moment, I was just seeing a dream come true in front of my eyes. I saw two of my ultimate QUEENS come together and give me all the life I need. I mean, the outfits, the masks, the chemistry, ARIANA’S HIGH NOTE?! GAGA’S VOCALS?! I can’t even. After that, when she started walking to the Brain piano, I thought she was about to do 1000 Doves (Piano Version) but I was mistaken! It was the first single, STUPID LOVE! Honestly, I was so happy she performed Stupid Love and got it’s moment because that wasn’t even performed live yet before tonight. Her speech in between the Stupid Love performance was beautiful and I loved when she brought the beat in and danced her ass off. Ugh, I just love her so much. 

Onto the actual awards, I cannot believe that she won FIVE! I expected Best Collaboration and was hoping for Artist of the Year but I was NOT expecting Song of the Year! The one that I didn’t even know was happening thought was the FIRST EVER, TRICON AWARD?! The fact that MTV gave Gaga her OWN award for being an icon, a legend and a triple threat was filling my Little Monster heart with such PRIDE and JOY! Seeing her go up on that stage in a new look with a new mask each time, gave me a little boost of serotonin each time. She is just a goddess. There is no one like her and there NEVER will be. 

GOOD GOLLY, MISS MILEY

It feels amazing to be a Miley stan tonight. Miley has been one of my absolute role models since I was a child. I have followed her and supported her my whole life even when people didn’t and I got to say, tonight felt really good. Her performance was PHENOMENAL. Starting off with her GORGEOUS silhouette in that STUNNING black dress and  cross necklace with the red chrome light shook me because I was not expecting that. And, that break before the first chorus?!? LOVED. After, it went to a blue chrome and she started walking while it went full color. When I saw her walk towards some stairs, I had to catch my breath. Suddenly, I see a disco ball. Then she took the bottom half of the dress off and hopped on the disco ball and I SCREAMED. LOUDLY. The fact that she has such an ICONIC moment like Wrecking Ball where she can do something eerily similar and EVERYBODY knows it, is fucking SENSATIONAL! HER VOCALS WERE ON POINT, FACE BEAT, BODY SNATCHED. She just gave the most perfect glam rock pop star performance that I’ve ever seen. Miley having this mainstream moment again just made me so happy. ALSO?! SHE WON TWO AWARDS TONIGHT. I cannot believe Miley won two VMA’s tonight. She doesn’t win a lot of awards (which is extremely disappointing) and to see her win TWO for MOTHER’S DAUGHTER a single from last year that peaked at #54 on the Billboard Hot 100 felt incredible. I just love when she gets the recognition she deserves.   

Other Thoughts:

The Weeknd’s opening performance was so great!! Recently, I have gotten sick of Blinding Lights but this performance totally revitalized for me how great of a song that is. I don’t know how he was up so high but he did an awesome job and the fireworks were great! Also, I’m happy he finally won his first two VMA’s for Best R&B (even though it’s a pop song) and Video of the Year. 

Keke’s hosting was entertaining as hell. She was the perfect host for a time like this for many reasons. She’s funny, relatable, beautiful, entertaining and so many more positive things. I found her really funny and I just love her presence as a whole. Even her little performance was cute too! 

Doja Cat actually blew me away. I was not expecting her to serve that hard. The performance was so futuristic and felt like I was in a new universe. I loved her outfit and LOVED the Say So mix! Also, so happy she included Like That because it’s such a jam. I love Doja and ever since I discovered Juicy last year I've been stanning and this definitely solidified the stan for me. I am so happy that she won (RIGHTFULLY SO!) for Best New Artist. She has had a great rise and her performance definitely gives me high hopes for her future. 

My rankings of the performances are:

Pre Show:

1. Chloe x Halle - Ungodly Hour (THESE QUEENS ARE THE FUTURE!)

2. Machine Gun Kelly w/ blackbear & Travis Barker - My Ex’s Best Friend/Bloody Valentine (I have become really obsessed with his new music recently and love him)

3. Tate McRae - You Broke Me First (surprised by this cause I didn’t know anything about her before but she did a good job!)

4. Jack Harlow - What’s Poppin (cute ig)

5. Lewis Capaldi - Before You Go (🙂)

Main Show: 1. Lady Gaga w/ Ariana Grande - Chromatica II, 911, Rain on Me, Stupid Love (FUCKING AMAZING. SENSATIONAL, &, UNREAL)

2. Miley Cyrus - Midnight Sky (MY QUEEN SO ICONIC I LOVE HER SO MUCH)

3. Doja Cat - Say So/Like That (SO FUTURISTIC AND SOLIDIFIED HER WIN AND SHOWED THAT SHE CAN SERVE)

4. The Weeknd - Blinding Lights (really made me love the song so much more)

5. BTS - Dynamite (I like these boys but the fanbase is so much it stresses me out).

6. JP Saxe & Julia Michaels - If The World Was Ending (so cute, love Julia)

7. Dababy - Peep Hole, Blind, & Rockstar 

8. Maluma - Hawái (loved the drive in aspect)

9. Keke Palmer - Snack (wish she had more time)

10. Black Eyed Peas w/ Nicky Jam & Tyga - Vida Loca/I Gotta Feeling (no one can take Fergie’s place)

11. CNCO - Beso

To end this, I’m just gonna leave this picture here. :)

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Thoughts on the Eighth Member of BTS

A/N: No pairings or warnings for this, except that it may throw you into a sudden 8th member fanfic spiral. When I tell you I was reading 8th member fanfic for the majority of my day, I mean like a good six hours. It wasn’t good.

Okay, so I feel like a lot of people have talked about an eighth member and it being a girl and stuff so I figure I should add some stuff to the ever growing cache of things about the eighth member.

This was like 2300 words and I have no regrets.

~So if there was I feel like she would be slightly younger than most of them and would have come in after their first few albums

~Maybe she was raised in New York with her immediate family being mostly Korean and hella feminist and she’d have older brothers and be super chill

~So like maybe the company would be worried about the lack of fast growing traction with the group and have a girl added in

~First things first: it would be awkward as heck for the guys to suddenly have a girl there and would make living situations even more difficult, with having to share rooms and such. So, they’d probs alternate who rooms with who and who gets the couch, especially for her rooming with a guy

~Not to mention if she catches them talking about some sort of issue with the sleeping situation and then being nervous about it

~Eventually, I feel like she’d kind of get tired of all of the tiptoeing around her and be like

~‘Guys! I don’t even care! Unless you guys have some sort of creepy thing you’re trying to avoid, just treat me like one of you guys’

~Things would chill out basically immediately. Like the next few days, the boys were super relaxed and that was a problem because they just started walking around in just underwear and she would be like:

👀😒 um ew?? Put a shirt on?

~They’d clean it up a lil bit and walk around in like boxers and t shirts, which was fine she had older brothers, she could deal with that

~She’d respectfully bow out of the choreographed hip thrusts and things of that nature at first, like maybe they’d thrust and she’d like make a gagging motion or something(only rarely because the company would be like no) at some point she’d get extremely comfortable with just doing the hip thrusts herself

~The company even found that during interactions with fans she got just as much, sometimes more, attention and screaming as the boys

~Eventually she’d get used to dressing androgynous, like the stylist unnies would put her in skirts and she’d get kinda pissed and the guys would all agree that she’d be better in just what they’re wearing(i.e. pants)

~(Also, just a quick side note, before they even realized what was happening, they’d be super protective. Like unwarranted protection.

~Especially during interviews and talk shows any heavily toxic feminine questions related to her would be met with complete headassery(is that a word?) Just any kind of bullshit the guys could come up with.

~Like it wouldn’t happen immediately, but like after a few interviews and them seeing how uncomfortable it made her to answer the weird questions(coming from female OR male interviewers) they’d kind of come up with an unspoken agreement to answer any and every sexist comment or question with an answer just as shitty)

~ Into specific dynamics now:

~I feel like she’d be evenly split to each other member’s interests because in the first few months, that’s how she bonded with them, busy finding somethings she had in common with each of them and building on it

[we’ll go youngest to oldest]

~She is close with all of the boys, but each get her undivided attention when the moment serves.

~ With Jungkook she’d notice his quiet side during the beginning and willingness to please. So she’d always assure him, in a not so obvious way, that he was accepted. Just quiet validation from her court to his.

~So she’d set up gaming nights with Jungkook when they didn’t have strict schedules or just sit around on their phones

~ The fandom would eventually come to know them as the meme lords of the group.

~Their inside jokes are way too many to count and don’t even come close to being forgotten.

~Can’t forget GCF cause she would be in every single one of them that she could. She’s endlessly supportive of the videos and wants to be in all of them, she even suggests music and things(sometimes before he’s even thinking of doing another one)

~She disapproves when he pushes himself too hard. When she knows it’s happening, she’ll involve on of the hyungs( probably Jin) or they’ll talk to a manager if things get super serious.

~That being said, if he doesn’t have the dance down, or they’re both struggling, she’s the first to volunteer to run the dance with him multiple times and is always the voice of reason.

~When he says ‘one more time’ she says ‘food first’ or like ‘how about a water chugging contest really quick?!’ (bc we all know his competitive nature) ‘Jin probably has some left overs in the fridge that we can reheat, late night snack time!’

~They definitely argue a bit about being the “Golden Maknae.” She’s a bit competitive in that aspect. Because they’re both so talented and she’s just a half of a year older than he is.

~For Taehyung, I feel like she’d grow to love art with him. His quiet adoration for things of beauty, conventional or not.

~(They have a joke,mostly his own that he refuses to let die, that she’s his favorite piece of artwork, eventually she retaliates with him being her favorite piece of artwork and it just sticks.)

~They’d be the classy duo, but with matching boxy smiles. Elegant and poised, their visuals are basically unmatched and during photo shoots, they’re always the ones finished way before the others.

~There are no bad sides for the classy duo. (I’m basically imagining model material for both of them, like just ethereal. Visual god and goddessssssss)

~Also his need to fall asleep holding something, I feel like she’d match that with just being okay with anything when she’s asleep or almost asleep(like she’d fall asleep in the car with the boys or something and be difficult to wake up, so they’d just carry her and she wouldn’t even stir)

~So Tae would lay beside her and they’d be chilling and eventually fall asleep and then later wake up holding onto each other.

~Both of them are shameless damn flirts. They’re attractive and they know it and they will absolutely use it to (not literally) kill ARMY

~Jimin is a bit harder to think about(idek why) but I feel like she’d be his buddy in quiet studying. Like he’d come find her if he wanted to do some reading, but not be alone and she’d be totally down( same with Joon but hold on)

~and either she’d read her own book or she’d do some sketching(mostly because she’d want to have her own unique thing that the others weren’t too interested in)

~Jimin would be her ideal model in these moments. She never gets tired of sketching any of the boys, but in those moments, Jimin is the least likely to change face or position and thus be the perfect study.

~she’d also ask him for homework help in the earlier days with like mathematics and he’d always be more than happy to help

~Jimin is a brat and I feel like when the two of them spend a bit too much time together, the rest of the group can only expect the worst.

~(Low key the Lil-Shit Duo™️)

~Joon is next and here’s where her position in the group comes in. Since she was raised in New York, she’d be fluent in both Korean and English and, as such, would help with the interviews and translating.

~It’s a huge load for Namjoon to carry and with her, being by his side and helping with rephrasing things to the boys during interviews really eases him.

~Along with that, he always makes sure that she knows how much he appreciates her after difficult interviews or just every good while he’s just endlessly doting and complimenting her and things. She always tells him that it’s unnecessary, but he never stops thanking her.

~So they’re like the Leader Duo™️ and are consistently doing damage control between the boys(almost like group therapy) or rephrasing the boys’ answers(in those moments where the boys give weird answers to questions in interviews)

~When not in the public eye, they are coming up with ways to better interact with ARMY or they’re expanding their horizons by reading and stuff.

~Her favorite thing with Joon is working on learning a new language or just English with Joon and making up little tongue twisters and sayings and debating proper ways to phrase things. Which brings us to:

~Being a part of the rapline. So Joon, Hobi, and Yoongi are her peeps. When she’s not entertaining the maknae line, she’s with the Hyung line.

~Hobi and her have a cute dynamic. He babies her a little bit and she’d be lying if she said she didn’t love it at least a little.

~they like coming up with dances together, even when they are supposed to be taking the day off, just goofing around and coming up with dances for little snippets of songs is fun

~they’re like the sunshines of the group. So he’s J-hope and she’s his ‘little hope’. How cute.

~She’s constantly encouraging his little quirks and things that he does(the sound effects and just being him) and being right there with him in being the lights of the group.

~I feel like her and Jungkook get the same bit of his attention. Like the cuddly bits of it

(and my heart skips for cuddly JungHope so like imagining the three of them being cozy and mellow together and just watching the rest of the group do whatever. Agh my heart)

~My boy Yoongles is next and let me tell you I’ve been excited as hell for this one.(trying real hard not to let bias love seep through)

~When moving to a more spacious apartment, they decided to give her her own room. (She’s grateful.)

~And so when she wants to tamp down the wildness in the apartment, get a moment's peace, she retreats to her room.

~While she’s endlessly supportive of all six of the others, encouraging their wild quirks, her room is the quietest. Her room has a ‘no noise’ rule.

~Yoongi shares a room with Jin still at this point and not that Jin is a bad roommate, or particularly noisy, it’s just that the maknae line patronizes him a lot. And Yoongi has very little patience for that.

~So her room is where they’ll often find him. She has a comfy couch that she took Yoongi with to pick it out(because it was basically for him.)

~Point is, she’s mellow when she wants and needs to be and Yoongi is drawn to that chill side of her.

~When the rest are wild and he wants mellowness, he seeks her out and when she wants to be a bit rowdy, she leaves and closes the door.

~He has a gigantic soft spot for her. Not even kidding.

~The boys will always pull her into the situation if they think Yoongi might get too angry or a prank goes south and does more harm than fun amusement.

~They mention that she was involved and she goes with it because she doesn’t want the boys in too much trouble and Yoongi won’t hurt her like he would the boys(not actually hurt but you know like “beat them up”) or scold her too harshly.

~As soon as he finds out she’s involved the anger either dissipates or he removes himself from the situation so as not to hurt anything(but you bet your ass she scolds the maknaes from time to time on Yoongi’s behalf)

~And he definitely helps with her mixtape which the fandom is waiting for. Basically, chomping at the bit. She gives Yoongi and Joon so much credit tbh

~They definitely nap together. Mostly because they’re up at ungodly hours during the night, either working on songs or just talking because that’s definitely a thing that happens.

~They have similar views of the world(I’m mostly thinking of Interlude: Shadow here) but being lonely while being famous is definitely a view they share and are drawn together from that. Despite all of their wants to be on the top of the world, they want to not be lonely.

~Along with her keeping up well with the rowdy bits of the group, she’s definitely introverted like Yoongi. She does what she has to to further the group, but she does get drained and just kind of shuts everyone out some times.

~This is where Jin comes in. (Not to be that cliché bitch who’s always like Jin’s the mom of the group omg) but in this case, he makes sure she’s eating and taking care of herself when she does this.

~They all have locks on their doors and she keeps hers locked a majority of the time, but Jin and Yoongi are the only people she absolutely trusts with coming in unannounced.

~Despite always laughing at his dad jokes and being totally supportive of that, he knows when to turn on being serious and not taking her bullshit about “being fine” if she’s not.

~He forces(more like needles annoyingly) her to eat even when she says she’s not hungry during those times

~Makes sure she’s taking care of herself like showering and brushing her teeth and things.

~During the earlier years when she mostly stayed with the boys, very little contact to her mother in New York, Jin absolutely made sure he had cramp medication on hand and feminine products stashed in spots around the house. Well hidden obvi so the boys wouldn’t just stumble across them, but still there. (She does these things on her own now, but she’ll never forget the thought he put into making sure she was cared for)

~She’s definitely requested a majority of the time on EatJin. ARMY just likes to make sure that she’s eating(just like all of them) and they want to see the two of them talk.

~All in all, the boys are her family and she wouldn’t trade them for the world.

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Agree so much with your post about the teams and fan engagement ! And love the way you articulated all of that. Although now I definitely am interested in knowing what your notes about the specificity of each team/artist cause I feel like they'd be fascinating to read. Hope you'll post them some day, and thank you for sharing your thoughts with us ! 😊

Awwww, that’s very kind! It’s definitely head canon city, I litcherally have ZERO clue what goes on behind the scenes (and I can’t stress this enough, none of us do), so this’ll look hilariously dated when we find out that blah woof was true all along, lmao (me @ myself, thinking of some random Grimshaw interviews from last fall, oh, bless). Let’s dig in!!

For those of you who just stumbled upon this post, it’s related to the one I made last night about how I think the management teams of all these men (mid-20s means = you’re a man, not a boy) are not, in fact, sabotaging them. They negotiate a lot of tricky interconnected arrangements that none of us are privy, to, plus they’re at least trying to achieve the goals their clients are going for. And they’re doing it—the trick is these goals are highly individual and not 100% sensical (at least given our own view from the afternoon, Arctic Monkeys ref, holllllllah!!!).

In addition, these goals constantly shift, as does the music industry itself—I drive my own self loony when I lurk on blogs that are seemingly broadcasting from 2012, confused by why xx’s team is so “terrible” because they aren’t throwing good money after bad to get on a radio playlist, or why they haven’t announced yy “properly,” as if they’re being paid to worry about this level of shit (which fires me up on about five levels, deep breaths in, deep breaths out). I’m much nosier about the signals we’re getting when we hear them talk in their beautifully media-trained way about their musical interests, when we get some of that sweet, sweet fan service with a Gallagher or a Capaldi, when we get that heads up about who’s attending what concert, stuff like that. These signals don’t necessarily indicate future collaborations, but they DO indicate what kind of image these guys want to have, the kind of music they want the public to associate them with.

Anyway, I’m getting ahead of myself…their personalities and goals at the moment are all so vastly different, and I truly do love seeing how their teams are workin’ it accordingly. Again, please @ god, don’t @ me…opinions, massively unpopular opinions, dead ahead!

* Zayn. My read on Zayn is that he enjoys the creative process, loves writing and singing, digs collabing with people, but he doesn’t seem to give two shits about the biz side (and why should he? that’s called living the dream at this particular point in his career). His website recently added “tour,” which EYEBALL EYEBALL, but he doesn’t seem to be all that interested in putting himself back out on stage or into radio/print/etc. anytime soon, and again, why should he? His numbers are HUGE without pushing himself through the anxiety-provoking churn he endured for four years, so there’s no real drive for him to do any promo if he doesn’t want to (see: the netflix-like binge dump of Icarus Falls, which could be “sabotage,” or it could just be, “fineeeeeeee, here’s some stuff for you, enjoy”). What other artist gifts his fans with gorgeous covers of such a wide variety of songs that indicate he’s more interested in sharing them than selling them. Accordingly, his fan interactions seem fairly pure and not all that promo-y: he has a keen interest in fanart, he’s done some fan pop-ups/listening parties that are pretty low-key and *seemingly* fan-focused, and recently (with zero anything to really promote), he’s been posing for cute pics and chatting with randos on the streets of NYC. I recently read that his mgmt team is no longer with him, but that sort of folds into my feeling that he’s not pursuing anything biz-wise, hence no need to jump through those particular hoops (I think he’s also struggled with a lot of demons, so yeah, why add one more). Could he be adrift? Maybe, but the next guy is the posterman for lack of focus….

* Liam. Honestly, I worry about Liam most of all. His post-1D career seems very much adrift, and I like to joke that he’s giving me that tell-all about the D one sentence at a time, but goddamn, are people listening? The struggles with alcohol, the lack of focus on every level, the reliance on his dad’s career advice (which more clearly reflects his dad’s financial class, background, and history than it does Liam’s), and the overall confusion about look, sound, and direction also flow back directly into his team. I get the feeling that they aren’t sure what to do because LIAM isn’t sure what to do or what he wants, so they follow in his wake. He’s agreeable to a fault, so seeing him at a meet-and-greet at an HMV in Birmingham last week felt like a step back into 2010 for no real reason, just like hearing that he was more or less coerced into full nude photoshoots for an underwear ad (the decisions to say yes to both of those—who’s steering this ship? If it’s Liam, he needs to tell the team his overall goal, so they can plot a course he and his fans can follow; if it’s the team, ditto). Like Niall, Liam’s actually pretty good at the SM game: lots of selfies, snapchat filters, outfits, gym service, twitter interactions. But generally speaking, his promo is confusing, and that’s probably because there isn’t much *to* promote at this point, other than a mix of collabs, clothing endorsements, spon con, horse farms, and an album that’s always on the horizon. This might be tied to the general post-1D jolt they all went through, like a plane coming off autopilot and into the hands of someone who’s just learning how to fly it. Zayn debuted at number one, so his bump wasn’t as harsh, but the others are slowly, steadily finding their footing after taking some time to find themselves and their sound, releasing songs/albums, performing (or in Louis’s case, going through unspeakable tragedy). Liam’s still adrift…and somewhat admittedly, which is kind of telling in its own way. Just know that my nervousness on his behalf ratchets up every time he feels the urge to assure us all that he’s happy.

* Niall. Truly the one following the original 1D template, right down to working with most of the same people but with more of the overall control in his hands instead of a faceless management squad. Of any of them, he seems the most ambitious, the most scientific about the sound he’s after and how he’s gonna get there. His promo is a mix of new and traditional—radio shows, talk shows, podcasts, special events, twitter interactions with fans, twitter interactions with entertaining celebrities—and it’s all hustle hustle hustle, build build build, as if he were a new ingenue instead of coming up hard on solo album number two. He’s explicit in his goals, which is refreshing, but it means he walks a weird line with fans: on one hand, he’s done with their bullshit, get ready to get rekt if you start commenting on his boring food seasoning or home décor. But on the other hand, he fully recognizes how much he needs them, which is why we get so many peeks into his “normal” life (yet zero percent of his actual personal life). It’s also probably why the blatant tweets of the last two days seem so jarring to me (I might be alone on this one, but I’m not a fan of directives in general, and asking me to call radio stations on behalf of a rich white man to become even richer just rubs me the wrong way, same with asking me to stream stuff to get you to number one…you’ve been there, buddy, how about you calm down and build some character at number 51). And speaking of calming down, it does fascinate me that both Niall and Louis namecheck Taylor Swift as someone who gets the whole fandom push/pull thing right, so watching them try to reverse-engineer her secrets is fun. Louis nails it (that hotspot treasure hunt: chef’s kiss), but Niall’s heavy-handed easter egg dump in NTMY, she would never!! I think Niall’s team needs to watch “Calm Down” about five more times before they try that again.

* Louis. I think Louis honestly has an AMAZING team in place, and they’re all clearly on his side, which makes for a refreshing change. Like Niall, he has publicly praised Taylor Swift for how she engages with her fans, but I think he’s missing a key point: she doesn’t let her fans dictate strategy, and I HOPE that’s the case for Louis, too. His old team *was* shit, so yeah, encouraging people to do fan projects to get the word out was a good idea, but turning that spigot off to let a good (paid) team step in and take over has been, uh, challenging. He’s dealt with more than his fair share of personal tragedy, but every time he gets some momentum going, it feels like something bts pushes him back off track, and he tends to keep it private, which only makes his hardest-core fans scream “sabotage.” Rightly so, he’s focusing on his personal life, and rightly so, his team is giving him the space to do that, even when it costs cash money and throws a lot of shit seriously for a loop. It makes my heart soar to see the potential of what his team can do/is doing, how much space he’s being allowed to process what he needs to process. Weirdly, that’s an unpopular opinion, and a lot of people want to indulge in an angst wank fest where Louis’s the victim of a terrible team that won’t DO anything (nevermind the fact that he’s probably ASKED them not to do anything), so they undertake a tremendous amount of performative unpaid labor that ends up being counterproductive on just about every front. Even worse, most of them can’t seem to process the fact that losing your mum is a blow, losing your SISTER is a blow, juggling other siblings or close friends handling some serious demons of their own in the aftermath of all of *that* is a blow, let alone handling your own personal coping mechanisms, nope, they want Louis to release release release, perform perform perform, c’mon, what’s holding him back, he *said* he wanted to release an album this year, there’s “no reason” for a delay, gotta be his shitty team, free him. It drives me ‘round the bend because it’s the same talk from late last year, you know, when we later found out that at least one family member was losing a fight with drug addiction. Louis’s fan engagement/promo is therefore hella fraught: he has to balance LouisTM on twitter (Mr. Donny, he’s hard, mate), his werk IG posts, and his constant edging because nobody can remember or trust that he’s got this, that multiple things are in play. But he also knows his fanbase, knows that it’s resistant to any kind of change, so I hope he pushes through and stays true to what he wants to do. I was really encouraged with his last promo round because he seems to have narrowed in on a something solid, he’s got a plan, and it’s not, “hey mr dj, put my record on,” it’s getting his fans to trust that he and his team know what the fuck they’re doing, and spoiler alert, it ain’t radio, but go ahead and keep pissing off djs by sending angry tweets their way. (Related: why is it so bad to avoid the radio when all of us admit that radio music is garbage? Is it because it’s more about you than him? Much to think about.)

* Harry. My very favorite head canon is that Harry is Jeff’s nightmare client: what was perfection at first because the Azoffs are old-school promo all the way (no SM, baby, gimme that sweet, sweet paper), and that dovetailed nicely with post-1D Harry, but it quickly veered into mulish teeth pulling. Low profile can quickly spin into no profile, and that really doesn’t work too well when you’re trying to sell sell sell, even if your brand is Harry StylesTM. HS1 and Dunkirk in their own separate ways worked VERY hard to push past the still-persistent way the general public views Harry as boybander Harry Styles, or more accurately, former boybander Harry Styles who dated Taylor Swift (if you venture out and ask someone who’s not a fan), but what I love about Harry is that much like Zayn, he doesn’t seem to be too bothered by all that. Sure, he’s ambitious, he wants to challenge himself and do things, but he’s no Niall Horan. He’s put in his time! If he gets a number one, then cool, but he’s not gonna chase it. And this is where Harry’s team really reflects his goals and energy: sure, they want him to do some promo (that “Do” tweet, the entire bit about the fan in Australia and Harry Lambert’s follow, goddddd, I loved it, petty Harry, resigned Jeff), but they clearly aren’t forcing him. He drops a song that makes a HUGE splash, and the follow-up is…liking some tweets and going to a John Mayer concert (not a John Mayer fan, so that wouldn’t be my first choice, but I respond to the zero fucks given about the whole thing). The music industry has changed a LOT in just two years, so it’s kind of cool to see team Harry pivoting a bit, seeing more SM interaction, the kindness generator, etc., but that said, the team takes their cues from him, and he clearly doesn’t want to do a whole promo circuit beyond persons a, b, and c, and magazine R, F, and A. Does it make sense to have Rob Sheffield write a profile about Stevie Nicks-blessed shroom-eater Harry Styles when his new song sounds like the Zarry combo of my dreams? NOPE, but that’s okay, Harry wanted to talk to Rob, so that’s what happened. The new song is more streaming friendly, and thank CHRIST, a lot less crusty white dude stuck in the ‘70s, so I can only hope that the rest of the album is thus, but we shall see! We’ll also see if Harry’s fan engagement shifts any further into the active zone…so far, it’s been “I’m gonna follow some larries, like these fun generator posts, check out a few dads” and staged photo ops with the same familiar faces, but I think he’s dealing with his own major bts issues as well (album delayed at least twice; that entire stalking situation). I still contend the album’s coming in the next few weeks, so it’ll be interesting to see if/how any additional promo rolls out in this new world order post-gryles landscape, how many interviews he’ll do, but I like that there’s a strategy that seems less stodgy…kudos to the new SM team, at least!!

Oh man, that got really long! Hope you enjoyed, and YES, opinions opinions opinions, and they’ll be stupid in about three weeks’ time, thanks for coming to my already dated buzzfeed article

[chemicalpink]

Hey!! I luv you blog. You're my favourite reader out of all on the Tumblr prediction community. I really wish if u can do a reading on what true luv means to BTS members or in other words how do they define luv.

OHHH this one seems so interesting of course I can do it love! Let us see what the cards have to say (I lowkey want to expose brat JK once again)

Also OMG that's so sweet thank you for supporting my work and loving it!!!

Disclaimer: This reading is based on my experience and knowledge of astrology, it is not meant to be the absolute truth, as BTS are real people, and tarot can only capture so much about multidimensional humans that have had past experiences and cultural approaches amongst other things, it does not have to resonate with you since this is in no way related to anyone reading it (unless you are a member of BTS in which case, get out of here lol ) This is just for entertainment purposes.

A/N: the topic is what is love for each member, so not necessarily will we be talking about romantic love on this one. It does not include lovce language necessarily either.

Seokjin

Okay, so I'll be mixing the outcomes of both oracles and tarot for this to make more sense as a whole reading. Seems like to Jin, relationships have always been fitted with some type of imbalance, whether it be aloof partners or him not being able to give as much as his partners have needed (the lovers rx) so for him, love is giving relationships a chance, going into it knowing that the relationship will need work. Inherently romantic, for him, love is being able to take the next step and commit fully, provide happiness and a sense of stability (10oC) there's also a lot of honesty involved in his perception of love, having open communication, settle things beforehand, and being able to stay true to the promises (KingoS)

Yoongi

As usual, Yoongi's readings are always explosive and there's a lot to unpack, this seems too intimate so I'll try to keep it light. My heart goes out to this man, he has healed and come a long way. So to him, love has always been about denial, about being unable to learn from past mistakes even when he sees them approaching at a fast pace (Judgemennt rx) which means that love means learning to forgive, release the past and being able to just experience more love in the present. We know Yoongi to be the type to defy status quo and whatnot but when it comes to love, he's very textbook-like in his loving, there's a longing for home, a longing for a soul more than a person and a need for spiritual love that runs so deep, this man wants a traditional love story and he might give bratty JK a run for his money on the one and only topic, he just doesn't show it as much (probably cause he has a lot of bagagge to works through but that's a whole other topic) (the hierophant). To him, love is knowing when the feelings have changed, when love has ran out and it's time to wlak away. (KnightoC rx)

Hoseok

Okay, listen, to each their own, and I personally feel Hobi on so many levels, he doesn't really have a solid definition of love, it seems like he doesn't really have it consolidated inside his head as something he's actively searching for (romantic love at least) so bear with me on this one. For one part, we've got how flirting and quick stuff is his type of thing, like some type of grounding experiences that he holds close to his heart, even tho there is not much depth to them, he just- he knows what he's got and is able to work with it real good. Cute enough, brotherly love is VERY present on the cards, he values more highly the connection he has with the members as signs of protection, loyalty, safety, and trust (KingoP) . He's very much aware that he's got things to work on before he even so much as begins to think about love as some more important part of his life (QoW rx) nonetheless, if he were to describe love in his terms, freedom would play a big part of it, which makes sense given the flirty card that came up in the beginning (PoW)

Namjoon

I am so ready to read for this guy. And I knew I had a reason to be so excited, we've got all major arcana and a need to include him to a wall of shame what's up with these men trying to battle JK. Seems like Joon has had to make adjustments in regards of his love life, which starts adaptability as a must for him in regards of what love means, which unfortunately not many of his relationships have had enough of for him to really feel like it was the love he defines as (the tower rx) Patience and diligence is a big thing on his definition of love, being able to venture and have doors opening for him, having people be patient with him as he slowly but surely gets it inside his head that he is deserving of the love he's being given (temperance) Listen- there's a soulmate card here, some part of him has come to believe that there's really a soul plan for his love life, one that apparently he's beginning to remember and search for, one that he believes with love he will feel complete. (the world)

Jimin

My sweet little Libra man. I have a rough idea of how this reading will go but let us see. Okay, so it looks like Jimin is one hell of a man that has come a long way in terms of his definition of love. He's been kind of letting go of his own precepts on the matter and has begun to trust where he's led in the matter, although seems like this growth has been nothing short on painful and from past experiences (6oS) He's obviously got a lot more to learn and we can't really assure that the next lessons won't be painful but as he is right now, he's come to absolutely treasure the good and sweet moments he's got with the people he cares, as short as they are (the hermit rx) Of course we couldn't miss on him being a truly romantic and very idealistic on the matter in true Libra fashion and we love that for him, especially when all of this is paired up with being able to free himself and take back control of the way that he himself wants to define love as in his life.

Taehyung

Oh god, I'm scared for this one. There is... a lot to unpack here, as in- when it comes to defining love, Tae has his own particular way of doing so. Then again, there seems to be a lot of traditional intakes on his definition of love, commitment being the first and foremost of them, being so sure about yourself that you want to take the next step in a relationship, that is mainly what love means to him (10oC) Even more os to an extent of integrating as one, finishing each other sentences type of way, may I even point out a friends to lovers type of thing. Yeah this man's definition of love is family, whether it is love within the members and himself, he values so much the way that they feel like family, in romantic terms, it would be his s/o being the one to bear his children (the empress) this idea of love he has also seemed very much rooted on himself, and it seems to me like its something that he refuses to let go of, even if he would have to fight for it or move mountains in order to get it (death rx)

Jungkook

WE'RE HERE. The star of the show, istg Jeon Jungkook if you make me look like a clown on this one I'll fight you. For a second there the cards refused to come out until they exploded. OKAY let's see. We've also got different types of love on this one. For one part, we've got his insight on romantic love, which to him, it's about being separated yet staying optimistic about it, while knowing there's a higher power behind the love story he longs for. Somehow he has yet to work on the part where he truly feels deserving of said love journey, also taking each new opportunity that he has within reach to prove to himself that he's worthy of the love he dreams about (aceoP) And yep it does follow the same line, there's a lot of daydreaming involved in his definition of love, of being faced with a lot of choices and a search of purpose that he has become to nurture more as of lately (7oC) On the other hand, his definition of love also includes a lot of motherly and fatherly love, along with brotherly love, seeing it as something more palpable and closer to him than what he feels romantic love is. A deep love that gets him through life. (the emperor)

Decks Used: The Romance Angels Oracle, The Starseed Oracle, The Prisma Visions Tarot

[gg-astrology]

hiii!! i'm that hannah montana but seokjin agenda anon, tell hi to your friend!! the lvl of my satisfaction is impossible to describe, thank you for your service. and yes, you've fulfilled my request!! i really appreciate your efforts, it was on point!! can i request more bangtan things?? only if it's alright with you :| can you do the same ranking for them from ' i'm rich 3$, wine and dine me' to 'i have a rolled blanket as my pillow' *cough* jk *cough*. from that to a simpler lifestyle? thk!

Hey there!! 💕❤️💕 Welcome back!!! 💕❤️💕💕❤️💕 slkskjnsdkjns she saw this and im really glad u like it!! 💕❤️💕💕❤️💕 

U can! 💕❤️💕Me and my friend really like your questions because it’s very thoughtful and fun!! 💕❤️💕 

EDIT: My friend said they interpreted this question differently into ‘how complex vs simple’ their lifestyle is and!!!!!!!!!! maybe we’ll edit and add it in anon if u send in another ask I’ll ask my friend if they want to answer?? I’m sorry!!!!! My 2nd house sun immediately: Wealth  

Please send us more questions, but maybe not this one bc it’s about their personal lifestyle/how they live (+ not their personalities or what they’ve shown us) and it may be treading on 1. making assumptions about their personal life in which we’re in no authoritative position to commentate on  

2. we can obviously talk about how we view them and write commentaries on how we feel/what we think, but there’s also a line where we have to acknowledge people might see us as credible information/authority in our own rights when it’s out in public/shared to an audience 

3. what they’ve shown us clear boundaries between public figures and their audience might be wiser 

4. acknowledging our position of power + influence to the community rather than ignoring the fact that our words have sway will help us in the long-run by making conscious, thoughtful choices on what we could give/bring to the fan/outside community as well. 

I hope this makes sense?? 💕❤️💕 I hope it’s ok if I mulled it over last night and thought I might not – it might not be the best idea to talk about it/put it out there?? 

Please don’t feel bad at all!! 💕❤️💕I really love your questions and I actually wrote as I tried to figure out how to do this (literally just disclaimers before I realized oh maybe there’s no way to do this properly and I shouldn’t??) – I don’t want you to get out of this ask empty-handed, so if it makes it any better – I’ll publish my working through below the read more and you might see what I was working out as I try to answer your question?? 💕❤️💕 

Long commentary on BTS privilege, social inequality + wealth disparities in the real world (disclaimer for this ask?)  +  Working Outs and Why It Didn’t Work ⬇️

Note: From here on below is me writing my thoughts down as I tried to answer the ask, I hope that – even though I couldn’t answer your question – this is a good answer in other regards either way? Hopefully? 

Just a disclaimer note on BTS and this topic as well: In my head I’m immediately going into commentary about social inequality, wealth disparity and how poverty + classism exists in real life. 

Just a quick tangent, but real people suffer from this issue. Our society have consequences when it comes to wealth inequality + the ability to afford basic human amenities (healthcare, living/housing, food, education, transportation, disabilities etc.) 

Even when they’re relatable, BTS are billionaires who knows their position is privileged. Lets - make that clear for a second.  

They still do their best in variety shows where they have to compete/entertain the audience. What I’m trying to say is. I’d rather not ignore/make note that there’s a difference between being privileged, being aware of these issues and still preferring simpler lifestyles for themselves. Than being ignorant and completely insensitive/unaffected from the matter. They’re still privileged, let’s make that clear. And thus, as relatable as they are to the public/audience, they benefit from the social/economical/political power they have given by those around them (their audience, accessibility medias and production).  

In the context that is related (i.e. army joking that BTS fights over ramen) – BTS have never once shown that they’re unaware of their wealth + privilege, even it was a joke – the thing that is missing is the context –  they’re usually seen competing in BTS run/gayo, but it’s produced to let them showcase their dynamic and chemistry  - the prize (commodities/money) was never actually the main focus. 

A highly competitive game with members who know each other well - is actually what these shows are about. 

BTS doesn’t glorify their own wealth, nor have they acted as if they are poor in order to gain relatability or sympathy from the audience/masses (looking at armis 💜 who does this. delete armi 💜) 

It’s a part of why they have fans and why people like them. They’re able to sell products + contribute to relief/charity organizations and advocate campaigns.  Whilst they are in position of privilege compared to others - they’ve never not acknowledged that they could afford to do so for reasonable personal requests (i.e. safety on flights and in airports, security in their home, equipments to perform/produce with, reaching out to audiences that usually never has the opportunity to connect with them despite liking them for a long time, etc.)

I think it’s just important to note - for those who are armys and those who are looking at it from the outside - that this is what we see and why we’re talking about this. 

I just want us to acknowledge that they’re privileged and their lifestyle choices are personal, I think that’s what I’m doing here. 

So, commentary on social inequality of the world we all live in + BTS privilege in all this/disparities. check.

This is going to be disgustingly generalized to an incredible amount because we don’t have houses – to be completely honest, within the context of the question having houses is exactly what we need for these types of answers. 

From a technical stand-point, not having houses when we’re talking about specific contexts within a person’s life (basically why we have so many houses - for different contexts) – will make this reading terribly vague and misleading as well. 

Actually, should we do this at all.. because simply saying oh Taurus/Libra placements would want materialistic things to show x, y, z is incredibly misgiving and is like a blanket statement. Without houses in question, there’s no specification on what it is used for or what kind, or what type of actions/manifestations these signs are going to have in order to express themselves.  

Planets in signs can only do so much to talk about the energy that is being produced – placing them in houses and context, gives them manifestation that doesn’t simply exist in a vacuum by itself.

All placements in a chart make up a cohesive picture of what it is used for, when and where. With only the how/why (placements) — the best I can probably do to answer the question is just explain how it could possibly manifest and why/what reasoning it may have to express itself that way.

While that is something I could? probably talk about. It… just doesn’t answer the question in a way that’s satisfying. This question is really good… and there’s a way to get there and give it the answer it wants. But.. with what we have, it’s a disservice to answer half-right and do a poor job overall, than to actually give the full answer.

Hnnnfghfnhgn there’s also.. some disclaimers on personal life for idols/public figures and how this might.. be almost assuming or intruding on that territory? From a glance it isn’t like it’s not something they’ve not shown us publicly or told us about. But they also didn’t advertise it, and what they do with their personal life/lifestyle– is that something we (as fan) are in anyway, shape or form, capable or have any voice to talk about as if we know what they’re doing? Does that? make sense? 

Like, intruding as in - do we have any authority to tell them to get a pillow or stop drinking wine or something like that. Speculate, on what restaurant they go to/how $$$ it is, or does things that are privileged, things that aren’t going to han river to bike, etc. Can we really pick and choose certain choices they choose to do with their lifestyle, while being completely separated from reality of their other?

Idk.. this is getting complicated.. but maybe sticking to things they are proud of and does talk about openly/happily in their public and professional persona might be better… considering that they should have? a modicum of personal life back to themselves? we could at least do that and choose to respect them right… thats? hm. what’s right.

Fine wine and dine, lavish restaurants and other personal choices on their expenses and love for/lifestyle… maybe.. its for the best if we leave it to their own authority and discretion, over their own private/personal life and what they choose to share with people they know/care for/love. 

I think the end all of it might just be: can I imagine them coming to say to us “army, you know how I am right? I’m like this in my personal lifestyle/choice” – and of what they could say, I don’t think that’s something they may be willing to share without their explicit consent, nor can I imagine it right now if it’s about messy habits or a flaw they may have. So hm. 

The question addresses simpler lifestyle too – we don’t have authority to commentate on JK’s pillow choices, but being exposed like that suddenly might not be something he’s entirely comfortable with or would advertise to others as well? Not to mention, they all seem to not advertise anything that is outrageously privileged that would smack anyone in the face – they’re pretty sensitive to keeping things personal, private, under-wraps. Even when they choose to eat at a well-known restaurant, it’s not in bad-taste or done frivolously. In a way, they all tend to keep a simpler lifestyle about them to not let their wealth + privilege get in the way of their work + connecting to us, focusing solely on what their skills are + performance and music. 

Simply going by that.. is it wise to talk about something we might just choose to show decency/a modicum of respect for the idol’s privacy maybe.. uhhdfjgnn i!!!!!!!!! there’s thoughts and feelings and im just trying to let it out so it makes sense and then i can navigate between it and see what i can do/the right way to talk about it (if it exists)!!

God.. I guess there’s.. no way I can possibly do this?? Considering if I think about it from all sides – I can’t approach it technically, without houses. I literally can’t answer this question, it isn’t about choice because answering this question is directly asking about the houses. So I literally can’t answer correctly. I also can’t – or well, I don’t think the moral issue is ok here when I think further on it. Consequences are inevitable with all posts/production, but optimizing it so that it affects people positively and minimize damage to others is always something to check through. This may not be a good idea, just to do. So maybe not. 

Hhndndhnndf ok,,, gotta,,, write something for the introduction so it makes sense.

Note: I did go through this, edit and write some additional paragraphs to make it make sense. But I hope this? gives you insight or some thoughts to my working process and what I consider/go through when I make these posts as well? Thank u for ur time, I hope it isn’t too disappointing ;;  let me know what u think/how u feel anon I’m sorry I couldn’t do this question but please let me know if you’re ok or not!!!! 💕❤️💕💕❤️💕

[bts-svt-mx]

Maid For You (Part 8) - Taehyung x Reader (M)

Author: bts-svt-mx

Taehyung x Reader

Rating: Fluff, angst, Smut

Tags: Enemies to Lovers AU, smut (future chapters), Idol! Taehyung, Taehyung x Reader, Jungkook x Reader, Hoseok, mentions of other members, sexual tension, mentions of alcohol abuse, mentions of partying

Chapters: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 (M), 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 (m), 11, 12, 13 (m)

Word Count: 5,700

Description: Wanting to get out of your parents house and experience what the world had to offer is way more expensive than people tell you it will be. So when your glamorous “manager to the stars” cousin Hoseok hooks you up with a job as the live-in maid for a hillside, massive mansion, you feel as though life might actually be looking up. That is until the mansion’s absentee, high profile celebrity owner surprises you by moving back in. Leaving you to wonder if this mansion is big enough for both you and his huge ego.

Chapter 8: 

The look of bewilderment on Taehyung’s face as the elevator doors to the first level of the mansion opened was honestly somewhat laughable. His apprehension was still quite apparent, but you sensed that he wasn’t going to try to run away. 

And if he tried to, you were fully prepared to grab onto the sleeve of his hoodie and yank him back.

Walking out of the elevator with Taehyung in tow, you head in the direction of the impressive laundry room to put both of your baskets in before giving him the rest of the tour.

Down here, each room is more detailed than the last, as the first floor of the house was mostly for entertainment purposes and resembled more of an adult Boomers than an actual house. 

Ok maybe you were exaggerating on the amusement park thing, but the first level of the house did come equipped with an indoor basketball court, a movie theater, an indoor and outdoor pool, a small bowling alley and game room, a garage housing Taehyung’s 5 cars, and of course his own personal recording studio among many other huge pieces of art, sitting areas, televisions, and more. The house seemed to have no end.

Surprisingly, you didn’t get to show Taehyung much of the recording studio. When you both walked towards the sleek glass doors, he would barely even look in its direction while you went inside and searched the room for any mess. Why would he, a famous pop star known to help produce his own music, brush off a state of the art recording studio in his own home?

You were about to ask him how he’s never come down here to use it, but advised yourself against it when he didn’t give it so much as a fleeting glance or make any comment about it like he had been doing in amazement of some of the other rooms.

Though he was definitely opening up to you, some of Taehyung’s true feelings would just have to stay a mystery. At least until he deemed it the right time to tell you.

Speaking of...

“But that still doesn’t explain why you went looking for it in the middle of a party.” You say, walking now a little bit closer to Taehyung than you were before into one of the smaller hallways that branched off of the garage towards an extension of the house. You had somehow gotten to the topic of Taehyung’s Grandmother’s rooster that you had saved last night in the midst of your easy going conversation you’ve had since you first started giving him the tour.

Honestly, you hadn’t expected him to bring it up willingly so soon, but here you were, listening to him provide you with some sort of sober explanation for the events of last night.

“I got bored of the people I was with so I decided to drink. And then drink more. And then more after that too.” He sighs and winces in pain like his head hurt just from thinking about alcohol. “I had danced for a while but then.. Where does this door lead to?” Taehyung says as he yanks the glass door open in front of him before you can get a word in to tell him it’s the indoor pool room and sauna. 

Well, it was actually more like a full on spa if you were being honest. Complete with a large stone fish sculpture and everything.

His words echo as he walks into the through the spacious room, exploring the beautiful rock and tile work around the jacuzzi and pool. The walls were covered in a pebbled cement to keep the steam to a minimum and cool the room that easily would have gotten way too hot with the heated water.

Taehyung drops down to lay his long body out on one of the many lounge chairs and settles in a comfortable pose while you opted to just, well, stand there. You two really didn’t need to take another break when you were so close to being done looking through the house. 

Instead of asking him to get up again, you were actually kind of speechless at his pose. Were his legs always that long or did he just have a growth spurt? Damn, imagine what he would look like shirtless with just his swim trunks on… Wow, was it just you or was it heating up in here?

“Ahhh,” He sighs, stretching his arms above his head, definitely not helping you with your imagination at all. “Now this is my kind of place. Why didn’t you tell me this was here earlier Y/N? Trying to keep it all to yourself?” He raises his eyebrows suggestively and laughs. If you could slap yourself to bring you out of your daze, you would, but that would definitely give you away to the man looking at you through his lashes in his lounging position.

You shrug your shoulders and give a tip lipped smile in reply trying to hide the fact that had just been imagining him with his shirt off. “Um- Let’s move onto the next room, it’s getting a little stuffy in here,” Turning on your heel, you don’t even wait for him to get up before heading towards the door.

Taehyung sighs in disappointment of having to get up so soon, but makes a mental note that he’s going to have to spend way more time here. After exploring all the room has to offer and making sure there’s no mess from party goers, he follows you back out of the room. Taehyung closes the door behind him and gestures for you to lead the way once again.

“You were saying, Taehyung?” You implore, hopefully getting his mind back on track to his point of view from last night. There were so many things you wanted to know about what was going on in his mind before he had found you on the dance floor.

“What?” He questions from beside you, expression slightly puzzled.

Unfortunately, you can’t control your eye roll at his forgetfulness. “The rooster, Tae,”

“Oh! Yeah.. Something made me not want to dance anymore so I went to the kitchen to get some water and that’s when I noticed it wasn’t in its place,” He continues on with his story as you both round the corner to the big glass wall of the first floor much like the big glass wall on the second story with the balcony, but this one opened up to the massive backyard.

Pulling open the door, you both pop out on the ground level of the backyard of the mansion, the glistening outdoor pool in front of you reflecting the late afternoon sun. “I was in a panic. I looked around the room and realized I didn’t know anyone. Everywhere I looked was an unfamiliar face. Ew, god what is that?” Taehyung leans over the side of the pool to fish out what looks like a pair of men’s underwear from the water. His face twists in disgust as he tries to find a place to dispose of it. You point to where the trash can is underneath the outdoor bar, Taehyung understanding and quickly running over to throw it in there.

He makes his way back over to you where you are cleaning up some red solo cups from around the fire pit. “The worst part is, at that moment I knew that every single one of these people were at that party just because they wanted something from me. A job, a hookup, connections, money, power, you name it..”

As you pick up the last cup, Taehyung takes a seat on one of the lounge couches situated around the elaborate stone fire pit. You follow suit, opting to sit on your own chair instead of next to Taehyung on the large couch.

“I.. I didn’t know who else to go to.  Didn’t recognize or trust a single face until I saw you dancing with… dancing with him in the crowd.” His face contorts in a weird way at the mention of Jungkook. Even though Taehyung didn’t mention Jungkook’s name, his voice was still laced with clear anger. His calloused fingers pick up one of the lava rocks from the fire pit and fidgets with it. You hadn’t heard this tone of voice from him since before the party last night when he was still treating you terribly.

You think back to how he had separated your dancing partner away from you after barging through the crowd. He had barely even glanced at him.

“What’s wrong with Jungkook?” You question, trying to decipher why Taehyung’s demeanor changed to clear unhappiness with the mention of your latest hookup.  

“Well according to my label, nothing could ever be wrong with the ‘golden maknae’...” Taehyung pauses his fidgeting with the rock for a minute, looking up at you in your position across from him. The sudden eye contact startles you a bit but his next words come out softer. “Just know you could do better, Y/N,”

Was it just you or did Taehyung seem to be jealous of Jungkook? Was it because of you or for some other work related reason at his company? It was hard to tell, but from what you have seen of Jungkook yourself, he seemed like a pretty decent guy, and the rest of Hoseok’s friends seemed to like him too.

So what had happened between Taehyung and Jungkook to make Taehyung think so lowly of him?

Taehyung throws the lava rock back into the pit, signifying his thoughts of Jungkook were over and he finishes his story from last night, telling you that while he may have been slightly tipsy, he was thankful for your presence and help in his time of need. Well, not in so many words but that was the gist of what he was trying to tell you, you assumed. Conveniently though, he leaves out any type of mention to the almost kiss you both shared, and truthfully, you were relieved he didn’t try to bring it up again.

So you both sit there, conversation dying down for the first time since you started the tour. Enjoying the afternoon sun and the great view of the city below the hill Taehyung’s mansion sat perched upon.

Normally you would have been self conscious about not speaking while sitting across from Taehyung, but the silence was comfortable after talking almost nonstop with him all day. The only noise you could hear between the two of you was the distant sound of the waterfall coming from the pool and the sweet twittering of some birds in the bird bath that sat in the garden.

For a late September afternoon, the weather was actually quite nice. With the cool breeze bearable because of the warm sun rays shining above you. Not to mention the breathtaking view in front of you. The house behind you truly was a masterpiece, but this view of the city might just be better. So many people just living their normal everyday lives. So many strangers with their own stories, most you would never get the chance to be a part of.

Looking out as the sun finally sank to the horizon, you realized just how big this world was and just how many opportunities waited for you. A nice reminder of why you had left your parent’s home in the first place.

The boy next to you stared out into the world just like you, but did he view it the same way you did? When Taehyung looked out into the twilight, did he too see the freedom you saw? Or did he feel trapped, confined to his pedestal at the top of the hill, so close to the nameless people in the city below him, yet so far away?

“You shouldn’t be ashamed of what you’ve created here,” Your thoughts manifest into a confession of your own. The boy in question’s head turns to you at your words. So riddled with an unknown emotion that it almost stops you from continuing.

“Sure, majority of this house is filled with frivolous things that no normal person would actually need, but you’ve earned it Taehyung... All of it,” Your memory flashes with the many achievements you’ve seen him reach throughout your time being his fan. Though you hadn’t known him personally back then, you had always known his talents in singing and performing were worthy of the praise in which he was given by the public. 

Now that you were actually getting to see the inner workings of his beautiful, complicated mind, you could see that this boy, though maybe a little bit lost, was deserving of a life equally as beautiful as he was inside.

“You are talented, driven, self-made, and an inspiration to so many people,” You force yourself to continue even though Taehyung’s gaze is still intimidating to you, especially now that you are expressing your view of him to his face. “You deserve to enjoy yourself. You deserve a way to celebrate all you have accomplished through your own hard work,”  

His face was now gradually being lit up by the outdoor lighting system triggered by the sun’s decent. The last light next to him turning on causing a twinkle to appear in the dark irises of his eyes. The only sound was the crickets beginning to chirp into the night air.

His attention was fully on you and yours on him, just like you wanted. Because for some reason you needed him to know. And you needed him to understand. “You deserve a home, Taehyung,”

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The rest of the tour of the house is successful, and throughout the house there isn’t really any more messes except for a few more red cups here and there. Leading you to believe that only maybe 20 or so people had found their way downstairs and outside during the party. Which is pretty good considering the fiasco of last weekend’s party.

Ew. The memory of what you had to clean up after that mess sends a shiver down your spine.

“So I guess we’re all done down here! Let’s use the main staircase to get back up this time, I don’t feel like standing in a death trap with you trying to break it again,” You suggest to the boy next to you to avoid having to ride in the elevator again.

Taehyung laughs at your suggestion but follows you in the direction of the stairs anyway. It takes you a minute to get there but eventually you arrive at the focal point of the house, the giant marble staircase, and start your ascent to the main floor.

“After cleaning up today, I don’t think I could stand to have another party at my house for at least a year. Maybe even longer.” Taehyung chuckles to himself.

Wait- Are your ears failing you? Did he actually just say that?

“If there’s anything I’ve learned from today,” He continues. “It’s that it’s much more fun to trash someone else’s place than to have others trash yours,”

Suddenly you hold your arm out in front of Taehyung, stopping him from going any further up the marble staircase, almost making him trip, as you scrunch your face in a display of overwhelming emotion, making weeping noises and covering your eyes with your palms.

Taehyung’s hands are immediately on your forearm, offering you steady support so you don’t fall on your face on the stairs.  “Y/N? Are you ok?” His expression dropping from amusement to worry at your random outburst, eyes darting across your covered face trying to figure out what’s wrong with you. Did you stub your toe? Did he say something wrong? His eyes were on you the whole entire time, what could have happened to you?

“I’m just-” You start, words coming out like a weird cough. Taehyung gently takes your hands away from your face to reveal you with no tears and a smile fighting its way onto your features.

You took in Taehyung’s worried and quite confused expression in front of you. Oh his face was so cute right now! He looked like a little lost puppy! You couldn’t take it anymore, giggles bursting out of you. “So happy to hear you say I won’t have to clean up anymore of these huge messes! So happy I could cry!” 

“Oh my god,” Taehyung groans immediately, dropping your arms from his light hold but you can tell he’s trying not to laugh until he decides fuck it and laughs with you. “Ah so now you’ve got jokes. I didn’t know you were this funny, Y/n,”

Your grin doesn’t fade as the two of you continue your trek up the large staircase. “Well that’s because you never took the chance to get to know me,”

It’s true. Throughout the many useless conversations you had with Taehyung prior to last night, the only exchanges you two partook in were strictly boss to employee. Snarkily ordering you to do this or that, never thanking you or really ever even acknowledging you as a real person.

You were glad you were past that now. But Taehyung would still have to redeem himself from initially being a giant douchebag to you. Maybe you could convince him to buy you a new car to make up for his actions. Ooh! Or maybe that really expensive perfume you’ve been wanting!

That would have to wait though. Ultimately you decided to keep your mouth shut on those requests and save that ammo for a later date if he starts acting up again.

“Yeah I apologize for that. I just assumed you were…” His words trail off as if he didn’t want you to know what he was thinking.

“Assumed I was what?” You implore, trying to skip some steps in front of you to catch up to him. You couldn’t see his face, just his shoulders and the back of his head. Since his legs were longer, he was already getting to the top of the staircase. Meanwhile, you were out of breath and still a couple of steps away.

He shakes his head, mentally erasing the misguided, old image he had of you in his brain and turns to watch you take the last few steps up. “It’s not important. I was wrong to judge you so quickly and I- I’m sorry,”

Finally, you reach the top step, coming up to stand right in front of Taehyung.

“So is this officially a truce then?” You question. Your words hang in the air for a moment as Taehyung smirks down at you, a glint in his eyes.

“A truce? I didn’t even know we were at war,” His voice is low and teasing once more. The side eye that you had perfected in the past few months of working for him sneaks it’s way onto your face.

Hah. At war was the perfect label for what your relationship had started out as. Each little interaction with each other was a battle, both of you keeping tabs on who won each one. At who could get the last word out, stumping the other before one of you eventually gave up and stalked away in anger or distaste.

But that feeling was completely gone now. It had truly felt like you two broke new ground in the past day. And though you could sense Taehyung feels the same way, you needed reassurance that he was on the same page as you as well. “Oh shut up, you know what I mean,”

At your words, Taehyung smiles a true smile. One that reaches his eyes. One that you can feel the sincerity of. So you smile back too.

“Yes,” He says matter of factly and holds his slender hand out between the two of you. “Truce,”

His hand was once again in yours after maybe only an hour or two since the last time it had found its way there in the kitchen before you had started your house warming tour. There was a noticeable difference in size as his massive hand basically enveloped yours entirely but it didn’t feel out of place there. His hand was warm and his mahogany eyes that were trained on you were even warmer.

‘There’s a great guy underneath that front he puts on for everyone’ Hoseok had claimed to you over the phone the day you first met Taehyung. At the time you couldn’t imagine him to be any more than an entitled, self-absorbed, dick but now the affection your cousin had for the boy in front of you had finally made sense. Guess that means you could finally trust Hobi on his friend choices again.

You couldn’t get Hobi’s words out of your head as you admired the man in front of you. His hair was that stupid lemonade pink and yellow color combo complete with that big headband, and he was dressed in those dumb Gucci sweats with no makeup on. Absolutely no trace of an award winning mega huge pop star to be found, just Taehyung being fully himself.  

Not just without makeup. No, it was more than that. 

He just seemed open. And... Free. Today he had shown himself as he truthfully was to you, and you wondered just how many people got to see this side of him. And how did you get so lucky to be one of those people?  

“Ahem,” A low voice erupts from the foyer in front of you, the sudden voice sends a shock of fear through you as you whip your head in the direction of the unknown presence. At the sight of the tall, handsome man stood at the front door, you turn back to Taehyung who’s eyes were still on you, almost bumping his nose with yours due to the proximity of his face.

When did you get so close to him? You were practically on top of him! 

Immediately you drop his hand and back up to a safe, platonic distance away. You didn’t realize how close the two of you had been standing at the top of the stairs. Had you subconsciously been pulled towards him? Because you definitely don’t remember stepping towards him voluntarily. Taehyung hadn’t seemed to mind, but to the producer it might have seemed like he was interrupting something… more than what it actually was.

Namjoon stood authoritatively, his demeanor much different than to how he was last night. You could still picture him upside down on the keg stand, a crowd around him cheering him on. Actually, you didn’t have to imagine it since you were pretty sure you had an actual physical picture of it on your phone.

If it weren’t for the stern look on his face, you would have laughed at the image in your brain, but there was nothing but tension in the air as the three of you stood silent in the large foyer.

“Taehyung,” He straightened his coat, eyes trained on the boy who was still only looking at you. “We need to talk,”

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[loulougoingsolo]

Ice, shadows and bright spots

I’m a simple being with a child-like curiosity to just about everything, and like the proper nerd I am, I am absolutely fascinated by chemistry. Liquid nitrogen is one of the many things I’ve always wanted to get my hands on, but it’s probably for the best that I’ve never succeeded in acquiring it. Even if you could theoretically use it for cool smoke effects or making ice-cream, I have seen Terminator 2, and let’s just say, I’d most likely manage to turn myself into a slushie.

Today’s GMM doesn’t serve us slushies, nor do they cause biohazards by freezing mercury robots, but liquid nitrogen is very much involved, as the show returns to the series of destroying things in reverse, with a Frozen themed episode. Let’s get smashing!

Whoever guesses what is being destroyed the fastest, scores as many points as there are seconds left (out of total 10 seconds) in the timer, and for special Frozen related items, you get an extra point. The winner gets to punch the other on the shoulder in a friedly manor, in reverse and slow motion. The previous takes on this game have led to a near fight and a rather hilarious act of rebellion from Rhett, so it’ll be interesting to see how things go this time (we’re all looking at you, Link).

Prop-master “Mad Dog” Lucas, and art-director “Mad Dog” Pasley are in charge of destroying stuff today - but after yesterday, I’m not sure if it’s too soon to welcome them with a bark? (Link sounds like a bigger dog when he barks...I’m thinking a boxer, or a rotweiller...) The first round is over in a split second, when Link manages to guess the smashed item faster than you can say meatball. Meatballs appear to turn into deadly cannon balls when frozen, and Lucas manages to look like a mob contract killer while smashing the spaghetti.

I feel pretty proud of myself after being able to recognize a shattered carrot before Rhett and Link did, but I assume it’s much easier to do while not in competitive mode. I wonder how many carrots they had to smash before this perfect shot? Rhett takes the points for this round, and gets an extra point for a Frozen item (I hope the snowman has extra carrots on hand).

Lucas clearly isn’t the only one today with a killer focus: Rhett guesses the next item before the clip even has time to start. The only copy of the BTS for Rhett’s ambient massage song music video. What a shame that is no more (I know they’re kidding, but they should really make a music video and an extended version for that.)

Apparently, if you smash a frozen rubber ducky with a shovel, the shards look a lot like potato chips. Link is so happy for beating Rhett in this round, even though he only gets two points. But now that he is back in the game, Rhett must feel a little threatened, and finds it necessary to agree upon the rules for the slow-mo punch beforehand to avoid an argument. A wise decision, I’d say, although the arguments have been entertaining to watch. But I bet Rhett wasn’t the only one saying awww, at what Link said:

“We don’t have to like each other all the time, because we love each other.”

That IS sweet. Why do I feel this episode was filmed after yesterday’s video?

Where can you get your hands on a treasure chest that looks just like something from a video game? I was half convinced the gemstones were animated, but that can’t be. I love how beautifully these clips are filmed, and I kinda want a chest of colourful gems for myself now - not to smash, but to stare at. I personally think that Pasley has every right to look pleased with himself for creating such a pretty video, but I love how Rhett and Link critique each smash. Next time, they should have score cards like in a skating competition.

Who knew rubber bands would look this awesome when hacked with an axe (while frozen)? I know this wasn’t a Frozen item, but Rhett should get bonus points for delivering his answer with such musical talent. Not that he needs any bonus points - Link basically has zero chance of winning at this point. But can you see the wood?

I saw pieces of continents flying in the next clip, and I thought this was so easy to guess, but somehow, Link answered wrong. A  Star Wars droid? I know the Mythical crew has zero respect for cool items, but even they wouldn’t kill a droid, surely. And there were all those continents!

I don’t have to go through all the remaining rounds to say that everyone was rooting for Link to win this, even Rhett, who complimented Link’s adorably apologetic guess of a pumpkin, and even made a deal which gave Link a chance in the last round. But Rhett won, and he got to direct the slow-mo punch. And honestly, it was pretty perfect. I love these dorks.

In More, Rhett and Link are guessing if anyone is on the stock photos they are shown, or not. Instead of following the game, I greatly enjoyed the conversation about Zack’s photoediting skills. I hope Link gets some bright spots to his life, and if Zack doesn’t send him the random heartwarming greeting cards he asks for, someone should. (It might be a fun fandom project, but then he’d get buried in heartwarming greeting cards, and making them appear randomly would be difficult, considering how many Mythical Beasts there are...) But Link deserves all the bright spots he wants, and some. Rhett and Link are the bright spots in my life, after all. (And if Rhett is happy with some extra shadows, I support them, too. What is light without shadows, anyways? There needs to be a little bit of both.)

I have to say, Rhett’s description of the McLaughlin family way of accepting gifts reminds me of my mom. I love her, but she is also my worst critic, and somehow, with pretty much every piece of art I make and show her, she finds something to say, like “there’s something funny about the way this hand is”, or “so this IS a deer? I wasn’t sure.” She is pretty hard to please sometimes - but at least she hasn’t thrown away anything I’ve given her - not even the stuff I asked her to get rid of. But you know, moms and daughters.

I’m happy that Link got to give Rhett his own love lick at the end, even if Rhett didn’t really pay much attention to Link while explaining Zack that he should add path removal and adding shadows to his resumé as special skills. And because I have no sense of shame at this point in my life, I just had to go and see what I could do to add some shadows and bright spots to this final screenshot of mine. I’m not going to add this to my resumé. This is all just for me  - like the little happy dance Pasley did after a successful smash in the main episode.